#MY PUZZLES HYPERFIXATION GOES HARD

[selfshippinglover]

Introducing.......Bunnybot!

~He's a background character in the SMG4 universe that doesn't really get involved in main plot antics until after the Puzzlevision movie happens.

~Bunnybot was created by a scientist and left to rot for being an imperfect machine.

~Having no place to go, he ends up hiding out in abandoned buildings and working a retail job to make ends meet

~He ends up as one of the thousands brainwashed during the Puzzlevision movie but doesn't remember what happened during it, just beforehand

~(working on stuff past that lol)

~The dials on their earrings control their internal speaker system raising the volume of their voice up and down as they please

~Arms and legs can elongate pretty far like a rubber hose cartoon character!

~Has wheels built into their feet for when they need to go fast

~Tail is shaped like a sphere and wags up and down when they are excited!Also known to let off sparks when excitement is high

~Has a panel on the center of their back which can be used to access their internal wiring and such

~Has lived alone most of his life so he had to learn self maintenance

~Ends up living with Mr. Puzzles and working on his side against the smg4 crew...but he also doesn't really hate them personally either. Just wants to have antics with his favorite tv head <3

~Finds himself hanging out with Meggy, SMG4, and SMG3 on downtime

[neon-danger]

my baldurs gate hyperfixation is getting bad enough that I’m thinking about bard!alex and rogue!jack on an illithid adventure

[thetreehousechronicles]

Kuki Sanban - Teenage years

Here are some of my quick headcanons about Kuki Sanban (Numbuh 3), based on her canon character, with a little extra focus on how her growth as a teenager in the Teens Next Door, her unwavering loyalty, and her struggles with Wally’s decision to join the Teen Ninjas shape her actions and relationships. These are just my interpretations, so feel free to take them with a grain of salt—after all, headcanons are all about fun ideas and personal takes!

Hyperfixation on Wally’s Loyalty: No matter what anyone says, she does not believe Wally is truly on the enemy’s side. The thought of him betraying them is too painful, so she clings to the idea that he’s still Wally underneath it all. She spends countless hours going over old mission logs, trying to find proof that he’s been forced into this. It becomes a quiet obsession.

Masking with Energy: Kuki’s natural enthusiasm helps her cover up discomfort in tense moments. She acts happy and excitable even when she’s stressed, because if she lets herself feel the full weight of everything—including Wally’s absence—it’s too much.

Conflict Avoidance (Until She Snaps): Kuki tries to keep the peace, but the moment someone suggests that Wally is beyond saving, she loses it. She can handle teasing and banter, but if someone seriously implies he’s not worth fighting for, she will explode—and it’s terrifying because no one expects it from her.

Emotional Regulation Through Interests: Rainbow Monkeys are still a huge comfort, but now she also hyperfixates on strategy games, brain teasers, and puzzles—anything that helps her feel like she has control over something when everything else is falling apart.

Close Bond with Hoagie: Because of everything with Wally, Kuki has grown really close to Hoagie. He’s the one who listens when she spirals, doesn’t judge her when she cries, and cracks jokes to make her smile even when she’s furious. They rely on each other in a way they never did as kids, and she trusts him more than anyone.

Guilt Complex: Kuki constantly wonders if she could have done something to prevent Wally from leaving. She replays every interaction, every mission, looking for the moment she “lost” him. Hoagie reminds her it’s not her fault, but she doesn’t believe it.

Burnout & Shutdowns: Some days, it all gets to be too much- the missions, Wally, keeping up her happy front. On those days, she barely speaks, avoids eye contact, and disappears to be alone. Hoagie usually finds her, sits nearby without pushing her to talk, and lets her recharge.

Small Rituals for Comfort: She always ties her boots a certain way before missions, hums the same song when nervous, and wears one of Wally’s old wristbands under her sleeve. These little things help her feel like she still has a connection to him.

No Matter What, She Won’t Give Up on Wally: Even if everyone else stops believing, Kuki won’t. No matter how much it hurts, no matter how much Wally insists he’s changed, she knows the real him is still in there—and she will never stop fighting to bring him back.

Maturity in Unexpected Ways: While she still seems carefree, Kuki has deep emotional intelligence and understands people better than they realize. She can tell when Hoagie is pushing himself too hard, when Abby needs space, and even when Wally is lying about being “fine.” She might not always say something, but she notices.

Aggressive in Training, But Not in Missions: During sparring, Kuki goes all in—partially to prove herself, partially to get out frustration. But when it comes to real fights, she holds back unless she has to hurt someone. She’s only truly ruthless when someone threatens her friends.

Fears Losing Another Friend: Losing Wally to the Teen Ninjas broke her, and now she’s hyper-aware of how fragile friendships can be. If she has a fight with Hoagie or Abby, she spirals, afraid she’s pushing them away too. It’s part of why she avoids conflict—she can’t go through that kind of loss again.

Hoagie Keeps Kuki Grounded: Kuki can get too caught up in emotions, especially when it comes to Wally. Hoagie is the one who reminds her that she still has a job to do, that she can’t help Wally if she’s reckless. He never stops her from believing—he just makes sure she doesn’t lose herself in it.

They’re the Only Ones Who Truly Understand Each Other’s Pain: Abby and the others care, but they didn’t lose Wally the way Hoagie and Kuki did. They didn’t grow up with him, didn’t fight alongside him, didn’t love him like they did. The only people who can truly understand the pain of losing Wally Beetles… are them.

Avoiding Wally-Related Conversations in Public: They both know the rest of the TND sees Wally as an enemy now. Rather than deal with that heartbreak, they’ve learned to only talk about him when it’s just the two of them. That way, they can grieve in peace.

Literal Thinker, Takes Promises Seriously: If someone tells her Wally is “gone for good,” she takes it at face value and spirals. If Wally tells her to stay away, she refuses because she can’t process why he would mean that. Words matter to her, and she struggles when they don’t match actions.

[on-the-downward-spiral]

I dare you to write a story about Wesker's relationship with his closest subordinates, Jill and Chris!! I just heard "Silver Spoon" song in one the random Tiktok edits and man... I can imagine Wesker referring to Chris in the first stanza and then referring to Jill in the second stanza :( Chris probably grew up in that Raccoon City's orphanage so yeah, Wesker could look at it and be like, "ah, so you were an orphan"... and somehow Jill gives me vibes of this "my dad became a soldier and died so I became one to honor him too, even tho my loving mom's worried a lot about me" T-T I'm sorry if I talk too much, this song is my new hyperfixation now...

|| silver spoon - requested

in another life, maybe i was you, and i grew up into something good.

1115 words || sfw, no real tws on this one, but it's definitely not a happy fic.

The air fills with the sounds of chatter, of clinking glasses and pouring liquor, the lighthearted music of a Friday night, friends enjoying themselves, enjoying their time together. Wesker knows he should be happy too - it’s been a relatively normal week, everything has gone according to plan, and even though he wouldn’t have chosen this place, he can’t bring himself to complain. Not when he glances to his side, a half-hearted smile crossing his normally stoic face as his gaze lands on his colleagues. He’s grateful that they invited him along, of course, but something about it feels… wrong. Incredibly so. 

He looks away, focusing on the drink between his hands, fingertips tracing the etchings in the sides of the glass. It’s a grounding motion, something to keep himself focused in the moment even as he feels his mind wander with the moment of safety he finds himself enveloped in. He knows he can’t get close, not in the way he wishes he could. His second skin won’t allow it, the steady-built walls of the walls around a heart he’s not sure he truly has anymore never daring crumble, not even for the people that he supposes he loves, in some way or another. He tells himself it’s simply because one day he’ll have to turn his back on them, that he’s just doing his job and keeping his feelings uninvolved, but when he thinks just a bit too hard he realizes he’s not certain he can care for them the way they do him. 

He goes through the motions like anybody else, can put on a smile so well-rehearsed it almost feels real, and yet something is missing. He glances at the other two again, propping his head up with one hand, studying them the same way he always has, trying to understand just what it is about them that he’s lacking. His gaze lands on Chris first; a loudmouth, a troublemaker, constantly getting under Wesker’s skin in ways he never thought could agitate him. Yet, there’s just something about him that he can never stay angry at. 

The other man has been drinking far too much, goofing off in front of Jill in an attempt to make her laugh. It’s almost childlike, wildly unprofessional for someone of their reputation, but it still makes Wesker crack a smile - even if it’s only barely visible. His own upbringing couldn’t have been all that different, from what he does know about the other man. Chris, too, had grown up without parents, had nobody but his sister against the world, and yet… 

He shakes his head, a minuscule motion that draws no attention from anybody around him. They’d been so similar, and yet Chris has something Wesker cannot even begin to process. He’ll never understand how the younger man can be so carefree, so happy, how he can enjoy his life so readily, as if not afraid that any day could be his last. Perhaps it isn’t an act, perhaps Chris really is content to live in the moment, to just enjoy every day no matter what could be coming next, a possibility that is both puzzling and genuinely unfathomable to the older man, so wrapped up in planning his every move and scheduling every minute as if his life is nothing more than a routine, as if he’s nothing more than a well-oiled machine chugging along to the ebb and flow of the world around him, both above and below the surface of his lies and half-truths. 

His eyes flick to Jill, watching her finally crack beneath the pressure and break into giggles she tries to smother with a false cough, not wanting to encourage Chris’ antics, no matter how entertaining she finds them. The last thing any of them need is to be escorted out - that would be unbecoming of them and their department alike. Wesker can already feel his nerves on edge at the thoughts of trying to suppress that from the press, of trying to defend him and his subordinates from the wrath of Irons in that inevitable conversation, the - 

He catches himself. He’s spiraling again, letting himself tumble down a path of worries he realizes make no sense. Not now, anyway. Jill seems to have it under control, so he lets himself take a breath of relief. She’s more of a mystery to him, to everyone, preferring to keep to herself. He presumes it’s for the same reasons he won’t talk about his own past; whether it be as simple as not feeling like explaining and answering questions or something as complex as knowing that nobody around them would understand. Yet, somehow, he just knows it’s the first. Normal people aren’t raised in a boarding school meant to condition them out of feeling, normal people aren’t afraid to step out of line even as an adult, normal people certainly don’t see the suffering of others and turn a blind eye. He isn’t a normal person, but Jill is, no matter how tough and aloof she may be. He can almost picture the background she may have come from; perhaps a firm father that taught her to be strong, and a loving mother that taught her to still be gentle, to have a perfect balance even as she pursued her goals with ruthlessness he’d come to admire in the time since he first met her. It aches somewhere deep in his chest to imagine, to wonder what kind of man he would have been had he had the same upbringing, had he ever met his parents. 

Would they have loved him? Are they still out there? He sniffles, barely even noticing the tears that he has to blink back, the crack in his stone-cold exterior that he quickly has to cover with emotional mortar as if it had never slipped out to begin with. And yet, he still can’t help but wonder; Do they miss me? Finally, he drags his focus back to the drink in his hands. He knew he shouldn’t have come tonight, but he’d convinced himself that a little time out would make him feel better, had convinced himself that maybe the awkwardness between himself and his colleagues would ease if he only spent more time with them outside of work, but he knows now. He’ll never understand them the way they understand one another, he’ll never understand the hardships that create someone so sweet, so kind, so caring. It burns like bitter bile in his throat, but there’s no point in getting angry, no reason to show how cruel he can be, nothing left to do now but drown the feelings swirling in his chest, just for the night.

[lesbiancruzramirez]

gaming headcanons for jackson, cruz, natalie n tim :D

going off more in this post about jackson being bad at other games that aren't sc3: before biggs scouted him, he has tried other arcade games before and when no one was looking he lost horribly because the racing game in question was specifically a drag racing game and so had different goals and mechanics and jackson just swore off other racing games that weren't sc3

cruz doesn't get a lot of time for gaming, she's pretty busy with irl stuff so its usually some casual games!

she likes to wind down with stardew valley or sims 4 but really likes playing party games with friends like jackbox, minecraft or if she's feeling mean, mario party or mario kart.

actually, especially mario kart. you will not look at cruz ramirez the same if you play mario kart with her.

hc from @/youhavehitawall that natalie plays 5d chess with multiverse time travel to relax so she's kinda a cozy gamer in a sense that is her definition of relax. just generally likes puzzle or board games.

anyways theres minesweeper leaderboards and natalie certain is up there.

like chess, 5d chess, minesweeper, sudoku – she goes through phases of these games and gets insane about it.

adding to my specific natalie sudoku hyperfixation hc, she later would discover kenken via tim and that's been her most consistent hyperfixation yet because she does the daily kenken puzzle on kenkenpuzzle.com and still has kenken puzzle books to finish. the rsn office has since learned their lesson and did not ban kenken puzzles

now if you ask tim treadless the kind of games he likes to play to wind down, he will smile and say it's party/board games with the team ^-^

he is a liar. he plays mobas (league of legends, mobile legends, etc etc).

and listen, listen – this is how he spends his free time ok. he needs something to do in the off season and since he's been on the piston cup, life's been comfy. a little too comfy. he needs to feel the highs and lows of competition again and its a sort of catharsis for him.

he plays support btw. so he can still carry the team while not being the one to necessarily hard carry or lead the team and he's a pretty casual player that doesn't touch the game for months when the season rolls back in again.

somewhat helps by being an extreme people pleaser to a fault so you know he's getting numbers on those assists, he is also better withstanding against toxic trash tal

[loops-n-boops]

Seed Dump!!

after a little unexpected turn to a DC hyperfixation that lasted roughly two weeks I'm back to my farcry shit (the usual) so imma give y'all a three for one, John doodles, Seed playlists and hcs in one post,, take your juice

Jacob Seed:

listens to cheesy love songs and some rock and metal

Most think John swears the most but that's a lie, it's him. Whenever Joseph isn't around he'll throw a "fuck this" every now and then

likes adult coloring books and crossword puzzles

if Joseph asks a favor that doesn't involve strength he always goes "I volunteer Johnny"

He opens doors for John and goes "ladies first"

can and will tackle John to the ground and yell "say uncle". He does all the annoying older brother shit idc

Tends to fight with Joseph. They always fought back and forth. As kids it was about how Joseph wouldn't 'man up'. Now it's about how he treats John, not knowing Joseph's been manipulating him to stay this whole time too

So in the past I hc that he's gay, I feel he struggles to come to terms with that. To this day he still is under the impression that it's wrong and makes him look soft, so he still tries to act like he doesn't

Rants to the judges. He is waits until he knows he's alone with the alpha of the pack and just dumps everything he has in his mind. That dog knows things no one else knows

His friendship with Eli in the past was a good one. It reminded him too much of his friendship with Miller (minus the possible secret romance part). They had similar inside jokes, Eli playfully punched him the same way Miller did. He hated it. He still hates it

Jacob is much more of a listener than a talker but prefers surrounding himself with people who talk a lot

Joseph Seed

Joseph doesn't hate John. He's hard on John so he learns. Johns become their father in Joseph's eyes and is making sure to shape him up. However he doesn't realize how terrible he's being to him as he does so.

His biggest fear is being alone. To combat that he almost subconsciously manipulates people to stay with him. He doesn't want to hurt them, but if he doesn't they'll leave. He'll be alone again

As a child Joseph wanted to be an author. He had notebooks filled with vibrant stories he made up in his head. Once a teenager though he found an interest in baking. Him and his wife's date nights consisted of them playing music as they tried a random recipe they found. It was a piece of happiness he never had as a child. They wanted to save money and open a bakery together. Still, to this day, Joseph gathers ingredients on Friday nights and bakes.

Has a heavy preference for Jacob. The man was with him the longest, helped him the most. It isn't that he doesn't love John, but he's detached. John wasn't there as long as Jacob was. John was raised by different people.

He hates winter. Winter was when Faith taken from him. He won't enter any vehicle. He won't go outside much. He hates it.

Puts everyone before himself. He could have not eaten at all that day but he will still be sure to make sure everyone else has. He will forget to eat unless someone else tells him to

His favorite song is Little Lies by Fleetwood Mac and whenever he hears it he gets a boost of happiness. He knows every word.

I don't care what anyone says, I think he's shockingly the worst with kids. He can't handle the tantrums, they stress him out. He doesn't yell or hit but he completely shuts down and won't really react

Doesn't put his hair down often. He sleeps with it down but beyond that? It's always up. Usually in a bun, but sometimes he'll go ponytail.

When angry he tends to quietly glare. He tells from time to time yeah, but he more often will glare at whoever upset him. A look that basically says 'you know what you did'

Hes actually much more of an introvert than people may think. He doesn't like being alone but that doesn't make him an extrovert. His idea on a relaxing day is sitting in a room with his brothers where they all do their own thing but they don't speak much. Comfortable silence. The idea that they're there makes him happy, and the fact that they can indulge in their own hobbies without judgment makes him even happier

John Seed

Much more of a talker than a listener. This makes him and Jacob a good pairing since he would talk a lot and Jacob would smile and listen.

He despises fast food. He tried it once and declared it as the grossest thing to every touch his mouth. He's also definitely the pickiest eater in general. He hates most seafood, broccoli, brussel sprouts, fast food, pizza if it's too greasy, chicken if there's too much tendon, the flavor of mashed potatoes and steak together but he'll eat it on separate occasions. He was picky as a kid and he's still picky as an adult

Actually needs glasses but will not wear them. Luckily he has contacts. However one time he lost one and had to wear his glasses and his chosen were staring at him confused. He needed them since he was little but he never got the appointment when he was with his brothers. Jacob did notice him squinting a lot. Joseph only had glasses because he got his prescription years ago (but they should've been renewed)

He went to religious schools from second grade onward. I'm talking the ones with uniforms and all your teachers are nuns. There's so many pictures of little John with one of those school uniforms and dorky glasses and a big smile.

Speaking of which I believe he was the cutest kid out of all of them. He had big ol doe eyes and got excited over everything. Joseph and Jacob used to call him sunshine when he was young because no matter how miserable and dark the world was around him he always was a happy little boy. He was bright, loving, innocent. An absolute sweetheart in his youth. He was the kid that waved to strangers on the street, his go to form of affection was hugs, and he comforted his brothers when they were upset despite not understanding why they were even upset.

The Duncan's viewed Johns innocent nature as why he was a tainted soul. He didn't understand accountability and the idea that not everyone was good confused him. They had to teach him. Besides, the Duncan's weren't too good themselves.

His adoptive parents were Henry and Amelia Duncan. They adopted John due to Amelia's infertility. John was the youngest there and was promising so they chose him not knowing they were taking a broken boy and breaking him beyond recognition. Johns obvious mental illness also made them feel he needed to be shaped. They were the type of people that thought praying could solve everything. John barely saw doctors, he never got therapy, and when they found out their son was bisexual they threatened to send him away.

However, Henry's mother: Evelyn loved John for who he is was. Accepted her little grandson. Henry's family was large, the man having four brothers and a sister. John was the baby, all of his newly adopted cousins being older than him. Not a lot of them were good, John wasn't even that good, but Evelyn had a clear preference for John, always calling him her angel. (I have too many Duncan hcs I'll stop there)

Johns behavior first began to plumiit near his sophomore year of high-school. He got a stick and poke tattoo when he was too young to have one from a friend. It did get infected but that was fine for him. It was a taste of freedom. A taste of freedom he never had in the past. He wanted a taste of the freedom of adulthood and was willing to rush his adolescence to get that. By the time he was a senior the little angel people knew and loved died, and in his place was a cold hearted snake that lacked any form of remorse for what he did. All he cared for was his own amusement.

As a boy he drew a lot, he quickly discovered art was something he enjoyed. He drew pictures of him and his brothers, but when he lived in Atlanta their faces started to become blurry. Were Joseph's eyes blue or were they green? Who was taller, Joseph or Jacob? What didn't help was the Duncan's wanted every aspect of Johns life before them to not exist. They tried convincing him that they weren't his family and that they hated him. They made him go into speech therapy to force his rural accent to go away. They didn't adopt a son, they adopted a pet.

I'll do a little softer one for the end: Johns secretly a bit of a hopeless romantic. He's always been fond of the idea of romance. He loves cheesy rom-coms, he reads romance books. All of it. Hes well aware that a romantic relationship is something he'll never have, but it doesn't hurt to wish for one. He falls too quickly, but then gets scared when he has to be vulnerable. He has issues, he's not a good person. His issues will scare everyone away. He has no chance. A part of him envies his brothers: Joseph for having a marriage and Jacob for clearly not being interested in romance at all. But some nights, he doesn't care. He'll grab a DVD player and watch his silly little romantic comedy movies (or say yes to the dress if he's feeling something dramatic) and will eat half a bag of gummy bears

[elderwisp]

TEN FUN FACTS ABOUT ME *airhorn noises*

NUMBER TEN

⟡ I am very good with a kitchen knife, even better if I have a fitted cut glove. Cutting herbs is probably my favorite bc I can get it really fine in three or less cuts :3

NUMBER NINE

⟡ I used to do open mics but singing in front of a crowd while playing an instrument is... Terrifying. Still love to sing though! The first time I sang in front of my bf, he cried I am A RIZZ GOD-

NUMBER EIGHT

⟡ I have a wicked sense of smell and hearing. At my old restaurant, I could hear from across the kitchen on a busy day and it would freak people out. However, my vision is shit. HAH-

NUMBER SEVEN

⟡ I love puzzles or strategy games. Idk my brain just hyperfixates on how quickly I can finish it.

NUMBER SIX

⟡ I collect ethical taxidermy! I have a wall filled with bugs that died from natural causes as well as skeletons or paperweights.

NUMBER FIVE

⟡ I ate so many hot cheeto fries for years that I developed a really bad stomach condition. Ah.

NUMBER FOUR

⟡ I used to be in theater. It actually might be something I regret because our teacher wasn't the best at their position so I never really felt any growth. You either had to be good or that was it. I would get parts but I hated it sm bc we would get type-casted hardcore.

NUMBER THREE

⟡ I love horror, HOWEVER i am that person that will hide behind something the whole time. I love having horror game livestreams in the background.

NUMBER TWO

⟡ I'm not very athletic. I have tried so hard to try out a sport but it wasn't very fun. I did take up skateboarding for a few years but I kept... Falling off my board... Maybe longboarding is good, yeah? I guess that goes to say that I am not very coordinated. WOO!

AND FINALLY, NUMBER ONEEEEE

⟡ I am incredibly critical of myself, it's actually something I am actively trying to work on but I think nothing ever feels good enough which is silly and all. My old boss would always tell me I had imposter syndrome like yes shawty I'm aware, my therapist is aware, CHILL !

tagged by @flovoid and @venriliz (my bad cuh it took me almost two weeks to think of something BAHAHA)

i tag @earthmoonz @living-undead @sirianasims @rebouks if u'd like O3O

[darklight-owl]

Owl Reviews Stuff She Just Finished: Professor Layton vs. Phoenix Wright

So yk I didn't know what to expect going into this game, I'd seen really funny dialogue of it and mostly got it because I was extremely hyperfixated on Layton. But I did NOT expect such an emotional rollercoaster of a game with themes that tie into both Professor Layton and Ace Attorney and utilizes the strengths of each series so efficiently. I did not expect this game to make me cry. I did not expect this game to become one of my favorite Professor Layton AND Ace Attorney titles. But it did so I have to talk about it.

With two successful IPs on the cover this game could have easily been halfassed but every corner of it is full of passion for both titles. I mentioned before how they build off and complement each other and I think that's a result of the people working on this game having an in-depth knowledge of what makes PL and AA work and what their shortcomings are.

For example (I mentioned this in the liveblogs but may as well repeat myself here) Ace Attorney games are often limited to just the courtroom and investigation, not to mention you're not going to see 90% of the characters ever again after the case is done. This is serviceable for the kind of game AA is but it makes the world itself feel a bit uninteresting. However Professor Layton games have you confined to one town and make you explore it in depth, with recurring background characters who all have different (yet basic) personalities. Because of this, the Layton segments where you walk around town become crucial parts of the game where you can interact with future or past witnesses as they go about their lives, making these witch trials feel like they're taking part within an actual community, which make the emotional beats in the trials hit REALLY hard.

In turn, AA strengthens PL by adding variety. Layton games can be a bit monotonous if you're not engaged since the gameplay mostly consists of talking to people and solving an occassional puzzle, and there's a lack of interesting smaller mysteries to keep the audience engaged while they work on solving the bigger ones. But Ace Attorney games thrive on side stories, they're what make the trials so interesting! So by adding the smaller mysteries in the form of witch trials and mixing in clues about what the Hell is going on in Laberynthia you make a much more dynamic story that never feels like you're getting nowhere.

Enough about story structure and nerd stuff like that though, let's talk characters!

I love the main four and have always loved the main four so I'm not gonna talk abt them. The original characters for this game were freaking amazing. I see a lot of people really dislike Espella (which is understandable since she's probably the weakest of the cast) but she's pretty alright imo. She's going through a lot of things with the entire town despising her and [SPOILERS] so it makes sense why she would act the way she does, even then I feel like most heartfelt moments with her were a bit forced, which kind of lessens the impact of the last scene. I LOVE the relationship between her and [ANOTHER SPOILER] as well as the dynamic she has with Maya though.

I LOVE BARNHAM. He's one of my favorite prosecutors, he may not have any deep angst or trauma like so many of my favs do, but he's just a well meaning dude who thinks he's doing what he needs to to protect his town, even if it means casting wiitches into the flames. He also goes through a little character arc of his own where he also starts to bend the rules, the only laberynthian to do so. It's fun. Barnham is my best friend.

Unfortunately I can't talk about Darklaw or The Storyteller without getting into spoilers but basically: I love Darklaw and think she deserves the world, I'm on the fence about The Storyteller and feel like parts of his character were extremely rushed.

The secondary characters are also great, you have your classic goofy witnesses but also some really heartfelt characters and relationships in the trials, this is nothing new for Ace Attorney but when you include the conscious knowledge that these characters are going to be cast into the fire then these mini stories are enough to move me to tears (Looking at you, Golden Court).

Anyway, overall a fantastic experience that caught me completely off guard. No notes. I give it 10 burning witches out of 10.

Oh. And also:

[echoes-lighthouse]

Stim Headcanons For My F/Os

Not all of my f/os stim, but a lot of them do, and these are my headcanons about it! <3

Jester -doodles -rocks side to side -flutters hands -swishes sleeves -uses watercolours because the texture is better when it gets on her hands

Zero -hums and clicks and gets stuck on sounds -taps hands and fingers and bats his palms on his knees -tugs hair -also runs his nails over textures to make sounds -loud music

Dirk -swimming -runs the hem of his shirt between his fingers -puppet fabric -metal puzzles, keeping his hands busy -weighted blankets -twisting wires together

Cecil -hands hands hands: flapping, fluttering, shaking, running over fabrics, folding paper -hums to himself -goes jumping into the low gravity pits -gets excited about slime -hyperfixates on phone games for a period and then switches to a new one

Ms. Frizzle -texture of Liz’s scales and spikes -talks to herself pretty constantly -clicks pens when she’s alone -taps her toes -hand-sewing -will chew her hair if she doesn’t have it pulled back -more into silly putty than slime (especially because you can bounce it)

Tomura Shigaraki -twists or pulls his hair -taps on hard surfaces, especially cups and mugs -scratches neck -fidget cubes -phone games that make the phone vibrate

[whats-those]

So I didn’t think anyone was actually reading my posts about WABLWYWYD!, let alone anyone actually invested in the fic, but it has come to my attention that I was wrong! So here’s an update for the few who care:

First off, I am going to try my best to keep writing the fic. Due to a very nice comment from a dedicated reader, it has come to my attention that people actually care about seeing it continue. This is kind of a lot of pressure, but hopefully said pressure can translate into motivation.

Just to temper your expectations right out of the gate, there is no guarantee that I’ll finish it. As I said in the comment to that dedicated reader: The way the cycle of my hyperfixations work is brutal. As soon as I get a new one it completely overrides the old one, which has happened to me a couple times since I stopped updating WABLWYWYD!. I still love Scream and Stuilly, but I have something else that’s consuming all my thoughts these days, and of course my brain spawned a multi-chapter fic for that (though that one has even less certainty of being finished because I don’t have a plan for it). So, all this to say, once my hyperfixation for a certain piece of media goes away, it’s hard to be motivated to create content. But I AM going to try! I’m gonna rewatch Scream and try and reignite the obsession at least enough to work on the fic.

Lastly, something that doesn’t really affect the readers but something I’m writing here as a reminder to myself, I set my sights way too high for this fic. I am going to be scaling down my plans to alleviate some of the monotonous logic puzzle-ness of it all, so I can hopefully just stick to writing the fun parts (murder and gay pining).

Thanks so much for sticking around all those who are waiting for an update. I’m going to try for you!

Love ya

[skeleton-mischief]

Cyperus Serrif

It is only fair that I get to show off my headcanons for the skeleton that was my favorite character from the beginning. OG Papyrus

- Official height is 6'5

- He/Him

- Pansexual

- Has the most control of his magic and will adjust to match his opponent.

- An excellent cook for everything except pasta, it's why he's hyperfixating on getting it right

- Likes puns but thinks there has to be tact

- Hard worker, overachiever, kindhearted, empathetic, optimistic, cheerful, confident, sassy, impulsive, loud, stubborn, blunt, and charming

- Pacifist

- No pet preference, but has beef with the white dog that terrorizes him

- Does not curse often but will

- Magic smells like citrus, magic tastes like sugar cookie

- loves high fives

- Bear hugs all around

- Will remember everything someone tells him and uses it to his advantage

- Takes on emotional and physical burdens from others and gets burned out because of it. Wants to make everyone happy

- Takes care of himself physically, but struggles to do it emotionally. Hides it from others of course, but sometimes it's hard to hide from yourself

- Cries frequently if he's sentimental and not afraid to show it. Goodbyes, shows, etc. He only is practically silent if he's genuinely upset

- Would call his lover "Sunshine"

- Admires Vanilla and encourages Vanilla to rely on him

- He was the one to come up with the idea of using different names for everyone when the AU's clashed

- Unintentionally brutal when insulting someone, he also can make someone's jaw drop if he comments on something

- Hyperfixates on making good puzzles, it's a special interest of his

- The "Date" in Undertale was actually just him doing a playdate with Frisk. I think he would be good with kids, and he gets to get this little human to smile and befriend him and his brother. It would explain why he is so cartoonishly crazy about it, and why at the end he only wants to be friends

- He would call you all the time, face times, texts, all of it. He has so much to say and loves speaking, loves talking to you. You haven't grown tired of him? Well, because you haven't, he's secretly so happy to know that

- Admires Undyne and feels that he's not allowed in the royal guard due to something he's doing wrong

- Mettaton is his celebrity crush, but he'd never date him if they ever met. The "celebrity life is just not for him. His only true love is himself..."

- He is good artist who makes hero comics as a hobby, I think that because he has so many figurines he'd practice drawing since it's clear they're good poses and he's friends with Undyne. Clearly, comics and manga go with anime

- Cries in his closet when underground. In the game, he comments there are no skeletons in his closet, except him sometimes. I think this shows that it's a good place for him to cry without getting caught since it's a private spot

- Will make grand entrances often, including jumping through windows or throwing his hand out in a grand gesture before announcing himself

- Owns a red car, a sleek fancy one that he had to work to get a driver's license for. Otherwise, he would've crashed it

- Loves to try different styles above ground, since he didn't have many options Underground where most monsters don't even need clothes!

- Will carry Vanilla around and refuses to let anyone else do it because they "do it wrong."

- His favorite food is dinosaur oatmeal

- side eyes his friends, the others pets, even strangers, often. It's a silent judgment and he's super cartoonish or slick about it

- Doesn't remember Gaster except sometimes in his dreams

- He doesn't have anyone that outright dislikes him. for some they don't care for him, or even mock him, but no one dislikes him or even goes so far as to HATE him

- Is quite lonely, when the others arrived it was what he considers a gift

- Intimate, platonic relationships mean a lot to him

- He is in truth not as judgemental as he can come across, trying his hardest to be open minded about serious topics. Otherwise, expect him to call the old man at the grocery store and old prune for taking the last of the noodle brand he uses

- He doesn't believe that there is such a thing as "Evil" per say, or at least anyone being fully capable of being evil. It's one of the reasons he actually gets along with Flowey, who he doesn't know is also a kid and just naturally is able to be kind and patient enough for him

- He's self reflective, and a lot more intelligent than some people give him credit for. His theatrics do not deter him from being serious and deeply considerate when times matter

- He has never flattered someone out of manners, and so you can expect him to really mean it when he compliments you

- He has such control of his magic that he can bring you down to one HP, that's something that requires patience but he's capable of it

- He does gaming rarely, it's only something he does with family or if it's a puzzle game, opening his mind to fun things

- Rubic cubes are a thing of the past for him, he understands patterns and he can solve them way too quickly. Vanilla actually taught him when he was younger

- He acts more "motherly" when the other versions arrive, he has a desire to take care of others as a result

- He will gossip and even talk shit when it comes to shows, don't even get him started on it. The moment his TV show comes on, he's entirely wrapped up and invested. Just wait until reality TV gets discovered by him

- He's hard to anger, but frustration comes to him easily. He'll be frustrated at his failures, and he suppresses it until alone. Anger, however, isn't often a problem for him. You'd have to push him, and only then does he truly become something else. He doesn't like that version of himself though

- Very touch oriented and an active soul, he likes to work out and get up stupid early

- Sleep? HAH, not for this workaholic! There's so much to do!

- Wouldn't hesitate to be supportive of others, throwing out all the things you need with pom poms and everything

- Was it always this hard to get noticed by his brother? Sure, he's super supportive and present. But doesn't he see that his distance hurts? He actually is acutely aware of how much Vanilla hides himself away, and he wishes he got to be there for him the same way Vanilla is there for him

Closing Notes:

I actually thought that he was the best brother out of the two there are, I owned so much stuff such as a beanie, a hoodie, a poster, and all that jazz when I first got into Undertale. I sadly gave that stuff up after I just dealt with a very unhealthy friendship, since we bonded over it. Years later I got back into it though, and learned to appreciate Sanses all around. Papyrus will always be my #1 bbg though

[fated-addiction]

Wow! I recently found you again, I was there for the old LJ days!! You’re still fantastic, in fact even better!

Your tumblr followers are asking/thinking such interesting things! I hope you don’t mind if I “reply” to the one long anon?

I wanted to say that it’s interesting to think of Hhr being paralleled in some ways- I have never thought of that- cool to think about how that plays into their dynamic in an unspoken way? The attachment style thing is also new to me (older millennial ha). I looked it up and I would say Ron is “anxious” (fear of abandonment/needs reassurance)? Ginny is maybe a combination (can you even do combinations?) of “secure” + “anxious”? Harry is probably “avoidant”, while Hermione is “avoidant” + “secure”?

The part I’m not sure about is Harry having to choose between Hermione/the Weasleys but the more I think about it the more I agree maybe. I’d never really thought too hard about Hermione/Weasley family relationships but you are right that it’s different. Hmm.

Oh, hi! Lmao not the LJ days. It's really funny because one of my coworkers brought up msscribe and was dying because I've definitely been around that long.

I think the interesting thing about Harry/Hermione, outside their ability to parallel each other, is that they are two pieces of the puzzle that fit each other but can exist outside each other. There's a really interesting argument going around TikTok (and I wish I could tag her/remember her) about how Hermione is singularly the fully fledged female character. She brings up several solid points, but I disagree - instead of aging her, or even acknowledging the aging process, I think the Hermione of not quite 3D but enough so that she can fit the needs of where she stands at that moment. If that makes sense? I haven't had my second coffee yet lol.

Ooo okay. Ron. I don't think Ron is anxious but rather insecure af. I think his insecurities charge all of his decisions. I find him angry too. Angry that he's not the main character of the story in his head. Angry that Harry's attention goes to other things. Angry that Hermione does not fit the mold he wants. I think Ron is totally insecure about how he fits in the world, wears so many different hats, and then, when asked what he wants, can only answer/exist in generic forms.

Ginny is the quintessential "best friend's little sister that grows into something more" character but where as Ron, for me personally, is irredeemable, Ginny has much more of an opportunity to exist and be someone as herself. I wish we knew more about what happened to her at Hogwarts during Snape's Headmaster tenure. I want to know what her relationship with Neville was like. I also think that she can't stand her mother and strives to be a different kind of parent. I don't know. I think as I have grown and think differently, in a critical sense, the opportunities for Ginny's character grows in my mind.

I do think that Harry will always pick the Weasleys first. I think that with Sirius gone, he feels a sense of obligation to them - familial and otherwise. His conception of what the family unit is supposed to look like is the Weasley family, not the Dursleys and the contrast was so sharp and he was a child, so his viewpoint was probably hyperfixated on connecting at the Weasley level.

You guys! I love talking you so much. Thank you for all these comments.

[just-an-enby-lemon]

do you have any ideas on how that One Bad Day story could have been made better?

you mentioned the disconnect between the past and present scenes, so maybe making them stronger parallels instead could have helped? i have an idea for that but i'd rather hear your thoughts

I do. I'm not very confident on my ideas but I have some anyway:

Firstly I would change Edward's relationship with riddles. They should be his weapon part of his identity. A Riddler that hates and is afraid of riddles is just the stupidiest concept someone could come with and while my ideas might not be that much better I'm not a professional writer and they are still better than Riddler would be a better characther with we made him generic.

▫️That enters on hiw would I do the past:

So instead we keep that Edward is an absurd level genius (I will even keep the honestly over the top things like him learning multiple languages to a middle school level at the age normal kids are learning to speak) and his dad is a man who always apreciated intelect. He is a conservative elitist in all ways and he wants his offspring to be perfect as a boost to his own ego. Edward is raised to be perfect. To excel.

Problem is we got this teacher who likes games and riddles and he starts to present them in class. Now instead of hating them. That's the first time Edward gets to play a game. He was raised by his dad and likeminded elitists, he never got to be a kid or to play. And he loves it. Instead of for grades this time the teacher presents puzzles as ways to win extra credit and Edward always gets them right. He starts to present riddles back, to read all books on it. Baby got an hyperfixation and he is just soo happy. His dad hates it. He wants his son to be the perfect little intelectual robbot and not the weird nerd who plays D&D and randomicaly chalenges other kids to "a battle of wits". And so he starts punishing Edward for the riddles. Blaming him for the games. For just wanting to be a kid. So he keeps being punished for it untill he stops. It's not that he doesn't like riddles anymore is that he knows that if he keeps with them he will be punished. He stops playing games and just goes back to being a robot. Until his teacher presents a rubik cube. Edward wants it soo badly. It isn't because it's hard for him but because is colorfull and fun and he just wants some form of stim iten godammit. But his teacher just wants to use it to decorate the office. And Edward knows his father won't let he have one. So he starts invading the office in the dark to play with it.

Second problem: the teacher decides to present the cube as a competiton the student that solves it quicker wins extra credit or something. So after announcing it on class he locks the cube on his office. Edward doesn't care for the challenge he just wants to play with "his" cube again. So he invades the office, lock picks the desk and keeps playing during the night. But he never lock picked things before and he just forgets to lock it back or to throw away the evidence.

When the competition happens he wins. But instead of simply congratulating him the teacher says they need to talk after class. There he says he knows Eddie cheated. That the desk was open in the morning and he saw the pins on Edward's pockets. He castizes him saying that he didn't even needed the extra credit. That if he wants to be the best student so much be it but other kids just want to have fun and he should stop being a problem for them and he keeps not listening to Eddies explanations and than he threatens to tell the principal (Eddies dad) and Edward knows that if he does the punishment will be even worse and he panics and hits the guy with some tabble decoration. Later his dad just finds them there. The dead body and Eddie almost catathonic repeting he just wanted to play a game. And his dad reprimends him as if he had recieved a bad grade and not killed a guy and it's talking about how after they clean this mess he is better prepare for another punishment and in blurred colors we see this as the moment something breaks in his psyque as he mutters "no" and steals the rubik cube.

Now is that how I would write a Riddler origin story? Hell no. But I tried to keep the vibes, key aspects and edgyness of the original but with an Edward who loves riddles from the start and is viciously showing them on everyone's face because he never got the change to be himself instead of the "i hate riddles blablabla" and of course also with he clearly having a psychotic break because of the abuse he suffered instead of being evil from birth.

▫️Now let's go to the future:

The future gave me a conundrum: for one side my original idea of Riddlers newest ploy being related to his backstory - possibly a move against the school his dad was the principal off - and therefor he leaves riddles for Bruce to uncover his past or with Riddler himself reminicing it since it's suppose to be inspirated on The Killer Joke.

I decided to have a bit of both. As during a bank kidnnaping at Gotham Acadamy Edward notices a young student that reminds him to much of himself he starts becoming obcessed with changing things by uncovering the corruption behind the institucion and more importantly destroying it. As his motivations are more missplaced revenge than the curiosity he convinces himself it is his clues for Batman start to show it making so the flasbacks are a mix of Edward being forced to remember the past as he plants his clues and Bruce uncovering them (with greener tones when it's Edward and darker when Bruce - maybe with Riddler remembering in sepia but with green and purple highlights while Bruce discovers the past with black and white - and the present having the same constant vibrant collors as if even with the darkness of everything Gotham shinnes uncaring and wow that's edgy) none of the memories are completly true and even contradict a bit (on the sense of Bruce's part differing for Edward as Bruce wasn't truly there and Edward remembers it by his own miopics). We still have Bruce talking with Edward's father but this time he calls the old man out and Edward never met nor killed his mother. It's a thriller and no one dies in the end.

▫️Is it good?

I have no clue. But I think it's better and it keeps with the edginess (I feel like any rewrite of a One Bad Day story HAS to be edgy even if I really wanted to do a more classic riddler story that still has the angst and tragedy but it isn't full of super duper impossibly smart people and everything sucks and murder and violence yay). I don't know if I would care for this characthers still or not. But I think it's a least less against everyrhing that came before.

What do you think?

▫️IMPORTANT

I told my dumb ideas now I want to know yours. You said you have one and I need to know it.

[anniesocsandgeneralstore]

what would you think of a ronnie in a Jurassic Park au or a hunger games au. Consider hunger games au Ronnie from district 4 and Jake from district 2 competing against it each other in the quarter quell where the victors are reaped. Or Jurassic Park one where Ronnie is a trainer for one of the dinosaurs and Jake is a security officer that things Ronnie's adoration of dinosaurs a bit baffling and adorable.

not me thinking about this all yesterday and last night....dreaming...scheming....get ready for some bullet points y'all cause i have THOUGHTS

okay so you have tapped into one of my secret hyperfixations: Jurassic Park (like i read the book once a year, it's my favorite)

So obviously for a Jurassic Park AU I would have this set in the 90s, OG park

Now let's go through the characters real quick:

Ronnie - Dino Vet, probably was a zoo/wildlife preserve vet before being hired by Hammond

Jake - a game warden/ranger alongside Muldoon, worked at the park Muldoon was warden at in Kenya and Muldoon liked him so much he brought him along to Isla Nublar (the little SHORTS)

Javy - another game warden/ranger

Bradley - paleontologist, works with Alan Grant, upset that his sister took the job probably

Bob & Reuben - scientists/geneticists in the lab

Mickey - park management, so working with Arnold in the control room

Nat - also park management, but more the guest experience/accommodation side

While Ronnie didn't go into paleontology like her brother, she still has a love for dinosaurs and finds them to be fascinating creatures, but she would rather work to preserve what the world has than figure out the puzzle of prehistoric life

But when she gets offered this job, very vaguely might I add, she jumps at the opportunity to "be the first to work with new species and forge a new path in veterinary care"

It wasn't until she arrived on the island that she knew it was dinosaurs, and that just made the whole thing way more intriguing

And Jake is a huge grump. Like he doesn't get the wonder and really thinks that dinosaurs should have stayed dead. Especially when they bring out the raptors.

But when Ronnie goes out into the field to check on a dino, she needs an escort, and more often than not it's Jake who YES is baffled by her love for these things and finds her excitement rather adorable

Maybe Brad comes with Dr. Grant and all them to check out the park?? Maybe Ronnie and Jake go out to get Brad when everything goes to shit??

idk idk plot isn't important, right now, we vibin' and I'm vibin' HARD

Admittedly I was on the fence about this one at first

Mostly because of what The Hunger Games is, its symbolism and all, is rather heavy

but then I thought....okay just throw out canon, moosh these two things together, and see what happens

I think I like Jake more with District 4 (god he would've made a great Finnick tbh) maybe he wasn't a career but he got chosen and won anyway

Ice is his mentor

Then Ronnie as a career with District 2, trained for it her whole life, drilled into her that this will bring pride to her district. Her and Brad are back-to-back champions.

Maverick is their mentor, obvs

Then the rest of our lovely pilots are evenly distributed through the rest of the districts as victors

There's not much that we know in terms of the life of a victor besides it being immensely sad

But maybe Ronnie and Jake have this little flirtationship going on anytime they're in the capitol together for a games, maybe they've hooked up a few times

Definitely have feelings for one another but they're from different Districts and both of them are probably too Wanted in the capitol and plus like Snow and stuff so just generally Forbidden

And I definitely think that Ronnie just regrets everything. Is traumatized by the killing she did. it was all just a huge scam and she realizes that she was defs brainwashed into killing a bunch of children. but there's nothing that she can do now. she's in the capitol's game, nothing but a victor with no say

idk something something quarter quell MAYBE katniss and peeta are still there so they all get busted out at the end

her and jake get approached by Haymitch to help???

obviously no finnick (sry boy) cause we need jake there

brad and ronnie are there and i would definitely kill brad off lol

they do a big smooch on the beach

this one is also just vibes but im kinda here for it

[relativelypositive]

When you say you spent all day working on code, you probably mean you woke up,got ready for the day, coded for a while, took a few breaks, finished coding, then stopped and had dinner and an evening.

When I say I spent all day working on code, I mean I sat up in bed at 7am inspired to try something, crawled out of my room and brushed my teeth, sat at my computer for an hour coding until my partner woke up and asked me if I had breakfast, then I quickly made a microwave breakfast, and puzzle through code for the next 5 hours straight, ignoring the fact that I felt uncomfortable, had wanted to make coffee, and unaware of time passing, barely acknowledging my partner's return home; until I looked at the clock and panicked that and errand I had was closing in an hour, asked my partner to help me out by running it while giving him all the info to do so, then because I was standing up, breaking focus for an hour to do food prep for the week and exhausted from that settling to eat applesauce for lunch; then sitting back and coding for the rest of the evening once again barely acknowledging my partner while he goes out for stuff and barely remembering to use the bathroom and microwave some more food for dinner that I can sit and eat while coding, and continuing to code into the night while my partner gets home and goes to sleep without me, finally finishing sometime after midnight and making another quick snack around 1am.

And yes I'll regret this tomorrow, I already partly regret it today, but the point is that when people say you have time to do other things, it genuinely is very hard to work around the times between hyperfixation, exhaustion, and limited focus.

I've been putting in so much effort lately into keeping up a good routine and schedule and paying attention to what I'm learning for my new role at my day-job that I think I just broke today and couldnt bear trying to control everything anymore. Just for one day, to let loose, make someting cool, and have a hobby of mine consume me.

Tomorrow I have to be ready to keep up a routine again for the rest of the week. But this little shot of dopamine I get from my hobbies is what reminds me that I am more than my job and my diagnosis and more than my gender and relationships. I'm me, and all the contradictions that exist within me find their balance here when I make something new.

[serene-victory-77]

Autistic Kaz Thoughts

TL;DR at the end because this is really long again

So, obviously Kaz is neurodivergent, that comes from the affects of his trauma, but it seems myself and many others have sen a strong basis for Autistic Kaz specifically, and I thought I’d like to explore that.

Some other people have talked about this but I wanted to put in my two cents

Disclaimer: A LOT of things about Kaz’s behavior line up with the effects of his trauma. My response to that is that Kaz can be autistic and traumatized at the same time. Things That Make Sense In Canon (It’s Basically Everything):

Hyperfixation:

- Magic tricks (sitting in front of a mirror for hours practicing and trying to figure them out)

- Staying awake for hours wondering how things work

- He hyperfixates on every single job to hell and back, and he enjoys figuring out every angle

Special Interests:

- Goes hand in hand with above, but magic tricks and sleight of hand are definitely his special interests

- Lock picking might also count, and card games? He seems to like all of it. Robbing...?

- Being a criminal is Kaz’s special interest. Sounds ridiculous but think about it. It helps that it keeps him alive, but he does actively enjoy it

Sensory Issues:

- A lot of this is related to his trauma but again, he can be both autistic and traumatized *shrug*

- Regardless of the Reaper’s Barge, touch aversion could be another trait. Having gloves and clothing that covers can be a good buffer from sensations he dislikes.

- He dislikes crowds/crowded because of the higher probability of touch/the Reaper’s Barge, but you can also tie that back to autism since many many don’t like being in crowds

- He likes silence (talks about sewing people’s mouths shut). He’s used to Barrel noises, but he might not like voices stacked on top of each other. Auditory sensibility is really varied, and sometimes noises are fine/sometimes they’re torture

Behavioral: 

- Again, so much of this is related to his trauma, but REGARDLESS!

- Dramatic af in the books, but both he and Inej say he’s quiet and reserved. Good with words and doesn’t seem to mind talking, but he really only talks about his hyperfixations:

- The exceptions make up almost all of the books, which is why he might come off as talkative, but he’s usually talking about a plan, having solved something/tricked someone (think conversations with Van Eck, Rollins), so of course he wants to talk. The other big exception is when he talks to Inej.

- Kaz is good at reading people, but there’s a lot to disprove that all autsitic people are bad at reading others. Many actually “over-read” and notice a lot/see things others don’t pick up on. Doesn’t make someone more socially competent (just because you know what’s happening doesn’t mean you know what to do about it). I don’t think it disqualifies him from being autistic

- Kaz is incredibly mentally organized, so over-reading people is actually helpful for him.

- With stimming, he’s amuses himself with cards, magic tricks, playing with coins and lock picks. It happens enough times to be a “thing” in the books. Sleight of hand can count as stimming.

Mental Capabilities:

- Autism doesn’t equal genius, but many autistic kids are also prodigies, and with Kaz I think it applies. 

- Autism and really good memory aren’t uncommon, and it tracks with this from Kaz:

- “Once he learned a game, it took him mere hours to master it, and then he simply couldn’t be beaten. He could remember every hand that had been played, each bet that was made. He could keep track of the deal for up to five decks.” 

- He can also do complex mental math, which can also apply to this if you want it to

Other Things That Don’t Technically Mean He’s Autistic But For Some Reason Feel Autistic To Me:

- Autistic people can wear whatever they want, but for whatever reason Kaz’s wardrobe, regardless of mocking Mercher’s, seems like it could be a product of Kaz’s specific brand of autism

- Birds of a feather flock together, all his friends are neurodivergent

- The crow motif. Neurodivergent people seems to really like corvids? Also many have animals that are just “their thing” so yeah, crows

There’s probably other stuff but I’m currently forgetting it all

Exploring This In Fics/Headcanons!:

- People can write Autistic Kaz however they want, but here are my personal thoughts: 

- I noticed I already write young Kaz as autistic-coded, as he usually only touches and talks to Jordie and is very attached to him, is quiet and likes puzzles more than ‘acting’ games, and doesn’t speak a lot but has an advanced vocab.

- Kaz can eat just about anything for survival, but it’s easy to headcanon him as actually only liking a few foods. Some autistic people are picky, and others love food, because people are different. That being said, I’m picky, so I headcanon that Kaz doesn’t really like eating with a few exceptions (things like chocolate, breakfast foods, ice cream, chips, pasta, coffee, because I love those things) and greatly dislikes many other things (I like writing that he doesn’t like carrots?? Idk)

- In Alternate Universe fics that make it hard to justify Kaz’s touch aversion with Jordie’s trauma/more modern AU’s: Autistic Kaz With Touch Sensitivity! It keeps him in character, gives him a reason to wear gloves, and adds neurodivergence without compromising his canon traits.

- His boundaries being ignored or sensory overload could also work to explain why he’s so pissed off all the damn time

- Not a lot changed between Kaz and Inej. Autistic Kaz and Trauma Kaz overlap a lot and can both work in canon, so he can still want to touch Inej like in the books. Many people have exceptions, and Inej (and Jesper, and the other Crows) would make sense as being Kaz’s exceptions. Plus, it adds to Inej’s feeling of safety because Kaz wouldn’t even think to touch her without reason/without asking until they’re a LOT more comfortable. You can still write him as being touch averse to Inej regardless of romantic feelings though.

- I think a reason Kaz isn’t talked about as an autistic possibility very often is because he’s such a badass? The portrayal of autistic people is often that they can’t be leaders, or that they’re soft and a cinnamon roll. People are more likely to make, say, Wylan autistic, and ignore the fact that Kaz has a lot going for this. So, to write Autistic Kaz realistically, what do you have to do? 

- Write him how he is in the books, with all his same habits and thoughts. In a modern AU, you can actively acknowledge it. Tag Autistic Kaz regardless of it being a focus. And in “canon universe” fics, you can still tag him as autistic, and mention how Kaz was like as a child or use introspection

- Autistic Kaz, using his canon character traits, probably won’t read as OOC

ALSO!

Jesper’s definitely ADHD and while I was writing a fic I realized Kaz and Jesper have an ADHD/Austic friendship. It’s true that Jes and Kaz don’t always understand each other, but: 

Kaz actively appreciates and likes Jesper (otherwise he wouldn’t be so hurt by Jesper’s loose tongue), and similarly to being unbothered by Wylan’s disability, I don’t think Kaz would mind Jesper’s quirks.

Since Jesper often fixates in fights, Kaz doesn’t have to worry about interference from Jesper’s brain during a job, and when it’s casual hanging out, I think Kaz just doesn’t care/actively understands where Jesper is coming from.

It’s not too supported by canon other than Kaz internally deciding that one of his best friends is going to be the hyperactive and social Jesper, despite them outwardly seeming so different

And why Jesper would pick reserved, quiet, and oddly prickly Kaz to be his best friend too. They don’t match up but if they just kinda vibe with each other/understand their brains work differently, then you have a very interesting basis for why they’re comfortable with each other.

TL;DR A lot of Kaz’s traits in the books (hyperfixations, special interests, sensory issues, behavior, mental capabilities) can be read as very autistic coded. This helps with rationalizing his behavior in AUs that lack his Jordie backstory while remaining completely in character and can also help characterize Younger Kaz. Additionally, it would not and should not compromise his badassery or competence. He and Jesper are Autsitic/ADHD friends.