#NO BUT REALLY idk why LMAO it was a fun day though im happy ^^

[chisungie]

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[thepaladinstrait]

we don't talk enough about stray so please tell me what's your favourite chapter and why!

POPPYYYYYY OKAY. I SPENT ALL DAY THINKING ABOUT HOW TO ANSWER THIS AND IVE DECIDED IM JUST GONNA RAMBLE ABOUT ALL THE CHAPTERS

here’s a tldr :)

my favourite chapter is the slums!! it’s so so detailed and fun and there are so many companions to interact with, and there are so many details and such gorgeous graphics that tell the story really really well!!!!

okay here’s the long rant about each chapter

SO

chapter 1- inside the wall

i really love the design of this chapter!! and just the fun cat stuff with the cats friends, i love the interactions at the start before you go to sleep with the cats, and just running around and it’s really cute!! not too much to say about this chapter really, but it’s actually really heartbreaking and it sets up the story really well, with the cat falling into the sewers and stuff. very cute, good graphics and design, good way to set up the story!

chapter 2- dead city

graphics!!!!!!! i loooove the graphics in this chapter, all the graffiti is so cool. and the dead companion gave me a jumpscare when i first played ashckskdlsjdksj. not really much to say again, i love the zurk chase though!! first experience with the zurks and i think the chase was really good to start with to set down basics!!!! also all the signs that b12 was guiding the cat with is so cute and i really love it. also i love that when you meow the neon lights turn on and guide the way up to the entrance to the flats, i think that’s really good for new players, and it’s also more b12 involvement!! also- the paint buckets!!!!!!!!!!! so much fun

chapter 3- the flats

b12 b12 b12 b12 b12!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i loved walking on the keyboard, that was loads of fun. again, not really much to say about this chapter, just. b12 <3 also bucket zip-line!! that’s always fun too! that’s really all i have to say about the flats

chapter 4- the slums

okay i think this is my favourite chapter. the graphics, the storytelling, all the companions you can talk to, intro to momo, the grandma, morusque, the paint throwing companions, the guardian, jacob, everything!!!!!!! i really love all the details put into all of the places, and all the outsiders’ apartments. i also loved sleeping next to swanito, the companion who was up on a rooftop talking about the “stars” (the dots in the roof of the city). also, morusque!!!!!!!!!!!!! really love him. i love all the posters in the outsiders’ apartments, and all the details. like, the video game poster, the cows, all the things about the outside, i just think that the graphics and details are so good in there. and doc’s apartment has the absolute cutest sleeping spot in the little nook in the bookcase. but yeah, the slums is my favourite chapter. i could get lost in that space for hours, its so detailed and gorgeous and makes me so happy, its also so safe in there lmao. also there are so many companions to meow at (and to trip over) also jacob <3

chapter 5- rooftops

adjakjdlsjxkaizk rooftops made me mad when i first played, but its better once you’ve done it once and i decently enjoy it now!!! i love watching the zurks launch themselves off the edge of the rooftops, i also really liked meowing to attract them, idk why, i just find it fun lmao. its a quite strategic chapter, which i also enjoy too!! like, meowing to get them to jump off the edge, and opening and closing the gate doors and stuff. i also quite enjoy all the details, again! the graphics of all the zurk infested areas is both gross and so so cool and i really love all the details in the graphics. i died too many times to count during that goddamn elevator chase though. made me want to throw myself into a zurk pile.

chapter 6- the slums: part 2

this chapter has quite a few layered details of what you need to do, which can get a bit complicated. like, you need to distract the paint throwing companions to steal the detergent, trade the detergent with the merchant for the electrical cable, trade the electrical cable for the poncho, give the poncho to elliot and finally get the tracker fixed, and it kinda got on my nerves the first time i played that bit tbh. that’s all i have to say about that chapter actually. got on my nerves when i first played. i do enjoy distracting the companions though

chapter 7- dead end

love the chase at the beginning of dead end. literally my favourite zurk chase ever. the rest of it isn’t that fun. it’s kind stressful after you’ve done the fuse and the zurks are coming, even though doc was trying to help, i died more times there waiting for doc to help than that damn zurk chase at the start of the chapter. doc wasn’t that helpful. i really like docs place though!!! the caged zurks that he was running tests on, and all the details in his place are really cool

chapter 8- the sewers

okay, i have quite a love hate relationship with this chapter. hated it at first, but i’ve grown to kinda enjoy it. i love love love the details and graphics here, it’s gross and kinda terrified me when i first played, like. all the eyeballs???????? gross disgusting ew. the zurk eggs????????????? hate them. hate how they pop. they make my skin feel gross. zurks in general?????????????? big nope. but it’s kinda fun. i had loads of fun last round because i just went wheeeeeeee and ran away. it was really stressful using the defluxor on all of them, especially in the huge cave bit with all the eyes where more zurks kept falling from the goddamn sky, i had loads of fun just running though. unfortunately doing it for the pacifist award means you don’t have much time to really, like, enjoy the graphics and visuals, because you’re kinda just sprinting the whole chapter, but i have grown to enjoy this chapter!!!!!!!!!!

chapter 9- antvillage

okay, i’m mad that this chapter is so short because its visuals are stunning!!!!!!!!! i was also really frustrated with b12 the first time i played because i wanted to talk with all the companions ahdkahdksjdksj. i also really struggled to find zbaltazar for genuinely no reason like i don’t know why i made it so hard for myself lmao. but there are so many companions to talk with (once b12 is ready to talk again) and i knocked over that mahjong game as many times as i could and it made me giggle every time. the plant badge was very cute, and the whole chapter is just very very aesthetically pleasing and pretty and fun to go through!!!!!! i did get very lost a few times somehow. i don’t know how

chapter 10- midtown

this is quite close to being my favourite chapter!! again, there’s so much to do, and it’s another really aesthetically pleasing chapter. the visuals and details are amazing, and there are so many companions to trip over, which is always a bonus in my eyes. so many companions to interact with, and such layered storytelling and details, and it’s just so so incredible. also clementine’s apartment is so cozy. like that little spot in the main room up above the draws??????? so cozy and you can sleep up there!!!!!!!!!!! it’s just so nice in there and i want to stay there forever. this is another kinda complicated chapter, not as bad as slums part 2, but like. you gotta disable all the cameras, get the cassette and put it in the clothing store, steal the jacket, wake up the passed out companion in the bar (i enjoyed that bit too. got to knock the bottles onto his head), get into a box, be carried into the hat store, steal the hat, then you can finally bring them to blazer (ew, btw). also the neco corp factory (i wanna ramble about the neco corp vs nico thing but im not gonna lmao) was frustrating, but just because i made it harder than it needed to be. literally i got my mum in to help because i couldn’t work out how to get the battery. i just had those two moving things on the wrong squares to be able to get the rolling tin barrel on the third one. i was dumb at that spot lmao. also the nightclub is so cool and detailed!!!!!!! that companion with the mask to jam the sentinels scans was sick asf, i loved that detail

chapter 11- jail

nobody mention this chapter around me i hate it (not really i quite like it actually, just very stressful) i hate sentinels and want them all to die, thank you. i love swinging the cage right at the start though, that was fun. also all of the details??????? that companion being electrocuted was. oh my god. fucking insane. i loved it. and all the dead companions keeled over beds in cells, all rotted?????????? kinda creepy, set the scene perfectly, 10/10 there. i was doing fine and didn’t understand why everyone hates this chapter until it came to rescuing b12. i really struggled with that bit, until i, 1) learnt i could hide under the table where b12 was, and , 2) i could escape through an open window and skip all of the sentinels. this did mean sprinting past two sentinels in the room where b12 was, but if i timed it correctly i could make it through without meeting any sentinels. it took me a while to learn that though. the worst bit of this chapter was trapping the sentinels though lmao, but i loved the details of all the companions who’d been trying to escape who were either wiped or were hiding off to the edge and hadn’t been caught yet. also, lupin, that one companion who had either been maybe electrocuted in jail?? or slightly wiped or something, but after you trapped the sentinels, if you went to talk to him, he said, and i’m quoting this off of the official fandom page, “Ah… HAhahA… Waa… Wh..at… you d..id… Haha… ThaaaAt was funny…” and that both made me very sad but also was incredible detailing there!!!!!!

chapter 12- control room

okay. this chapter is the whole reason i wanted to like, analyse all the chapters like this, because i get so mad at this chapter because ALL THE DETAILS!!!!!!!!!! ITS SUCH A COOL PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I CANT!! DO ANYTHING!!!! like, there are maybe 10 companions, who are just coded to not really have any cool personalities, but it is such a cool place, it’s so detailed, and so so important to the story, like, that was run by humans before???? hello can we focus on that????????? this is so so so amazingly designed and is so insanely important to the story, and yet there’s just. nothing to really do in there. there’s no one to interact with, no memories (other than the one key memory), and it’s just aaaaaaaadhskcjsoxjd i wish i could do more in there because it’s so cool!!!!! and the huge window out to the rest of the walled city??????? i love it so much. shows so much detail and so much information and for what, huh? for b12 to jUST FUCKING DIE. anyway. love hate relationship with this chapter again

[pbaz7]

so so so so so incredibly excited (my day was once again absolutely awful so im hoping for a pick me up happy chap :) )

warning: suggestive content

W.

From the other end of the line, Elle’s cheery voice replied, “Good morning, Azzi.”

she does remember that az is taken... right?

“Pai…my girlfriend is asleep

ALMOST OUTED HERSELF LMAO

There was a slight pause before Elle answered, a hint of disappointment in her tone

knowing her this bitch probably chose to not hear the "pai"

Later that day, after they’d woken up, brushed their teeth, and taken a long, warm shower together, they’d ended up right back in bed. The morning had melted into the early afternoon as they laid around, playfully rolling across the sheets, teasing each other, play fighting and stealing kisses in between laughs.

this is so gross (adorable) i hate gay people we should ban them (im literally a lesbian im just annoyed that im single)

Elle (Comms Class):

THE PARENTHESES AFTER THE NAME IM DEAD. SHES SO INSIGNIFICANT AZ MIGHT FORGET LMAO

Without lifting her head, Azzi mumbled against her skin, “You’re gonna win the bet.”

well no fucking shit sherlock.

You’re gorgeous Az can’t really blame her.”

I mean who wouldn't want the Azzi Fudd to be fair

“I’ll be subtle. Just a little something to remind her that you’re taken.”

Paige doesn't really know subtle...

“Your version of ‘subtle’ isn’t subtle at all.”

LMAO STOLE MY WORDS

Well, Paige was driving.

Azzi's her passenger princess of course

“you mentioned your girlfriend yesterday. What’s she like?”

6 foot, blonde, insanely attractive, great hands, star player for uconn women's basketball. sound familiar?

“And what does she look like? Is she as tall as you? Blonde? Brunette?”

hotter than you. taller than you. blonder than you. better than you.

“Why do you want to know?”

clock it azzi

“does she ever get jealous? You know, with how much time you spend with Paige?”

is she blind? we learned she was deaf last chapter when she didn't hear Paige being the freak she is. is this ho Helen Keller reincarnated?

But, I mean… Paige is Paige Bueckers. Gotta be a little intimidating.

oh elle. if only you knew.

if I were your girlfriend, I’d definitely be keeping an eye on Paige.

this is Hermione trying to make a move on Ron in half blood prince at the bar lmao

“She doesn’t mind Paige,”

guys I can't take this anymore. id personally scream at Elle or just start violently making out with Paige in front of her

but I’d rather not talk about my personal life anymore. Let’s just focus on the project.”

FUCKING CLOCK IT.

“I can see why someone would… want to be around you all the time.”

she knows subtle less than Paige jeez

Azzi blinked, her stomach tightening as Elle moved a little closer, leaning in with an expression that was far too intense for comfort.

SHE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. YOU KNOW THAT. DOES SHE HAVE MEMORY LOSS TOO?

💗: Not done yet, but I might need you to come sit here while we finish.

Paige is fuming somewhere. also it's so sweet that she can just like text p and she come to her rescue and protect her

💗P: Something’s wrong though I can tell

she knows az so well she can see her emotions thru a text message

P 💗: I’m omw

Paige leave the weapons at home please

“Hey, pretty girl.” The words lingered between them for a moment, the intimacy clear.

elle is about to start tweaking im scared

Paige immediately noticed and glanced over. Without a word, she pulled off her hoodie and handed it to Azzi, leaving herself in a snug-fitting black t-shirt that clung to her toned frame and her silver cross glistening from the light.

was gonna comment on p being sweet but then like the description of p was so hot so idk what to do here guys

“Everything okay over there?” Paige asked,

Paige is having too much fun lmao

“I haven’t even started,”

im so scared but so excited

“You’ll be lucky if you can even walk to practice tomorrow.”

I VOLUNTEER. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

I’ll make sure everybody can hear who you belong to,” Paige whispered, her teeth grazing Azzi’s earlobe before pulling back slightly.

holy fuck.

“You like that, don’t you baby?”

I need elle to walk in

her thighs pressing together as her need for Paige became overwhelming. “P-Paige baby…” she started, her voice barely audible.

the overwhelming urge I have to shapeshift into Azzi fudd

“You’re so obvious, baby,” Paige murmured, her voice low and teasing. “She can see how desperate you are for me.”

I am literally. I can't. I. yeah.

imagining the necklace dangling above her, its chain brushing against her skin as Paige—

poor elle honestly she's basically watching porn (jk I literally could not care less)

Elle, at this point, didn’t need any more hints.

finally.

“do you want to come over here so we can go through the final slides together?”

why is she still flirting.

Paige let her hand trail along Azzi’s arm and then down to her thigh.

elle is like um guys..

“I never would’ve tried anything if I knew it was you Paige. I’m sorry.”

but it's ok to try stuff if its not Paige?

the door barely clicked shut before Azzi grabbed Paige by the shirt, pushing her firmly against it. Her lips crashed against Paige’s, her kiss full of pent-up frustration and desire.

poor azzi had to endure not only elle hitting on her but p literally teasing her for hours

“What you did wasn’t funny.”

it definitely was

“I’ve wanted to rip your clothes off for the past hour,”

never read something so relatable

“I’ll let you go first,” Paige said smoothly, her voice low and dripping with confidence. “Because I promise, Az, you won’t be able to move when I’m done.”

I don't think im ever recovering.

You looked so good in there,"

let's be real tho... doesn't she always look good?

"Be patient, baby."

Paige doesn't know what that word means lmao

"I won’t make you this time, baby,"

THIS TIME? AUTHOR OH HOW YOU'VE ROBBED US

Paige’s control wavered, her breathing quickening as she clenched the sheets beneath her.

you robbed us two chapters in a row. I better see a continuation of this next chapter.

good lord author. I felt so many emotions but most of them were "oh my god I hate elle" and "oh my lord Paige is so fine"

this definitely made my day better, I love you!☺️

-🍉

i’m so glad i made your day better 🥹

you struggling more than azzi was in the chapter with your reactions lol 😭

i pinky swear i won’t rob you next time you’ll love it 🙂‍↕️

ilysm and i hope you have a amazing day tomorrow 🍉

[sage-lights]

hello, this is the final update from the sword af closure anon that has also been on a dread journey. things have been so stressful at work so i haven't had time, but decided to spend the past 2 days just watching smosh vs zombies. and it's perfect.

dread, i love u. smosh and shortform ttrpgs, u were made for each other. 😔💔 i love dread. it's got EVERYTHING- queer coded courtney, queer coded amanda, amanda having palpable tension w spencer, spencer misogyny but for haha hehe, and the return of reuben?? WHAT MORE COULD A GIRL WANT??

even the recent sponsored dread- that was so silly goofy- arasha lalani in ttrpgs is so fun, fresh, innovative, and sexy. arasha pretending she knows what afk is? iconic, showstopping, genius, brilliant, life-changing. trevor being a brooding leader despite being the silliest goose in the pond? an awe- inspiring choice. trevarts from hezekiah's beautiful ur mind is sooooo vast i wanna know how it works.

idh anything smart or retrospective to say other than dread was such a good and fun series that filled a void for me. and i also enjoyed george's smosh mouth episode! glad to know he cared ab sword af, too!

i do agree w you though that i'd love to see more gms on dread other than george, but i do really like him! i'd actually love to see aabria iyengar on it! ik she did something w smosh during the pandemic but she's such a delight and i'm genuinely so fatigued by smosh's videos lineups lately being SO man-heavy because i think arasha and angela should be in EVERY video. any time it's all boys, it de-yassifies trevor and i hate it. but anyways, yes, aabria. smosh is also in DESPERATE need for more than one woman of color in a room at a time. (unrelated: idk why no one wants this as much as i do or at least no one's talked about it- i know that she's white but elyse willems and angela NEED to do a video together. i NEED it. elyse is delightful, even tho she's white lmao im kidding i love white ppl 💖😬🤭)

whoever on smosh games pitched dread deserves to get their ass ate. not by me but by someone who'll do it.

hello again!! happy to hear from you 🤗 i'm really glad you're liking dread and decided to give it a shot! smosh vs zombies was super duper fun, but i think aliens could've been longer and they could've explored the world more. i think three eps is a good length for dread. i haven't watched the sponsored dread all the way through because i haven't had time and i kept missing details and rewinding it. but i hope to finish it soon!

love george!!! he's hella fun as a dm and is a wonderful story teller. and yes, it was nice to know he was involved and supportive of saf! AABRIA WOULD BE WONDERFUL (you also just gave me new info to update my agcu with LOL because i didn't know she'd been on smosh before)!

i don't know much about elyse and james willems besides what they've done on smosh, but i'm manifesting elyse and angela for you 🫶🫶🫶

[knizuu]

Talk to me abt uhhh anything- Fang, Petey, OC, idc. ANYTHING U WANT💖💖

PLEASE IM GENUINELY INTERESTED IM NOT DOING THIS JUST CUS U LET ME- /gen

I get so nervous writing asks wtf

DUDE IM SO DUCKING HAPPY +omg same </33

COUGH well imma go in order lets go with the

FANG🫧….

SIGHH I LOVE HIM SM. tbh I see how people react to the recent idw miniseries which left the Hooligan fans really sour </33 to me, though, it wasn’t too bad?? I see how it works and honestly the only sad part to me is WHY DID HOOLIGANS BREAK UP AUH but im so used to “sonic canon ew” so like-I should’ve expected that sigh. So I can reason with how excited people headcannon/draw/make whatever of the guy it’s really cool since we all kinda agree? Like even with such a variety we all take the guy lovingly <33 which is sweet :> like its pretty chill-WHCIH IS FUNNY because Im actually really scared in small communities <- i made a post bout it once i-I EAT UP ANY FAN MADE FANG CONTENT FR i love all fangs really [so far] ^ ^ tbh even my school knows that-I did pottery of him, drawn him, spoke of him, my teacher saw a drawing of Fang I did and HE QUOTE: I was looking for that [SIR I GET IT IM PREDICATABLE/silly]

PETEY💠

Ok as much as heartfelt I feel about Fang-Petey is just some other freak of nature my family knows. I’m NOT EVEN JOKING-MY MOM SANG ABOUT HIM WHILE MAKING LUNCH/GEN GEN GEN-cough. Idk why but ever since my brother [the first dog man fan obviously] inserted dog man into my family [by 1. SHOWING MY FANART/BOOKS TO MUM 2. LETTING ME SING THE MUSICAL ALL DAY LON-/positive fs] its been insane/sILLY because-who expected everyone to say “Papa Petey” [i do NOT know how some typo made mo-ok my mom has a Petey problem/sILY AGAIN] in the car-at home…NOT ME THATS WHO. WHY IS PETEY SUCH A NORMAL THING IN MY HOUSEHOLD/positive sigh

OC🌸

OKK well they are ALMOST a wasteland but I have an original story to bring some ocs to life ^ ^ [including-sigh vague mention-the space dog lady and red haired lady ocs i have :3] ESSENTALLY: I’m calling it Brink of Bryony!! [Bryony is about a flower but in plot idk a city??] it’s just a human loser [red haired lady MAYBE] meeting alien folk [Cordella is there…i showed her ONCE] like my self insert hehe [Norolist] because OH NO beeg mister evil guy wants to take over Earth and this NICE alien people gonna protect it! That’s the entire thing, very unserious lmao. Pyrexavul is my precious <33 I don’t think I shared him?? I’ll share em all sometime hehe im too lazy LMAO. So yes yes I’ve been into making that story recently :> !!

ANYTHING🦐

OK SO my Luxury AU has been MANIFESTING MOI cuz i decided: why yes I WILL make a fic bout it!! Yknow just remaking the lore[cough this means me rewriting the first book of DogMan] and putting some stuff into one work ^ ^’ SO FAR I’m really getting into the vibes but what’s crazy is how I turned what I THOUGHT was oughta be a comedy-to a tragedy. No like I KNOW IM GONNA WRITE CUTE STUFF I WILL I JUST-….also might’ve included grief, addiction, ETC I dont even know how I got there 🙂‍↔️but it’s been fun! Especially since it makes me go down a nice study check with me lmao [I’ve been learning the medical field, laws, how media handles stuff, types of _, etc] hehe rubbing my hands together imma be so happy to write it all hehe and with that I’m learning about my characters a lot better! I thought of it more one noted because its a good start but now im actually learning more bout em :0 !! Love reworking stuff, redesigning, it’s been a huge part of me since idk when ^ ^’

COUGHHHH i think that all works out!! TYSM FOR ASKING I CANNOT EXPRESS THE WHIMSY I FEEL RN <33

[feuqueerfire]

Wandee Goodday Ep 7 Live Blogging

Whoop whoop 2nd week in a row that I'm managing to watch the show right after it airs. Although I did consider not watching it for 1-2 days so that I can finish my binge watch of Unknown (I'm so excited to see petty Yuan in ep 8 heh) but thought I should just watch this one before I find out everything that happens through tumblr and twitter posts.

I'm in sort of an angsty mood, esp after the last few Unknown eps that I've watched, so I'm expecting some angst here too. Eps 5-6 of Wandee have been happy and fun while they ignore their feelings and problems, so I need some of that to burst and cause issues.

Ep 7 (June 15)

7-1

showing a little support for psychiatry, though idk how helpful it is to make somebody go when they don't really wanna go

Does Yak want a mouth kiss if he wins?

Yak finds a photo of Ter and Dee in a book and it casts doubt in his mind ig

ohhh Dee was planning on throwing it out but in the end kept it and he had even written "love Dr. Ter the most" on the back

pls Kao's frustration as the audience stand-in

"...might lead to losing them"

Did Ter hear the part that gives away that they're not real bfs

well, he knows they're not dating fr anyway but still the audacity to confront Yak like this

Ter using his knowledge about Dee gained for the past 8 years against Yak, agh. like you knew him all this time and must have known he liked you and yet now that he's finally moving on, you can somehow take action? piss off

both Unknown and Wandee have boxing

what is up with these grown ass adults not being able to live without seeing each other for a few days T.T you shouldn't even be thinking of not going to Japan bc you won't see Yak for a couple days

Why is Dee basically he sniffing Yak's armpit in the gym showers

7-2

Yei just watching Yak sneak out lmfao

fuck I think Ter's gonna somehow be here? I didn't watch the preview but I saw a screencap of Ter and Dee while Dee was in the tiger outfit or whatever, though I think somebody mentioned it was at Ter's place

speak of the devil...

oh, Yak's got a keycard to Dee's place, did we know that?

why is Dee at Ter's bruh

let's fucking kill Ter, I actually cannot anymore

I do think it's funny how neither of them are commenting on Dee's literal tiger sex roleplay costume lmao he's even got a headband!

Dee needs to snap out of it, get up, and leeeeeaaaave

now Kao is here too?

the costume isn't for you to appreciate, Ter stoppppp >:((((

why the fuckkkk did Ter start leaning in, I actually need this man dead and gone, get off my damn screen

and then spilling wine on himself and wanting Dee to help cleanup and now he's practically naked in his fucking boxers, I wish I could be normal about just disliking Ter but I am immature about my hatred for him the same way he's immature about his ways trying to get Dee

TER IS OPENING THE DOOR IN HIS BOXERS?!?!? AND DEE'S ALSO IN HIS TIGER COSTUME IM GONNA LOSE MY SHIT AGHHH

[Linguistics] oh damn Yak uses meung with Ter in anger

aw man T.T I get Yak, why did Dee say Yak always uses violence? I don't recall Yak being violent before this???

Yak breaking up, returning the keycard, taking the necklace back, ouchhhhhhhhh

Yak leaning on Taem

Aw man, Dee being sad at the necklace being gone

I think I would like it if for the rest of the ep + some of next ep, they're separate about doing their own stuff and missing each other and spending time with Ter & Taem only to realize they don't feel the same as they used to and when they come together again (hopefully sometimes next ep, I don't want it to be solved this ep tbh), it's with real feelings and confession. I think I also want Dee to confess/start the conversation since he's the one who fucked up (I know I ragged on Ter but how did Dee even let it go through all those steps omg)

fuck I saw 1 second of the preview and aghhhh I hate Ter, who could've guessed. I have some stuff to do so I'll be back for the next 2 parts later, though they're quite short compared to the first two parts.

7-3

back to watching but I'm having lunch so I probably won't type much

T.T

Ter realized his feelings alright. i don't know that i believe you lol, though maybe it's true since Ter's drunk while he's saying it

okay Ter accidentally fell, I thought he was gonna attack Dee from the 0.2 sec preview

dang, Yak's the one who leaned back and didn't kiss Taem. It seems like Taem wouldn't have been opposed to it?? Did she fall for him some time in the past few eps

7-4

oops was checking at the bottom timing bar how many minutes the show actually is before previews start (9mins) but got spoiled for the last scene of the ep

Damn, Yak's imagination of Dee and TEr really has him facing a humiliating defeat against Luke's character

I get P'Yei like despite everything going on in Yak's life, this is still his job and him winning was necessary for himself, the gym, money, etc. or at least put up a fair fight, not whatever that was bc of a fight with his fwb-fake bf that he has real feelings for

Aw, Wandee came back immediately and found Yak at his favourite place or whatever

Yak crying nooo

why am I suddenly paranoid that this is also Yak's imagination lmao

ah, indeed Yak had asked for Dee's first kiss

and Dee kisses him even though he lost

the kisses are mid but it's fine

damn, a hospital ball next ep? and how is Ter even in the show still wtf

I wanted angst and sadness and I got that but the way we got there was fairly contrived. Ter's sliminess I understand but Dee going through so many steps without just... leaving is like ?? I get that he may still have feelings for Ter that makes him not think straight or whatever but c'mon... am I supposed to believe Dee would actually go to Ter's place and have dinner there in his fucking sex roleplay clothes that he put on to have a candlelit dinner with Yak? and the violence comment was like... no? Yak's pathetic fight was also like... why.

The first kiss was also not impactful because we've established for 7 episodes that it's something very monumental to Dee + it's something that he wants to do with only somebody he really likes, so to have it 1) be a "consolation prize" and 2) come before they discuss their feelings or anything is resolved feels incomplete. It's not a grand or romantic moment the way their first kiss should have been. I don't wanna go back to goofy dance show or whatever next ep...

idk, this ep was a bit of disappointment in terms of storytelling and the way we're exploring emotions, I hope they can turn it around. They have 5 more episodes and so theoretically they have time to do stuff well but also... they have time to drag everything out lol

The necklace though T.T

[petrichoraline]

We Are Ep.2 thoughts in chronological order

what peem did in the car trying to convince phum to part their ways is what the youth calls ✨a yap sesh✨ (he tried ig) (this is what this post is as well)

we're probably never seeing phum use those things he bought ever, he'll just keep hanging around in his engineer shirt

peem has so many ppl ready to square up for him including his auntie and he is recognised by tan as someone who loves his friends very much (which makes the fact tan has sold him away for time with his crush TWICE even worse lmao)

i don't really get phum's insistence on not telling anyone about being phum's "slave", not even tan who got him into the mess or his best friend but it's just his ego ig (aside from plot reasons)

i find pun more relatable now - tags along for the funsies and gets happy around fire

not convinced the beans and pork scene wasn't an ad but im not sure how cause i didn't clock any labels

the scene where peem brings in food and laughs with q feels like improv or breaking left in lol

fai missing cause of upset stomach might be some sort of foreshadowing and i'm a bit worried bout her

the professor is handsome <3 and could pas off as chimon's sibling in a show

q absorbing those noodles was very satisfying idek why lol

peem and q's friendship is in the background but the show still constantly makes it a point that they are really good and loyal best friends

i thought "oh theyre gonna make the sharing food a thing in the future" so when boys showed up i was like "ah, we're doing it immediately? bit boring" but then he didn't share!! joey never shares food!! i think he will in the future though, him being a foodie is a constant thing so i'm guessing we're using it as a sign of compromise in the name of love or smth

satang playing this type of character felt a bit much in the first episode but i think he's getting more comfortable with the role as the show progresses and it look more natural; i'm glad his character isn't the googly eyed mentee and he actually teases a lot and snaps back but knows when to stop playing because q isn't the most patient person. (matt having to jump in like "bro he's serious" was so funny cause i hadn't clocked that either hahah)

the way we can see q flustered at certain points but seemingly unbothered at others is fun because his reactions aren't entirely predictable at this stage as we're still getting to know him. also it's mad cute when he clearly doesn't know what to do with himself

idk how he hasn't asked toey bout why he's in art yet, ig they're just now starting to properly get to know each other

toey took one look at q's back and decided "that's a cool ass aura to base my entire future around!" and tbh that's very young adult of him

q regularly asking about peem's work being submitted, he's honestyly worried <3

the way i cheered for peem burping in phum's face and then went "oh he came back :(" bahah

phum is definitely already planning his day and schedule around peem, i don't think he'd ever tell his friends because he wants to actually keep it going so one of the reasons is to not run into his faculty friends including tan and the second is to have lunch with his unconscious crush AND I AM VERY HAPPY WITH THIS STUPIDITY

thought peem could overhear the convo behind the car and realise what he was exchanged for but nope, he just dipped; i think that might be a plot point for later

phum not knowing tan has a crush on fang is so weird cause he genuinely acted like he knew while taunting tan, i don't have an explanation for that

fang is their p'!! i was so conviced he was the little brother, ig because of his big round eyes and the way phum acted all protective (that just makes phum cuter tbh)

what is the age difference between bar owner and prof cause i ship it

it took me a bit to realise the nongs were there instead of the full arts gang and i was glad to see toey and q together (also the green sweater is beautiful on toey, hope it makes a comeback)

i was ready to believe fang had some sort of falling out with tan with the way he treated him but tan beaming and enjoying a dreadful setting (no talking, awkward sitting around in a bar with mid music and alcohol) shows that man is glowing just from being in fang's presence (i hope he reaches ridiculous levels of lame for him)

i was screeching when i realised where things were going with wasted peem and seeing him n the bench outside had me exctaticcc (ofc he didnt book a taxi. and ofc they cant just order one for him noww could they)

phum cockblocks but he kinda has to cause there's no reason for fang to be there otherwise; once the ridiculous proposition of him taking peem home comes up he doesn't really fight it at all - he wants to be with peem, sure, but i think he's also pretty okay with tan and fang being a thing

the way i was screaming "just buy the flowers rich boy!!! he wants to go home" and then the kid went to get more lol

ofc he couldnt just leave the flowers in the backseat, peem just has to have them in his lap.. and the seatbelt scene was so predictable but it's too much of a classic with all "figuring things out" parts of a romance that i can't complain

it makes absolutely zero sense aside from people liking people (cause fang knows what he's doing too) that phum would drive peem to his house - a place where tan has sleepovers at all the time and phum hasn't been to before. fang is his brother and they can sleep at the same place as well even if they don't live together but nope. also THAT CAR HAS EMPTY BACKSEATS, if phum wanted to he would've forced them to ride with him to keep an eye on tan

fang is probably planning to launch a big revenge attack on peem and that'd be so funny, those four can get way too entangled, i could get DRAMA out of their plans and schemes (this show is more hidden agenda than hidden agenda was)

tan's energy with fang reminds me of the duracell bunny lmao it's late at night and they've had a few drinks but his mind and body are all focusedon wooing fang (who is playing nonchalant but has probably had a crush on tan as well)

also no way he was just gonna leave tan on the street lol

toey and q aleady work so well together, toey knows his effect on q more or less and q doesn't shy away from being at least a bit vulnerable as of rn; i think they can be one of the best if not the best couple if they have a proper storyline; im certainly enjoying it the more than i thought i would

the fake blush on both toey and peem is ridiculous esp up close but ig they're cartoonishly drnk anyways

auntie took note and now doesn't do facemasks at night, otherwise it would've been an amazing first meeting

"he likes to whine" and she's the one who can't leave the room from complaining sm lol auntie is so cute

ahh, the mandatory "a look around the room shows me you're truly passionate about what you do and you're deeper than i thought" scene..thankfully he didn't mutter "you like painting this much, huh" to nobody cause i was ready to yell HES AN ARTS MAJOR like he kicked you in the balls for a reason doofus

theyre giving us so many closeups of these two and i keep thinking "this is so drama/y im embarrassed" but i have no shame, if it's fun it's fun (and it's pondphuwin, youre not gonna hear me complain about looking at pond's face for too long or from too close)

reaching out to touch his face was a bold choice thoughh i lost it

man down badd man down baddd he was called an asshole and started gleaming like a light bulb

[fadelbison]

12?! You're amazing!! I have like maybe 3 ideas for fics in my head and the likelihood of any of them seeing the light of day is soooo slim. You're definitely a writing wizard! But hey! Whatever works for you! Writing is still writing - so just do you and it'll work itself out eventually! =D

I cannot wait that dribble! Kaipa calling on Alan's shit in order to help him grow and heal sounds wonderful! I know your tone will be so good! And who cares about being cheesy? You're having fun, I'm certainly having fun too!

Offgun fic is excellent yes, but that super romantic and pure fic you have ideas about. This I am salivating over! I love cheese, and I love sap. Gimme sugary sweet fic of them any day - it certainly suits them! <3

Well I have many praise where that came from. Though is it really praise when I'm just speaking the truth? 🤔 And I'm I de idea to talk to you too! 💚

just as a disclaimer whenever i talk about my talents or the quality of my writing, if unspecified, i am always comparing myself to...myself lol its the only way to keep sanity with that said i do think its quite amazing too that I have so many stories in the works! in that it has been a while since i lived in stories so thoroughly - at least a decade since i was a teenager when i was desperately processing my life through fic.

i don't know what it is about first and khaotung that has gripped me so tight but they really are my blorbos of all time and i can project absolutely everything onto them. But yeah here's why i think im always so motivated to write about them: 1) Their dynamic: Lots of things to love about this - their history obviously, how both of them have cycled through partners that havent quite stuck, how they lingered in the background of the other's CP. But most off all its that deep, beyond labels love they feel for each other such that the only word that even comes close is soulmate - which is exactly how i feel about @mr-iskender! in first's words: he completes my life! 2) Their base personalities: they're really quirky but like...in this almost neurodivergent way? like why are they always biting each other??? I have love languages that's like cracks fingers on someone's bicep to freak them out lmao idk i feel like i live on the same frequency as they do: anxious mess (first) and anxious mess - quiet edition (khaotung). 3) Their dynamic 2.0 - they are in subtle ways different in each other's presence (safehouse really killed me it really really did) than they are with everyone else which of course can be chalked down to comfort. it feels to me that this comfort stems from a recognition of the self (the projecting is starting) in the other.

As different as their outward personality seems like i find that there are core overlaps in the way they think and approach things. And I love exploring that below surface connection in fics. What's there when everything is stripped away? what remains when you forget that first tends to ramble and khaotung goes entire interviews just quietly (and lovingly) staring at first. How did they get here? How did First manage his people pleasing anxiety around someone like Khaotung who isn't very expressive? How does Khaotung deal with someone who needs so much reassurance when his happy place is being alone in his room with his cat?

they are like the OCs I could have written and their relationship is like a mystery i must solve hah! What was this answer even about? hahaha as always thanks for letting me ramble

[aibloomie]

HAHA idk how it happened honestly??? my brother has always had black hair, but i started with kinda.. strawberry blonde? then i slowly transitioned to having black hair

the kids in my elementary school made fun of me for my kool aid hair 😭

thank you!!! maybe one day i’ll do it….

yes thats what i mean, dealing with bleached hair seems so hard 😭😭😭💔

weee that sounds so cool!!!! curtain bangs are so pretty honestly

ok ok storytime

so i had a crush on this girl for like a long time, we were really good friends. she was like,, nice, funny, loud and extroverted. we were pretty close, so we would hang out almost everyday and like we would share drinks, hold hands and stuff like that!!!

im not a super physically affectionate person but she LOVES physical affection, so she would be the one to kinda initiate that type of stuff but i never minded it

like once i was sitting down and she practically sat on my lap LMAOO i was rlly flustered 💀

but recently i moved to australia, so i had to leave her (we still talk tho!!)

and like, we were never super serious/sappy types? we would always joke around with each other and bully each other playfully. but on my last day, she gave me a letter that was just genuinely rlly heartfelt and it made me cry 😭😭⁉️ so i went up to her and i didnt rlly know what to say. but like after a few moments i just hugged her really tightly (and this is pretty big bcs i don’t initiate affection much) and she hugged me back and told me everything was gonna be alright (also big bcs she barely ever speaks seriously or like not in a jokey tone)

BUT IDK the story just kinda sounded like a movie to me LMAO

WHAT THAT'S SO COOL THOUGH 😰 it's kind of like eyes how babies sometimes have light irises and then once they get older their eyes are so much darker it's crazy

the kids at your elementary school were just jealous of you 🙄 you were too cool for them okay KSHDJS

HELP it is hard </3 if you want to go through with it at any point in your lifetime make sure you're able to get good hair products to take care of it

and omg?? A LOVE STORY

that's so cute !! that she was so affectionate towards you and it didn't bother you at all despite not being an affectionate person, LIKE THAT DYNAMIC IS SO <33

she sat on your lap 😧 how did you manage to compose yourself and not die

I hope that your time in australia so far has been really fun and enjoyable !! I'm glad that the two of you still keep in touch <3

AND THAT LAST PART PLEASE WHY DO I ACTUALLY FEEL LIKE CRYING 😭 that's just so sweet the fact the two of you expressed yourselves to each other in a form you rarely do. the reassurance in general </3

you did keep the letter right? :0

that literally does sound like a movie, you could probably film and direct it AND end up breaking the audience's heart with the end but also leave them really happy because your experience was so cute and you guys still talk OMG

[grimsneverendingfuneral]

Grimmm! Don’t worry about it, really haha. I love you toooo, I’m happy I can make you smile eeeee! :D

I promise it was all good things haha, it was just us blabbing back and forth about their dynamic and Cherry Blossoms. Was very fun! I’m so happy that made you feel better, and I’m sorry you’ve been down aw! :( I really hope you to continue to share you writing, it’s seriously amazing and you have such a beautiful way with your words. Your writing style is so unique and unlike anything I’ve ever read! I’m really looking forward to that Rosekiller fic hehehehe >:) I’m so glad you had a good day and laughed a lot!

That’s so cute omg. I’m always too scared to wear steel toed boots idk why! >///< I pegged you for a Converse person so I’m glad I was right lmao.

Anyways, guess what time it is! What is the highest temperature outside that you still consider “cold”? Like, me for example, I consider anything below 23° Celsius cold. So what about you? 🎤

ugh wow thank you so much mic anon youre toooooo good to me 💗💗💗 like holy fuck honestly. thats whats cool about writing styles. there are as many as there are people who write. the rosekiller is coming along reaaaaal fuckin slow though cause im just a pretty scattered person. but hey its cool im in no rush

hope your days have been gentle to you. youre very sweet and i love your little questions time bit

ya steel toe boots are heavy as fuck. theyve definitely altered the way i walk in normal shoes. like normal shoes are so light to me now i hate it so i dont recommend wearing steel toe forever and ever the way i do. but then again my feet are always divinely protected

and your question made me cackle ngl cause i live here:

im a nordic ass motherfucker. so to answer your question genuinely? i consider anything below like..... 5 to be cold lmfaooooooo. when its zero here, its NICEEEE. it was zero the other day and i was like oh sweet i can wear my denim jacket!!!!

but in the summer its a whole different story. it can get up to 40 celsius. weird ass place

im curious as to where you live for 23 to be cold holy hell

[jackienautism]

update on the fire emblem playthrough! i've just started part two and let me just say. absolute ROLLERCOASTER of emotions since my last ask omg. i did manage to recruit the non-eagle characters i was most interested in (marianne, ingrid and felix. also i forgot to mention in my first ask but sylvain is also there since he was. easy to get). sadly i didn't manage to get raphael who was my next pick, probably because i kept accidentally skipping time (skipped a whole month by accident, and then later skipped a day of exploration without training bc edelgard asked me to come with her. and if i'd had that one day of training i would've gotten him too!! im so salty..) </3 living a sad raphael-less life now.

currently my absolute favorite is dorothea and it's kind of killing me that i'm not gonna romance her this playthrough (because i've gotta go with edie.) next playthrough however.....

i also still really love bernie and caspar those are my besties. i never disliked hubert but he's really grown on me. OH and i didn't even MENTION petra in my first ask which should qualify as a crime. i love her so much.

as for the other eagles, i still like them! i feel like i've already listed most of the eagles hang on who's even left.... linhardt and ferdinand. yeah they're chill! not on the same level as the rest of the eagles to me, but i do still like them.

and as for the recruits from other houses, marianne is definitely up there! although i feel like you have to work a little more to get to know the characters you've recruited from other houses, and the only one i've really gotten to know is sylvain. who i do like, honestly, but he just can't compare to the majority of the eagles lmao.

even though it's like... abundantly obvious by the rest of my ask. i did end up siding with edelgard. uhhhh other story related thoughts hmm.. OH jeralt's death was really sad.

idk i'm having fun!! still enjoying the combat, still enjoying the life sim, and still enjoying the overall plot. excited to see what happens next! LMAO this ask is mostly just me listing all of the characters i like and not much else whoops.

you have no idea how happy your updates and asks have made me <3 thank u so much for sending these in!

SO GLAD YOU'VE MADE IT TO THE SECOND HAAAALF... you got there quite quickly WOW good for you! but yeah dfgjndfg and don't worry things are absolutely going to heat up even more <3 esp if you werent able ot recruit raphael <33 atleast i think so? i havent played crimson flower without recruiting him so i cant remember exactly what happesn... but yeah. AND SYLVAIN YEAH DFJGDFG he was also there for me my veeeery first run. i assume you chose f!byleth right? i think its so funny how he immediately says yes if youre a girl. glad you were able to get the non eagle characters though! youre def gonna be happy that you did 😭 i tend to recruit like everyone. even the characters i dont find myself attached to. just cause. well actually theres a reason but i wont say anything jsut yet

SORRY THAT YOURE LIVING A RAPH-LESS LIFE THOUGH ): glad you were able to get the other 4 but <//3 you have my condolences. did you accidentally skip the whole month when you had to explore jertiza's room? bc i did that during my current run djfjdfg i just. totally forgot abt it. i read the message that appeared and did not comprehend a single word. BUT AGUGGH THAT SUUUCKS MAN, IM SO SORRY THAT YOU WERE THAT CLOSE TO GETTING HIM. BUT ALAS.....

DOROTHEA<333333333 YOU HAVE SPLENDID TASTE. CAN YOU BELIEVE SOME PEOPLE HATE HER? STUPIDITY... anyway byleth and you and i (i assume) have 2 hands so why can't we romance both edie and dorothea? yk? have fun romancing them though i love them both so much<3 such lovely choices you are so cool

BERNIE AND CASPAR!!!!!! SO REAL AND TRUE IM HAPPY YOU FOUND YOUR PEOPLE... and the same thign happened w/ me and hubie fdkgjnf i didnt hate him perse but i just didnt reallly care and then i got his A support and justt.... oughhh. AND PETRA THE BELOVED!!!!!! SHES SO AWESOME.... she deserves all the llove in the world

fair enough! ferdie had to grow on me... but yeah his development regarding edelgard and whatnot got 2 me i guess. i love him dearly. plus his timeskip design rocks. and linhardt my boy linhardt.... i just think hsi disdain for fighting / war and his desire to just chill under a tree due to all the trauma and pain he's gone through is cool. hes gone through and is going throuhg a lot and he deserves a moment of complete and utter. tranquility

MARIANNE MY GIRL<33 but no youre absolutely right. you def have to go the extra mile to learn more abt characters who arent in the house youre teaching. which really sucks, but atleast you get a little insight into them and their characters before diving deeper in their respective route? sylvain is def a good choice, hes absolutely a very interesting character to me. but the black eagles my beloveds

glad you sided w/ her <3 wont even lie i was extremely afraid you wouldnt like her after what happens in part one and whatnot. bc i dont blame anyone who does. i just think most of the common reasoning against her is dumb. BUT YEAH. VERY HAPPY TO HEAR THAT LOL first impressions are super important ofc but things could sooo easily change.... esp in edie's case..... bc shes such a morally grey character. and also a girl so . and we know how fandom reacts to morally grey girls. ANYWAY/ RIGHT ? HIS DEATH MADE ME SO SAD. GOING THROUGH IT FOR EVEN THE SECOND OR THIRD TIME ... hes a great faather and i think his voice is cool

DW IM SO GLAD THAT YOU SPENT THE ASK TALKING ABT YOUR FAVES..... and im so happy that you seem to be really enjoying it so farrr ouguh... hope the rest of crimson flower and the other routes dont disappoint! feel free to chat whenever :D im always free to do so!

[taeyamayang]

hahah yeap everyday unfortunately. on good days though it only takes about an hour 20 or an hour & a half so i cross my fingers & hope for the best each time lol 😄. it ends in August which seems long to me but i'm hoping these months will pass by in a flash 😆. other than the travel time, the work culture & environment is not so bad so i guess that's a plus, but, you never really know what life has in store for you ╮(︶︿︶)╭

i'm in mech engineering! it does include math but if im being honest not much of it is being used rn 😬🫣

congrats on graduating omg!! idk why but that is so you to be studying even after graduating and going to grad school. i wish you all the best and good vibes in your exams~

ahhh i took japanese lessons too! didn't get to finish it bc the classes were always full (╥_╥) i rmb getting excited every lesson bc it was a chance for me to show off my verymediocreveryelementarylearntfromanime pronounciation skills to my sensei ＼(＾▽＾)／ (yeah it nvr went well but she'll always say i did a great job👍😭). i hope you have fun learning the language as much as i did and maybe if i find the courage to pick up my notes again we'll be able to talk in 日本語 . . .(・・ ) ?. jokes aside, what's your favourite part about learning this language so far?

i've heard sooo many people talking about genshin lately. i'm not a big fan of rpgs (actually very bad at them) so i tend to observe from the side. what do you like the most about the game? and ofc i have to ask this, who's your favourite character?

as for me, i'm currently in love with yakuza 0! its my first of the series and i'm enjoying it to the fullest. i've been playing on the weekends to release some stress & it's the perfect antidote for me. i mean come on, it even has a karaoke and disco dancing minigame!

anyways, take care my love. remember to drink water and take your vitamins. you are loved <3

🌻 (p.s missed you too lol)

lmao its so funny that i was so shocked of your travel time when i suddenly remember that during my senior year i used to inter for a company outside the city so i literally have to cross borders before the crack of dawn which was wild bc how did i survive that?? anyway, it was just a month a half or two so it wasn't much. the job was okay too so fatigue all came from the commute (tho reading a book durinf a long ride kept me company, maybe you should try it to!) i'm glad that the work didn't add to your problems tho i'm sure you can handle anything thrown at you ;) and yes i agree, nature has its way of rocking our steady boats but im sure youll be able to cope and overcome it (if it gets too tough always rmbr that my asks is always open for rants!)

really?? i have this belief that engr have to solve math problems their entire lives and i just 😭 (i have math traumas, its speaking loudly rn lol) idk why too but "studying after uni and going to grad school is so you" makes me feel happy lmaooo. well, you are right that is so me ig i love keeping myself busy plus idk it may should rlly weird coming from me but... learning can be fun too 😭 i lit sound nerdy rn but who cares 😭

OMG REALLY! THATS SOOO FUN japanese people are very respectful so ig thats why your sensei always praises you or perhaps you were good. contrary, my sensei was sassy 🥶 lmaooo he points out mistakes and is very particular with pronunciation and clarity of words so when we recite in class it always gives me the nervesss. the only time i was able to connect my classes to anime is through the characters names like yuki means snow and yuki from fruits basket has gray-white hair and is deemed cold or yoru means night asa means morning and that shows the duality of yoru and asa in chainsaw man lol smth like that. WE SHOULD! lmaoooo tho i am not fluent in N5 i got to warn you ahead of time!! im not sure about my favorite part bc i enjoyed it sm lol i love learning languages, to begin with, so altho it gave me a high blood pressure whenever were to recite in class i enjoyed it sm heh how about you? あなたは 日本語 べんきょう たのしいですか。lololol

if you ever pick up genshin or smth YOU GOTTA TELL ME alright? cause im willing to guide you all the way and share the obsession lmaoo my fave characters... god theres A LOT but i mainly played genshin for zhongli and venti and later on liked itto tighnari and kaveh. you dont have to be good at rpgs bc coming from a no brainer in games, dude im surviving lol wait wait so yakuza 0 is a game? where do you play it? karaoke and mini dance games oooo that sounds interesting. tell me more about it and u might find a buddy

you are always so sweet. i hope the same and more for you too sunflower anon :)

take care! love seeing u here :D

[kdipshit]

Money ;

I show up for myself every single day, I wake up and the first thing I do is try to better myself, I wake up and im grateful, I wake up and im happy I’m alive. I wake up confused as hell as well though don’t get me messed up, I’m running out of weed and I haven’t been to work in a month. Its getting a tad out of hand, just like my situation, lol, seems to be out of my hands, do I need to pull up to my job and confront the entire establishment or do I keep being patient…. Its like they get annoyed when I ask about my hours… like ma’am? Anyways, saying optimistic and using my time wisely, how ever I would love some fkn cash right now, don’t we all? It fucking sucks without money doesn’t it?

Yes… yes it does, but ultimately I’m the one who out myself in this position…. Right? I couldn’t keep up with juggling work and mental health at once, it became too much, it became unbearable, but on the days I could handle it all, I was the fucking man. I hit my numbers, go above and beyond, coz once I’m focused, its pretty easy to get into the flow of it. I have so many new techniques to use once I go back to work, and I shouldn’t be worried weather or not they’re even going to roster me at all, but I am. I am worried, and I’m a little upset I couldn’t stick it thru on my last rostered day. But I chose myself, that day, even though the better choice would have been to put my head in the game and just finish the day, I couldn’t bring myself to do it, I was fine physically, but my mind was racing and I might have gotten violent if I didn’t watch myself, so I got in an uber and left.

Since then, I have not wasted a day. I don’t think, and I have blossomed into something I am extremely proud of, because Instead of showing up to work, I showed up for myself, which has made it easier to show up for the rest of life. I am ready and willing to do the mahi, I’m no better than anybody else. I work to sustain my life, independently.

Tbh if you ask for my snapchat thats so gross. Y’all I used to pop my pussy on snap for HELLA bands…. I aint tripping on snap, but the tiktokers took over. I would never make a personal snap EVER again its like my snapchat when I was younger was just me getting super fucked up like every single day and looking super cute doing fkn lip syncs and getting hundreds-thousands of views I was DEFINITELY a snapchat bitch, but that me was so young, like mind set wise, its childish idk. Ill use it to make money tho lmao, the hustle stays. I really don’t want to prepare myself to start dancing again but shit I will if I have to. Stripping can be VERY fun, but i think the alcohol might win in that fight scenario.

The writing really slows me down, and I’m here for it, it helps me so much, with every single letter, every word, every sentence bring me closer and closer to unravelling our mind. Its like a spell I cast, only I have the password, hidden amongst my writings, flooded within hundreds of thousands of words, because I know how much I like a challenge.

Any substance that I use, I abuse, its like do I really need that fkn much to sedate myself? Like shit bitch… why so damn much, I didn’t even know addiction didnt have to be a choice. Its like every 2nd heart beat is for the substance. Or for the feeling it gives me, or for the feeling it takes away, who knows, I just know that I THINK I need it, look at the consequences, its gonna have to effect me physically, and I’m going to have to get through that, without the substance to save me. Only myself, as I am fully capable. Okay I’m going to save my last cone for life threatening emergencies only. Day 4, starting tomorrow, 28th March. Substance deficit. I’m using my medication for the wrong reasons, I’m abusing them, and I know that, so, this is my moment of change. most important thing to remember is to show up for yourself. Be honest with yourself. Sit with yourself, write it all out.

Am I TMI for the internet? Lmao idk, I barely fucking read. Im the type of person who hears someone fart and looks around seeing if I catch anyones eye, but my question is why I even heard the fart in the first place, in this massive room full of distractions, I get so fixated and kind of zone out on the background noise, sometimes its all I can hear, I’m done so much embarrassing shit when I’m focused on something I don’t mean to be focused on, like other peoples conversations or other people movements… I focus too much on other peoples movements. To make sure no one comes into my space, and if they do, that Im ready for it, but its gotten me to trip up ALOT . I wonder why I do this?

[thatonesquintern13]

episode five - don’t dream it’s over:

• hehehe dance episode 🤭

• i love these mugs dell has. they’re fun

• brady showing up trying to schmooze everyone but no one sees through his act 🤨

• “and ruin your perfect manicure?” get em, dell.

• brady saying they saw sixth sense on their first date and kat AND alice saying “blair witch project” alice you are terrible at secrets

• also the theater closing episode!

• lmao nick is coming. this isn’t gonna be weird at all.

• really just takes remembering your father is, in fact, a Man to knock you out of the “i wanna live with him” haze, huh?

• “she’s into physics now?” “elliot’s her teacher” yeah!! you’re always gonna be second to elliot !!!!

• brady take elliot’s name out your god damn mouth 😠

• and get your hand away from kat.

• dell calling him braden 🤭

• “don’t rock the boat.” = get the hell away from them

• this transition music sound sooo familiar to me but i can’t think of what it reminds me of. like the theme to another tv show i think…

• alice get off that old man’s instagram 😭

• they are literally doing everything they can to stay away from brady and he just. isn’t getting it.

• kat pulling an alice by bombarding elliot at his place of work

• “that’s so many science words.” she’s a liberal arts girlie

• i can’t believe it’s just now hitting kat that she could go back and change the past.

• sorry but i LOVE a “*science rambling*”/“plain english, please” dynamic!!

• new guy does not understand besties. ofc they’re friends again! it’s been days!

• oop new guy making a move… swing and a miss!

• dell isn’t ready to date! it’s only been 20 years!

• elliot reminding alice that nick is literally old enough to be her father 😭

• “do you think he’ll recognize me? and what do i do if he does?” “i think that’s something you shouldn’t test out. end of discussion.” so dad coded.

• also, alice your own mother, who was your bestie, didn’t even recognize you… come on.

• “we really should’ve thought of a theme.” “i thought fall was the theme.” “that’s.. the season… not a theme.” yeah that’s accurate hs student dialog

• alice is making 1999 her whole personality i love that for her

• lol all the boxes that have ‘donate’ scratched out and ‘KEEP’ written over it 😂 i love the lesbian theater owners

• KAT IS THE WHITE WITCH HELLO!!

• every time alice asks someone about brady in the past they say “oh…”

• “how’s rachel ☕️” subtle kat

• brady’s realizing that maybe divorcing his wife of over 15 years maybe wasn’t the right plan for him 🫠

• but kat is being so mature about it!

• “so he’s available?” “no! you dating [nick] was weird in 1999 - it’s illegal now.” “but love is love! and age is but a number. he could be a young 40.” ALICE LISTEN TO YOURSELF

• alice getting the ‘stay away from nick’ talk by elliot in two decades in one day

• inviting elliot to the FAMILY dinner when brady is there 🤭 dell is so messy

• aw wait i just realized dell and kat still sit at the same spot at the dinner table. idk why that’s so sweet to me 🥺

• “this is the best potato salad i’ve ever had” “how many potato salads have you tried? 🙄” jacob im sorry the universe took you so soon you would’ve loved the 2020s

• pushing the sweet boy narrative for brady and little jacob is sitting there like 🙄

• wait and elliot is sitting in the “guest seat” in the present and not in the seat that was jacob’s even though it’s empty 😭

• “it sounds like you go above and beyond.” “i’m happy to! for the things that matter” get em, elliot

• dell’s face when elliot and brady are snipping at each other PLEASE she is actually so messy and i love that about her.

• kat trying to pull a “did everyone try the chicken 😀”

• dell going on the date with new guyyyyy. kinda, she brought dinner to the herald.

• i’m still suspicious of him btw! i don’t remember where he landed in the finale.

• baby brady and alice bickering the same way present day brady and elliot were… mmhm mhmm

• “i love it. i’m never gonna stop wearing [the bracelet]” “good bc im never gonna stop loving you, kat. from now, til forever.” orrr until your daughter throws it in a pond that leads her back to this very moment. whichever.

• well that kinda IS forever in a time paradox sort of way. if you think about it….

• elliot asking kat to the daaannnceeeee kicking my feet twirling my hair

• nick making a fan club president embezzlement joke… selena JUST died (10 years before but whatever)

• alice writing the date down to meet future nick IS KINDA CUTE. like in any other circumstance

• ELLIOT SHOWING UP WITH THE CORSAGE PLEASE 😭😭😭😭

• oh hi sixpence none the richer it’s nice to see you again!

• kiss me stair reveal you will literally always be famous

• more like, not another hallmark movie amiright

• “you look… fine.” smooth elliot

• okay byyyyeee brady

• okay fine i’ll fall for the humanization of brady dhawan.

• alice being so hung up on nick is kinda getting annoying. please get friends your own age in your own time 😭

• dell and colton in the slideshowwwww 😫

• i forgot kat knew about nick and i was like wHY ARE YOU TELLING HER

• girl has got her hands alllll over elliot 🤭

• the ‘ol classic silly dance into slow dance 🤌🏽

• and it’s IRIS BY THE GOO GOO DOLLS 😭😭😭

• brady literally why are you here 🧍🏽‍♀️

• “there’s obviously something going on between you and elliot” OKAY AND

• mm right it’s bc alice is not secretive about her secret at all and read him for filth earlier.

• oh suddenly he’s all “LoSiNg mY fAmiLy” he literally should have thought about that???

• chyler leigh giving her ALL to this scene 🥺 and it’s so not hallmark. like “we were shadows in the same house.” “i needed it! i needed to be held, i needed to be kissed! i mean i don’t even remember what it feels like to kiss you. and you know what, it’s just too late.”

• kat HOLD YOUR GROUND DO NOT KISS THAT MAN

• she’s kissing him 🧍🏽‍♀️ she’s kissing him and elliot is seeing it. PLEASE I CAN’T HANDLE THIS

• damn he is like KISSING HER 😳 full neck kisses in this hallmark show rn

• okay we’ve gotten that out of our systems let’s move on ✋🏽

• also… isn’t brady with rachel still 😠 it’s okay kat is letting him down easy.

• alice leaving the dance to go to the theater… she’ll never learn

• no but why didn’t nick show up to his moms’ final night at the theater !! that’s a red flag, alice.

• nooo elliot is sad

• glowy stars callback 🥺

• oh! the music reminds me of the only murders in the building theme song!!

fin.

📺 | the way home

live blogging a season one rewatch so i can remember everything for season two 🫡

episode one:

• i hope this show goes on forever bc they clearly have a full story planned for this witch hunt

• honestly forgot about this private school situation

• dad’s suck!

• do we learn about the “one hit” orrr

• chyler leigh in glasses. that’s it that’s the thought.

• “fReEs yOu Up fOr sOmE hOmEsChoOliNg” hey why don’t you hush.

• nah bc these two are like… not even divorced yet and his gf already moved in with him? i’d set the fire alarm off too

• oh the one hit was last year’s showcase

• hallmark letting a “damned” into the script. big slay

• i do really appreciate that young dell is just andie macdowell in a dark wig.

• sorry but it’s kinda a dream to have a farm in ‘nowhere canada’ to escape to, alice.

• i love generational mommy issues 😌

• one thing about andie macdowell, that accent’s gon’ be thicc

• wet dog foreshadowing 👀

• moving in the middle of the school year is wild

• omg and a “what the hell” !!

• mystery letter 😈 (i only vaguely remember how it got sent so excited to relearn that)

• the glow-in-the-dark ceiling stars 🥺

• LMAO OKAY dell was wrong for sending her out in her pjs but it was funny hehe 🤭

• ELLIOT!!!!

• “you got a lot in common… what with your divorces.” dell that’s so southern of you

• “and me?” OOF

• dell landry: bee keeping age 😗

• fair that kat wants to talk about her brother and dad but didn’t she also…. like. leave?? 🥴

• “if you ever need to talk i’m here. any place. any… time.” very subtle elliot thank you

• ohp. guess that’s why i don’t remember the bracelet. so rose from titanic of her

• wait that’s literally how she gets in the pond ?? okay that’s on me then.

• baby kat!! (A+ casting btw 🤌🏽)

• i could not imagine sitting on TIME TRAVEL for over 14 years. good on elliot

• elliot and kat better get back together in like the first 2 minutes of s2 🤧

• baby elliot!

• as someone who lost their grandpa when i was really young, alice meeting her grandpa and their whole relationship just hits different 🥺

• no bc the 90s ARE totally back in style.

• “alice will be fine.” “jacob wasn’t.” he was 6, girl 😭

• the white witch 😟 (me: wait why am i gasping i already knew that.)

• the blurry picture is actually very clever!

• elliot just standing over the pond ominously 🧍🏻‍♂️

• idk why but i love that kat called him to yell at him.

• kat, he just knows, okay!!

fin.

[kidsinsaturn]

amusement park

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characters: itachi uchiha; sasuke uchiha; shisui uchiha

genre: fluff; modern au

warnings: gn!reader; suggestive themes

Part 2

-pretty boy itachi isn’t really fond of these places:((

-he loves being with you and appreciates your kindness for inviting him to such a nice place buttt he wouldn’t want to get on on any of the games that can potentially give him a heart attack

-he loves being with you and appreciates your kindness for inviting him to such a nice place buttt he wouldn’t want to get on on any of the games that can potentially give him a heart attack

-still, he will try to convince you not to try the most extremes ones because he doesn't want anything to happen to you ok please bare with him he just wants you to be with him so he is sure you are safe

-he will always take care of your purse/backpack; from the start–because he is such a gentleman– itachi would ask for whatever it is that you're carrying so you don't have to bother,,, omg this man seriously

-itachi pays for everything !! no objection, please don't even try to argue with him because he will NOT allow you to even spend one cent even if you were the one who invited him

-will take care of your belongings and your food if you have to go to the restroom

-not too much of pda because he is like that, will probably just hold your hand if you're not holding anything, but in the crowded areas, he is definitely touching you

-if you get very smoochy all of a sudden (?), unless it's only the two of you–like in the ferris wheel– he will give in, but if there's people around then no !! wait for his kisses

-(this happens a lot here where I live) it is impossible to scam this boy, ok he is too smart for the system, he knows all the tricks and is always except from any scamming; will be over you if you are talking to anyone in case they want to scam you

-at the end of the day, he is very exhausted omgg,, poor boy, so if you had fun then he is very grateful and happy, but an amusement park is not definitely his thing; wouldn't want it for a date

-[I really don't know how to write him I'm so sorry in advance:(]

-i hc sasuke as someone quiet, calm, and definitely enjoys domestic quality time, so these types of places aren't really his thing

-you somehow succeeding in convincing him going with you to an amusement is beyond this world, so if it took a lot of begging, then maybe sasuke would be more sensible about your feelings and enjoyment

-he'll be particularly ok if you like riding those big extreme games, but will make a fuss if you are later on feeling bad for all the rides lol like you literally asked for it why are you complaining

-I feel like sasuke wouldn't object if you want to spend your own money as long as it is for something worthwhile

-like for example if you want to try some new exotic food, sasuke will tell you not to buy it because then what will you do if you don't like it? throw it away?? excuse him he doesn't like wasting food and money

-if you ask him though, he would play those games where you can win prizes and my looord he is so competitive lol

-he is most likely to want to be accompanied with another couple like kind of a double date,,, [idk why i just think so]

-my boy don't appreciate pda sorry:(( so if you even try to hold his hands he will be so shocked and even disgusted hahjd my god as if he wasn't a closet pervent pls sasuke go home or go big

-he wouldn't like to stay out all night, he'll probably grow tired from all the loud noise and the people,, he don't like people ok,, so after a few hours, say like three maximum, he would like to treat you with a nice dinner in his or your house uwu Im soft

-my beautiful sunshine boy shisui !! he is the BEST person to go to an amusement park with

-will try all the games with you, even those that can give you a heart attack ok he loves that feeling lmao any kind of ride or roller coaster he is so up for the experience

-if you don't like those type of games, then he is okay with it, he puts your comfort and joy before his

-shisui will also be carrying your purse/backpack from the beginning !! he is such a young gentleman I love him so much and will carry any other thing you get through the day

-my god I feel like shisui is such a show off, he will try–and succeed–any of those stands where you can win prizes and get you a million prizes; he does it because he wants you to have something from him and also to show his incredible abilities ok

-he pays for everything as well !! he is a young gentleman don't go and try to take that title away from him; he pays for every insignificant thing you take a minimum interest in, for your food, and for anything else

-double checks your belt is well secured and takes a million photos of you and himself ok I picture him with almost half of his gallery full of embarrassing and cringy photos of both of you

-steals your food my god you insist to get two ice creams, but he claims he isn't hungry but then is all over your food

-he isn't against pda so he is all over you all the time, he has to be always touching you and sometimes he wants more than just holding your hand, he wants to be hugging you from the back or has you whole ass arm tucked in with his, he is clingy asf

-and if you get in the Ferris wheel !! he is devouring you no objections, you get off with your clothes messed up; he isn't probably doing anything more than just a steamy make up sesh,, unless,, of course you are up for something a little riskier

-shisui is always up for a date in an amusement park, he really enjoys the adrenaline from the games, and thinks it is the perfect environment to be with his favorite person, you

[sakasakiii]

This is something that I question every time I click on your profile, and I finally got the courage to say it...

AHHHH💖💝💗

First of all I want to say how amazing and lovely you are, and I love how you show that in all of your art. Every single time you upload it makes me happy and I just gotta download them on my phone >.< 💓💓

Now! For the question Owo.

Why do you draw all dark-eyed characters with green eyes? (Maeglin and Miriel)

Idk why but it really bugged me 👉🏻👈🏻

Not trying to be meam by the way AHHHHH 💓💝💖👉🏻💗💖💓💗👈🏻

I hope you have a lovely day 💘←°›°→

hahaha thank you so much!!! you are so sweet to say all that qwq 💓💓 the REAL amazing ones are you guys who write such kind things! still, I'm so very grateful for your support!! 🥰

now about the question about eyes! man, you guys really are observant 😂 im gonna be honest and say-- i didnt even realise that I was giving the dark-eyed characters in particular green eyes instead lmao?! Is that a recurring thing that's been happening?!?! ━Σ(ﾟДﾟ|||) I really should check Tolkien Gateway more often HHAHA stiil, i'll try to explain myself!!!

admittedly, as much as I try to stay faithful to Tolkien's descriptions, i take creative liberties when I'm designing characters. for example, the Noldor are described as typically having grey eyes. But personally for me at least, I'd find it really boring to colour if everyone I drew had grey/silver eyes which is why I prefer changing things when I draw... if that makes sense?

it's not that i dislike Tolkien's canon descriptions, though! I actually adore the concept of the Noldor having characteristic grey-silver eyes that shine like the light of Telperion; that's what I stick with when I'm writing XD But when I draw, I love varying colours so that bit is my creative liberty sacrifice...!

So my reason for Miriel goes: I gave Feanor green eyes for fun back in December 2020 when I first drew him, and it's stuck since! And since I wanted to follow Finwe's description of having 'grey-blue eyes' (the Shibboleth of Feanor, p. 357), Feanor had to get his genetics from somewhere or it'd bug me.... so Miriel ended up with green eyes! here's a little genealogy tree 😙

Now when it comes to Maeglin, it was purely by whim 😂 I drew him with dark reddish-burgundy eyes first in March, but when I got Consultant Boo's opinion on it, he said it was kind of stereotypical that I gave a villain-coded character red eyes- and I was like 'well darn, you got a point!!'. So he suggested green instead, I didn't mind it, and that's how he ended up with green eyes!

So YEAH... it probably doesn't really make much sense, but that's my reasoning! I hope it's a passable explanation LMAO 🙇‍♀️ Thank you for taking time to ask, and I hope YOU have a lovely rest of your week as well!! 💓