#NOT shizun btw. or maybe shizun

[shizunitis]

We should give Bing-ge someone worse and stronger than him to fall in unrequited love with. I wonder what would happen.

[magioftheseas]

svsss has deleted scenes??

Yes! Things initially happened a bit differently after Binghe gave Tianlang-Jun Xin Mo, but mxtx later edited out the scene and changed stuff around.

Here's a translation of the deleted/altered scenes!

I really wish some of this was re-incorporated within, say, the ridge scene but alas. I do like these deleted scenes overall (save for Binghe pulling the "if you didn't want it, you'd kill me". That is not great but at least Shizun's amused by it). What I like is that it's clarified that yes, Binghe is vengeful and spiteful, but he also clings to every drop of kindness he receives in equal measure. It's part of what makes him such an adorable and pathetic little meow meow.

[larothoughts]

qijiu thoughts: complicated codependence

after reading a few more shen jiu fics i figured maybe the diverging point when it comes to fan-interpretation is understanding how codependent qijiu is. like, it's not just qi-ge who won't let go of shen jiu, shen jiu 100% spitefully, unwillingly yet helplessly refuses to let go of qi-ge either. the obvious author answer to this is for sj to remove himself from qi-ge because of toxic codependence (see my rant on anti-qijiu pro-sj fics), except i don't think it's in-character for him to ever do so??

the man literally died twice because he couldn't let go of qi-ge until the very, very end. he'll never give up on him as easily as he does in fic, this man is a canonical stubborn asshole who can't let go of anything. that's his entire problem lol

(first time was obviously after lbh gave him xuan su's shards. sj, who had spent the entire time being tortured refusing to bend, cracks at the realization that qi-ge came this time and died. i forgot if him eating xuan su's shards is canon in the qijiu extras or if it's a fanon theory, but i 100% find this in-character of sj to do as a final f*** you to the universe.)

(second time was the qi deviation that caused shen yuan to take over his life. i'll go over this later, but i believe sqh, who transmigrated decades before, likely tried to nudge qijiu into reconciling and instead made it worse. so while in the og!pidw universe, sj never deviated hard enough to die; in this svsss universe, sqh trying to get sj to face his own heart demons literally caused him to die. oops. system got pretty mad because lbh MUST go into the abyss, and so had to scramble to find a sj replacement lol)

preface

much of this is my own interpretation of things btw. i haven't read the qijiu extras in a while so it's very possible some of these things don't follow canon. especially the whole cognitive dissonance part. i've always leaned towards the 'shen jiu is an unreliable, in-denial narrator of his own story, he can't admit anything to himself until he's literally at death's door' interpretation of sj's tsundereness, so that's 100% my own bias peeking through here.

how qing ding peak made everything worse

this a fanon theory i like that has merit given how long qijiu had problems: things would've been so much different if yue qi wasn't chosen by qing ding. like, literally any other peak, qijiu would've had 75% chance of having a happy ending. i feel like any peak with a halfway decent lord with basic empathy skills would have thought 'hmm yes, if we rescue the friend of this little prodigy we can ensure his loyalty to us for life' instead of 'let's dangle the chance of rescuing his friend as a way to get this kid to work as hard as he can until it's too late, then allow the failure to break him down completely so we can reshape him into the perfect successor.' though to be honest the former sect leader probably didn't expect yue qi to literally be broken down.

my thought is that the sect leader kept putting off the rescue over and over, hoping to drag things out until the inevitable happened. but yue qi, naturally wary of adults, panicked once he realized what his shizun was doing. he tried to pull xuan su without permission to force the leader into acknowledging his strength and letting him go... which then led to the entire soul-binding fiasco we see in canon. sure, the former sect leader could've lost his newest experiment, but throwing him into the caves had the bonus of making him late anyway. so a success all around everyone!

we can further theorize the character of the previous sect leader (and how his grooming of yue qi possibly led to his guilt complex and inability to communicate his honest feelings) but ultimately it was qing ding peak's teachings itself that led to yqy's inability to reconcile with sj. because qing ding is the diplomat's peak. the politics peak. the peak where people often cannot say exactly what they mean, must never overtly show favor to anyone, must control every single thing they do or say else the political fallout ruins their sect's reputation.

so it really didn't help that their reunion happened in the middle of sj committing pretty bad crimes like murdering and looting disciples. yue qi went immediately into political clean-up mode, sj misunderstood yue qi's silence as 'i will never tell you' instead of 'not now sj we need to bury these bodies in the bushes', and then later sj was so scornful yue qi's guilt-complex kicked in and he figured 'sj will never forgive me, obviously he doesn't want to hear excuses.' and as yue qi's political position grew, the less he could overtly support and protect shen jiu. the more careful he was of his words and actions, so far removed from the qi-ge sj once knew that sj can't help but lash out. by the time yqy was mentally well enough to talk about the lingxi cave fiasco (if ever), sj had already built up a protective wall of 'this qi-ge is an imposter, the real qi-ge would not have left me.' and yqy didn't know how to tell him the truth without sj's psyche collapsing in on itself. so... he just continued not to tell him.

in which qi-ge is alive but also dead, as declared by shen jiu

sj barely recognized qi-ge once they reunited. yue qi has always been the peacemaker amongst the rowdy slaves, sure, but he'd always been on sj's side. he told sj everything, things he never told the other slaves, and only really clammed up when they were facing beatings by adults in a true us-versus-them scenario. now, however, he's clamming up with shen jiu. he hates it, this intrinsically qi-ge thing that this fake qi-ge doesn't realize he's doing. more than the shiny clothes and well-fed appearance, this is what makes the chasm between them feel real. qi-ge never came back for him, because qi-ge was dead. cang qiong killed qi-ge and all that's left is this qi-ge puppet going through motions of caring for sj it obviously doesn't understand.

(this is easier for him to accept, because if yue qi wasn't mentally dead than he really did willingly abandon shen jiu in the dirt, and accepting that would make shen jiu lose his mind.)

now what to do when qi-ge is dead and he doesn't need sj to protect him anymore? logically, sj should've stayed long enough to fix his cultivation, save up funds, and then leave to become a rogue cultivator before his past had the chance to catch up to him. but sj is not logical. he's spiteful and angry and contrary. he claws his way up the disciple hierarchy on qing jing and spits in the face of yue qi's awkward overtures. he hates the other qing jing disciples, his own shizun, lqg and a bunch of the other head disciples; in fact, he hates cang qiong as a whole because they were the ones that took qi-ge away from him. but at the end of the day, a dead qi-ge puppet is still kind of qi-ge and even if qi-ge threw sj away that didn't mean the reverse was true. sj will not give even a dead puppet qi-ge up; he belongs to him whether he likes it or not (/spitefully).

so as it becomes clearer and clearer that yue qi will indeed become the next sect leader, sj begrudgingly finds himself stuck in cang qiong. one would think things would get better after the former peak lords ascend, since that meant the evil brainwashing sect leader and the resentful qiu-naming qing jing peak lord would've finally fucked off. but no, things actually get worse.

because now that the former sect leader isn't actively sabotaging qijiu's relationship (sure, he didn't mean to break yue qi's mind that bad, but even the worst broken eggs can be turned into a decent obedient successor, except shen jiu's continued existence is threatening to undo all his hard work) yue qi is more able to try and make overt amends. the problem is, by acting more like the real qi-ge, he's threatening sj's mental defense of 'qi-ge is dead, this qi-ge is a fake.'

when cognitive dissonance gives you qi deviations

the more qi-ge acts like he's honestly sorry, the more shen jiu must accept that qi-ge isn't dead. that he either chose to leave sj behind (devastating given sj's abandonment issues) or was forced to leave sj behind and refused to tell him why (more abandonment issues; does he not trust sj anymore??) worse for peak morale, the more overtly sj rejects yqy, the more annoyed the other peak lords get. doesn't sj know how bad it looks for their sect, to have their top two lords fighting like this?? why is yqy not shutting it down, isn't he a politician?

well yes, but as sect leader he now has the freedom to pick and choose when to put his politicking hat on. lqg follows sqq to a brothel and causes a ruckus in the middle of the street? scold sqq for being so overt, because they both know the best way into the brothel is through the back via code word! they learned how to sneak into brothels as street kids ages ago and sqq could have totally done so discreetly! argue with lqg but refuse to explain himself? sqq please, he can't take your side for no reason, especially in front of all these peak lords who already knows he favors you!!

and because shen jiu is facing the cognitive dissonance of qi-ge's... qi-ge-ness, he sets up tests rigged to fail no matter how yqy responds. this way he is always right! if yqy sides with sj, sj's annoyed because he's clearly trying to placate him like a child. if yqy sides against sj, he's obviously choosing to abandon sj again!!

yqy is fully aware of the trap because yqy is a trained politician capable of reading social cues (and sj hasn't changed all that much from when they were kids, he still has that same spiteful edge to him yqy is so fond of). he intentionally falls for them because (1) he deserves to be hated by sj and (2) being hated by sj keeps him from lashing out too much at the other peak lords. yqy is very used to sj's temper tantrums, it's when he lashes out at other people that things become unmanageable.

(during the latter half of their rule over cang qiong, i feel that yqy learned to stop actively chasing reconciliation. he came around for tea and present-giving, kept things civil, and still let sj get away with all kinds of terrible things. he fell for all of sj's traps with his eyes wide open and it infuriates sj, everything about this drives him mad. he doesn't want this soft, unspoken affection, because this was how qi-ge used to handle sj's tsundereness back when they were on the streets. it's another sign that qi-ge is still qi-ge, and this fact brings sj both selfish comfort and undeniable agony.)

it's an awkward balancing act that continues to sour sj's reputation with the other peak lords, but it's mostly manageable until sqh sticks his nose into their business and pushes sj over the edge.

how transmigrators ruin everything

"maybe yqy did something impulsive, did you think of that? why can't you forgive him, he tried so hard? aren't you tired of being angry all the time?" bitch no, sj has been keeping the worst of the qi deviations away for years by performing mental gymnastics around his walls of denial stOP KNOCKING THEM DOWN. Even worse, lbh arrives on the peak and shen jiu hates him. not just because he's got all the potential shen jiu had stolen away from him, but he's so glad to be here. he's making his mother proud. all while shen jiu was dragged here essentially against his will, trapped himself in this bamboo prison out of spite, and then realized the dead thing he's been looking after for decades isn't dead after all. that qi-ge actually did, for realsies, leave him at the qius. that all these overtures, the silent acceptance of his faults, everything could just be out of guilt (qi-ge is ashamed of him) and not out of a ghost reenacting its former lingering affection (the real qi-ge would've still loved him.)

the dissonance, abandonment issues, frustration and everything culminates in a devastating qi deviation. ironically, now that yqy's rule is mostly secure and sj's reputation has soured enough to start negatively affecting the sect, sj finally feels safe enough to let go. in this moment of emotional clarity, sj finally releases qi-ge from his grasp and decides to die.

that was not supposed to happen.

qi-ge's no good, very bad sacrifice

in another universe where og!sqh was too busy plotting to betray cang qiong mountain, the frosty and emotionally charged stand-off between yqy and sj continues for years. then, lqg dies. i'm torn between yqy believing sj killed lqg or not. either way, i don't think he'd be 'disappointed' in sj as portrayed in some fics. i also don't think it would infuriate sj that yqy thinks he's capable of killing lqg, because if anyone knows how much of a murder kitten shen jiu is, it's yqy. maybe he's offended yqy thinks him dumb enough to kill him in such a sloppy way. maybe he's even more offended that this turns the other peak lords against him and yqy just lets it happen.

or maybe (through my qijiu-tinted glasses) it pisses him off that yqy does tell the peak lords that they should all stand together, and the other peak lords ignore him and hate sj anyway. they're disrespecting yqy because they think he is compromised, and sj worked too goddamn hard to solidify yqy's position to have it undone by a murder he didn't even do.

(ironically, if lqg was alive he'd tell the other peak lords to f*** off for disobeying yqy. lqg's canon respect for yqy is something i feel needs more acknowledgement, likely because i feel half the reason they don't get along is because of sj's utter disrespect of their sect leader. who cares if sj is a street rat or the son of a wealthy family, no one disrespects yue-shixiong!)

now the story of sj's road to becoming lbh's plaything is a well-worn track that everyone knows. i do subscribe to the idea that sj took one look at huan hua's eagerness, lbh's vendetta, and yqy's recklessness and made the same decision he did in the svsss verse: he'd rather qi-ge be free (happy) than dead. this is a battle he cannot win, and he'll be damned if he lets lbh drag cang qiong down with him. when yqy promises him he'll save him from the water prison, sj spits in his face and tells him for the final time that xiao jiu and qi-ge are both dead. he let sj go decades ago, and now sj is letting qi-ge go in return.

sj faces the torture with the tenacious spirit of someone who'd withstood worse torture for years. in fact, he's a bit impressed by lbh taking revenge on him the same way sj took revenge on qiu jianluo. either way, even with more than 50% of his body missing, sj faces his fate in utter defiance. and then lbh shows up with xuan su.

the reveal of qi-ge's failed rescue and demise was devastating for a lot of reasons. most obviously, sj's sacrifice to keep cang qiong safe from the fallout was a failure. everything he'd done and sacrificed to keep qi-ge safe, all the scorn he'd borne as the hated qing jing peak lord was thrown away because qi-ge wanted to be a moron.

the other reason why sj broke was because qi-ge did come for him. he simply failed. and the tiny part of him that always suspected qi-ge was still qi-ge now has confirmation that all those years ago, qi-ge likely did the same. he came for him at the qius, but he failed. the only difference now is lbh's willingness to tell him the truth vs. yqy's decades-long silence. the only difference now is that yqy is actually, physically dead.

sj has been living on borrowed time ever since he looked the new yqy (fake qi-ge) in the eyes and allowed himself to be brought to cang qiong mountain. everything he did was to elevate himself into a position where no one could hurt him (and qi-ge) anymore, the same way he'd acted back when they were on the streets. now that he was in this state and qi-ge was dead, his time was clearly up. and sj refuses to let lbh have the last laugh. as much as he respected lbh for his ruthlessness, it's not enough to stave off sj's spite. he didn't let qjl control him in the end, and he won't let lbh do so either.

final thoughts

some last, disorganized thoughts on qijiu's relationship

rather than yqy telling sj what happened, i think showing him the scars all over his body would be much more impactful. sj knows how worthless words can be; he's likely prefer being able to touch each scar and check the meridians for himself. yqy doesn't need to say a word, his entire body is a testament to the torture he'd endured.

ironically, sj fixing up cang qiong as a tactician and his personal refusal to put himself in weak situations made yqy incapable of showing his care through action. all of his crises were political/reputation-based/etc. all things qing ding's teachings guaranteed yqy to fail all his speech-checks. and yqy is definitely not the type of person to engineer a false crisis just to swoop in to save sj... not because of any moral reasons, but because risking sj in any way would be absolutely unacceptable. in yqy's world, it's sj > the sect > good morals. he does have good morals, yes, but he's also pragmatic and self-aware enough to know when to put the things he cares about first.

there was a theory i read before about yqy and sj's trauma responses being to shut down and say nothing in the face of accusations, and i agree with this. saying nothing often netted less punishment than 'making excuses.' even without this coping mechanism, the mental trauma of having his mind and body broken could've easily stopped yqy from being able to even speak around the topic for years. if he doesn't talk about it and no one sees his scars, he can pretend it never happened. sj's scorn of him is forever a sign that it did happen, but that's fine, he's always made exceptions for shen jiu.

i don't really know where the uncomfortably-creepy-no-boundaries yqy towards sy came from? in the original novel sy clearly like yqy and views him in a positive, big-brother-shape light. even towards the end of the novel when yqy confesses, sy feels more guilty for being an imposter than angry that yqy failed sj. yqy even steps aside for lbh thinking 'well, at least sqq is happy now' because that's what he wanted for sj for so, so long. for him to be happy, even if that meant forgetting qi-ge.

(the no-boundaries thing is something i disagree with in general, because i think yqy's political and social training would make that very unlikely. he doesn't call sqq xiao-jiu as often as he does in fics, i think he did so in canon because he was delirious and exhausted post-drawing-xuan-su. i figured qijiu's latter years cooled off a bit as yqy realized direct overtures weren't working and went the coaxing-stray-cat route to everyone else's befuddlement.)

does qi-ge know sy is not sj? i can go either way with this. the theory that he does know but he's repressing it out of his own mental wellbeing is intriguing; but so is him assuming sj losing his memories means sy is a different person. which means he's always been happier without qi-ge. either way, i do believe yqy no longer views sqq-y the same as sqq-j. after the first few years post-qi-deviation, i think yqy is emotionally mature enough to realize sy is here to stay and that the sj he once knew (either because of his lost memories or whole-soul transplantation) is gone.

i am a qijiu shipper, but i do also like platonic qijiu. my only prerequisite for any other-ship-jiu fic is some kind of qijiu reconciliation. i honestly don't think either of them would have good romantic relationships unless they fix their own relationship first. qi-ge can't marry someone, that would remove sj from being the most important person on qi-ge's list. despite scorning him, sj being number one is one of the only things holding sj together throughout their divorce era. sj cannot marry anyone because that would give qi-ge the false impression that sj is happy and qi-ge is now free. and qi-ge is not allowed to be free. he will belong to sj for as long as sj wants and nothing is allowed to interfere with that impression. lol both of these are sj-based, but sj's always been the dominant party in this relationship. whether or not qi-ge is jealous of sj's new lover is irrelevant; as long as sj is happy, the og!sj-simp qi-ge is also happy.

i have too many qijiu thoughts and not enough time to write a fic about them, alas. i find their relationship fascinating and very integral to their personalities no matter the au or ship.

[olderthannetfic]

You know since I see this constantly brought up when anyone talks about Chinese novels, especially danmei and the tropes used, and one of the asks brought this back to the forefront again.

It's great that some of you have read MXTX's works, but you do realize that you're allowed to read danmei novels from other Chinese authors. And you're also allowed to talk about them. Just because MXTX's novels have the biggest fandoms out there in the West, doesn't mean that literally every vague mention of Chinese tropes or any mention of danmei is by default and exclusively about MXTX.

I love MXTX's novels as well, I enjoy rereading them, but I've also read and am reading novels from other Chinese danmei authors. Recently I'm reading the official Priest and Meatbun translations, and it's getting ridiculous with how many people take any vague mention of a danmei novel, or even just a mention of Chinese novels and common tropes in general and with full conviction claim it must be about MXTX instead of some of the hundreds of fan translated danmei or some of the tens of officially translated novels you can find. Especially when trying to avoid spoilers by being a bit vague.

There are actually small fandoms for these other novels as well, yeah maybe there are only a few hundred or thousand fics for them instead of like 100k+ combined, but that doesn't mean they don't exist.

I completely get that if you mention something that also happened in MXTX's work that most people will probably immediately point towards her works. But that doesn't mean that her works are 100% the answer just because in the West she has the biggest following. MXTX's works also have several common tropes that you can find in the works of other authors, that doesn't mean every time one of those tropes is mentioned it's about her works, or at least not JUST about her works. I think the main reason this irks me so much is because people start building a huge strawman because they've convinced themselves that it must be MXTX no matter what you say and there's just no way that it could be anything but MXTX, because they just don't read anything else. Don't get me started on show-series only people, they often don't even seem to realize that other Chinese danmei authors and stories exist period.

Spoilers used as an example: If I say "Shizun fucker pining after his dead Shizun." Of course people are gonna point at SVSSS first because it's a bigger fandom. Well but maybe this was about Mo Ran and Chu Wanning from Husky and his white cat Shizun instead, a smaller but still comparatively big fandom. But you have even smaller fandoms around novels with that premise. You'd actually be surprised about how many Shizun fuckers pining for their dead Shizun novels there are out there tbh. You can do the exact same thing for transmigration btw.

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[iwanttofuckereh69]

I'm on chapter 25 of The Husky and His White Cat Shizun so i will list my assumptions here

I kinda seen some spoilers i think, but i might have gotten totally wrong idea

Chu Wanning isn't as bad as Mo Ran sees him, he probably has a softer side to him

I don't know how they will end up being the main couple, i don't see it at all xD Like, sure, Mo Ran lusts over him, but... that seems very twisted and it doesnt come from a place of love and affection and admiration

speaking of love and admiration, the way he is gentle towards Shi Mei makes me giggle and kick my feet. He's so awestruck its lovely.

there had to be something more to Shi Mei death. Chu Wanning has already been shown to care for his disciples, especially Shi Mei. He wouldn't want him to die, i don't think so. Either he couldn't help him or maybe he knew something about Shi Mei, Mo Ran didn't. Would Shi Mei betray Mo Ran? Did Chu Wanning care more about Mo Ran and didn't want to let that happen? I don't even want to think about it! I love Shi Mei, he's such a precious little thing stuck between fucked up individuals that is Mo Ran and their shizun.

Or Chu Wanning is more ruthless than i thought and he deliberately let Shi Mei die just because he didn't want Mo Ran to love anyone else

They are all just unbelieveably and royally fucked up (apart from Shi Mei my precious)

I have no words for Mo Ran, let alone for Chu Wanning

Did his mom beat him as a kid to turn out the way he did

Cus goddamn chill bro

Either way im super into this book

also i think there will be a lot of pain and misery i don't think im ready for that

Btw if i grabbed the attention of anyone in 2ha fandom: is the MTL of the latter chapters any good? I'm scared i will be sucked into it and finish reading before the rest of the books will come out. I really like the seven seas translation so far, the language is really pretty. I don't want to ruin my experience but i want to know the story....

[bloomingapricots]

dream anon here, finally sending asks to the right @ (that's still so embarrassing ahh) I didn't really intend it to be a request lol, I just wanted to share a funny thing :D

the nyanjiu I mentioned was shen jiu being an actual cat (I think dream me was thinking about @/sanadamusio on Twitter's nyanjiu (here's one of the tweets: https://twitter.com/sanadamusio/status/1720319766345433167?t=h-BqdYeps3pTa8uOwIWYHQ&s=19)

as for binghe, I'm not quite sure, I think either would be quite funny, but maybe bingge living through the original pidw and then transported to this alternate universe that has sqq!reader (who has also lived through their own au version of pidw but gets transported back to before shit hits the fan)? imagine seeing your shizun as a cat and then this stranger is now your "shizun" lmao-

At least it was still the right person. And I follow that artist, it's a super cute comic. Poor Shang Qinghua, witnessing his martial sibling and LBH being dramatic with a cat. btw I was slapped with inspirations so have this 2,000 worddump

Alone in the Bamboo Grove

Updated here first at AO3

From Anon:

"peak lord reader, either a time traveller (lived through all of the events of pidw) or a transmigrator, nyan jiu as their pet (apparently normal for peak lords to just have pets), and transmigrator luo binghe"

Summary:

You awaken in an alleyway after saving your friend Shen Jiu. You are back in the past but things are different. Your Shidi is just an innocent cat now. And you are not the only one who went back.

The reader is called Dúzhě (读者) which means “reader”

Duzhe will have the surname Mò (墨) in the beginning and later have the surname Shen

Duzhe is referred to as neutrally as possible

Warning; Violence and death in the beginning, mention of torture,

One foot in front of the other. A trail of blood follows you as your back and sides throb and bleed from your stab wounds and slashes. You continued to endure, you need to see Shen Jiu at least once. From what you heard, you probably will accompany Shen Jiu to the afterlife as you doubt you will survive your wounds and your old friend has been tortured ruthlessly. You reach a door that you know in your heart that Shen Jiu is behind it. You slowly open that door and see a limbless body hanging. You slowly approach your limbless.

“Shen-” You were about to call for Shen Jiu until you felt pain in your right leg and you fell.

“Ah, an interloper has entered the palace,” A chilling voice stated behind you, the Demon Emperor Luo Binghe no doubt. Luo Binghe stepped around you to stand in front of you. “This disciple greets Hallmaster Mo,“

“Luo… Binghe,” You mumbled.

“Hallmaster Mo, won’t you greet this disciple back?” Luo Binghe slammed his foot on your back and you coughed out blood. Your vision began to blur which made shaky unfurl your left hand. Two talismans made by a demon named Zhuzhi-lang will teleport you and Shen Jiu out of the palace and he will also cause a distraction for Luo Binghe as a favor for helping him free the previous demon emperor Tianlang-jun. As Luo Binghe was about to speak you shaky launched a talisman to Shen Jiu and quickly teleported the two of you out the Luo Binghe’s palace.

“Master Mo!” Zhuzhi-lang called as he watched you and Shen Jiu land on the bed.

“...I think it’s time to part ways Zhuzhi-lang, thank you.” You curled around Shen Jiu. Zhuzhi-lang looked at you for a moment then turned to look away.

“Goodbye, Master Mo. I will make sure to burn your and Master Shen's bodies as well as hide your and Master Shen’s ashes from Emperor Luo Binghe,” Zhuzhi-lang said and before he left the room, he poured poison into your and Shen Jiu’s mouth. It will make you drowsy and pass away once you close your eyes. You shakily lay a hand on Shen Jiu's cheek and brush his hair away from his face.

“Shixiong apologized for being late, Jiu-er. Shixiong… Shixiong…….” You did not get to finish your thoughts as you drifted off.

Luo Binghe was never able to find you and Shen Jiu or your ashes as Zhuzhi-lang and Tianlang-jun hid them under the blue shining soul-sucking tree[1]. The tree eats any souls but pure demon souls, not even Luo Binghe can get close to the tree because of being a half-demon as the tree would start sucking on his human half.

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You open your eyes and stare at your lap. You look around, you are in an alley and a child again.

“Meow,” A cat with white fur and familiar green eyes stared at you as they placed a paw on your leg. You quietly sobbed as you hugged the cat.

“Hahaha, I don’t know if this is a good or bad thing,” You hysterically cried in the alley for a while.

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You heard a crash and shouts. You slowly got up with Nyan Jiu and walked toward the probably trouble. From where you stood, you witnessed a young Yue Qi being thrown and his friend being taken. Ah, the moment when Shen Jiu was taken to the Qiu family, you thought. You petted Nyan Jiu in your arms. But Shen Jiu no longer exists here. You slowly walked up to Yue Qi.

“Gege,” You mumbled.

“A-Zhe,” Yue Qi looked at you with watery eyes. You held out Nyan Jiu to him and he took Shen Jiu in his arms and cried into Nyan Jiu’s fur.

“We should go,” You look to where Cang Qiong Mountain is. “If you want to grow stronger, you must learn how to,” You heard Yue Qi sniff then get up. He hands you back Nyan Jiu and holds your left hand.

“Let’s go,” Yue Qi stated. A different beginning compared to the past, a missing person who will never be here in the present, and an unknown future is ahead of you.

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“You, what is this one’s name,” Qing Jing Peak Lord asked. You paused in your digging and looked up, the Peak Lord was standing and staring in front of you. You looked down at where Nyan Jiu resting.

“This one is… Shen Duzhe,” You answered.

“From now on, Shen Duzhe is a disciple of Qing Jing Peak,”

—

“A-Zhe, I became the head disciple of Qiong Ding Peak,” Yue Qi announced over tea time. You smiled and cheered. You had thought Yue Qi would rush like in your previous life to save Qiu Jianluo’s victim but since the kid was not Shen Jiu, and you were pretty sure the kid was the brat that picked fights with Shen Jiu often, Yue Qi is progressing steadily and smoothly.

And since becoming a Qing Jing disciple, you can help but think that you have taken Shen Jiu’s place which was irrational as you were also a Qing Jing disciple in your previous life.

“Meow,” Nyan Jiu jumped on the table.

“Ah!” Yue Qi yelped in surprise. Nyan Jiu’s head softly bumped against your hand leading to you petting Nyan Jiu. Yue Qi smiled as he watched you pet Nyan Jiu “I’m glad Shigu allowed you to keep him,”

“Hm,” You nodded “Shizun even acknowledged Nyan Jiu as a disciple,”

“A-Zhe” Yue Qi laughed.

—

As you watched Yue Qi gets his courtesy name announced and received his hair crown. You cannot help but feel a little melancholy, remembering your previous life during this time. Shen Jiu felt validated but also unhappy.

“The new Peak Lord of Qing Jing Peak, Shen Qingqiu,” You elegantly walked up the stage and stood in front of your Shizun. You bowed to her then bowed to the other peak lords. You kneeled facing the crowd and stilted yourself as you Shizun undone your ponytail, combed your hair in a half-do, and attached a hair crown. You ended up dissociated through the whole ceremony and after the party.

“Meow,” Nyan Jiu rubbed his head against your leg after you slipped out from the party to stargaze. Nyan Jiu joined you on the rock you had chosen as your set. He curled in your lap as you silently cried your sorrows away.

—

“Shizun…” You voiced muffled by the table you were laying your head on. Your Shizun ascending was still upsetting a second time around. You felt Nyan Jiu curled around your head as you cried on your Shizun’s desk.

“Shen Jiu, a world without you is lonely,” You close your eyes as Nyan Jiu purrs making you drift off to sleep.

Yue Qi would later find you and carry you to your new bed in the bamboo house.

—

It is time to meet Luo Binghe. You stared subtly at the fluffy head of the future demon emperor.

“Shizun!” Ning Yingying called and waved as she walked up to you. “Yingying wants a Shidi or Shimei!” She stated. You hummed and turned to look at your junior brother next to you.

“Liu-shidi, which disciple is promising?” You asked. Even though you are Shen Qingqiu now, you are not Shen Jiu nor as jaded as he was. So your relationship with your martial arts siblings was heaps better compared to Shen Jiu’s. 

“That child with over there has a lot of potential, Shixiong,” Liu Qingge pointed to Luo Binghe. Of course, you thought. Look at Ning Yingying, tilt your head as a silent gesture to go to Luo Binghe. She smiled and nodded.

“Thank you, Sizhun!” She happily walked towards Luo Binghe and you followed her.

“Hello! I’m your Shijie, Ning Yingying. Qing Jing Peak Lord Shen Qingqiu has chosen you as their disciple,” Ning Yingying introduced herself and you to Luo Binghe. You immediately noticed that the slightly widened eye look was not one of innocent surprise but of unexpected change. You can see his dark eyes staring at you as he observes how different you are from Shen Jiu. You snapped your fan open to cover the bottom of your face.

“What is this one name?” You asked.

“This one is named Luo Binghe,” He replied after a moment. You closed your eyes and turned away from him.

“Ning Yingying, see to his accommodations and supplies,” You commended.

“Yes, Shizun,” Ning Yingying despite your multiple one-on-one etiquette lessons dragged Luo Binghe away.

–

Demon Emperor Luo Binghe opened his eyes to dirt and a shovel in his hands. He observed his small hands as he subconsciously started digging. He successfully went back in time. He can-

“Hello! I’m your Shijie, Ning Yingying. Qing Jing Peak Lord Shen Qingqiu has chosen you as their disciple,” The youthful voice of a young Ning Yingying greeted Luo Binghe. He looked at the young Ning Yingying but paused at the person next to her. Shen Qingqiu? he thought. However, the person next to Ning Yingying was what he remembered as a hallmaster who treated him neutrally. Luo Binghe does not know if he should be thankful or angry about that. Not his scummy Shen Qingqiu snapped open their fan, how familiar, and asked for his name.

“This one is named Luo Binghe,” Luo Binghe replied.

“Ning Yingying, see to his accommodations and supplies,” Shen Qingqiu commended after turning away from him. A slight fury rolled in his stomach but Ning Yingying dragged him away from Shen Qingqiu and his thoughts.

—

This timeline is so much different from Luo Binghe’s previous life.  Qing Jing Peak was a lot more friendly to Luo Binghe, he had his room with only one roommate, he was not bullied, and while Ming Fan was not head disciple, he was the one to run the male dormitory, he did not bully Luo Binghe. Ming Fan was far too busy for Luo Binghe to see him for most of the day.

The person who is called Shen Qingqiu was different from his Shen Qingqiu. The Shen Qingqiu here while cold was not as ruthless as his Shen Qingqiu. They did not pour tea on him like his scummy Sizhun. Their go-to harsh punishment was free labor for the village at the bottom of the mountain. Luo Binghe also noticed how kind this Shen Qingqiu was. He saw Shen Qingqiu in the kitchen one night cooking a large serving of egg soup, mumbling to themself about how his disciple needed to grow up strong and well.

Luo Binghe has mixed feelings. His scum of a Shizun is no longer here to pay for all the pain he inflicted on Luo Binghe but he now has a nice Shizun like that other Luo Binghe had. The Shen Qingqiu here may not be dotting but they cared. When Shen Qingqiu stumbled upon Luo Binghe out at night contemplating, they just signed and scolded him.

There was Shen Qingqiu’s cat who had his scum of  Shizun’s green eyes. Luo Binghe heard Shen Qingqiu call it Nyan Jiu and that cat hissed at him whenever saw him. He cannot do anything as the last person who maliciously messed with Shen Qingqiu’s cat, the merchant had misfortune after misfortune cast upon him.

—

As the Immortal Alliance Conference neared, you decided to confront Luo Binghe. You heard a knock on your door and you could feel the Qi was Luo Binghe’s.

“Come in,” You said. Luo Binghe slid open your door and closed it behind him after entering the room. A talisman slid out from your sleeve, flew past Luo Binghe without his knowledge, and attached itself to your front door.

“This Disciple Luo greets his Sizhun,” Luo Binghe bowed. You nodded in acknowledgment. He began preparing tea for your discussion.

“This master has entered Luo Binghe in the Immortal Alliance Conference, this master expects that their disciple won’t disappoint this master,” You started right after Luo Binghe poured you tea.

“Yes, Shizun,” Luo Binghe replied. You started at Luo Binghe for a moment, taking in the Luo Binghe who is your disciple as your next words would no doubt change him.

“So, how long has Junshang been here?” You asked.

“Shizun?” Luo Binghe question.

“Please, I was the second choice as Qing Jing's head disciple in the previous timeline, and now was Qing Jing’s head disciple, then became Qing Jing’s Peak Lord. You're not fooling me, Luo Binghe,” After your last words you moved as Luo Binghe launched at you. With a hand gesture, immortal binding cables sprung out from under your desk and tied up Luo Binghe.

“I should have expected that Shen Qingqiu would always be a scum,” Luo Binghe said. You silently stared at Luo Binghe as he struggled.

“And one who cannot love themself cannot love others,” You stated.

“...What?” Luo Binghe questioned as it was out of nowhere.

“The Shen Jiu and Luo Binghe who continued the cycle of abuse, out of blinding hatred of the world and self,” You sat on Luo Binghe, pulled out a vial, you forced him to drink it. It caused Luo Binghe to go to sleep and witness Shen Jiu’s past. Once more, you have helped Zhuzhi-lang and Tianlang-jun and in return will help you in your quest. Now you wait for Luo Binghe to wake up.

You carried Luo Binghe to your side room and laid him on the bed. Yo tucked him in and gently brushed his hair away from his face. Depending on how he reacted, information will be given to you via snake from another dream demon, you will either act as if you found Luo Binghe passed out from stress or you will try once more to wash away his heart demons.

“Can you let go Luo Binghe? Or will still walk of heart?” You mumbled to yourself.

“Meow,” Nyan Jiu jumped on the bed and went on your lap. You gently pet him as always.

“If you could talk you would call me a fool, Shidi,”

[1] Imagine a willow tree with black bark and blue glowing leaves.

[uyjji]

Hello this my first fanfication in English. Im sorry if my English is bad, hope you enjoy it.

Btw this not ship FF, i can't ship the young character cause they still too young and manga is too dark. 🙏

The night is so beutifull, but the sky isn't more beautiful than all womans in Yakiniku Q.

Lady Tsunade was come too Konoha after several time. She ask for all "girls" too eat and drunk in Yakiniku Q.

Now Shizune, Temari, Sakura,Ino, Hinata and Karui sit together in that place. Tenten can't come now beccause she was on mission in Kumogakure.

Lady Tsunade smile while see the girls her meet grow up beccome mom even there 2 new face now. But while she thinking again that just only 1 face, cause she meet Temari since her young age too.

While she see all of them talk, eat yakiniku and drunk. She thinking something weird question in her mind.

Tsunade : Girls can i ask you some funny question?

The girls see lady Tsunade that time.

Hinata : What is that?

Tsunade : Sakura, Hinata, and Karui. All of you have daughter right? And Temari, Ino and Hinata you have son too.

Sakura : Why you asking that Shisho? Isn't that obvious?

Shizune : No that not, all of you look like 20th years single girls. Esspecially Ino.

Ino did pose and make everyone laugh at that.

Tsunade : Back of topic, can i ask a question?

All of "girls" see her with serious face.

Tsunade : Hinata, Sakura and Karui all of you need answer my question in same time.

Sakura, Karui, and Hinata look her verry serious now.

Tsunade : If your daughter will marry your friends son, who is he?

Sakura, Karui, Hinata : SHIKADAI...

Everyone look at Temari in sametimes.

Ino : WTF why no one choice my beautiful son?

Hinata : It's ok Ino-chan, theres no one who choice Boruto too.

Her smile with angellic face. (OH I MiSS HER)

Sakura : Inojin, is beautifful but who want her daughter get married with boy who with sharp tounge like that? The most important his father in law is have same sharp tounge too.

Ino : Ah, i can't denied that. He was Sai in blonde hair.

The hall is full of the laugh now.

Shizune : So back too topic, so why Shikadai?

Temari sit there with bossy pose.

Temari : So girls, tell me the reason.

Sakura : So let me first. Shikadai was really smart, kind and he was the first chunnin in his generation like Shikamaru. But to be honest I want Sarada meet his destiny by her self. So sorry Temari-san.

Temari : Great idea, but why i feel like get rejected?

Everyone in that room laugh while see Temari reaction.

Hinata : Ok let me do it. Shikadai is really carrying person even he was only child in family he give older brother vibe. He was care with Boruto, he always said Boruto don't do something bad cause that can make Naruto name bad too. He look like Boruto older brother even he was younger than Boruto. Maybe that the reason.

Tsunade : That look like you want Shikadai marry Boruto than Himawari.

Temari : I'm sorry Hinata, i can't let my son marry Boruto. Temari talk that when she try not laugh .

All girls can't handle Temari face and laugh together now.

Karui : So the last is me, let talk with serious lady Temari.

She said that while she sit front of Temari. That make really fun and serious time.

Karui: Listen lady Temari, forget Inoshikacho tradition. Our husband is bestfriend since the child. Our child together since they baby. Let's beccome family.

Everyone give serious face, even Temari. That look like Shikadai get married proposal in 12 years old.

Karui : The most important, he have a lott money. He almost always pay for his teammeates and he have small portion eating. So Chocho can eat more and more. Hahahhahaha.........

Temari : Absolitelly no. You can't get my son, he will get malnutrition.

Everyone in that room laugh really hard with that session

They maybe grow up, getting older even get more but they still same. They enjoyed they live. For several time that make me happy too have longer live. TSUNADE SENJU

End.....

[birbfeeder2artisticboogaloo]

thousand autumns donghua, episode 14~

(episode 14 already??? IS IT ALMOST OVER?? OH NOOO I’M HAVING TOO MUCH FUN ;A;)

AH our intrepid duo have arrived at bixia sect!!!

aww the cute bby likes the scener--OH MY GOD EVERYONE IS DEAD

OH NOOOO THIS IS TERRIBLE!!! WTF???!??

i am glad that shiwu is getting some extra trauma btw, it'd be a shame if he had a normal childhood after all this

YAN WUSHI'S EYES WENT ALL PURPLE!!

he frowmn >:( like dis >:(

oh!!! my son is here MY SON IS HERE HI BBY!!!!

UH. wow the old man wiping blood off his mouth in a. kinda sexy manner??? hawt. 😳😳😳

yu shengyan all worried about him ;A; the letter, all symbolically splattered with blood ;A; wHAT A SCENE

is this a flashback??

ruan hailou!!! idk u yet but my opinion is low bc u and pu anmi are killing these ppl who seem v nice

AAAAHHHH TOO MANY NAMES!!! i'm getting a bit overwhelmed by all the introductions!! i’ll try my best, but pls forgive me if i get names wrong or miss a few ;A;

yue kunchi, ok he's a disciple here....that miniature chinstrap beard thing on him is....a choice 👀

also some of these other dudes have got like,,,,,,,sort of khitan style hair arrangements?? they look rad tho 💅

GIRL NO DON'T PROTECC HIM WITH UR BODY!!!

OHHH it's not a flashback!! SHEN QIAO ARRIVES JUST IN TIME TO HELP!!!!

lmao ruan hailou thinks he's the main character, it's very cute

ahh is pu anmi from the south then?? his animations are rly good actually, like i can just FEEL the disdain dripping off him, i can imagine him as an actual human in a live-action drama like, i've seen ppl do these....movements!! I LIKE IT!!!

ooh they gonna fight?? they gonna fight 😤

EWWWWWW HE LICKED THE SWORD!! DONT LICK UR SWORD MAN!! DO U KNOW HOW MANY DISEASES ARE BLOOD-BORNE. DO U WANT EVERY HEPATITIS. UR NOT SAFE FROM PLAGUE SIR

aww yisss now they fighting >:D

OH SHIT SHEN QIAO IS SHOWING HIM UP

FIGHTING TWO AT ONCE???? GET EM SHEN QIAO!!!! U ARE SUCH A BADASS SHEN QIAO!!!!

shen qiao is the epitome of 'float like a butterfly, sting like a bee' today with his gentle winds ability!!! such beautiful martial arts!! 🤩

i love how there's always a guy describing the fight for us, the audience lmao 🤣 like a sports announcer or something, but for martial arts 🤣

FUCK YEAH THIS FIGHT SCENE GOES SO HARD!!!! THIS IS GREAT!!!!

WOOOOOO!!!!

Zhao Chiying!!! A LADY SECT LEADER!!! she is beautiful omg ;A; she is so pretty and graceful ;A; they all respect her so much ;A;

bixia disciples: great to see u zongzhu!! ur killing it zongzhu!! :D

lol ruan hailou looks like he just saw his ex at a party. awwwkwarrrrdddd

OH SHIT ZHAO CHIYING IS KNEELING TO THIS LOSER?????

she is so polite!!! she's a better man than i tbh!! i would never bc i am impolite as fuck :D couldn't be me luv, couldn't be me 😌👌

SUCH HONOUR. SUCH DIGNITY.

ohhh was........was ruan hailou accused of assaulting the previous master's daughter?? but he didn't do it, and he was wrongfully exiled from bixia sect?? maybe the subtitles are a bit unclear, or maybe i'm a bit dumb, or maybe it's both (it's probably both lol)

aaaawwwwww the disciples love her so much ;A;

OH GREAT EVERYONE IS NOW CRYING

wtf is even happening anymore??? im so confused lol

lol yeah girl u could have intervened BEFORE ur disciples got killed but whatever

now pu anmi is a prisoner to bixia sect!!! they have ONE DUDE, one SKINTY DUDE, taking him away, unrestrained. that won’t end poorly at all (unless the plot declares otherwise lol 🤣)

pu anmi: U GUYS SUCK!! MY SHIZUN WILL RESCUE ME!! AND UR STUPID BOYFRIEND YAN WUSHI IS GONNA DIE!!! >:(

shen qiao: :(  but we're not friends anymore :(

OH SHIT IS THIS GUY GONNA KILL HIMSELF???? DON'T DO IT BRO WAIT WAIT

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OH MY GOD HE JUST

HE JUST WENT OVER THE CLIFF LIKE

THAT WAS SO FUCKING SAD???? IDEK WHAT HIS DEAL WAS BUT WAS THIS REALLY THE ANSWER??? poor fucking man, he was a twat but like........i feel quite bad for the man!! nobody deserves to feel that there's no way out besides taking their own life ._. even if u have done really bad things....u can do better! as long as ur alive, things can change!!!

poor shiwu....standing by the table, wiping his tears....he's seen SO much ;A; my poor bby boyyyy i wanna hug him ;A; COME TO BIRB'S WINGS, CHILD!! I SHALL SHIELD YE FROM HARM!!! :V

shen qiao: well i brought shifu's kid all the way here :)

zhao chiying: yyyeah about that. can u keep him actually??

shen qiao: u couldn't have told me this BEFORE WE WALKED ALL THE WAY HERE?? :) whatever fine i'll keep him, he's mine now :)

AWWWW SHIWU'S KOWTOW WAS SO EXCITED!!! HE'S SO HAPPY OMG!!!!! SWEET CUTE BABBY ;A;

HE SNATCH THE TEA FROM ZHAO CHIYING BC HE'S SO EAGER TO HAND IT OVER OH MY GODDDD ;A;

btw are his parents and sister dead now?? his old man's probably in gaol for taking another child hostage but his mum and sister were starving to death on a bridge. do u suppose they sold him to zhu lengquan. do u think they got a good price

shen qiao: btw can i stay over ur place?? i need to kill a man :)

zhao chiying: sure why not lol

[baoshan-sanren]

So thanks to your metas I've finally read SV in like 3 days and now I'm back with a question. Let's say if hypothetically SJ and YQY talked things out and by some miracle SJ wouldn't abuse LBH, do you think that LBH would fall in love with SJ as well given that he'd always thought his Shizun was beautiful, elegant and untouchable. Do you think his feelings would grow into something more with time? I'm living for your takes on blnovels. Thanks in advance

Idk if you can start with SJ not abusing LBH, I think you would have to start with Qiu Jianluo not abusing SJ, or maybe even earlier than that, before he was sold into the Qiu household by human traffickers. To me, there’s no conceivable way where the same SJ who walks away from the carnage at Qiu's Mansion with Wu Yanzi, and later enters the Cang Qiong Mountain, would turn out to be some type of kind and benevolent shizun on par with SY. We don’t get a lot of detailed descriptions of his time with Wu Yanzi, but there is no indication that he enters Cang Qiong Mountain with any intention to give up his festering resentments, regardless of whether YQY can give him a reasonable explanation for never returning or not. 

Look, SJ found himself in the shitty situation in Qiu household because he had been trying to protect YQY. That, on its own, shows he was not yet the heartless villain that the later events would forge him into. But this particular rant of his is also very telling:  

“Of course it’s all your fault! I blame you. We weren’t close with those newcomers, so what if we were stepped on a little? Why did you have to play hero! Are you afraid that people like us with such lowly lives can’t bear it?! If you hadn’t played hero, why would I have helped you? If I hadn’t helped you, how would I have provoked him, and how would that Qiu guy have ended up buying me?! If he hadn’t bought me, how would I have become like this?! Every two days I get beat up a little bit and every three days I get beat up a lot━he plays me like I’m a dog!”

SJ is very young here, but the difference between him and YQY is starkly obvious. MXTX makes use of this dynamic, this clash of personalities, in both SVSSS, MDZS, and TGCF. “Why did you have to play the hero” should be familiar line to readers of MDZS too, and despite some fan opinions, it’s just not... what the so called “good guy” in the narrative would think, let alone say out loud. (Btw, TGCF is the only one of MXTX’s novels in which we see this type of character actually grow and change with time). Right off the bat, we see this very young SJ as someone who only values (and is willing to protect) those of immediate importance to himself, while YQY, as the typical “hero” of the narrative, tries to protect everyone and ends up harming the person he cares about in the process. You will find these two personality types thrust in these types of situations in 90% of danmei (and wuxia/xianxia) stories for a reason. You are supposed to know that YQY will end the tortured hero and SJ will end the blackened villain, the only differences being other related plot lines and their eventual downfall/redemption. (Or in MDZS’s case, absolute stagnation, which flies in the face of typical development for someone like SJ and apparently, confuses a lot of readers as well).

The second part I think is important to mention about that little rant up there is that SJ is already a person who takes no responsibility for his actions. YQY had “acted the hero” so SJ was forced to act as well, therefore his action is YQY’s fault. He is very young at this point, so no one expects him to be a paradigm of magnanimity, but at the same time, he never grows and matures out of this way of thinking. So SJ who enters Cang Qiong Mountain is already proficient at holding resentments and shifting all the blame for his misfortunes to others. At that point, even if YQY had explained how his haste to cultivate quickly had resulted in a qi deviation and the subsequent confinement, there is no indication that SJ would have found him any less guilty for failing to return in a timely manner. (Don't forget that one of the last admonishments SJ gives to YQY before they part is to stop being so brash. YQY doesn’t listen, which results in qi deviation, which results in SJ being stuck in Qiu household for years. It’s unlikely that SJ would find YQY blameless).

However, if you go back further than all the misery and abuse SJ suffered at the hands of Qiu Jianluo and change things (perhaps the human traffickers sell him into a different, better household, etc) then his path would probably diverge too drastically to continue onto the trajectory towards the Cang Qiong Mountain. 

Basically, I see two paths where SJ does not end up the exact heartless scum villain he is in PIDW:

SJ escapes with YQY and they enter Cang Qiong Mountain together. From their earlier relationship, we can infer that SJ is prone to guilt-tripping YQY for his decisions, and seeing himself as the wronged party whenever the situation doesn’t go his way. Would YQY still end up the Sect Leader with SJ by his side? If YQY had never qi deviated and SJ had never started his cultivation so late, would there be a noticeable difference in their skills and strengths? If SJ was more powerful, would YQY not willingly cede the Sect Leader position? And if he didn’t do so, would SJ hold resentment for it? Would the same level of resentment between SJ and LQG still exist? 

YQY manages to go back for SJ before the slaughter at the Qiu Mansion. At that point, SJ had been suffering abuse by Qiu Jianluo for years. Would he blame YQY for not coming for him sooner? For the fact that YQY’s tardiness meant he started cultivating late and may never catch up? If SJ’s resentment is the same and YQY’s guilt is the same, would their relationship be any better? People seem to think that SJ would have held so much gratitude for YQY’s (attempted or otherwise) return that he would wipe the slate clean between them, but this is the same person who had blamed YQY’s heroics for his own situation in the first place. Does that seem like the kind of person who would just... feel so much gratitude to let everything else go? 

And since only that SJ, the one who had lived with Qiu Jianluo’s abuse, who had slaughtered all of Qiu Manor and was further twisted and warped by Wu Yanzi, since that SJ took LBH on as a disciple out of jealousy and resentment and spite, wouldn’t it make more sense that a less villainous SJ would not give LBH a second glance? Rather than being a better shizun, is it not more fitting that he would have allowed LBH to go where he is likely to have gone without SJ’s interference, which is Bai Zhan Peak? 

To me, any possible scenario where SJ (at the moment he is watching potential disciples digging holes) happens to be a better person, is a scenario in which LBH does not become his disciple. 

So no, I don’t see any possible scenario in which LBH falls in love with SJ. I believe that SJ was meant to be seen as flawed from the very beginning, from the moment he had blamed YQY for “playing the hero,” and I can’t imagine any twist of circumstances that would make him similar to the type of person (SY) that LBH would fall in love with. 

[ninja-bitch]

Yo ! Could you write please a nsfw headcanons for konan ,kakuzu,tsuande,hianta ,tenten and kaguya with a fem s/o😳

Hi! Thanks for your ask  <3 I will just put it out there but the first thing I’ve ever posted online was a Konan x Shizune fanfic.

Also Tenten can get it.

Again I tried to keep it gender neutral with some more things added for someone with a fem body love

They’re going to be a bit shorter than usual I think. You did hit the character limit, I might switch it to 4 later because I’m not happy with everything I wrote there and it took me some time. I don’t know...

Anyways, hope you like it <3

Kakuzu x reader HCs (NSFW)

Oh but can you just imagine how he’d eat someone out? Can you? Because I can and it gets nasty.

Seriously though, I don’t picture him as someone who’d have lots of sex, but I think he’s one of the best partners in the whole akatsuki. In terms of pleasure alone, he is an asshole too at the end of the day. But he’d be good.

Hear me out hear me out. It doesn’t happen often but if it has to he is going all in and that’s something. I think he’d be one of the most mature of the bunch and one to have at least some experience that goes with it. He’s been around, he’s seen some shit in his youth and it shows.

One to have the safest kinky sex despite being a murderer and shit. If he’s to have sex with someone he’ll probably want to keep them around and keep them interested. Not a lot of people try to come onto him. It does get nasty but also not too kinky unless they ask. He can do that.

He’d be on the classier side of kinky most of the time. Would not be opposed to slight roleplay and bondage but often cannot be bothered.

Not above spanking or spitting too. He would spit in someone’s mouth just because he can. He’d make it pretty dramatic. It’s pretty hot.

Ok but a good teacher when it comes to sex to be honest. I’ll say that he’s not that patient though but he’ll make you cum before him. This is his foreplay tbh, make them cum and then go to town.

Honestly one to have sex after a fight.  Oh but he’d look so calm and collected like a 100% of the time. It’s impressive.

Would appreciate his partner riding him. Especially if that wasn’t something he’d planned. Like he’s doing taxes or some shit and they just...y’know. Sucking him off is a huge ok too. He’d act grumpy though. Maybe scold them a bit but ultimately would let them.

He gets pretty rough. He’d bite his partner. Lots of grunts and some strong grip I think. That should do it. He doesn’t talk much.

Oh but about the eating someone out part, he’d definitely do that quite a lot. Yes. Would use his weirdass thread tongue and would not break eye contact. I think he would pay attention to the titty. Would pay attention to the ass too.

While having sex on a pile of money is something I’d like to imagine, he wouldn’t.

Tsunade x reader HCs (NSFW)

Ah ah. I want to say she’d be good but she’s probably one to have drunken one night stands that leave her pretty unsatisfied. I’m just putting it out there.

Tsunade would definitely be someone more dominant and would probably gets her partner to eat her out for hours on end though.

Not very loud but does talk a lot. She is pretty crude.

She doesn’t care for titties. But she expects attention on hers. She’s not that sensitive and it frustrates her a bit because she definitely likes the idea of having someone suck on them.

Knows her anatomy. Would be very good, very quick to make any partner cum just with her fingers. She’d go fast and deep.

Not opposed to having sex with multiple people.

Oh but she would be into pegging and using any toys if she had enough time.

Ok but you know she’d have sex in the Kage’s office. 

Has had partners in the past, definitely knows what she likes and want out of sex. She’s not opposed to having a younger more inexperienced partner.

I think she’d be very sloppy eating someone out. It sorts of bores her unfortunately. Unless they get very into it. She does like having someone close their legs around her face and just moan and whimper. 

I think. I think she would be into sex after a fight too. Just saying.

She would also be a huge tease. Like yeah you want to cum? Work for it. She’d act as if she wasn’t interested. 

Would like a partner to masturbate in front of her, while she’s just sipping wine or something.

Sexual board games are a thing.

Would like challenges. Think : Bet you can’t make me cum before Shizune comes back in here. Poor lady. Bet I can have you scream my name in the next 5 minutes. She always wins though.

She has lots of stamina.

Hinata x reader HCs (NSFW)

Hinata is curious and a bit kinky. I said what I said.

Doesn’t have any experience but once she’s comfortable enough with someone, oh boy. Surprisingly would take the lead if you let her just to try things out.

Awkward first times? Awkward first times, but make it funny as it should be, I think that would definitely help her feel more comfortable. Sex is awkward and she worries a lot but if she can laugh and let some of that anxiety go, it definitely feels better for her.

I think she likes tights and ass the most.

I don’t think she’s that loud but she lets out some very very hot moans sometimes and it’s all worth it. Would love praise and compliments when she does.

I think she has to really really love someone to have sex with them btw. Don’t mind me stating the obvious.

Her neck and ears are very sensitive. Lick there. See what happens.

Oh but she’d be very good at eating out a girlfriend. She’d overstimulate her partner without meaning to. She would focus a lot on her partner’s clit. I think her favourite thing would be to feel their legs trembling and have them cry out her name. She would moan while doing so. She’d be very proud if she managed to just make them cum over and over like that.

Very good at sensing when her partner feels good. A bit shy when it comes to her own pleasure.

She takes a lot of time to cum, because she’s embarrassed mostly and doesn’t easily let go. Sometimes she doesn’t. Not to say she doesn’t enjoy it, but sometimes it happens you know.  

She’s really put off by very dirty dirty talk. Again, she’d like praise and encouragements.

She likes seeing hickeys on her and her partner, but gets embarrassed after.

Would love anything that has to do with senses, like blindfolds, cold and hot play, that kind of thing.

She’d love to use toys too. Just to try.

Kaguya x reader HCs (NSFW)

So I’ll be honest I don’t have a lot of HCs for her.

I think she’s some very dramatic, cryptic alien lady. Sleeping with her would be something quite eerie and weird.

I’m thinking that her partner, after all that’s happened, could be a maid, or just some companion lady that lives there (I don’t know the proper term for it in english and I can’t find it so let’s just hope you guys see what I mean) → Lady in waiting?

I’m thinking that it could definitely happen like this. It would strictly be something physical and overall wouldn’t happen a lot. Like someone that sometimes tends to lady Kaguya’s needs.

Now there’s some power she has over them but she wouldn’t force anything on anyone.

I can’t help but think that she’d be a private person and would only let someone pleasure her, and then go on about her life. Nothing else.

Now, I could be wrong, I do think she has the potential to be a very intense steady lover.

I think she might also be able to take the lead and teach things to a younger maid she’s taken a liking to.

In that case she might be the type to not say much, take her partner’s hands and just guide them very slowly. She’d talk them through it but would have them tell her what they want. What they’d like to do to her.

I feel like she’d love her partner’s hands a lot. Just get down and dirty and have them holding onto her or their hands pleasuring her and caressing her.

Just putting it out there, I do feel like she’d be seduced by someone passionate but pretty discreet and very respectful.

I feel like she’d take her time licking someone’s body all over and praise them a lot. 

I also feel like she’d like her partner to get on top of her while they’re both sitting outside. Make out and talk with them.

Very very intense eye contact obviously. She’s a bit scary. But she’d reassure her partner. It would feel a bit cold though I will say that.

Overall doesn’t cum easily herself and isn’t horny that much. But will indulge from time to time.

But my question is, would she tie someone up with her hair?

Did it end up being as long as the rest of the bunch? I am a fraud and I want some.

Konan x reader HCs (NSFW)

Ah ah sit on my face.

Konan is not a very sexual person. At least to me. It gets very melancholic if you can call sex that. 

I think she’d have to trust the person she’s with.

I think she’d like slow and sensual sex. That being said, she could also go for rawer, harsher sex. It depends on her mood. If she feels very very upset or worried she’ll go for the latter in order to let go for a while. She won’t necessarily take the lead there though. But she will ask for that.

No but once that’s started, she’d be pretty adventurous with her S/O though.

Adventurous as in she could try tying them up or use toys. She would try to have sex in unusual places too. Nothing public though.

I feel like she could tease a partner. She has the potential.

Likes to have someone use both their tongue and fingers on her. 

Definitely likes to sit on people’s face. Definitely likes to have her partner sit on hers. I feel like she would love 69.

I feel like she’d love small titties. But that’s not necessarily true. 

She’d also be into kissing. She’d like to kiss people’s scars/stretch marks. Kiss their neck, shoulders, hands. I feel like she wouldn’t necessarily bite or leave hickeys. It would be a very light touch of her lips, everywhere.

I think she’d be one to praise a partner a lot. Confidence boost to be honest.

I feel like she could use her paper clones during sex.

I definitely think that she could get Pein to join. Sad sex galore though. It’s intense, passionate but also, you’d feel out of place at first. But I’m getting carried away.

I feel like she’d have sex in her bath too.

I feel like she could like a partner that can sometimes let go and give her control over them but that wouldn’t be opposed to doing that themselves. She’s all about reciprocation and equal give and take situations.

I think she tastes good and smells nice.

Tenten x reader HCs (NSFW)

Ah yes, the girlfriend.

Tenten is a more dominant partner. I do not take criticism.

Queen of taking care of pillow princesses. She’d love that. She wants her partners to feel great and that just gets her going.

But do I even need to say that she would use toys on her and her partners? Definitely less known ones too. Let her, she’s an expert. 

She’s very strong, she can lift you up and eat you out right then and there. Just watch her.

I feel like she’d want to try out very intricate positions with her partner. Think of any position where her parner isn’t touching the ground or has their head upside down. Nah but she lift anyone up come on.

She wouldn’t really care for lingerie though. It’s a bit disapointing if you made an effort. She’s just pulling it of without even taking a look.

I feel like she’d be very funny and light hearted during sex.  kinky but make it casual.

I think she’d like having sex after training or working. I think it definitely makes her horny. 

I think she’d get pretty nasty but would still keep it very light, like she could spit on your pussy and start eating it like it’s the best thing she’s ever done/had but still would laugh and talk while doing so WHAT IS IT ABOUT SPITTING AND THESE HEADCANONS I SWEAR

I think she’d ask her partner if they like what she’s doing a lot and then tease them.

I feel like she’d be very quick to pick up on someone’s more hidden kinks too. She’d play along just because she wants them to have a good time. She’s pretty open, she’s ready to hear and try lots of things.

I feel like she’d love to have someone eat her out while she’s standing. She likes feeling their hands keep her steady and pulling their hair a bit.

I feel like she’d be good at aftercare and making anyone feel satisfied.

Would have quickies and would have very very long sessions, she’s ok with anything. She has the stamina.

Again I do see her as someone who’d manhandle their partner a bit. She’d warn them and pick up their mood quite quickly too. If they need very fast and raw sex, she’s here to provide.

A pleaser more than anything I think.

[dangermousie]

I was palpitating while reading the Pavilion arc the first time. Wtf, I thought MYL will force MR furthermore about what he did to CWN, it feels crazy! I was thinking about shizun all the time too, like oh no! I'm crying for MR bec. he doesn't deserves this drastic punishment.

That time at the TL pavilion was so graphic in the novel that I effin swear it made me feel faint. I think looked away from my screen for the time being to breathe, tears and all. Then continued reading.

Welp, I survived to tell the tale.

****

Also, Jiangui appeating in the extras. I was quite surprised by it. I mean, how MR's a demon. I think in Yuwu too GM can't have one?

Another thing, since CWN is a divine wood spirit, maybe TXJ's plant babies (bwmboo/haitang) will have a spirit of their own. I dunno how, but it kind of nice to know if it will happen. I mean come one, the Rice cake spirit is there.

Omg I love the thought of the plants TXJ planted developing spirits of their own. Honestly, the fact that he planted a whole freaking forest and calls them his princes and princesses which is a joke but not really hits me in the mushiest part of my heart!!!! Like, he’s free and safe and happy for pretty much the first time in his entire life except the short interval between when Uncle Xue found him and Shi Mei stuck the flower in him and all he wants to do is stick to CWN like glue and plant things.

Also, I was talking with @moransumbrella about that bit where CWN tells him his trees got uprooted because they weren’t planted in a good place and so the wind damaged them and TXJ is genuinely devastated and then CWN hurries to explain that he fixed them and they are all back to being as good as new and TXJ processes that he has someone who would take care of him and things that matter to him and just!!!

This is such a parallel to that scene where Mo Ran 2.0 is scarfing down soup because he always eats as if things are going to be taken away from him at any moment (because they have been, over and over) and CWN (who Mo Ran used to believe looked down on him and his eating habits and his background; only for us to learn in chapter 278 that this is the flower making him think that - prior to the flower being planted in him he literally tells Shi Mei that CWN is good and never looks down on him, Mo Ran) just gets up and brings Mo Ran more soup, letting him know there will always be more for him, that good things won’t always disappear, that CWN will make sure he has more. And Mo Ran has this realization and it’s like his world shifts and he feels safe.

And the trees bit is TXJ’s very own soup moment. Because Mo Ran is always Mo Ran and CWN is always CWN in any iteration, as long as their minds and souls are literally not compelled and even then they fight it.

How much do I love btw that CWN ends up with Mo Ran’s memories literally - not just because with his insecurities this is one way for him to truly know just how genuinely, how much and how long Mo Ran loved him but because the theme of them being each other’s warmth plays into it - the happy memories that Mo Ran himself forgot, CWN can guard for him, can tell him. (And that’s not even getting into the whole their souls are literally entwined aspect.)

Anyway I have ranged way afar from your ask but I am a rambly person and Montaigne would have approved of my adherence to digressions.

As to the Pavilion arc, it IS the most brutal, the most horrific part of the book to me and just !!! But also the fact that in his extremety, Mo Ran still protects CWN’s good name while CWN, the man with the thinnest face, for whom image is all, does not hesitate to fight the whole cultivation world for him, getting out his third weapon for him, and literally cradling/kissing him in public. The way these two love each other!

[disownedbytiime]

I’ve said time and again that the deep dream extra is my favorite sv extra (alongside the airplane ones) but like. It’s true. I really love everything about it.

Anyway! what I love today! Is the part where SQQ is watching LBH spend his days in the Huan Hua palace and one day BingHe comes and he’s like “there’s no congee tonight, I’m sorry.”

And SQQ is like “if there isn’t then there isn’t.” Idk why I love the phrasing there. Like he knows BingHe can’t hear him obviously but he still wants to reply, and ofc he’s not mad there wasn’t dinner that time (plus it’s not like his body was even eating it), but I love that he still replies and the way he does.

And then LBH tells him that LQG came to take MQF away and he says “if he’s rescued then he’s rescued.” Like. It’s the same structure. And I mean it’s maybe only the translation (which btw I’m reading the Spanish one since the eng is gone, I believe.) but I love how he says the phrase in a similar way.

And then when BingHe asks him when he’s dealing with LQG like he used to deal with the disciples that bullied him, and SQQ is like “it’s no use, I can’t win.” And. Ah. It’s just that he’s so soft when he replies to him! He’s such a tsundere when he’s with BingHe and he keeps complaining that his husband is so sticky, acting as if he doesn’t like it. But when he’s sincere, lord, he’s so amazing. I love him.

Ofc then later it comes the “Shizun, I can’t hold on. Really, Shizun. If you don’t wake up, I can’t hold on.” Which kills me every time. And after this heartbreaking part, SQQ wakes up and he’s so nice and soft to LBH for once. Like he never takes the initiative but here he does and it’s just *chef’s kiss* “tonight I feel… I really like you.” And “I’ll gladly endure it.”

He has such a thin face and is such a tsundere but he loves his husband a lot and. Yes, this is truly the best extra.

[owlsbride]

Sakura arrived at her apartment late that night. She was still made a rage with Kakashi. What the hell was he thinking? And that little bitch dress as a lamb, her Sempai, the one she trusted the most, at least at work, Shizune, how dare she talked to the Hokage and request a three weeks recess just because the last week she suffered from a little and perfectly normal pressure drop? It was unspeakable. Sakura felt betrayed by Shizune, surely Tsunade Sama would never do to her something like that. And what about that shit of losing weight? What did Kakashi mean with that? Sakura always has been thin, with right muscles, a body well shape in the correct places thanks to years of training but saying, she was too skinny was way out of the line. It was true that in the last time part of her clothes seemed too big for her, but maybe it was due more to a healthy diet, exercise or who knows what, that something to do with fatigue. No, Kakashi had no idea what he was talking about, and yet he took the liberty of looking her up and down like an endangered specimen and releasing her from her obligations for three weeks just because of a few rumours and a few pounds less. Such a childish, stubborn and insufferable man her Hoka... the Hokage was. Sakura arrived at her apartment late and soaked from head to toes, and she hated it. This hideous storm was strong enough like to last a few long days, and she felt exactly like that: angry, furious, with the ability to unleash a tempest that would ravage the village especially the Hokage Tower for the entire three weeks in which she would not be working. She needed to calm down because right now in her satchel was another problem that she would have to solve, an issue that she got herself into because she couldn't just accept a simple vacation. Sakura knew then that she just needed to stop talking in Kakashi's office, she shouldn't have played with fire and accept her destiny stoically. But no, she had to show interest even if it was for a brief moment in that hideous book, and respond willingly to a challenge which she was sure she couldn't win, just to see a tiny invisible smile full of pride and joy in Kakashi's masked mouth. Sakura was losing her mind, and she knew pretty well who was the culprit. Actually, they were two culprits now: Hatake Kakashi and Icha Icha. After a long shower, a hot meal, and the laundry done Sakura sat in her coach to think how to proceed during these weeks. The infamous book resting on the coffee table was a terrible reminder of what she had just agreed to, but against what she said in that office, she decided not to read it. After all, Sakura was sure that she can give her opinion base in her good judgement about what she already knew about Jiraiya and what people say about his writing, so yes, she was ready to lie a bit.

Bzzzzzt Bzzzzt Bzzzzt

The sound of her cellphone vibrating inside the satchel took her out of her content. Sure, Ino was willing and able to talk for a while about her blossoming relationship with Sai.

Bzzzzzt Bzzzzt Bzzzzt

Resigned Sakura left her comfortable position of denial and took her phone. However, the message was not what was expected. H. Kakashi: I hope you already chose a book for me, Sakura. Otherwise, you are the only one who is going to have some fun after all.

Unbelievable, this man was unbelievable. She didn't answer.

Bzzzzzt Bzzzzt Bzzzzt H. Kakashi: BTW, did you start reading your homework like the good girl you are?

What was wrong with him? First, this ridiculous idea of the book club, then the book exchange, and those texts. She was annoyed, but deep down inside she was also thrilled, she read the last message again: 'like a good girl.' Was she a good girl? a bad one? Just a girl? He was messing with her, or were they messing with each other instead? She typed her answer nervously and waited almost without breathing his response.

Bzzzzzt Bzzzzt Bzzzzt H. Kakashi: You made me laugh, Sakura. I'll be waiting, the time is ticking and three weeks is not that much. Good read and good dreams.

For Sakura, three weeks were a lot, but now she felt a little more content. She gave him a vague answer, hi didn't ask much and now she was in front of the endeavour to find him a good book to read. A book, of course, that can cause to him, not only a significant amount of pain in the ass but also tons of hours and hours of boredom. So with that thought in mind, she began to browse her library. She ran her fingers down the spines of all the books she had inherited from her father, an avid reader who had always preferred reading inside the house than spending time in the open air. Sakura still couldn't know where her passion for the ninja path came from. Even today her father, month after month, as a gift every time he visited her, left a new book on the coffee table that Sakura quickly placed in the library where they have to wait to be read when she had time. Not that she had never read any, on the contrary, only that now she found fewer and fewer opportunities to do so due to work. Ironically, now that her vacation was beginning, instead of reading her father's books, she was condemned to read Icha Icha, the book with the most dubious reputation that could exist. She turned back to the shelves. She found Don Quixote, the right choice, Cervantes tale of the deranged gentleman who turns knight-errant, tilts at windmills and battles with sheep in the service of the lady of his dreams, Dulcinea del Toboso. Yes, a great story about chivalry, romance, and why not, also madness. But as soon as Sakura thought this one was a perfect choice, she realized that it could amaze Kakashi, after all, is the story of a warrior, crazy or not. Her second choice was not other than the Ulysses, yes, James Joyce was the correct one. Then again, a masterpiece or not, it was a mundane story, speaking of everyday things, written in the most intricate and witty way, which would definitely catch Kakashi's attention from the first sentence. This was hard. Sakura pinched the bridge of her nose, why couldn't she find the perfect book to annoyed the always proud, infuriating, and sometimes unreachable Hatake Kakashi? And just like that an idea stroke her. She took the book in her hands, she caressed it with devotion. Sakura loved Pride and Prejudice, it had been the book that had accompanied her throughout her adolescence and adulthood. Pride and Prejudice had taught her what was expected of a woman but also what was not. Everything that love meant, and how she had to look for it and that sometimes a word was worth more than a thousand acts. Pride and Prejudice was her bedside book, it had taught her the balance between one and the other, and although sometimes she did not know which way she leaned the most, she always knew that she acted knowing the consequences of each act. Sakura had the possibility of imagining that she could be Elizabeth, but she could also be Mr Darcy, which filled her completely. Sakura was the one who decided about her life, her ways and her actions, without forgetting that one day, she would indeed find a suitable love around the corner, no matter how difficult things got. She took the book in her hands and had to make a decision: would she buy a new copy for the Hokage or would she hand him hers, filled with footnotes, personal annotations, and underlined sentences? Would she allow Kakashi to catch glimpses of her thoughts and feelings? Sakura directed her gaze to the orange book on the coffee table. Icha Icha belonged to Kakashi, and he had offered it to her unceremoniously, without suspicion, and only God knows what things he had done with it, but far from feeling disgusted about it, Sakura felt that Kakashi gave her part of his being, part of who he was, and part of his most intrinsic thoughts, and coming from him, it was something to value. Finally, Sakura decided to give Kakashi her own copy. The Hokage would have in his office the book chosen for the challenge by the next morning, the game would start tomorrow.

Kakashi entered his office earlier than usual, something that he could not identify had caused him to get up earlier than expected, and instead of wandering the streets of Konoha under such a terrible storm, he headed straight for the Hokage tower. On his desk, a package wrapped in red paper was waiting for him with a small sign that was clearly not one of the reminders that Shikamaru used to leave him. It merely said: 'Will you be. Darcy or Mr Wikham?' Kakashi couldn't help but smile, now Sakura had him captivated.

[iwanttofuckereh69]

now reading 2ha vol2

ch 46 - 55

(sorry its a bit long, i wanted to be... coherent... this time lol)

btw tell me how much suffering i should expect from vol 2. on the scale from papercut to getting my heart ripped out 😭

Ok so… That lake thing was wild. Or so i thought, before Chu Wanning TURNED INTO A FUCKING KID. Like what the hell? He is either adorable or absurdly scary, no in between. I'm loving this so far.

I looked at that illustration in the book when I first got it  and I was more than confused because I couldn’t tell who was who. And for a moment I legit was like Is Chu Wanning a child? But then I was like NAAAAH CAN’T BE. Welp. Here we are :)))))) 

1. TL;DR: Chu Wanning is a horny lonely loser (affectionate)

Chu Wanning and his dreams. I have a hunch it's somehow a glimpse into their previous life. No idea how it would occur but that scene seems like something that might have happened?

It seems rather interesting to me that THIS would be Chu Wanning's fantasy. I couldn’t help but wonder if it isn’t because that’s the only way he would allow himself the pleasure. Because ultimately he doesn’t get to have a choice in that scenario. It takes away the guilt of lusting over his disciple. So maybe that’s where it came from. And, moreover, this is Mo Ran who wants CWN. Wants him so badly he can’t contain himself. I just found it really interesting that of all scenarios, CWN dreams of that one. I don’t know why I kept thinking about it but here we are ig lol

Also, Mo Ran destroyed his golden core in his past life? Did I miss that in vol 1? Because ohh :c. Or it wasn't Mo Ran???  

2. TL;DR: I’m gonna get hurt so so so bad

Mo Ran smiled. “Yep. Cause I’m closest with you, and I know you’d never lie to me.” Shi Mei was still hesitant. “That’s true, but…”

Welp. Based on community’s reactions that’s gonna hurt like motherfucker. I fucking know that line is there for a reason. I fucking know it. The reason is to break my heart. And isn’t it like a second time Shi Mei says something about not lying to Mo Ran? I WONDER WHY. (i might have remembered it wrong tbh but this part is there and is tormenting me)

3. TL;DR: Mo Ran’s emotional intelligence is at most equal to emotional intelligence of a lettuce (one that’s been sitting in the back of your fridge for weeks because you forgot about it); Also, Shi Mei is sweet and kind and i don’t believe any of you anymore. He can’t hurt a soul. 

Mo Ran is very adamant on hating Chu Wanning. He wants to hate him. He needs to hate him. As if he was scared of the feelings that might be left if he does not hate him. That part is specifically in relation to his conversation with Shi Mei and how uncomfortable he’s gotten when Shi Mei started going on and on about how Chu Wanning isn’t really all that bad. 

And then that part with the umbrella happened and I really wish it was from Mo Ran’s perspective, because for the love of god I have no idea what his intentions are. It seemed like a really bad and failed flirting attempt. Like me when I asked this guy that was in a band in school to tune my guitar but it was in fact in tune and it was just embarrassing tbh But it could be just him trying to be nice for whatever reason  and CWN overreacting because he is strong and independent and he doesn't need (no man) anyone. 

I’m really puzzled at Mo Ran tho. And, like, that’s not a bad thing. There is this part of him that hates Chu Wanning with every fiber in his body. But he also admires him deeply as a teacher and maaaybe tiny bit as a person. There is both disdain and interest. Hatred and kindness. His whole (other) life it seems like he had this image of Chu Wanning that was coldblooded and ruthless. And i feel like it’s shattering now that he starts to notice how it wasn’t really the case. But still it’s hard for him to put those two pieces together so he really tries to choose one. It’s really telling when he can’t answer Shi Mei’s question ab if he dislikes Shizun.

ALSO SHI MEI IS SO SWEET AND KIND I DONT BELIEVE ANY OF YOU. HE CANT BE EVIL. He can't be evil... He can't...

4. I’m just wondering why the thing that happened at the lake (i don’t remember how it’s spelled so it’s going to be THE LAKE) was so different to how it went the first time MR was there. Basically the one major change he’s purposefully made was that he stole money from Rong Jiu and didn’t fall for his trap. Could it be somehow connected? Because otherwise the events should be the same unless something was changed. And the only thing i can think of right now that he influenced in major way, is that whole deal with Rong Jiu. The ghost marriage "arc" ended more or less the same, didn't it? I might be mixing shit up but oh well.

Also, I saw a post the other day in which op was talking how Mo Ran’s love for Chu Wanning was clear to them from the very beginning. Op said they don’t understand how others might not get it and since i’m the one that wasn’t that keen on the idea at first, i decided to elaborate a bit on points i made after first 20 chapters or so, this time trying not to be as much of a clown (hopefully).

Well, I’ve seen the title of the book and I know they're gonna end up together one way or another. But its complicated and messy and I would even go as far as to say that’s the point? And, ironically it's also in the title. A dog and a cat. At first glance they are so different it seems almost impossible for them to get along. At first glance Chu Wanning and Mo Ran felt too different to be able to get along as well. There was too much resentment and too much things left unsaid (and unnoticed). After reading only first 20 chapters i was told that 1. Chu Wanning is ruthless and cruel 2. Mo Ran hates him. 3. Mo Ran is horny for him. Only with time as I was reading further, it turned out that they both care for each other in ways they themselves have a hard time explaining. 

I also don’t think sexual attraction equals everlasting love. And like, the fact that Mo Ran doesn’t get hard at the sight of Shi Mei isn’t telling me anything about his feelings. Does he really love him too much to have a single impure thought about him? Or does he not realize he doesn’t like him that way? Does he love him platonically? I don’t know. I’m for sure lacking context in this situation. That’s the point. I want to read it with my mouth open agape as I get to know those characters more and as slowly my first impression changes. Right now, based on what i’ve been presented by the book I adore Mo Ran’s puppy love for Shi Mei. But as i’m on chapter 50, I see it as just that, a puppy love.  

I don’t want to argue who to ship, because that’s not the point im trying to make xD I just think my hesitation to picture CWN and MR together after first 20 chapters was not that weird. I know it will happen and i’m curious to see how long it will take those idiots to realize their feelings for eachother and express them. I know they are meant to be. But they themselves don’t know that yet. And it feels like they try their best to ruin every chance they get lol I’m also curious where those feelings come from. Why Mo Ran became so obsessed with CWN.

There is foreshadowing, there are those little and not so little things scattered across that slowly become more meaningful the more context you add on top of them. But those alone, in my opinion aren’t enough to be convinced with utmost certainty from page one that the main characters are in fact in love. It’s more complicated than that and that’s why I enjoy it a lot and i enjoy when the books makes me believe one thing to then make me realize it wasn't ever that simple. Am I making sense? Idk it's 1AM i want to go to sleep njkinrjgkn

[bitchiha]

Upcoming Works

!For the month of JULY!

A/N: Shawties, I am not promising that I will  finish all of these requests by the end of the month. I am simply showing you how fucking garbage my work ethic is! And theres no way I can pull through all these in that time. Requests are simply requests, if I don't want to write them I am not going to force myself too! Also, some of these are some self indulgent works I have been personally wanting to write. And YES I have 7 current works <3 I don't know why I did that to myself but I did. I only did up to 30 of my requests 4 this

1) CURRENT WORK / IMAGINE / YAMATO

Request: NSFW! for a friend! Also for myself bc I’m self indulgent.. Yamato + reader + empty hokage office, do the math luvs <3

2) CURRENT WORK / IMAGINE / KAKASHI

Request: hii can you write some detailed nsfw headcanons for kakashi or just write a smut fic i love your writings so i wanted to ask if u could do it or not!

3) CURRENT WORK / HEADCANONS / SHIKA, SASUKE, TOBIRAMA 

Request: Can I request some filthy nsfw hc’s for Tobirama , Shikamaru and Sasuke makeup sex w s/o after a pretty heated argument? Ofc if you feel comfortable writing for them! Thank u, ily 🥺

4) CURRENT WORK / HEADCANONS / YAMATO

Request: Hiya! You’ve got me lovin’ that Yamato so could I ask for Yamato with a S/O who is the epitome of an angry lil midget (like 5’3 and under)? S/O’s also got that life-of-the party personality which totally clashes with Yamato’s gentle and sweet, would be interesting to see how that goes!

5) CURRENT WORK / HEADCANONS / TSUNADE 

Request: I hope it’s ok I’m requesting Tsunade. Hcs of her having a daughter figure in one of her students. Like a few years younger than Shizune but she is qualified as a kunoichi and exceptional in what she is doing. I would really wanna know how she would act with her etc.

6) CURRENT WORK / HEADCANONS / NEJI, KIBA, SHIKA

Request: heyyy!!! can i get a neji, kiba, shikamaru headcanon where they’re jealous over their s/o??? — anon 🧊

7) CURRENT WORK / HEADCANONS / RAIDOU 

Request: I loved your headcanon about Genma Ibiki and Omoi! Would you mind doing the same with Raidou? Finding some content abt him is so rare 😩

8) PENDING / HEADCANONS / NEJI 

Request: hiii! please can you do nsfw hc for neji?❤️

9) PENDING / HEADCANONS / NEJI, RAIKAGE, DARUI 

Request: Can you do oblivious reader headcanons for Neji and Raikage Darui please?!

10) PENDING / HEADCANONS / SHINO 

Request: Hey, so after reading my matchup again, I got an idea for a head-canon. I'm not sure if this has already been asked, but headcanons with Shino that has a S/O who has a fear of bugs, but doesn't want that to ruin their relationship with Shino and tries to work on it ( side note: gotta love that auto correct changes Shino to Rhino).

11) PENDING / HEADCANONS / KAKASHI

Request: Teehee, could you do a headcanon in how Kakashi would react if he was out at a bar with his friend he’s crushing on and he let something close to “I love you” slip out in front of her (bonus points if she ends up feeling the same?) Omg it would mean the world ❤️

12) PENDING / HEADCANONS / KAKASHI 

Request: Can we have more Kakashi love Super PLEASE? how about a s/o who is motherly towards team 7 - especially Naruto, & loves taking care of Kakashi. 👀

13) PENDING / HEADCANONS / TEAM 7  

Request: Can I request some Boruto team 7 headcanons? How they confess to their fem crush? Or other way how they would react to a love confession from their crush *^*

14)  PENDING / HEADCANONS / SHISUI

Request: 🌻Hi! Some shisui headcanons with S/O coming from different culture? I know that their villages have same/very similar cultures so how would he react to S/O from like another😅 im sorry english is not my native language

15) PENDING / HEADCANONS / SASUKE, KIBA 

Request: jealous sasuke or kiba 👉🏾👈🏾?? maybe please 

16) PENDING / IMAGINE / KIBA 

Request: Hello! I love your blog. You're amazing. Can I request some Kiba fluff where he proposes to his S/O with Akamaru's help? I think that would be super cute. Thank you!

17) PENDING / HEADCANONS / KIBA, SHIKAMARU 

Request: Hi lovely! Can I please request some headcanons for Kiba and Shikamaru's reactions to finding out their S/O is pregnant with twins? Thanks a lot :)

18) PENDING / HEADCANONS / SHIKAMARU 

Request: Wait, can I request Shikamaru meeting his s/o’s ex too please? Wlfklskajdkskamdnemks

19) PENDING / HEADCANONS / MADARA 

Request: Hi! I love your writing! Could I ask hcs of Madara with a s/o, please? Like under what circumstances would he get one? What'd attract him and make him go for it? And how would he behave around his s/o?

20) PENDING / IMAGINE / SHISUI 

Request: Lizzie 😭❤ may I request headcanons for Shisui where the fem reader is a new ANBU member and is really strong but is underestimated by her male team mates (except Shisui) so he hears her crying in the evening in her room and comforts her by making her compliments and they start kissing and making out? 😊

21) PENDING / HEADCANONS / (N/A)

Request: ummm i just read ur last ask andddd are there any other characters you’d wanna write for that situation? 👀 (S/O walking in on character masturbating) 

22) PENDING / HEADCANONS / NEJI, HIDAN, KISSAME, KAKASHI 

Request: hi can i request some smutty smutty hcs about fem s/o waking neji, hidan, and kisame up in the middle of the night w a bj? 👀 throw in a bonus kakashi if u feeling extra generous 🙏🏼✨

23) PENDING / HEADCANONS / TENTEN (THANK YOU FOR REQUESTING HER BTW <3) 

Request: it says ur requests are open, if not i’m sorry for bothering you :( but can we have tenten relationship headcanons, u could do nsfw only if u want to!

24) PENDING / HEADCANONS / KAKASHI, YAMATO, IRUKA

Request: Same anon from a similar ask, what if it was flipped, how would kakashi, yamato, and iruka react if they walked in on their s/o masturbating? 👉👈

25) PENDING / HEADCANONS / TOBIRAMA 

Request: I love your worksss 🥺💕💕 so I’m new in the tobirama club so can i request sfw and nsfw headcanons of him?? 🥰✌🏻

26) PENDING / HEADCANONS / KISAME, HIDAN, DEIDARA, ITACHI 

Request: May I request a hc for Kisame, Hidan, Deidara, and/or Itachi (separately) with an s/o who's a total mom-friend in general, but becomes a merciless killer in battle. Just 0-100 real quick-

27) PENDING / IMAGINE / KAKASHI 

Request: Hello! ❤️ I was wondering if You could write a small scenario or headcanon (which ever is easiest on you) of how Kakashi would react if Jiraiya and Gai brought him to a strip club for the first time? (It’s something that’s been in my mind for a hot minute)

28) PENDING / HEADCANONS / KAKASHI OR SHIKAMARU 

Request: Hi could you maybe possibly do a headcannon for Kakashi or Shikamaru with them and their s/o being cuddly/just laying in bed together? 👉👈 ty ilysm

29) PENDING / NOT SPECIFIED / GAI OR ROCK LEE

Request: Pls- just something Might Guy/Rock Lee related... they practically carried the show and for that, they need more love 

30) PENDING / NOT SPECIFIED / SASORI 

Request: Love your writing, would love if you wrote something for Sasori one day

31) PENDING / HEADCANONS / GAI OR LEE

Request: Gai/Lee anon here! SFW and NSFW pls :3

32) PENDING / IMAGINE / KAKASHI 

Request: Scenario where reader is having a wet dream while cuddling with Kakashi and starts mumbling lewd things in their sleep and Kakashi wakes them up and it leads to sexy times 👉👈 ik that's hyper specific srry 💜

33) PENDING / NOT SPECIFIED / KAKASHI 

Request: what would kakashi do if his s/o teased him so bad 👀

[depressedkakashihatake]

Okay so we've established Obito killed people in preparation for Kakashi. What if some of the people he killed were the parents of some of the students at their school; Kushina, Minato, Iruka's parents, Izumi's dad, Kurenai's dad, etc (His victims being the ones killed during the kyuubi attack)

i love the mix in with cannon and how obito actually had a hand in their deaths (because he did. he is directly responsible for them)

Iruka’s parents were probably first. in town but people he didn’t really know. no emotional attachment involves. iruka was home that night but Obito didn’t kill him. what he did do was cut him accross the face giving him a scar (obito had a mask on so Iruka didn’t know who had done it)

kurenai’s dad was next. still not super close but a classmates father. a little more intimet. kurenai was out at a friends that might (shizun’s maybe?) and came home to find crime scene tape around her house.

minato an Kushino were the last one’s he killed before going for Kakashi. his sensei and his wife. minato was their high school history teacher and was very close to kakashi. he was also the one who told Kakashi that he should ask Gai out because he saw how much Kakashi liked him.

i love the darkness btw XD