#N's sad rambles

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post battle, one last short rest

[kindaorangey]

"are you asking me or making me?" is soooooo interesting to me because i think armand only asks it when he can't gauge whether he's letting louis down. it's barely even sexual - it's a hail mary. it's a show of trust, indirectly admitting that he wants to do something other than what louis expects of him, but that he's willing to obey louis anyway, for the sake of their relationship. it's sort of heartbreaking watching them at the sacré-cœur, because if louis had said "i'm making you" armand would've done it in a heartbeat. he would've taken it as a show of committment on louis' part, and he wouldn't have betrayed him. but louis takes the question just as an expression of disagreement, and so he doesn't play the game. ironically, he respects armand's independence too much to make him turn madeleine if he doesn't want to. and so armand isn't convinced of louis' commitment to him, and he betrays him.

and by the time we see them in san fransisco, louis knows what the question means now, and answers "no, arun, i'm not asking" without question. and armand accepts it without complaint, even as it pains him. companionship really is the most important thing in the world to armand, just like it is for lestat, and he's willing to do any number of horrible things to louis and himself just to keep him as a companion, just like lestat. louis' biggest mistake is not realising how to use that to his advantage sooner.

edit: HELP people are reblogging this again. i misremembered the context of the scene - louis is asking armand to witness the turning, not do it himself. still, if armand had gone along to witness, that would have 100% been taken as implicit permission for louis to turn madeleine (thereby adhering to the first of the great laws) and, in essence, "agreeing" with her turning where before he ordered claudia to drive madeleine out of town. this hypocrisy, and the further bending of the rules for louis' sake (he's given permission to turn a mortal despite neither of them being in the coven), would have been seen by the coven as betrayal. armand knows this; he doesn't think madeleiene should be turned for these reasons; that's why he asks, "are you asking me or making me?"

still. if louis had said "i'm making you" i think armand would've gone along to witness, implicitly giving his permission for madeleine to be turned and functionally changing his allegiance from the coven to louis once and for all. so the core point of the post still stands.

[demonoftheseas]

collab redraw with me and @xxthunderthedragonxx !!

[rotomicity]

TGCF art from 2021 which were very experimental and very much something out of my comfort zone but am still so satisfied with

(gonna ramble more under the cut 👉 )

My main inspiration for these were definitely classic storybook illustration styles and the watercolor-like illustrations included inside the tgcf books which depict hualian's daily slice of life routines as seen below

I wanted to capture that feeling of warmth i got from reading but i also went with the storybook look because their relationship (and by extension broad strokes of the entire plot) really did feel like something out of actual myth or legend; i'm chinese indonesian and was raised surrounded by chinese culture + values so tgcf felt VERY familiar to me, it threw me back to my childhood reading or listening to tales about chinese deities, i'd say the storybook image definitely came into my mind pretty quickly bc of this

I find this style somewhat hard to replicate now but if i could or have the time to, i really want to continue the 'companion pieces to chapter titles ' concept i did with the last 2 pieces (which are of the same chapter title but i was just indecisive 😭😭), i even had 3 more planned based on my favorite titles before burning out back then

[thatguywhodoesstuff]

A Murder Drones Idea

The other day I learned that golden retrievers apparently have a tendency towards developing separation anxiety. Given how a number N’s mannerisms mirror golden retrievers and everything he has had to endure in the Dead End and Mass Destruction, I can easily imagine him developing separation anxiety on top of the guilt complex he seems to be developing.

Like, I can imagine a scenario post episode 8/series, when everything has calmed down and the cast settles back into a “normal” life going like this:

(Uzi returns home after a day of school) N: (Runs to and scoops Uzi up in a hug) Uzi! You’re back! (Nuzzles her) I missed you. Uzi: (Flustered and blushing at the sudden affection) Eh- N! We’ve talked about this! N: Oh! Sorry. (Sets her down gently) So… how was your day? (Uzi takes a seat, with N proceeding to sit beside her, closely) Uzi: Eh, the same as always. What about you? What did you do today? N: (Nervously) Uh, well, it -it was fine. All I really did was… was wait for you to come back… like I always do… Uzi: (Looks at N and realizes how tired he looks) …

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

[tojisun]

oki im done yapping for tonight ^3^

[farther-north]

It's October

This means I can legally blast October by tcw on loop and who's gonna stop me, it's October >:3

Yippie

[piningpebbles]

okay so we all know the "cole, is that you?" line but. angsty proposition for the "why are you dressed like a pirate?" line.

jay had been tortured ruthlessly by nadakhan and his crew. not only had he lost half of his vision but he was clearly incredibly disoriented when cole showed up.

one of his first proper escape attempts was just a set-up by the crew to destroy his feeling of security (what little of it he had at least) that just ends up in him getting beaten again. but i doubt it was the last time that he tried to escape. and all the same, with how much they laughed, i doubt it was the last time they pulled something similar.

did he ever find a forged response letter saying his friends were coming for him and cared just for the pirates to laugh at his pathetic tears when he's told it's a fake?

did he ever hear their voices, only for it to lead him straight to the scrap and tap ring?

his trust is broken off piece by piece, not just for the crew of course (that shattered right away), but also for his friends as the crew begins to convince him that they don't care about him. that they hate him. nadakhan read jay so easily and saw through his mask he'd been wearing for years as if his face was bare, so why wouldn't he believe the pirates couldn't be right about other things, too? even if he didn't want to admit it.

that they hated him for what he'd done and left him for dead.

as each day passes by and each glimmer of hope ends up just another ruse for the pirates to laugh at before they slam his head against the wooden floor, the more it'd set in. bit by bit.

what are the chances that in the moment he sees cole, in that pirate uniform, his first thought wasn't genuine confusion or relief, but fear?

fear because pirates don't fight fair,

his friends are dressed like pirates,

and his friends hate him.

[seven-tastic]

lukerosa arts (SHOCKING I KNOW)

[shadowlurkerbug]

Ok guys stop making really good analysis stuff on arcane. Especially lil Isha😭

THAT BROKE ME SO BAD. HOLY CRAP. BRING HER BACK RN.

[sluckythewizard]

had this thought rotating in my mind since arthur had to wear that Anti-Sun disguise. and well. now u see it too

[olivewormz]

ELLO!!!! GUESS WHO REDID HIS METAL SLUG DESIGNS!!!! i guess you could call it that uuhm

but YEA!! i've been thinking a lot about metal slug lately and i just... couldnt resist redrawing my versions, hopefully i do more in the future for more characters n all, i really want to post more metal slug stuff, i love LOVE these silly guys

im not writing anything at the moment cause i really didnt change my headcanons and im kind of tired to write proper paragraphs (i should stop staying up until 3 am to finish drawings? maybe).

[catinasink]

danganronpa characters as the couch thing where hte sitting gets progressively worse 👍

uhmm waves a sign that says i really appreciate reblogs but dont feel obligated to ofc :3c

[chryblossomjjk]

[broareweabouttoviberightnow]

ARTIST N WRITERS N CREATORS OF ALL KINDS!! c'mere. I gotta say something. n I'm gonna hold ur hand tenderly when I say this. post. it. anyways. be proud of it. anyways. post ur 'shitty' art!!! upload fics that didn't turn out the way u thought they would!! glow with pride at the works u started but didn't finish bc at least u STARTED!! it is TWENTY TWENTY FIVE!!! WERE GIVING OURSELVES GRACE!!! if u create art of any kind. if u write or draw or sketch in the corners of your math homework. if nothing makes it out of the notes. if it's incomprehensible. be KIND to urself. n know that I love it. doesn't matter what it is. I love it. n I'm proud of u for creating. n doing ur best. n I rlly hope u are too <3