#My brain: everyone hates you and
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I know itâs probably just a combination of mental and physical exhaustion, but goddamn my RSD is flaring tonight.
Iâm going to take that as a sign to log off tumbles for the evening. Iâll tackle things more properly tomorrow. xo
#Out of Souls;; OOC#tw rsd#My brain: everyone hates you and#writing with you is a chore.#Me: maybe hmm#My Rationality: Ugh⌠⌠but. maybe?#tbd#I think I just need butt pats and sleep.
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i feel like social media has warped peopleâs perception of conflict in relationships by making you think that any minor fuck up is the end of the world and everyone is secretly a narcissist manipulator with sinister motives, because actually in real life you just say âiâm sorry, that was a bad thing, i shouldnât have done thatâ and the other person says âthank you for apologisingâ and then thatâs the end of it
#ramble#i hate that it took until my 20s to realise that i canât go through my life just trying not to hurt people. because it will happen#it just does happen sometimes#and you have to drop out of the tiktok school of âiâm incapable of doing anything wrong ever and everyone else is the problemâ#and get comfortable with making mistakes and learning from them#youâre fine. itâs fine#disclaimer obviously this doesnât mean you donât have to try to be kind or considerate anymore as long as you apologise. use your brain
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hermitcraft s10 is just a documentation of the hermits descent into madness. wdym xisuma spent an hour on his hands and knees recording himself howling like a wolf ??
#wools of wolf street#wait a second#wolves of wool street#brain explosion#i laughed so hard when i watched his video one of my housemates came to check on me#xisuma is autistic and had a special interest in dogs when he was a kid#<- it's true he told me#if you disagree you hate autistic people#i'm autistic btw#in case you couldn't tell#(everyone says yes horsemeatluvr23 we knew)#hermitcraft 10#hermitcraft#horsemeatposting#xisuma#xisumavoid#shashwammyvoid#i now need an audio clip of all of the wool collective members howling at the same time
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zolu is maybe one of the easiest ships i've ever liked. they're dating, except when they're not, they're best friends even when they're kissing and they're still captain and first mate when they aren't. they hold hands, they hug. they have sex. they don't.
Luffy can hold Zoro's katanas and Zoro can hold Luffy's strawhat and no one bats an eye. one says "You're so cool!" and the other says "You're strong" and it's just another way to say "I see you, this is why I follow you/this is why I trust you". it's not seeing each other for a long time and still knowing how the other's steps sound like against wood and sand. the captain runs and the first mate follows. it's always "Zoro and the others" and "Where's Luffy?"
if they're just friends, if they're something more, if they don't have a label for it, at its core, it's just about how they get each other. they understand how the other's mind works. however you view them, it doesn't erase they fact that they love each other in a way they don't love other people.
#zolu#on why i love zolu#seeing the hate its gotten on its own tag#i figured i'd put it on my two cents#i am aroace and i do hc Luffy as aroace#the same for Zoro if i'm honest#but the thing about this hc is that not only it isn't canon#but is an actual spectrum#what really made me pause was that the argument was that zolu was an âickyâ ship bc of how they viewed Luffy as aroace#i would have prefered they just said they hate the ship#it makes sense as i do too hate ships without reason sometimes#but it was how they seemed to view aromatic/asexual people that fucked me up#both orientations are spectrums#the way i see it and experience it isn't the same other people do#giving this label and then saying it only woks on one way is disrespectful to the many people that fall under this umbrella#it isn't as simple as saying âaromantic folks can't experience loveâ and âyeah ace folks all find sex disgustingâ#everyone is different everyone has different views and it's about finding what fits *you* personally!#sorry for the rant on tags i just wanted to get it off my chest#i've seen more people explain it better and break it down more coherently#and i'm so so glad to see so many big brained people ready to communicate on why that take just wasn't it#one piece
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the way people are reacting to chappell roan simply saying she does not want to be harassed in public is weird as fuck. âi donât think sheâs cut out for same if this is how she actsâ WHAT???? HUH?????? SHES NOT CUT OUT FOR FAME BECAUSE SHE DOESNT WANT TO BE SHOUTED AT IN THE STREET AND CONSTANTLY BE FOLLOWED BY PEOPLE ???? the entitlement you freaks are starting to have is insane, w the mindset of âwe gave them their career so they should let us do whatever want to themâ đ
#twitter#chappell roan#lgbt#musician#celebs#twitter discourse#wlw#and she blew up like. insanely fast all at once i need you guys to recognize that#the juxtaposition#of going from a small artist with few dedicated fans to MILLIONS OF PEOPLE WATCHING YOUR EVERY MOVE#of course sheâs going to have to adjust to it#i personally think chappell roan should start throwing rocks at you people#something something you can tweet you like pancakes on twitter and everyone will be like SO YOU HATE WAFFLES????#u have to be legitimately brain dead if you think itâs just a âMy life sucks because iâm sooooo popularâ thing
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Just had a thought, it's completely half-baked: So, um, NoME I think, said that there totally could be hrĂśar without any fĂŤar running around, right? Translating: there could be moving bodies with no souls/occupants left.
Zombies. Middle Earth has zombies.
And when would be a better time for zombies to roam around than after Nirnaeth Arnoediad? Even more after Second and Third Kinslaying. You know who would have a perfect opportunity to fight zombies to the point of habit? FĂŤanorians.
So I imagined the situation where Maedhros and Maglor fight some zombies, successfully turning them into parts (I mean, duh). Then Maedhros says something self-hating like "Surely there's more good to them than was left of us(me) as it hunts and hurts without consent, intent nor will, unlike us(me)."
And Maglor looks at him, then at the zombie's head he holds. He reaps the skull open (with his hands, yes), takes zombies' brain out, and throws it at Maedhros with "We also have an evidence he had a brain, unlike some brother of mine."
Cue Medhros releasing the MOST Older Brother Sigh.
#silmarillion#silm#maedhros#maglor#zombies!#maglor later writing in his diary: âDear Diary today Meadhros told me I'm dramatic I am NOT DRAMATIC I was illustrating a VALID pointâ#anyway Maedhros sighed at his antics#Maglor - 1 Meadhros' Severe Depression and Self-Hate - 0#bonus scene:#'way into Fourth Age in Valinor with everyone returned/reborn'#Mae: Hey remember how you threw zombie brain at me#Mags: which time#Mae: when you said there's visual evidence for it's existence unlike with our brains#Mags: YOUR brain. And you know. There's still no evidence#Mae: You will not open my freshly remade skull to check for brain you moron#Mags: You ate my dessert i left for later BITCH I MIGHT#cue Elrond's sighing#Maglor still claims he's Not Dramatic
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nnnnnnnnnnnnno maa'am
#my want to draw traditionally literally split me open for the past week and leaves me literally depressed i'm so serious i can't even look -#- @ my art programs without wanting to throw up omfg should;ve never picked up those pencils#but it's ok i just needed a nap#something so relatable about them i think nelvas has something in it for everyone meanwhile eltl is secluded art museum.#it's very possible to walk around in neloth's and talvas' brains but eltl is off limits. they will NOT! get no drawings like this outta me#wtf r they thinking ........#< eltl not nelvas#something nobody on dis earth can understand ..........#talvas wants to live he likes living but neloth's presence is so strong that it overrides and deletes his will to live.#bruuuuuuuuh#i bet the feeling of neloff is in everything he does if they ever part ways he won't be able to fold clothes or anythign without wanting -#- 2 cry . for what reason . idk bc neloth once yelled at him for folding clothes like shit .what am i on rn#(talvas thoughts mode) I want this old man to hug meeeeđ˘đ˘đ˘#NELOFF DO IT and smash him too before i do it first .#me and neloth are the same person tho so it doesn;t matter but w/e#i'm getting emotional over them right now this cannot be real#i love her .... (Skyr1m)#i opened the game for .5 minutes today to take pics of a character uight what a beautiful game.#Te/s having such extensive lore ruins the whole entire game and the franchise but whatever . skyr1m is an art piece that's just how i feel#also this might be a very hard pill to swallow for some people but t*lvas is literally a kin Vessel for young women that keep getting -#- hit on by men twice or thrice their age when they're just trying to live their life .#this feels so profound to me i need dis shit inmy discord bio right NOEW.#Talvas................................#(eyes watering) (holding palm out)#suicide //#just in case but this tag would've gone crazy with my drawings of ulfr*c from late 2022 where i drew him with slit wrists. very artsay#is it not. i didn't like neither of those drawings tho i need to revisit cus i can feel ulfr*c on a diffaraaant level#when will i run out of tags. the way you can tell i just LUH talvas look at me drawing his hair in that second pic đBRU#look at me also trying to replicate pencils digitally in the first.. hmmm i don't hate it#at least it soothes me and i don't have pencil withdrawal
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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As much as the 'haha Takemichi went to save his husband after saving his wife, bisexual much?' joke is funny, people who seriously thinks Tokyo Revengers should've stopped when Hinata was finally safe and sound missed an important component to the plot.
Yes, it all started with Hinata - but since when was it all about Hinata?
Takemichi, kind-hearted Takemichi, should've just stopped everything after saving her? He got into Toman for this reason, yes, to get closer to Mikey and stop him - and Kisaki - from killing her, but he also sincerely got closer to Mikey. And everyone else. And he's supposed to simply leave them be when 'mission: save Hinata' is complete? As if the number of people he wanted to save didn't get longer with each timeline? Those are his friends why would he throw them all away.
To protect Hinata he decided to stick close to Mikey since he failed to prevent Mikey and Kisaki meeting each other - and he got attached to Mikey during that, as well as all of Toman. Each steps to save Hinata was also a step to save Mikey from corruption and self-destruction. It was all linked from the start.
There was a shift after Bonten, okay, whatever, the only thing that truly changed was Hinata's importance in it. New enemy? That happens in each arc (right, sure, there wasn't Kisaki anymore). Mikey being more and more violent? Again, each arc featured a moment of Mikey showing signs of being mentally unwell - and now it was aggravated because it was two years earlier than what Takemichi got used to go back to. Etc, etc. Toman may be disbanded, but its (at least main) members still meet and interact and they all kept in touch - Mikey aside. That just a change of mood, a mix of the present/future timelines with a more serious setting and of the past timelines with how young they are, despite not being as young as before. And future timelines have never been a problem - there's a lot of love for Manila and Bonten. If Wakui had had time and energy, Kanto Manji, all 70 and so last chapters of TR could've worked with its fanbase. For some reasons it didn't, and I don't get why by myself
#mikey has already been violent. past mikey never that much but we saw manila and bonten mikey's behavior#how is kanto manji mikey's surprising when you know what he did in manila and bonten#chifuyu had already tried to stop takemichi in his stubbornness that was harming him. several time. Tenjiku. Bonten. sure he may have been#harsh when he basically blamed takemichi for drakens death - but in his defense he had no idea what was going on? for him they were all#finally getting normal lives far from violence. violence who took baji away from him fairly fast btw#leave him not want to have more of his friends dying - leave him being angry that he lost one more (even if takemichi deserved better)#ive got more to talk about for sure but brain stopped there so i will too bye#tr#tokyo revengers#tokrev#rant#i love wakui all my homie hates wakui haters#hanagaki takemichi#HIS EMA FROM NEW YEAR WAS LITERALLY 'I HOPE TO BE A HERO TO SAVE EVERYONE'#sometimes pinterest comments feel like they lack reading comprehension - and literally sometimes#tr takemichi#tokrev takemichi
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Love Letter Memes 3
I wanted to get these out of the way before working on the actual drawing for chapter 22. I am using a lil demon and angel symbolism for it and I remembered one of my favorite memes: "I could be your angle - or yuor devil"
Love Letter by @lunarleonardo
#I have my music on shuffle and yakety sax is playing#love letter#kokichi ouma#tsumugi shirogane#kokichi I hate your hair why did you make it so hard to draw#I almost tagged shuichi but then I realized he isn't in this one... blorbo brained for real#I'm going to draw everyone but maki in hospital gowns because they got too much going on in their clothes tbh#blorbomade
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guess what no one asked for
my sfms. here they are
you think i just make ellis and nick l4d2 content WRONG
i also make men kissing in tf2
i also made a few ANIMATIONS but those are NOT for viewing because most of them are GIFTS to LOVED ONES except THIS ONE
youtube
its not very GOOD but i DID finish it unlike MOST of my ANIMATIONS
that is ALL i will now go back MASH content. i just wanted to give context for my current banner that i made for pride month. i am proud of at least 3 of those.
#i have many talents. most of them useless. most of them gathered for fun.#example; i am currently learning to juggle so that my brain does not start growing mold#i learned sfm because i really wanted to animate that one interaction between ellis and nick#'what kinda car you drive' âyour moms carâ 'well see that was just uncalled for. serious.'#never finished that animation but i DID learn a lot. and now im so cool and smart#some of these were done in conjunction with my sibling where shed draw a sketch and id make it real#some i spent 6 hours on. some i spent 1 on. you can probably tell which is which#the one on the stage took forever because of the particles#i hate particles in sfm with all the passion in my heart#i will now tag correctly to bother everyone#sfm poster#tf2 sfm#sfm art#sfm render#source filmmaker#sfm#ellis l4d2#nick l4d2#l4d2#coach l4d2#rochelle l4d2#left 4 dead 2#tf2 fanart#tf2#not tagging all the mercs i refuse to do that#sfm animation#shh dont tell anyone but the one with ellis and the guitar was made so i could have a thumbnail for my country music playlist#ok loveyou goodnight
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You doing ok?
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#i'm alive. simply being chewed upon by multiple things#work is more stressful than i'd like it to be. for instance i'm hoping that i submitted my time off notification for tomorrow correctly#because otherwise it might read as a no call no show and i would . like to continue having a job#now to be fair. i do have it on the system that i requested it at the beginning of the month and i emailed my supervisor about it last week#so even if i didn't submit it correctly i'm likely in the clear#but nonetheless. i also got a firm talking-to the other day and now i am on â¨thin ice⨠for dicking around too much#because they track ur idle time at my work (computer) and mine was Quite High so my supervisor was like man what the hell is this#but even though she was kind of baffled at me spending so much time dicking around#she couldn't even really be all that mad in the end because i'm still doing good numbers and have made no (zero) mistakes#so she was just like. it's kind of impressive that your numbers look this good when you literally have 50% idle time#so she goes imagine what you could do if you weren't wasting so much time#and yeah i can whip out some Really Good Numbrers when i put the effort in.#so the problem is not my numbers it's just that i'm not spending long enough doing my tasks for the day#but i don't want to drag out those tasks intentionally so i've just been upping my own standards/goals#as much as i hate giving any more of my brain power than is necessary to giant corporations#it's still easy to feel smug after you get Talked To and then immediately turn around and show off#like yeah i coulda been doing this good the whole time. literally pulling up by 20 points. i just didn't want to.#trying to keep everyone's expectations low but accidentally toed the line of um. not working enough to keep my job#...anyway. EAS national weather system issued a . hi#i haven't forgotten about all of you i'm just having trouble tracking all my shit that i got going on ⨠yaaaaaaay#im gonna post things on AO3 soon. i promise. my weakness is that i get sidetracked trying to unwind from work#...i know i said 'soon' last time. but this time for real#asks#not sexy#anonymous
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I wanted to draw sth completely different but my brain was like ''...what if... alkonost käärijä? It's perfect.''
#and i went... yes master :')#apparently i'm not done with chimaera jere#käärijä#it's like i never want to draw his legs đ#which couldn't be further from the truth - i love them!!#anyway. mythical bird creatures of luck and hope singing so beautifully you forget everything around you#this one can but mostly says kot kot#in the morning he wakes everyone with PELIĂ!!#(i had such a shit day i'm glad i could end with this - i don't hate it and it makes me laugh)#(next time i hope the brain will let me do another norppa selkie - i want to make one in watercolour as well)#my own stuff
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I know it's just because I'm a tired cranky raccoon rn but I feel like everyone hates me
#ya know that post#the self care one with the racoon?#and it gives like three scenarios of feeling like everyone hates you/feeling like you hate everyone/feeling like you hate yourself#that's what i have to remind myself of when the feelings of hate get really bad#sorry for the vent like i know in my brain it's not true but i need to expel the feeling from my body with some kind of acknowledgment and#get free of it somehow and this is it#vent#naff nuh huh
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Continuing the JJK posting: Gojo is such a mystifying character.
Action show where swinging out the gate you introduce a character who is so incredibly powerful you then have to, before every fight, establish why Gojo can't just show up and fix the problem in seconds. His existence weakens the stakes of everything. The rest of the show you are backflipping ridding yourself of him. He jobs two major bad guys off the gate and every subsequent extensive fight with them feels like cleaning up his leftovers. Put him in a box, he's ruining the game balance. So absolutely broken. As a writer it makes your job so difficult, but it's also the entire point of him. "Hey I want to write the single most badass character of all time who can do the most insane shit but I will also engage with that", rock on king.
I think he's most interesting when understood as somebody who is fundamentally alien and removed from ordinary human thought processes. In his world there is absolutely nothing he cannot do, and the thought 'maybe I can't do something' just doesn't occur to him. He is capable of doing whatever he wants and of killing anybody who tries to stop him from doing what he wants. If he is not doing something, it is because he does not want to do it. If he wants to do something (kill all of his superiors) and he's not doing it, it's because he doesn't think it's the most effective route towards what he has decided to do. I think this informs the majority of his actions (and, importantly, what he doesn't do)(murder). I think he's reasoned out that you should have a general reason to do things, and it feels like sheer luck that he places value and meaning in human life, and as such you shouldn't kill them without a strong reason. Watching the flashback arc, if I hadn't seen a) JJK and b) Naruto and you asked me which shitty teen became a law abiding school teacher and which became a mass murderer I would have guessed the wrong ones.
Anyway, the way I like to think of him, he's a raging narcissist with a god complex to match. Horrifically, he's actually a good teacher, but he is also a teacher as an ego/'raising my child army' thing. He would be the kind of mother who is a good mother but lowkey had kids also as an ego/unconditional love/lots of attention/'surely my child will worship me' thing. Gets randomly into new hobbies, obsesses over them, gorges himself on the novelty factor, before dropping them in a week once he gets too good at them. Rinse and repeat. The only hobby that does not eventually grow boring is annoying people, so it's his only hobby. Geto told him age 15 that he'll never have any friends if he keeps on casually reminding people that they live on his sufferance, so he developed another back-up hobby more conducive for friendship of helping people forget that they live on his sufferance. This has convinced him that he's a god of subterfuge, intrigue, and trickery. Does eat women out, but is convinced that this makes him God's gift to women, and is actually pretty terrible in bed because his partner's desires never even occur to him. Is convinced he's as good at sex as he is everything else. Sex is actually the one thing he's bad at, but he's not ready to hear that.
In S1 he overall left me with the general impression that his entire idea of how high school worked was sourced from anime, and as such decided that being a teacher involved nothing but field trips, sports games, beach episodes, sports festivals, etc. Did not know how the classroom component worked so he skips it. Jossed, but also left me convinced that it would be very funny if he was an immortal 150-whatever years old and had founded the high school himself out of, you guessed it, an ego thing, and never once properly learned how high schools worked and just arbitrarily made his own aging students the new principals so he could continue engaging in training the kids who are too Misfit (TM) to get apprenticeships and living his fun slice of life anime life and raising a child army of kids who will worship him any day now. Annnyyyy day now. Any day now.
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#gojo satoru#jjk gojo#jujutsu gojo#my posts#this makes it sound as if i hate him and think he's a terrible person#to be clear i think he's great and i just find characters most interesting when theyre terrible#watching the show i was just generally waiting for it to follow up on his established teenage homicidality#explain why and when he stopped being two thin hairs from murdering everyone he disliked#but they didn't so i have to suppose he's just chilled out a little#fic authors arent going far enough with him. i dont think his brain should resemble a human persons.#the 'i am above humanity' thing shouldn't be an angst thing it should be a factor of his psychology#thank you dora for stealth co-writing this post love you#might write the immortal thing might not. writing such a weird POV does sound fun to me though; id like to do it#itll either be very easy or very very hard#it feels like genuine straight-up luck that gojo's an active good guy. liike what.
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when I first watched the cat tank arc I looked at kusuke and thought "mm he probably was that kind of kid who changed constantly the game rules or started screaming just because they didn't wanted to lose a game" and I still think that I'm right
#no hate to kusuke (maybe)#you know i love/hate him#but in canon he was such a brat as a kid#calling everyone monkeys and yk#kusuo was also a brat but in a different font#i want to go deeper abt this and do a whole analysis but my brain is fried rn#later maybe#kusuke saiki#saiki kusuo (mentioned)#saiki k#the disastrous life of saiki k#saiki kusuo no psi nan#thinking thinking thinking
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