#Never growing up for fear of living?
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Watched Peter Pan (2003) and cried so hard
#Did you know I was obsessed with Peter Pan as a child?#I didn't#I vaguely remember watching the Disney sequel with Wendy's granddaughter because we had it on VHS#And I think the first dream I ever remembered was about Peter Pan#But other than that I didn't think about him ever#But according to my Mum I was absolutely obsessed#And tbh an island full of boys going on adventures?#Never growing up for fear of living?#Peter is me I am Peter#(I would absolutely refuse to be the lost boy's mother though)#(I am here to BE a boy not to babysit one)#I gotta read the novel
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they were boys together !!!
#every time i think about these two sat on the bus in their little school uniforms i start sobbing uncontrollably#paul mccartney#george harrison#beatles#beatles fanart#p + g#i think about them meeting as like little tiny 11/12 year olds or whatever and then growing up together and being beatles and falling out#and then coming back together but never fully going back to how it once was and i just go insane#mcharrison is the secret even more tragic yaoi in the beatles you lot are just not ready to hear it#as someone who is a george in one friend group (continually babied and underestimated bc im the youngest) i get him#but as an actual oldest sibling and also generally a paul coded person i also get pauls perspective like pipe down pipsqueak 🗣️#as a designated baby friend sometimes u just have to accept the abuse unfortunately for george and how can he not when he was SO SO tiny#bro was never gonna live down that 9 month age gap i fear#he is 3 apples tall !! u just KNOW he was so pissed off when he finally got the growth spurt and was still shorter than paul by an inch#anyway stream inspite of all the danger (mccartney harrison) :3
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Grieving over someone who isn’t gone is such a complicated feeling. Especially when they are your best friend. Especially when they want to leave you.
I still can interact with them today. I can see them with my own eyes, hear their voice with my ears, understand their deepest dreams because we just know each other.
But soon, I won’t be able to see them in person, the only way I can hear their voice will be through a phone, and now someone else will learn to understand them better than me. I will slowly be forgotten as someone else becomes their remembered.
And it hurts. But it happens. And I knew it was coming but I didn’t want it to happen so fast. It’s like when you know something is going to bite you but it hasn’t happened yet. You anticipate the pain so it’s like the pain is already there.
They’re still here but they’re already gone. They’re not gone forever just gone for now. You’re still a kid. They’re all grown up and they’re leaving you. It hurts.
#when I say ‘they want to leave you’ I don’t mean it in a negative way#I am not on bad terms with this person I keep talking about#we are very close and that’s never going to change#I mean it more in the sense of that they’re letting go because they’re ready to let go#it’s hard to explain#like they are ready to let me go because someone else is ready to take care of them now#which is hard because I’ve been their shoulder to lean on ever since I can remember#and now we won’t even be living in the same area anymore#I have a deep set fear of being forgotten and I also have abandonment issues#I’m just feeling like I’m being replaced but I feel guilty because what’s happening is making this person I love happier#they’re pursuing what’s best for them and it’s great!#but in adjusting to this strange sense of grief that my one constant in my life is changing#I don’t like change#I didn’t expect us to stay together forever but I didn’t think they would leave me so soon and be so ok with it#everyone I know is comfortable growing up and changing but I’m so uncomfortable with the idea that it’s hard for me to handle#everyone else is excited to turn into a butterfly and I’m scared if not being a caterpillar anymore#idk if any of that makes sense but writing my feelings really helps me process and feel better#sfw interaction only#sfw agere#sfw age regression#age regressor#age regression#agere blog#quizzyrambles#Quizzyvents
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Okay so maybe the wrinkly split head devil isn't the Aging devil itself, since it being called aging definitelly feels like a mistranslation and and public safety wanting to erase old age by sacrificing the younger generation fits the point the chapter is trying to get across much nicer than if the devil was aging itself (+ if you think about it for 2 seconds erasing aging as a whole is a terrible fucking idea since no one will be able to grow anything anymore and people will be stuck as babies and kids forever whereas erasing old age should just make people not age past adulthood and probably cause people who are already elderly to just dissapear on the spot)
But that doesn't mean i'm keeping Cherryboy the exact same because if old age specifically is enough to achieve primal fear level then aging as a whole has gotta be one too. So hooray! someone's getting a slight revamp in the future :)
#i'm not changing his storyline in part one nor his design but his overall backstory will change slightly#but in his main design he is now the Aging fiend instead of straight up devil. i'll definitelly cook up a full devil design for him later#and you know him being a primal fear is fun because i had this idea that even after dying Cherry retains a sliver of his memories#from past iterations. if he is that strong of a devil then he can probably do that#and i can use this as an excuse to why i never made designs for him in hell :) i've got some fun ideas brewing#basic idea so far is that Cherry has a fascination with watching life (basically aging and its effects on living beings) even tho he has#hardly any attachment to life itself. dying is just a part of it same as growing old and such he doesn't feel anything when it happens#to other people and also himself#but being an enormously powerful devil in hell he can only watch this dance of life and death from afar as an outside observer#so after god knows how long he grows tired of sitting there in hell and kills himself to be reborn on earth#and immediatelly goes out of his way to become a fiend. severely weakening his strenght but bringing him closer to the lesser beings#by doing so. and now he can observe life from upclose and interact with the other creatures roaming around. which is something he finds#immense enjoyment in#think like a god that roleplays as a human every once in a while just because they're bored. and when they die they go back to godhood#so thats why all of Cherry's versions on earth are these dudes w animal skulls. little fiends#he can be strong and all-powerful when this life is over. and in hell he will look back at it quite fondly#csm#csm oc#chainsaw man#csm spoilers#csm part 2#Cherry#hyena ramblings
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crazy how i have no one
#like yes i have my internet friends and i adore them ofc#but i have no fucking one irl#and i mean no one. my mom’s side of the family is all dead and the other side is uber christian and doesnt give a fuck about us#i only have my brother#and i need help and support so horribly bad but i wasnt there for him when he needed me#so why the hell should he be there for me. he shouldnt#im going to have to rely on myself this time and i cant do that#i dont trust or believe in myself whatsoever#i think im fucking horrible and useless and repulsive#and idk how to be nice to myself bc ive never felt that and i dont know how to self soothe#i dont have the energy physically or mentally or emotionally to learn#and idk what to lean on anymore if i want to quit abusing substances#realized recently how much i do that.#and for how long. a decade. ive been acting like a 13 yo this whole time#idk how to move past and grow up. god i absolutely need to see my therapist again. if she’ll have me#i fear ill be rejected tho ive left and came back several times and last time she said ‘ofc ill take you back youre my person’#whatever that means. ive been an anomaly to every therapist/psych ive been to apparently they all mention how weird i am and how they cant#figure me out. like damn me too doc!#i want to email her so bad but i wont be able to see her until my insurance goes thru and i dont want to get free labor out of her if i dump#all the trauma ive sustained since i last saw her on her yw#but i want to get better i dont want to live like this anymore i cant do it#any of it#my coping mechanisms are all self destructive and i want to grow past that#but i need help and i dont have it. not really#whatever i guess. first step call and see wtfs going on w my insurance#i feel like i need help even for that . i feel so utterly incapable of everything snd i always have#i can do it. i can do it
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ohhh dect ruined me actually
#thought too hard about mirage and now i am so weepy .#something abt the progression since the nihilism dating sim#like . she was so bought into her fear of meaninglessness and death that it was a constant state for her#which liek . i know what it’s like to live like that and Oh My God . GET OUT OF THEREEEEE#when i first read through that intrraction there was a pit in my gut . tbh . so the turnaround was a good reminder#i have also since read the interview where that is said to be at least a little bit intentional. bc it is coming from somewhere real#so besides my point . what i’m saying is that a story where she grows up and changes her mind . is already enough#but then v2 is there and she is staring death and impermanence and meaninglessness in the face again . she has never had to say goodbye#and it is not meaningless :( she remains that it is not meaningless . and she teaches v2 that it is not meaningless . even if it was just to#themselves or eachother#UM . THIS HAS GOTTEN VERY LONG#I LIKE MIRAGE 👍 SO MUCH#m
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taino teachings are realigning my entire mindset. everything is. making more and more sense the more i read. Yoka hu (the father) and Ata Bey ( the mother) are both inside me . spiritually and physically. i have always said, for many years that i did not understand the concept of gender how this society is teaching it, because i am both my father and mother in body and spirit, but also wholly myself, and i need to respect myself, and how i've been feeling for so so long. it's all making so much sense.
#there are many beautiful things that come from the origins of the abrahamic religions but they are not part of me or for me to follow or be#forced to follow#fear is not how you should rule yourself or others#everyone should look into how their ancestors lived and truly truly consider their teachings and incorporate them into your lives#you might find yourself healing in ways you never even thought you needed#i am not religious#but i believe in the spirits that guided my ancestors to guide me#and for my ancestors to guide me#i need to look into the teachings of my african ancestors and incorporate both into me#to learn and to grow and to teach and to pass on#ohhhh i have so much to learn and so much more life to live#thank you ancestors#and fuck you to the ancestors that failed this mission. at least the lesson ive learned from you is to never be like you#i met an amazing Thai woman the other day and had a long conversation with her about life and business and things#and it was because#i saw a doll in front of her food truck and it drew me in#she said it was gifted to her by a vendor#because she went up and was like oh! that doll is from my culture!#i showed her the dolls i had just bought that day! they were two little black children dressed up like cute clowns they are my favorite😭💚#and she asked what i was. i told her i was Black Boricua and White and she was like oh wow you are truly of the Americas#or truly american#and i was like i guess so huh but i suppose we all are since this is where we have been made to live#huge advocate for bringing back culture shock and making people respect the culture of THIS land while also maintaining#a healthy relationship with their own#the the only way we can move forward and thrive like a true melting pot that will become something new and beautiful
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Out here 2 vent again sry
#terrified by the knowledge of just. having congenital heart disease#got 2 defects#and I'm terrified of dying young#last time I was seen by a doctor about it they said I may not have problems#but my stupid ass with no self control is still gonna start doomscrolling#and reading about shit relating to it#making me scared I'm gonna live too short#that I'll never get to grow old#I'm terrified of dying during surgery#if indeed I shall need it#which who knows#I want this to go away#ffs#UGH#and I have to go to sleep now this always happens when I need to sleep#can't stop thinking about mortality EVER#fucking hell#the hospital where I'm supposed to be seen won't fucking answer my messages#I'm already a year overdue for my next check up#I hate being so scared about things like life and death and for my fears to#ACTUALLY BE RATIONAL#LIKE I HAVE AN ACTUAL REASON TO BE AFRAID#I CANT JUST TELL MYSELF ITS ALL IN MY HEAD THEN CALM DOWN#I hate having a body
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I’m so normal about this band
#saw them live in Dallas and sorry I will never shut up about it#their music is everything to me#it’s about friendship it’s about connection it’s about getting better and growing up and the fear of becoming your mother#they’re so real#bears in trees
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I feel like saying Josuke doesn't have any daddy issues whatsoever isn't entirely fair (I've seen some fic and comics go further into how he and his mom might have been treated due to the circumstances of his birth that were pretty compelling) but people who act like he grew up without any father figure are definitely off base imo. Every single adaptation and extra material have always had a focus on his close relationship with his grandpa for a reason!
see, that's precisely the thing. it is literally impossible to be a grown up human without having internalised some sort of illogical Feeling about oneself or the world – but fandom as a whole tends to just assign arbitrary ones to characters based on stereotypes rather than what they actually are like.
i do think josuke feels some sort of way about his lack of a father growing up, but that's as inevitable as joseph himself (or giorno, or jolyne, or even jonathan) having feelings about his own dad, and yet somehow jorge's absence does not get brought up despite joseph and josuke's fairly similar upbringings. the fact is that most of western fandom tends to view the JJBA characters through a (white, usa-centric) lens that simply does not lend itself to a fair or accurate reading when most of the cast is either POC or from an entirely different cultural background. that's why i'm so resistant to label josuke as having 'daddy issues'; the term means something entirely different to me than it seems to do to most of the fandom, based on all the fic, comics, and discussions i've seen (and had) about the topic. it's not exactly like the organised crime aspect of VA, but it fills me with a similar kind of frustration. i don't think one needs a degree in cultural studies or history or whatnot to enjoy a silly series about people punching each other with slutty soul-ghosts, but it's exhausting to see the same thoughtless, very specifically westernised takes being regurgitated over and over as Absolute Truth until the characters are so flanderised they seem nothing as much as a caricature of their original versions. i love transformative works as much as any other fan creator, but i also happen to like the source material. it is infinitely more interesting to me to think about what kind of relationship josuke might have to his heritage as a mixed-race person, or his identity as the son of a single mother or the obviously cherished and spoilt child of a family such as his own (especially in a place and period like canon's late-90s/early 00's japan), than to hear yet another iteration of 'haha, josuke has daddy issues' where the person saying it has no intention of analysing that premise beyond the puddle-depth obvious.
at barely sixteen years old, even as interested in high-end fashion (and as very much part of a working class family who could definitely use the nest egg) as he is, josuke's immediate reaction to being told his missing father is incredibly rich and wants to take care of him is to say that it's not necessary, and he's fine as he is. sixteen. i worked as a teacher with kids as young as a year old and people as old as mid-seventies; that kind of ease of mind is one-in-a-million and not something you'll find on someone who fits fandom's definition of 'daddy issues'. he's not angry at joseph, he's not grasping for money, he hardly even wants to find out more about the missing part of his origins. his only thought is to wish he wouldn't be the reason other people were hurt, and to protect his mother once there is a risk she might find out and be distressed about it. his entire morality system is (from what i remember of canon) mostly based around the question What Would Grandpa Do?, with some leeway allowed for the temper he clearly got from tomoko and for the fact that he is, again, a big and slightly spoilt sixteen year old.
so yeah. it might not sound fair to say he doesn't have daddy issues, but i don't think the terms fandom's operating under are fair to start with, so i'd rather recuse myself (and my interpretation of the character) from it all til we're playing the same game. the sandbox's wide and wild, and the block and mute buttons are there for a reason, so i'll just stay in my corner writing about higashikatas wielding their feelings like sledgehammers til my mum says it's time to go home.
#tl;dr: everyone's absolutely entitled to their opinion! i just happen to find the most common one the equivalent of soap-flavoured cilantro#i definitely agree with the part about his rship with his grandfather! it's a whole thing in my own writing for them#it's just 'daddy issues' has become shorthand for a combination of takes i quite dislike the past few years#so yeah. i'll just... Not. if y'all don't mind#(i do think Other characters have daddy issues in the traditional sense. and even in the popular modern sense. but not josuke particularly)#anyway i hope this doesn't read as confrontational as i fear it sounds bc that was. so not my intention orz#ty for the ask!!!! i really love discussing character analysis i'm just rly tired rn so i probably sound super Debate Team Mode haha#ps ryohei was 100000% josuke's favourite person in the world growing up and he's still tomoko's special baby gremlin at age 50 pass it on#josuke higashikata#jojo#the funny thing abt my fic is i'm really at ease abt posting my shippy stuff bc it's just like. treating myself to sth nice#and then sharing with everyone as a bonus#but the stuff where i actually talk abt familial and platonic rships for my faves lives in eternal development hell bc i just LOVE it#and never feel like it's perfect enough to share. it's never complete because it's always evolving#which is why i once wrote a novel allegedly about detectives in love but in reality about 100kish of family/friendship character analysis#meaning there was no way this ask could've ever been answered succinctly lol#ask tag#joji.txt#joosk#anonymous
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I have such a problem letting people go. I really don't want people to go.
#how do you live missing people even when they are okay and doing well without you#easy to lose easy to forget#isnt that right#to come back at all would be a betrayal and as a ghost#I sometimes wish i was heartless#calling...calling...calling...calling...calling still...#I've never called since I think and I'm grateful for that at least#I have some common sense still. just an idea of someone at this point. and yet#and yet theres still some part of me that hopes that we could be friends and in each others lives again.#in some way. painful useless hope I can't shake.#I keep dreaming that in some way or another we meet again and a hand is held out to me and I keep taking it.#pushing through a crowd and she pulls me through. Only 3 fingers interlinked and my ring and pinky loose#being able to talk again and not feeling a weight in my chest#I want to talk to you again sorry about before#I keep waking up feeling so foolish. why do I say yes so easily. why do I want this still. why cant i move on#these impossible dreams#maybe once im gone#and i dont fear seeing her by chance and hoping my smile isnt forced.#i love this city but its too small and i dont want to be seen still stuck on someone after soo long. embarrassing. god its so embarrassing#going to bike home now and then try and catch yoga and then go out and do my best to not feel like a fraud of a person#i will change and grow for the better even if this rock is stuck in my chest
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For as long as I could remember, whenever I was in pain, whether from a cut or a toothache, Mother would make a tincture of lobelia and skullcap. It had never lessened the pain, not one degree. Because of this, I can come to respect pain, even revere it, as necessary and untouchable. Twenty minutes after I swallowed the red pills, the earache was gone. I couldn't comprehend its absence. I spent the afternoon swinging my head from left to right, trying to jog the pain loose again. I thought if I could shout loudly enough, or move quickly enough, perhaps the earache would return and I would know the medicine had been a sham after all. Charles watched in silence, but he must have found my behavior absurd, especially when I began to pull on my ear, which still ached dully, so I could test the limits of this strange witchcraft.
From Educated by Tara Westover
terribly charmed by my sibling sending me a voice message that just said “i just always take ibuprofen at the wrong time. i had a headache all afternoon, from three to eight pm and then i took an ibuprofen half an hour before the headache went away! i could have just saved an ibuprofen!”
#my post now#if ur curious to know more#tara westover was raised and homeschooled by homeopathic mormons on the side of a mountain#for the entire duration of her childhood she never saw a licensed dr.#educated is her memoir. the technical perfection of the prose alone is enough to make you weep and i cannot in good conscience#recommend it carte blanche#growing up with just your family who have a paranoid fear of institutional authority and no oversight is a foundation for rampant abuse#not to mention the multiple instances of severe physical trauma with no medical care#it is a very very good book but you should very much stop to consider if youre a person who can read it#like none of this came for me where i lived and i was still sobbing through the chapters#i don't want to oversell the downsides though this book is really really good#oh and the quote is from pg 183 of the hardback. Ch 21. 'Skullcap'
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🌸 From One Mother’s Heart – Please Read 🌸
My name is Saja. I’m a wife, a mother, and a woman who once believed her story would be simple. I thought my days would be filled with watching my daughter grow — from her first smile to her first steps — surrounded by the small joys of everyday life.
But life had other plans.



War has returned to our home. Again. And once again, we find ourselves living under skies that never seem to rest.
There was a moment — a fragile, breathless moment — when the bombs paused and the world seemed to remember us. It gave us hope. We thought maybe, just maybe, we could start to rebuild. But now, we are back in the dark — hiding, holding on, praying.
I’m writing this not as someone seeking pity, but as a mother who has no other choice but to speak.
Imagine holding your baby in the middle of the night, not because she cried, but because the world outside roared too loud for either of you to sleep. Imagine whispering bedtime stories not to lull her into dreams, but to keep the fear from settling into her tiny bones.
This is my life.
This is my daughter’s life.
And even now — especially now — I believe in softness. I believe in kindness. Because when everything else is taken from you, hope becomes the most valuable thing you have.
Why I’m Reaching Out Our home has been damaged. Our lives changed. But through it all, my daughter wakes up every morning with a smile. She reaches for me with trust, with love, with faith that I will keep her safe.
That’s why I keep going.
I’ve launched a campaign to ask for help — not because it’s easy, but because silence is no longer an option. I am asking for support not just for me, but for my baby, and for the quiet strength of so many mothers like me who are fighting, every single day, to hold their families together.
How You Can Help: 🤍 Help us restore parts of our home so we can live with dignity 🤍 Support women and mothers in Gaza with access to care and resources 🤍 Keep the light of hope alive for a generation born in the shadows of war
💛 If you can, please support our journey here:
If you can’t give, please consider sharing. Your voice might be the reason someone else hears ours.
From My Heart to Yours Maybe our lives are worlds apart. Maybe you’ve never lived through war. But if you’ve ever held a child and wished the world could be better for them — then you understand more than you know.
I don’t want my daughter to grow up thinking the world turned away.
Please, if you’ve read this far — thank you. Thank you for seeing us. Thank you for caring. We are still here. Still hoping. Still holding on to every kind act like it’s a lifeline.
With love and endless gratitude
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I love art pieces where the artist has a connection, or is exploring their connection to the countries their roots are in and are from
#I have connections to countries#but I also know nothing about them#or never know enough#I have a deep love for the country I grew up in as a child but I didn't really grow up in that culture#so my connection is very superficial and based mostly on me missing my childhood#grew up in the culture enough that I mess up social interactions now because I will sometimes default to the wrong social settings#got no connection to the roots of my origin save my respect of the gentry and genuine fear of banshees#I like living vicariously through other people's connections it makes me happy and nostalgic for something I don't have
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✧ ⁺˳ cw. fem! reader, heian era, vırgin sukuna, touch starved sukuna, humping, unprotected, premature ejaculation, mdni.
virgin!sukuna who won’t bend knee for no one, fears no one . . is weak for nothing.
nothing except for your touch.
and oh, it irritates him abominably. he’s got a taste of you and he’s addicted. in his royal chambers, he humps his pillow, whetted sharp fangs burying into his lip in utter shame. crimson velvet eyes roll their way into the very backs of his head until he sees ivory white. imagining he’s deep inside of you again, slowly grinding his hips into yours, hearing the melodic sounds of your moans escape from each rough stroke. his heat, he swears to himself as he feels the fabric glue back and forth against his skin. instead of a pillow it should have been your body. “f- fuckkk,” he groans, missing your touch, your skin. you had him whipped, sukuna doesn’t get weak for anyone, anyone except you.
he mercilessly grinds his hips into his pillow, a tiny whimper slipping out of his lips before he swears out your name. again, and again, and again,
the moment you return though — he’s a mess. the once feared ruthless king sukuna ryomen that’s lived for thousands of years was now a whiny mess that couldn’t last five seconds without your touch, without your taste. to him, it was sacred. “woman, i need you,” and his voice for once, it was shaky. you have a smug grin, growing priggish at how clingy you made him and he tchs in annoyance.
“what’s the magic word, ‘kuna?”
it’s a long dead pause, you hear the vexed sigh rip out of his full lungs before he shoots you a glare. “….. please. i need you to touch me again.”
with his entire broad frame slumped back, he watches with blown wide irises as you align yourself against his cock. already, it’s droplets and droplets of sheeny white pre-cum coating near his tip. it’s like a swirl, the shine glistens near his cockhead and you watch as a bit of his foreskin peels itself back. you’re teasing him, rutting back and forth against just his tip and he hisses in want of more. sukuna was so big, taking one of him was like taking two and you’ve never felt more full. your hips rapidly make haste and start to jerk a bit forward and you moan once his fattened tip thrashes against your slit opening.
“mhm,” and then you look down at the demon who’s still got a cute pout contorting against his pink lips. sharp serrated nails of his gently shovels into your skin, clinging onto your hips tightly. “aw, are you shaking, sukuna?”
“s- shut up,” he gruffs, immediately feeling a lump prod its way into his throat.
you have him at your very mercy. he grunts, red eyes flickering back slowly and gradually as he’s feeling himself stretch you open. your cunt was so inviting—the feeling of your warmth holding him hostage was purely mouthwatering.
gaping and all, he feels every direct hit against your sopping wet pussy and he’s just hungry for more. your skin sticks against his as you try to shift your weight, rolling your hips back and forth until he growls out a pathetic surrendering whimper. he’s big and thick and you feel every delectable inch ease its way inside of you. fangs of his still continue to gnaw deep at the bottom of his lip, feeling your hips strike forward at a much more briskly pace.“ugh, god woman. y’r hips ‘s gonna make me-”
a single breath gets caught in his throat— not a lump this time but a single breath, you had him speechless.
a few pink strands of hair that stuck against forehead due to built up perspiration ghosts down his slit brows. “gonna c- cum too quick,” he murmurs, his usual rough tone appearing more shaky. his tone was a lot more vulnerable and weak, only with you.
you’re barely even doing anything. it’s been just a few minutes, just a few minutes of him going inside of your gummy walls and he’s already turning into mush. you run a hand down his buff, scarred shoulder and he merely loses it.
your touch drives him insane, he swallows a nice amount of saliva before his forked tongue lolls out a bit. he’s juddering pitiably underneath you from your sloppy movements. sukuna felt this way for no one, and the audacity for you to just .. make him so lewd, so feral.
there’s a repetitive ringing in his ears as he’s got ahold of both of your thighs. all tips of his thumbs pierce their ways into your skin and his fat cock twitches from your erotically hypnotic rhythm. each sporadic jolt of your hips makes his head toss back, growl after growl rippling from his husky vocal chords. “you’re so loud,” you tease, leaning in to kiss his cheek. his eye twitches from your lips making contact against his skin — yet, he doesn’t question it. in fact, it only turns him on even more. sukuna craved your touch like he craves a victory after a year long battle. “gonna cum for me, ryo?”
“curses.. i-” he stammers, adam’s able bobbing within each whiny syllable that spews out of his mouth.
you’ve definitely got him whipped, you’ve got the king of curses wrapped around your cute little finger. his jaw slowly dangles itself open and a hot breeze of air escapes. his body dramatically jitters from underneath you and you feel a certain familiar spurt shoot its way into your cunt raw. as you’re voluntarily slurping up every part of his fervor, he buries his face into the crook of your neck.
there, your neck’s being met with the keen edges of his animalistic canines pricking against your sweet, candied flesh.
sukuna’s tongue licks against you, making a cute attempt at suppressing his gruff whimpers but it’s to no avail. he’s cumming, and it’s so so much.
he’s seeing red, red and white.
a nice wad of satiny sticky load pours its way into your pussy and he’s just shaking underneath you. his body erupts like a volcano — he’s always so sensitive, desperately craving to cum again and again and again until he’s stuffed so much into your womb.
strong arms hold onto you tight as you just sit there, feeling his seed trickle into the deep soddened parts of your entrance. you’re panting with him, a hand gently stroking near his neat undercut and he groans into your neck. “s- so much, ‘m gonna die,” he mewls out, and it’s so unlike him to see him like this.
sukuna gingerly bites into your skin as he’s dumping such a goopy load into you. he’s panting heavily like a dog, puffs of air leaving out his throat so swiftly. his dick remains inside of you, clinging onto your walls securely for all it’s worth before he starts to hear the wet, slimy squelches. that was always his favorite part — the part where your pussy decides to talk back. “ngh, don’t move, princess. stay still- listen to it with me, please.”
you remain as still as a mannequin as his hot parching cum’s continuing to ooze its way into your puckering hole. it’s a lot, emphasize on a lot because when he cums, it’s a literal overflow.
it’s so much that it starts to race down the crevices of your thighs. a fat thumb of his gathers a good amount of it before smearing it over your pussy. with a sluggish sly expression, you cup his face, watching as he naturally lean into your touch. “you barely lasted a second, baby.”
“shut up, don’t forget who i- i am— oh fuckkk,”
and you start to ride him again, picking up your hips in a manner so ruthlessly sloppy that it gets him whiplash. the moment you start up again, he starts whining and he feels a staticky pulse surge through his weighty cock. with red bloodshot eyes, sukuna eyes you with such intent and not once does his gaze leave. he feels a sudden pang in his heart. but it couldn’t be that, or could it.
sukuna looked so pretty like this. underneath you, eyes half-lidded and beads of sweat racing down each side of his forehead. long dark lashes of his flap every few seconds and he jaw tightens, feeling your cunt soak him dry, milking him. his whimpers and whines were so loud, indefinitely echoing through the thin walls of his forbidden chambers.
your hand teasingly wraps around his thick neck and he’s never felt more aroused. sukuna groans with a snarl—making a cute attempt at baring a fang at you to seem more intimidating but it only makes him cute. a brief croak coming out of him before he grouses pathetically.
“harder. choke me ‘n make me cum again.”
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