#It’s my recent obsession ack

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HI 🍰 !! It has been a month and a half but yes yes i’m back !! i’ve been focusing a lot on my private life and my grades for this quarter are releasing tomorrow >….< if i get onto honors , i will make so many userboxes i promise !!! i will open up my requests just to celebrate JJKXS , aaa but yes , i’ve missed making userboxes smmm TT !! <33

[ddarker-dreams]

Understatement.

Wanderer x Reader.

Warnings: None. Word count: 1.2k.

Your bag carries plenty of essentials. 

Stationery, lip balm, keys to your apartment; stuff of that nature. Then there’s your personal favorite, a wallet embroidered with dandelions — your hometown’s flower — into the fabric. It’d been sent to you without a return address on your birthday, shrouding the gifter in mystery. All of these items accompany you on a day-to-day basis. 

That aside, this list has another unifying factor. Each object is inert. Completely still. Incapable of moving without an outside force. Now, this isn’t a revelation that’ll shift society and be recorded in history books for generations to come. It’s common sense. A concept children grasp before they even know what ‘gravity’ is. 

As for why you’re taking a lengthy mental inventory of your belongings… 

Well. 

Something in there is moving. Rustling about, the vague outline of its body pressing against the aged leather. 

Your response is slow. Cautious. You begin by pushing yourself away from your desk, creating distance between you and this potential threat. The Vision fastened along your waistband thrums, ready to act. Numerous theories whir around your mind like a sandstorm. Is this a prank in poor taste? Cyno had mentioned an investigation into scarabs being placed in student’s bags, although nothing serious had come from it. Maybe it’s a gadget or some elemental reaction— 

—Your cognition grinds to a halt when a head pokes out, undoing the bag’s clasp in the process. 

…

…

…

“Oh!” The creature exclaims while freeing itself. “Um… hi!” 

The room’s natural lighting gives you a better idea of the creature’s appearance. Its wings keep it suspended midair, each enthusiastic flap scattering your notes. Large, doe-like eyes consider you, gleaming with childlike curiosity. If not for the prominent horns atop its head, you might think it’s a bat, but that classification doesn’t quite fit. 

Whatever it is, you sense no hostility. 

“Hello,” is your hesitant reply. 

It looks around, fixating on the items displaced from your desk. 

“Ack, I’m sorry,” it apologizes. It lands carefully on your desk and lowers its head, as if ashamed. “I didn’t mean to make such a mess… I’ve just been excited to meet you.” 

“Don’t worry, this is nothing. I’ve been meaning to reorganize my stuff, anyway.” 

For some reason, you can’t find it within you to fault this seemingly well-meaning yet clumsy guest. Its naivete is reminiscent of a certain explosion-obsessed girl from back home. In truth, this entire ordeal doesn’t even breach the top five strangest experiences you’ve had in recent times. 

… Alright, perhaps it’s a contender for the fourth slot. 

Suddenly, your guest straightens up. “Wait! I haven’t introduced myself yet. We can’t be friends if I haven’t introduced myself… you can call me Mini Durin. And I already know your name. You’re [First].” 

“Yeah, that’d be me,” you cover a budding smile with your hand, not wanting your giddy guest to mistake it for mockery. “So, Mini Durin… you said you’ve been wanting to meet me? Why’s that?”

Mini Durin ambles his way toward the edge of your desk. 

“You’re important to my first friend,” he declares. “At least I think so. He only has the nicest things to say about you, like how you’re not ‘as insufferable as most,’ and that ‘your presence is tolerable.’” 

That’s what Mini Durin considers ‘the nicest things’ to say about someone…?! 

The conviction with which he speaks affirms his sincerity. 

“It sounds like you trust this friend a great deal.” 

Mini Durin nods. “I do. That’s how I ended up in your bag… I got separated from him earlier. Luckily, I spotted you. I knew you’d keep me safe. And now we even get to be friends!” 

That explains why your bag felt heavier coming home than when you left. 

“You got separated from him?” Frowning, you scoot your chair closer. “Where at? We can go looking for him, if you want. He must be worried.” 

“Oh. I didn’t think about that.” 

Mini Durin mulls over your offer for a few seconds, adding, “What if he’s mad at me? He was working hard on another gift for you, but I went and distracted him.” 

“Friends can sort stuff like this out,” you reassure. Then, a pause. “Huh. Did you say ‘another gift?’” 

Mini Durin tilts his head. “You didn’t know? The pretty flowers on your—” 

A rapid knock on your door cuts him off. 

You both turn your attention toward the booming sound. Huffing, you cross your arms over your chest. It’s late in the evening, who in their right mind would treat your front door like a drum? You shoot your unexpected guest an apologetic look, promising a swift return.

Some choice words sizzle on your tongue as you swing the door open, only to be met by an equally irate figure. 

Your eccentric classmate, the Wanderer, stands before you. There’s a slight flush to his cheeks like he’s been physically exerting himself. The telltale sign of Anemo settles down around him, his hat reappearing in the process. He soon mirrors your exasperated posture, one hand on his hip, the other readjusting the brim of his hat. 

“I could’ve flown to Inazuma and back in the time it took you to answer,” is the courteous greeting he goes for. 

“Hello to you too,” you greet. “Was there something you needed? Or are you just making your debut as a percussionist known to the entire nation?”

He rolls his eyes. “Of course there’s something I ‘need’, genius.” 

“And what would that be?” 

“I’m looking for a small, talking dragon,” the Wanderer deadpans. “Ring any bells?” 

You blink. “Are you referring to Mini Durin?” 

“Just how many dragons are you acquainted with?” 

“I mean, I am from Mondstadt,” you shrug. A realization then creeps up on you. “Hold on. Does that make you this ‘first friend’ I’ve heard so much about?” 

The Wanderer freezes. You observe as he processes this information in real-time, along with the implications that come with it. Though his muscles are tense, he keeps his visage impassive. The occasional twitch of his eye is the only detail betraying his panic. 

“... On second thought, you can keep him.” 

He swivels on his heel to make a hasty retreat. 

You lurch forward without thinking, your hand latching around his wrist. He snaps his head around to meet your gaze, almost knocking you over with his hat in the process. A well-timed dodge protects you from the potential headache. In the light of the setting sun, the Wanderer’s porcelain complexion is dyed in crimson hues. Though he’s maintaining eye contact, something tells you it’s a struggle. 

“Hey,” you use your free hand to poke his flushed cheeks, to which he grimaces and bats at it like a cat. “Come inside. I’ll make up some of that awful, bitter tasting tea you like.” 

He inhales through his teeth, likely weighing various excuses. You bat your eyelashes and offer your brightest smile. As the seconds pass by, you can feel his resolve weakening. With a scoff, he frees himself from your grasp, the ease in which he does so confirming he’d been your willing hostage. 

The Wanderer wordlessly strolls past you and into your home. 

Humming, you follow close behind him. 

Just ‘tolerable’, huh? 

[wolfiesmoon]

HELLOOOO!!!

I like, just read your work, and I SUPER DUPER LOVE IT!!!!

(very slay)

So like, I'm so happy you're doing requests!

Could I do a request for a jealous Lilia Vanrouge? No problem if you don't do it fast, or even don't do it! No stress or pressure!

hahahah hiiiiiii!

idk why but i absolutely love ur vibes!! u seem so silly (very fitting for a lilia kisser)

i actually had a bit of trouble thinking about a plot for this, i don't see Lilia as the type to get seriously jealous (atleast not the current lilia, still in blissful ignorance abt book 7) so i made it a different, more silly type of jealous in the end

"Ahehehe, he's so pretty..." you smiled at your phone, sat on Lilia's bed at the moment. After coming to Twisted Wonderland and obtaining a phone, you realised that you have a whole new world to explore. A whole new world of otome games.

Recently, you've been obsessed with this one guy in one of the otome games you're playing. He's just perfect, and that's all that is to it.

On the other hand, your good friend Lilia has been feeling a strange sense of unsatisfaction whenever you talk about that fictional crush of yours.

He invited you over to his room with the intent to converse with you deep into the night but you're just rolling around on his bed and freaking out over a fictional character instead of gazing at him with interest as he talks about one of his travels.

Not that he blames you for getting so worked up over video games, no no. He himself finds a lot of enjoyement in playing them. They have an appeal, and he gets it. Though he hasn't experienced an otome game for himself yet.

But he still thinks that it is quite rude you are not talking to him right now. Not to mention the strange feeling that boils inside him when you giggle at your phone for the umpteenth time.

He'll have to gain your attention in the way he knows best.

He soundlessly climbs up on the bed behind you, making sure you didn't notice him before grabbing your shoulders from behind and playfully yelling "Boo!"

"Ack! Lilia!" You yelp, turning back to see Lilia laughing heartily at your reaction.

"Hahahaha, that was quite the reaction!" He seemed very pleased with himself.

"What was that for?" You furrowed your brows, pouting at him.

"Well, I invited you to my room so we can enjoy eachother's company, is all." A subtle invitation to start a conversation. His eyes travelled to your phone screen for a moment and he saw the fictional guy you're freaking out about.

Hm... he could probably do better. Atleast in his humble opinion.

"In a minute, in a minute... just gotta finish this chapter." You turned back to your phone with excitement shining in your eyes. Excitement that wasn't directed at him.

Oh, he sees how it is. He'll just have to win you back the hard way.

He casts a spell on your phone, making it float out of your hands. You tried to reach above you to catch it but it just kept floating higher and higher, just out of your reach.

"Lilia! Stop that!" You knew it was him doing it, mainly because he was laughing joyously, watching you jump around on the bed, trying to catch it.

"Oh, but I'm enjoying myself very much right now. Is it so wrong of me to have a bit of fun?" He smiled at you mischeviously. There was a glint of something you can't quite place shining behind his eyes.

"You seem oddly worked up." You comment, giving up on the phone for now and plopping back down on the bed.

"Whatever do you mean..?" Lilia acted innocent. While you were inspecting his face to find any suspicious expressions, he used magic to poof your phone away. There. Now there's no more distractions.

"Wait... my phone! What did you do to it?!" You realised it's gone a tad too late, head whipping around the room to try and find it.

"Kehehe, don't worry. I put it somewhere safe." Lilia assured you. Now you can focus all your attention on the one who's right in front of you, on him.

"O...kay? Why are you smirking evilly at me?" you were now especially suspicious of him.

He moved next to you on the bed, wrapping his right arm around you. He seemed awfully delighted when you looked at him in the eyes.

"Now, we can talk for hours. I have lots of things I want to find out about you." he punctuated the 'you' with a playful poke to your forehead.

"O...Oh, all right. What do you want to talk about?" you were still kind of processing the entire situation, but you were glad Lilia was in a talkative mood. Conversations with him are always enjoyable, even if you didn't get to finish that chapter you were really looking forward to.

"There, now I have you. I'll make it worth your time." he seemed very satisfied at the return of your interested gaze on him. Now he just has to make sure it stays on him for good.

[calypsolemon]

I wanna hear about your favorite au you've made, I'm curious!

ack that's really hard to say any particular one is my favorite, though I have ones that I like over others.

Obviously, I've had transcendent au for the longest and probably have the most fondness and nostalgia for it. In short (and it should be said VERY short as this is a long and complicated au), it's an au where the ninja attempt to defy the destiny that has beaten them down for so long, but in the course of doing so they rise to meet it, destroying the world and becoming the gods of a new world in the process. I cannot call this au purely mine alone as it was a collaborative effort between members of my lego server. It's also probably the most messy, containing a lot of immature and underdeveloped thoughts on ninjago as a series, as well as just my emotional state at the time which was "angry abuse victim who just moved out of their childhood home." Over time my thoughts on the events of the au have evolved drastically and thusly the meaning of it has too, which isn't a bad thing. But it does mean its not really as streamlined or coherent as something I'd create now that I'm a bit older.

Oldman Lloyd au is also one of my favorites, and it sort of exists as a response to aspects of transcendent au I find myself now disagreeing with. Essentially, its just my imaging of what Lloyd's life will look like in the far future, where he has been doing the green ninja/ master lloyd/ conduit thing for enough ages that it has all become routine. This one is nowhere near as developed, existing mostly as a set of loosely connected vignettes in my mind. Still, what drives me to it is just the idea of following Lloyd thousands of years into the future, and seeing that he still has a life filled with meaning and friends he cares about even if they aren't the same set of friends he started with, something that I think the fandom is often hesitant to dwell upon.

Splinter-hearted, my adaptation of the classic fairytale "The Snow Queen," was at one time a ninjago au, which you might know if you've been around long enough. It was pretty straightforward, just a version of the Snow Queen where the characters were replaced with ninjago characters, having Nya as Gerda, Kai as Kay and Zane as the titular Snow Queen. However it isn't anymore as I quickly realized the characters were just too different from their ninjago counterparts, and the story wasn't benefiting much from continuing to keep them connected to ninjago. Still, I feel grateful to that early version for giving me the spark that would eventually lead to a more original story.

Finally, and most recently, I've been obsessed with my siren Jay/ With Your Voice au. Since it's the most recent it's not as developed, but I think I've seen very few au's of its nature in the fandom, so I've latched onto it. Essentially, it is an au about Nya struggling to cope with the loss of Jay (who is dead in this version of things), and her spiral into obsessive and self-destructive behavior as she chases a dangerous mythological creature that takes on Jay's likeness (the siren). It's kind of my first attempts at something of a horror story in one of my au's! I'm really excited to keep hashing it out in my mind.

This might just sound like I copped out because I listed so many au's in one post but tbh I actually have come up with many MANY au's for ninjago over the years. Most of them simply haven't been posted about on this blog because they just weren't focused on that long by me, weren't that interesting in the long run, didn't have much going on that would make good art pieces, etc. I still find many of them precious to me but I think these four are the ones I'm holding closest to my heart at this moment. Thank you for asking!

[wolfgirl-valentine]

Shipper Tag Game

Thanks to @marvagon and @sparkylulufor tagging me 🫶🏽💚✨

•What ship were you completely obsessed with as a teenager, but now you don't care about anymore?

There are a lot of them honestly, Light/L from Death Note is probably the one I remember the most 👀

•What ship would you consider your first one?

Canon? Catwoman/Batman, NonCanon... probably Roy/Ed from Full Metal Alchemist (I was like 13/14 when I ship them sorry 😬)

•Your first fanfic was about which couple?

Ack, Roy/Ed I think...

•Do you remember the first couple you saw fan art of?

Ranma/Akane from Ranma 1/2 if I remember correctly

•Have you ever gotten into ship discourse?

I try not, I talk about it whit my friends but not with strangers, I don't really see the point

•Did you use to have any NOTP or have one currently?

I DO! It's very funny because is the first one I have, usually I ignore them but it's the first NOTP that I need to block because I hate it 😅

•Who were the last couple in the last fanfic you read?

Jango Fett/Obi Wan Kenobi 🩶

•Currently, do you have any OTPs?

Many 😬

•Is there any couple that, to this day, that you are extremely mad about not getting into?

Not really

•Is there any ship you used to dislike but now you think they're kind of interesting?

Nope

•Do you have any ship that, in the past, would have been considered normal but now you would be cancelled over?

Roy/Ed definitely 😬

•What is your favorite crack ship?

Jango Fett/Obi Wan Kenobi 😅 and Teague Martin/Daud from Dishonored

•What is the couple you read the most fanfics about?

Recently? Hob/Morpheus from The Sandman Netflix in the last year, and Jango/Obi Wan in the last week 👀

•What do most of your ships have in common?

Never thought about that before 🤔 I think the most common trait is that they are enemies/rivals that later become friends

•What do you absolutely hate in a ship?

That their personalities are out of character to fit the dynamics the fandom want them into

No tagging!!!! Free to anyone who wants to do it (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)

[elfdyke]

I've been plagued by Mandy thoughts recently.. I don't really know how to articulate it but she's like if a good person was a really bad person and I'm going insane over her (^_^) she's my poor little meow meow and I'm obsessed with her. Mandy in Saw X who cheered.

SHES SOO GIRL STUCK IN A TERRIBLE SITUATION. its so insane to me she has this like... softness in her that should have been stamped out by now. and its Barely there by saw 3 but shes still There she still has that sliver of hope and desperation that people can be good, that second chances matter and you can change...

like ack... her abusive father setting her up for so many struggles in her future, then getting framed by eric, going to jail and developing a heroin addiction, AND THE WHOLE THING WITH GIDEON??? MY GOD. she was just this perfect storm for john to swoop in and groom into his apprentice

shes just so insanely tragic like... maybe. maybe she could have gotten better. especially if you think about how the script said she was going to therapy 🥹 she could have.. but then john broke her and there was absolutely 0 chance of her ever escaping and its soooo sad you can tell she knows this is her safest option. almost everything amanda does she does in a desperate attempt at surviving, (meanwhile she also acts incredibly passively suicidal which killsss me). so its just.. ack. she thought this was her best option. she was so scared and alone and the world had done her wrong so badly she thought siding with the man who almost killed her was her safest damn option.. GROUP AGONIZING STARTS IN 10.

ANYWAYS MY BAD SORRY I HAVE A NORMAL AMOUNT OF FEELINGS ABOUT AMANDA.. UM... also yes fucm yes im so excited about amanda saw x , we are so fucking back. amanda in her blind faith era lfg!!!!!

[khoirkid]

Eleanor Fairchild

Homina Homina hey! Starmites is a small underground musical that ran for 12 weeks on Broadway. I recently had the chance to play Ack Ack and graphic design for it so expect to see a whole fannon world to appear on my page.

Let’s start with our lead. Eleanor Fairchild longs to be a superhero girl and far from her lonely life on earth. She adores comics but especially starmites and the legendary superhero, Milady and her true love Space Punk. Her mother is concerned about her comic book obsession and is threatening to sell them on EBay. Plain old normal but slightly quirky Eleanor will get pulled into the world of Innerspace and face off against some of the biggest villains.

[if-apples-were-way-better]

ok so. i don't even go here. the most tmnt i have ever seen is a grand total of the first five minutes of episode one of tmnt 2012 and also the volume wasn't working so i only had the captions. i have absorbed all i know about these turtles from ao3 and tumblr dashboard osmosis.

but! i am obsessed with your writing. i'm subscribed to you on ao3 and every time i read something of yours, i get genuinely overwhelmed because of how much i love your writing. it's like....the writing style and the character dynamics and the siblings and the characterizations and the angst and the comfort and i love it.

(also you are like. one of the only writers who can successfully get me to read romantic fluff. because i am aro and i do not trust most writers in this area. but, as previously stated, i am obsessed with your writing, so i had to read the meet-cute coffee shop fic. and it was so good and cute. all of your writing is so good. ack. it makes me emotional.)

anyways, just wanted to say that, since i recently realized you have a tumblr! (nice tumblr by the way!)

(also sorry for not commenting on your actual fics! i usually comment on fics, but i feel kinda anxious about commenting for fandoms i'm not in.)

hope you're having a good day, keep up the great writing!

AHHH!!!! THANK YOU!!!! FOR EVERYTHING!!!!!! i'm so happy to read this,,, literally sat here giggling and spinning in my chair reading this

i sometimes get a little self-conscious over my writing (i worry that I'm waxing poetic, but i strive to invoke emotion so i carry on anyway) so you're really inflating my ego here haha. i adore writing characters just interacting with each other and i especially love sibling dynamics (almost all my favorite characters have at least one sibling haha), so tmnt is like, perfect for me.

i'm pretty sure i'm also aro-spec, so maybe that has smth to do with it? idk, but i'm literally so happy i successfully got you to read the romance :D

(don't feel bad for not commenting btw, i'm anxious about commenting on literally everything (and about posting anything at all), i get it. would love to hear from you, obviously, but don't make yourself do anything.)

literally thank you so much!! i hope YOU'RE having a good day, cause you just made mine!!!!

[bizarreohmart]

AAAAAAA i just got home; people i'd like to get to know better, tagged by @hateliers :3

last song: welcome to my mind by the hi-fives; the psychonauts obsession is pushing at my brain again

favorite color: ourple. as you can probably tell. olive green, teal and orange are all close though

last book: house of leaves <3 i mean. i haven't finished it yet i am PUSHING and TRYING tho

last movie: THE WILD ROBOT..... HIGHLY RECOMMEND..... ACK

last TV show: arcane (the whole series i . never finished s1 back when it dropped. i feel like saying it's good is like saying spirited away is good, in that everyone is saying that LMAO)

sweet/savory/spicy: SWEET. i am partial to savory and spicy but i have SUCH an intense sweet tooth

relationship status: taken :))))

last thing i searched: "prefix traversal method" bc i was looking up help for my cs homework

current obsession: malevolent has had me in a fucking CHOKEHOLD for SIX MONTHS. ITS BAD. currently being supplemented by slay the princess and arcane tho

looking forward to: semester being over and graduation :)

favorite drink: oooh this is difficult. i have many fun drinks. probably vanilla latte that i get as a treat rn though

song playing on a loop in your head 24/7: rule #18: lion by fish in a birdcage because Animatic Thoughts. also everything at once by lenka for the same reason

current favorite character: damn who have i been specifically obsesed with in malpod. i'm gonna go with john because ive done the most thinking about him recently. maybe will write fic. who knows

fun activity you would like to get into: really wanna watch movies and make a pillow fort together but no one lives close to me :(

last video game: slay the princess; finished the gallery babyyyyyyy

last comic/graphic novel: damn what Was the last comic i read. OH WAIT its the twilight princess manga :))

uhhhhhhh hm. @catboygirling @ssomepersonn @absoluteocellibehavior (ONLY IF YOU GUYS WANT........ no pressure genuinely slkjdflkdf)

[dragonsandreverie]

Ouuuhhhh I haven’t done one of these in years 👁👁

Last Song: Here Come The Ravens by The Aviators, a Bloodborne fansong! It came up on shuffle last night before I went to bed. But I’ve also been having this tamil pop song stuck in my head all day, whose name I don’t know, whose words I only half know, but whose tune is engrained in me, If that says anything at all.

Currently Reading: As far as new books go, The Moth Keeper by K. O’Neill, it’s a graphic novel written by one of my favorite comic authors(is that the term?). It’s about a young girl who lives in a nocturnal desert town as she learns to ask for help, and to come to terms with the night. It’s very sweet and the author’s previous books have never failed to make me weep, from what emotion I have no idea.

As far as books in general go, The Burning by Kathryn Lasky, I am… I am in the middle of my almost bi-annual reread of the whole guardians of gahoole series and I tend to omit them from the running in these types of questions just because of how often I read them.

Current Fic: I am absolutely horrible at reading and finishing fics I pick up, so I will say, the last one I consumed at any sort of voracious pace was Stag Beetle and Broken Legs by Aryashi and relationshipcrimes. It’s a fairly popular Hollow Knight fanfiction, and so good. Unlikely friendships, happy endings (eventually), the consequences of your actions, humor, though as a warning, it does deal pretty heavily with themes of suicide and depression.

Next on watch list: I have to get my hands on a dvd copy of Van Helsing (2004) if it’s the last thing I do.

Current Obsession: I very recently finished reading Stand Still, Stay Silent (webcomic) and I’m actively beating off the brainworms as they slither towards me. It is not working. I’ve been in a Sky: Children of the Light fixation for the last 3-4 years. And of course the decade long HTTYD obsession. I do not think I can call Guardians of Ga’Hoole an obsession, I don’t know how to categorize a 14 year long fixation as anything other than ‘just a part of me now.’

Ack! I haven’t really been back on tumblr long enough to know who to tag, I’m just gonna say anyone who wants to can do it! Promise. I am personally inviting you. Yes, you.

9 people you want to get to know better

Tagged by, @inquisitor-apologist 👀 thanke

Last song: Wonderful Night by Fatboy Slim - I was watching Flushed Away for old times sake and the song was in the credits :D but like as for a song I was listening to deliberately last, then that'd be Red Flags by Tom Cardy... don't ask.

Currently reading: Hot Money - Dick Francis, well more like it's the next one on my reading "to do list", it's one of the few Dick Francis books I haven't read yet, so I'm really looking forward to it >:) always up to suffering with Francis' horse plinkos

Current fic: Across The Galaxy by Greencharacters on AO3 because I need all the Kanera fics inserted directly into my bloodstream-

Currently watching: the Ahsoka show! I love it so far no mention of Kanan??? I MEAN, I love all the Spectres popping up 👀 I'm saving my thoughts on it until after it's finished telling its story - in the words of mister Tolkien "We must not be hasty."

Next on my watch list: Mm, likely Loki, I think the new season comes out a week after Ahsoka ends. Also hoping Lego Ninjago's second half of the new season will come out soon, so that's in the cards as well :D otherwise... maybe His Dark Materials. I think there was something new for that as well? But I'll probably have to rewatch the whole thing, I can't remember where I ended up oop.

Current obsession: Kanan Jarrus :) currently trying to continue with my Inquisitor!Kanan AU without feeling guilty about it- also thanks to @vinniehorrible I am now overthinking the possibility of Marrok being Kanan or a clone of his... it's complicated- and I might explore it on my art blog later. I'm forever of the delulu clan.

Aight, time to pop up in 9 people's notifications

@strige-art @aviandistressmachine @loth-creatures @anoray @kanerallels @starrysyndulla @tobytost @astralalmighty @speedythecat

[mariaiscrafting]

Okay I recently listened to sci guys podcast episode about parasocial relationships and even though I don't agree with the tier part because I feel like the divide between the tiers are confusing and incorrect, it really changed how I view parasocial relationships.

The podcast brings up that everyone has a parasocial relationship with someone for example when a lot of people gets sad that a celebrity died, that's a parasocial relationship. But there are different levels to it. For example one of the tiers of they bring up is giving a person money or the person being able to profit from the parasocial relationship between them and their fans. Which is what youtubers, twitch streamers and a lot of other entertainers careers are built upon!

But that has just made me examine more how the parasocial relationships I have formed shape how I feel and interact with certain things. And I'm learning new things every day even tho I have been in another fandom for a few years now that also have a problem with parasocial relationships both in the mainstream fandom and tumblr fandom.

Like how much I love the Tommy is jealous bit just because it's so clearly a bit. Just the way they use their twitter accounts to create bits that are kind of like in jokes with fans. It's like when Tommy went to the happy hour podcast and I looked through the youtube comments and a lot of people who have never watched his content before was enterained by him and at the same time dedicated fans were pointing out references in his answers. Which I find so impressive.

But what Ranboo said on an origin smp stream this last week(?) when he talked about the uk trip and his feelings about a face reveal was really interesting. Because he kind of finished it with that we shouldn't worry about it because there is nothing any of us fans can do about it. It's up to him to come up with a solution. And that really hit me because that's a part of the parasocial relationship I didn't really grasp that I had until now. And maybe it is me who is slow on the uptake but experiencing these negative emotions are natural because Ranboo has made many of my days brighter, and as a result I wish for him to experience the same happiness. But in the end they are futile and these are emotions are just for me to hold in my hands and experience. I don't know, I know I'm rambling a lot but this really made me able to not cling to that worry?

This became a ramble and I'm not sure how coherent this is but I just find it very interesting to examine and talk about it. Anyway stan Philza Minecraft

Yes, I agree, stan Philza Minecraft.

But besides that, first, wanna apologize for not answering this for two days ack, it’s such a lovely ask, and I appreciate it sm.

So, I kinda agree with that sciguy view of parasocial relationships. I don’t think it’s very effective or useful or even necessary to create fixed tiers to which all fans can be assigned, but I do think it’s useful that we each examine our own parasocial relationships with individual public figures. Like, do I think the parasocial relationship between an individual and the royal British family that spurred them to send me asks about how gross and horrible Prince Phillip was, is particularly dangerous? Not really. Do I think the parasocial relationship between an individual and a CC that spurs them to send me an ask about how much they love that CC is particularly dangerous? It depends, and I think it’s worth the time and effort to pause and examine that.

I totally get the feeling worry on behalf of a streamer, and I’m sure most of us do. But there’s a line that needs to be drawn where we need to become aware that we can’t let ourselves completely empathize with what is essentially a public figure. That sounds harsh, but it’s true. Like, if your friend or partner or family member is stressed out, you feel the inherent yearn to help and/or comfort them, right? That’s because those relationships are founded upon love and care that is mutual, and you know those people on such a level that allows for that empathy to manifest in such a way where it isn’t toxic and one-sided. In real life, if we do have, for example, a partner who doesn’t afford us that same amount of care or empathy, we tell others to break up with them because this is toxic and harmful for the individual’s mental health. The same should go for CCs. If we find ourselves stressing out on their behalf, getting angry on their behalf, etc., we’ve taken it a step too far, and we need to do what you did: pause and learn how to stop clinging to that worry. That’s because a CC does not know us, and they can care about us in a tangential sense, but never on an individual level. So we can’t put ourselves in the position to be taken advantage of because we’re putting out an unequal amount of emotion.

I think a lot of this fandom could benefit from really internalizing the reality of how much CCs care about fans and the capacity to which they even can care about their fans, and trying to emulate that amount of emotion. Once I stopped and realized “hey, Technoblade might laugh at his chat and find his donos endearing and talk to us, but he doesn’t actually know me, and I don’t particularly know him, either,” it became a lot easier to stop getting anxious on his behalf, angry on behalf, or even be nearly as obsessed as I previously was with him. It’s not that I don’t care anymore, and I clearly still let discourse surrounding him and his actions and words affect me on some level - whether they be to entertain, sadden, spark joy, etc. - but I’ve greatly decreased my emotional dependency upon this single individual who I barely even know.

[maeum-your]

Ack it was so hard to chooooseee

Okay here are someeeee

lemon; yellow ochre; titans; golden deep; rose; violet rose; turquoise blue; black;

Okay I'm done ^-^

I hope ur train ride is pleasant!! I love youu <3

~M 🐝

thank you sm for sending smth in!! I love you <333

lemon; what’s your comfort food?

cucumbers 💀 but I honestly always tend to seek juice more than anything else

yellow ochre; name an artist/band whom you just discovered & can’t get enough of!

I can't think of anyone tbh 😭

titans; do you prefer slow mornings or relaxing evenings?

slow mornings because they make me feel less anxious <3

golden deep; what’s your favorite season?

I never have a fixed answer for this 😭 I just really like when the sun is shining and the plants are blooming and everything outside is just lovely and green and colorful!

rose; what’s something really positive going on in your life right now?

whenever I walk to the train station I pass by a garden with two adorable bunnies and they always manage to make me really happy!

violet rose; what does your dream house look like?

a witchy cottage in the woods by a stream and the walls are covered with ivy. ideally with good wifi tho LMAOO

turquoise blue; if you could start a garden, what would you plant?

def a weeping willow because I have recently started an obsession with them. roses too. lots of them in all kinds of colors. jessamines. summer lilac. rhododendrons.

black; post a selfie because you are so beautiful!

I spent 20 min of my morning trying to take a good one 😵

[cursedbonexx]

Hyoo!!! I wasn't sure if the last ask as been sent to u cuz... yk tumblr stuff :/ but it's okay!!! :D I'll write it again >:) cuz I hate to make someone feel like I'm ignoring them .-.

So Yeah! Tbh puppeteer creaped me out as well but uhhh... after almost two years of being a simp of him (😔💅) i got kinda obsessed-

Also yeah :DDD I do watch anime!!! My fav is demon slayer!!! And no unfortunately I donno about that anime ;-; but what is it about tho?? 👀

Ack- sorry I've been ignoring a lot of bad stuff lately and that's all coming back to me lol so I'm just like a blob of [something I can't describe] laying somewhere on the floor probably crying xD so I apologise for not answering 🫠

I don't think I will ever like him lol I just couldn't imagine him with his flashlight eyes- like does he turn them off at some point? Do they even give off a strong light???? Idk something tells me that him and me- just nope XP

I love demon slayer too!!! :D I've only started to watch the second season recently. I didn't get really far yet but I'm also watching persona5 rn sooooo yea :3 and about Servamp. I finished it a while ago and I absolutely love it!!! It's about Vapires >:D

[gayspock]

komaeda

(starts chasing you)

How I feel about this character lets embarass ourselves right off the bat. because you know? you know what? ive got horrifyingly complicated feelings. and its like... jesus god... (shakes head)

i guess its just.... he's just separate entities now, isnt he? IM NOT TRYING TO- you know.... like im not trying to make it all so much more than it is, but it kinda just happens. like- he's sort of become a punchline on this site in particular, whether that be fingers in his ass sunday (good lord, thats rotten to say like that) or a "cursed" "meme" (ACK!) post or whatnot. but then there's also the VERY removed fan interpretation of him, in its mant variations, and that- well... a lot of those versions of him are also fucking loathsome.

but then for me personally. i dont know. i also have multiple different perspectives on him, in of itself. does that make sense?

because jeez, man- LIKE... he genuinely DID mean a lot to me as a younger teen. JOKES aside he was hilariously quite special to me which god bless your fucking soul... when i first interacted with DR, i did quite sincerely obsess over him and obviously. that did sort of... morph over time, then? because- you know how it is.... when you're in a "fandom space", your perceptions will shift and change with it (i do have a ramble about that locked and loaded im specifically going to stop myself from getting into here GOD bless) and i know with himit did become several layers of well im still obsessed, well this is a joke, well this this embarrassing, this that and the other... etc. etc. etc. lalala. i think its fun and cute to do that you know and get yourself all twisted into silly knots that you cant explain to anyone, not even yourself<3

BUT FR. now looking back on it its like.... if i just strip it back. i do still really do like him as a character, yknow? funnily enough. and i do still identify with some aspects of how i felt before but... with a hopefully slightly more mature perspective? LIKE- OKAY... RIGHT. LIKE. I THINK WHAT KIND OF EMBARASSES ME THE MOST is like... his whole little inferiority complex and very particular thought proocesses (DO be quiet...</3) really were things i found a lot of solace in (shut up</3) as a 16 y.o and its like bestie... in many ways im still like god. well yeah. but also its like cmon if we have to be like that does it have to be through fucking komaeda..... because like also obviously, along with my perspective on him, i dont rlly feel the same way abt DR as a whole as i once did. obviously. now im like- HELL im strikingly indifferent to it now. huh. weird. BUT EH.

All the people I ship romantically with this character you know its funny. i dont actually get.... invested-invested in "ships" and dying by particular ones. LIKE- for the most partits like i do LIKE certain dynamics and think theyre fun to entertain but i rarely ever have dedicated a whole lot of my interaction with a certain media to just that with like... the exceptions of j*hnlock when i was 13 and the MUCH later appreciation for spirk (though obviously i love other parts of tos- but they are an actual pairing where im like ok.. sniff sniff yah.. and did have a particular grip on me for a hot sec) AND........................................ komahina.................. which also fucking. yeah. i guess its just a fucking. every 5 years i get something wrong with me. thats actually a very funny regular schedule.

i dont think i do seriously commit to anything else, though. i liked the ot3 with them and nanami but i dont know how i feel about komaeda/nanami or if its just hinata has TWO hands. i really havent revisited SDR2 recently enough to properly assess that but my inclination is still a "uhhh, idk..." bc i do v much see komaeda as a gay man. im not opposed to some naegi/komaeda sentiments but i also dont rlly take that aboard more than like a passing haha sure moment rather than any proper exploration of it.

My non-romantic OTP for this character hmm... not sure! i think i need to revisit for some more specific interactions bc hell its been a LONG time since i replayed sdr2... but even then. i think any "brotp" type pairings WOULD be very much in the realm of hypothetical headcanoning - bc you know... HELP. he isnt offered much in the text. i think ive always liked the idea of like... komaeda being friends with anyone else from his class if he had the proper chance. and i think, like as i said above, with him, hinata and nanami if they WERE together it'd obviously be with him and nanami being besties but i guess thats also hard to asses with so much distance from the damn thing

My unpopular opinion about this character hhow.... hhoow. i think. chrit. I DONT KNOW HOW YOU KNOW. unpopular..... i think the interpretations of komaeda can be so fucking insane to the wall yet somehow so rampant that its literally so hard for me to say sth does tha tmake any sense.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon i wish he wasnt in danganronpa. i wish none of the cast of the first two games were in danganronpa. i wish dr3 was better despite the fact i had a lot of fun on this blog in 2016. i wish i wish i wish upon stars but ultimately its fine if none of it comes true ive made my peace <3

[len-slibinas]

No Escape

Spoilers for SnK/AoT and The Sorrows of Young Werther ahead:

[I was going to try and have something each week, to try and get used to writing regularly again, but I couldn’t get my Tumblr app to work right over the summer.

Then recently in a different forum, I was trying to work out a theory in this one group, but then in a different group I'm in, they were mocking all the overdone old theories including mine. Ack, how embarrassing. See, I missed that theory because by the time I joined, a similar, but sexier theory had taken over. Luckily the person I was asking in the first group didn't seem to care that it was an old theory, though I get the feeling we weren't quite understanding what the other one was saying. Aw well, it's hard to get all us humans(?) on board at the same time for anything.]

I don’t really plan to focus on just one thing here, like Attack on Titan. I will try and mix things up eventually, however...I had recently been reading Goethe’s The Sorrows of Young Werther as translated by Catherine Hutter (different translation here) and there was this line from Werther’s writings, “Surrounded by the heavens and the earth and the powerful web they weave between them, I reel with dread. I can see nothing but an eternally devouring, eternally regurgitating monster.” The obsessive part of my brain was like, the heavens and earth part reminds me of some of the songs like Requiem der Morgenröte and the monster idea is like the titans devouring humans, but without a proper digestive system just vomiting all their victims back up.

So this is kind of sad, I thought, let’s move on, but then I get to the point where Werther recites his translation of Ossian.

And I quote, “Loud was the grief of the heroes, loudest of all though was Armin’s heartbreaking sigh.” Like seriously? There’s more, “Why art thou so wretched, Armin, chieftain of the sea-girt isle of Gorma?” Of course he has a connection to the sea. One more bit, “Carmor, thou hast not lost a son, thou hast not been deprived of a daughter. Colgar, the brave lives, and Annira, fairest of maidens. The branches of thy house blossom, Carmor, but Armin is the last of his race.” Ha ha, well hopefully if the anime concludes differently, it won’t be quite that direction.

So since there is no escape, on to some months old promotional pictures and controversy.

Here's the magazine cover art. Most of the kids look cute to me. My little Bertholdt looking surprisingly confident, but I wasn't quite sure why it looked like he had a turtleneck on, though I see now it is similar to what he's wearing on the book cover. It took me a minute with Ymir and Sasha, too. Though that might be Ymir's orphan clothes and Sasha is wearing her forest fashion.

Then of course, there was this panel from the extra pages, still causing controversy as I write this. The arguments being that it's Mikasa and Jean with their baby, Mikasa with an adopted kid and a supportive Armin, Mikasa with a random new guy or even Mikasa with the unnamed former rock thrower now farmer in Historia’s pregnancy story. To be honest this particular panel doesn't even have to be Mikasa, sure there seems to be faint lines indicating a scarf but I wouldn't have even noticed if I hadn't seen a fan coloring of it. Now there are other panels where the woman does appear to be more clearly Mikasa, but I like that this panel is more open to interpretation.

My first take is that this is Resurrected Freckles Ymir holding baby Bertholdt (hey, if anyone was going to come back as a baby, might as well be the guy who spent half his time in the fetal position) and they are with Reiner sporting the popular new Repentant Farmer look. They are visiting Eren's wormy head to reminisce about that crazy day they spent in those big trees. Sure they were at each other's throats then, but they can laugh about it now...(confession, I was going to say they were visiting Historia's grave after she succumbed to the plague, but that seemed too sad after Ymir got resurrected and all).

Second take is that is Resurrected Sasha holding her baby Meaty Potatoes whom she had with Niccolo who is also sporting the Repentant Farmer style to promote his new farm to table menu at the restaurant. They are visiting the grave of the meal that went cold on That Day.

Third take is that is Armin holding some baby plucked from a refugee camp and he is with Jean, who is just wearing his tourist clothes. They are visiting the grave of a victim of the cycle of violence. They are trying to promote peace by saving random babies and taking in as many grave sites and memorials as they can on tour. They have also started a band. (Honestly though, I don't really see Armin dying his hair plus he'd probably wear a ponytail a little lower. I guess I could have said it was Pieck and she won the baby on a bet).

This is the final volume cover when opened up. At first I thought it was okay from a distance, but a little strange close up, though it's grown on me somewhat. Still some strangeness to it, like the head sizes, but maybe that's just to emphasize that they're all children.

I like to point out that front to back on one side, is Eren, Mikasa, and Armin and front to back on the other the first three are Reiner, Bertholdt, and Annie (who might have to pee, not sure).

It's just that when comparing EMA to RBA, a lot will say it's Annie and Mikasa who are paralleled and then Bertholdt and Armin. Both comparisons have some sense to them. Mikasa and Annie seem reserved but are skilled, both took out titans in the Trost armory that one of the others had failed (I won't point out that they were Sasha and Connie) and they have been pitted against each other during 104 training and when Annie was in titan form.

Armin and Bertholdt are harder for me to compare, both don't seem to be really killers at heart, though Armin seems to have a darker dark side, both have been shown with books though Bertholdt doesn't have a special earth-shaking book.

However Armin and Annie are both the short blonde one who does the detective work and are trying to understand what exactly it means to be a good or bad person.

Mikasa and Bertholdt are both fiercely loyal to a limited number of people, have dark hair with a forelock, thin brows and are great at calling out a specific name, while Mikasa might win by quantity, I think Bertholdt wins with quality. It's hard to outdo jumping out of a barrel hurtling at high speed above the rooftops crying out a loved one's name just because you see that person is hurt (slight understatement). Bertholdt has also twice transformed to injuries caused by Mikasa. They both also try to entice their loved one with thoughts of going home.

Eren and Reiner seem a slightly closer fit, moving forward because they secretly want their selfish dream to be fulfilled even when they realize innocents will suffer or be killed for it. Though their feelings of guilt levels seem harder to compare.

Of course, we also see Reiner paralleled with Armin, both had moments where they saw themselves as weak, both were offered a hand up by a friend, Armin refusing in the one instance, Reiner accepting.

So trying to find parallels or similarly, mirroring or doubling, can be fun, but tricky. Like hey, Marco is Marcel, and Jean is Porco, and Erwin is Willy Tybur, and on and on but then you realize someone else is a better fit or it only works superficially, and then it confuses the issue.

Or to get even more confusing or perhaps sillier, if these characters were in trains on parallel tracks going at the same speed, would they be going in the same direction, able to have some sense of each other, but not really supposed to meet, or are they going in opposite directions, just a fleeting glimpse then they are gone?

Or what if it's more like light through a prism dividing up into seven separate entities, and everyone has six other kindred people, different but born of the same light, (okay, I'm kind of stealing someone else's idea here, but I'm not sure who to credit, sorry).

Anyway, explaining how EMA can compare to RBA might make for an interesting essay, but is it the right approach?

Then again, similar to Mikasa, we have Bertholdt wearing a scarf:

Who gave him that scarf?

Was it Reiner?

Seems his scarf did go missing:

Well Bertholdt will have to be careful, while scarves can be warm and cozy, they are also an entanglement risk.

Oh, looks like Bertholdt started a book club and is showing the guys more quotes from "The Sorrows of Young Werther".

"That I was granted the good fortune to die for you...to sacrifice myself for you...I would die courageously, joyously, if only I could re-establish the repose and bliss of your existence. But oh, it has been granted to only a few noble men to shed their life's blood for those they love, and by their death, kindle a new life for their friends."

...uh...not sure about that one, any others?

"Yes...nothing is dearer to me then children. As I watch them and see in everything they do the seed of all the virtue and strength they will one day need, when I recognize future steadfastness and firmness in their present obstinacy, good humor and the ability to pass lightly over the perils on this earth in their mischief, everything so unspoiled, everything still whole-then I want to repeat the Golden Rule of the teacher of mankind: 'unless ye become as one of these...' And then, my good friend, we treat the little creatures, who are our equals, and whom we should use as models, as our inferiors. They are not supposed to have a will of their own. Why not? Don't we demand free will? What gives us the right to make such a decision?"

Well, a little long maybe, getting to the point, but I guess it's fine...perhaps Bertholdt will find something more light-hearted to read for the next book club meeting.

[obligatorycoffee]

Ack I've joined the essay train. More under the cut~

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As it stands now, I fit into two categories under the alterhuman umbrella: otherkind and otherhearted. The details get a little wishy-washy with labels around my otherkin identity...draconic, dragonkin, dragonkind, theriomythic, what-have-you, but the general gist is I'm a dragon, and that's that. I'm also domestic cat-hearted, cheetah-hearted, and Andalite-hearted. I enjoy these creatures, but I'm not them.

But, how do I know?

First of all, I suppose it's not possible to ever really know for sure. Our experiences are subjective and open to interpretation, and even those who've contemplated their identities for years can see them change or need reevaluation in the light of new information. Even so, at this point I can say with fair certainty that I'm a dragon, and not a cat, or a cheetah, or an Andalite.

I've loved cats for as long as I can remember, and begged my parents relentlessly for a kitten even before I was in kindergarten. I gained an intense obsession with cheetahs around that time too, and used to run around the house pretending to be one. I drew house cats and cheetahs incessantly on scraps of computer paper, alongside my innumerable dragon sketches. My mom, being allergic to cats, nixed the idea of getting me a cat at first, but a stray tuxedo kitten showed up at her work, and in the absence of an allergic reaction, she caved and brought the kitten home for a trial run as a pet. The cat ended up staying with us for 18 years. Oh how I loved that cat. I'd sit on the floor next to her and eat dry cereal from a bowl while she ate her kibble, I'd follow her around, nap with her, brush her, and dress her up to my heart's desire. I'd meow and hiss, I'd sharpen my fingernails to be more cat-like, and I convinced my parents to buy me tickets to the Cats musical, where I dressed up as my tuxedo cat for the show. I know cat body language exceptionally well, and can usually figure out pretty quickly what a cat wants or how it's feeling, and I've picked up lifelong feline mannerisms from being around cats since my childhood.

But, I'm not a cat.

Cats feel like family, and I'm thrilled to meet new cats, hang out with my cats, or look at cute art of cats. I will probably own cats for as long as I live. But they're little creatures I surround myself with that move and act in a way I've never felt a pull toward at an identity level.

I grew up reading K.A. Applegate's Animorphs series, and instantly fell in love with her blue centaur aliens, the Andalites. They were weird and funny, and had kickass scythe tails to boot. I'd run around on the playground with my friends at recess, and we'd pretend we were Andalites or other characters from the books. As I grew up, I never quite forgot about Andalites, and came to the abrupt realization recently that I'm probably Andalite-hearted. I was falling asleep one night and the realization that I really vibed with Andalites struck me out of nowhere. They feel familiar and interesting, and somehow important to me. I enjoy the fact that they exist, and I get a kick out of their species design, and they're just darn cool. The last time I read an Animorphs book was in middle school, but I've been thinking about Andalites ever since.

But I'm not an Andalite.

Nothing about their species fits with my experiences as nonhuman, and while I get a warm sense of familiarity when I think about them or interact with media involving them, that sense of familiarity doesn't extend to descriptions of their customs or planet. They'd make a darn cool linktype though, now that I think about it.

A handful of years ago, I spent hundreds of hours researching and writing about an odd seabird called a streaked shearwater. It's a member of the tube-nosed seabirds (of which albatrosses are also members), and likes to nest in burrows on hills above the ocean. It's an excellent flyer, and it can travel immense distances with speed and incredible grace. A couple months into my studies, I had a vision of myself as a shearwater, with white wings spread out to the night sky. I don't typically imagine myself as other animals, so when I had this vision, the intensity startled me, and I began to question if this was a theriotype. I'd spent a month or so doing fieldwork in a shearwater colony, and during my time there, I always felt a longing to leap out from the cliffs and fly over the ocean, and greatly enjoyed crawling around in the dirt and leaves to check on the birds incubating eggs in their burrows. Maybe there was more to that enjoyment than I thought.

Yet, when I imagined myself as a shearwater, flying over cliffs out to the ocean, I was not the bird itself; I was present in its body, but numb and unaware of what the bird's body was doing. I wasn't present mentally in its movements or senses. It was almost as if I were tagging along with the animal itself or hitching a ride, so to speak. Upon further exploration of what I imagined feeling like a shearwater should feel like, from a physical standpoint, I found it unnatural and almost horrifying to imagine my feet moulded into the adorably flappy webbed feet of a seabird, or to have a bristle of feathers sticking out as a tail. The bill felt like a deformed mask, the wings wrong, and the squat duck-like body felt ungainly. The thought of soaring on the night wind was enticing, but beyond that, it was uncomfortable and felt like nothing more than a cameo.

But what happens when the cameo shifts do feel right?

On and off for a few years, I'd have envisage shifts or phantom shifts of tufted cat ears overlaying where my human ears are. They were long and tan, and not really of any feline species I'm aware of, but close enough to a lynx that'd I'd probably describe them as such. I could imagine them flattening or perking up, depending on the situation and my mood. They'd come and go, and weren't really triggered by anything as far as I could tell. Their frequency followed a similar pattern to my draconic shifts...some weeks frequent, with some long periods of complete absence. They've since vanished, and I haven't noticed them around for a good couple years now. I can't say I miss them, but honestly, they were kind of fun, and they never felt particularly wrong, unlike my jaunt in a shearwater's body. However, I never felt an attachment to them identity-wise, and despite sticking around for a good few years, I never felt anything more associated with the shifts beyond some cat ears pasted on my human head (worth noting, my draconic shifts and cat ear shifts never overlapped! No cat-eared dragons here). I don't know where they came from and I don't know where they went. I'm not a lynx, and they were simply a cameo.

Perhaps I'm wrong about all these things, and I'm a draconic, feline, Andalite polykin, but exploring how differently I experience my draconity versus feline, cheetah, and Andalite-heartedness, I'm extremely inclined to believe these are a collection of different identities and cameo shifts. My identity isn't pulled toward shearwaters or lynx like it is toward my variety of western dragon or toward the idea of surrounding myself with cats, cheetahs, and Andalites. They all have distinct feelings, as hard as they are to put into words.