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There is a song. It's called "apesar de você"(despite you) by Chico Buarque (I thiikikk) and it was written in the context of a dictatorship,,, and I,,, I think it fits some lil guys really well and I'm desperate to animate it, but not only do I suck at animating but I also,,, uh,,, only know how to do specific parts of it???
Btw the song is a dedicatory to the regimen in power at the time. It is one that fits a surprising amount of fandoms (and I hope it does not qualify as insensitive to repurpose it to something fictional), since it follows the idea of being really angry at it;
"despite you/tomorrow will be another day"
"when the moment arises/this suffering of mine/I'll make you pay with interest rates, I swear" (it is very very better in portuguese)
"you'll be bitter/seeing the day shine/without asking you for permission/and I'll laugh/because this day will come/before you expect"
"you, who invented sadness/well, have the courage/to uninvent it" (THINKING SO HARD ABOUT NIGHTMARE HERE. THERE'S ANOTHER VERSE THAT'S SMILIAR, A "you, who created sin/and forgot to create pardon" which makes me think about apples, because, y'know, sin. Not aure about how I'd go on about integrating it, tho)
There's so many verses that are so,, perfect?? They're so angry. Spiteful. And it is rightful, you deserve to be.
It's also so fucking chill, despite all of that; it's sad in emotion, but it also carries a certainty that >>>>>
#theyre nightmare's gang#i 100% wanna draw rhem sharing a beer at a bar with that last verse#i forgot what is rhe name of rhat one gesrure where u bonk the cups together#thinkijf about making it in the context of one of Dreamtale's endings??#that one where Dream ends up just restarting the cycle#but they think that its over#and itll hurt so much to see nightmare arise again. poor bbys barely know#but they don't even have a decade#i mean#hoky shit i should do a separate post about this#but i can't elaborate enough about it ri make a post#AAAAA “RESET” ENDING DREAMTALE WHERE THE GANG SURVIVES TO SEE NIGHTMARE RISE TO POWER AGAIN. THAT'S EVERYTHING'S#tbh I think that half of them would just kill themselves#Horror maybe wouldn't#Cross msybe wouldn't too#hes too stubborn#Dust maybe wouldn't. he'd be too focused on his AU#fuck im runing my own idea of having them share a beer#NOO STOP THINKING#they. will. share. thar. beer.
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Disregard!
#Armand stop tormenting that old man!!!!!#you’re all he’s thinking about ohhh noo 😩#my art#iwtv#iwtv fanart#interview with the vampire#interview with the vampire fanart#amc iwtv#amc interview with the vampire#daniel molloy#armand#the vampire armand#armandaniel#devils minion#eric bogosian
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The self-awareness on this guy 😞 someone pls send him an "are you bi?" quiz STAT
#dead plate#rody lamoree#rody x vincent#vincent charbonneau#rodince#rodincent#my art#i saw someone tag one of my drawings with a version of their ship name using their last names and it was nice but i forgot what it was#aksjdhf#also NOO i forgot Rody's lil moles 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#thankfully at least tumblr allows edits#anyways#rody looks so wonky to me but I just wanted to stop fidgeting with it and post it since i wasnt getting anywhere anyways aksjdfh#also little story time lol#when i was in 10th grade there was this girl in my chemisty class that i was kinda frienemies with#we just always got into arguments with each other but the vibe ultimately stayed light and friendly between us#kinda like a <<fuck you but anyways what did you get for no. 5>> kind of situation#one day she slammed one of her hands against the door right next to my head 😳😳#i think she was trying to intimidate me but instead it just gave me a core memory LMAOOO#thankfully by then i already knew i wasnt straight lol but it definitely unlocked something in me hahahah
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So we know that Wei Wuxian's treatment after his death was horrible. Even if nothing could impact him directly, there was still neverending slander, hatred, misinformation, theft...
But, for a while after he died, the sects did try to impact him directly – namely, frequently trying to resummon his soul. And today I'll explore the possible reasons for this, their likelihoods, and why I'm so, so thankful that Wei Wuxian's soul managed to resist the summons. Because, spoiler alert (or, you know. maybe not)... none of them are good.
(Long meta ahead)
In my opinion, there are four likely motivations for this: confinement, coercion, torment, and potentially destruction.
Out of all of these, confinement is probably the most likely motivation, at least for most sects (Jins and Jiangs excluded, though it was likely what the Jin sect said their motivations were – but I'll get to them later). This one is the most simple – we know spirit-trapping pouches exist, and we know the sects also placed 120 stone beasts on the Burial Mounds to prevent Wei Wuxian's soul from escaping. Therefore, this seems to be the most likely motivation – and fortunately for Wei Wuxian, probably also the best case scenario, though it still certainly isn't a good one.
For the second, coercion – this is where the Jin sect come in (more specifically Jin Guangshan with the help of Jin Guangyao). Due to their wealth and resources, they're likely the sect who played the largest role in the soul-summoning rituals. We know what they're willing to do to try to gain power – keeping Wen Ning under the pretence he was burned to death and trying to control him with the nails, and working with and helping Xue Yang torture people to help him refine his demonic cultivation, in order to have the Yin hufu fixed. Along with working with many other cultivators, alongside Xue Yang – Jin Guangshan really, really wanted that seal.
And so, Jin GuangShan sought after all those who imitated Wei WuXian in cultivating the ghostly path and gathered them under his rule. He spent a great amount of money and resources and these people, ordering them to study and analyze the structure of the Tiger Seal in secrecy so that they could replicate and restore it. - Villainous Friends extra, EXR
(Note that working with these cultivators very likely happened after Wei Wuxian's soul had failed to be summoned, since this happens some time after Wei Wuxian's death, whereas the soul-summoning ceromonies presumably started happening very close to it.)
In the previous paragraph, he's also quoted as having 'lusted after' the Yin hufu, which we already knew but it's nice to have a direct quote as evidence.
Now, would Wei WuXian willingly work with the Jin sect in doing this? No. We know that, and, given Wei Wuxian's actions in his first life (refusing to hand over the Tally, not being afraid to stand up to the sects, etc), I’m pretty sure Jin Guangshan knows that, too:
He beat around the bush a couple of times, using all his skills, yet Wei WuXian didn’t give in no matter what, and it made him run into a bunch of obstacles. - Villainous Friends extra, EXR
So this could actually make things go two ways. One, I'm wrong and that wasn't actually part of the Jin sect's motivations, since they know they wouldn't be able to control him (and in that case, had they managed to summon him, I could imagine them putting him in a spirit-trapping pouch and doing something similar to what Jin Guangyao did to Nie Mingjue's head. Which, also, not good). Two, it was a part of their motivations, and they hoped to find a way around that. After all, there are other guidao users out there now, and Wei Wuxian would now be a gui*. Also, cultivators can obviously harm ghosts – see the very existence of Night Hunts, and I'd include Xue Yang's talisman-caused destruction of A-Qing as well (while he isn't a traditional cultivator, talismans can be used by everyone).
Now, would either of these methods actually work? I'm inclined to think not really (and I expand on the former method in a note below). Would that stop Jin Guangshan/Jin Guangyao/the cultivators they employ from trying? Especially considering Jin Guangshan's lust for power?
I'm inclined to think no, too.
For the third, look no further than Jiang Cheng's reputation of capturing and torturing demonic cultivators after Wei Wuxian's death, due to thinking they could be him. And this does happen – Jin Ling knows and talks about it, and there's not real motivation for him to negatively lie about someone he loves. Also, when they come across each other at Dafan Mountain, we're told this in Jiang Cheng's inner voice:
A moment ago, Jiang Cheng was certain that this person was Wei WuXian, and all of the blood in his body started to boil. Yet, now, Zidian was clearly telling him that he wasn’t. Zidian definitely wouldn’t deceive him or make a mistake, so he quickly calmed himself and thought, this doesn’t mean anything. I should first find an excuse to take him back and use every possible method to get information out of him. It’s impossible for him to not confess anything or give himself away. I’ve done things like this in the past anyways. - MDZS Chapter 10, EXR translation
This mainly shows that he's tortured people before, rather than that he's tortured people because he thinks they're Wei Wuxian, but this reason is confirmed by Jin Ling in Chapter 24. Of course, the reason is also mentioned in this chapter, and there are other moments in the chapter that illustrate my point better**, but they come from second-hand sources which I know are easier to deny. Do take note of Jiang Cheng's expression both times he comes across 'Mo Xuanyu' (after he suspects he's Wei Wuxian) in Book One***, though:
After a moment, the corners of Jiang Cheng’s lips pulled into a twisted smile. His left hand started to unconsciously stroke the ring [Zidian] again. He spoke softly, “… Well, well. So you’re back?” - Chapter 10, EXR Although his face had always been clouded, marked with arrogance and satire, it seemed as if every corner of it had come alive. It was difficult to determine whether it was vengeful wrath, fathomless hatred, or raving ecstasy. - Chapter 23, EXR
This does seem to line up with what people say his attitude to Wei Wuxian is – there doesn't seem to be any happiness at seeing him again at all. The only time a word that could suggest that ('ecstasy') is used, it's accompanied by 'raving', and considering the context and the other possibilities of his expression, it's... probably not due to happiness at being reunited.
So, considering 1) this, 2) his contribution to the Siege specifically intended to kill Wei Wuxian, and 3) that at the time of frequent soul-summoning Jiang Yanli's death would be even closer for him, I feel pretty confident in saying that yes, this is likely a motivation for the Jiang sect in trying to re-summon Wei Wuxian's soul after his death. And, as mentioned earlier, cultivators can harm ghosts (and we know Zidian is able to remove souls posessing a body from that body, and that Jiang Cheng used Zidian on 'Mo Xuanyu' in Chapter 10. If it wasn't able to restrain/harm ghosts, or other methods weren't able to, why would he risk Wei Wuxian's soul escaping?).
And finally, option four: destruction. We're heading into much more speculative territory here, so don't consider this on par with the first three. But consider this:
We know there are some spells, like Xue Yang's talisman used on A-Qing and the body-offering ritual, that can ruin the returning soul’s reincarnation cycle by destroying it. Therefore, soul destruction is possible.
The 'main'/supposed reason for summoning Wei Wuxian's soul back is to stop the "cultivation world, or even all of mortal land" from being "faced with the most insane damnation and revenge, sinking into nothing but chaos and despair" when Wei Wuxian inevitably returns. While, as mentioned above, I severely doubt this is the motivation for certain sects – and to me is likely a rumour which the Jins (again, especially Jin Guangsha) fanned the flames of to justify summoning Wei Wuxian back for their own purposes**** – there are other sects which would take it more seriously.
Although likely disrespectful, people already thought it served Wei Wuxian right to die without his body intact by the time of the second siege – something believed to negatively affect your reincarnation in your next life*****. This is only the logical next step, and I'm pretty sure the vast majority of people would believe that, again, it would serve Wei Wuxian right, or would at least lead to less harm of the world in the long run.
For these reasons, I could definitely see this as an option for some sects, especially the sects who consider themselves more 'righteous' (cough cough the Nies under Nie Mingjue cough cough). After all, evil is evil and good is good, and the evil deserve what's coming to them. And what better way to prevent that than from preventing his soul from returning at all? So for the Nie sect – and likely some of the smaller sects involved in the Siege, since among them, additudes probably vary – yes, I do think it could be a motivation.
I’m not as sure about the Lans being willing to go this far, and that’s largely for two reasons. One, Lan Wangji’s presence and his relationship to Lan Xichen, who does (not always, but he does) let this affect how he treats Wei Wuxian. An example of this is that, when Wei Wuxian's return is made public, Lan Xichen does let him hide and shelter at the Cloud Recesses instead of trying to pursue him, likely majorly due to Lan Wangji. I'd argue that the aftermath of the Nightless City also acts as an example of this, although it definitely isn't perfect. But though he, Lan Qiren and the 33 elders do come to find Lan Wangji and do not let him continue to shelter Wei Wuxian (after they see Lan Wangji's feelings), Lan Xichen doesn't use this opportunity to kill/capture Wei Wuxian, despite Lan Wangji being in a worse condition due to having fought 33 elders, Wei Wuxian being catatonic, and Lan Qiren likely supporting this outcome (especially considering he was the one who led the Lan sect in the Siege – chapter 68, Wei Wuxian's POV). And he did let Lan Wangji take Wei Wuxian back to the Burial Mounds after:
After he went out of his way to send you back to Burial Mound and returned in such low spirits to receive his punishment, how long he kneeled before the Wall of Rules! - Chapter 99, EXR
Again, this was right after the Nightless City massacre – there isn't any goodwill towards Wei Wuxian at this point in time.
Of course, the Lan sect did participate in the siege after Lan Xichen knew of Lan Wangji's feelings towards Wei Wuxian, which Lan Xichen was no doubt a part of (although Lan Qiren lead the Lan sect in the siege, Lan XIchen had to have at least known/given his support, if not participated.) And it should be considered that Lan Xichen letting Wei Wuxian shelter at the Cloud Recesses was after Wei Wuxian had been back for a while, and had not caused the downfall of the Cultivation World, like many suspected he would after his death. And of course, as stated previously, his handling of the aftermath of Nightless City wasn't perfect either (though please note that his main motive here was to protect Lan Wangji from being potentially executed, rather than anything about Wei Wuxian himself). So caring about Lan Wangji doesn't mean he won't harm Wei Wuxian. But I do think he could find bringing Wei Wuxian's soul back to completely destroy it a bit excessive. There is, though, the chance that the elders of the Lan Sect would react to this differently, and of course they would have a sway on both Lan Xichen and the Lan sect as well.
The second reason is smaller, but there seems to be more focus in the Lan sect than in others when it comes to letting ghosts rest peacefully/helping them move on. And that could definitely lead to more resistance to the idea of summoning a soul back to destroy it as well, which could especially impact the elders. So I'd assume that the Lan sect would be the most likely sect to summon Wei Wuxian's soul back just for confinement, or just for some way of making sure any resentment is disippated, his spirit moves on, and he can't cause more harm to the world (eg via Inquiry)******. Not that he would or does as a ghost or as a reborn person, but that's unfortunately not relevant to this.
But yes, as a motivation for the Nie Mingjue-led Nie sect? Absolutely.
So, these are the main motives I suspect to be behind the attempted summoning of Wei Wuxian's soul after his death (and if I've missed any, please let me know – I'd love to have a discussion). And, of course, none of them lead to anywhere good. Because of course it wasn’t enough to besiege Wei Wuxian, murder the 50 non-combatants he was responsible for (and throwing them into the blood pit as a mark of disrespect because why not?), and lead to his death via him getting torn apart. It wasn’t enough to steal all his inventions, and use them commonly while still slandering him with no reprieve – or to steal his notes and give them to people like Xue Yang to study (Villainous Friends, again) and to use for their own, extremely extremely harmful, purposes. Of course, the cultivation world has to try to harm Wei Wuxian after death as well ((:
We don't know whether Wei Wuxian rejecting the summoning ceremonies was conscious or unconscious, but if it was the former, these are very likely reasons he refused to return in this way. If it was unconscious – for example, maybe during the frequent soul-summons his soul was in a weakened state due to him dying from a backlash of resentful energy and getting torn apart, and it healed over time but not before the soul-summoning rituals stopped – well, I can only be thankful.
Finally, let me leave you on the thought that – although it may well have happened since we don't spend much time in the immediate aftermath of the Sunshot campaign – there isn't even any textual mention of this happening to Wen Ruohan. Who, while not being a guidao user, was still very dangerous, still an extremely powerful cultivator, and still had a lot of reason to feel resentment. So.
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Thank you for reading!
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*Considering what we see of how Wei Wuxian's guidao functions – redirecting the ghosts'/corpses' resentment into doing something they'd want to do, eg attacking people, and directing it towards a target – I'm not sure using it to force a spirit to do something 1) extremely specific, and 2) explicitly against their will would actually work. Iirc the closest thing we get to this in text is Wei Wuxian using the corpses of Wens to attack other Wens in the Sunshot Campaign, but he's still just directing their resentment to a target of his choice, and fierce corpses do tend to be on the less concious side of things (hence why Wei Wuxian had to awaken Wen Ning's consciousness). Considering how Wen Ning attacks Wei Wuxian and the Burial Mound Wens before his consciousness had fully awoken, I... really don't think those fierce corpses were able to differentiate (or didn't care).
Meanwhile, ghosts seem to be a bit more in control of themselves – see A-Qing, and Wei Wuxian's own descriptions of his ghost self.
That, alongside ghost!Wei Wuxian being able to resist his soul-summoning and the fact that pretty much all of the new guidao users are a lot weaker than he was, does make me think that this this wouldn't work. I do wonder about Xue Yang, since his methods are pretty different as well, but he's more of a modao user than a guidao user (he controls living corpses rather than dead people) and I don't think you can insert physical nails into ghosts?? Though if he was specifically instructed to figure out some way to control ghost!Wei Wuxian (who's probably kept in a spirit-trapping pouch in this scenario), he might be able to do something at least. Though also he was also struggling to piece Xiao Xingchen's ghost soul back together, so he may struggle with those areas?
Well, whatever the potential outcome, I'm so so happy once again that Wei Wuxian's soul managed to resist the soul-summonings...
**Mainly this:
Everyone in the cultivation world knew that the young leader of the Jiang Clan watched out for Wei WuXian in an almost crazed manner. He would rather catch the wrong person than let go of any possibility, and took anyone who seemed like they held the soul of Wei WuXian away to the YunmengJiang Sect, inflicting severe torture on his victim. If he wanted to take someone back, the opposition would surely lose half of their life. - Chapter 10, EXR
But I have heard people say 'you can't prove that it's just more rumours' before, and I wanted my evidence to be as watertight as possible.
(And, off-topic... isn't it really sad how Jiang Cheng, in the present day, is described as young? Because, for a clan leader, he is. And another thing he is, is close in age to Wei Wuxian – who was killed 13 whole years prior :') )
***And do note that the only other time they run into each other before Wei Wuxian's identity is revealed to the world apart from this is their brief interaction at Jinlintai, where he can't just act however he wants. The next time they run into each other after it, Jiang Cheng is literally taking part in another siege against him, and still extremely hostile ("surrounded by hostile energy, face insidious, staring straight at him" – from EXR chapter 60). Then he loses his spiritual powers and can't do anything. By the time he regains his powers, Wei Wuxian, Lan Wangji and the Wen remnants' corpses have saved everyone during the Second Siege, and though public opinion hasn't properly shifted quite yet, it will soon after Sisi and Bicao tell the story of Jin Guangyao, and voila, a new scapegoat (do note that he doesn't completely bar Wei Wuxian from entering Lotus Pier after the Second Siege, though). Plus, throughout it all, Lan Wangji is still constantly present, which makes it hard for Jiang Cheng to really do anything. And then he's finally faced with the Golden Core reveal, which does alter his motivations towards Wei Wuxian (obviously the resentment is still there – read chapter 102 – but it's also mixed with other complex emotions, and he seems to start being able to move away from that a little in Chapter 103). I still definitely wouldn't describe Jiang Cheng's attitude towards him as positive, but it isn't at the point it was at the start of the novel (eg Chapter 10).
But even if his attitude does change, or would for whatever other reason apart from the reveal, that still doesn't change an initial motivation so isn't relevant to this meta. We know his intentions at the start.
****It's also possible they may have originated it, but I think WWX's reputation was bad enough for it to form naturally. Though you can trace a major part of that back to them, too.
*****That belief isn't outright stated in MDZS, but the fact people are specifically talking about the status of WWX's body in the aftermath of his death suggests that this belief does have some grounding in the MDZS universe, at least? And we know MXTX has included it in TGCF (though that doesn't mean it's definitely in MDZS), so she has used it in her works. If this isn't the case in the MDZS universe I am sorry (although that could also mean there's less importance placed on not disturbing the reincarnation cycle in the world of MDZS...? Which would work towards my original argument) – I don't want to spread misinformation that something is definitely true, I just think there's evidence to suggest it is true, which isn't the same thing.
******Again, I think this would depend on who ends up having more influence over who in the Lan sect. After all, normal resentful spirits only do what they do because of their resentment in death, whereas Wei Wuxian is 'dangerous' because of who everyone thinks he was in life – so him being reborn naturally could also 'cause a lot of harm to the world' during the time period this version of him would live in, unlike the resentful ghosts they appease. This could definitely lead to many advocating for confinement, I think.
#writing this takes me back to my nie huaisang one#'detective metas' i'd call both of them#as opposed to analysis of characters or themes#it may be less 'meaningful' but it's still fun to explore and speculate within a world you love#...albeit maybe not for this one because. mdzs jianghu when i get my hands on you-#also i fully acknowledge i may be wrong#but again i'd love to have discussions about these! debates and knowledge exchange are what leads to better understanding of source materia#which is a major goal of mine in writing these#mdzs meta#my meta#wei wuxian#mdzs cultivation world#long post#mo dao zu shi#gdc#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#魔道祖师#mxtx#detective meta#<– if i ever make this a tag#also i feel like you could write a fic (angsty or not so angsty depending on where you go with it) where the lan sect somehow-#-summons ghost!wwx back (not sure how bc the jin and jiang sects would probably want 'custody' of him more - and i don't think summoning-#-rituals are done by just one sect at a time? but imagine it happens) and idk he's kept in a spirit-trapping pouch or sth#lwj probably isn't told bc of what happened after nightless city - elders can't really trust him in matters to do with wwx#but maybe lxc feels bad for him or sth (especially bc he's mourning him and stuff + what happened after he found out wwx was dead)#and tells him and maybe brings wwx's soul to him for a bit so wwx can respond to inquiry#and they talk and obv. wwx is NOT happy with the situation (both rn and yk bc of the VERY RECENT SIEGE)#but but but! the thing that would stop this being completely depressing is that LWJ HAS A-YUAN SO WWX FINDS OUT HE SURVIVED#also lwj's injuries would likely come up at SOME point which would lead to wwx finding out abt nightless city afermath#AA NOO THE TAGS WENT ON FOR SO MUCH LONGER BUT I GUESS TUMBLR DOESN'T ALLOW SO MANY i'll have to make another post...
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"student life" this "student life" that. girl I haven't been to a club in a year. haven't spoken to another student for longer than 10 minutes since the beginning of uni. haven't made plans with ABSOLUTELY ANYONE. everyone seems to get on well with each other and hang out together and everything and I have only spoken to 3 of my classmates in total. I'm living in my childhood home with my mom. thank you but I think I'll skip this "student life"
#i long to have an 8h workday and an apartment of my own. however small#and stop with all the studying amd exams and everything. i want to get home however late and not study. just watch a movie or read a book o#sth but i NEED to be free after let's say 7pm. just the workday ends and there is no more work. please. PLEASE#please let me escape this “student life” thank you#ramble tag#sorry for the vent i'm growing desperate#only just started and the thought of having to live this way in the span of 4 years is driving me insane🥰 i will work all day if i want to#also my mom's and dad's rants about our finances is infuriating... like cool get you but have you considered that 1) i want to help. maybe#let me? 2)my uni fee is actually incredibly low. i can pay it 6x working only 4h a day why do you have to talk about it all the time#“noo you shouldnt or we wont be able to pay the money for your education!!” girl i can pay it all in 3 months. fuck off#sorry for being so angry but what do they think they're doing?? do they assume i can't count???#anyway bye
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reasons why this gunter/corrin doujin is going to be amazing: this
#i am fully embracing the 00's doujin/livejournal ship manifesto vibe and this thing is exploding with affection <3#i could not stop cackling the entire time while drawing shinjichair!gunter.... SERIOUSLY WHAT HE'S LIKE HALF THE TIME LMAO#'noo.... i shouldn't~~...."#meanwhile gunterfuckers are like 'please let us dick you down hot grandpa <3' 'it might not fix you but it'd fix us. i think'#own art
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I think a 'surviving as a maid' oneshot where Ash and the queen run away together would cure my depression actually
Same for a fic just about Mio and archmage Ciel interacting in literally any way tbh bc what the fuck the author really thought they could pull a "and there was only one bed" and just have us (the readers) let that slide???? Bitch I see you and I'm so here for it— honestly both from the casual familialness of it and potential shipping. I adore both possible angles of this dynamic
Mio, Ash and archmage Ciel as a dysfunctional little family / maybe throuple (but also it's incredibly unclear what's even happening there) is so compelling to me I'm sorry I'm fully checked out of like all other ships bc that dynamic is so interesting in literally all directions
Rolling it back to Ash and the Queen too, they have such good chemistry and I adore every scene they share together. The Queen has such this like gentle, elegant, tragic air to her that you can just tangible feel. The way I lose my fucking mind whenever Ash gets any real emotion out of her, just, ag. I love them. Fuck.
I can not find a single fic for this webtoon and this saddens me deeply. I think I need to fix this fact immediatley tbh
#im re reading it rn#i stopped around chapter 80(?) i think(?)#just hit chapter 33 in my re read and we are entering the zone of peak shit I care about tbh#back to back scenes and characters I find compelling and interesting#I remember I got bored / kind of pissed off at the red haired knight in my first read#kept shaking my screen yelling “NOO GIVE ME BACK QUEEN ADVENTURES AND QUEER PLATONIC THROUPLE ASH/MIO/MAGE” when we got a whole arc for him#already dreading hitting that arc tbh Ill probably end up skimming it#anyways its a good webtoon#im not really there for the romancs but it has some romance if thats what people like?#love the set up tho#amazing concept tbh#i fucking love a good “story told from the side characters POV and they *stay* a side character in this story”#where we get to watch shit unfold from the sidelines through the eyes of someone who does care but doesnt have too much at stake#it adds a real air of tragedy to it#one of my favorites tbh#(one of) the books Im trying to write takes a similar approach#love to see it !!!#webtoon#birds fic talk#surviving as a maid#ash tolkein#Mio Zodiac#Ciel Copperfield#surviving as a maid webtoon
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THEY MAKE ME SO SAD THE GAY PEOPLE THEY MAKE ME SO SAD
#disco elyisum#doodle#harry du bois#jean vicquemare#THEY MAKE ME CRY#I CRY WHEN J THINK ABOUT THEM#PLEASE STOPP SRORPP BEJNF SAD#MIDDLE AGE MEN STOP BEING SAD#THEH MAKE ME SK SAD#NOO NOO!!!! NoonnnNoonNOONNnnnn!!!#SO SAD n !!!#TEARS ROLLINF DOEN MY GACE#SNOT OUT OF MT NOSE#PLEASE THEY I THEY MAKE ME CRH I AM SO SAD PLEASE NOO THE GAU PEOPLE THE GAY PEOPLE THEH AMKE ME SO SAD
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based as FUCK of hoyo to confirm childe was in fact disrespecting the shit out of neuvillette in the 4.2 cutscene with the new FL emote LMAOOO
what a legend i love him (also apparently its even MORE insulting in chinese too??? "youre weak as fuck" like holy shit 💀💀)
#ppl can stop going all waa waa noo hes too NICE for that 💀💀💀💀 excuse me who rhe fuck do you think youre talking abt#childes literally never been above talking shit. does it Liberally in fact. this was ALWAYS obvious and fully in character🗣🗣🗣#the disrespect itself? fully deserved btw neuvi & traveler rly out there doing jack shit to protect the civilians the entire time#like what a fucking skill issue moment LMAOOOOO they should be embarrassed#genshin#rambles#childeposting#genshin spoilers#4.2 spoilers
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Thinking about baby patty 20 dead 40 wounded
#stranger things#patty newby#(through tears) noo ahah dont think about how patty had no friends in hawkins growing up#and how the closest thing to a friend wouldve been bob vs rhe way bob’s annoyed w her initially re: his radio stuff/the whole fucked up#newby damily dynamic as a whole/the emotional distance that Does exist between bob and patty as a result of mr newbys favouritism#towards bob. do NOT think about how patty is the same age as s4 el vs how el’s had friends since s1#like imagine if el didnt meet max or the party until season 4…. and the fact that patty’s first opening scene/one of the very first things#we’re told about her (and henry) is that she’s lonely… stop stop im already dead#:((((((((#patty i would been your friend its ok#(through tears): when do you guys think baby patty stopped trying to play with bob/when do you guys think that the whole family dynamic#really started to squash any like. proper close bonding yk like they dont hate eachother in tfs by any means but its like#there’s definitely a Distance there in a lot of ways & definitely resent etc you can feel under the surface (although in the end that def#improves) but i just. dont look at me im thinking about baby patty trying to ppay with bob but then going off to sit alone#(through tears and comically loud sobbing sounds) do you guys think that bob blamed patty for his mom leaving the same way mr newby blamed#her for his wife leaving? do you guys think that’s why bob didnt protect/defend her until the end of the play? and even then he didnt DO it#so much as say that he SHOULD have…..#(through even more tears) do NOT think about how quickly patty accepted mr newbys apology and even insisted initially that he has nothing to#apologize for despite the way hes treated her vs the fact that patty so clearly just wants to be loved#do not think about patty’s dad being the principal vs her still getting bullied all the time and then getting in trouble for defending#herself/mocking walter… mr newby when i fucking catch you!!!!!!!#pattyposting
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I was researching church stuff for a thing and apparently the English term for the Holy Water Basin is Stoup.. STOUP.
I wanted something ethereal or fancy but this word is just giving-
*loud sip*
"gud stoup. 👌"
#the cloud can speak oh boi#..I can't stop thinking about Holy Water as one of those Forbidden Soups now oh noo#In Italian it's called “Acquasantiera” which I believe comes from “Acqua Santa” (Holy Water) .. I may just have to use the word “Basin”#Stoup just makes me laugh way too much#and apparently it's also a term used for other vessels for drinks? So it's not even that precise- *disappointed*#Waa the temptation to mix Italian and English when I write- some words just sound better in different languages and it can't be helped#I'm sorry I've been away for months and when I return I just show you all my new therapy demon and then rant about church furnishings lol
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I opened the doc my teacher sent me of her revisions for my persuasive speech and felt the 50000 tons of grief I was ready to have dropped on my head dissipate into the wind like dandelion seeds ... houhughfdsugohdfosughdsofughfdsoughsdfjkghsdfkjghkjdfshgdsfgfdfdsgdfgjdhfugutigherotugher < - what pure relief looks like
#my rambles#im glad. because my eyes were GLUED to the rubric as I was writing it#I haven't done much drawing these last few days#I need to get on it#I wish I managed my time better . when I'm not doing my assignments i'm sitting on my ass thinking about doing my assignments#I could have so much more free time if I stopped procrastinating#I wish id least do something PRODUCTIVE when I'm set on shirking the shit I Need to do#im like.. noo I don't have the time to work on any of my animations or learn music#or finish the second part of my hs comic thats already taken me over a year to make#but I DO have time to sit around and. I don't fucking know what I do but it's never what I need to be doing#sitting and trembling whether it be in the shower or at my desk
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i don't think you guys realize that the tiny amount of typing style consistency i still maintain is just so people don't get thrown off by suddenly changing it after 4 years of posting the same way
#⩝#blog stuff#sometimes there's just a style or tone or voice I want to make a post in but I have to stop myself like no what if it comes off weird#or I wanna change my pfp or my url or tags or whatever but like noo I can't because I changed it too recently 🙄#maybe I think my blog would be nicer for me if I didn't tag anything ever. for 4 months. then change my mind.#but if I establish that I like it. I prefer it? a healthy properly enriched Ekho will become very offputting and abstruse#the follower count i have is mindboggling when i can't imagine what i post that's interesting enough to make up for it being posted by me#incapable of reading my own writing or even hearing my own voice without thinking can this guy shut upppp#kvetch#it wasn't one but then i made it one 😐
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i WANT to write the wind rises kavexis au. i WANT to write about pokemon au for my selfships. but. slime rancher calls. slime rancher calls, and it says "look shroom. look at your lovely mosaic tangle largos. you need to find the nightshade secret style for your tangle slimes, shroom. why don't you do that? why don't you also do some quests for viktor, while you're at it, and unlock his lab?" slime rancher tells me to play for a bit and then i check how long i've been playing and it's been 150 minutes and it's 1 20pm and I haven't had lunch yet
#I'm too weak. slime rancher got to me :(#and i still need to decide what type of largo my sabers will be :( idk what to do for them!!!#tangle?? mosaic COULD be cool. but I think something like phosphor or even pink could be better#ik I ADORED my crystal saber largos in my old main. I loved those things so much#I might go with that again..#or hunter?? noo.. not dervish either.. honey could be cute actually#ILL SEE ILL SEE#ILL FEED THEM A MINT MANGO NO MATTER WHAT AND SEE WHAT I THINK OF A SABER HONEY LARGO#everyone but Alexis is probably so confused rn. if you're reading this I love you <3 thank you for reading all of my rambles <33#I'm soso excited to see twig on the 31st <33 about 18 more days!! yay!!!#OKOK SHUSH SHROOM!! GO TO BED!!#MUAH I LOVE YOU ALL YOURE SO COOL AND AMAZING!! AND I LOVEYOU!!!!!!!#:shroom is typing...#OH I GOT TO A HIGHER LEVEL IN THE 7ZEE REWARDS CLUB I HAVE AN UPGRADED GROTTO NOW!!#I really like the 7zee rewards part of slime rancher but at the same time it's so expensive#NO NO STOP TALKIGN SHROOM GO TO BED GO TO SELEEP STOP YAPPING!! NOO#DSHFHJSDFHJF#NO MORE TAGS NO MORE TAGS NO MORE TAGS. OK? OK. I want to add more tags I will talk until I reach the limit of this one thanks for listenin
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I too wish that the medical hack that made me grow up in a purgatory like state of existence would rot in prison Akane was so real for this
#delete later#I am realllyyy going through it today had to stop doing thr dishes before I broke something#pray I don't make anything worse cause my stupid parents are making this situation much muddier I don't think I can talk them into helping#but if they don't help on my side it then they were complicit to the other and I don't want my sibling to be caught on that crossfire#if I go ahead with this I guess I should talk to my dad he could Potentially be reasonable about this my mom would be the one worse off#and she wouldn't take it well which is why I wish I could just deal with it on my own but noo she had to go do something dumb#uuuugh whyyy couldn't this happen to someone whose parents have enough of a spine to stand by their child#akshakshsj aah I'm so... hhhh sick of hearing im so sorry that happened to you#I know myself well enough to understand there's no way I'll just sit with this for the rest of my life I need to take action somehow#I hate that it's someone who still has a license I hate how someone so stupid and prejudiced is taken more seriously because of a degree#that it's someone still perfectly sympathetic to my parents because he's a family man who just didn't know better and wanted to help#nevermind me almost dying that once because of how the Wrong medicine interacted with antibiotics I needed to not die from the flu#it kept me up for three days straight at home for six months and I was blamed for that instead of his incompetence
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#i just. keep fucking thinking about That#i couldve handled all that alot better#but noo i just just have to not think before i say and start shit#i was just being bitchy and mad and fucked everything up for everybody 😭#fucked me up fucked my mutuals up fucked enjoyers of that au up#maybe the reason the asks fucked me up bad was because of. The History. idk#vent ?? idk whole lot of nothing right here that i should just stop talking about
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