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(rubbing the back of my neck uncomfortably) is it just me or is the dealer from buckshot roulette kinda attractive-
#DONT HURT ME#I JUST#BWUWH?????#CONFUSED#POSTING THIS BEFORE I HAVE TIME TO OVERTHINK IT#MIGHT DELETE LATER HAHAHA#WHAT THE HELL EVEN IS MY TYPE#IDK!!!!
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Do you sleep with socks on
this is such a random ask that I feel like i’m morally required to answer it lol
and the answer is- this ✨mysterious✨ museum curator obviously never sleeps soooo that answers your question :)
#ask#the hellsite answers#anonymous#hellsite hall of fame curator’s bullshit#shitpost#shit post#also I actually haven’t been sleeping and just have been spending every waking moment texting#because like if I wasn’t a ✨mystery✨on here i’d SCREAM FROM THE TOO OF MY LUNGS THAT I HAVE A WONDERFUL GIRLFRIEND NOW#AND AM TOO DISTRACTED TO DO ANYTHING ELSE BUT TALK WITH HER AND AAAHHH#but i’m a complete and total ✨mystery✨ so i’m totally not saying that ahahaha nope#mysterious museum curator tour guide barbie obviously isn’t saying that and totally can contain her excitement and be so so chill about this#hahaha of course#you know it’s bad when I can’t help but EMOTION POST ON MY HHOF BLOG AAAHHH#help y’all I have to chill#definitely delete this tags later oops#I can’t not post them tho or I might explode#but also#like I didn’t post the other day for the first time in like 4 months#like wtf#am too busyyyyyy aaaahhh#this is when someone needs to scream ‘go to sleep miss curator’ into the void bc I might need that oops#this is a mega shitpost wow
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Hello from Tokyo
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#i had this wonderful best friend back in high school whom i was so in love with :') but we grew apart not long after graduation#still i keep dreaming of him – i might have mentioned it here before but istg man haunts me every other week�� like last night#dreamed that we found each other again and woke up in tearssss#after so many years… and im starting to think i should reach out again? but what if my dumbass falls in love with him again 🙄#could be my own fluff/angst fic yk hahaha#either way im v confused and i might delete this post later bc it's so personal but UGH i needed to say this
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Hey guys... these characters all have one thing in common, do you know what it is?
...I have crushed on all of them. Some of which I still crush on very, very much to this day.
Oh and if you're curious, here's the names (L to R)
-Bowser (Super Mario Series)
-General Grievous (Star Wars)
-Springtrap (FNaF) I KNOW I KNOW IM SORRY
-Asajj Ventress (Star Wars)
-Peppino Spaghetti (Pizza Tower)
-Ahsoka Tano (Star Wars)
-Tankman (FnF/Tankmen)
-Cad Bane (Star Wars)
-Sarv and Ruv (FnF mod)
-Maul (Star Wars)
-Whitty (FnF mod)
-N.gin (Crash Bandicoot Series)
-Nitros Oxide (Crash Bandicoot Series)
-Bayonetta (Bayonetta Series)
-Samus Aran (Metroid Series)
-Mettaton (Undertale)
#f/o list reveal QwQ#I HAD TO GO BACK AND EDIT BC I FORGOT TWO... now it's even worse lmao#i apologize to everyone who sees this in their feed#im being cringe on main hahaha wheee#felt cute might delete later#if anyone unfollows me for this or these cursed tags i sincerely do not blame you lmao
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Oh.
#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them#and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual#and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it#i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha#it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing#that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before#my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up#is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop#and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it#maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but#man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc#idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later#probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void#anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself
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got to see the northern lights tonight!!!!
#not art#aurora borealis#northern lights#it was super cool#ive seen them for a few seconds in a plane once#but being able to lay on the ground and watch them pass overhead was amazing#might delete later not sure how comfy i am with people knowing things about me irl hahaha
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I’m so numb and jaded towards horror movies but i’m SCARED of the terrifier clown
#would NOT watch it alone#i might watch it if there’s a friend that would wanna#but on my own…. no way#like im deathly scared of clowns but idk why pennywise doesnt really do it for me HAHAHA#but terrifier and the constant smile ok#goodbye#nightmare fuel#delete later#also i keep seeing terrifier content or fanarts and i just#*SCROLLS FASTER*
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goin back to 2018/19 because I want to rewrite/finish my own fic, smh
it's been kinda nice rewatching the videos I used to, tho... kinda comfy feeling, despite what the games are all about hahaha
#delete later#wip#mortal kombat#myart#i have seen her new design in MK1 (havent *watched* anything from it tho) and it's really good!#I like seeing them branch out in terms of like cultural influence and styles/aesthetics#the amount the games have visually improved since MK9 (which I greatly dislike lol) is INSANE - every game gets me like#“oh wow this looks so good... no way they can do better for the next one” - and then they knock it out of the park YET AGAIN#but I still have a soft spot for MKX Tanya to a degree... partly because of the fic I was writing tho lmao#it's still gonna end up being set in the same timeline it originally was which might be a lil awkward but like...#guess that just happens when u reboot something right? hahaha#im just sorta bummed the guy whose Story mode vids I watched for MK9 MKX and MK11 isn't doing them anymore#so I'll have to find someone else's MK1 story mode vid to watch... RIP
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happy halloween and samhain eve to those who partake!
fortuna's got the autumn harvest festival which is similar (and similarly festive!). there's also the winter solstice, which is your winter holiday equivalent, and lasts about a week. there are several holidays! some more important than others, and it'll be a blast to get into them more if they crop up
at any rate! keep it weird! keep it spooky!
#i enjoy halloween thoroughly#im going to run errands in costume today hahaha#delete later#also yes if you boop this account you might get a boop back from my main bc this is only a side blog lol#i may/may not boop back just bc i like to keep my main separate from This ya know
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Count the ways I've had a fucked up life:
-Shoved my twin sister when we were 3 and saw blood come out of her ears from the knock on her head. From that point on she was half-deaf. -Twin sister and I nearly drowned at age 6 by being pulled into a powerful rip-tide at an unsupervised beach. My parents thought it was cute until we couldn't swim back and they both had to swim out to get us. I remember being really tired, and them being unsure about being able to swim back to shore.
-At age 11 witnessed my mother forgetting to apply the brake to her car. She tried to get back in and tripped, it subsequently rolled over her, crushing her foot and dragging her down the road. She bled profusely. The crimson stained pavement haunted me for a long time. I blamed myself because I arrived home from a friend's house at the same exact same time and believed I distracted her.
-Accidently electrocuted myself when I was bored while watching my siblings play on the computer. Without looking, I fiddled with the back of an old lamp with my finger tips, but I didn't know that fumbling the cables would cause it to surge. The large shock sent my arm numb for about an hour. Didn't seek treatment because the power tripped and I was worried I would get yelled at.
-Deep in the bush, during a particularly dry summer, family friends stupidly made a bonfire, and I saw our campsite get quickly lit up. As the flames surrounded us and the cars, I was yelled at to go get help/manual water pumps as if it was my fault. Somehow we managed to put it all out. We had to try something because the alternative was getting trapped.
-Was on the phone to my grandma when she had a stroke, I had no idea what was going on, to the point I thought it was a prank. I was crying because it wasn't something I was even aware could happen to someone, I continued to listen and her language skills deteriorated the longer I was on the phone. She became convincedly desperate despite her incoherence and somehow I broke away from my fear and got my dad to help her.
-My mother stabbed my older sister in the arm with a kitchen knife and they both just walked off. I remember being around the corner listening to the argument escalate and saw my older sister clutching her arm. (my sister is very violent so I think it was done in self defense???)
-Dad threw that same sister into the drywall multiple times--Not to excuse it but she was a devil, and would attack / lunge at us, and disrespected my parents from a young age. Dull thudding against walls sends me on edge to this day because it was one way to identify a scuffle with her.
-Mum had a cabinet pushed onto her by my older sister. The cabinet had a glass panel that shattered on her leg and sliced it open.
-My twin sister got upset at me and swung a 10kg metal bar stool at my leg, the blunt force tore my leg open, I now have a very sensitive scar on my shin. -My mum ran at me in an anger spell and I blocked it by pushing her away from me (that's legitimately all), she slipped on the slippery cork floors we had and fell over hitting her head hard. She was unconscious for a few minutes. Her tongue was sticking out and her eyes were open. I thought I had killed her. I wanted to call an ambulance. She woke up and I begged to her that she needed to go to hospital but she brushed it off because we had to catch a flight.
-On my way back from a lunch break I saw a woman go under a Truck. Once again I blamed myself because I crossed in front of the driver at a crossing, and nodded to him. As he rolled forward to leave she sprinted across, I turned and saw that she got hit. -My older sister took advantage of my mum and got into large debts by getting her to co-sign loans behind my dad's back. My mum was paying off things like her phone bill and eventually a car loan. This caused a lot of violent contention.
-Older Sister was kicked out of multiple times but my parents never fully cut her out and now she lives scott-free in a brand new granny flat in the backyard because of their guilt.
-lived in relative poverty and mess most of my teenage life because it was too expensive to send 4 kids to school for my parents. They worked full time but didn't really provide us with any emotional security. Both parents were very messy but blamed us for it as we got older. I tried my best to keep things clean but it was often in vain (it is to this day as things have escalated to full hoarding)
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#SO UH THIS IS WHY I DRAW .NOT BECAUSE IM ANY GOOD NO SIR JUST BECAUSE IT WAS A FORM OF ESCAPISM HAHA :'3#stability is such a cute little dream to have#its not ALL bad but most people probably wouldnt cope with what i have seen#i have not had therapy for any of this lmao#i straight up have memory holes because there was so much time arguing and witnessing horrible shit#my poor mum she is very highly strung i dont blame her my sister is a spoiled 40 year old abusive brat#day dreamer life baby#got struck a lot too by my mother her weapon of choice was the wooden spoon idk hey haha it was just sort of the norm back then#the paradox was that my family would still do normal things like camping or having dinner parties and those were great#processing it all is hard lmao i have anger issues and depression spells#idk why im posting this might delete it later lol#this all sounds fake hahaha which but it's real i promise#the second my older sister became autonomous it was over#notice my dad and brother arent in this picture much#my brother is...idk okay he has demons and my dad is nice for the most part but he lives in his own world#im sad...#they dont realize i have absorbed all of this and it has formed who i am#i love my family but i dont love....the horror
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anyone else get ridiculously jealous when ppl are able to be themselves. that should be meeeeeee when is it my turn
#personal#obv happy when others can be themselves dont get me wrong. but i also want to be me :((#to the point ive lied to myself multiple times over the past years about my identity cuz idk if ill ever be me hahaha well. whatevzz#so uncomfortable in this body its not mine i wanna love myself but im NOT myself#might delete this later if i get embarrassed idk wanted to say it where it doesnt matter less real if i say it to no one in particular
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Messy wip and venting lol
🥲 Honestly, I’m quite disappointed with how this one has been turning out, so I don’t think I’ll finish it? :) But Sparrow braids Cassandra’s hair sometimes, and I thought you should know that!
Yeah, been thinking about the besties lol. You know, I’ve actually always imagined Cassandra as having long, dark brown hair?
Anyhoo, shout-out to all of y’all out here posting your art or fan fiction or whatever even if it scares you. You’re pretty cool!
#And ignore me berating myself in the tags I’m a bad example hahaha#I have to like chant to myself that I won’t delete this but I might delete this#Sparrow oak#cassandra swift#sparrow oak garcia#dndads#despite everything I’ve found the courage to tag this one yup!#Truthfully#At some point or another I wind up hating everything that I draw#But I always save my sketchbooks#In part because I know that years later I’ll be happy I did#As I’ve maybe mentioned elsewhere#I’m trying to force myself to post my drawings even when I don’t think they’re great#Well like 3% of them#Cause#I mean not to be cheesy or dramatic but#That’s not all there is to art!#Like here I mean#Did I want this to turn out better?#Of course but#I also just want y’all to see the hot milfs and trophy husbands being best friends in my area#Lowkey these tags are more reason for me to delete this than the drawing itself hahaha#If I delete this dw#I’m rejection sensitive and fear oversharing#But I’m also un-killable and bounce back from anything#What tags did I forget lol#Dungeons and daddies#Dndads fanart#my art
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My mother: *is abusive*
Me: *loses my temper and snaps back at her*
My mother:why are you like that? Have I been unkind towards you?
#IM JUST AGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH#OUT OF approx 10 types of narcissism#my mother possesses almost all of them#and among them#one that is obsessive cleaning#know the Cinderella tale?#it’s same here#except for my father doesn’t love me hahaha#and I gotta run without a prince by my side#which can be done ofc#I’m just so mad right now#what a gaslighting Prancing heartless soulless BITCH#MY Abusive mother#it’s okay I just needed to vent#might delete later
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remembet when my parents said they would get me therapy after the holidays. of december 2021
#sky rambles#thinking abt that one time i was brave enough to mention i thought i might have adhd and was immediatedly shut down#since im a 'gifted student#im too smart to have adhd ! imagine what they would think if they knew i probably was autistic!#hahaha i will never be medicated or given any therapy or be able to cope whatsoever because im neglected just enough to not know anything#but not enough to be self sufficient in any manne#theres no fucking hope for me#delete later
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iggypan
#shut up luci#delete later#i cant keep thinking of alice going to japan for a meeting but deciding to arrive early to do some casual tourist things bc its been so long#since shes done tourist things. anyway this is like the early aughts or late 90s whatever. she goes to the bridge to see all the cool fashio#fashion and maybe take pics like a rude tourist. maybe even check out the shops and buy something cute. and shes like WOAH so many cool styl#styles. heavily inspired by me england i am england i invented punk me personally i did that. and goth. whatever the hell this lolita is#is also clearly inspired by european fashion. and vw's mini crini line.#she just thinks jfash is neat. doesnt rly get all of it but she likes it. its cool. but then as shes taking picture like a rude person#she notices one girl look straight at her and then duck and turn around and speedwalk away. and iggys like oi wait im sorry i'll delete the#picture im sorry miss i didnt mean to be rude! and when she catches up to her shes like ?!?!?! sakura??? why are you dressed like this???#and sakura is like ahhhh i didnt know you would be here. sometimes i dress up when i am not working. it is fun i have some friends who like#to meet up here. yes humans. ahhhh >_< i really didnt mean for u to see me like this..... and iggys like oh its no big deal i dont mind.#i think this whole lolita thing suits u. hahaha remember when i used to dress all punk and gothic and whatnot? what you wear outside of work#is your own business. plus its cute :3 like u :3 hey maybe next time we can dress up together and go clubbing or to a concert. er...#a live as u say. haha lol. and sakura is like mmm perhaps. that might be fun. and then alice is like Right now how do i get to the maid cafe#from here. and sakura is like >_> ok um which one.#i love them
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