#Kim namjoon x Kim woosung

[daegudrama]

Title: Go Your Own Way

Pairing: Namjoon/Woosung

Summary: Namjoon and Woosung come to a hard decision after weeks of arguing when faced with the reality of Namjoon leaving the region for college. In true fashion of their dysfunctional relationship they have one last moment of fun before calling it quits.

Word Count: 2282

As soon as the door shuts, Woosung presses Namjoon against the door. Their lips meet in fierce passion and Woosung is clawing at the buttons of his boyfriend’s shirt desperate to expose his toned muscles. Namjoon threads his fingers through Woosung’s long hair pulling just hard enough to sting. Their tongues push into each other's mouths playing together just as eagerly as all the times before. A rush of pleasure lights a fire in Namjoon’s chest and he pulls Woosung even closer until it's hard to tell where one man ends and the other begins.

Woosung successfully opens Namjoon’s shirt and breaks away from their kiss to attach his lips to the other man’s pec. His lips trail down Namjoon’s body stopping only when the other man’s jeans impede his progress. Woosung deftly unbuttons Namjoon’s pants and pushes them, and the underwear beneath, down just far enough to gain access to a large hard cock. 

Namjoon watches unmoving as Woosung’s tongue snakes out of his mouth to swirl around his blushed tip. He doesn’t tease long, forming a tight ring with lips as his head sinks down. Namjoon’s head falls back resting against the door. His boyfriend grips his thighs to steady himself as he works his mouth up and down Namjoon’s arousal. Heat rises to Namjoon’s stomach bursting like fireworks when Woosung lifts a hand to play with balls. The taller man grips Woosung’s shaggy locks earning a groan that sends a vibration down his cock.

Low moans pass Namjoon’s lips as he keeps his fingers threaded through Woosung’s hair. He is resisting the urge to fuck himself into the other man’s throat. Maybe he deserves it after the things he’s been saying to Namjoon lately. He tries to focus on the pleasure Woosung’s soft lips are bringing him but he can’t. Even after days of not touching each other like this he is still distracted.  

There’s a reason he asked Woosung to come here and it wasn’t to get his dick sucked. Namjoon pulls Woosung off of his length with a tug of his hair. Woosung looks up from his position on his knees with a confused look on his face, like there is no possible timeline where Namjoon wouldn’t love to be having his dick sucked by him. Under normal circumstances that might be the case, but not right now. 

The taller man leads them away from the front door, after abandoning his pants on the floor, and continues towards the bedroom. Woosung preemptively removes his shirt and jeans leaving him in just his white boxers. 

Namjoon stops once they reach the bedroom, turning away to roughly run his fingers through his hair. He lets out a frustrated sigh as he sits on the end of the bed, covering himself with the end of his blanket. 

“We have to talk about this.”

Woosung’s heart drops into his stomach not wanting to have this conversation for the hundredth time this summer. Namjoon is leaving tomorrow so Woosung guesses he should’ve expected he would bring this up again. Woosung knows Namjoon doesn’t want to leave any confusion on where they stand even if it's not easy to talk about. 

“No we don’t. I think you’ve made your decision very clear.” Woosung says taking a seat next to Namjoon on the bed. He is squirming uncomfortably in his seat desperate for any kind of friction against the obvious bulge in his underwear he can’t hide. “I want you to stay and you want to go to Paldea University far away from me.”

“You know that’s not why I’m leaving.” Namjoon sighs heavily, looking into the eyes of the man he loves, wondering where things went wrong. Surely, he did something wrong if Woosung doesn’t think their love is strong enough to handle long distance. “I don’t deserve to be treated like I don’t care about you. If you are so sure this isn’t going to end well, why don’t we end it here?” 

Woosung takes Namjoon’s face between his hands, holding tightly like he might slip away at any second. The taller man closes his eyes, taking a deep breath as he tries to get his emotions under control. How easy would it be to cave to Woosung’s will and do whatever he wants? Namjoon can’t let that happen. He can’t let a man get in the way of his education and dreams, even if it hurts. He can get over a man but he can never get over losing his best opportunity to make something of himself.

“Because I love you.” Woosung says firmly. 

In that moment Namjoon lets his heart win, surging forward to kiss him. The taste of regret, unkept promises, and confused feelings coating his tongue. Woosung holds him close, swinging his leg over Namjoon’s thighs to straddle him. Namjoon holds his waist, fingers digging into his skin as he guides Woosung’s hips to grind against his crotch. Woosung can feel Namjoon’s cock getting harder as his ass rubs against Namjoon. 

Woosung breaks away from the kiss, giving attention to the wide expanse of Namjoon’s exposed chest. While Woosung is sucking a mark into Namjoon’s left pec just above his nipple Namjoon finally speaks up. 

“We’re breaking up after this.” His voice is low and final.

Woosung pretends this doesn’t shatter his heart, knowing from the tone there’s no sense in arguing. Namjoon has made his decision. The man he loves most in this world values leaving the region for a potentially better school over his boyfriend. Over the man who has helped him through the hell the last year has brought to his life. Having him one last time is better than wishing for closure for the rest of forever, right?

“This better be the best sex we’ve ever had.”

Their lips meet again before Namjoon can answer. No softness is felt as Woosung hopelessly tries to remind the other man why they shouldn’t end this. Namjoon’s hands slide inside the waistband on Woosung’s underwear to grasp his ass. He pulls the round cheeks apart, slotting his cock over the fabric of the underwear. 

The fingers of Woosung’s left hand graze Namjoon’s nipple, stirring heat in the other man’s stomach once again. Namjoon breaks away from their kiss trailing his plush lips along Woosung’s shoulder. Gently he presses a kiss against the rose tattooed just to the right of Woosung’s collarbone. 

Namjoon lifts his soon to be ex boyfriend and scoots up the bed so they can be in a more comfortable position. Woosung resumes his place on Namjoon’s lap after removing his boxers. Namjoon reaches into the bedside table retrieving a bottle of lube and coating his fingers in the substance. 

The taller man’s finger circles Woosung’s entrance while his other arm wraps tightly around his boyfriend’s waist. Woosung buries his face into Namjoon’s shoulder, kissing and sucking at the smooth skin.

When Namjoon continues to play with the surrounding area, without dipping inside, Woosung begins to whine. Namjoon has always liked hearing him beg, but today he caves easily feeling that they are already going through too much.

 He puts him out of his misery, slipping one long finger into Woosungs’s perfect ass. A sharp gasp sounds near Namjoon’s ear and he smirks. A single finger inside Woosung to the knuckle still bringing such an outward reaction drives Namjoon crazy. Does Woosung know no one else will be able to make him feel this way? Does he know how hard it will be to find someone who is willing to take the time to learn what he likes?

Namjoon lazily pushes his finger in and out slowly curling in just the right spot to make Woosung abandon all other activities and dig his nails into the other man’s shoulder blades. This only encourages the slow motion of Namjoon’s fingers. Something about the sharp feeling of Woosung’s nails digging into his shoulders makes him even harder. It doesn’t take long for pleas to fill his ears. Patience is not one of Woosung’s virtues. 

A soft squeak leaves Woosung’s mouth when he feels another finger stretching his hole, preparing it for his soon to be ex boyfriend’s larger than average cock. Namjoon picks up the pace ever so slightly, earning a slew of pretty sounds. He’ll miss hearing how he can make Woosung feel, but this man doesn’t trust Namjoon. 

Woosung begins pushing back against Namjoon’s fingers, needing for the other man’s fingers to touch even deeper. Namjoon tightens the arm wrapped around Woosung’s waist holding him in place so he can’t move as easily. He gives him what he wants driving his fingers in and out quicker and deeper than before. 

“Please fuck me.” Woosung whines gripping the hair on the back of Namjoon’s head. “I need you.”

Namjoon slides his fingers out of Woosung and moves to coat his cock with lube. 

“Not enough to put a little work in.” Namjoon mutters, lining his tip up with Woosung’s waiting hole. He pushes the tip in before the other man can get a word out. Woosung can’t form a coherent sentence like this. “I wasn’t going to find someone better at school, but I can’t be in a relationship with someone who doesn’t believe in our relationship.”

Not wanting to hear more bullshit excuses from Woosung’s pretty lips Namjoon pushes the other man further down his cock. A sound somewhere between a gasp and moan fills Namjoon’s ears when he bottoms out. Even once he’s settled with the feeling of Namjoon’s length Woosung doesn’t fight back with words. Instead he steadies himself, taking a deep breath before using Namjoon’s shoulders as leverage to bounce himself.

A low groan gets caught in Namjoon’s throat as he places his hands on Woosung’s hips. He doesn’t attempt to guide him, favoring watching how Woosung fucks himself. Namjoon lets himself feel his pleasure to the greatest capacity knowing this very well could be the last time they are together in this way. 

He swears having his dick enveloped in Woosung’s perfect ass gets better every time. It makes him want to flip his boyfriend over and pound him into the mattress. That is something that needs to be worked up to. He should try to savor the moment while he can. 

Watching his cock disappear into Woosung sends hot fits of passion through Namjoon’s stomach. They lock eyes with tension thick in the air. Woosung’s hands snake up to Namjoon’s neck where he applies slight pressure. The response is immediate. Namjoon thrusts upward meeting Woosung’s movements as a string of curses falls from his lips. The taller man pulls Woosung completely off of him and flips him on his back before he can even whine about the loss of contact. 

Woosung spreads his legs showing Namjoon every inch of his sweet cock. Before driving himself back inside the other man Namjoon leans forward to kiss Woosung’s cock. His tongue flicks over the leaking tip tasting for a moment. Woosung squirms obviously wanting more of Namjoon’s cock. 

Instead of giving his soon to be ex boyfriend what he wants Namjoon takes the man’s cock into his mouth. With his right hand he used his fingers to drive Woosung crazy. Namjoon chuckles at the way the other man’s hips twitch, sending his cock further into Namjoon’s mouth. Woosung is so easy to unravel. 

Caving cheeks suctioning around Woosung’s cock brings him closer and closer to the edge. Taking his length all the way to the back of his throat is second nature at this point. He gladly does it to please Woosung. 

Namjoon doesn’t ignore the telltale signs and continues to suck him off and finger him in tandem until Woosung is seconds away from cumming down the other man’s throat. Woosung’s back arches off the bed in pure ecstasy. Namjoon curls his fingers inside the man and it sends Woosung over the edge. The salty flavor coats his tongue as he swallows every drop until Woosung is begging for him to stop. 

His mouth pops off Woosung’s cock and he removes his fingers only to replace them with his cock. Namjoon dips down to kiss the other man sharing the taste of Woosung’s cum. Namjoon thrusts hard and fast causing the other man to pull away from the kiss. 

Woosung fills the air with melodic moans and grips Namjoon’s bulging biceps. Namjoon shows no mercy pounding his fat cock into Woosung’s tight hole that feels as if it was made to be fucked by him. Namjoon reaches between them wrapping his long fingers around Woosung’s cock stroking erratically as he focuses more attention to the rock of his hips. 

Namjoon leaves his shoulder in the perfect position for Woosung to sink his teeth into. The taller man whimpers, pleasure blooming through his body and slams his cock harder into the other’s ass in retaliation. Exactly what Woosung wanted. 

Namjoon is relentless, letting all his emotions pound into the man he once loved. Leaving all his feelings for Woosung in this moment. Overwhelmed with pleasure Namjoon finishes inside of Woosung with a low moan. He pulls out shuffling away from Woosung and falling back onto the bed.

“Clean yourself up, then leave.” Namjoon says knowing if he doesn’t say something now he might fall back. 

Maybe it’s a little rude, but it is the only way he won’t make any further mistakes. Namjoon deserves a fresh start with no more wondering or worrying. If this were another time in their life maybe things could be different, but it isn’t. 

“Thank you for loving me.” Woosung says shuffling off Namjoon’s bed towards the bathroom. 

It’s the last thing Woosung says before he leaves.

[sorryimananti-romantic]

Ateez - Character Concept

Lore: 'An Empire of Dreams and Illusions'

[faerie prince!ateez au]

[Name/Titles]

Kim Hongjoong Prince of Light

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Scorpio

[Cities]

Antares (Capital) Acrab Jabbah Schubba Sargas

[Sea]

The Topaz Sea

[Animal Form]

Lion

[Court members]

Got7 (Jaebeom as Right Hand, Yugyeom as Captain of Guard) Red Velvet (Seulgi as Head Healer)

[Powers]

Bending light Burning with light Great affinity for healing Only magic to break through illusions 'Unheal'

[Appearance]

Ginger hair Blue eyes Translucent orange wings

[Name/Titles]

Park Seonghwa Prince of Dark

[Family]

Princess Yena of Space (soulmate/wife)

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Aries (State- Hamal)

[Cities]

Hamal (Capital) Bharani

[Sea]

The Diamond Sea

[Animal Form]

Wolf

[Court members]

Seoho/Jinki (ex-Right Hand) Exo (Kai as Captain of Guard) (G)I-dle (Soyeon as Right Hand, Miyeon as Head Healer)

[Powers]

Bending dark Blinding with darkness or increasing vision when dark Penetrating mind Accessing memories Nullifying most magics

[Appearance]

Dark hair Grey eyes Translucent silver wings

[Name/Titles]

Jeong Yunho Prince of Water

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Aries (State- Sheratan)

[Cities]

Sheratan (Capital)

[Sea]

The Diamond Sea

[Animal Form]

Sea Dragon

[Court members]

The Rose (Woosung as Head Healer) Itzy (Ryujin as Right Hand, Yeji as Captain of Guard)

[Powers]

Bending water Altering water bodies Controlling temperature of water Element of ice Accessing memories through water bodies

[Appearance]

Strawberry blonde hair Dark brown eyes

[Name/Titles]

Kang Yeosang Prince of Spirit

[Family]

Princess Yena of Space (twin-sister)

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Gemini (State- Pollux)

[Cities]

Mebsuta (Capital) Makbuda Propus Pollux

[Sea]

The Pearl Sea

[Animal Form]

Meerkat

[Court members]

BTS (Namjoon as Right Hand, Taehyung as Captain of Guard) Mamamoo (Solar as 'Left Hand', Hwasa as Head Healer, Wheein as Vice Captain of Guard)

[Powers]

Detection of living souls Ruler of the 'Other' Dimension where spirits dwell Portals Ability to kill a spirit so it ceases to exist from every plane Astral Projection

[Appearance]

Platinum blonde hair Grey eyes

[Name/Titles]

Choi San Prince of Earth

[Family]

Princess Gaeul of Underworld (soulmate)

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Cancer

[Cities]

Altarf (Capital) Arkesh

[Sea]

The Ruby Sea

[Animal Form]

Fox

[Court members]

Seventeen (Dokyeom as Right Hand, Mingyu as Captain of Guard) Twice (Jihyo as Head Healer)

[Powers]

Bending earth and the elements within Altering landscapes and geography Great affinity for healing- mostly soothing purposes Commanding animals

[Appearance]

Dark hair with ash ends Dark brown eyes

[Name/Titles]

Song Mingi Prince of Fire

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Leo

[Cities]

Regulus (Capital) Algieba Denebola

[Sea]

The Turquoise Sea

[Animal Form]

Salamander

[Court members]

Day6 (Jae as Right Hand, Wonpil as Head Healer) Blackpink (Lisa as Captain of Guard)

[Powers]

Bending fire Controlling the temperature of fire Extracting lava from earth Detecting burning souls (either from magic or sth else) Seeing through masking magic and illusions

[Appearance]

Red hair Dark brown eyes

[Name/Titles]

Jung Wooyoung Prince of Air

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Sagittarius

[Cities]

Rukbat (Capital) Ascella Nunki Kaus Medionalis

[Sea]

The Peridot Sea

[Animal Form]

Hawk

[Court members]

Stray Kids (Changbin as Captain of Guard) Dreamcatcher (Siyeon as Right Hand, Jiu as Head Healer)

[Powers]

Controlling the element of air Controlling properties of air Altering weather Detecting the presence of life Tracing whereabouts of something/someone from scent

[Appearance]

Dark hair with streaks Dark brown eyes Translucent silver wings

[Name/Titles]

Choi Jongho Prince of Nature

[Kingdom]

Kingdom of Libra

[Cities]

Zubenelgenubi (Capital) Zubenelschemali Zubenelakrab

[Sea]

The Opal Sea

[Animal Form]

Bear

[Court members]

Monsta X (Jooheon as Right Hand, Hyungwon as Head Healer, Changkyun as Captain of Guard) Gfriend (Sowon as High Healer)

[Powers]

Controlling element of nature Maintaining harmony and balance in nature Command over life forms Meditative state allows him to connect with nature on another level Great affinity for healing Can 'breathe' life into things (unpractised)

[Appearance]

Dark brown hair Dark brown eyes

[sleekervae]

Spooktober 👻

Happy Halloweekend, babies! I know I haven't been keeping up with my content as much as I would love to, but I wanna spotlight some of my recent supernatural/halloween fics that have been giving major 🥺🥵🤣👀. Give some of these creators some love and be safe out there this weekend!

Cherry Bomb - @retrievablememories

pairing: jungkook x fem reader

summary: “get fucked or die” becomes the motto to live by when a serial killer begins targeting virgins on your campus.

genre: smut, horror/slasher, college!au

Untitled - @talkfastromance4

pairing: calum hood x fem reader

summary: reader meets werewolf!calum at a party

genre: smut, fantasy

I Want to Bite You - @talkfastromance4

pairing: luke hemmings x fem reader

summary: reader wants vampire!luke to bite her

genre: adult (no explicit smut)

Dragon - @the-world-is-spinning-round

pairing: remington leith x fem reader

summary: dragon!remington takes pity on a human sacrifice

genre: fantasy

Haunted - @the-world-is-spinning-round

*honestly everything that this author writes is amazing so definitely go check out some of her work!

pairing: remington leith x fem reader

summary: Bonnie discovers a ghost in a haunted house

genre: fantasty

kinktober day 10 - @floralcyanide

pairing: Austin butler x fem reader

summary: A little naughty fun ensues with you and your boyfriend, Austin.

genre: smut

Happy Halloween - @krreader

pairing: jackson wang x bambam x fem reader

summary: a maid outfit isn’t exactly the best idea when having two jealous boyfriends, you know?

genre: smut

Descend - @sombreboy

pairing: kim namjoon x fem reader

summary: ‘’I’d say you are wasting my time, but that was before I saw you..’’ he tugged her face closer to his crotch, the bulge underneath the fabrics visibly twitching from having her attention. ‘’You will make it worth my while.’’

genre: smut, supernatural

Summoned - @emoboijk

pairing: poly!bts x fem reader

summary: You repeat their names as a mantra, as a prayer, as a guiding light when you feel scared. How were you to know it would summon them? You accidentally summon the 7 demons that make up BTS and they tell you to fulfill your contract they have to fuck you.

genre: smut, demon au

That Boy is a Monster - @wildernessuntothemselves

pairing: werewolf!woosung x vampire!reader

summary: You had sworn you would never feed on a human again, and for centuries you had kept your promise. But now, with your blood supply suddenly cut off, that primitive hunger you thought you’d conquered so long ago comes back with a vengeance and you find yourself on the hunt for human blood once again. Only it turns out that the hot boy you’d picked out wasn’t so human after all. Feat. baby Hajoon

genre: smut, violence

If anybody has any other recs I should add to this list just give me a shout!!

[dalamjisung]

fool me once, fool me twice, part 2 ✿ kim namjoon

genre: angst

word count: 3755

pairing: reader x kim namjoon

description: jisoo just wants things to go back to normal, but can they?

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A week is as long as you manage.

Instead of the library, you go to the noisy coffee shop on the corner. Jisoo can’t work there because it’s too loud. Switching from breaks at 3PM to later ones, around 4, you tell Jisoo that you got to studying a bit too late that day and that you needed some more time, but that she could go without you and you’d just get something to eat later. You think it finally clicked for her when you refuse to come over on the weekend. She called you about a barbecue thing Woosung was planning and told you to be there around noon, and before you can even say no, she is on it.

“And I swear to god, Y/N, if you tell me some stupid, bullshit excuse, I’m coming all the way down to your place and we’re having a chat!”

“I–I don’t know what you mean,” You sigh, throwing your bag on the couch and walking around the small kitchen in hopes to distract yourself from the impeding threat of Jisoo’s shortening temper. “I’ve just been busy with the dissertation and all of that.”

“We all have, but that doesn’t mean I’ll disappear from the face of the Earth!” She whines. “If… if you’re busy for whatever reason this weekend, I get that. I really do. But I miss you. I miss my best friend.”

“It’s been a week,” You tease, chuckling even though your heart threatens to break in half.

“Too long,” She answers readily. “This is a last attempt, I guess, but what are you doing tonight?”

Anything, you want to scream, fingers nimbly playing with a loose thread of your sweater. Everything. But you’re not this person. You’re not someone who lies your way out of difficult situations. You evade for a while, you might even run a bit from it, but you never lie… especially not to the people you love. And you are hurt, you are embarrassed, you are, even if just a bit, angry, but Jisoo is one of your best friends and you love her to death.

“… I’d just be editing my essay, but I guess that can wait another day,” You mumble, sighing in defeat. She won. Again. “What were you thinking?”

“Wait,” And it’s the first time you actually hear Jisoo sound incredulous. “Are you serious? You’re free?”

“I’m free,” You chuckle a bit, and a nostalgic fondness starts to bloom on your chest. You remember all the late nights with her, laughing like you’ve never did before, enjoying a youth that wouldn’t be there for long, anymore. You miss that. And you want it back. “Do… do you wanna maybe grad dinner and drinks? We could even dress all fancy like we said we would one day and have a proper night out.”

“For real?!” She squeals on the other side of the line. “You’re not joking, right?” “Nope,” You say. “How about 7, downtown?”

“Sounds perfect!” She says, and after a rushed goodbye for needing enough time to get ready, you too decide to take a long, steaming hot shower.

The water hitting on your back makes you a bit more relaxed, and for a second, you forget this whole situation. You forget Namjoon, or rather how you feel about Namjoon, and you forget how he feels about Jisoo, and it’s just you, and Jisoo, and Namjoon and it’s just simple, and nice, and familial. It’s all normal. But things aren’t like that anymore, and you can’t truly shake the uneasiness away once the cold air hits your skin again, making you shiver. It’s like a forever churning of your stomach, already settled and comfortable, and it doesn’t make you anxious, no– it just makes you sick. And that’s why, minutes before leaving, you invite your flatmate.

“I know you’re going out with your friend, but maybe you both could come?” You suggest, frowning at the ridiculousness of your despair.

“She bailed on me,” Your flatmate shrugs, getting up from where she was playing video-games on the couch. “I’m super down for a girls’ night out… and to not leave you alone with Jisoo.”

“Oh thank god,” You mumble in relief. “Thank you so much, babe.”

“No problem,” She chuckles, and it doesn’t take more than twenty minutes for you two to be out of the house.

Jisoo is waiting for you two right outside the subway station, dressed impeccably as always. Her figure accentuated with her tight black top, you start to get uncomfortable in your own black dress, heads turning to look at her and glance at you.

“Taeyeon is so nice to see you!” Jisoo smiles widely your flatmate, hugging her quickly before moving to trap you in a bone crushing hug. “And you! Miss I’m-So-Busy! I missed you!”

“Missed you too, Soo,” You hug her back, frowning at just how much you actually missed her. “Let’s go?”

“Yeah!” Taeyeon cheers, pulling both you and Jisoo in the direction of the pubs.

It’s easy with Taeyeon there; she is cheerful and easy and she keeps you in check. Having known you for years, Taeyeon is one of the few people that have seen the explosive side of your nature; the one that takes everything– all the hurt, all the offense, all the anger– and spits it right back out. That’s a part of you that you used to keep hidden, that you pushed it down until you could feel the pain of it all… but not anymore. Growing meant adapting and a way to prevent these outbursts of emotion, you found, is by having an honest conversation. An open conversation. One that you couldn’t have right now, because you promised Namjoon you wouldn’t.

And that makes everything else even more complicated. Because you can’t say what you mean, you prefer to not say anything at all, and you let your flatmate lead. Her and Jisoo order drinks but you stay with water, sipping patiently and offering the filler laughter once in a while, not wanting to completely abandon either of your friends with this unresolved issue… even if you can’t stop thinking about it. Even if you can’t stop hurting because of it.

“What do you think, Y/N?” Jisoo asks, hand delicately landing on your arm.

“I’m sorry, what?” You blink, realizing once again that you’ve zoned out.

“I have to go home,” Taeyeon explains looking at the time. Is it 10PM already?, you wonder, frowning at how much time passed you by. “The dog…”

“Yeah, no problem,” You wave your hand. “We–"

“I was wondering if you wanted to stay a bit longer,” Jisoo interrupts, eyes wide with hope. “Just us. We can go to another bar. Talk a bit more.”

All the alarms in your head are sounding, loud and clear. Taeyeon looks at you in surprise, too, not expecting the outburst from your friend; but it’s alright. It’s time.

“Yeah, why not?” You shrug, a I’ll be okay gesture to calm your worried flatmate.

“Are you sure?” Taeyeon asks, not completely reassured as she watches you nervously fidget with your ring.

“Yeah… are you okay to go home by yourself?” You ask, feeling a bit guilty to abandon her after she’s done so much for you.

“Bitch, you go have fun,” She laughs, hugging you. “Call me if you need anything, okay? I mean it, anything.”

You just wink at her, waving as Jisoo pulls you away to your next destination, and only when you can’t see Taeyeon anymore, only after she disappears in the sea of people coming in and out of the subway, that you start getting anxious. Jisoo looks at you in a way that makes you squirm, almost as if she is carefully observing you. And after a beat, you realize she is observing you. She is actually eyeing every move, every expression, every word, and you just wait. Someone has to break and you’ll be damn sure that it won’t be you.

“Have you talked to Namjoon these days?”

And here you go.

“Not really, no…” The pain you feel admitting this out loud is somewhat clear in your voice, and you start to panic. “Sometimes he finds me at the coffee shop near campus and stays to study, but we haven’t really… talked.”

“Hm,” She hums, and the casual tone of her voice, the nonchalantness of her actions– it makes everything worse. “I thought you two were getting close?”

“We are, I think,” You mumble shyly, looking down at the sidewalk passing by your boots. You kick away an empty bottle, watching as rolls away.

“Namjoon and I slept together.”

It happens automatically, like a reflex. “I know.”

And regret hits you just as fast.

Jisoo looks at you with wide eyes, mouth hanging open as an incredulous laugh escapes her. “Well, I didn’t know you guys were that close.”

“We are, I think,” You say once again, letting go of her arm that you hold tightly, choosing to keep your balled, sweaty hands in your pockets.

“Goddammit, Namjoon,“ She chuckles. “I wanted to be the one to tell you!" “Then why didn’t you?”

Her smile fades once she notices you are not laughing with her.

“Y/N–“

“Soo, seriously,” Now you’re the once chuckling. The humor of it all hits you all of a sudden, and you can’t seem to stop giggling, almost like this in an internal joke in between you and the universe. “Why didn’t you?”

“I thought you liked him.”

Did you? Did you like him? It all seems so distant now, so far away that you can’t even remember what it felt like when he touched you, hugged you, smiled at you. Somewhere inside, you know you do– like him, that is. It’s like a dying flame in the left side of your chest, a kindle fighting to keep burning, but you step all over it and in a matter of seconds you are numb to it all. It’s not that you don’t feel anything for Namjoon anymore… you just don’t feel anything at all.

“But I didn’t,” Nothing. You feel absolutely fucking nothing, and it frustrates you to no end. You like feeling; you like the ever present thump thump thump of being close to someone you love. Right now, there is no thump thump thump, and it makes you wonder if it’s because of you, or because of her.

“But I thought you did,” She insists, guilt written all over her face. “You talk so much about him, and you thought he was hitting on you and–“

“And you let me think that!” You squeak, voice high pitched in surprise of your outburst. “You let me think that like an idiot, Jisoo! Why?”

“Because I really thought he was hitting on you too!” She explains quickly, and you can feel her starting to panic so you hold back, apologizing for the outburst. “No, I’m the one that’s sorry, Y/N. I really thought he was hitting on you and I didn’t want to ruin your chances, you know?”

That statement is like slap in the face. “My chances?” You scoff, brows shooting up as you turn to face her.

People pass by you two, completely unaware of the tension that forms a bubble around you two, separating you from reality.

“Yeah, you know… you told me before that you don’t get with the same guys as your friends and I didn’t want to ruin that for you.”

“So you take the choice away from me?” You whisper, taking a step back.

“Y/N, I’m so sorry,” Jisoo holds your arm, voice pleading and mellow. “Please, I know I was an idiot about it, I just really didn’t know how to tell you this after I waited so long and… I’m just sorry.”

It’s the sadness in her voice that makes you believe she truly means what she’s saying. That for once, she’s being real.

“Jisoo, this can never happen again,” You say firmly, although your hands are shaking. “You made an idiot out of me. I feel like a fucking idiot because–“

You stop yourself. She doesn’t need to know this; she doesn’t need to know they gossiping sessions with Taeyeon in front of the TV, where you two gushed over the fact that yes, Namjoon was hitting on you; and yes, Namjoon is hot; and yes, you like Namjoon. No. There’s no need for her to know that.

“I will never do this again!” Her hands are cold as they hold yours, bringing them to her lips where she kisses a promise on your palm. “I promise! Pinky promise!”

Pinky promise, you smile bitterly as she laces her pinky with hers. What would Namjoon do if he found out that I broke my pinky promise?

For the rest of night, Jisoo continues to talk about how Namjoon liked her too much, and how he smiled too much, and how he talked too much, and as she goes on and on, all you can’t think about is that you wouldn’t mind if Namjoon smiled too much, talked too much, liked you too much.

You wouldn’t mind it at all.

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A week is as long as you manage, indeed.

The next day, Namjoon texts you. Something about him thinking how good things never come easy and how he thinks he should maybe put a bit more effort into pursuing Jisoo. All you say is that you can’t really say much on it.

does it make you uncomfortable to talk about her with me?

A bit yeah… I just want to stay out of this, you know? I’m close to both of you.

I completely understand! Next time, please tell me sooner, yeah? I would never want to make you uncomfortable, Y/N.

You got it. Thanks, Joon!

can I make it up  with a coffee? :D

You try to tell him that no, there’s nothing to make up for and that everything is okay; you try to keep a distance until everything is resolved, buy you can try and try and try again– with Namjoon, it would never work. He is at the coffee shop before you can even tell him you’re close, and when you finally do get there, he is already waiting at a table with your coffee set in front of your chair. It’s endearing, really, how he knows just how you like your drink, and how he makes sure to place a cup of water next to it just so you remember to drink at least a bit of it.

“How do you always get to places before me?” You whine, hugging the tall man hello. “It’s not fair!”

“If you biked, we’d get places at the same time,” He winks, sitting back down.

“If I biked,” You chuckle. “I’d die. You know how clumsy I am!”

“It really worries me how clumsy you are,” Namjoon says, eyes wide and innocent. “You tripped in the library, remember? I thought you had hit your head!”

“What’s so wrong about tripping in the library?” You pout.

“It was on your own feet!” He laughs, stretching over the table to cradle your face in his big hands. “You can’t hurt yourself when I’m not here anymore, you hear me?”

And you swear your heart almost stops.

“Are… are you planning on going somewhere anytime soon?” You ask, clearing your throat from embarrassment. He is so close to you that you are sure he can see your pores, and to fight the urge to just grab his face and pull him to you, you pretend to check your phone, frowning when you notice a message from Jisoo. I’ll check that later, you think to yourself.

His thumb moves to smooth the crease in between your brows, worry growing with his previous statement and following silence.

“You never know,” Namjoon pulls back, eyes moving to his almost empty cup of tea. “You never know where life will take us after this masters is done.”

“Yeah,” You mumble, nodding along just for the sake of doing something. “You never know…”

“Weren’t you the one saying you wanted to go to New York?”

“I mean, yes, but I don’t think it’s going to happen,” There is sadness in your voice, and you know he thinks it is because of New York.

“Don’t limit yourself like that,” His voice is chastising, and you know he means well, but sometimes Namjoon forgets about reality and it drives you insane. His belief in your potential is so much, that he simply thinks you can conquer anything you want just by simply trying. But he doesn’t really understand that you have been trying and that sometimes, trying is not enough.

Sometimes, you are not enough.

“Sorry,” You say automatically. Sipping your coffee slowly, you have more time to really look at him; hair a bit longer than it was when you met him, eyes hooded as he enjoys his tea, skin a bit more tanned thanks to the constant riding of his bike.

The conversation moves on fluidly, as things usually do with Namjoon, and you only go back home in the end of day when the sun is already set. He makes sure that you are safe before routinely turning off all of his electronics and only when you are not focusing on Namjoon anymore, when he allows you to not focus on him anymore, do you realize just how tired you are. It’s a few minutes before falling asleep that you respond Jisoo’s message, promising her a day at the park and some good, old-fashioned picnic food.

That night you dream of a cage, iron enclosures keeping you still and cramped. There is no one with you and when you wake up to your alarm, groggy and confused, there is an uneasiness that follows you for the rest of the day, from when you shower in the morning, until you reach the park where Jisoo, Woosung, and Lia waited for you. Everything from then on is… careful. You watch out for your words, your movements, your glances; nothing free and light as it used to be and you are not sure why you are suddenly walking on eggshells with them. Even Lia, the one who you would always be a bit more reserved with, never made you feel outright uncomfortable. Offended? Absolutely. But never uncomfortable.

And it’s not until you have some time alone with Jisoo that you figure out why. “So Y/N… I heard you were with Namjoon yesterday?”

It surprises you more than it should’ve and you feel a bit caught off guard in a battle you didn’t even know you were in. “Uh… yeah, we went out for coffee.” “Did you have fun?”

“Yeah, I always have fun with Joon,” You shrug. “Who told you?”

“What?” Jisoo tries to play it cool, but you notice the tension in her smile.

“Who told you I was with Namjoon?” You chuckle, just tired at this point.

“Lia,” Jisoo says, motioning behind her to where the rest of the group sits. “She was there studying and told me she saw you two on a coffee date.”

“What?” Your eyes go wide with the insinuation. Coming from Jisoo, however, sounds more like an accusation. “It wasn’t a date. We were just catching up.”

“I just… I’m just sorry, you know,” She mumbles, and you don’t really like when Jisoo gets deep in thought like this; she tends to get enveloped in her own world a bit too much.

“For what?”

“For this whole Namjoon thing,” She sighs, finally look at you, and you offer her a reassuring smile, waving your hand absentmindedly.

“No need, we already talked about this, remem–“

“I mean, I just want you to know that if he’s bothering you, you can tell me and I’ll deal with him,” She promises, voice firm and strong, almost like she is promising to protect you. “I don’t want him to keep bothering you about me, or because of me, you know? I know how immature he is and how irritating he can be when he does that thing… the know-it-all thing! And oh, god, don’t even get me started about how fucking childish he is when he is with Jin and–”

You take a moment to process what she just told you, stoping on your tracks. “Wait. You think Namjoon is only hanging out with me because of you?”

“I mean–“

“Well, you have nothing to worry about, babes,” You take a deep breath, calming your growing anger. It is almost like she is trying to start a fight at this point, fishing for information. “Namjoon and I don’t talk about you. We’re actually really good friends and he is really good to me. A good friend. Is that alright?”

“Is…Is that alright?” Jisoo repeats, blinking in shock. “Of course! Why wouldn’t it be?”

“Are you sure?” At this point, you admit it– you are absolutely teasing her, a sly smirk on your face.

You love Jisoo to death, she truly is a good friend, but she’s been so lost in this new world that’s been introduced to her; the masters, the people, the city… you think she just got overwhelmed. But it didn’t really affect you like that. You aren’t dazzled, like she is. You are grounded, now more then ever– in just a few months, your dissertation will be submitted, and you will be catapulted into the real world in which you’ll have to file tax forms, and work from 9 to 5 in an office, and where you’ll learn many new things, just not in the safe setting of a classroom, surrounded by your friends. No, this will be just you. And it’s time to truly be just you.

“Absolutely,” Her smile is tight but it slowly melts into a truthful one, eyes sparkling and everything. “As long as you’re happy, I’m happy!”

“Thanks, Jisoo,” You giggle, hugging her tighter than usual.

Oddly enough, nothing about this felt okay. When she pulls away from the hug, laughing about something stupid that you don’t even pay attention to, you notice the distance in between you two. Even though her hands tightly grip your upper arm, and her voice is loud and booming in your ear, you’ve never felt this far away from Jisoo ever since you’ve met her.

And you are not sure if this is all bad, smiling to yourself as you suddenly feel the metal bars of your cage creaking and bending.

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uuuhhh I honestly did not expect this to come out so fast and I never expected all the love for fool me once, fool me twice, so thank you so much for everything my loves! I guess it’s needless to say that there will be a part 3 but for now I hope you enjoy this my loves! Let me know what you think! Comment, share, like– help a fren out ❤️

[emeraldbabygirl]

A Full List of all my Biases

Because I stan too many groups. I always go by company so I don’t forget anyone. It just makes it easier for me uwu let’s get it. Btw some of the groups I still haven’t found a bias in oops. Also I apologize cause this bitch long af

H.O.T - Kangta

Trax - Jungwoo and Rose

Super Junior - Eunhyuk

DBSK/TVXQ - Changmin/ Junsu

Girls Generation - Sunny

Fx - Luna and Krystal

Shinee - Onew

Exo - Xiumin and Sehun

Red Velvet - Yeri

NCTU - Doyoung

NCT127 - Yuta

WayV - Winwin

Big Bang - Daesung

2NE1 - Minji

Winner - Baby Lion (Seunghoon)

iKON - Junhoe and Jinhwan

AKMU - Suhyun

Blackpink - Lisa

2PM - Taecyeon

Wonder Girls - Yubin and Sohye

Miss A - Min

Got7 - JB

Twice - Dahyun, Tzuyu and Jeongyeon

Day6 - Wonpil

Stray Kids - Woojin

Itzy - Yeji

Afterschool - Nana

NU’EST - Ren and Baekho

Seventeen - Jeonghan

Pristin - Nayoung

Hello Venus - Lime

Astro - Sanha

Weki Meki - Doyeon

Sistar - Hyorin and Bora

Boyfriend - Youngmin (but also Kwangmin and Minwoo)

Monsta-X - Shownu and KyuKyu

WJSN - Yeoreum

UNIQ - Yibo

Everglow - Queen Onda

SS501 - Kim  Hyun Joong

A-Jax - Yunyoung

Rainbow - Jisook

KARA - Gyuri

April - Chaewon, Rachel and Naeun

KARD - Jiwoo

Map6 - J.Jun

D-Crunch - Dylan

Noir - Seunghoon, Yeonkuk, Siha, Siheon and Minhyuk

B.I.G - Benji

Bigflo - Z-Uk, Jungkyun and Euijin

A.C.E - Byeongkwan

VAV - St.Van and Ziu

ZE:A - Minwoo

9Muses - Minha. Sojin and Hyuna

Imfact - Jian

24K - Cory and Daeil

Halo - Heecheon

GWSN - Miya

14U - Loudi

ATEEZ - Jongho

Mamamoo - Hwasa

Vromance - Chandong and Hyunseok

OneUs - Hwanwoong

OneWe - Cya

AOA - Choa

SF9 - Zuho and Hwiyoung

CNBLUE - Jungshin

FTISLAND - Jaejin

N.Flying - Seunghyub

Cherry Bullet - Kokoro, May and Remi

Momoland - Jooe and Hyebin

Saturday - Chohee, Yuki and Ayeon

Z-Boys - Gai

Z-Girls - Priyanka

EXID - L.E

Trei - Jaejun

Teen Top - C.A.P and Niel

100% - Rokyun

UP10TION - Xiao, Sunyoul, Kogyeol, Wei and Wooshin

Ladies’ Code - Sojung

B.A.P - Youngguk is my main bias but also Himchan, Zelo and Jongup

Secret - JiEun

Sonamoo - D.ana

Vixx - Hakyeon obvi

Gugudan - Mina

VeriVery - Hoyoung

Dal Shabat - Serri

Dreamcatcher - Dami

LC9 - King, Rasa and A.O

Brown Eyed Girls - Gain

Lunafly - Teo

Royal Pirates - James

N-Sonic - Minkee, Sihoo and Jeonguk

Cross Gene - Takuya

KHAN - Euna

BTOB - Peniel

4Minute - Jiyoon

B2ST/Highlight - Yoseob and Gikwang

CLC - Sorn and Seungyeon

Pentagon - Wooseok and Jinho

G-idle - Soojin and Yuqi

Block B - P.O, U-Kwon and Taeil

Speed - Sejun, Taewoon, Taeha

TARA - Boram

DIA - Somyi

Newkidd - Hwi

Black6ix - Ziki and Taeyoung

AB6IX - Woong and Dongmin

CIX - Bae Jinyoung

Great Guys - Dongin

Beat Win - Sunhyuk

M.Pire - Haru

Alphabat - Code, Heta, Jeta, Gamma and Iota

G.I - Oneket

M.O.N.T - Roda

Brave Girls - Yuna

Bigstar - Baram (but also Raehwan and Sunghak

Gfriend - Umji

Infinite - Dongwoo

Lovelyz - Babysoul and Mijoo

Golden Child - Daeyeol

B1A4 - CNU

Oh My Girl - Yooa

ONF - Wyatt and Hyojin

Wassup - Nari

Hotshot - Timo and Junhyuk

Spica - Boa

Matilda - Saebyeol

Girls Girls - Miso

Girlkind - JK

IZ*ONE - Sakura, Yena and Chaewon

BTS - Namjoon

Glam - Dahee

TXT - Soobin

MBLAQ - Thunder and Lee Joon

Madtown - Daewon, Lee Geon and Buffy

U-Kiss - Kiseop

Nature - Saebom, Gaga, Sunshine, Aurora, LU

Topp Dogg/ Xeno-T  - Nakta, Xero, B-Joo

Evol - Hayana and Saay

Elris - Bella

Crayon Pop - Ellin

Loona - Chuu and Vivi

The Man BLK - Jinhwan, Sungyong, Seung, Hyeongseok, Jeongyou and Taewoo

BLK - D.A, Inno, I and Ming Ming

HBY -  Taro

fromis_9 - Seoyeon

Hot Place - Hanbit

A-Pink - Chorong

Victon - Seungwoo, Sejun and Hanse

Girls Day - Hyeri

Laboum - Solbin

N.Tic - Seunghoo (but I wholeheartedly bias the whole group, they all amazing)

Target - Woojin

H.U.B - Rui, Yehin and Keina

Chocolat - Juliane and Soa

Boys Republic - Sunwoo

History - Yijieong

Fiestar - Yezi

N-Train - Yujin

Dalmation - Inati and Donglim

Myname - JunQ, Chaejin and Gunwoo

JJCC - Eddy and Yul

Led Apple - Hanbyul

Say Yes -Subin and Sion

DGNA - Jay, Mika and Karam

M.I.B - Kangnam and 5Zic

Wonder Boyz - Master One (V.Hawk)

KNK - Youjin

Favorite - GaEul

LU:KUS - Jinhwan and J.One

Mr.Mr - Ryu, Doyeon, Tey, Changjae, Jiwon and Han

MVP - Giteuk and Rayoon

Rania - Di, Ttabo and Riko

Stellar - Minhee and Hyoeun

Two-X - Eun and Minjoo

Bulldok - Kimi 

1Team - Rubin

Snuper - Suhyun, Woosung and Sebin

Varsity - Kid, Xiwoo, Damon, Anthony

Highteen - Sea

TINT - Mirim

Tiny-G - Mint

Purfles - Wooyoung

Double A - Kimchi

F.Cuz - Yejun

C-Clown - Rome, Siwoo and Maru

ZPZG - NK and Jihoon

PLT - Jinwoo, Gaho and Villian (I know they aren’t a group)

A.Cian - Jungsung and Lo-J

2EYES - Dasom

Wanna.B - Eunsom, Saebom, Yoonseul, Jiwoo and Siyoung

Moa - Zelli

4L - JNa

Holiday - Dany

021 - Weiyang and Jiyoung

Ela8te - Darae

Blady - Coco, Kangyoon and Seojin

A.de - Suyeon, Haeyong, Miso and Choyoon

S2U - Miyu, SeEun

Sixth Sense - I.N and Heeju

Bay.B - Seola

ZZBae - MoA

Unicorn - Sally and Winnie

Phantom - Sanchez

Baby V.O.X - EZ and Heejin

As 1 - Shin, Nata and Kayan

w24 - Aaron

Vermuda - Nakang, U and Je1

Red Sun - Subin

Pink lady - Woolim

T-Birds - Nara

Playback - Woolim

Seo.Sijak - Sun-A

In2it - Inho and Inpyo

Cupid - Bona

A6P - Jungyeon, Jelly-P, Yaho and Actin

Click-B - Minhyuk, Hyungon and Hoseok

Ashgray - Minhyuk

Heymiss - Naru, Hyunji and Seula

ATO - Rihan 

Icia - Yoomin

Like a Movie - Domo, Siryu, Joha

AGirls - Minsung, Yurian and Heeso

Lucente - Bao, Z.Hoo and Parkha

Barbie D - Jiyeon 

ZEST - Shun and Seunghoon

Trophy - Davino and hae.on

N-Balance - Riu

DayDay - Minju

M-Fect - Low

Hey Girls - Jandi, Heesu, Mizi and Hyuna

Switch Berry - Minji and Saerom

MASC - Ireah, DoEun and Chibin

Blah Blah - Hajung and Seolhwa

MustB - Taegeon and Chibin

Various - SoEun, Seulgi, Hyebin and Yeji

GP Basic - Amet

Ye.A - Ha.Dey and Ka.zoo

Seven O’Clock - Hyun, Taeyoung and Vaan

Gate9 - Haeyeon, Gaga, Kady and Yoon

South Club - Kunku and Donghyun

ZZBest - Ina

Spectrum - Minjae, Jaehan and Villian

Hotties - Ellie

Underdog - Dal, Seunghyuk, Roel, Jiro and Gaon

S2 - Soyul, JooAh, Yujeong and Chaewon

Supernova - Yunhak

Pitapat - Jain and Solim

Chloris - Dina and Liwon

The Rose - Hajun and Jaehyeong

X1 - Hangyul and Seungyoun

Play the Siren - Kasper

Camila - Choim, Yubeen and Jeongyuna

1NB - Jayeon, Leeda, Jungyu

MY.ST - Woncheol and Woojin

Argon - Kain, Gon and JaEun

INX - Bonkuk, Jinam and Win

Airisu - Eunbi

10X10 - Jiyoon, Rica, Cindy

In4mal - Seulgi, J-Feel, Seungheon

Vividiva - Ha.L and Saeyan

Afos - Zett and Seungheon

NOM - Yonggi

Offroad - Gil, Arkay, Seunghun

Twinkle - Sujin, Sunyul, Y-B, Sol-E

AA - Arkay

ACE - Jinah, Youjin, SeolA and Darum

Bada - Jinri, Seungha, Loha, Maum

B:Skit - Sangyun, Hooni and Issac

LeaderS’ - SeulA, Hyoji, Yoonbyul, Bini, Myullan

Lucky Girls - Sandy, LeeSol, Harin

Blast - Dal and Dahee

Sha Sha - Chaiki

Tweety - Ain

Be.A - Milly

Blue Fox - Daya

J2KC - Danny

Midnight - Danbi and Yebin

New Town Boyz - Duckie and E-Kyun

PLO - E-Kyun and Mori

M.Crown - Juyeob, Taegun, Taichi and Laon

Lipbubble - Mirae and Haea

BTL - Jean Paul, Jay, Yeon, Do.ka and Yei.A

All S Girl - Ria, Seoyoung, Karam and Yujin

Road Boyz - Myoha, Hwan, Maca, and ZBell

B.Heart - TaeU and Yongha

Blanc7 - D.L, Taichi and Jean Paul

All Star - Harang and Dal

NewUs - Jion and Sangwook

TST - Junghoon and Kyeongha

APL - Seoin

Aweek - Hyeon

BIT - Mino

Rainz - Seongri, Wontak and Eunki

Penta-G - Haullim and N.Jun

One Voices - J.Han

Street75 - Sungchul

Waeb - Jebb

1tension - N.Jun

B.O.I - Joonhyeon

A-Peace - Sehyeon

D-Unit - Ram

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Who I Write For

ATEEZ

Park Seonghwa

Kim Hongjoong

Jeong Yunho

Kang Yeosang

Choi San

Song Mingi

Jung Wooyoung

Choi Jongho

BTS

Kim Seokjin/Jin

Min Yoongi/Suga

Jung Hoseok/J-Hope

Kim Namjoon/RM

Park Jimin

Kim Taehyung/V

Jeon Jungkook

Day6

Park Jaehyung/Jae

Park Sungjin

Kang Younghyun/Young K

Kim Wonpil

Yoon Dowoon

EXO

Kim Minseok/Xiumin

Kim Junmyeon/Suho

Zhang Yixing/Lay

Byun Baekhyun

Kim Jongdae/Chen

Park Chanyeol

Do Kyungsoo/D.O.

Kim Jongin/Kai

Oh Sehun

GOT7

Mark Tuan

Im Jaebeom/JB

Jackson Wang

Park Jinyoung

Choi Youngjae

Bambam

Kim Yugyeom

KARD

Kim Taehyung/J. Seph

Kim Woojin/BM

Jeon Somin

Jeon Jiwoo

Monsta X

Sohn Hyunwoo/Shownu

Lee Hoseok/Wonho (former member)

Lee Minhyuk

Yoo Kihyun

Chae Hyungwon

Lee Jooheon/Joohoney

Im Changkyun/IM

N. Flying

Lee Seunghyub

Cha Hoon/Hun

Kim Jaehyun

Yoo Hoesung/Hweseung

Seo Dongsung

NCT (127/Dream/WayV)

Seo Youngho/Johnny

Lee Taeyong

Nakamoto Yuta

Qian Kun

Kim Dongyoung/Doyoung

Ten

Jung Yoonoh/Jaehyun

Dong Sicheng/Winwin

Kim Jungwoo

Wong Yukhei/Lucas

Lee Minhyung/Mark

Xiao Dejun/Xiaojun

Won Kunhang/Hendery

Huang Renjun

Lee Jeno

Lee Donghyuck/Haechan

Na Jaemin

Liu Yangyang

Zhong Chenle

Park Jisung

The Rose

Kim Woosung

Park Dojoon

Lee Hajoon

Lee Jaehyeong

Seventeen 

Choi Seungcheol/S. Coups

Yoon Jeonghan

Hong Jisoo/Joshua

Wen Junhui/Jun

Kwon Soonyoung/Hoshi

Jeon Wonwoo

Lee Jihoon/Woozi

Lee Seokmin/DK

Kim Mingyu

Xu Minghao/The8

Boo Seungkwan

Chwe Hansol/Vernon

Lee Chan/Dino

SHINee

Lee Jinki/Onew

Kim Kibum/Key

Choi Minho

Lee Taemin

Stray Kids

Christopher Bang/Bang Chan

Lee Minho/Lee Know

Seo Changbin

Hwang Hyunjin

Han Jisung/Han

Lee Felix

Kim Seungmin

Yang Jeongin/I.N.

TXT

Choi Yeonjun

Choi Soobin

Choi Beomgyu

Kang Taehyun

Jung Hueningkai

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  i’ll preface this list by saying something i should have maybe put in my rules but i’m saying it here so it’s fine. that’s fine. i’m not a big fan of “collecting” muses with the same fc. i don't want to do it myself and i don’t want it to be done to me. i’m also not a fan of interacting with multiple muses sharing a fc if it’s with the same muse. as in, i really don’t vibe with the idea of playing garrett against another yugyeom fc or eunsoo against another jaebeom fc. this applies to ships especially but also to friendships. i get extremely attached and it’s just not my cup of tea. if i see the muse you want to use with me already interact with my muse’s fc i’ll probably back out pretty fast. uncomfortable zone. sorry.

  now to the exclusives list. i do two stages of exclusive -- soft exclusive and hard exclusive. soft exclusive means i will limit myself to interacting with two muses sharing a fc -- on different muses of mine, of course -- and hard exclusive means i will not play against muses with that fc at all anymore. i’ll put this under a read more because it might get a little longer.

  soft exclusives.

xiaojun - wayv/nct

sua - dreamcatcher

kim donghan

minho - shinee

t.o.p - big bang

taehyung - bts

daesung - big bang

joy - red velvet

joshua  - seventeen

yugyeom - got7

jinjin - astro

jb - got7

changkyun - monsta x

jaeyoon - sf9

jungkook - bts

sehun - exo

haechan - nct

bambam - got7

seokjin - bts

hangyul - x1

nayeon - twice

jihyo - twice

dahyun - twice

irene - red velvet

hongbin - vixx

woosung - the rose

namjoon - bts

jongin - exo

taecyeon - 2pm

donghae - suju

priyanka chopra

chris evans

siyeon - dreamcatcher

wu yifan 

hoàng quyên

eric nam

eunchae - dia

sojin - girl’s day

jimin - bts

sofia carson

ten - nct/wayv

  hard exclusives

mark - got7

chanyeol - exo

lou - vav

[tinywooniverse]

tinywoonivere’s masterlist

bts

aus/imagines

•kim seokjin

-nothing to see here

•min yoongi

-none yet

•jung hoseok

-none yet

•kim namjoon ♡

-untitled (wip?)

•park jimin

-none yet

•kim taehyung

-none yet

•jeon jungkook

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-nothing to see here

day6

aus/imagines

•park jaehyung ♡

-perfect

-morning kisses

•park sungjin

-none yet

•kang younghyun

-morning, marathon, and marriage

•kim wonpil

-none yet

•yoon dowoon

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-day6 being jealous of their s/o’s idol crush

series

sing to me instead: ease my mind (psj)

the rose

aus/imagines

•kim woosung

-none yet

•park dojoon ♡

-none yet

•lee hajoon

-none yet

•lee jaehyeong

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-nothing to see here

stray kids

aus/imagines

•kim woojin

-none yet

•bang chan

-none yet

•lee minho

-none yet

•seo changbin ♡

-none yet

•hwang hyunjin

-none yet

•han jisung

-none yet

•lee felix

-none yet

•kim seungmin ♡

-none yet

•yang jeongin

- none yet

reactions/scenarios

-nothing to see here

dreamcatcher

aus/imagines

•kim minji (jiu)

-because you’re cute

•kim bora (sua)

-i just missed you

-giggle hour

-superheroes

•lee siyeon

-none yet

•handong

-none yet

•kim yoohyeon

-none yet

•lee yoobin (dami) ♡

-lifetimes

-special

•lee gahyeon

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-dreamcatcher reaction to their crush asking them out

-dreamcatcher reaction to their gf hinting at wanting a baby

-dreamcatcher reaction to their s/o being in a rock band

-dreamcatcher reaction to the seeing pictures you secretly took of them

-dreamcatcher reaction to accidentally matching

-dreamcatcher reaction to them and their s/o being the opposite with pda

-dreamcatcher reaction to their s/o bring home a new friend

ateez

aus/imagines

•park seonghwa

-none yet

•kim hongjoong

-none yet

•jeong yunho ♡

-none yet

•kang yeosang

-none yet

•choi san

-none yet

•song mingi

-none yet

•jung wooyoung

-none yet

•choi jongho

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-ateez reaction to having an older s/o

astro

aus/imagines

•kim myunjun

-none yet

•park jinwoo

-none yet

•lee dongmin (cha eunwoo)

-none yet

•moonbin ♡

-none yet

•park minhyuck (rocky)

-none yet

•yoon sanha

-my bias is s(anha)oobin (jealous fluff)

reactions/scenarios

-nothing to see here

txt

aus/imagines

•choi yeonjun

-none yet

•choi soobin ♡

-none yet

•choi beomgyu

-none yet

•kang taehyun

-none yet

•hueningkai

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-nothing to see here

monsta x

aus/imagines

•shownu

-none yet

•wonho

-none yet

•lee minhyuck

-none yet

•yoo kihyun

-none yet

•chae hyungwon ♡

-none yet

•lee jooheon

-none yet

•changkyun (i.m)

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-their crush saying “i wish i could feel loved for once when i’m in a relationship”

nct 127

(i tried to find a gif with all ten but whew it’s hard)

aus/imagines

•moon taeil

-none yet

•johnny ♡

-none yet

•lee taeyong

-none yet

•nakamoto yuta

-none yet

•kim doyoung

-none yet

•jaehyun

-none yet

•dong sicheng (winwin)

-none yet

•kim jungwoo ♡

-none yet

•mark lee

-none yet

•lee donghyuck (haechan)

-none yet

reactions/scenarios

-nothing to see here

[daegudrama]

Welcome to Route 613 Extras where we will be exploring the past and the alternate realities that could have been! While writing the main story I've had many ideas that I want to put out into the world at some point but not all of them feel needed (or right) in the main story. I hope you enjoy!!

Go Your Own Way

Namjoon x Woosung | 2282 words| ❤️‍🔥

Namjoon and Woosung come to hard decision after weeks of arguing when faced with the reality of Namjoon leaving the region for college. In true fashion of their dysfunctional relationship they have one last moment of fun before calling it quits.

[darlingjongdae]

masterlist

EXO -

Glass Prince: 1 | 2 | 3 | Kim Junmyeon

Les Étoiles: Park Chanyeol

Take Care of Yourself: Park Chanyeol

내가 미쳐 - Going Crazy: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | Kim Jongdae

Finally: Kim Jongdae

Hold Onto Me: Kim Jongdae

Jongdae as Your Boyfriend

Kyungsoo as Your Boyfriend

BTS -

Distance: Kim Namjoon

Monsta X -

I Carry Your Heart With Me: Shin Hoseok

Make Me Pretty?: Shin Hoseok

Anything For You: Shin Hoseok

Breathe: Lee Jooheon

Hot Chocolate: Lee Minhyuk

Surprises: Yoo Kihyun

Boyfriend Monsta X Series

Monsta X Reacting to Another Member Dating Their Ex-Fiancée

Monsta X Reacting to You Having Tattoos

Monsta X Reacting to Their Foreign S/O Cooking Korean Food For Them

Monsta X Reacting to You Getting Moody When It’s That Time of the Month

Monsta X Reacting to You Being Very Short

Monsta X Reacting to Their S/O  Being Scared After a Horror Movie

Pentagon-

Pentagon Reacting to You Having Tattoos

Stray Kids-

Wishes: Hwang Hyunjin

Freckles: Lee Felix

Block B-

Love At First Sight: Lee Taeil

Don’t Leave Me: Woo Jiho

Stay Here With Me: Park Kyung

The Rose-

Enthralled: Kim Woosung

Sorry: Kim Woosung

The Rose Reacting to Your Time of the Month

The Rose Reacting to Their S/O’s Dog Going Missing

Day 6-

Get Some Rest: Yoon Dowoon

Day6 Reacting to their Chubby S/O Getting a Midnight Snack

[hqinfinity]

from: HQINFINITY ✉ click here to create your account (this link will expire on 01/17.)

to: user4960 — wu xuanyi wjsn + kim jungeun/kim lip loona

to: user2048 — kim woosung the rose + hirai momo twice

from: HQINFINITY ✉ click here to create your account (this link will expire on 01/20.)

to: user9297 — lalisa manoban/lisa blackpink + park chanyeol exo

to: user8888 — nakamoto yuta nct + na jaemin nct

from: HQINFINITY ✉ verifying your account for activation on 1/19.

to: @altoids — park jinyoung/jr got7 + seo kangjoon actor

to: @erzas — kim chungha soloist + lee taeyong nct

to: @grrlalmighty — im jinah/nana after school + kim jennie blackpink

to: @moon22 — do kyungsoo/d.o exo + park sooyoung/joy red velvet

to: @goldn — kim jongin/kai exo + jeon jeongguk bts

to: @kata2koto — shiroma miru nmb48 + kim jonghyun/jr nuest

to: @electric — jung soojung/krystal f(x) + oh sehun exo

to: @atlas — mark lee nct + jung jaehyun nct

to: @ahegao — jung eunbi/eunha gfriend + minatozaki sana twice

to: @whitenight — park jimin bts + chou tzuyu twice

to: @solarflare — woo jiho/zico block b + lee taemin shinee

to: @sona — lee jieun/iu soloist + kang seulgi red velvet

to: @novaberry — kim jongdae/chen exo + lee hayi/lee hi soloist

to: @ardent — byun baekhyun exo + kim jisoo blackpink

to: @warukatta — myoui mina twice + kim taehyung/v bts

to: @cherrycoke — serena motola model + zhang yixing/lay exo

to: @cypher — min yoongi/suga bts + ahn sohee soloist

to: @haze — kang dongho/baekho nu’est + woo dohwan actor

to: @hailthequeen — bae joohyun/irene red velvet + park chaeyoung/rosé blackpink

to: @godeater —  jung chaeyeon dia + kentaro sakaguchi actor

to: @potionseller — moon bin astro + bang yongguk soloist

to: @sigma — hwang hyunjin stray kids + kim chaewon izone

to: @iseult — lee siyeon dreamcatcher + park jun/junhee ace

to: @honeyc — choi jinri/sulli actress + ji changwook actor

to: @noblesse — lee minhyuk monsta x + kim hyunjung/seola wjsn

to: @cephic — xu minghao/the8 seventeen + dong sicheng/winwin nct

to: @icarus — kim seokwoo/rowoon sf9 + lee seoyeon fromis_9

to: @dreamed — komatsu nana actress + kim namjoon bts 

[thinlinesrp]

APPLICATION RECEIVED (2+/11)

PACK BAE ( admire )  lisa manoban // blackpink.

PACK YONG ( envious )  chou tzuyu // twice.

PACK JUNG ( aid ) kim woosung // the rose.

PACK BAE ( trouble ) kim jongin // exo.

PACK KIM ( mischief ) kim taehyung/v // bts

PACK YONG ( shadows ) oh sehun // exo.

PACK JUNG ( empty ) tuan mark // got7.

PACK KIM ( reckless ) jung krystal // f(x).

PACK JUNG ( careless ) kim namjoon // bts.

PACK BAE ( psychopath ) jung yoon // model.

PACK KIM ( mask ) christian yu // solo.

[idolizerp]

06.02 HIATUSES

jung chaeyeon, dia as daydream’s lead dance, sub vocal (bae mirae)

06.04 HIATUSES

christian yu, solo as olympus’ main rap (han roman)

06.06 HIATUSES

ahn heeyeon (hani), exid as cherry bomb!’s main dance (baek miji/ella) kang seulgi, cherry bomb!’s lead vocal, lead dance (ahn jowi/aj) kim woosung, the rose as poizn’s lead rap, lead dance (kang jun)

06.07 HIATUSES

bae joohyun (irene), red velvet as nightmare’s main vocal (go suwon) jung soojung (krystal), f(x) as nightmare’s main dance (ryu maya)

06.08 HIATUSES

kim minseok (xiumin), exo as imperial’s main vocal (lee minhyeok) park jiyeon, tara as vivid’s lead dance (ryu eunbi/evie)

06.10 HIATUSES

park chanyeol, exo as atlas’ main vocal (hwang namjoon)

06.13 HIATUSES

lin yanjun, 9% as signal’s main vocal (paris gao/puck) 

EXPIRED HIATUSES

Below are hiatuses that expired late this week and are expected to be active before the next activity check to avoid being removed from the directory.

lee luda, wjsn as daydream’s lead vocal (baek hana) cai xucun, 9% as imperial’s main rap, sub vocal (ye jianhong/janus)

[daegudrama]

Word Count: ~10.6k

Coming 04/26/24

“Somehow Jimin has already sexiled us.” Namjoon says with slight irritation seeping into his tone. He pinches the bridge of his nose before looking back at you. “So, let’s go explore the city.”

“Jimin works fast, huh?” You laugh stepping out of your hotel room to follow.

[daegudrama]

Title: Route 613

Pairing: Reader/Namjoon, Reader/Yoongi, Reader/Vmin

Summary: Reader wants to be the very best Pokémon trainer there ever was. Her first stop in that journey is Paldea University home to a myriad of higher education. Still working to get over her ex boyfriend, Yoongi, reader forms new connections while making a few questionable decisions along the way. Each battle bringing her closer to the glory she's always dreamed of. Will she succeed in becoming champion or will outside forces stop her from achieving her goal?

Word Count: 10.7K

Disclaimer: Real life ages mean nothing in this fic. Refer here for ages and my shitty graphics

cross posted to ao3 here

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Chapter 6

Namjoon sits next to you in the middle row of the air taxi while Jimin and Yoongi are in the back. It’s a pretty quiet trip aside from Professor Oak asking you what you are most excited to do. Today is a travel day with no set plans once you arrive in Kanto. Professor Oak wants to give you the night to settle into your hotel and explore the city a bit before you head to the gym tomorrow.

As the air taxi descends towards Saffron City, you feel a mix of excitement and nervousness. Professor Oak’s question lingers in your mind, and you find yourself pondering what exactly you are most excited about. You want to explore what the city has to offer and make yourself a better trainer. There might not be enough time to do all the things you want, but you will try to pack as much into these three weeks as you can. 

The landing is smooth, and soon you’re stepping out into the bustling city streets of Saffron City. You peek to your right to see a nervous look on Namjoon’s face. Stepping closer to him you rest a hand on his muscular bicep and his breath hitches. 

“It’s going to be okay, Joon.”

His face relaxes and a small smile takes over. You are glad your words can bring comfort to him. Professor Oak leads the way to your hotel, a skyscraper just a few blocks away from the gym. After checking in, you head up to your room, feeling a new wave of excitement. You freshen up planning on exploring the city by yourself. 

A knock on your door diverts your plan. When you are ready to leave you open the door to see Namjoon and Yoongi. Why is Yoongi standing in front of you? You will be civil for the sake of the Oak’s Club, but you don’t want to spend your free time with him if you don’t have to. Namjoon alone would be much better company. “Somehow Jimin has already sexiled us.” Namjoon says with slight irritation seeping into his tone. He pinches the bridge of his nose before looking back at you. “So, let’s go explore the city.”

“Jimin works fast, huh?” You laugh stepping out of your hotel room to follow.

“It helps that he fucks anything that moves.” Yoongi mutters and your eyes shoot daggers at him. Namjoon doesn’t seem to notice as he leads you towards the entrance of the hotel. Your ex boyfriend’s expression changes when he realizes the weight of what he’s just said. He used to be so careful with his words. What happened to the man you used to love? “Oh, YN, I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Why are you even here?” You ask, catching his arm and pulling him to a stop. 

“Because I miss you.” Yoongi says softly and you scoff. He doesn’t deserve to miss you. He lost that privilege the moment he left you. “Do you really want me to go away?”

“It’s your own fault you miss me.” You reply, eyes glancing towards where Namjoon has stopped at the door that leads outside. He is watching your interaction but is too far away to hear what is being said. You are grateful that he is giving you the space to talk this out privately. “You can do whatever you want, but just know you are ruining my vibe with your presence.” 

“Okay, I’ll see you tomorrow then.” Yoongi says, shoving his hands into his pockets. “Stay safe. I don’t care what terms we are on, I'm always a call away.”

“Bye.” You say turning on your heel to join Namjoon at the door.

Your heart aches knowing he still cares for you. Would he really come if you called? Even after the strong signals you’ve been giving him since you came to school? Then again if Yoongi called you for help you would come without question. It would take something very serious for him to ever call you when he was in trouble. Part of you wonders if you can ever really stop caring about the person who was your best friend for many years before he was your boyfriend. 

“Everything okay?” Namjoon asks, secretly thrilled that Yoongi is no longer tagging along.

You nod, trying to shake off the lingering annoyance and dredged up feelings from the encounter with Yoongi. “Yeah, just the same old shit. Let’s forget him. Show me around!”

He smiles, offering you his arm. “Gladly, let’s go.”

You lace your arm through his and the two of you step out into the lively streets of Saffron City. The evening air is filled with the sounds of chatter and laughter from the many people enjoying the city around you. You decide to wander aimlessly, taking in the sights and sounds. Namjoon seems to have a story for everything you ask about. He is a great guy, making you laugh with his witty remarks and engaging you in conversations about things he’s never spoken about before. 

Namjoon leads you towards a bustling night market filled with food stalls. The delicious aroma makes your stomach grumble, and Namjoon suggests trying some of the local delicacies. You eagerly agree, and soon you’re sampling various dishes, sharing bites and stories. He feeds you bites of food and you can feel your cheeks flushing. You are having a great time exploring Namjoon’s hometown with him by your side. 

As the night progresses, you find yourselves in a cozy park, sitting on a bench under the starlit sky. Namjoon’s warm hand is loosely wrapped around yours playing with your fingers.The conversation drifts to more personal topics, and you find yourself opening up to Namjoon about Yoongi. You tell him as much as you’ve told Hiyyih about why you and Yoongi broke up. He listens attentively, waiting to ask any questions until you are finished.

“He still hasn’t told you?” Namjoon asks, looking at your hands instead of into your eyes. “You would think if he really wanted you back he would just tell you.”

“Whatever he has to say isn’t going to change things between us, but I still want to know.” You admit, wishing Yoongi would spill so you can stop thinking about him so often. “Thank you for listening. I think this explains my reluctance to be around him.”

Namjoon nods understandingly, his thumb gently stroking the back of your hand. “It’s natural to want closure, especially after a relationship as important to you as the one you had with him. Sometimes, though, closure can come from within. It’s about finding peace with the situation, regardless of what he says or does.”

You sigh, tilting your head back to gaze up at the stars. Having incredibly insightful friend’s is a blessing. “I know you’re right. I just wish it didn’t still bother me so much.”

“It’s okay to feel that way, YN.” Namjoon reassures you. “He was a big part of your life, and sometimes it takes a big amount of time to fully move on. But, you will, in your own time.”

You smile gratefully at him, feeling a warmth in your chest that contradicts the chilly winter air surrounding you. “Thanks, Namjoon. You always know what to say.”

“I’m just glad I can be here for you. You’ve been there for me in more ways than you know.”

The moment lingers between you, the quiet of the park and the gentle rustle of the leaves creating a peaceful atmosphere. Eventually Namjoon breaks the silence pulling you off of the bench. 

“Do you want to get a drink before we head back to the hotel?” He asks, a hopeful look in his eyes. “There’s a great bar just down the street.”

You nod, letting Namjoon keep his large hand wrapped around yours. “I’d like that.”

Hand in hand you walk down the dimly lit street until you reach the bar Namjoon was thinking of. It’s a small bar with a cozy atmosphere. There is smooth jazz music playing quietly in the background and plenty of seats are available for you. Namjoon guides you towards a booth in the corner where you take a seat. He walks away to order drinks and somehow you trust that he’s going to get you something you like. His baskets of goodies haven’t missed yet.

He comes back with two cocktail glasses with a pretty light pink liquid. He sets yours on the table in front of you before taking the seat across the table. He’s too nervous to sit beside you. 

“This is the Saffron Siren.” Namjoon says, raising the glass to his lips to take a sip. “This place is known for its tasty drinks.”

You copy the movement letting the enticing sweet floral taste wash over your tongue. A pleased hum sounds from your lips. It is not something you would have chosen for yourself, but something you want more of. Namjoon watches your reaction carefully.

“This is so good!”

His smile widens at your reaction, pleased you are enjoying the drink. “I’m glad you like it. It’s one of my favorites.”

For a little while you sit in a comfortable silence enjoying your drinks and the calm atmosphere. Namjoon glances at you, happy to spend this time with you away from everyone else. He’s trying not to imagine this under different circumstances. He is trying not to think of this as if it was a date. That’s out of the question for now. Especially when he is going to see his ex-boyfriend tomorrow. 

“This is really helping calm my nerves about being back in my hometown.” Namjoon says softly with an appreciative smile. “Thank you for being here with me.”

“I’m glad to be here with you.” 

The two of you finish your drinks before heading back to the hotel. There’s no rush as you walk back. Namjoon is telling you stories of the mischief he used to get up to in this area and you feel like you are seeing a new side of him. Was the Namjoon that lived in this city different from the man you know now?

“Sleep well.” You say when you reach the door of your hotel room.

In a moment of thoughtlessness you stretch up onto your toes and kiss Namjoon’s cheek before quickly slipping away into your room. Namjoon stands there with his eyes wide open not being able to process what just happened. Maybe you shouldn’t have done that but you can’t take it back now. You wanted to kiss his cheek, so you did. He’s been a sweetheart and you are starting to feel like there is no one you’d rather spend time with. 

The night replays in your mind as you get ready to go to sleep. This was the best note to start this trip on. Just as you are about to turn the light off there is a knock on your door. You glance at your phone seeing a message from Jimin. Clutching the door handle you open the door hoping that Jimin is alone. You are pleased when you reveal a lone Jimin who pushes into your room before you can invite him in. 

“What did you do to Namjoon?” He asks without even a hello. Jimin takes a seat in the chair near the end of your bed. “He’s been sitting on our bed with his hand on his cheek since he came back.”

“I kissed his cheek.” You say nonchalantly. “What’s more important is how you managed to sexile Yoongi and Namjoon within twenty minutes of being here.”

Jimin crosses his arms furrowing his brow as he gives you a stern look. It takes everything in you not to roll your eyes. This is definitely not the big deal he’s making it out to be. He must be exaggerating about Namjoon. You are just friends. It was friendly. 

“No, what did you guys do? What do you mean you kissed his cheek? Where did that come from? I thought you were trying not to do that.”

Jimin looks at you, waiting for an answer as you try to collect your thoughts. You don’t think he is going to report back to Namjoon but you should still be careful about what you say. Giving Jimin the wrong idea is not something you want to deal with right now. 

“We walked around the city and he was telling me stories of growing up here. He took me to a park and we watched the stars.” You watch his reaction as you speak but his face remains neutral. “I told him about Yoongi leaving and he was holding my hand. As always he knew exactly what to say. Then we went to get a drink before we came back here.”

“Then you kissed him on the cheek, sending him into shock.” Jimin replies and you huff falling back onto your bed. 

“It just felt right to do it at that moment. It doesn’t have to mean anything. He has very kissable cheeks.” You reason sitting back up to look Jimin in the eyes. “Anyways…spill about whoever was in your room.”

Jimin narrows his eyes at you like he’s not satisfied with your story, but launches into his own story. He’s been talking to this girl on instagram for weeks who happens to be in Kanto at the same time the Oak’s Club was coming. Jimin has been planning to meet up with her ever since they realized they would both be in Saffron City at the same time. 

“It was like a 6 out of 10.” He concludes after telling you probably more details than necessary. After having also slept with him you have far too good of a picture of exactly what he’s talking about. 

“I’m afraid I regret asking that.” You say after a moment of processing. “Go back to your room, we have to get up early.”

Jimin blows you an air kiss then leaves the room. Once he’s gone you settle into bed mentally preparing yourself to meet the Kanto gym leaders. They are people just like Kai, but just like Kai they are incredibly powerful people. These leaders are going to help you become a more well rounded trainer so you can take on a different set of gym leaders. They could help give you the edge you need to dethrone your best friend’s brother. 

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In the morning you put your hair up into a tight ponytail. You dress in your Oak’s Club jacket with black leggings before you leave your hotel room and meet up with the rest of the Oak’s Club. Professor Oak sent the group a message asking you to join him at the Saffron City Gym at 10. He has not detailed what to expect and that makes you a little bit nervous. 

Before heading to the gym you eat breakfast with Namjoon, Jimin, and Yoongi. With Yoongi not saying a single word the meal is actually enjoyable. He is back to no smiles and almost glaring glances across the table. 

“YN, did you name your Wooper yet?” Jimin asks when you are making your way towards the gym.

“When did you get a Wooper?” Yoongi asks, curiosity being the first expression you’ve seen on his face today. “I just caught a Wooper the day before yesterday.”

“Jungkook and I took a little trip together to Los Platos and I caught him there.” You say mostly to catch Namjoon up to speed because you had forgotten to tell him about this. “I decided to name him Bones.”

“Yoongi, what did you name yours?” Namjoon asks, trying to include him despite the attitude Yoongi clearly has against him. Another quality of this man. 

“Her name is Sugar.”

Jimin questions this choice and you tune out watching Namjoon open the door for you. You thank him as you walk through the door. His smile is getting more nervous and you can tell that he is tensing up. What is worrying him so bad about coming to this gym? Surely his ex won’t be at the gym. 

“Hello! Welcome to my gym!” Woosung Kim, leader of the Saffron City Gym, greets you when you step into the lobby. “Let’s movement into one of our battle areas. Professor Oak is waiting for us.”

Woosung has shaggy dark hair with the slightest wave. He is wearing a dark purple knit sweater with black jeans and chunky boots. He is even more handsome in person and you wonder how one person can have it all. 

Namjoon stops breathing for a second the moment he sees his ex boyfriend. Woosung has only become more handsome since the last time Namjoon saw him. His hair is shaggier and he is standing with a new level of confidence Namjoon hasn’t seen before. Being a new gym leader changes people.

Woosung introduces himself to the group once you reach the battle area. Professor Oak is standing next to another researcher you think your mother has worked with before. Woosung begins telling you the story of how he became a gym leader. Woosung is the newest gym leader with just under a year under his belt. Instead of going to school he chose to train himself and was able to beat the gym leaders of Kanto. The Saffron City Gym leader before him was looking for someone to take over and after going through a rigorous test Woosung took over. He has already battled many trainers and very few have bested him.

Your eyes find Namjoon’s in your excitement to hear this story from a gym leader so close in age to you. Could this be you one day when you step away from the responsibilities of a champion? Something is off with Namjoon so you keep close by occasionally patting his shoulder as Woosung tells you what this week will look like. 

“For our trainers, YN and Yoongi, you will be joining Matthew Kim, the Pewter City Gym leader, and I on a trip to Johto. Since our regions are connected, the ice path and Mount Mortar would be a fantastic place to give you a taste of what you will experience this spring. We will leave on Friday and return on Sunday. Until then we will be preparing you and making sure your teams are up to the challenge.”

Your eyes dart between your friends and Yoongi with excitement. There are so many different kinds of pokemon you could see on this journey. The ice path is a perfect opportunity to catch an ice pokemon you’ve been dreaming of to help elevate your team. Sure, being around Yoongi is not what you want but in this life you have to learn how to deal with difficult things. How can you ever be champion if you can’t even protect yourself from your own feelings? Namjoon’s face relaxes slightly when he locks eyes with you. His real smile returns as he looks back to the researcher in front of you. 

“Jimin and Namjoon will be joining my team in our research facility. You will assist us in various research and testing over the next few weeks. This will give you a taste of what it is really like to work in the field you are currently studying.”

Woosung instructs us to take a look around and meet him back here in fifteen minutes. You think this is a little odd considering you just got here but you are not about to argue with the leader of this gym.

As soon as he’s done speaking Woosung swiftly pulls Namjoon aside. You wonder what that is about. They are the same age and were both raised here. Maybe they were friends in high school? But you think that is something Namjoon would have mentioned to you considering he knows how closely you follow many of the gym leaders. You take a seat at the side of the battle court watching as Namjoon and Woosung walk through a doorway. 

“I don’t want to talk to you.” Namjoon says once the door is closed. Woosung flicks on the light of the supply closet. Namjoon crosses his arms over his chest looking anywhere but into the eyes of the person that was once his everything. “There’s no reason to.”

“That’s fair, but I just feel some obligation to warn you that I’m dating one of the other gym leaders and they’ll be here soon.” Woosung says gently and Namjoon wishes that his heart didn’t sink. Namjoon looks down to see the soft expression on Woosung’s face. He really thinks this is some kind of kindness when Namjoon would rather not know. “I just don’t want you to be shocked.”

“Which one?” Namjoon whispers as if any answer will lessen the deep ache invading his chest. He takes a breath and asks another question. A more important one, because if he’s here he might as well ask while he has the chance. “How long?”

“The Pewter City Gym leader, Matthew. We didn’t make it official until May.”

Namjoon desperately fights to keep his composure knowing that means Woosung and Matthew officially starting dating weeks after he and Woosung hooked up for the last time. It’s not a good feeling even if Namjoon doesn’t want to rekindle their relationship. It was just a night of fun before Woosung could get to the man he really wanted.

“Oh…” Namjoon manages. “Nice. Thanks for letting me know.”

The two men stand in silence for a moment and Namjoon is hoping he will leave the closet. He’s hoping for a moment of alone time before he has to face his friends and Yoongi again. Of course, fate is not on his side and his ex boyfriend starts speaking again. 

“I know this isn’t really my place but are you seeing YN? The way she looks at you reminds me of how I used to look at you.”

Namjoon’s brows knit together in confusion. He has no idea what Woosung means. Surely, he’s imagining that. He would have noticed if you were looking at him like that because he looks at you like that.

“It’s not like that, Woosung.” Namjoon mumbles because Woosung is the last person on earth he wants to be talking to about this. 

“Do you want it to be like that?” He asks, once again catching Namjoon off guard. 

As much as Namjoon wishes it was that simple, it’s not. You have a lot of things going on in your life. One of those things is still processing the feelings you have for your ex boyfriend. Namjoon does not want to overwhelm you when you’re still vulnerable. Especially, at such a pivotal time in your life when you are training for the thing you’ve dreamed of being since you were a child. 

“It doesn’t matter what I want. She’s still getting over Yoongi and her happiness means more to me than getting my way.”

Namjoon means that sincerely. Getting closer to you makes him feel like maybe there is a chance for him to find love again, but he respects you too much to blatantly say how he feels right now. He doesn’t think he’s been subtle and when you are ready or want him to go away you’ll let him know.

“The one that hasn’t smiled since he got here?” Woosung laughs then returns to his more serious face. “Don’t live your life like you have a thousand years.”

Woosung pats Namjoon on the shoulder before exiting the closet leaving Namjoon alone with his thoughts. He stands there for several minutes trying to gather himself into someone who can be trusted in the lab he is about to travel to. Namjoon pulls at his hair letting out a frustrated sigh. Why couldn’t Woosung just become a songwriter? When they were together Woosung talked about his dream of being in a band. That would have made Namjoon’s life a lot simpler at this moment. Woosung obviously still has the poetic charisma that once made Namjoon feel like the most special person in the world. If he didn’t know the sheer amount of self discipline Woosung has he would wonder how he accomplished this. Namjoon wonders if Woosung would still be here if he had decided to stay.

“Are you okay?” You ask Namjoon when he returns to the battle area. “What was that about?”

The brightness that usually shines from Namjoon’s eyes is missing. He doesn’t hold eye contact with you, instead letting his eyes dart to where Woosung is standing with the leader of the Pewter City Gym. So maybe he and Woosung weren’t friends? He wouldn’t be acting like this if they were. 

“I’m okay.” He finally looks back into your eyes and you lay a comforting hand on his shoulder. Namjoon likes the feel of your hand on his shoulder much more than the feel of Woosung’s. “It’s nothing.”

“I’m here if you need to talk.” You say giving his shoulder a squeeze before turning away and joining Yoongi in front of the six gym leaders that are here. 

The Viridian Gym leader, notably, is missing but you expected as much. He’s very elusive and when he does appear for trainer battles he is always wearing a mask and clothing that hides any identifiable traits. It’s something you try not to wonder about too much. 

Jimin and Namjoon follow the researcher out of the building and you study each of the gym leaders. The Kanto gym leaders that are standing in front of you range in age from 19 to 28. Each of them has their own unique story as to how they earned this honor. 

They introduce themselves to you but you already know their names. The Kanto Gym leaders are quite active on social media. There’s Matthew Kim of Pewter City who favors rock type, Nayeon Im of Cerulean City who battles with water type, Dahyun Kim of Vermillion City who uses electric type, Jiwoo Jeon of Celadon City who favors grass type, Jeonghan Yoon of Fuschia City who loves poison types, Woosung Kim of Saffron City who uses psychic types, and Heeseung Lee who battles with fire types. 

Of the leaders in front of you Jeonghan, who you believe just turned 28 not too long ago, has been a leader for the longest amount of time. It’s been just over ten years since he took over the gym. The newest gym leader is Woosung who has not yet held the title for a year. To you it doesn’t matter how long they’ve been here. Each of them is incredibly strong and well respected.

“Can we meet your teams?” Woosung asks with an excited smile. “Let’s hear the stories of how they found you.”

You nod enthusiastically quickly doing what he asked. Each of your pokemon line up in a neat row beside you at your command and the gym leaders watch closely. You are pleased that your team listened to you so easily when you asked them. 

Beside you Yoongi releases his team and you catch your breath because his team has grown beyond what you knew. Of course you know of the pokemon he brought to school, his Squirtle and the Wooper but he didn’t say anything about the Pawmi and Surskit patiently standing by his side. You suppose you haven’t given him much of a chance to talk about it with you. Something even more surprising stands out. 

“When did Holly evolve into a Houndoom?” You ask with a twinge of sadness that might sound like concern.

This Houndour was Yoongi’s first pokemon. Yoongi’s father was given the egg by a breeder and Yoongi worked to hatch it himself. Until Yoongi left you had watched Holly’s whole life and it hurts that you've missed such a big milestone in her life. This also means Yoongi is training hard. 

“The weekend you went to Hiyyih’s house.” Yoongi says, studying your team instead of looking into your eyes. He continues, but muttering as if he doesn’t really want anyone to hear. “I would’ve told you if you answered my messages.”

You introduce your pokemon instead of answering your ex. Matthew, Woosung and Jiwoo ask the most questions and you answer them quickly with confidence. Maybe other people would be nervous in a situation like this but you are glad to be speaking to such legends. 

“And you Yoongi?” Jeonghan asks, prompting the gym leaders to turn their focus towards Yoongi. 

Yoongi introduces each of his pokemon Holly the Houndoom, Crush the Squirtle, Sugar the Wooper, Tawni the Pawmi and Circus the Surskit. He caught the other pokemon in his free time while solo adventuring. There was a time when you would’ve been the first person he told about all of this, but now you are learning all of this in front of a bunch of other people. You wish this didn’t make your heart ache. This should be a happy time. If things were like they used to be, both of you would be so excited for each other. 

“When was the last time you two battled each other?” Woosung asks, looking at Yoongi.

“Early March of last year.” You respond leaning down to pet Spark’s head as he rubs up against your leg. 

“There was a lot of room for growth in that time.” Nayeon says, tapping her lips with her index finger. “Perhaps we should watch you battle.”

A fire of excitement burns through you at the thought of battling Yoongi again. It’s been so long and you have both been training so hard. This is bound to be a good battle. A confident smile works its way onto your face and you turn towards Yoongi who is looking at you with wide eyes. 

You recall your pokemon and skip to the opposite side of the battle court. The gym leaders take a seat behind where Yoongi will stand once he gets his head in the game. You watch Yoongi pull in a deep breath before recalling his pokemon and walking to his starting position. 

“Are you ready, YN?” Yoongi calls out, his voice full of confidence suddenly. 

“Ready as ever!” You reply with a determined look. Thinking quickly you decide to call out Spark knowing that Yoongi is likely to send out his Squirtle first. Yoongi will assume you want to use Sriracha as an opener. “Let’s show them what we're made of, Spark!”

Yoongi’s eyebrows furrow for a moment before he regains his cool demeanor. “You’re in for a shock, YN. Go, Crush!”

You are in fact not shocked because this is exactly what you expected him to do. Spark’s mane ripples with electricity as Yoongi’s Squirtle takes a defensive stance. You waste no time commanding Spark to unleash a powerful spark. Crush tries to dodge, but the attack lands, sending a jolt through her tiny body. Spark has been training for a lot longer than Crush and it shows in the way Crush stumbles. Yoongi directs his pokemon to retaliate with water gun, which Spark soaks up with little damage. 

Yoongi grins just like he used to when you battled each other. “Nice one, but we’re not done yet. Crush, tackle!”

“Spark, use Thunder Fang.” You call just quickly enough that your Luxio reacts before he gets tackled. Yoongi’s Squirtle isn’t able to handle the electric shock that accompanies Spark’s bite and faints. 

Crush recalls into her pokeball and you quickly try to predict who Yoongi is going to send out next. Is he going to try to go full power or will he be more strategic about this. Before you can come to a conclusion he is already calling another pokemon to the battle court. 

“Not bad, beautiful.” Yoongi calls with a hint of admiration in his voice. Your blood runs cold at the nickname and it takes everything in you not to walk across the court and slap him. “Let’s see how you handle this. Go, Sugar!”

Sugar emerges from her pokeball, eyeing Spark with determination. It’s hard for you to focus on the task at hand when Yoongi is being insufferable. 

“Spark, use crunch!” You yell desperately but Yoongi’s Wooper is faster and mud bombs your Luxio before he can even react. 

Spark stands shakily after being knocked down by the attack. He does manage to hit Sugar with crunch but it has little effect which pisses you off more. How is your type match up knowledge going down the drain just because he said one stupid word?

“Mud bomb again, Sugar! Spark is weak.” Yoongi calls and you hear Spark growl. You resinate with that. The Wooper hits Spark much harder than the last time and your pokemon is unable to stand back up. You recall Spark taking a deep breath. 

The battle continues in a similar fashion, each of your pokemon is giving all they can in this intense battle, but you are not at your best. The gym leaders are watching with calculated glances. It’s obvious they are hiding any reaction they might be having. 

Yoongi leads the battle making each of your pokemon faint until it’s just your Charmander against his Houndoom. Under normal circumstances maybe this battle would have lasted longer with these two pokemon. Holly is much stronger than Sriracha though, having been trained for years and years longer. Losing, especially against Yoongi, doesn’t upset you but tears are brimming at your eyes when you recall your fainted pokemon. 

“That was a great battle!” Woosung calls from where he is seated on the ground. He stands and the other gym leaders follow the action. “We are going to step out. We’ll be back in five minutes and we can break down the strengths and weaknesses.”

The gym leaders file out of the battle area and Yoongi walks towards you stopping just over a foot away. He doesn’t say anything for a moment and you wish you weren’t having this reaction. How the fuck are you going to be champion if you want to cry when you lose?

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have called you that nickname.” Yoongi says and his face falls into concern when you lift your head and he sees tears. Why can’t this be simple? Wouldn’t it be so much easier to forgive him? “YN, it’s okay. It’s just one stupid battle. You’ve beat me way more times than I’ve won.”

He’s not lying but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. Its been so long since you battled each other and he obviously surpassed you during whatever he was doing last year. What could he have possibly been doing with his father that would give him this kind of edge?

“But it’s not okay. Six of the best gym leaders in the world just watched me choke over a stupid nickname you used to get into my head.”

Yoongi scoffs with a genuinely offended look towards you. You don’t want to take back the words because you believe they are true.

“It slipped out.” Yoongi says with an irritated expression. “I don’t need to use mind games with you. I mean it when I call you that and I always will.”

“Tell me where you were.” You demand knowing he will know what you are talking about without further elaboration. 

“YN, again is this really the place?” Yoongi sighs, tugging at his hair. He locks eyes with you wanting you to hear his words. “I want to tell you but I have to make sure of some things before I can do that.”

“Do you want me to be your girlfriend again?” You blurt out before you can think better of it.

Yoongi’s eyes widen and he begins nodding his head. Then he answers with no hesitation. “Yes, I miss you every day.”

“Tell me before this trip ends and I’ll think about it.”

There is absolutely no chance you are going to get back together with him, but if this is how you finally get the information out of him you think it's fair. He doesn’t say anything for a moment and you think he’s going to say some bullshit again but he doesn’t. 

“Okay, I’ll find a way because I still lo-” 

The gym leaders make a noisy entrance cutting off Yoongi’s sentence. You plaster a smile on your face and turn to listen to the criticism they have for you. Not taking their words to heart is difficult but you know you shouldn’t when they haven’t seen the best of you. Four gym leaders take Yoongi to another battle area and three stay with you.

Woosung, Matthew and Nayeon keep a steady stream of local trainers coming for the rest of the day. These battles are a lot more casual than the one with Yoongi. When one of the gym leaders has a comment they will pause the battle. After a few battles you are able to get your head fully back into battling. Out of the corner of your eye you can see impressed looks raising onto the leader’s faces. Matthew and Nayeon battle once and you feel grateful to watch these high level gym leaders facing off against each other. 

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“YN, that was great!” Woosung praises after the last battle of the day. 

The sun set hours ago and you are starving. You took very few breaks between battles wanting to get as much as possible out of the day. Nothing sounds better than a big meal and a hot shower right now. 

“Thank you!” You reply, brushing a piece of your hair that fell away from your face. “I don’t think I’ve ever battled that many times in a row before.”

“Really? You and your pokemon have incredible endurance.” Nayeon says standing from her seat on the floor. 

“Let’s continue this conversation over dinner.” Matthew says, rubbing his flat stomach.

You agree, following the gym leaders out of the building. Five minutes later you are seated at a restaurant and the gym leaders are talking casually to you. Nayeon has met your parents a few times when they were doing research in her hometown. It’s clear to you that Woosung and Matthew are more than friends from their lingering touches. They are both genuinely nice people who are extremely talented at what they do.

Namjoon shows up a few minutes later and takes a seat beside you. He glances towards Woosung before picking up his menu. You excitedly tell Namjoon what you did today and he locks eyes with you listening to every word.

“That sounds really fun but tough. We spent the day going over lab protocol so we can really start tomorrow.” Namjoon says an excited glint in his eyes. “Jimin and Yoongi went out for dinner with the other gym leaders. They weren’t feeling barbeque today.”

You are glad you don’t have to face him after your loss this morning, but you do wonder when he plans on telling you why he had to leave. Jimin you can meet up with later for more details on what they did today. 

“Namu, have you seen her battle?” Woosung asks from across the table. His eyes are glinting with excitement. “She got off to a shaky start but really turned things around once she was warmed up.”

Namjoon freezes, eyes moving to look at Woosung. It’s like he didn’t expect Woosung to talk to him. What is going on here? When was the last time they saw each other before today? What happened? You put a hand on Namjoon’s knee under the table and he relaxes into your touch. 

“I’ve only seen her battle once,” Namjoon replies, trying to keep a normal tone. He places his hand over yours on his knee, squeezing. “But she was battling Hiyyih Huening and it was incredible.”

“She would be in YN’s class wouldn’t she? I feel like I watched her grow up.” Nayeon says before taking a sip of her cocktail. “Did you win?”

“I did win. It was one of the funniest battles I’ve had in awhile.” 

The waiter brings your meat out and Namjoon takes the lead laying it onto the grill. You remove your hand from his knee and engage in the conversation Woosung is having about the last time he saw Kai. They ran into each other at one of the charity galas here. Woosung has done a lot in the almost year since he became a gym leader. 

Drinks flow and you enjoy the food being grilled to perfection. You never run out of things to talk about with these gym leaders. They all have the same interests as you because you want to be just like them some day. 

“Is Yoongi your rival?” Matthew asks with redness from the alcohol he’s consumed showing on his face. 

“Something like that.” You reply, taking a sip of the drink Namjoon ordered for you. It’s delicious. “It’s a long story but the short version is we were best friends then we started dating then he left without telling me why and now he also wants to become champion of Paldea.”

Namjoon is focusing intensely on grilling and not participating in the conversation. For some reason you are almost irritated that he’s not talking. Does he not want to be here? You wish he would tell you what’s wrong. It obviously has something to do with Woosung. 

Matthew hypes you up for a minute telling you how that should be an even bigger motivator and that you can’t let Yoongi get into your head. Of course, you know all these things but hearing someone else say it to you is really so helpful.

“How do you know Namjoon again?” Nayeon questions and Woosung and Namjoon freeze at the same moment catching each other’s eyes. They seem to have a silent conversation before Woosung speaks up. Namjoon’s hand is balled into a tight fist on the side of the table.

“We used to date before he left for Mesagoza.” Woosung says and you can’t hide the shock on your face. 

Namjoon has mentioned having two boyfriends but he never mentioned that one of them was a gym leader. He must’ve known what Woosung was doing with his life. Why wouldn’t he have told you? Does he not trust you? There’s a pang in your chest knowing he didn’t want you to know who his ex is. Another emotion you can’t quite put your finger on is turning your stomach. Is it jealousy thinking of Woosung being with Namjoon? But why would you be jealous? Namjoon is your friend.

Before you can psychoanalyze your thoughts further you remember something more important that Namjoon told you.

“Which one?” You lean in close to Namjoon not wanting to be here another second if Woosung is the man who threatened to out Namjoon to his parents. 

“It wasn’t him.” Namjoon whispers immediately knowing what you are asking without further context.

Nayeon clears her throat with an apologetic look on her face and changes the topic. After eating a bit more you decide it’s time for you to head out and Namjoon follows behind you. Neither of you says anything until you are sitting in the same park you visited last night. 

“Is he why you were nervous about coming here?” You ask settling into the park bench. 

“Yeah, he’s most of the reason. The last time we saw each other…” He pauses as if he’s trying to decide whether he wants to tell you something. “Was last spring when he came to Paldea. Against my better judgment I hooked up with him. So yeah it’s a little messy.”

“That sounds really rough.” You reach for Namjoon’s hand as you speak. This is becoming routine for the two of you. There is comfort in holding his hand. Namjoon swears his heart skips a beat when you reach for his hand first. With your warm fingers laced through his he admits something that maybe he should keep to himself. 

“And this morning he pulled me into that closet to warn me that he’s dating Matthew Kim. Like I needed to know that information.” Namjoon gestures with his free hand and you can see frustration creasing his pretty face. He takes a breath then continues. “He and Matthew started dating two weeks after he practically begged me to spend the night with him. I don’t have feelings for him anymore, but it’s hard looking at someone who used to mean everything to me.”

“I really get that last part. Yoongi called me by an old nickname during our battle and it completely derailed me.” You stand pulling Namjoon up with you. He looks down at you with only a few inches between the two of you. “Let’s do the best we can to not let them control how we feel.”

Namjoon still looks worried and your brilliant slightly intoxicated mind decides to wrap your arms around his waist. He freezes for a second before he returns the hug, putting one of his hands on the back of your head and pulls you tight against his chest with his other arm. You stand in each other’s embrace for a good fifteen seconds before he pulls away. The yellow light from the lamppost above shows a pink hue coating his cheeks. 

“Let’s go get some rest. You must be tired after all those battles today.”

Namjoon walks back to the hotel with you keeping light conversation flowing. He asks you to wait for a minute when you reach your hotel room door. Namjoon disappears inside the boys room and comes back out with a handful of pokepower bars.

“There’s a shop I used to go to as a kid that sells these and I’ve never seen a pokemon refuse them.” Namjoon states handing you the sleekly packaged bars. “Keeping up their strength when they are training this hard is important. These should help. Give them each one in the morning before you go to the gym.”

“Thank you, Namjoon.”

He pats your head with a cheeky smile on his face then walks into the boys room without another word.

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After taking a refreshing shower you sit on the bed trying to gather your thoughts. When that proves too overwhelming you sit at the small table in the corner of the room and begin painting your nails. You call Hiyyih, giving her a full rundown of what’s happened since you left.

“I thought it would take you a lot longer to realize you have feelings for Namjoon.” Hiyyih says when you’ve finished telling her how Namjoon gave you Pokepower bars. 

“I did not say I have feelings for him.” You whine rolling your eyes even though she can’t see you. “I’m just a little upset he didn’t tell me he used to date Woosung.”

“Being jealous of his ex is definitely something though.”

She’s right, but does being a little jealous immediately mean you have feelings for him? You enjoy spending time with him and it makes you happy, but there’s still things you think you need to work through before you could give him the full attention he deserves. If he even wants you which you aren’t too sure he does considering he’s only ever mentioned dating men. He didn’t owe you the information that his ex is Woosung, but you thought at this point the two of you were close enough he would’ve told you. Namjoon knows that you keep tabs on the gym leaders from several different regions. So why wouldn’t he mention that?

“Even if I did have feelings for him, which I don’t, why would he want me when he used to date someone like Woosung? Hiyyih, I swear he’s way hotter in person and he was so helpful and kind to me today even when I was a mess.”

You continue coating your nails in a deep red color waiting for Hiyyih’s response. She’s quick with her response and you wonder where she pulls these from. 

“You said he told you he has no feelings for Woosung. They broke up for a reason.” Hiyyih pauses and you can hear her moving around. “That doesn’t matter though. Namjoon has been showing interest in you for a while.”

“You’re delusional. It’s not like that.” You counter, not wanting to even entertain the idea. “Does he even like girls? The only relationships he’s ever mentioned to me are with men.”

Hiyyih makes a displeased noise then sighs. “Why don’t you ask him that?”

“I’m not just going to ask him that, Hiyyih!”

“Fine,” She concedes. “Do it your way.”

After that the conversation morphs to what she’s been up to since going home. When she gets bored of that, because she’s mostly been hanging around her home, Hiyyih asks for every little detail of your battles today. You don’t even care if she’s trying to gather information to gain an edge on you. Talking about these battles genuinely excites you. 

By the time you get off the phone it's well past midnight and you know you are going to regret this when you have to wake up early tomorrow. You curl into bed feeling just the slightest bit better now that Hiyyih has talked to you. Telling Hiyyih really helps you feel lighter. 

In the morning you feed your pokemon the power bars as instructed by Namjoon. Each of your pokemon seems to be thoroughly enjoying them and you make a note to get more before your trip with the gym leaders. It never fails to amaze you how much Namjoon knows about your pokemon just from what you tell him. Even if you are still a bit hurt, he didn't tell you about Woosung.

Today is spent much like yesterday battling trainers until you think you might collapse from exhaustion. This time you are outside on a battle court behind the gym. You appreciate the change of scenery considering almost every gym battle court is outside in Paldea. Through the battles you can feel yourself and your pokemon getting stronger. Not just physically stronger. The bond you have with your pokemon feels stronger than ever.

You spend more time with Jimin not wanting to deal with any confusion swirling in your brain. He has an endless amount of things to tell you from his time in the lab and his many side quest booty calls. It’s fascinating to hear about his side of this adventure. They are putting a lot of trust into Jimin and Namjoon and they are taking every opportunity in stride. 

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Bright and early on Friday morning you fly to Blackthorn City, one of the closest cities to the ice path. Matthew and Woosung take time to make sure you and Yoongi have proper attire for the journey you are about to embark on. You thought being around gym leaders would be a lot more intimidating but with them being so close to your age it’s almost like you are with classmates.

Despite Blackthorn City being quite large the population is small. Only the Pokemon center is open when you arrive. Woosung and Matthew lead you and Yoongi inside towards a cafe in the corner. The aroma of freshly brewed coffee and baked goods fills the air, welcoming you to this strange city. 

Once your food is ready the four of you sit in silence eating until Yoongi speaks up. He asks Woosung many of the things you talked about with the Saffron City gym leader yesterday. You are surprised Yoongi is talking and it seems Matthew and Woosung are also. This trip will be more comfortable if he isn’t being an asshole. 

You don’t say much not wanting to interact with Woosung. That doesn’t mean you aren’t studying him and trying to figure out all the things that made Namjoon love him. Even the small amount of time you’ve spent around him has made you realize there are probably a lot of reasons. Maybe this shouldn’t matter, but it’s clouding your mind.

You are grateful when it’s finally time to leave for the ice path. It is finally time for your first real adventure to start. It is finally time for you to catch an ice pokemon to help round out your team and lead you to success. 

The hike there isn’t easy but you try not to let the struggle show on your face. Along the way you battle a few wild pokemon noting the look Matthew and Woosung give each other as they watch you in action. Yoongi hasn’t said a word to you and it’s almost like he isn’t here. 

“Be careful.” Yoongi says softly as you step inside the entrance to the ice path. 

You roll your eyes firmly planting your feet as you scan the area for wild pokemon. On shaky legs you slide forwards and you can hear someone behind you. No doubt Yoongi following you because he thinks you need his help. Or maybe he just wants to make sure you are okay. Either way you don’t need his attention. As you continue up the path it's easier for you to slide along without fear of falling.

Nearly twenty minutes later a Sneasel catches your eye and you take a deep breath grounding yourself. Sneasel is a bipedal mustelid pokemon that resembles both a cat and a weasel. It is primarily bluish-black with three bright red feathers for its tail and a single one on its left ear. The ear feather is shorter on the female than on the male leading you to believe this one is female. The other ear is short and pointed, and it has narrow red eyes. On its forehead and chest are oval, yellow gem-like protrusions. It has red eyes with black eyelash-like markings on the edges. It has long limbs with two large, white retractable claws on its hands and feet. It is perfectly capable of using its claws to do substantial damage. Its claws are also used for climbing trees in boreal or sub-alpine forests where it lives. It can also bring out its claws to startle foes that attack it.

You send out Sriracha already planning to weaken this Sneasel until she will be easy for you to catch. Nothing about this is going to be easy. Sneasel are smart, sneaky, and notoriously vicious pokemon. That only makes you want them catch even more. You think of them as stubborn pokemon and you know it won’t be easy to train her, but you are up to the challenge. 

Sriracha follows each of your commands until you are sure the Sneasel is losing their strength to fight. With a handy ultra ball you throw and the pokemon gets sucked inside. The Sneasel struggles against the ball causing it to shake against the slippery ice floor. Ultimately, you catch her and are excited to see your Pokedex update with information. Yoongi looks over your shoulder as you read mostly information you already knew. If you weren’t so overjoyed with your catch you would probably push him away and send him sliding across the ice. 

“Nice catch, YN!” Matthew says sliding your way to pat you on the back. “Those Sneasel can be a tough catch.”

“Thanks!” You say letting a wide smile overtake your face. 

Woosung sings a similar praise before telling you about the first time he caught a Sneasel. There’s a piece of Namjoon in how he tells stories, or maybe there is a piece of Woosung in how Namjoon tells stories. That makes it hard for you to focus on the words he’s saying. You are glad when he and Matthew slide away out of ear shot. 

“Why aren’t you hanging on every word Woosung says?” Yoongi asks, leaning against a frozen pillar and crossing his arms over his chest. 

“I don’t know what you mean.” You reply, facing him and studying his nonchalant posture. “He’s just some guy.”

“Did he say something to make you uncomfortable?” 

It’s interesting that’s the conclusion he would draw. He keeps his cool composure, but you know he wouldn’t hesitate to fight someone for making you uncomfortable. Even if you don’t want to be with him anymore. That’s how it’s always been and probably always will be. 

“It’s not that.” You say, wondering if letting Yoongi know why you are acting this way is the right idea. Wouldn’t it just hurt him at the end of the day? “You’re going to think I’m being stupid.”

His eyebrows scrunch together.

“I promise I won’t.” 

“I’m upset that Namjoon didn’t tell me Woosung is his ex.” A slew of emotions flicker across his face before he regains his composure. Yoongi is the last person you should be talking to about this but some part of you is always going to feel comfortable telling him things. He used to be your best friend. “We spend so much time together and he’s told me so many other things, but he didn’t tell me that.”

“Do you have feelings for Namjoon?” Yoongi questions and you can see his heart breaking in his changing expression.

This is not something you want to be thinking about. The only thing you should be thinking about right now is whether or not your Sneasel will get along with your other pokemon. You really should not be thinking about a boy you’ve only known for a few months. A boy that could distract you from your dream.

“Do you really think you are the right person to be asking that?”

“I’m surprised you’re still talking to me at all.” A smile lifts the corners of his lips, though it doesn’t reach his eyes. “You’re far more pretty, interesting, and intelligent than him anyways.”

“Let’s go.” You say, trying to ignore the way his words make your heart hammer in your chest.

Of course he would say that to you. You walk up the ice path towards where Matthew and Woosung disappeared. Yoongi would say anything to get you back in his good graces. When is he going to tell you why he left? What could he be waiting for?

Woosung begins giving you helpful tips when you are close by. For the entire day you wander around listening to the gym leaders and watching how they battle the wild pokemon you encounter. 

When you are nearing the other side of the ice path you hear a loud rumbling noise followed by the sight of rocks falling. Yoongi grabs your hand pulling you through the exit of the ice path and out into the open. Woosung and Matthew quickly follow and you realize there has been an avalanche caused by the heavy snowfall. The four of you run up an adjacent hill to safety watching as the mouth of the cave leading into the ice path is blocked off by snow and rock.

After releasing your hand, Yoongi pulls out his phone looking down at the screen for a few moments before he speaks. 

“It doesn’t look like the snow is going to stop anytime soon. There’s a small pokemon center just down the road. We can stay there until things clear up.”

Woosung, Matthew and you share confused looks as to why Yoongi knows where a pokemon center not on the map is. Instead of questioning you follow him as he leads the way in the thick layer of snow coating the ground. It’s not an easy walk and the snow is coming down harder with every minute that passes. The darkness is not helping this trek. 

A sigh of relief leaves your lips when you see the familiar pokemon center sign come into view. This one is much smaller than average. Woosung pushes through the snow piling up in front of the door and we file into the pokemon center. The room is dimly lit by just a few lanterns. 

Nurse Joy pops her head out from a door on your left concern etched onto her features. 

“The power just went out.” She says joining us near the door. Matthew uses all his strength to ensure the door is tightly closed but you can still feel the chill of the snow inside. “Woosung could you start the generator? I sense some of your pokemon could use healing.”

Each of you hand over the pokemon that in fact need healing and she rushes away with Woosung right behind her. No longer moving you are suddenly very cold despite the several layer of clothes you are wearing. 

“Because this is such a low traffic area this pokemon center only has two rooms we can use.” Yoongi informs you as he sits on a sofa tucked in the corner of the room. “Nurse Joy is going to push all the power she can to keep the rooms and pokemon warm. We won’t be able to stay out here long.”

“YN, are you okay sharing a room with Yoongi? The beds in these smaller pokemon centers are never big enough and the floor probably isn’t heated.”

“It’s not.” Yoongi says without looking up from where he is staring at his hands. 

Of course he wants to share a room with you, but he can’t be the one to suggest it. Yoongi wouldn’t feel comfortable if you were alone. The proximity and inability to leave the room gives him the perfect chance to work through everything. 

Sharing a room with your ex boyfriend is the last thing you want to do, but there is no other option right now. At least he’s not a total stranger. Maybe you can finally get some answers out of him. Like why does he know his way around here? He has never mentioned this place before. 

“I’m okay with that.” You watch Yoongi waiting for any kind of reaction but he doesn’t give you one. 

Woosung comes back with a stack of blankets and divides them up between the four of us. Yoongi grabs his bag and your bag before leading you towards one of the rooms. One is on the left side of the building and the other room is on the right side of the building. Woosung raises an eyebrow but doesn’t say anything letting the two of you walk away. 

It’s much warmer in the room once the door is shut. There isn’t much to see inside the room. Just a twin bed with tiny nightstands on either side and a few hooks on the back of the door to hang your things.

You begin peeling off your layers of clothes as Yoongi sits on the edge of the bed. He’s sitting on the right side of the bed and that’s always been your side of the bed. Would it be weird to remind him of that?

“Close your eyes.” You command when you are about to remove your final layer of clothes.

“I’ve seen you naked like 100 times.” He quips looking over his shoulder. You throw one of the blankets at him and he chuckles. “Okay, fine.”

Yoongi reaches up to cover his eyes with his hands and faces back towards the wall. Quickly, you change into your pajamas and crawl under the blankets on the right side of the bed. He uncovers his eyes and looks at you with a soft smile from the end of the bed. 

“Are you sure you’re okay with this?” He asks standing up to retrieve clothes from his bag.

“I don’t really see any other choice at this point.”

He shrugs knowing you are right and starts taking off his clothes. You avert your gaze but when he settles onto the bed next to you he’s not wearing a shirt. He’s never liked sleeping with a shirt on. Maybe nothing has changed. Except it has because there are thick scars littering his back.

“What happened?” You push his head down so you can look at his bare back closer. Without thinking your finger traces over the angry mark and you can feel Yoongi shiver under your touch. Or maybe he’s just cold because he is topless. “Who did this to you?”

Yoongi sits up holding onto the hand that just traced the scars on his back. He takes a deep breath and releases it before he speaks. 

“My father.” He says so softly you almost aren’t sure you heard him correctly. “Are you ready to hear what I couldn’t tell you?”

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