#My family is SO fucking complicated!!!!!!! 😩

[alartist]

This question shouldn’t have been as complicated as it was for me. 🥲

[jexversea]

okay bad writing and fucked up story aside, i want to see it all from five's perspective. he's lonely, living in apocalypse for years with a manequin, the only love interest he had, he stuck in those ridiculuos timeline and a never ending job to save the world, AND ALSO his family are a total disaster.

i agree, the five lila thing is so fucked up i am screaming myself to die when i see this. but i see five too. i can't help, but feel pity for both of them. being trapped in the subway with each other. one wana take a break from his normal daily life and one just really lonely and need therapist.

i cannot say that they are 'right person in the wrong time' neither 'wrong person in the right time.' they are wrong person in the wrong time. and it sucks, because they know it. in any other universe, they are never meant to be with each other. ever. this is just a situationship. they fall in love because they only have each other and no one else. they grow affection towards each other and think it was love.

BUT NO IT WASN'T. WE ALL KNOW AND UNDERSTAND THAT. love can be platonic, love can be like a family. but five doesn't understand that because he in the middle of a desperation. he can't find a way back home and i believe he already choose to give up that moment when he suggest to live in a green house. he has no remorse because he thought he will get back and thus only have lila and only lila forever. like he always for the past seven years.

he never truly love someone so he get a little lost in between.

AND I GET IT, i am also angry with this plotline and i wish that it could be replace by LITERALLY any other people. but the season is out there and we can't do nothing to change it for the better. it's canon you know. i want to make sense the story even tho it's hard for me to accept this 😩

i love five and seeing him with other person makes me happy. BUT NOT LIKE THIS OH C'MON MAN. they really complicated everything. why on earth when they saw the whole show, they thought in their right mind like "oh yeah the viewers gonna love this, uhhh the drama"

"do you love him?" from diego is my roman empire. i cannot stress that line enough and how lila never answer it.

[fullmetal-scar-simping]

Thank you sooo much for your lovely response to my long ask a couple of days ago!!! I really do agree with you wholeheartedly (especially about Scar's post-Briggs characterisation), and something that irritates me about my fellow mangahood fans is that they love the complications in the plot introduced by the reveal that Scar killed Winry's parents (immediately after his own family died in an alchemical explosion + experiencing the world's most traumatic arm replacement).

I get that the point of having Winry confront Scar and point the gun at him is to make Scar reflect on their shared wrath...but I don't it's remotely comparable fhsjfjdj

Like yes it's tragic that the Rockbells died, but unless I am hallucinating they were fairly confident that the military wouldn't have actually killed them because they were Amestrians and thus why they continued to treat Ishvalans in their field hospital even after they had been warned. Now I think it would have actually been interesting if they were then later killed by the military that they trusted to spare them because of their Amestrian blood!

And then the Elrics + Winry having to deal with the fact that the institution they respect/work for/interact with is the same institution that killed the Rockbells - something mangahood treats like an unforgivable sin when Roy "War Criminal Extraordinaire" Mustang and Kimblee™️ are right there😭😭😭 They even show us the military scheming to kill the Rockbells, and then Arakawa has Scar do it at his most unstable to make a point about The Cycle of Hatred from a man whose pain is the most justified😭

And not to be petty but Ed's line about how Winry's hands were made for saving lives and the fact that her parents are doctors - Scar was a warrior monk whose hands also saved lives because he defended his people; and in fact that scene in the manga when he said he had nothing left to protect so he will instead live for vengeance went hard and is soooo indicative of his character😩

Unlike the war criminals and their accomplices, Scar's primary motivation throughout the genocide was to protect his people! And when they were slaughtered and their homes destroyed, that motivation developed into vengeance for his people! And I actually think it's quite powerful that Scar is willing to sacrifice his own peace of mind and the integrity of his soul by using alchemy - it's the fact that he is willing to kill the living to prove that the dead did not deserve it!

He is in fact the consequences of the rotten core that is the foundation of Amestris! So why do brohood fans insist on acting like it's his responsibility to end the cycle of hatred when the Amestrians were the first to pull the trigger? What's he supposed to do? How is he meant to continue living when everything was taken from him?

If we had even just a couple of scenes showing more of the Ishvalan perspective; like tell me more about the Ishvalan who refused treatment from Uriy Rockbell because Amestrians killed his father or the Ishvalan man in the desert mutilated by Roy's flames - there should be more angry Ishvalans in the series, and I think the Elric brothers (and fuck it Miles also - we saw an Ishvalan slum in North City) interact with them and deal with the horror that their nation inflicted upon the Ishvalans for no reason other than to serve the rotten core of the nation - Father & co.

But nooooo let's act like Scar killing the Rockbells is comparable and actually worse than the Ishvalan genocide🙄

(I am SO SORRY I just had to rant because I saw an annoying mangahood fan praise Scar's "redemption" arc when he doesn't need one😭 I even like that he got to return to his homeland and even reclaim his pre-genocide identity, but it should have been achieved through actual mutual understanding instead of my babygirl giving in to Arakawa's politics🗿 I know he's depressed and unhappy but to make his sudden cooperation realistic Arakawa should have has characters like Elric brothers and Miles should have done more reflecting on their complicity with the institution instead of bailing out of a difficult plotline)

Haha, no need to apologize for the rant! I'm right there with ya. The way Winry and the Rockbells get inserted into Scar's story feels so precisely calculated in order to both equivocate the violence of genociders with the violence of the oppressed, as well as (more directly) knocking Scar down himself.

[Long analysis after the readmore]

It's a perfect example of this method of narrative framing:

All anyone can focus on is Scar and the Rockbells, and that's by design, particularly with the 2009 anime adaptation.

For anyone paying attention to Scar's backstory with an anti-imperialist lens, it's clear he has correctly assessed who his enemies are and what to do about them. He's right to despise and destroy state alchemists and soldiers. And in order to "muddy" his position, Arakawa threw the Rockbells into the mix.

Again, with an anti-colonial, anti-imperialist framework this wrinkle to his backstory doesn't change shit. He is in the right to kill members of the militia. An accident doesn't erase the system of power that enacts imperial aggression. An accident doesn't negate a need for direct violence against a genocidal entity. Unfortunately Arakawa, the team at Studio Bones behind the Brotherhood anime, and the majority of people who watch Broho or read the manga don't see things this way.

Now I haven't read the manga myself, but as you've mentioned the Rockbells did seem to acknowledge the very real risk of death that can befall them while working in a war zone. Correct me if I'm wrong (and I may very well be) but don't they leave a letter behind in the manga, imploring that no one blame any Ishvalans who may instead harm them? Take this with a grain of salt, as I'm working off of a recollection of a post from someone who did read the source material. If I'm in the right ball park here, then Brotherhood cutting this from the story is an even more blatant attempt to tar Scar with a level of villainy (a trite description for the topic of genocide, even a fictional one) as the Amestrian war criminals.

Except the Amestrian war criminals are not seen as villains. The only ones characterized as villains for committing this (and other) genocide(s) are the homunculi, Bradley's council, and Kimblee. Following orders apparently is wholly excusable, even for a voluntary military. Both the "pain" and "anguish" of these 'do-gooder' genocidaires and Winry herself are elevated to near-martyrdom status in Brotherhood. Winry's parents especially so, and thus Winry's loss is seen as so poignant, so heartbreaking, that the audience (and Ed) are moved to an almost smug derision of Scar. See? It's the ~cycle of violence~. That's why his actions are ~wrong~. He doesn't parade around an idealism as a form of penance that makes him inspiring like Mustang (I have to laugh), he doesn't bat big doe eyes while looking so mournful like Riza (I have to yawn), he didn't have a lovely cis heterosexual family unit to create or protect like Hughes (please don't acknowledge Scar's family or community, in fact don't inquire about them at all) (also mangahood Hughes. Oh god, mangahood Hughes 😬). No, Scar is a violent man, an 'awful hypocrite", he harbours none of these 'heroic' qualities that everyone defends in the military characters, so therefore stopping him and bringing him to an Amestrian standard of justice is paramount.

The way this scene is constructed, in both the manga and the show is so blatant in its weepy-moralizing. Scar is contrasted as brutish, towering against a white teenage girl's trembling, collapsed position before him. His race cannot be ignored from the composition of this moment. The racism that under-girds the real life bogeymen of the "wanton violence of SWANA men" and the "foreign savage threatening our pure, fair, delicate women and children" is manifested in fma mangahood.

We're supposed to see these young (white) Amestrians as the hope for a reformed nation. (Abolition and decolonization are not vocabulary in the fma ethos. This isn't a unique lack for fma, most media can't be bothered to contend with truly ending a system or a nation that serves as its own sort of protagonist.) The end of ~the cycle~ will be because these golden-hearted white kids will choose pacifism (a useless paradigm when dealing with an aggressive entity). Ed assesses that his military superiors should not be held responsible for the mass destruction and slaughter they rendered with marvellous aplomb, Winry is too good to sully her hands, and Scar is a monster who's hand(s) are, it seems, meant to kill.

This is how we're guided to view things: The soldiers and generals are proud idealists to be respected and aided. Ed is a spunky genius who gets to use the coffers of the state's ill-gotten wealth for himself and his brother, and Winry is a saint who truly lost the most from the Ishval War. The Ishvalans shouldn't have fought the Amestrians, the Ishvalans shouldn't have resisted occupation, the Ishvalans shouldn't have retaliated for the murder of an Ishvalan child, the Ishvalans shouldn't have been where the military took aim. Scar shouldn't have been so human as to be loved, to be saved, to be physically and mentally harmed, to be so thoroughly concussed and delirious (neurologically and psychologically), and he shouldn't have ever hated Amestrians. Then the Rockbells could have returned home to Winry.

(If we throw in the ridiculous speech from Miles, Scar should have also, somehow, joined the military simultaneous to being in their crosshairs as Ishval was torn asunder.)

And that's what the framing, the script, the animation, everything in Brotherhood bellows: Winry is the truest, most blameless victim of the Ishvalan genocide. The death of two white, blond, blue-eyed humanitarian doctors is worth hundreds of thousands of Ishvalans. Where Father and Wrath both see each life worth only that life as a means of efficient resource extraction, and where the philosophy of One is All, All is One is meant to unify the value of each life, we get a much different, more bleak weighing scale from Ed, Scar's arc, and from the in-built bias of the audience: Scar's brother, his neighbours, the web of individuals, communities, and every generation of Ishvalan is worth markedly little in the holy light of the Rockbells and Winry's suffering. Scar's past and present are mere excuses; Winry's past and present are his sins.

This moment is also a tacit ploy to make people think of the families and loved ones of the fascist pigs Scar has already murdered by this point. The implication of those people as a trail of Winrys left in his wake also equivocates the pain of the imperial citizenry and the lives they enjoy thanks to ceaseless land, resource, and human acquisition, with that of the endlessly angry, 'dangerous' Ethnic Other. Surprisingly, given how little tact Brotherhood has as a visual narrative, the anime (thankfully) never outright shows these bereft loved ones from the murdered war criminals. However, it hangs invisibly in this scene with Winry as well as the one in the abandoned mining town in Briggs.

And to make a quick aside: I find it to be in very poor taste that the tragedy of Scar's life is being used to further the romance between Ed and Winry. Just. Please. Who the fuck asked for a brown man's oppression to be the backdrop for the growing passion between white teens??? What in the goddamn, man.

Getting back on track: Brotherhood wants us to see Ishval and Amestris as two equal parties foolishly destroying one another. It's the fallacy of both-sideism and we see the very real deployment of this propaganda every time an imperial power wages its (nowadays proxy) wars. But like real world targets of imperialism, Ishval has every right to fight back. Scar, even with the deaths of these doctors thrown at his feet in an attempt to manufacture a toothless, sanctimonious tale of "two wrongs don't make a right," is still fully in the right to have sought and destroyed the fascist boots that trampled him and his people.

The Rockbells assumed they would be safe from their own nation, and as you said we do get confirmation that the military was going to send someone in to assassinate them for their treachery. Kimblee (because we could never make any of the ""Good guy"" soldiers do this, only the strawman fascist) was given the task. In a twist of fate, Kimblee's assault on Scar indirectly gets that particular job done. I, for one, hate this writing decision. I've talked about it before, but fma 03's choice of making Mustang and Marco the Rockbells' killers is a far better choice for the broader anti-imperialist theme 03 focused so heavily upon. Hell, any serving soldier would have been a better, less nakedly military apologia than Scar. It would better reflect the real world strategies deployed by imperial armies: decimate medical facilities, staff, and humanitarians (including those who are citizens of their own nation state). Arakawa choosing a roundabout path to this outcome, one that vilifies Scar while sparing the ""Good"" reformable soldiers, because it's actually all Kimblee's actions anyway, is a cheap trick.

It drives me nuts that the Elrics and Winry are never truly confronted with the horrors of their nation and its governing institutions. Anytime they get a taste of what makes the military so vile it's coated in a million red herrings about who is "actually" responsible for this wretched state of affairs. It's not that militaries are the violent arm of the state meant to slaughter people and capture/maintain land as property of the state, no! That's the fucked up thinking of Bradley, his council, Father, and Kimblee! Look, our ""Good"" war criminals and soldiers actually ~understands~ that the military exists to protect people! (Which people? And from whom? Shut up, don't ask questions, you're ruining the wholesome idealism here!) With them in charge post-coup, everything will be better! Any harm Amestrians have faced from their own military's invasions is actually the fault of the military's targets: Resembool received collateral damage because Ishvalans fought back! So obviously this is akin to Ishvalan imperialism, right? Both sides? We shouldn't see race? Reverse racism is real? But look, Winry is suffering because Scar is a reverse racist! So it is real!

Everything you said about Scar is 100% on point. It's so good that I'm gonna highlight it here again:

Scar was a warrior monk whose hands also saved lives because he defended his people; and in fact that scene in the manga when he said he had nothing left to protect so he will instead live for vengeance went hard and is soooo indicative of his character Unlike the war criminals and their accomplices, Scar's primary motivation throughout the genocide was to protect his people! And when they were slaughtered and their homes destroyed, that motivation developed into vengeance for his people! And I actually think it's quite powerful that Scar is willing to sacrifice his own peace of mind and the integrity of his soul by using alchemy - it's the fact that he is willing to kill the living to prove that the dead did not deserve it!

What more can I say? This illustrates perfectly what a lot of fans seem to entirely miss or dismiss. And listen, I'll give Arakawa some credit, because she wrote this into his character! She wrote Scar to be more than just Big Bad Hypocrite, and Ed's view of him is in fact wrong. I appreciate that Scar doesn't fall over himself to explain to these Amestrians what happened on his end. But all the same, with other Ishvalans being used to essentially rat Scar out (the ones taking refuge in the ruins of Xerxes), and that there was no sympathy or solidarity given to him by his own people who were there in that makeshift hospital still shows what the primary perspective on Scar should be.

To Arakawa, he is wrong.

The Amestrians rebuke him, his own people (the refugees in Xerxes, his own Master and the refugees within Amestris) rebuke him. Miles rebukes him. Ed, Al, and Winry rebuke him. The Ishvalans rebuke his one-man insurrection on his and their behalf to instead stoke the flames of Ed's righteous animosity towards Scar. Why? Because not all Amestrians. But certainly all Ishvalan rebels. It doesn't matter to Arakawa and Studio Bones' Broho team that Scar's hands were already fighting to save lives; he has to be beaten down and cowed to agree to save Amestrian lives, reformed for Amestris' betterment. This is how he will pay for his "cruelty". Meanwhile the war criminals, sans the leader of the nation and Kimblee, get off scott-free.

A core problem with the ~cycle of violence~ rhetoric is that the buck is almost always passed to the latest victim of violence, particularly if that victim entertains the path of self-defense or retaliation. If you initiate, or are a major player, in that violence then you are practically absolved of your actions and intentions once you create a chain effect of harm. This, in my opinuon, is partly why fans see the responsibility of ending violence to be on Scar's shoulders. Combined with what I discussed regarding the "positive" qualities of our protag war criminals winning the hearts of audiences; that they are written to be as charming, inspiring, and pitiable as possible, with a sufficient lack of melanin to align with the colourism and racism imbedded in most societies and cultures irl, we end up here. With Scar seen by many as a villain/former villain.

Remember, don't argue against pacifism. And don't bother questioning what other routes he could have reasonably taken, because the manga and Brotherhood answers that question!

He should have been living "peacefully" with other Ishvalan refugees in their nice little "peaceful" (slums) settlements. After all, they had no real qualms with their "peaceful" new lives. We're hit over the head time and again by how "content" these refugees are, in spite of the ethnic cleansing and marginalized, hidden existences they suffer. And I scare-quote peaceful because this isn't peace. This is the hegemony of Amestrian "peace" forcing a people it wants fully eradicated to hide and remain quiet for their own safety. So peaceful. But that's what Scar should have done instead! (Or become a fascist to solve fascism, ala Miles' stunning advice.) Brotherhood keeping the majority of Ishvalans as an amorphous monolith, without identities or perspectives, who make do with the hand that's been dealt (it seems like all "violent Ishvalans" were slaughtered in Ishval during the war, since only Scar continues to fight afterwards) means we can digest the Amestrian perspective and internalize it without issue. It's an intentional choice.

Even the manga at least shows Ishvalan dissent a bit better, but it seems to lose any interest in pursuing the perspective of refugees as the plot progresses. A lot of entertainment media can only garner sympathy for victims of genocide so long as they have an innate "pacifism" to their people (this too is racist framing). You can only feel bad if the Indigenous and the racialized are simply too kind hearted and pure to ever raise their hand against the gunmen who fire at them. The narrative can only imagine Scar having the potential to reform into the acquiescent, useful native if we see that most of his people are horrified by any violence against their colonizers. If they're horrified of him, then they and Scar can be forgiven (for being what they are, for being victims whose victimization harmed the soldiers, the Rockbells, and Winry). So what more could the Ishvalan perspective hold in Brotherhood, when that's all that's needed of them to begin with?

I sorely wish we weren't fed such an awful concoction of racist, military-absolving story telling. All major fma media isn't necessarily perfect about consistently handing the mic to different Ishbalans/Ishvalans, but Brotherhood is the absolute worst of the three in this regard. The manga at least has Ishvalans who openly reject Amestris and Amestrians for the atrocities they suffered at their hands, as included in your ask. Brotherhood doesn't even bother with any of that. It's just a spotlight on Scar, and he made Winry an orphan. Not Amestris, not its military, not Father, not Kimblee, but Scar. And to Broho fans, that is the ultimate sin anyone in this series could ever commit.

I'm glad mangahood Scar gets to return to Ishval and rebuild. I'm glad this version of him gets to live, because this continuity has nothing of value to say had it killed him off or prevented him from reconnecting with Ishval. Of course Scar didn't need the "reformed" military to grant him that permission. And he abso-fucking-lutely did not need to earn it via "redemption". Such a crock of shit. To have to earn your homeland by joining the very forces that ruined thousands/millions of lives is one of the most disgusting outcomes of this story. People love his "redemption" because it makes them comfortable about real, heavy matters. It tells them "Their nation, their nationalism, their militarism can be good and healing after all." Fuck off.

Scar deserved infinitely better. Every Ishvalan deserved better than to be a morality lesson about what the oppressed ought to do instead of having a spine. And Winry shouldn't have been a pawn for distracting us from the evils of the military.

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See, this is why no one should apologize to me about sending me a ranting ask. 😅 I'll take any opportunity to rant x10. And hey, you're always welcome to send long asks! I hope the long reply isn't too frustrating to read through, and I hope I didn't miss any of the great points you made.

Once again, I fully agree with you. Our babygirl being tied up with the Rockbells is straight-up poor storytelling. Mangahood had the potential to not be racist and pro-military about these storybeats, but instead chose to make an example out of the primary brown character.

Any Broho fan who can't handle this critique is weak. Period. But I'm always grateful that there are those like yourself who can handle it AND make that critique themselves!

[Sorry it took some time to reply. I briefly lost this ask after saving my first draft, since apparently tumblr hides ask drafts not at the top of the draft pile, but somewhere in the middle (???)]

[xamaxenta]

Alright I’m bored and tired

So let’s list off some horny concepts to get the neurons firing shall we?

1. Dragodile lesbians (idk just really big tits)

2. Marsabo one or both wearing cock rings

3. MAS trans sabo with her massive horse cock and her two buxom gfs

4. Marace abo alpha Marco that acts like a omega and omega ace who keeps getting leaky tits

5. Dragodile dragon getting his prostate tortured crying and drooling

6. Sexy secretary getting knocked up by his boss (possible crime boss)

Number 6 pllleeaasee i need it to be acebo/saboace

That being said !!!!! More under cut bc i replied super long…

1. God!!!??? You do understand … theyre both equally stacked… breasts for DAYS. Breasts for WEEKS they’re both in corsets and skin tight skinny bell bottom jeans and knee high heeled bootie/combat boot combos thyre serving MILF but also the kind thats taken and youre never gonna get a chance even tho they’re complicated rn ���

2. They… would make it a goddamn game, Sabo snapping pics of his lik chastity cage and then the raunchiest selfie ever like hey baby got myself all pent up n waiting for u to come home, Marco gets home rock solid eager to play like so whats the catch? Sabo laughing like ive got a lil game for you, if you decipher this puzzle you get to find where ive hidden the key to the cage, fail in the hour timelimit and you dont get to cum or get fucked, marco who desperately wants to get fucked by sabo getting all fired up like !!! He will unlock the at cage and get sabos dick its like saw if it was sexy lmao

3. OH. Lesbian MAS!!! But Marco and Ace being cisfem/afab and amab trans fem Sabo !!!! ? Shes so fucking pretty you know it … 😭 i know you meant theyre all ladies but now im stuck obsessed over transfem Sabo it just feels right or theyre genderfluid, and in any au ofc sabos got the biggest dick to dick down his/her partners :3 you know she got both her ladies gagging for it esp Ace my beloved cockwhore

4. Ohhh Ace nesting SUPER DUPER HARD WITH MARCO BC HES SO… MILFY… older mature Omega vibes even tho hes actually genetically an Alpha, actually fuck it!! Biological gender chimaera Marco who after eating his DF has both omega instinct frm it but biology of an alpha, Ace lactating CONSTANTLY from the overstimulation of being mated to him bc omega?!? Comforts!? But also his big soft alpha mate? Hes so wet and constantly dripping both his tits and his cunt 😩💦 hes just a happy lil thing mwah i love this one anon !!!

5. Its rly fun to imagine Dragon looking for a dom and getting all the paperwork sorted and getting introduced to his dom and its also like sugar daddy vibes bc Crocodile is so disgustingly wealthy dudes got a WHOLE ASS DUNGEON and hes just a dragon, let him get trussed up like a festive turkey and have Crocodile stream him squirming and struggling directly into his office, addresses Dragon by vocal cue alone via mic its all consensual and kinks they both enjoy and its all so he can see a powerful figure like Monkey Dragon get unwelded at the SEAMS!!!

6. Annnnd yeah i want this so bad for saboace acebo idc whos the mob boss wife here either is sublime bc Sabo being this absolute insane crime syndicate owner, diabolical and untouchable with his gorgeous trophy wifehusband Ace who has the great potential to be some famous public figure like an actor or smth, and hes like the publics darling so their dynamic is so spicy like my husband is a murderous black market dealing weapons distributing demon and i love him!!! ❤️❤️❤️

Alternatively mob boss Ace is hot in general like built his own family and theyre close knit super loyal band of misfits and outcasts whatever, probably owns a huge chain of casinos and hes always in the house, hes just such a threatening presence too but hes not the real danger but his svelte ultra smoking hot ex assassin wife Sabo, like sabo was sent to take Ace out but failed bc Ace seduced him and they got married, try harm a hair on Aces head and Sabo will bear down upon you with the wrath of all seven hells, hes a menace in stilettos and hes got knives all tangled up in his pantyhose !

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CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP NICI YOU ATE AND DID IT AGAIN, THE NEW CHAPTER IS SO FUCKING GOOD AND DELICIOUS AND IT HURTS ME IN A GOOD WAY AND IN A BAD WAY IT WAS KINDA A ROLLERCOASTER FOR ME 😭😭😭😭😭 trying to calm down and collect my thoughts PHEW really sorry for all of my upcoming incoherent messss, firstly, wanna thank you for this amazing chapter, you're just doing THIS again again, constantly improving your skills, i don't know, you're such an amazing writer i am on my knees 😭😭😭 thank you again so muchhhhhh for your hard work, believer all the work and effort you put in all your stories are showing!!! truly fantastic 😭😭😭 secondly, well i don't know even what to say, i just think this chapter made me in love with your gojo even more (didn't think it might be possible but here we are...) he's so so soft and thoughtful and considerate and caring in this and previous chapter it makes me BAWL MY EYES I LITERALLY LOVE HIM AND HIS LOVE SOO MUCH 😭 it AMUSES me also that he's willing to do everything for a s&c reader and he loves her in all possible love languages and it seems there aren't enough ways of him to express his love. no, one lifetime isn't enough for him 😔 i don't know this folder in the library made me fucking cry, that is SOOOOOO i don't know even why i was so moved, he's putting all the effort into loving her 😭😭😭😭 and also the way he both fell first and harder???? we love this man being so pathetically in love- i absolutely adore him. secondly, s&c reader girl. well, i really don't have much to say, just because THE SITUATION IS SO COMPLICATED AND DIFFICULT I WANNA KMS. but i absolutely ADORE how you depicted all of this controversy going on inside her head, her confused feelings and thoughts, she feels so alive and relatable to some extent, just because you describe us life! and there aren't purely black and white in our lifes, that's way it's so tempting for me. our poor reader girlie deserves a hot cocoa cup and reading some kafka book beneath the blanket (with gojo obv) and just RELAX! she's si strong but i am really afraid, because she can break at any moment 🥺 i really do hope one day she opens up as well to satoru and share even a tiny bit of her fears to satoru, it would be much easier, though of course she wouldn't want to do it, just because to take care of him and it kills me 🥲 i understand her anger and frustration, and that sudden (actually not so sudden, all her pent up emotions just BURST OUT!!!!) snap at satoru, she was just mad at him, at herself, at fact she doesn't have a proper student life, and that research, her lack of sleep and migraines, all of this caught up to her and that's completely understandable, everyone has such moments :( then again she should RELAX. thirdly, i am in love with their relationships and interactions. each chapter describe them from a different side, ane i am so thankful that we can see various sides of their relationship, just like in life. i love them so much. once again. they own my heart. fourthly, the car smut that was so fucking scrumptious tears rolled down my thigh © you really ate this one nici, as always 😭 i am a huge sucker for car sex scenes idk even why 🥲🥲🥲🥲 and fifthly, I Am Afraid for that family dinner 😩 will his mother be alive after that? will EVERYONE??? there's so much room for angst i am waitinggggf (and soft moments as well obviously but who am i fooling...) and alsoooo ALL THEIR CONFESSIONS IN THIS CHAPTER I FUCKING CRIED AND ESPECIALLY YOUR DESCRIPTION OF THEM AS OPPOSITES BUT THEY CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT EACH OTHER??? shattered my heart <3 ALSO thank you again for bringing up and discussing such important themes as addiction and abuse (i think we'll get more of this in the next chapter...) ig that's all for my overall thoughts about the chapter, now it's time for my thoughts during the chapter 😭 again THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR HARD WORK!

"At the sound of your voice, Satoru's head whipped around. His anger seemed to dissipate as his gaze landed on you, a slow smile forming on his lips" OH MY FUCKING GOD HE'S SO WHIPPED I LOVE HIM SO MUCH

he cares so much for s&c reader, awwwwww 🥹🥹🥹 and she cares for him as well to this extent, i am so weeakkkk

i feel very bad for suguru when he's watching satoru and s&c reader gotta admit 😞😞 now when we know his thoughts :(

"He straightened up, snatching the drug test from the table and grabbing his jacket. "I'll be back in a few hours," he called over his shoulder with a quick wave as he headed for the door. "Try not to miss me too much." SHE REALLY SENT HIM AWAY I CAN'T 😭😭😭 WHAT A WOMAN

"You didn't know why this time felt different, why you couldn't turn a blind eye as you had before. Maybe it was the project, or maybe it was the unfamiliar vulnerability that had burrowed under your skin since that day back home" our poor baby is just so shocked and distressed after seeing satoru back then, when he nearly died in her arms, her feelings are totally understandable 😭😭

"You could see the shame burning in his eyes, the self-loathing that ate away at him" STOP THIS I AM BEGGING SUGURU JUST DON'T WHYYY AND IT'S ONLY THE BEGGING OF THE CHAPTER I AM SCARED

"I can tell," you said, a faint smile touching your lips. "By the look on your face, the way you look at me sometimes. You don't have to apologize for your feelings, Suguru. You can't control them." You paused, your heart heavy. "I know that all too well." she's so right, i hope these words will help suguru heal a little bit, as i said previously, that's very respectful and considerate of him! he's obviously not the type of a person to pressure anyone especially s&c reader to anything

s&c reader and her friends' interactions, love them all so much (especially maki)!

"You looked up to find Satoru standing there. His hands were tucked casually in the pockets of his perfectly tailored dress pants. Crisp white shirt, navy tie. His expression was unreadable �� as always." he's sometimes kinda creepy 😭 still adore him.

"Maki rolled her eyes. "We'll head out," she announced, gathering her things with a pointed look in Satoru's direction. The scrape of her chair against the worn wooden floor was jarringly loud in the hushed library" WHAT IS HE DOING, HE JUST MADE THEM ALL UNCOMFORTABLE AND GO OUT OF THE ROOM 😭 i can't with him

"Inside, neatly organized notes and summaries of the lectures you'd missed stared back at you, each page filled with carefully highlighted passages and detailed diagrams. Brightly colored sticky notes peeked out from between the pages, explanations and key points meticulously written in Satoru's messy handwriting" WAIT WHAT HSHSHSHSSHSH HE JUST WHAT WHAT HE DID HE WROTE ALL THE LECTURES SHE MISSED????? OR WHAT JUST ASKED FOR THEM??? idk it made me tear up, that's sooo i am sorry i don't even have words, i would basically melt at this point 😭😭😭😭 i love him so much it's impossible, like the effort he put into all of this? speaks VOLUMES

"You flipped through the folder. It wasn't just notes. He'd even gone through the old exams, the ones you'd failed due to, well, everything that had been going on in your life lately — him mostly to be fair" you know what? i am in love with the way he loves s&c reader. that's so nice, kind and considerate of him, everyone needs such a person in their lives 🥹 he's so cute i almost forgot all his drug and commitment issues-

"You grabbed your half-empty, now lukewarm coffee cup, and before you could even think, the contents splashed across his smug face." QUEEN SLAYED! SHE SAID ENOUGH OF GOJO'S MAKING A FOOL OUT OF US! IT'S BEEN ENOUGH! the lesson should be learnt.

"Ouch," he said, that infuriating smirk returning to his lips. "Is this how you plan to treat me in our marriage? Because I have to say, it's turning me on." gojo, everything she does turns you on, who are you trying to fool 🙄

the way they are both SO stubborn and it's always a battle of minds and wills with each other between them ❤️ absolutely love this dynamic

"No, I mean—" You reached out, cupping his cheek. His skin was rough with stubble. "You don't have to do this, Satoru. I'll accept you as you are. Addict and all. I don't care." i feel my heart's just been ripped out and thrown to the floor 😀😀

"Somehow, you felt that your unconditional love for Satoru and your desperate need to see him whole again was tearing you apart as surely as his addiction was tearing him apart" so nicely worded 😩 she loves him and seeing that his addiction destroys him tears her apart as well 😞 and there's nothing she could actually do to make him feel better, i don't know honestly how to describe these feelings, it's so complicated :( but accepting addiction is difficult anyways, the consequences would pain you every time. it feels like a doomed circle: she wants him to be whole, but he isn't whole without drugs and the cycle repeats again and again

"Listen to me, Satoru," you paused, waiting until his eyes locked with yours, until you were sure you had his full attention. The intensity of his gaze almost made you falter, but you pressed on. "You think you're the disease, but I think you're the cure. And I'll keep saying it, over and over again, until you start to see it too." the truth is (for me personally) he's both to her, not that i find it this bad (after all we will have a happy ending....will we, nici?..) and this is such a beautiful and all consuming form of self destruction 😩😩😩 they're both so madly in love with each other it's INSANE. i live for it

"No." He reached for your hand and intertwined his fingers with yours, his palm warm and rough against your skin. "I'm in love." no you're stupid and in love

"God, you were so afraid and terrified of failing him, of not being strong enough to stand by him through this. Shouldn't you be stronger? Shouldn't you be able to handle this without falling apart?" nooo baby you're doing just fine 😭 sometimes even you're way too strong and you shouldn't bear all of the burden on your own (this is applicable for everyone) but AGAIN both her and satoru are so stubborn it makes me angry STOP DOING THAT, PLEASE TALK TO EACH OTHER AND SHARE YOUR BURDEN, DON'T BOTTLE UP YOUR EMOTIONS, they're gonna be the death of me, i swear 😭 you know i think she's too strong so she forgot how to be weak, but it's okay to admit your weaknesses, understand that you're not able to do something, just let go of it 😞 i hope she will understand that as well :( our strong girl

"You looked down, your heart sinking as you saw his picture on the home screen. It wasn't an obvious photo, but a candid shot you'd secretly taken of him" killing myself bye everyone 🤗💋

"Didn't want to admit that parents could be so cruel" WHEN WILL THIS STOP. I AM HURT. there's no way abuse could be even slightly justified towards anyone let alone CHILDREN. i am soooo angry rn

"Yuta, however, remained unconvinced. "Are we seriously considering this? Going to the party of the guy who assaulted our friend?" totally with yuta on this, that wouldn't be the smartest idea...

"You would deal with the consequences later, would find a way to make it up to Satoru somehow. For now, you needed this — needed to feel in control." i understand her feeling but that's too dangerous and i am scared of her 😭 maybe dr. handsome should come along as well, though ANOTHER violent beating either naoya or satoru's bank account won't survive

"And you meant it, with every goddamn fiber of your being. But seeing him like this, seeing the evidence of his struggle written in blood on his skin, it was hard not to feel a twinge of doubt — to feel that perhaps your efforts were not enough" this hurts me so fucking much, on one side is their wellbeing, and on the other... THEIR WELLBEING AS WELL 😭 she wants him to be clean, but the price is too high and consequences as well as the process are dreadful

"Because you think you're that awful?" he does and it kills me. it kills me that he doesn't see barely anything good in him, i am crying AGAIN and the way it probably angers him that he influences her (in a bad way as he thinks ofc) and he's so upset even now...😞😞😞

"Satoru chased after you. He managed to block your shot just in time, his hand slamming against the ball. "Steroids might not be enough. We could use tocilizumab or other anti-IL-6 agents, like in CAR-T therapies for blood cancers." i am sorry that's so hot of him to be this smart.

"Yeah, we need a clear intervention plan, something like a safety switch to destroy CAR-T cells if toxicity becomes unmanageable," you added, our voice breathless. i am sorry that's so hot of her to be this smart.

"Satoru looked up at you, his eyes dark. "So stubborn, yet so weak," he said, his fingers brushing lightly over your inner thigh. "Your body always betrays you, love. It can't resist me." LITERALLY THIS BASTARD SO HOT

"Naoya? Are you fucking kidding me?" Satoru's eyes narrowed. "You wanna go to a party thrown by the same fucker who tried to drug you? Have you lost your goddamn mind?" i understand s&c reader as well, but more with satoru on this, that's way too dangerous and he will be so worried and frustrated 🥺🥺🥺

"Some rational part of your brain screamed at you to stop, but it was drowned out by the roar of your emotions. You were tired, so goddamn tired of him wanting to protect you while he was literally falling apart at the seams" NO ANOTHER MISCOMMUNICATION I AM JUMPING OFF THE CLIFF, WHEN WILL THIS END

"And now what?" you exploded, the words leaving your mouth before you could stop them. "Should I just lock myself away? Never go out, never have any fucking fun, never live a normal goddamn life? I barely sleep, you know that? I'm constantly doing research, going to classes, studying for exams. I don't get to have the typical university experience, the friendships, the stupid parties. And now, the one time I want to feel like a normal fucking student being for once, you want to take that away from me too? Like you haven't already taken everything else?" she deserves all of it but not with that price 😞😞😞😞

I CAN'T DO ITTTTT SHE'S JUST SO ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED NOT EVEN WITH SATORU, IT'S ALL JUST COME INTO PLACE, EVERYTHING FELL ON HER 😭😭😭

"It's tearing me apart, being without you," he confessed. His brows knitted together, pain etched into every line of his face. "No matter how much time passes, no matter how hard I try to stay away, to move on, my heart will always belong to you. It beats for you, only for you. I'm so fucking lost without you, so empty, so incomplete—" i really am shattered and teary eyed at these words. left speechless.

"You were water in his hands, fluid and formless, sometimes losing your own shape in the tidal wave that was Satoru's love. You were rain in his storm, mist in his morning, ice in his winter. But it didn't matter. 

For you would gladly be formless in his hands if it meant being close to him. For he was the moon to your tides, the wind to your waves, the earth that carved your path. He brought motion to your stillness, depth to your shallows." THIS IS SO PERFECTLY WRITTEN I AM IN TEARS, JUST THEM COMPLEMENTING AND DESTROYING EACH OTHER SIMULTANEOUSLY, SO BEAUTIFUL AND DESTRUCTIVE AND DREADFUL IN THIS LOVE AND POWER

"Just as you were about to let go, a shrill ringing filled the car, making you shutter for a second. Satoru's phone, connected to the car's Bluetooth system, lit up the dashboard with an incoming call." 😭😭😭 THAT WAS SOOO OUT OF MOMENT

"You wanted to die right then and there." i think everyone would do (except dr. handsome)

"Next weekend would be fine. I trust you can spare us a few hours out of your busy schedule of debauchery and disrespect?" DEBAUCHERY AND DISRESPECT 😭😭😭😭 he's just a silly goofy cutie patootie 🥺💝

"You think I'd let you go alone to your parents?" the party is cancelled me thinks, but another "wonderful" weekend for satoru and s&c reader! i really am afraid.

ahhhh thank you so so much for your incredible message !! 😭😭😭 your words mean the world to me <33

i've read it yesterday while my boyfriend was cooking and i was smiling like a idiot at your message ahaha. he asked me what i was smiling at and i was like, you wouldn't understand lol.

didn't think the chapter would be such a rollercoaster for you, bc apparently not much was happening haha, expect like 8k words of car smut help. and omg, you don't know how much it means to me that you're saying i improve with every chapter :''))

i'm really trying to make the story better and better and learn a lot while writing it and it really means so much to me that it shows kinda ?? ahhh i'm so happy rn. you make my whole day, believe me <33

and yes satoru was so soft in this chapter, it's truly heartbreaking to write him in so much pain but also reader but ahhh i'm so weak for this trope of both being like on the verge of collapse but still do everything possible to at least make the other feel loved and happy :''))

am i'm so sorryyy for making u cry !!! ahhh kinda happy that the story touches you on such a level, but still !!! take care girl <33

and i'm so happy that i kinda got the complicated feelings for reader right ?? like i was rewriting her inner monologue parts again and again and was always like, this doesn't make sense but then again, these feelings are so complicated and often define rationality so it kinda fits that they are all messy and over. ahhh just so so happy that you got that characterization right, with just her bursting out all that pend up frustration !! that was really what i was going for <33

can't wait to write that FAMILY DINNER ahahha. that's gonna be so much delicious angst for me to write *evil laughter* <33

STOP THIS I AM BEGGING SUGURU JUST DON'T WHYYY AND IT'S ONLY THE BEGGING OF THE CHAPTER I AM SCARED

and omg, suguru is so hurt even from s&c perspective now wait until we see that scene from his perspective *more evil laughter*

gojo, everything she does turns you on, who are you trying to fool 🙄

lol this made me laugh out loud ahahah

the way they are both SO stubborn and it's always a battle of minds and wills with each other between them ❤️ absolutely love this dynamic

yeesss !! i also love that dynamic so much <33

the truth is (for me personally) he's both to her, not that i find it this bad (after all we will have a happy ending....will we, nici?..) and this is such a beautiful and all consuming form of self destruction 😩😩😩

the "will we, nici?" 😭😭😭 yes of course !!! idk why u question that all the time ?? everything fine, right ??? *evil laughter returns* but yeah, really the self destruction is just ahhhh, i love it, i probably shouldn't but i can't help it :'))

maybe dr. handsome should come along as well, though ANOTHER violent beating either naoya or satoru's bank account won't survive

girl you make so funny comments i can't 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 but hmmmm maybeeee something is cooking !!

i really am shattered and teary eyed at these words. left speechless.

😭😭❤️❤️

THIS IS SO PERFECTLY WRITTEN I AM IN TEARS, JUST THEM COMPLEMENTING AND DESTROYING EACH OTHER SIMULTANEOUSLY, SO BEAUTIFUL AND DESTRUCTIVE AND DREADFUL IN THIS LOVE AND POWER

hahaha i'm SO GLAD u liked the water metaphor, i was so proud at myself for writing it lol.

thank you again for leaving me this lovely message and giving me insights of your reading experience, i'll forever cherish these messages and come back to them, really :'')) <33 hope you have a wonderful week and something good happens to you on the weekend, i'm manifesting that for you !! <33

[tiffanylamps]

🔥🔥🔥🔥 of course, some beyond evil hot takes 🔥🔥🔥🔥 but also, what is some controversial opinion that you have about something entirely mundane :^0

ask me ask me ask me baby (Disclaimer: I started writing this, then had dinner, watched an episode of Bros on Foot, then had a shower and now I'm pretty exhausted (thanks rona + bad health). So my answers may seem a lil disorganised... they most likely are) Oh, gosh. I don't think I have that many opinions that are actually controversial when discussing be. But I shall still give it a go. I going to put a break here 'cause I really didn't know when to shut up. Also, sorry Iva but I feel like my answers are things we've already spoken about. So, I don't think any of this is new information to you 😩 TL;DR: Dong Sik and Joo Won shouldn't be represented by one aspect of their character. They're more complicated than that. (Including a mundane opinion at the end) (please excuse any weird funny business in this post (writing, grammar, spelling, clarity), we're trying our best here at Lamps HQ)

i. We as a fandom baby Dong Sik too much. I love Dong Sik. I adore him. He has seen and experienced far too many traumas, and I want nothing but good things for him in his future. What happened to him and his family when he was 20 was a tragedy that could have been avoided if the system (which should be in place to aid victims) wasn't systemically corrupt. He was beaten by police officers whilst in custody. He was framed and belittled, degraded, and humiliated. (the trauma he experienced is so layered and would take a lifetime for him to unpack and get closure from).

It almost completely ruined his life and future prospects, and it would have been done if Nam Sang Bae hadn't come in with his lvl 100 guilt and tried to make up for his actions. Dong Sik tried to make the best out of the awful circumstances that befell him and I sincerely admire him. Not everyone is as kind and loving as Dong Sik.... But but but... Buuuuut that doesn't absolve him of his actions. He murdered someone with his bare hands and allowed the system that was once put against him to be used in his favour.

Police officers shouldn't be murdering civilians. full stop. Yes, he was emotionally compromised- technically it could be seen as self-defence, but an unconvicted man, a suspect, was murdered and Dong Sik didn't face repercussions. Nam Sang Bae skewed the evidence so Dong Sik didn't get into trouble. Dong Sik took a year (?) off work after that event and to "help" him recover, Sang Bae got Dong Sik transferred to his substation (which Sang Bae had been demoted to as a result of one of his rookies dying on the job. Although, it wasn't deemed much of a punishment considering he was so close to retiring anyway). All the while, Dong Sik feels justified for his actions (as he did when he moved Min Jeong's fingers). (Screenshots from the translated script book/author's notes doc)

I think it's best that when discussing and exploring Dong Sik's character, we remember that he is a man capable of murder. He is a murderer. (Do I blame him for what he did? No, not really. I can see why he did it. Objectively, I fucking love it for the narrative lol). But yeah, he isn't a guiltless sweet baby angel who never did anything wrong in his life. (DISCLAIMER: obviously jokes are just jokes. I love them and I never want them to stop. I am super guilty of participating in this line of joking and I'm not about to stop any time soon. But when discussing DS in serious conversations, we shouldn't erase his history. By doing that, we are devoiding him of agency and retribution (which is one of the main arcs/themes of his character development)).

ii. Joo Won is autistic and people need to stop calling him stupid. I will die on this hill, I don't care. I fully encourage everyone to bully Joo Won, because, well, he fucking deserves it. I know that bullying him is a hilarious love language the fandom has developed and I fully participate in this pastime. I honestly love it. Yes, he has done a lot wrong and shouldn't be absolved of his sins (that being said, we should allow him the space to learn and grow. We should learn to forgive whilst still keeping him and ourselves in check). But where I draw the line is when people outright laugh at his characteristics/actions which are derived from the fact that Joo Won is coded as autistic.

I know not everyone is going to be particularly versed in neurodivergent symptoms and that is completely fine. I even didn't fully clock Joo Won being autistic the first time I watched the show- I "labelled" his actions as a result of one) his obscenely privileged upbringing and two) the fact that he (imo) has some degree of OCD (which is a type of anxiety disorder). Then it hit me one day that he is soooo autistic. A few examples (I'm too ill to list each one or go into full detail): 1- People say that he's a bad detective. Which, ugh. 2- That he should have seen the "obvious" signs that Dong Sik wasn't the killer earlier. This sentiment completely ignores the timeline of the show and the fact that the viewer is provided information that Joo Won doesn't have access to. And it also removes Dong Sik's accountability for being purposely obtuse and antagonistic. 3- the whole (very minor) narrative that joo won is lame because he has terrible people skills (or something along those lines, I can't quite remember the tags I read as it was a while ago). This one, in particular, ties in with Joo Won's autism coding. With a (relatively sound) understanding of what autism looks like in male adults, to me, it would seem that a lot of what Joo Won does (speaking bluntly, getting easily confused when provided a lot of information during an intense situation, overwhelm, struggling to gauge people's emotions/tone, being very black and white, hyper focussing on a topic of interest, struggling to adapt to new social environments, masking, issues with food and sensory stimulation, etc) can be credited to autism. Perhaps I'm connecting dots that don't exist and am projecting an ideal onto his character, but as someone who grew up with multiple friends and family members who are neurodiverse (and is neurodiverse myself), I can see so many similarities between Joo Won's actions, thought processes, and mannerisms to that of a person with autism.

^ (credit) here is an overview of some characteristics of autism in adults (obviously, it's a complex topic which differs from person to person. But I can definitely connect many of these examples to joo won's character and actions). [I feel like I could say a lot more about this subject, but it would be distracting away from the original point. I have thoughts on Joo Won masking and how he struggles to mask around Dong Sik]

How does this relate to Joo Won being "stupid"? One may ask. I will try to explain it as best I can (even though I don't fully have my answer planned out). Labelling Joo Won as stupid, as a stuck-up nepo baby who did nothing for the storyline, or just a useless dolt that needed Dong Sik to spoon-feed him, completely misconstrues the source material. Joo Won is intelligent, hard-working, determined, stubborn, foolish, annoying, pompous, proud, narrow-minded, snobby, short-sighted, dedicated, loyal, loving, persistent, and perceptible to change (and even more than that). We wouldn't have a story if Joo Won was stupid. We wouldn't have a conclusion if Joo Won was stupid. Downplaying Joo Won's intelligence and chalking up his characteristics as something that makes him less-than does a complete disservice to his character as well as his importance within the story. Beyond Evil is a story with TWO leads. It's not the Dong Sik show. I can NEVER subscribe to the act of bringing one character down in order to hold another up. Dong Sik is not this all-seeing, all-knowing, flawless character. If he was, he would have never been framed for murder, he wouldn't have been stuck for 20 years, and he wouldn't have needed help in uncovering the truth. He needed Joo Won (and Ji Hwa, Jae Yi, Jung Je, Ji Hoon, Du Soo, Sang Bae, etc). Without Joo Won, he may have never found out the full truth of what happened to his sister (as how many people in his life had a part to play in the traumas he faced). So, I think it's about time that people start to recognise Joo Won as a neurodivergent character (and stop giving him a hard time for not seeing signs that WE were given), as well as stop downplaying him. Kim Soo Jin, Sim Na Yeon, and Yeo Jin Goo created such a multi-dimensional, complex, flawed character with good and bad qualities, it does a disservice to their creativity and hard work when one belittles Joo Won down to one descriptor. Dong Sik and Joo Won aren't just the idiot and the downtrodden. They're more than that and fan interpretation shouldn't rewrite the facts of the show.

Anyway... there's a point in there somewhere... I think... I have no idea if I managed to construct a reply that makes sense. I don't think I fully relayed all my thoughts on this particular matter, but we live. tbh, I feel very icky when an autistic character gets labelled as stupid or useless. It gets on my nerves and if it wasn't obvious, I am pretty protective of Joo Won (maybe I shouldn't be, but... well... here we are!). Also, as a note: I don't expect anyone to agree with my opinion that Joo Won is autistic. But yeah, I was going to include more "controversial" opinions for be, but I have already said way too much. This post reads like a rant - which it probably is - and I don't want it to ruffle anyone's feathers. It's not an attack, it's just my opinion.

As for the mundane opinion: iii. kiwis are the scum of the fruit world. They're nasty and a lot of effort to eat (considering they don't taste great), and their texture is gross. But I do think their furry shell is pretty neat, even if it makes my skin cruel. (idk why this was the first thing that came to mind lol)

(sorry Iva. Maybe one day I will learn how to give short answers😂🫣)

[megamindsecretlair]

heyy pretty gal 😩💞 been a min! can I plz have ur advice??

So i recently had sex for the first time. p.s. ate that shii DOWN 🏆👀 But it’s embarrassing cuz that mf got me sick .. Iykyk. 😐

I’m so heart broke ONLY cuz it felt so good & I’ve wanted that for so long.... Just for it to negatively affect me emotionally/physically. 💔 And intimacy is so addicting* (especially with childhood traumas.)

So it’s kinda like I played myself. Or did myself a disservice. By giving in, being intimate, & giving chances to someone who didnt deserve it. Damn i feel like a statistic.

But still, why are Black men so.. hurtful.. to Black women?? Should I have kept my promise & waited longer? How do you recoup after experiencing sex? especially after a person/situation like that.

I want to move on.. but idk when I’ll feel that closeness again. And as a Black woman? Im tired of using work/responsibilites as a “healthy” distraction. I just want an emotional break 💔 these niggas piss me off .

~ ik its a lot, but this a safe space right? <3

Hey girl. I am by no means a sex expert or mental health expert, take what resonates, leave what doesn't, but this is indeed a safe space and I'm absolutely honored you trusted me with this.

Having sex is a deeply personal decision, but you should never feel like you did yourself a disservice. FUCK THAT MF 👏🏽👏🏽 HE AINT DESERVE YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE.

Unfortunately, theres no way to know that for certain when these mfs are scheming from jump. Black men are conditioned to be coddled. Family, especially Black moms, will cater to and coddle the hell out of their sons. Fix their plates, wash their clothes, etc. So when they get out into the streets, they're looking for that in their partners. Conversely, Black daughters are conditioned to overchieve to the point of perfectionism. They have to be cooks, doctors, therapists, maids, etc and outclass their counterparts in every way possible. So if a man don't get what he thinks he deserves, he feels no qualms about dogging someone out.

I'm sorry your first time sucked. Im so, so, sorry that it wasn't full of love and safety. Do not beat yourself up about this. Sex should be enjoyed safely with consenting partners. You WILL get there. One day, you will be screaming glory to the ceiling. I know this will happen for you 👏🏽

This is only one bad experience. But it cannot color your future experiences. My best advice is to listen to your gut. When you are in tune with the right person, you may not feel butterflies or anxiousness or feel that die hard passion that TV likes to lie about. The right person? Will make you feel safe. You will feel calm around this person. Your worries will melt away because his/her/their priority is to put you at ease. They will listen to you. They will communicate with you. They will never pressure you into something you're not ready for.

They will wait 10 years to have sex with you if you're not ready. And will gladly wait those 10 years to make sure you're safe in their arms. I cannot stress this enough. Communication is your best friend 👏🏽 if you can't open your mouth and communicate your needs with someone you're willing to hop in bed with, why are you hopping in bed with them 🤔

Sex is a journey. A long, complicated, stressful, wonderful journey. The intimacy will come, the love will come. You gon get there, I promise 😚 even if its casual sex and youre not in love with the person, fight that instinct to retreat. Fight that instinct to close yourself off.

You dont need distractions right now, you gotta sit with this feeling. You gotta live with it. You gotta identify what it is youre searching for. And never compromise on that.

Black girls are never afforded opportunities to be soft. To be vulnerable.

Fight it!!! And keep fighting it!!!

[mlobsters]

supernatural s9e11 first born (w. robbie thompson)

this reminds me a bit of teen wolf in the plot overload disorder. i don't think i even bothered mentioning abaddon last episode. too much shit going on! also makes me laugh that we're in the 1800s, teen wolf also had this very weird (not good) flashback for the history of the argents (in the 1700s) 😂

all right, i know it's cain here, but i don't know anything really beyond that. except the mark at some point.

CROWLEY So...is that boudoir smile for me?

crowley's back in his sweet spot of evil but also maybe helpful but also probably trying to fuck you over. much better than just flat evil

CROWLEY I've been chasing that blade for decades. The closest I got to it was when one of my droogs -- Smitty -- got wind of a protégé demon of Abaddon's who claimed knowledge of the blade. Sadly, before Smitty could nab the guy, a hunter by the name of John Winchester nabbed the protégé. I'm here to see if there's anything in the John Winchester memorial library that might lead us to the first blade -- to killing Abaddon. DEAN You want to hunt? With me? CROWLEY I do love a good buddy comedy.

i know people talk up how crowley feels about dean but to me crowley is just horny for literally everyone and/or no one. sheppard is just so charismatic in this part

why is this so cute!

laughed out loud, good one. i'm the BEST liar, i totally fucked you both over, don't you remember??? don't besmirch my lying abilities, bro

i thought being totally sober would make me less loquacious but sadly, no ;(

CROWLEY Is all this really necessary? I mean, I've been inside your brother. We're practically family. DEAN Listen to me. We are the furthest thing from family. You got that, dickbag?

while dean does like to adopt every stray he comes across, the king of hell apparently doesn't qualify 😩

cas seemed disappointed about the lack of an actual guinea pig. understandable

sam barely keeping it together haha

hello sarah connor 🔥

CROWLEY I can help. Dean? DEAN He wants Abaddon as dead as I do. TARA If your daddy could see you now.

stop the doom spiral of guilt, dean. it's complicated, okay??? and shooting the floor in her own shop to break the devil's trap, what the actual fuck 😂

CROWLEY Would you care to join us? TARA Him? Anytime. You? Never.

hot lady who banged his dad, of course she wants to jump dean too. reminds me of this

s7e19 of grave importance

SAM Annie's not usually this late, is she? DEAN No, never. She's totally compulsive. I'll try her cell. SAM You know, uh, you know she and Bobby had a thing, right? DEAN Yeah. Yeah, I knew that. Really? SAM Yeah. Kind of a foxhole thing – very Hemingway. DEAN Huh. She and I kind of went Hemingway this one time, too. SAM All right, well... that happens. DEAN What, you too? SAM Look, it was a while back. We ended up on the same case. She was stressed. I-I-I... I didn't... have a soul. DEAN That's a lot of foxholes.

what a pretty face! i don't know much religious lore but i wasn't expecting cain to be scary for crowley. i have no idea where he lands in the food chain, in fact

DEAN Why don't you just zap out of here? CROWLEY I'd never leave my domestic partner in crime. DEAN [snorts] Yeah, like your heart grew three sizes. You can't zap out of here, can you?

i wonder if crowley could make it an entire day without flirting with anyone

CASTIEL Sam, the trials. You chose not to go through with them for a reason, didn't you? You chose to live rather than to sacrifice yourself. You and Dean... You chose each other. SAM Yeah, I did. We did. And then... Dean made a choice for me.

😔

how does finding gadreel fix things?

cain became a demon, okay (aha things are clicking that i know from fic lol). so with the whole dean and sam are descended from cain and abel, does that mean cain is grandpa? uncle?

CASTIEL No. Why must the Winchesters run toward death?

good question, cas

sometimes i wonder how things are lit (in all media, not just spn), if they're trying to give the appearance of someone being on the verge of tears. when you got that highlight near your lower eyelid, it really looks like it regardless of actual tears accumulating. anyway,

SAM My life's not worth any more than anyone else's -- not yours or Dean's...or Kevin's. Please. Please, help me do one thing right. Keep going.

oh, sam.

@shinelikethunder linked this fight scene with rhianna's s&m over it, i may not be feeling the vibes op is talking about but i can appreciate it nonetheless :) it's a really good fight scene for jackles and great song choice. i'm always mourning the spn that could have been with better music 😔

looking to see if there was a clean version on spotify of s&m out of curiosity and laughing that there's a kids version of the "sex in the air, i don't care i love the smell of it, sticks and stones may break my bones but chains and whips excite me" song

DEAN Right. Yeah, except I didn't kill my brother. CAIN You saved yours. Why? DEAN Because you never give up on family -- ever. CAIN Where's your brother now, then?

ouch.

also, cain is retired, other demons didn't know where he was, but apparently he still gets the hot gossip on the winchesters somehow.

CASTIEL Sam, I want Gadreel to pay as much as you do. But nothing is worth losing you.

oh i see

ah fucking hell speaking of music, this melody is back. what did i associate it with last time. twilight and something. i think when dean was praying in his room to cas. it's at the very end of this post, i included video of it - s8e16

something about this mushy music has me feeling twilight or hunger games and i'm not sure which. ugh. bella's lullaby / rue's music (but that doesn't even have piano but it does have that plucked acoustic guitar like day before yesterday's s8e14 princess bride-esque music)

and apparently it really was time for sam and cas quality time. but anyway this melody is so familiar, kicks in when cas says the thing about him screwing up more than sam. is it a slowed down version of some spn theme? urgh. question may go unanswered until i rewatch from the beginning.

so anyway, that was a nice moment. i like how robbie is writing cas this episode

DEAN The jawbone of an animal. The jawbone you used to kill Abel because he was God's favorite. CAIN Abel wasn't talking to God. He was talking to Lucifer. Lucifer was gonna make my brother into his pet. I couldn't bear to watch him be corrupted, so I offered a deal -- Abel's soul in heaven for my soul in hell. Lucifer accepted... As long as I was the one who sent Abel to heaven. So, I killed him. Became a soldier of Hell -- a knight.

listen i don't know these stories except for very broad strokes but okaaaay interesting twist

ABADDON We could have been forever, but you chose her. Well, if I can't have you, then neither can she.

i see. ex and you're her... creator? complicated

welp. i didn't know dean was getting the mark in this episode, wheels are in motion

aw. sweet sammy

CASTIEL As far as I'm concerned, Metatron is the key to fixing everything that's wrong. I'm gonna find him. You know, Sam, we could use all the help we could get to find Gadreel and Metatron.

--

CROWLEY You don't mean that. We're having too much fun. Listen up. Even with the Blade, we're gonna need all the help we can get against Abaddon. DEAN Go find the Blade. CROWLEY It's always something with you boys, isn't it?

cute. but yes, show sure likes to do it!

i'm sure it's fine

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here bestie and *deep sigh* here we are...again. Not to get off topic but have you ever seem The Green Mile?? I have a complicated relationship with that movie but I the thing from it permanently imprinted on my brain is when the warden comes in demands "What in the Blue Fuck was That!?" It a whole ass mood right now after watching that clip and I highly recommend just watching that line to get the full effect.

Why, for the love of God, are we bringing up Shannon again??!! She didn't even really come up during Eddie's PTSD arc but we're just gonna randomly insert her in a episode sort of about death?? Of course we are because KR has literally no new ideas. Oh except for this season where she's like "You know what hasn't been done yet?? We haven't emphasized importance of family by blood so we'll redeem all the horrible parents with zero effort to let everyone know your grudges are petty and just hurt you." You know why that hasn't been done Kristen??!! Because this is a show about FOUND family, realizing your importance and worth in a space that's safe for you to do that, and having the support you need when the bad times come!! She has actually forgotten the very foundation of this show and I'd scream but I'm also so, so tired. You know what time it is then 🍸🍸🍸. Gonna read comfort fic and find a comfort show to put on when that gets hard. Cheers friend!!

Bestieeeee! What. The fuck. Is happening?! I didn't answer this Friday and I should have because yesterday was a WHOLE other mess! I feel so bad for dragging you into this show just in time for it to all go to shit. We survived RNM, we don't deserve to suffer like this again! 😩😩😩

Your "KR has literally no new ideas" line is SO apt after that clip yesterday literally recycling the eddieana meeting. Parallels can be used and be effective but after she literally just re-did Buck's fight with Bobby over returning to work with Eddie (only to not show their apology or Eddie's decision to return to work on screen), and re-did Eddie's "it's time to get back out there after Shannon and figure out what you want") s4 arc last week, this "Buck meets a girl on a call in the exact same way Eddie met Ana" just looks...so so so lazy. Not to mention Buck and Eddie are only ever with women after they meet them on calls, AND we are reverting Buck back to season 1 "a relationship with THIS women must be able to fix me" which is just...gross. Buck was always one of my favorite characters but GOD I dread his personal scenes now because KR just doesn't know what to do with him unless it's trying to get into his pants in some way and she doesn't understand any of the motivations or what drives him as a character. Stop ruining my boy!! GOD I need her off this show like, YESTERDAY.

ANYWAY

This whole Shannon thing has me so 🙄🙄🙄 because as good as Ryan and Gavin are and Eddie/Chris scenes always are because they play so well off each other, this is like, the LEAST interesting thing they could have done and it's clearly not about Chris or Eddie or their complicated history with Shannon, it's just being used to push the "Eddie choosing someone to date for himself" idea. They could have given something deep and emotional this season like Chris now being old enough to start asking harder questions about Shannon leaving and Eddie trying to navigate that with him, or having a talk about Chris starting to be interested in dating and asking Eddie some hard questions about why Eddie isn't dating again since Ana has been gone for so long. But nope! It's "let's pretend this parent never did anything awful and there are zero complex feelings about them" hours once again. Thanks, I HATE it. And for me it ruins the nuance of Shannon's character because she WAS just a person who was struggling. But where Eddie thought his son didn't need *him* so much as he needed Eddie to provide for him and once he found out Chris just wanted to spend time WITH him he fought tooth and nail to make it work no matter how hard, Shannon decided it was too much and cut off all contact because keeping in touch with her son and making sure he knew he was loved wasn't as important as her not wanting to be put in an awkward position. And that's life! And Chris and Eddie should be allowed to acknowledge that they loved her at some point, Chris should be allowed to have good memories of his mom, and still be allowed to acknowledge that she abandoned them and hurt them deeply and there are complex feelings around that!

These complex parental relationships leading to the found family of the 118 has ALWAYS been at the heart of the show and you're right that KR has NEVER understood that and has spent this season undermining that bond across the whole team and any time the story tries to emphasize the found family it's also still pushing the blood family importance so the storytelling comes out confused and in opposition to itself giving the audience emotional whiplash. I'm just so very very tired of this. I'm positive it's too much to hope for but with audiences tuning out and the constant complaints at how the show is handling arcs and pacing and KR's choices, and even now articles by people who often write about 911 calling out the inconsistencies, maybe the negotiations for renewal will come with some stipulations on who gets to be in charge. Even if I didn't love EVERY storyline choice in the early seasons, the episodes themselves were ALWAYS enjoyable overall and there was so much good stuff going on it was easy to let the stuff I didn't like as much roll past, so it would be good to get back to that sort of vibe again and KR has proved over several seasons that she is NOT up to that task. With the Tarlos wedding wrapped up, we might get...I don't want to say "lucky" because I don't think Tim is the greatest thing ever, but we might get some bit of pacing and consistency and flow back in the show (I know LS has some pacing issues as well but that feels to me more like them having to work around RL's insistence on centricity than anything else)

Oof. Lets see if we can make it through these last few episodes with this dating nonsense, the sperm donor arc and L coming back, and maybe even a Tay Kay jumpscare. Can't wait 🙄 At least Ravi is back home and the finale emergency looks like it will be good and we're getting injured Chim so we're going to get *some* crumbs out of this mess. And then it will be summer and I've got a fic idea started soooo, we'll see if I can get anywhere with my astronaut!Buck, NASA medic!Eddie Countdowns inspired thingy. Cheers my friend, we are going to NEED IT. (But hey, if we survived RNM, we can do ANYTHING. But also we shouldn't have to and I need this show to STOP IT.) 🍹🍹🍹🍹🍹🍹🍹

[minteayoongimakesmewoozi]

I never knew I needed an arranged marriage au until now 😩

i've been pretty busy with picking up some additional shifts the last couple days, so this has been sitting in my mind for a bit but yes 😔 arranged marriage au!

- llllllet's saaaayyyy that's ayame and tanjirou are betrothed months before the tragedy in okutama. ayame is newly thirteen, tanjirou is almost thirteen and they both agree that a marriage between them would be... well. not quite beneficial, but definitely something that would make their families happy, considering the recent tragedies that befell them (akihiko's death and tanjurou's waning health)

- their marriage is shelved for when they're older, although when exactly "older" is isn't exactly specified. maybe it's just for when they get to know each other more (or when they hopefully fall in love with each other)

- kie and tanjurou married for love, after all, so they at least want that for tanjirou. hanabi and junhiko know that a betrothal can have love blossom, so they want that for ayame

- both sets of parents are aware that their kids are awkward and probably wouldn't get married otherwise cksndkwmwow

- giyuu's confrontation with tanyame would go a little different. ayame would immediately step in to protect nezuko, since that's her future sister-in-law, oni or not

- would ayame still have a crush on giyuu? hard to say. i think she would, but there would be more guilt associated with it. people would definitely tease her about it a lot less, especially considering they know she's tanjirou's fiance

- this does mean that shinobu would tease ayame abt tanjirou a lot more, yes

- tengen would also be a little less critical about her during the hashira trial too. after all, it isn't just some boy, but her betrothed. that's a hard call to make either way

- he would be more critical of tanjirou during rld though. mostly about how he failed to protect ayame with the whole okami-san and danna-san punishing her (but at the same time he'd kinda???? respect him more too????? because he trusts his betrothed to manage herself through it all. listen, fits tengen has very complicated feelings all the time make him stop)

- now... *enitsu

- u know zenitsu would just be more livid from the onset. it's one thing for tanjirou to travel with two pretty girls, but it's another thing when he's betrothed to one of them and they still haven't gotten married yet what the fuck is wrong with you

- zenitsu would go feral biting any potential suitors of ayame much sooner tho

- genya... just watch out for zenitsu's teeth. ur teeth might grow back, but zenitsu's won't. pls remember that

- let's just... put aside the genyame in this au. cos it'll make me sad. they're est buddies though! (genya is frantically trying to forget he used to have a crush on ayame)

- ayame and tanjirou in this au would be a lot shyer about sharing a room though. which is. ridiculous. u guys are ENGAGED what do u mean u're embarrassed to be sharing a room!!!!!! that's literally ur future spouse

- u know what would be funny? if kyoujurou pretended he didn't know tanjirou was betrothed to ayame. ayame knows he knows, but tanjirou doesn't, and he's going to milk it for the entirety of mugen train

- :( his final conversation would include his wedding congratulations tho :( :( :(

- and his letter from chapter 96 too 😭 😭 😭

- but also tanjirou just casually introducing ayame as his betrothed 🥺 🥺 🥺 stop it tanjirou, ayame is blushing and it's ruining her image

- swordsmith village would be less sad though. cos they'd probably start properly dating - or, well, courting - after that kiss. but ayame doesn't go on that date with genya :(

- no shinazugawa "steal yo girl" genya in this au guys

- post-ssv zenitsu would be both livid and ecstatic. will keep pushing them to get married from the moment they return

- i think inosuke would still kiss ayame in kinstugi though. cos he's chaos in a boar mask

- that being said, would fracture even happen????? maybe they'd just yell at each other and separate to sulk until ayame gets hit with the kitsune oni anthrax attack

- then it's just tears on both ends

- "I'm Kamado Tanjirou, and this is my betrothed, Higuchi Ayame!"

"Tanjirou... you - you don't have to keep adding that we're betrothed..."

- this would also make the shinjurou hinting at ayame to marry senjurou thing be even funnier. like u know he's trolling, but zenitsu heard and gasped so loud that aoi thought he was having an asthma attack

- then he sends shinjurou scandalised looks the whole night

- listen. he did offer for senjurou to be her second husband (he's such a troll smh)

- don't ask me how chapter 97 will go. i'm not gonna think about it.

- the first time ayame introduces tanjirou as her betrothed - probably in asakusa - and his heart goes doki doki so hard that even nezuko is worried

[baekhvuns]

i get you, single life is the peak of peace and oh them drawings 😩🤌i can obsess over whoever I want, I can have 10 husband's without even getting married THE PURE JOY. Im not that big of a manhwa fan but I've read a few and i can assure you, I desire that type of a romance BCZ DONT YOU SOMETIMES WANT SOMEONE TO FALL SO CRAZILY IN LOVE WITH YOU?!?! They'd embrace you, they'd tell you how pretty you are and even when you'd say 'you might get get tired of me' they'll reply "you're like the moon honey, no matter how many times I look at it, it seems to get prettier and enchanting" 😭😭😭😭 BUT I DAMN WELL KNOW MEN ARE NOT FUNCTIONED LIKE THIS AHVAJABAJAB WHYYY?!?!

Yes my happy marriage!! I honestly get the hype arnd it!!

Speaking of manhwas or webtoons, I have a few of my favourites like daytime star Oh God it is such a sweet SUCH A FLUFFY STORY BUT THEN THE ML LOOKS LIKE THIS:-

LIKE EXCUSE ME SIR THIS ISNT ALLOWED IN MY HOUSEHOLD GODDAMN!! and he's the greenest flag ever. I've also read more webtoons like operation love and surprisingly I read see you in my 19th life as a webtoon and I still haven't watched the drama. I'm currently trying to read this manhwa called my in laws are obsessed with me, AND ITS COMPLICATED ALR?? IT IS! BUT! I looovvee the art style so much I'm on my damn knees AND THE BLACK HAIRED DUDE THERDEO!!! AH HE GV MY BUTTERFLIES 😭😭 I feel like this story is presented really good and i actually like the female lead in this.

I have one more and idk why but it reminds me how you write for some reason. It's titled "midnight crying crow" and the FL on this is a detective so strong, so sassy, and in general THAT girl and the ml 😭 he's an actor AND SUCH A DIVA OMG, and that reminds me of your written Seonghwa so much Bcz

I THINK YOU GOT POINT 😭😭

LMFAOO NOT THE SIDE EYE!! Now im def gonna watch it soon! Omg they are so long and bestie I started watching one piece a few weeks ago 😭 AND I MADE IT TILL EP 7!! See I struggle with watching too like idk how peeps watch a whole season in a day, I just can't but somehow i finished a few series.

Ohh honestly I still like comedy animes better so I'm suggesting baby Buddy daddies (i literally wrote baby daddies-) , spy x family (it's so good YOR AND LOID IS MY SHIP OK?), The babysitters club IT IS SO CUTE 😭 , saiki k, the way of a househusband THIS IN PARTICULAR BCZ IMAGINE AN INTIMIDATING MAFIA GUY FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU AND AFTER MARRIAGE HE BECOMES A MANWIFE WHO LIKES CUTE THINGS AND JUST FOR YOU!??!? It's top tier!!

Ikr somehow pictures be motivating to get my life together even 😭 hell even stationary motivates me, i would've never studied or wanted to study if it wasn't for cute stationary!!

YES WE SHALL RISE!! IN THE NAME OF THE THE LORD PARK!

park peace no srs, no situationships just pure delusion <3 UHUH EXACTLY make them scenarios in ur mind and then giggle into ur pillow like 😭😭 pathetic but u KNOW WHAT BETTER THAN EVERYONE AND THEIR MEN,, NO NO I FUCKING GET U SO MUCHF WHKFHWK LIKE SAY THAT TO ME????? TELL ME IM A CUP OF COFFEE??? NEVER GIVE UP NEVER WHAT??? will forever make the men in my fics act like that, my delusion will go on

that man is so fine, the hair, the authority

I !!!! WANT !!!! HE !!!!

see now im trying to read day time star….why is it kinda dry 😭😭😭😭 crying fbwmfjwk iM not a huge fan of it atm 😭😭 SEE U IN MY 19TH LIFE I PREFER THE WEBTOON OVER THE ACTUAL DRAMA ANYDAAAAAY

NO BC I KNOW THAT ONE IVE BEEN RECCING IT AND ASKIMG EVERYONE TO READ THAT FIC BECAUSE OF HIM. THAT ART STYLE IS EVERYTHING AND WHEN HE BLUSHES?????? DROPPED.

WHAT THE FUCK. I NEED THIS MAN IRL ACTUALLY IF YALL SEE THIS, NO U DONT MIND UR BUSINESS 🔫 or read the fic,,, THE FEMALE LEAS IN TUIS IS SO GOD DAMN PRETTY 😭😭 THIS IS MY IT COUPLE IDC IDC THIS ONE WILL FORVER WIN

pls tell u ur reading secretary’s escape…

I WILL READ THAT WEBTOON !!! omg???? written hwa??? this is a must for me,, omg if u like detective type of webtoon a pls pls pls read the purple hyacinth, legendary chemistry almost like miraculous ladybug and chat noir type <3 yes. YES I GOT THE POINT BRWMBDSK

LMFAOOOO no literally i cannot watch it for hours long like i have up sailor moon in first 10 eps 😭😭

STOP I LOVE SPY x FAMILY,,, STOP IT THE WAY OF THE HOUSE HUSBAND I WAS SO OBSESSED W IT THAT I BOUGHT THE MANGA FOR IT 😭😭😭

wait i do not rmr if i rec-ed the remarried empress, yeah. an empress, remarrying, to a younger king? who’s like a golden retriever and the art?? LORD HAVE MERCY. my fav webtoons depend on the art, if i don’t like the art i don’t read it and this one has one of the best arts ive seen. SORRY THE DUDE IS JUST SO FINE FHFWMDJAKJ LET ME JIST SHOW U FBWMDWL hate her ex husband tho so he kinda fine but problematic

trust he looks even better in season 2 the art just keeps getting better!!!

men of harem is pretty good but it’s dragging along,,, PERFECT REVENGE MARRIAGE!!!! A MUST!!!! a good day to be a dog is also vvv ☺️☺️ and u can read lost in translation if u want to be depressed for the rest of ur life.

no literally!!! this reels w that same song and ppl studying got me like???? me too???

[nemesyaaa]

the smut ??? this is exactly what i mean when i say i want to fuck the prince jace, this is not a joke, not funny, it's a full desire that i want. and you write it very well, you're so good at writings !! tysm for this piece !! if there is a part2, i really need to know because the part1 make me feel so hot !! 😩😩😩 I LOVE THE FORBBIDEN LOVE TROPE WITH JACAERYS !!!

Jacaerys shook his head in disappointment, pacing around the table resting his hands on the handle of his sword without taking his eyes off you, analyzing your presence carefully, as if silently judging you. You rested your hands on the stone of the table relaxing your body on your arms, but your head couldn't stop scheming hundreds of thoughts and bloody imaginary scenarios regarding the war. I LOVE WHEN HE DO THAT, HE'S JUST SO PERFECT AND BEAUTIFUL, A WORK OF ART 😚😚

"Do you really doubt it?" he answered against your ear, then brushed his nose against yours slowly, you left a short kiss on his lips almost by instinct, so tender and unexpected that you heard a laugh come out of the prince. NO MY MAN HE'S SO CONFIDENT PLEASE !!! 🥹🥹🙏🏿

"What are you going to do if someone finds out about us?" You asked with bated breath. Deep down it was important to keep the secret guarded to keep it. Jacaerys' fingers stroking between your legs making you jump, clinging to the heir's neck and leaning against the table. "What are they going to say when they find out the crown prince fucking his sister." LMFAOOOO DONT FUCKING CARE, JACE. LET'S ENJOY THE MOMENT !! EVEN IF THEY FIND, HE WON'T STOP SO WHY WE SHOULD BE SCARED 🫡🫡

"Be a good sister," he stroked your cheek with the gentleness you deserve to be treated with. You were trying to listen to him but you were so upset you just wanted to insult him for doing that to you. "Turn around." WHATEVER THE PRINCE JACAERYS WANTS. I'M HIS AND ONLY HIS 🥰🥰FEEL LIKE A PRINCESS

Leaving him was complicated, but you were satisfied with the encounter. As you walked you felt the burning between your legs, a reminder that was to last a couple of days that he had made you his once more, that was the greatest secret they kept hidden, they had forgotten for a moment the war between families, the political problems, duty and order. THAT WAS INCREDIBLEEEEEE 😩😩😩👌🏿

the heir's favorite ⋆ jacaerys velaryon

SUMMARY. You are the first daughter of the marriage between your mother Rhaenyra Targaryen and your father Daemon Targaryen. Always the most rebellious and difficult of all, temperamental, impulsive. However, weak before the temptation to possess your older brother, the crown prince Jacaerys Velaryon, a knight par excellence, the opposite of you. But no one in Dragonstone imagined that you shared much more than dragon's blood.

WARNINGS. +18 Jacaerys Velaryon x fem!oc. Targaryen incest (brother and sister). Jacaerys aggressive and dominant. Smut. Based on the second season of House Of the Dragon.

AUTHOR'S NOTE. This was a suggestion left anonymously in the messages, so I invite you to leave yours. Thanks for reading.

The empty room was so quiet that you could feel your thoughts could be heard all over the place. The full moon illuminated the dark sky, standing out against the stars that night where everyone was resting in their chambers, but you were unable to lie in your bed, much less fall asleep without having nightmares. The Stone Table was where everyone met daily to discuss strategies for the war that was being unleashed in Westeros, but now that empty place was strange, so much silence and loneliness. The extinguished embers did not illuminate the tabletop, you touched the stone expecting to burn, however, it was totally cold.

"Who's there?" a familiar voice entered the place. You turned immediately finding Prince Jacaerys, your older brother and heir to your mother's throne. "Sister... it's very late."

"I know, you should be resting." You replied walking towards him.

"It's a bit complex lately." He took the luxury of joking, in response you smiled without much encouragement. "May I know what you're doing here?"

"Not much. Seems to me you're not the only one who doesn't get any rest." You lifted your shoulders casually. "Any news on your rounds?"

Jacaerys shook his head in disappointment, pacing around the table resting his hands on the handle of his sword without taking his eyes off you, analyzing your presence carefully, as if silently judging you. You rested your hands on the stone of the table relaxing your body on your arms, but your head couldn't stop scheming hundreds of thoughts and bloody imaginary scenarios regarding the war.

"Cole's army is getting bigger and bigger and we don't have a damn clue about anything." You said with a tense jaw. "And about my father..." you sighed deeply without looking your brother in the face "no word from him for days."

"That's not your fault." Jace tried to make you feel better with repeated kind words, but your guilt was growing and the anguish of the approaching war wouldn't leave you alone. "Daemon is not the priority."

"That idiot should be here, on the island, with his queen and his children." You whispered angrily. Then you looked up resolute in your decision. "I'll go see him tomorrow."

That didn't sit well with your brother.

"Don't talk nonsense, Visenya." The heir scoffed. "You can't go to Harrenhal alone, it's too dangerous and we don't know if the way is clear."

"You think I'll arrive by land alongside Daemon's imaginary army?" you sneered in the same condescending manner, a brazen gesture that made Jacaerys' blood boil. "I will ride Vermithor's back at dawn and arrive before the sun peaks. I will return the same day with news before the queen."

"That's a lousy idea!" Your brother exclaimed angrily. Grabbing your arm with brute force, forcing you to look him. "How can you even think of traveling alone to lands we don't know if they are enemies or allies?"

"We need to move fast before they come for us, Jacaerys." You squirmed under his grip feeling his fingers bury into your pale skin. "Do you intend to wait for my father to return?" you managed to break free from his grip with difficulty, Jacaerys ran a hand through his wavy hair desperate not to talk sense into you. "Because you may take a seat, I will not be accompanying you."

"Visenya, please understand the magnitude of your stupidity." He begged, chasing you from side to side. Your brother knew how impulsive you were, and how hard it was for you to get an idea out of your head, no matter if it was good or bad and in this case it was a rather dangerous one. "What happens if you cross paths with Vhagar in the skies?" The prince raised his voice to you demanding and imperative trying to intimidate you, anyone passing nearby could overhear your discussion. You turned your back to him, you didn't want to look him in the face out of embarrassment because deep down you knew his words were true. "You have no business there!"

"I have no business here either!" you exclaimed with the same intensity. You were temperamental by nature and now you were blowing off steam. "I'm tired of staying cooped up on the island, waiting for others to figure things out! I'm a dragon rider, and I'm constrained by these walls."

Your brother understood that feeling better than anyone, he grabbed you by both cheeks, covering your face with his firm hands.

"I know how you feel, Visenya. Believe me, but walking out at the first impulse is not the solution, don't you understand?" You put your hands over his, looking at him intently. You wanted to nod to answer him the question he asked you, but you were mesmerized in his nearness and his breath hitting your face. "Stay here, with us." He watched you carefully without letting go, losing himself in the sense of his pleas to look at you closely, you were so beautiful in any light no matter how dim, a Targaryen through and through with bright, intense violet eyes of long white hair like your parents. Jacaerys couldn't help but stare at you, the half-open lips tempting him to taste you, trying not to lose what little composure he had left. "With me."

You possessed the ethereal beauty of your mother and the complex character of your father, Daemon Targaryen. Under your little ethics and impulsiveness you did not think if it was a coherent idea and you threw yourself to kiss the thick lips of your brother who reciprocated instantly, none of them reasoned, they only moved to the rhythm of the kiss where their moist lips brushed anxiously. Your brother's hand on your waist took you by surprise, more so when he pressed you against his body bumping you against his chest and cornering you against the table.

"Go to sleep." Jace scolded you making an attempt to stop kissing you, but you kept reaching for him. "This isn't a good place."

With a smile you ignored knowing the only way to stop the situation was for you to go to your quarters and you didn't feel like leaving. You grabbed her hair tangling your fingers in her chestnut curls, Jacaerys strength intimidated you, but it wasn't enough to stop you.

"Don't go to Harrenhal." He pleaded leaving kisses on your neck, tracing a wet path over your skin taking advantage of inhaling your scent. "Do it and I promise I will warm your bed every night."

You felt a shiver run down your back at his offering, Jacaerys kept leaving kisses until he reached your collarbones uncovered by the neckline of your dress. His warm lips made your heart beat faster, you grabbed him by the face stopping him.

"Would you do that for me?" you asked with dangerous innocence, watching his glossy swollen lips.

"Do you really doubt it?" he answered against your ear, then brushed his nose against yours slowly, you left a short kiss on his lips almost by instinct, so tender and unexpected that you heard a laugh come out of the prince.

"I'll think about it." You whispered touching his chest, playing with the textures of the fabrics, his agitated breathing gave him away, having you close was a personal challenge for the prince. It was a lie, you weren't going to think about it, you just wanted to give him what he needed to hear to stay with you.

Jacaerys' big hands began to take hold of your body squeezing you tightly making you gasp, then you lifted your chin giving him access to your neck, the kisses there unsettled you in a special way and only your brother knew it, taking advantage of your weakness, listening closely to his breathing and feeling the warmth of his breath was much better. Everything about him you liked, and you were missing him lately. The pressure and uncertainty of the war had taken your head elsewhere, you had abandoned each other for valid reasons, but at that second you just wanted to give yourself to him one more time.

You stood on your tiptoes to gain a little more height reaching for his ear, your brother tensed at the delicate touch of your hot tongue against his lobe, you licked delicately knowing that it turned him on, he confessed it to you one night and you never forgot it. A deep moan of satisfaction came from his throat, then carefully, you lowered one of your hands straight down to his pants, positioning yourself over his hard member that was pressing against the fabric.

"This is not the best place." Begged the prince resting his forehead on your shoulder. "We are in a sacred place, you know?"

You cared little for his insistence or decency when you only wanted to shout his name, though you knew Jacaerys was asking you to stop for the sake of not failing in duty, not because the desire wasn't there. No one understood the reason why Rhaenyra did not cancel the stupid engagement between Lady Baela and the right Jacaerys, no one could deny that they could become blameless kings for the history of Westeros, but there would never be the tension and burning desire throbbing as when the fire was unleashed between you. That first time with a taste of sin, you begging him not to stop, that it was going to become a one-time secret that his parents would never find out, a secret they couldn't help but repeat between your sheets and his, in the hallways and in the library.

Desperate, your brother lifted the skirt of your dress with your help by grabbing your leg and pulling it up to his waist. The mere contact made you moan from the pleasure, you clamped your mouth shut to keep from making noise, you were too sensitive and needy and Jacaerys liked to have you under his control. You were always sarcastic, upset and nasty, just like your dragon, but Jacaerys Velaryon knew how to control you.

"What are you going to do if someone finds out about us?" You asked with bated breath. Deep down it was important to keep the secret guarded to keep it. Jacaerys' fingers stroking between your legs making you jump, clinging to the heir's neck and leaning against the table. "What are they going to say when they find out the crown prince fucking his sister."

His fingers slowly moved up and down, playing with your slimy wetness between his fingers. The mischievous grin on the chestnut's face only reflected the satisfaction of having managed to have you like this, so submissive to him.

"Does it scare you?" he whispered against your moaning lips. With his other hand he gripped the back of your neck tightly, so you wouldn't move. "They're going to find out you're my spoiled sister." Two of his long fingers began to search for the perfect place to insert themselves into you. You stirred under his grip settling in for him, your desperate breathing needing him to finish his work, but he seemed very calm provoking you with his words. "Do you know what they'll call you?" he bit your lip, pulling it towards him. "The heir's whore." His fingers slipped inside you so easily, sliding into your wet insides gushing moans from your chest as you felt him move in and out of you. Jacaerys took your leg his free hand clutching his fingers to your thigh preventing you from closing before him.

At the first loud moan you covered your mouth immediately knowing you were attracting attention, the sensation between your legs was stronger. You squeezed your brother's shoulder getting used to the movement of his fingers inside you.

"Don't yell." He ordered uncompromisingly. He had to kiss you to shut you up, which served you a few short minutes. You were losing your mind, your legs wanted to close but Jace put his foot down to stop that from happening.

"Jacaerys." His name on your lips excited him more than anything else, for it was the tone of desperation that mirrored your desire. To know that he controlled you and you were under his dominion with how arrogant you were, that no knight owned you, that everyone desired you for being Rhaenyra's spoiled daughter, but you were his, no matter an arranged marriage or duty was enough. "Mmh." You ran your hand over your face, desperate to keep silent fighting against your body that was beginning to tremble as his fingers went faster.

But for an ego like Prince Jacaerys Velaryon's it wasn't enough. Listening to you enjoy yourself on the Stone Table where every day they met to discuss war strategies was the most satisfying image to his eyes and he was not going to be able to forget it. The way you moved, dragon-like, the sweetest and most desperate noises came from you, none of the whores he had been with compared to the delicacy of a pureblood Targaryen. A unique and unrepeatable privilege.

When your breathing became erratic and the murmurs incomprehensible swearing you were going to reach that peak, Jacaerys came to a screeching halt chastising you. You opened your eyes in disappointment and fury, your heart leaping out of your chest and your legs damp and trembling.

"Be a good sister," he stroked your cheek with the gentleness you deserve to be treated with. You were trying to listen to him but you were so upset you just wanted to insult him for doing that to you. "Turn around."

Your hair stood up at his tone of voice demanding and conciliatory at the same time. As obedient as ever, just for him, you turned your back to him as the prince busied himself with pulling down his pants that were pressing against the erection he was trying to contain. Your heart wouldn't stop pounding, you could still feel his long fingers inside you and the wait, however minimal, was becoming eternal and torturous. You looked sideways at the entrances of the place without finding anyone, but the truth is that you didn't care if at that moment the queen arrived and found them like that, the euphoria and adrenaline was taking over your body and your reason, the overflowing desire had taken your actions. You felt Jace's hands sneaking up your skirt, careful where to touch, looking for just the right position to enter. He stood behind you, your dress pulled up over your back, the mere touch made you moan. You were so wet it was slipping from your entrance.

"Don't say anything." He told you and you nodded, you were capable of begging if necessary, though deep down you knew he enjoyed it making you obey. "Tell me if you want me to stop."

You closed your eyes as you felt Jacaerys slowly push behind you. You took a breath and tried to relax, you both moaned slowly, the prince tensed his jaw and clenched his teeth to keep from making noise, he stayed still for a few seconds searching for your hips digging his fingers into your skin trapping you in that position, moving you back and forth to better thrust. The rubbing of his member on your walls felt warm and wet, an invasion of your body, you were so used to his size that the sensation became familiar, literally. Some of the pieces of stone you unintentionally threw away, that was going to be a problem for later, because now the noise of their bodies colliding was beginning to consume you. The control he had over you didn't bother you, he gripped you tightly taking over everything. Her hips moved with yours instinctively in a delicious back and forth.

"Like this." You gasped with closed eyes and a satisfied expression. You reached for his hand under your dress and clung to him as tightly as Jace clung to you.

His length pumped in and out of you at a rapid pace, but this time, Jacaerys made sure each thrust was deep by ramming his pelvis into your buttocks.

"What a pleasure to meet again, don't you think?" his question was punctuated by your same panting without stopping moving. You weren't able to answer, your high-pitched moans were getting louder and louder, putting both of you at risk. On the other hand, he was breathing heavily. You had to cover your mouth with your hand, biting your palm to stifle your own moans of pleasure at having him inside you.

You started to stir but you were trapped in his hands, he knew you well enough to know what to do, you turned to look at him finding the heir ramming you with force and speed, his hair fell in curls that moved to the rhythm of his rhythm, when their gazes met for a second he stared at you, your face sweating, your eyes bright with a frown of supplication and red cheeks were enough to have no mercy. Your entrance was tightening at the same time you couldn't breathe, that feeling of a wave invading your insides begging for more desperate to reach orgasm. Jacaerys took your with one hand your waist and with the other your hip, encasing his fingers preventing you from escaping, you were in this together and you had to finish it.

You moved your arm and disarranged the pieces on the board. Now you could hear your brother moaning, cursing you for being his undoing and the greatest of his sins, making you his own feeling the power to mark you and deflower you breaking any tradition that governs the Targaryen nobility. It felt so good that you could confess your love to him just so he wouldn't stop. Luckily for both of you, he didn't stop, the rapid movements and the pressure forming in your lower stomach was getting out of control, the noise intensifying from the collision of your bodies and your knees seemed to lose any kind of strength to hold you up, luckily the table was there to support your body, plus your brother who wasn't going to let you fall. Until you couldn't manage to resist anymore, your orgasm came first like a shiver throughout your body, you closed your eyes tightly and watching you exclaim his name in screams of pleasure ended the infinite torture of the heir that took a few seconds to wait.

"Shit." Your voice hopefully came out of your dry mouth. You had your chest against the weight crushing your breasts, one of your hands intertwined with your brother's who was rebounding behind you.

You both took a second to take a breath and assimilate what you had just done, you had promised not to fall into carnal sin again and that's why the last time was several months ago. You leaned on the table with both hands coming back into yourself with your chest heaving, your brother's hands were still in the same place but he was no longer squeezing you with the same possessive intensity. Your hair was falling on both sides, tousled from the movement and your legs were begging you for a rest.

Jacaerys caught his breath, but his heart had not calmed down at all. His body was still experiencing those chills and that unique tension, he took a step backwards out of your body to get dressed. You immediately felt the fluid trickle down the inside of your thighs, dripping slowly down your hot skin.

"Are you okay?" Jace asked pulling up his pants, his movements a little uncontrolled as the adrenaline was still pumping. You nodded fixing your wrinkled dress. It wasn't the first time it had happened, you both knew what it was, that meant you would have to have tea the next morning.

"Looks like I'll be staying."

Your older brother smiled, fixed his hair pulling it back and moving closer to kiss you again, this time slower and softer, trapping your lips with his so slowly that you relaxed. You took his face kissing him again, his scent, his warmth, his bearing that forced you to lift your chin to reach your mouth, the softness of his lips, it was the most comforting sensation you knew.

"Go rest." He whispered without opening his eyes. Tidying your hair behind your ear.

"Okay." You replied in the same tone, so obedient and submissive before him, kissing for the last time his mouth following your movement. "Good night"

Leaving him was complicated, but you were satisfied with the encounter. As you walked you felt the burning between your legs, a reminder that was to last a couple of days that he had made you his once more, that was the greatest secret they kept hidden, they had forgotten for a moment the war between families, the political problems, duty and order.

Jacaerys Velaryon watched you go, silently picking up the sword he had dropped to the ground. That simple symbol that he was capable of abandoning his duty as prince for you, he staked his honor and his word for taking you. He stayed a while longer tidying up the mess they had created, arranging the pieces of stone in the place that corresponded according to the figure, picking up from the floor some that fell without realizing it. It was he who always assumed the role of responsibility for cleaning up the mess and pretending nothing had happened. How was he going to show up tomorrow at this very spot knowing he had relations with Visenya, the spoiled and arrogant princess, right there?

He only hoped Daemon Targaryen would never discover that his daughter was the heir's favorite if he wished to one day ascend the throne.

[eleanorbloom]

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I'm posting this because I need to know how often this feeling of loneliness and wanting desperately to be loved by someone is attacking me. This feeling of being fucking tired of not being loved. Yes, the love my family and friends have for me is wonderful but FOR FUCKS SAKE I AM THAT HARD TO LOVE? THAT BORED, THAT COMPLICATED? I want someone to want to cuddle me and kiss me and tell me they love me and... 😩 I feel like I felt this just a few weeks ago and it's not because of my period, so now I'm tracking if this is kinda cyclic or just triggered by something else.

The worst part is that I can't make myself tell this to anyone. The only person I would tell is my "BFF" but she's kinda in the same position as me so this would end up being about her, as always, and my struggles would just be pushed to the background and wouldn't feel really understood and heard. And I just need someone to listen to me and for once in my life make something just about me and my struggles and no one else's. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 As if I don't have enough work load, now I feel so miserable because of this I can't focus. FML.

[jadeittic]

HS + Y/I: 2022 (SERIES)

EXTRA (2)

PREVIOUS. NEXT.

HARRY STYLES + PLATONIC!EX-1D MEMBER!FEM!READER

WARNINGS: cursing, ig au

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Thank you to my partner in crime for being there when no one was. Here’s to us, sweetheart.

We present you, HS + Y/I. May 20th. H

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[carpexiem]

overseas.

synopsis. seventeen year old y/n receives the ‘once in a lifetime’ opportunity to travel to america for a school exchange trip. with nothing expecting to go wrong whatsoever, y/n happily journeys overseas to seattle. only to get there and find out: her exchange partner is, in fact, male. and not female. like she had chosen?

wait…did she?

anyways, what could actually go wrong?

so many things, that y/n swears she'll never be caught dead on an exchange ever again...

pairings. exchangepartner!jay x fem!reader

features. heeseung & sunghoon from enhypen, keeho and theo from p1h, huening kai & beomgyu from txt, and a few ocs

genre. high school au, medium angst (you read that correctly, readers), romance, extreme amounts of reckless drama, crack, quite light hearted, enemies to lovers, possible love triangle??, childhood friends to lovers, pining, slowburn (we love to see it 😍)

warnings. swearing (like,,, riddled with profanity-), references to violence (it's pg-13 except from the swearing part), every warning will be placed in their respective chapter more may be added!

commence date. 1st march

update schedule. every saturday and sunday 6pm [gmt]

tags. #overseas.tlk🌊 and #overseas.chap🌊

playlist. linked -> here

a/n. ANOTHER ONE? yes. this one is wayyy better than maverick imo and im WAYY more excited for this. get ready for the biggest ride you've ever been on (what a hyperbole-)

also, the schedule for the american school will still go by how my school's schedule is carried out cos i couldn't ask someone for shit...and i only have like 2 american online friends which are saying that its too complicated for me to understand so....

and google doesnt help. like at all.

please note that this au does not reflect any of the idols in real life and is solely for entertainment purposes !!

taglist. @msxflower @lovienikitty @sunbokie @sophiko22 @certainyouthpeanut @kyoyangwon @justchuji @theskzvibe [still open! pls send ask if you'd like to be in it!]

anons. still available, check navi for more info!!

info cards.

i. y/n's clan

ii. jay's clan

iii. extra clans

chapters.

i. calm yo tits and install grammarly

ii. omg your mouth. it's moving like a rat. yappa yappa yappa. shut it please 😍

iii. honestly,,, that snoring abomination 😒🖕🏻

iv. anyways, let's get #lhsclandestineaffair trending everyone ❗❗

v. no. it can't be her. (half written)

vi. yeah,, to join his shit. you can't do trigonometry to save your fucking dog 😒

vii. DISSOLVING WHAT NOW???????

viii. nawl the way you took 5 business days to plummet to the ground sent me 💀

ix. her eyes are stuck on him like gorilla glue hELP- 💀

x. i just sneezed,,,, who is allowing my existence to inhabit their conscience 😟

[more under cut]

xi. suddenly i've been orphaned. adopt me oh park family 😩🤞

xii. in which y/n has an exchange trip, first impression crisis (written)

xiii. idek why i asked him to be here. begone thot 👋

xiv.

xv.

xvi.

...

[syrma-sensei]

Hiii 👋 i hope you're doing well 🖤

I read your drabble about the one where y/n is nile's sister and omygod that was sooo good 🥺😍

Anyhow, is it ok to request about y/n getting jealous of marie hahahahhahahaha

Love you and stay hydrated ~

Well, I'm thirsty for Daddy 😩 But other than that I'm good thanks for asking, dear ❤️

I honestly didn't expect people to like it, I'm really surprised! Thank you for this ask, darling, I'm really into writing jealous reader with our big dilf 🤭

Let's do this!

Oh, but first, in case you haven't read part one, so you can understand what's happening here.

→ Family Complications part 2

pairing: Erwin Smith x fem!reader

setting: modern world

taglist: @mrsackxrman @koulakoukoula2003 @hopeless-daydream3r @vienna-fae @sinnerofthewalls @killerbananas @antoxsmith @galactict3a @peachysunrize @dassmyname @im-a-killer-queen

tell me if you wanna be added to my Erwin taglist 😉

Marriage life was nothing like you had expected, but with your husband by your side, nothing hindered you back.

Erwin had proposed to you two years after that day, and certainly, you couldn't find a better husband for yourself, and your brother, couldn't be happier to lead his baby sister down the aisle to her elegant groom. Nile burst out crying that day.

You spent two weeks abroad as a honeymoon, given that your husband's recent promotions at work gave him more responsibilities and he couldn't be away for too long.

They were the best two weeks in your entire life, nevertheless.

Whenever you remembered the naughty stuff you and your new husband did, it brought a giddy smile on your face. You loved Erwin's childish side, and the mischievous glint that would usually flash within his eyes whenever he hinted at something naughty to you.

Erwin was a generous lover; he showered you with affectations and attention, and never left you starved for him, well, unless he did it on purpose because he'd had delicious stuff stored for you.

You were now nine months pregnant with your first child, and you could remember pretty lucidly the day you two sowed your baby's seed.

You could still feel his touches from that night, his kisses and lips against your skin. His intense gaze when he held yours before becoming one. His grumbles and grunts of your name as he bred you, and the way you clung onto him as desperately as your received his hot seed.

It was beautiful.

You were now sitting in the passenger's seat beside Erwin, while he drove to your middle niece's birthday.

You glanced at him from the corner of your eyes, one of his arms was resting on the window, and the other one was holding the wheel. His sleeves were rolled up, and eyes concentrated on the road.

“Is everything alright, darling?” He asked, without shifting his eyes off of the route.

“No, nothing at all,” You shook your head, “I'm just wondering if Anna would like her presents,”

He chuckled heartily, “Of course, she is going to love them, sweetheart,” He caught your hand and brought it to his lips. “Don't worry about such thing,”

You shivered at the kiss, nodding before turning your attention to the window.

Of course you didn't worry about such matter, you knew all of your nieces too well, even better than their own parents, you practically raised the three girls. But there was other thing that had kept on nagging you for a month now, and no matter the effort you put to brush those nasty thoughts away, you couldn't.

You couldn't but think about the overly displayed emotions between your husband and sister-in-law recently.

You had caught him multiple times speaking with Marie alone, and whenever you stepped in, they'd act awkward in front of you, and that alone was suspicious to you.

It wasn't possible, Erwin was yours, your fucking husband, and Marie was your stupid brother's wife. It couldn't be. You knew they weren't heartless enough to break yours and Nile's hearts, and ruin two families, were they?

You didn't want to be suspicious of them, but they weren't helping you, as a matter of fact, they weren't even cautious about it, and that confused you gravely.

You tried to prevent facing Marie, your brother even, just to not alert those disturbing thoughts. But now, you had to, since you can't skip your dear niece's birthday, even if you were tired and worn-out of pregnancy and being on your last month before going into labour.

You felt the car haul to a stop, and Erwin pressed on the windows buttons as they started to roll up. He grabbed his jacket from the seat behind, rolling his sleeves down again before getting out of the car. And as the gentleman he was, he rounded the vehicle to open your door, extending his hand out for you, once out he led you to Nile's door before returning to the car to fetch the presents you two brought.

After ringing the bell, the door opened, and you petrified, Marie was the one to answer.

“Heeey, (Y/N)!” She gushed before hugging you. “We missed you, how have you been?!”

You stood in your spot, flinched in her hold, as you responded awkwardly, “I'm fine, I'm totally fine,”

Marie giggled, brushing your swollen belly with a gentle hand, “How's the little guy here? Is he giving you hard time?”

“Yeah, sometimes he grows feisty,” You giggled too.

“Yeah, happens a lot as they tend to turn upside down inside their mommies' bellies.”

“Yeah, I guess,”

“Auntiiiiiiiie!” You heard little Anna shriek, and soon enough you found her hugging your legs, a beautiful crown decorating her head.

“I thought you wouldn't come to my birthday party, auntie!” She gazed up at you with a pout.

You giggled amusedly, gasping dramatically, “Me?! How can I miss my dear Anna's birthday?!”

The little girl chortled breathlessly, then shrieked again, “Yay! Uncle Erwin's here too!”

She dropped her hold of you immediately and jumped onto Erwin, and the latter was fast to catch her in one arm, while holding the presents in the other.

“Hey, sweet Anna,” He kissed her cheek tenderly, “Were you a good girl this year?”

She covered her mouth with her hands, laughing, “It's not Christmas, Uncle Erwin!”

He guffawed lightly, “Is that right? Maybe Santa's visiting you earlier this year,” Erwin handed little Anna her present and she squeled.

You snorted at your cheesey husband, making bad dad jokes already. But he did look like a father holding his daughter, and it made your heart flutter. He was going to be a great father to your son, you were sure of it.

“Hello there, Marie,” Erwin said, and before you knew it, you saw him kissing Marie on the cheek.

“Hello, Erwin,” She blushed a bit.

Okay, what the fuck was that?!

“Hey, (Y/N), Erwin, there you are,” Your brother came, Abbie in his arms, “Everyone is waiting for you,”

The party was good, and Marie's cooking was better. Everyone was there, Mike and his wife Nanaba, Hange and their husband Moblit, and even Levi was there. You didn't know why, but Levi was the girls' favourite although he always called them: shrieking brats.

When the feast was over you offered your help, but everyone chidded you for that, and insisted on you to just rest.

The little girls and their friends pleaded Levi to have a tea party with them, and to everyone's surprise, he said, “Tch, okay, who can drink the tea raw, I'll give them a ride on my back,” And there was more shrieking, and Moblit had to tie up his partner to not participate in that party, Hange was more excited than the little girls.

“So, how is it to keep a living thing inside of you for nine months, (Y/N)?” Nanaba asked you as she was in her husband's hold.

You chuckled, “Well, a lot of peeing and crying for no reason,”

Mike snorted a bit, but Nanaba nudged him.

“But Erwin is here for me, for us, I couldn't do it without him,”

Nanaba smiled, locking her hand with Mike's, “Yeah, that's the point of marrying them in first place, no?”

You chuckled.

“Erwin's been working his ass off lately, ya know,” Mike grumbled, “And whenever I tell him to get his ass a break, he always says I'm not doing this for me, I'm doing it for (Y/N) and our baby,”

A sheepish smiled cracked your mouth, and you felt yourself flush. Your heart grew rapid.

A mix of feelings swelling at the tip of your stomach. And here you dared to suspect him for betrayal? How could you forget those nights, those very late nights when he went back home drained and tired, and no matter how you begged him to take a break, he'd just smile at you and kiss you, telling you how much he loved you.

Fuck, you were an idiot, an utter idiot to even have qualms about him and your sister-in-law, Marie would never cheat on Nile. Never. God, she'd dumped Erwin for him!

You excused yourself, standing up while holding your heavy tummy with your arms, looking for your husband. You wanted to do something, to tell Erwin how much you loved him, how much you were excited to begin another chapter of your lives, to be a parent with him.

But your giddy strides came to a haul when you crossed by the kitchen's door, where Marie was supposed to be. You heard Erwin's voice.

“I'm forever grateful to you, Marie,” His voice was gentle, and caring it made your heart tug, “Without you, I couldn't have had it, this new opportunity, this life, thank you,”

You were indeed stupid, tears rolled down your cheeks, as you stepped in the kitchen, your heart broke when you saw Erwin kissing Marie's forehead so softly, almost close to the softness he'd kiss you with.

“How dare you,” You hissed through clenched teeth.

Erwin's head whipped towards you, eyes wide at your messed up face, “Darling, are you alrigh—”

“Don't touch me!” You cried, slapping his hand off of you, “You fucking bastard, under my brother's roof?!”

Erwin's eyebrows went up, but Marie was fast to retort, “(Y/N), wait, there's a clear misunderstanding,”

“Hey, (Y/N), what's going on?” Your brother's voice chimed in.

“I don't know, ask your wife!”

Nile looked at Marie with questioning look, “What happened, M—”

A loud shout teared out of your throat, turning the attention back to you, even Mike, Nanaba, Moblit, and Hange rushed to the kitchen.

Erwin was fast to catch you as you dropped on the floor.

“Darling, are you alright?!”

“F-Fuck... fuck you!” You gasped, “Th-the baby's coming!”

As if on cue, Erwin saw the baby's water seeping out of your womb.

“Bloody hell!” Mike cursed under his breath.

“What are you waiting for?!” Hange remarked rather thrilled, “All of you to the car. Now. I'll be driving,”

Erwin nodded, carrying you in his arms and darting outside, and everyone was on his heels.

“No, you won't,” Moblit stopped Hange, “You're gonna stay here, looking after those kids with Levi,” He plucked the car keys from their hand, and kissed their cheek, “See you later, love,”

“Honestly, you're no fun,” Hange crossed their arms to their chest, shouting at their husband as he was already in driver's seat, “Wanna see a baby getting outta his mom's vagina!”

“Uncle Lee,” Little Anna said, “What is a vagina,”

Hange turned their head, and saw Levi, and God was he angry.

“Okay, what the hell happened, Hange?”

Back in Hange and Moblit's car, you were holding onto Erwin's hand, crushing it with pressure.

“Yes, just breathe in and out, you can do it, (Y/N), you can do it,”

“Fuck you!” You spat, sweat shimmering down your temples, as a huge pressure cramping your womb.

“Could anyone tell me what the hell's happening?” Nile said.

“Your sister's giving birth, obviously,” Mike sassed.

“Shut up!” He nudged his friend, turning to the other, “What hell you did, Erwin?”

The latter grumbled exasperatedly, it was the first time for him to attend such a thing, and it was his freaking son at this point, “I don't think it's the perfect timing to—”

You gasped again, “No, tell him you fucking bastard, tell him about you and Marie!” You glared through tears at the latter.

“What?!”

Mike and Nanaba chuckled, enjoying this too much.

“Don't look at me like that, Nile!” Marie said hotly. “I helped Erwin to be with (Y/N) back in the day,”

“WHAT?!” You and your brother exclaimed together.

“As you heard, darling,” Erwin kissed your hand, “You have Marie to thank for that,”

“Okay I'm super confused now,” Nile pinched the bridge of his nose.

You gulped, hissing through your gritted teeth, “So am I, bro, so am I — FUCK!” You punched your husband in the face. “What have you put in me?! A horse?! God!” You squawked in pain again.

Erwin laughed through his tears, “It's okay, love, it's okay, I'm here with you,”

You leant into your husband's chest, as the pain growing intense in your lower body, “You fucking, utter bastard!” You felt your back breaking, “I'd never do this again!” Your head snapped backwards, and you went out of consciousness.

“(Y/N)! (Y/N)! Darling answer me!” Erwin freaked out.

Everyone tried to help you, while poor Moblit was thanking God within himself, that he made the right call to never let Hange come along.

•••

Your eyes fluttered open, and your head turned immediately to the side where Erwin sat in a chair, holding your baby delicately in his arms.

“Hey there,” Your voice was hoarse from all the screaming, and your body was absolutely ruined. It fucking sucked, what on Earth came into you to have a baby? But the sight before you made you swoon.

“Hey,” Erwin smiled, hardly detaching his gaze from your baby to look at you.

“Let me see him,”

He chuckled, “Of course, love,” He stood up, then leaned down to you, and you sat up eagerly, you almost snatched the little creature from his father's hold.

“Awwww, aren't you the prettiest thing?!” You exclaimed ardently.

Your son was the spitting image of his father; wipsy, golden locks, sharp and blue eyes, and most importantly, thick and beautiful eyebrows decorating his cute face.

Your son cooed.

“You did well, my love,” You heared Erwin say, proud swelling in his voice. “You were amazing,”

He kissed your forehead, and you cried.

“I'm so sorry, Erwin,” You wept, “I'm so sorry, I don't know what happened to me, I said terrible things to you and Marie... I-I...”

“Shhhh,” Erwin put a tender finger on your lips, “None of that matters,” He cupped your cheek ever so gently, “This what matters now,”

You smilled through your tears, and leaned in and kissed the pad of his large palm.

“I love you, Erwin,”

The latter grinned, “I love you too, (Y/N), there's no word can describe how happy you make me,”

The two of you looked at eachother, and when you decide to kiss the hospital room flung open, and Hange burst in.

“Show him to me! Show him to me! Show him to me!” They practically jumped in beside your bed, and the others came on their heels.

“Hey, sis”

“Auntie!”

“Tch, you're already noisy, they're gonna kick us out!”

“Hey, (Y/N),”

“Congratulations!”

You heard hange sulking, “He's nothing like you, (Y/N)! I mean he's the cutest thing I've ever seen, but one Erwin is enough already!”

Everyone burst out laughing, but Erwin squinted.

Everyone was eager to see the little new baby, the newest addition to the family. And your nieces started to cry that they have a tiny little cousin and auntie (Y/N) would be busy with him now, but you said that he too needed older sisters to look after him too, and as always, they shrieked excitedly, and Levi rolled his eyes.

The latter was curious, and you let him carry the baby, his eyes were cold, but once his tiny fingers wrapped around Levi's thumb, he found himself blushing.

And Marie, God, you almost forgot how many times you ranted "I'm sorry" to her but she just shrugged it off, and told you it was okay, and she wasn't offended at all, for she was pregnant, for three times, and she knew how a woman could be extremely sensitive at that sort of times.

Your mouth was tired out of smiling so widely, but you couldn't help it, you had your big, loving family around you, and now you bestowed it with another member.

Mike cleared his throat, while Nanaba's arm tugged in his, “Nana and I have something to tell you too,”

Everyone's attention was on her, and she grew anxious. Mike patted his hand and nodded at her softly.

Nanaba mustered some courage and muttered, “We're expecting too,” And she turned into a red tomato.

“No kidding!” Hange exclaimed, “When your due comes, I'll be the one driving,”

Everyone burst into laughter again.

You leant into your husband's shoulder, watching everyone chatting and smiling.

“Thank you, Erwin,” You whispered.

Yes, you fought, cried, laughed, and had your many complications as a family, but you were forever grateful for him and the family around you.