#Just very tired and run down
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If Man-Bat likes you, prepare to have your personal space disrespected! Vampire bats are very social, often snuggling up close to other members of their kind and even initiating grooming as part of social bonding. Man-Bat might rest his head on your shoulders, lean against you, even go as far as licking your hair if it looks very messy and out of place. It can be quite uncomfortable, especially in summer given his high body temperature.
#🦇 || musings#🦇 || headcanons#I think I sent out all the aks today!#I don't think I did a very good job as my brain fizzled out at some point#Definitely not feeling well and work granted me a little time off this week#The rest of my hours will be normal at 8pm to 12am but will go back to full time starting Monday#Just very tired and run down#I hope people like their asks anyhow and please don't feel obliged to answer!#I can always send something different if the first doesn't work#Felt like writing a smol quickly bc Man-Bat can be VERY grabby#He'll think nothing of pulling you in and fixing your messy hair#No doubt making it even messier but at least you're clean now! :)#He can be pretty annoying when not being scary lmao
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Just a bit of lore relevant vent art (with terrible proportions bc apparently I mess that up horribly when I'm tired ugh. Watch me regret posting this tomorrow. The head size is already driving me mad bc it's too big, and I can feel myself wanting to abort this mission already) of Mourynn just, lying down on top of one of those large elevated Pale Tree roots far above the Grove (and far away from everyone else), and during the time between the early years and before the Personal story. Caithe is gone (Destiny's Edge), Wynne is gone (bc well, y'know...), even Faolain is gone (bc of Caithe in DE), and she's just feeling miserable, lost, and alone. (Her hair is in between her sapling hair and the Zhaitan hair, so it's grown out a bit bc she's depressed, and she's meant to be in the new outfit she designed, but I'm in the process of redesigning it a bit, so I've made a few tentative changes for now. Her collar is now just an extension of her clavicle leaves which can be put up like a collar, or can be draped down over her shoulders or back)
#gw2#sylvari#artgallery#mourynn#mourynn art#I've just been so tired lately bc of work#also just going a bit stir crazy with the silence (lonely; but alas I unfortunately suck at starting convos bc I have nothing interesting t#talk about and work has been draining my social energy; making it even harder :( (I'd rather burn the social energy with friends yknow?)#it's getting a wee bit better; but I haven't had much time or energy to even game while we're in the midst of our busiest season :(#I miss hanging out and chatting with my buds; but the universe insists on keeping us apart :(#just miss having something to look forward to throughout my day. Been trying to fill it with other things; but the depresso is overriding i#Mostly just been me with my thoughts and that is just bad bc I got so many horrors in there lmao.#I wanna at the very least; draw more or game more to distract from it; but work is sapping all my time and energy from it.#but also it's very quiet on my end and it's kicking my overthinking into overdrive so I#Ive just been fighting with my mind lately lmao#hopefully this will all pass soon so I won't obsessively keep thinking about it loll#lol I'd post this in the servers but it's vent art so it feels a bit weird to do; so it's going straight to home video w/o a theater releas#hopefully once work calms down it'll help#(I have so many long shifts makes me so frustrated bc I hate them and I run out of steam half way through)#other than all that I'm doing fine lol. My brain's always been like this; But I usually only get like this during the winter season#(bc of the holidays making everything quiet and also the SAD) so it feels weird having this exact same feeling happen to me in July lol
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i think a big thing people get wrong w leafpool’s character is thinking her passivity comes from like fear or insecurity or being shy or something when really it comes from like. defeat. she’s been burned so many times so now she just accepts it there’s no point in fighting back
#learned helplessness#in tnp she’s very much like a rulebreaker and kind of a little shit lol#she likes going out on her own and making friends with cats from other clans and getting involved in things cuz she’s bored#she’s rebellious and craves having deep connections with others which is why being a medicine cat starts to weight on her and makes her#impulsively decide to run away with crow#esp because she’s also watching her best friend sorreltail grow up and move on. and she’s watching her sister grow up and move on#AND SHE FEELS STUCK SHES LIKE OH. BUT THIS IS IT FOR ME ISNT IT?#so she just reacts she needs to get away!! and then everything comes crashing down and she spends the rest of her life getting punished for#that choice#which slowly crushes her fire and teaches her that her desire for something ‘more’ was never going to work out#and she’s too tired to keep fighting so she accepts that#but she’s miserable about it and this misery makes her even more exhausted#so then she just kinda ends up numb#there’s no point!#SHES SO INTERESTING TO ME AAAAAUUUUGHHHHHHH it’s been so long since i’ve rambled about leafpool….. my girl……
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kissing picrew because I like it a lot U_U
#fnafhs#I FORGOT TO MAKE THE WHITE PEOPLE WHITE AND NOW LOON AND EAK LOOK WHITE <- what a sentence#HAISGHAOSIG curse of picrew skintoness... RED LOOKS SO VAMPIRIC LMAO#i am an eaktrap shipper but in an inherently doomed way#in a way where i hope town gets run over#germaphobe when kissing or holding hands or general touching#+ “LOVE LOSES” is so fucking funny#imagine the blood on loowyn is yellow i did nawt wanna edit it#owynn has a thing where he just insantly gut reaction bites down#his stupid thing where everyone is against him + being vulnerable like that ends up in just: chomp#i would have made chica and golden but i got tired of editing chicas hair god bless#fox with his dumbass rat is very funny to me. Boy put him away not the time#fnafhs posting
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I always get detained at da border because PROFUNC never ended but basically I'm like if a targeted individual didn't even care
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#feeling very defeated#changing meds so depression and suicidal ideation are raging#fat‚ ugly‚ losing my hair#chronic pain and pcos constantly reminding me that i'll never look or feel how i want to#plus the inability to function normally in society which have made it hard to work steadily#and that lack of funds has lead to its own set of issues#but the PC my roommate handed down to be fried yesterday and the project i had been working on is currently unreachable#back to using my old laptop and it runs like shit#i'm just. i'm tired. i'm so very tired#but i made my promises to not kill myself so. prepare to read my vent posts‚ boy
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For anyone confused why the BH are mad at Ashton and feel betrayed it’s because he lied to all of them and almost died -actually did die twice. And because the group does love them, and had to watch them die and suffer for a whole minute*.
Also Laudna has a lot of trauma, from all the bullying, to the being invited to a nice dinner and being brutally murdered, all the abuse from the evil necromancer in her head -probably more the after 2. Having to deal with whatever horrors the past 30 year have brought her. The past few months being just a lot. Healing and recovery are not often linear, and regression happens -especially after being thrust into an intense situation in the place of one of your greatest traumas and the return of your worst abuser.
On short everyone’s really in their emotions because things weren’t properly communicated and then there was unexpected grave danger.
*Meta imo this is compounded watching a player make effectively death saved for ten rounds like I try not too read into things too much but imo it played at least a small role in nailing down the feeling of “why did you do that?! Wtf?! You’re ours! You can’t lie and then die! FFS!!!���
#critical role#Listen this is mostly to people on other sites#Bc I’m tired of trying there I’m just gonna make this#PS: Chet is a petty vengeance creature so he was always gonna react very harsh.#also it took them a minute to realize how Fearne was involved and idk#she tried to tell the group at least. also they did get mad at her too she just left#Chet is too fond of her too be *that* mad imo#and Imogen and FCG were basically running damage control#(Orym [player absent] well have to see when he opens up)#(if he does he Ihhh try to shove that back down idk)
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How do you think jason would feel if the joker died in some random accident?
Okay, I had to think about this ngl.
He would definitely have mixed feelings about this.
Firstly, having the Joker dead is a positive, obviously. He could finally allow himself to be happy. Happy the Joker can’t terrorize anyone anymore and happy that he can finally live in peace without the constant dread that the joker is looming over him.
On the other hand, this complicates matters with the family. We know how much Bruce killing Joker would mean to him. Bruce killing Joker is killing his son’s murderer (ofc) but it’s also proving to Jason that Bruce did care about him and did love him. Because right now Jason thinks that his death was not enough and that he himself was not enough for Bruce to kill the Joker. In my mind, Jason lets himself get close because of the hope he has that Bruce still can fix his mistake ie killing Joker. But once Joker dies randomly, that hope is gone and then it truly is clear that Bruce didn’t care or love Jason enough to break his moral code. This kind of reminds me of the cycle of abuse and how abuse victims will stay with their abusers because of the hope they have that things will get better.
Then there’s also the fact that Jason himself deserves to beat the living shit out of Joker and watch as Joker dies under his hands. It would be very gratifying and therapeutic for him (and the readers, in my opinion)
Ultimately though I feel that Jason would be glad because now The monster is gone for good and there are much more positives because of that.
This is excluding the joker war and any possibility of there being different jokers because that’s just ridiculous
#Dc is always ridiculous though tbh#I’m sorry but the whole multiple jokers thing is just ridiculous#like I get that DC can’t permanently kill off a major villain#but this is just so tiring#And just after everything Joker has done.. he definitely deserves to die#Jason: I’m going to kill him!!#Bruce: NO! WHO ARE YOU TO DECIDE??!#Jason: HE DESERVES TO DIE >:(#Joker: Joke’s on you I’ll never die#I’ll be honest I like Joker as a character :/#like there’s a reason there are movies about him#He’s cool in a strange maniacal way#Imagine he dies like Eleanor from The Good Place-#like man just bends down and gets run over by a shopping cart 😭😂#That would be amazing#Thank you for the ask!#it was very nice to think about this/gen#red hood#jason todd#batfamily#batman#Joker#bruce wayne#dc#dc comics#character analysis#tw abuse mention#feel free to ask#oh shit I reached the 30 tags max#Red rambles
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thought of an au where angie doesn't die and has a baby with a guy who actually loves and cherishes her and mark gets to be an uncle and felt so nauseous i almost blacked out
#put this fucker into a room with his very tired but very happy sister and let him hold a tiny baby in his big clumsy hands#instantly feeling absolutely crushing love for the tiniest living thing he ever held. terrified of dropping her or holding her too tight#reminded of how he held angelina when she was a baby (12 years hoffman siblings age difference save me). tears running down his face#yet when angie asks if he's okay he just looks at her with the smile so wide it must hurt his face and says that the baby has her eyes.#im so normal about this#can you tell im gonna become an uncle soon and is projecting wildly? no you cant#saw#mark hoffman#daneil made
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hello upper middle class northern usamerican tumblr user. i want to play a game. you will notice that you are in a super america convenience store in rural kentucky - you have three minutes to purchase a snack and drink of your choice and make normal small talk with the cashier. however, if you use the word "cryptid" or generally make reference to appalachia and its inhabitants as "wild", uncivilized, or lacking restraint around alcoholic beverages during your time here, i will personally tie you to the chassis of a four wheeler and tip it into the river. live or die. make your choice
#speak friend and enter#i can appreciate mothman as much as the next guy but can we stop treating appalachia like it's the subject of a richard attenborough doc#i come from a long line of hillbillies and i like to think i've got a good sense of humor about it but sometimes i am tested#like. this is not a lawless land with a moonshine still in every holler and nameless voices in the woods!! this is a normal town!!#idk maybe i'm reading too much into it but i'm just tired of the cultural fetishization of appalachia by people who aren't from here#and who don't know anything about it. like yeah you know mothman and what hooch is and that's all well and good#but do you know what the opioid epidemic really is. do you know about the structural injustices that keep people like mcconnell in power#i'm not saying you have to apply dialectical political analysis to every issue that occurs in the region to be able to have an opinion#but also like. i'm tired of people looking at places like where i grew up and making them into things they aren't#like. on the one hand we have ''ooh spooky hills!! run if you hear the trees whisper your name''#and on the other we've got ''isn't appalachia so depressing...so hashtag ethel cain core...shame it's got no value beyond aesthetics''#and on yet another hand we have ''i - a person with no ties to the region - am going to take up the cause of every social issue#occurring across the entire appalachian region so the world will see just how bad these poor hill people have it. i am very smart''#and like. it's frustrating#i'm not saying you should never speak about appalachia if something we have is interesting to you#nor am i implying that i want to gatekeep discussion of the region's issues to the community bc that won't accomplish anything#i'm just saying that like any place it's complex. it's got its good things and it's got its bad things.#and you shouldn't isolate the good from the bad or vice versa - especially if you don't know the context in which those things happen.#and for the love of god dont let your own ignorance cause you to boil down those issues into a reductive and inaccurate set of stereotypes#learn about us from us. not from tiktok not from movies and for christ's sake not from hillbilly elegy. i hate that fucking book#anyway that got weirdly serious but i mean it. putting appalachia as a talking point up on the shelf until y'all can speak intelligently#ok to rb
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#like look obviously the narrative that ~wah no one loves fitz~ is stupid he is so very very loved by so many people#but hes taught himself that if theres a part of him others dont like or if someone can use him#then their love for him might as well not exist#and thats how most people love. it's not wrong.#he just thinks it is because hes used to being treated as an item by everyone who doesnt love him unconditionally#up to his adulthood the only person who did ever seem to love him unconditionally was patience#so he made sure to take away from her the opportunity to see something in him she'd find repulsive#--like the wit--because she didnt have the chance to fully know him#which sucks because patience is the best person in the whole series#if he'd like her know him she'd love him all the same#anyway where im going with this is after the accidental... skill coupling??#and understanding for sure and for real there is no part of him that beloved does not know and does not love anyway#that despite his love of the world in general beloved is only continuing to use him as his catalyst because it's the only way fitz lives#(the fool weeping with makeup running down his face saying he doesnt want to be a prophet he wants this to end#but he cannot watch fitz die again had ME weeping)#ANYWAY that all scared fitz shitless#'it's too much. no one can give that much' is just. devastating to me for both of them#fitz because he still cannot see himself as worthy of being loved and not used#and beloved because all he does is get shit on for what fitz demands of him#I'm so tired#and fitz has yet to notice it was the fool making sure he had food/water/fire in the tower even when they were fighting#because unconditional is unconditional. not liking at that moment is not not loving#i hate it here#also fitz violently breaking the skill connection because 'he would know my secret. he would see my deception' is absolutely crazy#repression go brr#says kenna#kenna reads rote#ALSO when the coterie was healing him and he was begging beloved through skill to not look at his heart or his mind#what the hell!!#one flesh one end bitch!!
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my s/i for h.aar is a fellow wyvern rider and soldier, has a pet wyvern named olive that she loves dearly. for many many years, ash has been tying red ribbons into bows on olive's horns so that, even when they're in battle, olive can look super cute!
however, as ash and h.aar grow closer, so do their wyverns! eventually h.aar's wyvern (who I call damien) starts nudging and softly growling at ash because he wants ribbons too!!! he wants to match with olive!!!
#ash rambles 💚#i showed you my wyvern please respond 💤#i just think it's sooo cute!#ash has a bit of a thing for wyverns ajsjajsj theyre her favorite thing ever! shes usually a bit serious but shes always smiling when#shes talking to olive. it's what makes h.aar go 'oh. goodness. she isnt just sexy soldier lady. shes cute girl that makes me happy'#love is stored in your massive pet wyvern#in the future ash and h.aar get married and settle down on the countryside! they never pick up weapons again. ever.#they run that same cargo business h.aar has in game + they raise baby wyverns! they never have any children of their own#(ash teases and says that any children from h.aar will be ugly and sleepy like he is but it's a mutual agreement to not have any)#theyre very happy together with olive damien and their wyvern baby#idk it's just such a cute life!!! I'm so happy for them! theyre both so tired of war and I'm glad they get to live faaar away from it#but back to the og point of this post. massive wyvern with cute ribbons!!!#it's very therapeutic to ash to be able to climb olive pet her + talk to her + tie her ribbons#shes been with olive since she was in her late teens-early 20s#(shes just a little younger than h.aar so in her early-mid 30s in-game)#i have three t.ellius s/is! my t.ibarn one is a fierce queen of the hawks who leads her people with pride#the wyvern-obsessed beorc that we see here#and. of course. m.uarim has the black cat laguz that likes climbing things and goes meow meow and purrs if you pet her ^._.^#okay i think thats it akdjajsjs ive rambled enough for one post
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now m just thinking abt trans woman lucifer and how it just fits and makes me feel so many things.
#oiuuhghh lucifer has always got to be my favorite character trope? in media.#always got a soft spot for em (except supernatural’s. gross)#me holding my two Lucifer coded ocs and giggling gleefully#not obey me lucifer. like Bible lucifer. I’m agnostic bordering very much atheist so the Bible really is just a fun little fantasy book 2 me#just taking the basis of the story and running with it and making him a sympathetic character.#however I still do got anxiety though. when I end up meeting the real thing#n he’s atrocious and awful and laughing at me. sorry for making little guys and using ur lore for inspo 🙄🙄🙄🙄 suck my dick#doesn’t he technically still work for god though….. I thought u hated the guy………anyway.#tags ended up completely unrelated to the post I’m just thinking thoughts.#there’s actual real like. introspection or whatever into it but I’m too tired to think articulate thoughts.#mammon is my nonbinary lesbian girlboyfriend. nonbinary lesbian 4 nonbinary lesbian W#beel is trans 2 me…. belphie is Agender or smth. I’m projecting on tht one leave me alone#Ik it’s very basic but I do really like genderfluid asmo#I gotta write shit down someday#I do also like agender lucifer (projecting again)
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Ummmm it doesnt matter that character ages were removed from the Sonic character profiles they do still have their old canon ages and if you think that actualllyyyyy they never acted or sounded like those ages then youre a creep looking for excuses to put them in adult situations :/ Like thats child endangerment that you're depicting there??? Why do you wanna see that blorbo of yours beaten and bloodied and traumatized??? You ACTUALLY wanna beat up kids? You freak??
And why are you drawing him driving a fucking car he should not be driving a car he's a child! And STOP drawing Shadow with guns!!! Children shouldn't have those!
And while you're at it, stop drawing art of Amy working at a bakery! Like wow what a freak you actually want to break child labor laws in real life???
I know plenty of 12 year olds that own apartments and cars of their own, so I can confirm that these characters were always ALWAYS meant to be their previously listed canon ages! If you say otherwise youre a freak!
(This is Not a serious post, for the love of god)
#Personal#Am I going thru it tonight? Yes I am! Did something become the final drop that spilled the water? YES IT DIIID. AND THE FIRST THING WASNT E#EVEN RELATED TO THIS MESS#Im fucking tired im TIRED#I dont like nsfw! Guess what I do? I dont fucking look at it#I dont go digging up some VERY SERIOUS ACCUSATIONS to throw at people instead!#Fucking separate fiction from reality do you people realize that#1- You have watered down a very dangerous word that no longer means anything#Am I seeing a serious accusation of someone or am I seeing someone thats basically going 'i dont like what they draw/write' and trying to t#turn it into a moral issue? I dont know!#And guess who that fucking benefits because it sure isnt the kids?#2- Yall are one degree of separation from evangelical purists and that one degree is the name#Because guess who else goes 'THIS IS BAD FOR THE CHILDREN' and 'THESE QUEER TERMS ARE BAD' (and not im not talking about top and bottom)#Im going fucking insane I feel like in a few years this post wont even be that much of a parody#I feel like we will indeed get a repeat of 'Stop drawing these characters doing flips off buildings or running in front of trucks! The chi#The children will be inspired to do the same!' times#And people Still wont see the parallels between themselves and very very dangerous hateful people#(And no the dangerous person isn't the one drawing your NOTP or the thing that squicks you out. Perfectly tagged for you to avoid it. But y#you wont. Because you'd rather go out of your way to upset yourself then blame that person for your upset feelings#and then harass them and act like you did the world a favor (youve done nothing youve just harassed a random person))#Can we please PLEASE go back to avoiding the type of art or writing we dont wanna see#And doing so quietly instead of forever ruining someone's life#And forever ruining words that actually used to mean something and that were actually useful in pointing out dangerous people
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6.2.24 🎉🫥
#I brought cake to work because I gues you have to#colleague asked me what are you going to do tonight#I said not much I think#another done said jeez you’re 26 and not doing anything#and I answered oh yeah that’s for the weekend which is true but still#I’m just so down I don’t even have the energies to pretend it’s fine#I was about to cry#I think I’ll spend the day eating and crying#it’s really great how it only gets worse with time#they say at some point things get only get better but truth is it can always get worse#yesterday tho I almost lost my phone by leaving it at the zelfkassa at the Albert Heijn. thank god I realised it run back & it was t#nothing really make sense and I’m tired of sending cvs#there’s nothing I like and I have to pretend I like everything and everything is cool#i replied in a very dry way to my family wishes bc of how bad I’ve been feeling#I’ll probably eventually just throw something on ig and have 2 people say hbd#it’s all about suffering#this weekend I’ll go to Sweden if things go according to plan and will probably feel like crying most of the time there too#by myself in some hostel bc my friends are too busy for me#there’s always some god eating your heart out right#I think I’ll spend a good amount of time blinding myself with tears#I can’t wait to go to the psychologist
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#I wish you could send people a survey every month#like 'do you still like me' 'are you growing tired of me' 'am i too annoying'#i feel like deep down i know my friends like me#but i get wound up so often just questioning every interaction#and over analyzing it till it makes me feel ill#you can have a convo and it wont be the best most perfect convo in the world every time#yeah thats how it works!#but i start overthinking every thing and its so hard to rationalize myself#EVEN THOUGH I HAVE NO REASON TO THINK THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE#god i hate this#i wish i could remove the ability of self introspection#why must i question every interaction and run in circles making myself think im living in some world where i am hated and disgust people#ah man being alone at home is not good for me#i dont hate to be alone but i have too much time to think and its very dangerous#its bad bcs like i dont want to question people#like if i found out a friend thought i was losing interest in them id be so sad!#but it's impossible to think from the other perspective#instead i just start making conspiracy theories to myself abt how i am detested actually#sry i think i go on this rant every month#im lonely :(#catie.rambling.txt
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