#Little space!Dan howell

[cozyfoxy]

I had a dream that Dan and Phil posted a day in the life but Phil was in little space. He was coloring and drinking from a sippy cup with sea animals on it. Dan only acknowledged it once by saying something like “Phil is little today, life has been a lot lately and he needs a break.”

Otherwise they just continued on like normal. I don’t remember Phil really talking though, Dan did all of the talking. By the end of the dream Phil was showing off a picture of kittens that he colored and Dan was hyping him up. It was honestly super cute but what is my brain doing to me?

[astradyke]

hi i'm brainfucked after therapy so this is not going to be articulate but thinking about how dan loves phil like... loving him so vibrantly that it literally unmasks him (heart eyes howell); describing their love like its a singularity, a masterpiece, like it's forever (he met phil when he was eighteen and their relationship is still a forever for him, 1,000 year tortoises, etc.); the way that he ropes phil into his solo work which like? thinking about we're all doomed and dystopia daily is it not like... the 2020s equivalent of how phil used to feed him snacks when he had existential crises or how he was with phil when he decided to drop university. like. here's me thinking up this apocalyptic scenario, here's me in this post burnout phase, here's me in this massively transitional role of my life-- and of course i want you here. i want you here in this artistically vulnerable space that reflects my lifelong experiences, i want you as remote crisis manager i want you as a guest a producer a piece of furniture whatever. like i think phil sacrificed a lot in these years of dan's solo work, even if all those sacrifices seem effortless and worth it because of how in love they are (as best friends as coworkers as lovers as roommates as people), but also like... holy shit. it's so scary to be eighteen years old and find someone and for the first time feel safe, like safety itself can be a really scary thing, forever is even scarier. but even when dan was exploring himself on his own he wanted phil there. i dunno. the love language of letting yourself be seen by another person. drives me a little crazy that like, yes he has referred to committment issues & yes he's talked about keeping things private in case things change, but like the way that he talks about phil... like, it is forever. even in the absence of phil, dan still finds him. they always find each other when the other isn't there.

[pippin-katz]

Just had the thought about Nick and his impression of Taylor just now while rewatching an edit of the boys’ interviews. You know how he didn’t do it at that GQ red carpet event he was at a little while ago? And he was like “I wanna keep that in its own special space in the past” or something of the like?

I’m not the first person to say this, but while watching this silly video it struck me how likely it is to be true.

Nick totally didn’t want to do it because Taylor wasn’t there.

Both of the times we got to see Nick’s impression of Taylor, he was sitting next to him! And both times it makes Taylor embarrassed/laugh!

That’s why he was excited to do it! They love teasing each other, and that's one of his go-to jokes!

It actually just reminded me of how Dan (Howell) imitates and pokes fun at Phil (Lester)'s laugh sometimes, which just ends up making him laugh more even if he's annoyed at the same time.

(I am sorry, I had to find this on Pinterest because nothing was coming up here, so I don't know who made this 😭)

But back to the point, when Taylor is not there to react to it, it loses most of the fun for Nicholas. Doing an impression of your friend while you're next to him is one thing, while doing it with a complete stranger is another. Of course he didn't want to do it!

[natigail]

Dan Howell raised me (questionable, but let's go with it) to be a yapper and so I shall never fucking continue to stop yapping how delighted it makes me when DnP engage with us like this.

It might just be because I have never been in a fandom like the phandom before but the mutual teasing and respect and trust between creator and audience is something I hold so dear. It's never been flawless but I would argue at the core of it there's something so sincere, stemming from a place of love.

It's a parasocial relationship, it's not real love like you might think it, but I almost want to argue that it's a version of love, even if it should never be taken to far. There are so many people who adore, appreciate and love Dan and Phil, but I don't think it would be as fun if it wasn't just a smidge reciprocal.

As a whole, they love their audience. In what it has done for them in terms of gaining recognition and fame, but also just all of the shit that we've indirectly helped them with by sticking with them for so long. There is a bond that has been created between us and with the 2023 return of the gaming channel, I feel like they came close again.

They've created us. Sure, part of that is true. I joked about being raised by Dan but the truth isn't that far away from the joke. Him and Phil made me realise a lot of things about myself, through them I found friendships I treasure so deeply and they have inspired me to write so, so much. The person I am today is in part because of those two tall dorks.

But the creation didn't just go one way really. As a collective, their audience helped "create" them too. Creators generally want to share their creations and part of making and sharing something is wanting to see how people react to it. The Dan and Phil we see today? They wouldn't be those people without all of us.

And isn't that a beautiful thing, to leave an impression on each other? To know that in some small part, all of the cool and good work Dan and Phil have been doing, is because of the people who've stuck by them? The dedicated audience who watch and engage right back with at them.

Whether it be showing up to their shows, posting at or about them on social media or watching their videos and other content, all of that contributed to it. They know there's a whole space out there amongst their audience where we just engage with each other.

They also mostly respect that because it's not really a space for them, even if it's partly about them. It's a space for us. But I still love when we both agree to have a little overlap and share what's going on, even if it is "just" silly memes.

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Fic Titles that Start With the Word “I…” Masterlist

I Became We (This Christmas Eve) (ao3) - sierraadeux

Summary: Hanging from the ceiling above the counter, in probably the only space in the store that didn’t have icicle lights dangling from it, was a glowing sign that read:

SANTA’S LITTLE HELPER

or,

Dan is an Instagram influencer, and the only thing he takes as seriously as his carefully crafted aesthetic is his hatred of the holiday season. That is, until a certain Christmas elf breaks through the walls he has built.

I can't get enough of you (ao3) - Misha_with_wings

Summary: Phil wakes up feeling extremely sexually frustrated and no matter how much he gets off it isn't enough.

Luckily Dan was more than willing to be Phil's human sex toy.

i could slip into you (ao3) - dvp_95

Summary: The ghost of who Phil used to be doesn't seem so present in the bustling streets of a city that doesn't belong to them or in the expensive hotel sheets that they struggle to leave every morning.

I Dare You To Stay (ao3) - realityfallsapart

Summary: Dan Howell is a barista working a shitty job, frequenting his shitty apartment, and living a shitty existence, hiding his asexuality and going for a PHD in self-depreciation and depression. Phil Lester is a part-time intern, part-time employee at a local weather station, trying to get experience in his field and make a name for himself, while juggling a second job at the nearby Tesco's to give him some financial breathing room. Their paths were never supposed to meet, but what happens when they do anyways, one rainy day in Manchester?

i don't blame you much (for wanting to be free) (ao3) - The_Blonde

Summary: Art Thief Dans and the Phils who love them.

i don't know why (i can't keep my eyes off of you) (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: Starting a new university is hard enough without Phil having to convince his best friend PJ he doesn't have a crush on their other flatmate, Dan. He definitely does not have a crush on Dan.

I Don't Love You (ao3) - itsthatone

Summary: Fame is suffocating Dan, pulling him away from the person who means the most to him. But Phil isn’t about to let him walk away without a fight.

I Don’t Wanna Think of Anything Else (Now That I’ve Thought of You) (ao3) - danscardigan

Summary: Dan and Phil meet and fall in love, all in one night.

I Don't Want the World to See Me (ao3) - Mysticallykai

Summary: Dan hasn't really accepted that he likes men, and Phil is incredibly patient with him.

i fall for the same face every time (ao3) - zsunsetz

Summary: In every universe, in every lifetime, in every world, he promises that he will love him.

i feel a kick down in my soul (ao3) - chickenfree

Summary: “I’m going to obliterate you,” he says, taking a few long steps towards Phil.

Phil runs. It takes him a minute to realize the ball is in the opposite direction.

i fell in love at the seaside (ao3) - larry_hystereks

Summary: in which mermaid dan is using his human legs for the first time and a curious phil is there to help.

i had died the tiniest death (i had spied the catch in your breath) (ao3) - jonsaremembers

Summary: Dan's not having any fun, so he complains to Phil. What's a boy supposed to do?

I Hardly Feel Anything At All (ao3) - BREAD2000yeet

Summary: Dan in a depressive episode spends his night at Phil's apartment to "do laundry" while there he finds what home truly means, some existential stuff, Phil is kinda unaware of depression (so is Dan in this fic, de-nial is a river in egypt) but he still cares

I Have My Freedom (but I don't have much time) (ao3) - sierraadeux

Summary: Phil just wants to get away. To clear his mind of everything and reconnect with a long-lost passion. A certain horse and the rancher who comes to his aid have other ideas though - filling Phil's mind, and his sketchbook, with brown eyes and charcoal dotted freckles.

He only has the summer. And he's not here to make friends, human or equine.

I Intend to Hold You for the Longest Time (ao3) - notreallythatuseful (orphan_account)

Summary: On the night of Phil's birthday, Dan and Phil are finally left alone.

i know it looks like hell (but every obstacle is worth it) (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: Phil just wanted to give Dan a gift for Valentine's Day. Though, it becomes much more than that.

I love him (ao3) - Misha_with_wings

Summary: Phil had hidden who he really was for such a long time that he was scared of people knowing the truth.

Luckily Dan comes into his life, making him feel safe and so extremely happy.

Dan makes Phil feel less scared to be himself, and he finally feels comfortable and ready to come out and show the real side of him.

No more fear, no more secrets, no more hiding.

i love you, don't you mind, don’t you mind? (ao3) - velvettwine

Summary: They meet at a lakeside camping in France.

“I missed the train, can I stay with you?” Redux (ao3) - yikesola

Summary: Phil can’t believe he let Ian convince him to go out to a nightclub. How he got from there, to sending a text to Ian that he’s actually heading back to his flat with somebody holy shit don’t be worried he won’t get ax murdered probably, Phil really can’t be sure.

A ficlet about senses and surprises.

I missed you so much I dyed the towels green (ao3) - chuuyaswife

Summary: A few of Dan’s shows get cancelled while he’s on the WAD tour so he decides to surprise his boyfriend back home for a few days. Fluffy reunion ensues.

I Only Believe In You (ao3) - Reysamess

Summary: Dan walks out at three in the morning, and gets stuck in the rain. Phil comes to rescue him.

i said, "i got you now" (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: All it takes is a leap of faith. (Fine, and some tears. Maybe a few bruises. Possibly falling in love with someone from another dimension. Nothing Dan can't handle, really.)

I split the apple down symmetrical lines (ao3) - Anonymous

Summary: An evening, in the lead up to tour. Dan thinks about family and about home.

i thought that i was dreaming (ao3) - twoheadlights (fizzfic)

Summary: Dan and Phil and the beds they've shared. Basically.

I try to picture me without you but I can't (ao3) - solarpower21

Summary: After Dan's tragic death, Phil starts having a bunch of strange dreams where he is still alive. But are they really just dreams?

Or: Phil's soul consciousness can't cope with Dan's death, so he starts hopping between different universes, trying to look for him.

i wanna throw the fight (and kiss away your pain tonight) (ao3) - jonsaremembers

Summary: when feelings are too much for words

I Want It, I Got It (ao3) - yiffandquiff

Summary: Phil Lester was a worker for the BBC in London. Working in the advertising department, he was content being alongside his friend and fellow coworker PJ during every shift. However, the BBC is temporarily being used as a film set for a new movie starring Hollywood ‘It’ star, Daniel Howell. Being stuck as an extra on the set, Phil finds it’s hard to ignore the famous star. And maybe, just maybe, Dan finds it hard to ignore Phil as well

i was a king (under your control) (ao3) - internetakeover (nymhciv)

Summary: Dan wakes up hard and decides to reciprocate the morning blowjob Phil had gifted him for his last birthday. He may not have realised quite what he was getting into, but it's safe to say he doesn't regret a thing.

I Will Be Loving You (ao3) - phantasticworks (steddieworks)

Summary: Dan and Phil spend their first Valentine's Day out of the closet.

I Will Find You in Any World (ao3) - husbants

Summary: After watching their old Fortnite video, Phil asks Dan if he'd really find him in any world.

i will follow where this takes me (ao3) - curiosityandrain

Summary: Dan has a great life, he has an amazing job as a photographer and he lives in New York City. Phil is an independent filmmaker who hires Dan to work on his upcoming feature film after his usual cinematographer was involved in an accident. The two hit it off and become instant friends. Weeks of working together everyday helps develop their friendship and slowly but surely, Dan realises his feelings for Phil run deeper than just friendship. The only problem is, Phil’s taken.

i wonder why i tear myself down (to be built back up again) (ao3) - fairyy

Summary: Phil keeps his thumbs in the belt loops of his jeans, his hands twisted forward. It looks quite awkward, he’s told, but he never quite knows what to do with his hands.

the neighbours, coffeeshop, and magic au that no one wanted.

[choutenyuki-chan]

Hey Cuties 🙏🙏 Even though I'm more active on my sub-blog, I just wanted to say how happy I am to have you all! 🩷 I love this little space we're creating, and I hope we can use it to help each other grow. 🥰🥰

Even if we can't see each other, the bond between the Internet Angel and her little nerds is unbreakable!!!

See you when I post again in 3 years Dan Howell style. 🫡

🙏BLESS🙏

[ahappydnp]

This might be controversial, I don't know. But I honestly don't like Dan's content post coming out nearly as much as pre-BIG. It used to be silly -yes- but relatable videos with one or two edgy jokes thrown in. Now it's ALL "I'm gay, horny and depressed and the world is ending but we also kind of deserve it" ... I know that last part has a lot to do with We're all doomed and Dystopia Daily - like the clue is in the names, I get it. But when it's all jokes like that... where is the lightheartedness? Where is the fun? Where is the relief from the problems of the world? Pre-BIG Dan at least had a better balance with that. Anyway, rant over. Hope it made sense.

mmm normally i'd ignore this kind of ask because it's nuanced and i don't want a dozen more hot takes in my inbox but i get that you're not just criticizing dan as a person but more his content shift so (many) thoughts under the cut:

i think first and foremost it's hard to gage dan as a content creators post BIG because the only content he's consistently made has been dystopia daily and wad (discounting gay & not proud because...you know...)

it's also hard to compare him to his content pre BIG since: 1) the video format is different- DD is a scripted persona heavy talk show format that's more commentary on culture than personal experiences 2) he's not supplementing DINOF with liveshows/regular social media posts + gaming channel videos that showed different (usually softer or more lighthearted) sides of dan and gave the audience a more well rounded perception of him as a person

which i think is one of the biggest ""issues"" people have with DD. it's not even necessarily the content itself (though i doubt anyone would say DD is their favorite content by any stretch), but the fact that the main source of perceiving dan is this heavily edited persona that's a bit too detached from real life daniel howell? because yeah like you said, we know he has a lighthearted side, we know he's actually very kind and thoughtful; however, dystopia daily is about the content, not dan as a person. the product isn't himself anymore which is a massive shift from old content. about dystopia daily as a concept- like i said, the reception from long time subscribers has been basically "i don't love this but i love you and am excited to see you again". it's not BAD it's just not what people watch dan for? it's definitely not something i would click on or enjoy from anyone else, but i love seeing dan in anything and supporting him. and some of it is good! there are some rewatches in there! but yeah if you didn't know him prior to DD you might assume this was just another ~generic angry rich white guy complaining about the world to be edgy~

i don't agree with you that it's ALL "i'm gay, horny, and depressed" and might even say it's not a crime if it was? dan spent the first decade of his career having to edit himself and if he needs a professional second puberty to feel better then go off! am i excited for him to explore more topics or stories or formats?? like absolutely!! but i'm not angry about this era of him getting his bearings. did i love him pretending he doesn't like/has never been around kids when we know for a fact he does? no it felt weird and forced but i get his thinking that he wants DD to be detached from dan. "where's the fun"?- i will say that this year in particular we've seen more of dan's personality online! like the silly little instastories and tweets, he's sharing more about his life (like seriously who would have bet he'd post anything about their japan trip????), him in phil's video + the hair clip. and it's just like the biggest breath of fresh air because that's our dan!!! that laugh!! i know that guy!!! and i do feel like he's ready to incorporate letting people see more sides of him again after giving himself the space and boundaries to readjust after a massive life change. but there have still been bits of him this whole time! the few liveshows he did on tour were fun, him at the tour preshows was PEAK classic dan and he was truly the sweetest during his m&gs (seriously i cannot recommend enough checking out the preshow compilations playlist on youtube or meetdnp on twitter because it's just....god it's so fucking nice to see him being so fucking nice and remembering why he really is special). check out the idb instastories playlists because there are so many gems from the past couple years people forget about!!

i know it hit harder because dan is such a LIGHT and it felt like we lost it for awhile. he didn't lose the kindness or silliness or creativity, he's still dan! he's older and not the same person he was in 2014, but also who is? i'm not the same person i was in my 20s which is a great thing!

change can feel scary, but dan's entire genetic makeup didn't change. i totally get if DD isn't your thing and that is perfectly fine! but i will say if you're mourning the other sides of him, you've got plenty of examples that aren't current main channel videos. i do believe we'll be let back in even more soon though :)

[5sosfanfictioncatalogue]

Multi Pairings Masterlist

All That You Are (All That I’ll Ever Need) (ao3) - orphan_account michael/luke, calum/ashton, niall/harry NR, 4k

Summary: Calum and Ashton are planning a wedding which is causing a lot of stress and Luke is struggling with the fact that he is 32 and very very single.

almost is never enough (ao3) - fannyann luke/calum, calum/liam, liam/harry M, 32k

Summary: “I think I’ve always known that a little. I mean, if I paid attention, at least.”

Liam laughs, eyes crinkling up and Calum’s surprised at how easy this is.“That obvious?”

“A little. Love’s funny that way. Think it’s only obvious when you want it to be.”

or; A Frat AU where Calum and Liam are in love with other people but can’t quite see what’s right in front of their eyes.

Ease (ao3) - Grace_Williams calum/ashton, michael/luke, harry/louis G, 138k

Summary: In a world where everyone was a dominant or a submissive and everyone had an assigned soulmate, Ashton was remarkably unsure of himself. Nothing is going as he planned and his soulmate, Calum, is, to put it simply, not who he expected.

Michael is Calum’s best friend and an all round terrible example when it comes to navigating relationships.

Calum’s assistant Maggie, along with her soulmate Carla, seem to be the only ones who do understand how a relationship is supposed to work.

Are they the only people can put those around them at ease?

He is beauty (and we are world class) (ao3) - Alexandralouis28 harry/louis, luke/ashton, zayn/liam, michael/niall E, 3k

Summary: Louis Tomlinson, a 26 years old established actor, decided to take a break from acting and that resulted into lots of vacations and parties, one at which he got to meet the cutest tailor. His name is Harry. Louis instantly falls head over heels for him and does everything in his power to win the boy over.

Latch (ao3) - gallovihc luke/calum, harry/louis, calum/omc, luke/ofc E, 78k

Summary: luke thinks calum is having weird dreams. calum may or may not like luke. teenagers who love each other usually end up alone. but sometimes they don’t.

Lies I Feed Myself (ao3) - Grace_Williams michael/calum, michael/crystal, luke/sierra T, 26k

Summary: Michael should be grateful he found out he was an omega when he did. Sure he was 24, which, given he went through puberty early, is so astonishingly late he had accepted he was a beta. Still, it was in the middle of the pandemic. (Though technically speaking, not the middle, actually closer to the start). It was an ideal time to find out he was an omega, all things considered.

or the story where Michael finds out he’s an omega long past when he should’ve, makes some irresponsible decisions, and is then forced to rethink every emotion he’s ever felt about Calum while lying in a hospital bed

no body, no crime (ao3) - jbhmalum luke/ashton, luke/calum, michael/calum M, 11k

Summary: the no body, no crime songfic no one asked for

Out of Space -Phan (ao3) - bandhoez9194 dan/phil, chris/pj, josh/tyler, michael/calum, luke/ashton M, 27k

Summary: Its the year 3489 and earth finally had given out. Most people had managed to evacuate earth and go to Mars or the moon.

Some people weren't so lucky. They got left behind, thought dead.

Dan Howell was 20 years old when this happened. He lost his best friend, his whole world, Phil Lester that night.

7 years later, earth is healthy enough once more to sustain even a small population. They choose one large city to send the group, London.

Dan, Chris Kendall, PJ Liguori, Louise Pentland and Tyler Oakley are part of the group being sent back to Earth. Dan just wants to see if he can find one last picture of his other half considering they barely had time to grab a couple days worth of clothes and maybe some food.

When they get home, the small group has one hell of a surprise waiting for them.

Quarantined (ao3) - Livislover michael/calum, luke/ashton, luke/sierra T, 12k

Summary: Ever since quarantine, Luke and Ashton haven’t gotten to see each other. This isn’t an AU. Luke already likes Ashton and Malum are secretly seeing each other. It’s a love fest with some break ups.

Rejects (ao3) - realmsoffreedom calum/ashton, michael/luke, zayn/liam, harry/louis, niall/ofc M, 79k

Summary: They try to save me, but I’m too far gone. And they called me crazy, so I played along. And you wanna change me, but I’m on my own…

Ashton, Michael, Calum, and Luke are the rejects of their school- outcasts, the victims of relentless torture and bullying. Damaged- unable to function normally, none of them have any hope for the future- in fact, all four of them regard their future as being six feet under, no longer living. But- relationships form, hearts break, and the mess that they’re living only spirals further out of control, as everything gets significantly worse. Worse enough- that one of them could end up taking his own life.

Scene 14 - @daydadahlias​​ (cornflowerblue (daydadahlias)) luke/ashton, michael/crystal, roy/calum, kaykay/sierra E, 128k

Summary: It’s one of the first lessons you learn. There’s a difference between performing and acting.

Actors are intellectuals; they’re poets with their expression and the way their voices hit the air. Performers, by comparison, are children, ignorant and too bright for their own good. No one wants to admit to being only a performer. If you’re anyone worth anything, you want to be an actor.

And Luke is not an actor, but Ashton is.

Or, the one where Luke hates Ashton but has to pretend to be in love with him for five months for his acting final except for the fact that maybe he isn’t pretending anymore.

Stand Again (ao3) - crash-queen aka stelleshine (stelleshine) luke/calum, michael/luke, jack/luke, michael/ashton E, 69k

Summary: The promise of a good pie brings Calum into Luke’s bakery one day, and Luke finds more than just a new customer.

The Perfect Getaway (ao3) - Hoodie michael/calum, luke/ashton, harry/louis NR, 26k

Summary: When Michael and Calum go on break after their tour. Something happens that will change their friendship for the better? or something much more?

What I (don’t) like about you (ao3) - truly_madly_deeply michael/luke, calum/ashton, harry/louis, minor niall/liam E, 70k

Summary: Michael hates Luke, Luke hates Michael. When Luke’s older brother Ashton starts dating Michael’s best friend Calum out of all people, the two arch enemies are suddenly forced to spend way too much time together. Which they don’t like at all, but hey, shit happens, and so does love.

Or the one where Luke gets his lip pierced and Michael finds it very distracting.

You and me; we can take the world (ao3) - Abbypd michael/ashton, luke/calum, former Ashton/OC T, 47k

Summary: Or yet another Wedding AU nobody asked for but I decided to write anyway.

you keep eternity (ao3) - merlypops luke/ashton, michael/calum, harry/louis E, 77k

Summary: Luke crashes into Ashton’s life like a shooting star, Calum shows Michael that he’s still beautiful, and maybe things don’t feel so dark anymore.

[follivora]

i feel like people need to cut back on the serious rpf shipping?? horny posting and joking is one thing, let people have fun y'know! but i think speculating and reaching because you want bojan or jere (or any person) to be queer is extremely inappropriate and i feel like if see it a tad too much from actual adults on this website.

as the great dan howell said in his coming out video on speculating someone's sexuality: "we don't know this person's life story, what they've been through, if they haven't told people, if they'll lose their job, if they're in danger... [also] they might not be gay, in which case we're just harassing someone and probably stereotyping."

oh this is like complicated, because I think that speculating and serious rpf shipping is completely fine on tumblr, it’s a safe space… doing it anywhere else is a big no

Dan’s situation was a little bit different, he was actually dating Phil and people were basically pulling him out of the closet when he wasn’t even out to his family, also he was kinda online everywhere��

We know that bojan and Jere aren’t dating, we know Jere’s girlfriend so I feel like having fun on tumblr is completely harmless! But yeah doing it somewhere else is a dick move

[daydreaming-sunflower]

Honest hour asks! (Hi DayDayie, love you!)

Do you have something that you collect? (kind of inspired by all your lovely textures - if you can call them that - in your journal)

What is one trope that you can go back and write again and again no matter how much you've done it?

How did you figure out/how did it come about that strawberry and sunflowers would be part of your aesthetic in a way? (again if you can call it that, but know I assosiate both with you, also bunnies!)

Where is one place in the world that you'd love to travel and who would you go with?

What is one book you'd recommend? (slyly looking for book recommendations)

omg hiiiiii thank you i love youuu ❤️💘💖

okay here we go (this is so long i appologise adhkafjs as always i have a lot to say):

Do you have something that you collect? I wouldn't say I actually collect specific things on purpose, but when I come across a thing that seems like I can stick it in a journal i WILL stick it in a journal, usually tickets from things, maybe packages from fun snacks, flowers, nice stickers... I wouldn't call myself 'a X collector' but I do like. stuff. ajksdhka

What is one trope that you can go back and write again and again no matter how much you've done it? I mean the obvious answer would be sad artists my beloved, although that probably isn't an actual trope asjdhks so probably hurt/comfort? I feel like no matter what story I'm writing or what tropes are in it, I can always find some space for some tears and cuddles (TM). There is definitely more but this is what immediately comes to my mind

How did you figure out/how did it come about that strawberry and sunflowers would be part of your aesthetic in a way? Okay I am not sure about the sunflowers, actually, I just really like the flowers lol I feel like there was a point in my life when I was like huh I actually don't know the answers to What is your favourite X for many things and everyone kept buying me like roses or random pink flowers for all flower occasions like by default and I was like hm I don't actually like. care about roses that much but if I had a fave flower people could buy me that one, you know what I mean? also might have been influenced a bit by dodie who's to say asjdhkad

I am not like 100% sure that it was JUST this but I actually do have a real answer for the strawberries and that is (fic rec tiiiime) the strawberry milk fic! which affected me a lot as a person and one of the ways was that it somehow made me (despite my ongoing half-emo persona) change my self care and/or dealing with mental health and stuff technique from like. dan howell-esque ugh darkness and edginess (lmao sorry dan that's such an unappealing description) to like hey soft and pretty and careful (speaking of fic rec time, everyone go read my safe space fic askjdkj) and it kinda went from there and turned me into a ray of sunshine (lmao insert the sonic from jen's pfp)

Where is one place in the world that you'd love to travel and who would you go with? God I would like to go to sooo many places I would like to go visit all the wwc friends, I would like to go to the countries in Europe I haven't been to yet, I would honestly like to visit at least one country from each continent at some point but also I really really love Greece for no specific reason and so I am always down to go there and I would either go with the wwc obviously orrr with my uni friends and we would settle down somewhere and live together forever in a queer little commune that is most definitely not a cult ^.^

What is one book you'd recommend? (slyly looking for book recommendations) hhhh it's so difficult to pick one (I'm looking at my 900 page clinical psychology textbook in front of me, wouldn't that be hilarious if I said that) but I am always eager to recommend either: Two Boys Kissing by David Levithan What It Takes by our beloved Jude Sierra OR closer baby closer by Savannah Brown (yes I not so sneakily said three oh well)

Okay that's it!! bye!! <3

[chrancecriber]

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[glitterrhowell]

I’m not a baby

Pairing: Daniel Howell & AmazingPhil (Phan)

Genre: Phan, Fluff, Crying, dd/lb, Little!Dan, Daddy!Phil, Caregiver Phil, Interactive introverts, sweet, no smut

Word Count: 1826

Summary:  What happened when Dan slips into little space during a meet and greet will it mess everything up Or will Phil be able to save him before anything happens. Little!Dan and Daddy!Phil

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A huge thank you to the amazing Kaylee (Localdreamer03) who betaed this story for me!

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So far the tour had been amazing Dan and Phil were having the time of their lives, meeting all the different fans and getting to interact with them on stage, life couldn’t be better. But with the tour life you also get plenty of nights you don’t get enough sleep, the stress of making sure you make it to the next venue on time and just the general stress of being an introvert that has left the house. They weren’t complaining by any means they loved it but that meant that they didn’t get a lot of downtime to themselves either. This was something both of them had thought long and hard about before they decided to go on tour, Phil remembered during TATINOF Dan had been beyond stressed and there had been some very difficult days, but after talking it over they decided that this time Dan was in a better place than before and they made sure to work more free days into their schedule.

Dan was usually pretty good at being able to tell when he was slipping into little space and after ten years Phil was almost better at noticing the signs then Dan was. That is why when Phil woke up to Dan’s big doe eyes staring at him and Dan cuddling him extremely hard Phil could tell Dan was teetering on the edge of little space. Dan always got extra clingy when in little space and he had a certain innocence to his eyes. So when Phil had suggested that they cancel today’s meet and greet and let the fan’s know Dan wasn’t feeling good Dan had gotten angry.

“Phil we can’t do that our fans paid a lot of money to see us I don’t want to disappoint them.” He said stubbornly.

Phil knew this would be his answer but he had hoped Dan would see it his way anyway, “Bear are you sure? You know they would understand. Plus you haven’t slipped in awhile so you might not be able to push it away.”

When Dan was younger he used to push his littleness down so far that he would wail and sob into Phil’s shoulder when he finally slipped. It had taken years and lots of reassurances from Phil that he loved taking care of Dan in little space before he had finally started to let himself slip when he needed to. As Dan had matured and gotten more confident he didn’t slip as much as he used to but when he did he didn’t fight it and gladly let Phil take care of him.

“I’m an adult Phil I don’t need to be treated like a child.” Dan snapped at him. Phil sighed he know this was a battle he wasn’t going to win he would just have to keep an eye on Dan and hope he didn’t slip in front of the fans.

There was still some tension between them as they made their way to the venue, they went in through the back door of the theater saying hi to varies crew members they passed. The tension stayed as Phil mindlessly scrolled through tumblr on his Phone paying more attention to Dan who was passing their dressing room back and forth. Phil didn’t say anything knowing it would just cause Dan to become more stressed and nervous than he already was. There was a knock on their door and their manager stuck her head in letting them know the fans had arrived and that it was time for the meet and greet to start. They quickly made their way out Phil wanting to get this down with as soon as possible so he could get back to the hotel room and cuddle Dan.

The meet and greet started well they met a handful of fans and everything seemed to be going just fine Dan was smiling and seemed like he was enjoying himself. Phil let is guard down just a little, and maybe just maybe today would go on without any mishaps.

It was about halfway through the meet and greet and they were listening to a fan whose name was Amanda tell them about her story, she had found Dan and Phil when she was 13 and they saved her from Suicide. Phil loved hearing fan stories they made him Sad but happy at the same time, knowing him and Dan had made such a difference in someone life. He happens to glance over at Dan who had been progressively getting quieter the last 20 minutes or so when he saw it. Dan had a look of confusion on his face and tears springing to his eyes, he started walking towards Phil and latched on to his arm, “Daddy I want to go.” He whined.

Fuck! He thought so, as subtly as he could He whispered in Dan’s ear hoping the fan didn’t hear, “It’s Ok baby just give daddy a minute.”

Phil quickly took a picture of them all and handed Amanda her phone back. Before the next fan could come up to them Phil quickly pulled their manager aside trying to explain to her as quickly as he could that Dan wasn’t feeling well and they needed to go back to the hotel. She wasn’t very pleased but Phil didn’t care, all he cared about was his baby and making sure he was safe and happy. He took Dan by the elbow and steered him away from the crowd and back to the dressing room, letting the manager take care of telling the fans that the meet and greet was going to have to be canceled. As soon as walked into the dressing room Dan started full on sobbing into Phil’s shoulder. Phil rubbed circles into his back comforting him, “Shh it’s ok baby.” He said as he hugged Dan tighter.

“Dad-ddy do yo-u haate me?” Dan sobbed into Phil’s shoulder. Confused Phil pulled away looking at Dan, “Why would daddy be mad at you sweetheart?” “Because I saaaid I co-could be big, wheen I coullld'nt.” He said hiccuping and sobbing at the same time.

“Love of course daddy isn’t mad at you, it isn’t your fault. Now Comere.” Phil said has he pulled Dan into another embrace kissing the top of his head. Phil let Dan cry into his shoulder until he finally stopped and was just whimpering a little.

“How about we go back to the hotel and we can cuddle, ok love.” Phil asked. Dan shook his head and took a hold of Phil’s hand, chuckling Phil took his hand and gave it a quick kiss.

The Car ride back to the hotel was quiet with Dan glued to Phil’s side and Phil Whispering sweet nothings into his ear. They arrived at the hotel and went in through the back door and made their way up to their room. Phil was glad they hadn’t held the meet and greet in the hotel as the chances of them being spotted by a fan where slim. Phil slid the keycard into the door and ushered Dan inside, once they were inside Phil let his shoulders drop. What he had feared had happened but he wasn’t mad at Dan he was upset with himself for letting Dan go along and do the meet and greet anyway.

“You wanna take a bath little one?” Phil said looking softy at Dan. Dan’s eyes got big and he nodded his head, “Can I use the bath bomb I got the other day?” He asked excitedly.

“Of course love,” Phil said smiling at him. “Go to the bathroom and wait for Daddy I will be there in a minute OK.” “Yay!” Dan squealed as he ran to the bathroom.

Phil chuckled as he pulled his phone out of his pocket he quickly composed a tweet from both him and Dan apologizing for leaving the meet and great early and simply telling them that Dan wasn’t feeling well. The response was almost instant wishing Dan a speedy recovery and the hashtag #GetwellDan was soon trending. Throwing his phone on the bed he went to join Dan in the bathroom. He walked into the adjoining bathroom and saw Dan sitting on the floor by the tub, his eyes lighting up as soon as he saw Phil. Phil started the bath and helped Dan out of his clothes.

“Daddy, Can I put the bath bomb in?” Dan asked excitedly “Of course love, here you go.” Phil handed the boy a rainbow sparkly glitter bath bomb.

Dan squealed as he dropped it into the water watching as all the colors started expanding and go off in the tub.

“Daddy look!” He exclaimed as he pointed to the bath. Phil smiled and gave Dan a quick kiss on the top of his head before he helped him into the bath. “Daddy I want my toys!” Dan exclaimed. “Sorry love remember we had to leave them at home.” Dan started to tear up again when Phil quickly sprang up remembering when they were out yesterday he had picked up a rubber duck to play with just in case they needed it. Smiling he handed it to Dan, “Here baby daddy picked this up for you.” “Thank you, daddy.” He exclaimed as he started splashing and playing in the water.

Soon enough Phil washed Dan up and he was helping him out of the bath wrapping him in a big fluffy hotel towel. “Wait here, baby.” Phil opened his suitcase and dug to the bottom as he pulled out one of Dan’s onesies he had brought with him. He rushed back to the bathroom dried Dan off, pulled on a pair of Dan’s boxers and pulled the onesie on over it. Dan Yawned and Phil could tell he was exhausted, it had been a long and tough day. “How about we take a nap love?” Phil asked as he led Dan over to the bed. “Ok, daddy,” Dan whispered as he crawled into the bed. Phil knew when Dan didn’t argue that today must have taken a mental toll on him. Phil Figured Dan must have been pushing his little space off for awhile now with the way he was acting.

“Daddy will be right back sweetheart.” Phil ran back to the bathroom pulled his contact lenses out and put his glasses on. He walked back over to the bed pulled the blankets back and got in snuggling close to Dan. Dan must have been tired because he was already asleep when Phil pulled him against his chest. Sighing Phil gave Dan a kiss on the head and he settled in. Today hadn’t gone to plan and they would have to figure out what they were going to do about the people who paid for the meet and greet and didn’t get to see them. But that was something they would worry about later because all Phil wanted to do was cuddle is baby and take a nice nap.

[little-macaron]

Made this for a friendddd

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Paranormal Masterlist

A Day in the... Life? (ao3) - carefully_crafted_cliches

Summary: A day in the... er, life of Dan and his ghost boyfriend, Phil.

chaos in bloom (ao3) - vvelna

Summary: The adventures of Dan and Phyl, ghost removal experts.

Dead of Night (ao3) - PoisonedMind

Summary: The windows rattle and the floor creaks and Dan writes i miss you to Phil before he goes to the bathroom to brush his teeth.

As he crawls into bed, he checks his phone. There’s a message from Phil waiting for him.

I'll be home soon

(TW) Early Sunsets Over Monroeville (ao3) - Morguesick

Summary: Dan had found his first ever safe space in Phil, and for Phil, someone to truly love. Yet, their relationship - and Dan's trust is jeopardised when Phil begins acting strangely following unexpected events on a caravan holiday in an abnormal country town with Chris and Pj.

A story of Dan losing his sense of reality following Phil's spiral into gradual paranormal depravity.

- set in 2010 -

Dragonfly (ao3) - lvckyphan

Summary: Something terrible happened in Littlerock Mental Asylum in the 1970s. Dan and his group of historically-crazed friends know this for certain. But when you throw in corporate secrets, paranormal activity and a chilling boy with very, very blue eyes, things begin to get a little more complicated.

four hotel walls (ao3) - watergator (orphan_account)

Summary: dan and phil are paranormal investigators from the 90s

House Haunting (ao3) - Indelible_Faith (TheWaterGoddess), nebulous_frog, PoisonedMind

Summary: Their house is haunted, Phil is certain of it.

Dan, on the other hand, has doubts. But when certain events begin happening, Dan doesn’t really think it’s quite amusing anymore...

in the woods somewhere (ao3) - antiadvil

Summary: After Dani bit Fi, Fi started to change too.

Mystery House (ao3) - multifandomer

Summary: Dan has just moved into a new house. The house is nice and looks expensive, but doesn’t cost as much as it should. He meets some unexpected people that will play a big part in his future.

oh invisible (ao3) - vvelna

Summary: The Happy Phantoms team takes on a ghost in a crawlspace.

Puppy Love (ao3) - citizen101erased

Summary: Phil goes to the dog show. He comes back with more than just fun stories and instagram selfies. Dan is pretending not to be pleased, but honestly, he can’t say no to those cute puppy eyes.

But then, strange things start to happen…

quiet on widow's peak (ao3) - dvp_95

Summary: Phil's got a list of paranormal experiences a mile long that he likes to share with the world. Abandoned buildings, cemeteries, and ghost stories have always called his name, and a particular fan of his has a really, really good ghost story.

(TW) Runaway Poltergeists (ao3) - kittycatrin (orphan_account)

Summary: Dan Howell dissociates, and Phil Lester is a ghost. Somehow, Phil still seems more real than Dan does.

SPI: A Dan and Phil Paranormal Investigator AU (ao3) - trancelover99

Summary: So I made a TikTok where Dan and Phil were Paranormal Investigators, and I decided to make an AU based on it.

The X-Philes (ao3) - UnorthodoxSavvy

Summary: Phil is a psychic. Dan is a detective. When Phil is visited by the ghost of his brother, he knows something isn't right. Can he and Dan solve the case, or will they become the next victims?

Watchful (ao3) - cafephan

Summary: Phil is part of one of the world’s most famous paranormal investigator groups, along with his friends Joe, Zoe and Louise. The never before investigated Harrowick Penitentiary catches the group’s attention, and they settle in the town for a week long investigation. Most importantly, they hope to make contact with one spirit in particular, Dan Howell, who was falsely imprisoned for a crime he didn’t commit, and was murdered in the building. When Dan becomes attached to Phil, things become a lot more complicated.

[transdylan]

To Dan Howell

Hi Dan (I said this in a comment but I wanted to post it on here), I'm so glad that you posted that video today because when I got to the part where you said to “not be afraid of what other people might think” made me feel so much better because I just got turned down by my crush as well as my brother (who is anti lgbt) finding out that I'm trans and I felt so horrible, and just thank you. Thank you for always being there even when you aren't really here telling me in person. Just thank you for always being there and helping so many people and inspiring us all because you've always been there I our hearts and minds and you've always been a great role model. I hope that there will be a day that I am able to tell you how much of a help you've been in person instead of me just typing this out because then it doesn't seem real enough. I just want to meet you and Phil and tell you how amazing you two are and explain the help you guys have been with helping me through my depression. I love you guys so much and I don't know what id do without you two dorks. <3  

Just, thank you thank you thank you so much for being yourselves and no one else. @danielhowell​ @amazingphil​

                                                        -A Happy Little Dylan

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