#JUST ONE WEEK. ONE WEEK OF NO FUCKING MISERY
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wishing that things will get better for qforever and that after all of this he realizes that there are people sticking out for him and people fucking CARE AND LOVE HIM isnt enough, i need to fight ccforever for making his cubito miserable
#qsmp#qsmp forever#txt post#the character vs their worst enemy and its pictures of forever cubito and irl forever#JUST ONE WEEK. ONE WEEK OF NO FUCKING MISERY#BRING ME BACK TO THE EARLY DAYS WHERE HIS ONLY WORRY WAS IF HE CRINGEFAILED HIS WAY INTO PHIL'S HEART#GOD.#i love qforever so fucking much call me phil by the way i would go hell and back for him
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the thing i love about bill cipher is that even after i've learned all of this stuff about him, seen him at the most vulnerable he'll ever get, seen him at his most innocent, i still can't give a flying fuck about trying to justify his actions. yes he's traumatized, yes he was twisted into what we know today, and while it gives a semblance of context to why he did what he did, it doesn't matter. he still ruined ford's life. he still drove and baited multiple humans to suicide. he still tormented every human he saw as his ticket out of the consequences of his own actions. he still took delight in his actions. he was willing to commit genocide for fuck's sake!!! (freezing all of the humans into statues). trying to explain away what he did does not get rid of what he did, but it certainly puts it in perspective. you won't be catching me being a bill apologist any time soon <3
#gravity falls#bill cipher#the book of bill#pleaseeee dont kill me guys#also if anyone tries to twist this and apply it to ford i WILL be setting myself on fire#because like. i've seen many people hate on him because of what he did objectively#but the difference between ford and bill is that ford did not LIKE it. let me break down things ford has done @ stan that ppl dont like:#1: he was the favorite child hands down (not ford's fault. he was a kid. he was shoved into the role by his father)#2: considering leaving stan behind for west coast tec (which we dont even know was his intention. what if he wanted to bring stan with him?#what if he was going to ultimately turn the offer down? what if he went and still kept touch anyway? speaking as a guy who grew up#gifted in a poor neighborhood; college is your TICKET outta there. you'd do anything to do so--BACK ON TRACK)#3: didnt defend stan when he was being kicked out (he thought stan sabotaged his and his fams ticket out of poverty. of COURSE he's pissed!#also he was 17. of COURSE in the moment he wasnt going to take his scrawy ass and stand up to his 6'6 abusive ass of a father. would YOU?#4: told stan to take the journal (ford was on the brink of death and insanity. all he had left was STAN to trust. it also wasnt him saying#to have stan stay away from him forever--it was just to take the JOURNAL somewhere. he NEVER said he COULDNT come back!#do you REALLy think that FORD could have explained all that properly when he has beeen TORTURED FOR WEEKS ON END? I DIDNT THINK SO!#anyways. the point is that everything the fandom uses to villanize ford is in fact a result of circumstances outside of his control#and while you can argue that bill is the same; compare the damage they have done. consider how their trauma impacted them as people.#think about how bill took his trauma out on everyone around him. about how even now he still feels no remorse in that prison.#think about how ford tried to FIX his mistakes. think about how he is human; how he acted in spite of his misery#think about what that fucking triangle did to that six-fingered old man.#....okay! that was a lot. lets hope no one sees this!!
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my rewatch got to season 8
#house md#screenshot#THERE WAS NO WAY I'M NOT POSTING AT LEAST ONE OKAY#my obsession never went away#and knowing me it never will#wentworth miller#and shit i just realized#are there coldflash fics with len under the sleeping beauty curse?...#i know there are with barry#and now i look at this screenshot and can't help thinking about 'hit by the sleeping curse' len#and rogues all go in what the fuck do we do now mode because len is their collective brain cell#most of the time#when it's not about the flash#anyway the brain cell#they need their brain cell#after a week they'll send lisa to team flash#and no one except for mick is suicidal enough to try the kissing thing#lisa tried too#to check if sibling's love will work#it didn't#to team flash it was#and honestly all the rogues were sure (and not very silent about it) that the flash should just kiss the boss#and release all of them from their misery#they had time to make their peace with the concept#they had working eyes and ears okay#team flash was in the same boat#as it appeared#or they were pissed and against it and tried to stop barry from helping#or lisa went to ask for 'len's cute csi friend's contact because she was sure len had hots for the guy#cisco and the flash almost choked on air for very different reasons
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Manga readers don't know what's gonna happen. Anime watchers dont know, I don't know. Fuck, does the studio even know at this point?? Does Asagirir know??? For sure what they're gonna do with our hearts???? How can this manga that started as one author wanting to make dead literary masters into hot guys become such a sense of dread and conflict and excitement all at the same time for me 😭
It's the bungou experience guys. Also preview coming out this evening, prepare the tissues and funeral music✌️
#fuck this is the last week#can't believe i was alive to experience what a rollercoaster of two and a half months could give me#absolute pain and misery#the last ep was literal chills#so fucking good#bungou stray dogs#bsd#bsd anime#bsd manga#bungou stray dogs season five#bsd season 5#bsd season five#IT'S TIME FOR TWILIGHT FAREWELL AHHHHHHHHH#bsd dazai#bsd chuuya#i miss them#*just saw them shoot one of them last week :>
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I wish I could tell every young person with a uterus (especially with bad cramps and/or dysphoria and/or depression, etc) that there is a decent chance they just straight up don’t need to live with that. don’t let the stigma surrounding contraceptives and the expectation that you should just ride it out and suffer win. for the love of god if there’s a chance you can lighten or even stop your period and it’s symptoms all-together, unless there’s a legit health concern, your doctor should at least make you aware of that option. I want every young person to know that “birth control” is not just for birth control and it has the potential to make your life infinitely easier to live. do not give in to anti-pill propaganda im serious
#kibumblabs#I remember being in late high school and my doctor suggesting it because of how terrible my dysphoria/related depressive episodes related to#menstrual cycle shit is. and like. im not saying it was a flawless transition but good god im serious it changed my fucking life#not to the extent testosterone would but it was still like. a Big Deal#because I was like. what the fuck. I’ve been suffering through this shit for years. and no one told me this was a thing? we’re all just#expected to suffer? because it’s ‘Normal’????#this whole time I could just. turn the bleeding off. or at least Down. turn off the debilitating breast soreness and swelling. etc.#anyway im not sure why im thinking about this but#i guess every time i hear someone (without any known health issues that’d interfere) like ah time for my monthly Week Of Pain And Misery#i want to shake them by the shoulders like. YOU DONT NEED TO LIVE LIKE THIS. PLEASE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE AWARE OF THIS.#and yes i know it doesn’t work for everyone or sometimes there’s side effects that make it not worth it or what have you#but for a huge huge huge amount of people. they just don’t know it’s an option. because it’s labelled Birth Control. and because there’s#this long-standing quiet fear mongering about it that makes it seem more dangerous and sinister and promiscuous than it is#similar in a lot of ways to other stigmatized hormone treatments. like. well. you know#doesn’t help that when you first get your prescription it comes with the worlds biggest list of Potential Issues (most of which are either#minor temporary or unlikely)#grahhghhhhhhhhh anyway. on a seperate but related note shout out to my fellow tboys who either didn’t have their periods totally stop on t#or (like in my case) they came back after like Years for whatever reason and that had to be dealt with via supplementary contraceptives#cw menstruation
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have to be honest guys its actually going Really Badly again.
#j.txt#vent#barest thread holding me back right now and I dont even know what to do to fix it besides trying to repress it as deep as possible#I'm just. so overwhelmed and tired and frantic all the time. Work is giving me authority positions I didnt ask for and am not paid to do#my family is insane as always and I'm extra on edge around them bc I can just sense the impending fallout-#from when they realize Im taking hormones. Not that that is actually happening yet bc my insurance is fucking me over#the pharmacy keeps pushing back the date for getting my t (should have had it 3 weeks ago. did not happen.) and I might end up having to pa#nearly Two Hundred Dollars for i dont even know how much of a supply bc of the fucked insurance thing.#And I cant even talk to my therapist about any of this bc my old schedule wont work anymore but I cant get in touch with the office to#see what other openings they may have. and some of the weird nebulous resentment-inducing stuff with my old friends is coming back bc#I hung out with one of them recently and it somehow it Still hurts like a fresh wound despite how often I tell myself Im resigned to being#treated the way I am. I barely have time to spend with the friends I do still have pleasant relationships with so I cant even talk through#any of it like that. and to round it all off my dysphoria has gotten so agonizing of late bc i finally had hope i would be on hrt#but. gestures at earlier topic. my hopes of that are being quickly and brutally slaughtered so.#its just. like genuinely what is the point of any of it. how is This what my life is supposed to be. I know I dont deserve very much#but surely I havent sinned so terribly as to earn misery like this.#and I'm not even strong enough of will to *** about it. pathetic really#I just want one day to feel even neutral abt being alive without having my feet swept from under me by some new unbearable Thing developmen
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me, every time i get sick: please please please let this be the one time i just have a cold for a few days
the infection moving into my lungs after two days, every single time: did someone call for bronchitis? I'm gonna be here for at least a month. maybe two :)
#whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#i had rsv as a child and then after that every single time i got sick it would move into my chest#even when my brother and i got the exact same bug i was sick for twice as long#and it was always so bad that i ended up having to do nebulizer treatments and/or take steroids#and the steroids made me mean as FUCK#and then when i got into my adult years they stopped doing those treatments and just throw cough suppressants at me that don't work#so like clockwork every cold turns into bronchitis after 2 days#i go into the doctor within a week#they give me a cough suppressant that doesn't work#by week 2 or 3 the nonstop coughing has made my chest so tight that every breathe hurts and i cough so hard that im constantly puking#so i end up in the urgent care or e.r where they tell me there's nothing they can do for my cough but have i tried tea with honey?#and this goes on anywhere from one to two months of misery#im gonna miss so much fucking work. godDAMNIT#text post
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Should i finish my degree or just drop out?
Will it benefit me to do it? Probably a little bit.
Will it affect me negatively if i don't? Probably not much.
Will i feel better after doing it? Probably a little bit.
So this should mean the answer is a clear 'yes i should absolutely finish my degree even if i hate every second of it' right? But. I really hate just even thinking about it. But i should. Do it. It would be bad not to. I think-
#there's only one person i want to talk about this with but i don't want to bother him because he has way too much on his plate already#so I'll just imagine our conversation about it (as one does. im normal. not weird at all) and see if i gain some insight#in the end i should decide for myself and not base my decision on what other people may think of me#i just need to find some way out of this lethargy that i let take over these past few weeks#it's not like i Can't do it#idek if i don't Want to do it#i just feel drained and unsatisfied and all and i think maybe i should try just a bit longer and then i can still say fuck it im out#anyway#public broadcast of my overthinking over#sorry about that#void screams#university stuff#academic misery
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hey guys
#vent#just... gimmie a sec im gonna put it in the tags i cant find the readmore on my phone rn#im havin a straight up not good time but not the worst in the house!#the worst is my cat. whose old and dying. and i have no money to put to sleep to fuckin put us both outta this misery#typical. she cant get a heart attack and go fast like my moms dog#shes gotta wail and be ill for a month while im recovering from one surgery and trying to get ready for the next#its also an amazing time for my ocd that i learned i have from artists on hear explaining what it is to send me into spirals#over germs. but shes just 20 with teeth and respiratory issues her whole life and been struggling with constipation#so i KNOW how shes dying. shes backed up and hungry and dehydrated but feeling bloated still and not eating or drinking.#shes probably got arthritis and has been moving like a geriatric for a while but its to the point now she wont even lay down. shes just#perched on a pile of towels in the bathroom dozing and occasionally crying for me to come pet her. im so fuckin tired#and theres nothing i can do! the vet i could find a timeslot for in a reasonable time said 500$. so thats cool. im paying 1000$ for me in#a week for my stuff and its just. god all she and i are doing is crying and it sucks ass#she wants company for comfort and i dont blame her - so the fuck do i!#but i cant sit in the bathroom with her my damn legs keep going numb. and my roomate 1) cant emotionally buoy me thru this#and 2) has a long work day tomorrow and its already mad late. sigh#dont try to offer me condolences ive worked thru her dying already its just now we're botb exhausted in the form its taking#if anything i just need another distraction to keep me from spiraling over something again#edit: ARUGH AND THE OTHER CAT THROWING UP IN THE OTHER ROOM. GOD DAMN IT#the younger one has so many allergies and wont stop fucking eating things off the floor babygirl i am BEDRIDDEN you gotta stop eating shit#off the floor!!!!!!!! you have specialty food for a reason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#awesome it was right in my bed
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yet another social event i ruined for myself by being a pushover and a wallflower! my favorite!
#literally told myself i was gonna put in the effort to have a good time#and every time i said anything to someone who wasn't one of the three people i love who were there i was like#why the fuck did i say that why the fuck did i say that i need to go die immediately please put me out of my misery#huzzah yk#well! whatever#time to overthink about this until the next time i leave the house in like two weeks#my life is just so grand#... at least my outfit was cute :/
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#so thinking abt my inability to do things in thr context of my 0cd is interesting. bc i would say my primary problem is my obsessive#compulsive behavior and inflexibility. idk if thr inflexibility is inherent to me bc its part of the reason i got stamped with aut1sm or but#its part of what maked it so hard to tell if i had 0cd or not. bc im just so fucking rigid and structured abt literally everything without#any reason. y do i have to do X thing and i cant do Y thing? idk my brain just says i cant. which kinda does align with 0cd more or just#like something compulsive. and its sorta weird bc i think im a lot more aligned with purely obsessional 0cd. so i dont do a lot of external#ritual. its more abstract. like constantly i have to work or b perfect or else i start getting intrusive thoughts. always thr same ones. and#to make them go away i have to physically suffer usually thru overworking to my mental breaking point or sometimes more direct ways#when its really bad. and then i have to keep working. and i do a lot of fucking ruminating. fucking constand catogorizing and pathological#self reflection. again i have high standards and high affinity for self punishment which is a lot to deal with. its exhausting and misery#making. and the annoying thing is that im like this for a reason. i mean it makes sense. having a learning disability plus bad short term#working memory plus some mood weirdness. ive created a structure that makes me productive but also creates so much pressure thst i cant#function at all sometimes. and whats worse is that even then even with the amount of checking i do i am still a master of fucking up the lil#things. i forgot to write my name in the autoclave list and caused problems for ppl bc i forgot when i went up there Even tho i new i needed#to. i also forgot to put thr foam cap on a liquid nitrogen tank which would have been SO FUCKING BAD if it all evaporated. so many samples#woulf have been lost bc i just fucking forgot to put it back. that was just this week. idk i just forget things like that. i left a freezer#door open in hs and we lost everything in the freezer. i also fucked up an whole experiment by not reading a schedule right. and its really#frustrating not being able to trust that youve done the right thing in the past. not to mention all the bullshit i mislabel but thats more#dys1exia realated. alas. i check and check and get anxious spikes of: FUCK DID I DO X? for a reason. but also its no fun#unrelated
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x. polite because no one deserves to be purposefully treated rudely. kind because kindness keeps a person gentle. sweet because making people smile is uplifting. helpful for the same reason. supportive because if you dont have anything nice to say, it's extremely easy not to say anything at all. above all, do unto others what you would have them do unto you.
o. polite because it's the best way to fade all the way into the background. kind because i'm too afraid to let myself be cruel. sweet because of overwhelming&pathetic desperation to make people happy. helpful because it's too exhausting to cause waves. supportive because other's goals are a great distraction from my own. above all, a smile makes the best camouflage as long as no one can ever see you sweat.
x. lonely+isolated because of mental+physical health restrictions. i miss people-- i miss being surprised, i miss relating to people on any level that isn't abject pain. i miss connection, communion, community.
o. alone+introspective because it pays off to be so. i don't miss people at all-- in fact it is a true sign of growth that it is not my knee-jerk reaction to say that i hate them for everything that (an admittedly small sampling of) people have done to me.
x. i am so terrified of communication at this point, &traumatized by Other People just in general, that i regularly shut my notifications off on everything because the sound of any form of notification ring that i recognize can literally kick off vicious panic attacks and send me running for dark corners, lmao. i am pathetic-- but i am a survivor.
o: i am charming, fun, &social to varying degrees dependent on the work. i am adaptable, everything from the center of attention to support staff with ease. smiling through blood in my mouth&talking to basically anyone for minutes to hours is child's play-- literally, since that is when i learned it.
x. pride over the skills i've developed over a lifetime of nonsense. made possible by mania, perhaps.
o. shame over the skills i've developed over a lifetime of nonsense. put off by disassociation, definitely.
x. i am kind and small and smiling and invisible. please just leave me alone. please don't even look at me, i literally cannot bear it, i just want to be alone again, please do not hurt me, i will do anything to make you happy if you just promise not to hurt me.
o. i am vicious and bloody and loud, and i will make you look at me, i will make you see me. i will give you a reason for that sneer, &i have no problem giving and taking blood in the process. my blood is worth so much less that i will win this no matter what-- i am braver than you could ever be because i have nothing that i'm afraid i'll lose.
x: i just want to make people smile.
o: i just want to never see another living person ever again.
x: like me, like me, like me. please just like me. i just want to be safe from abject hatred. i just want to be likeable. i can be anything, anyone-- it isn't like i want to keep all my parts, anyway, just tell me what i need to toss to be normal. just tell me what to chop off to be loveable.
o: i will give you every reason to fucking hate me if that is what's going to happen, anyway. i have spent a lifetime becoming who i am, usually against my will-- i can finally look in the mirror without flinching, &i won't let anyone take that away from me. you'll pry my forced self-acceptance out of my cold, dead hands.
x: i have been so lucky. i have been so fucking lucky. every single day i am reminded of all the many ways it could have been worse, things could have been worse, life could have been worse. i am so lucky. i owe the red string everything for letting me finally be someone i like sometimes.
o: i might have been lucky, but somehow i doubt anyone treating my gratitude or happiness like a red flag would be capable of living a day in my life-- or any singular one of the days i've lived thus far. but i can definitely give them a taste if that's what they need to wipe the snide looks off their faces. i'll hate myself after for giving in to the temptation, though. i always do.
x: there's good in everything. if you look for it, there will always be good somewhere. you just need to look. happiness is a conscious decision. kindness is a conscious decision. being a decent person is a perpetual and conscious decision.
o: there's bad in everything, too, and the second i see it, i cannot unsee it. or forgive it, usually. why is it so much easier to see how much people fucking suck?
x: i want perfection. practice, constant effort, dedication-- i need perfection, i'll get perfection. if i can't, what's the point? if there's not even the possibility, what is the fucking point? how am i supposed to live if i know my lifelong goal is&always has been unattainable?
o. perfection isn't an objective possibility. how many times&different ways do i need to fail at the impossible reality before it actually settles in. it isn't possible. i'm dedicating my life to an impossible pursuit. more specifically, i'm committing myself to eternal&constant punishment for failure. why, though. why am i like this.
x. i hate myself so much sometimes i feel like i might actually lose my mind.
o. i am so full of pride sometimes i feel like i might burst at the fucking seams with it all.
x. i am terrified that i'm not capable of living unless it's fighting uphill. who am i without the struggle? who am i past the trauma?
o. if fighting uphill is what made me what i am, what does it matter if i never lose the edge? why should it matter if i need the extra motivation? if i can handle it, why should the struggle be a bad thing?
#so my bipolar diagnosis has been a central theme in my life for the past couple months right.#&i have a really. specific. relationship w my diagnosis lmao. bc its not like i can pretend im not certifiable lmao#but like also this diagnosis up until i literally lost parts of my sanity over turbo had only ever been used for several types#of negligence lmao.#&bc its been a Conversation lately ive been having to reflect on how i feel about it more than i have in. years probably lmao.#&like my thing is i have trouble telling the difference between being an unstable person vs being a complex person.#idk. something something what is the self without the Other? something something tree falls in the woods&no one hears it ect ect.#something something what makes anything real in regards to things so abstract&subjective?#bc until someone actually has the balls to slice me open&test my brain chemistry to put me out of my misery its all just a debate lmao.#idk lots of polarizing thoughts lately maybe.#... as always i dont really have a trigger warning specific for anything but it feels relevant anyway.#........... my doc is gonna have a field day. i dont want new meds but i have a feeling an adjustment is coming soon. 🫠🫠🫠#on the plus side tho! i have successfully kept my weight up past 105lbs for a solid week. so. solid win in all my other med departments.#(... i just remembered i had a bf once who used to HATE reading all my ramblings lmao he said i talked way too much&it showed.#i'm so fucking happy we broke up before that could actually sink in enough to ruin my big fucking mouth LMAO)#(edit: my doc had a field day lmao.)
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I just watched Bisans video about why anyone celebrating Christmas should be ashamed of themselves.
And she has every right to say that and she's right. We should be.
I think of how happy I was to put up my tree this year, I got a real tree for the first time and it brings me so much joy to see it. I wonder of I have the right to that small joy each day. How dare I?
But then I think to myself that this time of year, these stupid decorations and traditions exist for so many reasons not the least of which is a reminder that the long nights will end. Almost every holiday celebrated around this time is about the same thing when you strip away the fluff. It's about light in the darkness. The candles will burn, the sun will rise, the star will lead us to the savior. Its all people being in the cold and the dark and reminding themselves that it will end.
And I wonder if maybe some of us do need that this year more than others. There are people for whom this winter is going to be worse than I can even fathom and my dumb issues pale in comparison but is wallowing in my own misery helping them? I don't think so. Maybe it's stupid for a dying Douglas fir draped in lights to bring me joy but fuck something has to? Right?
How do you find joy in a world like this? How do you justify happiness when a genocide is happening? When multiple genocides are happening?
I don't know. I'm trying to figure it out. Because me collapsing under the weight of the world certainly doesn't help anyone.
I know I've done things in the past few months that I will have to answer for one day, even if it's just to myself. I know I haven't given as much as I could or gone to as many protests as I could. I know that when my grandchildren ask me about this time I will have to look them in their eyes and say "I had to go to work." and they will be right to judge me.
This post has lost the plot. It's starting to sound like I'm asking for absolution for buying a fucking Christmas tree during a genocide but I'm not. I can reckon with my own conscious. I'm the one who saw all of those dead children and then went to sing Jingle Bells with the perfectly safe and privileged children of the families I work for. Maybe I'll forgive myself one day.
Merry fucking Christmas I guess
#this is literally just a stream of consciousness and misery#its late and im tired and this is the first time in weeks ive had a moment to truly feel a fucking emotion#and boy is it rough#i wanna go to sleep but im working!#im always working#i cried holding one of the babies yesterday#bc he was so warm and looked so safe and happy asleep on my chest#and were both mixed and brown and i know that this world is dangerous but in that moment we werw warm and safe#and it was such a privilege#this is all self pity#im venting some big confusing feelings
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my first draft of my capstone is a week overdue so i’m trying the ole sleep deprivation method (i.e. no sleep til it’s done) but now it’s 3am i’ve faffed my way into getting one more page done and the harsh reality that this paper is truly not going to write itself is setting in. what the fuck gives
#ik the real issue is ‘no more gas in the tank’ which is just#the natural result of cranking out 5-10 page papers every other week to sometimes several times a week for the last month#all research based btw hence the misery#like. i could slaughter an analytical essay give me an argumentative prompt and i’ll hash that out in an hour#but please for the love of god stop asking me to produce. i have no more thoughts. my zotero is pleading for mercy#if i can stave off burning out for just one more month i’ll make it but Holy Fuck Lmao#gnashing my teeth tearing my hair etc etc let me OUTTT let me outtttttt 😭😭😭😭#i can’t keep living like this!!! please no more long term projects i can’t take it anymore
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911twt is so funny I just saw someone post "kristen not writing a single ep of s6 but still being my worst nightmare" babe you're admitting to having beef with her when she hasn't done anything what do you think that SAYS
#911twt girlies (gn) stop fighting air challenge#find your peace#stop harrassing the poor woman for no damn reason#a couple weeks ago one of them got a hit tweet insulting kristen for something the INTERVIEWER said and then when they realize not only did#they not delete the tweet#they just went lmao it sounded like something she would say#have some fucking shame i know its twitter and you're all frogs slow boiling in your own low grade misery but its a bit much even for you#i dont know shit about kristen or her history with the show but 606 exists and that takes out 80% of arguments against her#i can sense bullshit when i see it and the weird hate bandwagon yall have going on is just that
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Being in my new department is bad for me because nobody gives a shit what anyone thinks and it’s rubbing off on me and I am going to get fired for telling a manager to go fuck themself any day now.
#chit chat#the guy who was in my job before me came to visit today#and he was telling me that he quit his new job and told everyone to go fuck themself in the same breath#so i guess it would prove that there is exactly one type of person for this job#god i should have just fucking quit in August like i intended#work stuff#i made cupcakes tonight and they all turned out bitter because i am filled with misery and it infected the food#i also gave myself a nosebleed from crying all night but that was unrelated to the shit cupcakes#i am going to bed tomorrow and if i end up quitting or getting fired for Christmas you will all find out on friday’s chapter lol#which i have yet to edit but maybe I’ll just post it raw because i have not had a single fucking hour this week to do anything fun#i hate december#and im going to bed now
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