#Life™️ just happens sometimes u know??

[valentine-writes]

ur writing is super good!! sorry if i’m piling on with this, but any angst with miguel? i need this man put in a blender

if you need to be mean

「 tws + notes: vv possibly ooc, unedited, spider-person reader, unhealthy dynamic, assorted angst, hurt/comfort ending, reader is cold, miguel doesn't know how to deal with emotions, everyone is a wreck but they're all trying so hard :( </3 」

「 gn!reader, man idek if this is platonic or romantic tbh y'all r just messy here 」

↳ ft. miguel o'hara/spider-man 2099

author's note: THANK U SM!! and i got u!!! i am. so excited 2 practice more for him– anon please don't be upset w/ me,, but,,, (´∩｀。),,, i physically don't think i can write Pure Angst. i wud b no good at it!! :p so! hurt/comfort in the end ๐·°(৹˃̵﹏˂̵৹)°·๐ i CANT JUS,, END IT SAD,, </3 i am so so sorry!! also so so real putting him in tha blender at the Highest Speed ever,,, he iz my milk webkin fr (lovingly) (kinda) some real quick stuff: this was gonna b short but i Overdid It and im still unsure whether i like it or not. and also. i was supposed to have the reader being mildly Messed Up™️ too cuz "hehehehe letz make this more difficult >:))" (also becuz miguel is NOT the only one allowed to have issues + too many angsts i have read where reader jus takes what miguel dishes out passively and i didn't want that) BUT I ENDED UP MAKING IT WORSE AJDHDQWHJE,,, hopefully this is. angst galore. again i am not great w this <( _ _ )> <//3

▸ maintaining a healthy relationship with miguel– in any form– proves to be difficult.

this is especially prevalent in the beginning stages of your developing relationship. you begin to learn that he is terrible with verbally expressing any affection he feels towards you. some days he seems almost so completely distant that there’s valid reason to worry that he just doesn't care about you anymore.

these worries are the furthest thing from the truth– miguel hasn't cared about someone to this extent in a while. still, he finds himself lacking, completely unable to tell you how much you mean to him.

▸ sometimes he grows fearful that he's become too attached to you. he aware he's in too deep at this point, yet conflict rages on in his mind: whether it's better to hold on as tight as he can to keep you in his life, or let you go before something rips you away from him.

part of him is worried it's only a matter of time before something happens.

these thoughts are usually quelled by drowning himself in tasks and missions, using his focus on work as a means of distraction.

when there's nothing left to shut them out, he chooses to avoid you instead of seeking reassurance.

there are times when you don't see him for days straight. he doesn't send you on any missions, doesn't contact you, actively avoids you when you're inside of the HQ– and when you eventually see him again, he avoids speaking of it. you both understand you're meant to pretend like nothing happened.

you're not beyond doing the same to him. miguel is distraught with how similar you two can be, how you reflect him and he reflects you in unique and awful ways– ways that only the two of you can understand.

▸ whenever you choose to be the one to spontaneously ditch, however,,, there are moments where he gets desperate and ends with him seeking you out,, usually by assigning you a mission just so you have a reason to come back

no matter who leaves– whether it's you or miguel– you both end up taking each other back in the end, half-heartedly reaching the unspoken agreement that this is the way you two “reconcile.” you grow accustomed to this back and forth.

you're both wonder who this is hurting more.

▸ never wants to be seen as clingy or needy. wants to convince himself he can make it on his own, that things are somehow better that way. miguel feels a deep frustration in the fact that he can't seem to process his emotions in a proper manner.

he seeks solace in solitude, even if it never fully works. he's willing to settle with feeling "okay" instead of "better." (self isolation moment.)

asking for help on missions is one thing. asking for personal help is another, which means that offering him support on his bad days is always a hit or miss.

most of the time, if someone chooses to extend their hand to him, it's typical that he swats it away and insists he doesn't need anything. he doesn't accept help easily– even when it's from you.

▸ there's always the off chance he lets you stick around. he's silent as you find a place for the two of you to sit down. once he’s comfortable, he leans against your side.

the quiet in the room isn't tense. it isn't scary. you know he just doesn't want to talk about what’s bothering him often. he can't even verbalize how much you mean to him– how is he meant to explain any of his other emotions to you?

"it's okay." you whisper, breaking the silence in the room. "just... take your time."

even though your words are as soft you can manage, it feels like you're yelling in contrast to his complete wordless state. you glance over at him. miguel doesn't meet your gaze.

"i'll be here for you," his expression softens ever so slightly at your words as you reassure him, "i promise."

he only mutters one word in response: "don't."

▸ (next headcanon based off of this art from instagram. slide two specifically.)

you can still remember the first time he ever cried in front of you. it's been a vivid memory in your head ever since it happened– not because of why it happened– but because of how it happened.

"you haven't been around for days, miguel." it's been almost more than a week since you've last seen him. this time, you sought him out– not to bring him back into your life, but to confront him one last time. after deliberating for longer than you cared to mention, you finally decided you were going to make things right or get out of his life for good.

and there he is, standing on his platform. it's lowered to the ground, the orange holographic screens surrounding him empty, displaying nothing. they emit a soft glow in the dark of the room.

"tell me what's wrong." you demand. the tone in your voice is unfamiliar to him. you're not making any effort to conceal how thin your patience has been wearing.

his back is turned to you. he doesn't say a word until you approach the lowered platform he stands on.

"go away."

"what? like you've been doing this entire time?" you retort.

"go away." he repeats more forcefully. his anger doesn't scare you away. nothing ever does.

you stare at him unflinchingly. "not until you tell me what's wrong."

miguel knows you're going to stand firm. you're going to stay until he tells you. as he lifts his head, glancing over his shoulder to speak to you, you brace yourself– you wait for him to yell. to lash out. anything.

he just looked at you. his eyes, stinging with tears, meeting your stare.

you don't remember what was hurting him that day. you can't recall what made him breakdown in front of you. no, this is the part you remember.

miguel's large frame looks so much smaller as he attempts to shrink himself, as if trying to hide from you. he averts his gaze, trying to blink back the tears and fails horribly.

he has nothing left to do. miguel hides his face in his hand, even if it’s only the two of you in the room. he’s humiliated– completely ashamed– that he can’t seem to stop his crying. for a moment, you’re frozen, unsure of what to do.

it's a drastic change from how you know him. standing in front of you, miguel seems more like an inconsolable child, rather than the detached and icy person most knew him as.

"don't look at me." those are the only audible words miguel manages to choke out between stifled sobs. he cries like a little boy.

and you hate it. you hate how hard he makes it hard to stay angry at him. you hate that no matter what you do, you can't stay away.

the tension in your body dissolves slowly, jaw unclenching as you sigh to yourself. you’re caving already.

it takes you a moment, but you know you can't leave him like this.

slowly approaching him, you quietly wrap your arms around him from behind, gentle enough for him to pull away from your touch if he didn't want it. he doesn't protest. you swear you can feel him subconsciously lean in.

"it's okay," you mutter, "i got you."

▸ miguel makes sure to talk to you the next day after you comforted him. to your surprise, it wasn't to tell you to keep that moment between the two of you– he knew you well enough to know you wouldn't say a word.

he was there to say thank you. simple and plain as that. he thanked you for sticking around. thanked you for being there even though he constantly pushed you away.

and you couldn't find the energy to respond. horribly disheartening to miguel, considering this is the most effort he had put in to communicate with you– but understandable. he didn't push you any further.

as awful as it felt to know, you didn't want a thank you. you didn't need his gratitude for your stubbornness.

it was much too late for a thank you to resolve the days he left you without a word, only to return expecting everything to be the same. it was much too late for a thank you to make you feel better about the fact you ended up comforting him even after everything. those words couldn't fix anything.

you wanted a goddamn apology.

▸ it's been almost three weeks since you'd last been seen around the spider society hq.

nobody seemed to be aware of the reason for your sudden disappearance. miguel was worried sick.

his temper is shorter, his patience is waning, and he’s willing to snap if anyone even mildly irritates him. it’s an unpleasant experience for everyone.

he'd tried to find you by tracking your watch, which proved to be useless. you were too clever for that– you'd made yourself undetectable, somehow disabling or destroying it before you left. miguel could’ve hunted you down, searching every place in the multiverse to find you again, once more to see you. but he didn't have to. the moment he had decided to start the search, your watch went active again, allowing him to locate where you were. like you were beckoning him over.

he didn’t hesitate to meet you there, stepping through a portal to get to you. notably, you weren’t in your own universe– but he wasn’t going to scold you for that. not now.

there you were. it was almost dream-like to him, seeing you sitting in the grassy fields in the middle of nowhere, the outline of your frame illuminated by the moonlight. the night air was filled with tension, as you sensed him approach from behind and quietly sit beside you.

he’s the one to break the silence. your name slips from his lips, as he’s about to speak up–

"hey." you greeted flatly, cutting him off. you glance at him with a weak smile, chuckling dryly. "so... you need something?"

"...no." miguel glanced around at the unfamiliar setting. just before he can get anything out, you part your lips to speak again, looking up at the dark sky, glittering above the two of you.

“i forget that new york doesn’t have the best view of the stars.” you murmur. “light pollution and all that shit… so y’know,, this is nice. i missed this type of view.”

he nods in agreement, though the small talk about the stars isn’t what he wanted from you.

you continue with your little ramble, seemingly just saying whatever came to mind. “speaking of cities– how’s your corner of the multiverse been? has nueva york been fine? feels like forever since i’ve been there.”

miguel tries not to be distracted by your casual conversation or your obvious allusions to your absence. he sees the way your shoulders are held tense, the way your gaze flits over at him expectantly– miguel knows you’re just waiting for him to talk about it, anticipating what he’s oing to say next.

"i– look–” he takes in a breath, finding the words he had been planning to say all this time. “i know. i know i messed up, and i messed up a lot. …i just came here to tell you i'm sorry. for everything."

there’s a momentary lapse of silence between the two of you. the tension is immeasurable as he watches you shift your sitting position, facing him entirely.

"you should be. asshole."

miguel sighs. “i… really should’ve expected that.”

“you know, migs? i tried so hard to just leave you alone.” the previous confidence in your voice wavers. there’s no bitterness in your words, no malice. he hears it in your tone: you’re just worn down, utterly emotionally exhausted.

he hears a sniffle, causing him to turn his full attention to you. the tears glisten as they fall from your eyes and drip down your cheeks. you make no attempt to shy away.

“what are we gonna do now?” you ask, looking over at him. your voice is faint. small. “i can’t let you go– and for fuck’s sake, you won’t even let me– so… what now?”

“i… don’t know.” he confesses. his hand makes his way to yours, placed atop it. his other wipes your tears away, trembling as he touches your cheek with all the tenderness there is, like he’s afraid he might hurt you. he whispers your name again, and it is the sweetest sound you’ve heard in a while.

miguel usually thinks he’s no good at comforting others. but in this moment, you would’ve never known that. he doesn’t hesitate to pull you into an embrace, holding you in his arms like you’re the most precious thing in the world. he’s not leaving you to suffer alone. he’s not leaving you like that ever again.

“you don’t have to forgive me.” he whispers to you. miguel knows he can’t repair all the damage he’s done. he knows you might never be able to look at him the same. And for once, he’s fine with that. he just needs to know you’ll be okay. “...just, please. let me do this for you.”

[columbiastapshoes]

more general headcanons. take them in addition to my other ones.

my last headcanon post got a decent amount of attention so i thought i’d do it again :3 my brain is like. a factory that is constantly producing headcanons from machines it’s how i function

anyways most of these r about magenta because i’ve just been in a very magenta mood recently she’s so silly (i’m going feral why is she so PRETTY)

- brad played with dolls as a kid but his parents took them away when he got “too old” for it to be some cute quirk because a Man has to play with Trucks like a Man anyways he did play with Trucks like a Man but he never forgot how to do their hair so even now he can french braid the shit out of people’s hair, especially magentas hair because the dolls he had also had big poofy hair like hers so he’s used to that. however columbia is typically magentas french braiding person so when she saw her gf getting her hair braided by another man she was like “HOW DARE YOU WE ARE OVER” (as a joke obviously don’t fret)

- magenta can do the splits. idk. i just get that vibe and i’m right about everything soooooo /j

- columbia cannot maintain eye contact and magenta STARES and forgets to blink or look away so every time they talk it’s just

“👁️👁️”

“STOP”

- this is such a specific scenario but if they are shopping and come across a pillow they want to buy they give it the columbia test. what is the columbia test you might ask? they just get columbia to scream all of her pain and trauma into the pillow, and if the sound is muffled enough it is deemed worthy to purchase

- magenta just. brings random animals into the castle. and i’m not talking about “aww she like adopts cats a lot :3” no this bitch has brought in Raccoons from the Backyard and riff raff who is a paranoid ass mf is like “THAT THING HAS RABIES” and magentas like “LISTEN. HER NAME IS BEELZEBUB AND YOU WILL TREAT HER WITH RESPECT”

- why are all of these about magenta help

- speaking of magenta :3 she is a huge wes anderson fan and she and columbia watched isle of dogs together for a lil movie date and columbia sobbed during most of it 👍 she liked it though

-can we all agree that frank just. knows how to vogue. like bro came out of the womb knowing how to do that shit and it stuck with him for the rest of his life

-so i spent a really long time being stumped on how i think columbia would dress. like i have everyone else’s style figured out but i just couldn’t figure out hers for some reason,,,,, until i went down a rabbit hole and discovered cyndi lauper. i mean obviously i had listened to girls just wanna have fun and time after time but i has never actually seen this absolute icon. anyways i discovered her and her style during theater class one day and from then on i knew that columbia dresses like cyndi lauper, columbia listens to cyndi lauper, COLUMBIA IS CYNDI LAUPER

-ok so canonically i dont think this would happen but in my own version of rocky horror that exists in my brain magenta and brad are bffs. like yk those videos u see of “unlikely animal friendships” that is literally just them. it’s like goth gf x Some Guy™️ (x used platonically)

-brad is a die hard swiftie. i won’t elaborate.

-magenta loves loves LOVES abba

-sometimes i forget columbia isn’t canonically a theater kid. cuz like. she just Is a theater kid yk that’s who she is

- she would love grease

i will probably make another one of these posts when my list becomes longer again ‼️‼️

p.s i have. two rocky horror aus. would anyone like me to post about them. because i can. i am so normal about . aus

[starjxsung]

hi my angel! it’s so nice to hear from you again! i’ve missed you so much🫶🏻

a month kinda feels like forever sometimes, right? i’ve seen many stars and star shaped things and i’ve been thinking about your every time <3 and hoping that you’re doing well.

i’m so excited for the kitten video. i’m honored that you thought of me bc cat lady™️ is my brand! skz with kittens may just heal my life.

im picking up my wristbands for lolla at will call bc shipping was like $80😪 buuuut its beginning to feel so real for me too, it’s crazy. im really really nervous and excited. and im so excited for your ateez concerts too!! (pls send me some good yeosang/san pics pls i beg u). my bf got me two ateez albums for our anniversary but they still haven’t gotten here😪😪

ahhh for kdrama recs i’ve watched the tale of the nine tailed (because im in love with lee dongwook, it can be a lil bit too long sometimes though), it’s okay not to be okay and my demon! and i’ve enjoyed them, especially the last two! now im watching an anime named Nana (my sapphic dream💔)

im so sorry to hear the kitten story💔 it’s always so sad when they pass away, especially when it happens in your care😪 thank you for always helping the kitties out 💜 another cat gave birth at my grandma’s house and the kittens were very sick, only one of them survived and has an upper respiratory infection. but we’ve been treating it as best as possible. one of the older kittens stopped using his back legs and is currently at the vet receiving treatment to see if it’s any neurological disease or something. and im so so so sad about that too </3

as for the comprehensive exams, i barely studied because i have, what i suspect to be, ✨undiagnosed adhd✨ i passed one of them but the other one (which is a really stupid test in itself tbh. everyone was really pissed at that one bc it doesn’t really evaluate anything) was a hard fail😂 im not too stressed because i have a shot during next semester to pass it.

i,once again, am so glad to have heard from you <3 thank you (and momo, what a cute pic!!) for always rooting for me! my kitties and i are always rooting for you as well🫶🏻 i send you so much love from the middle of nowhere to the middle of nowhere. i hope you’re taking care of yourself too and taking time to do what you love at your pace🫶🏻

i love you bb! im here for you💘

-🐈‍⬛

STOP OMG I think of you all the time when I see anything cat related these days 😭 the love extends from me to you and back again like ten times over. I love you so so much

counting down the minutes until skz x kittens video. Jisung with kittens is going to heal me spiritually I just know it (though based on the teasers those kittens dgaf about any of them LMFOSODJFKFKDJ)

I cannot believe Lolla is so close like I swear we bought tickets yesterday??? And tour is going to be announced any day now im genuinely tweaking I need them to stay away until I save more money 😭😭 also I PROMISEEE to get the best Yeosang/San pics I am physically able to. I love you so much in my head we r going to every concert together and we have barricade seats.

Ahhhh I will totally check out your recs!!! I’ve heard so many good things about Nana and I bought a Nana keychain the other day despite not watching the show literally just bc it was so darn cute. Once I have my purse again I’ll post a good pic of it and if you like it I can buy you one & mail it to you !!! There’s a little boutique near my apartment that makes & sells them and they’re so cute you’d LOVE them

I’m so sad to hear about all the kitties :(( Momo had a respiratory infection when I found her and it was so sad watching her sneeze every 2 seconds and administering so many meds to her ☹️ I hope the RI goes away quickly and I hope the kitty with leg problems gets well and that it’s not a neurological issue, that’s so tough 💔☹️ thank you for always taking such good care of them, you’re such an angel 🫶💞

HEY you passed one exam though!!!!! That’s so major!!!!!!! You should be so proud of yourself my angel!!!!!!! Sending you all my love and I’m sure you can nail the other one on the second go around. Sometimes you just need a second try and that’s perfectly okay. You did your fucking best and that’s reason enough to celebrate ❤️💫

I love you so so much and I’m so glad to hear from you too my love. I get through my worst days remembering that people like you exist and I hope you’re taking the best care of yourself possible. precious cargo 🫶💫❤️💘💝 I love you !!!!!!!!! Pic of me and Momo (real):

[mariska]

hello world i am awake and have my first dose of daily medications in my system and thus have a lil bit of energy at the moment to just Type My Thoughts Out Into The Void On Here. so here is my non internet/social media life update for all of u today:

later in the day i am finally gonna be able to meet/hang out with one of my longest exclusively internet-based friends of mine after a little under 10 years of us being friends!! im so happy + excited for it but i still have some chores and last minute cleaning stuff i gotta do before he gets here, hopefully waking up a lot earlier than i usually do will give me whatever time i need to finish my part of the household preparations 😅 but yeah!!! he's a mutual friend of both me and Eli (obviously, would not otherwise just be like. hey Eli this person u dont know or hypothetically arent friends with actively is also staying at the house while ur here get used to it HFSGSHSCGSF) and we've been trying to put together some kind of non-internet hangout trip for years and it just didnt work out until this time around.

right before the first global shutdown covid wave back in early 2020 the three of us had been trying to plan a May hangout together that we called "superbirthday" (cus my birthday is may 6 and my friend Jon's, person who is coming here 2day, has a may 26 birthday, so the 20 days in between both our birthdays is 'superbirthday' celebration time 😌✌️) so im like. beyond excited that we've all actually been able to make it happen for real this time!!

i've met up irl now with quite a few of my good friends who were people i originally met online in some way but it's still so surreal in a happy way whenever that happens again. me and Jon originally became friends through the Gmod server "Gmod Towers" (which doesnt even exist anymore it has its own separate game that both me and Jon actually contributed to the fundraising campaign for the devs to develop yrs ago) in like. fall of 2014, if u never played on it back then, it was a really chill fun virtual hangout server world kinda similar to like....imvu/second life, that kinda thing, but on a much smaller scale than either of those and with most playable characters taken from like, the general Gmod Valve Game Character Model List. it was styled like a resort type hotel with different areas of the map having different activities u could do with friends or anyone else around, there was a mini games section and a big hotel lobby where a lot of people just sat in groups and talked with their mic headsets and a hotel room area that saved whatever interior decor u set up in ur room, u could watch youtube vids on a virtual tv and throw parties for the server to come join and be goofy at....Good Times.

ANYWAYS all of that to say, as awful as the general internet experience can be like all the time forever especially in more modern yrs, im really grateful that in my life i've been able to make such meaningful connections and friendships with people online, sometimes in niche lil corners of the internet with dedicated fan followings like Gmod Tower!! i say it irl all the time to ppl but the internet truly Was Not One Big Mistake despite the increasing chaos of the whole big picture concept, being someone who is disabled and had to drop out of school at 14 to quite literally keep myself alive and keep my body/brain from totally failing on me, i genuinely don't think i would have many friends if any at all if i hadn't been able to connect with people online, especially with my Agoraphobia making it very difficult to like. put myself out there in the world.

....yeah! so. thats what i am up to currently. and yes we WILL all be playing Kirby Air Ride for the Gamecube on my Pink Disney Princess TV as a Superbirthday™️ activity. for ur information.

[prettyboykatsuki]

thank you for that virginity post. i objectively know theres no reason to rush but we live in a society ™️ w/ stuff like the general madonna/whore complex and idk untrustworthy individuals who see sex as a way to judge and categorize power (like bodycounts) desirability and worth while prioritising sensation over safety scare me a bit. i overthink a lot in general but especially in relation to being a virgin so ty for the reminder needed to hear it today.

its def a complicated situation!! but in general i think it's easy to get swept up in the feeling of running out of time even when u know u dont subscribe to that kind of thing. it happens to me all the time in other aspects of my life just subconsciously so sometimes little reminders are necessary

virginity is virginity. it might not be very meaningful to you, or it might be really important. but in both cases there's no need to rush it. it's not the end of the world if you lose it in a way you regret but you also don't have to agonize about losing it to the right one. as long as you do the best u can when the time comes, it'll be okay

[queenofbaws]

so i have a Question for u about fuck no the movie (are we surprised im still bangin on about it??) that u may have already mentioned at some point?? but i dont remember ANYWAY does josh still have Remnants of monster-y stuff goin on despite his like... exorcism as it were?? ie, eye shine in the dark, eating raw meat straight out of the fridge at 3am, etc etc

oh i am always happy to sit around twirling my hair and kicking my legs up and rambling about fuck no the movie, are you KIDDING ME????? heheheehehuheuheuhehehue

(moved under the cut for, you guessed it, AN ABUNDANCE OF WORDS!!!)

so the supremely unsatisfying answer for this is, in my head it's sort of a yes-and-no situation. mostly because i do not know the mechanisms that would be involved in curing/healing josh, as that's one big ol' part of the au i just. picture to be a scribbly, wiggly, ever-moving blob of question marks aklsdjfaklsjdfkljsf BUT!!! i do imagine there are three Very Specific holdovers once he's out of the hospital and living A Normal Human Life™️

not out-and-out eyeshine (god i fuckin love eyeshine tho asdkfjlsakdjf) but there's a noticeable "twinkle" in his left eye the way you see sometimes in people who've had cataract surgery. there's just a sliiiiiiiiiiight difference in how it catches the light compared to his right eye, making it almost seem to...ughhhhh, i don't know how to fucking describe it, i just know how i see it in my HEAD!!! after cataract surgery, sometimes people get what i think are called "glimmers," where light reflects more off the lens of your eye than it did before the procedure. essentially it just makes it look a little shinier/glimmer...i...er...and that's what i imagine for josh. not a full spotlight, just a precious anime twinkle, pfffft

his reflexes. are. terrifying. it's not a conscious thing, and he really can't move that quickly if he's trying to, but if a door slams or there's a loud noise that might make someone else jump, he reacts to it/turns towards it eerily fast.

..................okay he doesn't eat raw meat out of the fridge all the time, but it has happened. on more than one occasion. problem with that, of course, is the human body really isn't meant to do that, so it does make him pretty ill whenever that particular impulse wins out. he does, however, become that guy who orders everything at restaurants cooked rare or even blue rare

totally fixes his fucked-up sleep schedule though, so like, go figure ;P hahahhahahhahaaa

[andiwriteordie]

Oh my god holllyyyyy shiiittttt every single thing I read about the atla st au is so incredibly big brained. The way will starts to hate his bending after being kidnapped? The way each member of the party feels abt their bending? Ohhhh my god there's so much potential owth this au. Begging u to ramble abt smth on this au, I'm too tired rn to present any ideas but dear god is this so good

HI HELLO!

god i also freaking love this au. it's consuming my brain which isn't fair bc i have too much to do but it's just so so fun and i love it with my whole heart. you giving me free reign to ramble is Very Dangerous™️ because i have all the thoughts, and sometimes i start talking and then don't stop.

i'm gonna talk about max i think because i just love max with my whole heart. listen. max mayfield has such firebender vibes, right? we all know she and mike have similar (but not entirely the same) personalities, so mike and max having the same element would make a lot of sense in my mind. but (partly for me wanting to diversify the party originally, then me adding some more substance to it), i made her an earthbender, since i also think she has earthbender vibes.

so what if we get the best of both worlds?

what if max is like mako and bolin from LoK? her mom's side of the family comes from the fire nation, whereas her dad comes from the earth kingdom. then we have max who is incredibly hotheaded and stubborn and prone to tantrums as a kid—who seems like she should be fire—end up being an earthbender.

and like, alright. when she's young? she doesn't mind too much. her dad starts to teach her how to earthbend, and she likes it well enough. it doesn't quite feel like her though, and max struggles to make it her own. but she keeps going, because she's max mayfield. she doesn't give up.

then her dad leaves.

and suddenly, max is left with a mom she feels distant from, who is very similar in nature to her, but who she never has really been able to connect with. and then suddenly, her mom is marrying another firebender with a son who isn't just a firebender but who's also just awful to her. in a home full of firebenders, suddenly, max feels like the black sheep, and she finds herself longing to find the steadiness and stability and comfort that she didn't even realize her earthbending lessons with her dad gave her.

it's hard for her to learn earthbending after he leaves. her mom and step-dad can't afford to pay for lessons, so max is self-taught. she's an okay bender, and she does enjoy it more now, but it's also tinged with the pain of knowing she's never quite felt like she's belonged anywhere. she's an earthbender, who is supposed to be strong and steady and be able to withstand anything that comes her way. so why does max feel so unmoored?

she moves to hawkins eventually, and it's tough at first. because somehow, max stumbles into the worst (the best) friend group at school. it's a friend group of kids who aren't very good at their bending either, so that's nice at least. they won't make fun of max's sloppy technique or her self-taught earthbending. but they're hiding something, and once again, it feels like max is the outsider here. she's never going to belong, isn't she? is this what it means to be an earthbender? to just learn to suck it up? to take what life throws at you? to get weathered and worn down time and time again and simply be unable to do anything about it?

but god, then things change, and max gets pulled into this crazy adventure and the chaos that her new friends have been hiding. she finds her place in their group, she learns all their secrets, and she realizes something—that they, just like her, feel unmoored. unsteady. their world has changed so drastically in the past year—ever since will was kidnapped and they stumbled into el, the avatar. life has been wearing them down more and more, knocking them down time and time again, and it's happening faster than they can keep up with.

so max brings a stability into the group. her personality is a steadiness and a comfort, even in spite of the fact that she's the newest party member. she's resilient and strong, and she's a protector. yes, the world is going to keep trying to push them down. but the earth is strong and unwilling to budge, and the earth won't so easily be changed. in a time when things are changing for the party and where things are continuing to escalate and when the party isn't quite sure how to rebuild in the aftermath of their traumas, max gets to be the support, the foundation for the new lives they're all rebuilding together.

and when the time comes—and suddenly, it's max whose life feels broken beyond repair? when max feels like she doesn't know who she is anymore, when she's weighed down by her own guilt and anger and trauma? when she gets hurt by the same man who hurt will all the years ago and she loses her sight and doesn't quite know where to go from there?

then, it's those same friends—like lucas and el—who get to be her foundation to rebuild and who get to remind her that the earth is so, so strong and so enduring. max is so strong and so enduring. and nothing is going to stop her from getting back up again and standing steady and firm.

[roxyandelsewhere]

hi hello!

i saw the tags you put in the post abt small Earth-centric moments that u reblogged from me. you must have seen my tags abt mice! thank u for reading those, i find small enjoyment in the fact that some people seem to read my lil brain rambles.

i then found a pdf of john berger’s why look at animals online and read it. dude…. Dude……. that’s some impactful stuff. thank you so much for bringing that to my life. my god, it will be stamped on my brain forever. (also, knowing that Descartes was part of that separating humans from animals gives me one more reason to add to the pile in my brain labeled “reasons why i’d like to time travel and kick Descartes squarely in the balls”)

here’s an extra lil thought morsel: i went to college in the US for a total of three years (during which i transferred twice for a total of three universities) before quitting mid-pandemic to work full time. i never figured out what i wanted to “do” with my life (ie: which job i would actually like to do forever). i worked in the food industry, the veterinary industry, and commercial retail™️ for two and a half years following that. and then… i snapped. thankfully, through some crazy random stroke of cosmic luck, i also found my partner on a dating app during that period who will probably be with me for life. through him, i had the financial support to just *quit.* i walked out of my commercial retail job sobbing with a limp from a still-not-healed ankle that i sprained at that job two months prior, feeling stunned but 20x lighter.

I now work part time for a lovely small business in my city that’s owned by a woman who is very mental-health conscious and works with me to keep me “okay” and now— ONLY now— have i started to realize how damaging capitalism and “”the grind”” lifestyle were to my spirit and body. i still have to wrap that damaged ankle and rest it a lot. but now i sit outside for hours at a time and try to remember what it feels like to be part of something. and every time i’m in traffic or in a big-box retail store and i see the weariness and irritability of people around me i remind myself of the spirits in them and lives they live outside me. when you spend every hour of your waking day working in (usually pointless) hope that maybe you’ll have enough money this week to stow some away after your rent and bills and food and soap that you need to survive that month so that you can maybe stop doing this and rest, it’s not just animals and native vegetation that fade to noise in the background. it’s everyone else but you.

i’m incredibly grateful that i have the privilege to slow down now. i highly recommend, if you are able to do this, to find time in the day when the sun is still out to sit outdoors and watch. eventually, animals start scurrying around after they realize you’re not going to move around in their habitats and hunting grounds— even in the limited grassy spaces of the decrepit apartment complex i could afford, this is true. sometimes a stray cat even prowls out! and internet individual, lemme tell you, there are few better feelings than locking eyes with a scraggly cat and knowing it’s your equal in ways neither of you will ever really understand, and knowing it will walk past you and into the brush to have things happen to it, to encounter perhaps more people and animals that day. maybe it’ll bump into the same pair of doves who come to peck at the sunflower seeds you leave out on your balcony (i sure hope not. they seem like nice doves). maybe it’ll even find a sun spot that’s safe enough to bask in for a bit and take a nice nap.

i don’t know if i really have a point here beyond an attempt to reach out and know i’m sharing that feeling of crying over the horrors of mouse traps. because sometimes, you tell another person how you spontaneously cried over mousetraps— over the feeling of being scared, of just wanting food for that day or maybe bringing home something to your family who are so hungry too— and finding yourself trapped in a box or hurt or *much* worse. sometimes you tell a person about this and how much pain it brings to you that we as humans just DO that to mice, thoughtlessly, all the time, and they scoff. to them they’re just mice and the separation is never bridged.

this was real sappy. i’m a real sap. hopefully, you appreciate sappiness. if not you can delete this. I hope you’re doing alright either way.

sincerely,

abs

hello. this is such a beautiful message, thank you for taking the time to send it <33 I'm so glad to hear you did read Why look at animals? and that you liked it, and honestly when I read the rest of this part of me was thinking "hell yeah that's the john berger effect". I'm so happy to hear you're in a better place in your life now and you're so right. capitalism is a prison and in some way or another we all have to live in it [that one ursula k le guin quote playing in the distance] but The Grind is antithetical to what you could call human nature in the sense of observation and appreciation of the world around us and you realize so much about life once you look outside the very narrow idea of existence the grindset bubble provides. your message did have a point, you reached out and I'm reaching back and we're all here reaching for the same thing. it's sappy, yes, but sappiness is part of it <3 I hope you're having a good day today

[mithliya]

Hi. I just have a little concern and I don't who to tell. How can I deal with the thought that I'm inferior to men? It's obviously not real, but you know growing up female etc etc makes you feel that way. I know we're of equal capacity but I just can't shake off this feeling inside of me, of deep incompetence everytime I'm near a man. I have issues overall recognizing my achievements and thinking that I am less than everyone else, but it seems to be more obvious when I'm near a man, or I tend to feel worse when I'm comparing myself to men, which I know is stupid because they're in no way superior to me or my sex, but I can't help it, it's like an unconscious thought and feeling. How could one deal with this?

Especially in school, I try to be the Top Student™️ but everytime a boy gets a higher grade or smth i think of the fact that I'm a girl, or that this wouldn't have happened if I was a boy, and that by failing I'm disgracing every girl and woman on the planet. And, again, I know that's not logical thinking, but that's what my brain circles back to.

tbh this sounds like an outcome of minority stress. people of all sorts of minority groups will often perform worse when in the presence of the majority and even if not in the presence will sometimes perform worse than their best specifically bc they have internalised the prejudices commonly held against them. this is often reinforced by the fact that when they perform badly or not up to their standards, some may associate that w their minority status to their face. i cant think of one simple solution for this tho. youd have to really assess your thoughts, make note of them, and then try to change your way of thinking (iirc its called cognitive restructuring?) bc this is clearly a deeply-rooted pattern of thinking you've got. such an act is very difficult to do on ur own so i would recommend seeing a therapist to help u work through those feelings and address them. i know some ppl think therapy n therapists r only there for like if u have extreme mental health issues n stuff but they actually can also help with minor life stuff and self-improvement in general. also small things u can do is, when u achieve well make note of it and tell urself "see! my being a girl/woman has not gotten in the way of me achieving this. so me feeling inferior bc of my sex is not based in reality" everytime. that can also subtly combat those thoughts. but like dont do it in a way thats like degrading urself for feeling that way to begin with, instead use it to encourage urself n show urself that ur better than u think without shaming urself for thinking that way. idk if that helps at all but i hope it was able to provide some kind of help!!!!

[consistantly-changing]

[Image descriptions in order: a Reddit post on r/QAnonCasualties by u/JoParkerBear, titled "My mom has a new addiction". The post says "Interesting development: I introduced my mom to Wordle recently, almost against her will as she was far too busy watching conspiracy videos and chatting on telegram. Now she spends as much as 2 to 3 hours per day playing bootleg Wordle on another site that lets you play as much as you like. I'm not even joking.

Plus, she has to discuss Wordle issues with me multiple times per day, which has made her more social and less isolated. She's always texting me to brag on a score or express frustration. Sometimes she asks me to help her when she's stuck.

Anyway... Wordle ™️: share it with the QAnon cult member in your life💫"]

[Another Reddit post on r/QAnon Casualties, by u/mangodevito, titled "My QAunt was saved... By BTS?? (I shit you not)". The post says "I have made two posts on this sub in the past about my liberal left-wing QAunt who descended down the rabbit hole of Qlore from cabals who eat kids to democrats/Hollywood celebs trafficking people to Epstein island. One day, it all just... stopped. She stopped sharing Q stuff, stopped believing in it, started talking about liberal stuff again like it never happened. I was baffled. Did she have dementia? A stroke?

Today I found out the answer. It was BTS.

She started getting into Kpop as soon as Dynamite was released and dear lord, now she knows their names, their mom's names, their favorite food, etc. From what she told me, they inspired her to be a better person. They would make donations to BLM, rally for accessible mental health for all, and promote self-love and compassion. She is now an ARMY and I guess... That's that?

I'm not a big BTS fan, but if you're reading this and are BTS or a member of ARMY, thank you. Wtf. Thanks so much(?) What a plot twist. I'm gonna go lie down now."]

wordle and bts may seem like they have nothing in common but both have been cited by redditors as the reason why their elderly relative quit watching fox news and started acting normal again

[bini-style]

I AM SO GLAD TO FINALLY FIND MORE PPOP ENJOYERS HERE 😭 goodluck on ur tumblr journey! hope to see lots of posts from uuuuu 🩷 i have a question tho do u happen to be "bini-hisan" on twt? hahahahahah

Hey there! Just doing my part spreading the BINI agenda in this corner of the interwebs, trying to bury the porn posts under the #bini tag! 😅 I might be inactive sometimes because, you know, Life™️… but I’ll do my best! Check out my other blogs too @bini-ph and @fyeahbini (yeah i have three bini blogs, problem? lol).

And no, that’s not me, I’m only an occasional lurker on twt these days, I’m really mostly here on tumblr (it’s just less complicated here). Just checked that acct out, pretty cool! I guess I don’t have to update this blog much anymore :)

[max-the-mouse]

WOW OKAY ANOTHER WPISODE OF: "Experiencing Indoctrination/Thought Control for the majority of your life was Bad for you"

i do not feel like my mind is my own sometimes!!!! always beating away cult thoughts™️

having the fundmental beliefs of my brain put there by ppl that wanted me to be afraid of the world and not think for myself has DEFINITELY affected me

okay well if anyone is writing a cult survivor character for any purpose i think you could add a lot of flavor if u included this:

the constant battle between the thoughts programmed into their head vs. what they know is true. this becomes more difficult if the truth they are trying to combat the thoughts with is a more subjective thing or if it has to do with what the character wants.

also just generally struggling to know what they want, from simple things to what they want in life.

sometimes i wish i could rip my brain out of my head and throw it in a bath of URNEX urn and brewer cleaner (iykyk ;3)

i still cant fight away the sinking pit of unease when i do something that goes against my churches beliefs (smoking, anything gay, anything trans (yeah thats an everyday one), watching/reading media that would have been restricted from me, learning a lot of science etc.). it doesnt happen every time!!! but it does happen a lot. esp the more anxious i am about the situation in the first place!!!!

i have to desensitize my brain like its a fucking horse and im the girl running around the arena waving a blankie or w/e

[snowstark]

Hello!! I recently came across “wolves go for your heart” and I absolutely love it so far. I’ve read some of your other work and I can firmly say you’re one of the best writers on ao3!! I was wondering if you were planning on updating any time soon? If not it’s totally ok I was just curious :)

hiya! first, thank you so much for the kind words, you’re so sweet and i really appreciate it!!! 🥺 second, i do have almost all of the next chapter written, but i’ve been on a hiatus from writing and from this fandom for a while now, so i can’t guarantee that there’ll be updates any time soon. i’m really glad to hear you’re enjoying it though! :))

[myork]

manny's one year + milestone celebration ♡

i’ve never really been big on celebrating anything, even on my prev blog (jimeanour) i never really celebrated any milestones, even the big ones. so i feel like this has been due for a while <3 and i also realised that i completed one year on here from when i started posting my poetry to writing ff and leaving that altogether and settling for creating visual content. whatever it was that made me stay, im glad, because tumblr has become such a huge part of my everyday life. and despite how constantly engaging on a platform online makes me feel drained, stressed and anxious every once in a while, i’m still glad i have this outlet. and you♡ now here’s how i’ve decided to celebrate-

Here are my rules/ categories ♡

‧₊˚ ☆ enter request here 💌 ☆‧₊˚

now for the mutual(s) appreciation ♡ if you’re tagged, there’s a message for you! happy scrolling 🤡🤡these are things ive been wanting to say for a long time okay

@jimilter miss ashible i need to tell u how grateful i am for your support because you truly make me feel so comfortable and safe and appreciated. you’re such a gem and anyone who doesn’t believe it is LYIN!!!!!! truly one of the best people here ☹️💞ily so much thank you for being so annoying ☹️💗

@gukqi nhi i love you. thats it. thats the post. jokes aside im so grateful to have u as my internet husband you’re so talented and sweet and amazing and ilysm you’re so supportive and sometimes i just wanna run over to u to germany🥺💘 you’re truly one of my lifelines here and you make me want to open tumblr even when im discouraged to ☹️💗

@jeongcake tell i love you so much, you’re one of the best things thats ever happened to me and im so grateful to have u. we really do understand each other on a deeper scale and for that im grateful because i never have to hide from you ☹️💞from our jokes to our rare serious talks, im so happy to have u ily 🥺💞

@seokljin emma angel agenda. thats it. you’re literally like the most supportive person ive ever known how do u do it? how can all of that pixie fairy dust fit inside one angel of a human being? i feel like every time i post something esp jin related im like has emma seen this? and then i turn into a shy blushy school girl uwu. anyways if u haven’t translated it all yet- ily ☹️💗 and im so grateful for you.

@jeonqquk ivy my bby™️ you’re seriously such a whore gem ☹️💗ilysm and im so happy i have you. you’re part of my support system here and im so happy i can count on you. you’re really such a fun person. pls believe your gifs are amazing or ill punch u🥰 (dont u dare say kinky)

@joyfulhopelox maria my fav internet mother idk when you’ll see this but know that i love you and im always here for you 💗 thank you for always being there for me, youre truly such an angel. you’re so so amazing and rmr when i used to joke about you being not real? yeah, good times. sending lots of love to you and nugget and always hoping you’re okay💗💘

@usertae the bestest stella to ever exist 💀💀im kidding, i mean the sweetest, warmest, most welcoming person ever. ily celia you’re so nice and helpful and you were one of my first ever giffing mutuals even when i used to post complete trash💀idk what you saw then but just know that im grateful to have you as my mutual for so long and that you really raised in my standards in mutuals 💀🥺💗💘

@parkdatjimin MINDY BESTEST PERSON!! there, i said it 😤 ilysm and your tags JUST *squeals* *clenches fist* make my day ☹️you’re so supportive and im truly lucky to know you 💞💘💕💗

@still-with-koo lilo you call me a sweetheart when you're the biggest one there is ily☹️💖 you're so so sweet and warm and nice and just such a comfort person, im so glad we're mutuals ☹️💖💕

@itsallaboutzayn ESME SWEETEST PERSON AGENDA 😤im not even kidding, you’re so nice and supportive and i love all your asks, you always have so much love to give to people and i can only hope it’s returned tenfold because you deserve it 💕💘💕

@pjmsdior isa wifey i love you so much, you truly are one of the purest souls here and seeing u in my notifs or in my inbox makes so happy ☹️💗 ilyilyilyily

@dokyeomblr elv best elv favourite elv agenda!!!! you’re the nicest sweetest warmest person to exist and seeing u in my inbox or on my dash makes me light up like a christmas tree ☹️💗ily elvie

@jung-koook im so happy im finally getting the chance to say this, but i admire you so much sky. your dedication is commendable and everything you make is always in top tier quality and on top of all that you are so helpful and kind and i rmr getting a heart attack when you followed me 💀im so so grateful for all your help please know that💗💗

@taeyungie i know we just started talking but em, you’ve made me feel so warm and safe and i just, i feel like i could be myself with you. you’re so understanding and you love animals ☹️ the older grandma sister i didn’t know i needed, tho bullying you about it is more fun 🤡💗

@kimtaegis why so nice!!!!!!! hm?????? WHY 👏 SO 👏NICE????? jokes aside, i lurched off my bed when i saw the notification of a certain userkimtaegis-main following me one fine afternoon, and in true disney movie fashion, my life has never been the same. im just kidding ( or am i?🤨) but anyways annie you are so sO SO talented and everything you make is so pretty from coloring to quality everything. i admire you so so much and im so grateful to have you as a mutual 🥺💞💘

@marvelousbangtan sookies mom i hope i spelt that right😭 crystal ilysm your tags on my posts always make me so happy and your gifs are stunning and on top of all that youre so so so nice :(((((((((((💘💞💘im so happy we're mutuals :(

@gimbapchefs idk when you’ll see this 😭😭 nat *calls for a manhunt* but im so glad im mutuals with you ☹️you’re such a fun person, unproblematic person and i love interacting with you so much. im still so so grateful for the ptd in seoul stream, you gave me such an amazing opportunity and i’ll probably always be grateful for it and never ever forget it 💗i hope you’re doing well, hope to see you on my dash soon with your amazing gifs. imy ☹️💗

@jiminswn you’re really gonna make me repeat my giffing classes agenda huh 😔 jokes aside, miss alice im a fangirl. there i said it ☹️ you have the prettiest 16k ultra hd gifs and your colouring is gorgeous 😭😭ive been following u for so long, even before i started giffing and sometimes even now i wonder how u do it 🥺💗 any time i see u in my notifs, i get butterflies okay? ☹️💞

@min-boongie apart from being so pretty inside out *sobs* you're so nice reka and so so helpful. i meant what i said all those days ago, i look up to your content so much, your colouring is always so beautiful☹️💗💞💞💘

@heybaetae i was so scared to do this but miss kelli apart from your content that is prettiest in all the land with all the pretty colours and the highest quality sharpening, i feel like i actually screamed like a fangirl when you followed me back, more so when you rbed a set of mine with “#TALENT” yeah, im gonna get that laminated 😔

@rkivedfiles miss erl i love your gifs so much and your coloring is just so pretty and distinct i feel like i can recognise it from a mile away💗im so happy im mutuals with you :( you’re so nice and i still go back to look at that jimin set you made me ☹️💗

@hannahbee12719 miss hannah i think you’re literally nicest person ever😭 your tags make me feel so warm and appreciated and im so so grateful that im mutuals with you. i love and respect you so much 🥺☹️💗💘💕🥺

@hobeah flo ik you must be a little confused because we’ve interacted but also not too much but you HAVE to know how much i love your gifs. truly top tier content with the prettiest colouring and the quality just blows my mind even on the app 🥺💗

@userjiminie i had to tag you okay? i love love love your gifs so much miss rafa and you’re also so talented like esp your pinned post 😭 how do u do it☹️💗seeing your tags on my posts just makes my day okay? and you saying u like my content made me sob for 17 miniutes 😔🤧💕

@minieggukie apart from being the jikook™️ blog on here, miss kris i tagged u because i wanted you to know that you just have a very pretty coloring style okay? 🥺💕it just so soft and pretty and you even manage to gif lq videos so well 🤧 we don’t interact but pls know that i love your gifs so so much and i actually squealed when u followed me back *sniffs*

@sugajimin i tagged you because i wanted you to know that you have amazing gifs and your a-z with jimin is my fav thing on this hellsite 😭 and even your gfx are amazing!! you’re really so so talented, the quality of your gifs just makes me gasp sometimes, thank you for following me back 😭💞

@rosebowl miss sharika you just seem like a very cool person okay? your gifs are really really pretty and i just love looking at your 100days of seokjin series ☹️i hope you’ve been well 🤧💕

@kth1 miss maggie i know we don’t interact much but i needed u to know that i really really love your gifs <3 your coloring is vv pretty and your gifs are always in such high quality ☹️🥺💗

@sopev we’ve never interacted that much but miss daphne i tagged you to let you know that 1) idk how many times i’ve opened your blog to stare at your header 2) your gifs are stunning. stunning. period. they’re so colourful and so hq ☹️💕💘

@taechnological miss sae you’re just very cool okay? there i said it 😔 but apart from being so funny and cool i think you’re just a really great person to interact with and i absolutely love all your threads, your dedication is so so appreciated ☹️💗💕

@textsfrombangtan how does it feel to be the funniest, most iconic person on this hellsite? 😔 you have to know that i love your tags so much 🤧 and i sometimes stalk all your posts because your memes just make me really happy okay? ☹️ily hope you’re taking care of your (iconic) self 💗 or else 😤💪

@jinv my tag for you is coloring genius valeinstein💀 and rightfully so because miss val your coloring is truly something else, i got a bit dizzy when u started following me because ive been admiring you and your (amazing) content from afar for so long ☹️🥺💞💕

@cherryvmin kheer my darling, the absolute queen of moodboards i miss interacting with you but you have to know that i love your content so much and you’re really just so so nice and warm it melts my heart ☹️💗💘💕

@jiminie-and-his-pinky-finger nani my bb how are you 🥺💗i hope you’re doing okay. i tagged u to know that i love you and im so happy to be mutuals with you for so long 💗💘 anytime we interact, it fills me with so much warmth because you’re truly such a sweetheart ☹️💗

@jimijimimie pristine my darling imy okay? ily☹️💘 you’re so so talented and your tags on my posts just muah 💋 i hope you’ve been well, just know that im always here for you 💗💗

@tekootine val my baby i hope you’re okay ily so so much 💗☹️ you’re a total sweetheart whos so talented and im so happy whenever we interact because seeing you in my inbox brings the biggest smile on my face 💘💞 you’re just very precious okay? 🥺😭💕

@softbobamilktae zee i hope you know how much i appreciate you. we’ve been mutuals for quite a while now and i hope you know im so grateful for your support esp during that time in my dms 💗 you’re also so relatable in your tps omg 😳💞

@introlxv onyx bb we haven’t talked properly in so long but i just want to tell u that i love and appreciate you so much 💗☹️youre so fucking talented and amazing and im so happy i know you 💗💕💞pls never forget that 🥺💗

@moonsclover ahana my adopted bb ilysm and you're truly such a sweetheart i love love love your moodboards so much and anytime i see you in my inbox, it just brightens up my day by x323239💘💗💕

@fluffyydumplings fluffy i know we’ve completely stopped interacting but pls know that im so happy we’re still mutuals and that you’re so so talented and your voice oml is beautiful(i just remembered your narration(?) for that one fic). i hope you’ve been well 💗

@vopegist kyo dough i love u. thanks for coming to my ted talk. im just kidding, ik we haven’t talked in a while but just know that ily and am always here for you titty 💀☹️💗🥺

@rkivian miss kiri you’re such a fun person and im so glad we’ve been mutuals for so long ☹️ you really stole my heart when u dmed me all those months ago hskdjsks besides everything, i really love it when you tag me in games okay? makes me feel connected to you even tho its been so long since we interacted ☹️💗

@parkjiminxfloor jans idk when you’ll see this bb but know that ily and im forever grateful for your support🥺💞thank you for all your sweet asks and tags, they always make my day 💗💗you’re amazing 💫

@alpacaseok star we just became mutuals but know that i really appreciate you and you’re just really a very sweet, supportive person 🥺💞

@thornedswan ik we’ve barely interacted but pls know im always so so grateful for you reblogging my gifs 💗

@cosyserendipity sonjaaa you’re so so sweet and i think i already told you this but im always so so grateful for your reblogs 🥺💗 and that the fact that you tag me in games, i love those!💘💗💞

@crispy-chan jas my absolute darling favourite baby ever 🥺💗i love you so so much and i miss you and our conversations a lot ☹️💗 youre such an amazing person and on top of all that you’re literally so talented and sweet. i hope you’re taking care of your precious self (hows apple 💀💗) miss you and love you tons pls know that i tagged u last so that u could find yourself amongst all these bts blogs 😭

[dreamwritesimagines]

“It would be romantic, your betrothed would love that.” ksksksk i love their friendship so much. i also love how carefree Cece is about this bc she knows it’s going to happen no matter what so she’s not really worried about anything at all. meanwhile the rest of the house is in flames sksksksk

Alright, this honestly felt like that one time he had broken all the fine china. this Fine China™️ will haunt him and till the end of his days AND the after life like this story will be told for generations.

“Makes me wonder who you took after.” PERCIVAL SKKSKSK. Sassy Percy™️ is in the house and i am living for it! also, Anthony trying so so hard not to talk back is so hilarious bc i know he’s dying too but he’s more dying to marry Cherie so sksksks. and also that exchange??? Anthony with that ammo hello??? like he’s READY for anything that Percy will throw his way. like this man is DETERMINED and he’s got all the receipts.

“Edmund would be proud of you.” awww :( why would u hit me with that. my fricking heart wasn’t ready.

“Forever,” Anthony corrected him. “You of all people would understand, would you not?” YOU CAN’T HIT HIM WITH THAT TOO. but he does have a point ugh. why is this so tense and exciting and heart aching sometimes and funny and all that stuff at the same timeeee. emotions! so many of them!

“I can’t even notice anyone else when she’s in the room,” he said. “Let alone looking at another.” i mean, how could you not marry this man Percival????? he’s all heart eyes.

“As you said, my father and you were close friends,” he said. “He used to talk about all those adventures you two used to have. You had a reputation too, among ladies.” // The Duke raised his brows. “Decades ago.” // “Exactly, and it changed.” Anthony said. “When you met your wife.” OOF™️ he’s got you there Percival. honestly, i’m reading this like i’m watching a never-ending tennis match like this back and forth is just SO good. SO SO GOOD. like you’re just anticipating what the other will say and what the rebuttal would be.

“I did,” he admitted after a couple of seconds of silence. “It was a misunderstanding, but that is not an excuse. It shouldn’t have happened, and I swear on my honor that it will never, ever happen again.” AND HE’S SELF-AWARE HELLO?? ksksks i’m so bias and lol i’m a hopeless romantic i get swooned easily BUT AT LEAST HE KNOWS?? and is doing his best to never let it happen again? and with what they went through those weeks i’m sure Anthony would never let Cherie experience that again like.

“I do want your approval on this, but I’m not going to let you stand in the way. You wanted to know why I didn’t ask you first? It’s because the only opinion I care about is hers. Not yours, hell, not even Elias’s at this point. Only hers. So even if you don’t trust me, I don’t care as long as I have her trust. And most importantly, she loves me.” DING DING DING DING WE HAVE A WINNER. honestly Percy idk about you but i’d marry him myself if i could. like, he values Cherie above EVERYONE else and as he should!! and given the time period i think it’s so rare for a man to value his wife’s opinion above all else so like how could you deny him really?? and i’m going to have a lil dig at Percy here, but this is what’s different about them too. bc as much as Percy loved Cassie, he still believed his “best friend” over his wife didn’t he? worse yet, he didn’t even give his wife a chance to say her side. he kinda gave into the idea of the whole “a man’s opinion is better than a woman’s” albeit not on purpose but still. and Anthony, i mean, they’re not even married yet but look at him. he doesn’t care about anyone else, just Cherie. he’s giving her that freedom to choose for her life. he respects and values her opinion most especially on a matter that should be her choice and her choice only. and i don’t think any other man would offer that to her. so in that regard, Anthony is already a point better than Percy in the husband criteria.

“So trust me, by hook or by crook I will be with her, regardless of your opinion or your approval.” oh he’s NOT SCARED. HE WILL MARRY THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE AND NO ONE WILL STOP HIM. as he should ugh how could not love this maaan.

“You do realize I will not make things easy for you during the settlement negotiations, do you not?” // “As far as I’m concerned, everything I own is already hers. Do your worst.” I MEAN??? IT GETS EVEN BETTER?? YOU HAVE A MAN WHO WOULD GIVE EVERYTHING TO HER?? i mean you’re talking to the same man who already planned on redesigning her bedroom as a wardrobe for all her dresses HOW COULD U NOT APPROVE??? 

But no, of course i understand Percy protectiveness of it all. this is his only daughter, and he’s just grown that bond with her so he’s going to do everything to give her the best life. And that’s what him and Anthony similar with, they both just want the best for Cherie and i’m sure she will get exactly that. but god i loved this scene so much. i just love the way these two head of houses butt heads like it’s so entertaining. amazing as always!!

– TM Anon™️

Omg darliiiing hi! ❤❤❤

Definitely! Like, Cece has zero worries about it, she knows it’s going to happen, so she’s just there enjoying this whole drama😂 She’s so entertained by it 😂

Oh their children will hear about the Fine China Incident, one hundred percent! 😂

Anthony trying so hard 😂 He probably had the perfect comeback to that comment but…😂

Anthony with that ammo hello??? like he’s READY for anything that Percy will throw his way. EXACTLYYY! ❤ He went there totally ready to have an answer to every single thing Percy would say, he knew it wouldn’t be easy 😏

Percy and Edmund were such close friends I think! ❤ I mean they talked about their sons a lot and Percy knew him so well, so I think he totally knew Edmund would be proud of him❤

Anthony and Cherie’s love story totally could have ended up like Percy and Cassie’s, I think he knows that ❤

honestly, i’m reading this like i’m watching a never-ending tennis match like this back and forth is just SO good. SO SO GOOD. like you’re just anticipating what the other will say and what the rebuttal would be. AAAAAA I LOVE WRITING TENNIS MATCH ARGUMENTS SO MUCH! 😍❤

Oh yeah, those weeks kind of scarred both of them in different ways, and Anthony will make sure it never happens again ❤

he values Cherie above EVERYONE else and as he should!! and given the time period i think it’s so rare for a man to value his wife’s opinion above all else THIS! THIS!

You are absolutely right! Because like, Regency was not a time where that was common, and I think Cherie and Anthony’s marriage will be very different than other marriages of that time! ❤ Like, to Anthony, Cherie’s opinion is the most important thing, and he actually makes sure she and everyone else around them know that! He is aware that they almost lost each other because of miscommunication before so he is listening to what she wants, and he knows how important it is to her to make her own choices❤

And Cece had a part in that development as well, I don’t think Anthony would be able to see things this clearly without her help ❤

i’m going to have a lil dig at Percy here, but this is what’s different about them too. bc as much as Percy loved Cassie, he still believed his “best friend” over his wife didn’t he? worse yet, he didn’t even give his wife a chance to say her side. he kinda gave into the idea of the whole “a man’s opinion is better than a woman’s” albeit not on purpose but still. This is such a good point, yes!

Percy did that not on purpose, like you said, and it was the biggest mistake of his life💔 He lost the love of his life because of that, and I actually don’t think it would’ve played out that same way if it were Anthony, he would never make that mistake ❤❤❤

HE IS SO DETERMINED TO MARRY HER ❤ Nothing Percy could say during marriage settlement negotiations could ever stop him 😂

he’s going to do everything to give her the best life. And that’s what him and Anthony similar with, they both just want the best for Cherie and i’m sure she will get exactly that

Oh absolutely, that’s the one thing they have in common! They both want Cherie to be happy and that’s how they will kiiind of get along well, because of Cherie❤❤

Thank you so much for this love, YOU’RE AMAZING! 😍😍❤❤❤❤

[plantsandpupper]

Today is my first day off of 14!!!!! Your girl is taking some much needed vacation time for my birthday 🥳

Im usually one to not make a fuss but with world happenings and just stuff in general we are going to vegas baby! It’s probably been 5 years now since we legit have taken a vacation and I’ve so missed the excitement of it.

My resolution for the year ( which I didn’t tell anyone about ) was to drink and have more fun, two things I hardly do in general. I dont plan to become a raging alcoholic (not that I think anyone does tbh) but I’ve honestly never tried alot of drinks other than strawberry daiquiris and you’re 20’s are for discovering yourself am i right?

So I’ve got my vegas trip this month, spicy pics in April, halsey concert in june, and another big tattoo in July. I forgot how exciting and sometimes stressful planning stuff is but it’s done wonders for my mental health to have things to look forward to. Life is too short

Also still staying with my healthyish ways. I’ll never be a salad all day everyday kinda person but I somehow manage to maintain my move goal of 500 with my watch most days so thats nice. I dont know what made me think of it but the other day I realized food no longer holds control over me. Mind u this is going on two years of my gradual weight loss 😅 and it does bother me that I didn’t realize how much control food had had on me.

Like brownies, they have and always will be my thing and i used to have the hardest time not eating a whole pan in the course of a day and i had no control over them. Now i can just have a modest serving and let that satisfy my sweet tooth.

Oh and i got my hair done last month and while the smocks are never flattering, I didn’t hate how it cut of my no longer pronounced double chins etc. it’s really these little things that catch u off guard that they don’t mention about significant weightloss

Food just gives me alot of joy, im so glad i did the MasterClass subscription for keeping my practical hobby of cooking alive. I seriously enjoyed watching Roy Choys class so much. I’ve tried to keep with veg and miss my vegan ways but the parents just dont budge. They also found this local butcher that just opened and I hate to admit that they are pretty great. I was holding out till they brought home some compound butter and house blend seasonings. Their pickles are also bomb af. I might just get a rosemary tattoo for my love of cooking and their sturdiness as a plant ( ours outside refuses to die and i love that about her)

Oh and Zeus now has a doggy doorbell that he bumps with his snoot! 10/10 recommend spending the $20. The princess is still going strong and has become increasingly lovable and is slowly becoming more and more a Real Cat ™️

On a real note though this russia stuff is unsettling but I love seeing the tiktoks about how people are coping and managing. From the savage granny, to the UN walking out on russia, and pornhub of all sites blocking Russia with a message of solidarity with ukraine it gives a little hope. I hope to see alot of sunflowers this summer 🌻