#LIKE YOU THINKING THAT MELTED MY HEART

[hoshiina]

pairing: hoshina soushirou x gn!reader (no prns)

summary: he still dreams of you and wishes for another chance to make you his, some lines are inspired by hakujitsu by king gnu

warnings: reader is rather lively/bubbly,

notes: TYSM FOR 100 !!!, a/n (yapping) in tags

wc: 1800

Hoshina Soushirou still dreamt of you. Every once in a while, you’d come to visit him in his sleep and it would make him believe that a miracle had occurred, that he had another chance. Every time, he would tell himself that he would never let this go, that he would give it his absolute all this time.

Yet, every time, he would wake up from this dream.

And every time, he would feel his heart drop at the realization of that. He was disappointed, and he knew, but there was no reason to be. It wasn't like anything had happened between the two of you. He liked to believe there was something going on— something more than mere acquaintances or friends, but he knew there wasn't. It must've been all in his head because the last time he had heard of you was before you were moved to the first division. He hadn't heard a single word from you since then, nor has he said anything— but that was just the way it was. There was nothing to do at this point anyway.

He wasn’t with you for all that long, and it was probably just the fact that both of you joined at the same time that naturally started the first conversation. He was far more weary of everything and far less cheerful at the time, and you didn't even work with him most of the time being a researcher, but you didn’t mind that one bit. If you had something you wanted to say, you would tell him and he’d just have to listen. At first, he had no idea why you kept talking to him when he paid hardly any mind, but after a while, he found comfort in your conversations. He had started to look forward to talking to you.

It had only been a few months before the defense force noticed how spectacular your work was and quickly called you over to the first division. There wasn’t a tearful farewell, or even a casual goodbye for that matter. You disappeared along with a cheerful ‘I’ll see you around!’ while you were moving your boxes out and he would hear those words ring in his head for the years to come— in your voice. Yet, at the time, all he could do was force a smile and nod.

It had been so many years since you had moved, he didn’t even know what you looked like now. Probably still stunning. Definitely still stunning. Although he had the chance to see the 1st division officers a lot, you were a researcher who worked behind the scenes. Naturally, there was no reason he'd bump into you, and he didn’t. He never did.

He loved to remember you, but he hated to think about you. He loved to remember the way you would laugh at his silly jokes, the way you would ramble on about the work you had to do daily but would still put in your all, and the way you would always visit him with some cold tea when he trained late into the night if you were still up as well. Actually, he hated thinking about the tea— it would make him start thinking about you. He would think about how you were now, if you were still pilled with work, and if you remembered him.

If he bumped into you, would you remember his name? Maybe if he cracked a lame joke. Maybe if he gave you a few days to think about it. Maybe if he started listing the things you talked about— his most treasured memories. Maybe then you’d say his name again.

See? This is why he hated thinking about you— he had things to be doing.

It wasn't like this happened everyday and it wasn't that big of a deal. It just ruined his day a little when it did happen. So if he had to say, he hated dreaming of you.

As you took over his thoughts again, the emergency alarm started to buzz, as if to tell him to snap out of it. He was thankful, he couldn't still be daydreaming like this.

A smaller-sized identified grade kaiju had appeared near the first division quarters, so the third division was doing more backup work this time. Hoshina was taking care of the smaller kaiju in the vicinity that had spawned from the presence of the honju. It felt nice for him to be doing work, it took his mind off his ramblings and cleared his head. He wasn't too worried about the honju, however. Although it was an identified grade, it wasn't anything they hadn't dealt with before and as much as he liked to tease Narumi about how he was always better at smaller kaiju neutralization, he knew Narumi was extraordinary at what he did.

At least that would have been true for any other kaiju of that size and strength, but Narumi seemed to be struggling far more than expected with this one. From his earpiece, he heard Okonogi notify him that the 1st division was asking to send Narumi some help if possible, and he immediately rushed over.

Yet, by the time he got there, Narumi had already neutralized the kaiju in question, although horribly beat up.

“I don't need your help, Hoshina!” Narumi still managed to yell while on the floor, absolutely bleeding out.

“Oh, shut up, do you want to die?” Hoshina asked. It didn't take an expert to see that Narumi’s condition was concerning.

Narumi soon fell quiet, probably unconscious, while Hoshina found his earpiece lying on the floor near him. He picked it up, hoping it'd connect to the first division just in case they had lost connection to his vitals.

“He's unconscious right now, but he seems to still be breathing. However, he's bleeding dangerously from multiple spots. I think a few ribs might also be broken,” Hoshina said. “There aren't any kaiju nearby at the moment and I'll take care of them if any do come— bring the stretcher right away.”

He waited a moment, but there was no response from the earpiece.

“Hello?” he asked, hoping for a response. After another moment, he heard it.

“Hoshina…?”

It was you. He would still recognize your voice from anywhere. Oh, how he missed you. His eyes were wide and he had nothing to say all of a sudden. You remembered him. You recognized his voice.

You remembered his name.

“Thank you for your report, we lost connection to some of his vitals halfway through. The medics should be there in a few minutes,” you said.

“I'll stand by,” Hoshina said and kept Narumi's earpiece in his ear. He had nothing he wanted to tell you, not one thing in mind, but he wanted to be on the line with you— even in silence. The medics came in a few minutes like you had told him and took care of Narumi right away.

“They got here, he should be fine now,” Hoshina said, as if you didn't already know. He just wanted something to say to you.

“I missed working with you,” you said and he couldn't believe his ears. Perhaps he'd wake up from this dream again. Perhaps he'd open his eyes and be utterly disappointed again. But he knew there wasn't even a hint of romantic affection in your words, just the respect you've always had for the work he did, and how you missed doing this job with him. And he did too.

“Yeah, I did too,” he said. “I still do.”

You chuckled a little and he could still picture you smiling. “That made my entire year,” you said. “Probably not the time for this, but we should catch up sometime. If you don't mind, of course.”

Made your year. What did you mean by that? And If he didn't mind? Oh, you didn't know how many times he's dreamed of this day.

“I'd love to,” he said. While he was a little embarrassed to imagine the rest of the first-division team hearing this conversation, that was not going to stop him. He'd be an absolute fool to let this chance go. He has promised himself to give it his all this time.

“Are you seeing anyone?” he asked quietly.

“Sorry?” you asked, hoping he'd repeat that. You heard it, but you were afraid you were so delusional you were starting to hear things. Your heartbeat quickened and you waited patiently, hoping it wasn't all in your head.

“Do you have a lover?” he asked a little more clearly, but obviously still nervous and flustered. You had never seen him like this, ever.

“No,” you replied, a little too quickly. “I do not.”

Relief washed over him and he felt his heartbeat quicken. Oh, thank goodness you didn't have access to his vitals. He was going to make you fall for him somehow.

“…do you?” you asked quietly, after a moment.

“Me?” he asked. “No, I don't.”

“I see,” you said, but he could hear the soft delight in your voice. He would never miss it.

Perhaps he'd just go for it. There was nothing for him to lose at this point, and he had made his feelings plenty obvious already. If you didn't want him, he'd just try again. He's tried countless times in his dreams already, what's a few more?

“But I'd love to be yours,” he said and heard you gasp quietly. That one he couldn't read. Was that a little too bold? Far too sudden?

“Did I hear that right?” he faintly heard you scream, asking your fellow first division coworkers. That made him laugh, you hadn't changed one bit. “I’ve loved you forever, Hoshina.”

There was absolutely no way. He was going to wake up soon, he just knew it. Well, might as well indulge in the dream for now, then.

“I've definitely loved you for longer,” he said.

“Hoshina, I'm going to kill you if this is a dream,” you said, and that caught him off guard. Yet, even that sounded nice to him, and that made him smile. He'd get to see you, at least.

But it wasn't a dream. The way your voice fluttered his heart could never be felt through a dream. The way your laugh filled his soul could not possibly make him feel so warm through a mere dream.

“I cannot wait to see you,” you said softly, your voice so full of love it made him melt.

He couldn't either, but that wasn't exactly what he had on mind this entire time.

“And I cannot wait to kiss you.”

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy Valentine's Day! (and this blog's first post anniversary!)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i saw them in the cookbook pages and Immediately thought of this meme:

[samismasawaysblog]

WAAAAAA I AM CRYING IM ABSOLUTLY CRYING

IM GONNA PRINT THIS AND PUT IT AND FRAME IT AND IM SAYING THIS FOR REAL!

Also thank you so much for your kind words you are an amazing person as well. Im so glad to meet you and Im so happy that we kept talking. Our first time talking was your sun and moon headcanon and you have become my sun become my light become my energy <333333

ALSO WE ARE GONNA TALK MORE AND KEEP IN TOUCH BC IM NOT LETTING YOU GO IM GONNA ATTACH TO YOU LIKE A LEACH (jk more like a koala or a sloth big hug attachment style 😊👊)

You make me so happy too and im glad to be able to make you happy too🥺🥺🥺🥺

NoW on to the drawing

I LOVE HOW SQUISH EVERYTHING LOOKS I LOVE LOVE LOVE THE COLOURS YOU USED IM IN LOVE WITH THEM AND IM IN LOVE WITH YOUR STYLE

ThE SIDE BURNS RAAAAAAAAAAA

AND THE LITTLE BLORBOS IM AWASAWAWAAWAWAWAAKSW COMBUST

GHOST SLEEPING ON MY HEAD WITH HEADPHOENS ON AWAWAWAA HE DO BE USING THE FRONT OF MY HAIR AS A BED I HOPE ITS COMFORTABLE THERE LITTLE WAR MACHINE

GAZ ON MY ARM BEING ALL CUTE LOOKS EXACTLT LIKE HOW I HOLD MULTIPLE CATS FRFR ABD HIS LITTLE HAND FLAPPING SO CUTE I DO THAT TOOOO JUST LIKE ME FRFRFR ADORABLE BLORBO WILL KEEP IT ON MY POCKET

SOAAPPO SOAPAPAPAPA IM CRYING BC OF THAT CUTE BLORBO  ABSOLUTLY ADORABLE I LOVE HOW IM MESSING WITH HIS HAIR AND HIS KNEE BRACE RAAAAAAAAAA ILL GIVE THAT BLORBO AS MANY EXPLOSIVES AS THEY WANTS

AND LASYLY ME IM CEYING IM SOBNING IM ON THE FLOOR ROLLING ON MY HAPPY TEARS IM TWIRLING AROUND FLAPPING MY HANDS

THE HIGH COLARS WITH THE SWEATER

AND MY BACK BEING ROLLED UP DO YOU KNOW HOW I LAY DOWN OR SMT? MY PARENTS ALWAYS WARNS ME ABOUT THAT WHEN I LAY ON MY STOMACH

(also at first i thought it was a jacket and i fr was like I NEED A HIGH COLARED YELLOW BLUE JACKET I NEED IT LIKE I NEED Oxygen so thank you for helping me found a new clothe/fashion that i like AND I WANT) MY LASHES? SLAYING frfr

ALSO THE LITTLE TUFF OF HAIR THAT FELL DOWN I AM EATING THAT FR NOW

my eyebrows are slaying as well like damnnn i need to have those eyebrows (also blue eyebrows im noting that shit down) THE EYES RAAAAA AND AND THE HANDS I WOULD HOLD MY HANDS FR THEY LOOK SO SOFT IN YOUR STYLEEE AND AND AND MY CHEECK SO KISSABLE CAN YOU KISS EM FOR ME 🥺🤩🤩🤩🤭🤭🤭🤭 I am going to bite my ear btw A LOVING BITE

YOUR STYLE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA IM IN LOVE IM ON THE GROUND FROM LOVE HEARTS ARE POURING FROM MY EYES

I AM EATING YOUR COLORS AND COLORING STYLE AND THE THE SKETCH LIKE COLORING (do they called rakes? like the lines on the painting ) IM EATING THOSE TOO AND YOUR LIGHTING IM RAAAAAAA There is you behind me fr to have that much lighting on my back frfr You are shining down on me and im soaking up your light and photosynthesis.

I LOVE THE LITTLE HEART TOO BTW ABSOLUTLY ADORABLE HEART SO CUTE TATOOING THIS ON ME FR

IM GONNA TATTOO THE WHOLE IMIGE İNSİDE MY EYELİDS SO EVEN WHEN MY EYES ARE CLOSED ILL SEE IT ACTUALLY ILL TATTOO IT ON MY RETINA FRFR

THANK YOU FOR TAKING YOUR TIME TO THINK ABOUT ME AND MAKING ME THIS ABSOLUTE SHOWSTOPPING ADORABLE PRESENT IM HOLDING THIS SO SOFT AMD PUTTING IT ON A HIGH SHELF AND LOOKING AT IT FOR HOURS

You make my life so bright and im so glad you keep me on your orbit my sun, my sol, my star LOVE YOU LOTS!!!!!

@sam-nochncs A little present for you <3

Time for being sappy

Thank you for being an amazing person and (while we haven’t known each other for long) an amazing friend. You’re one of the kindest individuals I have had the pleasure of meating and talking to, and I hope we can talk even more and more because talking to you makes me so happy <3 You make me very happy <3

Keep being awsome and amazing <3

Okay I’m done being sappy (lies)

[averlym]

litany of the martyrs (click for better resolution!)

[royalarchivist]

Pac: Oh, and I have a lot of like, materials. If you want some materials Fit, and you wanna grab maybe like, from Chume Labs, you can pick it up, ok?

Fit: [Sincerely] Oh, thank you Pac. Thank you. You're too- you're too good to me Pac, you're too good to me.

Pac: Yeah, you're too good to me too, Fit.

Fit: You're so thoughtful, you're so thoughtful. So thoughtful.

Pac: [A bit bashful] Oh, thank you.

Fit: [Laughs]

[fairyofshampgyu]

he’s literally so beautiful and handsome

[mamuzzy]

The original book version of Witcher had a short story named The Lesser Evil.

I read it far too long time ago, but it was about how Geralt got the name of the Butcher of Blaviken.

A Wizard offers a job to Geralt to protect him from a "Monster", a cursed girl who is out for her life and killing her is a lesser evil choice. Because Geralt has values of not killing people, he refuses.

When he meets the girl, Renfri, she tells Geralt her life story, telling him why she pursues the wizard, and wants to hire Geralt to help to kill him, because the wizard is a "Monster" and killing him would be the lesser evil. Geralt refuses and try to talk down Renfri to take revenge but in the end it was futile, the girl try it anyway.

Geralt always had trouble with choosing sides, the topic of neutrality, staying out of people's businesses once he knew too much.

In the end, Geralt can't run away from choosing sides, because he wanted to do the right thing. He ends up killing Renfri and her band while the wizard lives.

The mob turns against Geralt and shun him, and while the guards don't arrest him, because he protected the wizard, they ask him never to return to this town.

I think a lot about this story.

[ratatatastic]

quite honestly we should have a canadian whos sole job it is to make a finn giggle do pressers together more often just for the chaos

if i had a nickle for everytime this happened id have two nickles which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice.

2024 nhl global series finland game 1 postgame interview | 11.1.24 (x)

[ghostwnby]

I can't get over young Seb 😭💕 he's so CUTE

[souenkun]

Maybe manifesting for your favorite character to appear in the gacha game you've been addicted by writing them in a fanfic actually works! 🤯

Excerpt taken from "the home that awaits us".

[5mary5]

AHHHHHHHHHHH???????

🥴🥴🥴😵‍💫😵‍💫🫠🫠🫠

[quietwingsinthesky]

i do love canon amy & rory but god, does some part of me wish they really had gone with the idea of the doctor picking up a child as a companion (and then later, that child’s best friend with a huge crush on her.) with the rest of the season really not changing at all, except now it’s amelia pond with an angel in her head killing her and lost alone in the woods. it’s little rory who dies and is forgotten and becomes a toy soldier. if this is going to be a fairy tale, then let it be one. children have never been safe in fairy tales.

[soggy-fishsticks]

hey guys sorry if posting my art takes a little while I've been too busy thinking about visual kei fashion and gnawing on my enclosure abt it xoxo 💋💕🫶

rant in tags beware ⚠️🤓

[silentstaresfanficandfanart]

my handsome boyfriend is helping me fix an error im having with a vector2 thing getting converted wrong thing, i need to dance with him in the moonlight immediately

i may not know how to program very good but so help me do i know how to pick a man i love him so much hes so cute i sometimes can't read soup can labels because im thinking too much about him <3 boyfriend <3

@a-person3 <3 hi boyfriendwhoilovesomuchhihihihihh HI hi hi hello handsome hello beuatiful hello my heart my world my bugsquashing brilliant boy~ i love you~ everyone look at my amazing boyfriend !!!! he let me boyfriend him!!!! he let me!!! i told him i wanted to live my life with him and he said yes!!!! im loved!!!! im loved by someone i love!!!! life is beautiful! im gonna cry again-

[vulpinesaint]

talking the way that i do (metric ton of endearments in every sentence) is so silly and so inconvenient in daily life. like man you can't be calling this girl you've spoken to exactly one time in class "my darling" as you're coordinating this project over text. rewrite that message. you're going to make people uncomfortable 😭