#NEVER EVER TO LEAVE ... AFTER 13 YEARS WHY ARE YOU NOT ONLY TRUE PURE ... WHY DON'T YOU TRULY LOVE ME ??? SO YOU ARE LEAVING ME TO DIE ...
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Thank you for sharing your well developed and meticulous style of creating life alive ⌠Your exquisiteness to breathe life in to Your Brilliant Creative Art, occurring almost simultaneously giving the life saving dose to the boy the world would forever consider living life alive !!!
Someone said "Jonathan Harker but what if he was a Vampire but also still a dork?"
That someone might have been me.
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Ok, I'm a writer who wishes to write. But has no idea what to write. (I have one thing in progress but I'm out of internal fs to give to write it right now)
So, prompts. Characters. Whatnot.
Characters I'll write for.
Twisted wonderland
Pretty much everyone, not the teachers or jamil/grimm.(if you ask for Jamil I will unapologetically do it poorly, sorry) won't do ortho as well, purely because of age. I can not garentee the quality of work if you ask for sebek as I don't know him well, and ace and rook, purely because I don't think I can write them well. But I'd give it a go
My hero
I'm open to writing most characters here as well, except mineta, muscular, endeavor, and tiny children. I cannot garrentee the quality of most of the league, except toga. Dabi, and shiggy. And anyone From class 1-b, but I'll give it a go and try my best. (Also I have only seen to like, halfway through season 3, so I won't be great at those characters, but I'll try
Obey me!
Anyone but Luke, but I'm not well aquinted with thirteen, Raphael, and mephestophelis.
Im not sure or positive on any others that I write a ton for, but feel free to ask if I know it, If I do I'm more then likely willing to try.
I'll do most au ideas. Nsfw or sfw. I'll leave some prompts below for asking as well
kissing in the rain and getting soaked before running inside laughing
playing with their hair while their head in your lap
jolting awake after a nightmare and being comforted
theres only one bed and we sleep as far away as possible from each other but wake up cuddling
you confessed your feelings and were about to kiss but we get interrupted
"you are breathtaking"
"i cant help it, you're fun to mess with
"we both dont want to do this, i know. but you have to understand that we need this."
"why didnt you say h-how bat it was?"
"im not a lot of peoples favourite person."
"no ones ever done that to me before"
"could you play with my hair?"
13. "i cant remember the last time i did this with somesomeon
14. "that feels nice."Â
15. "i havent been hugged in years"
16. you put your arm around me and i literally felt my knees buckle
17. "i just want to be held for a little while"
18." ive never been in a relationship before, so i dont really know how to do the whole⌠kissing thing."
19. "take another step, and i cant be help responsible for my actions."
20, " theres only one rule. you cant use your hands."
21. "look deep into my eyes, sweetheart."
22. "i want you to leave marks"
23. "i want to watch you fall apart."
24." i dreamed of you all night"
25. "the things that i want to do to you, baby"
26. i have you shoved against the wall but now i cant stop looking at your mouth.
27. i just told you i like you but now im shy and say, 'never mind, forget it; and why are you looking at me like that?
28. congratulations! one of your dreams has finially come true, let me give you a big hug and wow youre warm
29. "im going to marry you one day"
30. "i was wondering how long you two were going to make out like that before you realize you werent alone."
31. "were you just touching yourself?"
32. "can you please come and get me?"
33. "hey, just look at me, breathe"
34. " you need to eat something."
35. "what happened to you??"
36. "apparently all our friends have a bet going that we end up together"
37. "cant you see it? the spirit of the dragon is within them"
38."how long have you been covering this?"
39."im way to sober for this."
40. "damn it, why arent you obeying the laws of physics?"
41. "i dont know whats wrong, okay? im justâŚ.really tired."
42. "my mind is in a dark place, you dont want to be there."
43."i wasnt born to be soft and quiet. i was born to make the world shatter and shake at my fingertips."
44. "theres a reason im afraid of my own shadow."
45. "their back. i saw them last night, but they wouldnt talk to me and it looked like they had a black eye."
46. "shit, your freezing, lets get you warmed up, alright?"
47. "you cant keep it all inside you know. bottling it up wont do any good"
48. "only a fool would fall in love with someone as deadly as me"
49."sometimes memories are the worst form of tourture."
50. "they were made of ice and glass, but they would risk being broken"
you dont have to request a prompt, just ideas.Â
just ask character, au/prompt, gender of reader. any other specifics youd like/need (such as a specific idea, sfw or nsfw. ext)
any underaged character will be aged up
#twst#twisted wonderland#mha#bnha#foryou#obey me#prompts#writing#xreader#request#fluff#angst#au#smut
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November TC Challenge
1) What does your TC teach and do they teach you?
Incas Lily teaches Biology and is teaching me for the second year.
2) If you could pick their outfit for the day what would it be?
I just love him in a white shirt so much, either with a dark tie or no tie and unfastened top buttons. Absolutely beautiful.
3) Whatâs their personality like? ( e.g. are they loud or quiet? Enthusiastic or fairly reserved?)
His enthusiasm for his subject does shine through, and he is very sociable with other teachers, but I think the nature of our class being one of the oldest makes it hard for him to be loud personality-wise with us. He can appear quite introverted sometimes.
4) Are they married? Got any kids?
He is not married (to the best of my knowledge but Iâm 99% sure) and definitely no kids.
5) Whatâs your favourite memory with them?
I loved that talk we had when I told him I was struggling with my mental health (triggered by one of our recent Biology assessments), it was such a comforting and sombre conversation and he praised me so much.
6) What was your first impression of them?
I didnât get to know him much until a few weeks after he started teaching me, but I remember seeing the school posting his photo before he came and thinking damn this new teacher is good looking. More than two years afterwards, turns out I was right đ
7) Whatâs your favourite thing about them (physically or personality wise)?
This is really hard to choose, but what initially drew me to him was how close and casual he felt to our class and how kind and empathetic he was to us (and now to me).
8) Do you have a song that you associate with them? If so, what is it?
There is a song significant to my story with Incas Lily that I definitively associate with him, but another would probably be Demons by Alec Benjamin.
9) Have you ever had an argument with them? If so, what about?
Iâve never seen him argue with anyone before, really. We have had somewhat intense academic conversations before, especially when I was doing my experiments, but nothing more 'heated' than that. He has said that he likes to argue but I have yet to experience it.
10) Are you attracted to them romantically? Or platonically?
I think I have officially crossed the line into romantic attraction - my purely platonic attraction to Incas Lily lasted only about a month and a half (oops).
11) If they kissed you (and it wasnât illegal) what would you do?
I might welcome it in the moment but I think the dynamic he built with us is so⌠safe, nurturing, and casual in nature that I would find it weird. Even though I am romantically attracted to him, the 'TC vibe' is still very much platonic.
12) Do you think they know about your crush?
My behaviour around him has certainly shifted a lot since realising I have feelings for him, so I wouldnât be surprised if he suspects it but hope that he will only write it off as us entering a particularly tough year or me suddenly liking Biology even more than before.
13) What would be your ideal date with them?
I would just love to be somewhere with him where he can be his free and true self, maybe a coffee date as we talk and laugh about random things or he tells me about all kinds of cool science stuff, or a walk around the lake.
14) Do you have any inside jokes? If you feel comfortable sharing, what are they?
I donât think we have any between us, but he definitely has some with our class and it feels really nice.
15) How often do you see them?
Every day weâre at school, thankfully. Other than our lessons I also do my best to see him on the hallways as well - this extra effort I go to was one of the first signs that he was becoming more than just a 'good teacher' to me.
16) Have you ever cried over your TC? If so, why?
A few times now, such as when I thought about him leaving or after that really sweet talk we had.
17) What did they do their degree in? Is it the subject they teach now?
He majored in a specialised area of biology (itâs super cool) and he teaches Biology as a general subject now.
18) Do they do any sport? If so, what?
He said heâs not really a sports kind of person but he does exercise often.
19) What do you think they do in their spare time?
I know he sometimes goes out with other teachers, work out, read science-y stuff, and probably keep his dog company.
20) Do you have any photos with them? If so, how did you get them?
I donât, sadly.
21) Do you plan on staying in contact after you leave?
I would really like that, and for the first time it wouldnât be bordering on illegal since I would have graduated and he would have left the school as well. I hope we build a strong enough bond for that before the year ends.
22) Whatâs your favourite scenario youâve made up in your head about them?
Other than me being stressed as hell and him comforting me, I also just often imagine wrapping my arms around him in a hug and leaning on his chest.
23) Have you ever seen them outside of school?
Sadly no. I have seen him cycling home on the road near our school though lol.
24) Does anyone else know about your crush? Who?
Only you guys! I donât really want to tell my friends (unless it gets really bad and/or they suspect) since I am still also wallowing in grief for T and I know they donât want me to keep liking teachers (oops).
25) What animal do they remind you of?
He says heâs a dog person and I can definitely see that, but honestly he gives such cat vibes as well! Sophisticated, sometimes quiet, the way he walks, the way he can be so jokingly savage. Love it so much.
26) Do you know when their birthday is? Would you get them a gift?
I would really like to know when it is exactly but I know we wonât be able to celebrate it for him before we graduate. If we had another year I would definitely get him a gift.
27) How did you realise you were in love with them? Was it love at first sight? or gradual?
It was definitely gradual - seeing how it took a whole year, but I think there is something that makes my process of 'realising' with him special. It was both due to me coming into the new school year, with a gapping hole left in my life from Tâs departure, and immediately knowing I was being more attached to him and his reliable, comforting presence, as well as a few compiled moments of suddenly feeling differently towards him, like a heavier heartbeat or being sad seeing him for no reason. Nothing changed with him between the whole of last year and the start of this year, so this gradual crescendo of feelings reaching past a threshold completely ambiguously is certainly unconventional for me.
28) Do they drink/smoke that you know of?
He probably drinks a bit but he definitely doesn't smoke. He said we'd be very stupid if any of us smoked.
29) If you could reenact a movie scene with them (from any movie!) what would it be? Which character would you be and which would they be?
I really don't know! Maybe I don't watch enough movies, or our dynamic is so hard to define to find parallels in other characters.
30) Whatâs the weirdest dream youâve ever had about them?
I haven't had many dreams of him yet, the weirdest of them is still pretty normal. We suddenly start having weekly unit tests, and I am so busy I always go in unprepared (super scary). It goes on fine for a few weeks as the units are relatively easy, until one test about some form of glucose transport, where there was a question asking about two proteins/molecules that I can't recall at all. The names are really weird but I knew we studied it in the dream, in reality they didn't exist. It's a fairly standard academic anxiety dream for me.
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* This could be worse, you remind yourself as you feed your deer
* Much, much worse
* âHow much am I supposed to give them?â The tall, ebony colored man says from beside you, his bright red eyes seem to glow under the pale moonlight
* âUm.. for that one, you can feed it as much kale as you want, but be careful James, heâs kinda insatiable. Heâll eat your clothes if you give him the chanceâ
* James nods, tearing the kale in careful ribbons.
* He smiles when the deer eats right out of his palm.
* Youâre not going to lie, you were 100% surprised when the blond turned out to be Laurent and the black guy was James
* You were even more surprised when he asked if he could help you feed your animals
* You watch him smile as he gives the deer a gentle pat, feeding it more kale
* Yeah, youâre having a hard time believing the teddy bear in front of you is some psychopath tracker
* The story went that while you and Edward were out, the coven decided to play some baseball up in the mountains, and the sound caught their attention as they were passing through
* Apparently this was a fast friends situation, because Carlisle and Laurent have been reminiscing about their geezer pre-colonialism days
* You look to the house, you can see Edwardâs inside from the window, his eyes meet yours and he gives you a small smile
* Well that seems hopeful
* âI used to take animals before I turnedâ Jamesâs deep voice calls you back to the situation at hand
* âOh were you a farm hand?â Youâre peeling an orange, which Henrietta the third is already licking at impatiently
* âUm, not quite, I was a slaveâ
* You stop peeling the orange
* James tells you his story- he was a third generation slave, fathered from the master, his mother passed away shortly after his birth
* âI was lucky- in a sense, the master -my father- he was a superstitious man, and my mother- she had a reputationâ
* His mother was a slave in name only, was what he told you. She was more of a mistress or a concubine.
* âAt least thatâs what they said, Though Iâm not sure how much of that is true, Iâm fairly certain she didnât enjoy being with him. She was just trying to surviveâ
* His mother had been ostracized, even amongst others like them, but not because of her social position in the household
* âThey thought she was a witch,â he admitted. âBad things happened to people who wronged her, and good things happened to those who helped herâ
* That sounds like Alec and Jane
* âWhen she was on her death bed, she laid a âcurseâ on the owner of the plantation, that if I wasnât taken care of she would haunt him and bring misfortune on the entire family for several generationsâ
* And so, James became the unfavorable third son of the Pickett family.
* âI had many opportunities from her sacrifice, I learned to read and write, but I was more or less shunned from the house- both by my family and by the other slavesâ
* It was lonely, almost painful.
* âBut there was one thing, a ray of light-â his eyes flit towards the window, and you follow his gaze to the red haired woman in the green chair
* âVictoria, she was my eldest brothers fiancĂŠâ
* The youngest daughter of the wealthiest man in town, from the outside she was a blossoming socialite
* The most beautiful girl in town
* But behind closed doors...
* Victoria was the product of an affair, a mistresses child, reluctantly brought into the household when her mother passed
* âShe had big dreams, she loved to read, she yearned to study, to educate herself, to use her mindâ
* And so, two lost souls found each other
* âOur family would never have allowed it. So we decided to run away togetherâ he smiles, but itâs bitter.
* They claimed he had abducted her, perhaps to save face, and sent slave catchers to find them.
* âIâm not quite sure what happened-I remember being shot and telling Victoria to go in without me- all I ever wanted was for her to be happy.â
* This is heartbreaking
* âWhen I woke up, Laurent was there, and my throat burnedâ
* So Laurent had been with them for all that time, he was their creator
* âAfterwards the three of us worked in âthe underground railroadâ helping slaves to the north where they could be freeâ
* âIâm thankful to him, for saving us, we wouldnât have been able to be in a world where we could be together if it werenât for him-â
* âBut you wonder what the trade off isâ you finish and he nods
* No longer human
* Purpose only lasts so long in this life, after all human life only has meaning because you know one day it will end
* âI found a penchant for tracking, it turns out what they said about my mother might have held some truthâ
* James calls it âextreme luckâ, thereâs no other word for his gift.
* If heâs looking for something - or someone- itâll inevitably find him through pure luck. Like the world bends to his will
* But it only works with finding things
* âThese days we work as bounty hunters, and we only feed from people beyond redemptionâ
* Murder and rapists it sounds like
* âI didnât know there was another wayâ
* âThatâs understandable, I didnât know either until I met Carlisleâ he looks at you with kind eyes, and so with a deep breath you tell him your story
* About the Volturi, your parents, Alec and Jane-
* âI think you would like them, theyâre a little off putting at first, but they warm up pretty fastâ
* âLike catsâ he says
* âLike catsâ you agree
* You tell him about meeting Carlisle, how he saved you,
* how Eleazer gave you a home and a family,
* and about Edward, who gave you a chance to live
* Not just to survive, but to truly live
* âWeâre not so different you and Iâ James says with a smile, and you mirror his expression
* âNo we arenâtâ
* Though of course you wouldnât compare the relatively privileged life you had to his
* But the loneliness you both experienced is not all that different
* The tie that binds you all
* And then you do something youâve never done before
* âYou know, I donât belong to this coven, not reallyâ itâs the first time youâve admitted it to anyone
* âOh?â
* âMy coven is in Denali, they have a permanent settlement there, and they follow the er... same alternative lifestyleâ
* He laughs
* âIâm sure they would love two or three more, weâve got like thirteen spare rooms in that houseâ
* You still remember the antiquated scooby Doo mansion-esque hallways filled with armor and swords
* He looks at you for a long time, but it doesnât make you uncomfortable
* âI wonât follow another leaderâ
* You nod, thatâs understandable.
* Laurent created them, and it seems heâs happy with their current lifestyle, they wonât betray him
* âNot unless itâs youâ
* ........
* What?!?!
* âM-me?â You sputter, your orange peel filled hand clutching your chest
* âWhy would you want to follow me? Iâm only nineteen years old- I donât even have a high school degree yet!â
* He laughs at your panicked expression
* âYou know that doesnât matter to our kind,â his eyes twinkle as he looks at you.
* âCall it witchcraft if you like, but youâre going to accomplish great things, I can feel it deep in my bonesâ
* Garrett had said the same thing, but the way James says it-
* You really believe it.
* He doesnât want anything from you you, not a kiss or a date-
* He just wants to be your friend, to be apart of your vision
* Whatever it may be
* âHereâs my card-â
* He holds out his business card to you, unlike Garettâs itâs a cheap cardboard white with his profession and number on the front
* âIf you ever find yourself in need of someone to help with your animals, let me knowâ
* You nod, taking his card in your hands
* âUm thereâs one more thing I could use your help with-â
* He points to the large window, right at Alice
* âI know that girl but she doesnât seem to know me.â
* âWell how does that workâ
* He tells you how many years ago, a woman was looking for her sister.
* âIt was a bit of a Cinderella storyâ
* The womanâs father had remarried quickly after his wifeâs death, and the step mother had sent his children away. The younger sibling, his client, was lucky and was sent to a relative.
* But the older, who had suspected something amiss had happened to her mother, was sent to a mental asylum
* âYou know me, I find things, itâs my gift.â
* But when he found the girl, she was no longer human. Already turned.
* âI tried to approach her, but she didnât seem to remember anythingâ
* âAlice doesnât have any of her memories from before she turned, she woke up in the woods all aloneâ
* The only thing guiding her were her visions.
* James nods solemnly
* âShould I...should I tell her?â
* You look to Alice.
* Sheâs smiling at something Victoria said.
* How many nights has she spent wondering who she really was, feeling so happy she had a family and a partner, but wondering if she left someone behind
* How would she feel when she found out?
* âI think you should tell her.â
* If it was you, even if it hurt, you would want to know
* James nods
* âOkayâ
* You walk inside together, and immediately look to Edward
* Your own personal vampire lie detector
* âHe did lie about one thing-â Edward tells you once James pulls Alice aside.
* Was he actually tracking Alice to hunt her?
* Your heart drops at the thought
* âHis mother didnât die from natural causes, she committed suicide because she knew it would secure his futureâ Edward tells you with a somber expression.
* âHe just didnât want you to feel badâ
* You smile and nod.
* What a strong person, you canât even imagine
* Edward pulls you into his arms, placing a soft kiss in your hair
* You feel bitter sweet about the whole thing
* Especially as you watch them leave in the morning, right before youâre going to head off to school
* Jasper is holding Alice who seems vulnerable, but relieved
* Theyâre leaving so soon, you didnât even get a chance to get to talk to Victoria or Laurent
* You watch James stand next to Victoria, theyâre talking to Carlisle.
* Theyâre not even touching, but you can feel the intimacy radiate off of them
* You wonder if maybe you and Edward might get to be that close one day
* James meets your gaze and smiles
* âIâll see you around sometime leader!â He calls out, earning confused looks from your coven and his
* You smile back and give him a nod
* Youâre still not sure what your future holds
* But you know you wouldnât have gotten this far if it werenât for the kindness of others
* You want to make them proud
* And then in a gust of wind, heâs gone
* They all are
* âSee, I didnât commit murder or anything, I told you things were differentâ Edward says with a teasing smile
* You roll your eyes and lightly shove him while he just laughs
* Heâs right though, that was different
* âEnough flirting kids, youâre going to be late for school, and I really donât want to deal with that dick in the front office acting all high and mighty because they think I canât control my childrenâ Esme yells
* School?
* Oh sh*t you didnât do your homework
* âEdward-â
* âIâll drive and tell you the answers on the way thereâ he says catching the keys you toss to him
* âItâs the-â
* âThe Trig homework, I know. Itâs your worst subjectâ
* Well you do struggle with trig quite a bit
* âThough to be fair youâre pretty terrible at all of themâ
* He barks laughing when you shove him before getting into the car through the passenger side
* Carlisle and Esme watch you from the doorstep
* âTheyâre so good together-â Esme starts
* âI know, I never thought our Edward would look at anyone like thatâ
* Carlisle and Esme exchange a look
* Before you came around-
* Well it wasnât bad, but he certainly didnât look like that.
* And he never smiled like that either
* Immortality had hardened him, made him into a man
* But with you-
* Well, with you he looks just like a boy
* A boy in love for the first time
* âI wonder what kind of children they might have hadâ Esme wonders with a small grin
* Him, with his ability to read minds, and you with that positively monstrous power of yours
* Any number of possibilities is possible
* âBest not to think of such thingsâ Carlisle murmurs
* Though you two may be together for eternity, with the endless options, youâll never have that.
* Esme nods
* âIâm late to get to the hospital, surgery this morningâ he mumbles kissing her on the cheek before walking to the car
* She watches him go, his sleek white Volvo disappearing down the road before looking up to the sky
* âWhat a shame, I would have liked a cute grandchild or two running aroundâ she mumbles to herself before turning to go inside
* âEntertaining always leaves me exhausted, guess Iâll give my employees the day offâ
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Hi, I hope you're doing well and staying healthy. I've read your post about how Elizabeth attacking ciel is sexism. What about Sebastian getting bully by Frances? Frances is a noblewoman grabbing a servant's hair in front of other people. And fans (including me) are like: oh! What a lioness! Even the devil himself is terrified of her! what if it was the other way around? The idea of a nobleman grabbing a governess's hair calling her nasty and indecent makes me uncomfortable and even angry.
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Dear Anon,
Iâm doing well, thank you very much. I hope you too ^^
Your question is a very good one, and it really had me thinking for a while! I myself admittedly do laugh very hard at Sebastian getting a hard time from Frances. But indeed, like you said, it is still bullying, and bullying is bad. In this post-feminist era, we have been so trained to see women bullying men as âfunnyâ or âempoweringâ, but women getting bullied as unambiguously bad instinctively, that sometimes we forget to check our double standards.
Feelings are feelings, we canât help what we feel. But how come then that to many of us, Frances bullying Sebas is so funny, but Lizzie almost murdering O!Ciel and Nina bullying men not? This post is merely an attempt to explain this feeling for myself too, but hopefully we can all reach SOME explanation together as well???
Let us first look at in what ways Frances has been making Sebastianâs life hard. From all the interactions we have of these two so far, her main points of criticism seem to be his hair and his lack of professionalism.
Slovenly Hair
Sebastianâs hair is something weâve gotten quite used to now after more than14 years. In Sebastianâs time however, his hair really would have been the height of impropriety for his profession.
Just like I translated O!Cielâs looks to 2020 standards, I quickly translated Sebasâ hair to 2020 standards as well. Very clean, innit?! Very professional, innit?!
Even without the translation however, if we look at the worst of wigs from the Kuromyus, we can also see how Sebastianâs hair would be atrocious in any formal setting. Look past the fact that these actors are supposed to represent a drawn character. Just imagine being in a fancy restaurant and encountering a dead-spider feather duster on your waiterâs head.... erm....???
Something that is objectively bad on Francesâ end however, is that chapter 14 is not the first time that Frances has seen his âslovenly hairâ. If his hair really is so unacceptable, as an authority figure Frances has the right to say something about it. However, as it seems, until this point she has never communicated at all (no, âhintingâ is not the same as communicating), so Sebas had no way of knowing what he âdid wrongâ. She immediately grabbed for Sebastianâs hair without mercy, probably because her crept up frustration got the better of her. This is indeed entirely too harsh for a first time call-out, and entirely on Frances.
Much later in the story Frances criticises and touches Sebastianâs hair again, and this time in public while he was infiltrating as a teacher. Here Frances is even publically humiliating Sebastian in front of his students and other high ranking guests.
Especially when you keep in mind that Frances is a noblewoman and Sebas a mere servant, Frances is indeed abusing her power against a servant who cannot strike back at all.
This is indeed power play. However, though it does not justify anything, in the very least her criticism does have ground; Sebasâ hair is by all measures inadequate for any professional setting. Just be nicer about it, Frances.
Useless Butler
Now, let us look at the other reason Frances disapproves of Sebas. Sebastian is a very competent butler according to most people. To Frances however, this claim is empty. When she arrives, parts of the estate have been destroyed and something very literally exploded in her presence.
Even though Sebas is not the person actively causing the explosion or the destruction, as the senior servant of the household, it is literally his job to manage the other servants. So yes, here too, the fact that things can be destroyed in the household because he either hired inadequate staff or because he mismanages his household, DOES INDEED prove he fails at his job. As the aunt of O!Ciel who cares about her nephew AND her paternal home, Frances is in her right to be concerned and call Sebastian out for NOT doing his job.
In chapter 14, Sebastianâs schedule was all over the place and kept changing the plans for Frances. It is no wonder that she would be quite annoyed and doubt Sebastianâs adequateness. When you know your 13 year old nephewâs household is in the hands of somebody so apparently inadequate, anybody would probably be concerned. However annoyed though, Frances does not overstep any boundaries about this specific issue; she is simply supremely unimpressed. Fair enough?
Compliments where due
Something that is quite interesting though, is that despite disapproving of Sebastian, Frances does also know when to compliment him when due. After Sebastian has saved Lizzieâs life without boasting, Frances recognised how the butler does indeed have some value and the correct attitude as a servant.
She says âthough you look indecent what you say is true,â and it is yet another jab at the demonâs expense. But here she is also showing that she is willing to acknowledge somebodyâs achievements, looking past appearances.
Before Frances leaves, Frances jabs at Sebas a bit again, but she really is not doing anything dickish this time. Instead of making Sebas think sheâs simply chosen him as target to be a prick towards, she concretely states why she doubts his professionalism. She mentions the smashed tea set, bare garden and burnt food; mistakes that are objectively unacceptable. Instead of yelling at him, she actually gives him constructive criticism. So here too, Frances is quite stern, but her grounds are solid.
In the Campania arc Sebas shows up again with the hair Frances disapproved of. Frances clearly wants to do something about it again because in her eyes, the butler simply wonât learn. But given the circumstances and Sebastianâs proven usefulness, Frances actually does shelve her agenda. Just like above, here too Frances shows that she is capable of acknowledging somebody despite their looks.
Later when the zombies dramatically outnumbered the living humans, Frances sends Sebas - who had come to her aid - back to her daughter and nephew. By sending Sebas back, Frances also shows that she in fact trusts this âslovenly butlerâ with the lives of two children she loves deeply. Sebastian protests, but Frances immediately replies: âdonât you trust our ability as swordsmen?â Here what Frances is functionally saying is: âI trust you with your abilities, so you can trust us back.â
In short, Frances is harsh and doing power-play against a servant, but she can shelve her agenda, and does acknowledge Sebas when due.
Contrast to Nina and Lizzie
So now we have seen how Frances bullies Sebastian, and her motivation behind all her points of harshness. As we have seen, Francesâ only points of criticisms are concrete ones; Sebastianâs lack of professionalism in looks, and his lack of professionalism in management. She goes about them too harshly, but all points are legit criticisms, and something Sebas CAN and probably SHOULD work to improve.
Nina
This is in stark contrast with the way Nina bullies her victims. As far as we have seen, none of Ninaâs victims have offended her in any way, nor does she ever give any concrete criticism. She has just decided that because men are men, they donât deserve proper treatment. Even when providing clothes for men is literally part her job, she refuses to provide the âprofessional serviceâ she is being paid for. And because she is AN EMANCIPATED LESBIAN!!!!!!! #FEMINISM, itâs FINE (!?!?!?)
Unlike with Francesâ criticism of Sebastianâs inadequate hairdo and managing, being âmenâ is not something any of these men can do anything about (except Sebas, but Nina doesnât know). Bullying is always wrong, always low. But itâs EVEN lower when you bully somebody for who they are, and not what they do wrong. What does not help is that Nina seems to only be capable of treating people nicely if they happen to be sexuality-wise compatible with her... but if you are, youâll get molested. What is wrong with you, Nina????
Yes, Frances is saying: âyou are a man, and yet your fringe is so longâ. So on the most surface level, it is a woman saying this to a man because he is a man. As we later get to know Frances a bit better though, she would be harsh to anybody who looks slovenly. She just has different hairstyles which she considers appropriate for men and women respectively. Had Sebas been a woman and his hair was the âfeminine equivalent of slovenlyâ, Frances would most likely have acted exactly the same. So in this sense, unlike with the jokes using Nina and Lizzie, it is not purely: âHaha, girl bullies boii, lol.â
Something else that is terrible is that what Nina does seems to be systemic. Logically it checks out too; it canât be that only since the past few weeks sheâs decided only women and young boys deserve her kind treatment. For all we know, Ninaâs been treating the male Phantomhive staff like this for 2-3 years. Sebastianâs comment about Nina thoroughly ignoring men again with âas alwaysâ further supports this theory.
With Frances in contrast, in chapter 14 (so barely a year ago in story time), Sebas seemed to have no clue whatsoever about Francesâ terrors. Sebas announced Francesâ arrival to his master and is very calm about it. It was not until O!Ciel alerted Sebas about his aunt that anybody even guessed what hurricane was headed for them. As such, we can safely conclude that Sebas had only been subjected to Francesâ criticism a couple of times, unlike having had to bear with Nina for years.
Yes, Frances still should have communicated, but I already addressed the details above. Still, the point remains that even though Frances is overstepping boundaries and abusing her power, her criticisms are at least not empty.
Lizzie
Lizzie too just like Nina, had zero grounds for showing that much aggression. She did not give anybody the benefit of the doubt, did not communicate, or even so much as give O!Ciel any chance to explain the situation. So far O!Ciel has given Lizzie no reason to think heâd cheat on her, and yet she hurled so much aggression at him Sebas had to intervene.
Still, Lizzie is marginally better than Nina because she is not systemically bullying O!Ciel. It is a one time event. However, this one makes me more annoyed with Yana because it means that even Yana had to use this stale, stale trope of âLOVE TRIANGLE COMEDYYYYâ. Have I ever mentioned how MUCH I hate love triangles and jealousy???
Conclusion
Feeling wise, the most important reason for why Sebas being bullied by Frances is funny is probably because of who Sebas is. Sebas is otherwise an all-powerful demon, but to see him inventing colours to shit at Frances - a human Sebas could crush between his fingertips like a cookie - is just hilarious. Had Sebas been a human though, I would not have laughed so hard personally.
Rationally however, Frances is doing power play against a servant who cannot talk back, so it is still bullying, and bullying is inexcusable.The only bit of ârightâ Frances has is that she does not seem to be systemically bullying Sebastian, and that her criticisms have some ground.
So if Nina and Lizzieâs behaviours played for jokes are like... a -7 and -9 respectively, Francesâ at least scores a -2 for me?
(Yes, as weâre talking about bullying anyway, I just have to make a jab at Vincent.)
Afterword
Something not really related to why âFrances:Badâ, âNina-Lizzie:Worseâ, but I do wish to mention is Yanaâs improved drawing skills. I have no proof, but I think it MIGHT have been where this Frances-joke originated.
Yanaâs time in the more traditional mindset of manga-worldview really showed, especially at the far beginning. Besides, she was still in the process of finding a way to draw handsome men. In the more traditional mindset of the early 2000s, handsome men were just not supposed to have slicked back hair - âthat was reserved for old men and nasty dudes!!â Yanaâs discomfort with drawing handsome men with slicked back hair was clearly visible in Sebastianâs early appearances, and making the ââhair, back!!! says old-fashioned ladyâ was potentially even a way of Yana to laugh at herself.
I donât know who else is old like me and grew up with 80s to early 00s manga, but at the time, hair for handsome men was a BIG deal. In that world âslicked back hairâ just carried a certain laughability about it; a ârule of not-coolâ. To me at least at the time this âlaughabilityâ really resonated with me, and Yana probably also trusted this same âunspoken ruleâ to resonate with her audiences.
Much later though, Yana clearly grew more comfortable and maybe even fond of slicked back hairstyles as she confidently chose to portray Sebas as âappealingâ while wearing his hair in the style Yana previously disliked.
Again, I have no proof, but I canât help but think that if Kuro had started 10 years later, the running gag revolving Frances might look altogether different.
What do you guys think? ^^ Cheers, and stay healthy!
Character analysis Nina Hopkins
Character analysis Vincent Phantomhive
Sexism against men and Kuroâs sexist jokes
MASTERPOST Gender in Kuroshitsuji
MASTERPOST Analyses & Info
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Here are so many amazing bottom Louis fics that were posted or completed during the month of November. We hope you enjoy this list. Happy reading!
1) Work Me Breathless | Explicit | 1678 words
Note: this is the sequel to this fic.
Louis visits Harry at work after the doctor got a new promotion. They christen his new office...
Louis leaves a little breathless.
2) Skeletons In My Closet | Not Rated | 2051 words
Basically soft core porn. Harry decided to treat Louis on Halloween.
3) Looks Like We Made It, Look How Far Weâve Come, My Baby | Teen & Up | 2161 words
Louis and Harry are going to officially move in together, theyâve chosen the house and everything is ready, they just need to wait a few months before the owner gives them the keys.
So whatâs the problem, you may ask. Well, theyâve been arguing for days and Louis is honestly considering strangling his alpha with one his ridiculously ugly designer scarf. Okay, not really. But heâs going to lose it soon if they donât stop fighting.
4) Little Devil | Explicit | 2241 words
The pair had just finished taking a round of shots when the one and only Harry Styles saunters over, clapping Niall on the back to say hello. âLouis,â he drawls out, not even trying to hide the fact that heâs raking his eyes over the smaller boy. âYou know this is a costume party, right?â Louis rolls his eyes, starting to ramble on about how he is in a costume and what a nit Harry is when he gets it. Harry is saying Louis is a devil.
âAnd what are you supposed to be Styles? An angel, really?â
âItâs a costume Lou, âs not supposed to be real,â he says with a smirk, sliding past Louis but stopping long enough to whisper, âI can assure you, Iâm no angel baby.â
5) After the Lilo Kiss | Explicit | 2477 words
"I guess I need to show you who you belong to, hmm baby boy?" he growled in my ear while choking me with his other hand.
6) Oh So Thankful | Explicit | 3034 words
Or the one where Louis and Harry both stay at college for Thanksgiving break, and decide to spend the holiday together.
7) Tell Me What You Want (What You Need)Â | Mature | 3246 words
Louis didnât plan on getting laid tonight. When he invited Harry over the day before, it was completely innocent. Just two lads hanging out. He still doesnât plan on it, no matter how hard heâs getting as Harryâs fingernails start scraping over his nipples lightly every time they pass.
8) Calling Out For Someone To Hold Tonight | Not Rated | 3819 words
Harryâs straight. Louis isnt. They still manage to fall in love.
9) Your Love Delights My Soul | Explicit | 4186 words
"Alpha..." Louis moaned against Harry's lips, chasing the friction against his thigh.
"You are my one and only," Harry bit his jaw, "And you know it quite well. Pretty sure I remind you every night, but you have to rile me, have to make me angry. Why, Omega?"
10) Life and Death | Explicit | 4122 words
In which Louis is Life and Harry is Death.
11) When You Turn Off The Lights | Explicit | 4305 words
Gothie Louis/Normie Harry.
12) On My Mind All The Time, Say You're Mine | Explicit | 9261 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here.
âDude, weâre inside, and itâs night time. Those donât look as cool as you think they do.â Louis could kick himself, he sounded so stupid, but it certainly got the guyâs attention.
It was at that unfortunate moment that he noticed several other things about this hot asshole, that he hadnât noticed just staring from afar. First, when Louis spoke to him, his gaze was kind of unfocused behind his sunglasses, and secondly, that he had a red and white cane folded up under his arm.
âIâm⌠Blind,â the man chuckled, awkwardly. Â
Louis wanted to melt into a puddle out of pure embarrassment.
âIâ am so sorry. I have to go.â
âHey, wait, wait,â the man soothed, grabbing at Louisâ shoulders before he could get away.
âIâm sorry,â Louis repeated, looking down at his shoes.
âItâs alright,â He cackled. âI get it a lot. More than you know.â
13) Let's Break The Internet | Explicit | 9505 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here. Please note that the pairing for this fic is Louis/OMC.
The one where Louis is an Only Fans baby.
14) With the Certainty Of Tides | Mature | 13980 words
âLove you,â Louis whispered in the dark. He didnât know what time it was or where the light had gone, he knew that he was in Harryâs arms, basking in the afterglow of all their love and heâd be a fool to not tell Harry that. As if Harry didnât know.
âLove you,â was whispered back, as if Louis didnât know. They confessed to each other as if it was their first time saying it, raw and painful, and listened to it the very same way, but they knew those words to be the only ones true.
With all the certainty of the tides, with all the light from the sun, with all the steady beats of their hearts, they were deftly in love, in secret and so loudly. They were brave and fearless and strong and hopelessly devoted in every sense of their breaths.
âWe made it, baby,â Harry mumbled, bringing their lips into a final kiss, sweet and soft and the color of pink. They already knew that, didnât fight tooth and nail and argued through every petty year and bleed their hearts into the words they sang and on their skin for them to have not made it home.
They were home.
15) A Moment In Time | Explicit | 14004 words
The one where Harry and Louis used to be together, until they werenât, but with a twist of fate and a bit of magic, could this be their chance to find forever in each otherâs arms?
16) I'm Still A Little Bit Yours | Mature | 14921 words
âHarry?â Louis asked to the empty apartment. "What the hell?" He sat up on the bed, his comforter pooling around his waist. The place wasnât big enough to lose someone. Harry must have left in the middle of the night. And then he felt it. The new twinge of pain in his already bruised heart. He forcefully threw his upper body back and grunted in frustration. Then he looked over to the bedside table and noticed a note under the cup of cold chamomile tea he never got around to drinking.
He reached over and there were only two words scrawled on the otherwise blank page, âIâm sorry.â
He was so damn stupid! He curled up on his side sobbing and trembling. He covered his face with the comforter, tears soaking his pillow, as he begged his body to go back to sleep.
17) I Couldn't Face A Life Without Your Lights | Mature | 15538 words
Louis and Harry are college students who haven't been the same in the past two years.
18) Practice In Pencil, Seal It In Pen | Explicit | 16486 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here.
Harry is in love with Louis but he doesn't know.
19) Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) | Not Rated | 16683 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here.
The one where Harry wants a little more in the bedroom and has a habit of putting his foot in his mouth.
20) The Animals, The Animals | Not Rated | 16721 words
Admittedly, itâs not the first time Louis Tomlinson finds himself in handcuffs.
The difference this time is these handcuffs are attached to a year long sentence. Not just that, but a year long sentence sharing a cell with a possibly mute 19 year old with dark eyes and even darker secrets.
21) Colder Weather | Mature | 19103 words
When Harry comes around, itâs the coldest time of year. Louis, for once, just wants Harry to take him away from colder weather.
22) Across the Grey, Salty Sea | Explicit | 19968 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here.
Prompt 212: Alex from Dunkirk and French escort/prostitute Louis who ends up in Alexâs quarters more nights than not. Alex gives him his dog tag to wear maybe just a lot of smut and dirty talk with Louis being a pretty princess.
23) Blinded By The Sparks | Explicit | 22205 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here.
Harry is a scammer who drifts from casino to casino. Louis is the new waiter who wants in on the scam.
24) Rainbow Bloom | Mature | 22711 words
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Louis is in denial. Louis has been in denial for far too long. Then Harry enters his life and everything changes.
25) What A Sight For Sore Eyes | Not Rated | 24216 words
Louisâ playing Danny in their uniâs production of Grease. Theyâre missing a Sandy, and Harryâs sort of been in love with Louis for a year.
Everything else just kind of happens.
26) MISSING | Mature | 26950 words
Louis brothers report Louis missing after they canât get hold of him for 24hours
Harry Styles and Charlie Stone, detectives of the teenage homicide and missing persons division, are long time friends of the Tomlinson's and take the case.
27) Even The Best Laid Plans | Explicit | 25175 words
Louis wants to have sex with someone and decides Harry is the perfect alpha for the job.
28) Sunflowers, Sunshine, And You | Explicit | 28778 words
Sunshine county is small but mighty and Harry takes pride in knowing nearly each and every person that lives inside of it. For nearly eleven years now heâs been sheriff, and not one of them heâs ever regretted settling down here.
He knows the road names like the back of his hand, knows the people and the animals and the way the world works here. In all of the time heâs been here, not a thing has changed.
So, all things considered, when he starts seeing a beat up pickup truck roaming through town with plates heâs never seen before, Harry, to be frank, jumps on that like a fly on fresh dog shit.
29) Blue Songs Are Like Tattoos | Explicit | 30739 words
âGood morning, University of California, youâre listening to KALX 90.7 FM Berkeley, this is DJ Harry Styles. If the owner of the tapes Iâve been finding around the studio doesnât come forward and introduce himself, Iâm going to continue tossing them straight in the trash!â
or the DJ Harry and Rockstar Louis fic.
30) Sweet Like Honey | Explicit | 33117 words
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Harry and Louis need money and they find an unconventional solution in the form of PornHub. Itâs not supposed to be a big deal.
31) When Our Worlds They Fall Apart | Explicit | 42228 words
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Harry put his hand over his heart as if Louis had wounded him. âYouâre so harsh, my liege! Perhaps you need to relieve some tensionâŚâ He let his voice trail off suggestively.
âThe day I ask YOU to relieve tension is the day I lose all my wits and join the Imperials,â Louis said. âIt will never happenâ
Prompt 325: Star Wars AU with Harry as Han Solo and Louis as Leia.
32) Somewhere In Between | Explicit | 42765 words
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Louis wakes up early. He brushes his teeth and can only stomach a piece of toast for breakfast, dressing quickly and heading for the car. He pulls into the parking lot of the Department of Dominance and Submission just as theyâre unlocking the doors. It takes him all of an hour in the uncomfortable chairs to fill out the paperwork to the best and most accurate of his ability, handing it over to the receptionist as soon as heâs finished and wiping his sweaty palms on his business trousers.
Thereâs a high chance that within ten to fifteen business days, Louis will be matched with a dominant.
Shit.
33) Spoonful of Sugar | Explicit | 42900 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here. This fic is also a sequel to this fic.
Louis Tomlinson cares for his family above all else, a fact thatâs led him on a twisted path peddling drugs to support them. Just as heâs made the decision to jump ship, Louis gets snared between the two largest crime syndicates in the city. To keep his family safe heâs forced to trust the man that failed to keep his promise two years ago, the resident drug lord heâs unknowingly been working for, Harry Styles.
34) Breakable Heaven | Explicit | 44594 words
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âWhat do you think?â Louis gets captured by Harryâs green eyes, unable to look away or even take a breath.
âI think youâre the most magnificent creature Iâve ever met.â
âYou must not have met many creatures then.â
Harryâs eyes glance downward to Louisâ lips and his tongue darts out to wet his own. âNone like you.â
35) You're The Habit That I Can't Break | Not Rated | 44940 words
When Louis crosses paths with a green eyed stranger in prison, he learns that some habits aren't so bad.
36) Fine Line (The Story of Us) | Not Rated | 46191 words
Walking through Harry's album Fine Line. Each chapter reflects a song off the album.
Harry knew he was a lucky guy, really he did. He knew that in the cosmic pulling of straws he had pulled the long one and basically won the lottery. With a number one debut album, millions of adoring fans, and many a celebrity praising his work Harry should feel happier. He should be skipping instead of walking, singing instead of talking, and grinning from ear to ear. Maybe he was ungrateful. Maybe he was numb to it all. Or maybe he had a big, ocean-sized crush on his best friend.
37) Tastes Like Summer, Smiles Like May | Explicit | 47519 words
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A cold prince, an alpha with nothing left to lose and a kingdom with a secret.
38) A Silent Whisper (That's Left Unsaid) | Explicit | 50842 words
Note: This fic was written for the Bottom Louis Fic Fest. Check out the full collection here.
A Fake Relationship & Exes to Lovers AU ft a failed proposal ten years ago, an oblivious Harry, an overworked Louis, Zayn as the protective best friend, a meddling aunt and a lot of talks about weddings and rings.
39) Lost And Found | Explicit | 51736 words
Where Louis is just looking for his dog but finds love along the way.
40) Don't You Know That I'm a Moon in Daylight? | Explicit | 58770 words
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Prompt 79: Louis and Harry fell in love in the 18th century, Louis wanted Harry to convert him into a vampire, but he ended up resenting Harry for it. Fast forward to our modern days, they havenât seen each other since then, but one day they meet again through a mutual friend. Harry was bitter for a long time, but he accepted that being angry wouldn't erase the fact that Louis was the love of his life. He wanted to court and spoil Louis like in their original time period, but Louis avoided him every time Harry tried to reconnect. Happy ending!
41) The Guesthouse | Explicit | 61951 words
Louis has a secret that could break him. With every trip to the Guesthouse, with every fuck he offers himself up for, he gets a piece of the freedom back that he's lost.
Seven nights a year he goes to the exclusive sex club; every day he fights to keep that little bit of information to himself.
And there's another thing - his unwavering and pointless obsession with his bandmate.
There's the Guesthouse, and then there's Harry, and Louis works tirelessly to keep the two apart. Soon, very soon now, he won't be able to.
42) My Friend Lost A Bet | Mature | 74965 words
The one where Louis ends up on the list of potential fake-boyfriends for Harry Styles because Stan really sucks at football bets.
43) In A Sea Of Mist | Explicit | 126725 words
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A Greek Mythology/Camp Half-Blood AU where Harry is lost, the road to peace is a wretched one, and somehow, through a mist of confusion and regrets, Louis seems to be the only thing that makes sense and everything Harry needs.
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Knitting You a Home - 3
Pairing: Wolf Hybrid Namjoon and Human Reader
Word Count: 4.7k
Genre/Rating: Hybrid AU - Established Relationship - Angst - Fluff - Smut - PG-13
Overview: Things have changed for you and Namjoon. Itâs been a year since the two of you got together, and despite a rocky start, it was impossible to deny the bond and love you shared for each other. But ever since Hoseok had been separated from his Mate, Namjoon has been withdrawing himself from you and doesnât come home until late at night.
With questions far larger than either of you imagined, you canât help but wonder if heâs let his past and old fears come back to haunt him. You had shown him that it was possible to have a home and be loved once before, but will you be able to do it again?
Warning: Implied abuse from previous owners.
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Sneak Peak - Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 - Part 10 - Part 11 - Part 12 - Part 13 - Part 14 - Part 15 - ?
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Namjoon groaned as he stood from his desk chair, the cracking of his back echoing the small room. The moment he had come back from visiting you at work was probably the last time he had moved, and that had been hours ago.
He knew that if you were here, youâd probably scold him for sitting for so long until he wrapped his arms around your waist and pulled you onto his lap. He could picture you struggling for a few moments and try to reclaim your argument, but all it would take was him nuzzling your neck for you to melt in his embrace.
The daydream, like always, brought a smile to Namjoonâs face. He wasnât sure when the last time you came to visit him at work was, but he was willing to bet that Ma wouldnât mind watching over the store for you to do so either.
AlthoughâŚwith a glance around his studio, his lips curled into a smirk as he stared at the couch he had against the wall near the door. It was question on whether or not work would get done then.
Rolling his neck, he stretched an arm above his head and held it for a few seconds before doing the same to the other. It was another late night for him and Yoongi. The rapper they were working with had decided that he no longer liked the vibe of one of the songs, so they were forced to scrap it as the artist worked on finding his, âmuseâ as he told them. Until they had a new version, they were busy finishing up the other tracks in the time being.
After hearing every version of all twelve songs, he knew them all by heart at this point. Which was probably why when someone knocked on his door, he didnât hesitate to lean over the desk and pause the music, calling out for them to come in.
âWhatâs up Yoongi?â Namjoon asked, smelling his friendâs familiar scent as he entered.
Yoongi grunted, the door shutting behind him on its own as Namjoon straightened up, turning around in time to see his friend lounging out on the couch, his cat tail lazily hanging over the edge.
âIâve been up since four,â the cat hybrid murmured, his eyes slowly looking around the room.
Not surprising, Namjoon thought. With a twist of his hand, he turned the chair around to face Yoongi and sat back down, stretching his long legs out in front of him. âThen go home. Thereâs not much left for us tonight.â
Yoongi finally looked up at his friend. âYet weâre still here atâŚâ He glanced behind Namjoon to see the time on the computer. ââŚmidnight.â
Raising an eyebrow, Namjoon glanced at the watch around his wrist, startled to see that it was as late as Yoongi said. By now youâd be in bed, hopefully sleeping, but he knew that you wouldnât be able to fall asleep until he got home safely.
âGo home,â Yoongi suggested, seeing the flash of disappointment on Namjoonâs face. âYouâre the one with a wife at home. Go be with her Joon.â
At the mention of you, he sharply inhaled, suddenly shifting in his chair and turning sideways so he could see the computer screen. However, next to his computer was a picture of you and him.
He was sitting on the couch with you in-between his legs, his arms wrapped around your waist to keep you close as you held your arm out to take the selfie, all while holding up the official adoption document in your other hand. The two of you were smiling and at the time, the right side of your neck hadnât been marked yet.
It was one of his favorite pictures, one of the happiest days of his life, but it also served as a reminder of the dreams that he had taken away from you.
âAngelâs not my wife,â Namjoon softly corrected, his favorite nickname for you soothing his emotions for a brief moment.
The atmosphere in the studio immediately shifted. The easy and slightly stressed out tension dropped as Namjoonâs emotions slipped, changing to reflect on his sadness and disappointment. Usually he had a tight grip on his feelings when his friends were around, but this time, he didnât care enough to reign them back in right away.
Yoongiâs ears pressed down to his skull, his tail swaying back in forth in distraught as Namjoonâs emotions washed over him. It was nowhere near as bad as when Hoseok grieved over being separated from Sarah, but it was close enough to remind Yoongi of that.
âIs she okay?â Yoongi sat up, wondering if you had been hurt in any way. If that were the case, then why was Namjoon here? His instincts wouldnât have let him leave you while his mate was hurt.
Namjoon nodded, taking the pencil that had been laying on the desk. âSheâs fine.â
âThen whatâsâŚâ Frowning, Yoongiâs tail lightly hit his leg as he thought, trying to understand the sudden turn in events. In the last year, the only time he recalled Namjoon being withdrawn, was when they first met. All Yoongi had said was to go home and be withâŚhis wife.
âNamjoon,â he gently called out, watching as the wolf Hybrid refused to look at him. âSheâs your Mate. Itâs the same thing.â
âNo, itâs not,â Namjoon bitterly said, lightly tossing the pencil back on to his desk, watching it bounce a few times before landing on the floor. Staring at the photograph, at your unmarked neck, his eyes watered up. âAngel will never be my wife, Yoongi. Sheâll only ever be my owner.â
Running a hand through his hair, Yoongi clenched his jaw, trying to not let Namjoonâs emotions distract him. He took a deep breath, refusing to be suffocated by the guilt and frustration his friend felt. âWeâre Hybrids, Namjoon. In our world she is your Mate. She bears your Mate Mark. Angel is, to use the humanâs term, your wife.â
A whine ripped through Namjoon as he turned to look at his friend, feeling Yoongiâs own disappointment and pain as a result of his own emotions. Yoongi just didnât understand it.
âNo.â He simply said, shaking his head. âThe humans will never see us as husband and wife. One request to see my adoption papers is all that itâll take for them to make up their minds once they see her name. They might humor us and say weâre Mates, but to them, sheâll always be my owner. Iâll never be able to call her my wife and be taken seriously.â
Yoongi stared at his friend, blown away at the sudden anger that swirled around him. He had known that this bothered Namjoon, but never in a million years did he think that it was kept locked up deep inside him.
Despite the law changes in the last twenty years, Hybrids had more rights now than when they were first created. But for some reason, humans never did away with the law denying marriage between a Hybrid and their owner, even when lawmakers knew that it was a common occurrence.
Apparently, a Hybrid marrying their owner was seen as, inhumane.
Even with that one law, it typically didnât matter what the humans thought, as long as the Mate bore the Mate Mark, then they were a married couple in Hybrid society. The mark served as not only a physical declaration, but the mateâs scent would no longer be just theirs, but a mix of their own and who had marked them, announcing to every Hybrid in the area that they were together.
A wedding was simply done for the humanâs benefit.
Namjoon knew all this. So why was he refusing to listen to facts?
Licking his lips, Yoongi remembered a similar reaction coming from Namjoon, back when it was winter and the two of them had been walking with Hoseok to Sarahâs shop, when they had forgotten about the laws.
âIs this all because of last winter?â He asked, knowing that it was true when Namjoonâs ears rested on his head. âJoon, why? Why are you dwelling on that?â
He shook his head. It was stupid and Yoongi was right. You were his Mate and that meant more to Namjoon than anything in the world. But it riddled him with guilt because he would never be able to give you what you wanted.
âIâm still part human,â he simply answered, staring at the floor. âIâm not just some animal like they want to think.â
There was no doubt about that. Every Hybrid was still half human, and even with the laws that had been created to protect them from abusers, there were still people who were prejudice against them simply because their DNA wasnât one hundred percent human. It was something that every Hybrid dealt with at some point in their life. There was no getting around it, unless by some miracle you were raised within a home with purely kind humans. That was a rarity, but after seeing you and Namjoon together, and then Hoseok and his Mate, it gave Yoongi hope that the future generation wouldnât have to suffer like they had.
Namjoon roughly wiped his eyes, forcing back the tears so that they wouldnât slip out. Now that he had spoken his piece, he began to collect his emotions, hating that he had let them out in the first place.
Standing up, Yoongi silently walked across the floor and to Namjoonâs desk, opening the drawer on the left-hand side. Inside was a notebook, battered from use and if Yoongi were to flip through the pages, heâd find Namjoonâs delicate handwriting filling the pages. Lines crossed out and rewritten. Some underlined and with coffee stains or doodles in the corner.
He waited for Namjoon to take the journal before speaking again. âThen write it out. Take all the fucked-up crap the humansâ dish out about us, and serve it back to them. Make them regret everything theyâve said and done to us, but NamjoonâŚdonât you ever forget that you have a Mate back home who loves, and we both know she waits up for you to come home.â
The notebook fit perfectly in Namjoonâs hands. It had been a gift from you in the early days, not even a week after he came to stay with you and it became clear that he was incapable of sleeping through an entire night, without having nightmares.
âWrite.â You said, gently smiling at Namjoon.
He took the notebook from you. It was simple with a brown moleskin cover and a spiral ring to make it easier to turn the pages. âWrite what?â He asked, turning it over in his hands as if it would reveal the reason for why you gave him this.
You shrugged. âWhatever you want. Itâs yours now. Notes about your day, ideas, thoughts that you want to remember. Hell, you can even write a grocery list if you want. I saw it while at the store and thoughtâŚwell I thought if you wrote in it, it might help you to sleep at night.â
As you explained, he looked up from the journal to watch your reaction, seeing that you were being genuine. Your emotions were nothing but kind and wanting to help him, and it surprised him. You were different from the others, and he couldnât help but wonder why.
But he didnât get the chance to ask. Instead you glanced at the kitchen with a smile, getting out of your seat. âI can smell the cookies baking from here. They should be done soon, but I wanted to give you this before you went back to your room for the night.â
And write, he did.
It took some time for him to feel comfortable writing about the nightmares that plagued him, the memories that were so realistic he tasted the blood building up in his mouth when he abruptly woke up in the middle of the night.
He had tired documenting his memories, but each attempt had been painful and felt wrong. It wasnât until he began to write songs that everything fell in to place. Growing up, he had attempted songwriting as a way to cope with his life, and he thought the habit had long since been forgotten over the years, but it came back to him like he never stopped.
The lyrics, the beats and melodies he found himself hearing in his mind and tapping out on the flat surfaces were coming to him like water drifting in a river.
âGo home,â Yoongi encouraged once again. âGo home to her. Go to bed. Iâll finish up listening to the songs and make sure everythingâs set for tomorrow. Okay?â
There was no more arguing with Yoongi. He was right. Sleep and holding you close was what Namjoon needed, and with how his visit had gone at the store this afternoon, he knew you needed it too. With a nod, he stood up from his chair, watching Yoongi settle into it and scoot closer to the desk.
The conversation wasnât over though. Maybe just for tonight, but they both knew that it would come up again whether they wanted it to or not. This wasnât something that could be buried forever. For right now, they were both willing to cover it up until they werenât exhausted and emotional.
âThanks Yoongi,â Namjoon slipped his bag over his shoulder, stealing a glance at the photograph once more.
Yoongi merely waved it away, his tail waving back and forth. âDonât worry about it. Get some sleep for both of us.â
He watched as Namjoon left, and even then, he didnât turn back to the computer until he could no longer hear his footsteps. With a shake of his head, Yoongi sighed as he stared at the same photograph.
He wondered if Namjoon knew that back then, even without you having his Mate Mark, they looked like a couple in love. That even back then, they were always destined for each other. Whether the laws wanted to accept them or not.
The world passed by Namjoon, although there wasnât much of it to see at this hour. Besides the bus driver, he was the only passenger which wasnât uncommon. Many nights he wanted to tell you about the people he saw on the bus only to have wait until morning when you were awake, settling for scribbling reminders into his notebook.
The lack of passengers never bothered him. The quiet was actually comforting to him after listening to music all day, the silence allowed his mind to wander as he watched people through the window. Tonight however, he was focused on the flyer he held.
Chewing on his bottom lip, he wasnât too surprised that this had been on the bulletin board, but the fact that he had discovered it under the hundred other posters was a miracle in itself. The thin white flyer was advertising an underground rap battle taking place at the Lotus.
He had been to Lotus a few times with you, but he wasnât able to recall where exactly a rap battle would be able to place. The last time he was there, bodies had been pressed against each other as strobe lights bounced off of jewelry and exposed skin, recalling how you were lit up in blues and pinks while you danced against his front with a drink in a free hand, the music thumping in his ears as he stole sips from your glass.
Maybe there was a place for it. He had just been too preoccupied to look for it.
âAlright Namjoon, weâre here.â
Lifting his head, he was surprised to see that they were already at the last stop for the bus. âThanks Jerry, Iâll see you tomorrow.â
âSon, donât you ever sleep?â Jerry turned in his seat to look back at Namjoon.
Namjoon simply grinned, folding the flyer in half and sticking it in his pocket as his tail bumped against one of the poles. âWhen wolves start sleeping at night I will.â
Jerry chuckled, waving as Namjoon exited the bus to begin the walk back home.
The bus stop was a twelve-minute walk from home and like with riding the bus, he enjoyed this time to himself. Besides you, the only company he needed was the one that nature provided all on its own. Crickets chirping in the grass, the fluttering of the tree leaves as birds and owls moved around. It was peaceful, and right now, that was what he wanted.
Deep down, he knew that Yoongi was right. That in their world, you were rightfully his wife, the Mate Mark simply taking place of a wedding ring. His heart knew it and so didnât his soul, but his mind kept fighting it.
The human side of him knew that without a wedding certificate and wedding bands, society wouldnât acknowledge him as your husband. They might lightly toss around the term Mate, but they would never mean it. To them, he was your Hybrid and nothing more.
Reaching for his phone in his other pocket, he slowly unwrapped the earbuds, slipping one in his ear while scrolling through his music. He would have put in the other, but the memory of you worrying that people might sneak up on him without hearing them came to mind and kept him from doing so. It had been adorable to see you so concern about him, and since he hadnât had anyone to worry about him in the first place, he didnât have the heart to tell you that his other set of ears would have picked up on the sound of twig snapping off in the distance.
What bothered him the most about all this, was that he had known. He had known since he first started living with you that you dreamed about one day marrying the love of your life. As he walked down the memorized path, his mind wandered back to that morning.
Namjoonâs ear flicked towards the closed bedroom door as he laid in bed, the blankets pulled up to his chin as he forced himself to remember where he was, like he has been for the last three days.
He had come to stay with you at your house due to the overcrowding at the Shelter, all the scents and noises had been too much for him. Your place was quiet, allowing him to uncoil and calm down.
The most important thing, was that he was safe here.
If memory served right, then today was the start of the weekend. Glancing at the clock that you had on the nightstand, he doubtfully looked back at the door and then back at the device, wondering if it was wrong. It was six in the morning.
From the bedroom he was able to hear low voices and the soft pap of your footsteps against the wooden floor. That was you alright. But why you were awake? Werenât weekends meant to be used for sleeping in?
Sitting upright, he ran a hand through his hair, his other hand clenching the blankets as he scanned the room once again. Did this mean you were expecting him to be up too? You had been nothing but nice to him since the night of the storm, but he knew how things have a habit of not being what they seem. It had been three days and already you exceeded his expectations of him staying with you.
It was likeâŚyou enjoyed his company.
His thoughts were interrupted by a sudden buzzing, your hurried footsteps echoing this time instead of being quiet. He waited with bated breath, at first thinking that you had been running to the guest bedroom that you told him he could stay in, but there was nothing but silence right outside his door.
Namjoon pushed back the blankets and stood up, making sure to smooth out the blankets and pillows so that they appeared undisturbed, leaving the room once he was satisfied. He was curious as to what was happening, but he hadnât been expecting the smells to hit him.
The rich aroma of freshly brewed coffee filled his senses as a sweet tart had his mouthwatering. Without thinking, he followed the smells to where it opened up into the living room and kitchen, spotting you by the counter. Next to him, the TV was on to a show with women wearing white dresses, the volume turned down to low so it didnât travel down the hall to the bedrooms.
His footsteps were silent as he entered the kitchen, curiously watching you plate the large muffins onto a glass plate. In front of you was a light blue mug with steam wafting up from it. With a deep inhale, he realized these were the things he had been smelling.
As if you had been expecting him, you turned to look at Namjoon, gently smiling as you plated the last muffin. âIâd thought you be sleeping for a while,â you spoke, setting the empty tray back on top of some potholders he hadnât noticed.
Namjoon didnât speak, and apparently, you didnât mind. âIâm so used to getting up early that itâs hard to sleep in sometimes. So, I tend to do a lot of baking in the morning to have something to do.â
You reached up to brush a loose strand of hair back, automatically patting the back of your hair to make sure that it hadnât fallen out of the messy bun you threw it up in. Still dressed in bed clothes, an oversized shirt that was tied at the side and a pair of thin pajama pants, you took one of the small plates and set a blueberry muffin on it, handing it to Namjoon.
He raised an eyebrow in surprise, hesitating to take it.
But you waited, and after a few minutes, he carefully took the plate.
âThey just came out of the oven so theyâre hot,â you reminded, pointing at the butter and the knife on the table. âI recommend cutting it in half and spreading some butter on them, they taste so good.â
Namjoon didnât move.
With a lick of your lips, he saw the emotions in your eyes waver as you made your own plate and went to the table, doing exactly what you had suggested he do. He knew that you were holding your emotions in check for him, but he didnât say anything as he started to copy your movements. At the sight of the butter melting on the hot muffin, his stomach growled, making his cheeks flush in embarrassment.
âThereâs more than enough if you want a second,â you gently encouraged. He didnât even need to look up to hear the smile in your voice.
The morning after the storm, trees had been knocked down so you had stayed home while the roads were getting cleared, claiming you didnât want to get caught up in the cleanup. At lunch time you had knocked on his door to tell him that lunch was ready if he was hungry, and despite your promises that it was okay, he lingered at the hallway, unsure if you were sincere that he could not only just eat, but to enter the room. When he finally joined you at the table, he had sensed your shock at how little he had taken â barely enough to feed a small child â and again you encouraged him to eat as much as he wanted.
He never said it, but he had heard crying coming from your room that night. His ears had flattened against his skull at the muffled sound of your sadness, feeling a wave of the emotions you were experiencing. You may not have known what Namjoon had gone through, but you had begun to piece together the possibilities.
âWould you like some coffee too?â
Your voice had roused him from his thoughts, glancing up at you to see you pointing at the mug you had set on the table. Another sniff and he was nodding, watching you smile before going around him to get a second mug, this one a warm orange, and recreated the drink.
âHere you go,â you murmured, your smile growing as he accepted it without waiting.
He was hungry and for the first time, he was starting to feel okay with taking the things that you were giving him.
"Iâm going to sit on the couch,â you explained, drinking your own coffee as you picked up your plate again. âYou can join me if you want.â With that, you went into the living room, comfortably sitting down as you turned the volume up a little bit.
Namjoon didnât join you right away. Instead, he readjusted the grip he had on the mug, and cautiously took a sip. Instantly the inside of his chest warmed up, the slightly bitter taste of the coffee beans waking up his mind that was still foggy from sleeping.
He stared at you from where he stood, awake but confused. Why were you being so polite, so kind to him? Was there something you wanted from him that he hadnât been able to sense yet? Yet every time he tried to understand your emotions, he got nothing but unrelenting patience and happiness from you. He hadnât even spoken to you yet, and you were happy he was here. At least, thatâs what he was assuming from how you felt.
Making up his mind, he quietly sat on the other end of the couch with a seat in between you and him, gingerly taking a bit out of the blueberry muffin now that it wasnât so hot it hurt. It was like heaven in fluffy bread that melted in his mouth, the blueberries bursting with sweetness and the occasional bitter taste.
On the TV, a woman said yes to a dress and her friends were screaming in happiness, capturing his attention as he tried to understand what was happening.
âTheyâre shopping for wedding dresses,â you explained, having seen the confused look on Namjoonâs face. âIâve binge watched every episode for this show, I love seeing all the different gowns and weddings, gets me excited for the day that I get to go through this. But that wonât be for a long time.â
There was a longing in your voice that had peaked Namjoonâs interest, and as you explained, he noticed that your eyes had lit up with the unmentioned dream. He knew what marriage was and that humans didnât always marry the right person, and while he didnât really see the point in them, he hoped that one day youâd get to live out your dream.
You deserved it.
Namjoon winced as his shoes echoed in the silent entryway, snapping out of his memories when he sensed your steady heartbeat. It was with a start that he realized you were actually asleep, not just pretending to be like you usually did when he was this late.
It was good that you were asleep, but as he walked to the bedroom, guilt filled him at the thought of missing these quiet moments with you. Passing by the couch, he turned off the lamp that had been left on, enveloping the room in darkness.
He was already discarding his shirt when he entered the bedroom, tossing it in the hamper when he saw you. His body relaxed at the sight of you curled up under the blankets, your hair off of your neck to reveal your Mate mark. A soft growl came from him as he took his pants off, sliding under the blankets in just his underwear, too tired to bother pulling on a pair of sweat pants. Not that you would complain anyways.
On instinct, he curled his body around yours, wrapping an arm around your waist as he buried his face in your hair. Your scent of nutmeg and crisp apples was comforting him, the sound of your soft sigh and the way your body automatically curved backwards into his embrace even as you slept didnât go unmissed by Namjoon.
With you in his arms, it was easy to push away the rest of the world, especially like this. But it also only served to remind him what heâd taken away from you.
âIâm sorry,â he whispered, kissing the Mate mark, lips brushing against your skin with every word. âIâm sorry I canât fix this baby. Iâm so sorry Angel.â
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Warnings: mentions of domestic abuse, alcohol, violence is alluded to.
Wc: 3.8k
(Note: The song Y/n plays on her guitar is Sweet Night by V. I highly recommend listening to it for added ~feels~)
(Also- I canât English hhhh. I apologize for the grammatical mistakes I make sometimes~)
Minho was woken up by your squirming. He looked down at you, eyes scrunched and frowning as you clutched his shirt tightly, and realized you were having another nightmare.
âY/n...â He hesitated, kissing the top of your head and stroking it. âShh, itâs okay...â He hugged you tighter, gently squeezing your shoulder. You opened your eyes as he did so, sweating and blinking rapidly, looking up at him with a confused expression.
âHow did we...Whereâs J-â You squinted, sitting up and slightly pulling away from Minho as you heard the doorbell ring.
âFuck, itâs Juyeon...â You glanced at Minho, making a sound of frustration as you stood up.
âOh. Whyâs he here now...? Oh wait, never mind, I forgot.â He grimaced, sitting up a little and moving the blanket to the side.Â
âMaybe you should go hide or something...â
âWhy the fuck should I hide? Itâs not like you cheated on him with me or anything. Besides, need I remind you that this is my apartment as well?â
âSo...youâre staying here?â
âYup. Iâll get my things from Chanâs again. I obviously wasnât planning on staying at Chanâs forever.â
You sighed. âRight.â You walked over to the door, running your hands through your hair and opening it.
âBaby!â He grinned widely, quickly pulling you in his arms.
âJ-juyeon...canât breathe-â
You giggled as he let you go, hesitating before kissing your cheek and walking in.
âTold you Iâd be back early morn-â He stopped, frowning as he saw Minho on the couch, scrolling through his phone lazily.Â
âWhyâs he here?â He asked, his voice calm.
âDude. I live here.â Minho rolled his eyes, not looking up from his phone.
âYeah, but I thought...â
âY/n and I made up yesterday. Congratulations, by the way! Treat her well, or else.â
Juyeon rolled his eyes, muttering under his breath. âThatâs rich, coming from you.â
You looked between the two, stuttering as you excused yourself, going to your room to brush your teeth.
Minho waited for you to leave before glaring at the man. âI heard that.â He sneered.
âGood.â
There was a silence for a while as Minho sighed, remembering what heâd promised himself yesterday. He set his phone down. âIâm sorry.â
âSorry?â Juyeon raised an eyebrow. âFor what?â
âI donât know, everything. Iâm trying to make myself a better person...and I wanna acknowledge that Iâve hurt people.â
âThatâs...nice of you. Why, though?â
âWell...â he trailed off, groaning as he gripped his thigh tighter. âI just want to...I donât know. I donât know anything anymore.â
âYeah well, I just want to tell you something. Apologies are nice and all, but Y/nâs mine now, okay? You living here again is fine, but...I didnât spend all this time pining after her to lose her to an asshole like you. So donât even try taking her from me.â He snapped.
Minho scoffed, laughing. âWhat makes you think I would want to do that?â
âChan told me youâre in love with her.â
Fuck.Â
âHe did? Huh. Well itâs a lie. I donât have feelings for her, sheâs just my best friend and roommate.â
âOkay. If you say so. I saw the way you ran after her that night, though. I mean, if you didnât care, or had zero feelings, you wouldnât have done that.â
âAre you dumb? Of course I....care about her. You canât be best friends with someone for sixteen years and not care about them.â
âYeah okay, whatever.â
He groaned. âLook, Juyeon, I donât want to have any tension between us. For real, Iâm not trying to steal your girl.â God, that hurt to say. âLook, if youâre going to be my best friendâs boyfriend, we should get along. I assume youâre going to come over a lot, so...we need to be civil to each other, okay? For her.â
He nodded. âYeah, sure. For her.â He said, just as you finished getting ready, returning to the living room.
Juyeonâs frown quickly melted into a smile as he turned from Minho to you, standing up and holding his hand out. You took his hand, glancing at Minhoâs neutral expression.
âHey, if you wanted to walk with us, we donât mind...â
He rolled his eyes. âNah, itâs okay. You go ahead. My classes donât start until later, anyway.â
âOkay.â You gave him a smile which he reciprocated, waving to him as you left.
Minho sighed, smile dropping instantly as the door closed, getting up to go to his room. God, he missed it. He pulled off his shirt, hating the way your scent was still clinging to it. Collapsing onto his bed, he clutched at the bed sheets tightly, trying to control and retain all the burning anger and dejection he was feeling. His heart had been twisting when heâd seen Juyeon hold your hand...and you laughing as he kissed your cheek.Â
It had barely been a day, and the green-eyed monster inside him was already on a rampage, making him breathe shakily as he tried to banish the thoughts.Â
He didnât know if he could do this for much longer.
***
Minho was envious and possessive. He couldnât deny that he had those traits in abundance.
Heâd been possessive ever since the two of you were young. Seeing you talk and get friendly with people who werenât him always made him queasy...sometimes, heâd even go to the extent of purposely sabotaging your other friendships. He stopped doing that when middle school started, but try as hard as he could, he never did get rid of that feeling of ardent jealousy.
He was afraid that one day, you would finally realize that he wasnât good enough for you. For anyone. His father constantly reminded him of that fact, after all.
He really didnât want you to leave him.
When he first met you, he was entranced with your wide, innocent eyes and the way you looked so happy and pure. Despite being so young, Minho didnât have an ounce of innocence left in him. Heâd been forced to grow up all too fast...
Minho saw in you the kind of person he wanted himself to be. He liked coming over to your house, too. Your family was always so sweet and accommodating...the complete opposite of his. The more time he spent with you, the less he dwelled on his own fucked up life.
He liked all the sleepovers, especially. He would sleep at the foot of your bed in a sleeping bag, the two of you still talking late into the night. The first time heâd stayed the night at your house, heâd fallen asleep quickly for the first time in his life. Your soft snoring had calmed him, a welcome change from the sounds of glass breaking, the angry shouts that heâd gotten used to back home.Â
Sometimes, youâd dangle your arm off the side of the bed and heâd hold it, the feeling of your warm hand in his making him even calmer.Â
Your bedroom was where you hung out until middle school started. After that, the two of you found another place to call your own, a place that was special to the two of you.
You were the one whoâd discovered it, one day before school as you waited for Minho to come pick you up from your house, so the two of you could walk together to school. Heâd been taking slightly longer than usual this time, so you decided to take a walk to the lake near your house. There had been a few water poppies youâd spotted last time you were there, and you wanted to pick some.
You squinted at the grass near the lake, frowning as you couldnât find any that werenât smushed- a dog must have trampled all over them. You walked along the length of the lake, trying to find ones that were intact, when you noticed the big willow tree that was right across the bend.Â
You were surprised, because you hadnât seen such a big tree before- but then neither had you walked this far.
When you walked back, Minho had a worried expression on your face as he saw you.
âThere you are! Oh god, i was going to call your mom-â
âCome on, I wanna show you something!â You grabbed his hand, not caring that you were late as you tugged him along, taking you to the grassy area, and pointing at the big tree.
âWow, itâs so beautiful...â
âIt really is, isnât it?â
Since then, you met there every day after school, under the shade of the tree. It became your little haven, a place where you told each other secrets, and laughed at things your fellow students would do.
One day though, as you laid your head on Minhoâs thigh, your hands occupied with making a daisy chain, he sighed, voice shaky as he spoke.
âSometimes, I feel like Iâm going to end up like my father.â
You looked up at that, frowning at him.
âYou wonât. Youâre a good person, Minho.â
âI donât know. Itâs in my genes after all, isnât it?â
âPeople arenât always exactly like their parents. Donât put yourself down. You, Lee Minho, are amazeballs.â
He giggled, pinching your nose and cringing at the 13 year old lingo.Â
âAmazeballs?â
You laughed. âShut up. You know what I mean. Kind, cool, strong, funny...â
His gaze softened as he looked down at you. âYou think so?â
âYeah.â You sat up, facing him and taking his hand in yours. âI canât imagine what youâve gone through. I wonât pretend to understand. From what youâve told me though, I know youâre nothing like him. Youâve always been there for me, Minho, always been someone I can lean on.â
He sighed, nodding. âYeah. But thatâs only because youâre my best friend. Iâm not this nice to others. You know that.â
âNot everyone can be nice all the time, you know? That sounds tiring. And to be honest, not every one deserves people being nice to them.â
âThatâs true...how do you do this? Manage to cheer me up, always? Youâre so...perfect.â
âMe? Perfect? Shut up. You know Iâm far from it, Minho.â
âTo me, you are.â
You stuck your tongue out at the cheesy comment, erupting into a fit of giggles as Minho pulled you close, his hands tickling your sides.
He finally stopped after multiple protests from you, smiling down at your breathless form.Â
You hummed. âI know you canât really call the place you live home...so can we be each otherâs home?â
His smile grew wider.
âYes, we can.â
You made him feel special, worthwhile. You saw the good in him that he couldnât see, no matter how hard he tried.Â
A while after he graduated from high school though, he came home one day to an empty house. A few minutes later, he received a call from the hospital that his mother had been admitted under critical care and that his father was being detained by the police.
He realized you were wrong. He definitely wasnât any of those fucking things you said he was. He wasnât there for his mother when she needed him. Heâd let that monster act according to his wishes.Â
He slowly decided to stop caring. His college life would be different from the one heâd led so far. After all, what was the point in trying? People donât change. Being vulnerable never ended up getting you anywhere, and his own home life was evidence enough. You wouldnât have wanted him to give up, but he always knew heâd let you down sooner or later.
***
When Minho woke up, he noticed it was already dark. It was about 6:00. Heâd missed his classes, but he didnât really care.
He sighed and slipped off the bed, rubbing his eyes as he pushed open his door.
You were sitting on the sofa, humming as you mindlessly strummed your guitar like you usually did, whenever you were nervous or sad.
He came forward, sitting on the couch with some distance between you. You looked up as you saw him, giving him a small smile. âI thought you still werenât back.â
âI slept all day...missed my classes.â
You nodded, turning back to your guitar.
âWhere is he?â
âJuyeon? He left a while ago. He had plans.âÂ
âAh.â
There was more silence as Minho thought of what to say next, leaning back and watching you as you slowly started playing a small tune that sounded familiar, but one which he couldnât quite place. Your humming slowly turned into singing, softly pronouncing each word.
Minho felt his heart pounding as he closed his eyes like he always did when you sang, preferring to focus on your voice without any distractions. As the song came to a close, he realized he head tears pricking his eyes. The lyrics hit too close to home.
He opened his eyes, staring at you. âDid...did you write that song?â He asked slowly.
âNo...I really like it, though...â
âYeah, m-me too.â He gulped.
He couldnât take it anymore. Every part of him was screaming, telling him to man up and confess already. Youâd confirmed that you didnât reciprocate his feelings, but he couldnât bring himself to care anymore. If he didnât say anything, he would burst.
âY/n, I...â
You looked up at him. âHm?â
âI...â
It was so hard. Why was it so hard to just spit out those words? He felt so frustrated with himself.
He shifted closer to you. Maybe if he couldnât say it...he could show it instead.
Your eyes widened as he came closer, his eyes wet as he gently touched your cheek, leaning in further.
âW-what are you doing?â
âShh...â
His lips brushed against yours. You felt sparks shooting through you despite the minimal touch, warning signals going off in your brain.
You pushed him away before he could deepen the kiss any further, feeling so utterly heartbroken that you could barely breathe.
âStop- just s-stop.â You cried, rubbing at your eyes and standing up, glaring down at him. âWhat the fuck is wrong with you?!â
He frowned, confused. âI...I was just trying to-â
âShut up. Iâm so sick of you. Why are you doing this to me? Why do you keep trying to kiss me, why do you look at me like....like that sometimes? I donât understand how you feel about me, I donât know if you even think before doing shit like this-â
âY/n, itâs not-â
âNo. Please. Stop talking. Stop the excuses. Do you care about me? What do you feel? Cause I donât understand.â You scoffed shakily, running a hand through your hair and staring at the ceiling.Â
âWe had sex. Was there really nothing behind it? Was I just another girl for your fucking bed? Or do you...do you feel anything for me?âÂ
You swallowed, looking at his dumbstruck face and panting.
He stayed silent, his face passive as he took in your words.Â
You raised an eyebrow. âAnswer me...please, Minho. Iâm...Iâm begging you.âÂ
He swallowed, his hands folded in his lap.
Come on Minho. This is your chance.
âWell?â
Iâm in love with you.
I think I always have been.
Please donât leave me.
He stayed silent.Â
You scoffed. âThatâs what I thought.â
Glaring at him, you left for your room and slammed the door behind you.Â
***
You lay in your bed, fingers playing with your hair-tie as you lost yourself in your thoughts. God, love was a shitty feeling. All the movies and books described it as something beautiful, tender and soft.
In reality, love was painful. It felt like needles were poking your heart every time you saw his face, remembering all the happy memories youâd made with him. Memories that were now tainted.Â
You picked up your phone as it rang, sighing as you realized who it was.
âHi.â
âHello, baby! Iâm so sorry I couldnât call earlier. I have a night shift so Iâll be late, but I hope today I can finally stay over?â
âUm, yeah, sure.â
âYay! We can have our own little sleepover.â
You laughed softly, rubbing the remaining tears away and sitting up a little. âOkay. Iâm looking forward to it!â
âHehe, see you later, sweetheart.â
You sighed and let the phone fall from your hands as you slipped further down the bed, smushing your face in the pillow and trying to get a momentâs peace. You got rid of all the thoughts in your head, choosing to replace them with emptiness for a while.
***
A few hours later you were woken up with a gentle shove. You opened your eyes sleepily, turning around and smiling.Â
âAh. Youâre here.â
âUh huh. You okay?â Juyeon frowned, taking note of the dried tear stains on your face. You nodded, blinking as you sat up. âIâm fine.â
âGood.â He held up his laptop, smiling widely and getting into the bed next to you.
âIâve downloaded a bunch of movies for us to watch together.â
âAh.â You mumbled, smiling slowly and yawning. âThatâs nice.â
He sighed, seeing your expression and putting the laptop aside. âYou seem sleepy. Iâm fine with cuddling. Scoot~â
He moved you to the side a little bit and pulled you against him, stroking your hair and smiling.
You felt a feeling of profound guilt, his face so innocent and caring that the disdain you felt for yourself grew. Why were you so caught up on the emotionally tone-deaf asshole in the other room when you had someone right here who actually cared about you?
Because you and Minho have been through so much together. You were there for each other when no one else was. No matter how hard you try, you would never get over him, would never get rid of the fact that all the two of you really knew was each other.
Juyeon watched as your expression darkened, his fingers pausing, drifting down from your hair and cupping your cheek, just like Minho had done a few hours ago.Â
He leaned in, his lips slightly open.
No. You couldnât do it. This was wrong.
You stopped him, your hand over his mouth as you closed your eyes, not wanting to see his hurt expression.Â
âIâm...s-sorry.â You whispered, sniffing.Â
âI canât string you along like this anymore. Iâve never really been a good person...and Iâm still not. But I canât do this to you. Canât stay with you when I know I canât return the love you give me. I donât deserve it.â
âOpen your eyes, Y/n.â
You slowly peeled them open, breath hitching as you looked at him.
âI knew.â He pulled away, sighing and sitting up on the bed. âI know you donât like me. I know you only got together with me to prove something. I guess I fooled myself into thinking one day you might actually fall for me, if I could prove to you what a nice boyfriend I could be...â He glanced at your distressed expression.
âLook, itâs okay. Donât put yourself down like that. I just...I wanna know why.â
âWell,-â
âIs it because you love him?â
Your eyes widened as you sat up, facing him. âUm, who-â
He shook his head, chuckling. âI should have seen it coming. You know who Iâm talking about. Now, tell me. Itâs the least you can do.â
You gulped, nodding after a momentâs thought.
âHmm. Knew it.â He stood up, grabbing his laptop and glancing back at you.Â
âIâll leave, then. I donât mind staying friends, though.â
âYeah, I donât, either.â
He smiled, walking out of your room and to the front door. He passed Minho sprawled out on the couch, glassy stare directed at the Tv that was playing a random infomercial on repeat.
âHey, bro?â
Minho ignored him.
Juyeon let out a wry laugh. âYou donât know what youâre doing.â
Minho sighed, tearing his eyes away from the screen. âWhat do you want?â He snapped.
âNothing, I just wanted to say youâre an idiot.â
âAh well, I kinda knew that.â
âNo, seriously. You donât know how lucky you are.â
Minho frowned up at him. âWhat do you mean?â
He shook his head, making his way to the front door, turning around as he opened it.Â
âIâm just saying...seize the opportunity when you have it. You never know when you might lose it.â
âWhat the fuck are you going on about, dude?â
Juyeon rolled his eyes, flipping him off before leaving.
Minho watched him go, frowning as he glanced at your still shut door. Whyâd he leave as soon as he came in?
He wondered if he should check on you. It was probably a bad idea, considering the way youâd blown up at him earlier...
He stood up, going to your door and raising his hand to knock, hesitating. He could hear soft sniffling sounds coming from inside that made his heart break. But seeing him might just hurt you even more...
He sighed, dropping his hand. At the end of the day, he was just a coward.Â
He went to his room, sitting down at the table and grabbing a piece of paper. If it was so hard to say those words, maybe he could just write them?
He wrote a small paragraph, before shaking his head and crumpling it up into a ball, throwing it on the floor. About half an hour passed by, and heâd made no progress except for increasing the pile of paper balls on the floor.
He threw his head back, groaning. How do people even do this...
Youâve never had problems like this before. Why are you being such a pussy now, when it really matters?
He chuckled, rubbing his forehead and sneering at the voice in his head.
It isnât that easy. What if I lose her when I do confess? What if she freaks out, pushes me away completely? I canât afford to lose her.
Well, if you continue being an asshole like this, you truly will lose her.
He made a sound of frustration, slapping his head as he got out of his chair, thinking about what Juyeon had told him.Â
Did it mean what he think he did?
He didnât want to get his hopes up. He paced the room, running his hands through his hair and trying to figure out what to do.Â
If he confessed to you now, it would definitely fall flat. He needed to do something that made it clear that he meant what he said. That he wasnât joking around, that he was serious. Heâd never been so serious in his life, in fact.
There was a possibility he would lose you after this...and the existence of it frightened him. But if being away from him was best for you...heâd gladly stay away.
He opened the door to his room, making sure your door was still closed before dialling Chan for help to set his plan up, leaving the apartment.Â
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A Moment of Truth
My second entry for Ronâs Chessboard Fest 2021.
Pairing: Ron/Harry
Rating: T
Prompt 13: A Moment of Truth
Summary: Harry ruined the best thing that ever happened to him. But the Boy-Who-Lived is determined to make it right again.
Thanks again to TheUltimateUndesirable and to the best beta @accio-broom!
This story is kind of a follow up to the fic Thinking About You by Solstice Muse. You don't have to read that story to understand mine, but I highly recommend getting on LiveJournal and befriending Solstice Muse for their amazing stories. Pure talent, believe me! I also got permission from the author to write my story based on theirs.
You can also read this story on AO3 & FFN.
Harry wondered if he had ever felt more alone in his life as he stared up at the ceiling of his bedroom. If he wouldâve thought about it hard enough, he mightâve remembered several instances where he felt just as lonely, but Harry simply didnât possess the strength right now.
Ron left him.
The  thing he would miss the most left him, and the only person he could blame for it was himself. It took the better part of the last two weeks for Harry to realise it and all of yesterday to really accept that ugly truth.
The day Ron had walked out of their flat was nothing but a giant blur. He had drunk himself into a stupor, and if the broken mirrors were any indication, he pretty much had lost it. When he woke up the next morning, violently retching into the toilet, he called in sick and just went to bed again.
Although he had gone to work the following days, he floo called his PR manager, telling Liam to cancel all events for the time being, offering a half-arsed explanation and reminding him that it was  his  job to make up stories for him.
Harry had appeared at work as early as possible and left for home when the cleaning staff threw him out of his office. He didnât want to return to the vacant flat, Ron-free and, therefore, absolutely miserable. But he was also trying to avoid Arthur, Percy and Hermione. Especially, Hermione.
Harryâs favourite pastime these last two weeks had been to curse and blame Hermione for all of this. She had obviously waited outside that day, escorting Ron to her parentsâ place where she lived at the moment. Harry had watched them through their living room window as they walked hand in hand to the next apparation point.
Everything had been fine, after all, hadnât it? Taking his managerâs advice to feed the monster to protect his actual private life and his loved ones from the press, he had found his celebrity life rather comfortable and even enjoyable. After years of Harry having been announced to be Bachelor of the Year, rumours started to form about why he had still been single. Together with his manager, he worked out a way to lure the press away from the truth, and there hardly had been an instance anymore where Harry wasnât accompanied by one beautiful witch or another. Events and parties full of photographers did not bother him anymore as long as they only captured him socialising and having fun. Almost every day, the papers had a story to tell about him, but never about who he really had gone home to. Never about Harry being gay and him being madly in love with his best mate.
Most of the time, he concentrated on this feeling of betrayal and silently cursed Ron and Hermione for wanting him to come out officially. Didnât they see how intrusive and destructive the press had been all his life? Didnât they see how dangerous this could be for Ron? For himself?
But deep-down, Harry knew it wasnât like that. Ron would never demand Harry come out. The only thing Ron wanted from him was the freedom to live his own life out in the open. It had been a perfect situation for Harry these past months; working, going to parties and then coming home to Ron.
But for Ron, it hadnât been perfect.
Harry remembered that horrible night when he came home from some Ministry ball, only to find a note telling him Ron went out with Hermione to some Muggle gay club in London and that he doesnât have to stay up should he come home earlier than Ron.
Shame and guilt threatened to choke Harry when he thought about his terrible actions that night. Harry had seen red the second he read the words  Muggle gay club, immediately assuming some dirty fuck will try to steal his Ron.
When he finally found them, he watched Ron and Hermione dancing like there was no tomorrow, looking absolutely ridiculous, but like they had the time of their lives. He watched Ron having fun, smiling like Harry hadnât seen him smile in a very long time. He watched as Ron got approached by a very handsome Muggle and Hermione finding herself another dance partner, winking at Ron. He watched Ron turn the man down. And he stopped watching when that fucker ignored it and tried to kiss him. Before Ron had the chance to shove him away, Harry forced himself between them and snarled into the muggleâs face to fuck off, seconds away from beating the shite-eating grin out of him.
Harry knew now that this night must have been the turning point for Ron because after screaming at Hermione for luring Ron into that gay club, he completely lost it on his boyfriend. They had a terrible row that night, but Ron had forgiven him once more.
All feelings of betrayal got soon replaced by guilt. Over and over again, he recalled Ronâs wounded expression every time Harry asked him to not join him for one party or another, Ronâs anger and hurt when Harry exploded on him the few times Ron had gone out for the night without him or asked more than accusing questions afterwards. He imagined himself at these parties, having fun, drinking and talking about Quidditch most of the time. And then he imagined Ron, sitting alone in their flat, waiting for Harry to come home, just as alone as he was now. Ron wasnât happy anymore, but Harry had refused to listen to his words and see Ronâs misery.
He suddenly hated himself â not just hurting his lover but also his best mate. Harry most likely ruined the most wonderful and perfect thing in his life and probably killed any chance to get Ron back. Maybe he even bollocked up their friendship for good, just like he had with all his other friendships if all the declined Birthday invitations Ron sent out before their break-up were any indication. Hermione always had been very vocal about what she thought about Harryâs treatment of Ron, and he just had been too deliberately blind and busy to notice everyone turning away from Harry.
Thatâs why he lay in bed. All alone. On his Birthday.
The only guest he had today had been Ginny, bringing him a little basket with some snacks Mrs Weasley prepared for him. She had been smart enough to not wish him a Happy Birthday.
While Ron hadnât asked him to come out of the closet, Harry wanted to keep Ron inside it. He shouldâve known better than anyone what it means to be hidden away for being different from the rest, for a dirty secret not allowed to get out. This comparison with the Dursleys made him hate himself even more.
If he wanted to have a real shot at getting Ron and his friends back, Harry had to clean up his own life first. Slowly, he got out of bed, determined to get a long overdue shower. Before he went into the bathroom, though, Harry summoned some parchment and a quill, writing a short note and a rather long letter (for Harryâs standards anyway).
He quickly delivered the note to his managerâs assistant through a short floo call, telling her it was urgent.
His owl Athena nibbled on some owl treat he gave her while Harry tied the letter to one of her claws. âAlright, Athena,â he said, his voice unusually wavering, âplease, deliver this letter as fast as possible, okay? And make sure Hermione reads it.â
*******
Ron was well aware of Hermioneâs worrying glances in his direction.
They both sat on Hermioneâs bed, with their backs leaning against the headboard as Ron distracted himself with the wonder that is a television, and his best friend unsurprisingly reading a book beside him. He was glad she didnât force him to talk about his feelings right now.
Over the last two weeks, Hermione had gone out of her way to keep Ron from thinking and worrying about Harry. An impossible task, really, but she did such a great job of trying to cheer him up and even succeeding sometimes that Ron often felt overwhelmed by the need to hug her.
Today though, Hermione knew Ron couldnât be kept from thinking about Harry. It was the last day of July, after all, and Harryâs Birthday. And it would be the first Birthday since Harry turned 17 that Ron and Hermione wouldnât be with him. It would be the first Birthday in the last four years that Harry and Ron werenât a couple anymore.
In the moment, sadness and hurt seemed to choke him, and he wondered if Harry had even considered them a couple in the first place. Right at the beginning, when they started dating after some unbelievably awkward confessions of feelings, it had been like a dream come true. Finally, the times of mutual pining had been over, replaced by a sense of such content and happiness that Ron often had woken up in the morning, sure it all just had been a dream. A second later, though, with Harryâs arm around him, reminded Ron that it was genuine.
Despite Ron missing Harry terribly, he knew it was the right decision to move out. For the sake of his own sanity and happiness, he had to leave Harry. Ron knew that Harry loved him more than anyone else. It had taken him a long time to realise that sometimes, love wasnât enough.
Hermione wrote a short letter to Harry this morning, wishing him a Happy Birthday. They both signed it, deciding it would be best if they sent one letter together. The other day he floo called Ginny, asking her to check on Harry today because Ron knew that his best mate wasnât fine. None of all these parties, charity Quidditch matches and Ministry galas could change that. At least, not after two weeks. A very selfish part of Ron hoped it never would.
Ron was about to suggest to Hermione to grab some ice cream when Harryâs owl tapped on the window glass, wildly flapping her wings. Instead of letting Athena in, Hermione looked at Ron with her eyebrows furrowed but with a questioning look directed at him.
Letting out a deep sigh, Ron stood up and opened the window. The owl flew inside, flying straight towards Ronâs opened and still not fully unpacked trunk. Landing gracefully on top of one of Ronâs bright orange Canon t-shirts, she lifted the claw the letter was tied to and hooted loudly atâŚHermione?
âWell, itâs yours, apparently,â Ron said, pointing at the cream-coloured envelope. âMaybe he just wants to say thank you for the Birthday wishes.â
âRon, you know thââ
âPlease, just open it, Hermione.â
Her brown eyes held the kind of anxiety he felt too, but she still freed Athena from the letter and gave her an owl treat. Apparently, the bird got the order to make sure Hermione read the letter, as Ron knew that she wouldâve been long gone after receiving her treat.
âAre you really sure, Ron?â Hermione asked, looking up from the unusually thick letter, âWill you promise me to not floo over, right away? Regardless of what that letter might say.â
He slowly nodded at her, his gaze fixed on Harryâs letter. This certainly wasnât a simple âThank Youâ note, and the fact Harry wrote such a long letter at all scared him to the point of pure panic.
âPlease, open the letter, Hermione.â If it was because of his panicked voice or Hermioneâs own curiosity what the letter might say, Ron couldnât tell, but she finally opened the envelope, took out the note and held it in a way both of them could read it.
Dear Hermione, Â
First of all, Iâm sorry for any potential annoyance Athena might have caused, but I told her not to leave before you have read this letter. Â
What I have to tell you is crucial for both you and Ron. I know you will show Ron this letter right away; maybe he is even reading it with you right now. But this letter is actually primarily for you. What I want to tell Ron, I have to tell him in person, and maybe after today, heâll give me a chance to hear me out.
Hermione, Iâm sorry.
Iâm sorry for all the reasons you expect me to be sorry for, but Iâm also sorry for letting our friendship crumble and fall apart. I had been so angry at you for stealing Ron. Stealing him, like he is some kind of possession to lose. The last two weeks, I was consumed by this unreasonable rage that I thought was gone after Tom Riddleâs soul left me forever. Yes, it took me two weeks to finally realise that you just were a good friend to Ron. Â
Because a good friend is what you are. And I know you tried to be a good friend to me for the longest time. I took you for granted. Just like I took Ron for granted and everyone else I turned away from during last year. I turned into a horrible person without noticing it, or rather, refusing to acknowledge it. And because of that, I also turned into an awful friend. Â
I could blame many things for my behaviour, like fame or the press or my manager or my childhood. But after taking a hard look at myself, I concluded that I canât blame anyone or anything for this but me. Â
Before I even try to make it right with all of you, before I can look into Ronâs eyes again, I have to sort out my life first. Actually, Iâll start to do this today. Â
Both of you have to up your security. Use any charm you can think of. I doubt you will be in any serious danger, but I have no idea what kind of reaction this will cause. Itâs best if you stay away from Diagon Alley tomorrow. I wonât mention Ronâs name, of course, but expect journalists trying to corner the two of you for interviews. Â
Do you remember the beach cottage we celebrated my 19th Birthday? I will spend the whole day there tomorrow. Would you and Ron join me? I have a lot to say. Â
Love,
Harry
A heavy silence fell over Ron and Hermione when they both finished reading Harryâs letter. Hermione slowly folded the parchment and laid it down on her nightstand before looking up at Ron with wide eyes.
Ron didnât know what to say, let alone what to think of this. Harry did not outright say it, but the indication was clear enough. Whether heâll write an official statement or give a press conference, Harry planned to come out today.
Wasnât this what Ron wanted? For Harry to not give a flying fuck what the rest of the world would think about him? For finally being able to live a life out in the open?
But instead of feeling relieved and happy, he felt an old terror creeping up his neck. Like in a trance, he sat down on the bed again and stared at Harryâs letter. Ron ran his hands over his face and groaned from the overwhelming sensation of guilt and anxiety washing over him. Did he force Harry to do this? Did he force Harry to expose himself to the nasty side of the public?
Soft hands tugged on Ronâs arms until he was forced to look up. Hermione knelt in front of him, a determined look in her warm, brown eyes. âWhat do you want to do now?â She asked, lightly caressing Ronâs cheek.
âWell, the letter was for youâŚâ Ron joked, his attempt to lighten the mood earned him one of Hermioneâs trademark eye-rolls. âFuck, Hermione, I have no idea. What if Harry is just doing this because heâs hurt?â
âHarry always acts impulsively,â Hermione answered in a thoughtful tone, âbut his words sound sincere to me. And as he said in his letter, he really needs to sort out his life.â
âHe shouldnât have to come out though for that.â
âNo, he doesnât have to do this. But for his own sake, I really think itâs the right way to go.â
âI can try to get a hold of him and check how heâs doing if you want me to,â Hermione added when Ron didnât respond.
âYou would do that?â Ron looked down at her once more, feeling grateful to have Hermione by his side.
âOf course,â Hermione stood up from her kneeling position to sit beside Ron and took his hand into hers, âBut Ron, just because Harry is doing this doesnât mean you have to go back to him. Iâll support you, no matter how you decide, but please promise me you wonât let yourself get treated like that again. I donât want to see you getting hurt like that anymore.â
He smiled at her and softly squeezed her hand. âI promise, Hermione. But I think I canât just continue as if nothing happened. Not so soon, anyway.â
âGood,â Hermione stood up and went over to Ronâs suitcase where Athena still sat, looking expectantly at them, âCome on, Athena. I bring you back to Harry.â The owl hooted at her as if in protest but still flew up to Hermioneâs right shoulder.
âHermione?â Ron said before she could disapparate.
âYes?â
âThank you.â
*******
The press room of his managerâs company resembled a cozy living room rather than the place he held all his important meetings. Aside from the chairs for the reporters and photographers and the speakerâs stand at the front, it was decorated like a room he would suspect to find in some Lordâs castle. It had an impressive fireplace, a golden chandelier and was decorated with several large paintings and fancy looking rugs.
As Harry took a quick look into the press room from the door that led to Liamâs office, he saw that some news outlets had sent their reporters early. They clearly expected big news from him, considering the last and only press conference he gave had been the one right after the war. Harry was sure they thought he would announce an engagement. It was the obvious conclusion, and if he wouldnât have been in such a grave mood, he maybe couldâve found it amusing to imagine their faces after he gave his statement.
Youâll see their reactions soon enough, Harry thought.
Despite what he was going to do in less than ten minutes, he felt strangely calm. It couldâve been the years of experience handling the press, but Harry knew this wasnât the case. Talking about the Quidditch Cup final or the latest decision of the Wizengamot was one thing. Telling the world he was gay was something else entirely.
No, Harryâs calmness didnât come from years of navigating the press, but rather Hermioneâs visit an hour ago. She didnât say much, just that Ron wanted him to know he didnât have to do this. And she made it very clear this outing wasnât a safe ticket to get Ron back. He told her that all he had said to her in the letter was true and that he needed to do this for himself more than anything else.
Hermione had simply nodded and turned around to floo home, but she had stopped in her tracks.
âBe safe,â She said softly, without turning around. Not waiting for an answer, she stepped inside the fireplace, leaving behind the orange flames dancing inside it.
Hope sparked inside his heart because, obviously, Ron and Hermione still cared and tried to look out for him. Even if he ruined every chance of a relationship with Ron, not all seemed lost considering Harryâs friendship with his two best friends.
âAre you ready?â Liamâs voice came from behind him. The short, grey-haired wizard stepped up beside Harry, looking up at him with his ever-professional mask of indifference.
âReady,â Harry answered, testing his voice, glad it sounded strong and unwavering.
Without missing a beat, Harryâs manager opened the dark, wooden door, and the two of them walked to the podium. Several cameras flashed already when Harry cast  Sonorous  at himself. The room was filled with at least one journalist and a photographer from every news outlet in Magical Britain.
The news of Harry Potter being gay was going to spread like wildfire.
âGood evening,â Harry started to speak, his amplified voice quieting down the low chatter of the audience. He planned to make this short, wishing to be back at his flat already.
âIâm here to inform you that I wonât be attending any official events for the rest of the year.â The voices grew louder again, but Liam stopped the chatter by simply raising his hand. The way this short man managed crowds never ceased to amaze Harry.
âThis is simply a way for me to get my life back on track, and I know I need this time for myself in the upcoming months. I-â
âMr Potter,â Rita Skeeter interrupted, her acid green Quick-Quotes Quill and a parchment hovering in the air beside her, âDoes your-â
âMrs Skeeter, I donât remember my manager giving you permission to ask questions,â Harry cut her off, trying very hard to not let her admire his middle finger. âAnd if you wish to attend this press conference until the end, I advise you to not interrupt me again.â
Raising an eyebrow at him but otherwise remaining silent, Rita sat down again, her quill still scribbling wildly. Harry knew he would pay for this. He was just about to give her the perfect ammunition, after all.
âI could just leave it at that. It would definitely prevent my manager from being forced to read through a lot of hate-mail, and it would spare me from having to hide from the public for a while. But these past months, my relationship with the press and official events destroyed everything I really hold dear. And no, I donât blame you for this. You intruded on my life more than once, but what I have let my life become is entirely my fault. Thatâs why I have to make the reason for my retreat public. Before I reconcile with the people I hurt, I have to make it right with myself, first and foremost.â
Complete silence settled over the room. Not a single whisper could be heard, and even Rita Skeeterâs quill stopped scribbling, simply hovering beside the witch.
Harry closed his eyes for a brief second as his heartbeat threatened to beat out of his chest. It was now or never, so Harry took one last deep breath, and then, he finally told the world the truth.
âIâm gay.â
*******
A gentle breeze greeted Ron and Hermione when they apparated to the beach Harry mentioned in his letter. The slight wind felt like a relief compared to the stuffy heat in the city. Hermione could only shake her head at Ron for complaining about the hot days, given how rare they were in London.
They could already see the small cottage from their apparation point, the security charms still allowing them to notice it and enter its wards. It was a short walk to the small wooden cabin, but it was enough time for Ron to break out in a sweat.
Yesterday night they had heard about Harryâs press conference on the radio. The news station recited his speech word by word before analyzing it, also word by word, and taking wild guesses on which wizards were most likely to be a past or present love interest of the Boy-Who-Lived.
Harryâs words kept repeating in Ronâs mind, making him feel guilty, relieved and sad, all at the same time. More than anything else, he wanted to know how Harry felt about all of this, but at the same time, he feared what Harry might expect from Ron now.
With a gentle wave of his wand, Ron alerted Harry of their presence, and a second later, he walked out of the cottage. His black hair looked even wilder than usual, fitting his red-rimmed eyes and the wrinkled shirt he was wearing.
Despite Harry's ruffled appearance, Ron immediately felt a pang of deep longing inside his chest. All he wanted to do right now was to run his hands over Harry's five oâclock shadow and kiss away the dark bags under these brilliantly green eyes.
Instead, he just stood in front of Harry, willing his heart and mind to slow down.
After what felt like an awfully long time of awkward silence, Harry cleared his throat. âWould- would you like to come in?â
âI won't come in with you,â Hermione answered, and before Harry could protest, she turned to Ron, âWe'll meet at Nevilleâs at 7?â
âBut Hermione, I want to talk to you too.â
âI know, Harry,â Hermione looked back at him, her lips tightly pressed together, âBut I think you should talk to Ron first. Alone.â
Ron could see Harry didn't expect this. He probably prepared a whole speech for Hermione and was now at a loss for words after her announcement.
âWe will talk, just the two of us. And I will try to rebuild our friendship, regardless of what Ron might decide for himself.â Hermione paused for a brief moment and took a step closer towards Harry. âBut should Ron decide to give your relationship another chance, remember that our friendship will stand and fall on how you treat him. I won't watch one of my best friends hurt the other again.â
And as if to make a point, she took her wand out of its holster, gripping it tightly. Without waiting for Harry's response, though, Hermione quickly squeezed Ron's hand before turning around and disapparating with a quiet plop.
âI really wanted to talk to her,â Harry sighed, weaving a hand through his unruly hair.
âHow are you?â Ron asked instead of saying something about Hermione's decision to keep out of this conversation.
Apparently surprised about Ron's sudden change of topic, Harry looked at him with a puzzled expression. A second later, though, his gaze softened, and Ron squirmed under the longing Harry's eyes held.
âBetter than I thought I would beâ Harry took a small step closer.
âYou didnât have to-â
âI know,â Harry quickly interrupted him rather loudly, and with a much quieter voice, he said, âI know. But I wanted to. I needed to do this.â
Ron nodded and stared at his feet, not knowing what else he could say right now.
âWould you like to sit in the backyard? I have some beer and coke in the fridge.â
âSure. I'll take the coke.â Ron didn't trust himself to not throw all resolve into the wind if he drank something stronger than Butterbeer. Booze combined with Harry's toned legs on full display on this hot summer day? Ron wouldn't take any chances.
Five minutes later, the two of them found themselves sitting on the small porch, overlooking the ocean. The sea was calm today, and the sound of the waves lulled them into a companionable silence.
Ron couldn't tell how much time had passed when Harry finally started to speak. He told Ron about his past two weeksâall the feelings he went through, from fiery anger over crippling guilt to unbelievable longing. He talked about how much he had hated himself and how this feeling shrank to a tiny flame after yesterday's coming out. And when Harry looked at Ron, telling him he was sorry and he was well aware Ron most likely couldn't see a meaning anymore behind his apologies, a single tear escaped Harryâs eye.
Ron wanted nothing more than to brush it away, but he didn't. Instead, he braced himself for what he needed to tell Harry.
âHarry, I-,â Ron sat up a little straighter, making sure to look Harry in the eyes, âI need time. I need time for myself, at least, for a while. I realised that I stopped being my own person in the last months of our relationship, and like you, I have to find my way back to myself.â
âI obviously want you back, Ron,â Harry's shoulders slumped down a little from the disappointment, but at the same time, Ron thought he saw something like resolve shining behind his green eyes, âBut I'll be happy as long as you let me be a part of your life. Maybe- maybe we could just hang out for a while. Just as friends. Go to the pub, watch a Quidditch match, stuff like that.â
Ron gave him a small smile. âThat sounds good.â
They didn't say anything else after that. The sun wasn't ready to set yet, but its late afternoon glow gave the sea a beautiful reflection.
At some point, Harry's hand that lay between them on the wooden bench accidentally bumped against Ron's. Harry jolted and wanted to pull his hand away, but Ron stopped him. He softly grazed over Harry's wrist with his fingertips, eliciting a small sigh from him. Ron watched as his hand interlaced their fingers; Harry's olive scarred skin against his pale, freckled and equally scarred skin. It was a beautiful sight.
They kept sitting this way until it was time for Ron to go, just staring out into the sea and holding hands.
*******
Resisting Harry Potter had never been easy for him, but nowadays, everything his best mate did seemed to drive Ron crazy.
Christmas was a week away, and a month ago, Ron and Harry started dating again.
One day, after attending one of Ginny's Quidditch games, they had gone to a small, cozy Muggle CafĂŠ, trying to warm themselves up from the cold November weather. The Polyjuice Potion they used to disguise themselves from the watching crowd in the Quidditch stands had long worn off, but a rather persistent strand of blonde hair on Harryâs head refused to turn back into its usual raven black state.
Ron had reached over their tiny round table to point it out to Harry but instead almost knocked his glasses off in the process. They burst into laughter, and Ron didn't know if it had been the rush of cheering for his sister today or something else entirely, but for some reason, he had chosen this moment to ask Harry out on a proper date.
And it could have been all in Ron's head, but he failed to remember if he had ever seen Harry smile as he had at that moment.
Without further discussing it, they had kept it slow. Their dates had involved a lot of kissing again, but they always had gone home alone in the end; Harry to his flat and Ron to the tiny apartment he currently shared with Hermione since early September.
Now though, they stood just outside of The Leaky Cauldron, which Hannah and Neville reopened today. After taking over the pub from Tom, they had renovated the large terrace, surprising most of Tom's old guests that it even existed.
For the reopening, they had decorated it with fairy lights and some plants that didn't mind the seasonâs cold weather. High, round tables stood everywhere where the guests could have some drinks and snacks.
Together with Hermione and her new boyfriend Martin, they stood around one of these tables, drinking the most delicious hot chocolate Ron ever had. While Hermione was busy introducing Martin to their friends, Harry was busy running his hand over Ron's arse.
From their place right in front of the wall of the Leaky Cauldron, they were able to observe everything, but no one was able to see how Harryâs hand seemed to have found a new home in one of Ron's back pockets.
After about an hour, Ron finally had enough. Before Harry could sneak his hand there again, Ron grabbed his wrist and pulled him behind one of Neville's monster plants which happened to be the perfect hiding place.
âYou noticed all the bloody journalists out there, right?â Ron asked but clearly didn't expect an answer from Harry as he kissed him as he had wanted to all night. Harry didn't miss a beat and pulled Ron tightly against him, returning the kiss with equal enthusiasm.
Harry moaned into Ron's mouth when Ron sucked at his lower lip, making him want to apparate home with Harry right away.
As Harry set to kiss Ron's neck, it was now the redheadâs turn to bite back a groan. âLet's- let's- Oh Merlin, Harry.â
âLet's what?â Harry whispered as his hands slowly wandered down Ron's body.
âLet's go home,â Ron said in a breathy voice, lips swollen from kissing, âLet's say goodbye to Hannah and Neville and then go home.â
Harry shook his head as he stepped away from Ron, but tugging at his hand as he went into the direction of the party guests.
âBefore we go home, let's show them,â Harry stepped up to Ron again, this time just kissing him softly on the lips, âOnly if you're okay with it, of course.â
âBut you already had your moment of truth. Everyone knows you're gay.â
âThey don't know about us, though,â Harry said, softly stroking Ron's cheek, âAnd besides, my real moment of truth had been when I apologized to you and our friends. The public outing was nothing compared to admitting I had been a shit friend and partner.â
âYou know, I don't care about the press knowing about us, but you don't have to prove anything to me, Harry.â
âI think I do. Let's show everyone the wizard that won over The-Boy-Who-Lived,â Harry said, and without another word, he led them into the crowd again.
Nobody was paying attention to them, despite the great Harry Potter standing in the middle of the expansive terrace, holding hands with his best mate. Mistletoe hung from above them, and Harry grinned at the coincidence.
âDoesn't seem like we have much of an audience,â Ron stated as he observed all the party guests who were too busy chatting and drinking, âBut I think one of the fucking paparazzi has spotted us.â
âDo you think that's enough, Weasley? Simply holding hands in front of a paparazzi?â
Ron was well aware Harry was daring him, but Ron had been sorted into Gryffindor for a reason, after all. Never breaking eye contact with Harry, Ron put his thumb and middle finger inside his mouth and whistled so loudly, everyone startled out of their conversation and turning their heads towards them.
And without missing a beat, Harry put his arms around Ron's neck and kissed him. Ron heard surprised gasps and camera flashes and cheering, but all he could focus on were Harry's lips and his heart beating so fast he was sure everyone could hear it.
As they broke the kiss, Ron put his forehead against Harry's and grinned like the bloody, lovesick fool he knew he looked like right now.
âTake us home, Potter,â Ron whispered, feeling freer than ever before in his life.
They never made it back to the party.
#ron's chessboard fest#ron weasley#harry potter#rarry#ronarry#harron#rarry fanfic#rarry fanfiction#hp#hp fanfic#ron x harry#harry x ron#harry and ron#ron and harry#my story#my fanfic#my fanfiction
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Not Sugar-Coated, ToBecky Critique from a ToBecky Shipper
Letâs talk about Tobecky and itâs toxicity! And for once, letâs not hold back! I think what Iâm gonna do for this post is focus on the dynamic they have in the show, mostly criticizing my own misogyny but calling out the fandom in general as well, as Iâve seen otherâs do these same things. Later I will reblog it on the Word Up blog and continue my thoughts on the ship and how it affected Word Up.
The first thing I will say is that I am a Tobecky shipper, ever since Tobeyâs first shorts when it was revealed he had a crush on WordGirl. I started watching this show as a kid, I would have been 9 or 10 when it started airing on PBS. If I were to get into this show today, however, I donât think I would be shipping tobecky, because as an adult I can recognize its toxicity which I didnât have the proper knowledge or understanding to do back in the day. And I think the real reason I still ship today is purely nostalgic. Though I wonât deny that their dynamic is interesting and that likely affects my shipping brain too.
As a kid, I think I shipped it because, well it seemed inevitable. It seemed like the only endgame option. How many romcoms start with a girl liking one boy, only to realize later she should be with a different guy, usually an underdog the audience is supposed to root for. How many romance stories start with the two not liking each other, ranging anywhere from minor annoyances for each other to full-blown enemies, only to later understand it was all a guise to hide their true feelings. It seemed obvious that Becky/WordGirl would end up with not Scoops, whom she had a crush on, but instead Tobey, the underdog she always was fighting or arguing with. Factor in Tobeyâs crush, my very underdeveloped ability to think critically, and the fact that the writers in early seasons seemed to really take the time to focus on the potential chemistry between these two (their interactions in âDepartment Store Tobeyâ and both of them having a good time together in âHave You Seen the Remote?â etc) and it seemed there was only one boy for Becky to logically end up with.
The first time I can recall really questioning this ship, I mean really questioning it, was sometime in probably my sophomore or freshman year? Maybe my junior year? I recall my health teacher teaching us about healthy vs unhealthy relationships. In this unit, I realized several of my favorite ships across various fandoms were unhealthy but thatâs a whole other topic. At one point I remember him giving his two cents about the phrase âopposites attractâ when being applied to romance. He said this can be true, but only if the two are âoppositesâ in personality, and not âoppositesâ in values. If a coupleâs values, their morals, donât align, they probably arenât going to make it. And in all honesty, I think Tobey and Becky have the worst possible combination for this.
They have very similar personalities, and while this isnât necessarily a bad thing, it can make it easier for them to encourage their negative traits instead of helping them overcome them. The traits they both share like pridefulness, attention-seeking, and being a bit obsessive, have the potential to be the traits they bring out in each other. The best counter-argument for this is the fact that Becky is willing to and would call Tobey out for everything wrong or ridiculous he does, and try to help him. But that doesnât matter if Tobey is not willing to listen to her when she calls him out, or accept her help when she offers it and he needs it. And itâs especially worthless if heâs not willing to help her back.
Meanwhile, the biggest weakness for this ship is their opposite values. Their morals couldnât be more apart from each other. Get these two together for long periods of time and a morality war would easily ensue. And then combined with if their similar personalities do end up bringing the worst in each other, then any relationship they could have would be disastrous.
The worst issues with their pairing all go back to Tobey. I love Tobey as a character, donât get me wrong, but we need to be honest, and please excuse the language--Tobey is a piece of shit! He is disrespectful to everyone around him, except his mother, and thatâs only because heâs scared of her He thinks heâs better than everyone else and has no issues expressing that opinion, even going as far as to try to define words for WordGirl. He goes as far as to belittle her in âTobey or Consequencesâ criticizing her word choice. He has been shown on multiple occasions to lose his mind when he doesnât get exactly what he wants and will do anything to get it, without regard for othersâ property, feelings or safety. Heâs manipulative as seen in âTobey Goes Goodâ and âHave You Seen the Remote.â Heâs unwilling to take responsibility for his actions, as demonstrated when he attacks the candy factory for making candy because he got a cavity, instead of realizing that he should have taken better care of his teeth.
And worst of all, despite what he and the audience often believe, he clearly doesnât give a single shit about WordGirl. If he cared about her he would have acknowledged her disinterest, if he cared about her, he wouldnât have tried to force Becky into admitting sheâs WordGirl in âBy Jove, Youâve Wrecked My Robot.â If he cared about her, he wouldnât have pretended to be good or trick her into spending time with him or forced her to read poems about him. In the Halloween special he thought Violet was WordGirl just because she was wearing a WordGirl costume, failing to acknowledge that Violet is blonde and white and WordGirl is clearly not.
The episode âWordBotâ makes it very clear what kind of relationship Tobey wants from WordGirl--and itâs not a relationship. Itâs a dynamic where she simply showers him with never-ending adoration and does whatever he wants. Tobey cares about one person and one person only and itâs not WordGirl, itâs himself.
And Iâm not even counting âGo Gadget Goâ in any of this! That episode put him in such a bad light that most fans pretend it doesnât exist because his behavior is so inexcusable. And yet even without that episode, we have plenty of toxicity coming from Tobeyâs end.
I once saw someone say they hate the tobecky ship because the argument for it often is that Becky will be willing to put up with Tobey when theyâre older. First of all, if thatâs your argument in tobeckyâs favor you need to go take a good hard look at yourself. Becky putting up with Tobeyâs messed up behavior is essentially hoping she ends up in a horrible, toxic, unhealthy, relationship that would be borderline abusive if she didnât stand against him. Secondly, while I donât deny the existence of this argument, (I once read a fanfic where the two were married but still a hero and villain who battled regularly) I disagree with the idea that this argument is most often used to justify the ship. Instead, the most common argument to justify it is the idea that Tobey has it in him to change. This is certainly a better argument, as Tobey changing is really the only hope for this ship.
But I think itâs really easy for us, myself included, to struggle with the line between finding evidence that Tobey could change vs excusing his actions; the line between finding an explanation for his behavior vs finding an excuse for him. Itâs a very easy line to accidentally cross without realizing it. And it really says something when, as discussed in another post, we are not giving other villains like Victoria--who have more of an âexcuseâ --the same treatment. Itâs incredibly misogynistic.
Iâm not going to try to argue that Tobey doesnât have the capability to be good, of course, he does. We can see this in the cute note he leaves in Beckyâs backpack in âTrustworthy Tobeyâ and in the very last moments in the Thanksgiving special, and of course in our favorite example, âItâs Your Party and Iâll Cry if I Want to.â Iâm also not saying that Tobeyâs actions and psychology arenât the product of the environment and circumstances he faces daily. Of course having no father figure present, a single mother who is always working, and no friends is going to affect a child. What I want to question is when is Tobey responsible for his own life, choices, and actions? Maybe not now at age 10-11, but what about when heâs 13? 16? 18? 21? 40? Where do we draw that line? I also donât want to discourage looking for the good in people and characters and thinking critically about how their past and psychology is affecting their actions. I want to encourage that in all characters, not just the boy who happens to have a crush.
And while itâs nice to speculate that Tobey will follow a better path in the future, not so much for tobecky as much as for the betterment of Tobey himself, we need to realize that itâs just speculation. We have no canon proof of where his story goes post-WordGirl. He has his moments of hope but overall this kid has a terrible track record. When it comes to others, Tobey makes terrible choices. And thatâs exactly what âgoing goodâ will be--a choice--his choice.
I also want to take a moment to talk about something @fromtheplanethexagon said in this amazing post you should totally read because itâs great. They commented on how very few people when writing tobecky fanfics takes the time to explore her perspective of their feelings for each other. Where her feelings originate and why she would like him. This is something I am absolutely guilty of and will be paying attention to in the future. After reading that passage from their post I thought for a while why Becky would like Tobey, and I honestly struggled with it a bit, which shouldnât be happening if Iâm trying to write a healthy tobecky story. Thatâs all Iâll say on this for now because beyond this I would use Word Up as an example, so Iâll save that for later.
The older I get the more I realized how toxic this ship is. Heck, who knows what Iâll realize about it in the future when Iâm even more mature. In the past Iâve tried to convince myself itâs okay I ship it because I never shipped Tobey with WordGirl, I shipped him with Becky. I know they are the same person, but Tobey doesnât know that, and the dynamics between him and each of her egos are very different. The dynamic between Tobey and WordGirl reminds me of Gideon and Mabel from Gravity Falls. Meanwhile the one between Tobey and Becky reminds me more of the one between Jimmy and Cindy from The Adventures of Jimmy Neutron. Thatâs better right? Even if just a little bit? Well no, not really, because we all know darn well if Tobey fell for Becky instead of WordGirl he would treat Becky exactly the same as he treats WordGirl. He would ultimately have the same âWordBot escâ expectations. If anything he might try to treat her worse. With WordGirl there is a clear power balance, and while itâs still technically there with Becky, Tobey doesnât know itâs still there and might try to use that to his advantage.
And to conclude Iâd like to add to @fromtheplanethexagon above-mentioned post (hereâs the link again, seriously, read it!). Regarding their final thoughts that itâs fine to explore the ship, and itâs fine to explore the unhealthy parts of the ship. But we need to be careful to not glorify the toxicity of the potential pairing.
#wordgirl#becky botsford#tobey mccallister#tobecky#misogyny#toxic ships#shipping#pbs kids#okay that link to the victoria ask post...i'd only look at it on mobile#i linked it to my blog and i guess my blog layout doesn't like that post the order is completely mixed up???#guess i have to find a new desktop blog theme because that can't be happening#it's very confusing
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Nothing Says Soulmates More Than Sharing a Soul: Chapter 13
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Once out of Dannyâs body, Phantom found himself hyperventilating and his vision fading to black around the edges. This was it; the moment of truth. He was about to find out what Danny thought of him now that heâd seen his true colours.
âW-What just happened?â The sound of Tuckers voice got Phantom to turn and face him, which the ghost immediately regretted. Standing in front of Phantom with clenched fists and a heaving chest was Danny. There was so much pain and anger in his eyes, Phantom couldnât help but immediately burst into tears.
âDanny, I ââ
âGet out! I donât want to see you!â Danny cut in with a furious growl. Phantomâs eyes widened with fear. He tried to say something, anything, but all he could let out was a pathetic whimper before turning and flying away as fast as he could.
As he frantically flew over the town, he felt pure dread fill his entire being. His absolute worst fear had been founded. Danny hated him the second he knew the truth, and now heâs lost the most important person in his life. Not only that, but heâs lost everyone else thatâs important to him too. After all, it wouldnât make sense for anyone to pick him over Danny. Theyâd only ever been there for him because they were under the impression that he was the friend they knew and loved, not some stranger who didnât even have a clue who he really was.
Not being able to think clearly, Phantom flew straight back to Dannyâs room and collapsed onto Dannyâs bed, curling in on himself as he sobbed into the pillow that so painfully smelled of Danny. He knew he shouldnât be there, but he had no idea where he was meant to go and it was the only place he felt safe. He figured as long as he left before Danny got back, there wouldnât be any trouble.
âDanny? Are you back?â
At the sound of Jazzâs voice, Phantom choked on a sob. He somehow needed her and couldnât handle the idea of talking to her. Immediately, Jazz burst into the room and rushed to him, apparently hearing him through the wall. She sat next to him and began giving frantic, yet still soothing strokes up and down his back.
âDanny! Are you hurt? What happened?â She asked in a panicked tone. At the sound of the name she called him by, he let out a small moan of distress and curled further into himself.
We havenât told her yetâŚShe still thinks Iâm him.
âI- Iâm notâŚâ He tried to say through his sobbing, but the pain and fear attached to what he was trying to say made it all that much harder to let out.
âItâs okay. You can tell me anything, little brother.â She encouraged in a gentle voice full of protective feelings and love that he didnât deserve. Finally, he found the strength to push himself up and back away from her touch.
âThatâs just it! Iâm not your little brother!â He exclaimed, bringing his arms close to his body and digging his nails into his biceps. It was all he could do to stop the frost that was building around him from spreading any further and hurting Jazz. He wanted to look up to see her reaction, but he couldnât bring himself to.
âDonât say that ââ
âBut itâs true! I was never actually Danny! Iâm just some pathetic ghost that latched itself onto him, leeching off his memories and his friendships! Now you know the truth, youâll want me gone too!â He cried out, lifting his hands to his face to clench his hairline.
âPhantomâŚâ She said softly, before her hands wrapped around his to pull them away from his face.
âPlease look at me. I⌠I already knew that you werenât Danny.â That made him look at her.
âWhat? But then why did you call me that earlier?â He questioned with eyes wide with shock.
âIt was a reflex, sorry. Having thought of you as Danny for four years, it will be hard to get used to the truth, even though Iâve had a couple of days to wrap my head around it. The point is that I know youâre not Danny, but I also know that nothing else you said was true.â She explained with a serious, yet empathetic expression. He opened his mouth to protest but was cut off when she raised her hand to gesture that she wasnât done.
âYou talk about yourself like some sort of malicious parasite, but that isnât true at all. Youâre a hero and the last thing Iâd call you was pathetic!â She reassured. Phantom shook his head and looked away.
âYou canât know that. I have no idea what type of person I was before Danny, so whoâs to say that fusing with him wasnât intentional?â Phantom argued. The room was silent, and Phantom was afraid that what heâd said had convinced her.
âWhen that alternate future version of you fused with Vladâs ghost, did he immediately go evil?â She asked.
Fuck, she thinks Iâm going to go evil!
âI- I think so. Iâm not sure.â He answered, shaking from how fast his core was pulsing with panic. He risked a look at her, only to become shocked to find her smiling.
âGreat. So it stands to reason that when somebody fuses with an evil ghost, they are influenced to take on those evil traits. When Danny fused with you, he didnât become evil, he became a hero. What do you think that says about who you were?â She explained with a confident tone that she reserved for when she was pretty sure she just won an argument. To Phantomâs confusion, it may have been warranted. He couldnât find a way to argue with what she said. The calm only lasted a moment before he remembered the last time he spoke to Danny.
âWell, just because I didnât go in a shit person, doesnât mean Iâm not a shit person now. You donât know what Iâve done since separating from Danny.â He redirected. Her brow quirked in confusion.
âIt canât be that bad.â
âThe second Danny found out, he never wanted to see me again.â Jazz blanched at his statement, visibly taken aback by it.
âWhat? That canât be right. He wouldnât ââ
âBut he did! He was everything to me and now that he hates me Iâve got nothing!â Phantom cried out, frost flashing out of him and spreading around the room, causing Jazz to flinch and jump up from the bed in shock.
âIâm sorry, I didnât mean to do that!â He apologised quickly, nearly reaching for her before thinking better of it. Jazz looked around the room at the ice damage, breath slowing down.
âItâs okay Phantom, you just surprised me. Iâm not hurt. Has this been happening a lot?â She eventually said. Phantom groaned as he dragged his hands down his face.
âYes. I canât control my powers properly, especially my ice core. Danny has been helping me, but⌠without him I donât think Iâll be safe around people anymore.â He admitted. The only place safe for him would probably be the Far Frozen. Frostbyte would surely take him in, even if heâs only half of âThe Great Oneâ. Jazz sighed, before sitting on the bed again.
âPhantom, Iâm one hundred percent certain that if you just talk it out with Danny, youâll find that he doesnât hate you. That being said⌠spending some time away from him might be a good thing.â Phantomâs eyes snapped back to her, scared by what sheâd said.
Is she telling me to leave?
Something about his expression must have told Jazz to realise what he was thinking, as her eyes widened and she suddenly raised her hands into a gesture that read âI mean no harmâ.
âIâm not telling you to leave! Iâm just saying that if you do leave, it may be good for you. Itâs clear that youâre extremely dependant on Danny, so spending time away from him could help you develop as an individual and self-regulate.â She clarified. Phantom felt his shoulders drop, not realising that he had hunched them in the first place as he thought about what she said. Those sounded like things he wanted, but the idea of being separated from Danny for a long time gave him an uncomfortable tightness in his chest.
âIn any case, you should wait until you talk to Danny before deciding anything. If youâre wrong about how he feels it will feel awful to leave with such a painful misunderstanding lingering between you. If youâre right, youâll regret leaving without a proper chance to apologise and reconcile.â Jazz added on, bringing his attention back to her. The smile she gave him was warm and understanding, which he found deeply relieving.
âThanks Jazz. For the advice⌠and for still caring about me even though Iâm not your brother.â Phantom thanked sincerely, hoping his tone conveyed how deeply he meant those words. For a moment, Jazzâs eyes watered, before she suddenly lunged at him and pulled him into a hug.
âListen closely Phantom, because if you donât, Iâm going to have to repeat it until it gets into that ectoplasmic skull of yours. Just because you arenât Danny does not mean you arenât my brother! You have been a part of my family for the past four years and that doesnât end just because we arenât blood related, you hear?!â She declared, voice shaking with emotion. Phantom couldnât help but cry as he wrapped his arms around her back and clung desperately to his big sister.
~
âDude, are you okay?â Tuckerâs words cut through the tense silence. Danny turned to him and took in the concerned expressions of his two best friends. He groaned as he turned back away, too emotional to make eye contact with either of them.
âNot really.â He admitted lowly. So many emotions were bubbling inside him at that moment. Anger, betrayal, embarrassment, but mostly confusion. He wasnât even sure confusion was an emotion, but he sure was feeling it.
âDid you want to talk about it?â Sam asked cautiously.
âYeah, what the hell happened back there?â Tucker chimed in, voice raising in confusion. Normally, he would have loved to fill his friends in on what happened, but to do that he would have had to have processed what happened, and he did not want to do that any time soon.
âI donât want to talk about it.â Danny growled bluntly, hoping his anger would mask his fear.
âBut ââ
âDrop it, Tucker. Heâll talk about it when heâs ready.â Sam cut in. She offered Danny a supportive smile, which he tried to reflect back weakly.
âFine, topic dropped. What do we want to do now, if weâre avoiding dealing with our problems?â Tucker relented. Danny was almost stunned for a moment. If he had told his fourteen-year-old self that Sam would be the one enabling him not to process his feelings and Tucker would be the vaguely more responsible one, he would have gotten a laugh and a âgood one, Amorphoâ from him, before immediately getting attacked. The thought made him chuckle lowly, before thinking of how to answer his friendâs question.
With everything he was feeling, he wanted nothing more but to distract himself from what had just transpired between him and Phantom. He was even willing to do something he had been avoiding doing ever since he became a hero.
âIs it too soon to go to Mikeyâs party? I really just need to get drunk right now.â Danny asked, finally turning to face his friends. Tucker snorted out a short laugh.
âIt wonât start for another couple of hours, and it wonât be cool to show up for another few.â He answered matter-o-factly. Danny groaned. He should have realised. Years of not being able to go to parties really made him a complete novice at them. Seeing his disappointment, Sam stepped closer to Danny with an encouraging smile.
âIf you wanted something to do while we wait for the party, we could have drinks at my house and play video games.â She suggested.
âPre-drinking before a house party? Wow, we are finally acting like real teenagers!â Tucker cheered enthusiastically. Danny put on a grin, hoping it conveyed his gratefulness to both his friends, while concealing the feelings he desperately wanted to ignore.
After sneaking into Samâs parentsâ liquor cabinet and several rounds of Ultimate Mecha Strike III that got progressively worse the more the trio drank, Tucker finally announced that it was fashionably late enough to show up at the party.
Sneaking more booze into their bags, the three of them took off on foot towards Mikeyâs house, which was luckily only a short distance from Samâs estate. Being in the same part of the neighbourhood, Danny really shouldnât have been surprised by how nice Mikeyâs house was. Not as intense as Samâs âold moneyâ mansion, but still quite fancy.
âWow, drunk Danny sure is interested in architecture.â Tucker commented teasingly.
âOh shit, was I talking out loud?â Danny asked, immediately being answered by two grinning nods.
Before they could knock on the front door, it swung open to reveal a red-faced Mikey with a wide, excited smile.
âDanny! You came!â He exclaimed far louder than necessary. Tucker cleared his throat.
âWeâre here too, yâknow.â He grumbled, making Danny and Sam giggle. Mikey took a big step back and gestured for them to enter.
âCome on in! If you brought drinks, youâre best to put them in the fridge now if they need it. Weâre running out of room fast!â He advised, before wandering off at the sound of someone shouting his name from the other room.
Standing in the doorway, Danny felt his heart racing. Here he was, at a real-life high school party that he was invited to. He was drunk and without a care in the world, with no responsibilities or ghosts to worry about â
Suddenly, the thought of ghost brought a vision of beautiful green eyes to his mind. He shook the thought out of his head, before pacing further into the house to find something to distract him.
âHey! Itâs Fenton!â Turning to face the sound of the voice, he saw Kwan and a group of footballers gathering around a ping pong table. The rosy tint in Kwanâs cheeks and the delighted smile brought a warm feeling in Dannyâs stomach. Before the jock could even gesture for him to come over, Danny found himself gravitating in his direction.
âYou up for some beer pong? You can be on my team!â Kwan offered. Danny chuckled.
âSure, but Iâm warning you that I am already pretty drunk, so my aim is probably shit.â He warned, winning a light laugh from the group of jocks.
âAll good, bro! That just means an even playing field!â A footballer he couldnât remember the name of called out, words slurring together slightly.
Danny turned to ask Sam and Tucker if they wanted to play, to find that they had only just caught up to him.
âDo you guys want to play?â He asked. Sam rolled her eyes.
âUgh, no thank you. I hate beer, and they probably donât have a vegan friendly one, either.â She replied. Danny did a double take.
âWait, beer can be not vegan? How?â He asked, very confused. Before she could answer, Danny felt himself being pushed toward the ping pong table by Tucker.
âCome on dude. You know she wonât stop once she gets started.â With a shrug, Danny returned his focus to the group of footballers.
âAlright, letâs do this! Now⌠how do you play?â
Danny wasnât sure how, but he managed to be insanely good at beer pong, quickly annihilating Tucker and the other team and winning an uproar in cheers from his own team.
Learning how to aim while losing blood must have been good training for this very moment.
Busy chuckling at his own thoughts, Danny was caught off guard when he was suddenly swept into a bear hug by Kwan.
âThat was legendary, bro! Seriously, is there nothing I can say to convince you to join the football team?â The boy gushed, ruffling a hand through Dannyâs hair and messing it up even further.
âYeah, especially considering sign ups are well and truly over and this is our final year?â Danny replied, not sure whether to return the hug or not. The contact certainly felt nice, but there was something this was just⌠off about it. Maybe it was the fact that Kwan seemed to be running hot too, so there was no cooling relief like when he was holding Phanto â
No. He wasnât letting himself think about him. It hurt too much.
âOh, right. My bad.â Kwan laughed, pulling away from Danny. He had to admit that the jock was quite handsome, and the glistening of his sweat was weirdly mesmerising.
âWow, dude. You sure are hot.â
âWHAT?â Danny exclaimed, not sure if his line of thinking had made him hallucinate hearing that or if it had actually happened. Kwan laughed again.
âI meant your temperature, bro. Are you coming down with something?â At that question, Tucker jumped into the conversation, wrapping an arm around his best friend.
âNah, heâs fine. Heâs just running warm because of his growth spurt, thatâs all.â Tucker explained, with a dismissive wave of his hand.
âThat checks out. You did seem to fit four years of growing into like, three days. Why donât you have one of my rum and cokes to cool down? Theyâre in the fridge door!â Kwan offered, before waving and wondering back to the footballers.
âDanny, are you alright? You really are burning upâŚâ Tucker commented, voice laced with concerned. Danny sighed before slinking out from under Tuckerâs arm and stomping towards the kitchen.
âLook, I donât want to talk about how Iâm feeling, I just want to drink until I canât feel my fingers, okay?â If he couldnât feel his fingers, maybe he wouldnât remember how Phantom felt underneath them. Maybe he wouldnât want to run them through his ghostly hair and relish in how soft it was.
âWhoa, take it easy, okay buddy? I donât want you getting hurt.â Tucker advised; voice laced with concern. While Danny appreciated that Tucker cared, he was in no mood to be lectured, so he ignored the warning and continued his path towards the fridge and grabbed one of Kwanâs cans. When he was halfway through downing it, revelling in the cooling sensation, he heard a sigh come from his friend.
âIâm going to go find Sam. I think I need her help with this.â He admitted reluctantly. Danny huffed with indignation.
âFine, go get her. Neither of you will be able to stop me from having fun tonight.â He scoffed. Hearing a surprising chuckle from a new voice, Danny pivoted suddenly toward the source of the sound to see Spike leaning in the doorway.
âDamn, Danny. I am loving your new look on you. Have you ever thought about eye liner? I think it would look awesome on you.â Spike commented, eyes tracing up and down Danny. For a moment, the blue-eyed boy shivered under the gaze, before offering a non-committal shrug.
âCome with me, Iâm going to put some on you now.â With that, the punk boy had grabbed Dannyâs free arm and tugged him towards what looked like an entertainment room, before pushing Danny onto a fairly large couch and stepping out of view. Quickly he returned with a bag and was pulling out an eyeliner pencil. Any concerns about getting pink eye from sharing the pencil immediately evaporated the second Spike perched himself on Dannyâs lap. The pressure gave him an instant flashback to the times Phantom was in his lap.
âSorry, this is just the easiest way to do this.â Spike apologised, a blush rising in his cheeks.
âI bet you say that to all the boys.â Â Danny was pleased with the laugh that quip won from the punk boy. Quickly, Spike stilled again and continued drawing along Dannyâs lash line.
âWith lines like that, itâs no wonder Punny Phantom chose you.â Danny couldnât help but stiffen at the mention of Phantom. Spike leaned back to look at his work, only to frown as he noticed something.
âUh oh, did something happen between the two of you?â At the punkâs concerned question, Danny groaned and realised that he must have been grimacing.
âSort of? I donât want to talk about it.â He mumbled, looking down and away from the boy in his lap. Suddenly, a hand pressed lightly into his cheek and turned his face back up to Spike.
âHeyâŚif you ever want to talk, or not talk⌠Iâm here.â The punk boy offered, eyes lilting on the words ânot talkâ.
As Spike leaned closer in towards Dannyâs face, it occurred to Danny that the guy might be into him. He was going slow, seeming to give Danny an opportunity to stop him. Feeling his heart rate increase, he wasnât sure if he wanted him to stop or not. The guy was pretty cute and he seemed like a decent enough person having calmed down a lot from their freshman year, but there was something missing.
Before Danny had to make a decision, the door to the room slammed open, causing both boys to jolt in shock. Peering around Spike, Danny saw a very drunk Sam standing in the threshold, hand still on the door with an angry expression on her face.
âI have to go.â Spike said abruptly, scrambling off of Dannyâs lap and pushing past Sam, revealing that she had Tucker and Starr behind her.
âWhat were you doing in here?â Sam asked with a scowl. Danny gulped nervously, not sure what he did wrong.
âSpike was putting eye liner on me. Do you like it?â He replied, hoping his nervous smile would be enough to smooth out her agitated mood. Sam narrowed her eyes, as she scrutinised his appearance, before a strong blush spread across her cheeks.
âY-Yes.â She mumbled. For a few moments an awkward silence hung in the air, as Danny waited for anyone to say anything. Eventually, Starr groaned before pushing Sam toward Danny.
âFor crying out loud, I thought you were going to confess, not stare awkwardly at him.â The blonde complained. Sam hissed lowly, her blush getting ten times worse as she staggered toward him. Danny was thrown off by what Starr had said.
âConfess? Do you mean like, to murder, orâŚ?â He asked cautiously, trailing off when Sam stopped right in front of him. Either way, he was nervous for whatever she was going to say. She opened and shut her mouth a few times, before scrunching her face up and turning back towards Starr and Tucker.
âI canât do this! Itâs too hard!â She complained, earning an eye roll from them both. Seeing how distressed she was, Danny reached forward and took Samâs hand gently, the touch getting her to whip back around to face him.
âYou donât have to be nervous, Sam. Youâre one of my best friends; you can tell me anything and Iâll still want to be your friend.â He tried to reassure. Unfortunately it seemed to fail, as she let out a frustrated groan.
âThatâs the problem! Iâve always just been a friend, but I donât want to be!â She exclaimed almost angrily. Danny couldnât helped but flinch, releasing her hand as he leaned away from her.
âY-You donât want to be friends with me anymore?â He asked, feeling tears begin to well in his eyes. The groan from every person in the room was Dannyâs only warning, before Sam suddenly dropped herself onto his lap and pull herself in to his body until their lips met in an intense connection. It was at this point it clicked for Danny that Sam had romantic feelings for him.
As she gripped tightly into his shoulders with one hand and raked through his hair with the other, he took the moment to contemplate how the situation made him feel. He knew he should feel amazing; Sam was beautiful and someone he was very close with, not to mention the crush heâd had on her for the past four years. Theoretically, this was everything he should want and he should be satisfied.
The only problem? He couldnât feel any of that. He tried kissing her back. He tried smoothing his hands over her waist. He even tried grinding into her. Nothing. Frustrated, he pulled away from her and groaned as he slapped himself in the face and leaned back into the couch.
âUgh! What is wrong with me? Why canât I just do this?â He mumbled, tears welling in his eyes. Why couldnât his body react like it had with Phantom? Or even how heâd felt a minute ago with Spike in this same position. A scoff brought his attention back to the girl in front of him.
âI canât be that bad at kissing.â Sam grumbled, crossing her arms defensively.
âSam, I donât think you did anything wrong. Heâs just gay.â Starr interjected before Danny could open his mouth.
âWhat? No, Iâm bi. Iâve had feelings for girls before, I swear! I even had a crush on Sam for like, four years! I donât know why Iâm ruining this!â Danny cried out. The irritated look in Samâs eyes melted into one of sympathy as she slid off of Dannyâs lap to sit next to him.
âItâs okay Danny. Sexual orientation can change, and crushes fade. Iâm just sad I missed my chance.â She reassured, taking his hand comfortingly.
âBut how did it change so fast? I swear a week ago Tucker caught me with a boner when you were picking up litter in a mini skirt.â Danny argued, before breaking eye contact with Sam to look at Tucker, pleading with his face for his friend to back him up. Seeing the thoughtful expression on his face made Dannyâs stomach sink.
âDanny⌠I think those might have been Phantomâs feelings.â At the sound of Tucker mentioning the name, it all made sense. Heâd always assumed he only started getting interested in girls after the accident because heâd only just reached that part of puberty, but what if it was because Phantom was the one who was attracted to girls? It would certainly explain why he hadnât felt anything for any girls since they split. A weight lifted off of Danny, from both understanding himself better, and for the knowledge that Phantom was just as much in control when they were fused as he was. He let out a relieved laugh.
âSo I wasnât controlling him this whole time! He still had free will!â He exclaimed happily. He couldnât wait to tell the ghost the good news.
âUh⌠now that we can mention him without you losing it, can you please explain what the fuck happened back at the library?â Tucker enquired, making his way deeper into the room and sitting on a recliner. Danny found himself off guard, suddenly remembering that he was mad at Phantom.
âUgh, donât even get me started! He full on let me believe I was this perverted asshole that didnât deserve a chance with him, but no! Turns out he was only acting weird because he did have feelings for me and was too much of a coward to tell me the truth! If he had just told me he was awake when I kissed him in my sleep then I wouldnât have spent this entire time agonising over what a bad person I was!â Danny complained. As he spoke, it became very clear to him that the entire time heâd spent with Phantom as separate people, heâd been repressing his own feelings for the ghost to the point of almost being unaware of them. Seeing gears turn in Samâs mind, he waited for her to speak.
âSo, the problem was that he didnât make it clear how he felt, which made you feel like he couldnât love you?â Sam questioned, to which Danny nodded emphatically in response.
âRight⌠and how is that any different to what you are doing now?â She continued, stopping Danny dead in his tracks.
âW-Wait, what?â
âCome on dude, you had a look inside his mind and the first thing you did was tell him to fuck off, essentially. As if that didnât tell him you arenât interested. Hell, I wouldnât be surprised if he thought you never wanted to see him again at all!â Tucker explained, rolling his eyes. Danny felt his own eyes widen with realisation and despair.
âShit! I only meant I need space to cool down while I was mad at him! He probably thinks that I hate him! What if he runs away to the Ghost Zone? I have to go home and tell him the truth!â Danny exclaimed in a panic, before jolting to his feet and dashed out of the room.
âWhat the fuck was that all about?â was the last thing he heard from the room before he darted his way through the house and back onto the street.
Thanks to his increased speed and endurance, the sprint home was in record time, and luckily he had managed to sober up in that time. He wanted to talk to Phantom with as clear a mind as he could, so that he could tell Phantom how he felt without there being any more confusion between them. As silently as he could, he opened the front door. Luckily, he could hear his parents tinkering away frantically in the lab, so he didnât have to worry about them slowing him down. Unable to slow his heart rate down as he climbed up the stairs, he focused on slowing his breathing and on what he was going to say.
âDonât worry Phantom! I donât think youâre a pervert! Iâd probably watch you shower, if given the opportunity.â No, no, no⌠that doesnât sound right. Just keep it simple and say you donât hate him!
Figuring that was a good place to start, he took one last deep breath before opening the door to his bedroom.
To find it empty.
Disappointed, Danny walked into the room and looked around. The only sign that anyone had been in here since theyâd left earlier today was that the computer was now on. He paced over to the screen to see a folder open with a single video file in it labelled âGoodbye Dannyâ. Nervously, he tapped on the file and the video began playing. On screen, Phantom was stepping away from the screen and steadying his breath before looking straight into the camera. It broke Danny's heart to be able to tell that he'd been crying.
âHey Danny. By the time youâll be watching this, Iâll have already gone into the Ghost Zone. I know Jazz said I should wait to talk to you before I go, but I think seeing you would hurt too much. When you told me to leave, I didnât know who I would be without you. I⌠I need to be someone on my own, but I canât do that if I stay with you. When I feel like Iâm ready, Iâll come back to see you. But Iâm not sure how long that will take, or if Iâll still feel the same way about you. I just want you to know that Iâm sorry for what I did, and Iâm sorry I let you down. I hope you find someone who deserves you. Goodbye Danny.â
With that, the video ended on Phantom leaning forward to stop recording, and Danny found himself as frozen as the frame on screen.
He was too late; Phantom had left him.
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codename: agent k
âŻÂ pairing: spy!kuroo x reader
âŻÂ genre: flangst
âŻÂ tw: guns, mentions of assassination and organized crime.
âŻÂ summary: youâre a spy trying to capture a mysterious person by the identity of âagent k.â who wouldâve thought youâd be catching feelings instead?
âŻÂ inspired by: çšĺJ (Agent J) - jolin tsai, goodnight n go - ariana grande, my oh my - camilla cabelloÂ
âŻÂ nnyeyeahahldalsalsa i feel like a british royal after writing this omggg. and hey, crossover pt. 2! worked really hard on this, so i hope you like it!
Venice, 22:16 CET (GMT+2)
The stench of the rich was never as pungent as this moment right now. Wine glasses caught the twinkling shine of the diamond chandelier above as the people below mingled with one another. Ornate masks decorated with all manner of feathers and rhinestones obscured the identities of the rich elite atendees.
You had to give it to the organizer, the party was sort of fun. You would have definitely joined in, if you hadnât had a job to do. By the grace of the governmentâs connections, you had managed to score an invitation. Not without intention of course. You werenât here to get drunk and bathe in jewels, no.
The Fukurodani Syndicate was a group of organized crime groups that converged into one, taking the name of the original syndicate. They consisted of Nekoma, Fukurodani, and Karasuno. With new leads coming in over the course of several months, the government had reason to believe that one of the leaders of the Syndicate would be here. His name was Agent K, and he would be your target tonight.
âAh! Marie!â a voice called out from behind you. You did a double take. But you remembered that you were not (Y/N), you were a woman named Marie Sourice.
The invitation you had obtained was addressed to a French businesswoman named Marie Sourice. The real Marie would have no clue that she was invited to the event, much less that someone had gone in her stead.
So you turned around and smiled graciously. The organizer of the event was a stout old man that had a taste for the Venetian arts of mask making. Thus the masquerade theme. Despite all the obscured identities, the man was easily recognizable through his booming voice and his name tag that read âGiovanni.â
âGiovanni!â you called out, doing your best to match a French accent. Giovanni gave you two kisses on the cheek.Â
ââOw âave you been, my old friend?â you asked. Giovanni replied with a bubble of laughter and something that couldnât register in your ear because you were transfixed with the tall figure next to him.
âMeet the son of a good friend of mine.â The figure came to a halt right next to Giovanni. âHis name isââ
âMr. Bakugou Katsuki.â The figureâs voice was deep with a ringing timbre that would suit an opera singer. You eyed his wild black hair. Was this Agent K? Agent K was never really one to disguise himself in any of his little encounters. But the mask and the lavish clothes made it hard to tell. Something warm landed on your hand. This man was kissing your hand.Â
âMademoiselle,â he said. Mysterious ebullience danced in his eyes. Perhaps there was more emotion in his face, but his bejeweled mask hid it all. Secrets danced in between the garnets like they did in a sinning manâs heart.
âHe works in the IT industry,â Giovanni said. âWho knows, maybe you two could strike up a deal, grow your companies,â he cupped his hands around his lips, âlight a new flame.â Giovanniâs show whispering was awkward at best. You flashed both of them a reluctant smile.Â
Giovanni took a look at his sparkling golden watch that did not go with that mask of his. âLook at the time! My other guests shall be arriving soon.â He turned over to Bakugou.Â
âShall I leave you two alone? The music will start at twelve oâclock. I assure you, no Cinderellas will be here.âÂ
âOf course, sir,â Bakugou said.Â
This man is Agent K, a voice speaks in the back of your mind. But the others tamper it down as reason takes over. Agent K was a fast worker, and any objective of his should be in the process of being fulfilled, or is already fulfilled by now. Was this man just having fun with you? Or was he part of a larger plan?Â
But time only confirmed your suspicions. He talked exactly like Agent K, he moved exactly like Agent K, he even smelled like Agent K. The same poison that laced Agent Kâs words dripped off the ones from this man.
âMiss Sourice?â he asked.Â
âYes, Mr. Bakugou?â
âHave you ever experienced a first love?â
âIââ You catch yourself as you are about to answer. âYes.â
âCare to elaborate?â Amusement crawls up his face, but there are hints of longing, and perhaps... mourning?Â
âIt was... unlike anything you could ever imagine.â
Your job as a spy was to lie, lie, lie all the way through. But your words dripped in pure candor as old memories came flooding back.
Tokyo, 13:00 JST (GMT+9) 9 years prior
The air was rich with the scent of chocolate and sugar. He set his bag down near the couch and followed the source of the scent to the kitchen. You were stooped over the counter. A tray was set over to the side filled with chocolate covered strawberries drizzled in more chocolate.
âAre you going to eat that?â he asks. He swoops in for the catch, to find himself firmly rebuffed by a swat on the wrist.
âHands. Off! I. Put. My. Blood. Sweat. And. Tears. Intoââ Each word is followed by a fist on his back. He shields his body with his arms from the raining torrent of ruthless punches.
âOw! Ow! Stop it, you violent woman!â You donât stop. With each playful punch, you corner him over to the couch, where he collapses in defeat. You sit down next to him and take off your apron.Â
âYou started it!â you said.
âDidnât I earn it?â Before you know it, heâs suddenly on top of you. His warm breath, mixed with the heating inside the house. draws sweat from your skin. He cocks his head to the side, as if challenging you. Your shoulders rise up from the couch at the provocation, but he pushes them back down to the soft leather ever so easily.
âMiss Second Place,â he whispers, lips oh so close to your ears. You gasp at the reminder of your devastating defeat to him last week during finals. Thatâs enough. You raise your hips up from under him. But heâs faster and stronger than you. As your knee rises up to kick him, he shoves them down with immense force. He reasserts his position above you.
âBesides, itâs Valentineâs tomorrow,â he says. You sigh. Even if you gave him just one, there would be no guarantee that he would stop at just one.Â
âOne. Just one.â you say. He pulls himself off of you and sashays over to the kitchen. Keeping an eye on him is pointless, but you do have to finish decorating the rest of the strawberries anyways. He makes it a point to exaggerate his gestures and facial expressions. You want to slap him all the same.
He notices your irritated face. âI wasnât going to give any of them to you,â you say.Â
âOh? Then who are they for?â
âPeople that are not you.â He lets out a groan and puts a hand over his heart.
âIâm hurt,â he complains. You roll your eyes as he buckles to the ground in pain, holding his crotch.
Osaka, 21:00 JST (GMT+9) 8 years prior
The dingy motelâs lights blinked from inside your room. Water dripped down onto the tiled floors as you closed the door. The roar of the torrents of rain enveloped Osaka. Which is what led you to take shelter in this motel for the night.Â
It seemed a little shady, since the only room you both had been able to get was one with a small queen bed. And that was ok, actually. There was a whimsical feeling about running through the streets in heavy rain, troubles washed away like dirt on the road. What you werenât keen on was the person that you would be sharing that bed with.
âI call dibs!â he shouted. He dropped his luggage to the ground as you collapsed on the couch. Your wet hair was splayed out on the couch, turning it soggy. Sighing, you got up and decided to make yourself comfortable.
He didnât take long to shower. Steam came out of the bathroom, shrouding the shirtless figure that walked out of it. A soft white towel rested around his neck, and another sat on his hips.
Six years of volleyball could do wonders to a manâs body. Muscles cultivated from the sport finally found their place in the limelight of your eyes. You could feel your mouth water a bit. A sheen of sweat started forming on your temples.
He saw your reflection in the mirror in front of the bed. âLike what you see?â he asked.
You scoff and roll your eyes as you continue taking your stuff out of the luggage. The bed groans under his weight as he sits down.Â
âIâve seen you shirtless a lot of times before,â you said. At least that was true. You think back to bathing together as kids, putting gauze on his chest when he got into a fight. âIâm okay with it, why shouldnât I be? It doesnât gross me out.â
There is a loud bang, and now your body is sandwiched between the wall and his body, still dripping with water from the shower. He doesnât smell any different than usual, but your nose cannot help but pick up the soft tangs that make up his scent. Sweat. Grilled salted mackerel pike that he loved so much. The orange flavored hotel soap.
Common sense is screaming for you to keep your eyes on his, but the wonder that is his body after puberty lures you in deeply. His smoldering gaze locks you in place in between his arms.Â
âDo you not see me as a man?âÂ
The question is short, but it encapsulates everything going on between you two. âAm i still the kid that pushed you off your bike back in 2nd grade? You still see me as a kid?â
Did you? A small inkling inside of you said yes â the same part that would cry when pushed over the edge and still couldnât fend for herself. He would forever be the bumbling kid that knew no better to that part of you. The other voice said the opposite. You could only stare blankly at him as your heartbeat got faster every second.
âWould you like for me to see you as a man?â you asked. He cocked his head to the side.
âYes.â No one dared move an inch. The atmosphere was Pandoraâs box, ready to be opened and the evil inside unleashed.
He lowered his head so that his lips were on the same level as yours. His breath tickled your nose. âMay I?â he asked.
Without giving him an answer, you pressed your lips onto his.
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âShall we dance?â he asks.Â
Heâs cunning, not even giving you anytime to think. Heâs pinched you in between the incoming stream of guests. Either youâre forced to carry out this twisted dance with him, or risk losing all your leads on him.Â
âWhy of course, I love to dance!â You swear your brain is on autopilot right now. His hands are suddenly on your waist and shoulder. The music starts.
The light of the chandelier reflects red figures on his face from the garnets on his mask. His smile and eyes are the only windows to his mind, and even those are kept shut with a lock of mischievousness. Â
The conductor raises his baton. Like a well-oiled machine, the dance floor becomes alive. Itâs a dizzying array of whisks, twists, and turns. Fortunately, this Kozume man has enough grace to keep both of you on your feet.Â
âAnd who is this acquaintance, lucky enough to grace the heart of a man like you?â
âHer name is (Y/N) (L/N).â
That was all it took for you to confirm everything about this man. It was Agent K in the flesh, no doubt. He flashes you a smile from under his mask. To the sane person, it would simply look like a normal smile, but after years of running after Agent K.... you were sure that debonair smile belonged to him.
Making you feel like you have him cornered, then disappearing again. Itâs a reiterating game of cat and mouse. You swore to yourself that you would end it tonight.
The musicâs tempo changes. Youâre suddenly thrust into the arms of another man in a mask. Agent K is just a few feet away from you, a new woman in his grasp. He shoots you a glance before continuing his dance.
But the trills of a flute breaks the silence, and heâs disappeared from the room. Classic Agent K. The woman that was his dance partner also looks around in confusion, but she is quickly distracted by what seems to be her third bottle of wine of the night. You swear you spot Agent Kâs garnet encrusted mask on the other side of the room. But the cellos play their euphony again, and Agent K is gone.
You mutter a few apologies to your dance partner and stalk off. Agent Kâs coattails flap in the wind as he turns a corner. His footsteps reverb against the wooden walls. They turn silent as he treads over the velvet carpets.Â
No one is in vicinity by now. The cheerful chatter was left behind in the ballroom, as your target leads you up a winding staircase. Whistling noises come from several flights above you. He knows you are here.Â
Paintings on the wall stare at you accusingly. Their eyes on you only accentuate the adrenaline that is building up in your bloodstream. You pay them no mind and fix your eyes on Agent Kâs ascending figure.Â
The creak of a door alerts you to his sudden movement. Is he escaping into a room? But a gust of cold wind and the sounds of the city welcome you to the rooftop of the building.
The only source of light was a dingy bulb covered by moth eggs. You could barely make out his figure in the dark, but his spiky black hair meant that that was definitely Agent K.
No one was on the rooftop at this time of night. It was just you and him then. This was your chance.Â
The original plan was to slip something in his drink, but you knew from experience that he would never fall for that. You glance at the city, sound asleep below. Traffic lights blink here and there. The perfect opportunity. A simple push from this height would do it.Â
âSo we meet again,â he said. You take the high heels off your feet and stalk over towards him. Heâs leaning over the railing, head on the edge like heâs tired but still wants to enjoy the scenery. He makes no sudden moves of attack. You assume the same position, cupping your head in your hands.
âWhat does Bokuto want from me this time?â Bokuto was one of the leaders of the Fukurodani Syndicate, and a childhood friend of Agent K. The one that created it all. And the one you would have to take out after you took Agent K out.
âMust we burden our enemies every time we meet?â Agent K turned around to meet your eyes. His fingers ran over the smooth stone of the railing. âThat crazy owl doesnât want anything this time. He just wants me to get to you before Ushiwaka or Oikawa do.âÂ
You raised an eyebrow before rolling your eyes. âPssh. Hurry up and kill me.â To emphasize your point, you put your hands up in mock surrender.
Agent K smirked before moving closer to you. The lock of hair in your eyes, brought there by the wind, was moved to the side by his gloved fingers. The garnet mask that was the only barrier between a huge lead and potential failure stood tantalizingly before you. You had half a heart to tear it off his face. No. You needed to draw this out.
âNot before I indulge in a conversation with the subject of my affections.â Classic Agent K. Agent of Mischief both in and out of the bedroom, they said. You tilted your head to the side.
âQuite the suave man, arenât you?â
His laughter was a boyish chuckle that did wonders to his usually intimidating face. He had a dimple on his left side, you noticed. What fun were you having, fraternizing with the enemy. But you couldnât seem to pull away from him.
âI do enjoy thinking of my self as such, my lady,â he replied. You folded your hands over your chest.
âHow many women have snuggled their way into your bed with that silver tongue of yours?âÂ
It was an open secret that he was a ladies man, the rumors only being more and more obvious as he was spotted at the many red light districts he was spotted at.
âNone.â Well that was new. He could be lying, though.Â
âThen... how many women do you intend to court with your smooth words?â
âJust one, sweetheart.â The words rolled off his tongue like they were made to be said by him, and only him.Â
âAnd who might that be?âÂ
âYou. Miss (Y/N) (L/N)â You scoff. No way were you about to be put on that long list of women. You walked closer to him.
âAs if. When you manage to kill me, and thwart theââ Agent K was chuckling as you rambled on, trying to prolong the interaction. He put a finger over your lips.Â
âThat is merely a misbegotten attempt to humiliate the both of us. Does it really look like that from the sidelines?âÂ
What? This was Agent K. Known for his ability in twisting, turning, and confusing the hell out of his enemies. You furrowed your eyebrows.
âHumiliate? Iâ what else would it be?â
âWell,â he peeled his mask back, âbeing sent out to eliminate your first love isnât quite a job for the lily-livered, isnât it?â
Under the mask, there was the familiar mischievous smile, the observant eyes, and the same smirk from years ago. He discarded the garnet mask over the railing.Â
âKuroo?â The sheer shock at his revelation was enough to send you stumbling back. âYouâre... Agent K?âÂ
"I wouldnât be anyone else, darling.â
Hands reach out from behind you to find something to hold on to. The knot in your stomach has only gotten tighter and tighter since this whole ordeal started. You donât know how to process the feelings racing through your heart right now. How could he? Leave you all those years, then come back to you like this? How dare he? But the sounds of the party are coming closer and closer to the rooftop, and a police siren is wailing down below. Kuroo notices it too.
âI do hope that we can meet again, under, ah,â he adjusted his gloves, âmore appropriate circumstances.â
âUntil then,â he said. He inched his body closer to yours. The scent of old wine and cologne clung to his body. Kuroo pressed his lips onto your forehead. âgoodnight, little angel.â
He tips his lanky body ever so close to the edge of the building, before succumbing to the effects of gravity. Strangely enough, you find yourself reaching out to him. His name on the tip of your tongue, threatening to spill out.Â
The wind whips through his hair as he falls through the night air. Then suddenly, heâs not there anymore. The roar of a helicopter from above indicates Kurooâs savior has come. Kurooâs suit clad figure hangs from a dangling ladder below the aircraft. He catches your eye for a moment. A gallant smile graces his lips, but it strikes you as rather...disingenuous.Â
Kuroo climbs up the ladder and disappears inside the helicopter. The blinking lights fade into the stars above as the wind leaves your lungs. Damn you, Kuroo, you curse in your mind. The fresh air does little to clear the haze in your mind at the situation that just unfolded. Several minutes pass by, with you trying to take deep breaths. You pick up your discarded mask and put it back on. As you leave the roof, you swear his cologne still lingers in your nose.
#kuroo x reader#haikyuu x reader#au#mafia au#Kuroo Tetsurou#kuroo tetsuro x reader#haikyuu#haikyuu au#kuroo au#kuroo tetsurou x reader#kuroo fluff#kuroo angst#kuroo oneshots#kuroo imagines#haikyuu imagines#haikyuu oneshots#nekoma#nekoma x reader#hq#tetsurou kuroo#tetsuro kuroo#angst#first love#spy au
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âI am the one voice in the cold wind that whispers, And if you listen, you'll hear me call across the sky... As long as I still can reach out and touch you, Then I will never die.â
~âRemember,â by Josh Groban
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By the early 1940â˛s, the Dark wizard Gellert Grindelwald had paralyzed all of Europe in terror. While the Muggles fought their own second world war, Grindelwald used the chaos in the Muggle world as a perfect excuse to attack anyone of non-magical blood with no possibility of repercussions. Heâd amassed hundreds of thousands of followers across Europe of varying degrees, whether active blood purists, political figures who stupidly thought to use him to achieve their own personal ambitions, or just people too cowardly to stand against him. It had gotten to the point that even the British Ministry of Magic couldnât look the other way, even if Grindelwald had yet to permeate their shores -- and so, quietly, they set about sending aid to those countries opposing Grindelwald, with help from intelligence provided by individual agents. One of those such agents ended up being the vampire who the occupants of Hogsmeade village and Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry called Bat Varney.
Bat Varney -- or as he was known when he was human, Robert Harker -- was unusual among his kind. Unlike most vampires who tend to stay away from humans and live in vampire colonies, Bat resided in the attic over the Honeydukes sweet shop and, in the evenings, was frequently seen walking the streets of Hogsmeade village, providing services to those witches and wizards requiring information on anything from dragon breeding to Quidditch strategy.
From the moment he first caught wind of Grindelwaldâs rise, Bat took an immediate interest, not just because he himself was a Muggle-born, but because he feared for the safety of those humans heâd grown attached to in the last forty years -- the Honeydukes clan; Ann Smith @danceworshipperâ; the Selwyn-Ellison family, Adelia, Teddy, Violet, and Bertie @that-ravenpuff-witchâ; Hogwartsâs current Defense Against the Dark Arts professor, Danny Gibson @catohphmâ, and his wife Victoria @hphm-brookeâ; and Hogwartsâs previous Defense Against the Dark Arts professor and Batâs closest companion, Atticus Grimsley @cursebreakerfarrierâ. Although the vampire knew full well his life-span would more than exceed theirs, just as it had those of his wife Loretta, daughter Irene, and ex-best-friend Cecelia, Bat was determined not to let anything prevent his found family from living the full and happy lives they deserved...and so he offered all of his encyclopedic knowledge, cobbled together over the last hundred and sixty years, to help the British Ministry and other European Ministries tackle Grindelwald. But soon enough, the cat came out of the bag, and Grindelwald learned the identity of the British agent who had been so instrumental in the growing movement against him. When he did, the Dark wizard decided to take decisive action.
In December 1941, Grindelwald came ashore to the United Kingdom for the first time in forty years, and when he did, his first stop was the wizarding village of Hogsmeade. Never in the wizarding villageâs history had it ever been attacked, and yet thanks to Grindelwald, it was in flames. Christmas garlands were set ablaze, windows had been smashed, and people fled screaming -- the overcast sky was soon darkened further with smoke and ash, effectively blocking out the sun. This is the only reason why Bat Varney was able to leave the safety of Honeydukesâs attic to confront Grindelwald himself. After instructing the Honeydukes family to head straight to Hogwarts for their safety, the once-veteran attacked the notorious Dark wizard with nothing but a knife and his own fangs and fists. He couldnât use magic anymore, but there was no way in Hell Bat was going to sit back and do nothing, particularly when he was much more able to shake off a mortal injury than the average person.
As fate would have it, retired Auror Teddy Ellison had been in Hogsmeade that day himself doing Christmas shopping, and he helped rescue and protect the residents of Hogsmeade from their flaming town as best he could. Meanwhile, at Hogwarts, professors Danny Gibson, Adelia Selwyn-Ellison, and Albus Dumbledore were among the first to hear of the trouble in Hogsmeade. Although Dumbledore looked unusually pale and terrified, the witch and the two wizards all quickly raced to the village as fast as they could.
When the Transfiguration, Potions, and Defense Against the Dark Arts professors arrived, however, they found the town largely burned to ash and Grindelwald gone. In the center of the cobblestone street was Teddy Ellison, shaking from head to toe as he struggled to disperse the crowd of townspeople who had gathered in a huddled mass in the center of the street. Adelia and Danny immediately rushed over to Teddy, demanding to know where Grindelwald was, where Bat was -- and Teddyâs eyes flooded with tears as he recounted what had happened.
Grindelwald had only attacked Hogsmeade, it seemed, to go after Bat. When the vampire had shown his face, Grindelwald had immediately set about attacking him -- blasting him off his feet, slamming him into the ground, crushing him with pieces of buildings, and beating him within an inch of his life. He even used the Cruciatus and Killing Curses, all the while proclaiming to the surrounding citizens of Hogsmeade that this is the proper justice for someone who places the safety of Muggles and their brood over pure wizarding blood. And yet despite all this, Bat couldnât die and, more importantly, he wouldnât stand down. His eyes consumed with red, Bat fought back, even managing to injure Grindelwald multiple times by punching him in the face, stabbing him in the leg with a knife, and taking a bite out of his shoulder with his own fangs. At last Grindelwald had only one option left to him to try to destroy Bat -- he Transfigured part of a lamp post into a quasi-stake and hurtled it straight into the vampireâs chest. The force of the metal puncturing his heart threw Bat completely off his feet and into the ground, making him choke as blood stained the front of his chest.
Racing forward to try to help Bat, Teddy shot a wide array of Stunning spells and Blasting Curses at Grindelwald, but the Dark wizard soon overpowered him and quelled the middle-aged man with a white-hot, blazing Cruciatus Curse. Teddy had only escaped because Bat -- still staked through the heart -- ran up behind Grindelwald and slashed at the Dark wizardâs wand hand with his knife. With a bellow of pain, Grindelwald dropped his wand; Bat tried to overpower him by putting him in a headlock, but he was too encumbered by the stake in his chest and his weakened state due to blood loss and the vampiric blood lust that accompanied it. With a rage unseen by man, Grindelwald somehow was powerful enough to call his wand back to his hand and, in an instant, heâd blasted the vampire off of him. As Grindelwald bore down on Bat, his eyes blazed with hatred.
âYou are a troublesome leech, Bartholomew Varney,â he said in a soft, dangerous whisper. âNow it ends.â
Despite the pain in his internal organs, the weakness of his limbs, and the throbbing of his head, Bat nonetheless was somehow able to pull himself up onto his knees, his lips curled up in a smirk as his sclera-less scarlet eyes bore into Grindelwaldâs face.
âI donât fear death, Grindelwald,â he rasped, and there was no question that he meant it. âI am not the sort of fool, as you are, whoâd chase after the Deathly Hallows.â
This final taunt, peppered by the knowledge that Bat had sussed out the secret heâd fought hard to keep under wraps and may have exposed it to others, was the last straw for Grindelwald. Within three seconds, heâd used a violent, flaring violet curse to rip off Bat Varneyâs head.
The death of Hogsmeadeâs well-regarded vampire scholar devastated both the villageâs residents and the neighboring schoolâs faculty and students. The loss of his surrogate uncle, coupled with the opening of the Chamber of Secrets that same year, prompted Danny Gibson to retire from teaching all together. The Selwyn-Ellisons were also heartbroken at the loss of their âUncle Batâ -- their Christmas that year was the gloomiest it had ever been, for none of them had the heart to celebrate Batâs favorite holiday without him. Worst of all, though, was Atticus Grimsley. The retired professor had come to grips with the fact that he would die first, as Bat had...but with the opposite having come true instead, Atticus was beside himself with grief at the loss of the man whoâd been the closest friend heâd ever had -- the person whoâd made him feel happier, more loved, and less alone than heâd ever been in his life.
It was this despair in response to a tragedy so close to home that finally pushed Albus Dumbledore over the edge and forced him to finally accept what a threat Grindelwald really was to the Wizarding World. Within days of Batâs death, Dumbledore started his own moves to fight back against his old flame, and within four years, the Transfiguration professor had defeated Grindelwald in combat and taken the Elder Wand for himself.
Within a year of Batâs death, the Honeydukes family, with some financial help from Batâs many friends, mounted a gold plaque on the bricks just in front of their shop window that read --
In memory of Robert Harker, otherwise known as Bartholomew âBatâ Varney:
A Vampire with the mind of a teacher, the soul of a soldier, and a heart braver than most men.
b. 1 July 1761 / d. 13 December 1941
In 1946, after Grindelwaldâs fall, a statue of Bat Varney was also placed on the inside of the archway into Hogsmeade village. Although it was placed in the shadows and so very often could be overlooked by passerby, it kept a diligent watch on everyone who entered the little village like a silent guardian for many years to come.
#hphl#hogwarts legacy#bartholomew varney#tw: blood#tw: gore#tw: death#tw: murder#my art#my writing#gellert grindelwald#teddy ellison#danny gibson#albus dumbledore#atticus grimsley#ann smith#adelia selwyn#*exhales heavily*#this took a lot out of me#but when I heard this song I just...I had to get the feelings out#now that this angst is out of the way maybe I can get back to happier things with bat#at least he went out like a hero and didn't have to watch even more of his loved ones die...?#...oh who am I fooling I'm still sad#yes dumbledore got the little 'hint' from teddy's recollection of bat's last words that grindelwald had the elder wand#that was all the more reason for him to know he couldn't stand aside anymore#now that he knew grindelwald had the so-called 'deathstick#bat lived exactly 180 years :<#and...yes when he died he was wearing both the silver-gorget-neck-clasp from his friend barty's uniform#and the poinsettia brooch that was a present from grim when they first became friends#</3#excuse me I need to go stare at the wall for a while
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A masterpost about Wonho leaving and Starship being whiny wankers
Itâs been a full day since the news came about Wonho leaving and I finally also decided to write a post of my own. So I came here to bring some logic to this thing because they havenât cancelled the news yet and it looks like Starship has given up on literally every bit of sense they had. Iâm still so fucking pissed off. Iâm 10000% ready to fucking fight, as I always am, because I am true to my fucking username.
So away with the crying and missing Wonho, and wailing and lamenting because I think other fans have done their part with that. Iâll focus fully on just listing the things Starship should have automatically realized if they had even ONE fucking sensible person working in there. This will be fucking long but I donât care, this needs to be said and heard. So tl;dr: Do they have the slightest idea how to run a business? This is most likely the end of Starship, too, so how can they be THAT dumb to not realize they decided to screw themselves over SUCH A SMALL ISSUE?Â
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1) First of all, Wonho loved his job. This is not about me being sentimental or pretending I donât understand how pretentious idols can be about their actual working conditions, this is simply the truth. He loved communicating with fans, he loved improving his body, he loved making songs, he loved performing. No kpop companies are treating their idols perfectly, but Monsta X was in general doing very well. This means he with 99% certainty did not want to make things end like this, he just felt he had no other choice, and was panicking.Â
2) Wonho thinking there will be a huge backlash against him because of his problematic past and there actually being a backlash against him are two separate things, and if he himself cannot distinguish this difference because of his anxiety, his company should at least be able to. They are the ones holding the money and the power. Itâs not like their careers are not at stake, too.Â
3) He was fucking popular. Like he had a LOT of fans, those that were specifically dedicating their money and attention to him, and then those who liked several members at the same time, but he was still among their most favourite. We can pretend all day we love all Monsta X members equally, but looking at it from a purely transactional perspective: there are members who are popular, and then members who are EXTREMELY popular. The more popular members bring more money to the table, and Wonho was clearly a part of that latter group. Him facing not one but two scandals in a very short time period did not change that yet, which can be proved by how much support he and the other members still got in the first days of their comeback. Which brings me to point number four:
4) We do not have evidence these scandals were ever going to affect Monsta X members careers in an indispensable way. We do not know whether Wonhoâs reputation would have tarnished the groupâs future for good, mainly because WE NEVER GOT TO SEE FOR GOOD. This all happened in one WEEK. What can be said about one week? If one comeback of theirs, after a string of VERY successful albums, singles, concerts and world tours, gets ruined because of this one thing, does it mean Starship should have torn their clothes and started throwing temper tantrums like little babies? After they STILL got a nice amount of money out of this comeback TOO? After not even waiting it out to find out if they could have still received number one positions in the comeback show, for at least one week?Â
5) Follow the logic mentioned in point two and even the dumbest person in the universe should realize that Starship will end up losing a LOT of album sales, views and ticket revenue now. There was no way of proving that Wonho would actually damage the group long-term by deciding to stay there, and looking at the amount of support heâs now getting, thatâs actually unlikely. BUT by kicking him out? DEFINITE LOSS OF REVENUE. People are all now saying we will continue supporting the other members, but the fact is this: many of us wonât. I probably will not. If this is how Starship decided to deal with things, kicking out a member three DAYS after a relatively harmless scandal, started by an absolute embarrassment of a person, I will not support such a company. Kihyun is my bias and I love him to death, but if heâs accepting how things are being handled in his own company, heâll have to do without my support. Thatâs how simple it is.Â
6) Monsta X is the moneymaker of Starship. They screwed everything with Boyfriend, they disbanded Sistar, and WSJN and Starship solo artists are all nugus compared to Monsta X. This is not to say theyâre not good, but they do not bring even near the same amount of money to the company. It doesnât take a genius to understand that Starship cannot afford to make dumb mistakes in relation to how theyâre handling Monsta X.Â
7) As a fan who has followed this industry closely for almost 13 years now, I have seen the rise and death of countless kpop groups. At this point I can say one thing for sure: groups can survive or return back to their old glory even when their members leave, but only on certain conditions. If members 1) leave because they want to change their career, 2) leave because theyâre not satisfied with their company or 3) have health conditions that prevent them from continuing, the group might still manage to survive without them. If they are kicked out, thereâs a smaller chance for continued success and support, but it might work anyway, if 4) they are kicked out relatively early during their career and 5) if they arenât popular at all at that point. None of these cases apply to Monsta Xâs situation. And if and when Monsta X falls, there is no other groups within Starship that could take their position.
8) Now, we donât know the truth behind all this. Later on Wonhoâs leave might turn out to have other motives we are not aware of yet. But as it is, this juvenile prison thing combined with the debt will be the scandals people will remember until forever. That will affect the reputation of Monsta X, YET thatâs not how things needed to go. And why is that? Because those scandals actually caused Wonho to leave, unlike so many of the other things we keep hearing every single day because of twats like Han Seo Hee and other antifan wankers. Idols are under constant attacks, but most of the time these DONâT end their careers. Typically, when it hasnât been about anyone actually getting hurt (rape, abuse, assault, harassment, murder, etc.) or about anything S. Korea specifically condemns idols for doing (drugs, promiscuous dating/sex life, being piss drunk and causing damage, DUI), people will forget things real quick and move on. There are a lot of scandals I will accidentally find out about years later they actually happened, and the idols in question are thriving. But now? People for certain are going to find out, because the consequence was so dire, and so fucking QUICK.Â
9) Someone going to a hiatus to solve their private life issues is one thing. Idols canceling or postponing their comeback dates and events because of private life matters is, again, one thing. However, leaving in a matter of days after the scandal started? Thatâs suspicious, irresponsible, stupid and may make Wonho look much more guilty than he ever was. It may make people think thereâs more to this than they know at this point. They may think Starship is partially responsible for hiding things, not checking Wonhoâs background or that some of the scandals Wonho is involved in were actually happening while he was in Starship. Because, you know, someone holding a job and having his non-offensive past explored from over a decade ago should be two TOTALLY SEPARATE THINGS. That brings me to point number ten:Â
10) Making someone all of a sudden, over all these years, face consequences for things that happened ages ago, with a punishment that is not relevant, fair or just? Yeah that does make people think Starship is unreliable, irresponsible, childish and acting in a rush. Itâs not like they didnât KNOW Wonho had been in juvie. Itâs not like they hadnât already decided to give Wonho another chance. Itâs not like Wonho DID anything at this point to show he was no longer earning that trust. Actually, he did not do anything at all. Starship changing their mind about it so quick just revealed how vulnerable, spineless cowards they are and how they donât want to carry responsibility over any of their actions. Not good for any business, let alone one whose LITERAL JOB is to gain profit from positive publicity and keep a close watch of their reputation. They do not survive without fans. They do not survive without Monsta X. They do not survive if they have THIS presumptuous and careless attitude, thinking they can quickly cover up all their âmistakesâ by removing people out of their way.
11) The entire concept of Monsta X is revolving around the solid formation of the group. Every single member has a very steady role within the group, one that is not replaceable. Wonhoâs position as the muscular, sexy dancer and soft-voiced vocalist was crucial to the image of Monsta X. People became interested in Monsta X because of their masculine energy, and Wonho was one of the key members in that. He was also very important in terms of how often he catered to the fansâ needs, how often he thanked us and sent messages to us and how frequently he wanted to hang out with us in vlive. He was a steady composer and had a plenty of potential, and all of his songs turned out to be popular. His role as a specifically health, bodybuilding and fitness -oriented idol was widely recognized and celebrated. His character as a cute, aegyo-filled, emotional and extremely kind âfake-maknaeâ was loved by literally everyone in this fandom. I donât think I ever knew anyone who didnât have a specific soft spot for him, even when he wasnât their bias or even if people mainly followed other groups. Other members in Monsta X have their own, just as solid, roles that are irreplaceable, but itâd be stupid to not acknowledge Wonho has been among the first members people notice when they learn about Monsta X. Without him, itâs almost like not one but two members are missing.
12) There goes Starshipâs good reputation among kpop companies when it comes to foreign record label deals as well. Did the company in Japan or the US like what happened? Would they have punished Wonho for this kind of a meaningless bullshit? Do they like the idea that they are now supposed to interact with a company that acts this recklessly, isnât loyal to their employees and throws their hands in the air as soon as a problem occurs? I bet not.Â
13) Why did no one in the company actually sum up together what damage Wonho had allegedly done, like, for real? 1) He made one non-malicious, absent-minded joke half a year ago not a single Monbebe present at that time complained about. This was brought up by a person who intentionally made him look bad. He apologized and people moved on. 2) He has been in a juvenile prison for a small thievery (or something about as stupid as that, according to the information I found about this) over a decade ago, and he most likely did not get a criminal record for this. Starship however, probably did know this when they took him in, so at least back then they thought heâs atoned for his errors and can fucking move on, right? Being in a prison means rehabilitation, especially if youâre there just once as a kid after committing a very minor crime that does not involve hurting people. Bringing this up now is totally irrelevant. 3) Him not paying back to his old friend (3 million won) has absolutely nothing to do with his career. Havenât people ever been indebted to their friends? Is that a crime worth you ending up kicked out of your company that doesnât have anything to do with, well, anything? When he accepted that money, he was still a child. For years afterwards, he didnât have money to pay it back, and he could now handle that issue in privacy, because itâs no one elseâs fucking business but theirs. Considering the people who brought this up and their reputation, thereâs also a chance this entire thing was somehow fabricated. In conclusion, none of this means anything at all. These are not big enough reasons to make your entire company lose a substantial amount of money, followers and fans, plus a really good performer who had repeatedly proved he had grown up, changed and was capable of taking responsibility of his own life. However, by kicking him out Starship has now reinforced the idea these things were indeed a huge problem, their company can be attacked by these means in the future too, and that their idolsâ wellbeing and career paths donât mean shit to them.
14) All of these scandals, including the very first thing involving that Me Too -movement mistake, COULD HAVE BEEN TURNED INTO FUCKING STRENGTHS. The thing that was in common with all of them three things was that they have happened in the past. Sure, the debt is, I assume, still unpaid, but thereâs a small chance Wonho did not remember it anymore, or that there was blackmailing or other kind of shady business going on with that. With clever strategy, Starship could have turned these âscandalsâ upside down, disclaim them, say they have happened long time ago and do not reflect the companyâs current values. They could have accused Han Seo Hee and that another twitter wench of slander and point out to their decreased sales revenue as a proof of damage they caused them. They could have said they are fine with Wonhoâs past because they are not merciless bastards but a good, forgiving company that is giving its workers second chances in life. They could have said they SAVED Wonho and his family from a dark path. They could have said they have learned from the Me Too -movement joke and that they are now strongly joining the feminists struggling against rape and sexual harassment. They could have proved they are a good, steady company with good moral values, a backbone and trust toward their employees. All this could have happened with a couple of announcements, a week-long hiatus from the promotions of Follow and a post about how Wonho has paid his debt with a big interest. JUST LIKE MANY OTHER COMPANIES, CELEBRITIES AND OTHER WORKERS HAVE HAD TO DO THROUGHOUT THEIR CAREERS. Not at all hard.
15) Most importantly: DID ANYONE AT ANY POINT, INCLUDING WONHO HIMSELF, CONSIDER HOW THIS MIGHT AFFECT THE MENTAL HEALTH OF THE OTHER MEMBERS? Did anyone at any point stop to think that they might not be just fine with this, after fighting to debut together, after they have become such a strong, unified group, after they have seen so much together, when they are now very well aware that this could happen to them at any second, too, considering how these accusations were torn from peoplesâ dirty shitty anuses? That they might not accept this, that they might not be able to move on from here, that they might want to resign now too, that they know for sure earlier this year was the peak of their career and nothing they will ever produce without Wonho will receive the same amount of popularity.
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So yeah. I actually do not hope Monsta X continues as a six-member group. There wonât be âmany, exciting thingsâ waiting for them, like those Starship announcers said. There will be depression, more hardships, flopped comebacks and members separating on their own ways, resigning from Starship. The chances of the fucking company itself collapsing are not nonexistent.Â
I fucking do hope Monsta X members will refuse to cooperate with Starship until they can negotiate a new contract for Wonho. But if Iâll see them continue performing as a six-member group with these sad, depressed and angry faces I saw today in the comeback show, thatâs the end then, for me, as a Monbebe.Â
Fix your shit, Starship, or fuck off forever. Thatâs the deal.Â
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ITâS FINALLY HERE!
In an effort to spread some love to the fanfic authors in the Schittâs Creek community, this post is a compiling of some of our favorite fics! Thank you to every single person who decided to participate in this dedication of love! And to the fanfic authors out there - thank you for being so wonderful and sharing your stories with us! Hereâs to many more countless hours of reading - day or night!Â
There are repeats! I understand that may seem a little redundant, but I wanted everyone who participated to share their favorite fics regardless of repetition, author, pairing, AU, size, etcetera.Â
A very special thanks to everyone who participated!Â
@bestwisheswarmestregards // @brighter-than-sunshine // @danieljradcliffe @darnitdraco // @imargaery // @justwaiting23 // @leopxld-fitz // @lickrustdavid // @loveburnsbrighter // @oceanavinfinity @poorguysheadcanonâ // @ratchet // @roguebabyinyourstore @stuck-on-your-heart // @thisbuildinghasfeelingsâ // @vulcantasticâ @wlwbaudelaireâ
Iâm going to go ahead and put everything under the cut, because this should be quite a long post!Â
**If there are authors on tumblr whose handles were not properly added, please send me a message!
@bestwisheswarmestregardsâ
Fic 1:Â Ace Of Hearts by loveisallyouneed21
Why I like it: It is just really sweet and made me really happy. Plus I like seeing Patrick as an asexual being one myself. I donât see a lot of ace characters in the media so seeing someone portray Patrick, a character I love, as one makes me really happy.Â
Fic 2: An Unexpected Arrival by @justwaiting23âÂ
Why I like it: It was one of the first fics I read in this fandom and I fell in love with it. Plus the Brewers are in it and I love anything with the Brewers.Â
Fic 3: Hammock by @maxbegoneâÂ
Why I like it: This fic makes me so fluffy inside. Early morning and snuggles are one of the best combinations.Â
@brighter-than-sunshineâ
Fic 1: Your Wings Prepare To Fly by @icmezzoÂ
Why I like it: Iâm not the biggest fans of AUs/ Fantasy takes on fics, but the characterization of David and Patrick is so good here. Itâs such a beautifully written fic, and I just couldnât get enough of it when I first read it! A definite reread.
Fic 2: Today and All the Days that Follow by @unfolded73â
Why I like it: This one is one of my all-time favorites, because it explores so many of the relationships between all the characters⌠I especially love the bits including Stevie and Alexis.Â
Fic 3:Â Little Reminders of our Love by @justwaiting23â
Why I like it: The whole idea of David and Patrick leaving each other notes was too adorable not to recommend this fic!
@danieljradcliffeâ
Fic 1:Â Watching Through Windows by @helvetica-upstartâ
Why I like it:Â Some fandoms have those fics that just inevitably change the game and define what fanfiction can be and for me, this is that fic for Schitt's Creek. It is a staple that everyone's read and continues to talk about and recommend a year after it was published; I'm sure we will continue to talk about it for years to come and to recommend it as new folks come into the fandom.
Fic 2:Â Until Now Gives Way to Then by swat117Â
Why I like it:Â I just read this one-shot recently thanks to your (feel free to edit this how you need for your post) recommendation of their other fic, 'Exposed Brick.' This is a fic that (for me) completely captures why David and Patrick fit and work so well together and how their pasts have made it possible for them to be who they are as a couple in SC. I haven't read another fic that resonated with my own interpretation and appreciation of their relationship as much as this one. This author truly and completely sees them for all that they are.
Fic 3: Red White and Blue Jays by @grapehyasynthâ Â
Why I like it:Â I saw this fic published earlier this year and wanted to read it so badly but figured I should read the source material (Red, White, & Royal Blue) first so I did and absolutely fell in love with that book (who wouldn't?). I attribute this fic for inspiring me to read Casey McQuiston's book and so when I went to finally read it, I had extremely high expectations and even still, this fic exceeded them. The author does an amazing job of incorporating aspects of the original book (RWRB) while keeping the story true to the characters and relationships we know and love in Schitt's Creek. I read the entire fic in one sitting and then instantly, read it again. It is laugh out loud funny while being romantic as hell and keeps David and Patrick incredibly in-character throughout.
@darnitdracoâ
Fic 1: Red White And Blue Jays by @grapehyasynthâ
Why I like it: this fic is the reason I bought Red White and Royal Blue. Going into the fic, I didnât know what the book was about so it was all new to me but it was great nevertheless. Now that im almost finished with the book, I love this fic even more. I know its an AU but I think the characters are written well and I pretty much love any fic when Rachel isnât made out to be the bad guy. Its 13 chapters and I will 100% be rereading it after I finish the book.Â
Fic 2: Nothing Burns Like The Cold by @wildxwiredâ
Why I like it:Â This is a one shot and definitely Patrick Centric. I thrive on Angst and Hurt/Comfort. I personally feel like it is Patrick coming to terms with a things he didnât have control over and him getting closure on things of the past. I donât want to give away too much of the plot but please read this guys!!Â
Fic 3: sometimes good things fall apart by @blueink3Â
Why I like it: I have reread this multiple times and it gets better each time. Its only 4 chapters but it isnât rushed. As I said above, I THRIVE on angst and hurt/comfort. This has both, AND protective Patrick. It is a spin on what couldâve happened after the barbecue and it has a happy ending so donât worry.
@imargaeryâ
Fic 1: Dodgeball is f*cking stupid by alldaydream
Why I like it: This is a one-chapter piece that comes in just under 6k and yet the author manages to build a super rich AU experience and tell a complete story that is at once heart-wrenching, sweet, sexy, and thematic. If you want angst that doesnât last too long, that leaves you feeling warm and fuzzy, this is the one-shot for you. I go back to it as much as I go back to some of my favorite D&P scenes from the show.
Fic 2: if not for you by goingmywaydoll
Why I like it: When it comes to fanfiction about our boys, thereâs almost nothing I love more than a high school AU. This is that. But itâs also a ROAD TRIP. What better scenario is there for a slow burn, mutual pining, dialogue heavy love story with plenty of bed sharing and nobody bothering them?
Fic 3:Â Beneath the Winter Snow by Distractivate
Why I like it: Can you tell I love a good AU? This oneâs about the Olympics and it imagines a world in which Patrick and David have already fallen in love, had a relationship, and have broken up. This is a story about them finding their way back to each other--which isnât hard because they have to be around each other all the time and work through their issues. Itâs written with grace and thoughtfulness, and walking with Patrick and David as they learn to communicate with one another and work on healing makes the reunion that much more satisfying.
@justwaiting23â
Fic 1:Â hit me with your best shot by @ignisgayentiaâ
Why I like it: This is a bit of a random one but it has stuck with me ever since I read it. Itâs a short little AU about David and Patrick meeting at a baseball game where Patrick is one of the players. Itâs really sweet and does such a great job of keeping the voices in character, especially with the flirty teasing and awkwardness and is one of those fics I go back to over and over again.
Fic 2: Spills & Thrills by storieswelove
Why I like it: This is one in a series of âMeet-Ugliesâ that the author has written which I adore but itâs my favourite one out of them. It has the perfect mix of awkward interactions which make you cringe and also really sweet and fond moments between the two of them.
Fic 3: You Can Plan on Me by odofidi
Why I like it: This is a sweet little piece of marital fluff about the first Christmas after the wedding. It fits exactly with my idea about what married life would be like for them and is really sweet, plus I always love it when the Brewers are able to see Patrick so genuinely in love with someone like that so itâs definitely one of my very favourites.
@leopxld-fitzâ
Fic 1: best wishes, warmest regards (sent with confetti effect) by reymonova (costiellie)
Why I like it: This fic is just pure fun. The character voices are always perfect, and itâs such a nice addition to the series. This story is full of incredible one-liners and I think about âth*nk y*uâ at least once a week. A must-read for anyone who loves a good Stevie-David friendship moment.Â
Fic 2: Going Down by @concannonfodderâ
Why I like it: This is a perfect AU. Rich David? Check. New York? Check. Patrickâs gay awakening? Check, check, check. This fic feels as real and in-character as any canon events of the show, and the author does an incredible job at lining up a love story for the ages all over again under completely different pretenses. Plus, who doesnât love a âstuck in an elevatorâ trope? I would watch 10 movies based off of this.
Fic 3: Iâve Never Liked A Smile As Much As I Like Yours by hagface
Why you like it: I live for college AUâs, and this one doesnât disappoint. I love how the author repositioned characters and events for a new setting, and David as a picky art major is all I ever could have hoped for. Character interactions are pitch perfect and thereâs a true âpaint me like one of your french girlsâ pining moment that was truly glorious. A great read!!
@lickrustdavidâ
Fic 1:Â Tonight Iâll Drift in A Dream With You by torakowalskiÂ
Why I like it:Â Itâs rare to find such a well-written fic with a great family dynamic that makes you feel like youâre almost just reading a script for the actual show instead of an idea. Thereâs something soft and comforting about reading cohabitation with Alexis and David and Patrick doing there own things on separate sides of the motel room.Â
Fic 2: A Week with the Brewers by @justwaiting23âÂ
Why I like it: The dynamic with David and the Brewerâs is genuinely authentic and itâs made me flash back to some of my own experiences with partners parents. The fact that Patrickâs totally willing to have sex while his parents are there while David is mortified at the idea is also great and realistic. I feel like this fic also shows how partners grow and learn to communicate with one another and trust them.Â
Fic 3: Welcome to Cabaret by @vivianblakesunrisebayâ
Why you like it: The concept of David being more included in the whole Cabaret experience was something I definitely appreciated, since during the show I was kind of bummed with the lack of him. Stevie is wonderfully written in my opinion, and I really liked Patrick going on dates with the choreographer and watching David figure out how to cope.Â
@loveburnsbrighterâ
Fic 1: Small Projects by GCLane
Why I like it: My ultimate comfort fic. Soft relationship feels and loving, passionate discussion of fiber arts, plus nuanced discussion of coming out and fitting in and what it means to be queer. Also David trying new things and doing his best, which is also fun (he learns to knit!)
Fic 2: You and Me and This Temptation by @leupagusâ
Why I like it: Another comfort fic! Musician Patrick/manager David. It's funny asf and super sweet at the same time. Plus it does justice by Rachel, and made me totally love her. Also, I was never sold on AUs of any kind and this is the fic that converted me. I re-read it when I need cheering up and it never fails.
Fic 3: The Moment I Touched Down by rockinhamburger
Why you like it: Patrick learning about David's past and being the sweetest most sympathetic bean :(. This one is full of tragic backstory and good emotional hurt/comfort. Super cathartic to read, and it makes me want to wrap David and Patrick both in big hugs and protect them from the world.
@maxbegoneâ
Fic 1: my heart was broke, my head was sore by @blueink3
Why I like it: This was the first fic I read since coming into the fandom. Itâs canon-divergent, which, as it turns out, I kind of love. Itâs so beautifully-written; a story about David meeting the Brewers much sooner than he anticipated, under unforeseen circumstances that take Patrick back to his hometown - and David is right along with him. And just like in every universe, Marcy Brewer is an angel.
Fic 2: Cleanser by @cypress-treeâ
Why I like it:Â Hello and welcome to my comfort fic! This is just the most soothing story. Itâs my wind-down fic, and every single time I read it, it makes me want to do my own in-depth skincare routine (that I already do morning and night). But itâs not just about that - itâs about Patrick taking a look at his identity as well. Itâs all so tender and sweet, and so intimate in its own lovely way. David pampers Patrick a little bit and shows him that âfemininityâ and âmasculinityâ do not have rigid divides. And the first time I read this, I was wearing a mask from LUSH.
Fic 3: keep my spirit strong, you do by fishypots
Why you like it: Content warning; eating disorders, food issues. This hit me square in the chest. It resonated with me in a way I knew it would but struck so much more within me. By the end of it, I was smiling because of how represented I felt. I know this is a difficult topic for some, but I needed to share this fic. As someone with dysmorphia and struggles with disordered eating, it was such a comfort to read about David, who is a character so vulnerable and his partner who doesnât pester him with questions. Instead he listens, he does a little research (itâs Patrick, of course he does), and remains by him. Itâs all written so realistically and tenderly, and without any jabs or awkward nods toward body image. This will forever be at the top of my list.
@oceanavinfinityâ
Fic 1: I Carry These Heart-Shapes Only to You by ladyflowdi, ships_to_sail
Why I like it:Â It is a work-in-progress au set in Paris during WWII. Patrick is a soldier on leave, and David is a gallerist who sailed to France to help Alexis (as usual). The characters are so, so true to canon, and the world building of Paris in that era will whisk you away from your current place. I love it.
@poorguysheadcanonâ
Fic 1: bright lights by falconeggs (series)
Why I like it:Â my favorite schitts creek fic is definitely the series âbright lightsâ on ao3!
@ratchetâ
Fic 1: In the Temple of Artemis by MoreHumanÂ
Why I like it:Â This story has Stevie exploring (with some help) the identifier of Aromantic after navigating what she thought were her romantic feelings for David. Really sensitively written, with a scene that almost perfectly puts into words my feelings about David & Stevieâs soulmate-esque relationship.
Fic 2: David Rose, Your Husband Is At Guest Services by @patricksdavidâÂ
Why I like it: Husbands! At Costco! Giant muffins and comically large bags of doritos! 2071 words of pure domestic fluff! What more could you ask for?!
Fic 3: Fifteen Hundred Miles by MoreHumanÂ
Why I like it: Okay so. This is very new as part of the Reel Fic Fest, but I needed to include it. I love Wild, both the book & movie, and I am very much a âdeal with my problems by hiking/biking in the forestâ so this spoke to me immediately. Patrick and David meet as strangers hiking 1500 miles of the Pacific Crest Trail. Thereâs nature, pining in nature, tent shenanigans, tent emergencies! Stevie being an excellent friend from afar, a cribbage board, journaling, secret trail register entries, David in flannel, and an ever-present toque. Itâs just a really satisfying and calming 30k words with literally 2 characters. I read it twice in 12 hours.
@roguebabyinyourstoreâ
Fic 1: Fifteen Hundred Miles by MoreHumanÂ
Why I like it:â I like a good AU as much as the next person, but this one is just STUNNING. The descriptions of the pain and struggle endured by both men, both physical and emotional, was vibrantly visceral. David and Patrickâs relationship bloomed organically and you are hooked on their journey through the wilderness as they grow closer and eventually fall in love. Plus itâs Patrickâs POV. Whatâs not to love?
Fic 2: Getting Over Getting Older All The Time by Distractivate Â
Why I like it:â Youâve heard of slow burn? Well meet glacial burn. This masterpiece takes us through 10 years of friendship, of missed opportunities, of pining and heartbreak. But most importantly it shows what we all knew - David and Patrick will find their way to each other regardless of time and distance. Also Patrickâs POV, I sort of love Patrick Brewer.
Fic 3:Â You Could Be The One by bigficenergyÂ
Why I like it: âI have a soft spot for early relationship David and Patrick. But almost no fic does it quite like this. This fic highlights points from our boysâ developing relationship scored by the incomparable Carly Rae Jepsen. This fic is so true to the characters, their voices and their story, that itâs all one giant headcanon for me. This fic is part 1 of a larger series and I highly recommend all of them.
@stuck-on-your-heartâ
Fic 1: a kiss from a rose by mihaly ( @davidroseshusbandâ )
Why I like it: This was the first multi-chapter fic I read when I joined the sc fandom, and I hadnât read fic of any kind in over a year. Itâs a brilliant story where Alexis stars in a reality-dating show. All the characters are portrayed so perfectly in this fic, and you can hear their voices in every piece of dialogue. Itâs sweet, itâs hot, itâs everything you could want in an AU. This story helped me fall in love with fic again so it has a very special place in my heart.Â
Fic 2: Roseâs Eleven by leupagus
Why I love it: This story honestly feels like a movie. I know the concept is based on a film franchise, but the writing in this fic is truly exquisite. Itâs so complex and gripping, and thereâs a heist which is always a good time. Despite the very different world these characters are in, they are still true to themselves, so itâs very exciting to see how they interact with one another in this universe. This is such a fun read from start to finish and just thinking about it makes me want to go back and read it again.
Fic 3: Simply the Vest by orphan_account
Why I love it: If you couldnât tell, Iâm obsessed with AUs. This fic is such a satisfying AU because it incorporates several tropes that we all know and love. In this story, Patrick is an FBI agent, and he has to go undercover as Davidâs boyfriend. So right off the bat thereâs fake dating! And then it has pining because our boys are dumb! AND THEN it has a little smut if thatâs your cup of tea. And while all this is happening, Patrick is being capable and looks very dashing in his FBI vest.
@thisbuildinghasfeelingsâ
Fic 1: Happy to help by @vivianblakesunrisebayâ
Why I like it: This was the first Schittâs Creek fic I fell in love with when I started exploring what was out there after bingeing the show for the first time. Itâs basically a deep dive into Patrickâs POV from Motel Review through Grad Night. It really helped me appreciate Patrick as a character when I was fairly new to the show. I think I formed a lot of head canon regarding Patrickâs life and backstory based on the things I enjoyed in this fic. And itâs just incredibly well written.
Fic 2: turn down the lights, turn down the bed by @hudders-and-hiddlesâ ( @wild-aloof-rebelâ )
Why I like it: I love this take on David and Patrick remaining just business partners until Rock On. I can be a bit of a canon purist, so Iâm really picky when it comes to AU fic. However, there are actually quite a few I enjoy in this fandom. My favorite thing about this one is that it has the exact right amount of angst, to the point where itâs almost physically painful, but in the best possible way. Especially because you know how itâs going to end. This is angst with a happy ending executed perfectly. And itâs so good that it holds up to multiple rereads.
Fic 3: my heart was broke, my head was sore by blueink3
Why I like it: Another canon divergent AU that I love. This one diverges from canon after Grad Night, at which point Patrick has to go home for a family emergency and David goes with him. What I really love about it is how it puts Patrick in a position to be truly vulnerable and gives David the opportunity to kind of be the strong one and really take care of Patrick. This is something we donât get to see to this extent in canon until maybe Meet the Parents, so itâs nice seeing it here so early in their relationship. Also, itâs just so beautifully written.
@vulcantasticâ
Fic 1: no other version of me i would rather be tonight by wardo_wedidit
Why I like it: Iâve always enjoyed the concept of love languages, and it was so sweet watching David do so much for Patrick to show he loves him. Of course, it stems from fear and anxiety that David isnât doing enough for Patrick (especially with Alexis egging him on), which reads very realistically to me. I think we as the audience tend to forget that David has never had anything like this before, has never experienced the love of someone like Patrick. Heâs still learning how to accept that love and return it, in his own unique ways. This fic does a great job of examining that.
Fic 2: Exposed Brick by swat117
Why I like it: To me this is the perfect âPatrick and David visit New Yorkâ fic. Patrick is characterized so beautifully here; we not only see how he aims to please throughout his relationship with David but in his interactions with Rachel and his family as well. I imagine there was a lot left unsaid on the show regarding Patrickâs uneasiness about moving to New York and Davidâs ultimate decision to stay with him in Schittâs Creek--this is explored wonderfully here. Plus, as a new New Yorker, it was really nice to read about all the iconic places in and around Manhattan.
Fic 3: weâll take the world together by sonlali
Why I like it:Â IÂ am a sucker for stories that examine David and Alexisâ relationship before the start of the show. This fic in particular is heart-wrenching, touching on the trauma both siblings likely experienced before we as viewers knew them. I love the idea of David as protector of his younger sister, and to see that sentiment returned by Alexis now that they have grown (physically and emotionally) while living in Schittâs Creek is beautiful to read.
@wlwbaudelaireâ
Fic 1: youâre my peace and my quiet by chocobos
Why I like it: This fic is just so soft and sweet and always puts me in a good mood whenever I reread it. Itâs wonderfully written and I can truly see this as an actual scene in the show.Â
Fic 2: Terrified But The Truth is This by ryry_peaches ( @loveburnsbrighterâ )
Why I like it: As someone whoâs had a headcanon that David is autistic since I started watching the show, this was the first fic I saw pertaining to it. I was happy to see how well it was portrayed, especially giving how poorly Iâve seen fics portray autism in other fandoms, and it even made me see the episode âGirls' Nightâ in a completely different light.Â
Fic 3: Putting Down Roots by @this-is-not-nothingâ
Why I like it: Absolute domestic fluff is my jam and this fic delivers it and then some. It gives me everything I could want in a post-canon fic where David and Patrick are happily married and living in their cottage.
Again, thank you to everyone who made this post possible! I am so happy we were able to spread some love and cheer to the fic writers of this community! Sending so much love to each and every one of you, and Iâm hoping this provides some new material for the community to discover as well!Â
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đđđ§đŁđđŁđđ¨: Bullying and Abuse, Slight Cussing, Depression and AnxietyÂ
Contains: FLUFF AND ANGST
đđđđ§đđŁđ: Nikki Sixx x Aspergerâs! Female Reader
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Summary: (Y/N) a 13 year old girl goes to her first day in high school. Despite the hard attempts and making friends because of her socially awkwardness she finds herself distracted by a certain boy in her class. (Note: This isnât made for discrimination or stereotypes to people who go through anxiety, depression or have autism. This is all real stuff and written for the sake of notice and to betaken seriously. I wonât be portraying any kind of offensive or critical stereotypes nor will ever in this one-shot. This was based on personal experience and point of view. IF YOU ARE DEALING WITH ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION AND ARE TRIGGERED BY THESE SAME THEMES. PLEASE DO NOT READ FOR YOUR OWN SAKE. AND IF YOU ARE SUFFERING FROM EITHER ONE, PLEASE FIND SUPPORT OR HELP, WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU EVEN IF YOU DONT THINK SO WE ARE. WE WILL HELP YOU GET THROUGH IT, AND IN THE END IT WILL HELP YOU ALOTđ )
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âMommy, what if the other kids donât like me or hate me.....â, I managed to utter out as I looked at her through a glimpse as I looked down at my shoes, while sitting on the stool near the counter.Â
âOh Honey, donât say that, you know thatâs not true.â, Mom said in a cheery voice as she was working on breakfast listening to me as she did,â Some of those kids will like you. Might even want to be your friend.â
I looked up at my mom only glancing at her back as she was stirring the ingredients in a bowl, my attitude and mood not changing from its gloom state as I heard those positive words, as it should.â Is she only saying that to make me feel better?â I thought in my head as I felt a bit angry at the thought, a bit happy too that she cared, though it didnât change my idea of it nonetheless.Â
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âThey think Iâm a freak and a monster.....â, I said suddenly without emotion my voice breaking a bit as I felt tears building up a bit on my eyes at the idea of it, trying my best not let them crawl and trace down my cheeks as I didnât want her to see me cry.
My mom then turned around from what she was doing in the kitchen towards me her eyes widening at what I said, almost dropping the pan she was holding that held a small stack of pancakes, as she heard those sharp and painful words out of my mouth. She gulped slightly making me quirk an eyebrow, waiting for a response and obviously worried and confused for her silence, feeling insecure as I awaited her answer. She then put the pan down and walked towards me kneeling down unto my level as I tried my best to dry roughly at the tears. Only for her to gently push them away from my face and take her soft and delicate hands and brush the tears away with her fingertips as she grabbed my face gingerly, her eyes filled with concern as she did.
âYou are not a freak or a monster....Ok. and definitely not a monster.â, My mom corrected me sincerely as she said in a whispering tone to me letting her forehead connect with mine as her gaze met mine.â You are just different from the rest of the other kids.â
âYou are special.â, She said as she kissed my forehead, embracing me as she did, returning the hug it a few moments later as I registered the action in my brain. Letting my arms wrap around her for warmth and comfort, as I left the few remaining tears drop unto her clothed shoulder, cursing myself for it.
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âYeah Right.â, I muttered under my breath sarcastically as I replayed the events from this morning. Holding a pen and flicking it repeatedly, as I felt my anxious state grow with every step I took towards what was now called my school, trying to take my stress away roughly at the writing utensil gripped tightly at my hand as I repeated the process. This was a soothing technique for me for whenever I felt overly stressed or anxious in a situation. Despite the annoying sound it would do, I couldnât help but feel calm and relief wash over me as I felt the tensing energy leave my body, easing my breathing, nerves, and muscles. I then stopped as I calmed down putting the pen on my pocket as I released a sigh, gripping my bag tightly.
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This wasnât the first time my mother has said or used the word special in those exact occasions. To be honest there was nothing special about me. This wasnât my first school that I was attending either. Iâve been to many, and seen many faces from kids my age and younger to teachers and parents. Despite their differences they have one thing in common when it came to me. They all gave me the same look. Whether it was pitiful or dirty it didnât matter. All the different kids from different schools gave me that same stupid and meaningless face. At first I thought it was because I was new to them, but then I started to quickly realize it wasnât just that.....I was a shy girl so I never really understood at that time. All those times I would try to talk to people or waiting for them to approach me as I sat alone calmly doing my work....Being friendly and confident as possible as I greeted them with the best and nicest smile I could muster on my young face...They never responded back they simply whispered something to another kid and simply left me standing there stranded as they went to play with the other kids... Avoiding me entirely even when I went to speak with them again....Sometimes I tried asking the kids if I could play but they would either ignore me and walk away or say that It wasnât a game for me to play......
âDid I say something wrong?â
âWas I not suppose to talk to them?â
âWhy arenât they talking to me?â
Those were some of the thoughts I had, but I knew those werenât the exact reasons, knowing fully well I wasnât bad when it came to speech or greetings when I talked to other people. The teachers blamed me for it of course, when I asked them why the other kids avoided me.
âMaybe if you werenât and acted like such a freak, they would be talking to you.â, One Teacher I remembered bitterly saying to me with the fakest smile as she then turned her back towards me walking away from my small frame not caring whether those words struck my small heart or tear up and cry.
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I shook my head and decided to think of something else as my sneakers grazed the cement floor on the sidewalk. I then looked towards the sky seeing the sun shinning and the pure white clouds forming picturesque structures as they floated above. âI wonder if there is any people living in those fluffy clouds?â, I thought with a smile,â Is there such a thing as cloud puppies too!?âÂ
I giggled a bit as I thought about what a cloud puppy would look like. Sort of like a poodle or  but more fluffier and soft fur like marshmallows and cotton candy combined.  âAre clouds tasty?â, I whispered out loud as I kept staring at the edible-looking clouds, âThey do look a lot like cotton candy....so maybe.â
I then starred at my feet laughing at the thought, only for then to look up and noticed that I was already in front of the school.
I gulped as I was frozen in place.
âHere goes nothingâ, I said to myself a bit nervously as I let my feet drag slowly towards the horrors of what was now officially called my school.
Walking towards the doors of the school, I couldnât help but feel a wave of nausea hit me, totally uncomfortable on how all of this was going to go. After I enter the entrance to the school through the double doors I couldnât help but notice one unnormal thing.
Empty halls.
âWeird.â, I thought in my head with a raised eyebrow.,â I thought it would be crowded by this time.â
Reading the letters on top of the doors, I checked to see my assigned class as I looked at each one on both sides of me in the empty halls. Seeing the exact one I enter it only for then to see a crowd of unfamiliar faces turned all of their heads in sync towards me.
I then closed it behind me with a jitter in my hands as I felt belittled by all the beady eyes of the students that were staring at me while sitting in there sits.
âMrs.(Y/N), Youâre late!â, A female voice said harshly next to me.
I then turned towards the origin of the voice to my right, seeing it was a middle aged woman with long hair that was tied up into a bun and was wearing glasses underneath her brown caramel eyes. Her faced was adorned with makeup and an angry scowl in her face as her eyes met mine, obviously unhappy and pissed.
âCare to explain why?.â, She said in a dominant tone, and with stern eyes as she crossed her arms across her chest and her heels clicked underneath the marble floor of the classroom as she tapped her foot impatiently.
âI-i....â, I started with a stammer and whisper obviously nervous and uneasy about all of the students who were staring at me in the front of the class.,âI-im sorry..â
âWay to go me....â, I thought sarcastically at myself as I said those words.
The teacher squinted her eyes with a humph, only to then close them. Then as if on cue....
An erupting choir of laughter resounded in the entirety of the room in sync as all of the kids started to laugh at me. In that moment I felt humiliated and irritated, I wanted to just throw myself in a box and at the same time tell the kids to shove their mouths up their own asses to shut them up. But I felt completely vulnerable at the moment unknowing of what to say. as I felt small....
âSo much for good impressions.â, I thought in defeat as I looked down at the floor.
âQuiet down class, quiet down!â, The teacher said as she stared at room full of teens as they all kept quiet some of them still snickering softly, or trying to control the laughter that was still trying to emit from their lips.
âIâll let you off with a warning since you did apologize, after all. The next time though I wonât and you will be sent to the principalâs office as punishment if this repeats. Understood.â, She said a bit more warmly still keeping a strict poise as she turned towards me.
I nodded slowly of course as I listen to her words looking down a bit ashamedly as I did.â Yes Mrs....â
âMrs. Johnson.â, She said with a small smile and then she gestured towards the empty seat,â You can go ahead and sit next to Frank over there in the back.â
I then followed her arm towards were she was exactly pointing and to my thoughts, there was a boy with an orange pale button up shirt in the far back right next to were my assigned seat was, looking and snapping his thoughts towards the teacher as he heard his name from the teacherâs mouth. I gulped âWhy the far back?â I then looked towards the front row and saw the whole aisle filled students already, âOh thatâs why...â
Taking a deep breath, I stepped towards through the rows of filled seats, hearing whispers or name-callings as I walked past them towards my seat. Of course I glared at the students a bit in front of me while also trying to put a fake smile for them as I tried my best to ignore their harsh and childish remarks. As I reached the desk, I couldnât help but notice the âFrankâ boy from earlier stare at me from the corner of my eyes as I sat beside him, knowing that he wasnât in the beginning until he heard his name being called. His bright green eyes observing me as I put my backpack close to my side and slumped into my seat. I then saw as the boy stared for a few seconds at me more before looking away from me in boredom just like a few minutes earlier.Â
As he looked away, I couldnât help but stare at him as I got good look at him clearly compared to when I was in the front of the class. âFrankâ had brown blondish hair that was a bit long and slicked back neatly, green and slightly dark eyes as the color of leaves in the trees during springs or summer as they stared boredly away as one hand was held towards his cheek, leaning his elbow against and touching the table on his desk propping his head up, wearing his orange pale button up shirt and white pants, along with some sneakers.Â
âCute.â, I whispered a bit too loudly as I stared at him my cheeks dusting with a violent red as I realized what words fell from my mouth. Frank being near me ,considering he was beside me and the whole class was quiet at the moment, turned his head to me as he heard what I said with a confused face, either not catching what I just heard or uncomfortable with what I said from my understanding. I then stared to the front away from him, my shoulders tense, my face completely red, and my heart beating out as if it were to rip away from my ribcage and body. I breathed steadily and sighed, as I felt his stare drift away as he huffed a bit going back to his usual stuff to staring at nothing. âGeez, what are you thinking girl.....â, I scolded at myself with a mental facepalm,â You already messed it up with coming late, now your making it worse by telling a boy he is cute....Ugh, at least I hope he didnât hear me.â
The teacher started lesson as if a few minutes prior and after the incident. Staring mindlessly at the chalkboard, I couldnât help but feel a bit tired and suddenly....bored as I tuned out the teachers words. âSchool sucks.â, I thought for a moment before a lightbulb suddenly went above my head with a silent yawn,â Iâm gonna draw.â
I then took my separate drawing pad, pen and pencil, while flipping to and empty page. I then started to work my magic as I began to doodle what was on my mind as ideas spurred through my brain. I was pondering on what to draw as I held the pen close to my chin. I had a great influence and overall interest in music, I loved it so much especially when it came to rock music. Because of that, I wanted to become a musician or songwriter one day. I then thought about drawing puppies or rockstars.....
I then did just that as I drew cute little doodles of puppies along with a rockstar sketch of my favorite musician. As I kept listening at the teacher to the class while also distracting myself with some quality time for me, I noticed something soft yet solid grazing shoulder slightly, landing at next to my feet on the floor. It was a crumbled up piece of paper that was made into a ball. Rolling my eyes, I didnât think any of it as I kept tracing my pen on the paper.Â
âPsst. Hey.âÂ
Fixated on the paper I kept on drawing cute little stars and details on the drawing oblivious to the person that was calling someone else, whoever did.Â
âPsst!â
This time it was a bit more louder but still made into a whisper as I didnât bother to check who it was that made the noise.
I then felt another hard thud on my shoulder this time still soft but harsh as the solid material hit me directly. Leaving my eyes from the paper as I had an angry frown in my face obviously annoyed at the person who threw the paper at me, I looked towards the person who made the âpsstâ sound again only to see that it was the so called âFrankâ boy from earlier.Â
He then gestured towards the crumbled sheet of paper in front of my desk. I narrowed my brows at him, with suspicion but complied either way so he could stop bothering me, despite the fact he seemed friendly. Grabbing the crumbled sheet, I heard the sound of the bell ringing before I could open it. The class was then dismissed but before I could read the note that the boy passed to me. I felt a harsh shove as I fell back on the seat causing the note to fall from my hands and into the floor, nobody noticing as they let their dirty shoes graze and paint the paper. Seeing that everyone left including the person that shoved me by accident, I went to pick up the note from the ground only to see that it was indeed painted with shoe prints and ripped in half harshly. âUgh...â I groaned in disgust as I went to the trash to throw it away,â I hope it wasnât something important that I needed to know.â
I then looked towards the back of the class were Frank was, only to find out he wasnât there anymore. Frowning a bit at the thought as I was hoping maybe I could talk to him, I went towards were all the students were going....probably the cafeteria..
âMaybe Iâll see him thereâ, I thought lightening up a bit with a smile.â
âWeâll even be friends probably....â
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{AUTHORS NOTE}
Hey there I hope you all enjoyed this little miniseries Iâm doing. The reason I made this was because of personal experience in my early years in high school, and I felt I had to write them down. I also wondered how it will be like if Sixx to ever meet a girl with autism. Iâll be uploading part two as soon as I can of course .hope you liked it and Thank you for reading.
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