#It's human nature to feel internal conflict and struggle between the parts of you that want different things.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

These FFS inner demons are very “disco elysium skills” reminiscent. I NEED to meet that cast! Also freaking awesome work to you and your buddy :]

May it be an open secret that one of my inspirations was Disco Elysium. I think they could party together.

[r0se1111]

hi!! would u be willing to do pippin x reader?🤲 u can take it into any direction ud like

Pippin the light of my life... how'd you know he's my fave :))

Pippin x Human! Fem! Reader

This goof likes you so much. You met as part of the Fellowship, and his talkative nature made conversation flow easily. Within the first week of travel you find yourself consistently at his side, whether consciously or not. Early on in your relationship on your side it was definitely more complicated in terms of your feelings. Oh he's a great friend and so fun to be around and I'd die for him but what if he thinks I'm too different and this quest is more important than my feelings and oh he's a good dancer and has a pretty smile and- you get the picture. You feel conflicted between your duty to the Fellowship and the quest, and your growing feelings for the hobbit.

Pippin meanwhile is completely oblivious to your internal struggle and content to simply bask in his own feelings for you, which had been steadily growing from a genuine interest in a new friend to a bunch of butterflies and a buzz he couldn't get from any pipeweed in the world. I don't imagine he would care much about your race, human or otherwise. He thinks you're tall and kind and have a pretty singing voice, and when he tries to teach you to dance by the light of the campfire your hands are soft and warm.

You two would be sooo oblivious and obnoxious to the rest of the Fellowship who has to watch Pippin's many attempts of flirting and multiple crashes into trees from staring at you for too long, as well as witnessing your own shy smiles and blushing cheeks when he finally overtook you during sparring practice one day.

Finally, once things start getting more serious and Pippin gets taken to Gondor and the two of you are separated, you both begin to realize the serious nature of your feelings. This isn't just a crush, I want fight in battle with this person then move into a little house in a hill together and live happily ever after. So, once the War of the Ring is over and the Fellowship is reunited, Pippin comes to you wearing his Gondorian armor and holding an armful of flowers, shakily exhaling all his feelings in a quick IreallylikeyouIthinkyouarebraveandgoodandIreallywanttodancewithyouallthetimeandcouldyoumaybefeelthesame??? Which of course you reply to with a beaming smile and a pair of hands fisting his shirt as you pull him up into a kiss.

[lichilly]

"It Will Come Back" — Hozier

Werewolf Joseph AU (Song Analysis)

I heavily encourage you to go listen to this song, either along with the analysis or by itself ! This post won't hold the same weight (in my opinion) if you go in blindly!

(tumblr hates me trying to upload my own mp3.. so I had to link to youtube instead..)

I’ve loved this song for a long time, and as I’ve delved into the Werewolf Joseph AU, I’ve noticed that it heavily relates to how I view werewolf Joseph. This song perfectly portrays the push and pull of Joseph’s internal struggle between his human side and his more feral, werewolf nature. Alright, let's dive in!!

You know better, babe, you know better, babe Than to look at it, look at it like that You know better, babe, you know better, babe Than to talk to it, talk to it like that

These opening lines reflect Joseph’s internal conflict. The “It” throughout the song refers to his werewolf side—a part of him he believes shouldn’t be acknowledged. By referring to it as “It,” Joseph distances himself from this aspect of his identity, as if it’s something separate, something dangerous that could easily latch onto the MC if provoked.

Don't give it a hand, offer it a soul Honey, make this easy Leave it to the land, this is what it knows Honey, that's how it sleeps

This verse speaks to Joseph’s primal nature, which is deeply rooted in him and exists beyond his human control. The line “Don’t give it a hand, offer it a soul” is a warning to the MC. Engaging with Joseph on a deeper level—offering more than just superficial affection—awakens something in him that he struggles to suppress. The "land" here symbolizes Joseph’s instinctual connection to his feral side, which only "sleeps" when left undisturbed.

Don't let it in with no intention to keep it Jesus Christ, don't be kind to it Honey, don't feed it, it will come back

This verse highlights the inevitability of Joseph’s return to the MC if they show him kindness or affection. His feral side cannot be ignored, and the MC’s kindness, fuels Joseph’s obsession. The warning “Don’t be kind to it/don’t feed it” suggests that even a small gesture of kindness has significant effects on Joseph. It awakens a hunger in him.

You know better, babe, you know better, babe Than to smile at me, smile at me like that You know better, babe, you know better, babe Than to hold me just, hold me just like that

This verse echoes the earlier warnings but with a more personal touch. By this point, Joseph and the MC have developed a closer bond. The MC’s smile, their touch—simple, human gestures—have a powerful effect on Joseph. Their growing closeness blurs the lines between affection and danger, making it harder for Joseph to maintain control over his instincts.

I know who I am when I'm alone I'm something else when I see you You don't understand, you should never know How easy you are to need

This verse is crucial in understanding Joseph’s internal struggle. When he’s alone, he has a sense of control over who he is, but the moment he sees the MC, his control begins to slip. He becomes “something else,” his feral nature taking over. The line “you should never know how easy you are to need” reveals how irresistible the MC is to Joseph, a fact that he knows the MC could never fully comprehend.

It can't be unlearned I've known the warmth of your doorways Through the cold, I'll find my way back to you

This lyric can be seen as both literal and symbolic. In the fanfiction I’m writing based around this song, the MC is staying in a cabin in the middle of winter. The cabin represents a warm, safe space, not just physically but emotionally—a place linked to the MC. Joseph feels a sense of warmth and safety in their presence, something he’s never experienced before.

Oh, please, give me mercy no more That's a kindness you can't afford I warn you, baby, each night, as sure as you're born You'll hear me howling outside your door

This verse marks a turning point for Joseph. Here, he fully succumbs to his true nature. The line “You’ll hear me howling outside your door” signifies his complete loss of control. Hozier’s almost growling delivery of this lyric emphasizes Joseph’s transformation—he’s no longer the man he once was, but something far more primal and dangerous. His howling outside the MC’s door is both a warning and a declaration that his obsession has taken over completely.

Don't you hear me howling, babe? Don't you hear me howling, babe? Don't you hear me howling, babe? Don't you hear me howling? Don't you hear me howling? Don't you hear me howling, babe?

This is my favorite part of the song ( no surprise there hehe). The repeated question, “Don’t you hear me howling?” serves as SUCH a haunting conclusion. The repetition, combined with the loud drumbeat that, to me, mimics knocking on a door, suggests desperation. The haunting, eerie nature of these lines reflects the idea that Joseph is no longer fully in control—he is now fully driven entirely by his feral nature and his obsession with the MC.

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I hope you enjoyed this analysis! It was quite difficult trying to wrangle all my buzzing thoughts together but alas, I have done it. If you're interested in learning a little more about the werewolf AU you can find more about it over on my twitter linked at the top! Fair warning, most of it is incoherent rambles asdjldkfa

[nondelphic]

Hello! I was wondering if you had any advice to impart on me in regards to a thing I'm writing? I don't really know what I'm doing. its fine if you can't! Or don't want to! I just figured id ask

I'm trying write this character, which is a demon or eldritch creature(or a mix of the two) that was infected with morals, which came about due to the method that was used to contain them(for a period) in order to stop them since no one had the ability to harm them in anyway that actually mattered, let alone actually put a stop to them. I won't go into the details but It has led to them developing an admittedly not-entirely-working set of morals but functioning ones that were working enough that it tends to poke their now-existing conscience at regular intervals.

I'm trying to figure out how to give them a voice that fits them, but I'm trouble with it.

Part of it i think is that I'm having trouble expressing their otherness, as well as finding a good balance where being evil or cruel wasn't their whole personality.... I've also had them going through an existential crisis(in present time) on top of everything, which probably isn't helping me flesh them out at all. I'm probably trying to do too many things at once with this character but I'm not sure what to do about it

Anyways I'd love any thoughts or advice you can give me! Again it's alright if you can't! Thanks for listening! Bye 👋

hello!! first of all, don’t worry, you’re not alone in feeling like you have no idea what you’re doing. writing complex characters, especially something as wild as a demon/eldritch creature with morals, is tricky but also such a cool concept! i love that you’re playing with the idea of them being infected with morals due to how they were contained, that’s such a fun twist ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა♡ (if i comprehended it correctly).

for giving them a voice that fits, you might want to lean into their 'otherness' by having them struggle to make sense of these newly acquired morals. imagine how disorienting it would be for an ancient, possibly indifferent or malevolent being to suddenly have a conscience—it would almost be like speaking a language they’ve never learned. they might be confused by empathy, irritated by guilt, or even amused by the idea of right vs wrong. their voice could reflect that frustration or confusion, with moments where they’re almost… bemused (??) by their own behavior, like “why do i care about this pitiful human’s feelings, but for some reason… i do?”

as for the existential crisis, i actually think that’s a great layer to add to their character! it shows that they’re evolving (or being forced to evolve), and it gives you opportunities for introspection. maybe they don't understand their own 'human' reactions and get stuck in the 'what am i?' spiral. just try not to overload their development all at once. pace it so the reader can feel the tension between their demonic nature and their new set of morals slowly unravel.

also, you mentioned you're having trouble balancing their cruelty vs personality, which makes sense. maybe instead of thinking of them as 'evil,' think of them as amoral. they didn't necessarily act out of malice before, just because they could. now, with the infected morals, they might wrestle with decisions they wouldn’t have given a second thought to in the past, which could create some cool internal conflict. it's not that they want to be cruel anymore, but they can't entirely shut off their old habits either.

hope some of this helps! good luck with your writing, and feel free to come back if you ever need more brainstorming! 𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑ .ᐟ ᡣ𐭩 and soz for the long reply ahhh i got caught up in it 𖦹 ´ ᯅ ` 𖦹

[monratarot]

Tarot tips and tricks - Conflict indicators

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Conflict refers to a disagreement or struggle between two or more parties due to incompatible interests, goals, or values.

Conflict can arise in various settings, such as within relationships, organizations, communities, or even on a larger scale between countries. It is a natural part of human interaction, but how it is managed and resolved can have significant impacts on relationships and outcomes.

Conflict resolution strategies can include negotiation, communication, mediation, or seeking compromise.

By approaching conflicts with empathy, communication, and a willingness to learn and grow, you can navigate challenging situations in various aspects of life and foster stronger, more meaningful relationships with others.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚5 of wands

In a group setting, the 5 of Wands suggests that there may be disagreements or differing opinions among members. It could indicate healthy competition or creative tension that can lead to new ideas and solutions. However, it also signifies the need for effective communication, compromise, and cooperation to navigate these conflicts and work towards common goals. Embracing diversity of thought and finding a balance between individual perspectives can help in resolving conflicts and fostering a more harmonious group dynamic.

*ੈ✩‧���˚The tower

When The Tower card appears in a Tarot reading, it symbolizes a major shake-up or upheaval in one's life. This could be triggered by a conflict, crisis, or sudden event that disrupts the status quo and breaks down existing structures. While this may initially seem challenging or distressing, it ultimately paves the way for necessary transformation and growth. The Tower encourages embracing change, letting go of what no longer serves you, and being open to rebuilding stronger foundations for the future. It signifies that sometimes conflicts or disruptions can lead to positive outcomes and personal evolution.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚7 of wands

When the 7 of Wands appears in a reading, it indicates a situation where you are facing opposition or challenges from others. This could be in the form of conflicting opinions, competition, or resistance to your ideas or actions. The card encourages you to stand firm in your beliefs, defend your position with confidence, and be assertive in protecting your interests. It highlights the importance of maintaining your boundaries, being resilient in the face of adversity, and showing determination in overcoming obstacles. By asserting yourself and staying true to your values, you can successfully navigate conflicts and emerge stronger from the experience.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚2 of swords

When the 2 of Swords appears in a Tarot reading, it signifies a period of indecision and inner conflict. You may be facing a situation where you feel stuck between two options, unable to see clearly or make a decision. This card highlights the need to acknowledge your conflicting thoughts or emotions, confront the issue at hand, and seek clarity to move forward. It encourages you to trust your intuition, weigh your options carefully, and find a balanced resolution to the internal struggle. By addressing the root of the conflict and choosing a path forward, you can overcome indecision and gain a sense of clarity and peace.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚3 of swords

When the 3 of Swords appears in a Tarot reading, it signifies a period of emotional distress, heartbreak, or betrayal. This card often symbolizes the pain of a broken heart, feelings of sadness, or the aftermath of a difficult situation in relationships. It highlights the need to address and process your emotions, acknowledge the hurt you are experiencing, and work towards healing and moving forward. The 3 of Swords encourages you to confront your feelings, seek closure if needed, and take steps towards emotional recovery and self-care. By acknowledging your pain and allowing yourself to grieve, you can begin the process of healing and eventual renewal.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚5 of cups

When the 5 of Cups appears in a Tarot reading, it symbolizes feelings of disappointment, grief, and focusing on what has been lost rather than what remains. This card often represents a period of sadness or regret, where you may be mourning past disappointments or missed opportunities. The figure in the card is usually depicted looking at the spilled cups, symbolizing a fixation on what has gone wrong rather than noticing the two cups that are still standing upright, representing hope and potential for renewal. The 5 of Cups encourages you to acknowledge your feelings of loss and disappointment but also reminds you to shift your perspective towards finding opportunities for growth, learning, and moving forward. By recognizing the silver lining amidst the challenges, you can begin to heal, let go of the past, and embrace new possibilities for the future.

*ੈ✩‧₊˚9 of swords

When the 9 of Swords appears in a Tarot reading, it signifies a period of intense worry, anxiety, and mental turmoil. This card represents the overwhelming burden of negative thoughts, fears, and internal conflicts that may be keeping you up at night. The figure in the card is often depicted with hands on their head, surrounded by swords, symbolizing the mental anguish and distress they are experiencing.

The 9 of Swords serves as a reminder to address your fears and anxieties, confront your inner demons, and seek support if needed. It urges you to challenge negative thought patterns, practice self-care, and find healthy ways to cope with stress. By acknowledging your worries and taking steps to address them, you can work towards easing your mind, finding peace, and moving towards a place of mental clarity and calm.

[sokkastyles]

To continue the discussion re: Katara and forgiveness I have a scalding hot take. It's important for me to disclaim that I don't fault Katara for wanting revenge on her mother's killer, nor have I ever believed she was in the wrong for feeling that way. However, sometimes I think Katara is expected to be an eternally forgiving Madonna figure because that was the image of herself she herself projected. From the very start of the show she's been rather self-righteous and never had doubts about her indestructible moral compass. Her line from Spirit Lady about never turning her back on the people who need her just gave me the impression that she has a mighty big savior complex. I know most people are endeared to her for those reasons but due to my own personal tastes it had the opposite effect for me (and I'm worried I'll get some flack for saying all this). I love characters who struggle with doing the Right Thing (tm) SUE ME. And now comes a situation where she finally FINALLY has a major moral quandary. She's manufactured this image of being perpetually virtuous. But now the illusion is shattered when there's discordance between what she wants to do versus what is the right (albeit, subjectively so) thing to do. You know, something every other human on earth has struggled with and that for a while she had distanced herself from. It was refreshing to see this major conflict between her and the people in her life. I just wanted to share my two cents (and friendly reminder I acknowledge that it's a scalding hot take) and I hope my criticism of Katara doesn't evoke too much anger from the ATLA masses *Sweats nervously*

To be honest, I think it's odd to say that Katara has always portrayed herself as perpetually virtuous when she's introduced to us in the very first episode yelling about having to wash Sokka's dirty socks. Right off the bat, we are told that she is a character who does NOT accept the role of the perfect, quiet, subservient, nurturing female. That's what I mean by a Madonna figure. It's a specific term used to describe misogynistic standards placed on women. Standards Katara speaks out against, loudly and openly, in the first few seconds she is introduced.

Katara's strong sense of morals is another matter. Katara has a defined sense of right and wrong and that means she holds herself to high standards, too, but that is a big part of her moral struggle. And that's been a part of her arc since early on, too, when she ran into conflict with the earthbenders or Jet in season one because they didn't live up to her moral standards and because she didn't know what the right thing to do was when the people she expected to be the heroes wouldn't step up in the way she expected, or turned out to actually be the villains. Katara has a certain way she expects the world to be and throughout the show that ideal is constantly fighting with the reality of the world and its expectations.

But all of this also occurs because of the pressure she feels to fit a certain standard, and to say that Katara imposed this on herself is kinda ignorant of the institutional nature of sexism, to be honest. Katara may think it's her job to take care of everyone, but she was eight years old when she began to internalize that, and it didn't happen in a vacuum, it happened due to the expectations that already existed for girls to take on a motherly role plus the trauma of her mother's death.

That's one of the things about sexism. It says that girls and women need to behave a certain way, then treats that prescribed behavior like it's a natural trait instead of a learned one and makes it the subject of mockery. Katara is often treated this way by the narrative, too. And then when she acts in a way that is counter to that prescribed behavior, it's portrayed as weird or out of line, even though that part of Katara has always been present throughout the story, and in fact one of the reasons she was so angry in the Southern Raiders was because the others kept acting like she was somehow not herself instead of recognizing where her hurt was coming from.

Sorry, I find this take to be luke-warm, at best.

[theskeletontarot]

FIVE OF CANES

The Five of Canes brings a shift in the energy—a bit of chaos, a lot of conflict, and the challenge of differing perspectives. In The Skeleton Tarot Deck, this card is illustrated with five skeletons wielding their canes as clubs, whipping up a cloud of dust amidst the fight. It's all about the friction that comes when passions collide, the struggle that arises when everyone wants to lead the charge. It’s a card that asks you to face the discomfort of competition, not as something to avoid, but as a force that can fuel growth.

When the Five of Canes shows up, it’s likely that you’re in the midst of a situation where everyone’s trying to make their voice heard, but no one’s really listening. There’s tension in the air, a sense that the stakes are high, and everyone’s fighting for their place. This card doesn’t sugarcoat the reality of conflict—it shows the messiness of human interaction, the way our drives and desires can put us at odds with one another.

But it’s not just about the struggle. The Five of Canes also carries the potential for transformation. Through these challenges, you’re being invited to step up, assert yourself, and find your place within the chaos. It’s about learning to navigate conflict, finding common ground, and channeling that fiery energy into something productive.

In the context of community and change, the Five of Canes is a reminder that friction is a natural part of growth. When people with different perspectives and passions come together, there will be clashes. But these moments of conflict can also be opportunities for deeper understanding, stronger bonds, and collective progress. This card encourages you to see conflict not as a destructive force, but as a catalyst for meaningful change—both within yourself and within your community.

WHAT TO CONSIDER WHEN THE FIVE OF CANES APPEARS:

Conflict and Competition: You might be facing a situation where different voices are competing for attention. How can you assert yourself while also finding a way to collaborate?

Passion and Tension: Reflect on the source of the tension. Is it coming from a place of passion and drive? How can you harness that energy for positive outcomes?

Growth through Struggle: Consider how the challenges you’re facing can lead to personal or collective growth. What lessons can be learned from the conflict?

Navigating Differences: Think about how you can bridge the gap between differing perspectives. How can you find common ground and work towards a shared goal?

WHEN THE FIVE OF CANES SHOWS UP IN REVERSE:

Avoided Conflict: Reversed, the Five of Canes may indicate a reluctance to face conflict head-on. Are you avoiding necessary confrontations? What might happen if you address the issue directly?

Internal Struggle: You might be dealing with internal conflict, feeling torn between different desires or goals. How can you find clarity and move forward?

Suppressed Passion: Perhaps you’re holding back your true feelings to keep the peace. Consider whether this is serving you or if it’s time to speak up.

Missed Opportunities for Growth: Are you seeing the challenges you face as obstacles rather than opportunities? Reflect on how you can reframe the situation to encourage growth.

The Five of Canes is a card of conflict, competition, and the fiery energy that comes with clashing passions. But it’s also a card of potential—potential for growth, for deeper understanding, and for turning struggle into strength. Embrace the challenge, find your voice within the chaos, and remember that through these conflicts, both you and your community can emerge stronger.

[thewritingautisticat]

WIP Questionnaire

Thank you @tildeathiwillwrite for the tag! (From 2 weeks ago lol but anyways)

I'm answering these for The Flames of Revolution!

1. What’s the first part of your WIP that you created?

Technically this is the prequel to my Days of Resistance series, so I came up with a lot of the world and character stuff before I started this book specifically. Most of the first stuff I created was just bits and pieces of Caldren's backstory, mainly about him being an assassin, and a lot of the moments with him and Peg.

2. If your story was a TV show, what would the theme song/intro be?

"Things We Lost in the Fire" by Bastille is one of the songs I really associate with this book in particular. Fire is a huge element to Caldren's character arc. Almost all the big turning points in his life involve flames, hence the name of the book. Both the lyrics and the vibe fit really well.

But if I was looking for a song for the series as a whole, I really like "War of Change" by Thousand Foot Crutch. It fits with both the outer conflict with the government and with the internal conflict of some of the characters.

3. What are your favorite characters that you made? Why?

Peg. I love Caldren to death, but Peg is my favorite little guy in all the world. He's so sweet and perfect and pure. I put him through so much trauma, but despite it all he just keeps going and holding onto his kind, sweet nature.

Caldren is so great too though. He's so, so stupid sometimes, but his character arc is great. He's also such an interesting mess of contradictions, and despite everything he's a great big bro.

Madreline is so hard-working and supportive. She takes no nonsense, but is still very sweet and compassionate. I really wish I could write her in more tbh.

I'm going to put in Scatterwag as an honorable mention because he's probably my favorite side character. He has some of the same vibes as Fagin from Oliver Twist or Long John Silver in Treasure Planet. Like, you know his morals are extremely messed up and he's probably committed absolute atrocities, but there's something so jolly and lovable about him that you can't help liking him.

4. What other pieces of media do you think your fanbase would share?

I'm honestly not sure. It's a really weird genre, hinting at historical fiction but definitely not actually that, but not quite fantasy either? I think that people who like it would also like things like the Hunger Games. It was also inspired a lot by The Wingfeather Saga, so I think that would also be something my fanbase might share.

5. What has been your biggest struggle with your WIP?

Training scenes. Caldren's whole thing is wanting to become stronger/more adept at fighting so he can get his revenge, but I am absolutely horrible at writing training scenes. There's like, at least three and I'm trying to figure out how to write them beyond "and then they taught him how to use a dagger" 😅.

6. Are there any animals in your story? Talk about them!

I don't really have any specific animals in this book, although there's a pretty nice dog in other books of the series. In this book, Caldren does have a horse, but it's not super important. There's also a few mentions of the street dogs! They're these unwanted, abandoned dogs that wander the back streets of the big cities in packs, and will occasionally attack humans to try to get food. While they are legitimate threats, there's this whole thing about Peg relating to the street dogs because he knows how it feels to be cast out and considered monstrous and unlovable. Andreu tames one later in the series.

7. How do your characters travel/get around?

It's a time period before cars, so the main transportation is wagons, carriages, and horses. Carriages are usually for the wealthy, though. Caldren rides a horse between cities. Within the city, Caldren and Peg travel mainly by foot. They know the back streets and all the shortcuts really well. Caldren also ends up learning how to travel by rooftop.

8. What part of your WIP are you working on right now?

Filling in all the spots I skipped over when I did NaNoWriMo last year. I feel like I'm getting so close to being finished and then I realize there are whole chapters I skipped because I wasn't sure what exactly was going on in it. I guess it's technically still in the first draft but I feel like I've changed things and filled in so many plot holes that it's gotta be at least the third draft 😅

9. What aspects (tropes, maybe?) will you think draw your audience in?

One big thing is the found family with Caldren and Peg.

Besides that:

- Assassins

- Dystopian, but not super disturbing or graphic

- The fact that it's a Christian YA (?) book that not super annoying and cliche. (I hope 😅)

10. What are your hopes for your WIP?

Right now I just want to get the whole draft finished. My long-term hopes are to finish up the rest of the series, because this whole backstory prequel for Caldren isn't as meaningful if you don't have the context of the rest of the series.

Tagging! @late-to-the-fandom @agirlandherquill @themswritinwords @ryns-ramblings um and open tag!

Blank questions!

1. What’s the first part of your WIP that you created? 2. If your story was a TV show, what would the theme song/intro be? 3. What are your favorite characters that you made? Why? 4. What other pieces of media do you think your fanbase would share? 5. What has been your biggest struggle with your WIP? 6. Are there any animals in your story? Talk about them! 7. How do your characters travel/get around? 8. What part of your WIP are you working on right now? 9. What aspects (tropes, maybe?) will you think draw your audience in? 10. What are your hopes for your WIP?

[bestworstcase]

You posited the possibility that Oscar and Ozpin might get separated in V9 or V10...

What if that's what ends up being done with the Sword of Destruction? As a sort of parallel to the Staff of Creation separating Penny from her original robot body? Plus it'd also be a tie back to how Ozking began the modern era by destroying Vacuo with the Sword, so too does the era he created end by the Sword "destroying" the Ozma hive by severing the two from each other, thus allowing for true growth from that point forward.

And it'd be fitting for the most destructive relic to be used in the most precise manner possible, and as an instrument "intended" to be used to enable Oz' divine mandate instead basically freeing him from it instead. What happens afterwards is up to him.

Addendum to Sword of Destruction Post:

Also forgot to note that the Reincarnation "Blessing" that Ozpin has only seems to be influenced by the God of Light alone, so it's possible that the relic like the Sword of Destruction COULD directly affect Ozpin in a way that it might not work on someone with multiple divine "blessings" like Salem.

hmm maybe. i do think the vacuo/destruction arc IS likely to turn on the idea of destruction being a valuable and necessary facet of humanity—in part because the three the three “”good”“ qualities were examined through their corruption and i figure the inverse is likely to happen with the “”bad”“ one, and in part because the story has hitherto been fairly relentless about associating pure creation with stagnation and it follows that change is destructive and constructive change can only arise when both forces are in harmony. whether this translates to literally cutting ozma out of oscar… hm. i’m not sure i entirely buy it—or rather i think it would probably work to free ozma but i don’t think oscar would, um, survive. the staff’s one-creation-at-a-time rule disintegrated penny’s old body even though that body had not actually been CREATED by the staff, only put together from pre-existing parts. i struggle to imagine that using the sword to remove a soul from a body would be any less… bad… for the original body.

if the mechanism of separation is a relic though i would expect it to be the crown of choice, for the obvious thematic reason of ozma being given the chance to FINALLY choose whether or not to accept the mandate with full knowledge of what that entails; the god of light lied to him about the situation and coerced him into saying yes to something he didn’t understand, and from ozma’s philosophy on choice in the present it is fairly clear that he feels that he cannot change his mind. using the crown to give him a way out—to let him say this isn’t what i agreed to, this is too much, this is wrong, and then simply stop—fits poetically with his internal conflict in a way that using the sword does not, imo.

there’s also the implication that the crown is the most powerful or dangerous of the four—hence the special care ozpin took with concealing it—and if any one of the four were enough to subvert the divine mandate by restoring ozma to himself, of course it would need to be choice? the whole story turns on the god of light’s fury that he cannot control the choices humans make.

what interests me from like, a mechanical standpoint vis-a-vis their possible separation is the nature of the merge itself. we do not… have a lot to go on in this regard (and most of the details come from ozma, who is not exactly a reliable source of information) but what it seems to come down to is the relationship between aura (a metaphysical force arising from the soul) and the soul itself (a person’s self-identity). when ozma crash lands in oscar’s head he says that BOTH are combined (“our aura, our souls”) and he has since then devoted considerable effort to convincing oscar that the two of them are on an inevitable course toward becoming the same person even—especially—when oscar states that he feels like he’s becoming more like himself.

beyond the thematic level this is why i think choice is probably going to play an important role in their separation. rwby explicitly defined what a soul is in volume one (“the creatures we fight lack a soul: they are manifestations of anonymity” <- ergo the soul is identity) and the nature of ozma’s curse is that it erodes the individuality, the identity of the host conscience in tandem with ozma self-identifying as an amalgamation of all his hosts even though it is clear that ozpin is exactly the same person as the ozma of lost fable, just… a lot more traumatized.

so it seems to me that the critical piece here is to separate the self-identities. for both oscar and ozma to be able to articulate who they are outside of each other and in particular to resuscitate ozma’s largely nonexistent sense of self—which incidentally is one of the main reasons i think salem is likely to play a central role in the separation, she knows exactly who ozma is and can intuitively tell the difference between oscar and ozma; and since the nature of the curse increasingly blurs the lines between them i really think that having an outside observer with that clarity is something both of them NEED in order for separation to become possible.

separating their aura is less of a problem. it’s just energy produced by the soul and its demonstrably possible to partially separate and sever from the soul—this is how pietro made penny—and while the technological method for doing so is painful and scarring for the host, magic or a combination of magic with that technology might be able to facilitate the process more safely. (and if salem IS involved, then the wellsprings of pure creation and pure destruction, along with the innate grimm ability to siphon aura, are all in play too, so there’s a lot of options.)

wrt the tangential question of why the sword can’t kill salem (as we can safely presume it can’t, otherwise ozma would have done so), my pet theory is that it isn’t because of her immortality but rather because she’s grimm. in both lost fable and as he’s characterized by the tale of the two brothers, the god of light seems to conceive of ‘destruction’ as anything that ‘ruins’ his own creations; he flat out implies in lost fable that he does not consider his brother to be capable of genuine creation. so. if light made all the relics, and if light thinks of destruction solely as the antithesis of creation, and the grimm were not created by the god of light, then… i think there’s a solid possibility that the sword of destruction cannot harm the grimm? (and like, consider maria’s frankly illogical insistence that the silver glare isn’t a destructive power because it only harms the grimm—at the very least the modern philosophical understanding of what destruction IS excludes them from the purview of the sword by effectively defining the grimm as creatures that cannot be destroyed and killing them as an act of creation.)

(the show can pry that headcanon from my cold dead hands it’s just conceptually too hilarious for the sword of destruction to be able to destroy anything except grimm. like imagine living in this monster-infested post-apocalyptic nightmare world and going on a quest for the fabled sword of annihilation that can cut down anything in your path so that you can like save your village from the never-ending existential threat of all the monsters and then you find it at last!! and it’s like sorry but the monsters are immune to me. gkshdnhj)

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Elliott Smith - No Name #1 (Song Review)

Elliott Smith’s “No Name #1,” part of his debut album “Roman Candle,” showcases the unique fusion of melancholy and intimacy that became a hallmark of his songwriting. Released in the mid-1990s, this track functions not only as a song but as a glimpse into the inner workings of the human psyche, reflecting feelings of detachment, longing, and existential unease.

Instrumentation and Production:

Musically, “No Name #1” is stripped down yet emotionally charged. The instrumentation predominantly features Smith’s soft, fingerpicked guitar, creating an ethereal soundscape that is both inviting and isolating. The gentle picking style conveys a sense of vulnerability, harkening back to folk traditions while embodying a modern twist that is distinctly Smith’s own. The production is minimalist, further amplifying the somber atmosphere of the song. The understated arrangement allows Smith's voice—fragile yet compelling—to take center stage.

In addition to the guitar, the subtle layering of vocals and harmonies enriches the emotional texture of the track. The background harmonies breathe depth into the narrative without overwhelming the primary vocal line, allowing listeners to fully engage with the lyrics. The production choices become another character in the song, underscoring the themes of loneliness and introspection while enhancing the poignancy of Smith’s delivery.

Lyrical Analysis:

The lyrics of “No Name #1” delve into the nuanced feelings of discomfort and the struggle for connection. In the opening lines, Smith paints a vivid picture of a character at a party—“waiting, looking kind of spooky and withdrawn.” This image immediately establishes the theme of social isolation, drawing listeners into a scene that many can relate to, evoking a shared sense of awkwardness in social settings.

The reference to being “underwater” highlights feelings of suffocation or overwhelm, suggesting a yearning for escape from the weight of societal expectations and the dominant ambitions of others. Lines like, “I hate to walk behind other people’s ambitions,” illuminate the struggle to assert one’s identity amidst external pressures. Smith’s acute observations serve as a mirror reflecting the complexities of human interactions and the often solitary journey of self-discovery.

Throughout the song, there is a juxtaposition between hope and despair. The recurring chorus—“Leave alone / You don’t belong here”—acts as both a mantra and a plea, encapsulating the internal conflict of wanting to belong while simultaneously feeling alienated. This duality resonates deeply, eliciting a myriad of emotions ranging from empathy to melancholy.

In the second verse, the nervousness of the narrator comes to the fore: "Got nervous, started whistling / Every thought a ricochet.” The act of whistling represents an attempt to fill the silence, a manifestation of anxiety that many listeners can identify with. This moment of vulnerability is further complicated by the fleeting connection to an unnamed figure—“You remind me of someone’s daughter.” The deliberate vagueness of this memory evokes feelings of nostalgia tinged with regret, emphasizing the transient nature of relationships and how easily they can become obscured over time.

The lines become even more contemplative as Smith encourages the listener to confront their pain—“Go home and live with your pain.” This statement embodies the essence of Smith’s artistry: an acknowledgment of suffering coupled with the understanding that it must eventually be faced. The haunting quality of this line underscores the omnipresence of emotional turmoil, suggesting that avoidance is impossible and that one must reckon with their experiences.

Themes and Emotion:

At its core, “No Name #1” embodies themes of dislocation and introspection. The repetitive nature of the chorus—“Leave alone”—emphasizes a sense of resignation and acceptance of one's own solitary existence. Smith captures the depth of human experience by navigating the intricate landscape of loneliness, urging listeners to recognize their place in the world, however uncomfortable that may be.

The outro, with its contemplative directive to “slip out quiet, nobody’s looking,” encapsulates the essence of the song’s emotional journey. It speaks to the desire for anonymity and the wish to escape unnoticed from a world that feels alien. This sentiment resonates universally, as many have experienced moments of wanting to disappear from the chaos of life and retreat into solitude.

Final Thoughts:

Elliott Smith’s “No Name #1” is emblematic of his ability to craft intimate, poignant narratives that explore the complexities of the human condition. The song, with its delicate instrumentation and deeply introspective lyrics, forms a compelling entry point into Smith’s world of emotion and longing. As part of the “Roman Candle” album, it serves as a testament to his artistry, inviting listeners to reflect on their own experiences of connection, alienation, and the search for belonging.

In essence, “No Name #1” is a beautifully crafted piece that holds a mirror up to our vulnerabilities, reminding us of the universality of feeling lost in the crowd while simultaneously yearning for meaningful connection. Smith’s poignant delivery and evocative lyrics thus carve a lasting emotional imprint, encouraging listeners not only to reflect on their pain but also to embrace the complex beauty of human emotions.

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Loving Thy Neighbor: The Path to Inner Peace

Have you ever stopped to think about what it truly means to “love thy neighbor as thyself”? This commandment, given by Jesus and recorded in Matthew 22:35-40, holds timeless wisdom. It’s not just a rule but a way of life that, when practiced, can lead to immense peace, spiritual growth, and well-being. Yet, as Shelley Allen points out in the article “Loving Thy Neighbor Is Loving Thyself,” this commandment often feels daunting. So, why is it so challenging, and more importantly, how can we unlock the profound benefits of genuinely loving those around us?

Understanding the Greatest Commandment

At the heart of this passage from Matthew, Jesus highlights the two core principles of Christian living: loving God with all your being and loving your neighbor as yourself. While the first part may seem natural for many, the second part often feels more complicated. Shelley Allen writes that most people’s initial reaction to this commandment is to think it’s difficult, mainly because “neighbors are people, and people can be rather difficult.”

But that’s exactly the point of the commandment. Love doesn’t require the people around us to be perfect; rather, it demands a commitment from us to do our best, despite imperfections. As Allen puts it, “We want to please our Lord, so even when we don’t feel like it, we commit to doing our best.” And in today’s fast-paced world, that’s not always an easy task.

Today’s Struggle with Loving Our Neighbors

Let’s be honest—it’s sometimes easier to ignore our neighbors altogether. We live in communities where many of us don’t even know the names of the people living just a few feet away. Some of us don’t engage simply because we get lost in our own routines. But the underlying issue is more significant than that. It’s about missed opportunities for connection, empathy, and well-being.

Shelley Allen makes a thought-provoking point when she writes that “if we knew how good ‘loving our neighbors’ is for us—physically as well as psychologically and emotionally—we might do more than simply ‘give it the old college try.’” The benefits of embracing this command go far beyond just making our neighbors’ lives better. In fact, loving others brings positivity back into our lives in ways we often overlook.

The Hidden Benefits of Loving Others

There’s debate about whether loving one’s neighbor is spiritually or emotionally fulfilling—turns out it’s both. Scientific studies back this idea up, showing that acts of kindness and empathy can lead to reduced stress, a greater sense of connection, and even improvements in mental health. When we extend kindness and compassion to others, we often experience the ripple effects internally as well, benefiting from the deeper purpose this brings to our own lives.

For example, greeting a neighbor with a smile or offering assistance can brighten their day while reinforcing our own sense of well-being. Acts of love and kindness are powerful tools for building a healthy, connected community, and it all starts with the individuals who make the effort to love—even during difficult moments.

Overcoming Barriers in Loving Our Neighbors

Of course, some days the idea of loving our neighbors seems far from easy. Modern life can build walls that make it hard for us to connect. Whether it’s differences in personality, conflicting viewpoints, or general disinterest, there are roadblocks in the way—much like traditional fences between houses. However, understanding the deeper meaning behind the commandment can help us overcome these barriers.

By loving our neighbors, we are acknowledging their humanity, their imperfections, and their worth. It’s not about perfection or agreement—it’s about a basic choice to offer kindness and empathy. And when we make that choice, we often find ourselves receiving kindness back in turn, creating a positive ripple effect that can transform both our local communities and our inner worlds.

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Farewell, Toxic Ties: How to Build Happiness By Finding Your Tribe

Introduction

Friendships are an essential aspect of human life, providing support, companionship, and joy. While forming connections with others is a natural part of our social existence, not all friendships are created equal. The quality of our friendships can significantly impact our overall happiness and well-being. In this blog post, we will explore the significance of being friends with people who share your core values and how these relationships can bring more happiness into your life. We’ll also delve into the potential problems of socializing with those who do not share your core values and offer insights on disconnecting from such relationships. Lastly, we will discuss effective ways to find and nurture friendships with individuals who align with your core values.

The Importance of Core Values in Friendships

Core values represent the fundamental principles and beliefs that guide our decisions and actions. These values shape our identities and serve as the compass for how we navigate life. When we build friendships with people who share our core values, a profound sense of understanding and mutual respect is fostered, laying a strong foundation for lasting and meaningful connections.

Being friends with like-minded individuals offers numerous benefits for our overall happiness and well-being. Here are a few ways in which shared core values contribute to enriching friendships:

a. Authenticity: Friends who share your core values are more likely to appreciate and accept you for who you genuinely are. There’s no need to put on a facade or pretend to be someone you’re not, fostering an authentic and fulfilling friendship. When you share your values with your friends, you create a safe space where vulnerability is welcomed, and you can open up without fear of judgment.

b. Common Ground: Shared values create common ground for conversation and activities, making it easier to bond over shared interests, goals, and beliefs. Engaging in activities that resonate with your core values can lead to meaningful experiences and create lasting memories.

c. Emotional Support: When facing challenges or seeking advice, friends who share your core values are better equipped to provide meaningful support, as they understand your perspectives and motivations. They can offer valuable insights and encouragement during difficult times, helping you navigate through life’s obstacles.

d. Reduced Conflict: Differences in core values can lead to disagreements and misunderstandings. By surrounding yourself with like-minded friends, you can minimize the potential for unnecessary conflicts. This creates a positive and harmonious atmosphere within the friendship.

The Problems with Socializing with People who Differ in Core Values

While diversity in friendships can broaden our perspectives, socializing with individuals who hold vastly different core values can sometimes lead to challenges and emotional distress. Here are some problems you might encounter when befriending those with conflicting values:

a. Lack of Understanding: Divergent core values can create a communication barrier, leading to misunderstandings and difficulty relating to each other’s experiences. This lack of understanding can create friction and tension within the friendship.

b. Emotional Drain: Constantly engaging with people whose values clash with yours can be emotionally draining and may leave you feeling unfulfilled or unsupported. The constant struggle to find common ground can take a toll on your emotional well-being.

c. Inner Conflict: Being friends with individuals who have conflicting values might cause internal conflicts, as you may feel torn between staying true to yourself and compromising your beliefs to maintain the friendship. This internal struggle can lead to feelings of discomfort and dissatisfaction.

d. Limited Growth: Surrounding yourself with people who challenge your core values can hinder personal growth and prevent you from fully embracing your authentic self. In such friendships, you may feel the need to suppress certain aspects of your personality, hindering your personal development.

Disconnecting from People with Conflicting Core Values

Recognizing when it’s time to disconnect from friends whose core values clash with yours is crucial for your emotional well-being. While ending friendships can be challenging, it can also be an empowering act of self-care. Here are some steps to consider:

a. Reflect on Values: Take time to reflect on your core values and assess how they align with those of your friends. Be honest with yourself about whether these relationships support your personal growth and happiness.

b. Communicate Openly: If the friendship is essential to you, consider having an open and honest conversation with your friend about your differing values. Communication might lead to mutual understanding or pave the way for a more balanced friendship.

c. Gradual Disengagement: If the differences are irreconcilable, gradually disengage from the friendship. Slowly reduce the time and energy you invest in the relationship to ease the emotional impact for both parties.

d. Seek Support: Reach out to other friends who share your core values for emotional support during this process. Having a supportive network will help you navigate this transition with greater ease.

Finding People who Share Your Core Values

Seeking out individuals who align with your core values can open the door to more fulfilling friendships and a happier social life. Here are some practical ways to find like-minded friends:

a. Join Interest-Based Communities: Engage in activities or hobbies that resonate with your core values. Join clubs, meetups, or online communities centered around these interests, where you’re likely to encounter individuals who share your passion. For instance, if environmental conservation is a core value for you, consider joining a local eco-friendly group.

b. Volunteer and Give Back: Participating in volunteer work or charitable events attracts people who value giving back to society, creating opportunities for meaningful connections. Volunteering not only helps you meet like-minded individuals but also allows you to make a positive impact on your community.

c. Attend Workshops and Seminars: Attend workshops and seminars related to personal growth and self-development. These events often draw people with similar aspirations and values. Engaging in such settings can lead to enriching conversations and potential friendships.

d. Utilize Social Media: Platforms like Facebook and Meetup allow you to find groups and events tailored to your interests and values, providing a virtual space to connect with like-minded individuals. Engage in online discussions and forums to interact with potential friends who share your core values.

Cultivating Friendships with Shared Core Values

Once you’ve found potential friends who share your core values, nurturing these connections is vital to developing meaningful and lasting friendships:

a. Be Authentic: Be true to yourself and let your values guide your actions. Authenticity is key to building trust and fostering deeper connections. Share your experiences, thoughts, and feelings openly with your friends, and encourage them to do the same.

b. Listen Actively: Practice active listening to understand your friends’ perspectives and experiences better. Respectful and empathetic listening strengthens the bond between friends and fosters a sense of emotional intimacy.

c. Support Each Other: Offer support and encouragement during both joyful moments and challenging times. Being there for your friends fosters a sense of reciprocity and trust. Celebrate their successes and be a pillar of strength during their hardships.

d. Embrace Differences: While shared core values form the foundation of your friendship, embrace the differences that exist between you and your friends. Embracing diversity enriches the friendship and encourages personal growth. Be open to learning from one another and expanding your horizons.

Conclusion

The quality of our friendships significantly influences our happiness and well-being. Building connections with people who share our core values provides a profound sense of understanding and authenticity. On the other hand, socializing with individuals whose values differ from our own can lead to emotional strain and conflict. Recognizing when to disconnect from such relationships is essential for our personal growth and happiness. Seeking out friends who share our core values empowers us to build meaningful and fulfilling connections. Through common interests, active listening, and mutual support, we can cultivate lasting friendships that enrich our lives and contribute to our overall happiness. Embrace the power of shared values in friendships, and watch as your social circle flourishes with authentic and supportive relationships.

Remember, the journey to finding genuine connections might take time, but the happiness and fulfillment gained are well worth the effort. So, go forth, be open, and build the friendships that will bring you joy and contentment for a lifetime. Surround yourself with friends who not only understand and accept your core values but also encourage you to be the best version of yourself. Embrace the richness of diverse perspectives while cherishing the bonds you share with those who align with your values. Together, you and your like-minded friends can create a powerful support network that sustains you through life’s highs and lows. Happy friend-finding and nurturing!

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Your top comic book characters?

So, this might be a surprise considering the usual content of my blog but I am an avid comic book fan. I have read a lot of comics (teen titans) and have a lot of opinions (Teen Titans related) and a pretty comprehensive knowledge (about the Teen Titans).

So, list of top five favorite comic book characters (My Favorite Teen Titans).

#5 Dick Grayson / NightWing

Ahem. I hate the bat family. Anyway *Takes a picture with me and the Bestie Dick Grayson*. One popular misconception about comic book characters is that they never change or develop and remain static because of either comic book continuity snarl, or the fact that characters tend to get handed off to multiple auhors. That’s actually false, because a lot of comic book characters, especially the younger ones, are allowed to grow up. Character development, thy name is Dick Grayson. 

The reason I joke about hating the bat family is all of Dick’s character development comes from when he steps outside the role of Robin, and struggles to be his own person especially in regards to his solos and the relationships he’s formed with the Teen Titans (you should read Teen Titans it’s a good comic). One thing I think good comic book writing nails is that these characters tend to develop a rich subtext, there is more going on then just the outer shell of the person you see. LIke, they’re comic book heroes, they wear masks, they project heroic outside personas and struggle to be humans underneath it. It’s a definite thing. 

Dick Grayson has a tendency to be seen not just by readers but also by the people around him in his life as the prodigy, the success, and this has led to kind of a conflict between his external (what Dick projects) and his internal (who he is inside). Basically, I read Dick as someone who is more comfortable functioning as a hero, then as a human being. 

Which results in Dick constantly overworking himself and taking too much on his plate in order to try to live up to the image he creates of himself. Hero. Team leader. Mentor. Supprotive friend. Family member. Boyfriend. THey’re all like roles for Dick, and I think deep down he thinks he has to earn those things rather than them being given to him which is what leads to his habit of both isolating himself and overworking himself in the first place. Dick Grayson is a circus child through and through, he’s a natural performer who wears the tights a little too well. As for adaptations of his character, I prefer the 2003 Teen Titans cartoon take on him to the BTAS because overworking himself and isolating himself from his loved ones is an important phase in his development that I feel like a lot of other adaptations skip over because they want to get to light hearted and jokey night wing. 

#4 Koriand’r  / Starfire 

Part of what I love about female comic book characters is the good ones are never boring, Lois Lane is just as interesting a character as Clark Kent and that’s a statement I’ll die defending. There’s a lot about Kory that is so unique especially in the original comic run that created her, she’s the “heart” of the team, the character that runs on pure emotions, but she’s not soft in any sense of the word, she’s belligerent and warlike. Starfire is one of those few alien characters who genuinely feels alien because the way she processes her emotions are just so different from the humans around her, she feels everything up to eleven, love, anger, hapiness, sorrow. 

Starfire is at times, irrational, and hard to reason with, you know just like emotions are. There are a few people who have a problem with her portrayal in the 2003 cartoon, though my personal theory is that she’s not so much out of character is that the adaptation kind of based her on both Donna and Kory to make up for Donna not being on the team. It’s not that starfire isn’t compassionate or a nice girl, she’s just, aggressively so. But Starfire doesn’t fall for the alien from a warlike culture thing where that becomes her entire personality too, because like well written female comic book characters you get a good look inside Starfire’s head and even though she runs on pure emotions, those emotoins are just as complex as any other characters. Starfire is very loving, but she also wants to be loved, beause she is effectively alone on an alien world and a lot of the conflict in her character comes from her internalized fear that the people around her don’t want  to make an effort to understand her when she’s making such an effort to blend in. 

Conflict is what makes characters, and Starfire can be an all loving heroine, a nurturing type personality, and also be a pretty conflict heavy character, because Starfire throws herself into conflict with people. It’s what makes her play off of Dick Grayson so well, because one of his biggest flaws is his conflict avoidance. Dick throws himself into his work as a way of avoiding people, Starfire is a hero because that’s where her new family is on this strange world and those are the people she needs to protect. 

#3  Garfield Logan / Beast Boy 

Beast Boy is the perfect name for Gar, because he is the most BOY to ever exist. What’s interesting about Gar is how much he has in common with Dick, he has been a costumed sidekick for about as long as Dick has, he lost his original fmaily in an accident, he was adopted by a rich step family who moonlights as a super hero and is known for being a particularly hardass mentor which gives them a strained relationship even in comparison to other superhero and sidekick mentors. However, while Dick forces himself to grow up early, Beast Boy lingers in childhood as long as possible. 

He’s also interesting in comparison to Starfire, because while they are both characters who are “The Heart” of the group, Beast Boy is a lot more vulnerable than Starfire will ever be, which explains a lot of his more selfish personality traits. Beast Boy is the nicest guy you will ever meet, and also just a little bit of a whiny asshole, that’s where the complexity comes from. I think what’s interesting about Gar especially in regards to his relationship with Terra is after the fact he tends to frame her as a tragic lost love, but if you read their interactions in the comics themselves, it’s Garfield being rude and aggressive towards her a lot of the time and coming on way too strong. Terra even nearly blows her cover once because he was flirting way too hard in a training session after he told her to back off. There’s like an element of toxic masculinity to Garfield’s character because he’s a fifteen year old boy who has at that point gone through the loss of two families, trying to desperately protray the way he thinks a grown up man is supposed to act, based mainly off of what he sees in popular culture. 

Beast Boy’s a meta-human with green skin and pointed ears who obviously stands out in a crowd as a hero, has no secret identity, has basically been a hero his whole life, but he’s also way more of a person then some of the other heroes in the group and that’s because he’s just full of heart. Beast Boy in spite of his many flaws, is also someone who put all of his effort into throwing a wedding for his best friends, and nearly had a breakdown because of it, because he was like I’m already a terrible hero, and an even worse friend, this is the one thing I can do I gotta do it perfect. Once Beast Boy grows up a little bit, and becomes able to stand on his own two feet, he’s also more of a well-rounded person than a few other heroes I could name because he went through this troubled development and came out on the other side stronger.

#2 Raven

Raven’s cartoon adaptation is probably the most different from her original comic book version, but when I went back and read the originals I loved that version even more. One big thing is just like Starfire, she’s one of the few alien characters (in this case raised in another dimmension) who genuinely feels alien and isolated in the way she processes her emotions and experiences the world is so different from others. 

Comic Raven has probably more in common with Jean Gray then she does with her cartoon counterpart, both overly selfless individuals, quiet, unasusming nice girls whose actual superpowers are the complete opposite of their personalities. Raven was raised in almost complete isolation and taught if she doesn’t keep complete control of her emotoins at all times, then she’s giving into her father’s infleunce and she’ll turn out evil just like her father. Which is why I mention the Jean Gray parallels, the massive power they’re born with, and the massive responsibility they threeofre have to control that power and the pressure they deal with eventually causes them to crumble. 

Of course I don’t think they’re the same there’s a lot that makes Raven unique, despite the fact that Raven has good intentions, and is almost always breaking herself trying to help others, due to the social isolation she experienced as a kid she’s unable to make her intentions understood and so most of the people in her friend group just leave Raven alone. She is offputting, and weird, and people don’t get her, despite all of the titans agreeing that Raven is nice, and their friend. It’s not just something other people do to her though, Raven also isolates herself, because she is afraid of that loss of perfect control that has been drilled into her since she was a kid. 

There’s also a lot of interesting development as Raven grows into more of a person, because she explores new emotions with the joy of a child discovering things for the first time. She makes relationships with people and makes major mistakes, like mistaking friendship with Dick Grayson for love, or getting taken advantage of by what she thinks is her first love. There’s also a lot of interesting contrasts with Raven’s character, like her demonic other persona, vs how innocent she is as a person who grew up in another dimmension experiencing the world for the first time. Also, in spite of the fact that Raven is so selfless she’s practically a pushover, she still experiences just as much as character conflict as all of the others, because of her tendency to withdraw, keep secrets from others, bush off other peopel’s concerns for her well being, and also other peopel’s general mistrust of her due to the nature of her powers. One of the things I like to say is Kory and Raven are almost complete opposites as characters, and yet despite that they’re both equally interesting and well developed because we are in their heads enough to understand their world view and how different it is from our own. They’re both aliens and outsiders trying to find somewhere to fit in and belong and that’s Teen Titans character writing at it’s strongest. 

#1 Tara Markov / Terra 

You would think my favorite would be Raven, but no, it’s Terra. Terra is also a character in the 2003 adaptation who is a pretty big change, though unlike Raven I believe the stuff they added to her character always existed in the subtext. Terra was always a runaway, she was the half blooded bastard royal child who was epxerimented on and given powers, and ran away from the throne. If you analyze the (GROSS THING THAT I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT HERE BUT IF YOU KNOW, YOU KNOW) in the original Judas Contract storyline, then a lot of Terra’s more unsavory behaviors make sense. Terra is someone who was always sympathetic, she just never showed those sympathetic qualities, because she was too busy trying to be the BADDEST BITCH EVER. 

THat’s what I like about Terra, she is the original OG Bad Victim. Terra has the same kind of sympathetic backstory as Starfire, or Beast Boy,  but her trauma doesn’t make her a better person, it makes her a worse and more unstable one. Sometimes victims don’t become heroes, sometimes trauma causes people to act in unsavory ways. The whole point in Terra’s character is that she would never have made it as a hero, and yes while the original Judas Contract does victim blame her a little bit in regards to Slade and paint her as a sociopath rather than a teenager being taken advantage of, the entire arc is also written around the fact that Terra was always going to fail at being a hero. THe Teen Titans did love and accept her, but their attemps to reach her failed. Terra shows a few times she’s actually capable of loving and caring for people in an unselfish way (she cares for Brion, and wishes him to stay far away from the Titans for Danger b/c she thinks he’s too soft), she even shows moments where she sees the things she has in common with Beast Boy and sympathizes with him a little because they are both kids who have been stepped on in life. 

Terra is capable of all of these things, and she’s a symptathetic victim, but that doesn’t change the ending, she still fails. Judas Contract is up there with Under the Red Hood in one of the few comic book arcs that’s a near perfect tragedy. I think a lot of Terra’s character gets lost in the discussion on whether she deserved her ending or not, or victim blaming, like the whole point about Terra is she’s a bad victim of trauma, who lashes out in bad ways, so those discussions kind of miss the oint. Romeo and Juliet is always going to end with them killing themselves, Judas Contract always ends with Terra bringing the tower right down on herself. People are like “Why does every Teen Titans adaptation do Judas Contract? Why do I have to watch Judas Contract for the third time?” it’s because it’s good! THe same reason every X-Men adaptation tries to do Dark Phoenix, there’s just something deeply cathartic about the whole arc where a character gives into their worst flaws. Terra is so interesting because she is so heaily flawed, and those flaws are all human flaws, and even flaws the heroes share with her, and rather than overcoming she crumbles. 

See, I love Terra, and I do think you could do a version of her where she does live past the Judas Contract, but most of the time when people do that they sand down the edges of her character. The Young Justice version of Terra is just awful, number one she barely talks and Terra is one of the mouthiest most ascerbic characters in comics, and two a little bit of empathy on the part of the heroes is all that it takes her to turn. Brion’s almost the more interesting character in that cartoon adaptation because he actually has flaws and gets worse and fails. The comics even tried to reboot Terra’s character a couple of times, first with the Terra clone, and then passing the mantle of Terra onto someone else and both versions are just boring. Terra is interesting because she has a standard hero tragic backstory TM, but she came out the other side so flawed. THe best versions of her preserve this warts and all. Terra isn’t a perfect innocent angel, but that also doesn’t mean she’s not a victim, or invalidate the genuine trauma she went through. Therein lies the rub, and also the complexity. 

Anyway, she’s my favorite comic book sociopath (this is a joke) accept no other substitutes. 

[mrpenguinpants]

Razor:  Jealous HCs

Hey anon!! As much frustration I hold for crippling oblivious couples, I also love the trope so much. Plus I adore Razor. Even though I try to not call Razor a dog, I still google “jealous dog traits”. Also, I found out both Hanniejji and I secretly HCs Bennet is friends with Razor and Fischl. If genshin won’t give me character interactions then I’ll write it myself.

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Semi Part 1: General HCs

Semi Part 2: Pre-Relationship HCs

Semi Part 3: Cuddle HCs

[Masterlist]

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Razor:  Jealous HCs

Bennet and Fischl are both foaming at the mouth at how deeply in love you BOTH are and yet you’re both equally blind. Fischl wants to grab you by the shoulders and yell at you that Razor returns your feelings and you need to stop doing whatever it is you’re doing. A sad Razor looks like a kicked puppy and even she can’t handle it. But Razor absolutely refuses for anyone to confess for him because he believes that you might just genuinely be uninterested in him. Plus, it wouldn’t feel right if he couldn’t confess himself. It’s his first love, this is important to him.

Bennet thinks it’s really sweet that his friend is in love. Even if he does get a bit pouty that whenever he get’s hurt, Razor will ask if he’s alright and leave it at that. But if you accidently trip Razor is already at your side and fussing over you. Bennet uses this as physical proof that yes, your feelings are returned and this man is in love with you, but you always brush it off as Razor’s nature to be caring. He’s smiling patiently on the outside but on the inside he has his hands in his hair and he’s screaming.

God forbid anything upsets you. Razor hasn’t been around other humans long enough to pick up on most social cues but he does have a good sense of smell. If you’re happy then the wind smells like sweet flowers. If you’re upset then it smells like mint. While Razor usually keeps himself in check and is somewhat indifferent, the second he catches any signs of distress from you he’s on high alert. Until you tell him what’s been bothering you - a group of hilichurls stole your bag of snapdragon flowers - he’s going to be on guard and stressed out. He’s already throwing his claymore over his shoulder to go and fight the monsters that tried to upset you. Wow, what a good friend you say to Fischl. Fischl is ready to punt you off a cliff.  

Razor tries his best to show that he likes you by bringing the things you need and looking like such a proud pup. He looks at you with such hopeful eyes that it takes you a second to register what he’s asking before you feel your own heart rate speed up and pound into your ears. You flush pink before you move to embrace him and ruffle his hair as praise as he nuzzles into your shoulder affectionally. You assume his affectious actions are apart of his wolf nature and how they act so you try not to read too deep into things. Even if Razor seems a bit too happy to be hugging you and receiving pets. Or the fact he doesn’t let anyone else pet him...

Bennet tries his best to help his friend out by giving Razor some advice but considering Bennet himself hasn’t been in a relationship yet, it’s all practical. Telling Razor that he’s seen couples bring each other flowers as a sign of affection, maybe Razor could find some plants to bring you? It ends horribly when he offers you a wolfhook and you just stare at him. He says that these are his feelings towards you but you’re just...so confused?? Wolfhooks have thorns so does that mean he thinks you’re clingy? Isn’t that a bad thing? Are you annoying to him?? But wolfhooks also symbolize wolves so is he saying you’re like family to him??? You’re internally screaming while debating if you just got family-zoned or if Razor is trying to subtly tell you that he doesn’t like you.

Just because Razor is, somehow, unsure if you actually like him or not. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t get incredibly jealous and possessive at any unknown presence. He’s still a bit wary of the City due to all the conflicting smells and noises but he can’t help but look so sad when you have to run errands and you can’t visit him. But when you mention that a really nice knight gifted you a flower does Razor see red. He gave you a flower?? Shouldn’t you be happy with his? Why do you need another one when you have his? Is his gift not good enough? Is this your way of saying you’re interested in someone else? This poor boy is on the verge of either running off to go sulk or find the man that gave you this flower, which up until his knowledge - courtesy of Bennet - is a sign of courting, and absolutely destroy him to prove he’s the better partner.

He tries to keep it under wraps since he's been told that while in the City, he needs to exercise restrain and understand that if he enters. He's expected to at least respect the laws and people. But this poor wolf is so feral over this new development and this new smell that's been clinging onto you that whatever worries and isolation issues Razor felt about the city flies out the window as his protective instincts kick into overdrive. He sees other people and even pets as a rival for your attention and love. He just wants to scoop you up and growl at everything as a message to say “this is mine, go get your own”.

Even when the both of you are far away from the city, Razor’s continued mood seems to hang heavy over both your heads. You’re not sure what exactly caused Razor to be on high alert. He’s snapping and growling at everything little thing that comes close, even a butterfly!

You abruptly stop walking to Razor’s surprise as you whip around and frown at him. He can feel a chill run up his spine as he stands perfectly straight as you study him before you hold your palm out and looked at him expectantly. He looks at your hand with a small spark of perked attention before his nose twitches and he goes back to sulking. You’re still waiting for him as he shuffles a bit, his hair that resembled a wolf ear is twitching, before he whines and trots over and places his chin on your palm. He’s looking up at you with the most kicked puppy expression and you don’t even know what you did but you feel like the worse person in all of Teyvat.

“Razor...what’s gotten into you?” you ask gently as you rub circles into his cheek as he nuzzles into your palm. He seems really conflicted as his eyes dart away from your face and he almost looks guilty. He just whines and turns and buries his face into your warm palm. You’ve never really seen him like that before as you awkwardly try and comfort him. Until the same flower slips out of your pocket and you hear something primal growl out of Razor. His teeth are pulled back and he snarls at the flower as his pupils dilate. You quickly get between him and the poor flower before Razor tries to do anything.

“Seriously Razor, what’s gotten into you?” you asked concerned. He quickly shifts his attention to you as he pounces and knocks you over. You left off a soft noise as the wind get’s knocked out of you but you peep when his hands cage you from above. Razor’s red eyes bore into yours and you’re suddenly thinking the air is getting too hot. 

“Do you like Razor?” he asks, tilting his head in a cute pout. It makes you internally coo before you quickly snap out of it. Stay focused! 

“Of course I do! Remember we talked about this?” you say as you remember back to your previous interactions but this only seems to frustrate Razor more.

“No. Not that like. More...” Razor struggles with his words as he tries to piece together the right string of sounds to try and convey what he’s feeling. He seems so conflicted that it breaks your heart a bit. So you reach up and gently rub behind his ear as he closes his eyes and relaxes. He breathes in deeply as his eyes open and his pupils return to normal, but vastly determined.

“Together. Always. Just...us,” Razor says softly as he looks at you hopefully. There’s a small pink dust to his cheeks as his fang digs into his lip in nervousness. You’re not sure why but your heart absolutely sky rockets at it and you can feel your face flush pink.

“Um, yes?” you nod along, you think you’re understanding what he’s trying to say. Maybe he was just upset you were spending so much time in the City and away from him that he felt your friendship was neglected? That would make you really upset. But the way he phrases his words makes you believe that perhaps...

Before you can think more on it. Razor’s face breaks into a grin that nearly blinds you from the pure affection that sprouts from it. He’s already hugging you harder as he starts rubbing his nose and cheek against your neck. Making soft and happy sounds as he nuzzles you. He’s never done that before but you assume he’s just so happy. You breath a sigh of relief that it appears that your message to him was clear enough.

Yeah of course, friends always, you think

Lupical. Partner. Mate, Razor thinks.

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whistling as I pretend I don’t see your stares. Yeah ik but it’s ok. This is a sorta semi series. We’ll build upon it. But Xiao content is next lol. I’m taking inspiration from this. I mean, when I don’t feel like shit 😷

I’ve been listening to [  Softy - Dear Moon ]. This isn’t the usual kind of music I listen to but it came on shuffle and this is now my mental breakdown song.

Quick edit: Turns out this is an ost from “My Mister”. I’ve never been into kdramas (I think I’ve only seen goblin, she was pretty, and Hwarang) but the cover picture looks so upsetting? My friend is really into tgcf and I believe that had a live action as well. 

[makingspiritualityreal]

Numerology Life Path 7 - Your Birth Card and its Ruling Planet

Numerology Life Path Numbers and their assigned Tarot Card Meaning Series This is a post in my new astrology/numerology/tarot series, that only concerns you, if you are a Life Path 7. Posts on consecutive Life Path Numbers will follow. Originally, I wanted to do them all in one post, but my writing turned out to be so long, I decided to split the post and seperate the Life Path Numbers. The introduction part of the post will be the same for all Life Path Numbers, in case you only read a post about your own Life Path Number, and nothing else. Introduction The concept of a Birth Card links Tarot and Numerology together, in order to deepen our understanding of a vibration of a Life Path Number we are born with. The Birth Card, or rather Birth Cards, are Major Arcana Tarot Cards with assigned numbers, which correlate with Life Path Numbers. Understanding the meaning of tarot cards, mixed with the knowledge of Numerology Vibrations, helps create a more unique vision of your life experience. A person with any given Life Path Number, having several Major Arcana energies present in their lives, usually struggles with one of the energies more than the other. As a result, life will probably force them to focus on mastering one of these energies. In general, however, any Life Path describes both your biggest downfall and ultimate triumph - just like with an Astrology Chart, the highlighted numbers/astrology houses point to your biggest strengths and weaknesses. For a better understanding of this concept, visit my article “Natal Chart - A map of your issues?” Remember, that everyone, besides their Life Path Number and Birth Card also has a unique astrology chart. Thus, for some people embracing the higher expression of their energy is easier, for others it’s harder and it takes more time to master, and some energies become easier to deal with than others. Most human beings are somewhere in between, working on their path and having some achievements while struggling with difficulties at the same time. In the spiritual community, there are differences in opinion on linking Astrological Planets and positions to specific numerology numbers energies. My take is a result of my own personal experience, conversations with other people in my field and research, in order to give you the widest possible spectrum of ideas and increase the understanding of every Life Path Number. If you are a Master Number 11, 22 or 33, there will be a seperate post on how the Birth Cards apply to you as well. Even If you have only a basic understanding of Astrology, Tarot or Numerology, this post will still be helpful to you, because it describes the unique vibrational mix that comes from the expression of both these spiritual sciences mixed together. To calculate which Tarot Cards and what Life Path correspond to your birthday, click here.

Life Path 7 - The Chariot and The Tower

The energies of a Life Path 7 are ruled by the ephemeral, compassionate, wise vibrations of Ketu and Neptune. This can make it one of the most challenging Life Paths to navigate, as it requires a higher level of spiritual mastery and an ability to constantly assume a bigger picture perspective. That is a difficult thing to do in a world so highly revolving around materialistic concepts. Yet, if you are born with this Life Path Number, a certain free-spirited attitude and refusal to be sucked down into too many mundane details is something you need to develop within yourself.

Such a highly spiritual soul purpose associated with a Life Path 7 is due to Ketu being one of the primary rulers of this Life Path Number. Ketu, ruling detachment from the material realm, forces this life path to focus more on the energetic manifestation of their physicality instead of trying to navigate it through practical means. Ketu is also highly analytical, making this people excel at tasks, that require solitude, contemplation of abstract concepts and individual work. These people can make excellent writers or inspired researchers.

The other planet associated with a Life Path 7 is Neptune, the agent of universal, humanitarian compassion. That gives this Life Path a very loving, yet impersonal nature, where they express caring and kindness towards humanity and people in general, but may remain confused in one-on-one relationships. In this way, a Life Path 7 is a flip side of a Life Path 2, who thrives in intimate situations, but should open up more to group activities. A Life Path 7 naturally seeks out crowds, where they can occasionally show up and recharge on their need for a collective exchange of compassionate energy. Yet, in private situations, they can struggle to focus on their partner, open up or truly connect with another, as they are always absorbed in their own little world.

Because of Neptune being such a high vibrational planet and Ketu giving the ultimate higher-dimensional mastery, the spiritual consequences of wrongdoing for this life path are more severe than for others. These people need a moral compass, spiritually, the most of all life paths. In extreme cases, I have seen Life Path 7s fall prey to accidents and disease, if they succumbed to the temptation of their lower instincts.

Because of Neptune's influence on this Life Path there can be a significant difficulty in finding their way out in this material world, which can lead to poverty or other practical problems. If one neglects consulting their higher, intuitive nature and stays within the confines of the material, there may be an illusion of desire for a get rich quick scheme due to an innate lack of practical sense or ability to build without external help. These people, if they overfocus on the material realm, may get frustrated due to lack of dividends or practical rewards, or they may simply waste their resources away due to an internal feeling of emptiness and dissatisfaction. If they get overwhelmed with this conflicting energy and forget to search within, they may forget their true purpose altogether. Yet, because of the foggy energy surrounding this Life Path, they don't have the capacity to intellectually or physically fully power through their problems like other life paths do, and they shouldn't even try. The only solution is going with the flow of their natural spiritual direction. That is imperative, as breaking out of this flow causes poverty, debt, sickness, forced isolation and all sorts of trouble in the physical world. Material prosperity will only appear in this person's life proportionate to their level of spiritual prosperity.

Associated Tarot Cards point the way for a Life Path 7 towards assuming a successful direction in this incarnation.

The Tower - This card is the testing moment, when we lose everything that we are used to having around us. But the purpose of this loss is always in our highest good. This is why things fall away at a critical point in our lives, when the foundation is so corrupted it can no longer support itself. The Tower is actually a tool of keeping things in check spiritually, meaning then when things go too far down the wrong direction, the Universe balances it with a Tower moment in order to prevent an imbalanced energy from growing further. The Tower points to this Life Path's ability to discard the excessive burden of material illusions and continuously purge in order to make sure one remains "pure", spiritually, free of self-deception and in tune with one's inner guideline.

The Chariot - The Chariot is linked to Ketu's thoughtless manifestation, that this Life Path possesses. A Life Path 7, regardless of their spiritual inclination, needs a firm direction not to drown in their negativity. Even for this Life Path, their spiritual nature needs to have anchor in the physical world, that keeps them on track with their journey. That anchor is balance, that the Chariot card represents, the balance between their inner shadow and light. A mature Life Path 7 knows how to preserve that balance, and drive that carriage effortlessly.

A Life Path 7 should never choose an easy way out, as it will backfire for them more than for anyone else. Not only will it cause misery internally, but also externally people will mirror it to them and they will be disapproved of for their wrongdoings more than any other Life Path number. It is as if others subconsciously sense their higher nature and place expectations on them to act accordingly with it, so where other Life Paths might get a pass, this Life Path number will not. In reality, it is the Universe's tool to assure that these natives stay on their correct, spiritual path, and it is Life Path 7s themselves that have a high level of subconscious, spiritual analysis and self-judgment. As a result, any negativity that comes their way from the outside is a projection resulting from their own deeply rooted high spiritual expectations, and an internal disappointment, if they are not met.

The best advice a Life Path 7 can hear is that it will always pay off for them practically to be kind and preserve their spiritual integrity. It is essential for this Life Path to realise, that any lower energies they invite for short-term gain will immediately backfire, and deep down they are unhappy with themselves for making any wrong choices in the first place. Ketu has a perfectionist nature to it, and a Life Path 7, whether they realise it or not, has a deep level of internalised spiritual perfectionism. An unaware Life Path 7 can become judgmental, trying to hold others to this high standard that they carry internally, while refusing to face their own actions. This process is simply a mirrored expression of a desire, to reach that point of excellence by themselves.

If you are a Life Path 7, solitude is something essential to your well-being. Make sure your lifestyle allows you to make time for yourself. It is in isolation, away from the external noise that may unnecessarily cause you to project your spiritual desires on others, that you can work on yourself, find truth and connection to your ultimate power of deep, analytical understanding of this existence.

[tiramisiyu]

Thoughts on Xia Yan’s Anniversary/Kiss Date

Not a translation, but rather an unleashing of the many thoughts I had for his date because it made me feel so many emotions and think so many things;;

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Date Translation

Preamble

Tears of Themis’ 1st anniversary features one of the most significant in-story events you can view within an otome game - the confession event between MC and respective male leads. The gravity of this confession event, however, is intensified with respect to the ML Xia Yan, as their emotions towards each other is not the only focus of said confession - he must also reveal the heartbreaking truth that his life is likely to end in three years. 

In the below sections, I will discuss the significance of various components that comprise Xia Yan’s anniversary date. My primary focuses will be on Xia Yan’s internal struggles, his care for MC, and the nature of the confession, and I aim to ultimately express why this date had such a major effect on me and whoa if you’re still reading this rambling part, I applaud you. I’m really just doing a fancy thoughtdump here.

The Nature of the Confession Event

From the beginning, XY never intended for the confession to be full of pomp and circumstance - and this was out of concern for MC, fearing that she would be too swept up in emotion to make it. Based on how the other guys’ cards look (them being outside and MC’s all dressed up), I assume that there was some ceremony-like aspect to their respective confessions, and I think that this draws a stark contrast to XY’s (who staunchly refused Yang Xiao’s offer to help make his confession just as ceremonial). In XY’s, MC’s not dressed up the way she is for the others, and both have been drenched in rain and are dissolving into tears of sadness as they speak. In addition, their desires are conflicting (rather than a situation where both parties confess and get together, and thus have coinciding interests) - despite what XY has said before, he does not want MC to be with him, while MC wants the exact opposite. It’s not a beautiful or gorgeous scene by design - instead, it’s very raw, very 狼狈 as the two lay bare their own painful emotions, discuss/cry about heavy topics, and show very vulnerable sides to each other, trying to get through to the other person. 

Speaking of showing vulnerability, the fact that Xia Yan is so anguished by what he has to say that he has to sit down and cry hits particularly hard because he has always, always tried to put on a strong face in front of MC. Whenever his illness strikes and MC sees it, such as in aquarium date or Neruda poem date, he’ll smile and/or joke about it after. When the two were talking about his posthumous letters during the RRG date, he still had a calm smile on his face. Even when he talked about being shoved into a car trunk to be “disposed of”, he was still calmly smiling. As MC noted, his job has taught him to have extreme control over his emotions, so it’s almost overwhelming, trying to imagine how much sadness pushed him to that point.

Pathetic fallacy also plays a part in increasing the impact that the confession event had. In the days leading up to the last part of the date, storms keep striking suddenly, such that it’s even described as “strange”. Storms are, of course, generally associated with less-pleasant things, such as conflict, anger, depression, difficulty, and so on. The meaning behind why they appeared suddenly or frequently is a little harder to understand, but my assumption for the frequency of the storms (rather than an ongoing storm or gloom) reflects how things could not completely “clear up” (despite uplifts in emotion from time to time) until they confronted each other with their feelings. During the confrontation, not only is the storm still going on, but they’re also harshly drenched in the cold rainwater. It is only after the kiss, after their interests finally coincide, that the storm lifts and the beautiful starry sky casts its light on Xia Yan, who was holding the majority of the conflict/sadness/depression between the two of them. (This is also highlighted in how MC notes that Xia Yan feels slightly cold (during the kiss), and she tries to transfer her warmth over to him, trying to alleviate that heavy emotion that’s wrapped itself around him.) 

The Location

The attic of their old home remains an important location for these two, and I pretty much can’t think of a better choice to set the confession. It contains their childhood memories, and it also came into play during Xia Yan’s first birthday after his return (i.e. the idea of continuing to make memories there). It’s also interesting to note that Xia Yan, from his rational mindset, did not intend to see MC… yet he still came to this place - a place that was equally meaningful to both of them, and a place where he’s likely to get lost in emotion. He may be restraining his emotions for MC’s good, yet they still show in small places. (At least, there doesn’t seem to be any logical reason for him to be there, since he wasn’t setting anything up there…)

The Humanizing and Internal Conflict of Xia Yan

I call it “humanizing” because I’ve done some commenting before on how Xia Yan has felt a little superhuman - so many skills everywhere, and rarely a moment of weakness. Now, this date really drives home that he is just human too, with the harsh reality of imminent death hanging over him (especially since we also learn a few more concrete details on exactly what his illness is). This point is brought into attention when he talks about how he’s neither able to be as brave as Schumann (who acted based on emotion) nor as silently strong as Brahms (who acted based on reason). He’s pulled in so many directions for all the things he wants - a desire to stay by MC’s side and do so much with her, whether as family or as something more, versus his rational mindset that tells him to not see her at all, to disappear from her life after, or to push her away even after her confession. There was also his “rationally” created plan in which he would give her the letter and let her decide, yet he still tries to convince her to not be with him. 

The Schumann/Brahms comparison shows how he keeps getting pulled back and forth between reason and emotion. He reveals his feelings to MC (Schumann), but wants her to make the optimal decision, which he believes is to not be with him (Brahms). He then kisses her after hearing her conviction (Schumann) and then gives her the gift that’s linked to Brahms. In realizing that he’s not able to stick to either path, he calls himself a coward - but he doesn’t need to be like either person. As MC says, his restraint is a part of his own background, and his emotional wavering is because of his care for MC - all in all, his motivations are because he is Xia Yan, not Schumann or Brahms. 

Personal Story Chapter 2 Parallels

In Xia Yan’s personal chapter 2, Yang Xiao sets up the story of 零/Zero and 玛丽薇莎/Marivisa to mirror MC and Xia Yan (respectively). The mention of what will bring Zero and MC happiness is starkly similar in these two situations:

⊳ Personal Ch.2-9

Xia Yan: 因为...这样，零会更幸福... 她不是在牺牲，她只是用自己的方式让零能幸福。Because this way, Zero would be happier… She wasn’t sacrificing herself. She was only using her own methods to make Zero happy.

MC: 但零的幸福就是她啊。But Zero’s happiness is her.

Xia Yan: 她已经无法给零幸福了。 It’s already impossible for her to give Zero happiness.

⊳ Date

Xia Yan: 如果你选择别的男人。。。只要他能给你幸福。我只会带给你不幸，我没有时间了。。。If you choose another man… As long as he can make you happy. All I can bring you is unhappiness. I don’t have much time left…

MC: 你怎么可能带给我不幸，你怎么可能做不到给我幸福。你在我身边，你的存在本身，就是我的幸福。How is it possible that you can only bring me unhappiness? How is it impossible for you to bring me happiness? You being by my side – your very existence – is my happiness. 

Yes, the Zero/Marivisa story was intentionally made to parallel these two, so it might feel moot to compare them like this. However, I still really appreciated that they brought this discussion of what brings MC/Zero happiness back, especially since XY’s chapter 2 was very major in developing his character. Back then, MC is vehement in that Zero would have been happier spending all the time he could with Marivisa, as well as even having the choice to spend that time with her. I think that this part was instrumental in Xia Yan eventually deciding to tell her the truth and letting her make her own decision (as he explicitly stated to Yang Xiao in part 1 of the date). However, he still wasn’t fully convinced by what MC said back in chapter 2, so we satisfyingly see this discussion of happiness come full circle by the end of this date, when Xia Yan finally trusts MC to make the best decision for herself. 

Xia Yan’s Considerateness

Xia Yan’s enduring consideration for MC displays itself in nearly every single action within this date. 

The flashback, when he thinks about MC potentially having to go through what the widow is now experiencing, and how his own happiness for three years isn’t worth that

His conviction to give her the right to decide in this matter that involves both of them, because he can’t be the one to decide everything

He insisted on not making it a romantic event, because he wants MC to make the best decision without having a mind clouded by emotion. He’s also made peace with the idea of not being with MC, for the sake of her long-term happiness. All he wants is for her to know the truth of his feelings and illness.

His decision to still make MC a gift to retain some aspect of the romance in the confession (but he only gives the gift after MC has made her decision, again to ensure that her mind isn’t clouded). I think the concept of the gift is particularly beautiful - the little, happy holograms of them inside the glass, as if ensuring that he will always be by her side in some way; the music that brings back their childhood memories and alludes to an enduring, quiet, and protecting love that puts the recipient first (i.e. Brahms to Clara); and the rainbow, which has its childhood memories and treasure implications that are already mentioned in the date, but it also reminded me of the miraculous double rainbow in his Lost Gold date. That double rainbow was the trigger for Xia Yan to proactively seek out a future with MC, when he took the initiative to ask MC if she could be with him to seek out more miracles. Overall, there are a lot of beautiful memories and implications wrapped up in that music box/snowglobe. 

The little comical segment where he worries about the optimal time to deliver the letter, worrying about MC’s sleep or if she’ll be able to eat well.

His stress over what he should’ve done after the letter was delivered, and how he immediately answered MC’s call out of pure worry, despite being so resolute about not answering her calls that he’d turned on airplane mode before. 

Their ensuing discussion in part 3 is just full of Xia Yan’s consideration for MC at its peak - 

Rather than being ecstatic about MC’s confession, his first instinct is to tell her to take a few days to think about it logically. (But really, emotions aren’t logical to begin with, so it’s not like MC would’ve stopped liking you after mulling it over for a few days, haha)

His immediate apology after yelling that he has to mention his death

His worry about how MC will cope after he’s gone, going so far as to saying that she would be better off with another man 

I think that this particular (above) line got a particularly visceral reaction from Xia Yan fans, including myself. Because like MC, our initial thoughts fell along the lines of “How could I ever choose someone else when the only person I like is you? There’s just no way someone else could make me happier…”. Another reaction that I’ve seen among Xia Yan fans (yep, including myself) is how we originally viewed the story in third-person, seeing “MC” in the story, but this date (and this particular scene, where MC says nearly everything that I myself would want to say) dragged us into a first-person position. 

The heartbreaking scene where Xia Yan cries from being unable to give MC the happiness that he wants to give her (or so he thinks). 

He’s just so painfully selfless. I also really like the line during the kiss where MC tries to transmit her warmth to him, trying to balance things out between them and have him feel better, when he had already written himself off by thinking that his happiness is better off sacrificed for hers. 

Jin Xian’s Voice Acting

Jin Xian’s voice acting deserves a whole section to itself, because I think that he did an amazing job of portraying the intense emotions Xia Yan feels during the date. Just going to list some lines that really hit hard - both because of the content, and because of the voice acting that really considered how Xia Yan would be feeling then. 

我可以去追她，我甚至可以和她结婚。我可以把最后的三年过得很好，过的毫无遗憾，但是然后呢？她一个人要怎么办。。。谁陪她走出来，谁来照顾她。。。(“I could pursue her. I could even marry her. I could live my last three years happily, without the slightest of regrets. But what about after? How will she cope on her own… Who will be with her as she handles this? Who will take care of her…”) The ups and downs of this section’s voicing really hit hard.

The gentleness with which he speaks about what he plans to tell MC, especially the line 她从来都是这样 (“She’s always been like that.”)

He’s so cute in Part 2!! The tone’s a lot happier and relaxed and it’s really nice to see and hear. 

In part 3, the vehemence with which he talks about how the risks of MC’s work aren’t comparable to his established time limit, which then softens into something sadder when he talks about how Yang Xiao’s efforts haven’t extended his time by much. 

The intensity when he says 我必须说 ! (“I have to say it!”) (when MC reacts to him using the word “death”), and how he immediately softens his tone after. But then his voice starts to rise again as he worries for how MC will bear his death… and then he takes a break to calm down, and then makes the suggestion of MC finding another man with a near-inflectionless tone that gradually slips into a whisper

His whispering voice makes the impact of 我在乎。。。！(I care…!) hit even harder because it’s suddenly loud, and you can clearly hear the tears in his voice. Once again, he takes a breath to calm himself down and quiet his voice. But even as he keeps talking in a voice that descends into a whisper again, you can tell that he’s still on the verge of crying…

Also the 我也。。。好喜欢，最喜欢你. (I also… like you. I like you the most) line left me screaming with how it was whispered but really strong and adamant-sounding aaaaa

Anyways I could list more but at that point I might as well list Jin Xian’s entire script lmao. He did such a good job!!!!!! 

Sound Effects 

I’m laughing at myself for including this section - if you turn off the music that accompanies Xia Yan’s card, you’ll… hear some very interesting sound effects [狗头]

They’ve got to make the most of their limited time together, after all, and this is the only date out of the set of four that’s indoors… it makes sense…

Other Thoughts 

Two kisses!!

What sort of treatment would leave Xia Yan infected with drugs with prohibited components? What were they even trying to do? 

The date was short relative to the other, super-long Themis dates, but I’m personally alright with that because it places focus on the confession itself. It hit all the points that I personally was expecting for Xia Yan’s confession, including his past struggles with the idea of staying with MC, his confession about both his feelings and his illness, and how resolute MC is about staying with him vs. how hard he tries to get her to understand the implications of being him, considering that he doesn’t have much time left. 

I think now’s a good time for the two of them to get married if they’re well aware that Xia Yan’s time is limited, so Xia Yan, where’s the ruby ring? 

I wonder what implications this will have on the main story - e.g. will the rest of NXX find out about Xia Yan’s illness in Chapter 7.2? Or will they never know? Actually, I wonder if they’ll have MC be aware of his illness in the main story because… that implies his confession happened, which might anger fans of the other boys. 

Conclusion

I love Xia Yan and I love this date.