#May your managers be unmanipulative and uncontrolling

[osakanone]

It... They literally are.

Cortisol, the stress hormone is delaying the restoration of your cells and their replacement. It shortens the telomeres which encode your genetic makeup.

It disrupts the removal of amyloid plaques (the things which create alzheimers, and our best bet is memory loss and the deceleration of minds in humans is caused by a combination of cortisol and sugars).

It prevents the proper resolution of stress by denying you access to essential neurotransmitters (which is why everybody is addicted to stimulants).

That fucked up brainshape results in a collapse of linguistic reasoning and thus executive functioning as a defensive mechanism (which is the origin of ADHD).

This can be passed down generationally as gene activation biases which influence your neurotopology and the shape of your brain, since evolution is assuming you're trapped in a cave but still reproducing and wants you to find a way out of the cave. This is why genetic deviations and birth defects (evolution's attempts) are significantly more frequent in places of stress -- with even transness being more common in places of high stress.

Try to imagine someone who needs to tend to a wound, but if they do they might be eaten by an animal while doing it, so they wait, with a knife in hand, ready to throw their grasp into the beast's ribs and have the knife find its middle.

That's cortisol. You're the one trembling with the knife.

I might be about to tell you something you didn't want to know, or something you already knew but did not want proof of.

You can stop reading now if you want to and I won't begrudge you.

This catastrophic gradual resudial destruction of the body is not only triggered by work, but its also alleviated by relative economic position, meaning if you emotionally feel like you have more security or more stuff than somebody else, your body makes less of it.

They want you to take up those economic objects to saturate your income but also to sate your sense of socioeconomic position. That's the real bargain of white collar work.

What's worse is it induces a kind of learned helplessness, where in the mind a human knows something is wrong but they don't do anything about it.

Humans don't try to change anything.

In fact, it literally shortens your lifespan by up to 30%.

It is literally shredding your organs.

Your body is trying desperately to tell you this.

What's worse is if someone has cortisol from the socioeconomic position but not the workload, the balance of cortisol to status is such that it induces extreme paranoia.

And those over you?

Much as locusts aren't grasshoppers, extreme wealth literally transforms brain topologies, producing ad-hoc sociopaths.

To the people above you, you are a toy soldier.

You are being asked to march into fire as tinder because to them.

It is your purpose to be firewood and to burn and if you don't accept this gleefully, you are ungreatful for being made into a toy soldier from wood to begin with.

...depite the fact they didn't shape or paint or build you. They act like they do, because that's the entire grift.

We live in the 15th century, they live in the 21st century.

The empire never ended.

Cry often and cry lots. Seek out adrenaline, which forces cortisol to distribute properly in your body and kickstarts resuming the healing process. You are biologically trapped in the waiting state for some great predator.

Work out. Exhaust your body. Climb. Lift. Run. Anything.

You need to feel acute (from the external, not your own body upon itself) pain and adrenal fear (excitement) or cortisol cannot work as intended.

This is why so many people in high pressure jobs are into BDSM, or are thrill-seekers via white collar crime. This is why so many people lead a double life as stress relief.

Above all though, you need to cry. You need to process the bad emotion. Not now and not in a catastrophic way, but in a (ugh) "productive way", like experiencing tragedy and thus catharsis through stories or by acknowledging things you had buried deep inside yourself and desperately tried to forget.

Not all at once, and only a little, but you must do this at least a little, or your levels don't achieve a setpoint declared by your endorphins and you will develop a tolerance for cortisol and your body will make more much as an addict does.

Biologically, everybody over 25 going through all this "has an addiction to a hard drug" because of their cortisol levels, and its one of the reasons why psychological research has such problems with replication because different places distribute it (and thus damage the body) in different ways.

If you are able to see a doctor, that feeling in your guts is your body screeching, begging you to run. Please please see a doctor and get a once-over. Think of it as a tune-up for a car or a general wellness assessment. If you're over 35, you'll probably catch something while its very minor like bone spurs, or nervous myalgia that's treatable at this point, the winging of your scapulas in your back, or some sort of imbalance of essential nutrients (my guess is going to be magnesium and vitamin D) -- all of which are incredibly painful if left untreated and managing and filtering that pain will eat into your cognitive capacity (since pain management costs your cognition, since you have finite brain volume and the brain can't use the same areas to do both high quality filtering and reasoning at the same time without one disrupting the other).

Read a book called "The body keeps the score" if you want to know more. It will help you solve your problems.

Further reading:

On stress:

Wilkinson, R. G., & Pickett, K. (2009). The spirit level: Why more equal societies almost always do better. London: Allen Lane. Wilkinson, R. G., and Pickett, K. E. (2017) The enemy between us: The psychological and social costs of inequality. Eur. J. Soc. Psychol., 47: 11– 24. Web: http://www.law.nyu.edu/sites/default/... Dickerson SS, Kemeny ME. Acute stressors and cortisol responses: a theoretical integration and synthesis of laboratory research. Psychol Bull. 2004 May;130(3):355-91. Web: https://www.researchgate.net/publicat... Lê-Scherban, F., Albrecht, S. S., Bertoni, A., Kandula, N., Mehta, N., & Diez Roux, A. V. (2016). Immigrant status and cardiovascular risk over time: results from the Multi-Ethnic Study of Atherosclerosis. Annals of epidemiology, 26(6), 429–435. Web: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/arti... I also highly recommend anything from Dr. Robert Sapolsky- "Stress: Portrait of a Killer" is on YouTube, as well as many of his lectures from Stanford.

On wealth:

Someone at an old job asked why I wanted to write up the meeting minutes for our team and I said 'i wanna control the narrative' and they were like 'what' and I pointed out that no one was gonna remember what we said in six months and so my interpretation of the meeting would dictate the assumed reality of what happened

"none of you ever send corrections when I offer the draft so y'all have consented to my version"

"we don't read that shit"

"you must trust me implicitly to create our shared reality that's so sweet"

That's how several coworkers decided I was a supervillain and how I learned several coworkers didn't understand record keeping as like a CONCEPT