#lotonika

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"Delusion's End"

That's what I name this little comic, in which Lotor is asking his psychic spy Monika to use her powers to read his mind. He knows that there are deep, romantic feelings between the two, but there's a catch. Monika suffers from anxious attachment and fully believes that Lotor deserves so much better than her.

But Lotor knows what he wants!

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"DELUSION'S END"

(part 2)

The next three pages of my Voltron AU, in which Lotor finds a loyal companion that would never even dream of betraying him, all within a psychic human woman named Monika, who has the power of psychic "Remote viewing".

She tries to make it clear to Lotor that he is pretty much asking for the most intimate thing - and that even with them having feelings for each other, the expectations of how Lotor should behave as an Emperor will likely drive them apart eventually.

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Delusion's End (part 3)

(Read like a manga from right to left)

Lotor knows that Monika is so very reluctant to read his mind for fear that she will see something that wasn't meant for her eyes, but he beseeching her to not shut him out now, not after all they've been through together.

Monika, despite being scared, reasons that she should still do it and explains how her psychic team usually reads minds.

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Lotor deserved so much better than he got in the show. He deserves a loving wife that won't abuse him. Only softness allowed here.

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I love Lotor so much!

;_;

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Monika admitting her feelings to Lotor, and Lotor admitting that he reciprocates her love. It ends in their first kiss.

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“Even if we hate them, the finality of death also killed any possibility of them ever turning themselves around. And this probably hurts the most”

I wanted to re-draw that one scene of Lotor right after he had killed Zarkon - when he is waiting with Allura for the other Paladins to arrived. He looked absolutely shell-shocked, probably from what he had done. He killed his own father after all, and even if Zarkon was abusive to Lotor, it isn’t easy to have to live with this burden. Even if you have an abusive parent, there is some side inside of us that wishes and hopes that maybe they cared for us after all, but when they wind up dead, this hope also died with them.

My abusive mother sometimes plays with me in this way, appealing to the side of me that wants nothing more than approval from her, to be loved by her. But my rational side knows that this is just a game to her. And yet... I know that when the day comes when she is dead, I will have to also mourn the death of the mother I never had.

And Lotor in this scene was mourning the father he never had and now will never have, and this is a consequence resulting from his own hands.

I also just can’t deal with Allura in this scene. All she does is stare at him - no hug, no nothing. And instead she is rubbing further salt into the open wound by saying “It was for the greater good, and for many of us, proof of your intentions for peace.” Like damn, Allura has no tact whatsoever there. She doesn’t get what Lotor is going through and also refuses to do anything to soothe his pain. I would have hugged him right then and there, had I been there in this scene. Not to mention that to Allura, even this “proof” isn’t enough apparently, because when Lotor asks for a bit of help from her and the Paladins to get crowned as the next Galran Emperor, she flat-out refuses, even though it’s logically their best option.

But yeah, Lotor deserves better!

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Inspired by the song “Vertical Fall”

“If I were to let you go, wouldn't you surely break? I ‘m only here so that you will stay alive. I grasp the thrown-away light and return it to your heart. Thus I'll deftly sew together the gaps between the stars.”

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Three people cuddling together!

XD WHOOPS, it happened that I totally ship these three together. Xel is a lovely character, and that after all that happened to her in the past, she is still such an optimist! <3 And also that she would try everything to save Monika... ;_; so sweet!

@ridashippu Hope you like this! :D Lotor is one lucky guy

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I was asked to draw some cuddles for Lotor and Monika, so here are the two of them being adorable together!

They love each other very much!

(Please do not tag as Lotura, as the girl in the picture is my self-insert. Yes, I love Lotor!)

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Married my beloved Emperor! I love him with all my heart!

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This was drawn by @commander-xel for my Birthday today! Thank you so much for this lovely gift!!! 😍😊😊💗💓❤💕

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What are you to do if your beloved is a little bit too risky with her own life? Trying to protect you even if she loses her own?

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Screenshot redraws from Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann. Rossiu really reminds me of Lotor with his hair noodle and his questionable morally grey decisions. XD And his brunette assistant Kinon, who is totally in love with him, reminds me of my self-insert. She is always by his side even through his questionable decisions, seeing him cry and agonizing over the consequences of it, but that he has to make nonetheless to save as many humans as possible.

So yeah, when i saw them hugging after they stopped Rossiu from suicide, I had to redraw that as myself and Lotor.

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Bought a cheap sketchbook from the Dollar store, decided that it is my new Lotonika sketchbook, where i only sketch myself and Lotor. Here are the first ones.