#It brings back to many bad memories…

[whereismyhat5678]

Thinking…..

It hurts to think……Why does it hurt to do anything?………It just hurts………

[varilien]

wednesday was the 1000th day since the fateful afternoon my roommate asked to see the space cowboy show i apparently used to talk about a lot and i wanted to do a big illustrated piece to celebrate but my job keeps me from drawing anything at all !!!!!!!

anyways i've been missing vash so so so so so bad u guys can anybody hear me it's so dark in here.

lines also cuz i really like how his hair turned out :3 reminds me of the couple shoujo manga i read as a kid teehee

[kinz2007]

To be loved is to be changed... comparison between Martin, a Webkinz barred owl who was one of my childhood favorite toys, and a like-new duplicate my mom gave me for Christmas one year.

I'm on the spectrum and owls were my special interest in grade school. I can still remember seeing this guy when he first came out, and begging my mom to let me buy it with my own money, which she suspiciously denied... turns out she knew my aunt had already gotten it and stashed it away for me for Christmas, and opening it up on Christmas Eve is still one of my happiest memories. He was a comfort object for me well into middle school and went with me everywhere I could possibly take him. It was at a time when a lot of other classmates were growing out of those kinds of things... but I've never not been a plushie lover. That'll be forever for me.

[reginamillls]

being told you were "annoying" or "too much" in your formative years by people who were supposed to love you unconditionally really ah... fucks you up

[spotaus]

Thinking about Orchid and her connection to my take on Gender (because this was meant to be about her and the Crew but it just devolved into a character analysis kinda??? More trauma-dumping maybe???) This is very much an oc/personal rant so feel free to ignore it 🫡

So, Orchid started off as a character I didn't really think much of (hear me out this is going to be relevant) because I wanted to add a 'girl' character but didn't know what to *do* with her, y'know? She was always going to be the strongest one there, she had the odds stacked in her favor with her parents. She was always going to be the gloomy side-character to match Reset's energy. But I think she's gone through every stage of Generic Woman I could possibly find.

At first she was angry and abrasive (think Fell!Sans) where every other word was a curse and she was likely to throw the first punch then laugh as she kicks her enemy while they're down. This was when Reset was a cartoonishly self-centered villain whose goal was simply to prove others wrong. Then Orchid became a sort of sisterly figure. This was short-lived, but she was the one comforting people who Reset would torment, but would ultimately follow his orders, because at this point he was actually a danger and sadistic. And then there was the phase where the story mellowed out and she became the token Goth Girl who, yes she was strong, but was heavy on the 'whatever' energy. Then there was her Era of deep self-loathing and anxiety about her worth that held her back and made her a much more timid and meek character who would only lash out on occasion.

Now, Orchid is the best of those iterations I've written yet. She's calm, level-headed, and a natural leader. Her father raised those traits into her. But she's very reactive, and can be silly, and when she's comfortable it's likely that air of importance transforms into something more comfortable and familiar. She laughs loudly and grins wide, she likes loud video-games but loves to read in the quiet. She's extremely disciplined, and normally no one can get through her tough exterior besides her best friend, Reset. She does what she does for her own enjoyment, sure, but she's thought of every angle and makes her choice to help Reset and control the others with her whole chest. She still worries she won't live up to her invisible expectations, and that and her loyalty are her two driving forces.

I know that Orchid is important to me because she's the longest-running female oc I've had. I have a rough relationship with womanhood/girlhood and I know looking back that Orchid recieved every ounce of my distaste for being a woman that I could shovel into her. That never made her less of a character, she was actually always one of my favorites, and rarely was she a 'punching bag oc'. I just... projected onto her a lot. And she's a good sign of how I've learned who I am. I've decided that my own femininity is something I could live without. I'd rather not associate myself with it, and I'd like to leave it in my past, focusing on a future where I'm not tied down with any gender roles or expectations. That won't happen, but I've come to terms with it myself. Orchid though? I figured out through her that I don't have to hate women characters. My own distaste for my circumstances doesn't mean I have to push it onto my characters (on God I've never expressed anything rude to actual people, that'd be rude as hell and uncalled for, but I have a bad habit of disliking fictional women in media). So, Orchid is a well-roubded character finally. She has motivations abd goals and a *lot* more depth than I ever expected her to. She's happy with being a woman, she's content. She's not treated differently for it in unfair ways by those she cares about, so she doesn't mind it. She likes to wear pretty outfits and lets Reset add bows to her ribbons. She doesn't let being a woman hold her back in the slightest.

So, yeah. Orchid is one of my babies. If I ever leave this Fandom behind for good, she's one that's coming with (Ichor, Orchid, and Pretender all have human designs I can use elsewhere lol-) but in the meantime I'll just rotate her around in my brain for a while longer.

If I'm right, she's been with me for nearly 5-6 years and I went through a *lot* with her as an outlet. So, she's kinda just like an old stuffed animal. A lil ripped, matted fur, maybe a stain or two, but there's a story there and that makes it important beyond belief.

[margindoodles2407]

blame @seeking-elsewhither for this one. it's echo time and i'm having thoughts (tm)

[rydiathesummoner]

OK I love Rebirth Tifa so much. She was...fine in OG ff7, but I really appreciate what they did here.

I understand original Tifa was a product of being female in 1997 (and a product of a culture that discourages interpersonal conflict) but the fact that she just sat and stewed over the truth about Cloud and Nibelheim always bothered me. It makes zero sense to mention it to nobody on the team. And stewing in silence didn't even help in OG, Cloud still went off the deep end, gave the black materia away, and lost his brains until she helps him after Mideel. Even then, yeah great she helped but a bit late by then yeah? I do understand in OG she's very timid, but girl you have to at least TRY.

Rebirth Tifa, however reflects more of a 2024 "see something, say something" attitude. She brings the issue up with Aerith, and that very night pulls Cloud aside to try to work it out. It only doesn't work because Cloud's jenova-celled brain causes him to immediately gaslight her before she can even start, and THAT'S something everybody can relate to. It doesn't matter that she got pissed and didn't get through to Cloud. The point is that she tried. That says a lot more about her character and made her already far more interesting than OG Tifa and I'm so excited to see where she goes from here.

[sunflowerrboyy]

its weird how music can evoke memories

[largetriangles]

Home posting again

[jiishwa]

i have GOT to get back into playing minecraft man…

[ashmp3]

mascara running down my face yes i am in fact watching red velvet killing voice thanks for asking. And how could i not cry when they hit me with automatic and kingdom come one after the other like come on now be realistic i AM gonna tear up. also my only thing…. Where is rookie my beautiful rookie 😞

[monstermp3]

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[beeholyshit]

Missing and old F/O that I feel bad for missing is so painful bruh

[oculusxcaro]

Khare can tolerate a lot of smells but the ones she can't handle is the smell of death and decay. Too many people died in the facility, mutated beyond recognition or dying slow, painful deaths as their bodies couldn't handle the experimentation they were forced to undergo, making those scents uniquely repulsive to her.

[museenkuss]

[I’m aware films are even worse when it comes to Americanisation, but this was still a bleak list to come across. Which is NOT the fault of the person making the poll!!!! I’m criticising the anglocentrism in the arts and especially films here.

Bonus: addition I made before adding the link:]

@ those “1000 classics you must read or you’re an uncultured unga bunga cretin clown” lists

Update: I collected a few “foreign books in translation” lists here, if you’re interested! :)

[enluv]

don’t know if any of you were ever on instagram rp but that’s what this new wave of themes on tumblr reminds me of 😭