#Monika x Lotor

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"Delusion's End"

That's what I name this little comic, in which Lotor is asking his psychic spy Monika to use her powers to read his mind. He knows that there are deep, romantic feelings between the two, but there's a catch. Monika suffers from anxious attachment and fully believes that Lotor deserves so much better than her.

But Lotor knows what he wants!

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Writing Commissions Open

Hello!  I’m Darian Kitsune and I’m 18 years old. I’ve been writing since I was in third grade and I haven’t stopped since then. With my family situation, college and stuff :( I decided to open writing commissions. I’m open to almost anything, I’m willing to come to terms with the customer if any dissagreement occurs:

Prices & What I Can Write:

1 cent per word.

Freestyle (You give me a prompt and I write a surprise text)

One shot: SFW / NSFW

Multi chapter(max 3) +$1 per extra chapter

Specific kinks(NSFW) +15% of total for each

Fandoms (Pairings I prefer) :

Dear Evan Hansen (Evan x Connor, Zoe x Alana)

Hamilton (Alexander x Angelica, Alexander x John Laurens)

The Heathers (Veronica x JD)

Sherlock (Johnlock)

Elementary (?) (Sherlock x Joan)

Marvel (Iron Man x Dr. Strange)

Venom (Eddie x Venom)

Sander Sides (Virgil x Roman, Patton x Logan)

Detroit: Become Human (Connor x Hank, Gavin x RK900)

Undertale (Frisk x Sans, Asriel x Chara, Frisk x Chara)

Deltarune (Susie x Kris,  Ralsie x Kris, Susie x Noelle)

Doki Doki Literature Club (Natsuki x Yuri, Monika x Reader)

Steven Universe (Steven x Connie, Pearl x Amethyst, Ruby x Zaphire , Lapis Lazulli x Peridot, Kevin x Jamie)

Gravity Falls  (Dipper x Bill, Mabel x Pacifica, Dipper x Wendy)

Voltron: Legendary Defenders (Lance x Keith, Keith x Shiro, Shiro x Lance, Lance x Pidge, Pidge x Shiro, Lance x Lotor)

Star vs the Forces of Evil (Star x Marco, Marco x Tom, Star x Jackie)

Miraculus Ladybug (Marinette x Chat Noir, Marinette x Adrien, Chat Noir x LadyBug, Adrien x LadyBug)

Adventure Time (Finn x Marceline, Marceline x Princess Bubblegum, Fiona x Marshall, Marshall x Gumball)

Villanous (Black Hat x Dr. Flug)

My Little Pony

(Twilight x Sunset/Starlight/Rainbow/Luna/Celestia, Starlight x Trixie, will add more later)

Can Include:

Ships, Pairing, Character x Character 

NSFW

Fluff, Angst, Smut, etc.

AUs (explain at detail which)

I can work with almost everything, just mail or contact me directly if you’re interested in sth I didn´t mention so you can give me all the details on what you want. (There are some ships I don´t enjoy writing about, sorry).

Won´t Write:

Incest

Rape

Non-con/dub-con

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"DELUSION'S END"

(part 2)

The next three pages of my Voltron AU, in which Lotor finds a loyal companion that would never even dream of betraying him, all within a psychic human woman named Monika, who has the power of psychic "Remote viewing".

She tries to make it clear to Lotor that he is pretty much asking for the most intimate thing - and that even with them having feelings for each other, the expectations of how Lotor should behave as an Emperor will likely drive them apart eventually.

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Delusion's End (part 3)

(Read like a manga from right to left)

Lotor knows that Monika is so very reluctant to read his mind for fear that she will see something that wasn't meant for her eyes, but he beseeching her to not shut him out now, not after all they've been through together.

Monika, despite being scared, reasons that she should still do it and explains how her psychic team usually reads minds.

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“You should rest, my Prince”, Monika implored Lotor, as she kneeled down before him and patted the ground below. “No, I am fine”, Lotor retorted, but the young woman didn’t let herself be fooled. “I can see the bag under your eyes! When do you even sleep? You seem to always be awake whenever I am around, and I never once saw you asleep. This isn’t healthy! You may be an alien to me, but I know that even an alien needs to rest sometimes, as you are no robot!”

Lotor looked at her surprised.

“You are right that I don’t get much sleep”, he admitted sheepishly, “but there is nothing much you could do to help.” “Just let me try, please? Besides, I am a psychic, I could have some tricks up my sleeve!”

Lotor was baffled. Why did she even care? He looked around, and then thought it through. As if to prompt him, Monika added “None of your plans need your immediate attention right now, and if so, Myutsu can take care of it.” The Prince sighed and took on the spot that Monika had indicated to him. “Fine, I concede.” He was surprised though when Monika pulled him into her embrace, giving him a kiss on his forehead that gave him a warm feeling despite himself. The woman then hummed to him, as she lightly brushed her hands over him in a calming motion, and then slowly traced alone the shape of his face with her finger. Lotor could feel his tightened muscles relax under her touch, as he looked up at her. She looked happy, smiling at him. This wasn’t as bad as he had thought it would be. Never would he be so vulnerable in anyone presence, but something about Monika made him trust her. Was it her innocent eyes? Her unquestioning devotion to him? Why did she trust him so much, when almost everyone despised him? Why was she so gentle to him, a Galra?

Yet he felt warm and safe, just like back then, so many hundreds of years ago - it brought him back to the time when another,alien girl, took care of him much in the same manner. He smiled as his eyes drooped close, enjoying the affection that was given to him so readily.

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"I could never leave you behind in the rift, my prince...you have been alone long enough. I am here."

- Midnight sketch for when sudden inspiration hit me.

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“Even if we hate them, the finality of death also killed any possibility of them ever turning themselves around. And this probably hurts the most”

I wanted to re-draw that one scene of Lotor right after he had killed Zarkon - when he is waiting with Allura for the other Paladins to arrived. He looked absolutely shell-shocked, probably from what he had done. He killed his own father after all, and even if Zarkon was abusive to Lotor, it isn’t easy to have to live with this burden. Even if you have an abusive parent, there is some side inside of us that wishes and hopes that maybe they cared for us after all, but when they wind up dead, this hope also died with them.

My abusive mother sometimes plays with me in this way, appealing to the side of me that wants nothing more than approval from her, to be loved by her. But my rational side knows that this is just a game to her. And yet... I know that when the day comes when she is dead, I will have to also mourn the death of the mother I never had.

And Lotor in this scene was mourning the father he never had and now will never have, and this is a consequence resulting from his own hands.

I also just can’t deal with Allura in this scene. All she does is stare at him - no hug, no nothing. And instead she is rubbing further salt into the open wound by saying “It was for the greater good, and for many of us, proof of your intentions for peace.” Like damn, Allura has no tact whatsoever there. She doesn’t get what Lotor is going through and also refuses to do anything to soothe his pain. I would have hugged him right then and there, had I been there in this scene. Not to mention that to Allura, even this “proof” isn’t enough apparently, because when Lotor asks for a bit of help from her and the Paladins to get crowned as the next Galran Emperor, she flat-out refuses, even though it’s logically their best option.

But yeah, Lotor deserves better!

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Screenshot edit, featuring Lotor and Monika, who is exhausted after she used her psychic remote viewing powers. Lotor is quite concerned for her wellbeing.

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Three people cuddling together!

XD WHOOPS, it happened that I totally ship these three together. Xel is a lovely character, and that after all that happened to her in the past, she is still such an optimist! <3 And also that she would try everything to save Monika... ;_; so sweet!

@ridashippu Hope you like this! :D Lotor is one lucky guy

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Just some quick sketches that I watercolored.

Princess Aeliana, Daughter of Emperor Lotor and Monika.

Aeliana has lighter skin than Lotor, making the Altean marks she inherited more visible than on her father. Aeliana is a very active kid, and loves to do all kinds of mischief, but she is also kind and loves her family very much.

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What are you to do if your beloved is a little bit too risky with her own life? Trying to protect you even if she loses her own?

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Monika and Lotor cuddling in the cockpit of a smaller spaceship.

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E & T

I assume that you wanted this for watermoon, yes?

ENCOURAGEMENT: Monika and Mewtwo mostly do that through using words. Monika needs lots of encouragement since she is very insecure about herself, so Mewtwo would often tell her to never give up. Monika in turn tries to help Mewtwo by telling him her perspective on things or experiences she has made to give him another viewpoint.

TOUCHY:

This is somethibg Mewtwo had to get used to, because as a clone born from a tank and then used as a weapon, gentle touch was virrtually unknown to him - so PDA is something he would be a bit embarrassed about.

He doesn't mind cuddling with Monika in private, however. Sharing a bed with her, or just carressing her head. Try PDA with Mewtwo and he quickly turns quite "tsundere"

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Never really tried drawing chibis, but here is my try of drawing myself with Lotor, being all cute and happy together.

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I love Lotor so much, I just want to kiss him and give him all the love he deserves.