#Kerry/susan

[littleorangecactus]

WIP’s coming soon:

Hello! I have had a list of WIP’s in my notes for close to 2 years that need to be cleared out and published. This is my list of them, if you are interested, please send me an ask and let me know what you think!

Here is a list of all of the ships I have, and a synopsis of what the fic will entail. Everything I post here, I cross post on AO3, same username. I will be doing a linked post for them when they are finished so it’s easier to access. This is list will be multi fandoms, multi media. It’s a little bit of all the things I’m interested in. I know it’s a lot but please bear with me. 

HARRY POTTER

SNARCISSA: Severus is a spy, which we all know, but what if he had help that no one knew about besides Dumbledore? What if one day Narcissa got hurt and had to be taken to the Order headquarters to be healed, leaving everyone to wonder who exactly the second spy is, and why they are there.

SNAPE ANGST: Hagrid comes rushing in to the great hall carrying a body that’s been dropped off at the gates. The woman bears a resemblance to our snarky potions master, but who they believe she is, physically cannot be possible. Who is this woman? And what does this mean for Sev?

SNARRY: Severus and Harry continue to butt heads after the war, Harry having come back for his final year. The more Snape tries to only see Potter in him, the more he realizes that they are two separate people. What is he to do with this new found attraction and knowledge?

SNUPIN: An order meeting turns upside down when Severus storms in the house, covered in blood, with a look in his eyes that no one has seen before. He is in an almost catatonic state after what LV asked Severus for this time, and the Order has never seen this side of him.

PLATONIC SNILY: Set after the end of their friendship. The bullying has only gotten worse. A treasured item from Sev’s mom gets destroyed by the boys and he completely breaks down. Lilly cannot help but come to his aid when she and the entire school witness this act, and the effects it has on Snape afterwards.

PLATONIC SNILY: Lilly is homesick, tired of fighting with Petunia over being a witch. Sev is there to comfort her after getting a rude letter. The Marauders try to be the assholes we all know they are, but Lilly isn’t having it. Cute friendship fic.

SNAPE ANGST: The order is feeling distrustful of Snape, him being late to the current meeting being held doesn’t help his side. When he comes in, he is disheveled and hurt, nothing like they’ve seen before. The Order gets an inside on the punishments DE face, and they cannot look at him the same way again. (Explicit tags for this one, trigger warnings will be posted)

BADASS SEVERUS: Final battle, Snape doesn’t go to meet Voldemort. Instead he hides in the shadows and bides his time. When the battle reaches the school grounds, he comes from the darkness ready to strike. No one is prepared for what he’s about to unleash, nor do they know where his allegiance lies.

SEVERITUS: Lilly and James have passed, leaving little Harry behind. I changed his age so he is around 2-3 here. The Order has taken him from his awful relatives, but they aren’t quite sure what to do with him now. Severus is tasked with being his guardian, which he isn’t at all happy about. Mainly my two fave boys, but there’s wolfstar and some other pairings as well.

SNEGULUS: Marauders era. Regulus and Snape centered, but the others will be here too. The marauders get to see an inside to the snakes they never thought they would get to before. Lilly and Snape are friends, regulus is obsessed with quidditch, Snape loves to piss off Sirius by dating his brother.

SNILY: this is a silly, goofy fic but I love it. Instead of the frog choir preforming, Dumbledore asked for a volunteer to preform at a ceremony for the school. Of course Lilly offers her and Sev to be the entertainment, leading to a lot of revelations. jealous James, Snape is a hormonal mess and can’t say no to his crush.

SNAPE ANGST: Severus is hurt and at the Order hideout, poppy has been called to heal him. The Order members get to see what it’s like going on a DE mission and what he sacrifices every day. Poppy/minerva as Snape’s adoptive parents bc I love my little lesbians. Lots of hurt and comfort.

Bellamione: ABO, omega Hermione, alpha Bellatrix. (I needed to write at least one of these and I have no shame in doing so.) Bellatrix is a professor at the school, with the same personality just a little less crazy. Protective Alpha golden boys, asshole Slytherin bullies. Hermione is the glue for the trio and basically runs their group.

Bellamione: They are both teachers, but completely opposite. The tensions between muggleborn and pureblood is getting ridiculous so Hermione comes up with a group activity to get them to see things from other perspectives. Sharing of cultures, cute lil fic on acceptance.

ER

I just found this show and I am obsessed. The fandom might be dead but I’m not, so buckle up.

Kerry/susan: Dr. Kerry Weaver is new to County general, and no one is enjoying her arrival. Her attitude and structured rules are driving everyone up the walls. Being such a private person, the others don’t get to see a lot into her personal life. That’s all going to change when someone from her past comes to visit and the skeletons in the closet can’t hide much longer.

Kerry/elizabeth: Mark is gone, Sandy is gone. Two broken women with their children remain behind. Can they get past their grievances and help each other, or will the past stop the future from becoming reality.

Kerry/Abby: starts off as a mentor fic, Abby seems like the only person who truly understands Kerry and her behaviors. When they are pushed together by events out of their control, will they allow the sparks to fly, or will one of them run away like they are prone to do?

platonic Kerry and Carter: John Carter is suffering and no one seems to be able to see it. No one except his boss who seems to be watching his every move. Kerry has been in his shoes and knows what he’s going through. Sometimes a little help can go a long way.

[cloudsnbones]

The Letter

this is something i wrote whilst speculating what Kerry wrote Kim at the end of s7. i think i lost her voice a little but i like it anyways. this can be applied to anyone you ship Kerry with.

I wish I could wax lyrical about you to the heavens, for any deity who would listen, but words fail me. I don’t know anything anymore, outside of you, I suppose I don’t know anything about you either, but I’d like to. You have invaded my mind with surreal happy-ever-afters, truths and futures I long to share with you despite already being able to taste my disappointment. I like to think about you however, about what food you like, about the clothes you wear, about the things that make you smile and how I wish I could do that, just once. I tell myself that if you just listened to me instead of hearing me then perhaps you would see good in me, kindness, that you could be as enamoured with me as I am with you. Or at the very least that you would like me. However, denial of my own faults is not helpful, comforting yes, but I think I may finally be strong enough to admit I’ve wronged you too, and I believe you deserve to know that I have not unearthed this strength alone, it is all in you. Everything I am, which is good, is for you.

I would promise you a thousand stars, if I knew that’s what you wanted, anything to erase your repulsion of me. Again, I find myself unwilling to concede that maybe you are right. I am so tired of being me it drains me, imagine living with my perfectionistic torment 24/7 arguing and insulting me till I break down then berating me for my weakness, yet telling me what I  need to hear the most - that I am disgusting and unworthy. You know this of course. If I think logically, something I am finding increasingly difficult these days, I understand that I could never be good enough for you and in knowing that I would be dissatisfied. So, I guess it’s a good thing that you don’t like me back.

Yet weirdly, I think that you… understand me, better than anyone else I have ever met. You deciphered my flaws and my weaknesses fast. I don’t mean to upset you with this next line, but I do think that our minds are alike, both searching for logic and trying to decipher the world around us. Our methods may be different but that doesn’t mean they’re wrong. I think they could compliment each other.

I find myself longing to be around you, I want to smell you, to absorb you, to make us one and whole, to listen to your stories and for you to listen to mine. I want to make you dinner, to curl up with you on a cold winter’s night with blankets and hot cocoa and marshmallows, I want to be the one to hold you when you cry. I can do it, I can be nice and good, if you were to let me try.

Your words bite me, my heart breaks to hear your mocking and your scorn, and endless reminder that you will never and have never viewed me through the lens which I view you. Nevertheless I find, uncharacteristically, that I am not angry with you, I am wounded and emotional; true. How could I not be? I am human despite what rumour says. But I am not angry with you. I am thankful that you have allowed me to view myself as I truly am, that you have unconsciously inspired me to be a better person. Morally, since my purpose is technically for my eternal happiness, I am still in the wrong, but even if I never get to kiss you good morning and good night. I am so unbelievably glad that we’ve met.

I guess what I’m trying to say is that, I love you.

Take my heart whenever you want it.

[gatheringbones]

susan kresge, from naming the violence: speaking out about lesbian battering, edited by Kerry lobel, 1986

[cloudberrylane]

when contestants work together during the live task:

series 16:

series 7:

meanwhile, James:

[kerry-fever]

She really wanted to be Resident of the Year 😔

At least John is happy

[onionjulius]

Alright so, ER rewatch is happening, but I'm swamped with work and so I'll have to wait for episode posts. For now, an initial inventory of my remembrance of the main characters/my opinion of them:

Love: Carol Hathaway, Mark Greene, Susan Lewis, Kerry Weaver, Abby Lockhart, Luka Kovač

Really like: John Carter, Doug Ross, Peter Benton, Elizabeth Corday, Lucy Knight, Jing-Mei Chen, Greg Pratt

Like: Jeanie Boulet*, Cleo Finch, Michael Gallant

Unlikeable but not devoid of complexity: Robert Romano, Dave Malucci

I remember your existence: Neela Rasgotra, Anna Del Amico

I don't remember your existence: Sam Taggert, Ray Barnett, Archie Morris, Tony Gates, Simon Brenner, Cate Banfield

*Jeanie's on the cusp between Like and Really like.

I'll be curious to see if my opinions change much watching this show 15-30 years after it initially aired. No doubt there will be cringe "Oh wow that aged poorly" moments, but hopefully also some that hold up well. It'll also be interesting to watch a pre-Prestige TV critical hit post-Prestige TV (and yeah, nostalgic, I'm getting quite nostalgic in my old age). And I'm wondering how my impressions of the characters will hold up in a close watch; I think I'm much more analytical now, and I'm pretty sure my opinions reflect the characters at their best without necessarily accounting for them at their worst. Although maybe that's not a bad thing as long as it's consistent.

More character recollections, some quite spoilery:

Mark's death slew me. It was so protracted too, he was suffering so much and his family was fraying at the seams and I just remember him trying so hard to handle things the best he could with that understated irony of his and just feeling so terribly for him. There was that thing with the guy in the elevator that he just let die, I don't remember what became of that ...

I love so much that Mark is really just Some Guy trying to do his job well while having normal Some Guy things like a wife and kids and basketball breaks. He's smart, decisive, dedicated, compassionate, a good teacher, and truly a deserving leader.

I know that Jeanie had at least one great story, which of course is the HIV story. I'm actually struggling to recall much before that, so that'll be fun.

I just ... I remember having such complex reactions to Kerry, and all these years later that has registered in my memory as love. I love Kerry, warts and all. You could feel so bad for her while simultaneously hate what she was saying or doing, and I do think she learned things over time. She was an outsider, a party pooper, ambitious and career-driven, a disabled lesbian, oil to Doug Ross' water. She was not easy to love, and so I loved her. Also, she was ER Mom. Love you, Mom!

I also loved Kim/Kerry. They felt so real and human and not simply an "issues" story. I find myself not recalling much of her relationship afterward, so looking forward to seeing if it is a worthy follow-up.

I loved Mark/Susan. They were such easy friends, so natural and believable together, so bright and breezy and (mostly) supportive and wonderful. I think they would have made a fine endgame, it was so easy to want good things for each of them, and what an unforgettable, lovely and bittersweet moment when she left Chicago on that train.

For all that though, I liked Mark with Elizabeth. It's true there wasn't the same will-they-won't they (and I remember feeling like her thing with Peter ended rather abruptly) but their domesticity was very sweet and she was a kick-ass character, strong and funny.

Romano was ... Problematic ... but his bond of some sort with Elizabeth was probably the best thing about his character.

I remember feeling that Peter was shafted, but that said he did last 8 years and I remember some good stories with his mother and sister, work vs parenthood, the custody battle, and of course (of course) his evolving dynamic with Carter.

Seriously though. Benton/Carter.

And on the topic of BroTPs: Mark/Doug!

There's something about the two most ambitious characters being Peter, a black man, and Kerry, a woman, that I kinda love.

Upon reflection, it seems to me that at least some of my affinity for Susan and Abby have to do with their family stories--particularly, having to deal with flawed family members, walking the line between loving and enabling, battling the desire to hope because of the need to protect against disappointment. It's ... interesting? ... because I don't have any deadbeat family members or family members who refuse to take responsibility for their illnesses, but something about how they use sarcasm to deal with life resonates with me, even though Susan in my head was a sunny character while Abby was a little black raincloud.

I loved Abby. Abby was a hot mess, a human disaster, a trashfire. Abby was strong, but also a coward. Abby was full of contradictions, Abby mistook self-abnegation for independence, Abby was only happy when it rained. Abby was hard to love, and so I loved her.

There was something about Abby/Luka that I found compulsively watchable. Something probably having to do with being really messed up and dysfunctional and full of maladaptive habits, but nevertheless wanting love like any other human being. There was a brooding intensity and understatedness to them that I remember just eating up. I was an undercover emo kid, what can I say.

That said, there was a phase in which he was truly insufferable (which I know was them taking a page out of the Doug Ross book ... but he isn't Doug Ross, even though he was brought on as a direct replacement). I'm curious if, on my rewatch, it will feel like an organic arc given how sweet, patient, gentlemanly and sensitive I recall him being at the start. Oh tragic little meow meow.

The final scene between Carol and Luka is so etched in my brain. "Because I'm still in love with him. I've been in love with him since I was 23 years old. He's everything to me. I feel complete when I'm with him and I feel empty when we're apart. He's the father of my children, and he's my soulmate." Yes, Doug was a manbaby and yes I was so hurt on Carol's behalf that he left her for Seattle, but really Doug/Carol were the Truth. You bought their connection so thoroughly and George Clooney's chemistry with Juliana Margulies was critical to that.

I remember thinking that Peter/Cleo's chemistry was nothing in particular to write home about (you know, not bad, but not special) ... but hell if they weren't beautiful together. Michael Michelle was just so stunning.

I really thought that they were heading for a lot of yummy Carter-denying-his-feelings-for-med-student-Lucy angst, which I was so there for. But I can't deny that what ended up happening (you know ...) was unforgettable television.

On that note, Carter was never the same after That. There's such a sad lost innocence about his character, given how earnest and caring and even hapless he was at the start. That's not necessarily a bad direction to go, narratively speaking, but one would hope for some eventual hard-won optimism for him all the same.

And yeah, at some point ER became darker and soapier, but I honestly have good memories of a few of those years, before becoming bored.

Like, another scene seared into my brain is Maggie Wyczenski turning on a dime and going postal right in the middle of the ER, screaming "I'm leaving! I'm leaving! I'm leaving! Iiii'm leaving!" and "You're my daughter you bitch!". God did Sally Field earn that Emmy or did she earn that Emmy. I wouldn't want to have missed out on that story, for all that it was such a downer.

Apparently Sam, Ray, Archie, and Tony came on more or less when Neela did, but she's the only one I remember. How'd that happen? Though I can't say I remember her stories, so there is that.

I remember watching with my sophomore year roommate the night that Romano freaking lost his arm to a helicopter. It was crazy. And I really thought it couldn't get any crazier, but then, as you know ...

The look of the show really changed from beginning to end, which, given that it lasted fifteen years, is probably to be expected. But I remember most the constantly moving camera in so many of the medical emergency scenes, and I hope that doesn't go away.

Mark's daughter and Peter's son were impossibly cute. Impossibly cute. So so cute. So so so so so cute.

Speaking of Chicago in the 90s, goddamn do y'all remember how incredible the Bulls were? I don't know why I'm putting that in this post, but I guess I am.

Carter/Jing Mei were such great friends, they never stopped being competitive with each other but they nevertheless grew up together and I love that the show never hooked them up.

I don't recall quite why but I feel like Doug and his dad were reminiscent of Riker and his dad from Star Trek. I don't know.

Okay yeah that's all for now.

[gameofthunder66]

Ray Donovan (2013-2020) tv series

-(started) watchin' Season 1- 4/30/2024- on Showtime

72% Rotten Tomatoes

[my-little-random-world]

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑾𝒊𝒗𝒆𝒔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑯𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚 | ER Season 2 Episode 22 — John Carter, M.D.

[mountainsinaboat]

Kerry Weaver: Troll

[maurastierney]

ER POLL TIME! below are the top 10 results from the three previous polls.

(All results below received over 10% of the vote in their respective poll)

[wouldntyoulichentoknow]

Pretty please hands 6 or 19 for the wives? I feel like those are how they get through long ER shifts when they just need a moment to connect and recharge.

big fan personally of the idea that when Kerry gets going on an in-depth topic she needs something to do with her free hand... occasionally the "something to do" is "hold wife's hand" :')

[chariot-to-somewhere]

Bb Kerry just wants frrriiiiieeeennnnddddsss

[almostpleasantrebel]

First 10 Line Challenge

Tagged by the wonderful @wonderofasunrise

Rule: Share the first lines of the last 10 stories you wrote

In her spare time, Margaret absolutely loved to read so it was only natural that she was disappointed when the library, which was once a tent of its own was moved to what could barely be called a closet that could only just fit herself with room to look at the sparse selection of books.

It’s All Wrong, But It’s All Right - M*A*S*H, Margaret Houlihan/Samuel Flagg (M)

Margaret had been trying to take her R&R for two months, however, every time Colonel Potter had signed off on it they would be inundated with waves upon waves of wounded.

This Time Tomorrow - M*A*S*H, Margaret Houlihan & Sidney Freedman (M)

From the day she turned four to the day she turned eighteen Margaret Houlihan was enrolled in ballet classes.

At The Ballet - M*A*S*H, (M)

Margaret looked at the freshly written letter on her desk, she stared at it for a few moments before crumbling it into a ball and throwing it away.

How Hearts Mend - M*A*S*H, Margaret Houlihan/Hawkeye Pierce (M)

“Major!” Klinger yelled as he ran out of his office when he saw Margaret make her way out of the mess tent.

I’d Give Up Forever To Hold You - M*A*S*H, Margaret Houlihan/Helen Whitfield (M)

“Pregnant?” Margaret asked, her breath shaking as tears pricked her eyes.

We Are Forced To Recognize Our Inhumanity - M*A*S*H, Margaret Houlihan/Donald Penobscott (M)

Susan cursed as she dragged the Christmas tree into the apartment.

Underneath The Tree - ER, Susan Lewis/Kerry Weaver (T)

It was Carol's first Christmas in Seattle and the first Christmas that Doug and the girls were all together.

Silent Night - ER, Carol Hathaway/Doug Ross (T)

It had been days of almost non-stop casualties and everyone in the 4077 was physically and mentally exhausted, when they eventually stopped coming no one was quite ready to sleep.

Your Hand In Mine and Your Head Resting On My Shoulder - M*A*S*H, Margaret Houlihan/Trapper John McIntyre (M)

Hawkeye walked out of the officers club into the cool air of the night, a smile hung on his lips as he thought of Radar dancing with Lieutenant Nugent.

Prologue: Korea - M*A*S*H, Margaret Houlihan/Hawkeye Pierce (M)

Tagging anyone who wants to play along 🫶

[er-139]

Romano: The only way to defeat a bully is to stand up to them!

…

Romano: Trust me, I have bullied a lot of people.

[baubeautyandthegeek]

Hospitals And Healing - Allison Kerry/Susan McAlester

A/N: Alt 1 for @sicktember (yes I am doing them as bonuses!)

Broken bodies were not the most unusual thing to see in hospital beds, but as Susan McAlester wakes from the anaesthesia, she finds strange and sweet comfort in the woman in the bed beside her. Allison’s body is wrapped in multiple bandages, clearly damaged by acid and what seems to have been a near fatal attack which has left her body a little broken around the ribs. Susan’s eyes close when her Surgeon prods gently over her healing skin, the metallic clicks under his touch making her whimper. She had known she was lucky to survive, she just hadn’t expected to be rebuilt as a metallic freak. “Ow…” The whisper is soft even as she tries to pretend she’s okay. Sickness she could deal with but this was too much. Later, months later, both Allison and Susan are working on their physio. They return to beds that are side by side, Susan’s touch soft as she reaches into the gap to meet Allison’s hand, seeking reassurance. They will be okay, someday.

[kerry-fever]