#Liberals these days istg

[camelsupplier]

liberals these days are too woke to drink REAL sparkling water, pour glitter into a cup and drink it like the way the Lord intended!

[pyrodolls]

Hiiii!

I love havik sm, and your fics are the best istg 🫶🫶

If you can do you think you can do a continuation of the yandere fics you've been writing but with havik?

Ty<3

yandere havik x reader hcs

warnings: violence, gore, toxic relationship, regular yandere tendencies yk

summary: hcs of yandere havik x (gender neutral) reader

a/n: AWWWW THANK YOU ANON!! also i got quite a lot of yandere havik requests. all of you are SICK in the head. (me too tho so it’s ok) anyways i’ve been wanting to write a yandere havik for so long bc most people write havik as aggressive and controlling all the time, but i think he’s chill to the people he’s acquainted to. BUT YANDERE HAVIK?? LETS FUCKIN GOOO CONTROLLING HAVIK!! anyways next is yandere syzoth stay tuned

there was a sickening, almost deranged look on havik’s face the moment he first saw you. as soon as he saw you, there was nothing that could stop him from making you his.

it was like he was consumed by a powerful drug, and he was completely and irrevocably enamored by you.

he longs to have you by his side. he’s so obsessed with you, he wants to cut you open and crawl inside of your skin. you’re just so enchanting, how could he not be in love?

love, is what it looks like. but for havik, it’s more of an obsession than true love. sure, he wants to hold you in his arms and be with you for the rest of his life, but he doesn’t exactly have the emotional capacity to truly be in love.

if you had a problem going on and you were emotionally distressed, he would automatically resort to violence and would be driven to destroy whoever hurt you. but he doesn’t exactly know how to comfort you. he can, but he’ll just awkwardly pat you on the back.

for now, you were just allies. but havik is determined to slowly turn it into something more. it would be so slow you wouldn’t even notice the change. in his eyes, that is the smartest way to win you over. if you’re used to his affections, you won’t leave.

well, it’s not like he would even let you leave if you fell in love with him. he would convince you to stay with him. he would convince you that he can provide you safe haven and you will someday be blessed by chaos by his side.

but if you ever rejected havik’s affections, he just wouldn’t accept it. he would assume you were just lying or having a bad day. after everything he did for you, there was no way he can live without you in his life. so he just wouldn’t accept that you rejected him.

but if you accepted his affections, havik would never hold back again. he would be completely unhinged and expect you to accept it.

he would also keep you very close to him. havik knows he has a lot of enemies that would target you, so he will always protect you. you’re his, therefore it is his responsibility to keep you untouched from harm.

you’re just so beautiful. so delicate. you would still look oh so beautiful if you were all bloodied and ruined… but havik wouldn’t let your body get ruined, as much as he wants to see it. he wishes you had the same powers as him, so your body parts don’t have to stay in the same boring spot all the time and you can enjoy the chaos of it.

speaking of chaos, havik wishes to share his lifestyle with you. no gods, no government, no order. to live a life of liberation with you is a life well lived in his eyes. if you don’t agree with him, he will make you agree. you are either with him or against him. and defying him would be a mistake. you should know to follow his ideals in order to lead a better life on his side.

havik would feel ecstatic if you were to get your hands dirty with him. he would be happy to engage in kombat with you any day, especially if you two destroyed the oppressors together.

if not, that’s okay. he can do the work and you can sit and look nice next to him. even though he would want to see you work towards freedom, he would not mind if you only supported him.

havik is convinced that chaos will benefit your life, and that he is the right partner for you. he cannot accept anything else for you. he knows what is best for you, believe him.

if anyone were to defy his vision for you… if anyone were to dare try and win you over.. he would eliminate them in gruesome manners. even if he has to do it right in front of your eyes just to prove a point. that he would fight for you. he deserves to be with you because he kills for you with no hesitation. how could you not accept him if he shows you his potential to truly dedicate himself to you?

why would anyone even dare try to court you? he is right there by your side, why can’t everyone else see that? are they so blind to think they can have you when havik claimed you first?

overall, he knows you belong to him. he does give you the freedom to choose *how* you express your affection to him and how you fight for freedom with him, but he is convinced that he is what is best for you.

havik can’t imagine the rest of his life without you, his precious little doll, by his side. so cute, so delicate. and all his. you’ll always stay with him and fight with him, won’t you?

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ARI MLL IM SO SORRY THAT THIS IS SENT OUT SO LATE HSJSJS. I FEEL SO BAD FOR NOT REPLYING EARLIER 😭 it was assessment week and istg everyday was just filled with assignments/exams/pracs etc. i just wanna go back to high school already!! i’m not mentally prepared for this ☹️☹️

UR SO REAL ABT THE JJK DILFS THO. like they’ve raised my standards up for men so high haksjsj. i so badly want, no, NEED a college bf! geto in my life to make my very own uni life a lil more bearable. HES SO BF CODED OMG 😻 okok but hear me out. geto playing guitar?? i repeat. GETO PLAYING GUITAR??? more specifically ELECTRIC GUITAR PHEWWW. i’m sorry it’s been plaguing my mind for the past few days but i so believe that geto can play guitar w ease. hsjsjsj guitarist! geto has me melting icl 😭✋ with his piercings nd tattoos nd the reading glasses he wears at home hshshshs. its not a want, it’s a need 😔

AHHH UR SO RIGHT ABT STEM GIRLIES AND LIBERAL ARTS GIRLIES HOLDING HANDS HSJJSJ. us stem girlies have sm respect for you guys 🙇‍♀️ from what i’ve heard, lit is a pretty tough major (i took lit as an atar subject back in hs and i FAILED LMAOO). plus lit girlies are so knowledgeable it js blows my mind away. like give me ur brain please 🙏

i’ve tried getting out of my reading slump (WE’RE GETTING THERE WOOHOO!!) like i’ve recently started little woman by louis may alcott (a classic ik idk why i’m even referencing it shshs) and so far it’s pretty good! sometimes the dialogue throws me off a little since it was written so long ago and my mind just goes blank as soon as i read anything that’s not modern day english (i’m talking anything published before the 2000s 😭). i watched the movie a while ago so i’m kinda excited to see if there’s any major differences between the books and the movies. apparently there are a few but i didnt listen in further bc i didn’t wanna spoil myself hahah. welp ig i’ll k when i commit to actually finishing the book.

i haven’t heard abt the travelling cat chronicles yet but i’ll sure be adding it to my tbr 🫡 I LOVE LOVE LOVE CATS SMMM!! ive always just preferred cats more than dogs idkk. speaking abt cats, i have two ragdoll cats hsjsjs. funnily enough, someone pointed out that they somewhat remind them of gojo 😹😹 whelp i fear that i might as well grow up to be an old cat lady hsjsj. not that i’m complaining tho 🤭 really out of the blue question but dy have any pets? 👀 i’m just curious hahah.

also thank u so so so much for the advice ari! i’ll definitely be checking out the summaries + quotes for any future books i wanna read. and nooo ur not incompetent at all, don’t worry!! and thank u sm for being so supportive bby i have sm love for you 💗 AND YEAH I AGREE, READING IS SM FUN WHEN YOU’RE NOT BEING FORCED INTO IT.

and aww the tags were absolutely no problem at all! ur geto drabble was written SO WELL. like ari bby you are so talented and i cannot emphasise that enough. you have a way with words and it’s so admirable!! ++ you nailed geto’s characterisation so well, i was genuinely in awe while reading it. ahhh i still think abt it even to this day!! cult leader geto plagues my mind once a week istg. SAME W HIM AND HIS DYNAMIC W SATORU. like hello?? every time i hear abt satosugu i wanna BAWL MY EYES OUT. they’re soulmates (both platonically and somewhat romantically?? idk if you can have both hahah). but omigosh they’re so tragic shskajsjs. brb i’m not crying, i’m chopping up onions!! !! !! 😃

OMG THAT RESEMBLANCE BETWEEN GOJO AND RHE KITTY CAT OMFDDHDH. someone tell me they’re twins and i’ll believe every. single. word. thank u sm for the treat ari, i hope ur day/night is going well!! i’m so sorry that this is long overdue but i genuinely LOVE talking to you bby <333 remember to take care of urself too! ilysm 💞🥹

p.s hes so fine i swearrrr 😍 i saw this on twitter and it’s been my roman empire ever since

UKIIIII MY BELOVED PLS FORGIVE ME FOR THE WAIT 😔😔😔 i’m finally here !!!!!!

first of alllll i hope your studies n work have gone well!!!!!! 🥺🥺 you know i’m always cheering you on hehe. i just have a month left n then i’m free but i’m not sure how it is for you :’3 i hope you’ll get to rest properly soon!!!!

ANDDDDDDDD GUITARIST!SUGU. GOOD GOD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 your hcs of him made me LOSE it i hope you know that…… he’s literally so bf…… PLSSS PIERCINGS AND TATTOOS AND READING GLASSES ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 OUGHHH UKI I NEED HIM SO BAD….. he would strum his pretty guitar for you on nights you couldn’t sleep 🥺🥺 i just know he would!!!!! he’s such a loverboy…..

LIBERAL ARTS GIRLIES 🤝 STEM GIRLIES FR….. from my perspective stem subjects are a LOT more difficult i rlly can’t overstate how impressed i am by how much you guys study …… 😭😭 i’ve heard . horror stories abt it LMAO…..

AND THE BOOKSSSSS i’m so proud of you for trying to get out of your reading slump uki!!!!!! i actually haven’t read little women yet hehe, pls tell me if it ends up being good!!!!! i’ve heard great things abt it….. AND AND ANDDD i get you!!!! i think it’s important to pick books that are written in ways that you like!!! it’s easy to think that older books are like . harder to read and relate to but that’s usually more bc of the author than the time period!!! i prefer mine to be from around the 1800s-1900s and they aren’t difficult to understand at all!! some classics are super hard to get into bc of how just. Heavy they are writing wise (side eyeing shakespeare n dostoevsky rn) but others aren’t!!! one classic i absolutely adore is the stranger by albert camus, idk if you’re interested in existentialism but!!! the writing is very pretty :3

anyway anyway…. FELLOW CAT PERSONNNN i knew i could trust you!!!! and you have ragdolls!!! 🥺🥺 my current housemate has four of them LMAO and they all look like gojo ngl …. act like him too……. this little guy just follows me around n sleeps in my lap and yaps <33333

BUT YES i think you’d really love the travelling cat chronicles!!!! i read it so quickly bc it’s just. so lovely!!!! and pretty!!!!! and cute n sweet :(((( i love it lots!!!!! but it made me sob so much… so pls make sure you have tissues close by if you read it……

ANDDDD again 🥺🥺🥺 thank you sooooo much for being so sweet …. you rlly are too kind!!!!! i’m so happy you like my geto, i loveloveloveee yours too <33333 AND . YES. i cry over stsg all the time too…. sniffle……. they’re soulmates both platonically and romantically imo :’3 they just . belong together no matter what!!!!!! wish they weren’t so doomed by the narrative tho…..

THANK YOU SO MUCHHH FOR CHATTING W ME SWEETIE <33333 i hope you’re doing soso well!!!!! and i rlly am sorry abt how long you’ve had to wait for this response 😭😭 my brain has Not been braining correctly recently. but i adore you sb 🥺

[flamingo-strikes]

for the reading asks, 2, 3 & 25 !

OPHELIAAA 🫶🫶🫶 thank u for the ask!!!!

2. Did you reread anything? What?

I did actually! I normally don’t do re-reads because I love being surprised by new content and I have such little time to read nowadays, but I reread Women’s Liberation and the African Freedom Struggle by Thomas Sankara. I actually plan to re-read a lot more of my socialist books soon, and this was a great start.

3. What were your top five books of the year?

I’m ngl this was a slightly mid year for reading for me 😭💔 A lot of my reads were below par, at least compared to last year and the one before, but I did really enjoy a few!!! Here are my faves of this year!

The Poppy War by RF Kuang. This book is so special to me, and I love it dearly. Kuang writes such a rich, tragic world with characters that feel so real. The themes in the series are so dark, and it’s inspired by the real second Sino-Japanese war. It’s a story of colonialism, power, resistance, and it’s just really dark and fucked. Rin is my baby (she’s a war criminal). The vibes in this book compared to the rest of the series are unmatched personally. The school setting, watching Rin practice and work so hard, her rivalry with Nezha, her mentor Jiang, EVERYTHING WITH ATLAS OH MY GOD 💔 this is a must read fantasy for sure!

Counterpart by Ella Pyne. I picked this up randomly on my Kindle Unlimited because the premise seemed cool and oh my goddd I was pleasantly surprised at how amazing it is. I have NOT read a good romantic fantasy like this in such a long time. It’s about a kingdom where the king’s royal children each have a doppleganger assigned to them, and these “dopplegangers” are his illegitimate children whose mothers are concubines. In order to appease the Gods who give him his royal power, he forces one royal child to kill their doppleganger on their 16th birthday. Leda our MC is the counterpart to Azaria, and she lives everyday waiting for her impending death. She makes a plan to escape but basically things go haywire in the book. The political intrigue, the darkness, the prose, the twisted beauty of each and every character, the family drama, the horror of the court and witnessing our main character in such an awful position, it’s so beautiful and I cannot recommend this enough!! I am 👌 this close to showing up to Pyne’s house myself and begging for the third book.

Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë. This is one of those books that change your brain chemistry istg. I am not the same person I was before. If you don’t dig my corpse out of my grave because you miss me, then you don’t love me sorry! /j. It’s a really depraved dramatic haunting story with no ounce of decorum, a stark difference to my precious exposure to Austen’s works. The Brontë sisters do NOT play around, and I love it.

The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka. It took me like 2-3 business days to realize I loved this one, because I couldn’t stop thinking about it. It makes me so sad because it’s so painfully real, and there is this sentiment in the prose that always gets me, like this resigned expectation of a society that will care more about your work value than you as a person.

Hmm filling this out is hard because after these top 4, I have a few that I equally enjoyed a lot. But I’ll go with Intercepts by T.J Payne. This is a sci-fi horror, so very out of my comfort zone but I loved it! It’s like Stranger Things x Smile, and it was SO freaky and I made a mistake reading it while I was alone in my house lmfao. It has a really fun engaging plot (not in a happy way lol), fleshed out characters, and a super eerie vibe.

25. What reading goals do you have for the next year?

Ahh I want to really get through my physical TBR in the next year because it’s kind of ridiculous how I still haven’t read books I’ve owned for 2+ years lol. And more specifically as a reading goal, I plan to engage with more diverse fantasy! I feel like I’ve stuck to more popular books and I really want to change that, find more hidden gems and support BIPOC/queer authors!!!! They’re more fun anyways lol <3 I also need to actually start reading sequels I’ve been holding off on 😭 I have this bad habit of quitting something at the end because I don’t want to let go of it lol (like y’all I stopped watching Bleach at the last ten episodes lmfao) and I want to finish more book series next year for sure!

[lxndmineprince]

sorryyyy was quite busy,,,,

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exactly!! my ex and u had a 12 hour time difference, and my friend and i now have a 9 hour one, and istg it woulda been much worse if they both didn't have such a fucked up sleep schedule. by the way, i usually go to bed quite early, but i also wake up early - when it's 7-8 am for you

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mmm, how hard, you ask? well, i mainly have problems with anatomy, because learning every vertebral notch and groove, every cranial sinus, etc is pure hell. i wonder what will happen when we start studying internal organs next semester,,, there is only a year and a half left to study, and i will be free. other than that, pretty much nothing else bothers me, even pharmacology or latin, which are also quite complex, but for me they're much more interesting. actually, i would like to do some research too, it sounds interesting!! but i'm afraid to make plans for the future, so as not to be disappointed again. so let's hope that wherever we end up, we will be happy eventually

makes sense then!! it's quite a good and lucky life, haha. how do your parents feel about your style though? you said that in your country this style of clothing is considered too childish and is probably subject to skepticism

that sounds cute!! <D but considering that you already have someone you care about, is it really okay for me to interact with you, especially in that way? i mean, i'm genuinely interested in you, so if i get a chance i would like to make you mine no matter how long it takes

ohh, ddlc is so good dude, brings back so many memories. i would like to rewatch the playthrough of it.. sigh, my list of things i want to rewatch is growing inexorably. i also used to play genshin for quite a long time, as well as hsr, but again, my devices are too weak for this. so now i limit myself to less demanding games, including rhythm games :3

i see i see. glad everything is okay, and hope you have fun tomorrow!! let me know if anything interesting happens <D

That's awesome!!! I'm also an early bird, I usually go to bed by 10 and wake up around 4 on schooldays and 8 on weekends... today's an exception because I had caffeine earlier, whoops

Woah... I absolutely get the memorization struggle sobsob. I'm studying mandarin, and even though I'm learning simplified, memorizing the characters is so tough... especially when trying to write them without a reference. Hehe I can't relate to that much, my favorite thing ever is to dream of the future <3 it's what keeps me going!!! One day, I'll be in an Ivy League university, and then when I'm done I'll move to Taiwan to work as a researcher in a university.. (I hope)

My mom doesn't really mind. She's pretty open about stuff like clothing, and even if she finds dark girly a little silly, she doesn't really care. My dad doesn't like it, but he doesn't exactly forbid me to wear it. He just nags me about how much he dislikes it. But I've never really been good at listening to them about style anyways X)

Where I live there's a lot of white people, so it's pretty liberal for the region it's in, but wearing something so cute and frilly is definitely seen as childish and weird... I've only gone out in full dark girly once or twice and it was to a small store, and I got lotsss of stares. Even when wearing just a dark girly blouse and pants...

I mean... I met you both at around the same timeframe! I don't really mind. You can absolutely interact ♪ it makes me really happy. I care heavily about a lot of people in general (literally everyone who becomes my friend or shows mild romantic interest in me)

REAL!! I played ddlc when I was 11 and I loved loved loved it!! Sayori and Monika are my favs <3

OOH... do you play pjsk? I started playing it because of Miku, but I started liking n25 recently as I started playing their stories ♪

I definitely will!! We're going to watch wicked mwehehe... it's so funny because when I was in 6th grade I was a part of the choir for my school's production of wicked. So to me it's always been this obscure thing that nobody really knew about but I was a part of... and all of a sudden it exploded?!?! I feel like an OG fan /silly

[stfuviolet1]

Alhamdulillah, my prayer has been answered just at the right time. After almost 3 months of job hunting, 2 trial and error law firms, I finally received an offer to work at a place that aligns with my goals and values. I have been praying for this day and night and I know it might be too soon to judge, but I have a good feeling about this firm.

The pay may not be as high as the ones offered in KL, but looking at other factors, it seems like a fair rate to me. I mean it’s not that bad tho since I’ve got 2 other side jobs so money isn’t really the issue.

Last month, I declined an offer to work at Damien’s. YOO Damien and the whole team really be giving the Suits vibe. Istg Mr Ian looks like LOUIS LITT, the hair, the chubbiness, the teeth 😭😭 Damien is the most good looking one and he dresses as sharp as Harvey (he’s the MP duhh) and I guess Jeff is the Mike Ross in the group. And as much as I’d love to be a part of the team and who knows become the next Samantha/Jessica I just don’t feel right about it. No actually, I think I’d be fine but my mom won’t. They openly expressed their culture on how open minded and liberal they are yknow drinking and stuffs is a normal thing in the firm and I’m expected to blend in. And to tell the truth, as much as I know myself and I know I’m just as social butterfly, it’s different than my life in general. I know I can be pretty social I do stuffs too but I’m on some sort of soul searching and personal development and when it comes to people I hang out with, I get to choose when to hang out with them and when not to hang out with them yknow. I can avoid them as much as I want whenever I don’t feel like hanging out but when it comes to work? I wouldn’t have much choice and I don’t want to be stuck in a position where I have to lie to myself to fit in. I mean I will see them everyday every week and will most likely spend more than half of my day with them. Yeap Mr Ian told me you don’t dream of going back early I must stay in for as long as they need me to. So tell me how can I avoid them and not fall into the rabbit hole again. Sighs

Anyways enough with Damien, I went to another iv at KD and honestly I didn’t put too much hope on this one cause I don’t want to get disappointed. Didn’t prepare much as I wasn’t feeling well but showed up regardless, and I was so close to bail out when I couldn’t find a parking and when I did, I kinda lost sight of the company and had to walk veeeery very far just to find the place. In HEELS some more sheesh. Went in regardless, nicely greeted and filled in some forms. Few mins later Mr Greg, the MP of the firm came inside the meeting room to interview me (thank god the MP showed up so I don’t have to come for a second iv I thought to myself) spent an hour in the room answering to his questions and just listened to him talking. Well it was pretty smooth ivs he explained everything about the nature of my work and he allows me to be working under general litigation department which, the reason I wanted to switch firm. Oh ohh he’s a pro of work life balance too weee he literally told me he doesn’t want to see my face during the weekends lol.

But I guess,, the main reason why I’m open to accept his job offer is… he supports me. He doesn’t just support me but he encourages me to pursue my goals. He supports me to not just be a lawyer but also as an educator. Most of the interviewers’ that I have met in the past asked me if I am willing to let go of my side job just so I can devote my full time and attention to their firms when I told them I work as part time teacher. But Mr Greg.. he was really supportive of my side job he even encourage me to go back at 6pm sharp just so I could teach at night. I mean obv I ain’t gonna do that but it’s the thought that counts. I mean to think of it, all of the lawyers I talked to before really be gaslighting me when I don’t match their level of ‘hard work’ and romanticize slavery. I am very committed and dedicated towards my job it’s just I’m a firm believer that work should be a part of life, not the other way around and it really warms my heart to acknowledge that Mr Greg is living by the same principle as me. He was an educator before too so I guess that’s why we speak the same language and I guess maybe this is the right place for me at the moment. After all I don’t teach for money, I do it because it’s somehow therapeutic to me to be able to see my students once a week and deliver knowledge to them. The type of conversation we have each week and to witness their growth? Indescribable. I will work just as hard as everyone else until I see my name’s on the door, but as for now what’s important is I don’t jeopardize my sanity by indulging myself into a toxic working environment. I am and will always live by Jim Rohn’s quote;

“Work hard on yourself more than you work hard on your job. You work hard on your job, you’ll make a living and that’s fine but when you work harder on yourself, you’ll make a fortune. And that is the most noble thing you could ever done to yourself”

Fey 13/9/24

[raisedbythetv89]

If I see one more person complaining about having to vote for joe biden again, sowing general resentment and apathy towards voting, communicating to people it doesn’t matter, there’s no difference between the “two old white guys” I’m gonna start commenting crimes like y’all sound like “uggghhh the non-hitler wannabe option just like really doesn’t do it for me enough to care to vote at all” YOU SOUND SO STUPID AND I FUCKING HATE YOU.

SO MANY of the negative repercussions we’re facing today in 2024 are directly because of trump’s 4 years as president he did SO MUCH DAMAGE in such a short amount of time that we will be recovering from for a LONG TIME. Perfectionism is so obscenely harmful but especially in politics. If we actually managed to have the perfect presidential candidate to vote for in November THEY WOULD NOT GET ELECTED because the country is not ready as much as that sucks complaining and being like “Joe biden lost my vote for supporting Israel” does not punish joe biden or the democrats it punishes ALL OF US INCLUDING GAZA by opening the door to a fucking fascist who has literally said if he gets re-elected he’s not leaving the white house. HOW can you fuckers have such a short memory with this istg I’m just screaming and pulling my hair out in rage and frustration. This country is so fucking broken and trying for a couple years only to give up when things don’t go perfectly only helps the people who want things to stay exactly the same/roll our rights back even more.

We can be critical of the system we’re forced to participate in while still being SMART and strategic. We would have had so many more democratic presidents if you fuckers who hate the two party system and therefore “refuse to participate” hadn’t split votes/opted out of voting. I’ve spent my life watching dems spend their whole presidency trying to fix the problems of the last republican caused and JUST as shit starts to get back to “neutral” another republican gets elected and ruins everything again and the cycle continues over and over and over and we barely get anywhere.

I KNOW. I Know the system sucks and is broken and everything is terrible and everyone is too old and democrats aren’t liberal enough but we are still actively trying to keep a fascist out of office so truly just shut the fuck up, suck it up and do what needs to be done and make sure everyone in your life knows to do the same. Don’t be one of those people who treated voting in 2016 like a joke or just didn’t vote and then spent every day after that regretting they opened the door for trump. If you don’t vote for biden you WILL regret it later. Learn from the mistakes of people from literally just 8 years ago I’m BEGGING. Because the difference between joe biden and trump COULD NOT BE BIGGER don’t fall for the defeatist propaganda telling you it doesn’t so just don’t bother. That is exactly what trump wants.

[ducavalentinos]

Origins of the Borgias Black Legend: The Savelli Letter:

“The expedient expropriation of the Colonna, the confiscation of Palombara and other possessions from the Savelli and their delivery to the Orsinis, the distribution of the spoils among the heirs of the fourth generation of the Borgias, provokes a desperate reaction from both families. Since they don’t dare an armed counterattack, they give birth to a demolishing libel, a true monument of the pamphleteer literature, a precedent sound of a weapon that will be vital in later centuries, political propaganda, disqualification at any price of the enemy, of the rival. A document that will become famous and that, together with others of the same fallacious  origin, will be converted into reliable sources, in the supposed data with which the black legend of the Borgia is built. 

We refer to a text that under the title of "Letter to Silvio Savelli, being a refugee in the court of Maximilian", appears in November 1501. […] The author would be a Neapolitan literate, Gerolamo Mancione, if some indications given by Agostino Nifo [1] and accepted by Ferrara are true [2].

The Pope [Alexander VI] wanted them to read Mancione’s pamphlet to him, as all the insulting anonymous writings were made to be read. At times he laughed with loud laughter from a satisfied, burly man; at other times he smiled from ear to ear with his sensual lips. He was convinced that no one could believe so many fantastic things, product of resentment and envy. But he was deeply mistaken. He should have responded point by point, dismantled inventions with facts, countered with all the detailed information at his disposal. By not doing so, the Borgias sinned with pride and arrogance; history punished them harshly.

According to some historians, it was commissioned by the Colonna family. In the pamphlet it carries the date of November 25, 1501, but there are comments on subsequent events, such as the departure of Lucrezia to Ferrara and even the conquests of Urbino and Camerino, which had just happened just a few days before. It is dated in Taranto but has been published in Germany. Cesare is outraged because the verbatim says of him: “His father spoils him because he has the same perverse character, his cruelty: it is difficult to say which of these two beings is more execrable.” Alexander comments to the ambassador of Ferrara, who will collect his words: “The duke is a good man but he does not know how to tolerate offenses. More than once I have told him that Rome is a free city and that everyone is its own master of writing whatever they want.” Almost incredible, to tell the truth, so much liberality. Because the letter spares no insults nor accusations: “Of all the anti-Borgia requirements, it was the most violent and factious without any doubt, says Gervaso [3].

“So often announced by the Prophets, the time of the Antichrist has come,“ says the letter, “because there has never been a worse enemy of our faith, more declared adversary of God, more fierce destroyer of the religion of Christ … Oh, terrible times!”

Allegedly sent from the “royal camp of Taranto”, headquarters of the troops of Gonzalo Fernández de Córdoba, the fiery speech was destined for the “Magnificent Don Silvio Savelli”, exiled from Rome and refugee in the court of Emperor Maximilian. The moment chosen to spread this libel in the courts of Europe was not at all accidental: the announcement that the marriage transactions between the Vatican and Ferrara had been concluded and it provoked the fury of Maximilian of Germany. The father, “infamous beast, whose perfidy extends over the human race… Rodrigo Borgia, the greatest evil of all ages; the son, "a fratricide who, as a cardinal, has become a murderer … On his orders, one could be killed, thrown into the Tiber, poisoned or ruined”; the daughter, “with whom [the Pope] has an infamous trade. To return the boat of St. Peter to the port, to eradicate from Rome “a plague generated for the destruction of Christianity." The letter of Taranto appeals to the strength of the emperor of Germany and all Christian princes and even to distant kings. ”

He strongly recommended his addressee to disseminate this writing, and to have it read “before the crowds gathered for Mass”: “Goodbye,” said the anonymous author. “Remember that you are one of ours and that you are Roman. Therefore, again, goodbye.,” The “letter of Taranto” was intercepted by Cesare’s spies and ended up reaching the eyes of the Pope. According to Burckard it was the Cardinal of Modena, Giovanni Battista Ferrari —who is called in the letter “a crime minister, Cerberus at the gates of hell”, and who is attacked as harshly as the Borgias due to his scandalous enrichment—, to whom it fell the painful and necessary duty of making the pontiff aware of the incendiary pamphlet.

Source: José Catalán Deus, El Príncipe del Renacimiento: Vida y Leyenda de César Borgia. 

Notes: [1] Agostino Nifo, he was a philosopher somewhat after the events that in 1523 he wrote De regnandi peritia, a religious arrangement of The Prince by Machiavelli, where he blackens Cesare’s memory, “verum ulciscente deo, illum pariter cum patre ignominiose perditit”. [2] Orestes Ferrara, Il Papa Borgia, 1940. [3] Roberto Gervaso, I Borgia: Alessandro VI, Il Valentino, Lucrezia,1976.

@borgialucrezia​ I finally posted it Tha, hope you like the final result!

[bibliophile-goth]

hey guys i love you all and youre all so great but why are you talking about the destiel-putin vote please answer im scared

[growingblooms]

inspirational post <33

I never understood why loa bloggers said “persistence is key” until I actually persisted.

My mindset was the worst. I was THAT kind of person “I’m the exception the law doesn’t work for me☹️” or “I don’t think I have xyz I feel like I’m lying to myself💆‍♀️”. I used to write huge lists of things to manifest and start a plan to manifest them all. Then I would affirm for them and feel good but even the slightest of doubts could crash the mindset I was “building”. See here I was wrong. You think you need to grow your mindset to manifest instantly blablabla not true😠!! You are not growing your God mindset you were born with it, you’re only telling the doubts and worries to stfu cause they are not you. 💅🏻I will say this forever. YOU DO NOT HAVE DOUBTS the ego does. There’s no mindset to be changed, there’s just an ego to be crashed. All you need to do is choose what you want and P E R S I S T. Persisting isn’t important just for your desires to show up in the 3d. Persisting is crucial for your mindset. You can’t expect to “start over” every time you doubt. No matter the ups and downs your “mindset” has YOU gotta persist. DECIDE not to resonate with those bad feelings and worries and soon enough you won’t feel like ur sayin ur affirmations lying to yourself, you’ll feel like ur directly talking about your life in the 4D. By doing this my mindset shifted in one day. That day I woke up feeling amazing, I did my affirmation routine and then everything dropped. I started questioning everything like “why the hell am I feeling good” “hold on now do I actually have xyz”. Usually I would’ve started over my whole manifestation “journey” but I got so mad istg. I was like bruh I was doing so good before affirming what the hell happened. Well this is what happened. After affirming I felt so good that my ego had to come in right away. I wasn’t used to feeling so good. But I had been there before so this time I decided to let it pass. Even if once again I felt like I was lying to myself when affirming, I kept saying “no I know I have xyz, this is simply my EGO”. Hours later I had entered the sabbath state. I knew because I went out that day not caring AT ALL about my 3d. I was wild seriously I started looking around in the 3d in the worst circumstances KNOWIN they weren’t real. It felt so liberating. It felt like the 3D was this dead reality and that everything could be changed. Spoiler that’s what it is!! I knew this time it was the final mindset shift because I had felt like that before but I always knew these great feelings were gonna pass and I would go back to doubting. This time it lasted and it just felt so right and pure. Moral of the story You cannot fail. You think you can fail because you have doubts? You persists and those WILL go away. AINT NO DAMN WAY THEY WONT GO AWAY AND YOU KNOW IT. I DONT CARE IF YOU WERE DOING SO GOOD FOR A WEEK AND THEN EVERYTHING CHANGED. YOU PERSIST BECAUSE THE REAL YOU (GOD) STILL NEEDS TO COME OUT. idek how to explain it. It’s like you were never meant to suffer on this earth, you were meant to feel so limitless that everything you want comes to you. KEEP PERSISTING CAUSE YOU CANNOT FAIL.

Okay bye <33

[lilac-5ky]

why is there no rickroll alignment chart for gintama characters?

it's 4 am and i have crazy thoughts.

Gintoki always falls for it. He is straight up dumb when it comes to technology and if it has Ketsuno Ana's name on it, he's clicking.

Shinpachi also falls for it, but at some point starts becoming hella sus over it. Gets rickrolled over Otsu-chan a lot and wants to pass a law against rickrolling.

Kagura probably rickrolls everyone and is proud of it.

Sougo is the type to get creative with the links and hid a rickroll where you'd least expect it. Rickrolls the shit out of Hiji. Most likely leaves a recorder somewhere in his place and scares the living crap out of him in the middle of the night. Definitely has a competition with Kagura and they fight over who's the best rickroller. Hates it when his handiwork is confused with hers.

Hijikata is the biggest victim istg, I feel sorry for him. Might try to rickroll Sougo or Gin once out of spite.

Kondo LOVES getting rickrolled LMAO somehow he thinks of rickrolling as a good thing and always thanks people for it.

Yamazaki goes insane over rickrolling. Hides in his apartment with anpan and starts having visions of Rick Astley. poor fella

Otae got rickrolled once by Kondo who shared it with her, hoping it'd make her laugh. He is not with us anymore, god rest his soul.

Kyuubei tries to become a pro rickroller to impress Otae. Doesn't realize how much she hates it :/

Madao gets reverse rickrolled and loses his job. Someone (I bet my money on Gin figuring it out) sends him an inappropriate video that he assumes to be a rickroll, plays it at full vol -----> insta fired.

Soyo-hime is one of the top tier rickrollers across the nation. She thrives on people's hatred and discomfort, straight up super sadistic rickroller.

Matsudaira straight up shot his phone and dealt with it once and for all.

Isaburo was about to get rickrolled, but Matsudaira shot his phone as well.

Nobume just doesn't get it. She stares at it blankly, not understanding what's so fun about it.

Oboro is the same as her, but deep down he wants to try it out himself, and he does so on the WORST individual ever.

Utsuro just smiles for a bit and murders him.

Sacchan tried to reverse rickroll Gin-chan by filming a sexual video of herself and hiding it in a rickroll.

Zenzou avoids every rick roll swiftly and brags about it. Someone kicks his ass and he goes quiet.

Katsura doesn't get rickrolled by anyone ;-; if anything, he tries to rickroll himself and shows it to others as if it's an accomplishment.

Elizabeth feels sad and cringed, so she rickrolls him once through her sign boards. It was the happiest day of his life.

Tatsuma laughs at every single rickroll like an idiot and opens each one knowing exactly what it is. Shares them around and contributes to the insanity.

Mutsu bans every single post of his. Tries hard to gets his accounts suspended.

Takasugi actually knows how to rickroll! He most definitely learned how to just to spite Gintoki, who never really expected that from him. Tried to rickroll Bansai as well, but he only commented about the song and was mostly unfazed. Bummer.

Matako was the one who taught him how to. Secretely expects him to try it on her, but he never does ;-; laughs at other people getting rickrolled for sure.

Bansai, like I said, doesn't get it. He is like Nobume, but he feels bad about not understanding. Probably posts the song on his account just to be meta.

Takechi makes an anti-rickroll campaign as well to liberate loli vids and anime memes from it.

Kamui sees Kagura doing it and starts doing it to others as well, mostly Umibozu, Abuto and Takasugi (once or twice, he loves his adoptive father)

Abuto is forced to chuckle every time while internally screaming W H Y

Tsukuyo has a fate worse than Matako. She learned what it was, learned how to do it, sent it to Gintoki, and was left on read.

disclaimer: this is a shit post. i have no idea why i wrote it and i'll probably forget all about it the day after. tagging is gonna be nightmare. oh boy ;-;

[a-d-nox]

nyx, the goddess of night (asteroid 3908)

:) it’s my twentieth post! time flies! but i thought that i should introduce myself: i’m a. d. nox and this is my asteriod alias! nox is the roman goddess of night - but the greek aspect is the only one with an asteroid :/ so i endure it lol. but “a. d. nox” has been my alias since before i wrote/finished my manuscript back in 2020 - this tag and i have a long history! i created it for my book but it has yet to be published… so there is where my username originates from, but what else? well i thought i would share 20 astrology facts about me with y’all!

LET’S START.

1) i’m a scorpio moon (with a capricorn degree lol - help), 2) i also have a 8h stellium (sun, moon, and mercury (retrograded ofc)), 3) my nyx asteroid sits in my 8h at 29° (i just learned that this year so it’s a bit wild that i go by nox), 4) everyone flinches to hear i have a sag venus (capricorn degree) but they double flinch when they hear it is conjunct pluto with a .58 applying orb (yes i have been in love before and no i have never physically stalked anyone lol), 5) i’m pluto dominant (13.3% per walter pullen lol), 6) my strongest aspect is my jupiter opposite pluto (64.27 power per dear old walter again), 7) i have a grand trine (mars, saturn, and neptune), 8) my favorite placement in my chart is my 7h virgo mars at 25°, 9) yes, my saturn is in retrograde and yes, i am not and have never been close with my father, 10) my pluto persona chart has a 3h and 5h stellium *clown emoji*, 11) my IC persona chart has an 11h and 7h stellium *double clown emoji*, 12) i have chiron in my 9h and i have yet to drop out of college lol - i’m going to be a senior this year, 13) my academia asteroid persona chart has the mystic rectangle shape - i have a 8h and 12h stellium which makes sense i studied forensic psychology for 3 years and last semester i decided to switch to literature (maybe 9h chiron is on to something lol), 14) chart preferences: placidus and tropical, 15) i read astrology conservatively but i’m a liberal - conservative and liberal are law terms: conservative=as it is written (if the asteroid groom is dedicated to the caltech engineer then that’s what it’s about (plus the software he developed)) and liberal=meaning to evolve as time goes on (groom is the potential husband for the liberal astrologer), 16) my favorite non-mythological asteroid is utopia (1282), 17) all my favorite people have a lot of capricorn and sagittarius placements - i tend to get along best with fire moons, 18) i’m living on a chiron square asc and a moon trine asc line and all i want is to leave but im holding on until my degree is wrapped up to leave (which is gonna happen next year, my solar return says 9h jupiter 0° in aries and a 4h stellium with sun, mercury, and venus so i’m going get out of here one way or another), 19) i have venus in my 9h ISTG i have THE WEIRDEST relationships with my profs they all love me :’) my org crime professor said see you next semester to me on the last day and i was like i don’t have you next sem and he was like oh :’( and these summer classes, i am texting with profs and casually emailing with them (the one was telling me how she was traveling to utah lmfao), 20) i have 11° in jupiter (5h) and uranus (7h) for my tumblr’s birthchart and that’s super cute BUT EVEN CUTER I HAVE A 4H STELLIUM (awww) it’s like we’re family up in here (pluto (27°), mercury (4° - awe), and saturn (17°))!

this was pretty fun to throw together - feel free to reach out to me to talk more about astrology in general or about my posts (i just beg of you to not write just “hey” or “hey, how are you?” i can’t do topical convos (8h mercury, remember? lol)).

back to the regularly scheduled program: the mythology and astrology of nyx, goddess of the night.

Nyx is the daughter of Chaos and is considered a primordial. A primordial means that the being precedes Titans, Olympians, and mortals. She emerged from Chaos when time was created as a means to create balance in Chaos's creation. She is the maker of many things: Day, Sleep, Death, Moirai (the Fates), Aging, etc. She bore Uranus with Phanes and then Cronus with Uranus (lol don't say it, we know). She is essentially the reason the eras in myth exist - and myth exists at all. To gauge her power and intimidation level: Zeus is terrified of her. Once upon a time, Hera decided that Zeus was incapable of ruling so she called upon Sleep - Hypnos, as he is better known as - to help her with her plan. Hypnos placed Zeus in a deep sleep while Hera took over power of the gods. But Hypnos was not strong enough to keep Zeus asleep - Zeus was irate, Zeus blamed Hera but Hera convinced Zeus it was Hypnos's fault. Hypnos ran Tartarus - when they reached the darkness cavern, Nyx emerged. Nyx towered over Zeus and told him to leave and forget whatever it was Hypnos did if he knew what was best for him. Zeus immediately left. But when she is not scaring gods, she is changing day to night with her husband, Erebus. IN MY OPINION Nyx in a chart represents a) creation, b) how and where you create balance in life, c) being a mother, d) how and where you create change around you, e) where you are viewed as intimidating and/or all-knowing, and f) your relationship with the darkness.

i encourage you to look into the aspects of nyx along with the sign, degree, and house placement. for the more advanced astrologers, take a look at the persona chart of nyx AND/OR add the other characters involved to see how they support or impede nyx!

OTHER RELATED ASTEROIDS: chaos (19521), zeus (5731 / h42), hera (103), kronos (h43), and hypnos (14827)!

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[almadaub]

istg tiktok is nothing but a shit hole of “queer” men promoting kinks to 14 years old, liberal feminist talking about how great and amazing is to be a sex worker at the age of nineteen and college girls convincing themselves that being a bimbo is empowering and cool

and when you think that you finally found someone with a little bit of rational thinking, finally some young woman who is not totally enchanted by porn and male validation they let you down by justifying themselves with the discourse of “FUCK TERFS !! transphobia bAd 🤢🤢 trans women are women 😍😍” after giving a semi-regular “problematic” take about sex work, gender, etc etc

like literally, the first screenshot it’s from a girl who calls herself a radfem but somehow managed to not be gender critical bc it’s so transphobic and wrong !!! and even then the whole comment section was bashing her for her “radical�� feminism.

and the second video was one that absolutely amazed me when i watched it bc it said so many truths about how men profit of their relationship with women, even the platonic ones, and who they never stop seeing us a sexual objects to display for other men to see (even tho they know they’ll never get to fuck us). i was about to follow the second girl when i saw that in her bio said a very feminist “all terfs should be executed”

i loose hope every fucking day, the most controversial thing that these women let themselves say is “porn is bad” and “sex work positivity is predatory” and they STILL get attacked to the point that they have to clarify that they’re not the bad type of radfem !! and that they support trans rights !! it’s fucking insane.

in exchange men on tiktok get to hookup with minors without their careers being over, make rape jokes, attack every women that they see with a couple of extra pounds, laugh at their female partners and humiliate them and everything.is.ok

but you gotta be careful to have a fucking vagina and say something like hey !! 18 years old entering the porn industry it’s not okay bc people will come for you like there’s not tomorrow and wish you were dead

overall what makes me the most sad is the fact that these girls after seeing that people will get mad at every opinion that doesn’t involve glitter and shaking ass and being a teenager wearing fishnets and talking about neonpronouns, can’t dare themselves to just think outside the box, be problematic and loud and actually face social media’s mantras for once. no, they still decide to be “woke” and unproblematic and don’t go any way over line bc that will make them bad woman and that it’s just not aloud !

for god’s sake i just hope that there’s a brighter future for us young women when we stop being so afraid to speak and think

[thed4rkhand]

So today we’re doing Yoongi’s chart and my analysis of it. Let me make it clear right off the bat, that since I’m not a professional astrologer, some things may not match up, further since we’re not super sure of his birth time, it’ll definitely affect the reading. What I can be sure of is that I’ll do my best and I’m completely open to constructive criticism from you all!

Now lets get on with some basic stuff, for those who have not yet read the post with Namjoon’s moon analysis, I’ll again reiterate some principles of Vedic astrology! In the scenario that you’re still confused with all this jargon, feel free to reach out and I’ll be more than happy to help you out.

Starting out, we have to note that while western astrology is usually more advisory in nature, Vedic astrology’s main purpose is to predict. Also, we usually go a sign back from western astrology (24’ back to be more precise) in Vedic astrology, so according to that for example, if you’re a libra rising, you become a virgo rising in Vedic astrology and so on and so forth. All planets will also shift back a sign, so a Capricorn Mercury will become a Sagittarius Mercury.

Now let’s be aware that the chart may be a bit different, but given the main d1 (Lagna) chart remains the same for about 2 hours, let’s focus on that and the moon chart (rashi chart) for this reading. We can also just look at d9 for strength but not house placements as that can be time sensitive. So, we can take a two hour margin of time discrepancy and still predict accurately.

For this reading, we have taken 9th March 1993 as the day and 7:30am as the time of birth, with the location set to Daegu.

OTHER THAN THIS, LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT ME TO DO A BIRTH TIME RECTIFICATION FOR YOONGI LATER ON SO WE CAN GET MORE ACCURATE PREDICTIONS.

Since this is a general chart analysis, we shall be covering topics briefly and discussing the moon, ascendant and sun. For an in depth reading, do pick a smaller and focussed topic as we can honestly keep going on and on about a chart.

THIS READING WILL BE DONE IN SEVERAL 4 PARTS, FOLLOWING THE ASCENDANT, MOON, SUN AND MISCELLANEOUS.

Lets get started then-

Right off the bat, we can see that Yoongi is born into Pisces, with his ascendant at 10’35’, within the Nakshatra of Uttarabhadprada, within the 3rd quadrant or pada. He has venus situated in the lagna itself, in Pisces, thus exalted. His lagna lord, Jupiter, is in the 7th house, conjuct with the Moon, in the sign of virgo, where jupiter gains the upper hand despite mercury (lord of virgo) being enemies. The lord is directly aspected by mars in the fourth house. The lord of the birth Nakshatra is Saturn here, which sits in the 12th house, conjunct sun and mercury (dispositer of the ascendant lord). Lastly, moon, jupiter and rahu aspect the lagna of this chart. Of course there is so so much more here, but we’ve got a whole chart to cover!

(p.s I can already see this is such a fun chart to read)

Getting on with the reading, we firstly see that he’s born under Pisces lagna, this makes the native calm and collected, as well as fond of philosophy and psychology. What we often forget is, people born under Pisces are said to have been born under all the other signs in their past life, and cumulatively they use their skills and knowledge from those lives in their current one. Remember how on Bon Voyage trips and just about every RunBts, saga seems like the ‘dad’ of the bunch? cooking, cleaning, fixing stuff Joon broke, producing music and the stuff? And all those times that he is so very understanding of other? He doesn’t scold Jungkook, let alone anyone else? These are typical Pisces traits. They’re very domestic and understanding by nature, because they’ve been there before in a past life, and enjoy taking care of people.

The downside to this? They can be extremely manipulative if they want to be, they know exactly what to say, when to say, to whom to say and so on. They have an alarming grip on people’s emotions, and have a magnetic quality to them. Further, this is mostly an observation, you’ll often notice that most pisces natives are fond of alcohol (could be because they exist in a water sign? Could be because its the natural 12th house ruler of addictions too?)

Coming to the Nakshatra here, we have UttaraBhadrapada, the second last Nakshatra of the series. This Nakshatra is ruled by Saturn, and the presiding deity being Ananta or Ahir Budhyana, the deep ocean serpent in hindu mythology. The deity Ananta represents boundless expansion, be it of fortune, goodwill or knowledge. Ahir Budhyana, is a sattvic (sacred or untainted) form of lord Shiv, and resides at he bottom of the ocean. He represents the liberation from illusions and attainment of spiritual enlightenment and knowledge. The natives of this Nakshatra here embody these qualities of their deities. We see them as philanthropic and reserved beings, who enjoy learning about a variety of subjects and spirituality. Such people are extremely progressive in their thinking patterns, and often a magnetic pull like the deep ocean serpent has.

They’re extremely controlled and calculating in their approach, and think more than speak. This by no means is to say that they don’t speak, because such people are great orators by nature. They stand up for the underdogs and have a unique approach to topics. They are extremely interested in occult and metaphysical practices and theories. They however commonly don’t obtain higher education or do well in fields of fine arts, even their primary education is not something they excel at. (i once read that yoongi really likes reading about a variety of subjects, and also Paulo Coelho, definitely his UttaraBhadrapada here)

The bad side to this Nakshatra? They’re very critical and over-analyze everything and everyone. Sometimes, even unconsciously, they manipulate people to suit their needs and whims. They get side tracked too often and have difficulty focussing on one task at hand, often amounting to laziness in other people’s eyes, even if the native is extremely hardworking in reality. However when in comes to personal care, they tend to do things in a very half-hearted manner. These people are also prone to isolating themselves from others, especially when things get hard. Due to the sign falling in pisces here, people also tend to have many different mental burdens and disorders, which arise from their constant scatter-brained self and inability to make out between the spiritual and real realms.

They can also be heavy drinkers and abuse substances in such a Nakshatra, or enjoy partaking in occult practices while under influences. They might’ve also faced a very rough childhood with such a Nakshatra, neglected and misunderstood by people around him. The natives could also have moved away from their parents during their early adulthood for education or job purposes. Such people can have health issues like hemorrhoids, stomach ailments and hernias. Usually they lead a stable period full of health and success in the latter part of life, say about after 48 years(since the south node Ketu matures as 48).

Since Suga’s Nakshatra falls into the third pada or quadrant, its ruled by libra here. Libra here focusses on balance and cooperation. Such people may make a living working with other people, or in industries related to entertainment. They may make great debaters, and think excessively about what other think of them as. They’re very conscious of other’s opinion, even if they don’t show it, so we often find such people wearing extremely covered up and baggy clothes for example, or keeping a low profile. They may have a very practical and unbiased approach to most things in life. Such people are intensely into spiritual practices and often times fully devote themselves at hours at a time to worship of gods, angel or other beings. They may be the type to attract people very easily, or even be the kind to fall in love extremely easily.

The second placement we come to, is Venus in the first house, in Pisces. Venus here is naturally exalted (most powerful). Sure ill give you the generic explanation in a bit but, do you know which type of people usually have this placement? Actual saints and famed occultists. Sure many people within the entertainment industry too, but this placement can hands down be one of the most spiritual and divine placements of Venus in the chart. First ill go ahead and give the normal meaning and effect, and then lets dive into the crazy stuff (istg his chart is so goooood). Such people usually have really magnetic personalities, and given Venus is in Uttarabhadrapa, these are the people who you don’t notice at first, but then its like a whirlpool of being invested in them, as opposed to being in Revati Nakshatra (another Piscean nakshatra) which would be a more dramatic pull, based off an extroverted personality. These people can be very good looking, more feminine looking, could definitely look like their mothers with this position. Brilliant luck in fields of arts and entertainment and also genius level of creativity and talent. Here, people can have brilliant luck too, like god’s hand on their head kind. Accumulation of wealth and property can also be seen here.

Now onto the really fun stuff. These people are actually rarely concerned with someone’s exterior, because often times such people have such good intuition and spiritual powers (some are literally called mystics because of this), they can literally see through someone. For this reason, they actually don’t like associating with too many people, despite having a very charming personality. These are the kind of people that keep searching for ‘the one’. These people often give up everything and go ahead and become priests. The calling to god with such a placement is very strong. They also don’t like collecting too many material possessions, as they feel its redundancy in this very changing world. These people hold the few people they’re close to, very very tightly to themselves. These people also may have a very low sexual drive actually, (i know, I know, how can a strong Venus do this?) because an exalted Venus is about devotion to god, to one person, and leaving sensory pleasures behind in life. A debilitated Venus on the other hand (eg. Jungkook has one) might make someone very invested in worldly matters. These people are happy with being alone and single for a long time, they’re very satisfied with their own company. Such placements can make someone practice magick or astral projection too. (Venus in 12th sign of liberation, liberation from physical body)

Given that in this chart, Venus is his 3rd and 8th lord, we can make further deductions. Firstly, since 3rd lord is going 11 houses away, its an extremely auspicious placement here. Self made person, making wealth through communication, can also have very witty and intelligent responses to things. Since the third house also represents courage and valor, this can make someone very fearless and say whats on their mind bluntly. Since the 3rd house is part of the Kama Trikon houses (houses of desire), this going into the 1st house, which is a part of the Dharma Trikon houses (houses of morality), gives interesting results here. Firstly, such people are fiercely independent, and hate to be disrupted when there pursuing their goals and working towards them. They hate to take help from anyone, and as a result are extremely competent. secondly, such people have a moral high ground, to which they religiously abide. They’re extremely righteous and stand up for those who wouldn’t be able to for themselves. Since from here, it aspects the 7th house of agreements, such people are great at understanding and signing contracts for work.

Now with the 8th house, we have a bit of a conundrum here honestly. It belongs to 2 types of houses, the moksha trikona houses (houses of salvation) as well as the Dushtana houses (evil houses). While this placement isn’t all that bad, it isn’t he best either. firstly though, this is a placement where the native always wins over their enemies (8th lord 6 houses away from itself), be it enemies as in people, or simply obstacles in their life. This also confers a long lifespan to people, given that his 8th lord is also exalted here. However such people are prone to accidents, given that the 1st house is the body, 8th house is sudden events and the natural 8th ruler mars is a karka or signifactor of vehicles. Such people are also against organized forms of religions, since the Dushtana lord is sitting in a dharma house. The native is also extremely private and secretive given the 1st house of self has the 8th lord of secrets sitting in it. Since it also aspects the 7th house of other people, this person has that aura of mystery about them because of this. Such people are deeply critical in nature but can have extreme wisdom in cases of hidden objects or matters of the occult.

Now coming to his aspects. His Venus is aspected by moon, Jupiter and Rahu. The first two are benefic in nature and the latter is malefic. Moon-Venus and Jupiter-Venus are also mutually aspecting each other in pairs here. Moon here gives Venus the property of being constantly cynical of themselves regards to what others may perceive them as, given moon is emotion and the 7th house here is other people. Their thoughts here are deeply influenced by other people, they may always keep serving other people too, through acts of service. This also makes someone who falls in love very easily, but it is important to engage this person’s mind in a relationship, they just cant do without an emotional bond here. Since Moon also represents fame in a chart, this makes a person very famous, as they receive attention from many people, and people want to analyze them, and enjoy their work and presence.

Jupiter here, makes the person level headed and practical. The person wouldn’t be all touchy feely with people they like, because they would like to remain more in control of the situation here. They’d rather engage in a full blown debate with someone, than hold hands. This also makes them very worldly and teacher like, while also being attracted to very worldly people themselves.

Rahu’s aspect on the other hand, makes someone stand out in a crowd (Rahu signifies an outcast), they may have a rough and cold exterior due to this. They may also have had issues with body image (1st house is self), or mental health here. These people are enamored by all things foreign, and love exploring the other cultures. They may have issues identifying with their own community at large, and may identify with the downtrodden of the society.

Now going to Jupiter and moon conjunction in the 7th house. I wont go very deep into this, as its a super interesting concept, and it’ll be better covered in the second part of the reading regarding the moon itself, so ill keep it short and related to the ascendant. Also the mutual aspect part will be explained in more detail in the miscellaneous section later. Plus this is getting far too long for even me now.

Getting on with the reading for now, moon and Jupiter here are in virgo, in a loose conjunction (one is at approximately 2’ and the other at 18’). This is actually one of the not very yogas (combinations)in a chart, about 15% of people have these. Its called the Gaj-Kesari yoga (the elephant and lion combination), because people with this are so extremely lucky, its like the kings of the jungle are together to support it. They have the wisdom of the elephant and the courage of a lion. This is a raj yoga (royal combination). a native born with Gaj-Kesari Yoga is intelligent, strong, and prosperous. Gaj or Elephant possesses immense strength and is devoid of pride and the Lion is known for his foresight and skillful intelligence as well as his strength, quickness, skillful leadership, ability and courage. Thus, when Gaj-Kesari Yoga is formed then that person is extremely successful. They will be a kind and philanthropic person, who will always have sympathy for others. They will be quite humble regarding work, would like to talk nicely to people and aim to attain spiritual progress in life. Many people will recognize them as their mentor or guide and will act according to their instructions or advice. They may have a tendency attracting people and people being magnetized by them. They will be blessed with abundant wealth and become the owner of movable and immovable property(cars as well as homes). They will establish relationships with rich and reputed people of the society and enjoy all kinds of material pleasures in life.

Since this occurs in virgo, it makes a person intelligent, sharp and gifts them with amazing memory power. Such a person is knowledgeable and can become the head of a large educational institution. He may own incomparable wealth and can earn a good name and money from business as well. Often such people earn a high reputation in the Stock Market and make progress in life by working in any financial institution or insurance sectors.

Here jupiter in particular makes someone extremely cynical in nature, and their mind is always, and I mean always, thinking about romantic relationships or platonic ones. However given that jupiter is also the 10th lord here, they could be extremely focused on work too. Their life is surrounded by contracts, and may work with others for a living(7th house is house of courts and partnership). They could be very interested in the financial sector here, they could be extremely money minded and money means stability to them. Moon here on the other hand makes the person very moody, and extremely dependent on their spouse or colleagues. Since it rules the fifth house here, it signifies that such people are extremely creative in their work, may work for children or young adults, have a lot of past life karma related to work, and also that they’re extremely devoted lovers. They tend to criticize their close friends and loved ones, just because they’re so cynical and blunt, and want the absolute best for people. They may hurt people’s feeling without realizing it sometimes. (this was very brief but refer to point 12)

Now coming to Saturn in 12th, as the lord of the birth nakshatra. Saturn over here signifies working in the fields of music, but given saturn represents electronics, it could mean a producer too. Since its in Aquarius here, a sign of dual lordship, this resents a constant up and down of mood and life spirit. The person with such a placement is confused with what truly makes them happy in life, the spiritual realm or the materialistic realm. They keep going up and down the path of being spiritual, till 36 years (saturn matters at 36). They may face a lot of mental disorders here. They may have trouble sleeping at night. Given saturn is also work, they may earn through foreign sources in life. Such a person invests money into properties (saturn is houses) and lacks liquid cash. The person may have a weak left eye (12th house is left eye). They may earn from multiple sources in life, and have multiple talents. Such people have low sex drives as saturn is a dry eunuch planet, and in the 12th house of bed pleasures, it may not allow native to enjoy it. They may not be interested in worldly pleasures with such placements.

Lastly (finally?), we have to discuss the looks! Pisces ascendents usually have the short to medium height, and tend to appear a little fuller even when they’re very scrawny. (its because jupiter is the largest planet). Uttarabhadrapada natives tend to have a very innocent look to them, a very calming nature and vibe. however, like the deep sea serpant, they have very deep and magnetic eyes, and a very expressive face (yoongi memes). They usually have a very beautiful smile, and can literally attract people with it (again the snake like quality). They tend to have a very blank look usually, and if you ever notice, they’ll have the most stunning eyelashes actually, given the yoni is the female cow. They might also have the habit of moving their mouth around when their thinking, quite like ruminating.

Given venus sits here, is gives the person very attractive, effeminate features. Think extremely renaissance type of soft features. It can give them very delicate hands and feet with such a placement. The moon aspect here, gives them a rounded face and pale skin. They might have sparkly eyes and a roundish appearance here, also the tendency to gain weight around their face, with short necks. They make also look much younger than their actual age.The jupiter aspect again makes the native very other worldly looking, almost like you can imagine them in a dark robe literally performing rituals. It gives people a calm and teacher type of vibe to them. The rahu aspect usually just blows qualities out of proportion. Have you seen how small and angelic suga looks compared to the other? (not saying they’re not angelic but still), thats the rahu aspect. Again, rahu aspects only get better with time.

So this was my analysis! If anyone has any questions or doubts, hit me up! Let me know if you enjoyed it!

[those-lost-words]

How i let go of the old story.

So I'd been trying to live in the end of my manifestations but somehow my old thought patterns kept popping up in my head. It was as if one day i was focusing on living in the end and the next day i was spiralling.

I was fed up of being so back and forth, obviously because the old thought patterns brought distress to me. So why the hell would i wanna persist in such thoughts?

Enough was enough, i decided to purge the thoughts. I sat down in my room in silence, putting my phone away (important). And started to think: the old story of my sp and i, the limiting beliefs, the terrible self concept of mine, everything. But keep in mind that i assumed them to be just powerless negative thoughts rather than something that "might manifest if i think about it." I cried and yelled at my sp in my mind for what they were doing wrong and how much it hurt me etc. (Again, i assumed this as me letting out all the feelings that i had bottled up inside me, the things I wanted to say to my sp to express my feelings. I did not consider this as inner conversation ). Now once that was done, i took my journal and i wrote down every single thing that was on my mind. My mind was racing with so many thoughts, but i wrote everything down...all the victim mentality thoughts, all the wrong assumptions i had about my sp. I wrote it as "i think * insert negative belief*".

I literally filled up around 6 full pages front and back. I felt so much lighter. Now what i did is, i striked the whole thing out.

" i think * i am not good enough*"

I just striked it all affirming to myself that these thoughts are false and by striking out I'm taking it out of my mind.

Now i wasn't done, this was my anger and pent up emotions so i tore the pages and put fire to them. I watched it burn, it was night so I could see the flames brightly.

THIS WAS THE MOST LIBERATING, MOST SATISFYING PART OF MY LIFE AS I JUST BURNT EVERYTHING THAT HAD BEEN WEIGHING ME DOWN SO IT NO LONGER EXISTED.

So yes as it was burning, i affirmed how the old story is gone and now this is my new reality where i have all my desires.

Then i went and showered and imagine turning into the new me with every splash of water drops on me and all the things that wasn't serving me in my life, i imagined it all washing away...(a shower because it gives the feeling of the water washing away, bath feels stagnant to me.)

ISTG it worked like a charm and now i am in my new reality and no old story even exists for me. Just like that, i let go of my old self and stepped into my power, a reality where everything i want is already mine.

[mingmingfufu]

Can we just talk about the ending of KawoShin open discuss. *sort of spoilerish*

I feel like I’m the only one who’s like reallly disappointed LMFAO--ya’ll there’s so much “canon” alternative universe and merchandise for Kawoshin in Evangelion that it kind of makes me upset to realise this couple just went down the drain. Yeah, I can see how people were like, “Kaworu’s toxic” or “Kaworu has a hero complex for Shinji” to which I say are valid points. But the toxic thing I feel like can also be applied to pretty much everyone around Shinji tbh, except for Rei. I did NOT, like Asuka at all but I really love her character though, and I felt for her a lot throughout the series.

I did not ship them either because honestly, Shinji and Asuka seemed better off playing the sibling dynamic instead of trying to play bf/gf which honestly is kind of forced by their living situation. Also since they’re in a similar disposition non existent father and dead mother, you’d imagine they would rely on each other for emotional comfort. Though Asuka—her personality I feel like she can’t differentiate between familial love and romantic love and the affection she wants is a bit of both. But, her character tries to be “mature”; she wants romantic love more and does this through sexual means and romantic gestures e.g. like kissing. One of my friends told me that you can’t stay friends as a boy and a girl cause eventually you catch feelings. Which I say is kinda dumb cause I have a lot of male friends, and I definitely don’t harbour those feelings, but I guess it’s a common phenomena.

I think this is what happens in this case, of Asuka and Shinji. Even after rejection of instrumentality they actually are depicted as childhood friends. But knowing how they both were before to each other, it was not good tbh. Also to mention the choking like thrice— bro if anything, this showcases a really abusive relationship and I think this outstretches the idea of their character tropes. Which I firmly stand by saying they’re superficial to each other. AsuShin were never really there for each other and are using each other in a forced situation. However, you can’t deny that they didn’t at some point catch feels, also Shinji is pretty consistent how he still cares about everyone around him. Which I really like how they add that to his character because it reminiscent of Yui, because you see a duality of both his parents personality in Shinji throughout the series—it’s a really nice touch. But bruh, if we gonna talk about that coma scene—I’m out LOL.

Thoughhhh, she is a true definition of best girl I really like her arc, fighting drive, and her skills as an Eva pilot 😭💗--but bruh she’s still a toxic and sometimes annoying tsundere trope, but still she’s 14 what can you do. So I feel like Kensuke and Asuka are actually a pretty good combo, cause he’s always been pretty mature even without parents. Also Asuka was into older guys, so I guess this is a win win?? Also Rei and Shinji, I honestly cannot get my head around it cause that’s pretty much his mom—so in a way that’s like either his half-sister or mom-ish clone?? Idk but Yui is definitely the donor LOL.

Kaworu and Shinji I felt like brought a bunch of things out of each other. I don’t know which timeline begins first, but I’d like to think the manga, the anime (plus its movies), and then to the rebuild series. Because I think that order is kind of pivotal to observing Kaworu’s character development from being a person who’s trying to understand human feelings to then the kinder person we see in the final series. You can tell how he’s changed and he knows Shinji a lot more as well as being considerate to him e.g. giving him personal space or letting him work at his own pace. Also that “we’ll meet again.” Is an obvious nod to how he’s done this before.

His literal story in every timeline is always romantic LOL, like bruh I can’t remember which game it was but basically a bad ending of Kawoshin route is that you reject Kaworu and he starts the third impact 🤡. Also I don’t know why but I started to see a weird dynamic between those two, in the manga their interactions reminded me of Asuka and Shinji—which Shinji is the tsundere Asuka here. I don’t know if this is relevant but the older character relative to the character they’re with seems to play off a mature vs a childish person trope. Asuka is younger than Shinji and Shinji is actually younger than Kaworu. Then again I could be overseeing this but istg manga Kaworu and Shinji mirror the whole Asushin dynamic. Like he’s seriously agressive against Kaworu, then after killing him he admits liking him. 🤡 I don’t know which is funnier no homo Shinji, homophobe shinji, or just closet Shinji who needs to realise sexuality is a spectrum so he could’ve idk—come out as bisexual, but whatever manga Shinji lol that timeline is over.

Anyways the development of these two is real and I think the rebuild timeline shows them at their best bringing their own personage out from each other like how they both enjoy music together--WHICH I’M SO SAD WE NEVER GET TO SEE THAT CELLO AGAIN. Then there’s those feelings of humanity, love, kindness, etc. Which yeah an angel could represent those things, but Kaworu is still his own person, self-aware of a cycle and if you think about how he initially was there to USE Shinji, but ultimately turned on that plan set by SEELE because he loved Shinji (and a bunch of other things like him showing Kaworu humanity). I also can see the argument, how “ideal” Kaworu is to Shinji, but he’s more self aware of the time he has before he KNOWS he’ll die and knows how to act for himself in that duration to make the most of it. All with Shinji. At some point, I think he fell in love with Shinji tho I don’t know where it began tbh—considering that all those alternate universes do exist. Kaworu does romantically love Shinji--so, in some universe they both reciprocate their feelings to each other. 

In the last movie during that convo with Shinji. Like bREH it’s so emotionally moving because Kaworu remembers ALLLLL the timelines and how he’s been with Shinji and later Shinji himself recalls the events too. Where they show the scene from the manga and anime. Kaworu cries after being set free from the EVA cycle. Which, I definitely understood what he meant by him saying “it’ll be lonely” and how Shinji changed or that he’s actually different this time.

Either way, Shinji did right by him because it’s always Kaworu who has the purpose of “trying to save Shinji” but it always ends up the same. I thought that was really moving because Shinji tells Kaworu he’s gonna let him live a life for himself for once and he wants the same for everyone as well. Which was honestly so meaningful cause I think Kaworu’s character and like Rei too when they start to realise how to “live” like a person and not another puppet it’s truly liberating. Another thing I forgot, bruh Kaworu calls Gendo his father and ngl I feel like this is kind of a weird lore situation because I for sure don’t think he’s the donor. I think he calls him that as an insult because he knows Gendo’s whole doing and relative to Shinji—I kind of see it as a joke LOL. Like it’s equivalent to saying, “daddy chill”, or “hey look it’s daddy and his plans to end the world” also I kind of like to think of it as a father in law thing cause you know, Kawoshin *winks amirite*

The ending, I’m honestly hoping is just an open ending because it gives everything an actual start of their adult lives not being dictated by extraterrestrial forces. Though, I’m kind of wondering if the world doesn’t have EVAs does that still mean everyone else still has the same backstory, and do they remember? Maybe Mari really is just a coworker lmfao, and there’s still a chance for Kaworu and Shinji cause ngl, they did have a convo (presumably from the spoilers) about still remaining close afterwards and that stare at the ending seems very hopeful.

I call bs from Anno saying, “oh Shinji is based off him and Mari off of his wife”, like honestly any OCs made theres always some part of yourself made into that character. Which is probably why a lot of people relate to the characters in EVA because they’re based off real things (e.g. those war machines characters are named after and people around them). I think why Kaworu and Rei are together at the end, is bc they’re very much the same. They’re mass produced dolls—which oddly enough that’s the case for all the children except they don’t recall the loop. Kind of funny also how both Kaworu and Rei became farmers lmfao so ig it runs in the family (yes that’s right I like the idea that they’re siblings it was always noted that they’re like “the same”).

Another thing, i think why the rebuild really did well for Kawoshin and in my opinion canonised it—the convo with elder Ryoji Kaji (Misato’s baby daddy) that there was a time he felt incredibly lonely and depressed thinking Misato didn’t love him and so he started looking out for himself. So self love and found himself a hobby in farming which he suggests to Kaworu—basically saying he might feel like Shinji doesn’t love him but he’s gotta remember to take care of himself. if I go thru a breakup ill feel like it’s the end of the world but Kaji says y’a gotta self love broe and take care yo self gad dam fam 😭 💗.

Though, that look at the end from Shinji to Kaworu—I’d like to believe there is still hope that one day when they’re a bit stable in their adult lives, they’ll run into each other.