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Code Blue Ch. 19- Suite Emotions

Summary: A funeral reception takes place on top of the town. Josie panics. Lee saves her and does something sweet. Britt gets drunk and says too much. Josie lets her have it. Lee loses his cool with Gordon. The party's just beginning. Josie vows to herself to forget the past. She and Lee are in bliss with each other, until others interfere. Josie and Ethan have it out, then she and Lee have an emotional fight.

*Warnings* Anxiety, language, angst, alcohol use, drug use, violence,

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Chapter characters: Lee, Josie, Britt, Amy, Gordon, Donna, Ethan

Salem, Massachusetts

February 26, 2023

6 pm - The Metro Court

Lee had rented a huge penthouse at the top of the Metro Court in downtown Salem for the funeral reception. He figured it would be perfect for the out of town guests or those who just wanted to get drunk, to have a place to stay for the night.

You and Lee were the first to arrive after the burial, followed by Britt and Amy, since Britt lived in another apartment there and she desperately wanted to change into something of casual comfort and hit the liquor cabinet.

As you all entered the hotel, Lee led you straight to the elevator, in which you froze as he pushed the button. You wanted to tell him you couldn't do it, but the last thing you wanted was to make him walk up almost twenty flights of stairs all because you were too chicken shit to ride in the metal box. You told yourself you could do it because Lee was with you and you could just hold onto him and close your eyes.

The doors opened and in you went, gripping his hand as your legs turned to jelly. You could instantly feel your chest tighten as the doors shut, locking you in. Closing your eyes, you imagined Lee's calming voice telling you what he said when he had carried you into the ER.....Breathe...

You certainly tried, but your throat was constricting. Lee's presence was not helping like you thought it would and he immediately noticed you clutching your chest along with the death grip you had on his hand.

"Jo? Hey sweet girl, what's wrong?"

You couldn't speak or even open your eyes to look at him. Your jaw was clenched as you held your breath and soon, your legs began to give.

"Jesus, Jo, baby??" Lee gasped and grabbed your waist to hold you up, then repeatedly punched the button to the next floor in panic. It opened and he quickly puled you out and steadied you against the wall.

"Look at me, look at me Jo." he insisted as he cupped your face in his hands. Your eyes flickered open. "Breathe Jo..."

You let your breath out and deflated like a balloon into his arms.

"I've got you, I've got you. You're safe." he sweetly assured as he cradled you softly and stroked your hair. "Do you want to tell me what just happened? because you just scared the hell out of me."

"I...I am so sorry. I...I can't do elevators...the small space. I..I tried to do it for you. I thought I would be ok with you beside me."

"God, how stupid can I be?? You told me about what your sister did to you. How could I forget and be so careless with you?? I am so sorry Jo."

"Lee, it's not your fault. You are not stupid! You just have a lot on your mind. I should have said something but...I didn't want you to think I was a big baby. I could have taken the stairs and met you up there."

"Ok, listen to me right now. You are NOT a baby for having a genuine validated fear and I certainly would never think you were one...and like hell you are going to take the stairs alone while I take the easy way up. Come on..."

"W...wait...what are you doing?"

"What does it look like? I am taking the stairs with you. I've been slacking on the gym anyways, so I could use the exercise." he cutely grinned as he patted his belly and took your hand.

You couldn't believe how understanding he was and that he was doing this for you. It made you get in all your feels and you did what you never do in front of people, especially him. You began to cry.

'Jo, baby girl, why are you crying??? Come here.."

As soon as he took you in his arms, you broke down even harder and felt so dumb...but he just brought things out of you that you didn't know existed. He kissed the top of your head and lightly rocked you, as if you were dancing.

"I..I'm so sorry...I..don't know what happened...just everything...I never do this...this crying thing...I feel so stupid." your shaky voice muffled into his chest.

He then made you look at him as he tenderly gripped your chin.

"Hey, if I'm not stupid, then you're not stupid. It's only fair."

You couldn't control the smile that curled clear up your cheeks and so did his.

"See...there's my girl and her beautiful smile."

Lee realized what he just said, calling you his girl and you had caught it too. You both gazed at each other, having another moment...in which he broke, and you weren't sure why, because damn it, you wanted him to kiss you so bad.

"Let's get you up stairs and get you a stiff one....oh Jesus, I meant..."

You were rolling in laughter which made you trip up a step and then he did the same. You both sat there laughing so hard that no sound came out.

"My god, I need a stiff DRINK, or fifty." he chuckled. "Come on."

You definitely could use a stiff one, and you certainly wanted the dirty version of it....but you kept that mind gutter of a thought to yourself.

He took your hand and up the multiple flights you both went. Lee took his time too because he loved spending every moment alone with you that he could get and he knew that tonight, those moments would be far and few between.

Finally, you both made it to the top floor where Britt and Amy were waiting in the hall, both already changed into different outfits.

"Took you two long enough. Ya'll have a quickie in the stairwell?"

"Britt!!!!" you snapped.

Lee dropped and shook his head with a bashful grin as he put his hands on his hips.

'What? Don't get your panties in a twist Josie. We all know it's going to happen. I mean, who wouldn't want to, just look at him."

Your mouth dropped open wide at her buzzed bluntness. The aroma of tequila loitered the space around the four of you.

"Sorry Josie and Lee. Britt here had quite a few shots in her apartment." Amy explained in embarrassment.

"Yeah...one too many." you retorted, very unsettled by her comment about Lee....and he seemed a bit thrown as well.

"Don't apologize for me Amieeee. I'm a big girl and can do as I please. Now, Josie on the other hand, girl, you need to come change out of those little girl clothes." Britt snarked as she looked you up and down.

"What is wrong with the way I'm dressed??"

"Yeah, what is wrong with how Jo is dressed. She looks absolutely gorgeous." Lee argued and gave you a wink and a smile. Your heart fluttered as the butterflies went crazy.

"Exactly! She's gorgeous and shouldn't be dressed like a ten year old. If ya got it, flaunt it! and she's got it! Come on!!" Britt reprimanded you and began dragging you off down the hall.

You glanced back at Lee with an eye roll. "Sorry! I'll be right back."

Lee chuckled and he and Amy went inside to find Donna already there, sipping on a martini.

"Well, you guys wasted no time getting to the free bar. Where's Gordon?"

"In the other room tinkering with his toys as usual." she huffed.

"He brought one of his junk computers here...to work on at his father's funeral reception? You've got to be shitting me."

"Wish I were. It's that one he had as a teenager." she scoffed and rolled her eyes.

Lee poured himself a double of whiskey and downed it, then marched off to have words with his ill-bred brother.

"Geez Britt, how much did you drink already?? Have you even eaten?"

"What does it matter how much I've drank, I don't give a shit."

"Ok...well I do...and where's your arm brace??"

"Don't know, don't care. I don't need it anyways. It's only a sprain and it don't hurt."

"It don't hurt because you're drunk and you're going to hurt it more."

"Ok doctor March!! I thought I was the doctor here?? Stop harping at me and pour yourself one. You are way too uptight! Loosen up and live a little! Maybe even get laid. You've probably got cobwebs down there by now."

"I don't need to be sauced to live...although maybe tonight, I will indulge a bit after this craptastic day." you groaned and went to pour a drink....silently agreeing that it's been too long since you've had sex. But, you weren't just going to give it to just anyone, like Britt had been good at doing, well at least until she met Jason. He was to her like Lee was to you. The one.

"That a girl!!! Now you'll fit in with Lee's crowd a lot better."

"Uh, what's that supposed to mean?"

"Well duhhh, he likes his booze too if you haven't noticed and from what I remember, he likes more than alcohol...and he likes women that do all these things...and much more if ya get my drift."

"Shut up Britt! Don't talk about him like that...you know, all the complaining you've done about his drinking and problems is quite hypocritical don't ya think?? Look at you! And how do you know so much about Lee??"

"Mrrrow!! Well Josieeee, I've known him a lot longer than you. We've hung out a few times many years ago so?? And yeah, he's got problems, I've got problems, we've all got problems!! I just don't take mine to work...I mean, did you forget I lost my brother too? Remember Nathan?? Killed in the line of duty by that psycho Peter August that you were gaga over, oh and then there was my boyfriend who was blown to bits, well, almost boyfriend since he didn't want me involved in his life."

"Oh my god...you did not just say that about my BROTHER!"

'What? It's true. You were there!"

"Yeah Britt...I was there and could have died too. Can you be any more insensitive?? And no, I did not forget about Nathan. How could I? Maxi was in love with him, he was her husband. But don't make it sound like it was my fault that Peter is just like your father. I dropped him like a hot potato when I found out who he really was. Nathan died because he was the god guy trying to take down the bad guy, regardless of their shared blood. Don' t ever mention Peter to me again, or to anyone. He's in prison where he belongs...and don't forget Brittttt, he is your half brother just like Nathan. You all share the same wacko father so you could easily inherit the crazy too!"

You chugged down a shot and stormed off into her bedroom to look through her clothes. Britt followed you and plopped on the bed.

"Sorry...I just miss Jason and Nathan so fucking much and I don't know how to deal with it anymore."

"Well so do I Britt, but I don't say hurtful things to you about them."

"You're right...I'm sorry. It just came out...I'm just a mess and I'm lonely and everyone I know is happy and in love."

"I guess I understand that...but just watch what you say to me about Jason and Lee."

"You really love him don't you?" Britt asked as she sniffled.

"I'm not having this convo with you because you're big mouth will blurt it all out." you reeled as you fumbled through her clothes, not finding anything appealing, for most of it was all skimpy as far as anything dressy.

"Here...wear this. It's not overbearing." Britt insisted as she pulled out a flashy tank top and tight mini skirt. Not overbearing? You might as well have been naked. You tried it on and looked yourself over in the mirror. It wasn't so bad after all once you saw yourself in it.

"There...you look smokin hot and it shows your toned ice skating legs...here, take your hair down too...trust me, Lee will like that." she said as she violently pulled your hair tie out.

"Owwww! and Ok, he liked me just the way I was 15 minutes ago and...seriously..how do you know what he likes?" you curiously asked as you spun around to her.

"What? He's a man. What man don't like skin?" she said with widened tell tale eyes and turned to get another drink.

"You know...you just told me, no better yet, rubbed it in my face how you have known him for years and even hung out with him. not to mention your straight forward comment about him in the hall. Just how well do you know him Britt??"

"Josie, we work together, have for many years. Anyone with eyeballs can see he's a 10 out of 10. What are you getting at?"

Britt put her coat back on and went out onto the balcony to smoke, in which you followed her right out.

You grabbed her arm and spun her around. "Did you fuck him???"

She yanked her arm away. "I don't like what you're insinuating."

"My god....you did, didn't you??!"

"Josie, what good is this going to do...."

"Answer me!!"

"Ok fine! Yes!! one time. Jesus, it was almost 10 years ago, right after he started working at the hospital. You knew about how Lee was back then with women. What's the big deal??"

You couldn't help yourself, and you hauled off and slapped her.

"I...I did know...but I sure as hell never thought it was with you! That's the big deal!! Why did you not tell me!? God, why did HE not tell me!?"

You marched inside to put your shoes on and Amy was standing there with complete shock on her face as she heard everything. She had came to see what was taking you both so long.

"You told her??" Amy stated in disgust.

"You're joking right?? YOU knew too and didn't tell me??"

"I did Josie, but there was no reason to tell you. Britt is right. It was so long ago. Lee was a different man then and...he's happy now because of you...and you're happy because of him. No one wanted to ruin that!"

"You know, I get that it was another time in Lee's life, and in Britt's too and I also know that it's none of my business who he has been with before me, but I feel that it most certainly is when it's my best friend!! The fact that I was not told is why I am so pissed off! How am I supposed to trust anyone when they keep secrets from me?? This...this is why I didn't want another relationship!"

"Josie, not everyone is Gerry or that EJ guy, especially not Lee." Amy reminded you, as if you needed it. You knew damn well Lee was nothing like them, and that's what scared you the most...that he was real.

"How do you know? Did you sleep with him too??"

Amy gasped as you stormed out in tears and went to sit in the stair well to calm down. Now you knew that Lee not only had a fling with his neighbor Angel, but also with your best friend and maybe they were right, that it shouldn't matter because Lee didn't know you then...but you couldn't help it. It did matter to you. Whom else were you going to be blind sided by that Lee slept with?

Lee walked in to find Gordon nose deep in an illegal substance, which was no surprise....but it pissed Lee off that he was doing it there.

"Fuck Gordon, what the hell are you doing!?"

"What's it look like little bro? Want some?"

"Put that shit away. I'm not going to jail because of you."

"Relax! No one is going to see. That's why I came in here."

"Yeah, and the door is unlocked. I just walked in. What if it had been someone else?"

"Well it was nobody...literally."

"Don't think I won't throw your ass out of here. I've taken your disrespect long enough."

"That would be just like you. Throw me out of my own father's celebration of life, just like you've thrown me out of every other part of his life as well."

"You did all of that yourself Gordo. Not me."

"That's alright. I'll get back what's mine. There's a little something there for you on the stand."

Lee went over and picked up two pieces of paper and began to read them.

"You went and did it huh...and obviously before you came to see me today. You're an unbelievable piece of shit, you know that Gordon?"

Just then, Donna came in, annoyed that Gordon had been in there so long.

"What are you guys doing in here? There are guests arriving and asking where you are."

"Oh, just reading Gordon's lawsuit he filed to try and take the farm, among other things that don't belong to him, but you knew that already didn't you Donna?" Lee barked as he threw the papers on the desk beside Gordon. "These are shit. You will not win."

"We will see about that now won't we." Gordon replied.

"I've had enough." Lee flatly stated and picked up Gordon's computer, holding it high above his head so Gordon couldn't reach it, then left the room with it.

"What the hell are you doing Lee?!"

You had just came in to see Lee carrying something quite large out to the balcony with Gordon and Donna chasing after him as everyone watched, so you followed because Lee looked extremely pissed off.

"Give it back man!! Dad gave me that!" Gordon shouted as Lee searched the ground below. Once he saw that there were no people beneath, he hurled the big box over the edge. Gordon ran to the ledge and watched the computer soar to the ground and splinter all over the sidewalk.

"You asshole!!!" Gordon raged. "I almost had it fixed!"

"I suggest you either leave or stay the fuck away from me the rest of the night, or I am going to call the cops and inform them of the contents you brought in here and that are in your system. The choice is yours. Come on Jo."

Lee softly took your hand and led you out to the bar, pouring you both a double of whiskey on the rocks. He knocked his back in one mouthful and then heavily sighed.

"Lee, what just happened?" you asked with wide eyes and great concern.

"He's suing me, just like I said he would. He already had the papers drawn up and fucking brought them here to show me....and he was inhaling some heavy shit when I had walked in as well. Right here at dad's party. Can you believe the nerve of..."

Lee froze in awe when he had turned and actually looked at you.

"Jo...wow...you look...incredible, not that you didn't before."

All you could do was just stare at him, remembering what you had just learned about Britt.

"Thanks.." you managed to squeak out, trying to hold back the tears you had just finally got to stop.

"Where's Britt?" Lee asked.

His questioning of her whereabouts set you off as you broke eye contact with him, trying so hard to keep your forming tears from falling.

"Jo? Sweetheart, what's wrong? You're...you're crying again?" he asked so tenderly as he gently wiped a stray tear from the corner of your eye.

"It's...it's nothing. Umm, just Britt. We had an argument."

You couldn't bring yourself to tell him what it was about...not now anyways.

"Oh, honey, I'm so sorry. She obviously had too much to drink huh?" he inquired with a light smile.

"Yeah..." you frowned.

"Well, ok. Screw her. Let's go mingle and try to have a little fun. My dad wouldn't want any of us moping around and being sad anymore."

You cringed inside. Screw her he certainly did.

Lee went to the front of the room and began talking to everyone.

"My dad's favorite decade was the 80's, which is also when I was growing up. You've all probably noticed this entire penthouse is furnished in nothing but that, which is my way of honoring him and the things he loved. So, without further ado, let's honor him some more and get this party started!!!" Lee shouted as he went over to the stereo and cranked it up.

As you looked all around the room, you were amazed at what Lee had done for his father and he looked so happy about it which was making it very hard for you to stay upset. You decided you were just going to try and shove the horrible information down and try to have some fun with him now that you had calmed down. You weren't angry with him and you slightly understood why he didn't tell you...and you certainly didn't want to lose him over it. Maybe you were making too big of a deal out of it...Lee had a past...so did you. Maybe he would tell you about it someday...but for now, you wanted to focus on the future with him because that was all that should matter,

Lee shook and popped the cork on a bottle of champagne and sprayed it all around the room. Everyone cheered and danced.

"Jo, sweetheart, do you want a glass??"

"Yeah, sure. Thank you."

You took it and hammered it back. Lee gazed at you in astonishment with a huge grin.

"Another, beautiful?"

You smiled so big. "Hit me more."

"You know what everyone?? My baby is sexy as hell!!" Lee blurted out, shocking the shit out of you. Not because of what he did, but what he said. He was proud to have you by his side and wanted to show you off.

You must have turned as red as the curtains as you shyly smiled at him. Regardless of what you knew, he made you feel so damn good...and that's usually when something was bound to go wrong.

"Let's dance!!!" he shouted as the popular David Bowie song came on.

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You laughed so hard, that happy tears rolled down your face as you watched him let loose and pump his arm, sounding the locomotive's horn for his dad....in which he had gotten everyone to mimic and follow him around the room like they were a train and Lee was the engine, his dad's favorite part.

Gordon and Donna danced too as if Lee hadn't just trashed his computer, but you knew that was the booze and drugs they were both on.

Lee danced his way over to you and swooped you into his arms, spinning you around and singing to you. God you loved it when he sang to you.

"If you say run, I'll run with you. If you say hide, we'll hide because my love for you would break my heart in two if you should fall into my arms and tremble like a flower."

Your heart skipped a beat about the love part...but you knew he was just singing the words, that he certainly didn't mean anything by it...although you desperately wished he did.

A few hours had went by as everyone danced, drank, ate, and talked. You wondered if Orlando and Ethan were even going to come after what happened with the whole car incident thing. You hoped at least Orlando would, but you couldn't care less about Ethan. A far as you were now concerned about him...he was trouble with a big fat capital T.

"Do you want to know something Jo?" Lee asked as he smiled his quirky smile.

"Sure." you cutely smiled back.

"You make me feel so damn good. So happy. So alive." he said with a now serious face and stroked your cheek, his sparkling cobalt eyes gaping into your soul.

Goosebumps rose all over your skin at his soft tickling touch.

"Right back at ya babe." you replied with a grin, in which Lee ate your words right up.

He went over to the stereo and fumbled through the cd's, then he put one in and hit play.

"Come with me." he whispered and whisked you off to the balcony.

"Dance with me."

Lee reached his hand out to you with the sweetest smile, the moonlight dancing in his eyes.

The song that played shocked the hell out of you. Was this another sign? Did you not just tell yourself earlier that something had to go wrong because you were feeling way too damn good? If it was a sign, you prayed it was a good one and not an omen.

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"Now that you're here, I just feel like I'm constantly dreaming." he sang as he rested his forehead on yours.

If there was a heaven, you were in it...sitting on cloud 9 and you didn't wanna come back down.

You both swayed slowly to the music as if no existed but the two of you...until you were at an angle to where you could see inside.

There stood Ethan behind the bar, watching you and Lee like a vulture. He smugly smiled and tipped his glass to you.

And there it was...your nice time with Lee was now ruined. Ethan had a lot of gull to show up after Lee damn near kicked his ass.

Lee noticed your glare and turned to see what had you on edge.

"Ignore him and hold onto me." Lee whispered in your ear as he laid his cheek softly against yours and continued dancing with you.

You did as he said and closed your eyes, burying your face in his neck and pressing yourself into him as you tightened your grip around his neck. Lee softly moaned as you did that and placed his hand on the back of your head. You could feel his warm breath trickle through your hair and down your neck, sending your core into an erotic tizzy. Acting on impulse, you ran your fingers up his neck and through his hair as you brought your nose and mouth to rest upon his open collar bone. His fingers clenched your hair as he deeply exhaled into it.

"Jo..." Lee whispered as his lips trailed across your cheek. "I....I...."

Whatever he was going to tell you wasn't going to be revealed at that moment as an inebriated bawling Britt came rushing onto the balcony.

"Josie...I..I'm so sorry, please, please don't hate me. You're pretty much all I have left. I can't lose you too." she panted and sniffled.

"Britt, this could have waited. I am not going anywhere. You can obviously see that Lee and I are out here ALONE...can you not?"

"Britt, I don't know what happened between you both, but just go lay down or something. Talk to Jo tomorrow when you are sober."

"No, No, you don't understand. She knows Lee. She knows we slept together and now I am going to lose my only true friend."

"You...you...you..what?" Lee stuttered with a shaky voice. "W..why...would you do that??"

Lee's eyelids fluttered as he shamefully looked at you.

Amy came running in out of breath. "I tried to stop her Josie but she literally pushed me down."

"I.. I had to tell her the truth Lee...she figured it out...I'm so sorry!!" Britt babbled on.

"Jo...why..didn't you tell me? I...I would have told you the truth if you had asked."

"Why didn't you tell me Lee?"

"Jo...it was like a century ago. It never even crossed my mind...not once because it meant nothing to me."

"Can you say the same about Ethan little bother?" Gordon quipped as he wobbled up.

Lee gasped as he stared at him in panic.

"Karma's a bitch huh Dr. Dreamy." Gordon reveled as he sipped his whiskey.

"Shut the fuck up Gordon." you snapped. "Lee? W..what's he talking about?"

You were pretty sure you already knew because the signs were all there that you had witnessed ever since Ethan reared his ugly presence in your life, but you wanted to hear Lee say it.

"Now THAT I didn't know about." Britt chimed in with stunned eyes.

"Lee??" you asked again as your eyes began to sting.

Lee stumbled back a step and stood in a daze as if the wind had been knocked out of him.

"I...I...can't do this...."

Lee lowered his head and walked inside, pushing through the crowd and went into another room. Everyone's head turned to the sound of the door slamming shut.

You also went inside and bee lined straight for Ethan.

"Did you put Gordon up to this?"

"I'm sorry?? What are you talking about?"

"Oh spare me Ethan. You didn't just hear all that?? Everyone else sure did and you have been watching me and Lee all night. Is it true?? You...and Lee?"

"Yes. A long time ago. Lee had a partner....me."

"Not that I would defend my brother..." Gordon cut in as he came up. "But, that's stretching the truth a bit Ethan. You and Lee weren't a thing. More like a drug induced fling at a party one night...and you took advantage of that."

"Yeah Gordon, a party held by you in which those drugs were supplied. You were just so quick to throw your own brother under the bus and now you're standing here blaming me for something he chose to do. I didn't take advantage of anything. He wanted to be with me."

"And now he don't. He wants Josie, which I can't say that I blame him. She's a lot prettier than you." Gordon joked as his eyes rolled up and down your body, right in front of Donna. "And now you're jealous. Did you really try to run him off the road man?"

You gave him an appalling glare for his comment about you and then turned back to Ethan.

"So, Orlando was right about you. You're a liar and a con."

"Look, I'm just trying to set the record straight here ok? Lee and I are good friends and I want him to be happy. I would never try to hurt him! You know nothing about him little girl!" Ethan shouted as he was now getting angry.

"Excuse me?? It seems that you know nothing about him because he obviously don't want you and like Gordon said, you're jealous and trying to worm you're way back into his life. He believes you intentionally tried to run him off the road and that you were trying to hurt me! Not him....and I believe him too. Like you were trying to scare me off.... I mean, why would you even come here after that? Was his physical threat not clear enough for you? because I'm pretty sure that was him uninviting you. I'll tell you right now, I will NOT let you hurt him."

"Is this blonde thing for real with people? I would....neverrr...hurt him! What makes you so special anyways? You're not his girlfriend because he certainly don't call you that. In fact, not once have I seen him even kiss you. You came along at a bad time in his life. He's lonely and confused and isn't ready for you. He didn't even trust you enough to tell you about me...You're the present, not his future. You'll see. I'm even willing to bet he hasn't even slept with you...am I right?!"

"You know what, I don't even wanna hear this, this is disgusting. I can't even look at you."

You spun around and went to find Lee, knowing damn well that Ethan's words were nothing but hot air. You may not have known everything about Lee, but clearly Ethan knew nothing at all about him and what you and he shared.

You found the room Lee went into and stood outside the door for a few moments, trying to compose yourself and understand what just happened....but you couldn't, so you just went in.

He stood in the middle of the dimly lit empty room, his eyes welled up with tears as he gazed at you.

"I...I can explain...."

"Please do...because I feel...god I don't even know what I feel right now. I...I was willing to let the Britt thing go, that's why I didn't say anything...but Ethan? I mean...I had an inkling about it but...I just never thought it could be true...and the things he just told me...I don't know what to do with. How could you do this to me??"

"You know, I am tired of being second guessed and distrusted when I have done absolutely nothing wrong. This is all my past that you weren't a part of."

"When have I ever made you feel like I didn't trust you??"

"Right now, about my god damn life!" Lee shouted and now you were just as pissed off as he was.

"Because you should have told me! Instead, you let me find out like that, in front of all those fucking people."

"You just said you don't care about what happened with Britt...so what's this really about huh? It's because of Ethan, which obviously makes a difference to you and that's why I didn't fucking say anything. You know, I was also humiliated out there but you don't seem to care about that."

"I don't care if you slept with a guy Lee!! It's the secrets! Which everyone always seems to keep from me....which leads to my trust issues! But I can clearly see YOU don't trust me."

"I was ashamed alright??! I trust you more than I've ever trusted anyone! Look at everything I have told you. Things that people would consider me crazy for... I..I just didn't know what you would think of me and I was scared I would lose you."

"God Lee, do you really think I am that shallow and judgmental? I have been nothing but kind and understanding with you, even at times when you didn't deserve it!! and I have stood by you through it all!"

"Like right now? because it sure seems that you're not on my side here. Jesus, what the hell did Ethan say to you?"

"I wanna hear what you have to say...but that's right. You don't tell me anything! People that care about each other, talk to each other. We both have pasts and anything that could or would affect you, I have told you about. I don't care who you have slept with but my best friend and some guy that just shows up here wanting to cause us trouble...I think I deserve to know about. I won't do this again Lee. I told myself way before I even met you that I wouldn't, yet here I am being stupid again, setting myself up for more pain...and people, they tried to warn me...but I wouldn't listen because I believed they didn't know you like I do. But it turns out I don't even know you at all...and I won't go any further if this is what it entails. You told me that Elizabeth once told you that you were an accident...maybe I get that now in a sense because I wasn't looking for you...so...you were an accident and I deserve better than this."

"I'm not an accident. We are not an accident. We were meant to find each other. All the signs prove it and you know I never believed in that until you. I deserve better too Jo...I deserve you."

Him telling you that he deserved you after what just happened, made you so angry and you began punching his chest as you cried. He stood there in emotional anguish and took it while he watched your face the entire time. He just wanted to grab you and hold you so tight, even if you fought him....and more than anything, he wanted to tell you how crazy in love with you he was...but something told him not to....that you wouldn't believe him now.

You walked away and stood with your back to him breathing heavily, not knowing what to do. This was killing you, fighting with him. You told yourself you had to let all this go, that Amy was right...Lee was not Gerry, absolutely nothing like him.

Lee came up behind you and reached his trembling hand out to touch you, but he pulled it back before he did, not sure of it was wanted.

"Jo...it was never my intentions to hurt you. I would rather die. I was just...flat out scared. Not everyone would be understanding of my time with Ethan. I've learned things like that the hard way."

"I told you, that's not what this is about." you lowly said, still refusing to turn around.

"I..I know...it's about secrets and trust...Jo, I'll tell you anything you want to know. Just ask me whatever you want to know. We can sit down sometime and I'll tell you my entire life story, although it may put you to sleep."

Lee lightly chuckled but you remained silent and still. He sighed and continued.

"Baby I know you've been scorned really bad before...we both have, but whatever we have here...it's real. I feel it...and I know you feel it too. Please, Jo...don't give up on me...don't give up on us. Now that I have found you, I cannot imagine my world without you in it. Jo, I am so sorry for all of this....so sorry."

You finally turned to face him, dreading to see his beautiful eyes in such pain because you could hear it in his voice.

"What is it that we have here Lee? because I don't know. Actions mean a lot, but words matter too. What are we even doing here?"

Lee peered down at you in confusion. "Jo, what do you mean? I told you I would tell you anything you wanted to know....and I thought telling you that not being able to imagine a world without you spoke volumes. This is about something else, I can feel it. Tell me what Ethan said to you....please."

"Lee...I...it's not about what I want to know...it's about what I want to hear...."

You began to choke up and walked out, remembering how Lee would only get so close to you. Maybe Ethan was right. Maybe you weren't his future.

Lee almost broke down at your departure, trying to understand what you meant.

He knew there was only one other way to get the answers. Ethan...and then he was going to hunt Gordon down for the damage he caused......

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Code Blue Ch.20- Scars and Souvenirs

Summary: Lee is out for blood. Ethan takes a hit. Britt gets an earful. Donna's called out. Lee races to find Josie. He and Gordon brawl. Lee has a breakdown. Josie tries to help him. AN ANTICIPATED MOMENT FINALLY ARRIVES.

*Warnings* Angst, language, violence, mentions of child death and car accident, graphic depictions,

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Chapter characters: Lee, Josie, Ethan, Gordon, Donna

Salem, Massachusetts

February 26, 2023

10 pm- The Metro Court

Lee changed into sweat pants and a casual shirt that he had brought there a few days earlier because he didn't know if you and him would end up spending the night at the hotel and then he rushed out to do damage control. His first target was Ethan, whom he found playing poker as if nothing ever happened.

"Get up. Now." Lee barked and walked over to the bar, poured himself a triple shot of whiskey and swigged it down. His eyes darted all around for you but you were gone.

"Hey man. I heard about what happened with Gordon running his mouth, I swear I had nothing to...."

"What the hell did you say to Jo! and don't you fucking lie to me."

"Ok, look. She started in on me, calling me a liar and a con, saying I was jealous and blaming me for the car thing, which again man, I didn't do it on purpose."

"You're not answering my question. Tell me what you told her, word...for....word."

Lee was becoming impatient as he pursed his lips and glared Ethan down.

"Geez, calm down man. I just told her that, well you know, you and me, the party and then I might have told her that she wasn't your girlfriend because you never said that she was....that you didn't trust her because you kept me a secret...and you know man, like she came along at a really shitty time in your life, you know, you're just lonely and stuff and that she was only temporary...and I don't know, like you never kiss her and I may have mentioned that you probably haven't had sex with her either...I was just being honest and besides man, she provoked me."

"Oh...is that all?" Lee sarcastically replied...and then hauled off and socked Ethan right in the gut.

"Ohhh fuck man. Why the hell did you do that??" Ethan asked as he coughed and gasped for air.

"If you really have to ask that question, then I did the right thing. Get the hell out of here and don't you come near me or especially Jo ever again."

"You don't mean that, we're friends man. We have been for a long ass time. You're going to shit can me over some girl you barely know??"

"I mean it with every breath in my body. Time means nothing. Loyalty means everything. Now get out before I physically pick your ass up and throw you out the door."

"This is bullshit man."

Ethan gave Lee an angry stare and then reluctantly walked out.

Lee found Britt and Amy still on the balcony and quickly checked with them about you or Gordon, but he only spoke to Amy...at least he tried to. Britt was still a sobbing mess and began apologizing to Lee again, which set him off.

"I don't want to hear this shit Britt. What the hell were you thinking??? All the shit you have given me for the mess I had become and look at you. Seems you need to check yourself. I mean, what was it Britt? You couldn't stand to see your best friend happy for once and wanted to ruin it because you're miserable?? What you and I did ONCE almost a decade ago meant nothing! and here it is, biting me in the ass because of your big drunk mouth. Well sweetheart, it bit you in the ass too and now you get to reap what you sow, just as I do. Happy now??"

Britt said nothing and took the scolding because she knew Lee was right and also had every right to be angry with her.

Lee stormed off, knowing he was just as guilty as Britt for concealing their past roll in the hay, but in the heat of the moment, he didn't feel one bit of remorse for blowing up at her.

He then searched for Gordon and found Donna chatting it up with one of the caterers.

"Hey Donna, if you got some time to stop fucking around on Gordon, do you think you could tell me where he is?" Lee snarked and then turned his wrath upon the man.

"Get lost pal and do your job. She's married, although I suppose you wouldn't know that because she most certainly didn't tell you and her ring suddenly disappeared after my brother did."

The man quickly left and Donna laid into Lee.

"What the fuck Lee. You don't tell me what to do."

"No I don't, but you're going to tell me where Gordon went or I'll tell him about this little display."

"Oh come on! I was only talking to the guy!"

"With no ring, that you had on earlier. Who's he gonna believe? He and I may be at war, but he knows my word is good any day over yours."

"Oh for fucks sake, I don't know where he went. He headed out the door shortly after that little barbie doll of yours did."

Lee gulped as an indescribable feeling of terror coursed through him unlike none he had ever felt before and then he bolted out the door.

He took the stairs, racing down them, just in case he might catch up to you. He didn't trust Gordon one bit in his brother's wasted and angry state, fearing what he might be capable of...that he may hurt you or...something even worse...all to spite him.

"Come on Jo, pick up, pick up!" Lee pleaded as he tried calling you, but it went to voicemail.

"Jo! Baby, I know you're upset but I need you to call me asap OK?? I need to know that you're alright. I can't find Gordon and he was seen leaving right after you did. Please Jo...I need to hear your voice so I know you're safe."

"Fuck!"

Lee's shout echoed through the stairwell as he hung up and kept going. He must have missed a step at least four times, falling on his ass before he got to the bottom. All he could think about is what Ethan told you and how that must have made you feel....and in a way, Lee felt guilty about that for holding back on you. Now he understood what you meant when you said words were important too.

Once outside, his eyes darted everywhere for you but no one was around, except a bellhop.

"Sir, sir!! Did you see a woman, long blonde hair, umm silver shirt, black short skirt, possibly a long gray coat on...drop dead gorgeous...eyes like the sunset...about yay high?" Lee rambled out of breath.

Lee held his shaking hand to his chest where he remembered the top of your head being when he kissed it. Realizing he didn't even know how tall you were put a lot of things into perspective for him. When he found you, he was going to make sure you knew exactly how he felt about you.

"Here...I have a picture."

Lee held out his phone with hope as he panted.

"Why yes I did see the young lady. She was crying and walking towards the parking lot wayyyy over yonder."

Lee closed his eyes in relief and smiled as his heart contradicted his reaction and broke for your sadness. He then showed him another photo.

"Ok, how about this man?"

"Yes actually, just before she came out. The valet brought his car up and he left."

Lee realized Gordon obviously took the elevator and got outside before you, and was now out there somewhere possibly stalking you, if he hadn't already found you.

Lee saw a car pulling up to be parked and he ran over to it, pulling out his wallet to bribe the guy to let him use his car, for he didn't have time to wait for his to be brought up. Luckily it was a young kid and Lee didn't have to try too hard.

"$500 right now to let me use your car. I swear I'll bring it right back. It's all I got in cash or I would give you more." Lee begged as he tried to catch his breath from his panic.

"Woah!! hey sure man!" the young kid reeled as his eyes lit up. "Just be careful with it. I just got it last week."

Lee smiled from ear to ear as he handed the kid five one hundred dollar bills and hopped in the car, peeling out as he sped off and ran over the curb, making the kid cringe.

"Bro, I said take it easy!" he shouted.

As you walked through the wide open parking lot, heading for the pub, all you could think about was all the ridiculous things you said to Lee. At least that's how you felt about it now...and it was all because you let that meddling Ethan get under your skin. If it weren't for him, or even Gordon, you and Lee would still be happily in each other's arms, dancing in the sky, literally...twenty stories in the air. It was crazy to you that your fear of heights didn't bother you when you were in his arms on that terrace but you almost had a full blown claustrophobic panic attack in the elevator with him by your side...and he saved you from it, unlike everyone else that would have just told you to stop overreacting. You contemplated going back and apologizing and kissing him right then and there in front of everyone, especially Ethan....but you couldn't face Lee after what you said to him, that he was an accident. Of course, you didn't mean it in the way Elizabeth had, but to Lee, it felt the same. The look in his eyes was still etched into your mind and you truly hated yourself...for as you had told him...words were important.

Your phone beeped so you stopped to check it. It was a voicemail from Lee but you had never even heard it ring, most likely due to the crappy signal from the entire day's stormy weather. Apprehension consumed you after listening to what Lee said about Gordon and hearing the fear in his voice that he tried to hide with his sweet tone. You immediately turned around and began walking back to the hotel, looking around with caution as you decided to call Lee back.

Gordon sat sunken down in his car in a secluded area of the lot, watching you and got out as you walked past.

You had just hit the call button as Gordon came up behind you.

"Hey!" he sternly said.

You screamed and spun around, dropping your phone.

"Gordon...w..what do you want?"

His beady dark eyes scoured your body from head to toe.

"I just thought you and I could have a little.....talk."

Gordon's discomposure was apparent as he stood before you, sweaty and trembling. You glanced down at your phone, seeing that the call was connected and went to reach for it.

"Leave it!!" Gordon angrily shouted, causing you to gasp and stumble back.

You could hear Lee yelling your name but it was faint.

"Gordon, I..why are you out here in the parking lot behind the hotel? W..where's Donna?" you asked, praying that Lee heard you.

"Not here obviously. It's just you and me now."

"Look, I don't know what you want or what your intentions are but you need to leave before I scream."

"What? No! Don't do that!" he snapped with agitation and came towards you.

Just then, a car came speeding in that you didn't recognize, in which, your yet again hero Lee got out and came rushing up to you.

"Whoa whoa hey! Gordon, you get away from her now. Jo, come to me, move away from this asshole!" Lee raged.

You quickly did as Lee said without hesitation and stood behind him.

"Asshole?? Really man? You're the one who tossed my computer off the fucking terrace like a some lunatic."

"Who's the lunatic when you're out here in the parking lot stalking my girlfriend with god knows what on your mind. What were you going to do Gordon huh??!"

Your eyes opened wide, hearing Lee finally call you his girlfriend, although you were sure he didn't even realize he said it in his anxious state of mind.

"Jesus christ, you're sick man! I wasn't going to hurt her! I just wanted to talk to her about Ethan."

"Haven't you done enough talking tonight Gordon?! You wanted to pay me back for the computer and you did it by shooting your mouth off about Ethan. Dad would be so fucking proud of you....all doped up at his party, in a loveless marriage with a money hungry cheating wife who probably talked you into drawing up those court papers that you gave me tonight of ALL nights. You made sure to come to the funeral, but where were you on his last birthday, or all the other ones before that?? Where were you so that maybe he wouldn't have had to live in a rest home when he got sick? I did it all Gordon, like fucking superman. The good son JUST like he told me I was."

"Don't you talk to me about Dad. What do you think he would think of his good son if he knew you had been with a man?? Oh that's right, he would still be fucking proud of you, because his little Lee did no wrong in his eyes. He gave you everything. You got it all man. The house, the trucks, his love and respect...even his fucking looks that you had to brag about at the funeral. I had one thing from him, one thing! I was trying to fix it and you destroyed it!!"

"I cannot believe you're standing here acting as if you cared about him...and over what...what?...a stupid little extremely outdated computer that no one even uses anymore? It was broken and worthless."

"You're broken and worthless and I'm gonna kick your ass!!" Gordon shouted as he walked up to Lee, pointing at him and then shoved him.

"Shut up!!"

Lee shoved him right back, knocking him to the wet ground and then began pointing and shouting at Gordon.

"You started all of this Gordon so now I am going to finish it!!"

"Lee, Gordon, stop!!" you yelled but your pleas were ignored as the two men scuffled around, entangled together like two pit bulls.

"Stop it man!" Gordon shouted.

Lee shoved Gordon off of him so hard, causing him to land on the hood of the car. Gordon had been clutched onto Lee's shirt as this happened and it tore open, revealing multiple scars on his chest and stomach.

Simultaneously, you threw your hand over your mouth and gasped as Lee stared at his body in horror, then you. Even Gordon was speechless as he stayed put, leaning on the car, for he had never seen Lee's scars.

Lees stood frozen and abashed, even frightened it seemed as his eyes welled up with tears, reminding you of how he looked when he had accidentally hurt you. Is this why he wouldn't get too close to you? You couldn't take it, seeing him so defeated, in such emotional torment so you went to him to try and cover his shirt back up.

"No, Jo...don't. Now you get to see the real me. Well, you've won again Gordon, humiliating me twice in one night, but that's what you live to do." he calmly said as he backed away from you.

"I..I told you to stop...I...I didn't know Lee..."

"Lee...please let me help you, let me take you home." you softly pleaded as you reached out for him.

He peered down at you as your own tears fell in nothing but love for him in that moment.

"They're from the accident...I don't remember...I don't remember anything after she grabbed the wheel..."

"I...I woke up in the hospital days later. The pain...I remember that. They told me I went through the windshield on impact....all because I wasn't wearing my fucking seatbelt...ironic huh? Yet I lived and Jacob didn't. Why? It should have been me."

"Lee please don't say that. It happened because Elizabeth caused it."

"She stood over me after I woke up, completely fine and do you know what she told me that plays over and over in my head? She said she only stayed at my side JUST so that she could tell me that I killed Jacob!"

"Lee stop, you don't need to do this."

"Oh but I do, because Gordon here made it happen in his jealous little rage. So now he gets to hear about it because you heard him, he didn't know about my superficial scars or the ones that lie beneath them...and why?? Because he wasn't around, just like with dad and yet he thinks he's fucking owed something from him and from me. Well you got something, right back over there on that sidewalk smashed into bits just like my life was. THAT'S your souvenir that you deserve and these are mine!" Lee raged as he opened his shirt up more so Gordon could see. "LOOK at them you coward!"

Gordon sat motionless, staring at the ground in shame, unable to look.

"Lee...please!" you cried.

"No Jo, I'm not done. This is what he wanted, to break me and now he's going to sit here and fucking watch me break like his stupid little computer! So look at me... you both need this just as much as I do."

"You wanted me to tell you things Jo...well now I am going to tell you. I know what Ethan told you tonight... and I...I need to fix that...I need you to understand how wrong he was and explain things about him."

"Lee no. You don't owe me any explanations about him, or anything else. I am so sorry for overreacting tonight. I shouldn't have let Ethan get me so worked up. This...this is not what I wanted. Please don't do this to yourself, especially not here in front of him."

"Isn't it what you wanted? You made it clear that I am not clear enough for you, which...you're right... so let me be clear! Now's a good time as any. We're all right here! It's time to see that life's no god damn fairytale."

His last words stung a bit, but maybe you deserved that after calling him an accident.

"Lee, I'm sorry man. Just stop." Gordon finally spoke.

"Stop what man?? Stop what you brought forth?? If you're sorry and you want this to stop, then recant the fucking lawsuit because you know damn well you don't deserve a damn thing of what you are asking for! You're not taking the farm, I'll tell you right now. I'll burn it to the ground before I let you have it. Freak accident from an out of control bonfire. It meant nothing to you. The only thing that means anything to you is making me suffer."

"Lee, that's not true....it's...it's Donna man. She'll flip if I do that."

"Oh that's right, she has your balls in a lockbox on her bedside table! You're pathetic....but I suppose so am I because I have been in your shoes with Elizabeth....and then there's you Jo. Something I have never experienced before in my life, something fucking good in the midst of all the bad, a burning ember in the dark, slowly pulling me out of that abyss that no one could ever do. One day I am just going about my same old fucked up daily routine, in no way looking for someone like you because I didn't believe anyone like you existed. I had given up on that dream a long time ago... and then I saw you...and everything about you threatens people, especially me."

"Your sassy spitfire personality, your beauty, your empathy, your unconditional gracious feelings towards me, the way you believe in things that are supposed to be impossible. You opened my eyes to that world and made me see the things I've seen that only you know about because you're the only one I even want to talk to about anything at all! I didn't know what was happening to me. You just came into my life like some whirlwind and knocked me on my ass. My lady strange...This was no accident like you said. Maybe...just for a moment...I believed in fairytales... I...I wanna believe that."

"Ethan...was a mistake that I chose to make. He wanted more. I didn't. I didn't tell you about him because I...I thought you would think differently of me, that I would lose you, not because he was something special like he made you think he was among all of the other things he said only to hurt you. I still should have told you and I'm sorry that you found out like you did. Only Gordon knew because he was there that night but now thanks to Gordon, now you know and so does Britt and Amy. We agreed to remain friends but now...I see that was a mistake too because he obviously wants more and I don't feel that way about him. I feel that way about you. I'm nuts about you. It's no accident? and when you told me that...I started to believe you didn't share those feelings."

You took his quivering hands into yours and gazed up into his tortured eyes.

"Lee...I swear on everything that I did not mean it like you think and I never should have even said it and I am sooo sorry that I hurt you. It's killing me knowing that I did and seeing you like this. I don't care about Ethan, I don't care about anyone else. I care about you....so fucking much. I DO share those feelings. This accident thing...I wasn't supposed feel these things ever again because I swore to myself I would never let it happen....and then you came swooping in....JUST like fucking superman and literally picked me up in your arms...and saved me that day in the hospital. You're right. It's no accident...it's destiny and I believe that with every beat of my pounding heart. Life can be a god damn fairytale if you want it bad enough...and it's all that I have ever wanted....you...are all that I have ever wanted."

"I'm not some hero in a cape. Look at me. I'm just a weak man who can't even save himself."

"You are not weak! You've just been through shit no one should ever have to go through...just let me help you...let me in...just like you told me once. Let's leave here and go talk...really talk....in one of our safe havens where no one can touch us, where only you and me exist like when we're dancing. If you say run, I'll run with you. If you say hide, we'll hide...you sang it to me tonight, remember? And now I am saying it back to you..."

For a moment, you had him. You could see it in his eyes. You had brought him back until Gordon had to speak and he let go of your hands.

"Guys, I'll just leave so you don't have to."

"Oh no, don't leave. Stay right here. Finish your talk with Jo Gordon. I'll leave..I have guests to attend to and a car to return."

Lee was sarcastic in his words and began to walk away.

"Lee wait!! You...you said you wanted to fix this, so why are you leaving?? Please, don't do this. Don't push me away We need each other. I need you." you sobbed in desperation to get him back again.

"Why!" he spun around and cried. "Why do you persist on wasting your time on me. You're the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on and me...I'm just some wrecking ball that crashed into you and we've both went up in flames because of it. Every time something goes right, something goes wrong. You believe in signs Jo, so read them. I said I deserved better, that I deserve you, but...I was wrong. You deserve better Jo."

"I DESERVE YOU!!! or I wouldn't have let myself get close to you. I know you're scared. I'm scared but...the signs, I HAVE read them and they're loud and clear. They have all led me to you and have kept me here...YOU have kept me here...the whole wrecking ball thing and you mentioning it just now after I heard that song this morning when I had been thinking similar thoughts about you just minutes before....but in a good way!!.....there is no one better. I don't want anyone else...God damn it Lee...I'm in love with you!!!!"

The sound of silence was deafening as Lee stood floored by your admission. His eyes were wide, locked into yours, tears streaming from them, his lips slightly parted and trembling.

"Yeah sooo, I think I'm gonna go to my car now." Gordon quietly said, putting his hands in his pockets and awkwardly shuffled off.

Lee's eyes fluttered as he teetered back a step and rubbed his chest.

"I...I have to go....I..."

He turned and quickly walked to the car, got in and left.

"Lee!!!" you shouted as you began to run after him, but your good old clumsiness in Britt's high heels got the better of you and down you went as your ankle turned.

"Damn it! Fuck!" you shouted as you sat on your rear, staring at your scraped bloody knee.

"Josie, are you alright?? Here, let me help you up." Gordon offered in concern as he came running back over, extending his hand down to you.

You instantly smacked his hand away. "Get away from me!"

"Ow! Hey what the hell was that for?? I am just trying to help you. At least let me give you a ride, it's starting to rain again."

"You've done enough! I wouldn't get in a car with you even if Michael Myers was running towards me with a knife." you quipped and took took your shoes off, hurling them at him.

Gordon ducked in panic as one whizzed past his head and the other hit him on the ass.

"Jesus! Suit yourself then, crazy bitch!!" he snarled and got in his car, then sped off.

You made your way up to stand, picked up your phone and then began hobbling back to the hotel, leaving the cursed shoes lie and swearing like a sailor under your breath as you tippy toed in your bare feet over the cold pavement.

Lee found the kid waiting outside for his car and returned it, thanked him and went back up to the room to change out of his torn and wet clothes. He thanked everyone for coming and told them all to stay and party on as he chugged down a drink, then made his way to the bedroom and tried to regroup.

"Damn it Lee, always your own worst enemy!" he mumbled to himself as he dressed into the attire he had brought for the next day. Staring at himself in the mirror as he combed his straggly hair back to a smooth natural state, all he could hear were your words echoing through his mind. "I'm in love with you."

Everything that was on the small vanity went crashing to the floor as Lee swiped it off in a fit of rage. He was so angry with himself for running away from you, instead of just telling you that he loved you too, the one thing he had sworn to himself earlier that he was going to do...and now he didn't know if he could fix this or even know how to. You had put your heart in his hands and he crushed it.

Lee rushed off to get his car and see if he could find you, hoping....praying he could salvage his relationship with you.

He stood under an umbrella waiting on the valet to bring his car around, when all of a sudden, there you were, standing in the rain, soaking wet, staring at him.

"Jo?"

Lee went to walk to you when the valet pulled his car up. You hurried over to the driver side and looked at Lee.

"Get in." you snapped and got in, slamming the door shut. Lee closed the umbrella, tossed it in the back seat and slowly got in, pulling the door shut with a light click. He then reached for the heat, cranked it up and pulled a blanket from the back, trying to give it to you.

"Here...you're freezing. Why didn't you come inside?"

"I'm fine." you snapped again and pushed the blanket away, then drove off back to go to the lake house.

Lee shamefully faced forward and left you alone as you both sat in silence for the majority of the drive. He couldn't take it anymore and turned on the radio.

You sarcastically chuckled under your breath, shaking your head as another sign sounded through the car.

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The tears were threatening to fall again, but you fought them back...until you couldn't anymore and hastily clicked the radio off.

Lee softly side eyed you, afraid to say anything as he screamed inside at himself for hurting you like this. He saw the glistening in your eyes and knew why it was there, for he recognized the sign too.

Midnight- The Lake House

You pulled into his driveway, parked the car and turned it off, then sat there watching the rain pour down the windshield.

After a few minutes passed of silence, Lee looked at you.

"I...I'm sorry Jo." he quietly said. "More than you could ever know."

You closed your eyes briefly as you sighed, then opened them, continuing to gaze out the window.

"You just left me there...." you whispered, refusing to look at him because you knew you would break if you did.

Lee hung his head in shame as he lightly gulped, knowing there were no words good enough to explain his behavior. Not even I'm sorry, like he already foolishly said.

You cleared your throat and wiped away an escaping tear, then stared down at your fidgeting hands.

Lee looked down at your anxious hands and then at you again, wishing you would turn to face him.

"There's a few things I wanted to let you know about. I was going to wait until tomorrow because I didn't want to lay any of this on you today of all days. Elizabeth was at the service. Britt saw her and made her leave. She also has a job now at the hospital. I saw her the other day when I went to see Britt. Both run ins were not pleasant. Then, when I was leaving the hospital, I saw Orlando there with his sister. She was laying into him pretty bad and he was extremely upset, so I had him come with me to the pub to talk to him. He told me all about what happened with his brother in law Jimmy. So...I just wanted you to know that I knew about it before Ethan blabbed it to you and that I was only trying to help Orlando. I wasn't keeping secrets from you, but I understand if you're upset with me about him. He was just in a bad way....and I need you to know that I have forgiven him for what he did to us and with Megan. I hope you will someday too because you've been friends for too many years to end it all over me whom you've only known a month now."

You kept your promise to Orlando and didn't tell Lee that he had confided in you about his father. That wasn't a secret, for Lee knew about what happened with Orlando's dad, but Orlando worried that it would upset Lee more than he already was with him to know he was telling you these kind of deep, emotional and personal things.

"Thank you for telling me. I am not upset with you. How could I be? You were helping someone out that was in need of a friend. You're such a beautiful person Jo and I love that about you. I'll tell you what I told Ethan tonight. Time means nothing. Loyalty means everything. I may have only known you a short while, but you've given me more kindness, honesty, understanding and compassion than many people I've known for years, or anyone I have ever known for that matter. You don't judge me, you listen, like really listen, and you believe in me."

"Jo, I know it's all just words, but you told me tonight that words are just as important as actions, so I want to give you both."

Lee slowly reached his hand to one of your nervous ones and gently clasped it, then leaned in, closed his eyes and whispered something by your ear.

"I love you Jo March. So much. I am crazy, head over heels in love with you."

Lee stayed where he was, opened his eyes and glided them up to you.

Your heart began to race as you finally faced him, stunned and goggle-eyed. His enamored and serious stare proved what his declaration of love. Your hand was no longer shaking and you brought it up to his face, tenderly stroking his lightly stubbled cheek. Lee closed his eyes and moved his face softly against your hand, as if your touch meant the world to him.

There was nothing now that was going to ruin this moment. You wouldn't let it if there was, for this time, you initiated the next move as you brought your mouth to his. As soon as your lips touched his, he slowly opened his mouth and finally, you both kissed.

Everything was so perfect. The peaceful sound of the rain dancing over the car, the scent of his skin and warm sweet breath under your nose, the feel of his velvety lips as they tenderly molded into yours, and the way he kissed you, like you were something so very delicate and precious.

A soft moan escaped his lips and delved into your mouth as the kiss became deeper, more passionate. Now that you had finally tasted him, you couldn't stop and neither could he. Each time your lips slightly parted, you both came right back in for more.

You could honestly say, you had never once in your life been kissed like that....and you could say the same for every time Lee had ever touched you.

His hand caressed your cheek as he softly pulled back to look at you...and at first, he was speechless with dazed and amazed eyes, as if his expectations of a first kiss with you had been tremendously exceeded. They certainly were for you. Nothing had ever felt so good, so right.

"Jo...I..."

You traced your thumb over his bottom lip, temporarily silencing him as you both gazed into each other's eyes.

"I...I don't want you to go." he said with such sad eyes.

"I don't want me to go either." you replied with a small grin.

Lee smiled and stroked the back of his fingers down your face, causing your butterflies to go crazy.

"Would you like to come inside then...I mean, just for some drinks. We can....talk...like you said. You could stay if you want...I...I have a very nice guest room."

"I..I would like that very much."

The relief on Lee's face was evident as he smiled again. He got the umbrella out and went around to your door. As you got out and stood under it with him, he looked down.

"Jo...you're not wearing any shoes? The ground is freezing. Hold this and come here."

He handed you the umbrella and then whisked you off of your feet and up into his arms.

"Jo...you're....you're my Lois Lane...and I want to be your superman."

Lee wasn't smiling. He was completely serious with a happiness in his eyes that you only saw when he looked at you.

"My own personal Clark Kent, but like, mega hotter. I'd like that very much." you replied, also in a serious tone.

The corner of Lee's mouth curled up as his eyes insanely smiled. He then carried you up to the front door and inside......

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