#My Testimony

[artist-issues]

Hello, brother/sister (sorry I found out you existed today lol) in Christ! I just started my own blog yesterday, and I wanted to ask you two questions!

how did you come to Christ? (I am a sucker for testimonies, lol)

how can I preach the gospel on Tumblr with gentleness and grace and love for others? (and how do I not get involved in a keyboard smashing session, haha)

thanks for your time, God bless and have a great day! :)

I came to Christ when I was 15. I’m a Pastor’s kid. So the truth in the Bible was about as impactful to me as reciting my ABCs. But when I turned 9 I started to tune in to the parts about Hell and eternal damnation and freak out about it. So I believed God was real, and Hell and heaven were, too, even though I was living for myself. I started asking questions and praying for my salvation around that time, but it was only to “get out of going to Hell.” I had zero interest in the things of God, or submitting to Him. My top priorities were getting everyone to think well of me, especially my family. So I was super good at saying all the right things and doing all the right things, then behind closed doors I did whatever sinful stuff I felt like doing without a shred of thought for God.

Whenever I panicked about verses like “depart from Me, I never knew you,” I’d pray and ask the adults around me how to tell if I was “really saved,” (again, making zero connection between “saved” and anything except “get out of Hell,” in my heart) and they’d try to explain. But I always just latched on to phrases like “it’s not some sparkly feeling,” and quit panicking and went back to living for myself. But that really is what I was missing—a feeling. Specifically, passion about God, and what He loves, and what He wants, and who He is. That, and submission & repentance 😅

So that pattern went on till I was fifteen and old enough to go to this summer camp. And I was finally away from my usual circles, where I only thought about God in the context of “what does everyone here need to see me doing to think well of me?”

At this camp, the counselors and the teachers cut through all that in like 24 hours. They were like, “yeah, you don't have to give me the correct answer; I know what the teacher just said, but what about you? What do you do, in your life, on your own? What is it like when it’s just you and God?” And between that, and the crazy “I don’t care what anyone thinks of me except God” culture of the whole staff and everyone at that summer camp, God started getting ahold of me.

He started making me think about how everyone else wasn’t just “living for God” as part of their social bubble. They actually felt something genuine about Him. And I didn’t feel that. I didn’t feel anything, and I couldn’t *think* or *reason* or *force* myself to feel what they all seemed to be feeling.   They did this skit, and it was all about how broken sin makes us, and feeling the weight of that, and how Christ is the only salvation, and then that was followed up with this no-nonsense authoritative preaching from God’s Word, about how being “saved” isn’t just from your sin. It’s from yourself. It’s from your *lack* of caring about what is good, of caring about God.

I actually finally realized that when everyone else was out of the picture and it’s just me and God, I don’t care about Him. Even though I know what He did for me. And that felt like the most crushing vile sin of all of them, of my whole double-life. And I couldn’t get out from under it. But then it was super clear: He said He’d give me a “new heart.”

So I asked Him to save me and make me care about Him, and I’d live the rest of my life doing what He tells me to do.    He has done that! Not all at once, but gradually. I care more about doing what He wants, even if nobody in my favorite circles comes with me, than I ever thought I would. And there’s no explanation for it, because I had all of the circumstantial and situational reasons to have that kind of motivation for the first 14 years of my life—and I still didn’t. The only explanation for the change is Him. 

As far as how to talk about it here on tumblr...I've never really started a conversation specifically to lead someone to Christ online. I don't think online is the place to try that—but sometimes the topic comes up naturally because it's relevant to what I'm talking about in a post, like values in movies or if an important truth comes to mind and I feel like posting about it.

If you don't want to get into arguments, the best thing to do is not reply. People here tend to intentionally re-phrase everything you say into something they can buck and kick at, even if you choose your words super carefully. It's because they don't want to have a discussion. They either want to be right, or they want to make you look like a fool. It's impossible for them to do either of those things if what they're arguing against is truth—but they tend to just keep trying if you reply.

I only reply if I feel strongly that others might read the interaction and get the wrong idea about God, or truth, because of the word-twisting of my opposition. However, it's up to your personal conviction! 

My main advice is, don't ever stoop to returning insults. If someone calls you stupid, don't call them stupid back. If someone says something that's just a personal attack on you and has nothing to do with what you're arguing about, you can call it out--"what does that have to do with anything?"--and move on, or you can totally ignore it. And if someone just keeps on re-phrasing everything you say, like this:

Me: There's always more to learn, you don't know everything about what all Christians believe.

Them: I can't believe you're telling me you know more than me, lol, I've got forty years of experience

Then just block 'em. They either don't have good reading comprehension, or they don't want to actually debate in order to highlight truth. They want to debate to hear themselves talk, to convince themselves that they're right, to look like they're right in front of their followers, or to make a fool out of you. None of those are good reasons to debate.

They're looking to discredit you by any means necessary—including twisting your words. See how I said nothing about how much more *I* know than the other person? But somehow they took the point of my phrase and twisted it into a personal attack. That sort of thing isn't worth wasting your time on.

My dad likes to say, "nobody wins people to Christ by arguing them into it." I don't know if that's true, but it has been based on my experience. That said, I think truth is worth defending, and I think we're commanded to stand up against what is wrong. However, there comes a point when it's really just falling on deaf ears and continuing is a point of pride instead of humility.

For your questions, I'd see what the Bible says! 

[darknesscannotsaveyou]

hey im just curious and not tryna be rude but, why does your bio say ‘ex-lgbt’? does this mean ur like homophobic? and again im not tryna be rude and you dont have to answer the question if u dont want to. im christian also, but also lgtbqia+. have a good day

first off, i am absolutely not homophobic. it means that when i became saved, i repented from homosexuality and have struggled with SSA since then. i used to identify with so many labels within the LGBT community when i was walking in the sin of homosexuality, amongst many other sins. i appreciate you asking that.

also, i say this out of the truth of God's Word, someone cannot be Christian and LGBT. someone cannot be both Christian and identify with a certain sin. one cannot mix darkness with Light.

someone who claims to be a Christian then in the same breath, identifies with sin, ask God to examine your heart to see if His Spirit truly dwells within you. i pray you don't take offense to me saying this, but it is more loving for others to convict us of our sin than comfort us about our sin, no matter how much we don't like it in the moment.

[faith-armor]

💛 ʀᴇᴛᴜʀɴɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴜᴍʙʟʀ | ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ!

This post will include some information about me and a short testimony of my life as a depressed addict before Christ. Thanks for checking out my blog!

💛 ᴀʀᴛɪsᴛ & ᴡʀɪᴛᴇʀ

Howdy! I'm a Christian artist from the southern US who enjoys creating stories & characters that glorify God and share the gospel! 🔥⚔️ ✝️ I like anime and various comic styles. I'm currently working on my own style.

sᴏᴄɪᴀʟ ᴍᴇᴅɪᴀ: compiled on my carrd

💛 ʀᴏʟᴇᴘʟᴀʏᴇʀ sᴀᴠᴇᴅ ʙʏ ɢʀᴀᴄᴇ

It's surreal to be here after taking a long hiatus around 2021. I'm used to having "missing e", a dozen extensions, and all of my pretty post formatting. It seems tumblr has tidied things up to make formatting easier. Back then, I used to copy/paste blank spaces, pretty symbols, and emojis, indent all of my paragraphs, and then use a bunch of key commands to select and make my font size small and neat! Haha! I don't have any problem with people who do that, it was a style choice for writers and roleplayers.

“The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of people, who suppress the truth by their wickedness.” Romans 1:18

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(CONTENT WARNING: above blog archives have explicit and/or adult content and are TESTIMONIES of what I used to write, portray, and how i lived my life.)

I was part of the tumblr roleplay community and many other rp communities across the internet, including Gaiaonline, jcink, and proboards. I did this hobby for about 16 years before I started to take my faith seriously in 2020-2021. To clarify faith, I was never really a believer or follower of Christ until I was BORN AGAIN in January 2023! Hallelujah! Note: I am not saying Christians cannot role play or enjoy writing as a way to develop characters, stories, etc. As long as it's not used to write content that would make you sin and it's not becoming an obsession.

Before that, I was depressed and detached from reality. I chased short-lived satisfaction in p**nography and alcoholism. I hyperfixated on the horror genre, supernatural & horror anime, tv series, video games, movies, and more. I felt empty all the time, had deep loneliness & despair, a void within me, & I filled it with those addictions.

I had insomnia from late nights living my double life. I was hateful, rude, condescending, competitive, swore all the time, & angry. I had a history of identifying as a bisexual, dated other girls online, and frequently played male roles during role play. I had gender dysphoria, went by 'khan', or 'khanivore'. I internalized a lot of it and would act out by doing drag king and drag cosplay IRL and roleplaying hypermasculine male characters. I began identifying as bi or pansexual, and was uncomfortable being a woman IRL and roleplaying females, even with the few I attempted to portray.

I attended many conventions to portray my comfort characters that I also roleplayed. When the convention was over, I felt like my heart was being burned alive & there was nothing to fill that void. I was never satisfied and sought after dozens of rp communities to take up my time so I could idolize playing hypermasculine male characters in the roleplay communities I was a part of.

Wrote hundreds of thousands of words portraying s*xual fantasies with males & females (which was part of my p***ography addiction). I obsessed over becoming male characters; thinking their thoughts, living their lives, not my own. I was hateful & manipulative in the relationships I sought to portray, breathing threats and vicious gossip against others. I became oppressed by demons while playing sinful music that glorified death, sex, and destruction, created vision boards that made me think of these characters, obsessively memorized their dialogues, and did some crazy forms of method acting. These characters had their own birthdays & astrology signs that I celebrated.

I saw many friendships made, torn apart, and savagely destroyed due to the toxicity of the community. Without Christ, people unhealthily hyperfixate on their idols and become jealous of other people writing better, portraying a certain character better, and seeking all types of 'shipping' relationships that don't go well. I know because that's what I did. I was so competitive that I plagiarized a lot of my ideas and writings from other roleplayers. I hid it for a long time.

But JESUS set me free! He had been knocking on the door of my heart. I did not seek Him, I wanted to live in my filth, I loved my sin. But HE sought after me & my heart slowly softened. And I also had to RESPOND to Him, I chose to finally give my life to him. My eyes began to open. I love being a woman, a daughter of God, enjoying feminine things; such as wild flowers, cottagecore, and dresses. I don’t share this testimony to glorify myself; don’t want the wrong attention or things my old self would have gloated over. I share this testimony of where I WAS, to show where JESUS SET ME FREE!

Seek Jesus - He isn’t religion, He’s a real person, the son of God, who was sent to die for our sins. Someone who wants a relationship with you. He wants to set you free from pain. He can give you answers & true identity; not the CULTure.

If the Bible says we are all sinners (Romans 3:23), (1 John 1:10), that our sins have separated us from God (Romans 5:10, 2 Corinthians 5:18) then you see why I urge you to repent (turn away) from your sins, believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and be saved. (Acts 16:30-31)

“Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.” Romans 8:1-2

If you're here from twitter/X, and have any questions or comments, feel free to DM me here, on discord, or on X.

[wecanbeperfect]

JESUS DIES ON THE CROSS

John 19:30 When Jesus therefore had received the vinegar, he said, It is finished: and he bowed his head, and gave up the ghost.

[glittergelpensherlock]

My 2024

January: started to fit in and served God in the home He had given me

February: met one of my for lifers and started to get close with uplifting girls

March: started to lose my best friend

April: realized God had brought my future husband into my life in the craziest way

May: despite loss and resentment knew i had a wonderful community and was trusting that God would carry me through whatever was next

June: had a hard time at work but kept going

July: my school closed down, it was my home and the first place i have ever belonged

August: braved being in a new place and learning how to navigate a relationship

September: relaized that loss was a blessing in disguise and my real friends would push me towards God not away from Him

October: began to feel comfortable at my new school but still struggled to make new friends because i missed my old ones

November: deeply struggled with contentment and anxiety about my future

December: realized that i have been relying on myself for success and peace when it is God who brings fulfillment into my life

This year has been crazy. Full of so much loss for me, yet somehow there have been so many blessings. After switching schools I have come to realize how impactful community is. Being around some close friends during the holidays has reminded me that God did not create us to do life alone. After the removal of some people and the introduction of others, this year has been a testimony that not only has God given us one another, but He has also given us Himself. And He, above all else, delivers us through the trials.

"The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing." [Psalms 23:1]

[foxbox23232]

If God can save me he can truly save anyone. That’s me in the photo from around 2014. I didn’t know what I even believed in, I was so confused back then. I feel like I really didn’t know anything back then either besides how I felt and how I felt about God. Around this time I was very angry at God. I lost my dad and my sister. It felt like people I had in my life literally died. Because one day they were gone. I remember around this time I started experiencing anxiety attacks, which would later follow me for many years all the way up to recently. I didn’t want to be a christian. I was doing drugs. I had no actual relationship or knowledge of God. No praying, no reading the Bible, not going to church, no researching, literally nothing. Even if he was real at this time I didn’t care to know. And I’m thanking God he had mercy on me.

I have had every single excuse to walk away from Christianity and life itself but God gave me every reason not to and to stay and showed me his glory. I have been through so much loss and tragedy in my life. According to psychology I should be on the street or dead. It’s nothing but a miracle I’m even here right now. I have been through divorced parents, abusive parents, abusive relationships, rejection from literally everyone in my life I wish I was joking(parents, ex friends, ex best friends, ex boyfriends, boyfriend, literally everyone except God), kleptomania, drug addiction, alcoholism, flunked out of school, so much fear growing up, mastrubation, fornication, bisexual, anxiety, depression, suicide attempts ( many), would cut myself, ex witch, demons tried to kill me, chronic nightmares, many health problems, broken bones, insomnia, isolation, molestation, and probably other things. I’ve been so beyond embarrassed, so beyond hurt, so beyond rejected. Not to mention I have so much church hurt from church people. My childhood ex best friend rejected me and was a christian. I was brought into a bible study community and when I didn’t want to join I felt like I was forgotten about, the Catholic friends/ family I have around me are usually harmful, a christian lied to me and did things behind my back with my boyfriend, I even had a fallout with my own spiritual mom. So does this mean Christianity doesn’t work? No it means they never got delivered and never got saved. It means despite claiming christian it really means nothing. It means demons will use christians and in turn it plagues Gods own name. So next time you’re thinking about giving up on God, give up everything else that doesn’t lead you to him. And that’s actually where you will meet him and find healing.

So anyways if God can save someone like me and if I still choose to love God, I feel people are honestly without excuse. If there is one person someone can listen to about God, it’s literally me I’m the person because I have been through so much in my life and have had every reason to walk away. But God gave me every reason to stay. This is the story of my life.

[onemillennia]

Ife, Jean, and Alex behind the scenes of Adwoa’s Music video for “My Testimony”

Photography by Ayedatsmanny

Developed & Scanned by 1MILLENNIA

Circa August 2023

Baltimore, Maryland

MILLENNIA MAGAZINE OCTOBER 24’

[aro-ace-christian]

If I'm not dead, You're not done

Greater things are still to come

- My Testimony - Elevation Worship

[kieralive]

my testimony

my real name is Saraana Galbayar i am from Mongolia, i used to get annoyed by my parents, show favouritism in class when acting as the class leader or row leader. making my parents upset, hitting the kids in my class to make them behave, acting not like myself , almost like acting. i used to even 18+ sites even when im a minor , lying , hurting those around me, and i had intense depression, wanted to die and all, shouting at kids in my class and all but, i was saved by Jesus. and thanks to Him im hoping to be better and quit my life with sin prayer works, i started hearing people pray online, thanks to God hearing their prayer, i think He reached out to me and found me.

how beautiful is His grace which saves, i still sometimes have that suicidal thoughts. and when im have some struggles with myself the Bible helped me sometimes, and praying to God made it better.

He saves and He is true. He is the way. please come to Christ and be saved also

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for other christians out there, remember “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. " John 15:18 so if you're struggling to not be ashamed of Jesus, try praying to God! before its too late my brothers and sisters. you too could also write your testimony and if want to, you can recreate(?) /repost other's testimony if you have friends that it could reach to.

God bless you.

[maxeiil]

something i was thinking bout not too long ago

I was reading James 4 and specifically verse 3 caught my eye; "When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures."

a while ago, I had a crush on this boy, my friends and I called him plum (because my sister said he looks like one lol). I was always praying to God that I would get to know him and he'd love me too-- and it was like that for months. I was absolutely infatuated with the boy. I always brushed off his wrongdoings and just saw them as his personality traits. I was just blinded by 2 things. 1, he was Christian, and 2, he was kind to me when I was the new girl.

Even though I was indirectly rejected so many times, I was just so stubborn about Plum. The boy literally said he liked tall, white, light-eyed, blondes, the complete opposite off what I am, and I was still delusional. When I found out he really hated me, I was crushed... But a while after, I finally snapped out of it and realized.

I didn't really like him, did I. I just wanted someone pretty to obsess over, someone so beautiful, I'd put them on some "holier than all" pedestal. My feelings for Plum were so superficial. And James 4:3 made me think.

I wanted it so bad, but at the same time I didn't really want it. If I did, I would have went for it. Because isnt it ironic how every chance I got to talk to him I didn't? I wasn't meant to. Plum wasn't mine. He may have loved God, but that doesnt mean he would love me.

And like I said, I was just grossly infatuated and obsessed. It wasn't even love. It was all wrong--It was just a silly delusional beyond delusional crush. I did want Plum for my own pleasures and just to be happy. But I never had anything with him. And I was never supposed to.

And you know what? I'm now really glad it went that way. God sent me another boy; I'll call him Ari. Now, the story between me and Ari is definitely for another testimony, but I really hope this was clear. You won't get everything you want just because you ask for it. No matter how good you are. God has a plan for you. Wait for Him; Your time will come.

God bless all, Maya <3

[darknesscannotsaveyou]

Not to be a seeker of sensationalism or anything (I sincerely hope that is not my motivation although the heart is unfortunately a sly little scamp sometimes), but if it is okay to ask about the "ex-satanist" in your bio -- what made you become one in the first place? I've been curious for years as to what the motivation of someone choosing that path would be.

Also, if you were in a "community" of any sort, do you have an idea how many of the people there were absolutely serious about it or if any considered it a (supremely dangerous) game?

thank u sm for asking!!

i became one out of my flesh seeking something/someone to worship, and because i was already very far from God. i was enjoying living in my sim too much to turn to Him. when i was looking into it, i ended up finding a bit of a community here on tumblr that was into theistic satanism, as well as a discord server i used to be in.

the only "community" i found was online, nothing irl. in the discord server i was in, they were 100% serious about it. i don't know if anyone didn't take it as seriously but the main people who i talked to in that server took it very seriously.

[tears-that-heal]

“We love because he first loved us.”

- 1 John‬ ‭4‬:‭19‬ ‭NIV‬‬

That also includes learning to love myself as God loves me. 💖 In the new year of 2025, it’ll be 20 yrs. since I rededicated my life to Jesus and what an epic journey it has been. This photo perfectly illustrates the very beginning of that spiritual transformation. I started wearing more colors, like pink along with my gothic attire. 🥰 I so love that girl! She has grown so much. Learning to daily embrace herself as she is and seeking to be the creative and free woman God original created her to be. Thank you, Lord, for loving me first! “Chains Be Broken/Lives Be Healed”

(I still love bats tho. Lol 😉🦇)

[wecanbeperfect]

Left hollyweird years ago to serve The Lord!

Mark 8:37 Or what shall a man give in exchange for his soul?

[fernsproutxx]

why did the zeitgeist ammonium brainrot had to strike again exactly when i say i wanna finish another project bruh 💀

[foxbox23232]

If God can save me he can truly save anyone