#Maybe 2020 actually

[lemonadehtwooh]

was going through very old art and lowkey I ate with this interpretation of Kokichi Ouma

If you can't tell, younger me loved him but very often was frustrated with him lmao. Currently, I like how I did his hair and also I like his eyelashes I gave him. Very cute

Should I redraw him in my current style... hmmm... I think he would end up looking a little different tbh

[reunitedinterlude]

happy 5 years since dan's ominous LA insta story (1, 2, 3)

[squishylilmushy]

I have no idea how well dsmp art is received on this website so if anyone asks, this is my OC Timmy before the Great War.

[turbo-tsundere]

Content warning for gore, blood, burns & body horror.

A king with no crown and a holy fool.

(The element of venom/poison, stabbing/puncture wounds and destruction of a whole body is present in both of their deaths. Kokichi's pristine white clothes also end up being shoved down the toilet, and the poison made it difficult for him to breathe, so there's plausible callback to Miu also. Karma at its finest?)

If I could be the devil, you could be the sinner.

(Don't mind them, they're just spilling their guts)

(...)

(Concepts for scenes from a Gonta-centric survival horror game I'll never make. But it was fun to daydream about - maybe one day I'll finish other sketches and doodles relating to it into a more presentable state. The Cat Lady OST was playing on constant repeat while I drew this - Lily of the Valley, Don't Follow the Light, String, Plainwalker, Early Winter, Storytelling, Susan's Blue Sheep (alone again) - those in particular are now stuck in my brain when I look at those drawings, and what I imagine the "game's" mood to be like, at least the opening segment.)

(I felt both heartbroken and like a monster when drawing this one... But I wanted to draw something that doesn't conveniently erase nor tuck his mangled, swollen face away from view. Sure... in game it looks goofy. But I think mockingly disfiguring him was the point in all of this, too. And given the venom, the Schmidt pain index, how it rates some wasp species, the fact that those robot wasps could be packed with anything necessary really... it had to be awful. Really, every stage of Gonta's execution was excruciating and enough to kill a person on its own, but due to his strength he likely suffered through them all. I remember begging in my head he was at least spared the flame, that he was already gone by this point... But it's foolish to pretend it definitely was the case.)

I wanted to post something new, but I was either busy, ill, or focused on something else, so another sketchdump with oldies and wips it is. This time strictly 2020-21 stuff, drawn during the first few months after finishing the game; mostly to process the post-game/Ch4 sorrows. All very emotionally raw, very edgy stuff that I felt, to be honest, too shy to show before.

Like with any wip I posted before, I do hope to finish some of them properly one day, even though I don't know when. But that's fine, I've signed up for a very long ride with the bug man. Taking it easy is the priority.

Speaking of long-term projects, maybe there's no need to, but I do want to talk about my Gonta fancomic, so here goes.

It's a bit long, so I will continue under the cut.

(Some panel teasers first! ...Gonta sanity fine.)

I took a few months long break from personal drawings - an *actual* break, not just sitting in front of a screen, tired, stewing in guilt that I'm tired, and that I can't magically muscle through burnout, or headache, or exhaustion.

My brain was stuck in a loop of berating myself for underperforming, not doing well enough, for taking so long on "mere" 27 pages, when in the past I could finish a 90-page webcomic chapter much faster. I wouldn't let myself rest, because I didn't do enough; but I couldn't do enough, because I didn't allow myself to rest. And it's been going on for months and months.

What a stupid, unconstructive thing to do to myself. I was only spiralling down, intimidating and overwhelming myself with work on the one thing I specifically wanted to keep doing out of joy, not ambition and pedantism. So I decided to just say "fuck it" and stop for a while. Like, actually stop, do something else and try to feel unapologetic about it.

So I briefly took up sewing, a creative activity I had no personal stake in, and then I started PVP-ing in DS3 (sorry if I happened to kick your butt in there. Rest assured my butt gets kicked just as much), which did wonders, too, as non-artistic pastime.

And, in the end, it seems it worked.

I finally feel this internal drive to draw again. Sadly, I can't spend all of my free time on the doujin (I might need to open commissions soon), so my pacing will still be glacial... But there was an internal change from "I have to, I have to, I must..." back to "I want to". And this is all that matters.

Still, that makes me think... while technically I don't have deadlines, the comic has taken so much longer than I thought it would - and it will take a while still. Thus, I wonder if I shouldn't change my approach re publishing it.

The initial idea was to post it all at once when it's fully finished, but I debate releasing it one page at a time instead, while it's still work in progress.

Thing is, I don't think it would be good for overall pacing. I don't want to sacrifice it, plus I can't guarantee regular uploads, esp since I don't exactly work on the pages in chronological order (While the first page is done, it was drawn after I finished a few in the middle & at the end; and there are still a few important pages/panels in first half I'm a bit too afraid of touching just yet, wanting to do them justice. This is how I work in general, jumping around rather than sticking to overly strict linear order.)

The compromise would be to post like 3-5 pages per post, making it so each upload covers a specific scene, however, same issue arises - I can't promise regular uploads. In the end it feels like a half-measure. But maybe it's a good idea, despite that impression?

There's a secret option, too - if this takes absurdly long, my plan was to just post the storyboard, after replacing some panels/pages with already finished drawings. The thing is readable as is, and long finished on that front anyway. My personal deadline for that was "right before my current lease ends", but, well… I plan on extending it anyway, and again... it's just a back-up option for when everything else fails. In the end, I just want to finish the comic, and present it how it's meant to be presented, however long it will take.

All those things considered, I'll stick to the original plan for now... and then we shall see. I simply wanted to share where things stand currently, and where they might go.

And that's it! If you've read this far, thank you. See you in the undetermined future.

[uglygirlstatus]

some ooooold dailies that I don’t think I posted here

[icewindandboringhorror]

Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~

(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)

[queenhawke]

whatever have uhhhh [spins wheel] lesbaksbee battlestar galactica AU

[hinamie]

crying @ my first vs most recent megu these r not the same person heLP

[vampiric-succulent]

If I had a nickel for every time some guy in a Dungeons and Dragons show/stream shouted “my erogenous zone!” I’d have two nickels. Which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it’s happened twice

[herbertpocketsfidgettoys]

very super complicated happy sad vent

Don’t really enjoy the things I love anymore yes pip is my favorite character ever but it doesn’t feel the same anymore

[lambentumbra]

height chart for my main ocs ‒ i still need to draw their actual clothes, but i think this is worth sharing at this point

left to right: olivandre (oli) (they/them) cameron (they/any) jules (he/him)

[bakatenshii]

get up bitch yuta appeared in the anime so now you have to clock into the yuta x reader factory again chop chop xoxo

THIS WAS SENT OVER A YEAR AGO BUT AXOKAOZOAOZ IM UP!!! IM UP IM UP OMGG HAHA

it’s so funny bcos for the past year I’ve just been seeing people scream over yuuta and in my petty brain I kept thinking DO U KNOW HOW LUCKY U GUYS R . U WERENT THERE IN THE TRENCHES ON TUMBLR WHEN WE WERE SCROUNGING FOR SCRAPS !!! WHEN THE ONLY SLIVER OF ANIMATED FULLCOLOUR YUUTA WAS FROM THE .35SECOND CLIP FROM THE OPENING!!1! n e ways i will forever ever everrrrr be grateful that u still come to me to tell me and think of me when u see yuuta eeEEEEEEEEEE

[reunitedinterlude]

crocheted crotch-eted (2024 // 2019)

[thirddoctor]

the problem with me is I really really love RPGs but I've only ever played like five that have actually been what I'm looking for (KotOR 1 & 2, DA:O, F:NV, and BG3). I keep trying new ones hoping I'll find more that match up, but they're all Just Okay (Outer Worlds), bad (Fallout 3), or just not what I'm after (my brief attempt at playing DA:2).

anyway after playing and enjoying BG3 so much, I bought the Divinity: Original Sin games and tried to play D:OS2. got bored after barely getting past the tutorial in my first attempt and went back and replayed BG3 instead. tried again after finishing that playthrough, got a little further and then got bored again. bought BG1 and tried to play that. accidentally shot a magic missile at one of the first guys I spoke to and killed him. pandemonium in the streets. quickly closed the game, still haven't gone back to it.

just bought Planescape Torment and started playing that. will this time be different? we'll see 👍

[moonstandardtime]

i am so glad that my interest in isat has stayed strong past the initial hyperfixation bc it means theres actually hope of tiac getting finished. something never before seen with my longfics

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

HELP what are y'alls go to ways to actually brainstorm and be excited about your books <333