#Never growing up for fear of living?
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Watched Peter Pan (2003) and cried so hard
#Did you know I was obsessed with Peter Pan as a child?#I didn't#I vaguely remember watching the Disney sequel with Wendy's granddaughter because we had it on VHS#And I think the first dream I ever remembered was about Peter Pan#But other than that I didn't think about him ever#But according to my Mum I was absolutely obsessed#And tbh an island full of boys going on adventures?#Never growing up for fear of living?#Peter is me I am Peter#(I would absolutely refuse to be the lost boy's mother though)#(I am here to BE a boy not to babysit one)#I gotta read the novel
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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
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Okay so maybe the wrinkly split head devil isn't the Aging devil itself, since it being called aging definitelly feels like a mistranslation and and public safety wanting to erase old age by sacrificing the younger generation fits the point the chapter is trying to get across much nicer than if the devil was aging itself (+ if you think about it for 2 seconds erasing aging as a whole is a terrible fucking idea since no one will be able to grow anything anymore and people will be stuck as babies and kids forever whereas erasing old age should just make people not age past adulthood and probably cause people who are already elderly to just dissapear on the spot)
But that doesn't mean i'm keeping Cherryboy the exact same because if old age specifically is enough to achieve primal fear level then aging as a whole has gotta be one too. So hooray! someone's getting a slight revamp in the future :)
#i'm not changing his storyline in part one nor his design but his overall backstory will change slightly#but in his main design he is now the Aging fiend instead of straight up devil. i'll definitelly cook up a full devil design for him later#and you know him being a primal fear is fun because i had this idea that even after dying Cherry retains a sliver of his memories#from past iterations. if he is that strong of a devil then he can probably do that#and i can use this as an excuse to why i never made designs for him in hell :) i've got some fun ideas brewing#basic idea so far is that Cherry has a fascination with watching life (basically aging and its effects on living beings) even tho he has#hardly any attachment to life itself. dying is just a part of it same as growing old and such he doesn't feel anything when it happens#to other people and also himself#but being an enormously powerful devil in hell he can only watch this dance of life and death from afar as an outside observer#so after god knows how long he grows tired of sitting there in hell and kills himself to be reborn on earth#and immediatelly goes out of his way to become a fiend. severely weakening his strenght but bringing him closer to the lesser beings#by doing so. and now he can observe life from upclose and interact with the other creatures roaming around. which is something he finds#immense enjoyment in#think like a god that roleplays as a human every once in a while just because they're bored. and when they die they go back to godhood#so thats why all of Cherry's versions on earth are these dudes w animal skulls. little fiends#he can be strong and all-powerful when this life is over. and in hell he will look back at it quite fondly#csm#csm oc#chainsaw man#csm spoilers#csm part 2#Cherry#hyena ramblings
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slowly introducing you guysies to more and more of my ocs aka little beasts. and today you are getting Artemis (or Sora) :] she is also part of the Deadly Seven Sins crew like Kenix (Lust), Azrael (Envy), Aridam (Pride) and etc. amongst the seven, her sin is Sloth
remember when i mentioned in a post that Kenix has a daughter (not a biological one obviously)? yea this is her. this ice magical girl beast and creature who is so awfully :3 is the daughter of the mentally insane god of time (the twin gods since ken is right there but you get what i mean)
#I WILL EXPLAIN STUF ABOUT KENIX AND SORA LATER IT IS. INTERESTING TO ME#sora's sin is represented by her inner wish and desire to stay as a child forever. not wanting to change#being afraid of losing her colors losing her happy childhood losing her perfect world losing her everything.#when you're a child everything feels so great and colorful with your life being full of wonders! so why would she ever need to grow up#the fear of what is coming in the inevitable future. the fear that her child happiness will be taken away from her#the fear of having to live this dull and miserable life of an adult. the fear that with time her family and friends would be taken away.#so she becomes a (cursed) magical girl that lets her stay as a child and become her own little hero in her fantasy world!#fighting the evil! except there was no evil to begin with. the only evil in her world is the fear of growing that she refuses to confront#she could never confront it head-on. because of just how scared she is at the thought of growing up in any way#this little 12 year old girl has fears. but she is :3ing through it! still ends badly for her#yomo ocs?!#yomoart#ocs
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adventure time, baby, I'm going to keep it real with you: you had the perfect meta setup (a spinoff of a children's cartoon made for adults who grew up with said cartoon) for a story about two characters desperate to return to simpler times (fionna longing for the subconscious memory of a fantasy land where nothing is complex and she won't have to face the trials of young adulthood in her now-mundane world, simon longing to lose his mind again so he won't have to remember his grief) coming to realize that the "simpler times" they remember were never as straightforward as their idealized memories (fionna realizing that her black-and-white worldview was actually just deeply biased and ultimately harmful, simon realizing that ice king was just as miserable as simon himself and simply lacked the tools to parse his own emotions), the idealized past they want to return to was never real, and in order to move forward, they have to face the painful realities they've been trying to avoid, mature as people, and learn to see beauty and value in their own respective lives, even if they're not the lives they'd hoped for
and then that didn't happen. there was a perfect metaphor for the false allure of nostalgia using THE "whimsical at first glance/shockingly grim under the surface" children's cartoon RIGHT THERE. How Did You Fuck That Up
#deerchatter#adventure time spoilers#i liked this series a lot but i was SO hoping the plot was a setup for a message along the lines of like#hey we know growing up is hard and you may well be tuning back into adventure time to escape the horrors of now being an adult#but this show was never the digestible silly good time you remember and neither was your childhood#don't you remember the pain? you were sad back then too except it was worse because you had no emotional tools to help yourself through it#did things seem simpler? they weren't. you hurt people and made poor choices without realizing it. you were young and didn't know any better#but you know better now. you have a responsibility to grow and learn and make better choices. this is a GOOD thing.#like do you see my vision!!!! the meta layers!!!! the potential for a painful but necessary message about choosing to grow+change+LIVE#taking a kind-but-critical eye to our childhood dreams and learning from them and applying nuance and learning to value complexity#fionna stagnating emotionally in early adulthood because of fear of the future+simon stagnating in his twilight years due to regret#aghhh i wish they'd gone for this SO BADLY it would have been the show of ALL TIME OHH#i did still like the ending a lot but. i was soooo hoping for this
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Doodle of my boy
#keese draws#eternal gales#oc art#oc#fydd <3333333333#he is my bestie I need to get over my fear of drawing him so bad#grips bathroom sink I Will get better at drawing for fun and letting my art be messy and being proud of it anyways#but yeah look at him he is so cute and is so silly and he’s never gone through any traumatic events ever I would never#<- lying lier who lies and loves tormenting it’s ocs#but yeah he’s half alien half human but was raised entirely by his human mom#his alien mom is alas stuck in the cult the two met at rip#fydd doesn’t know abt any of that tho he just knows that he has another mom that his mom doesn’t like talking abt#he loves playing games of all kind but especially loves video games and will play them for hours#not that he has much else to do since he’s spent pretty much his entire life living by a garbage dump in the middle of nowhere#and he’s not allowed to go fuck around in the dump much since his mom doesn’t want him to be seen so he’s stuck at home most of the time#thankfully now he has an adopted sister to play with but he still has viddy game autism#his mom has done her best to introduce him to the various cultures she and his other mom came from but she struggles with it#she was quite disconnected from her own culture growing up and she knows limited amount about her girlfriends home planet#fydd doesn’t mind much rn cause he’s 12 but a certain other older fydd might care a smidge more#fydd does like 60% know both japanese and spanish tho so that’s pretty cool#his mom tried to do regular lessons when he was younger but wasn’t able to keep them up consistently and eventually gave up#mostly because she wasn’t anywhere near fluent in either herself and she had a hard time keeping up with how fast fydd would pick up on it#they still have some books from back then laying around that fydd will pick up and read aloud when he’s bored sometimes#he gets bored of speaking english all the time as his brain is built to pick apart different sounds and assign them linguistic meaning#so reading and speaking different languages is good enrichment for him#his mom doesn’t know this unfortunately otherwise she totally would have gotten him more stuff in different languages to chew on#he does get to learn the language the stalien cast speaks tho he has a lot of fun with that#he alas can’t properly experience most stalien video games though rip#I should rly get to redesigning his human mom again at some point she needs it sooo bad#I mean her whole squad needs it but she’s my favorite so like
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#there's something really beautiful about experiencing the weather patterns of a new place#where i live now. its not like where i grew up. not like the foothills of Appalachia but its more familiar than the Chihuahuan desert was#when i go home to ohio everythings so green. so green. unimaginably green and the towns are in the woods. the hills roll#and trees billow deciduous and packed so tightly the treeline is like a wall of plant matter. here there are trees but they are tall and#evergreen. patchy in places like shrubs in the desert. the grass grows green but also pale tan and dead. houses are routed in valleys#between mountains. they're made of wood and not stucco but they still look strange and the landscape is crumpled together tall. and there's#water. it rains. days can be dreary and gray with drizzle. i forgot what thats like. when a single low stratus cloud blocks out thewhole sk#and fog clings to the trees. my school bus used to drive by a lake where thr fog was so thick i didnt kno how the driver could see the road#but somehow i forgot how much joy suspended water vapor gives me living in a place where when it rains it pours so hard the streets flood#and the greedy ground drinks the landscape dry. but there are new things as well. here smoke rolls up over thr mountains and gets stuck in#the valleys so that the weather forcast reads: Smoke for days on end. im used to tornado warnings and heat warnings and dust storm warnings#but ive never expected Smoke as a type of weather. and im sure there's more to experience. ive only been here like 3 weeks. its not as gree#as home. the storms dont seem to get quite so violent. the woods are so full of bears that its an active threat. but its not the desert#and while ill miss the shapes of desert plants and little lizards. when i look up at the pine and spruce trees i feel like i can breathe a#little easier. well see how i feel once the long cold winter sets in haha#but i dunno. part of me still longs for a violent thunderstorm. one where u can feel the temperature drop and u csn feel it building all da#one that bends the trees and smells like ozone. it was never like that in thr southwest and im not sure that happens here#but maybe thats just a desire for chaos and violence as a product of my pathological internal control. i cant be spontaneous so let nature#bring the fear to me. some of my favorite memories are watching lightning strikes#so it goes i suppose#unrelated#listen. is it fucked up to have ohio nostalgia? maybe so. but in my defense i grew up in the pretty part of ohio lol
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Grieving over someone who isn’t gone is such a complicated feeling. Especially when they are your best friend. Especially when they want to leave you.
I still can interact with them today. I can see them with my own eyes, hear their voice with my ears, understand their deepest dreams because we just know each other.
But soon, I won’t be able to see them in person, the only way I can hear their voice will be through a phone, and now someone else will learn to understand them better than me. I will slowly be forgotten as someone else becomes their remembered.
And it hurts. But it happens. And I knew it was coming but I didn’t want it to happen so fast. It’s like when you know something is going to bite you but it hasn’t happened yet. You anticipate the pain so it’s like the pain is already there.
They’re still here but they’re already gone. They’re not gone forever just gone for now. You’re still a kid. They’re all grown up and they’re leaving you. It hurts.
#when I say ‘they want to leave you’ I don’t mean it in a negative way#I am not on bad terms with this person I keep talking about#we are very close and that’s never going to change#I mean it more in the sense of that they’re letting go because they’re ready to let go#it’s hard to explain#like they are ready to let me go because someone else is ready to take care of them now#which is hard because I’ve been their shoulder to lean on ever since I can remember#and now we won’t even be living in the same area anymore#I have a deep set fear of being forgotten and I also have abandonment issues#I’m just feeling like I’m being replaced but I feel guilty because what’s happening is making this person I love happier#they’re pursuing what’s best for them and it’s great!#but in adjusting to this strange sense of grief that my one constant in my life is changing#I don’t like change#I didn’t expect us to stay together forever but I didn’t think they would leave me so soon and be so ok with it#everyone I know is comfortable growing up and changing but I’m so uncomfortable with the idea that it’s hard for me to handle#everyone else is excited to turn into a butterfly and I’m scared if not being a caterpillar anymore#idk if any of that makes sense but writing my feelings really helps me process and feel better#sfw interaction only#sfw agere#sfw age regression#age regressor#age regression#agere blog#quizzyrambles#Quizzyvents
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crazy how i have no one
#like yes i have my internet friends and i adore them ofc#but i have no fucking one irl#and i mean no one. my mom’s side of the family is all dead and the other side is uber christian and doesnt give a fuck about us#i only have my brother#and i need help and support so horribly bad but i wasnt there for him when he needed me#so why the hell should he be there for me. he shouldnt#im going to have to rely on myself this time and i cant do that#i dont trust or believe in myself whatsoever#i think im fucking horrible and useless and repulsive#and idk how to be nice to myself bc ive never felt that and i dont know how to self soothe#i dont have the energy physically or mentally or emotionally to learn#and idk what to lean on anymore if i want to quit abusing substances#realized recently how much i do that.#and for how long. a decade. ive been acting like a 13 yo this whole time#idk how to move past and grow up. god i absolutely need to see my therapist again. if she’ll have me#i fear ill be rejected tho ive left and came back several times and last time she said ‘ofc ill take you back youre my person’#whatever that means. ive been an anomaly to every therapist/psych ive been to apparently they all mention how weird i am and how they cant#figure me out. like damn me too doc!#i want to email her so bad but i wont be able to see her until my insurance goes thru and i dont want to get free labor out of her if i dump#all the trauma ive sustained since i last saw her on her yw#but i want to get better i dont want to live like this anymore i cant do it#any of it#my coping mechanisms are all self destructive and i want to grow past that#but i need help and i dont have it. not really#whatever i guess. first step call and see wtfs going on w my insurance#i feel like i need help even for that . i feel so utterly incapable of everything snd i always have#i can do it. i can do it
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ohhh dect ruined me actually
#thought too hard about mirage and now i am so weepy .#something abt the progression since the nihilism dating sim#like . she was so bought into her fear of meaninglessness and death that it was a constant state for her#which liek . i know what it’s like to live like that and Oh My God . GET OUT OF THEREEEEE#when i first read through that intrraction there was a pit in my gut . tbh . so the turnaround was a good reminder#i have also since read the interview where that is said to be at least a little bit intentional. bc it is coming from somewhere real#so besides my point . what i’m saying is that a story where she grows up and changes her mind . is already enough#but then v2 is there and she is staring death and impermanence and meaninglessness in the face again . she has never had to say goodbye#and it is not meaningless :( she remains that it is not meaningless . and she teaches v2 that it is not meaningless . even if it was just to#themselves or eachother#UM . THIS HAS GOTTEN VERY LONG#I LIKE MIRAGE 👍 SO MUCH#m
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taino teachings are realigning my entire mindset. everything is. making more and more sense the more i read. Yoka hu (the father) and Ata Bey ( the mother) are both inside me . spiritually and physically. i have always said, for many years that i did not understand the concept of gender how this society is teaching it, because i am both my father and mother in body and spirit, but also wholly myself, and i need to respect myself, and how i've been feeling for so so long. it's all making so much sense.
#there are many beautiful things that come from the origins of the abrahamic religions but they are not part of me or for me to follow or be#forced to follow#fear is not how you should rule yourself or others#everyone should look into how their ancestors lived and truly truly consider their teachings and incorporate them into your lives#you might find yourself healing in ways you never even thought you needed#i am not religious#but i believe in the spirits that guided my ancestors to guide me#and for my ancestors to guide me#i need to look into the teachings of my african ancestors and incorporate both into me#to learn and to grow and to teach and to pass on#ohhhh i have so much to learn and so much more life to live#thank you ancestors#and fuck you to the ancestors that failed this mission. at least the lesson ive learned from you is to never be like you#i met an amazing Thai woman the other day and had a long conversation with her about life and business and things#and it was because#i saw a doll in front of her food truck and it drew me in#she said it was gifted to her by a vendor#because she went up and was like oh! that doll is from my culture!#i showed her the dolls i had just bought that day! they were two little black children dressed up like cute clowns they are my favorite😭💚#and she asked what i was. i told her i was Black Boricua and White and she was like oh wow you are truly of the Americas#or truly american#and i was like i guess so huh but i suppose we all are since this is where we have been made to live#huge advocate for bringing back culture shock and making people respect the culture of THIS land while also maintaining#a healthy relationship with their own#the the only way we can move forward and thrive like a true melting pot that will become something new and beautiful
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just another day where i am out here thinking about ghost jane! after closing the gate, and the impact it had on her physically and mentally, she's forever connected to the upside down, even when it's sealed off completely. due to jane's abnormal genetics and weak immune system due to what she was submitted to in the womb, her body begins failing her when she's nineteen years old, [after a specifically harsh winter day where she gets stranded at a bus stop for three hours, and is stuck in the cold, and gets sick with a slight fever. then that sickness turns into pneumonia, which leads to her spending six weeks in the hospital under owens' care]. when she's twenty three, her body begins fully shutting down, and she eventually dies at twenty five. her death is peaceful in a sense because it wasn't violent nor unexpected, but it is tragic. even more so, because she's reincarnated into a ghost, who can never move on because of the upside down imbedding itself into her skin, into her body when she was a child. she can venture outside hawkins, and isn't specifically tied to a place because the upside down is ancient, it spread amongst the whole world, and even though it's sealed off, still exists below. wherever the upside down is, active or not, jane can tread, but she was never given the real chance to ever leave hawkins, and knows very little of the world outside the small town. even in death, it frightens her to venture beyond. she's stuck in the town that she loves as much as she hates, wandering around as a mere echo of herself, reclaiming that lost black cat status who doesn't really belong to anyone or anything. there are people over the years who can slightly sense her, or see her completely so she isn't alone forever, but those people eventually move on after their death, where she never can.
#study. come my darling homeward bound.#i do still have to write up in more detail about how i think her body / immune system works and why it is in fact so poor.#AND about her final few years when she knows she is going to die and has to just accept it.#but i fear it will make me super depressed rip.#also i have a very specific vision of the upside down that i need to write up too. but. lazy!#anyway ghost jane ghost jane.#threads where ur muse can see her! pls!#it's just the way that doing something so incredibly heroic and selfless (closing the gate) affects her body so badly and ultimately leads#to her never being able to find real peace.#AND not to mention my hc about jane's body being replaced with a fake like will's in the morgue and stolen by people who were keeping tabs#on her her whole life. her body being taken away from hawkins and ghost jane knowing about it. knowing her friends visit her gravesite and#she's not actually in the ground.#i'm fine i'm fine about it lol#jane being the type of ghost who can move things and interact with the living due to her abilities though.#jane attaching herself to a new group of people every decade and just. being with them. watching children grow up and die.#HER JUST BEING THERE FOREVER AND WATCHING THE WORLD TURN.#being deprived of the world when she was a child and now knowing it too well. and wanting to leave it.#anyway yeah lemme write in this verse pls <3
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it's always crazy that my first thought about the end of the world or escaping or having to flee is: god i hope i die
does that make me a coward? i don't see myself living through fleeing if an earthquake collapses our house or something just please end it
being told everything is weird and unprecedented and that they're preparing for something just please i don't want to live through another global catastrophic event just let me die man
with my health problems already it's a struggle enough to get up and live i can't imagine bejng in a real crisis if my body is already taking this as a sign im going tk die
do i like how reactive i feel when ppl talk about the possible catastrophe of earthquakes or eclipses or preparing for some unknown something to happen? no. i don't like the fear and the immediate "i need to kill myself or ill suffer unknown tragedies" maybe ive read too much apocalypse fiction where the world ends and factions split and people run rampid
because i know im not built to survive it. im not and i cant. i don't want to live in fear again by the powers over me I don't want to be subject to cruelty and horror
#eughh. im not doing too hot. armageddon plus bad work day plus religious parent living in house until further notice equals metal screeching#brain is sobbing and writhing in trauma and fear im a little kid again waiting for the world to end but this time im not praying for safety#im staring up hoping its quick#i am spiralingggg oh gosh#took just a few minutes of talking to her and hearing “we need to be prepared and there's a x in the sky and they're spraying chem trails”#can't start crying like a bitch about it grow up hya don't melt into hysterics you dumb fuck you're never not gonna be suicidal but at least#get the fuck over it stuff it down or whatever#bunspeaks
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Out here 2 vent again sry
#terrified by the knowledge of just. having congenital heart disease#got 2 defects#and I'm terrified of dying young#last time I was seen by a doctor about it they said I may not have problems#but my stupid ass with no self control is still gonna start doomscrolling#and reading about shit relating to it#making me scared I'm gonna live too short#that I'll never get to grow old#I'm terrified of dying during surgery#if indeed I shall need it#which who knows#I want this to go away#ffs#UGH#and I have to go to sleep now this always happens when I need to sleep#can't stop thinking about mortality EVER#fucking hell#the hospital where I'm supposed to be seen won't fucking answer my messages#I'm already a year overdue for my next check up#I hate being so scared about things like life and death and for my fears to#ACTUALLY BE RATIONAL#LIKE I HAVE AN ACTUAL REASON TO BE AFRAID#I CANT JUST TELL MYSELF ITS ALL IN MY HEAD THEN CALM DOWN#I hate having a body
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Fun fact! You can call people out In Private.
You can talk to them privately about something they did or said and then give them a chance to change their behavior. Hell, you dont even have to keep talking to them after that, you can block them if you want.
And it can all be civil and happen without yelling into a megaphone to a bunch of strangers that this teenager is bad and did bad things and dont you DARE give your input because that clearly means you’re bad too.
Do you really think every teenager should be expected to speak about every subject with the tact of a specially trained PR Manager???
#Meow.#There used to be a time before the internet when you could make mistakes. Even really bad ones. And leave it behind you if you wanted to#People didnt take snapshots of every mean thing you said#And yes. People got hurt.#You got hurt and you hurt people#and you would lose friends. And have this time to think about what happened. What you did wrong#what they did wrong#And you could go to a new group of people and try again. Kinder. Better informed.#And that never erased the hurt you caused. But you learned to live with the guilt and let it make you better.#and im sorry im so sorry to the kids growing up in the internet who dont have the privilege to leave your mistakes behind you#Im sorry you have to live in constant fear of saying the wrong thing because you didnt see the right post in time#Im so sorry your every interaction is filled with the potential to come back weeks or months or years or decades later#to bite you in ways you couldn’t have expected or understood#fuck man. This shit pisses me off.#Give people room to grow. Give them time to grow.#Crowding them and demanding they put together the perfect combination of words in an hour is so…! I dont even know#It’s just not how humans work
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I’m so normal about this band
#saw them live in Dallas and sorry I will never shut up about it#their music is everything to me#it’s about friendship it’s about connection it’s about getting better and growing up and the fear of becoming your mother#they’re so real#bears in trees
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