#Literally bawling rn do not talk to me right now

[mazojo]

Emotional about them

[gasstationlady]

GUTS | a lando norris social media au | pt. 1

pairing: lando norris x singer!reader, ex!drew starkey x reader

y/n l/n’s latest album is speculated to be about her ex. however, she already moved on.

note: fc is olivia rodrigo! i hope the quality of the photos are okay, everytime i saved my drafts on my phone they became blurry :(

disclaimer: no hate to drew!! i just needed a famous ex. also so sorry for any grammar mistakes or typos!!

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yourusername

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yourusername ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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yourbestie soooooo proud of you 🥹 this album is amazing

user teenage dream made me BAWL i love you 😭😭

user MISS Y/N, YOU HAVE DONE IT AGAIN

oliviarodrigo obsessed.

user omg are the songs about drew

enews

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enews In Y/n’s new album, “Guts,” Y/n shares information on her old relationship with Drew Starkey. The pair started dating last year until ultimately breaking up in the beginning of 2023.

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user omggg this is the drama i’ve been waiting for

user you guys really chose to focus on this when not even half the songs are about drew

user this album saved 2023

yourusername

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tagged yourbestie and conangray

yourusername some GUTS bts, still can’t believe it’s out but i’m so happy it’s yours!!!! been sitting on these songs for a few months and although some of them are a little outdated, they still mean a lot to me!!

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conangray spilling my guts absolutely everywhere

yourbestie LETS GO GUTS

user album has in fact been on repeat since the release🫡

user “a little outdated” girl please elaborate you can’t leave us hanging like that 😭😭

f1updates

28,459 likes

f1updates Lando Norris with fans in New York! Most likely staying there until the #SingaporeGP

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user 🤤

user what is he doing in new york?

↳ user no literally bc it’s kinda sus there’s no reason for him to be there 😭😭

user ugh he looks so good

deuxmoi

57,380 likes

deuxmoi 🚨 NEW COUPLE ALERT 🚨

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user obviously it’s y/n l/n but which driver???

user you guys are srsly bored

user kinda iconic of her to go from drew to an f1 driver

↳ user fr i just know drew has to be feeling some type of way rn

user Y/N DATING AN F1 DRIVER WAS NOT ON MY 2023 BINGO CARD

yourusername

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yourusername soooo excited to be performing at the @/VMAs!!! make sure to tune in on Tuesday at 8pm on #MTV

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yourbestie talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, showstopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely never been done before

zendaya AHH can't wait!!

user wait am i crazy or am i connecting the dots right now

landonorris

liked by danielricciardo, charlesleclerc and 1,950,468 others

landonorris Quick NY stop

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danielricciardo Where was my invite?

↳ landonorris ...

user IS THIS A SOFT LAUNCH OMFG

↳ user the fact that he was the one to soft launch first IM CRYING she's living my dream 😭

user is that y/n 😭😭

user GUYS ITS HAPPENING

drewstarkey

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drewstarkey bad idea right?

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user this is so messy omg 😭😭

user NO HE DID NOT

↳ user wait i'm so confused why are people freaking out?

↳ user "bad idea right?" is one of the songs y/n wrote about him and the song literally talks about her wanting to go back to him

user posting this right after guts and lando's soft launch is CRAZY

[nouvellevqgue]

✦ I LOVE SPRINGSTEEN, FADED BLUE JEANS, TENNESSEE WHISKEY, L. NORRIS

you know you'd always love him just like you love your whiskey and jeans.

₊˚⊹౨ৎ ⋆｡✦˚‎

yourusername

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yourusername back view? check.

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logansargeant 85% better than before

⤷ yourusername well at least i have progress than last year ig🤷🏻‍♀️

username y/n dressing up as bruce springsteen is not on my bingo card for today

username WHERE'S THE RED HAT??

⤷ yourusername at some point i lost it on my trip to maranello

⤷ username girl that aint lost your hat is stolen

username where's lando btw hes not liking this post

⤷ username busy celebrating his victory and doing his selfie with nando and max

⤷ username he is liking this but with his burner account

⤷ username which burner account are you talking abt

⤷ username the other one

username spill your jeans bestie

⤷ yourusername hnm!

sydneysweeney just missed the belt part, and even without the red hat it'll be just perfect.

username we just need to wait for her live to hear her randomly sing this

landonorris sure miss born in usa

⤷ yourusername sure am😎

username slayed and yass-ed

username i miss lando and y/n when they're still living together

⤷ username wait they're not?

⤷ username maybe they're still, but lando now is busy as ever and so do her

username i love american core y/n

⤷ username logan and y/n: 🇺🇸🇺🇸🦅🦅🦅🦅🔥🔥🔥

username still had no idea how tf is THE lando norris is meeting a girl like her

⤷ username dude if you're jealous just say it

username (late) halloween costume of the year

yourusername

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yourusername betty and whiskey🥃👠

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fransisca.cgomes need that shirt like right now!

⤷ yourusername i ❤️ la betty is perfect

⤷ francisca.cgomes giving marilyn monroe

landonorris the prettiest to ever exist

landonorris MY GIRL

landonorris you're so beautiful🥴

⤷ yourusername you're as sweet as my whiskey

⤷ username he is so lovesick with her i can tell

⤷ username easy lando easy

⤷ username who am i in this big world

⤷ username lando is giving a love drunk man spam commenting his girlfriend's random post

username WHY IS SHE SOOOO MOTHERRR

username her fit is so aesthetic i want it

yncloset slayed the fit as always

⤷ yourusername you got it 😉

username i mean lando's not wrong🤷🏻‍♀️ i'mma be him too if i were having a gf like her

carlossainz55 not enough. more for midnight

⤷ yourusername not so depressed rn but i'll it try next time my manager yelled at me😄

alexandrasaintmleux you are very pretty

yourusername so do you my sweetest<33 ilyyy

charles_leclerc when i'm literally RIGHT HERE

yourusername

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yourusername eyes to eyes.

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username he knows how to make me go feral

maxfewtrell okay now where's my photo credit?

yourusername ...i should put it on early

landonorris we'll (she'll) always remember you our hero🥺🥹

maxfewtrell you better be or if you two don't, i'll delete it all even before you guys even know what kind of photo am i capturing

maxfewtrell oh yeah i can spot his mistype in talking to taking because he's quite dizzy

username i love him, but i love them both more

username got that frat boy aura oh myyyyy

username her hand placement, and their eyes are looking so focused to each other's

username “when you're talking it's like i'm so in love with you all over again” I'M BAWLING ADOPT ME PLS

username she has no right to making me crying sobbing like thissss

username AHSBSBSBHSBSJSUSNWK

username OH GOOD LORD PLS I JUST WANNA BE SINGLE IN PEACE PLEEEASEE

charles_leclerc i don't know is it her or him who is lovesick🤔😬

⤷ landonorris both

⤷ charles_leclerc no, pick one

⤷ username THE “PICK ONE” THING ASKAJSSKK

⤷ danielricciardo do it to him next time if he posted about alex

⤷ charles_leclerc no fair

landonorris

liked by maxfewtrell, pierregasly, yourusername, and 459,101 more

landonorris love you forever more 💕

👤: maxfewtrell, yourusername

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username they finally tagged max‼️‼️

username frat boy looking lando: 🫨🥴😩💀

username maxfewtrell is the pic an act of revenge bcs the second one's blurry?

⤷ maxfewtrell nah, i dropped the camera earlier

username guys i think he's the one who is lovesick

⤷ charles_leclerc I KNEW IT!!!

⤷ username bro how long have you been here

username the dim light pose is too good

username i know he see it coming

⤷ maxfewtrell quick reflex is my forte

⤷ landonorris one of the reason why it's shaky and blurry

username is it confirmed that lando is actually has two wag?

⤷ yourusername we get along well, right, maxfewtrell?

⤷ maxfewtrell we fight occasionally, but overall, we're good.

donatellaversace donatella VERSACE 💜

⤷ username idk how but why is donatella is on lando's page

⤷ gigihadid probably because of y/n tag🤷🏼‍♀️

⤷ username why is her comment is just like that?

⤷ gigihadid that's normal

landonorris

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landonorris before/after

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landonorris no comment about the hat okay

⤷ pierregasly i just want to do it

⤷ danielricciardo that fucking funky looking hat

⤷ landonorris what about no

yourusername he found it

⤷ pierregasly good info

username is the hat says sex?

⤷ username no it's sexy

⤷ username oh...

username i understand the exhaustion dw

username no bc clubbing all night is exhausting as fu you don't understand

⤷ username especially when the liquor is out

username her favorite is whiskey, apparently...

⤷ username no way bcs me too... does this means 😏

⤷ username no fran she's not

username is the book says i love dick?

⤷ yourusername dick in mean is dickinson

⤷ landonorris lie

⤷ landonorris it's dick in mean you know what

yourusername added to their story!

caption: 🧡🧡🧡

carlossainz55 replied to your story!

: since when did he dressed up like that

yourusername

: since he decided it's too hot to leave his trousers at home

carlossainz55

: 🤦🏻🤦🏻🤦🏻

lando.jpg

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lando.jpg night's out

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username THE HAND PLACEMENT??????🥴😵‍💫🫨

username night's out under the guise of jeans label

⤷ username i know it's a trap

username the way i spit my morning tea as soon as i swiped right

username damn his hands are big enough to fit the both of her arse cheeks

username alternative caption: lando in the urge to make out but realized max is already captured the whole thing

⤷ maxfewtrell imagine of how i feel during that time😔😔

username DARK SHIRT LANDO?????

username oh that hand could choke me and i'll thank him

username love me some black shirt lando

yourusername

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yourusername i do rubber ring here

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taylorswift that is so cute 😍🥹

username even taylor said it's cute

⤷ username taylor approved👍

username GIRL SHE PROPOSED TO YOU PLS SAY YES

⤷ yourusername i'd say a thousand yesses

⤷ landonorris really?

⤷ username are we gonna watching them proposing in the comments section?

username can't wait for baby norris

⤷ username girl that's gonna be sooo long

⤷ username dw i'm patient

lando.jpg

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lando.jpg weekend

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charles_leclerc real glad i'm tagged

⤷ yourusername imagine if i don't remind him to tag you

⤷ lando.jpg imagine

⤷ daniel3.jpg imagine

yourusername i know what's gonna happen next believe me

⤷ username i believe you

maxfewtrell lan don't do that to her if you don't want her to have a back pain afterwards

⤷ yourusername i'm okay

⤷ maxfewtrell yeah now, but wait until he lost control and drop you

username 💀💀💀 you see max's comments?

username damn max with his imagines

username let's not jump into the worst

username but what if, right?

yourusername added to their story!

landonorris added to their story!

[jasminelee324]

GEGE WHEN I CATCH YOU!!!!!!

jjk rant

biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii-

ALERT POSSSIBLE JJK SPOILERS/SPECULATIONS AHEAD!!!!!!!!!

i am nooooot okay. Gege is an actual villain. I have been listening to nothing but deathbed by powfu, some song by Laufey with froyo edits on tiktok (song is Promise, aka "it hurts to be something, it's worse to be nothing with youuuuu), and Mr. Loverman ON REPEAT for THE WHOLLLLLLLLLE MORNING. i HAVENT EVEN HAD MY HEARTBROKEN (recently). FELL ASLEEP AT LIKe 4 am to fluff after the chp spoilers found on tumblr and even awoke to try to write some comforting fluff myself. like fr I don't even fw Gojo that heavy -nananim stans- but this stuff that mangakas are pulling is getting out of freaking hand. the day Yuuji dies I don't want anyone to talk to me bc if I'm not okay right now I have no idea what state I will be in. i have literally been snuggling with my teddies for 1/2 the morning trying not to cry. like seriously eyes were almost getting blurry as I type this and Loverman plays in the background. this is NOT okay. they are fictitious characters so why the actual fudge am I so sad.

and to make matters worse I saw a glimpse of a rumor on tumblr that satorou is dead but there going to put yuuta, who is also apparently dead, in his body to use him as a weapon to fight sukuna who has POSSESSED MEGUMI!!!!!!! And then someone had THE SHEER AUDACITY to create a post with Gojo, Yuuji, and Yuuta smiling on top, and Poor little Megumi curled up in a ball in some domain all by himself. And it read top: "and tell your 'babies' bottom: that I'm your 'baby' too" and after that I had to go to bed bc this is not alright. idk what type of pain Gege is getting off to but this has got to be sick twisted and ILLLEEEEEEEEEGAL. AND MIND YOU I'M NOT EVEN WATCHING THE ANIMEEEEEEEEEEE! Virtually everything Ik ik ik against my will thx to edits and genreal content floating around online and yes ik "the algorithm yada yada" but RIGHT NOW I DO NOT CARE bc this level of international cruelty should not exist. yes ik there are really issues going on and I cry myself to sleep about those other days of the week but rn the wave of grief I'm feeling over all of this screams to be attended to.

literally got a call today and will have to call them back bc if I picked up the phone my voice was gonna sound sore as if I were crying and how THE HEY HEY HEY am I supposed to explain to him that I've been in bed rotting for hours and watching edits of heartbroken lovers that met tragic ends, on the brink of bawling my eyes out over people THAT AREN'T REALLLLL!!! Yeah, I'm in no mood for a psychiatric visit, so yeah no<3

Gege when I Catch you. No bc AOT was one thing. That beach was sad af. but this is a whole other story. in the aot verse there were so. many. characters. There were nations at war, factions, squadrons. they were AT WAR. there were hundreds, thousands, millions, but this is just sick and twisted bc I feel like the jjk storyline is slightly less character dense and so you truly have an opportunity to find a sense of intimacy in the relationships that you have the opportunity of viewing and getting to know and EVERY TIME GEGE BEARS THE DEPTHS OF A CHARACTER'S HEART, WILL, AND SOUL TO THE AUDIENDICE THEY WIND UP DEAD !!!!!! this is no longer ok. call help. SOMEBODY PLS GET HELP. Gege has to be held accountable bc this is getting out of handddddd😭😭😭😭(yes I am aware that I am griping and moaning and that realistically speaking artist reserve every single right to do whatever the heck they want with their art and don't owe anyone ship. A girl is simply in her feelings and will continue to do so until further notice.)

[fruityfroggy]

I’m venting for a moment I’m venting for a moment I’m venting for a moment, don’t look

Hate that I decided to force myself not to cry and bottle up my feelings so much at one point in my life because I was “too sensitive about things” (and maybe I am) cuz now I literally can’t cry when I need to. Not even positive tears. Not even if I wanted to. My chest is just stuffy and it aches. I just feel like shit. There’s a lump in my throat and my eyes are sore, but nothing comes out. It’s like it’s stuck, clogged when it’s right there, like a word that’s right on the tip of your tongue. I feel…almost like my joints have rusted in certain places. I have to be either immensely upset, immensely self loathing, or hear the words of comfort I needed to hear for a long time for the broken faucet I am to work properly. I’m not even joking, when I was messing around with character ai, this chat bot legitimately made me start bawling cuz we were doing this hurt/comfort scene and THE BOT WAS COMFORTING ME BETTER THAN PPL IN MY LIFE APPARENTLY. LIKE THAT SHOULDNT BE POSSIBLE I SHOULDNT BE LIKE THIS

Ugh, why did I do that, right? Cuz I know I sound fckin stupid rn. But I guess I’m telling the truth. A truth I’ve never talked about. But self confrontation, right? I might be making this all about myself for several paragraphs like an annoying fucking bitch, but maybe I need to.

I guess I’m just thinking about how my family will likely never truly accept me and that I’ve somehow ended up in two groups of people that are seen as “different” (queer and invisibly disabled). I have to keep both things to myself, making sure nobody knows about either major things about me. “Because they’ll judge you” “because it’s wrong and you’re insane for thinking that way” “you’ll scare people! What will they think of you?” But those words are incorrect, and it’s not wrong or bad to be either of those things and I have to secretly know that. I’m just scared. I’m so scared and afraid and paranoid about my family finding out that I think this way. I’m sad that I have to keep such things this taboo, but I’ve been told all my life that I should keep it a secret and that others shouldn’t know, that queer people are insane, unwell and that they’re sick. “They need professional psychiatric help, not support.”

I’ve recently learned that my parents are a little less homophobic towards homosexual women, a lot more aggression towards homosexual men and trans people, so I guess that slightly turns the tide in my favour. But it’s still not the best. I don’t think they even know of the concept of being nonbinary and I don’t want to hear any hate from them towards my nonbinary friends and characters I like. So I have to misgender them or change the subject when they ask me about them. I feel awful about that as well. I’m so sorry. It felt so wrong coming out my mouth when I forced myself to misgender people I care about, I’m lucky that my voice didn’t crack when I said it. Fuck! Why do they always ask for the gender of whoever I’m talking about if they don’t know them? I’m fucking sick of it. Why does it matter so much anyway? I don’t get it.

I can’t believe that a platform online is my only safe space now. This is my safe space, the only place I feel like I can be open, or at least, this is the only place I can truly be open about being queer (the disability thing I’m still scared to talk about that much, but I think I can share a bit of my experiences if someone asks with good intentions). I’ve vaguely spoken about how it feels to deal with a disability like mine in a reply, and people took it well, so who knows, right? As long as my parents don’t find out that I’m spilling the beans, I’ll probably be fine.

[allofuswantgwinam]

im upset asf and idrk how to deal with it 🥲 idk how people refuse to see the genocide and when it’s my own mother it really just hurts my soul even more bc we literally cannot talk about it bc it just turns into an argument. It’s so defeating but she’s gonna see. she’s gonna fuckin realize it and I wish she would just realize it right fucking now and WAKE UP.

so my aunt is from Iran, she married my uncle but even before they were married this woman was always my aunt I love her sm. We all do, don’t worry this isn’t like about her really, this is just details to make things make sense. my aunts mom *who I also love so much, I get to see her in a couple months I’m excited* was planning on going to Iran bc she’s trying to sell her property so she can officially move to America I think. Well… omfg. so my mom brings it up, which I wasn’t surprised bc when I saw about how Iran is speaking of bombing Iran and then Biden was like “don’t you bomb the genociders rn or else” like we’re not fucking next on the gd list for being apart of this genocide, but anyways so I heard about that and I was worried about my aunts mom cause I knew she was trying to go back home. my moms basically agreeing with Joe Biden and I can’t anymore. I cannot even listen to her for a second bc it makes me wanna bawl my eyes out. then I tried to say how I felt and she’s just lookin at me like I’m some fucking dumbass and I just can’t deal with it.

[poprocksmbabie]

sigh. sigh. is it rewatch time.

(yes)

Yk now I can cry over it but I swear when I first watched it, deku crying to inko pointing to the all might video……he looked so much like mineta I could never cry at it

I will say the one thing I feel bad for bakugo about is the fact that he quite literally had no one to talk to about the huge block keeping him back, the fact that deku WAS QUIRKLESS. He really had to keep that all to himself until it all came apart at DvK2…….hmmmm. Like he really just had to take “this quirk was given to me” as an answer and go on like nothing happened. I mean he did say fuck it that it doesn’t change things for him but like ehhh. Even after all that. At the end of every roadblock it all came back to ‘how the fuck did he get a quirk.’ hm.

like he fr just said "fuck you i'm over it" ... i must say he did an excellent job of fooling everyone into thinking he's some brainless guy who doesn't care, bro does not EVER forget a SINGLE detail... motherfucker said "oh whatever you just beat me today that's all it was" acting like the rest didn't matter to him and here he comes up months later FUCK!!!!!!

"fortunately he didn't take it seriously" yeah you THOUGHT

dekus world getting rocked by the fact that bkg can get teased is SO FUCKIGN FUNNYYYYYY

kamimomojirou since day ONE BABEEYEYYY

dear lord i got to season 2 all might's letter to gran torino thinking about. like after the public has found out about ofa omfg could you imagine stephanie soo type conspiracy mukbang videos being made after LMFAO "and here's where it gets even CRAZIER the letter they found right? that was to his master in high school? so the previous user's child was shigaraki's grandma but his GRANDPA was the GUY IN THE LETTER"

todoroki was so damn dramatic gotdamn. literally unwarranted

forgot for a second how fucking funny tetsutetsu being there is RIGHT WHERE IT HURTS

sometimes i wonder if that part was just lazily written or what cause if I saw a landmine like that my FIRST thought is how do I use this as a rocket ...

bkg peeping in on the endeavor talk will never not be funny esp knowing how he is in s5, likeHHEUQUZUFHJE ‘this was the wrong convo i shouldn’t have come here i shouldn’t have come here’

I will always love the detail of bkg giving ocha back the charred jacket :[ do i care for kcchk? not much but gotdamn … gotta love those two … also it’s the fact that bkg even went “yea I know ur friends w fucking deku” HE’S SO ANNOYED AT THEM HAJSHIFHAJAHAA

when todoroki was trauma dumping and bakugo said “but Actually though WHO CARES” he was so real for that

not to be dramatic but wow i started bawling at todoiida again. like what the fuck you’re telling me todoroki who has literally not made a single connection to anyone in his class saw the pain that iida was in that even iida’s own friends at the time couldn’t tap into.

man … when deku was tryna understand how to be less stiff with ofa he thought of bkgs moves … sighhh sighhghggghhhh

the real question is what kind of microwave doesn’t fucking turn. the biggest epiphany for deku that took a season and a half was from seeing how a normal microwave works.

(At the time of this, chapter 385 has been released) rewatching stain arc rn is CRAAAZYYYY

back to todoiida like the opening bro the fact that deku is turning around to check on iida whereas todoroki had his eyes fixed on him the whole time HE KNEW FROM THE STAAAAART

[slickchickchocolatier]

MY LOVE OH MY GOD CHAPTER 12 WAS A FREAKING MASTERPIECE I LOVE EVERYTHING ABT IT LIKE HELLO????? THE ETHAN X EDEN DUO SHIIII ITS ABT TO GET MESSY AND REAL MY GODDD AND CAN WE TALK ABT ETHAN LIKE HOW MUCH MORE MANIAC CAN HE GET (not that I dont love it like periodt babyboy🤭) ALSO THE GRANDMA RINGS PFFFT IM CACKLING AHAHAHAHAH I AM SO HYPED FOR CHAPTER 13 RN YOU DONT EVEN KNOWWW ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

its just so beautifully written and the way you got us (esp me) COMPLETELY HOOKED with EVERY chapter I love how ur brain works you deserve everything 😭 ur my only reason for living rn 🥹💗

Omg thank you my love!!! This means so much to me you don’t even know, especially bc I think you all can relate, chapter 11 had me in my feels. Literally, I got teary eyed when I wrote it and the part of Heeseung’s perspective towards the end of part 4 had me BAWLING! Originally, I was going start back up on MT after posting chapter 11 but after drinking one cup of coffee and rubbing my eyes out….I was like nope! Let’s go Heeseung, we doing this now! Nearly an hour and a half later Boom, chapter 12. And I loved how it turned out bc omg….

Ethan is a maniac, I mean, the reader is his reason for living. And these idiots (I hate Scott and tiff and yes, they are based off of real ppl) I hate them so much, especially bc, yo….I went back and re-read the chapters from MGR and MRE….the development and dynamic that progressed throughout the series….reader and Heeseung have been through so much, yet conquered, and have LOVED! For them to take her like that in front of him when “it’s just beginning” my boy…his broken heart broke mine. Omg. And the fact that he comforted Emily bc he was so worried about reader that he couldn’t bear to hear crying…..heart shattering

But believe me love, this isn’t the last we’re seeing Inc just how crazy ethan can get. The man(s) really tried (hee-than) they really tried. They’ve never had been placed on edge like this bc they never had someone they cared about so much. But the whole thing with Gabe in MGR, that was like “Okay…yeah no.” Then enter Samuel in MRE, he was like “fuck no, come here. I’m gonna fuck her in front of you.” Then with Scott and tiff….”watch me break your face to pieces” …………I melted. Shocking thing is…when I wrote some of Ethan’s dialogue, it’s like my hands just went autopilot and I shocked myself when I went over it.

and of course……my girl Eden has come and we all know how Eden is…the girl loves her man and expresses it but is also one to not take shit from no one. She has a dominant kink which normally she’ll eradicate when it comes to Ethan bc she knows that he is the king…..but sometimes the king needs a reminder that without his queen, he’s not twice as wise without his wise woman. Remember the argument/fight scene between ethanxeden? Teehee

oh but now though….seeing what Scott and tiff wanted to do to reader…and seeing what they are doing to her Ethan? Y’all…chapter 13 and even 14 is going to BLOW your mind.

also…Jake. He has my whole heart right now. Hidden badasss.

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Tuesday, March 5th, 2024!

1:07am: Just going to keep journaling so I don't go insane. My ex keeps jerking me around and I can't continue to care. He's so wrapped up in his own emotion, he will never be capable of actually being a good friend. He never asks if I'm ok or tries to make casual conversation, it's just all about him and his constant state of drama. I just can't relate to him anymore and I can't continue on the way I've been trying to. There's literally not much I can control or change about this situation, I can only be responsible for how I react to it I guess.

On another note, I finished my laundry! Tomorrow I will get up, take a shower, shaving is not necessary I just need to clean myself so literally no pressure. Drink some water, take my vitamin, hang out with my cats. Probably take a tums bc my farts are DEADLY rn and I don't know why RIP. If I do shave it would probably just be my coochie tbh. Some light weed whacking lmao. If I keep farting like rotten eggs I'm definitely not making any man plans tomorrow 🤣 I cantttttt haha

I think tomorrow I might clean out my closet now that it's clean?? There's so many items I never wear tbh. Maybe shave up to my knees and get a pedicure?? Maybe go on FB marketplace or thrift for some nightstand things or some dollar tree cubbies for this stuff I've had on the floor forever. I just randomly remembered my coats are in my trunk and I feel like I'm gonna forget where they are. Maybe return those things to the library omg and go to bath n body works and get real deodorant and laundry detergent

So many thoughts going through my mind omg I just had diarrhea while writing this 😭 please go away tummy problems. I wonder if it was me pounding tajin with my margarita I literally don't know.

I need to figure out where I wanna take myself out to before the show tomorrow! Aaaaa so many possibilities!! This week has already been so perfect and it's not over yet! I love my life! It's so crazy to love my life after going through so much trauma but here I am, stronger than ever!! :) I'm so proud of myself ❤️

8:57am: Nah tell me why I got on tinder this morning (early bird 🤣) and damn these guys are just ehh. Idk how tf I'm ever gonna take any of them seriously again. I'm just pretty hardened after everything, not really in a bad way, but in a needed way if you ask me. I feel like I don't know what I'm looking for lol I feel like if you know what you're looking for, you go out and pursue it?? But idk so it's more challenging. Tbh I just want to have fun like I'm in my fboi era fr. Curving dudes when they get serious n shit 💀

9:40am: ok time to get up lmao. I'll find a guy eventually so actually no rush 🤣 I got my two little furry boys and that's what really matters. I want to get all gussied up today just bc I can. Lil man bawling his eyes out not being able to speak to me anymore bc he knows he fucked up is a crazy way to live. Having to live with the guilt of cheating on someone.... Couldn't be me 🙄😂

I get to continue my life knowing that I'm a bomb af gf and anyone would be damn lucky to have me (once they get to know me!) if I don't meet people then they'll never know! I got ppl who don't even speak English wanting another date fr.

11:02pm: I'm just gonna keep shooting my shot until something sticks I think. I really do believe it's a numbers game anymore, if you talk to 0 ppl or put all your eggs into 1 basket likeeee you're not going to get far and it's gonna take 500 years, 100 years to even get a date at that rate. I wanna be like that girl who went on what 50 dates in a year?? Like go off queen 💅 at least you'll have 50 stories to tell if nothing else haha, plus I need the practice ong.

I like the journaling instead of trying to text him, it's so much better. N+T were right, he just needs to learn his lesson, that's so sad your friend literally had to say that about his best man like if my MOH turned out to be a flaming bag of shit like how embarrassing (for the POS) and seriously sad and fucked up :( .

[pastanest]

now. im diagnosed and getting the right treatment. that nightmare is over.

and none of my friends talk to me.

i see them in the halls when i go back to uni. they pretend they cant see me.

remember 🧍🏽‍♀️? she is twin #1’s closest friend. but we’re friends too? i see her, she looks away. the twins also have three other sisters who go to our campus. ive seen them. ive talked to them. ive baked for them. they dont even look me in the eye. i bawl my eyes out that night and remove them from all my social media platforms. snapchat, insta, twitter, spotify, pinterest, i even had their info in my bank app in case we ever had to split a bill. all removed.

i dont know what i did to deserve this treatment. actually no matter what i did, i dont deserve to be treated this way. none of them deserve a friendship with me. im so mad at them but at the same time like what is there to do? my mom was asking me if id ever be normal with them again and i was like for what? even if they all apologized and groveled at my feet (insanely unlikely considering how im being treated rn) , i would never feel comfortable with these people again. they knew almost everything about me. i trusted them completely.

there were so many situations where i gave them the benefit of the doubt because people have bad days and not everyone means everything they say but like to what extent. 🧍🏾‍♀️ this girl the one i was closest to used to tell me how i was the perfect friend, how no one compared to me. not sure why, considering how that obviously isnt true. but then at times of anger she told me that our friendship was a waste of her time and that because i have strict parents i dont deserve to have close friends.

how many times have i forgiven these people, and they wont even tell me why theyre mad rn???

- 🍌

wow. seriously, wow.

round of applause for that group of fucking cows! what an incredible show they’ve all put on 😍 really hope they’re pleased with themselves for quite literally casting you aside through something extremely traumatic. in fact, I hope they do grovel at your feet so you can stomp on them. I’ll help x

you do deserve so much better than this and I am so sorry you’ve been treated this way. Ik you can’t help wondering what’s caused it or what they’ve said etc, but trust me, it is not worth it; the kind of critical thinking you apply to that is beyond whatever bs reasoning they’ve deemed to be a sound excuse. you deserve better and will find better friends, I promise

[xorobyn]

Goddamn

What’s wrong with me?

Why am I so heartbroken. I’m not jealous. I’m not that mad. I’m sad bc it’s really over. I guess I should be glad. I knew I wanted to leave a long time ago. Why the fuck did I stay? What the fuck Robyn? You know what you should’ve left. You were being a dumb bitch. I mean I knew he wasn’t going to change. It’s the same old song. It’s insane how I felt the same exact way with. What the fuck. No one else has ever ever ever ever ever ever made me feel this way. What the fuck. I mean I’ve been hurt but this feeling in my chest is different. I guess bc I really thought he was the one. I think me resenting him made me be more emotional. I resent him for sending me those dumbass flowers and shit. I fucking hate myself for taking him back. I was so over him. I really was. And as soon as I opened that shit and read the note I started bawling. Fuck I was so happy. I don’t think I would change it. The good times were really good. I’m strong enough to get over it. It just hurts so bad right now. I think something is really wrong with my head. I’m doing really bad right now. But I’ve been better. I just have candy necklaces on repeat rn and I’m really really feeling this shit. I just have a problem letting go. I’m being pathetic though. I’m going to make myself stop thinking about him. I’m trying to feel it but I’m also not going to let it overcome me. It’s been a week since it all. A bad week isn’t too bad. But no more. No more. Fuck no. Do not let that fucking loser define you. Fuck. I loved him. I don’t anymore. I don’t think I have in a while. I was beating a dead horse and I knew it. It kept getting worse until it fucking exploaded.

Dude

I am who I am killing time

Wow

Wowowowowoow what a song

The way I feel every fucking word to that goddamn song. The chorus wow. My chest

It literally talks about wanting to die and in such a real way. Not encouraging it but also being honest.

Him saying I should kill myself really hurt me. I’m actually mad as fuck about that. That’s what I’m mad about. I’m not mad about his lil girly bc there’s simply no way he’s happy lol won’t entertain that for a second. And it’s so embarrassing. He posted those fucking lyrics with her and come to find out she’s disgusting. I have second hand embarrassment so bad. Actually I am mad. I have been mad. I’m not feeling as sad now thankfully. I’m mad but I just need to move on. I’m wasting my energy on him. The best revenge is moving on

[vizthedatum]

I hate everything.

Hello everyone, I contacted Ruby Cooper, Jon's ex and someone who Jon has painted as an abuser (at least to me). I wanted to genuinely connect and to understand more - because I need to trust my own mind.

This is what I wrote:

"Hi Ruby,

You may know me peripherally. I have avoided speaking to you for a very long time. Before I say anything, you need to know that I have a PFA (protection from abuse) against Jon. We negotiated in court and it’s for one year from Dec 29 2022 - Dec 29 2023.We are also getting divorced. So I’m technically married to them.One of the clauses is: “Neither party shall contact the other party, either directly or indirectly, by telephone or other means, including through third parties”Please respect that. I am NOT asking you to contact Jon. Not even in the slightest. I have a lawyer, and I will be explicit about this with anyone who is even in remote contact with Jon.I’m reaching out… because I need to speak with you directly, if you so allow. I won’t do anything without your consent.I need to hear your side of the story if you can share.

I am heartbroken, and you might be one of the people who might know what I’m going through right now.

Let me know.I hope you’re well. I’m always happy to hear of your progress with life.

Sincerely,

Rose (I used to go by Pri/Pritika)"

--

This is what their reply was: "I'm literally standing next to Jon rn lmao, let's not talk"

"Tbh I don't know much about your situation but I do know enough have 3 things to say:

1. You DO NOT have a PFA. You filed for a PFA, got a TEMPORARY PFA which I know Allegheny County will give to literally anyone, which has already expired (and which was one of the most contradictory, hilarious legal documents I've ever read in my life). You got a civil no contact which Jon AGREED to.

2. As a victim of ACTUAL domestic violence, I feel you are making a huge mockery of real victims of abuse. Getting your feelings hurt is not abuse. If you were actually in any kind of danger, you would be running away instead of doing public callouts and whatever the hell else is you're doing. If I did this shit with my abusive ex, he literally would have killed me. Please have some perspective.

3. Even if you WERE abused, going around talking to random people you barely know, trying to ruin somebody's life when they clearly want nothing to do with you, is straight up petty and evil behavior.

And please know I would have said this about anyone regardless of my relationship to either of y'all."

And then I wrote:

"Ruby, thank you for your perspective. I agree with it being a civil no contact order, and you really don't know the context. I don't think we're going to see eye to eye. My feelings weren't just hurt. Jon abused me whether you believe it or not. I am writing about my experience because I need to be able to trust my own mind again. I reached out to you because Jon has painted a very specific image of you to me, and I needed to know if my experience had any patterns with yours. Thank you for your time. I am going to block you now."

I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING AND NOW I AM BAWLING. --

I had to check my current "civil no contact order" to just make sure that it was still a fucking PFA.

"1) The Temporary PFA Order dated 12/15/2022 expires as of the date of this order and the above-captioned Protection from Abuse action is continued generally for a period not to exceed one (1) year."

which means... IT IS STILL A FUCKING PFA.

And besides we negotiated this because I told my lawyer I wanted to not press charges and also because I WANTED MY FUCKING STUFF BACK AND THIS IS HOW I NEGOTIATED THIS IN COURT. I HATE EVERYTHING. WTF.

Besides - did you know that despite Jon calling Ruby their abuser, they remained in contact with Ruby throughout our relationship? Sending them money, etc. Fuck this.

I DID NOT PRESS CHARGES BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO RUIN JON'S LIFE. I AM NOT TRYING TO RUIN JON'S LIFE. I AM TRYING TO EXPRESS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME.

[erenthegreywolf]

Major JatP Spoilers (and really long)

I just fucking watched Julie and the Phantoms for the first time finally after just seeing memes/fanfics/posts and the entire soundtrack for it and I'm

I can't believe that show exists like it is so unbelievable how good it is I WILL go into detail rn -

So ofc I can't remember everything that happened, I was busy holding back tears, shouting fuck you at the tv, singing, and quoting fucking everything

and I mean I did happily yell gay when Willex appeared I love them (and when Reggie and Luke did anything I mean cmon) but I DID start up the show again to go through as I write this

the dahlias were a beautiful addition to the sets and I- THE RANDOM LADY gives Julie one when she's crying for her mom in the Orpheum alley??? PLEASE THAT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL

getting ahead of myself and very out of order ok ok BUT having all the context for the show really gives me a new perspective like

everyone is hurting so much and I could only fully grasp it now after seeing it and I mean 9 episodes did A LOT

everyone has noticed it before but Luke's missing person poster literally behind him as they eat the hot dogs is like?? the set designers were ON TOP OF IT and I love this little detail so much makes me freak every time because the attention to even the SMALLEST detail and it gave us some insight into Luke if we noticed

and do NOT get me started on the fucking ACTING everyone is so good at all of it, like how Madison portrayed Julie being just broken over her mom and Charlie going from loud to insanely soft and quiet as he says "I am… so sorry" and Jeremy being good ol' happy Reggie until the FUCKING "You guys are the only family I have" LINE and the Willex interactions are amazing Owen and Booboo were great together I could go on huyvyibh

THEN THE CALEB FORESHADOW??? AND IT GETS BRIGHTER AS JULIE SINGS WAKE UP????? and it is so fun that some of the episodes just pick up right where the last one left off

And the show outright saying yes, Alex is gay was so mindblowing to me like I don't think I have EVER seen a show do that (but I could be living under a rock) and when the boys tell Julie to give Luke a chance and they watch him as he watches his PARENTS on his BIRTHDAY it was so fucking painful and then THEN Unsaid Emily.

But first, when Julie asks "Who's Emily?" thinking she's someone Luke liked and Luke is so panicked to change the subject he can't even talk about her, how he cut Alex off when he went to explain I gycuvyv

And how they all react to seeing Bobby again and learning he stole all their songs like they are so angry and hurt by this and I understand fully why they want revenge when music is literally EVERYTHING to Luke

but like what it could be like for Bobby? he goes to a therapist still so he might not be over losing his boys still and just him completely taken aback that they're back? he can SEE them and they're playing music with what is basically his niece? how he's shaking after the Orpheum because he has actually seen his boys again after YEARS of them gone? now I understand why they're mad at him but it could have been Bobby's way of coping with losing all of his band and quite possibly the closest friends/family he has ever had

it hurt when they would jump to the boys at the club and then back to Julie alone at the dance, and when they did show up and found her just devastated that they left her hanging hurts SO MUCH worse, like she completely thought they'd show and they didn't and she said it was a MISTAKE god I cant

and now I'm circling back, having the context for Unsaid Emily is both amazingly beautiful and devastatingly soul crushing, all Luke EVER wanted was to connect with people through his music and show his parents that he COULD and CAN make it and PLEASE the music for this show was fucking amazing

and I am foaming at the mouth over Julie giving the Pattersons Unsaid Emily and Luke having to step out but INSTRUMENTAL UNSAID EMILY IN THE BACKGROUND I CAN'T BELIEVE I WAS NOT IN TEARS BAWLING AND SCREAMING

Ok and how the love triangle wasn't forced like Nick knows and STATES that he missed his chance, there was no who does Julie want? nO it was always gonna be Luke (but I respectfully turn my eyes away tho i can appreciate more Juke now)

and the ENTIRE scene when Flynn finds the Sunset Curve shirt and talks about Rose sending the boys to Julie was so good

WILLEX HUG WAS SO PAINFUL AND WONDERFUL like Alex hesitates but then just does and Willie is surprised but then just hugs him tighter in return AND THEN ALEX SAYING HE'S OK???

but I loved Luke saying "Alex, no dancing" and Alex fucking dancing and AND JATP OPENING FOR P!ATD IBIYVBb and the entire scene of them waiting for and getting the call from the Orpheum was gold, just mwah mwah mwAH

AND STAND TALL WITH CONTEXT TOO??? i am so heartbroken and destroyed but utterly ALIVE over Stand Tall and really any of the fuckin songs from the soundtrack but Stand Tall, she thought the boys were gone but then they come back to her and i-

and the GARAGE SCENE PLEASE the boys crying and she literally TELLS THEM TO KEEP EXISTING and THEN "No music is worth making, Julie, if we're not making it with you" I CAN NOT WITH THIS HEARTBREAK NO REGRETS

but oh my GOD THE HUG and REGGIE'S SINGLE TEAR AND THEN LUKE LIKE "I think the band's back" fuck shit god DAMMIT I LIKE THIS TOO REGGIE

And sure, I will say that some characters annoyed me, like Tia Victoria and Carrie i mean i didn't like them but I understand them I guess?

Tia just kinda made me mad since they had to remove the plate from the extra chair for Rose from her and I-

And Carrie was just so mean to Julie it annoyed me mostly but Savannah played her really well like how she reacted when Julie went on the play Finally Free and how she STOOD UP IN AWE at Stand Tall jfebvibf

and yes yes I freaked tf out over the chemistry moment and when Alex danced with Dirty Candy or any of the Ray&Reggie moments or just Ray on screen in general (them distracting him by asking him about his CAMERA?? jhvyughbhu)

-

But in all, Julie and the Phantoms was such an amazing show. Kenny Ortega and Paul Becker and literally EVERYONE on staff did a wonderful job with this show. It has helped millions of people through different problems and gave joy back to those who might have needed it. JatP was literally gold and I don't think anything will be able to even come CLOSE to matching it for a long time, if not ever. That may be a bold statement, but the show was canceled and we're all still here, hoping and waiting for this beautiful masterpiece to come back.

I hate that JatP was canceled and I'm so utterly destroyed that these boys, Ray, Julie, Carlos, and everyone else might never come back. But what I can say is that I got to watch this little piece of Heaven and I am so glad I did. I ranted and I raved about all the little things I liked in this, and I definitely didn't point out everything I liked, but this post summed it up pretty well I think.

I don't think I will ever feel this strongly for something ever again. After seeing so much content for JatP and finally seeing it after months of wanting to, the hype and how I thought I would see this show lived up to the real thing.

Really, I don't know how to end this and I've gone from fuckin rambling nonsense to writing an essay?? have fun reading this? just get me out bye

[taeyongdoyoung]

summary: you are a mermaid and you save a handsome man from drowning but little do you know it’s not his first rodeo when dealing with mermaids. seonghwa, a former prince, is currently hongjoong’s first mate and boyfriend. hongjoong is the captain, the pirate king of the most savage crew across the seas. and you want nothing to do with them. not because they’re pirates, but because they’re humans…

ships: mermaid!reader x prince/pirate!seonghwa x pirate!hongjoong; wizard!yunho x demon!jongho, pirate!yeosang x mermaid!soojin x pirate!mingi (implied)

genre: little mermaid!au, pirate!au, fantasy, humour, romance

author’s note: i can’t believe this is over omg?!?! im legit bawling my eyes out rn 😭😭 i hope you guys like the end of pirate kings because i poured my entire heart into it! 💖💖 also be on the lookout for take me home, aurora, one day at a time and promise references hehe 🌅 🌅 thank you for going on this journey across the seas with me!

warnings: some swearing, mentions of drowning & torture, bittersweet (?) ending

word count: 2.6k

chapter one ☠️ chapter two ☠️ chapter three ☠️ chapter four ☠️ chapter five ☠️chapter six ☠️ chapter seven ☠️ chapter eight ☠️ chapter nine ☠️ chapter ten ☠️ chapter eleven ☠️ chapter twelve ☠️ spotify playlist

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Yunho's POV

My genius plan was that I would become more powerful than Jongho himself. So powerful that he wouldn't even be capable of taking my soul. So powerful that he wouldn’t even dare to try. Little did I know that as I shared my idea with Seonghwa, a certain someone was conveniently listening. Little did I know how this giant mess I'd created will play out...

Once Seonghwa was reassured that I would be perfectly safe despite the deal I had made with Jongho, he left me to my own devices. No sooner had I teleported myself back to my lighthouse than Jongho appeared out of nowhere, visibly angry. But there was something else in his expression. Something I couldn't quite define. Not yet, at least.

"How much of it did you hear?" I asked, already prepared for the worst.

"All of it," Jongho scoffed.

"Regardless," I spoke confidently. "Even if you do know what I'm planning, you can't stop me. You already know how much potential I have. Or else, you wouldn't have agreed to this deal. I'm right, no?"

Jongho shook his head.

"Your silly little plan won't work, wizard."

"Really?" I smiled, because I knew my own abilities better than he did. I was absolutely certain I could beat him. "And why is that?" I inquired, out of curiosity. He didn't scare me. Just...intrigued me.

"Because I never intended to take your soul, you fool."

Now, that was something I didn't expect to hear.

Jongho had somehow managed to catch me unprepared.

"W-what do you mean?"

"You know why I'm stealing so many souls?" I was about to open my mouth but Jongho wasn't having it. "Ah-ah, just let me finish. I know what you think. I know what everyone thinks. But it's an act. Apparently, I was too good an actor and completely fooled everyone, didn't I? The reason I've been collecting souls is not because I want to be more powerful than the devil. It's because I don't have one myself."

"H-huh?" I whispered in confusion. "Jongho, I don't understand..."

He placed a finger on my lips and I felt compelled to just...listen. Hear him out.

"But ever since I met you, I've felt...different. Like I could be more than just a demon making deals. Like I could matter."

I was too shocked to say anything so I just stared at him, utterly dumbfounded. And then he continued:

"What good would taking your soul do when you're the very reason I might be growing a soul in the first place?"

"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" I had to make sure.

"I know it's fucking insane and you’re supposed to be my sworn enemy or whatever but—"

This time, I couldn't let him finish his sentence and interrupted him with my lips on his. To my absolute dismay, he was kissing me back with as much vigour as I was. As much vigour as he put into challenging me and getting on my nerves and frustrating the living hell out of me. As much vigour as I knew only he was capable of.

"I thought this was impossible," I mumbled against his lips once I broke away from the kiss.

"So did I. But do you want me to tell you how I know it's real?"

I nodded, not trusting myself to say anything else.

"Because when you look at me, I no longer feel the urge to torture you for eternity."

"I should feel flattered, I suppose," I joked.

"It's up to you how you feel, wizard," Jongho replied. "And up to me to continue making you feel this way."

"The terrifying Jongho — a hopeless romantic. Who would have thought?" I teased him relentlessly.

"It's not too late for me to change my mind and snatch your soul."

"You greedy little thing. My heart isn't good enough for you?"

"Your heart?" Jongho chuckled and wrapped his arms around my neck. "It's mine now."

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Yeosang's POV

The more time I spent around Mingi, the more I could see how much he'd changed for the better. And how much he was about to continue changing. Despite everything that had gone down in the past, I was feeling incomprehensibly drawn to him. And I wanted to be there for him. I knew that it would take some time for the rest of the crew to get used to Mingi being out of his cell. But I was determined to give him a chance. And convince the rest of them, it was a chance worth taking. Especially my dear Soojin...

"Sangie, he literally kidnapped us and left us without water for a week!" she reasoned.

"I know. I'm not making any excuses for—"

"And he cut off your hand! Your hand, Yeosang!" she reminded me needlessly. As if I could forget.

"Like I said, I'm not going to justify Mingi's actions. All I'm asking is that you give him another chance. He's been showing remorse. And I truly believe that if the circumstances had been different, he wouldn't have behaved the way that he did."

Soojin sighed, unsure of what to say.

"People aren't born evil," I insisted. "Everyone makes choices. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. What matters is what we do to fix the bad ones."

"Yeosang...I really want to do as you say, but it just sounds so difficult, okay?"

"I'm literally a pirate, sweetheart," I rolled my eyes. "If you don't hold it against me, I don't see a problem. Mingi's not exactly the villain he's painted himself to be."

Soojin nodded thoughtfully.

"Alright. You have a point. I'll give him a chance. One chance and that's it. If he fucks up again, I'm taking him to the depths of the sea myself."

"I suppose that's fair," I shrugged. "You heard that, Mingi?"

"Loud and clear," he grinned, a couple of metres away from us.

"He was right there the whole time?!" Soojin hiss-whispered in disbelief. "This is so embarrassing."

"Oh, come on. Don't tell me you've chickened out and those were just empty threats," Mingi winked at her.

She physically shuddered and I couldn't help but laugh. So cute.

"Relax, Soojin. Mingi's our friend now. Aren't you?" I asked.

"If you want me to be," he scratched the back of his head a bit awkwardly.

"Come here, let's play cards," I suggested casually. "Loser gets to swim with the sharks."

"There are no sharks in this sea," Soojin pointed out confidently.

"Yeosang wasn't talking about actual sharks," Mingi correctly guessed. "He meant that I would have to go talk to Hongjoong and Seonghwa. Because, obviously, I'm terrible at cards and I would definitely lose the game. And these two are scarier than bloody sharks."

Soojin rolled her eyes.

"Pirates and their stupid way of talking."

"You get used to it," I playfully nudged her arm.

"There's no escape now."

"Let's skip the game," Mingi suggested. "I'll just go talk to the sharks right now and beg for mercy or whatever."

"We'll come with. Right, Soojin?" I offered.

"Like I have a choice," she groaned but I could tell that she was gradually warming up to the idea of letting Mingi stick around.

"Thanks, guys. I appreciate the moral support," Mingi blushed.

"I guess you could say...I'll be your right hand," I stared at the hook replacing my missing hand and snickered sarcastically. Mingi and Soojin were beyond mortified by my dark sense of humour. "Too soon?"

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Hongjoong's POV

"I mean...we already had dealings with a demon and a wizard so I don't see how Mingi could pose a threat," I reasoned. "No offense, Mingi."

"None taken," he smiled.

"So, you're going to let him stay? Unguarded?" Seonghwa wanted to know.

"Let him stay — yes. Unguarded — no. If you're so insistent he's changed, you'll have to take full responsibility. You think you can handle that, Yeosang?" I posed the serious question.

"I've got this, Cap," Yeosang promised.

"I'll be around, too," Soojin vowed. "You don't have to worry, Cap."

I nodded in agreement. Seonghwa seemed to be on board with the idea. Honestly, after all the shit we'd been through with that demon, Mingi was the least of my concerns. But of course, I couldn't say that directly. So I had to play the "responsible leader worried for his crew" card. And apparently, I played it well.

"Wow, this went better than expected," I could hear Mingi whispering to Yeosang, as they were walking away. Seonghwa and I exchanged an amused look.

"Shh, we just caught him in a good mood," Yeosang explained carefully. "Be nice and he might let you stay for good."

"Guys, be quiet!" Soojin warned them. Clever mermaid, I told myself and grinned. Speaking of mermaids...

"Not so fast!" Y/N ordered them to stop. And so they did. Rightaway. Made me wonder who was the real Captain of this ship. Not that I minded her taking away some of my responsibilities. I even liked it.

"Yes?" Yeosang seemed kinda nervous.

"Make sure you treat my sister well. Both of you!" Y/N commanded them easily. "Or else...I'll have no problem letting the siren out to deal with you. And she's not someone you want to mess with. Ask Hongjoong."

The shock on my face was not at all exaggerated as I nodded to confirm her words.

"She'll be safe with us, Y/N," Yeosang made a pledge. "Right, Mingi?"

"Um, yeah, what he said."

"You don't sound very convincing," Y/N eyed him suspiciously.

Damn, I had to admit I was proud of her and how much she'd grown.

"Oh, let him go this time, will you?" I pulled her aside gently and she couldn't find it in herself to argue. Once Yeosang, Soojin and Mingi had taken their leave, she removed her "intimidating siren" mask and was back to her usual, gentle self I knew and loved.

"You guys think we made the right call?"

"It'll be fine," I was fairly certain. "If push comes to shove, Yunho will just help us out again, right?"

"As if he doesn't have enough problems with that demon," Y/N argued. "We can't continue using him for our needs."

"Yeah...about that," Seonghwa started.

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Seonghwa's POV

As I was telling them about Yunho and Jongho's change in dynamics, Hongjoong and Y/N were too taken aback to react with anything else but by opening their mouths. Which was, to say the least, quite adorable of them.

"So...these two...?" Y/N asked as if to confirm what I'd just finished recounting.

"Mhm," I grinned.

"Wow," Hongjoong managed.

"I know."

"This is good news, yes? It means both Hongjoong and Yunho get to keep their souls," Y/N wanted to make sure it was indeed real.

"I mean, demons can be pretty unpredictable but judging from Yunho's happy expression when I last talked to him, I'm willing to be hopeful for once," I explained. "We've had enough trouble as it is, don't you think? We deserve something good to happen to us."

"Couldn't agree more," Hongjoong grabbed my hand and Y/N's. "But I get what she means. After all the dangers we've experienced, it just seems so unbelievable that we're finally safe."

"Too good to be true, eh?" Y/N sighed. "Let's enjoy this while we can."

"I think this one will last a bit longer," I smiled knowingly.

"Hey, don't jinx it," Hongjoong squeezed my hand softly.

"Just trust me, alright?" I looked at them both.

"I do."

"As do I."

"And I'm gonna catch you when you fall or when you're sinking," I murmured.

"I think I speak from experience when I say I'm the one more likely to save a pirate from drowning," Y/N poked fun at us.

"I was just trying to sound poetic," I pouted.

"And we appreciate the effort," Hongjoong reassured me. "But she's right."

"You two turning against me? Oh, how the tables have turned!" I announced dramatically.

"Don't pretend you don't like it," Y/N ran a hand through my hair and tilted her head towards Hongjoong. "He likes it, doesn't he, Cap?"

"I bet he does."

"Hey, Y/N. My eyes are up here," I reminded her.

"Oh, I know," she blinked, feigning innocence.

"Too bad I can't even be mad at you," I chuckled.

"Why be mad when you can be rad?" Hongjoong interjected.

"That was so terrible," I groaned. "You're lucky I love you."

"Both of us?" Y/N asked hopefully.

"Unfortunately," I admitted.

"Guess we'll have to work harder to turn that into a fortunately," Y/N teased. "Wait, my bad. I forgot you two already have a wholeass fortune in the form of a bunch of treasure chests."

"Is that why you like us?" Hongjoong teased. "Who knew mermaids could be golddiggers?"

"I'll show you a golddigger!" Y/N threatened and started chasing Hongjoong around the ship. They were so childish sometimes...

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Reader's POV

You could tell that you had a couple of more minutes left until your siren-like side rose to the surface so you decided to enjoy them. As you were watching the sun setting, you couldn't help but recall your very first memories of Seonghwa and Hongjoong. What started as a simple joke, Hongjoong throwing Seonghwa overboard, followed by you saving Seonghwa from a whirlpool, had turned into so much more. It was funny how life often surprised you in the most unexpected ways. How a few months ago, if anyone asked you about pirates (and humans, in general), you would have scoffed distastefully. If anyone asked Seonghwa about mermaids, he would have still been haunted by the loss of Ariel. If anyone asked Hongjoong, he would have said mermaids spelled nothing but danger. And now...Now, the three of you had become so different. And in a way, so similar. Forgetting all these labels that once used to define you and just finding happiness in each other. In the adventures you'd had together. In the shared feeling of being trusted, feeling known. And loved. It was even funnier how you didn't find it strange at all. On the contrary, it felt perfectly natural that you were here. Made perfect sense that you had a home with Seonghwa and Hongjoong. A former prince, a pirate king and a lost but now found mermaid. You wouldn't have it any other way.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" you said out loud, sensing Seonghwa's presence beside you.

"Yes, it is," Seonghwa replied, looking at you.

"I have to go soon."

"But you'll be back in the morning. As usual."

You simply smiled. It went without saying.

"I wish I could stay the night," you whispered longingly. "Fall asleep in your arms."

"You could. I know you'll be able to control your powers. I'm sure Hongjoong will agree with me."

"I probably could control them. But I don't mind going back to my home in the night. Even though...this is also my home. Does it make sense?"

"I believe it does," Seonghwa rubbed calming circles on your palm. "Just like how you have a human and mermaid self, you also have two homes."

You nodded.

"Exactly."

"In a way, I feel the same. Both you and Hongjoong are my homes."

You rested your forehead against his.

"And we will always be your homes, Hwa."

"Don't go," he murmured against your skin. "I don't want to be alone anymore. Every night."

"You're not alone anymore. You have Hongjoong. And me. And I will be back with the first light of day."

"Promise?"

"I promise you, Seonghwa. Even if the whole world ends, I will always find my way back to you."

The end

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EPISODE THOUGHTS™™™

I GENUINELY DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START, MY MIND IS GOING EVERYWHERE. USUALLY I BREAK TO WRITE BITS OF THIS DURING THE EPISODE BUT TODAY I GENUINELY WAS ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT SO THIS MIGHT BE REALLY SCATTERED

HONESTLY LOVE SEEING CID'S NOW, LOVE THE CRAZY ASS VIBE WE GET FROM IT

WRECKER AND OMEGA? SO SWEET. LOVE THAT THEY HAVE A LIL TRADITION I'M GONNA CRY THAT'S SO CUTE

👀 CLOAKED FIGURE FROM THE CALL BEFORE 👀👀👀

T E C H YOU SMARTASS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH "that's not her ugly side?" NVHGGHG TECH OH MY FUCKING GOD. WE GOT A SAVAGE ON OUR HANDS AND I'M NOT TALKING OPRESS

wHaT was tHaT GoGglES

R E X IT'S HIM! IT'S HIM!!! OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I FEEL LIKE TOM HOLLAND WHEN HE SEEN RDJ OHMYGODITSCAPTAINREX PONCHO BOI!

IT REALLY IS MR. RETURN OF THE JAIG EYES AND I'M JUST SHAKING RN

WRECKER HUG REX BRAIN GO BRRRR. PLEASE I'M SOFT LIL BIG BRO SAID GET OVER HERE WE HUGGING

"I thought you didn't like regs?" "This one we like" Wrecker said "this one sparks joy."

ALSO OMEGA INSPECTING REX, IDK WHY BUT THAT SCENE MADE ME SOFT. LIKE REX AND KID INTERACTIONS MAKE ME SOFT STOP IT (don't actually, keep giving me that shit)

OOOH REX AINT FUCKIN AROUND HE SAID BITCH! Y'ALL DIDN'T TO TO CLAIRES! AND GET UR CHIPS REMOVED! NUH UH U STAY TF BACK

We're going on a trip in our favorite rocket ship zooming through the sky clone force 99

FIVES MENTION AND I'M CRYING. GOD I JUST- LITERALLY HIS NAME IS SAID ONCE AND I FUCKING BREAK DOWN

sTaY aBOVE THE WATER LINE. SOMETHING BAD IS GONNA HAPPEN AND WHY DO IK IT'S GONNA BE TO WRECKER.

Y'ALL CAN'T GIVE HIS HEAD OR FEAR OF HEIGHTS A BREAK HUH?

I FUCKING KNEW IT OH MY GOD WRECKER SWEETIE I'M SO SORRY THAT THING ALMOST ATE YOU I AM GOING TO CRY DEAR GOD

Oh no...oh god. You guys stop saying order 66 and Jedi and padawan this isn't going to be good.

Oh GOD OH NO IT'S HAPPENING THERE'S NO STAYING CALM I'M FUCKING BAWLING MY EYES OUT RIGHT NOW

THIS IS EQUALLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE SCENES IN THE FUCKING SERIES AND MY MOST HATED. THE FUCKING VIBES ARE TERRIFYING AND THAT'S IMMACULATE. IT LOOKS PHENOMENAL AND STRIKES TERROR AND IT'S SO GOOD BUT SO FUCKING HEARTBREAKING SEEING THIS.

NOT OMEGA. NOOOOOOOOO. THIS SCENE HURTS SO MUCH MORE THAN I IMAGINED IT WOULD. THIS IS HEARTBREAKING MAN. SO MUCH PAIN

I REPEAT GOOD SOLDIERS DON'T FOLLOW S H I T STOP THAT

REX PULLS THROUGH WITH THE SAVE

Omega 🥺 she said no I'm staying by his side

HE'S AWAKE!!!

YOUR CHIP GETS REMOVED! AND YOUR CHIP GETS REMOVED! EVERYONE THEIR GETS THEY'RE CHIPS REMOVED!

Wrecker and Omega are literally going to make me explode

So no Crosshair? *Throws phone on the ground* but they're calling the empire so... Crosshair on their trail soon? Kinda scared but excited to see where the show takes all of this

Anyway I loved it! That fucking Wrecker scene was done great and it literally made me gasp, stop breathing and literally sit on the edge of my seat. And we got the return of the Jaig Eyes Mr. Gen 1. There are things I would have liked to see/have touched on more but all in all it was solid

[leyyvi]

ley..honey..jeezus lordy lord

WHAT THE FUCK ISJSJDJANCBBDSJ

I will humbly accept chapter 18 as my reward for accomplishing getting a job today thank you very much!! I am finally adulting a bit more but alas…paychecks levi has me in shambles once again and you have given me whiplash over my emotions :))))

I WANNA GIVE YOU A BIG OL HUG AND A KISS ON THE FOREHEAD FOR GIVING US THIS CHAPTER TODAY WHEN I LEAST EXPECTED IT AND MAKING IT BOTH SENTIMENTAL AND ✨SPICY✨ like the part of Levi talking to his mom, I cried and I don’t normally cry but hell that shit got me BAWLING 😭😭😭 how dare youuuu and then it went into A HNADJOB IN THE CAR AHAHDJDNSJDN it completely destroyed me .. “you look pretty when you cum” ajskdkdkc I SAID THIS EXACT LIJE TO SOMEONE A FEE MONTHS AGO (omg I think I told you about this sort of!! your car sex scene inspired it) AND I SAID THIS AND OMFG I WAS REMINDED OF THAT AND I LOVE IT LEVI GETTING SO FLUSTERED BUT CALLING HER BEAUTIFUL AT THE SAME TIKE !!!!! i breathed that in like fucking oxygen ley omfg

AND THEN THE ASS EATING AGAHAHXJSJJSJS you can officially find me grave somewhere in texas cause I fucking died at that part !!!! I don’t even have the right words to describe what I felt but I felt something and it was amazing

please always indulge in the smut if you see fit, it’s always perfect when you write it and I can never get enough of it (I still go back to the car sex every now and then cause that shit was the hottes thing I’d ever read and now I have this chapter to go back to as well!!!) chapter 15 and 18 are my holy chapters (oh the irony) and I will always go back and read them cause fuuuccckkkkkkkdhajshd they’re so good!!

I literally can’t engish rn cause I’m so overwhelmed with emotions over this and your writing once again and me finally having a job and today has just been a good fucking day!!! I’m so happy today happened and I’m so happy you exist and you share your writing with us all!! <333

(and not to be creepy, but uhhh, I wanna make you a painting of sorts inspired by paychecks levi and possibly mail it to you one day (maybe, possibly! (I will!!)))

omg its vbeen so long since you sent this im so sorry djkhsgjk

im SORRY I MADE U CRY if it makes u feel better i was a mESS writing the scene with his mom. gJHGKJSFG i remember you telling me a bit about it HAHA i m glad you enjyoed it :)

ahh im glad the smut is appreciated ;; i kinda felt silly adding it after i said i wouldnt but….idk im winging a lot of the story atp djskghsjkgh like i have things planned but also some things i just get an instinct to add the last minute lmao AAA im rlyh happy u put 18 on the same level as 15 :') sometimes i worry i wont write anything as good as the smut in that chapter sobs

BUT ALSO CONGRATS ON THE JOB!!! ik this is late but IM STILL EXCITED FOR YOU!! and i hope its going well so far!! (ik you mentioned you're sick but hopefulyl they showed you some mercy dmsfhshjkfd)

ALSO ALSO. NOT CREEPY AT ALL WTFSDFSDHFKJSH i qwould actually cry very happy tears if you ever decided to do that just know i wouldnt be creeped out in the slightest gjkhdfsgjkh THANK YOU SM FOR READING AS ALWAYS ALEX i love u and your very thoughtful and thorough input/reactions to the chapters ;;;;;;; <333333