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inkskinned · 5 months ago

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today i love the red metal crane in her long neck arching her body over the boston skyline, which means i am okay for a moment. when i am unwell, everything is a little ugly. i always tell myself look for the beauty but when it is bad, i will look at birds and sunsets and little ducklings and feel absolutely nothing.

when my brother got his puppy, i was in a deep depression. what kind of monster isn't affected by a puppy. i was gentle and kind to her - i just didn't have an emotional reaction. she's five now and i feel like i spend all of our interactions apologizing to her - i don't know why. i just didn't feel anything. how embarrassing. i feel like if i admit that, i'll seem cruel and jaded. it comes in waves. like, two months ago when i went out into the world - it was like that. life behind a pane of stormglass. a firework could go off over your head - nothing. like dead skin, no reaction. not to ice cream or rainbows or baby chickens. life foggy and uninteresting.

i love goslings again. i love their little webbed feet splayed over grass. i love good food and live music and long walks. i like puppies. i feel like some kind of my soul has been starved - i keep staring at everything with wide eyes, trying to burrow the sensation into my stomach. it's real. beauty is real. when it's bad again, remember this. i stop and smell the flowers, feeling cliche in the moment. i like the white-to-red ombre of my neighbor's roses. i like colorcoding and yoga and cold drinks. i try to pass my hands over every moment, feeling like i'm squeezing joy out of every instant. remember this. for the love of god, it's real - just remember this.

#and yet i NEVER DO REMEMBER IT #spilled ink #writeblr #i feel like due to tiktok ppl think >#deeply depressed & not having an emotional reaction to things MUST mean #you are cruel or uncaring #like girlie that is STILL a lack of mental illness awareness. it doesn't make us mean #it just means im like. ohhhh im not well. i don't really react to puppies. that's bad #Im still gonna be super nice to the puppy. like it just doesn't bring me joy.#bc the problem i have is CLINICAL. the dopamine ISNT being made.#but PLENTY of us are still kind #considerate.#GENTLE people. even if we're like '..........' all the time.#i actually think this is why i'm harsh on people who are so mean - you don't need to be emotionally attached to someone/thing #in order to be kind.... you just choose to be kind bc it's the right thing to do #not bc it's easy....... like it's extra effort sure. but it's worth it. bc ppl deserve kindness.#it's hard to describe this bc it's the ugly side of depression. the part that's like #not in netflix - the part where it's like ''i love this person. i just don't feel anything''

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orangechickenpillow · 5 months ago

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happy fathers (?) day

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lesbicosmos · 2 months ago

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we're never gonna see the emotional fallout of hell and esther.

we're never gonna see the gang get niko back or see the events that lead her to becoming the principal.

we're never gonna see charles figuring his shit out.

we're never gonna see edwin in a relationship despite one of his main s1 plots being realising it's okay to want that.

we're never gonna see crystal coming to terms with her past and realising that deep down she's not that person anymore.

we're never gonna see the night nurse being perpetually annoyed at everyone but slowly coming to like them as much as she would never let them know that.

we're never gonna see whether monty or the cat king make a return.

we're never gonna see crystal fully integrated into the agency in london.

we're never gonna see any more silly case antics.

season 2 could have been SO much, but now it's not because netflix ripped it away from everyone.

#ive moved from depression into anger now #doing the 5 stages really out of order #i hate netflix so much #dead boy detectives #dbda #save dead boy detectives #my dbda posts

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homuraakemis · 2 months ago

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Parallels: Jonas and Martha with their parents

#dark netflix #jonas kahnwald #martha nielsen #jonas x martha #katharina nielsen #hannah kahnwald #mikkel nielsen #my edit #my post.#darkedit #the scenes all match but some of the lines are in a different order for jonas and martha #which is why some of these gifs are out of order

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stopper-my-heart · 2 months ago

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Heartstopper S1E1: Charlie looking at Nick

#These are in chronological order from top to bottom (left column then right)#I find the way the left-right match-up of these worked out interesting #Such similar yet contrasting faces and moments #And such change (but also not but also yes) throughout the episode #heartstopper #charlie spring #nick & charlie #nick x charlie #narlie #heartstopper s1 #heartstopper netflix

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blaithnne · 6 months ago

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Local big sister experiences emotions, more at 6

Been wanting to do one of these with Lauren for AGES, but I never got round to it. Then I saw the Lydia and Phinium expression sheets on @littledigits’ website and I felt inspiration like never before.

The funniest struggle I have with Lauren’s design right now is that she nose too big for she got damn face. Literally, Hilda characters noses take up a fairly small portion of their faces, and her’s took up WAY too much, leaving little room for her to make facial expressions. But I struggled to find a fix because when I made the nose smaller it just didn’t look like Lauren anymore, so I took this as an opportunity to work on that!

She still has a larger nose than most characters, starting higher up (like her grandad!) and ending lower down (but not quite as low as before). I also made her eyes a little smaller and with a shape similar to Lydia’s (though you can see in some of these I hadn’t quite landed on that yet and her eyes are a bit too big), which works both as a nod to her parentage and because I think it makes the nose look bigger. This still doesn’t leave as much room for the mouth as most other characters, but that’s okay — Lauren is a very private person who keeps her feelings close to her chest, I think it works for her to have subtler expressions, adds to how guarded she is! Oh and I also updated the shape of her hair slightly, just to make it a bit more style accurate.

These changes are pretty small on their own, but I think combined they work well to make Lauren feel a lot more…alive? Far less stiff, anyway. I think she also has a more unique facial structure now, instead of just “what if Johanna was 90% nose”. She’s still got a big old nose and I love it but now she can emote, yay!

This is really all just concept stuff, I’m hoping to get a new fullbody style-ref for Lauren out soon! Now that I’ve improved the main issues I had with her face in the last ref, now it’s onto the silhouette! I want her to read as more of a strong character (though it comes across decently in her current ref, I wanna push it more without being as exaggerated as Ahlberg, which is. A challenge for me lol), streamline her silhouette, and finally make her taller than Johanna like she’s always meant to have been <3 I made her shorter for so long because I thought it would help her read better as her daughter but you know what? That’s dumb actually, she’s tall.

ANYWAYS, thank you for listening in on the annual Lauren redesign, and to the artists behind the show for posting so much amazing inspiring show stopping concept work for free because it makes my autism worse /pos