#Maybe I should write my own fic idk
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Ugh I feel so bad for Morgana, that she feels so alone about her magic.
You'd think she and Merlin would be closer despite the fact that she doesn't know Merlin has magic, if only for the fact that he knows she has magic and is safeguarding her secret.
Maybe he's angry at her for cowardice about the Witchfinder and not helping to try and free Gaius. She seemed more concerned about herself ngl but I don't blame her tbh. It's understandable and a flaw in her character. She doesn't have to be perfect. Trying to save your own skin from persecution and burning is perfectly understandable and the Witchfinder was manipulating her and playing with her fears.
I'll give Merlin this. He's strong in the sense that he is willing to sacrifice his life for the people he loves. And Gaius too... I think Morgana doesn't realize she is loved very much. She's just privileged. But love. She lives with a father figure who professes that he loves her but treats people like her like scum and then there's Arthur who always sides with her father-figure.
(Writing this I can see why a lot of LGBTQ compare the ban on magic to the persecution of LGBTQ because anybody could be gay, anybody could be born of magic, and your parent might love but the moment they find out that you're different that you're queer, is the moment they might reject you, especially if they've shown prejudice before. That's pretty harsh. So, I get why people queerify or see Merlin and Morgana as gay).
She lived her life as a privileged girl never expecting to give up much and she also doesn't want to give up much. She wants to live her life being herself and that's all. It's not until she meets Morgause where she's allowed that and then that's when she finds the person she loves and is loyal to, the person she'll sacrifice her life for if she could.
#Morgana and Morgause apparently had an incestous lesbian relationship#that's how Katie McGrath was playing it apparently#unless she was joking#it's hard to tell with her#She's also a Merthur shipper apparent#Katie McGrath is crazy about Merthur so is one of the writers of BBC Merlin apparently#I'm lowkey kind of a Mergwen shipper too#But Mergana is my obsession and yet here I am hating... I promise I will try to post some positive Mergana posts but omg so hard#I'm so frustrated and angry#Maybe I should write my own fic idk#but omg Merlin why ugh why did the writers have to write him like this?#I love Merlin he used to be my favourite character#he still kind of is#he does have traits of a hero but ugh#I wish he had talk no jutsu powers#You'd think he would with how wise and inspirational he is#Merlin should've been Naruto and Morgana#Morgana should have been Sasuke#BBC Merlin#Morgana Pendragon#Morgana Le Fay#Morgan Le Fay
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prowlop….
#transformers#transformers idw#prowl#tf prowl#optimus prime#prowlop#I really want to read a prowlop fic but I’ve already read most of them on ao3#maybe I should write my own idk#doodle#suggestive
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dust and horror angel and demon themes,,,, they could totally parallel each other...... :3
dust=angel of death described in the delta rune prophecy (self declared) (i DEFINITELY elaborated on this one waayyyy before but anyways dust with a fucked up savior complex SAVE ME SAVE ME.... death is a blessing ass guy. life is torment and he will be the one to liberate monsters from their bodies and with the strength they provide to him be able to take down evil evil creation of pure misery that is the human ✨✨✨ dont worry his evil cackles are to HIDE HIS PAIN of saving everyone....... trust)
horror=demon that dragged everyone in horrortale into hell (as perceived by everyone else) (i think it would be a cool hc if everyone outside of snowdin viewed horror as literally a demon. maybe undyne preaches that. anyone outside of snowdin might be WAYYY worse because they starve for longer and literally take part in cannibalism so they might not have the same sort of mild sanity that snowdin residents do,,,, besides he DID kinda bring them all eternal suffering. kinda. nobody but undyne knows what happened at the core so she could totally just paint the story to blame horror fully)
ANYWAYS i like the possible dynamics this could have :333
dust to horror (please let me kill you PLEASE let me kill you i can end it all so peacefully wouldn't it be nice??? i promise ill make it quick just for you),,, horror to dust (i want you to live and suffer with what youve done i want you to watch all of your choices hit you one day and i'll be there and laugh at you. i'll keep you alive just to keep you suffering ok?)
OR dust to horror (you dont deserve to die you dont deserve to even be hurt by me. not because youre the exception but youre the Exception i absolutely loathe you so youll never get the sweet release of death :3) and horror to dust (just let me die already i dont wanna be here. youre supposed to be a savior right??? an angel?? then why don't you save me already when i need it more than anyone else)
#SHITS THIS OUT BECAUSE I NEED TO GET RID OF IT. my evil doppelganger will adore this post i've already shown them#this is definitely a bit of an exaggeration of their characters in my eyes but i love it :333#i dont think that dust is THIS deluded in my eyes and i dont think horror is this cynical. even tho theyre both still these traits#i came up with this idea while writing my mtt meets eachother fic :3#you can probably totally guess where i made the connection. thank you horrortale undyne for this one single thing#anyways i dont know how to shove killer into this LMAO. i was thinking like.... angel and demon on your shoulder to swap choices#but but triglycercule doesnt killer already have that with his stages??? well YES but both can be true at the same time :333#idk i dont have enough brain juices for this rn. so you get this half assed explanation 😭😭‼️‼️‼️#dust: we should kill this person. totally because they need to be freed and not because they piss me off#horror: no we should keep them alive but torment them so they never get the sweet release of death and suffer#and thanks to killer THEY CAN DO BOTH!!! YAAAAY!!!!! the powers of determination are awesome man (smug tiktok emoji)#dust is sounding awfully similar to a certain killer au of mine i made..... swapinverse rearing its ugly head once again smh#idk if this is more of a symbolic thing or LITERALLY angel dust and demon horror#because i like both ideas........ imagine an actual angel dust and demon horror going around with killer doing the little dialogue i said#what would killer be in this??? he's not a mortal or a human as would be per usual when describing whats between an angel or demon#killer as a god lmao..... noooo noooooo..... maybe just something akin to one. i meaaan technically-#someone who's more into religious theming would probably eat this idea but i cant be bothered uaghhhh#if i say anything about killer i will get shot. but i can tank a couple bullets. killer does have the ability to let both dust and horror#fufill their own ideologies. and also i am a big fat SUCKER for killer keeping horror and dust 'in line' IDC if its a bad sanses concept#i love it and therefore it's now mine to use in an only mtt context. otherworldly beings trio ‼️‼️ aghhhhh#i have like 89 drafts if the drafts reach 100 by the end of the year i think i'd DIE. so this is getting posted idc#you wont see me using literal angel and demon dust and horror. but if you look in my mind you'll see the themes regularly in what i talk ab#anyways back to writing this stupid fic i go. dust is currently battling several inner demons rn. good luck loser :3#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#sans au#utmv#tricule hc
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does anyone else ever just get like creative brainworms that are deeply distracting so it feels like your creations are trying to literally crawl out of your skin instead of like, appearing on your canvas
#not art#me right now#im trying to write a vander-centric fic#it is. killing me. slowly. or maybe quickly idk.#i just feel like i have some relevant experience that puts me in a unique position to write him#but at the same time i also want to develop my 'silco survived' au a little more#i want to draw the timelapse (he grows out his hair again)#i also want to draw young silco with his hair down#i am also unwell in both the 'vanco has its grippers in me rn' sense and#in the sense that i've spent the past few days sitting in a puddle of my own blood and various internal fluids#that should. in my opinion. STAY. internal.#but no. human body is a curse.
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i’m getting so old i guess but i’m so baffled by how the kids online talk about fandom spaces and how to interact with fanworks like this is not something to consume as a CONSUMER where you should be able to give it a yelp review afterwards this is a collaborative space we’re creating for eachother because we love a thing and we love to create
#kind of feel like maybe ao3 is serving fanfics on a platter#ppl forget behind the screen is a 16yo from like rural america or a 29yo from the philippines or smth#idk i see ppl say like i don’t owe anyone comments on their fics#i guess you don’t but okay#what even is random to you?#you don’t have to write your own fics you just have to tell ppl you liked theirs 😭#something kind of shifted in online spaces during covid too i fear…. too many normies#also people being like WHY DO YOU SHIP THAT THEY NEVER INTERACTED IN CANON#elsa and jack frost used to be a ship ❤️ just bc❤️#like WHOOOO CARES YOU HAVE MISUNDERSTOOD WHAT FANDOM IA#anyways no one at my big age should be caring about this but yeah.
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hey guys so i just got some pretty bad news (TW death but my grandmother is dying) and so if anyone has any logan or any hugh character comfort fics I could really really use them please and thank you
#logan howlett x reader#hugh jackman x reader#idk im sorry lol#i just. idk what to do#that leo fic should be posting soon still btw#maybe i write my own leo comfort fic idk
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Just saw this comment on a story posted a month ago.
*cries in Eddie Munson Solo Series no one wanted to read, interact with or request for*
No shade to the person that commented this on their own fic if you recognize it. It's not their fault. I'm not mad at them. More crying in the tags.
#and no I didn't tag the solo series like I normally would because it's not about THAT. It's not about trying to get people to read it#It was just really ouchie to see the same concept I wrote 2 years ago get triple the notes in ONE MONTH.#and double the notes of my solo series masterlist in general in one month vs 2 years of my stories sitting there rotting#Then I see people saying they need more solo Eddie and I'm just here like my dudes I begged for requests. BEGGED. But bc I wasn't#/have never been a popular writer people don't want it from ME. It's like omg we want THIS but not like that. Not from you.#Can't help but let it get you down when nothing has changed in 2 years. It's not like I worked my way up and have the interaction now#that every other blog I used to commiserate with back in the day is getting currently. Fandom isn't a competition but it's not fair either#and I really struggle with that a lot of the time#Also yes I will concede I should be happy with the notes on the solo series because they are the highest of all the work on my page but#they're still nothing compared to what some people have just hours after posting a new story.#I saw someone complaining the other day that there are less new stories in the fandom than ever 1. That's simply not true. 2. Even if it wa#can you blame writers for giving up when readers are checking the same popular blogs over again or reading the same 5 tropes the same#2 pairings over and over. The same series? Over and over. Ignoring everything else and then complaining that their faves don't post enough?#That the popular writer with the incredible series (that rightfully deserves interaction) hasn't posted a new dad!eddie or rockstar!eddie#drabble in ages meanwhile there are writes out there pouring their souls into dad!eddie and no one reads it. There is so much rockstar Eddi#smut out there that it could sustain a brand new reader for an entire year before they needed a new fic#Idk man. I'm just feeling so defeated. I write for fun now. But there was a point in time where I desperately tried to build a platform by#offering requests and writing a lot of things I would not otherwise write to try and gain traction on my page and every time I see another#food fucking fic get hundreds of notes I get so sad that I wrote that stupid Melon fic because I had people in my life that told me#they would be excited to read it and for what? One of them still talks to me. The others moved on so fast. Most didn't even reblog it.#Some of them have since written their own food fucking fics that got triple the notes of my OG. Again. No shade to them. I don't own the#concept. It's just disheartening and fucking sad above all else. How hard I tried to get people to LIKE me and my stories. 😂#Just sad hours in general tonight my guys. Going to go and pour the bad feelings into Aftermath and then maybe make a bad life choice and#pour all my savings into an ipad#YES I KNOW first world problems. I know. That's why I try not to talk about it bc it seems so petty considering the state of the world#But you can't help what gets you down#EMMs Journal#EMM's Journal
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ohno have to rework a whole ass section bc i forgot slack is a fucking bouncer. could just not have it be so. but my guy deserves this <3 secretly buff slack is real and true to the canon. it would be a disservice to not include it
#astro tries to write#(i would blame no one for blocking that tag. im back in my writing era. and also being excited abt my writing era)#back to the chatfic <3#had a look around my ideas/wips doc. .nothing stood out out. maybe the bdubs gets sent to homies s1. i just need to get him there#and then i think ill have fun with it. but last time i di that it took soo long to get ren to purge s2#like half the fic is the travel. but i can probably be lazier this time. bc of teh fic-a-day situation#goign through my notes i made abt this world. its so overwhelming#i had so many dieas for thi world. obv cant fit them all in if i want the fic to be at all understandable#but i cant not have slack as teh bouncer. one bc of him beig a good fighter in purge s1 (goign for in the tournament. holding his own on#purge day etc)#but also bc he is teh bouncer for speedys trivia place !! i think more in pixelmon. there was much more focus on teh janitor in purge s1#but like this is speedys trivia night. so ofc we gotta have slack be the bouncer#him adn speedy arent close her (bc again. purge s1 vibes) but lwokey if u squit theres pre shit#bc im me. i rememrb also in the og fic said that side had a bf (and i meant bz but could not say). so like im skirting around my own rules#i would honestly give side a bf from someone in purge s1 but i genuinely cant see him with anyne.#like side is such a weird (affectionate) that i cant just pair him with someone he doesnt already have a set dynamic with#if anyone is reading these im so sorry. like im just rambling abt my own shit and thoughts#but like im autistic and newly adhd medicated. we should have all seen this coming lmfao#fr tho i do have side ships. other tan speedy. and bz. and i guess steph ?? idk maybe this is weird of me#but i feel weird shipping ppl who are dating irl. like idk. happy for them tho !!#but i do also ship side and tom. their among us dynamic is cute as shit. and i also at one point hhad side/dumbdog feelings#i think it was from a specific session and they got overs and partners a bunch#and just had a very fun dynamic. like it makes sense bc side is weird funny and dumbdog loves that shit#idek what session tho. i think i watched it on dumbdogs twitch channel. so like yeah#anyways. god. i just. so many feelings adn thoughts. ohno now i miss chilled lobbies dumbdog :(#i was gonna say i miss pr1 dumbdog. but no he will Always be pr1. even if its just to me lmao.
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Favorite iwtv fic from other authors?
ngl i don't read too much iwtv fic but i recently read this crazy fic from the pov of an universe tumblr user analyzing daniel's in universe book and it's one of the best fics i've read in a while
#dani replies#i feel like i should probably get more into iwtv fic maybe idk#i just write mine and live in my own little world
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I can't even joke about wanting a show about Maul fucking because first of all they would try to make him straight (which he absolutely isn't) and second of all you knowwww he didn't fuck before he had his legs cut off. he was too busy being a moody teenager and going on murder vacations. so it would have to be set post AotC. so for him to fuck they would have to canonize cybernetic dicks.
#hm i should make an original post tag#this is a joke this is a joke idk if cybernetic penises are canon or not yet#but also no joke he was only in his early 20s in tpm he did Not have enough time to fuck around#plus he is. extremely non sexual. yes comics love making him shirtless. but his entire character SCREAMS guy who doesn't fuck.#he is NOT fucking when he's king of mandalore he's too busy stressing about politics and his Plan#he is NOT fucking during the empire. he's too busy being a weirdo and looking for sith artifacts to use against sidious and/or kenobi#i could in theory see him doing some fucking around during early empire era#enjoying his last years as a crime lord. even though he's not even that into it#or. [looks at my maul fucks some guy fic]#a long version of that. maybe have the clawdite spend some more time in maul's service before he leaves.#maybe a. scene/episode where jabba sends another sex slave and maul lets the clawdite fuck them. while turned into him.#.... hauving covid over my own ideas#i am NOT going to write it. but it could be very hot. with good cinema topography.#mdni
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just went through all my ao3 fics and edited all the tags because i feel like i overtag a lot and it always bothered me. tbf the most overtagging happens in my relationship/character tags but i find it super difficult to judge who/which relationship is important. like friendships are So Important in my fics i dont feel like i cant tag less there? especially my longer fics. amtc james&sirius and black brothers are in my mind at least if not more important than literally amtc jegulus. i know its a jegulus fic but also jegulus is just the catalyst for other relationship dynamics. how do you tag that stuff
#honestly same with operation wanker#i finally put the wolfstar tag at the end of the relationship list#because genuinely when i first wrote the fic i debated leaving that out completely because i just do not focus on them At All#but considering theyre the very reason for the whole fic i couldnt not tag them#but james and sirius in operation wanker are as important to me as jegulus#and they go through a similar plot line of developing and changing so ?? yk???#idk how to tag i am really bad at it honestly#as you can tell i have exam season#hence me doing anything but the things i should be doing#hp#fic rant#i need a tag for general ramblings#i did take out a lot of character tags in a lot of my fics#like in some of them i literally now have a relationship tag but not the character tag which im also still not sure at#like on lies and spies still has the peter&marlene tag but it doesnt have a marlene tag anymore#and im still debating if i should also take the relationship tag out but also its important for peters actions??? idkkk man i am bad at thi#took out a lot of tags from amtc because i just felt it was too long overall#like i do think they were not completely unimportant but it was such a wall of text i felt a bit overwhelmed#tagging fics where its literally just 2 characters and theyre romantically/sexually involved is so much easier#like on high delight the tags make perfect sense because its very obvious what the focus is on#but i so seldomly write fics that are confined to just a ship (/) dynamic#maybe this is my arospec that ive been eyeing for the past 10 years and keep ignoring showing#i just care about writing relationships (&) so much more honestly#ok thats actually a lie im not tooo good with just platonic fics but i like writing romantic stuff in the context of friendgroups#i like characters having to keep secrets from the people they usually tell evrything to#love exploring characters finding out they have friendship boundaries they previously didnt know about#love writing about trust and and conflicting feelings and having to make choices#also lmao very iconic of me to have 5km of tags on a post of me saying i am prone to overtagging. really proving my own point here
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i love selfshippers u guys r so based
#'u guys' i am also one#but i more mean people who like..#commission art of themselves and their f/o#or draw a ton of it#write fics and stuff#u know like actually actively. create or purchase content#like i ship myself w some characters but mostly more in a kin way#or like. idk theres a degree of separation#mostly because of issues with my own identity as a person <3 slsdkjfs#maybe i should draw more selfship stuff for me. it does help me get more comfy with my identity when i draw myself#siiiiigh#personal
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reading fanfic was way more fun when i had no standards for stuff being in-character or well-written
#he would not fucking say that has ruined things#i wish to return to a world where i don’t click out of a fic instantly bcz a character’s being weird#i mean i can’t read ANY pjo fic atp bcz no one understands any of them like i do#rick riordan occasionally included#which sucks bcz the vibes of pjo fics r so fun but like no one can write in character nd it kills me#maybe i should write my own pjo fic i have multiple ideas-#idk#point is i wish i had no standards for things i like bcz enjoying bad things is the best kinda freedom#i mean why do u think i watch half the shows i do#fanfic#ao3#ryan shut the fuck up
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At the crossroads between wondering if it's worth it to basically completely rewrite all my WIPs or just take a break from writing for the rest of the summer
#i noticed every summer i get progressively worse lol#like not in terms of writing but in terms of everything else goin on in my head#i mean if anyone is craving some dark and depressing shit i've got bits and pieces here#it's like i'm writing for an audience even in my own mind. can't finish anything because it's __ __ __ etc and my niche is too niche.#did my last fic really burn me out that much?? i mean it was basically 30 thousand words and there was a LOT packed into it#maybe i should finally respond to comments and i'll feel better.#something's been going on with me for the past couple months (maybe longer) and i'm just annoyed ALL the time#feel like i want to give up everything and stop talking to everyone. ((it could be my out of whack hormones mind))#so if i haven't been as active and haven't drawn or written much that's why. i'm pulling away and curling in like an atrophied limb.#my brain is just permanently in school mode. i can feel it gearing up for the oncoming year that's going to be super intense.#like would it even matter if i post any more work before september? idk why i can never seem to chill or take a break for even a minute.#i still have drawing projects i want to finish at least! taking me literally all summer because of surprise health problems.#partner was consoling me about how i feel for writing '''weird''' stuff with almost no focus on romance#saying that SOMEbody has to write what i write so that should keep me going. i just tell myself that it could be worse -#- i could be primarily a femslash writer. they are the real heroes and they get no respect.#idk why i'm getting so angsty#i think i might be romance/sex repulsed atm. not in real life at all but in fandom. i'm bored of it. and i'm bored of conversations about i#i'm sure i'll change my mind in what two weeks or so.#maybe i'll try to write something original#i have things in my ask box i should respond to. like asks about my writing. i just haven't been feeling well#so i haven't had the right brain to respond :( but i see the asks and i'm grateful <3#anyway peace and love
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If you see the final word count for my completed fic gently increasing over months and months no you dont
#i have realised that the ‘fast n loose’ method for churning out a fic doesnt work for me actually#i am so sad that so much of that fic was skipped- or told and not shown- or brushed over in favour of me forcing it out quickly#i know i did it for a good reason- that if i took my time with it and it grew bigger and bigger that there was a risk i would have exhausted#myself and not finished it at all which would have been way worse#i think actually taking 3 months to craft 15k chapters with many drafts makes me happier than churning out 4k in a week#that being said im so glad its finished and that- somehow- it did so much better than i would have ever dreamed <33#now i can go back and make it what i want it to be without the pressure of racing against my own stamina#and. if im really honest. i didnt think i would still be into avatar for this long lmao#i thought id lose the brainrot at around month three so i had to finish the fic before then#and yet. month 7 and i draw spider in my sketchbook every day. i think about him every spare minute.#the brainrot is still kicking and im happy#anyway here i go to dive back into that fic and add even more angst and whump and maybe another hug. if spider is lucky#i also want to write a little one shot about Ngaire properly taking care of spider after something bad happens#but idk if people wanna read OC stuff and its certainly not my comfort zone so i might keep it to myself#N E WAY this was the biggest and dumbest ramble to myself about my own fics lmao i should really shut up and just go write :’)
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this definitely isn't me asking for any selfish reasons or anything at all, no no. but how do you feel about numbing gel, sexually? kink yay or nay (in the capacity you are comfortable sharing an answer, if at all.) [I am so good at asking questions wowee.]
haha aw I think you did a great job asking this question! and selfish reasons are welcome, even if this definitely wasn’t for those reasons ;)
so if I understand correctly, this means like, numbing certain parts for either orgasm delaying/denying or like objectification purposes? so blanket answer: kink yay lol into that
i got way too detailed with these answers heads up haha
can’t tell if you mean in fic or personally, probably fic but hey I’m in the mood to overshare on the internet haha so I’ll say fic stuff up here and put personal answers under a cut
so much fic potential, oh my god. honestly shit like a dom calling their sub a toy and like subs begging to be used, or multiple doms talking about their sub like they’re not there is sooo perfect so hot yes please (see: so many of my polyam losers hcs haha I love showering eddie in various forms of domination) so I’d be sooo into talking more about this (and objectification as a kink in general) in relation to any losers! (or some st characters if anyone has asks about them!). also, specifically for eddie subbing for all the losers, I think it would be really good for him to have numbing gel on his cute little cock so he doesn’t cum too soon or too many times before everyone’s had a turn! it’s only fair to everyone 😇 and eddie would want to make them all feel so good for as long as they want to use him 💗 (eddies the cutest toy everrr)
thank you so much for the ask and for fic the inspiration! I hadn’t heard of this before and I love being introduced to new stuff so this was an awesome ask to get
(getting personal now, last warning lol): personally, while domming, I think this would be so fucking cute. you just get to use and use your little sub and watch them feel so good but so frustrated because they can’t quite get off, and I thinks that’s adorable! and also a bonus: getting to use them longer! who knows how long you could make it go on for you know? so fucking cute 💘
as for while subbing: also super fucking hot, the idea of only being allowed to get off from penetration… or your pleasure not even being a consideration and you’re really just a toy to get your dom off…….into itttt haha
…perhaps I’ll write a fic about this some day
#personal#??? is that a good tag? hard to tell sry#uhhh#d/s dynamic#idk if i should tag any ships bc this issss not to reblog haha#made my own bed there#posts that don't leave the blog lol#again maybe i'll write a proper fic and put it out into the reblogable world#but not this one lol
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