#Just finished the first run

[random-meme-bot]

Good game

[ministarfruit]

"...why would I become a monster?"

[grandkhan221b]

More DW stuff

[fghgfgf]

please let him in, he'll be so normal he swears

[kamabokobun]

Paradise of passion & sloth trailer screenshot redraw :]]

[teelguy]

so I've been gettin into comics

[faynthearted]

maybe I'm overthinking things, but whenever I see people talking about significant/transformative moments in tianshan's relationship (barring their fight, the kiss, the ear piercing, etc.), I'm always a little disappointed no one points out the scene where the boys are going through the cardboard boxes of random things from he tian's childhood and he tian says something to the effect of, "the entire world is out there but everything I've ever owned only fits in these two boxes" and then he discreetly places his hand palm-up between him and guan shan. and guan shan pauses for a moment before placing his glass in his hand. and then the chapter ends.

this moment is one of the few panels I've saved over the years:

like... it's short but there's so much emotion behind this scene, it's hard for me to put it into words succinctly. and it stands out to me because it's not particularly intense or climatic like their other big moments. it happens soon after she li assaulted guan shan on the riverbank — which was heavy on the drama and ultimately the catalyst for tianshan's relationship. he tian had also just been financially cut off from his family and guan shan had been physically and emotionally vulnerable/exhausted for some time. basically, things were still raw and hectic for both of them in different ways

so this quiet, subdued, and wordless interaction between them on the balcony was very interesting. I honestly think it's one of the first instances in which tianshan have a personal/intimate mutual understanding of one another without an outside force influencing it or the moment being interrupted. and somehow, it's both abnormal and very fitting that he tian didn't make a grand gesture in this moment. like, if you think about it, he simply turned his hand on the cushion and looked at guan shan. it wasn't obvious; he wasn't making a scene. but of course guan shan, hyperaware of him, noticed

and the fact that the chapter ends after that also stands out to me. again, if he tian was being his normal self, he probably would've said/complained outright that he obviously wanted guan shan to give him his hand, not his glass, or he probably would've grabbed guan shan's hand as he was placing the glass down because he tian always just takes what he wants and tames guan shan's defiance or embarrassment after the fact

but instead, the chapter ends. and it doesn't even feel abrupt, really. it feels complete. and it makes me assume that he tian accepted the glass as guan shan's response and didn't press the issue. he might've just held onto the glass in his lap (or drank from it while maintaining eye contact) and then moved his attention back to the group at large. and, again, that's both abnormal and fitting for him in this scene

and I know I just said "guan shan's response" but what's frustrating — and fascinating! — is that I've yet to come to a definitive conclusion about what the (unspoken) question/response between them was to begin with. of course, he tian had just finished talking about the paradoxical state of his life — about how he could have everything and yet he has next to nothing — so maybe his "question" for guan shan was as simple as: "even if I don't have/want anything else, can I at least have you?"

but I also think it's interesting to consider that jian yi immediately laughed at he tian after he finished talking, accusing him of being dramatic (and in jian yi's defense, he'd never really seen an honest version of he tian like guan shan had at that point, so I don't blame him for thinking he tian was just being melodramatic for attention as per usual). anyway, jian yi and zheng xi got a good chuckle out of it, but guan shan didn't. iirc, he actually looked a bit lost in thought before he noticed he tian looking at him, and then his hand between them

with that small detail, it makes me think he tian's question leaned more toward: "do you believe me?" or maybe "do you understand me in the ways I want you to?"

I'd like to think he tian wouldn't have offered his hand if guan shan had also rolled his eyes with zhanyi — poor little rich boy — and dismissed what he'd said. but then again, with the state of their situation/relationship at that point, I don't think there was a chance in hell that guan shan would've dismissed him. I'm sure we can all agree that he tian's intense emotional response to finding guan shan injured and subsequently taking care of him without expecting anything in return drastically changed guan shan's perspective of him. guan shan had a lot to process at that point in the manhua, and a lot of hard truths to start acknowledging. it was clear that he tian had a lot on his mind during that time, too

so guan shan placing the glass in he tian's palm might've been him saying, "I'm still figuring this (us) out... but my answer isn't no" (hence the reason why he tian presumably didn't push the issue further bc he was more cognizant of guan shan's boundaries by this point) or it might've been him saying, "yeah, I'm starting to understand you, and you're not what I thought you were but that's not scaring me away" (therefore affirming he tian's question so he didn't feel the need to pursue the moment or make a bigger scene)

in any case, although there's no continuation after that scene, I think they were both satisfied by the end of the evening. I don't think he tian was disappointed by guan shan's response, and guan shan would've known that too. in fact, I'd argue that guan shan wanted to reaffirm he tian's emotions in that moment. the worst (yet easiest) thing guan shan could've done is look at him, look at his hand, and then look away and ignore him — literally leaving him empty-handed. that would've left he tian in a sour fucking mood... or at least a bit wounded

but instead, guan shan chose the more honest/reciprocal route even if he wasn't 100% sure yet. and... I don't know. it really stands out to me and I think a lot more was happening in that interaction than what could've been expressed in words. and yet I've literally never seen anyone talk about that scene since it was posted — which, fair enough. it's only a couple of panels. but I think about it constantly!

[catmask]

it is insane how normal i am medicated like. you mean this was an option the whole time. what

[welcometogrouchland]

(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.

Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!

[aprito]

sos month day 28: time travel

well at least they could pin point the exact year they've been dropped off in now

[mixtercandy]

made bookmark designs for a zine that got canned :/

[robiniswriting]

ian chesterton and barbara wright are the blueprint because the doctor was initially just this old, kinda tetchy scientist who thought humans were stupid and also annoying, but then he accidentally kidnaps these two teachers because they followed his granddaughter home after realizing her address was an empty lot and growing worried for her. they cared enough to get personally involved beyond what was technically required of them.

throughout their adventures he watches as barbara defends ancient civilizations, remaining kind and empathetic in the face of violence and pain. he sees ian risk everything time and time again to get barbara and susan home safe. he watches them convince others to stand up and fight for what’s right. he sees the way they never give up, never give in, and above all, always try their best to do the right thing.

they don’t always get it right! but they never stop trying, and slowly, ever so slowly, we see the doctor change from a man who holds himself above and apart to the quipping, quirky hero we are so well acquainted with in new who.

the doctor has always modeled his morals on the humans he travels with. they are the ones he turns to when he begins to fly too far above it all. so really, we owe the existence of the doctor to ian and barbara: the first of so many. they deserve more love.

[third-king-of-salmonids]

SCREW ANARCHY SPLATCAST WE GOT OUR OWN THING

READY FOR A XTRA AIRWAVE? ITS TIME FOR

🐟 TRIUMVIRATE TV 🐟

WELCOME TO THE COOLER AND SWAGGIER ANNOUCEMENTS TV SHOW! ANYWAY, CURRENTLY IN ROTATION IS THAT BASTARD BOA-WAIT WHAT!? WE’RE GETTING A TRANSMISSION!!

WOAH!! ITS THE VOICE FROM THE DEPTHS!! IT WENT DING!! YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS-

OH YEAH NOW WE’RE COOKING >:V

UH THAT SAID WE SPENT ALL OUR MONEY ON SNACKS SO WE DONT HAVE ANY LEFT FOR MORE DIALOG SO UHHHH PICKATEAMBELOWOKAYBYEEE

[aethira]

A custom portrait for my heretical run in Rogue Trader ✨

I’m putting Aidina through The Horrors because I can 🔥 Pyromancer Psyker, obviously, though I haven’t decided archetypes or started the playthrough yet (gotta get further in my dogmatic run before I start or I’ll never finish any of them lol)

[a-whiff-of-a-dream]

Ugh, Hardings Romance!!!!

She doesnt hear you flirting with her! And when she does she immediately blushes and tries to push it to her moving stones! She 'drags' you into every trip she takes to get to know about her situation. She takes classes at the Lords of Fortunes Camp, she is telling you when shes kissing you, she then proceeds to call you a boob(!!!!) When she realizes she drugged you with lyrium, and then escapes your lyrium lovedrunk attempts to reach out to her so she doesnt turn your head into mush, people are watching you stumble over your stupid little body, she asks the necromancer for help with her magic, she glows when she sees you bc she adores you so much!!!

[miinteaa]

Sskk redraw of a panel from The Disabled Tyrants Beloved Pet Fish