the ninth doctor trusted rose enough to believe she would stay with him after his face changed. and twelve took some convincing but towards the end of deep breath accepted that clara would stay by his side no matter how old he looked. but thirteen was so used to losing people. her previous self had loved clara and lost her, he had looked after bill and failed to save her, he had tried to redeem missy and (to his knowledge) lost that cause too. no wonder she wouldn’t trust yaz to stay for her fourteenth face. no wonder she believed she ‘had to do this next part alone’. she had grown quietly distant with the new knowledge that she was no longer even an ordinary gallifreyan, not something of this universe, but outside of it, alien even to the aliens. isolated and inaccessible, standing on an invisible pedestal her ancestors placed her on — a pedestal that more resembled a cage. glass walls on all sides like the forced regeneration chamber. thin glass wall between her and yaz now, transparent but too solid to break through. harder than azbantium when there’s no solid footing to stand on.
of course yaz would run when she saw her new self. of course she would leave. companions would never stay now, they would never fully understand. when thirteen said that she would need to do ‘this next part’ alone, by ‘next part’ she meant ‘the rest of her (potentially eternal) life’. it’s the classic gambit: push the one you love away before they get the chance to reject you. because they always will, now. either that or they die in horrible circumstances. better to flee like you’ve always done.
this is why the bigeneration was a narrative necessity, why the giggle was the perfect vision of a positive finale. the original version of the doctor gets to settle down with people that he won’t lose. people that he won’t turn away from. people whose hearts he won’t inevitably break. he’s sitting there in the back yard and he’s not going anywhere…
…yet somewhere out there in sheffield lives a police officer named yazmin khan. she’s not all sunshine and rainbows — all cops are bastards, after all. sometimes she takes her nameless rage out on a shoplifting suspect. sometimes she hands a parking ticket to a kid that didn’t deserve it. and sometimes she does genuine good for the community, sometimes she goes to the club and dances with strangers, sometimes she sits on the sofa and watches a documentary about space exploration and laughs at the painful inaccuracies. and many miles south, the doctor spends time with his family, but he’ll never get the courage to visit her. because she’d want to run away with him again. and he could never give her that, not anymore. anything but running.
yazmin khan loved the universe in the eyes of her doctor. oh, that doctor in the garden? the stay-at-home-doctor? he’s brilliant, but he would never be enough for her. his presence would never replace the cosmic vistas and myriads of stars thirteen gave her. and she’s never coming back
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my spn ship chart. i stand by every one of these opinions and i will take them to my grave
pls excise the quality it's 1am and this template is like a screenshot of a screenshot of a screenshot
shoutout deanbenny, sam x jessica, and others that couldn't be included bc i ran out of space . extra special shoutout to destiel who check off literally every single one of these boxes but i told myself i'd be doing a different ship for each one. sorry boys
EDIT: I FORGOT CLAIREKAIA????? cannot believe this
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welcome to a segment i like to call "are they/arent they" where i list a category & some stardew valley characters and debate whether or not they actually would be that thing. potentially nsfw text?
first up, non marriageable npcs and whether or not they are a dilf/milf:
marlon: obviously. there's no debate here.
the wizard: yes. no further comments.
linus: no. that is my best friend d right there i will not "go into his tent"
lewis: absolutely NOT. that man is greasy.
marnie: you know what? yeah. she is. in more of a "rich wine aunt you see at parties twice a year" way.
kent: do i even have to say anything? yes hes a dilf 100%. makes me think of that gg audio that's like "im a truth seeker, i seek the truth..."
jodi: yes but more in a "IM GOING TO MAKE HER MY GF" kind of way.
robin: .... seriously guys? do i need to answer this? (the answer is yes btw)
demetrius: no. but he'd be nice to sit and have a chat with, he can ramble about his experiments to me <3
pierre: honestly a strong maybe, but im gonna say no because his vibes are abhorrent.
caroline: yes. caroline was the first npc i became friends with so she's always a yes <3
george: no. don't even ask that.
evelyn: NO. that's my sweet granny im gonna make cookies with her.
sandy: i mean she has the potential but i don't think she's old enough to be considered a milf? it's a maybe but a definite yes in the future.
gus: hmm.. im gonna say maybe with high yes potential. i mean he can cook.
willy: i know this one is likely gonna get split 50/50 between you guys but it's a no from me. that's my uncle figure. he literally calls me his skipper and i go YEAAAH!!!
clint: ❌❌❌
gunther: yes. i just wish we could actually talk to him tho.
gil: hmmm.. it's possible. this is a maybe.
pam: no </3 love her but not like that
now, onto the marriage candidates and whether they are a top, bottom, or switch. here's the nsfw text. feel free to skip or read, it's up to you.
shane: dominant top. i just can't see him as submissive im sorry guys.
sam: submissive top. literally just wants to make it enjoyable for his partner, probably likes to be praised. u tell him good job? hes gone.
sebastian: power bottom. he knows what he wants and isn't afraid to let his partner know.
emily: trick question. she's asexual.
haley: dominant top. i don't really think i need to explain this.
penny: bottom. please treat her nicely or she'll cry.
harvey: SWITCH. he has potential for both, but i feel like he'd be more on the gentle side. maybe slightly more submissive depending on the situation. (#menwhowhimper)
maru: i feel like shes a tough one. on one hand i can see her as asexual, but on the other i think she'd be a switch. i think it fluctuates for her & she goes through periods of sex repulsion & hypersexuality.
leah: dominant switch, but i feel like she'd be more open to topping. muscular women .. ooogh.
elliott: another switch. he is literally open to anything & everything.
abigail: ooh another tough one. im honestly not sure possibly bottom? she'd also be open to top of you asked.
alex: *cracks knuckles* oooh you see those big muscles and personality and think "top" right? wrong. that man is a submissive bottom. he also has a tendency to allow himself to get overstimulated because he wants to "see what his body can handle"
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