#K (and D) are so interesting to me and i need to explore them

[endykelopaedia]

madk fic from K's perspective ??? it doesn't exist yet but,, i want to make it

[officialfoxsquadron]

Luke Skywalker NSFW Alphabet

Writing exercise complete! Here's some headcanons revolving around this NSFW alphabet meme. Just smutty, horny thoughts under the cut. Generally throughout the Original Trilogy with a gender neutral reader!

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

No matter the era, Luke is incredibly sweet after sex. He’s always happy to clean you up and prefers, if he can, spending lots of time kissing and cuddling afterwards. I honestly think the aftercare would be one of his favorite parts, just spending time with his loved one and falling asleep together.

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His favorite body part is his eyes. I think he’s not really prone to much vanity, but sometimes he does look at himself in the mirror and think “Huh. They really ARE blue.” And you KNOW once he gets the ESB arms he is like wow…wish my dad didn’t cut off my hand…because my arms look so damn good right now…the true tragedy.

I have posted about Luke being attracted to thighs, but I also am firmly in the “Luke is a tits/chest man” camp. It’s just true! Sorry!

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically)

First of all shout out to the community for canonizing for me that Luke cums an absurd amount b/c…yes. His preference would be to cum inside of you, but he also loves to cum on your stomach and just see how much of it there is. He’d also be really into cumming in your mouth and tasting it afterwards.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He is interested in exploring pain as pleasure, both giving and receiving. But he wouldn’t do it without a trusted partner and a lot of talk beforehand. Otherwise he’s pretty open about his fantasies.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

I mean, oh my god. I think this depends on the timeline. A New Hope Luke has very little experience beyond making out, I think. But he would be very eager to learn. ESB Luke? Has at least fucked a few times and is just generally more knowledgeable. ROTJ Luke and beyond? It does not matter whether or not he is experienced, the man can read your thoughts so he’ll probably do fine.

F = Favorite Position

He likes anything really intimate. He loves missionary, but also really loves spooning you and the access it gives him to your body. He also looooves you on top - he’s able to really look at you, feel you, even change it into a sitting position and make out.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

Again, this depends. He definitely can be, and I think he’d be able to laugh about any awkwardness or silly mishaps. He’s also really playful, and would love play fights or tickling that turns into more. But, I also think he can get pretty intense at times, especially during the act and right before he cums.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

He tries to keep things neat, but he’s not too concerned with it. His hair is a little darker, and he has a small happy trail from his belly button. 

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

Okay this is a big one. I think the intimacy of sex is the most important thing for him. Given his connection to the Force, sex is just as much of an intense mental experience as it is physical. So all this to say, he is very romantic, making sure his partner is happy, giving them as much pleasure as he can. He always, always, always would want to cum simultaneously or very close together.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

So I headcanon Luke as on the ace spectrum (demisexual), so this headcanon definitely relates to that.

I think he’d occasionally masturbate, but it’s not like he feels he NEEDS to. Especially in the Rebellion, if he ever gets a moment alone, I feel like he would just be thinking, “Oh, nice, I can jack off now! Great!” And then just...not think of it again for four more weeks because he’s so damn busy.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Man is never beating the praise kink allegations, sorry! He loves being told how amazing he’s doing and how well he’s pleasing you.

I think he’d be really into overstimulation? The idea of upping the intensity of pleasure, chasing multiple orgasms…yeah he’d love it. 

I also headcanon him as a switch, and he’d love taking control sometimes. But he’d also love you in control, making him beg–especially during ROTJ and beyond. He is so in control of his feelings and finally started to work out this whole Jedi thing-he’d love a partner who can ease him into losing control for once.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

A little boring, but given his history, he would be so excited to make love in a big, plush bed. He’s so used to sleeping in bunks, on the literal ground, or on his ship, so he thinks it’s the most romantic thing ever. Any time he is near a body of water or has a real shower, he also wants to take some time there together-even if it’s just to make out or cuddle (but lbrh, it always ends in sex.) Also, despite the logistical nightmare, you definitely fuck in his X-Wing at least once.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Adrenaline is a huge one! Anytime he’s working out or fighting, he’d get turned on easily. He’d like sparring or training with his sexual partner. And as much as he likes to tease his partner, he loves being teased in return. Especially if you’re newly dating, he would get flustered very, very easily by the minimum amount of flirting.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Definitely not into choking for obvious reasons, same with being called daddy. I also don’t think he’d do something involving non-consent.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Luke loves giving oral! He could spend hours pleasing his partner, drawing multiple orgasms out of them. He loves to receive too-loves wrapping his hands in his hair, and especially loves if you let him fuck your mouth.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

He prefers to go slow and really take his time. Time is such a luxury to him, so pretty much any time he can draw things out he will. That being said, he doesn’t mind something more rough and passionate, especially if it’s been a while since he’s seen you.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

He’d be down, especially if your schedules are busy and as a younger man, when his passion tends to run hot.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

He definitely loves to experiment! He’s probably not super knowledgeable (personally I think Tatooine was pretty sexually conservative, as rural areas tend to be.) But as soon as he’s with someone he trusts, it’s like a flip switches.

Hmm. In terms of risks, I mean…this is the guy who took one look at the Death Star trench run and was like “oh this is easy.” So he’d definitely be down for a few risks (something semi-public or with the danger of getting caught) but I don’t think he’d go crazy.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

As a younger man, he can definitely go for a few rounds. During ANH/ESB he sometimes finishes a little faster than he intends (sorry Luke!) but eventually, his patience grows. ROTJ and beyond, though-it’s pretty much the exact opposite. He has a ton of patience that he uses to tease you. 

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

I think he’s willing to experiment! He might not immediately think of it but with a partner who’s interested, sure. I don’t think he owns any toys.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Luke is such a tease. He has so much fun drawing out the experience for his partner and getting them worked up. I have this headcanon of him just whispering the most insanely horny things to a partner in semi-public settings and..yeah he 100% would!

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Luke is also not beating the vocal heacanons, sorry! He will whine and beg, like he can get pathetic. But there’s also times where he’s surprisingly calm and quiet, just staring at you or panting softly, completely lost in the moment.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon)

LET’S TALK ABOUT INAPPROPRIATE USE OF THE FORCE.

Especially pre-Jedi Training, there will be some moments where he would accidentally use the Force during sex. It wouldn’t be conscious but like, let’s say he’s gripping a headboard and he’d accidentally grip it a little too hard? Or right after both of you finish, in the hazy afterglow, he’d reach for a towel and it would just..float into his hand.

ROTJ and beyond, he would be very very cool with using the Force for your pleasure, but only with explicit permission. (He’s a Consent King, what can I say.)

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

I still maintain Luke is packing, given some of the ahem EVIDENCE we have throughout Mark’s career. Also, he’s uncut. He’s long with some girth, but nothing disproportionate.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Hm. So I headcanon Luke as demisexual so I’d say it depends. If he doesn’t have a partner his sex drive is pretty low. But if he has a partner, oh LORD. I think he’d want to be having sex literally all the time. Especially if you just started sleeping together. You would need 3-5 business days of just fucking together before he’s satisfied. He’d be so excited to just explore with a new partner!

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards) 

Especially after an intense session, he can fall asleep pretty quickly! But he at least wants to clean you up and make sure you’re alright before he knocks out for the night. He just feels really pleasantly sleepy afterwards.

[ravenoussinner]

I have an old story I wrote, had it posted on another place a while back but things happened. I still think about writing more in the same scenario, furries aren't usually my default but the idea of a society separated by instincts is very very interesting. Gotta thank beastars for getting me on the vibe to play more with this idea even if I don't explore it a lot on this tale.

Anyway, hope you enjoy it and please share your thoughts about it, feedback would be appreciated.

Snacking on the job

The last client left hours ago, but they’ve got to stay open, she can almost hear her bosses' voice “24 hours means 24 hours, we have to be ready to serve!” who even buys ice cream at four in the morning on a Tuesday? It doesn’t matter, Olivia said they’ve got to stay open and she got today’s midnight shift so all that’s left to do is sit and wait for something to happen.

She’s behind the counter, almost laying down on it, lazily scrolling through her social feed with tired, sleepy eyes. A chubby grey hyena, no taller than 1,60 meters, with black spots on her fur and a long, black sidecut, wearing the shop’s uniform: jeans, a white shirt and a pink apron with her name tag, “Hello I am Driffa” it says next to a smiley face. The monotony is almost getting the best of her, almost giving in and falling into a sweet sweet nap, when she receives a text “Delivery is going to be late”, it’s Kleo, her seller, the hyena grumbles and gets to typing.

Driffa: How late?

Kleo: About a week

D: A WHOLE WEEK!? KLEO, WTF!?

K: Easy there, it’s not my fault, you’re the one that only likes volunteers

D: I already pay extra for those, you’re gonna make me wait even more? >:(

K: They don’t fall out of the sky, you know? But I do have some captured ones if you want them now

D: No, I don’t want to be in the middle of your people trafficking scheme when this blows up.

K: They aren’t people, silly, they are micros! :>

D: Oh, so people, but smaller

K: You sure care a lot for someone who eats them

D: ... Ok you won this one.

K: Sooo you want them?

D: No

K: Then you sit your ass and wait ~

The cat usually does her job well, sure she charges a bit extra for the work of finding volunteers but it’s still better than getting caught by the cops with a mouthful of tinies, these last weeks though it’s only been delay after delay. She could try and find them herself, set up an account with some nice pics, show her belly, her mouth, maybe a bit of cleavage, a lot of people find themselves tinies like that, but it always felt so exposing, the hyena never managed to gather up the confidence to try something like that, what if nobody showed up? What if they didn’t like her body? What if-

– Yo, Dri!

A scream from the kitchen pierced the silence, stopping all her thoughts and making her perk up. Driffa almost forgot she wasn’t alone, Reinold, one of her co-workers, is also here to ensure they have fresh pastries in the morning. The lazy bison is very laid back with his work, usually trying to pass off every chore to someone else except for the ones related to cooking, those he does with a big dumb smile and an unusual disposition, to amazing results as well.

– Could you get me some strawberry flavoring from the pantry? I ran out. – He cheerfully asks.

– Can't you get it yourself? I have to be here in case someone comes in – Nobody would come, but she needed an excuse

– I’m kinda busy back here... Pretty please get it for me?

– Fine... I’m on my way.

She drags herself from the balcony to the pantry, stopping by the kitchen to have a quick glance at what Reinold was doing that got him so busy. The brown bison is huge, almost 2 meters tall and very burly, a true giant bending himself over the kitchen counter to decorate tiny cakes with the delicacy of a fairy while humming a lullaby, there was another batch of pastries in the oven with a strong vanilla smell and yet another batch already on the mixer. Driffa walks past the happy giant, gets in the pantry and turns on the light to see a pair of red eyes locked onto hers, there on one of the shelves dragging a whole confectionery chocolate bar to the edge was a tiny naked white rat woman with blue hair.

They stare at each other, frozen for seconds that seem like an eternity, until the rat makes the first move, she tries to jump from the shelve and make an escape but the hyena lunges at her, grabbing the girl mid-air with both hands locking one of her arms down and falling on her knees.

– Let me go, you fucking bitch! – The rat screams, struggles and hits her hands trying to set herself free.

– What are you doing here? How the hell did you even get in?

Driffa was more confused than anything else, but, unfortunately, she wouldn’t receive any answers, the rat bit down her finger, the hyena yelped due to the pain and got her bitten hand away from the girl, the bite mark was small, but it was bleeding.

– What the fuck is your problem!? – She asks before sucking down on her wound

– Let me go or I will bite you again! – The rat angrily screamed her ultimatum

– Hey, Dri... What’s the hold up?

Reinold’s voice came in from the kitchen and Driffa looked down at the angry rat in her hands, she had to get rid of the thief and she had to do it fast, this was a good opportunity to satiate her cravings for a while, but doing it here at work would be a risky move and she wasn’t used to having such feisty prey. While she was thinking the rat bit her finger again and that sealed the deal.

She squeezed the tiny hard, taking the air away from her lungs, the rat tried to force the hand open to gain some breathing space, it was pointless, she wouldn’t be able to with only one arm, but eventually Driffa stopped and she could try to breathe again, suddenly she felt a wave of hot and humid air wash over her body, the rat looked up to see the hyena’s drooly maw open wide above her for a split second before she got snapped up. The upper half of her body completely inside her mouth, the teeth pressed on her waist holding her in place while the huge tongue covered her in the hot and sticky saliva, slopping against her face and body, savoring her. The hand released her legs and arm, she tried struggling and pulling herself away, but Driffa tilted her head back and jerked her jaw to slide the rat deeper inside, her legs got in and now her whole body was being thrown around the hyena's mouth. She saw the light starting to fade away as the teeth closed around her and mustered up the strength to gain some footing.

– NO! – She screamed furiously while trying to stand up and force the mouth open – I’M NOT GOING TO END UP AS SOME CUNT’S FOOD.

The tiny rat was surprisingly strong and was actually being able to stop it from closing, even opening it up some more. Driffa fought against her, trying to shut down her mouth but the rat was gaining more and more space, using her whole body to make it open more and more even if ever so slowly. There was enough space now to try and make a jump, if she was fast enough, she could get out of there and make a run for it. The rat threw herself towards the exit, the teeth started to close around her as soon as she released them, her whole upper body got out before she suddenly stopped, a sharp pain hit her body as the hyena’s teeth clenched down on her thighs. She dangled from her mouth and felt the warm caress of the lips on her as she was slowly sucked back in, she didn’t have the strength to fight back anymore and could only slightly struggle as her waist got slurped in, them her shoulders and finally her head.

With her prey tired out Driffa could now taste her as much as she pleased, she threw the girl from side to side, pressed her against her cheek and sucked on her, exploring every inch of her body with her tongue until she could no longer feel any of her salty taste. The hyena opened her mouth once again, letting light shine in, the rat saw the outside but as she laid down on Driffa’s tongue, drenched in saliva and completely exhausted all she could do was lift her hand towards the outside and speak defiantly.

– Don’t... You... Dare...

The hyena giggled at her threat, even completely unable to resist she still kept her bravado, but it didn’t matter, she closed her mouth, tilted her head back one more time, allowed the woman to slowly slide towards the back of her throat and with a single gulp swallowed her whole. She still tried resisting, but there was not much she could do now as she was slowly dragged down Driffa’s neck, being squeezed by her throat as she disappeared into her body

– I’m coming, Reinold!

Driffa got up to search for the strawberry flavoring, it didn’t take long to find, and she was on her way to the kitchen with a slight smile on her face, satisfied with her snack. The rat was unceremoniously thrown inside her stomach into the shallow pool of gastric juices, she could feel the warmth and the smell of her last snack, a slice of chocolate cake, still being broken down. She crawled to the edges of the stomach, trying to keep herself above the acids, but even on the shallowest parts she was knee-deep in it.

– You fucking bitch! Let me out of here! I’m not your goddamn food, you asshole!

The rat yelled as she furiously pounded on the stomach walls. The sound of her muffled screams could barely be heard by Driffa, the much louder machine humming of the mixer drowned them out, but she could still feel it every time she moved around and every hit on her stomach wall, it is different from what she would get from willing prey this felt angry, vicious and yet still pleasing. She approaches Reinold.

– Here. It took me a while to find, sorry for taking so long.

The bison didn’t answer, didn’t even seem to notice her as he ever so gently squeezed the piping bag and finished the icing on one of his tiny cakes, but the moment it’s done he turns to her with a big smile.

– Don’t worry your pretty little head. – He lays down the bag and hands her one of the cakes – And this is for you, tell me what you think about it. It’s a cinnamon cake with a thing called dulce de leche as icing, momma’s recipe.

– Are we allowed to just eat them just like this? – The hyena brings the bite-sized cake up to her snout to get a whiff, smells mostly like cinnamon.

– Well... No, but we will just call it a... “Taste Test”, how does that sound?

She shrugged and went for a bite. The cake was fluffy and moist, fresh out of the oven, the icing was velvety, the whole thing seemed to just melt in her mouth, the cinnamon and dulce of whatever he said worked very nicely together, even if a bit too sweet for her taste.

– Too sugary, but it’s nice. – She says as she places the rest of it in her mouth. – We are gonna sell them tomorrow?

– Yup, just have to show’em to Olivia and she will fall in love with them.

– Yeah, good luck with that – Driffa giggled – You know she’s a nervous wreck, the moment she finds out you made a whole batch of extra cakes she’s going to lose it.

– But I have an ace in my sleeve! – The bison turned off the mixer and brought out his phone.

It showed a private chat between him and Julien, the rich kid that owned the place.

Reinold: Hey, boss, can I try out a recipe from momma?

Julien: It’s good stuff?

Reinold: I like it

Julien: Yeah, sure

Reinold: Do I wait to tell Olivia?

Julien: No lol she will love the surprise ;)

Inside Driffa's stomach the rat was trying to regain her strength, but it’s too hot and sultry, the humid air feels so heavy and she still wasn’t used to the smell of the rising stomach acids, she’s resting standing up against a wall to avoid touching it, her feet are already starting to sting, her whole body is fatigued but she can’t give in, she can’t just lay down and be digested like some piece of meat. Then, as if adding salt to injury, the chewed-up pieces of cake plopped down from above, splashing the gastric juices over her body, she looked up at the sphincter, rage taking over her, this woman had swallowed her whole and was still eating!? Her heart pounding strongly inside her chest as adrenaline filled her with energy for one more escape attempt, she opens her mouth wide and bites down as hard as she can on the fleshy walls. Driffa immediately bends over, hands on her belly, the rat’s bite felt as if she was being stabbed from inside and at that moment, she remembered why she only takes volunteers.

– Damn girl! Are you ok? – Reinold approached and offered his hand as support.

– Yeah yeah... – She said between grunts of pain – It’s just... Something I ate isn’t agreeing with me.

– I’m gonna grab you some water, stay right here.

The bison promptly got her a cup of water from the cooler and she started chugging it. The rat inside her stomach noted that the bite did something and proudly screamed

– Ha! Felt that, cunt!?

Before the water started falling like a waterfall on top of her, throwing her tiny body into the gastric juices and mushy cake. Dazzed and confused she could feel her eyes stinging even though they are closed, her whole body was covered in that same warm and stingy feeling she felt on her feet, she had to move and fast, battling to get her head above the acid the rat grabbed on to the first thing she found and pulled herself up, gasping for air as she held on tight to one of the stomach wrinkles.

– Why won't you just let me go!? What the fuck have I done? I just wanted to eat!

Driffa finished the glass of water and sighed relieved, that seemed to do the trick, her tiny guest is behaving well again, with the mixer off she could even her screams now, looks like she understood that there’s no forcing her way out of her belly.

– Feeling better? – The bison perked up his ears and looked around – Hang on, what’s that sound?

– What sound?

– You don’t hear it? Kinda sounds like a tiny person screaming...

– I don’t know what you are talking about...

Reinold’s words where like a ray of hope to the rat girl, she desperately swan to the other side of the stomach, nearer to his voice.

– I’m in here! This bitch ATE me! Help PLEASE! Let me out of here!

Even though she was screaming as loudly as her tiny lungs allowed her Reinold couldn’t understand her neither find out where the sound was coming from, the stomach muffled her too well, the only one who could properly hear her was the hyena herself.

– Oh, look at that – Driffa got her phone out of her pocket – YouTube was playing, my screen is all kinds of messed up, must’ve started by itself. By the way, my shift is almost over so I’m gonna head home, ok?

– Sure, go get some rest – He said with a friendly smile, blissfully unaware of the rat pleading for her life – See you tomorrow.

– Bye, Reinold.

As Driffa headed to the locker room she could hear the girl begging inside of her, screaming for anyone that could listen, anyone that could get her out of there, save her from being digested alive, but nobody could, she was alone inside the belly of the hyena.

It is a twenty minutes' walk from the ice cream shop to her home, one of the perks of working at “I <3C”. She felt the girl inside her growing ever weaker through the walk, the pounding on her stomach walls turned into knocking and then into silence, once she got home, she wasn’t even sure the girl was still alive inside of her, much less whole, but this feeling of having someone fighting for their life against her stomach, the feeling as she gave up, seemingly accepting her fate as nothing more than food, this was so intoxicating, she always loved when they gave in and begged to be eaten, but this is a completely different sensation, not better, not worse, but different.

She showered and got herself ready for a night of sleep putting on a baggy shirt and pajama shorts. The girl had been silent for a while now so Driffa figured she must’ve already melted away, but as she closed her eyes in bed, she heard a faint cry

– Please... Let me out...

The rat was still alive! Still fighting! Well, fighting as much as she could, her tiny body started giving away, her legs had already melted, only the bones remained floating in the gastric juices, her hands felt numb, they would probably melt next, and without legs to keep herself above she was up to her shoulders in the stomach acids.

– So, you are still there! Damn, I thought you had melted away a while ago. – Driffa said as she sat up to look down on her belly

– Please… I’m sorry, please… It’s so hot, it all hurts so much… I can’t feel my legs anymore – She begged, her words interrupted by cries of pain

–Even if I let you out right now you probably wouldn’t make it, you are halfway through being digested already, girl, so you might as well accept it – She placed her hand above her stomach, slowly caressing it as if that would console the rat.

– No!... Please!... I-I am a person… I don’t want to die like this.

The rat finally broke realizing the truth, she wouldn’t make a daring escape, she wouldn’t force her way out, she wouldn’t be able to bargain for her life, she’s going to die in that place, she’s going to be digested like any other piece of food that entered the hyena’s stomach because that’s exactly what she is, even if hours ago she was a person, in there she was nothing but food, even her name didn’t matter anymore. She broke down crying, lamenting and still begging to be let out, Driffa sat on her bed for a moment, just listening to her snack, picturing the girl inside of her, stuck inside her stomach, melting away in her acids, begging and screaming for her life, ever since she first met her the girl was fighting back, biting her hands, holding her maw open, punching and fighting her insides, but now the rat finally accepted her place, she finally understood that she’s just food for her, the feeling was so inebriating, so arousing.

She gently pulled down her shorts and wrapped her fingers around her already hard cock, slowly stroking herself listening to the cries of her prey, her heart beating faster as the sounds of her digestion got louder. Driffa closed her eyes, focusing on the feeling of the girl inside of her, on the movements her stomach made, throwing the rat around inside, she couldn’t hold on to the walls anymore and just had to let herself go, her back melting into the pool of acid, her body slowly sinking in until she was completely submerged, on her last seconds alive she couldn’t even think her thoughts completely drowned out by the sounds of the Hyena’s racing heart and heavy breathing as her body and mind melted away. Pleasure jolted through Driffa’s whole body, her legs snapped together and she bite her lips trying to control her moaning as her body reached it’s limit, cum covered her hand, stained her shorts, some even got on the sheet, and then she collapsed on her bed, tired and still drunk with pleasure she lied there, caressing her belly as it worked on what little remained of her prey, melting the meat away until only her bones remained floating in the middle of the digested food before being passed along to her intestines.

A small burp left her lips as she dozed off to sleep with the faint smell of rat girl and cinnamon cake.

[dropthedemiurge]

writing tag game

tagged by @fairlylokai - thanks a looot!~ It was fun.

1. How many works do you have on AO3? -> 50 (yeay! celebration!)

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? -> 229,657, this is more than I thought I'd ever write in English tbh

3. What fandoms do you write for? -> K-pop, KBL, Thai BLs

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? -> Boredom is a crime (???), It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to, [Calculating Tae Myungha's happiness...], Not Me, Not You, But This Is Where We Are Needed (still feel bad about this one oops), Caught in the downpour

Despite me writing a lot of low-rated fics and rare pairings, I can understand all of these – except for such huge love for my first ever BL fandom fic, it's short and WaiKorn?? You guys are fun :D No wonder I stayed writing more after such warm welcome.

5. Do you respond to comments? -> Yes! I'm always reading and waiting for comments, but sometimes I do not respond immediately because I want to have time to be able to reply in more depth... and then object permanence issues kick in, but I promise I will reply to every single comment one day or another^^ (except for comments on my K-pop fics because I do not want to awaken my dark past and dead ao3 fandom)

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? -> My last one, about Myungha from LFLS past life. There was just no way to end it on a happy note – which is funny because it's called "I'll Write You a Happy Ending". However, I also wrote a pretty heartwarming fic in the same setting (Moonlight Chicken, you can guess what mutual setting was used) so idk, I guess it's the characters that dictate where their story go.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? -> Based on the readers' response, I tend to write heartwarming and happy fics even when I desperately try to write angst all the time :D I'm an eternal optimist, I can't even decide which one's happiest. I guess, I'll have to go with my LiTA SkyRain trilogy, the second one "Clear skies after the gentle drizzle" because the atmosphere is just so domestic and sappy and cute and loving-caring till the very end.

8. Do you get hate on fics? -> Surprisingly, I don't. Despite all my rare pairings and exploring of unusual ideas and trying to hurt characters, I don't. But sometimes I get comments that expect way more out of my future chapters that I intend to write, and that's what can freak me out and put into a writer block (because I can and will try to rethink the rest of the fic to manage the expectations).

9. Do you write smut? -> I don't. Even when I really try to, it's barely smutty. It can only appear in some way if characters are canonically very prone to being horny. Instead, I love exploring kinks in platonic ways. So most of my fics are aspec-friendly (sometimes asexual-friendly and sometimes aromantic-friendly too, not always both).

10. Do you write crossovers? -> Every BL fandom deserves a crossover with Not Me universe. That's my motto 😆

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? -> Not as far as I remember, no. Perks of writing a lot of rare-pairings no one is really interested in, I guess xD

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? -> Not yet. Compared to other countries who cannot stand writing fics in their own language cuz it's too cringy, Russians have a huge fic writing community. However, since I can fluently write in both languages, I translate my own fics from and to English when I want to :D Secret story: my iKON fic in Russian became a Last Twilight fic in English because the concept was just perfect to be rewritten for those characters.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? -> Considering that I love brainstorming fics with my discord QL writers gang friends (shout out to them<3), a lot of their ideas or situations end up in my fics, or once we tried to write a game script because I could feel that was too big of a project on my own. I am a bit of a perfectionist in this sense, though, so I tend to push for my vision to be pursued and that's why I don't really co-write. But brainstorming together or taking input from others is a lot of fun!

14. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? -> I already mentioned it above, it's my Not Me/The Eclipse body-switch character-switch fic Not Me, Not You, But This Is Where We Are Needed . It's also the fic that in my mind was 2-3 chapters crack humor story, but the readers in the comments were so hyped up for it and the concept - that I realized I better turn it into something cool, long-chaptered and give fix-it character arcs and psychological exploration to all characters... That sounded impossible for the writer of my mild level. So I doubt I'll be able to give this story justice but I'd really love to one day.

15. What are your writing strengths? -> Uniqueness. I like exploring unusual concepts, or forms, or characters and scenes people rarely write about. I think I'm also quite good at writing fun dialogues.

16. What are your writing weaknesses? -> I don't know how to cause emotions from readers or write about emotions and descriptions. I am reading crafting literature about this but I still have a long way to go to figure it out :D

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? -> Very fun concept! AFTG fandom and books are the prime example. But it has to be done right. If it's unnatural translation, or something that is only done just because and stands out when characters says it, it's really obvious. I write and use words from other languages sometimes when it's suitable. But also providing translation or context for those who don't know the language is also important.

18. First fandom you wrote for? -> Shaman King and Naruto, probably. Haha. At that time and age, crossover fics or cracked-up humor ensemble fics were really popular. I would never reread those but I think very fondly about my first steps.

19. Favourite fic you’ve written? -> That's a very hard question... I think for some magical reason, all my Only Friends fics have great quality and I enjoy rereading them a lot myself, and I haven't been able to replicate the same writing style in other fics xD I'm also very fond of all my SkyRain fics because so many writers share my vision and we've got many amazing fics. I love BlackYok fics because writing them always gives me reason to indulge in some weird kinky shit.

Still, I think my favourite fic will be NPC Supremacy Zone (with LFLS OT3 poly and me trying to pay homage to original story through Sangwon lens) once I finish it - simply because how dear the characters are to me, how much fun I have writing them, and how much effort and planning I put into this story; hopefully I will manage to write it the way I'll be proud of. Right next to it is Magnetic Hearts, Bad Buddy OT4 long-fic for the same reason (except the planning part, that one fic is pure improvisation lol)

tagging @wereflamingo and @doyou000me and @xagan :] Come and brag and ponder about your stories!

[quizmasterfred]

Thinking about Flux and Thamsin again, so as per usual I'm dealing with it by typing a full stream-of-consciousness into the nothing :D

Enjoy! (or, more likely, don't 🤷‍♀️ it's really long and I am prone to rambling)

Let me preface this by saying this is NOT a Dan Lewis Hatepost. He's fine (and John Bishop is a darling), but I think he's a bit bland and takes up a lot of screen time that could better serve our main duo if we just... didn't have to include Dan.

In Hallowe’en Apocalypse, he’s great. He’s the hook 13 + Yaz need to get into Karvanista’s ship and kickstart the main plot.

WotS

he gets sent back to Liverpool immediately, infiltrates a sontaran ship, and Skypes 13 to shut down their Tempura Shrimp plan.

Either, you could then have 13 (at the end of the episode) make sure he’s okay and alive, Karvanista says the Lupari are taking care of earth for a bit, and Dan now stays home, because y’know this is all really fucked and he’s some normal guy who shouldn’t be whisked off to fight ancient paranormal demons when he’s barely aware of space travel.

Or K takes over his role. Towards the end of HA, 13+Y can drop Dan off before they go looking for the flux. In WotS, K can board the Sontaran ship as he does in canon anyway, except instead of looking for Dan, he’s now there on an active mission to sabotage the Sontarans, and isn’t worried as much about Dan, since the Lupai have changed tack to defending earth rather than their original 1-to-1 human taxi plan. This allows 13+K to get on each others nerves a bit as they work together to stop the Sontarans, and interrogate their (forgotten) relationship from the Division days before 13(+Y) goes AWOL for three episodes.

Either way, Dan is now out of the picture. He’s a fun celebrity cameo/comedic relief role that doesn’t outstay his welcome and is just there to get the ball rolling. In the Karv-centric version of WotS, we get more info on Division, which is the Doctor’s driving goal for this series.

O,UT

Canon!Dan spends this episode in the time storm with everyone else. Without him, you can explore the other three characters more; that simple. Yes, Dan’s face is taking Karvanista’s spot in 13’s visions, but since we never find out the identities of Y+Vinder in those visions, we can cut one face without any change to the plot.

When they’re out of the storm, Dan has a moment with Holo-Diane in the Passenger, but this could have been one of the Khans! The Ravagers clearly know enough about Yaz, and that extra strain on 13+Y’s relationship would be more interesting than with Dan. Canon!13 yells at Yaz in her post-storm delirium, and now Yaz gets to push back because her family is in danger because of her relationship to the Doctor, which isn’t something the Khans have faced up to this point.

The Khans are SO well set-up in s11/12:

Sonya is the one who saved her sister when she ran away, and now Yaz has “run away” again in a different way

Najia will not stop interrogating 13+Y’s relationship, which creates tension with Yaz not wanting to freak her family out with the knowledge of aliens etc

Hakim is a CONSPIRACIST whose daughter has now run off with an actual real time-travelling alien!!!

But they don’t get the payoff for any of it. Each one of them is primed for an incredible reaction to the Doctor/Time Travel/Aliens reveal and we never get it! If we can’t get the full family episode-2.0, then at least putting one of them in the passenger gives us payoff for that character. (And ideally LotSD gets replaced with KhanFamily-2.0, but i'll get to that later)

Point is, a known 2ndary character related to one of our leads is more compelling than a tertiary character we don’t know related to a 2ndary character we also barely know. We get some major strain between our two leads because of it, but also, after the initial shock has settled, we see Yaz’s genuine trust in 13 to save her family, AND 13's care for Yaz + family in promising to save [whichever one]. They’re almost at each other’s throats because of 13 keeping secrets, Yaz pushing her too much, big pressure cooker episode, but at the end of the day, they trust and care about each other, and 13 WILL protect her companions' families.

VotA

Canon!Dan spends this entire episode with Yaz. He doesn’t have a unique plot role at all. If he's not here, Yaz can have a taste of a solo mission, again showing 13’s trust in Yaz to perform under pressure, but of course it goes wrong because they’ve underestimated/couldn’t predict the Angels’ plan.

Script-wise, we get more reliance on Yaz’s detective skills, and unspoken context clues for the audience, rather than bouncing off Dan. She can talk to herself a little bit (picking up a habit from 13), but the point is it focuses more on Yaz alone working things out. And once she finds the kid, there's someone to dialogue with anyway, so it's not like it'll just be a silent role for half the episode or something.

SotF

Now here’s where it gets interesting. We all know this is THE doctorification-of-Yasmin-Khan episode. Jericho and canon!Dan are very much her companions, and she is the doctor in 13’s absence.

Dan’s role can be taken on entirely by Jericho. The companion role can be absorbed without any major changes - canon!J already does half of that work anyway. Dan’s main character scene here is comforting Yaz after she watches the hologram. But I think we can retool this and even make it more effective with Jericho.

A surprisingly common headcanon is that J is gay, and here we have an opportunity to make it canon (though not explicitly stated - bear with me). In the canon version, JDY have all known each other for the same amount of time, so the strength of familiarity + friendship can be directly translated from Y+D to Y+J. J is perfectly able to tell how badly Y misses 13, and while he didn’t see HA, WotS or OUT like Canon!Dan, he did get a good look at 13’s brilliance and magnetism in VotA, so he kinda gets it. This woman is a bit mad, but clearly more than the average person, and these two have clearly developed a stronger-than-average friendship, so he’s just as capable of delivering the comfort that canon!Dan does.

And if we make gay!J canon, it creates a beautiful extra layer. J knows 13+Y are extremely close, so recognises that spark of atypical attraction in Yaz that he knows from his own life, but maybe can’t be certain. Certainly Yaz hasn’t come to terms with it herself at this point, so J has to tread carefully because he doesn’t want to force Yaz into any self-revelations before she’s ready.

But more importantly! J is from the 60s! His only experience with talking about LGBT stuff is mired in the risk of rejection and ostracism - he has NO IDEA that Yaz would just be accepting because she’s grown up in a better time! So he can’t come out and say it, he HAS to tiptoe under threat of losing his only friend in a terrifying time-adrift situation. Similarly, Yaz is both not ready to acknowledge her own sexuality, and couldn’t say anything to J directly anyway because he’s from the 60s! He’s “probably deeply homophobic”, so there’s no way Yaz could risk bringing it up even if she were ready to (which she isn't)!

J has to tiptoe around the suggestion because on the one hand, he can see that spark, but can’t risk losing his friend/lifeline, and Y has to pick up on something much more subtle than she’s prepared for (but won't - yet!). All wrapped up in the simpler ground layer of Yaz just needing some comfort - any comfort - as she’s been bearing the brunt of the work since taking on the role of “the Doctor” for an extended time now leading the pair of them through this insane mission to get back to their times, and just... because she misses her best friend.

This conversation now has the dual role of canon!Dan’s pep talk AND forming a bedrock for Yaz’s coming out as she can have a hindsight-realisation about what J was hinting at (during one of the 2022 specials).

Vanquishers

Canon!Dan is again with the group the whole time, so he doesn’t have an individual plot purpose for us to replace or work around. Canon!Karvanista doesn’t even care about Dan at this point, so his role doesn’t change either. The only conversation they have is a payoff to “fetch your dog”, which can easily be one of the (multiple) 13s going to fetch him for more 13+K dynamic, rather than both 13s going to Bel.

Obviously we get the Passenger rescue in this episode too, so our chosen Khan has the appropriate freak-out moment. Pick your favourite:

Sonya yelling that “this is where you’ve been and you didn’t tell me” + a sisterly ribbing about the romantic tension between 13+Y

Najia going into full “this is my daughter you’ve taken off to god-knows-where and I expect her back in one piece” @ 13 + “are you sure you’re not seeing each other?” @ Yaz

Hakim HOLY SHIT ALIENS ARE FUCKING REAL YAZ CAN YOU BELIEVE IT

2022 Specials

Dan's biggest contribution here is the “I know what you are” talk @ Yaz in EotD and playing (failed) matchmaker in LotSD, and then he fucks off for PotD anyway, so that doesn’t even need any changing.

In my ideal world, we would actually replace one of EotD or LotSD with KhanFamilyEpisode-2.0 (KFE2), continuing on from the post-passenger-rescue revelation in Vanquishers. I LOVE EotD, so I would replace LotSD and that’s the direction my ramblings will go from now on. But it could be either way round (or in magical get-everything-we-want land, it's just an extra 4th episode)

EotD doesn’t need to have Dan pushing Yaz to come out to herself. Admittedly, this is the dodgiest consequence we get from stripping back Dan so much, but bear with me. Combining the Sarah/Nick romantic B plot and Yaz pulling on that aforementioned hindsight to her conversation with Jericho, we can get the same effect without having a straight man effectively force a closeted lesbian into coming out. (As much as canon!Dan is trying to be nice, and I respect him for that, the actual result is cornering a closeted young woman into coming out to him, and then immediately outing her to someone else, which is not… the best thing to do)

We can replace it with more reaction shots for Yaz to S/N’s relationship and bickering, sprinkle in a bit of flashback to her conversation with J with new context, maybe an almost-confession that she chickens out of in the heat of the moment during one of the later loops. Something like 13 being reckless and Y yells at her for it and goes off about how she cares about 13 a lot and can’t just lose her if shit goes wrong - a direct mirror to 13’s “I will not let you die for my mistakes” moment. They each get an admission of care now. If we’re desperate, Yaz can have a self-annoyed talking-to-herself moment berating herself for said chickening out, but this is a bit heavy-handed and shouldn’t be necessary if the rest of it is played right.

In KFE2, one of the Khans of course has appropriate characterisation from Flux. I think Sonya works best here, since she’s the most likely to accept Yaz’s inevitable plea to “don’t tell the others anything about alien bullshit” (potentially including blackmail wherein Yaz has to promise to do sonya’s chores for a month or something, classic sibling hijinks).

Obviously Doctor Who shenanigans ensue and it probably results in the whole family finding out the truth about the Doctor. But the B plot is Sonya needling at Yaz over her now-obvious crush on 13, culminating in the equivalent to LotSD’s beach talk.

ALTERNATIVELY:

Swap KFE2 and EotD. The B plot in KFE2 ends in Yaz coming out to Sonya (instead of Dan), who is on the one hand, a typical sibling response of “yeah obviously duh, and i'm gonna make fun of you for being a dumbass about it” but on the other hand is fully supportive because she knows Yaz’s mental health history (+ potentially already suspected her sexuality from school years) and is, at heart, an actually good sister.

EotD can then have Yaz actually confessing to 13 during that aforementioned stressful late-game time loop, mirrored by moving 13's confession from LotSD to this episode as well. And then the equivalent beach talk.

Diane

Final note: I didn’t want to just delete Diane completely, because I do really like that she just exists as a disabled character who gets shit done. We definitely don’t need the will-they-won’t-they if we’re stripping back Dan’s role, so if you really want, we can just have them be an established relationship for that little bit of world building. Maybe D+D can have minor roles in Vanquishers as part of the finale if you rejig it a bit

OR we can just give Dan’s role to Diane wholesale. Diane’s actress was perfectly good, she can carry that role easily, and we get to keep a semi-prominent disabled character. I quite like what little we see of Diane, so I like the idea of keeping her over Dan, but narratively speaking it’s not important either way.

[nightmare-dreamt]

hello! I would like to request a matchup with a character from demon slayer. please and thank you! 🫶

Orientation: asexual + greyromantic (male preference).

Pronouns: she/her

Appearance: I'm 5'1. My hair is a darkish-brown with light brown streaks, and I have a long, whispy layered pixie cut. I have an inverted-triangle head shape, and I have a triangle + mesomorphic body type. I have dimples. I have beauty marks mostly on my shoulders and arms, and I specifically have one on one of my ear lobes (low-key my favorite feature, huehuegjb 🤭). I have olive-toned skin. I have almond shaped eyes, and my eye color is brown.

- Some people say I'm intimidating, but then others are like, "she's just a little guy! :D".

- I wear glasses.

- My overall style is grunge, comfy, and artsy.

General personality traits + extra: Nice, independent, caring, calm, clever, intelligent, empathetic, friendly, gentle, humble, genuine, forgiving, hard-working, humorous, kind-hearted, reliable, logical, mature, observant, patient, selfless, sweet, responsible, wise, emotionally strong, accepting, supportive, quiet, awkward, reserved, straightforward, shy, tired, blunt, brutally-honest, gullible, procrastinator, lonely.

- I'm a good listener! I always try to reassure people that I'm there for them and they can talk to me about anything. I never judge.

- I genuinely care about others.

- I'm slow to warm up to others, but once I do, I'm much more outgoing.

- People say I have a comforting aura.

Likes: Going for walks, hanging out with friends, deep conversations, blankets, the night sky, sunrises and sunsets, astronomy, psychology, literature, ancient history, nature, browsing, window shopping, sweets, pasta dishes, traveling, art, exploring, cats and dogs, music, fruit (specifically watermelon, raspberries, and strawberries 😩), coffee and tea, laughing, joking around, stormy weather, learning more about the things that interest me, to clean (willingly).

Dislikes: Waffles. , alcohol (for personal reasons), centipedes, anything that makes someone not redeemable (or whatever I think deems someone as a terrible person), humiliation, hot weather, people not listening to what I'm saying, silent treatment, being watched.

Hobbies: Painting, ceramics, playing video games, reading, listening to music (I'm pretty diverse with my taste in music but I mostly listen to k-pop, j-pop, pop, rock, punk-rock, pop-rock, calm, '80s, early 2000's) and occasionally podcasts (comedy, stories).

Etc:

- I'm a barista at a coffee shop 💪.

- I'm told that I laugh like a witch PLS.

- My big three are libra (sun), pisces (moon), and capricorn (rising).

- My MBTI type is INFJ, and my enneagram type is 5w4.

I hope that wasn't too much for you 😭

-🌻

Matchup for Anon 🌻!

Sanemi Shinaguzawa:

When you first saw him, it was clear that he had a scary personality and unknown to you he felt the same way for you. But, when the two of you actually got to know each other, you both seemd to be wrong. Deep down, he was a total softie and so were you. He tends to be soft only to those he cares for, so don't mention him being soft in public or he'll be upset.

He would want a partner who is independent and intellegent because he doesn't want someone who totally relies on him and someone who can't take care of themselves. Yes, he would want to protect you but he would love to see his partner defend themselves and tell someone off for doing something to them.

When he's upset and angry, he needs someone to be there to comfort him and thankfully he has you. He'll come to you when he's not feeling great and will just let everything out, needing someone to listen to him as he explains his problems.

I don't know why, but I could see you begging and begging him to go on cute little dates and when he finally agrees the two of you go on a cermanic date. He's rough with his hands so it can be challenging, but when the two of you are together and you're sculpting one of those pot things on the spinner wheel, his tough demanor is gone and Into a soft one.

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary384

10/10-11/24

thursday - friday

okay...i'm stupid...i played termina too much tonight.

plus we did not get to seem friends from la but sunday should be a good day... uhmmmm. yeah!

i sent the email to the director, which is ssick, plus i sent the problem song to a friend to get their thoughts on how it sounded, they said it sounds cool, so maybe i wait a bit to hear it again, i listened to some of my other songs i'm working on and am getting excited about them again, so that is very very nice. today is also a really good day, someone i know distantly, we were in a music server forever ago though i dunno if she remembers me well at all, she listened to my album and said this about it:

really #happy! it makes me feel kind of crazy seeing people throw praise towards me, i have no idea what to do, i feel guilty almost, like it's something i have to reciprocate, it seems always done out of kindness, so having that kind of thing directed at me feels strange and new, people are so kind, though, i like people.

i think i talked about it before but i always like bow my head at people who are nice to me online... i'm a freak i guesss.

okay, i also did see dfa1979 live tonight, they're really fun live, sound good, it was cool to see jesse's setup, i didn't get a look at his pedals but i'm not so interested in that, i was more curious what was going on with his amps / cabs, it seems like 2 large pa cabs almost? not even like regular bass cabs, but they probably are, it's 5 cones on them i think, so it's massively loud and super low freq heavy, there's some nasty and strange mid range stuff too, he's definitely running a harmonizing pedal, and then that into an octave fuzz maybe? that'd be demented honestly, but it sounds like there's some messy stuff going on but no messy tracking, so it's not a synth pedal or anything i think. it could be a new like earthquaker one, i think, but he did some chords on the bass too and it sounded good. he also had his bass get switched out at times, so i wonder what tunings he's messing with. the drummer's the vocalist, always fun to see, they're both charming guys, the crowd was pretty fun and they weren't too bad, kind of like, frat bro-y douche-y vibes but they weren't douches, if that makes sense, i guess just bros, bros chilling. on the way out, my gf and i got asked if we were friends, by a guy who definitely wanted to fuck. he was feeling brave i suppose. but honestly there's not a lot to say about the show... their synth, idk what it was, they'd made the logo say "poop" which is an immature way to mask what you're rocking out with... i dunno why bands do that really, i guess some people are so protective of their sounds, like it's special property or something.

the opener was this band called sticker who sound like nirvana...kinda. i don't wanna be mean but they made me think about how i want them to succeed not cuz they are good but because they seem to just really feel it, so like, for their wellbeing, i want them to make it. but that's maybe mean... i dunno, i just want them to not be sad, i think. i wonder how they sound recorded. the guitar tone is too chorus-y to me. too much nirvana worship in that way.

anyway, i took selfies, today, i don't think i looked uggy, so that is a kind of win. here i am:

kinda bad lighting in one but it's not a bad selfie i think... or it's sort of bad in a good way? i d k. i'm dumb.

kay... i made a lot of progress in termina i hope. i'm on day 2, i opened up 2 parts of prehevil proper, the one gate, and then the church zone you access via the sewer, the sewer seems to have more going on, as well, so i need to figure out what i'm doing there. i think i wanna explore the west of prehevil, the cop enemies are really scary. i can't believe they get back up!! i wonder if i have to like destroy their limbs? as marina i got a spell, red arc, i think, it's really powerful, i've been using it to zap their heads off. i wonder if i can zap the head off of that needle guy... he's so scary to me, made me panic every time i encountered him, really really scary.

i also got to the basement of that woodsman, he like killed his wife cuz she did things with a goat, or maybe she summoned the goat. i need to do some wandering i think, tomorrow, in the area, i found a tunnel made by the bremen army it seems like, i need to figure out where that goes but i don't have a key to that door. also figured out what to do with the heads of enemies and stuff.

here's a funny screenshot i took:

he will not become my friend... i do not know what it is he wants.

okie dokie, i think that's all i have to say. or idk, i really love this game, i was locked in a like, panic striking thing where i was like, okay how will i get out of this one bad situation, and i got out of it, kept exploring, and started making actual progress, and i opened up a couple blood portals to get around better. i just felt a lot of actual panic faced by some enemies, and not sure if my spell actually had that high a hit rate, and i know i can't depend on it because it's gonna drain my sanity... so stressful. it's really perfectly created, and this narrative feels like it's doing more, saying more, like fascist forces using these intensely fucked up vitalist visions of these gods to shape the world, like a kind of psycho-futurist thing almost? war forever because of their bloodlust, and the framing of the jesus figure as bloodthirsty too. its grim vision of 'humanity' is still there, but it feels a little more, i dunno, it's got kindness in it. some of the characters really are kind, i like the people who have stuck by the train. i wonder how i can help them.

now i need to sleep,

so,

byebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[digimonloving]

that sealsdramon ask awakened something in me oh dear;;; can we have NSFW alphabet for him?

Sealsdramon NSFT Alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Sealsdramon’s aftercare will entirely depend on how vanilla or rough they and their partner were. Is there a mess? They help clean it up, including any clothes or blankets or bedsheets. Were you hurt? Bruised, bitten, clawed? Those are cleaned up and properly dressed. It would be careless to leave you injured and not tend to it at all.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Sealsdramon doesn’t have a favored body part of their own for such activities, but if you have a preference, they’ll definitely notice and use it more often. Their favorite part on their partner is anywhere they can touch and get a reaction out of you, though Sealsdramon does seem to favor your hips. They’re still always studying every inch of you with their optics…

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Sealsdramon finds cumming… fascinating, almost. You did that? Just because you felt that good? Amazing. They don’t particularly have anything themself, but if their partner is interested and wanting to be cummed on or inside of themself, well… they’re sure they can figure out some way to make that work. Special toys for such things exist, don’t they?

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Sealsdramon is greatly considering some self-modifications to better suit their partner’s likes and desires. Something for you to penetrate? Or perhaps something to penetrate you, besides simple toys? They certainly need to look into how to go about such modifications...

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Not very. Sealsdramon has been learning slowly but surely as best they can, however.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Sealsdramon enjoys hovering over their partner most times. It gives a sense of both intimacy and danger, and they love it.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Not in the slightest. Curious and willing to explore and experiment, yes, but they don’t see much humor in such activities.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Sealsdramon does not have hair to begin with… so…

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Depends on their partner, though either way, initially? Not very. At least, not intentionally. Sealsdramon is definitely touching you, hands and even tail carefully inspecting various parts of your body. Their optics never turn away from you. They’re studying you.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Sealsdramon doesn’t have much they really can Jack off with themself, but… they’re more than willing to watch or help their partner do so.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Bondage, BDSM as a whole, dominance play, erotic asphyxiation, humiliation, orgasm denial

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

No preference! Wherever their partner likes. Usually anywhere comfortable enough in their partner’s home.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Begging, pleading, desperation, their partner acting and sounding as though they need such special attention to live.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Ageplay and most anything involving bodily fluids beyond cum. Blood, of agreed upon, is okay sometimes

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Sealsdramon struggles with giving and receiving, thanks to their lacking of the proper parts, but they like to imagine they’d be decent at it at the very least.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Again, this tends to vary based on their partner’s preference, but by default? It’s a bit of a mix. Sealsdramon starts off slow to gauge and study your reactions and see what you like, and upon deciding these reactions are nice, will start getting into it a lot more harder.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Unfun. Sealsdramon can’t enjoy watching you as much if it’s for such a short period of time.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Oh, absolutely. With a few small exceptions, Sealsdramon is down to try out anything new with their partner.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Sealsdramon can go. And go. And go. And go. The activity doesn’t seem to tire them out at all. They’ll stop once asked, of course, but otherwise, they keep going.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Toys are Sealsdramon’s go-to for their partner. They’ve invested in a few different ones to figure out which one is liked most.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Quite a lot. It started off unintentional; simply testing to see your reactions. Positive? Negative? This eventually lead Sealsdramon into the discovery of orgasm denial and boy if that isn’t fun for them to play with and watch.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Sealsdramon is… quite silent. Almost unnervingly so. Not a sound beyond them occasionally asking if you’re okay, if what they’re doing is sufficient, and other such questions to make sure you’re okay. Also the occasional little compliment about the sounds you make and notes about your reactions.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

As much as sex is mostly enjoyable for Sealsdramon in the aspect of studying their partners reactions to various touches and prodding… they also do enjoy it simply for the intimacy of it. What other time are they going to get so skin-to-skin close with their partner? What better time to learn more about you and enjoy your company?

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Sadly? Nothing. That’s what the toys are for. Perhaps that will change, eventually…

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Practically non-existent, Sealsdramon simply thinks it is fun and fascinating.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

They don’t! In fact, Sealsdramon is usually the one tending to their partner and tucking them into bed after everything before heading off and going about their day like nothing happened at all. They’re still definitely thinking about it all though.

[diamondwind99]

Soooooo... the new video! Definitely wasn't what I was expecting and I love it! I've missed hearing that little theme song!

I've got to hand it to the team, even though it was an ad it was really cool to see the ad presented as a mini Sanders Sides video, especially considering how much we've all been missing it.

So here's a bunch of other things I thought was pretty awesome.

The premise! It's funny, I've had conversations with some other friends of mine about this exact same thing. We've obviously come to the conclusion that we are never throwing away our beloved plushies. I actually just got another one recently :)

I'm loving the new camera angles. It's so interesting and fun, and it's great seeing Thomas exploring some new ideas! Seeing the sides in different environments opens up all sorts of opportunities.

Patton kicking in the door. Patton, you are amazing and I love you. Underrated side imo. I just wanna say he's imperfect and I love him. Thomas's startled "yes sir" was hilarious.

"Mr. Feelings is my father, call me Patton" "Watch it and get wrecked" "powerpoint scares me" I just love Patton okay

Patton bringing in the science and impressing Logan?? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

TLDR Patton you're adorable and ily

I screamed so loudly when Virgil came in. I've missed that emo so much. His part was so wonderfully spooky and perfect.

"pre-voodoo voodoo dolls" "[I'm not entirely sure what he said there] m***erf***ker!"

Virgil canonically loves dogs. Stuffed spider is canon too.

Excuse me a moment while I scream because MY PRINCE HAS ARRIVED!! I missed Roman so much, omg

Plushie Roman and Classic Roman. I love that. And Roman I love your use of 4th wall breaking :)

"You're too kind, classic Roman!" ...Okay, was it just me or did I hear Remus there?

The quiz no's bit. It just speaks for itself, I don't need to say anything.

"Well f**k." Roman my darling you are a mood. (Thomas did say it was a good effort! :D)

...Is that Pokemon music? I dunno where it's from but I definitely recognize it.

"A trusted aide who will never leave your side, who will always agree with you, who will never sass back or betray you in any way!" Oh Roman... he's clearly still thinking about Janus and everything that led up to POF. He's still very much hurting. I hope that part of the finale will handle some of that. Roman really needs to work through it.

"Loneliness?! Who said anything about loneliness?!?" I wonder if both Logan and Roman are feeling lonely. Logan because he's not being listened to and constantly having his voice shoved to the side. Roman because he feels like the other sides don't value his input and constantly change the rules on him, when all he wants is to make Thomas happy. Come to think of it, Logan and Roman are both feeling sidelined (ha) for somewhat similar reasons - they're not being listened to.

Yeah Logan, I'm surprised they all managed to work together too.

Heck yes Logan. Contribute to these facts. I fricking love Logan. So much.

"Hey Logan could I get you to say 'I'm agreeing with you again?'" Awww yeah Ro, you did it, you impressed Logan :)

When Roman's nickname falls flat Virgil is just like "don't worry bud, you'll get 'em next time" and I think my entire existence just melted on the spot. Called Roman bud. Was encouraging. These two have come so far and I love them both so much and did I mention I melted on the spot.

"Sometimes passion makes you act a little silly" Hmmm yeah that's something to think about, Logan :)

Logan's disbelieving face at the end there lol. I love you Logan. So much.

And now, and entirely separate section dedicated to the Sides' ROOMS!!!! :D

Patton: I saw lots of cats and lots of stuffed animals, and his color scheme, and seeing Virgil's card from Season 1 up there was just adorable. Also some photos and a second cookie. Nothing unexpected, but seeing Patton without his glasses was a bit odd, lol.

Roman: Roman's color scheme throughout as well. I also saw some scented candles, a book that I couldn't tell what it was, and some Roman figurines, and of course Roman's sword at the ready next to him. The mask was an amazing touch. I loved the poster from Up that says "adventure is out there!" The corkboard has some interesting tidbits, such as photos from past Sides' photoshoots and a picture of Leslie Odom Jr. I absolutely LOVE that there are sparkly floaty clouds and stuff flying around, so one of my headcanons is now CANON!! What I specifically want to point out is what was on the three sticky notes. "You got this, pal!" - It's so wholesome but a bit sad. He so clearly needs encouragement. "WWLOJD" - This took me a bit to figure out. At first I thought it was a hint towards the title of an upcoming video, but then I realized it says "What would Leslie Odom Jr Do?" and I think that is awesome. I think Roman has a hero :) Oh, and of course we can't forget the Remus cameo. I saw that, stinker. Roman's gonna come after you for that one. I hope we get some sibling shenanigans soon :) Also, Roman is wearing his Beast onesie. He's. Just. So. Adorable.

Virgil: Green Day American Idiot shirt. Epicness. "# of Days Since Last Total Disaster: 5" Virgil I freaking love you. Some nice purple color scheme, what looks like a lyric video in the back there. Not sure what book that adorable stuffed spider is on. Also saw a white noise machine. Really nice touches in there :)

Logan: Okay, seeing Logan without his glasses felt kinda weird lol. I'm so used to the glasses. But the fact that he has all of the plushies there... that is just the sweetest. I also saw an empty Crofter's jar, a Rubik's cube, his notebook, and extra flashcards. I also saw that he kept Roman's Sherlock fanfiction that he wrote for Logan. I melted.

Anyway, that's everything I saw! If you made it this far, thanks so much. I really appreciate it if you stuck with my ramblings this long. I don't often write episode reviews of analyses, but the ones I do wrote I can get pretty long-winded lol. I just love the Sides so much. See you guys when the next episode comes :)

I'm just wondering... where's Janus? dun dun duuuuun

[the-obnoxious-sibling]

i have finally found the time to watch through the entirety of a court of fey and flowers and it has left me clawing the walls

a few thoughts, here and below the cut:

aabria is honestly one of my favorite gms to watch work. like, literally watch, i am 95% podcasts for my actual play media, but the visual elements of her games (esp. her npc facial expressions & acting choices) are so compelling. every damn time wuvvy looked at rue i died.

never not gonna be impressed with how smoothly this team integrated dnd combat & magic & skill checks with the good society framework to make a compelling, weighty, primarily social game. the unique tokens! (the significance to burning them!) the many pvp insight/deception checks over sighs and glances!!

brennan being an eternal gm is a crime, hob is The Most Character

like, picture me taking that character art of hob, printing it out, folding it up, and eating it. love him.

he’s a self-loathing emotionally obtuse plothound who claims to be bad with words but gives The Most Austen-style heart-wrenchingly vulnerable speeches. who else is doing it like him.

(seriously, if you’ve got regency media recs with hob-alike MCs I Want Them)

i am imagining some bonkers child creation magic — like, cabbage patch If You Want One It Will Grow stuff, genetics and gametes need not be involved stuff — that gives hob and rue an enormous passel of kids to love on and Treat Right, including at least one Owl With Bug Wings and two or three Literal Bears.

also picturing atla level confusion when the first one of those bears comes along. “just a bear?” “not a bugbear, not an owlbear, not a bugowlbear. just a bear.” “…this kid is weird.” “yeah, but we’re gonna love them like mad anyway right?” “oh yeah, of course, i’m just saying!”

deeply shocked andhera was able to sit through that detect thoughts at the tailor shop scene without blurting out SOMETHING, given his tendencies towards blurting out everything in other moments.

but like. imagine.

hob: the k stands for knickolas!!

rue: i love him.

andhera: oh shit, for real?! you love him for real??

disastrous. andhera fails to keep his mouth shut, four wounded two dead. (rip buddy, you were a real one)

otoh. now i’m imagining a fun little trivia game at rue’s nearlywed shower with questions like “where did they meet” and “who asked whom” that give them an excuse to retell all of these cute stories about their relationship, and one question is “when did rue first realize they loved hob?”

the answer is supposed to be after they danced all night at the masquerade, because rue thinks it’s fine to lie a little for the Romance of it all, but andhera’s like “oh, i remember that! it was when hob told them what the k in k.p. stands for!”

and he’s very :D satisfied with himself for winning his team a point! not noticing rue and hob’s very complex face journeys as they silently have a Conversation about this.

most shocking moment for me, a person who saw a fair number of acofaf gifs on my dash last fall: chirp marriage & child reveal, no question. the cast around her reacting is also very good, but the twist in itself was honestly so unexpected! and it works fantastically to give the lords of the wing motivation to join the larger plot on Our Heroes’ Side, i thought that was very smartly done.

and last but not least, a fun fact!

I did not realize this until the ap episode where omar confirmed ace andhera, but my first dnd character was basically a mash-up of andhera and rue.

like. they were an ace paladin poorly faking charm and coolness, using a normative appearance (“imagine a combination of chris hemsworth and chris evans”) as a facade a scared, nonnormative creature hid behind— unfortunately my BINX-alike PC friend died early in the campaign, and the plot took priority over character exploration. but still: same hat!

also: me now, looking back at that character: [miranda cosgrove ‘interesting’ meme with the nonbinary flag superimposed]

[donutloverxo]

NSFW alphabet | Chris Evans

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Note - This is written just for fun. I don't know Chris or what he likes lol. I also don't own the alphabet format.

Dividers by @whimsicalrogers

Warnings - rpf, smut, daddy kink, d/s relationship, dom Chris, anal stuff, semi public sex, spanking, sex toys, praise kink.

Word count - 2.5k

A=Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Chris is clingy as fuck after sex. He’ll hold you close to his heart (you being the lil spoon of course) and not let go the entire night. With soft kisses on your face, hair and on any bruises he might have left on you. With some pillow talk about how his love for you can overwhelm him sometimes, that he can’t imagine not having you not that he gets to have a taste of you almost every night. Sometimes he likes to listen to you talk about your day, or share a deep secret you hadn’t told anyone else.

His clinginess is something you adore. Something which you would usually be fine with, how he just could not keep his hands off of you, but when you’re somewhere tropical and hot it becomes a bit of a problem.

You were visiting him while he was filming for red Sea diving resort, after seeing him in the beard and the longer hair you couldn’t help yourself and you just jumped on him. After some hot and sweaty sex, you had moved away from him a little, with your back to him you wiped the sheen off of your forehead with the back of your hand, trying to fan yourself with your own hand, ‘Where do you think you’re going?’ he had growled. Not wanting even an inch of distance between the two of you. You tried to protest because you needed to cool off but eventually gave in.

B=Body Part (Their favorite body part)

Everyone knows the answer to this. He likes your ass the most. It doesn’t matter if it’s a flat ass or a thick one he’ll love it the same because it’s a part of you. He likes to smack it, he likes looking at it, he may even like to fuck it. Some stretch marks would just be the cherry on top.

His next favorite would have to be your hips. He loves to see their silhouette through your yoga pants or jeans, or even a dress. After a night of some rough fucking they usually bear his handprints which he loves obviously because it’s almost like he branded you as his own.

C=Cum (Anything to do with cum basically... I’m a disgusting person)

It’s always a battle with the two of you when it comes to cumming. Because Chris likes to see your body covered in his seed, particularly your face, ass and breasts, and you like to have him do it inside you, be it your pussy or your mouth.

Which he doesn’t mind obviously, he likes the idea of his spend being in your tummy, but he also likes taking pictures of your ass covered with his spunk. You just look so pretty when he comes on your face🥺

D=Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory)

Chris has fucked you in more bathrooms than you can remember. It’s become a thing or almost a ritual now. Whenever he takes you to an event or a party, or just a casual dinner at his family or friends house, you’ll end up on your knees in the bathroom with his dick in your mouth, or he’ll worship you and eat you out till you literally can’t even walk straight.

It started when you accompanied him to an important event, he was extremely anxious. And you felt helpless because you didn’t know how to make him feel better. But you did know one thing that always lifts his mood up. So you dragged him to the men’s room and sucked him off. He was much relaxed the rest for the evening thanks to you.

E= Experience (How experienced are they?)

VERY. He’s extremely experienced. He has a lot of knowledge and puts it to good use on you. Which can be a little daunting if you’re more on the inexperienced side but don’t ne afraid. He’ll train you really well, you just have to be a good girl and listen.

F= Favorite Position

His favorite position would be doggy style. Where he’s doing from behind, with you on your hands and knees, or with your head down and ass perched up to him because you never can stay up right when he’s doing you so well. He has full access to your ass, if you’re okay with it he would use his fingers on you, spank your ass. He loves to grab your hips or your ass and your breasts.

He’s also a huge fan of missionary. Because he can’t see your pretty face, or look into your eyes from behind. Most days he wants intimacy and to show you how much he loves you.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc.)

Depends on his mood. Sometimes he’s a bit goofy, like talking in a comically exaggerated Boston accent when you told him you liked the sound of his voice and how his accent becomes more prominent when he is horny.

But most of the times, he’s in control. He has to maintain some composure so you wouldn’t question who’s really in charge or think that you could get away with anything. Because you know how to make him laugh, and if he let’s you do that he couldn’t keep a straight face while punishing you.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

Chris has dark Brown pubic hair, like that of his beard and the hair on his head.

Does anyone remember that term ‘manscaping'? Where dudes trim their pubic hair to make their dicks look bigger. Chris definitely does that. Although he doesn’t need to because like if he got any bigger he might split you in two.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect)

Doesn’t matter if you’re making love, or fucking hard it will always be intimate and loving with Chris in one way or another.

If you feel needy, and like you want him to show you how much he loves you, you just have to sit on his lap, bat your lashes at him, show him your puppy eyes, and hump his leg a little. He’d get the sign and take you to bed, slowly dragging his cock in and out of you, drawing it out for the both of you, his fingers laced with yours, pinned above your head. He’d feast on your breasts and nipples the whole time just so you could feel his love and need for days.

If you’re feeling particularly frisky, or in a mood to piss him off just so he could be rough with you without you having to ask, you can just give him attitude or roll your eyes a lot. He’ll spank your ass raw, or edge you for hours, or make you climax till it literally hurts, depends on his mood really, to teach you some manners. But since you like the punishment you never learn.

Even while he’s got you over his knee, you not wearing anything but the diamond necklace he gave you, your cheeks wet from crying for the past fifteen minutes, your ass on fire but you still had to take more from him. He tsked, reprimanding you for ruining his expensive dress pants with your slick, playing with your intimate lips, he’d say while stroking your head, “It’s okay, baby, daddy still loves you. Even when you get on my nerves.”

Even while fucking you like he hated you, he made you felt loved and as if you were the most precious person in the world.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon)

When you started dating, Chris would often masturbate to the thought of you. But when you started sleeping together he never felt the need to, and you asked him not to do it anymore because you didn’t want him wasting his cummies.

Which might’ve been a huge mistake in hindsight because you revealed a weakness of yours. Now when he REALLY wants to punish you, he’d just tie you up jerk off his cock right before your eyes, “See this, sweetheart? I could be fucking your sweet pussy right now, and making you feel good too, but you had go and be a bad girl.” He’d come all over your face or breasts, and would of course make you come too if he feels you’ve learned your lesson.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Chris has a huge daddy kink. He doesn’t just like the title, he likes everything that comes along with it.

He likes that he has to take care of you, in and outside if the bedroom, being a daddy is a 24/7 job, he has to be considerate to you and grateful for all the trust and love you give him.

He also really likes pinning you down. Whether it be during play wrestling or during sex, it makes him feel strong, and it drives you crazy, absolutely feral for him.

L=Location (Favorite places to do the do)

Yeah you’ve had your share of sneaking off to do it during events but his favorite place to do it would be in the privacy of his own home, preferably his bed so that your dog won’t walk in on you.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

If you simply say, “Screw me.” That would probably be more than enough to turn him on and fulfil your request.

But what grinds his gears is seeing you in tight clothing, or the kind of clothes that would show off your assets. If you’re a good mom to dodger, if you show an interest in the things he likes or do anything that would make his heart flutter and make him fall more in love with you.

N= NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

He would never have proper public sex because that would probably interfere with his public image and work. Other than that he’s pretty open to most things.

He also wouldn’t like to invite anyone else to your bedroom or to share you. It is a nice fantasy for him but way too risky.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He likes both giving and receiving equally. He likes having you on your back where he can see your face while he explores your intimate walls with his tongue, but he also likes to have you ride his face. You were apprehensive to at first, but with some convincing you agreed.

Sixtynine is another one of his favorites. He never actually had to ask for it. You were sitting on his face, holding onto his stomach and screaming when you felt your orgasm approaching, he pushed your head just a little, you got the hint, and started working on his cock, which was painfully hard.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? Etc.)

It would usually depend on what kinda day it is and how you’re both feeling. But most of the time he is usually slow but at the same time rough. Where his thrusts are drawn out but also impactful.

Q= Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Chris loves quickies. Bending you over the kitchen counter, a quick session in the afternoon on the couch when things got a little too heated while cuddling, in his trailor while he’s on a break, in the shower where he can make you dirty before cleaning you up. You made it.

But he wouldn’t prefer them over proper sex ever. Usually he likes to take his time with you.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc)

He’s game to experiment to a certain extent. Even if he’s skeptical about something he’d keep an open mind and give it a shot for you.

S= Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last)

He’s a fit and motivated man so he can last for a long time and go for many rounds. It’s more likely for you to be tired and tapped out than for him.

If it was a long day on set, and if he’s a little exhausted then he may not be able to go more than once. But will make up for it when he can.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

You both own a variety of butt plugs and vibrators, silky ties, blindfolds, handcuffs that Chris likes to use on you. You even bought a ball gag asking him to put it on you, which was the only time you ever used it because Chris liked to hear your voice and for you to call him daddy or say his name. You couldn’t do it with your mouth full.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Chris teases you a lot, but he would be a MASSIVE tease if he was a little more patient. He knows the effect he has on you. How you can’t take your eyes off him when he wears a t-shirt that’s a bit too tight and shows off his arms, how you can’t help but grab his butt sometimes and feel him up. When you bite your lip or look away when he catches you staring. If you get caught, be prepared because he will only do it more just to egg you on.

His touches a bit too light, he’d bring you to the edge and leave you just there. But fortunately it won’t last long because usually he’s the one who ends up getting riled up.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

He’s loud alright. And he isn’t ashamed of it. He would never try to hide how good you make him feel, or miss an opportunity to call you a good girl and praise your gorgeous body. There will be lots of grunting and groaning and moaning and you revel in every second of it.

X = X-Ray (Let s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

He’s pretty big. Much bigger than average. He looked pretty average when he wasn’t hard, you let that fool you into thinking you could take him pretty easily, he wasn’t that much bigger than anyone else you’d had sex with right?

Your eyes almost popped out of your head when you saw him hard, his dick hard and thick and a blush pink, two thick running on the sides of it.

He assured you that he would make it fit and that you had nothing to be worried about.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

It’s pretty high. Higher than most people at least. You call him your horndog, but like in a nice way, because he always wants it. Even if you spent an entire night screaming his name and being used and stretched in ways that made your pussy as well as your body sore, he would still ask for more the very next morning. He’d respect you if you say no and back off immediately but he’s up for it whenever you want.

ZZZ (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

If he has things on his mind, and if you fall asleep sooner than usual then he’d be up a while. But most of the times he falls asleep quickly after.

[hopeswriting]

HI BABE 💛 v interested in God, Please, Not Again, Beware the now Loved Child, Child, Come Back to Me (I’m the only Mercy Left for you to Find), Civilain Tsuna & Mafia Everyone Else, don't you dare die for us, and Now who the FUCK caused the apocalypse this time?! for the WIP game <3333 (you can answer as little or as many of them tho!) (also, can I just say I am OBSESSED with your naming skills. I love every single title you come up with 💞)

babe, thanks so much for indulging me in this, you're the best. *kisses you lovingly on the forehead* 👄 ❤ and of course thank you for the ask. <3

God, Please, Not Again

[Plain text: “God, Please, Not Again” in bold. /End PT]

this one is basically another daily life arc version arco! the premise of it is, what if the arco do have to grow back to their adult body like normal people like in canon, instead of the popular fanon trope where verde finds a way to speed up that growth? that plus the fanon trope where they have to stick together because it makes their growth smoother, because i needed them to actually stay around each other and in namimori lol.

i still decided on a faster growth rate tho, but only of one year of growth per month, and the idea is to follow the arco around until they all grow back to their original age pre-curse. so the fic is mostly slice of life with a lot of humor and chaos, with a side of vongola tenth gen, and also more serious/angsty moments where the arco connect/reconnect with each other and get some closure from the curse.

here’s the summary:

In their dreams, the Arcobaleno are free from the Curse and immediately get back their adult body. In reality, the universe flips them off one last time, and they have to grow back to adulthood all over again.

The Arcobaleno flip it off right back, and they’ll be damned if they don’t make it everyone else’s problem too.

Beware the now Loved Child

[Plain text: “Beware the now Loved Child” in bold. /End PT]

i was actually so excited about this one when i started it!! but then it grew in length in a way i wasn’t expecting it, and i lost motivation for it when i got stuck in one scene on top of that, and it’s been some time now i didn’t touch it. :( i still totally plan to finish it eventually tho!

anyway the fic focuses on the khr kids, lambo, i-pin and fuuta, and their relationship with tsuna. it retells the events from canon (kokuyo arc, varia arc, future arc) from their pov, tho it’s canon divergent in the way where i make them have a more active part in the story by exploring more just what it means that they’re all mafia kids.

here’s the summary:

Tsuna-nii has loved them first out of the whole world, and they could never love him back enough for that. (But oh, they try. Never let it be said they don’t.)

Tsuna-nii may think he knows how much they love him—including their hidden ways to love him—, but he doesn’t. Tsuna-nii can never know, he’s so kind, cares so much, they can’t ever do that to him. (What if he loves them less because of it?)

Or, unloved mafia children are all but too common, and the ones lucky enough to find love don’t make the mistake to take it for granted.

Child, Come Back to Me (I’m the only Mercy Left for you to Find)

[Plain text: “Child, Come Back to Me (I’m the only Mercy Left for you to Find)” in bold. /End PT]

this is a skull-centric fic exploring his relationship with death as he discovers his immortality. it’s very introspective and angsty, and i haven’t decided yet if i’ll give it a happy ending of sorts, but probably not. maybe the arco will have a cameo too, but i haven’t decided on that either.

the summary is a poem from Nathaniel Orion G. K., because it single-handedly inspired this fic lol:

“You don’t get to die

and be reborn the same.

You come back,

but you come back wrong.

This is the price you pay

for resurrection.”

Civilain Tsuna & Mafia Everyone Else

[Plain text: “Civilain Tsuna & Mafia Everyone Else” in bold. /End PT]

i actually don’t even have a summary for this one lol, tho i did start writing it, but i have very little for it as of now. that said, if i should give it an actual title, it’d be something like “a very normal week in sawada tsunayoshi’s life” *wink wink*.

it was inspired by a prompt i saw here that was about a civilian protagonist and their superheroes buddies or something. the idea is that tsuna never ever came close to being mafia, but he still finds his way to be close friends with the vongola tenth gen who are very much all mafia lol. oh yeah, it’s tyl too!

so basically they’re kind of just a fixture of tusna’s daily life, popping up at their unspoken designated time, and tsuna does not comment about the mafia-related chaos they bring with them (even if it’s mostly assassination on his life lol).

don't you dare die for us

[Plain text: “don't you dare die for us” in bold and lower case. /End PT]

ahhhh, i think this one will actually do good once i get it out!! now if only i could get myself to finish writing it zsdfchgsd. 😭😂

it’s a skull & arco fic, where just before they get cursed, skull runs in front of the arco à la colonnello to protect them from it. because of something something (still undecided lol), turns out he’s able to sustain all the pacifiers by himself, but thankfully for the arco the process takes time, because they have none of that. they make kawahira sends them back in skull’s past so they can warn him not to be a dumbass, and hopefully come back to the present where he decided against being one. and yes, even if it means they end up cursed.

it’s not like they were treating skull right tho, and as far as skull is concerned they don’t give a shit about him, and it’s kind of a speedrun redemption arc for the arco, but in skull’s past with a skull that isn’t really theirs, and also that’ll affect their relationship with their skull in the present. or something zsdfghjgf.

here’s the summary:

The light shines down on them, and as Colonnello runs forward to save Lal, Skull runs faster to save all of them. He does, but the Arcobaleno have a lot to say to that.

If it means time-traveling into his timeline to retroactively knock some sense into him, then so be it.

Now who the FUCK caused the apocalypse this time?!

[Plain text: “Now who the FUCK caused the apocalypse this time?!” in bold, with the word “Fuck” in all caps. /End PT]

this one is SO dumb but i love it so much!! it was inspired by a writing prompt i saw here too, but became something else entirely. and despite what the title might lead you to believe, almost no one actually gives a shit about the apocalypse going on or about stopping it, not when they’re too busy being a dick to each other lmao.

i took the khr cast and separated them into (time) travelers, immortals and ghosts/glitches, also mixing the canon groups with each other because i wanted to see what fun, rare interactions i’d be able to write like that, and they’re just running around trying not to kill each other or actively trying to kill each other. and ignoring the apocalypse as they do, but thankfully for most, some of them can be responsible in the face of the literal end of the world lol.

this one is just time-travel fuckery and crack and humor, but also they do all like and care for each other under all the insults and hostility, so there’s some friendship/family vibes too.

here’s the summary:

In which stopping the recurrent apocalypses barely manages to make the travelers, immortals and ghosts play nice with each other, but then again, neither of them can make sure they have the last word if the world ends on them.

EDIT: (zedfcghf thank you, i’m actually very proud of most of them too 💕💕)

[ask game]

[ventismommy]

Bennett thirst? got it.

I have NEVER been into bennett but your post changed everything HAHA so i raise you:

it’s late at night, and you two are in a cabin together, wether that be for a camp or on an expedition it doesn’t matter- and you’re asleep, and he’s needy as hell. You’ve been flirting for a while and haven’t really figured out what your relationship is and he’s nervous ab it but he needs you. So he wakes you up and you get him off oh so gently in the dark. enjoy~ <3

-Seb (Dove <3)

I literally cannot get corruption kink benny out of my head smh

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After a long day of exploring Wolvendom- and flirting with Bennett, because he was absolutely adorable when he was flustered, definitely not because you had feelings for him, you lied to yourself- nothing felt better than retreating to the little cabin the two of you had found and fixed up. You’d already cooked some Grilled Fish skewers for the both of you, with some Mint Jelly afterwards, and washed off in the lake once Bennett had his turn, and now you were slipping into nightclothes, having agreed that the two of you would turn away from each other and having no idea that he was actually staring at your body with a bright red blush. 

You’d long since gotten used to sleeping in the same bed as him for expeditions like these; it still gave you butterflies, but not as intense as the first time when you’d woken up accidentally tangled in each other’s arms. Bennett had refused to look you in the eye that day. 

This time he curled up at your back, facing away from you. His back was pressed against yours, warm and comforting- comforting because it meant you knew he was safe, in that bed next to you in his oversized shirt and messy hair. The two of you fell asleep not long after, tired from your adventure, and Benny slipped into dreams...

“Mmm, don’t worry darling, let me take care of you...”

“So good for me, Benny, keep it up darling~”

“You can do it, it’s okay, shhh shh shh, I’ve got you-”

Your voice, running through his head on repeat. He didn’t know why the phrases you were saying made his head spin and his thighs rub together in his sleep, didn’t know what the unfamiliar feeling was beyond the mandatory sex talk he’d gotten from his dads, just knew that oh, he wanted you to stop flirting and just touch him.

Bennett awoke with a start, a thin sheen of sweat on his feverish skin and an ache between his thighs. Sitting up, he tried taking deep breaths, tried going back to sleep, tried not to stare at you, but nothing helped, and oh he was so desperate. 

So, turning where he sat to face you, he gently shook your shoulder with one hand, whispering your name. It took a few times, but eventually you stirred, turning over. 

“Mmm?” You hummed in question, not completely awake yet. But Bennett was too far gone for words, too needy, so he simply waited a few seconds til you woke up a bit more and then took your hand, tentatively guiding it to the bulge in his boxers. When your hand finally touched him through the fabric, he let out a weak groan and tightened his grip on your wrist, rocking forward into your hand a bit.  “B-Bennett? What are y- oh?”

At that he turned bright red, embarrassed, but didn’t stop, didn’t let go of your wrist. “S-sorry- you t-tease so m-much- needed-need-” His words failed him when you started to apply a little pressure, palming him gently and watching his adorable little face. “Oh, I see~ don’t you worry darling, I know you’re needy- I’m going to give you what you want, I promise-” 

You sat up slowly, pushing him down to lay on his back and leaning over him. You bent down slightly to muzzle at his neck, an indication for him to turn his head as you continued to rub him through his boxers. He gave soft little moans every time your hand pushed into him- he didn’t know what was going on, but it felt good, it made the ache go away, and he wanted more.

You nipped at his neck, making him gasp and shudder. And then, he started to rock his hips into your hand, slowly at first but getting more desperate by the minute. Before long he was panting hard, desperately rutting against your hand, and you had to push his hips down a bit. “Shh, shhh, slow down, my darling boy, relax, you’ll tire yourself out-”

“B-But it hurts,” he whined, struggling against your hold on his hip. “I-I’ve never- I don’t know what’s going on- I j-just want m-more-”

Oh, he was so pure, so adorable, that you couldn’t resist the urge to wreck him.

“Alright, puppy, shhhh, I’m gonna make it better for you, okay?”

He let out a pitchy little cry, nodding fervently.

“But we gotta go slow, dear, we don’t want to overwhelm you-”

He gave a little whine at the word slow, but seemed to quiet down a bit, no longer struggling. “There’s a good boy,” you murmured, and Bennett whimpered.

 Sliding your hand downwards, you found the waistband of his boxers and tugged at it, pulling them down inch by inch til you could slide them off of his legs. When you did, you planted a little kiss on his scraped knee before moving back to where you were.

This time you were able to reach down and wrap a hand around his cock, slowly starting to stroke him. “A-a-ah!” He cried out, hand reaching out to grab your other arm for support. His hips twisted in pleasure, bucking up into your hand a few times as he got accustomed to the unfamiliar but so, so good feeling. And then he whimpered something that made your ears perk up in interest. 

“M-Mommy, please!”

Oh, you couldn’t refuse.

Running a thumb along the slit at his tip, you chuckled to yourself. “Oh, baby boy, you’re already dripping...so adorable...don’t you worry, Mommy’s going to take real good care of you.”

Bennett squirmed restlessly underneath you, breathlessly moaning with every touch. Your hand felt s-so good, and there was this hot, tight tension in his core, and he just wanted to make it burst, make it go away.

“Relax, darling, it’s alright...I’m here, you can let it out-”

Overwhelmed tears started to stream down his face, and you kissed them away, each one.

“Bennett, dear, can you close your eyes for me sweetheart? Can you do that?”

He nodded with a little whine, closing his eyes obediently and even halting his movements.

“Oh, good boy,” you whispered gently to him while you sat up, pulling off your panties and lifting your oversized shirt. His hands instinctively flew to your thighs when he felt them on either side of his hips, and you let him squeeze onto them in anticipation, bucking uselessly into the air.  And then you slid down carefully, enveloping his cock inside of you, and oh, the noise he made was just sinful.

“W-W-What is that- feels g-go-o-ood- hhhnng- Momm-my!” he wailed, thrusting upwards into that hot, perfect feeling. That tension was already getting closer to bursting, even as you steadied him and shushed him comforting my before starting to slide up and down, riding him slowly.  “D-Darling, shhh shh shh, it’s okay, it’s alright, slow down now, we’re gonna take it nice and slow, okay?”

“O-Ok-kay, s-sorry Mommy, it j-just fe-eels- ah!”

You smiled softly at him as you started to pick up your pace, riding him juuust a little bit faster now. “You don’t have to apologize, p-puppy, it’s alright- tonight is about you, okay?”

Bennett only whined quietly in response, head tossing to either side. So close, so close- it got even worse when you started clenching around him, rubbing your clit in fast little circles to try and get yourself to that edge so you wouldn’t have to overstimulate him. Every thrust up and down was so agonizingly slow, dragging that perfect feeling up and down his sensitive cock.

“M-Mommy, what’s this f-f-feeling, something’s gonna- m’gonna- hah~” he sobbed, back arching and accidentally pushing him further into you. That earned a soft moan from you as your fingers and his cock made that same tension start to form in you. You kept working those quick circles as you rode him, getting close yourself, and your free hand reached upwards to caress his cheek. “I-It’s normal, baby boy, don’t worry- it’s a good thing- now just k-keep- hah- keep going for me, okay? You can do it, baby.”

When he started to cry a little bit more, you returned to kissing his tears away. And then, he started to sloppily buck upwards, getting close to reaching his high, just needing that final push- you clenched around him-

And he was gone.

“A-a-ah-hah~ M-Mommy, mommy, mo-mommy- I- I love you- I love you I love you I love you-”

You were stunned for a second, but quickly regained your senses. Did he just...he did... how do I respond?

So you decided to just tell the truth, quit hiding.

As you planted a few more harsher bites along his neck, you started to call out to him. “Bennett, my love, I love you too my darling, h-hah, so- good for me-”

And with that, you came too, leaning forward a bit before carefully lifting off of him. As soon as you laid down next to him he was scooting over to you to hold you in a bone crushing hug. “Y-You really love me? With all my bad luck?”

“Of course I do, Bennett...how could I not?” You replied, gently stroking his hair as you cuddled him.

[freakynct]

「𝒂-𝒛 𝒂𝒏𝒂𝒍𝒚𝒔𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔」

— wong kunhang

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a; aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

i feel like hendery is such a goofball after sex and loves to be playful after all the sexual seriousness. he likes to stay close to you, pulls you closer and kisses your cheeks and loves teasing you about how good he made you feel or about something particular you did to him so you both just end up laughing with each other and cuddling

b; body part (their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

i  think he’s really proud of the abs he worked hard for so i would say that’s his favorite body part of his. on you however, it’s your smile, he just loves when your whole face lights up when you smile and how contagious it is

c; cum (anything to do with cum basically)

messy, messy, messy. he loves anything that has to do with cum and loves having fun with it, so he’s not concerned if things get a little dirty. but he loves especially when he gets you so turned on that you can’t stop dripping for him, it boosts his confidence and makes him so happy that he has that effect on you. and when it comes to him cumming, his favorite place is either over your tummy or inside your mouth and if you swallow everything that’s a plus for him

d; dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

hendery is shameless and he doesn’t care if anyone finds out the dirty things he’s doing with you but something that turns him on so much is having any type of sexual interaction in public, god he loves that. he once had your back pressed against him on a bus while you were on vacation as you reached around to jerk him off right there with people around you. he swore he fell in love with you a little bit more after that surprise but fucked you like he hated you right when you got back to the hotel room

e; experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

some people may say that he has been with a lot of people before due to the fact that he is a natural flirt but... no actually they’re right, he has. hendery has a good amount of experience, he has been with multiple people before because why not? he thinks it’s fun and everyone involved has a good time. he has had enough time to learn and practice and become really good at what he does in bed and he’s proud of it

f; favourite position (goes without saying)

 i don’t know if it’s really a surprise to anyone but his favorite position would have to be 69. a chance to eat you out at the same time as you suck him off with the perk of grabbing your ass? sign him in

g; goofy (are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

to me hendery is very versatile. yes he is a dork at heart but when it comes to sex he can be as serious as he can be playful, it really all depends on what his partner is more into and that’s important to him

h; hair (how well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

he likes to keep himself well groomed and has tried shaving everything off a couple times but he finds that he prefers having hair down there but trimmed to perfection, so everything is clean and is pleasant to his partner too

i; intimacy (how are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

hendery is more of a casual guy, he doesn’t like having too much preparation before having sex. he likes to let things happen casually and normally and likes living in the moment. however that doesn’t mean that he can’t be romantic at times if the occasion asks for it but i see him as the type to make that attempt and failing a little bit or being awkward or clumsy which is not always bad and can make both of you laugh. at the end of the day it’s the intention that counts

j; jack off (masturbation headcanon)

very regularly and only because his schedule doesn’t allow him to do it every single day, because trust me he would. his favorite place to do it is on his bed, he gets to lay down, close his eyes and take his time but when other people are around and he doesn’t have the luxury of having the room all to himself he prefers doing it in the shower. he even tried using the shower head on him since he heard it felt good on girls and he always needs to try out everything at least once and lets just say he wasn’t disappointed

k; kink (one or more of their kinks)

i think his main kinks are exhibitionism, voyeurism, pet play, sensory play, brat taming, spanking and sir/master kink

l; location (favourite places to do it)

hendery doesn’t like anything too boring so he always prefers to have sex in adventurous places and therefore his favorite places are anywhere where there’s a chance of both of you being caught

m; motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

teasing. he absolutely loves when you make the first move and you start to tease him. just your touch and your sweet words can make him hard in seconds

n; NO (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

hendery is pretty experimental so i see him being very open to try out anything he or his partner wants to do and for that reason i really don’t think there’s anything specific he absolutely would say no to

o; oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

loves both so much, i don’t think he can choose between tasting you or feel your mouth around him but when it comes to eating you out he knows exactly what he’s doing and what you like. there’s not one time that he won’t make you cum just with his tongue

p; pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

like i said before i think hendery is a very versatile guy and his partner's needs and wants are very important to him too so this aspect really depends on that. but i would say that his preference is rougher and faster sex. it’s definitely more exciting and fun for him that way so he tends to have that type of sex more often

q; quickie (their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

he is all for it, why not? he loves a challenge and he will take any opportunity to fuck you. i think he still prefers to have proper sex because it lasts longer and there’s a lot more he can do but quickies are exciting to him so he wouldn’t say no

r; risk (are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

yes, yes and yes. i think that’s an obvious answer considering everything i’ve already said. hendery is basically up for everything and is super experimental and loves to take risks. the thought of being caught and doing something you’re not supposed to be doing turns him on so much

s; stamina (how many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

i think most of the time sex with hendery would be only one round, except if he’s feeling extra horny that day or you beg very nicely for him to fuck you again. however i see him being able to have sex multiple times a day and he has the stamina for that. but one thing is for sure with him, sex doesn’t end until both of you are completely satisfied

t; toy (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

hendery loves the idea of using toys on you and if you’re in a relationship he would definitely have that talk with you and ask if that’s something you’re interested in and if he can buy some. he loves making you feel good, so the thought of you squirming as he uses a toy on you really turns him on but he would also really enjoy watching you use one on yourself, that’s for sure. i think he would be open to let you use one on him if you really wanted to try that but i don’t think that would be something he would ask himself

u; unfair (how much they like to tease)

in my opinion he likes when you tease him more than teasing you. but even tho he loves when you make the first move, he also really enjoys when you play hard to get and he has to resort to his teasing tactics to win you over and trust me, he’s a master at it

v; volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make)

hendery isn’t loud nor quiet. he simply doesn’t hold back and if he feels like moaning then he will, especially if his partner likes to hear him as well. he uses it to insantivate you as well when you’re the one taking over to show you how much he’s enjoying what you’re doing. he loves moaning or groaning in your ear because he knows how weak that gets you

w; wild card (get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

“where are you running to baby? i told you you have to stay still.” hendery looked up at you with the biggest smirk on his face knowing exactly that not moving was impossible for you. you whined as he tightened the grip on your thighs that were now straddling his head. “c’mon, i’m not done tasting you yet.” and right as he said that he was back at pulling your hips down, forcing you to sit on his face once again as you desperately tried to stay quiet, his tongue running between your folds, collecting every last bit of your wetness.

“kun-...” you didn’t even manage to say his whole name as a moan fell from your lips, the combination of his sweet lips on you and his hands exploring as much of your body as he could made your mind spiral, your hands involuntarily making their way to his hair, pulling on it and receiving a grunt from hendery in return.

“hm hurry up and cum on my tongue baby, i can't wait to fuck this pretty pussy."

x; x-ray (let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

in my opinion i think hendery is on the average size, let’s say the perfect size because it’s not too big to the point of hurting you but not too small to the point of not feeling that much. i think he’s circumcised and more on the thinner side but barely

y; yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

another obvious answer based on everything i’ve said so far but very high sex drive and it’s very easy to turn him on. i would say he’s able to have sex everyday if it comes to it and he can go multiple times a day

z; zzz (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

i would say pretty quickly if he’s really tired but he will make sure to clean up and check if you’re ok before dozing off. however i have a feeling that he can be a little less careful when it comes to one night stands and just fall asleep right after you’re done. he’s definitely the type to sleep over after a one night stand even if that was not the plan

[somerabbitholes]

Indian Non-Fiction

A list of books on India, almost all of which are by Indian writers; most of them are about history in one way or other but they also involve politics, culture, and religion. (Doesn’t include writing in Indian languages because most of my non-English reading has been limited to fiction). I’ve also added links to online editions for ones I found.

History

Pre-, Postcolonial India (+ other assorted history)

Land of Seven Rivers by Sanjeev Sanyal - looks at Indian history through its geography; great if you want an introduction. it’s a small book but has very interesting insights; definitely would recommend. Also check his Ocean of Churn, which looks at Indian history in terms of the Indian Ocean

The Lost River: On the Trail of the Sarasvati by Michel Danino - looks into the research and evidence on the existence of the Sarasvati river and makes a case for its existence

Hooghly: The Global History of a River by Robert Ivermee - about Hooghly as a centre of a trans-Asiatic and trans-oceanic commercial network

Indians: A Brief History of a Civilization by Namit Arora - what it says, it’s new and was well-received; it paints a holistic picture to start you off

Modern South India by Rajmohan Gandhi - this one’s new, and I’ve only barely read it. It’s the history of south India from the coming of the Portuguese to modern times and it’s really important because we don’t study about this or even talk about this in mainstream conversations

India Moving by Chinmay Tumbe - on migration within India and how migrants and migrations has shaped history, politics, and policy

The Courtesan, the Mahatma, and the Italian Brahmin by Manu Pillai - a selection of stories (real ones) from Indian history; very engagingly written and very, very interesting stories. Also check other works by Pillai - The Ivory Throne and Rebel Sultans. He also writes a regular column for the Mint

Panipat by Vishwas Patil - (a translation from Marathi) a history of the Battle at Panipat in 1761, which basically created a vacuum for the East India Company to step in and grab power; really expansive and highly detailed

Rama and Ayodhya by Meenakshi Jain - on the Ramayana and its cultural spread across Indian since the ancient times; also about the Ayodhya movement

Decolonizing the Hindu Mind by Koenraad Elst - lays down the ideological and intellectual development of the broad umbrella Hindu revivalist movement; really good starting point to understand the rise and development of a significant chunk of Indian politics in post-independence years; really straightforward work, very clear in its objectives

1962: the War that Wasn’t by Shiv Kunal Verma - on the Sino-Indian conflict in 1962; haven’t read it yet, but it’s supposed to be one of the best ones on the conflict

1971: A Global History of the Creation of Bangladesh by Srinath Raghavan - on the creation of Bangladesh; places the history in a Cold War context and includes all stakeholders like the US, China and Russia; has multiple layers to its narrative.The Most Dangerous Place by Srinath Raghavan - on American foreign policy in South Asia right from the earliest times.

Cricket Country by Prashant Kidambi - about how cricket took hold in colonial India and the making of the first all-India cricket team; super excited about this book, I added it to my list too

A Corner of a Foreign Field by Ramchandra Guha - on the growth of cricket in India; takes into account race, caste, and religion in pre- and postcolonial times; looks at how the sport was adapted in local cultures and how it became an expression of resistance

Himalaya: A Human History by Ed Douglas - basically what it says; very thorough and very fresh; about more than India because it takes Himalaya as a unit and so it’s really transnational in its approach

Colonial India

Plassey by Sudeep Chakravarti - a very detailed study of the Battle of Plassey which kicked off the colonial project in India

India’s War: World War II and the Making of Modern South Asia by Srinath Raghavan - on India’s involvement and contribution in World War II

An Era of Darkness by Shashi Tharoor - about the economic impact of the British Empire in India; highly elaborate and detailed work on the economic drain in India during colonisation

Goa Inquisition by A. K. Priolkar - about the Portuguese colonisation of Goa and the subsequent evangelical campaign by the Portuguese crown and the Roman church; very, very, thorough and great if you (like me) know nothing about the whole thing

Hicky’s Bengal Gazette by James Otis - on the development and running of India’s first English newspaper; a fun read because honestly the story of the paper is very dramatic and full of political/colonial gossip; also tells you a lot about the early ideas of free press in colonial India

Sati: Evangelicals, Baptist Missionaries, and the Changing Colonial Discourse by Meenakshi Jain - about the discourse on sati and the need for reform; reviews the idea of the abolition of sati being a progressive act

Castes of Mind by Nicholas Dirks - about the intersection of caste, race, and colonial knowledge and policy

Politics, Sociology, Commentaries

The Indian Trilogy by V. S. Naipaul - a semi-autobiographical work on the kind of civilisation Naipaul sees India to be; very, very honest; paints a picture of postcolonial India over the years. the trilogy includes An Area of Darkness, India: A Wounded Civilization, and India: A Million Mutinies Now. I’ve only read the first one; but I’ve heard and read great things about them all

Republic of Caste by Anand Teltumbde - about caste in post-Independence India; looks at political and policy-related developments and their impact on caste dynamics; sort of subaltern history; it is a little difficult to understand if you don’t already have some amount of knowledge on Indian politics; also a very academic work so not exactly easy to read - I’ve only read parts of it myself

Annihilation of Caste by Dr. B. R. Ambedkar - technically a speech that was never delivered because it was thought to be too explosive; argues that caste is rooted in oppression and for the complete destruction of the caste system; an excellent work, although you do need to know about caste in its religious and political terms. Really just read all of his writing (it’s an entire 14 volume set), they’re excellent and far ahead of their time

The Idea of India by Sunil Khilnani - an analysis of sorts of what pre-colonial and colonial society and the freedom struggle mean for the republic and the kind of nation-building that has happened.

A New India of India: Individual Rights in a Civilisational State by Harsh Madhusudan, Rajeev Mantri - rethinks the “idea of India”; traces cultural and historical legacy in making of modern politics, and explores how individual rights are reconciled with the state’s goals; great thing is that it takes a fresh look at things; perfect to be read after The Idea of India 

10 Judgements that Changed India by Zia Mody - recounts ten most important legal cases and court rulings in India; good starting point at understanding how the law works and its development

Republic of Religion by Abhinav Chandrachud - about secularism and religion in India in light of colonial rule, and its implications in postcolonial India

India Unbound by Gurcharan Das - it’s a history from the Independence to 2000 that focuses largely on the political economy and unpacks the kind of growth we’ve seen; it mixes the personal with the political/economic progress and it’s really easy to get into; best when read with his India Grows at Night

People

Kanshiram by Badri Narayan - a biography of Kanshi Ram, who pretty much laid the foundation of modern Dalit political movement in post-independence India; looks into how the movement developed under Kanshi Ram; a useful insight into both the man as well as early Dalit politics in India

Savarkar by Vikram Sampath - first part of a two-part biography (second part isn’t out yet) on V. D. Savarkar, one of India’s first revolutionary freedom fighter; looks at an insane variety of sources and highly detailed; a must read.

History Men by T. C. A. Raghavan - about the friendship of three of colonial India’s first native historians (Sir Jadunath Sarkar, G. S. Sardesai, Raghubir Sinh) and how they collaborated and supported each other in writing Indian history using scientific methods; also looks at their contributions to Indian history in general

Rammohun Roy by Amiya P. Sen - a biography of colonial India’s first social and religious reformers who reinterpreted Hinduism for modern times; very well-written, great for understanding how early reform worked out

Daughters of the Sun by Ira Mukhoty - about women in the Mughal dynasty. note that it only looks at women connected to and part of the royal household, but an interesting read nonetheless. Her other work, Heroines: Powerful Indian Women in Myth and History is a wonderful book on women in history right from the ancient times; also analyses and explains the changing perceptions of women

R. N. Kao: Gentleman Spymaster by Nitin Gokhale - really, really, really interesting book on R. N. Kao and the development of India’s espionage machinery

Art

Indian Art by Partha Mitter - a history, he’s one of the best on Indian art, very useful

The Dance of Shiva by Ananda Coomaraswamy - a collection of essays on Indian artistic tradition in aesthetic and philosophical terms

The Spirit of Indian Painting by B. N. Goswamy - specifically about painting; explores different themes in different regionals tyles; also check other books by Goswamy, he’s kind of a big deal in art history

Indian Painting: the Lesser Known Traditions by Anna Dallapiccola - pretty much what it says; takes into account a ton of styles and traditions that are lumped together ‘folk art’

Cities, Travel etc

The Great Indian Railway Bazaar by Paul Theroux - four-month journey from London to India by trains only; explores themes like colonialism, American imperialism, poverty. One of my favourites

The Epic City by Kushanava Chaudhary - memoir on Kolkata as the author explores and re-discovers the city when he comes back to it after staying in the US for most of his life; a lovely book, delves in the history of Kolkata a little in relation to how the city still feels it, how its people are still negotiating with it, and the kind of future the author sees for Kolkata

Bombay, Meri Jaan by Jerry Pinto & Naresh Fernandes - a collection of essays on Mumbai by a wide collection of people from Naipaul to Khushwant Singh to Manto and Salman Rushdie, compiled by Jerry Pinto; one of my favourites on the city

No Full Stops in India by Mark Tully - writings from when Tully was a journalist in India; commentaries on things he witnesses, also includes a fair amount of personal involvement; explores poverty, postcolonial development, religion and culture in post-independence India

Mumbai Fables by Gyan Prakash - a history of Mumbai city; looks at colonisation, industrial development, the regional politics, architecture and art, as well as the underworld/mafia

Banaras by Diana L. Eck - on Varanasi (Banaras), probably India’s holiest city; tells its history from its conception to now; blends religion, mythology, politics, and history. Also check Eck’s India: A Sacred Geography

The City of Djinns by William Dalrymple - semi-autobiography about living in Delhi; looks at the legacies of independence and partition while thinking about its past

The Book of Indian Journeys by Dom Moraes - it’s an anthology of essays and excerpts from works of a bunch of writers on travelling in India, it’s a favourite when I’m travelling

This is not exhaustive and I will keep updating when I find the time. I’ve tried to keep it diverse (and organised) in its content; hope you find something you like :)

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Last chances

Pairing: George Weasley x reader Warning: Alcohol, swearing, angst (but worth it i promise) Summary: Y/N is getting married. To someone that isn’t George. 

A/N: this was written for @inglourious-imagines​​ 1K writing challenge (i just realised i didnt tell you before hand what prompts i was gonna do so i hope thats okay) based off the prompts ‘you need to leave’ and ‘d-did you just k-kiss me?’

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George felt all the air being sucked out of his lungs as he read over the golden cursive words printed onto the crisp white paper. He could feel Fred’s pitiful stare burning holes into the side of his head, but he couldn’t tear his eyes away from the paper in his grasp. George’s brain was overflowing with thoughts, but his head was empty at the same time, as if every time he reached out his thoughts were dissolving into liquid and slipping through his fingers.

By the time George managed to make eye contact with Fred, his eyes were red and burning with tears, the only thought he could wrap his fingers around was the one which was destroying him the most, “she’s getting married?”

~~~

The sun was beating down harshly making the sand feel like tiny grains of lava, but George didn’t care. It was the middle of summer and the Weasley family had invited the Y/L/N’s to the beach. John and Nancy Y/L/N had been very good friends with Molly and Arthur Weasley for many years having met during high school. But soon after graduation John and Nancy got married and decided to travel the world which they had done for a few years before having their daughter Y/N. They moved around a lot while Y/N was a baby, still wanting to explore and see what the world had to offer. But now, Y/N was 7 and they decided it would do her and themselves some good to settle down somewhere, plant some roots so to speak. Which is how they ended back in the small town John and Nancy grew up in, the one where the Weasleys were still living.

Giving that it was summer, and the weather was reaching high temperatures the Weasley family decided to spend the day at the beach so the children could kill some energy and excitedly invited their old friends, John and Nancy to catch up.

George was particularly thrilled not only because he loved days at the beach playing with his siblings and making sandcastles just to pretend he was a giant and stomp on them, but he couldn’t wait to meet Y/N. His parents had told him and Fred that Y/N was their age and although Fred wasn’t very interested in playing with a girl and would much rather prank Ron, George had a good feeling about Y/N.

George had just finished constructing a sandcastle he named ‘Castle Weasley’ and was about to jump on it when his mum calls for him. He drags his bare feet through the hot sand over to his parents who are chatting with 2 people he doesn’t recognise.

“Fred, George this is John and Nancy, and this is their little girl Y/N.” Molly gestures to the timid girl hiding behind her mum’s leg.

Reluctantly Y/N moves from her previous hiding spot and stares doe eyes up at the twins in front of her. George’s mouth is dry and his palms are clammy, but he doesn’t think it’s from the blistering heat. George Weasley is staring at the most beautiful girl he’s ever seen.

~~~

It’s been 3 weeks since Y/N’s wedding invitation arrived in the mail and George had shoved it under a pile of bills he was also planning to ignore. Although he doesn’t need to see the invitations to remember the words which were written on the paper ‘kindly join us for the wedding of Y/N L/N and William Chapman. Saturday the seventeenth of April at 11 o’clock.’

It was the 10th of April today, just 7 days till Y/N’s wedding. George felt bile rising in the back of his throat every time he thinks about Y/N marrying someone which wasn’t himself. George has had a crush on the girl ever since he first met her that day on the beach. Back then he only ever saw it as a silly little crush which he hoped he’d eventually get over. But years went on and his crush only grew and grew until it was suffocating. When they reached high school, George planned to tell Y/N about his feelings but chickened out each time, scared of ruining their friendship.

To be honest George always felt (maybe he just hoped) that him and Y/N were meant for each other and sooner or later they’d be together. He held tightly onto this when Y/N started dating William. George was optimistic that William and Y/N’s relationship wasn’t serious and eventually they’d break up and George could finally confess his feelings. All of that went down the drain the second George open up that stupid envelope.

“I ran into Y/N today. At the store,” Fred says carefully trying to gage his brother’s reaction to her name. George just offers a grunt in response, eye staring blankly at the tv in front of him. “she asked about you, wants to know if you’re going to the wedding since she hasn’t heard anything from you.”

George doesn’t reply. Fred just sighs, ”c’mon mate. You’re really not going to go? It’s Y/N we’re talking about here. She’s your best mate.”

George racks his ringers through his already messy hair, squeezing his eyes closed. “That’s exactly why I can’t go. It’s Y/N. How can I sit there and watch Y/N marry some other guy and pretend I’m okay with it?” George feels tears threatening to fall down his cheeks, it’s a wonder he has any tears left to cry.

Fred moves closer to George on the couch, wrapping his arm around his twin who chokes out a sob, “I know buddy, I know it fucking hurts.”

~~~

Since graduating high school George and Y/N made it tradition to catch up once a week if not more so they wouldn’t lose touch. But their newfound busy lives with university and work meant they hadn’t seen each other for a month. They finally found a day that they were both free and decided to meet up for coffee. George had paid for Y/N’s latte while she found them a table by the window. He set their drinks down admiring how beautiful Y/N looked, she was practically glowing.

“So, Y/N what’s new with you? I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve seen you,” George takes a long sip of his coffee.

George knows Y/N must have some important news for him, judging solely off the smile that she’s failing to conceal. “Well, if you must know. I met someone.”

The colour drains from George’s face and he coughs trying to regain his composure. “Like a boy?”

“Yes a boy silly, his name is William and I met him at the library. It was actually really funny I was turning down one of the aisles and he” George drowns out Y/N’s voice, he can hear his heart thumping in his chest, threatening to jump out.

George knows, he knows it’s his own fault for not telling Y/N how he feels sooner. He knows he doesn’t have anyone else to blame but himself, but it doesn’t make this hurt any less. Sweet, kind Y/N, who had gently cradled George’s heart unknowingly since they were 7, has squeezed it between her slender fingers like a stress ball.

“George?” Y/N words break him from his trance.

“That sounds amazing Y/N, I’m really happy for you.”

~~~

It’s Monday and Y/N has been trying to contact George for days with no luck. She ran into Fred last Saturday who said George has just been super busy with work, she didn’t believe it one bit, she needed to find out why George has been ignoring her.

She pushes the store door open and the bell above chimes announcing her arrival.

“Sorry we’re closed for the day!” a voice travels through the store before it’s owner exits the storeroom to see who the culprit is, who clearly cannot read the ‘closed’ sign hanging on the door.

George’s eyes land on Y/N who is standing by the front door unmoving and twiddling with her fingers, playing with an engagement ring that seems out of place on her left hand. “What are you doing here?”

Y/N steps closer, not noticing the way George takes a small step back, “I feel like I haven’t seen you in forever.”

George doesn’t speak, he’s certain that his voice would be unsteady if he did. Y/N hates the silence, so speaks again, “I’m getting married you know, on Saturday.”

George sucks in a breath, turning his back to fix one of the displays. “Yeah, congratulations,” he mumbles.

“I didn’t know if you got the invitation or not, kind of expected you to call.” Y/N shoves her hands into the pockets of her jeans, moving so she is standing beside George who is avoiding her gaze. “What’s the matter Georgie?”

George shakes his head, “kind of fast isn’t it? Why the rush to get married to that twat?”

Y/N rolls her eyes, ever since George met William, he made it very clear he didn’t like the bloke. “George stop it. He proposed and I said yes. We figured why wait to start our lives together, y’know? So on Saturday I thought that-“

“-I’m not going.” George’s words felt like a hot knife to Y/N’s chest. When George finally mets her gaze he continues, “I’m not going to the wedding Y/N.”

“Why?”

“Because! Because William is a prick and doesn’t deserve you. I can’t sit there and watch you marry some idiot.” George knows his voice is getting louder and that his hands are flailing around but he doesn’t care. “He’s an absolute tosser! You deserve better than William.” You deserve me.

“William has done nothing but love me, George.” The thought of George not being there at her wedding breaks her heart. George was her best friend; how could she not have her best friend at the wedding. “Are you really not going to be there for me?” Y/N’s voice is quiet and timid.

It shatters George to see her so upset and the next words almost kill him.

“No, I won’t be there.”

~~~

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“Okay mum that’s enough photos now!” Y/N giggles trying to hide her face behind her hands.

“Just one more please! George put your arm around her this time.” Nancy says holding the camera up to her face.

George wraps his arm around Y/N waist pulling her closer to him very aware of the way Y/N leans into his side. It’s the night on the school dance and somehow he had gathered enough courage to ask Y/N to go with him, she agreed of course and now they were standing out the front of Y/N’s house in front of the rose bushes while Y/N and George’s parents took photos.

“Okay now one with the four of you together,” Molly says pushing Fred and his date over to the rose bush. The four of them stood together smiling at all the flashing cameras which almost blinded them.

Molly wipes a tear that slips down her cheek, she always got emotional during things like this, “I cannot believe my little babies are growing up. 16 and going to a school dance with their gorgeous dates.”

“Right mum that’s enough, we’re gonna be late,” George groans although he didn’t mind having his arm around Y/N’s middle.

Molly nods agreeing, “right fine! Don’t want to keep you from your dance, have fun!”

Arthur drops the 4 of them off at the school hall reminding them he’d be back at 12 to pick them up.

All 4 of them spend most of the night dancing together and laughing at Fred’s questionable dance moves. Soon the upbeat song comes to an end and a much slowly one started playing. Immediately Fred extends a hand to his date, “m’lady. Care to dance?”

George turns his body to face Y/N who is gazing up at his tall frame, he gulps “Y/N do you wanna dance with me?”

The smile that spreads across her face could light up the room, “yes please.”

For the remainder of the night George and Y/N sway slowly to the music, Y/N moves closer to George until her head is resting against his chest and his arms find their place on her hips.

Y/N can hear George humming to the music above her and she smiles giving his shoulders a small squeeze, then whispers so quietly she’s worried George doesn’t hear her. “I hope we are always best friends Georgie.”

“I promise we will be love.”

~~~

Friday night and George hasn’t spoken to Y/N since she visited the shop. He’s ignored her phone calls and text messages; she came into the shop again on Wednesday, but George locked himself in the backroom telling Fred he had to do stocktake.

George could feel himself falling apart, Y/N was upset with him, Fred was annoyed at his childish behaviour. George felt himself fall deeper and deeper as his heartache and sorrow grew stronger every time he remembered Y/N’s engagement. The only thing which seems to numb his feelings was the alcohol.

At this point George wasn’t sure how much he had had to drink, but the buzz running through his system was better than the bitterness he was feeling before. It had just hit 11:30pm at night and he had finished the last of the tequila from the bottle. With no alcohol to distract his brain his eyes drift over the numerous photo frames he has hanging on the living room wall. His eyes stop at one photo in particular, it’s of him and Y/N from the day at the beach when they were 7. Despite it being the first time the two had met, they looked like they’d known each other since birth. Y/N had been very shy when she was introduced to the twins, but George quickly made her feel comfortable and the day was spent with lots of laughter and smiles. In the photo George and Y/N are stood side by side on the sand, grinning up at the camera. They had just made a huge sandcastle village and were very proud to show off their creation. George’s eyes wander down the photograph to their hands which are tightly intertwined. He bites his lip before stumbling out the front door.

~~~

“Do you ever think about getting married Georgie?” Y/N questions, she’s lying beside George outside on the grass, staring up at the clouds moving above them. They did this a lot, gazing at the sky trying to find the funniest shapes in the clouds.

George is only 12 but he knows exactly who he wants to marry, not that he will admit that.

“No, not really.” George tries not to freak out when he feels Y/N’s hand intertwine with his own, “do you?”

Y/N nods, “yep, I want to marry someone who is funny and will let me eat ice cream for dinner.” She giggles and it makes George’s heart soar, it the 5 years of knowing Y/N it had quickly become George’s favourite sound.

He turns his head to face Y/N, she’s still looking up at the sky, there’s a faint smile on her lips.

“I’m funny.” George isn’t sure what he’s insinuating.

Y/N turns to face him, “you are. Would you let me eat ice cream for dinner?” he nods eagerly.

Y/N purses her lips before smiling, “well then Georgie, maybe I’ll marry you.”

George can only hope that’s true.

~~~

George’s fist hammers against the wooden door. It knows it late and there’s a chance William will answer instead of Y/N but in this moment he doesn’t care. “C’mon Y/N open up! It’s me George.”

The door swings open and Y/N is standing on the other side in a fluffy dressing gown wrapped snuggly around her body rubbing her eyes. “George what the hell are you doing here?” There’s a trace of annoying on her voice, mostly because he’d woken her up but also because she’s been trying to talk to him all week and he decides to show up at her house at midnight the night before her wedding.

“I-um,” George stammers, his words getting stuck in this throat. He has spent practically his whole life wanting to tell Y/N he loves her but never being able to find the words, this time was no exception. So, in George’s alcohol fuelled mind he decides if he can’t use words then actions are the next best thing.

Y/N is staring blanking at the redhead on her porch, eager to know the reason why he’s standing in front of her after ignoring her all week. George timidly steps closer towards Y/N before resting his hands on her cheeks and pressing their lips together roughly.

Y/N is stood frozen on the spot until her hands reach up to rest on George’s chest. She can taste the strong alcohol on Georges mouth, and she’s pulled back to reality and pushing him away. “D-did you just k-kiss me?”

George nods.

Y/N is filled with anger and it starts to bubble up inside of her. “What the fuck George? You’ve been ignoring me all week not answering my calls or texts and-and then you just come here drunk and do that? You can’t come here the night before my wedding and kiss me. It’s not fair!”

George’s shoulders slump, “I’m sorry, I just had to say- that I…” he pauses again, his eyes scanning over Y/N’s face hoping somehow she’s learnt how to mind read.

“What? You had to say what George?” Y/N is aware that she’s yelling but she can’t bring herself to care.

“That I love you.”

Y/N doesn’t speak her brain is running a hundred miles a minute. The silence is unpleasant and unbearable, George looking into Y/N’s eyes trying to read her expression.

“You need to leave,” Y/N utters, her face unmoving.

It’s like George’s feet are glued to the ground, he’s brain is screaming at him to move but he can’t.

“You need to leave George.” Y/N’s voice is firmer this time, “I’m getting married tomorrow and you need to leave right now.”

~~~

George Weasley is an idiot. No, he’s more than an idiot, George Weasley is a dickhead, plain and simple.

He hadn’t been able to fall asleep when he got home, he kept replaying the night over and over. Every time he closed his eyes, he was met with Y/N staring back at him. Except she’s staring with so much disgust it makes George feel sick, he can still hear Y/N’s voice telling him to leave. George Weasley not only managed to lose the life of his life in one night but also his best friend. He feels like a dickhead.

George glances over at the clock next to his bed. 10:30 am. Y/N is getting married in 30 minutes. His chest pains, he thinks he might throw up.

George staggers out of bed and towards the kitchen, he needs water. His journey is interrupted by a harsh knock from the front door. He sighs, he knew Fred would come around to try and convince him to go to the wedding. George figures he couldn’t go to the wedding even if he wanted to, sure that his invitation was no longer valid after last night.

“Fred, seriously I’m not going,” George flings open the door and he almost passes out.

Y/N was standing there looking like an angel, he thinks maybe he died from alcohol poisoning and was actually in heaven. Y/N’s hair was laying loosely across her shoulders, she was wearing a breathtaking white gown which hugged her body perfectly.

George mouth is gaping open his voice coming out breathless and in a whisper, “what-what are you doing here?” He’s half expecting Y/N to slap him across the face for his antics last night.

“I couldn’t do it,” Y/N also whispers, as if this is a secret conversation, only meant for the two of them.

“Why?” George squeaks.

“Because I love you.”

Y/N steps closer and drapes her arms around George’s neck pulling him closer so their foreheads are resting against each other.

As soon as she woke up this morning Y/N felt ill. It wasn’t until she was standing in her wedding dress by the church did she realise why she felt sick. It was because the man that was waiting for her inside the church wasn’t George. Her mum sensed her daughters doubts and offered a comforting hand on her shoulder, “darling, you tell me right now if you want out. I’ll get a car, I’ll sort out this whole thing, you won’t have to worry about a thing.”

Without thinking Y/N had responded, “I want out mum.” That lead to Y/N zooming away in her dad’s car straight for George’s place.

Y/N gazes into George’s warm and gentle eyes, she felt home, “I love you even though you’re an idiot who waited to tell me you loved me till the night before my wedding to someone else.”

George chuckles, “yeah I guess I am but I’m your idiot.”