#Istg it’ll look better once it’s done

[uzi-x33]

guys i promise im working on my atsu angst edit its a rlly rough draft (i literally only added clips AHH😭😭) but ill finish it tmr i swear🙏 i have to go to bed chat, gn!!!🎀🥰

[simpinberry]

costar reader and bella messing around on set of tlou?

costar! reader, platonic and romantic, gnreader!,

i adore this idea <3 making this for some of us who just wanna be friends with bella.

platonic

i know damn well everyone would be looking for you guys on set just to find y’all in a corner making tiktoks. i can’t be the only one who thinks bella would 100% be down to make funny tiktok dances with you. lmaoo i can see them doing the “my blickyyy uponnn the dresserr” trend.

boredom is something you and bella have banished from set. you have a 2 hour wait in the middle of the woods. y’all are picking up sticks and fighting each other. playfully obviously but someone’s definitely gonna get hurt in the end. it’d start by you finding a big stick and challenging bella with a “HUSSAH” and she’d immediately match your energy, running off to find her own stick. y’all would get told off for getting ur clothes dirty (you end up rolling around in mud and dirt). bella simply shrugs it off reminding them you’re both literally on the set of the last of us. bless ur stylists fr

the perks of being on the set of tlou is that you guys get to shoot in some really cool places. when bella can she rlly loves using the camera you got her for their birthday. always makes you lose in front of the pretty views with big mountains in the back. has embarrassing an embarrassing video of you spilling down a hill and getting your entire ass handed to u. you’ll get her back by sneaking photos of her and pedro sleeping with their mouths open lmaooo. you two are always sneaking photos and documenting the whole experience, smth everyone will be grateful for later on.

romantic

although you both try to remain as professional as possible and not let ur relationship get in the way of ur actor duties. you guys r the cheesiest and cutest mfs on set. will steal kisses right before director yells “action” (can u guys tell ik nothing abt being on a set lmaoo) you guys are famous for taking ur naps together when you have time and are exhausted. two idiots, sleeping in their chairs, hand and hand.

giggle attacks. i know the crew is SICK OF YALLLL. you’ll say one stupid joke and you’re both GONE. cut the show, end it, done for the day yall r menaces. bella will try her best to hide her giggle into your shoulders but it’ll just make u laugh even more. will shush you, finger to her lips. tries everything she can think of to get u to stop. puts both of their hands on your face and tells you to take a ‘deep breath’ and whilst making eye contact. YALL WERE ROLLLINGGG ON THE FLOOR.

if you forget a line, even once, you’ll never hear the end of it from bella. they’ll find it the funniest thing on the planet and will tease you relentlessly for it. silent treatment mode activate‼️‼️ will genuinely beg for ur forgiveness once u don’t budge “babe no pls i’m sorryyyy, cmon tell me what will make this better? cmon how can i get you to forgive me hmm?” lots of pouting they’re soo cute. but you’re STUBBORN. “hmm how bout some kisses?” boom you got her exactly where u wanted her. she’ll attack your face with kisses until you break out in giggles. will continue to do so until you pry her off you. “yeah? my prtty bby likes kisses?” you give her one big long kiss before pulling away. “yes idiot, i do like your kisses but istg stop making fun of me now”

bella is so gf it acc makes me blush deeply sometimesss. i love writing about how it would be like to be around cuz they seem so fucking lovely

[k-comfyspace]

Care

Star: Son Hyejoo (Loona)

Idea: Yes

Love: Hello~i love your works so much, it's so good istg im not even kidding, I hope you have/had a great day though<3 I just want to ask since a hyejoo imagine where fem reader tells her to at least take a rest because she's exhuasted lately bcs she's been pushing herself (literally all of them is, bbc isn't doing anything) also with her knee injury is taking a toll :<< and tells her to take a rest and takes care of her. Fluff pls😭

A/n: Such kind words

Every step they took worried you, each time you would see them flinch, or look down on their knees as they went off stage.

Though, as much as you were concerned about everyone, your eyes were only drawn to one person, following her every move, concerned that any second she could fall. You knew it wasn’t likely, but it didn’t ease your worries when they had finished.

She knelt on the ground, her face stoic, a chic look on her face. Until the camera moved away.

She let her expression drop, closing her eyes as she breathed out deeply. You stood up from your place, walking past the staff to their waiting room. You were the first one in, sitting on the couch as you waited.

When you heard the chatter behind the door, you looked up. You smiled at each one as they entered, congratulating them on their successful performance.

"Everyone did great!" you commented, raising your thumbs while they smiled back,

"Were you really watching us? As far as I could tell, you only had your eyes on one of us," Hyunjin commented, squinting her eyes, teasingly, while the others laughed at the cat's comment.

A light blush spread on your cheeks, punching her playfully on the shoulder before you padded over to your girlfriend.

Hyejoo was seated on the couch, drinking a bottle of water before wiping her sweat. You took a seat on the table in front of her, looking down at her knees as you cringed, seeing the blood trailing down. You clicked your tongue and looked around, seeing a box of tissues behind you.

Reaching for it, you carefully tapped her knee, careful as to not press too hard, while the girl let you. She only moved her knee when you went to rub it slightly,

"It hurts," you heard her mutter, pushing your hand away. Though you held her wrist.

"It’ll be done in a second," you murmured, focused on your task while Hyejoo closed her eyes, absorbing the slight sting that would come once in a while.

When you finished both knees, you sighed, taking both of her hands in yours. You knew it brought the girl comfort, even though the countless times she pretended to hate the skinship, you could read her eyes easily to know when she needed it.

Right now, you could see the way her eyes softened, feeling her squeeze your hands, a breath escaping her lips as she closed her eyes for a moment.

It was almost as if you two only existed in the room. Thankfully, her members weren’t in the mood for teasing as they busied themselves with packing and changing.

They could see both of you, discreet smiles on their faces, but they let you two have your time knowing that you’ve spent far too long being apart.

"You have to take it easy, Hyejoo," you whispered after a while, rubbing circles on the back of her palms, the latter furrowing her eyebrows at the comment.

"I’m fine,"

She reasoned, a sigh withdrawing from your lips as you looked at her. Who could she fool?

The dark circles under her eyes, the way her voice was getting raspier, and the sluggish movements she would make when both of you got home.

It was all a sign that she was getting tired and, while she would continue to utter that she was fine, everything else proved her otherwise.

"Hyejoo," you started, but she sighed before you could say anything further,

"Y/n, I’m fine, it’s only a few more days till we’re done. I promise as soon as we are done promoting, I’ll rest,"

You stared at her for a while, looking into her eyes, you knew she was stubborn. Oftentimes, it was the reason why you wanted to take care of her, the way she wouldn’t stop for anything.

Though, as much as she wanted to keep going, you also saw the tiredness in her eyes, so with a sigh, you nodded.

Pulling her as you left a kiss on her forehead, giving her one more squeeze before letting your girlfriend change.

When Hyejoo left the room, a sigh escaped your lips before meeting their leader’s eyes. Haseul looked at you with a smile, having seen the exchange between her member.

It made her happy, knowing that someone else could take care of her friend like she does and more. She always relied on you to make Hyejoo happy. Though she had no issues in that regard, the older girl was glad that you could make her happier.

As long as Hyejoo was in your hands, she had nothing to worry about.

Soon enough, a week had already gone by. The girls had finished promoting, which meant that it was time for them to get the rest that they needed.

Hyejoo was at the dorms, packing her things since she decided that she would want to spend some time with you during their break.

Her members had no qualms about it since most of them had no plans, and they could always come to visit if they wanted to.

You adjusted your glasses, as you continued your work in your room when the door opened. You raised your head at the intruder, knowing that you didn’t have anyone over. When you saw the familiar brown hair, you stood up with a smile.

You padded towards Hyejoo and opened your arms, which your girlfriend didn’t refuse. Entering your embrace as she reveled in your warmth, resting her head on your chest, she sighed.

Feeling your arms circling her body. You closed your eyes, letting the silence settle as you left a kiss on her forehead, resting your cheek on top of her head. Both of you stood there for a while, no words exchanged.

Hyejoo was unmoving, sighing whilst she felt you rub her back. Even if both of you were the same height, she felt so small in your arms.

The way you would occasionally leave kisses on her forehead when you whisper sweet nothings, and the warmth you would give her every time you cuddle.

You kept her in your arms before you took a step to the right, then the left. Alternate steps, since Hyejoo had her eyes closed, she thought you brought her to your bed. But after a few minutes, she heard you hum quietly as you continued slowly swaying side-to-side.

Another breath left her lips, everything felt so satisfying

By the end of the day, she was able to come to you when she sought comfort, happiness, and someone to support her. You will always be the most amazing girlfriend ever, she couldn’t put into words how much you mean to her.

She would always feel bad that you were the only one to make sacrifices, but each time she felt that way, you would always say the same thing.

Cupping her cheek and staring into her eyes, "I love you now, I’ll love you tomorrow, and I’ll love you for the rest of my life."

It always successfully flustered her, a bright tinge of pink on her cheeks, which only seemed to grow when you smiled at her.

"I didn’t notice you came in," you whispered, withdrawing from her partially, still keeping your arms around her hips.

"Are you busy with work?" she asked, a look forming in her eyes, but you were quick to stop her, placing a finger on her nose, taking her attention from her thoughts.

"I can go to work later, I’m almost done. We can rest for a while," you said, Hyejoo sighing since she couldn’t stop you. Sometimes both of you were alike, completely stubborn.

You led her to bed, both of you moving to your sides before meeting in the middle. You rested your back against the headboard, while Hyejoo leaned against your chest, playing around with your hair as both of you let the silence set in.

A few minutes later, you heard a yawn, looking down at your girlfriend, you met her eyes. She rested her chin on your chest as she looked back at you.

"Do you want to sleep?" You asked, seeing the nod, you caressed her head, leaving another kiss on her forehead.

"You can rest," you told her, but Hyejoo shook her head, seeing the furrow in her eyebrows before she smiled, reaching up to remove your glasses, folding them, and placing them on her nightstand.

"Nap with me," you couldn’t help the smile that grew on your face, shifting down to lay on the bed, your girlfriend taking her place in your arms, head resting in the crook of your neck, half of her body on top of yours.

It was these kinds of moments that made you happy. Even through every challenge you two faced together, you were happy that there was always a good ending.

Rewarding moments where both of you did nothing except bask in each other, it almost felt better to spend a long time apart, that way, when you two come together again, you can cherish it more.

--

Bright lights shone in her eyes, a groan slipping past her lips as she opened them.

Hyejoo adjusted her vision, waking up as she took in her surroundings. She took note of the dark ceiling, matching the small stars that were littered all over, acting as the night sky as some of them sparkled because of the sun.

She turned to the side, seeing you sleeping peacefully. Throughout the night, you moved in your sleep, turning to your side as you faced the girl.

Hyejoo took the time to observe your features, from your soft brown hair to your eyes, your cute button nose and your pink lips. It baffled her sometimes that you always thought she was the prettiest.

But it was always you that she thought was the prettiest in the world. No word could describe you, no number could rate you, and no one could ever compare to you.

As subtle as she could, Hyejoo raised her hand, shuffling it under yours before interlocking your fingers. A smile formed on her lips when she felt you squeeze her unconsciously. She placed a kiss on the back of your hand, putting all the love and gratitude she could ever give.

A few minutes later, she felt you shift, opening your eyes as you met hers. A smile forms on your lips, the smile she never knew she would be addicted to.

[patt-writes-stuff]

Random Izuku Midoriya HCs

Pairing: Midoriya Izuku x reader

Word Count: 1109

Warnings: nothing I think! (Except that it’s not in any way edited 😅)

Genre: fluff and maybe some angst(? But like only cuz I talk about what arguments might be like briefly??)

A/N: So, school has been hella hectic so I don’t have another fic to post just yet, but I did have these HCs I wrote a while ago (because thinking about domestic things with this boy is literally my coping mechanism) so I thought I’d share these.

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I see him living in an apartment. Like maybe it’s just me and my bias cuz I prefer apartments but he just gives me that vibe.

I think the two of you have a monthly movie night.

He’s that one guy that always guesses who the murderer is in thriller/murder mystery movies.

The two of you would be watching a movie on the couch, snuggled up together being all cute. Like fifteen to thirty minutes into the movie he’ll suddenly blurt out “it was the butler.”

C’mon he’s so observant by nature you can’t tell me this wouldn’t be him.

It annoys you so much but at the same time it’s so cute how he goes into a muttering rampage whenever there’s some new information.

I think he's much better at baking than he is at cooking. I think he used to help Mama Midoriya with baking all the time as a kid and that probably stuck with him throughout his life.

Speaking of cooking and Mama Midoriya, I think she makes him a lot of premade meals in his early pro hero days. She knows that he’s an adult and he can take good care of himself, but he’s always so busy and his work is so dangerous, she just wants to make sure he’s not neglecting his health.

Inko is definitely happy that her son found a s/o like you 🥺

That being said, I don’t think he’d be a bad cook. He’s really just okay. Like if he’s got a recipe he’ll follow it to a T and it’ll come out nice.

Without the recipe? Not so much.

Would totally collect other pro heroes’ autographs once he himself is a pro hero.

Once he’s high enough in the ranks and he has his own merch, Izuku will definitely be too shy to wear any of it.

Baby is humble ❤️

BUT BUT BUT please steal the free samples the companies that make his merch give him for free (pjs, hoodies, shirts, slippers, etc.) and wear them yourself.

He will malfunction when he sees you clad in pjs that look like his hero suit.

Izuku.exe has stopped working.

If you’re also a pro hero, or have a job where merch based on you could be made, he will purchase and wear everything.

If you’re not a high ranking hero and have no merch based on you? That’s fine, he’ll commission someone to make at the very least a hoodie for him.

It’s canon that Izuku is a fanboy, it only increases tenfold when it’s his lovely s/o.

This man will be so sweet to all of his fans, especially lil kiddos. Whenever they tell him that they wanna be heroes I can imagine him being super supportive because he knows what it’s like to have people tell you you can’t accomplish your dreams.

I think this is a given, but his office has a huge limited edition poster of All Might that is both framed and laminated.

He speaks to it whenever he needs guided✨

Izuku will definitely, 100%, undoubtedly be a bit of a workaholic.

Like, he doesn’t put his work before his family or you and if you ever call him saying you’re upset about something or you’re sick he will drop everything (or at least try to get everything done as fast as he can since the #1 hero can’t exactly just drop everything sometimes) and run home to you so he can take care of you and give you cuddles 🥰

The two of you rarely fight since both of you hate hurting each other and he would literally rather fight an army of villains than upset you, but when you do fight it’s usually about how he works himself too hard or of how he puts himself at jeopardy too often.

I feel like he wouldn’t yell at you during these arguments because he just hates raising his voice at you.

If you happen to cry because of the fight he will feel so bad. No doubt will start crying too and you’ll spend the rest of the day comforting each other in each other’s embrace.

He’s so soft for you uwu

He’s a busy guy so dates might not happen as often as he would like them to, but he’ll manage to make time for at least one or two a month.

They might be low key, just because I can’t see him as someone who goes on ultra extravagant dates, but they are always tailored to what the two of you like to do together. They mean the world to the two of you.

I’m not 100% sure about what his love language would be but I’m leaning towards words of affirmation?

Hear me out, we know that he’s struggled with his self esteem growing up and he’s definitely gotten better and is more self assured as an adult! But once in a while, he’ll get a little insecure and hearing you say such lovely things and reminding him of how much you love him makes him feel warm and gooey on the inside.

It doesn’t matter if you’ve been together for 5 months or 5 years, Izuku will blush at any compliment you give him.

He’s a cuddle bug. Istg will die on this hill. He loves to be close to him. Please play with his hair while his head is resting on your chest or lap. He will turn into mush.

At this point in the relationship, he has a hard time falling asleep without you/the sound of your heartbeat and breathing to lull him into sleep.

He likes when you read aloud to him. For all he cares you could be reading about fucking mitosis but as long as it’s your voice he couldn’t care less.

He gives me early bird vibes.

Like, even on his day off he’ll probably wake up at like 6 or 7 am just cuz it’s hardwired into his system.

When that happens, he’ll probably go work out before taking a shower and coming back to join you in bed.

He won’t be able to fall asleep again so he’ll just admire you in a non creepy way and/or watch some hero documentary thing (with headphones so that he doesn’t wake you up ofc)

Once you do wake up, the two of you will make breakfast together before spending the day together being soft adorable babies.

If he ever does sleep in or you wake up earlier than him, please wake him up by attacking his entire face with kisses he will die a happy man.

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[notasdriedapricots]

14. “I trusted you to keep them safe, and you couldn’t even do that?!” for Liz x Lucas please x

I don't even know how long this has been sitting in my inbox, I'm sorry, but I'm getting to all my pending prompts eventually istg. Thank you, Iris, as always! ♥

I sliiiightly modified it because I just couldn't come up with any scenario where either of them not being careful regarding something actually important wouldn't be very ooc, but I hope this makes sense. Maybe it doesn't (maybe this is a side scene from the sequel) (it is, it's a side scene from something that happens in the sequel but whatever I'm sorry), but if I keep overthinking this it'll never get done so. There.

14. "I trusted you to keep them safe, and you couldn't even do that?!" from this list!

Lucas went to turn on the lights when another, smaller one, flicked on near the sofa. He frowned in confusion at first, before a grin unknotted his brow.

"Liz!" But his smile quickly faltered when he noticed the expression on her face: a small, unamused smile under tired and cold eyes.

She silently looked down at the coffee table in front of her. He followed her gaze to find… Oh, fuck.

"Liz, I-"

"One thing," she cut him off, her eyes still fixed on the once beautiful, now dead, plant. "I asked you to do one thing while I was away."

The orchestra had been invited to a week-long festival in France, and all that Liz had asked of him was to keep an eye on her new plants. She'd bought two lavenders before leaving, and had spent a whole afternoon studying every window along with the balcony to find them the perfect spot. Only to find two corpses when she came back. She'd just sighed, more disappointed than surprised; a part of her had been expecting coming home to that exact scenario. She loved lavenders, but there was a reason she chose to get them right before leaving.

Lucas scratched the back of his neck with a pursed smile. "I'm sorry, darling, I… I watered them, but they just-"

"Do you remember? What I asked you to do?"

"To… water them? Isn't that what you do with plants?" His mother had a green thumb, but honestly he had never paid much attention to what she actually did. To him it was just water and getting rid of the ugly parts.

"I asked you to not water them, Lucas. Lavenders drown easily, they can't handle it. I even asked you to bring them in if it started raining."

It'd been raining the whole week she was gone. He hadn't moved the pots. And had watered the plants on top of the rain. But he really, really didn't remember her asking him any of that stuff. He did remember her asking about the weather on the phone, though. Which of course she'd brought up when she heard it was raining in Oxford; he hadn't taken the hint.

"So all I actually asked was for you to keep them safe from the rain. And you couldn't even do that? Are you serious?"

Lucas sat down, the smile finally leaving his lips completely. And to think I expected you to be hugging me right now after a week of not seeing you, and you're sitting there scolding me about a fucking plant you'd had for two days before you left…

"Look, I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say. I bought two new ones this morning."

"Yeah, I saw them." Liz sighed, resting her elbows on her knees and leaning forward.

"Then let's just drop this, okay? You have new, healthy plants that I promise I'll stay away from from now on."

She looked him in the eye, coldness replaced by worry. "It's not about the plants, Lucas…"

"What is it about, then?"

Liz closed her eyes for a second. "You don't listen to me."

He stayed silent for a moment. "What are you talking about? I always listen to you."

"Not if you already have an opinion about whatever I'm saying…"

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You can be so stubborn, love…" She shook her head. Worry was still patent in her voice, but now there was some condescendence in there with it too. "In your head, you always water plants, so you didn't listen when I told you not to. Even though you know nothing about plants. Is there any other context you can maybe apply that logic to? Assuming things you know nothing about?"

Lucas didn't answer. He knew exactly what she was talking about. And he knew she was right. And he didn't like it. He bit his lip, looking up at the ceiling, looking for an excuse until he decided giving her one would be unfair. To both of them, after all they'd been through because of that; after how much he'd been working to change that pattern. I guess it slipped through a goddamned plant, of all things. Could have been worse.

"Fine," he finally conceded, "you're right. But my intentions were good. I set an alarm to water them and all."

Liz sighed again, this time with a tiny smile curving the corners of her mouth, and stood up to walk around the table to him. She sat on his lap and wrapped her arms around his neck before planting a lingering kiss on his cheek. He squeezed her close.

"I know. They're always good. But you have to listen, actually listen, every once in a while."

"Absolutely. I'm listening. Loud and clear. I'll never water a plant again. Ever."

"That's not what I-"

He cut her off with a kiss and they both smiled, finally hugging each other properly.

Lucas rubbed their noses together. "I'm never watering a lavender again," he said. "Better?"

She smiled again and kissed the tip of his nose in response. "Better."

[joshuas]

pick-up lines 101

♫ pairing: Lee Felix x Reader

♫ genre: college/university student!au, slice-of-life, crack (the entire concept), fluff

♫ word count: 10.4k 

♫ warnings: Nil of note!

♫ summary: A continuation on from the Chan drabble - an utterly ridiculous fic, where Felix and the reader (who unenthusiastically) go to literal extremes to break the two up, whilst falling for each other along the way.

♫ a/n: The second addition to my Christmas oneshots! Enjoy this high-key chaotic fic! I’m sorry that it’s 10k - I think I got a little carried away (╥﹏╥).  This drabble is entirely fictional, please do not take any of Felix’s actions to heart (because he’s a sweetheart and we all know it). 

♫ fyi: Reader 1 (Chan’s lover) is often referred to as “Mariah Carey/playlist lover” just to be gender neutral!

♫ skz christmas oneshots: 1|2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8

“Let me get this straight... you want me to help break up Chan and... what’s their name- Mariah Carey lover, just so that Chan can give you pick-up lines again? Even though you’re the reason they started dating?” You leaned back against your chair, raising your eyebrows at the boy in front of you. “Well. Yes. And... Mariah Carey lover? You seriously don’t remember their name?” Your friend, Felix, raised his eyebrows. “All I care is that the person is now identifiable to me. Names are so arbitrary.” You dismissed nonchalantly. “Okay... but will you help me?” Felix turned to you with puppy dog eyes. “You know puppy dog eyes don’t work on me but whatever. I’ll help.” You got up, placing your books in your bag as Felix swiftly helped you clean up. “Oh, Y/N. You have no idea how much this means to me.” He draped his arm around your shoulder, giving it a tight squeeze before releasing as the two of you exited the library. “Oh, I think I do...” You muttered as Felix excitedly explained his long-winded and elaborate plan to ‘save Chanlix’.

“C‘mon Chan hyung. It’ll be fun!” “I don’t know, Felix... wouldn’t Y/N be third-wheeling?” You observed the situation in front of you, casually eating your fairy floss as Felix looked to you for help in his mission to convince Chan to do a ‘how well do you know your partner?’ challenge at the local Christmas fair. “I don’t think Y/N really cares. Come on, hyung. If you’re not doing it for me, do it for the prize!” Felix pleaded with Chan. “The prize being... a book of ‘pick-up lines to keep your relationship fresh and interesting!’?” Chan raised his eyebrows at you. 

You shrugged your shoulders, “He’s been your friend longer than mine.” “See! Y/N’s so unbothered. Please, hyung. I’ll do anything.” Felix pleaded. “...Alright. Let’s line up.” Chan reluctantly followed an excited Felix, as you trudged slowly after them.

The line was ridiculously long. Taking you half an hour to get to the front of the line, you were just about done with Felix’s antics. As Felix handed in the answers to the two questionnaires, Chan’s phone buzzed. Quickly typing a reply, his face lightened up as he waved someone over.

“Hey, Felix, I hope you don’t mind but I think I’ll partner with umm... my beloved on this one. And hey, Y/N’s here, so you can get that awesome prize with them!” Chan patted Felix on the back, his partner *cough cough* beloved approached him, pushing him lightly for being so “cringy”. Felix nodded, slightly devastated, forcing a smile as Chan and his partner walked past him, taking a seat with the other contestants. Mulling over his thoughts, Felix paced the floor as you watched more and more couples sign up for the contest. His features lightened, and as if struck by an amazing idea, he pulled you towards the sign up desk, “Do we really have to do this?” You groaned as Felix signed you up, determined. “Even though this wasn’t supposed to happen, I have just been presented with the perfect way to show Chan that I’m better than his significant other.” You looked at him confusedly, “How... are you going to do that, exactly?” “By winning.” He said, tone as if he were stating the obvious, “So, get your game face on, Y/N. We’re going to wipe the floor with them.” “Totally...”

The game was heated. You were utterly confused as to why people were so fiercely competitive to get a book of pick up lines. Don’t these people have anything better to do? “And now we have Bang Chan! Would you please come to the stage with your partner?” The MC’s voice rang out clearly across the stage, snapping you out of your reverie. Out of the corner of your eye you saw Felix lean forward, anxiously tapping his foot. “So, like all the other contestants have done, I’ll ask a couple of questions and we’ll see if your partner’s answers match with yours on the questionnaire. However, you can only win if both of you are able to answer as many questions about each other correctly.” The MC explained for the billionth time as Chan flashed an encouraging smile towards his partner. “Hey, Felix? Haven’t they been friends since childhood? How do you even expect us to have a chance?” You asked, doubtful. “Don’t worry, Y/N. I have a plan.” Felix reassured you, his eyes glued on the couple on stage. Oh, great. “First question! Ooh this is interesting. If Chan wasn’t studying music currently, what would he be doing?” Before anyone could answer, Felix yelled from his seat, “He’d be an actor or an athlete. He’d also be a kangaroo, if he could be... which I don’t really understand since they’re literally a pest species.” “Correct? Regardless of whoever answered, the points go to you guys.” The MC chuckled, slightly confused, as Chan and his partner tentatively high-fived each other. “Next question! What is Chan’s favourite season?” The MC looked pointedly at Mariah Carey playlist lover. As they opened their mouth to speak, Felix sighed loudly, “This is too easy. It’s Autumn, obviously.” You turned to Felix, embarrassed, as heads turned towards where the two of you were seated. “GeT rEaDy, Y/N. We’Re gOinG tO wiPe tHe fLoOr wiTh tHeM.” You mocked, imitating his earlier statement. “You do realise that if you keep answering the questions, they’ll end up winning. If I remember correctly, you wanted to beat them, not help them.” You hissed, annoyed at his impulsiveness. “Plans can be slightly altered. It’ll work out.” Felix shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly. You pinched the bridge of your nose, Honestly, this boy only runs off two brain cells. To think of the lengths he’d go to just be told pick up lines from Chan. You’d think that he was fighting to the death for his beloved... “Haha... another point to the couple. Honestly, you guys won’t have to do anything to win at this point.” The MC pointed out awkwardly. “Let’s move onto the next question. This is easy. What is Chan’s favourite hobby?” The MC’s smile faltered as Felix stood up, everyone directing their attention towards him once again, “He loves to play sport!” You sunk low into your seat, pulling the hood of your hoodie over your head as you avoided the heavy gaze of the other contestants and other onlookers. Tugging Felix back to his seat, he slowly sat down as the MC looked at the two of you and Chan and his partner confusedly, “Ha... maybe the two of you should have partnered up.” He pointed to Chan and Felix who was adamantly glaring at the bewildered couple. “Right, so another point to the two of you. Let’s move on...” The game continued, Felix answering every single question as you cringed at his eagerness... until it came to Mariah Carey person’s turn. From then, he sat in stony silence, glaring at the couple as Chan answered every question correctly.

“Onto our next couple! Y/N and... Felix.” You sat down in the seat opposite Felix on the stage, mentally running through everything you know about him. “First question! Remember, it’s important that the both of you answer correctly, in order to win. What is Felix’s favourite colour?” You exhaled in relief, okay. These questions are kind of reasonable, “Black.” “Correct! Ooh, looks like Chan’s going to have to look out!” Your answer streak continued, with you answering the questions almost immediately. They weren’t too ridiculous (which you hadn’t expected, considering Felix). Eventually came Felix’s turn, “Alright, Felix. Let’s hope you know Y/N as well as you do Chan.” The audience chuckled at the MC’s comment as Felix flushed awkwardly (the boy was finally embarrassed istg). “Looks like the two of you were on the same wavelength! What is Y/N’s favourite colour?” An awkward silence filled the stage as Felix looked at you with utter panic. You shook your head in disappointment. Surely. Surely he kno— “Uhh turquoise?” Turquoise???? This boy. Honestly. “Incorrect! What a shame. Let’s move onto the next question.” As the game went on, awkward silences patterned with the MC’s new favourite response of ‘incorrect!’ 

“It’s a real shame that you and Chan weren’t partnered together.” The MC patted Felix’s back sympathetically as you headed back to the contestants whilst Chan and his partner collected their prize, Chan cracking the cheesiest of pickup lines on his very much embarrassed significant other, “You know, my shirt’s so soft. Do you know what material it’s made of? Boyfriend material.” “Oh my god, Chan, stoppp.” As the crowd dissipated, you stood, beckoning Felix to walk with you, “I thought you wanted to win.” You said dryly, as Felix turned to you, defensive, “How am I supposed to know the intimate and in-depth details of your life?” “Favourite colours are hardly intimate, and generally friends are supposed to listen to each other, and talk to each other about their interests?” You raised your eyebrows. He sighed in defeat, “You’re right. I’m sorry. How about we grab a hot chocolate and you can tell me all the answers to those questions.” He held out his hand to you. You looked at it questioningly, slowly taking it, interlocking your fingers with his, ignoring the fluttering of your heart, “I know you’re only doing this so that I can help you but I’m far too hungry to care about your motives.” “Of course not. It’s just also the perfect time to talk about our next course of action. Amongst talking about you, obviously.” “Sure...”

Impatiently tapping your foot as you waited in line to ‘confront Chan’, you turned to glare at Felix who was seated in his car just outside the cafe. Taking out your phone, you texted him, [10:38] Remind me again of what I have to do and why I’m doing this? [10:40] (Felix) You really don’t remember?? [10:40] to be fair, it’s an elaborate plan... [10:41] (Felix) fine. Basically you have to approach Chan hyung and give him a pick up line. Then I’ll walk in, and he’ll use it on me, and all order in the world will be restored. As to why you’re doing this... you’re doing it because you looooooooove me 😌 [10:42] More like haaaaaate but whatever. wouldn’t it seem like I was hitting on him?? [10:43] (Felix) 😭 😭 you wound me with your words, y/n. We all know that I’m your favourite person and you’d do anything for me. It should be fine. [10:44] I could leave this cafe and never talk to you again [10:45] (Felix) No!! Y/N pleaseeeee do this for me. I’ll ✨ love ✨ you forever ️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ Ignoring the skip of your heart at his text, you rolled your eyes, Get a grip, Y/N. This guy clearly only has eyes for a certain pick-up lines guy. [10:46] nobody wants that. I’ll do it because I’m a good person. Please revoke your hearts. [10:47] (Felix) Neverrrrr ️️️️️️️️️️️️️️ ❤️ ��️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ [10:47] (Felix) oh! You’re up in line!! Go! You got this!!  Steeling yourself, you smiled as you approached the counter Chan was working at, “Hey, Y/N! How are you?” Chan greeted you cheerfully, dimples on full display. Ahh too bright. My eyes— his smile’s too charming. I kind of understand why the whole playlist thing went well. “Heyyy Chan! I’m good. How do you brew?” You laughed awkwardly, internally cringing. “Oh, I’m brewing good too. Can I get you anything?” He grinned at your pun. “Uh— just a latte for me, thanks.” You panicked, stating the first thing you saw on the menu. “One latte coming right up. So, how’s Felix? I haven’t seen him since the festival. I know he really wanted that pick up line book.” He looked at you, his eyes slightly guilty as he started the espresso machine. You could say that... “Yeah, he’s been taking it... pretty hard. How have you been finding the book?” You asked. “The book’s pretty cool, actually. I’ve come across some pretty great pick up lines. Oh! There’s this one where—“ You cut him off as he poured in two teaspoons of sugar, regurgitating the pick up line Felix had forced you to practice repeatedly in the car beforehand. “I have a better one- hold the sugar, please. You’re sweet enough for me.” Ughhhhhh. Ugh. That was— ugh. I should start apologising. Chan’s eyes widened, his expression similar to a deer caught in headlights, “I— Wow! You’re just full of creativity, Y/N. Look at you, two pick up lines in one morning. I’m going to have to use them on my partner, now.” He laughed awkwardly. “No!” You interjected. “No?” You took a deep breath, “You can only use them on your best friend.” “Is this like one of those ‘repost this chain or you’ll die in 13 days or something like that’ things but in real life?” Chan questioned, confused. You turned around, not-so-subtly beckoning Felix to come into the cafe. “Haha... what??? Oh and just to be clear, I wasn’t hitting on you, so can you please continue putting in the sugar?” “I know. It’s pretty obvious that you have feelings for— Oh hey Felix! I— oof!” He stumbled backwards from the impact of someone— oh it’s his playlist lover, wrapping him into a hug. “Hey. What’s up?” He released them, looking at them concerned. “Nothing. I just missed you today.” “Oh that reminds me. Y/N told me these epic pick up lines. I have to use them on you...” I mean. They are best friends... You looked apologetically at Felix who stood, his jaw clenched, passively fuming as he observed the couple from the door, “Felix, I’m really sorry that your plan failed again.” You patted his back sympathetically. “It’s fine... we just have to come up with something more attention grabbing!” He nodded resolutely, leading you out of the cafe. “Wait— I left my coffee!” “There’s no time to lose, Y/N. I’ve already come up with our next plan.” Oh no.

The next phase of the plan was... extravagant to say the least. Felix hadn’t told you much but seeing the long to-do list he had written out... it was a bit much. Approaching the art department, you knocked on the door of the workshop whilst Felix strode confidently past you. Upon hearing the knock and Felix’s footsteps, a brown-haired boy looked up from what looked like it was supposed to be a sculpture but was really just a blob of clay, “Minho hyung... my man! My bro! What’s up?” Felix clapped the boy’s shoulder. You shook your head in disgust, Why is he so cringy? The boy - Minho, narrowed his eyes, crossing his arms over his chest, “What do you want, Felix?” “Why do people always assume that I want anything? What if I just wanted to hang out with my dearest friends without any motives except for showing my appreciation for you guys being in my life?” Felix raised his hands in surrender defensively. “Hell would have to freeze over for that to happen.” You hummed, Minho snorting at your comment as Felix clutched his chest in mock offence. “Well, as you can see, no one buys your sentiment, so tell me what you want.” Minho sighed. “You both wound me with your verbal warfare, but... I actually need a favour.” Felix stated tentatively. “A favour?” Minho raised an eyebrow. “I need you to make me a life sized present.” He said seriously. Do you ever look at someone and wonder what on earth is going on in their head? Yeah, there’s no point on doing that for Felix. Nothing can explain what goes on in there. “I need to what? Why?” Minho looked at Felix, incredulous. “That’s on a need-to-know basis and you don’t need to know. Look, all I need you to do is find a human-sized box and decorate it with wrapping paper and whatnot. Just make it look like a present.” Felix explained, slightly impatient. “...why me?” Minho asked, reluctant. “You’re an art major, right? This’ll be in your ballpark. I give you full creative liberty. Just make it look as pretty and realistic as possible.” Felix clapped Minho’s back, waving as he exited the workshop. You gave Minho an apologetic glance before chasing after Felix. “...but I’m an accounting major.” Minho sighed, defeated.

“Y/N, Minho hyung just dropped off the present! Come look at it!” Felix called from the foyer. The two of you were currently “house sitting” Chan’s apartment. Technically Chan didn’t ask you guys to, since he was only going away for a day. However, Felix insisted on it, using the excuse of ‘watering Chan’s plants’ to execute his plan. Chan doesn’t have any plants. Ignoring Felix’s poor attempt at a cover, Chan let Felix do whatever but gave clear instructions to not break or burn anything. Wandering over to Felix, you gaped at the... present in front of you. On the floor, in front of you, was literally just a human-sized cardboard box (that was falling apart, the clear sticky tape holding the corners together by a thread) with random Christmas wrapping adorning the sides of it, alongside a lid (with breathing holes) and a bow on top. Minho must be a modern art student or something, because this is... interesting to say the very least (no offence to modern art students/artists - love y’all). “It’s so beautiful!” Felix fussed over it, his eyes sparkling with excitement and awe. Of course Felix would like it. I guess art truly is in the eye of the beholder. “So, are you going to tell me what you’re going to do with that?” You crossed your arms over your chest staring pointedly at the box. “I’m going to hide in this present until Chan hyung comes back from his hometown tomorrow morning at nine on the dot. Chan hyung will see this mysterious package in the living room and his curiosity will force him to open it, revealing me! I’ll give him a pick-up line, he’ll laugh and we’ll both live happily ever after.” “Not to rain on your Disney princess movie parade but I don’t think you’ve thought any of the logistics through. How are you—“ “Y/N, stop. Let a professional work their work. Don’t worry, I’ve figured everything out.” He waved his hand dismissively, picking up the box and beckoning you to grab the other side. “Don’t come crawling back to me when you need help. Or food.” You warned.

“Just sit still! Stop moving! Otherwise I’ll duct tape your hands together.” You waved the duct tape roll threateningly as Felix fidgeted in the box. On the way to the living room, the box had decided to collapse in on itself as you had expected. Felix, being Felix, was distraught, causing you to be here now fixing the box up with duct tape as Felix sniffed sadly at its unfortunate demise. “I’m sorry, Y/N! Please don’t! How would I be able to eat?” He surrendered, eyes wide. “That’s for you to figure out and for me not to care about. Lucky for you, I’m not that cruel.” You stuck the last piece of tape on the box, dusting your knees as you stood, helping Felix move closer to the Christmas tree in the corner of the room. “Okay, so this is where I leave you.” “You’re leaving already??” Felix pouted, your heartbeat quickening, He really wants to hang out with me? No... He’s probably just worried he’ll be bored. “It wasn’t really at the top of my Christmas wish list to spend Christmas Eve with a man stuck in a life sized present waiting for his friend to come home so that he can give him a pick-up line. I also wouldn’t dare ruin your future moment with Chan. You have your phone, right? Call me if you need me.” You sighed, grabbing your keys as you stuck the lid on Felix, he let out a muffled “bye” as you left the apartment.

“Y/N? Can you pick me up? I’m scared.”

“Y/NNNN I’m bored. Come over.” “Tell me what you think of this pick-up line...” Swiftly deleting the 40 voicemails Felix had left you overnight, you rolled your eyes, a small (but uncontrollable) smile forming on your face at his dramatics. Okay, you were kind of fond of Felix’s theatrics. Not that it matters, though. You sighed, rolling out of bed. It was a bit tiring - having to foster feelings towards someone that doesn’t feel the same way. Just be a good friend, Y/N. That’s all that matters right now. Your phone buzzed, the caller ID showing Felix. You sighed, picking up the phone, “He—“ “Y/N? You need to come. Like now.” Felix whispered hurriedly. “Why?” You raised your eyebrows at his urgency. “Why? Chan hyung was two hours late. He came back at 11 instead of nine. And guess who he came home with?” “Playlist lover.” You answered instantly, getting ready to pick him up. “Exactly. And y’know what they’ve been doing for the past hour and a bit? Making gingerbread and being a ridiculous, annoyingly cute couple. So now I’m hungry and... I really need to go to the bathroom.” He whined. “Can I just say that you really did not figure out the logistics in this plan.” You pointed out. “Logistics don’t matter when it comes to friendship!” He whispered dramatically. “Whatever. Look, I have a plan. You just need to trust me on this one.” You said, pulling a ‘disguise’ out of your closet. “Somehow that doesn’t give me comfort because normally I’m the one who makes the plans in this relationship.” “And look at how that turned out for you. I’ll see you in a bit!” You hung up on him, grabbing your car keys and heading out.

Dressed in the daggiest of outfits (lots and lots of flannel and a low cap), you knocked on the door to Chan’s apartment, revealing a floury Bang Chan and his even more floury significant other, “Y/N, is that you?” “Huh—“ you cleared your throat, deepening your voice, “uh, no. I’m their cousin. Hence, the resemblance.” “Okay... how can I help you, then?” He asked, his tone uncertain. “Oh. Well. I was hoping that I could inspect the place. I’m... your new landlord!” You exclaimed, recalling the notice you had seen around the complex. “Oh? Of course! The notices did say that you were coming for inspections.” He ushered you in, showing you through to the living room. Your eyes landed on the ‘present’ in the corner of the room. I need to get them out of here somehow. “Oh! I think I can smell something burning. You might want to check that out. Could you also point me towards the bathroom?” You asked innocently. “Ah! Of course. It’s the first room to the right in the hallway.” He gestured towards the hall as he and his partner ran to the kitchen. Rushing over to Felix, you grunted, dragging the box as quickly as you can into a room that resembled a studio. Grabbing out a pocket knife, you tore through the duct tape, lifting the lid as Felix scrambled out of the box and to the bathroom, shooting you a relieved smile. This boy. Honestly, why does he do this to himself? Hearing footsteps approaching, you panicked, hopping into the box, closing the lid on you. “Why are you in the box?” Felix approached, drying his hands hurriedly. “I thought you were Chan...” You awkwardly stepped out. “It doesn’t matter anymore! Let’s go!” He whispered hurriedly, heading towards the door as you pulled him back. “Well... you can’t come out the front with me...” you scanned the room, your eyes locking on the window in front of you. Felix followed your gaze, terror filling his eyes, “Y/N! I can’t do that! It’s so high!” He clung to you as you pushed him towards the window. “We’re literally on the ground floor. The height difference between this window and the ground is probably at half your height at most.” You flicked his hands off you, as he slowly sat on the ledge of the window as you opened the window, the cold air greeting you. “No! Y/N, I can’t do it. It’s too—“ His protesting cut off as you lightly pushed him, causing him to stumble off the ledge, tripping and falling to the ground as he landed on the thick snow outside the complex. Instantly, he lay down, yelling incoherent dramatics. Holding back your laughter, you chucked the present box next to him and shut the window, “Merry Christmas!” You re-emerged from the hallway. Somehow Chan and his Mariah Carey playlist lover were looking worse — icing adorned and everything. Oh my gosh. They’re that cliche fanfic couple that make a huge mess when cooking together. How disgusting. “Thank you for allowing me to use your bathroom. I’ll be heading out now.” “Really? What about the inspection?” Chan questioned, eyes wide. “Oh everything’s fine. Okay, bye!” You started towards the front door as Chan blocked your exit. “Wait! We just wanted to give you these gingerbread cookies. You basically saved them and we felt bad that you had to work on Christmas.” He handed the cookies to you, his tone pitiful. “Oh. Well if you insist, who am I to refuse?” You waved at them as you left the complex just as someone dressed in basically the same outfit as you approached their door, “Excuse me! Mr Bang Chan? I’m your new landlord. I came for an inspection?” They yelled, as your eyes widened in horror, bolting as fast as you could out of the complex. “I like your outfit, by the way!” They yelled after you. You caught up to Felix as he waited outside your car. “Now do you have faith in my plans?” You crossed your arms over your chest, still slightly out of breath. You thought back to the narrow escape you had with the actual landlord, Gosh, literally the first time someone compliments me for my fashion sense, it’s when I’m trying to dress up like them unintentionally.  “If I say yes, will you give me a cookie?” “Absolutely not.”

“Oh, hey Y/N and Felix. Thanks for taking care of my house whilst we were away. I’m glad to see that nothing broke or burnt.” Chan brought Felix into a bro hug thing as you handed his partner a basket of gingerbread cookies, entering the Christmas-themed household. “It’s not like you weren’t about to burn the house down by yourselves.” You muttered. “Hm?” Chan looked at you expectantly. “Oh! I said... I didn’t burn the gingerbread.” You pointed at the basket of gingerbread. “You know! That’s so funny. We nearly burnt down the house a couple of days ago with our Christmas cookies.” Chan and his partner laughed nervously. “We know.” Felix blurted out. You elbowed Felix, panicked. “I see you still have your decorations up.” You said quickly changing the topic, taking in the mistletoe hanging from the ceiling and the tinsel adorned shelves. “Yeah, well we wanted to have a Christmas party but both of us went home on Christmas and it’s not illegal to have Christmas decorations up two days after Christmas.” Chan explained, handing you both mugs of eggnog. “Actually, it is. But I’ll put up with your offence.” You smirked, sipping at your eggnog. “Thank you for your everlasting generosity, Y/N. Now, you two should go and enjoy the party.” Chan clapped your backs, pushing you and Felix into the party scene. “So... what’s the plan?” You turned to Felix who was observing the couple. “Honestly, Y/N, this is my last shot.” He sighed, exhausted. “Okay... and what are you going to do?” You looked at him, concerned at his sudden dampen in mood. “I’m going to give him a pick up line.” He said triumphantly. “Um. Haven’t you been trying to do that the entire time?” You questioned, confused. “And this is the last time I’m trying that. I’m going to give him one so that he’ll be left with no choice but to fall on his knees, weeping huge tears of regret as he struggles to give me one that matches it’s sheer brilliance.” He explained (dramatically). “Sure. Come find me when you’ve had the happily ever after we’ve all been waiting for.” You shot him a quick smile before moving off to talk to playlist lover.

Soft jazz versions of classic Christmas songs played as people departed from the party.

Walking over to the hallway, you stopped, looking at a dejected Felix leaning against the wall.

“How did it go?” You said, tentatively approaching him.

“What can I say? He’s in love.” He sighed defeatedly.

“Let me guess, he used it on playlist lover?” You asked bluntly.

He nodded dejectedly.

You sighed, steeling yourself, glancing up at the mistletoe between the two of you,

It’s now or never, Y/N.

“I must be a snowflake. Because I’ve fallen for you.”

A shocked silence fell over the two of you as you stumbled to recover your dignity.

“I—“

“Say that again.”

“Huh?”

“The pick up line. Say it again.”

“...I must be a snowflake. Because I’ve fallen for you.” You muttered.

“That... do you mean that?”

“Well. Yes. In a sense because I’m not a snowflake. That’s just weird. Why did I say that? I also don’t think anyone that only liked you as a friend would go to such lengths to help salvage a friendship you don’t really need to salvage. Look, obviously the dynamic between you and Chan has changed since he got a girlfriend. But hey, if you feel the same way, I could be the Chan to your Felix. In a romantic manner, obviously... perhaps as your partner?” You looked nervously at the ground.

“You really like me? After everything I put you through?” He asked, incredulous.

“Although it was extremely ridiculous, it was entertaining... and we got to spend time together.” You quietened your voice for the last part.

“Well, we must both be snowflakes because I’ve fallen for you too.” He lifted your chin, eyes interlocked with yours.

“That was really cheesy.” You murmured.

“Hey, you’re the one that used it on me first.” Felix defended.

“Mmk. Well. For this to work you need to—“ He interrupted you, capturing your lips with his briefly.

“Did that make up for it?” He stepped back, breathless.

“Th-that was cheesy too.” You stuttered, shocked.

“Well, our relationship hasn’t exactly been cliche until now.”

“Ah yes, kissing under the mistletoe. It’s almost like the ending of a Christmas classic movie.” You sighed.

“Almost?” Felix raised an eyebrow.

“Minus the pick up lines.”

“Yeah, well you’re roped into this now. You’ve given me the expectation that you’ll give me a pick up line every time you see me.” He smirked.

“No. I refuse.” You grabbed your bag, waving at Chan and his partner as you exited his apartment, Felix on your heels.

“Three a day?”

“One.”

➳ part three?  |  masterlist!

[mingmingfufu]

Can we just talk about the ending of KawoShin open discuss. *sort of spoilerish*

I feel like I’m the only one who’s like reallly disappointed LMFAO--ya’ll there’s so much “canon” alternative universe and merchandise for Kawoshin in Evangelion that it kind of makes me upset to realise this couple just went down the drain. Yeah, I can see how people were like, “Kaworu’s toxic” or “Kaworu has a hero complex for Shinji” to which I say are valid points. But the toxic thing I feel like can also be applied to pretty much everyone around Shinji tbh, except for Rei. I did NOT, like Asuka at all but I really love her character though, and I felt for her a lot throughout the series.

I did not ship them either because honestly, Shinji and Asuka seemed better off playing the sibling dynamic instead of trying to play bf/gf which honestly is kind of forced by their living situation. Also since they’re in a similar disposition non existent father and dead mother, you’d imagine they would rely on each other for emotional comfort. Though Asuka—her personality I feel like she can’t differentiate between familial love and romantic love and the affection she wants is a bit of both. But, her character tries to be “mature”; she wants romantic love more and does this through sexual means and romantic gestures e.g. like kissing. One of my friends told me that you can’t stay friends as a boy and a girl cause eventually you catch feelings. Which I say is kinda dumb cause I have a lot of male friends, and I definitely don’t harbour those feelings, but I guess it’s a common phenomena.

I think this is what happens in this case, of Asuka and Shinji. Even after rejection of instrumentality they actually are depicted as childhood friends. But knowing how they both were before to each other, it was not good tbh. Also to mention the choking like thrice— bro if anything, this showcases a really abusive relationship and I think this outstretches the idea of their character tropes. Which I firmly stand by saying they’re superficial to each other. AsuShin were never really there for each other and are using each other in a forced situation. However, you can’t deny that they didn’t at some point catch feels, also Shinji is pretty consistent how he still cares about everyone around him. Which I really like how they add that to his character because it reminiscent of Yui, because you see a duality of both his parents personality in Shinji throughout the series—it’s a really nice touch. But bruh, if we gonna talk about that coma scene—I’m out LOL.

Thoughhhh, she is a true definition of best girl I really like her arc, fighting drive, and her skills as an Eva pilot 😭💗--but bruh she’s still a toxic and sometimes annoying tsundere trope, but still she’s 14 what can you do. So I feel like Kensuke and Asuka are actually a pretty good combo, cause he’s always been pretty mature even without parents. Also Asuka was into older guys, so I guess this is a win win?? Also Rei and Shinji, I honestly cannot get my head around it cause that’s pretty much his mom—so in a way that’s like either his half-sister or mom-ish clone?? Idk but Yui is definitely the donor LOL.

Kaworu and Shinji I felt like brought a bunch of things out of each other. I don’t know which timeline begins first, but I’d like to think the manga, the anime (plus its movies), and then to the rebuild series. Because I think that order is kind of pivotal to observing Kaworu’s character development from being a person who’s trying to understand human feelings to then the kinder person we see in the final series. You can tell how he’s changed and he knows Shinji a lot more as well as being considerate to him e.g. giving him personal space or letting him work at his own pace. Also that “we’ll meet again.” Is an obvious nod to how he’s done this before.

His literal story in every timeline is always romantic LOL, like bruh I can’t remember which game it was but basically a bad ending of Kawoshin route is that you reject Kaworu and he starts the third impact 🤡. Also I don’t know why but I started to see a weird dynamic between those two, in the manga their interactions reminded me of Asuka and Shinji—which Shinji is the tsundere Asuka here. I don’t know if this is relevant but the older character relative to the character they’re with seems to play off a mature vs a childish person trope. Asuka is younger than Shinji and Shinji is actually younger than Kaworu. Then again I could be overseeing this but istg manga Kaworu and Shinji mirror the whole Asushin dynamic. Like he’s seriously agressive against Kaworu, then after killing him he admits liking him. 🤡 I don’t know which is funnier no homo Shinji, homophobe shinji, or just closet Shinji who needs to realise sexuality is a spectrum so he could’ve idk—come out as bisexual, but whatever manga Shinji lol that timeline is over.

Anyways the development of these two is real and I think the rebuild timeline shows them at their best bringing their own personage out from each other like how they both enjoy music together--WHICH I’M SO SAD WE NEVER GET TO SEE THAT CELLO AGAIN. Then there’s those feelings of humanity, love, kindness, etc. Which yeah an angel could represent those things, but Kaworu is still his own person, self-aware of a cycle and if you think about how he initially was there to USE Shinji, but ultimately turned on that plan set by SEELE because he loved Shinji (and a bunch of other things like him showing Kaworu humanity). I also can see the argument, how “ideal” Kaworu is to Shinji, but he’s more self aware of the time he has before he KNOWS he’ll die and knows how to act for himself in that duration to make the most of it. All with Shinji. At some point, I think he fell in love with Shinji tho I don’t know where it began tbh—considering that all those alternate universes do exist. Kaworu does romantically love Shinji--so, in some universe they both reciprocate their feelings to each other. 

In the last movie during that convo with Shinji. Like bREH it’s so emotionally moving because Kaworu remembers ALLLLL the timelines and how he’s been with Shinji and later Shinji himself recalls the events too. Where they show the scene from the manga and anime. Kaworu cries after being set free from the EVA cycle. Which, I definitely understood what he meant by him saying “it’ll be lonely” and how Shinji changed or that he’s actually different this time.

Either way, Shinji did right by him because it’s always Kaworu who has the purpose of “trying to save Shinji” but it always ends up the same. I thought that was really moving because Shinji tells Kaworu he’s gonna let him live a life for himself for once and he wants the same for everyone as well. Which was honestly so meaningful cause I think Kaworu’s character and like Rei too when they start to realise how to “live” like a person and not another puppet it’s truly liberating. Another thing I forgot, bruh Kaworu calls Gendo his father and ngl I feel like this is kind of a weird lore situation because I for sure don’t think he’s the donor. I think he calls him that as an insult because he knows Gendo’s whole doing and relative to Shinji—I kind of see it as a joke LOL. Like it’s equivalent to saying, “daddy chill”, or “hey look it’s daddy and his plans to end the world” also I kind of like to think of it as a father in law thing cause you know, Kawoshin *winks amirite*

The ending, I’m honestly hoping is just an open ending because it gives everything an actual start of their adult lives not being dictated by extraterrestrial forces. Though, I’m kind of wondering if the world doesn’t have EVAs does that still mean everyone else still has the same backstory, and do they remember? Maybe Mari really is just a coworker lmfao, and there’s still a chance for Kaworu and Shinji cause ngl, they did have a convo (presumably from the spoilers) about still remaining close afterwards and that stare at the ending seems very hopeful.

I call bs from Anno saying, “oh Shinji is based off him and Mari off of his wife”, like honestly any OCs made theres always some part of yourself made into that character. Which is probably why a lot of people relate to the characters in EVA because they’re based off real things (e.g. those war machines characters are named after and people around them). I think why Kaworu and Rei are together at the end, is bc they’re very much the same. They’re mass produced dolls—which oddly enough that’s the case for all the children except they don’t recall the loop. Kind of funny also how both Kaworu and Rei became farmers lmfao so ig it runs in the family (yes that’s right I like the idea that they’re siblings it was always noted that they’re like “the same”).

Another thing, i think why the rebuild really did well for Kawoshin and in my opinion canonised it—the convo with elder Ryoji Kaji (Misato’s baby daddy) that there was a time he felt incredibly lonely and depressed thinking Misato didn’t love him and so he started looking out for himself. So self love and found himself a hobby in farming which he suggests to Kaworu—basically saying he might feel like Shinji doesn’t love him but he’s gotta remember to take care of himself. if I go thru a breakup ill feel like it’s the end of the world but Kaji says y’a gotta self love broe and take care yo self gad dam fam 😭 💗.

Though, that look at the end from Shinji to Kaworu—I’d like to believe there is still hope that one day when they’re a bit stable in their adult lives, they’ll run into each other.

[konaizumi]

A Tale of a Thousand Stars ep 7 thoughts/reactions

so, the whole tian killed torfun thing, here’s my thoughts: I don’t think tian was the one driving the car because the show has refused to actually say it straight up despite implying it multiple times, so they prob just want us to think that, it was prob his friends driving the car or something, but tian is still involved and somewhat responsible for what happened bc he set up the race which is why he feels so guilty

on tian’s guilt, i think it’s a complicated issue and i think he’s not free of blame in the situation but I do think he is taking too much blame if he wasn’t behind the wheel, and, not to put the blame on torfun exactly, but she did walk out onto a busy street at night, you know, it wasn’t like they swerved up onto the sidewalk and hit her

how many more times is phupha gonna have to watch over tian while he’s unconscious

also not a huge fan of detective nam this ep, while i do think he deserves some answers, i do not think he should’ve gone behind tian’s back like that to get them, he should’ve confronted tian directly

love to see phupha in the casual camo

poor tian, he’s just really got it so rough this episode and he’s already got self-esteem issues then more incidents keep piling on which seem to confirm the negative thoughts that he already has

and it’s difficult bc when tian says the bad stuff wouldn’t’ve happened if he hadn’t been there, like, it’s true, which really makes the situation more complex but i like that there isn’t necessarily an easy fix and that this can’t all be solved with the power of friendship, you know?

i really hope there’s a focus on tian’s mental state and that he doesn’t just magically get better when all the problems are solved and once everyone forgives him because it’s not that easy and I want to see the actual process of healing

not me every episode getting distracted from the dialogue trying to figure out the shapes on phupha’s cameo, i just noticed this ep that some of the brown spots are deer

phupha’s hurt puppy dog face when tian returned the shirt

tian’s hurt face when phupha says he’s not going to try to convince him to stay, like he was so hurt at that moment when he thought phupha wouldn’t even try to fight for him

“don’t you miss your home?” not really, my dude

“then you stay here...indefinitely. Can you?” phupha subtly trying to gauge whether tian would be willing to stay in the village with him if they were to start a relationship

that cute scene where phupha tries to hide the tea sachet

the gay panic is strong this ep

“who said i would offer you the bed?” *offers him the bed*

the gay panic continues, phupha really knows exactly what he’s doing

is it just me or has tian just looked so small this ep?

also, tian is in a tan forest ranger shirt which means he borrowed a second shirt

the only reason phupha keeps implying tian is taking the role of his wife is because tian reacts so cutely to it

im sorry but do these kids not know how to brush their teeth? and is he showing them how on an onion?

when did tian learn cook after nearly burning his house down?

please enough with the torfun comparisons, i know they’re just adding them to shake up tian and for the angst, i don’t think they’d actually go the route of torfun’s spirit being part of tian, but like, p’aof, please just leave tian alone he feels shitty enough as is

also excuse me, dr nam, are you, a medical professional, really trying to imply that torfun’s spirit might be in some way affecting tian bc he has her heart??

tian’s doing that thing again where he complains with a smile but he’s not really complaining

i really want tul to meet longtae and then just watch the chaos they and tian create together

phupha risking quite a lot to get rid of sakda so the village is safe enough for tian to stay

super not into the scene where nam, rong, and yod are flirting with girls even tho they are all implied to have partners - like i get that the point was to emphasize that phupha’s in love with tian but the scene still could’ve done that without the three of them flirting, the girls could’ve just flirted with phupha

istg when phupha said he started thinking about something impossible i 100% thought he was referring him feeling like a relationship with tian was an impossibility and then tian would say something ambiguous that clearly implied that it wasn’t impossible and it would be all cute then he opens his mouth and says tian is like torfun and i wanted to smack him

is it really necessary to add in this tian/torfun comparison plotline? is there not already enough angst????

like the scene still could’ve been super romantic but still angsty bc tian would turn away from the kiss bc he feels like he can’t start something while he’s still keeping secrets

(which i know would just add to phupha’s insecurities but tian’s already got enough on his plate)

however, the way the music hits a discordant note then fades as soon as he says it and the way tian’s smile immediately drops, just like the instant atmospheric mood change was really well done

the whole scene was just really well acted on both sides

“are you going to confess your love to me?” just the way phupha prob meant to say this jokingly but it came out more seriously than intended

also as much as i want them to kiss, i am glad they didn’t during this scene, tian needs to tell the truth before anything can happen (not that i really thought they would kiss during this scene anyway

the way the village came together to rebuild the school hurts bc of what’s going to happen next ep

And the children are just so cute, istg if anything happens to them

if nam is actually telling phupha what he found out im gonna be so pissed at him for taking that away from tian, it really needs to be tian who comes clean about it, especially because he was planning on it, he wasn’t trying to keep it secret forever

what really makes this whole situation worse is that not only does tian have to tell them about torfun’s heart and his role in the accident, but he has to tell them about torfun’s death, which should not have to be his responsibility. The forest rangers should’ve told everyone a while ago, and it’s not tian’s fault that they don’t know. So all the villagers are now going to associate tian with her death simply because he’s the one delivering the news. If they had already known and had time to process before tian got there, i think it would be very easy for them to still accept him when he told them about how he had her heart and he was just trying to carry on her wishes, but now all the feelings they have about torfun’s death (which apparently happened months ago) are going to be directed at tian

phupha please stop your flirting, you’re going to give tian heart failure again

still a good ep even tho the angst was pretty heavy, I’m glad the reveal will finally happen next ep so we can get that out of the way and finally move on, can’t wait for next friday even tho it’ll prob just be even more angst

[xiaosean]

why you should watch douluo continent

the drama adaptation is such a good rendition of “soul land” and stayed true to the plot line and character development. it was fast-paced (perfect for me) but may be confusing for those who don’t know the story. i personally love the donghua, and i think the drama did an adequate job of portraying everything in their own way 😁 (read at your own discretion; this contains spoilers)

things i liked:

initially, i didn’t like the dreamscape bc wtf is it doing there? why is he hearing his mom’s voice in episode 1 (it just kills the entire momentum of the plot); and then after i got to episode 39... fucking ep. 39, i knew the dreamscape needed to be there in order to save tang san’s life; mr. wang who wrote the script, props to you.

the cgi 🥰✨ i had really low expectations bc if there’s shitty cgi like cql... i wouldn’t be able to handle it. but it’s so good ??? please, i know the ape soul beast was small and funny looking (bc they had to spend money on the water dragon lmao), but other than that, it was so good and how each and every character’s powers were able to shine

le outfits + makeup - they’re not super pale 😭😭😭 finally !!! and the outfits are so nice, SO SO NICE, each and every character holy hell

how they changed hu liena’s (aka. qian renxue) role in the drama --- she’s my fav female antagonist; she’s so good here, her character was annoying at first, but she’s so dynamic and independent, and just wants to impress her mom. you see her helping tang san + his squad during the last 5 eps because SHE CARES about her mom despite her strict upbringing 🥺 her and tang san have a ship name called 糖葫芦 (candied hawthorns) and i think that’s so cute hehe

the seven devils 😂 i loved the seven devils in this adaptation almost as much as i loved them in the donghua; each and every character got their own storyline, they’re not boring nor do they draw attention away from the tang san’s main plot, and you see so much development (esp. in ou sike and dai mubai)

headmaster, da shi, and er long trio! 黄金铁三角 iconic and they captured it so well 😭 they chose the actor for the headmaster so freaking well i’m screaming! he loves money so much and his little facial expressions as a third wheel is everything, the comedic relief! and da shi... i see y’all thirsting over calvin chen okay 😌 he’s so much better in the drama tbh & er long is majestic and amazingly powerful and cunning, i love her !!! and props to luo san pao, the best doggo ever!

the seniors! they basically perfected tang san’s relationship with dugu bo... it was antagonistic at first, but then they became besties over poison 😭❤️ i loved dugu bo’s character in here bc he was so funny & didn’t get social cues LMAO // the ape soul master was brief but he honestly made my day with how much he respected the tang family & how he took care of his father back in the day // 七宝琉璃 squad was also 🥰 (less hot than in the donghua lol) but they also somehow made jian yeye the comedic relief? i love how they’re so accepting of ou sike despite him being a support soul master

tang san’s mom - i can only hear her voice, but she made me cry & i love her for that

tang san ❤️❤️❤️ xiao zhan’s voice over just blended in with his character & it was just so wonderful; tang san in the donghua was smart, so fucking smart, cunning, but the kindest at heart; xiao zhan truly portrayed that and my most memorable part was when da shi said “your only flaw is that you let your emotions get the best of you” (this is so important), and you see him later try to control his emotions and not act rashly, especially when confronted with 时年 & 比比东 --- also crying scenes 11/10

bibi dong powerful, POWERFUL WOMAN, props to her voice actress, i got chills when she said, “你根本没有资格知道” // tang hao, wow he’s just like i imagined, but i wish he was a little more emotional in ep. 1 bc the blue silver plant in tang san is essentially his lover’s martial soul

how the concept of family was generated within the shi lan ke academy squad 🥺 it’s such a feel good drama, istg, makes you so happy when you’re having a bad day ✨

things i didn’t like:

xiao wu’s character portrayal (the scriptwriter’s fault, not xuanyi) // i honestly let it slide for the first 10 episodes bc i usually start falling for a character later on, it’s normal; but drama xiao wu didn’t fulfill the 小舞姐 in my heart 😔 i get that many people like her, but it’s not the same! xiao wu in donghua is beautiful, independent, and outspoken, BUT MOST OF ALL HER LOVE FOR TANG SAN IS OBVIOUS, you don’t need to say “一起去” every other line in the drama; i think this could have been remedied if they stayed true to the storyline and let tang san enter the secret dimension alone, bring the mythical herbs back, and have xiao wu prick herself to activate 相思断肠红 (they completely butchered the significance of the flower i’m so angry; fyi: the flower can only belong to you if your heart loves one person --- there’s the most beautiful backstory to the flower but drama douluo said nah). also, drama xiao wu is so clingy and she started exposing herself from the beginning... no momentum build-up whatsoever 😔 it’s 斗罗大陆, not 斗罗大陆: 小舞传 and sometimes it felt like she was being so insistent on following tang san around, i’m just 😓 

the whole canghui academy scheme --- it was confusing for 10 eps straight until they got to the end of it, but I guess the drama wanted to add that part in because they wanted to focus less on the competition and more on 变异武魂 (the mutated martial souls) in order to defeat bibi dong

how the beginning was so confusing 😫 i wish they just stuck with child tang san remembering his past life as a disciple in tang clan & then learning 玄天宝录 on his own bc that was such a great part of his character development + understanding of soul masters/their weaknesses; and the fact that he would rely less on his parents 

the kiss + confession at ep. 40 // could have done w/o it or even a simple forehead kiss; the confession from tang san was way too quick considering there’s little to no emotional build-up towards that moment (other than bibi dong doing all the work like the queen she is) and there’s no surprise element either? like we’ve been knew she’s a soul beast since ep. 5 🥲 and the kiss was awkward & like i said, sanwu’s love doesn’t need words or actions to confirm... it’s this innate thing that the audience should be able to see (if the scriptwriters focused a little more on BIG plot points that boost the sanwu relationship, then it would have been perfect) ^^ i wish they spent more time on the romantic aspect of the relationship bc even after 30 eps, they seem like siblings when OP said They’re Not.

overall thoughts:

this is purely my opinion, so please take it with a grain of salt! the cons imo were minor except for the development of the sanwu relationship; it doesn’t seem like romance to me 😔 but hopefully it’ll get better in the (maybe) second season when they take some time apart to grow? i’m surprised how much they referenced the original story (characters and such), and i am thoroughly impressed with WHERE THEY ENDED IT, and how they rounded all the new/old plot points together in a way that makes sense. i also don’t hate any of the antagonists, which is why this drama is so lighthearted and easy to watch. it’s not emotionally taxing (sans tang san crying bc xz breaks me heart 😭💕), and safe + enjoyable to watch with family! you’re gonna miss it once it ends, and i think that makes a drama successful 😁 also i’m not gonna go into depth about the mysterious ending bc i might spoil it for those who want to watch the donghua LMAO (but if you want to know my theories, shoot me an ask)

[parkers-gal]

Hi I just wanted to ask if you could read my first fanfiction which is a Peter Parker x Reader one. I would really like some critisism or comments on it, or just someone reading it cause I think it turned out good.

Thank you so much and I understand if you are too busy to read it!

hi bae! i just finished reading it! here are my thoughts: (and hopefully helpful criticism)

first off, i just wanna say that i’m so incredibly honored that you asked me to be one of your first readers; i thoroughly enjoyed reading your work. i hope this is somewhat helpful advice / criticism for your future fics! <3

i noticed you tend to switch point of views a lot. you start out with a bit of first person, but switch into second person and then finish out with first person. it’s totally cool to do fanfiction (and reader-insert fics) in first person (i, me, my, we, us) (though it’s super uncommon, it’s still done by a few authors i’ve seen!!) but typically, if the pov change isn’t indicated, i’d watch yourself when writing, and reread + edit wips so the pov’s don’t mix & merge together. (this isn’t me coming at you, i swear. english is so difficult sometimes istg). 

as mentioned earlier, it’s awesome to write in the first person point of view, (pronouns listed above), but it’s sorta somewhat rare? i know a lot of readers and audiences who read reader-insert fics, like the second person point of view (you, yours, you’re, you’ve, yourself, etc), but then again it’s your writing, which means you should write with your strengths and work towards the things that may be difficult right now. so, continue writing in first person if you think you can’t handle second person! first person is a great start, and it’s the easiest way to translate authentic emotions into your writing without forcing it. first person pov is great for expressing yourself in your works, while also building the characters and the settings. 

you’ve captured the unspoken pining really well. you’ve made it clear that the reader & peter seem to be a little closer than most best friends. i’d probably just put in the summary that the reader is an avenger (avengers!reader), just so it doesn’t come as a surprise later on. it’s just a tip — it might make it easier for readers to understand, but it’s not a big deal, so long as you include specific information in the fic to make it clear <3

something else i notice is that you seem to stack your paragraphs; they get super long and there’s no line breaks in some of them. sometimes that’s good (as long as they’re rare), but it can also scare readers away (not like, extremely lol). when i first began, i tended to avoid long, lengthy paragraphs. i split sentences up so it was easier to read & nicer to look at (visual appeal plays a big part in the enjoyment of reading!), and i kept the sentences together that focused on the same topic. if you see a paragraph (that you’re writing) get really long, look for where you might’ve switched the topic, and start the new paragraph there! it’ll make writing seem a lot smoother, and it might even make things easier for you, and easier to know what you’re writing and how you’re in control of it. 

there were just a few grammar / spelling / punctuation errors, but that’s literally every writer to ever exist, and proofreading is such a pain in the ass, so i wouldn’t worry about those. and, as a beginner, i would get out of the habit of apologizing for your work. “sorry for the mistakes,” or “sorry this piece took so long to come out,” or “sorry if this fluff isn’t great,” are what to avoid. learn to be confident in your ability to write — because once you realize your talent & potential, it’ll show in your writing, and your audience will see that you’re here to write and improve, and that you’re the creator, which means you’re in control of everything. you’re the boss — you don’t have to apologize when you’re the one putting out your creations / works for free. when i stopped apologizing for myself, i became a better writer.

overall, i loved the purity & cuteness of the fic, and i think a cute movie night is a great start to the world of writing :) if you want advice, i’d just say to read some other fics, take mental notes of how people word things / describe things, and i’d say to write what you want to read. you did really well, it’s a really good fic! def looking forward to the next chapter heh <3

p.s. i rly hope this wasn’t terrifyingly mean, i swear i’m not rude & i hope i didn’t come off as it haha

[nalgenewhore]

Slipping Through My Fingers - Eleven

masterlist - ao3 - last chapter - next chapter 

warnings: none :) 

an: it’s soft! it’s sweet! it’s fun! it’s fresh! it’s cool!

Elide hummed as she roused herself from sleep. She let out a soft groan as she stretched out completely and snuggled deeper into her duvet and the pillows beneath her head. “Lor,” she said hoarsely, searching across the mattress only to find cold, rumpled sheets. 

With a sharp gasp, she shot up, her eyes flying open. She was alone. There was no one else in her cozy, studio apartment and her heart just dropped. His clothes were gone, his shoes, everything. 

It was like the floor had fallen out from under her and she floundered, her chest rising and falling erratically. It didn’t make any sense – he wasn’t lying last night. He couldn’t have been. That- that wasn’t fake, what they had done, what they had said. 

Her throat ached with tears as she stumbled out of her bed and nearly tripped on the floor, her chest practically caving in as she reached blindly for the t-shirt Lorcan had tossed on the ground the night before. Just as she finished pulling it over her head, her door opened and Lorcan stepped through, carrying a bag of groceries. “Hey,” he said, his brow furrowing when she launched herself at him and wrapped her arms around his neck. “Woah, woah, E, what’s up?” 

“You fucking left, asshole,” she muttered, hearing him put the grocery bag down so he could wrap his arms around her waist. “And I woke up alone.” 

“I left a note,” he told her and kissed the top of her head, “I had to get my truck. And,” he cupped the back of her thighs and picked her up, “you have no food.” 

“Where’s this note you speak of?” she demanded, frowning fiercely as she wrapped her legs around his waist. Lorcan rolled his eyes and kept her lofted with one arm banded under her ass as he reached to grab the note on her table. 

“Right here,” he said, passing it to her for her to read. 

E - went to get my truck and groceries. you have no food. - L

“Fine,” she muttered again, crumpling the note and tossing it away, “I was wrong.” 

He laughed quietly and put her down on the table, reaching up to cup her cheek, “You looked so peaceful, I didn’t want to wake you up.” Lorcan kissed her cheek and then turned away, putting the groceries he’d picked up. “Were you really that worried about me leaving?” 

Elide shrugged and picked at the hem of her t-shirt, “Yeah. I like you and last night mattered to me.” She didn’t look up even as she felt, more than heard, him walk up to her, his hands coming to squeeze her ink marked thighs. 

“Elide. Look at me.” She did, worrying her lower lip. Lorcan’s eyes were softer than she’d ever seen them when he gripped her chin and gently worked her lip out, then stroked his thumb across the inflicted area. “Last night mattered to me, ok? You matter to me.” 

“You matter to me too,” she whispered, reaching up to loop her arms around his neck and toy with his hair. Lorcan rolled his eyes, clicking his tongue at her. Elide giggled as she cupped his face and kissed him, smiling against his lips. “You look good in my kitchen but…” 

“What?” 

“You would look better if you weren’t wearing a shirt,” she whispered. 

Lorcan grinned as he pulled back, “Well, I think you’d know better, so…” He reached between them and continued to kiss her as he unbuttoned his shirt and shucked it off before throwing it onto her bed. Elide dragged a heated eye down his front and ran her hands over his silky smooth skin. “And?”

“Mm-hmm,” she leaned forward and pressed her lips to the skin above his heart. “So much better.”

Their lips found one another’s and they kissed until Elide’s stomach growled and Lorcan drew back with a laugh, telling her to sit pretty while he made breakfast for the two of them. 

Conversation flowed effortlessly and Elide, who couldn’t just wait, moved around him to make them both coffee. 

Then, they sat on opposite sides of her adjustable worktable to eat their breakfast. It took one look from Elide for Lorcan to take her back to bed. 

He held her hand to his skin when she braced it against his chest as she rode him, their gazes locking as they both found their releases. 

Elide collapsed against his chest, brushing her lips against his skin. She whimpered slightly when he lifted her off of him to dispose of the condom and then Lorcan wrapped her up in his arms. 

“Oh, shit.” 

He paused, looking down at her. Anxiety coursed through him, did it break, did he need to run out for an emergency pill- “E, what is it?” He couldn’t have another kid. No way, no how. Not yet, at least. That wasn’t something he’d thought since before Essar had died and it gave him pause, but he didn’t have time to unpack all of that. 

Elide tipped her head back and nipped at the skin beneath his jaw, “Squad bar night tomorrow.” 

He groaned, vaguely remembering the group text Aelin had sent them all. He was still iffy about Aelin… he didn’t know how to feel about her. Lorcan knew he was being an overprotective mother hen, but he would always feel slightly, if at all, territorial of his brothers. Especially Rowan, especially after Lyria. “Do we really have to go to that?” 

She nodded vehemently, “Yes! C’mon, it’ll be fun, we can even tease Fenrys and Mi, you know?” 

“Oh, true,” he said, nodding contemplatively. “We could just not tell them and pretend that nothing’s happening.” 

“Ooh, I like that,” she said, bracing her tattooed forearms on his equally tattooed chest to prop herself above him. Her hair fell like a curtain around him. “That’s a good idea.” 

“I know. I’m the best, am I not?”

“Gods,” she muttered, biting his lower lip before she pressed her lips to his, “you’re a dick.” 

+*+*+*+*+*+*

“I’ll see you later,” Lorcan murmured, leaning down to kiss her one last time. 

“Ok,” she replied, smoothing her thumb over his cheekbone. “Bye, L.” 

“Bye, E,” he echoed, smiling as he pulled away. She passed him his jacket with a slip of paper in his pocket. 

Elide was smiling as he walked away, leaned against the doorframe to watch him. What she didn’t see was the happy grin on his lips, something he couldn’t quite quell. The elevator stopped before he could press the button and the doors slid open to reveal Elide’s neighbour, Yrene, and… Aelin. 

Lorcan, Elide, and Aelin all froze. All he could do was nod once and step to the side, his hand reaching up to rub the back of his neck as his cheeks flushed.

Yrene gave him a pitying glance as she and Aelin walked out and he walked in, turning to give Elide a look that said sorry as her eyes begged him to stay. Lorcan just pressed the lobby button as Elide shook her head and mouthed Come back here.

The last thing he heard as the door slid shut was Aelin yelling, “ELIDE LOCHAN! YOU LITTLE HUSSY-” 

Lorcan sighed to himself and leaned back against the mirrored wall, digging his phone out of his pocket and the slip of paper she’d slid into his pocket. It had her number written on it in her perfect printing and he plugged it into his phone. 

He texted her i'm sorry and waited as the ellipsis popped up, tapping his foot as he waited for her answer. 

Her answer was in all caps, COME BACK HERE ISTG LORCAN 

Lorcan laughed dryly, i have to pick up my child - he misses me 

He waited for a moment, but the typing bubble never popped back up so he stuffed it back in his pocket and waited for the elevator to stop. 

Lorcan was already in his truck when his phone buzzed and he took it out, wincing as he read her text, just four little words. 

i'm gonna kill you.

Then, she quickly followed with, i’ll see you tomorrow and don’t tell fen or mi!!

He smiled and answered, see you then e 

That smile stayed on his face the entire drive to Fenrys and Nehemia’s. When he pulled up, he saw Kohana in the front yard, playing around while Nehemia enjoyed her tea and watched him from the front porch. 

She waved at him as he stepped out of his vehicle and waited as Kohana saw him and quickly sprinted over, his long hair flying out behind him. “Dad, hi-hi!” 

“Heya, kiddo,” he said, grunting slightly under the impact of his kid jumping him. Lorcan shifted Kohana to his side, “Did you have a nice time?” 

“Yup! Watched ‘Lantis and Prince of Egypt and Lion King. That’s three movies, até.” 

“Wow, three movies? Lucky you,” Lorcan said, beginning the walk up to the house. “Mi, how are you?” 

Nehemia smiled knowingly, glancing down at his slightly rumpled clothes, the same from the night before. “I’m great.” She sipped from her mug and hummed, “Are those the same clothes you were wearing last night?” 

Lorcan looked down at himself, as did Kohana who did not understand what on earth they were talking about. “Oh, well how bout that, I guess they are. Had a nice night.” 

“Oh?” 

“Mm-hmm.” Lorcan looked down at his son when Kohana began tapping his cheek incessantly. “Yes, child?” 

“Did you watch a movie, Dad? I watched-ed movies.” 

“I did not watch any movies,” Lorcan answered him, giving Nehemia a look when she arched a brow. 

“Oh, well, that does not sound fun,” Kohana said, cupping his hands around Lorcan’s ear to whisper, “I missed you, Dad. Can you stay home tonight with me?” He put his face directly in front of Lorcan’s, pressing the tip of his little button nose against his father’s.  

“Yeah,” Lorcan said, shifting to kiss his son’s cheek. “Go get your bag, ok?” Kohana nodded vigorously as he was set down on the porch and bustled back into the house. 

“So,” Nehemia began, her long nails clinking against her china mug, “the date?” 

Lorcan shrugged, shoving his hands in his pocket, “Eh. Fine. Nothing special.” 

She rolled her eyes and punched his shoulder, “Lorcan.” 

“Fine, fine,” he conceded, smirking smugly, “dinner was lovely. The Willows was delightful. I had the pan-seared foie-gras with rhubarb and she had the sole meunière.” 

“That’s not what I was asking about and you know it,” she seethed, eyes flashing. “What about your date, you insufferable man?” 

Creator bless that kid, because Kohana came running back out just then, saving Lorcan from having to answer. “Ready, ready, ready!” He put his bag down as he sat to put on his sneakers. “Whatcha talkin’ ‘bout, Mi-Mi? Why is my daddy ins- insuff- insuff-abble?” 

Nehemia crouched down and helped him put on his puffy jacket, “Your daddy is being silly and irritating.” 

“Oh, oh, really? You’re trying to turn my child against me? Classy move, Ytger.” 

“I do what I can,” she said. “Alright, malaika, I’ll see you later, ok?” Kohana nodded and hugged her, on his tiptoes to wrap his arms around her neck. “I love you, baby.” 

“Love you too, Mi-Mi. Sala kakuhle*,” he said, looking very proud, as he should, of himself for his near-perfect pronunciation of the Eyllwe farewell. “I did it!”

“Oh, gods, get him out of here before I cry,” Nehemia said, watching with a fond look as Lorcan and Kohana said good-bye and walked away. Kohana was hopping the entire way to the truck and rolled down his window to wave at Nehemia as they drove away. 

Lorcan looked in the rearview mirror and smiled, only feeling a little guilty that he was using his kid as a pawn. 

+*+*+*+*+*+*

“I wanna play, Dad,” Kohana said, climbing up onto the couch that Lorcan was sitting on, headset on and forearms braced against his thighs as he clicked over the controller. Tigger was stretched out along the bay windows, decidedly not interested in whatever they were doing. “Can I play?” 

“Yeah, just one second,” Lorcan drew out the syllables as Kohana crawled between his legs and sat with his back against Lorcan’s front, reaching for the controller. Lorcan put down his microphone, addressing the other players, “Boyos, lil man wants to play. What are we thinking?” 

He smiled at the chorus of assent, the loudest being Rowan and Vaughan as they hyped up the five year old. They did this frequently, letting Kohana join in on their gaming nights whenever he wanted, which wasn’t super often. Kohana had his own ‘special’ controller, which was just an extra one Lorcan had lying around. He could press whatever button he wanted, it didn’t matter cause it wasn’t connected to anything. 

Kohana giggled and clapped his little hands, greedily grabbing the controller and began smashing the buttons, a fierce frown on his brow. Lorcan chuckled and rested his chin on Kohana’s head, unplugging his headset so that the kid could hear it too. 

With every win, they praised Kohana, telling him he was the absolute best of all time. He soaked it all up, his eyes lighting up. 

Finally, once they’d won, everyone signed off and Lorcan got off before Fenrys could start riding him about his date. He needed… to talk to his kid. He wouldn’t name names, no specifics, but… he needed to suss it out. All he had said to the boys was that he had a nice time and he wasn’t saying anything more. 

“Até, can we watch Space Jam?”

“Always, kid,” Lorcan replied, using the remote to choose the movie. Kohana bounced excitedly and snuggled back into his chest, gripping the hoodie Lorcan wore in his little fists. “Ko…” 

“Yeah?” 

“What would you think if I had a new… friend?” 

“I think you should have lots of friends, Dad. I don’t have lots of friends ‘cause I don’t like the other kids but I have Essie and that’s enough for me.” 

Lorcan’s heart squeezed in his chest and he smiled, “Essie is a great friend, huh? Well, that’s not really the type of friend I was talking about. Remember when we met Ro’s friend?”

Kohana nodded, “Yeah! She’s gots goldy hair and her name is Aelin. I like her, but she is very loud. She is nice, too, Dad.” 

“She is,” Lorcan laughed and agreed with him, keeping his eyes on the screen where a young Michael Jordan was shooting hoops in his backyard. “She is also very loud.” 

A little gasp escaped Kohana and he stood up on the couch, steadying himself by grabbing Lorcan’s face.“Dad, Ro kissed Aelin. Is it a friend like that? A adult friend?” 

Blood pounding in his ears, Lorcan swallowed once and nodded, “Yeah. An adult friend like Ro’s. What would you, ah, think about that?” The movie still played while Kohana contemplated. 

His brow was furrowed and he flicked his ochre-coloured eyes upwards. “Um… I think that would be ok. Would that make you happy, Dad?” 

The question took him by surprise and he had to hold back tears. Kohana really was the perfect person. “Yeah, baby, it would make me happy.” 

“Would you forget my Mama?” Kohana asked quietly, not looking at Lorcan as he did. 

Lorcan sucked in a sharp breath, quick to say no, he would never. “Ko, I’ll never forget your Mama, ok? I love her so much and you too.” 

“Well then I think you should have a adult friend, Dad. I think it would be good if you were happy.” Kohana sat down again, his head tucked under Lorcan’s chin. “You were sad for a long time, you know. You didn’t used to smile lots. You know, you smile more now.”  

Lorcan kissed the top of his child’s head, smiling softly. “I do.” 

“That’s a good thing,” Kohana said sleepily, yawning and struggling to keep his eyes open. “I like it when you’re happy.” He was asleep before Lorcan could say anything. His own exhaustion weighed down on him and he didn’t have the energy to stop the movie before he was laying down on the couch and passing out. 

+*+*+*+*+*+*

Elide walked into Connall and Vaughan’s bar, which they had closed for the night, and saw Lorcan already sitting on a stool, one foot on the spindle, the other on the floor. He was talking animatedly with Rowan and Aelin. Aelin noticed her first and smiled, hopping off of her boyfriend’s lap to run over, “Ellie!” 

“Babes,” Elide said, hugging her sister but keeping her eye on Lorcan, who had turned and then smiled at her. “Hi, darling.” 

Aelin giggled, already tipsy. She drew back and danced around, swinging her hips to the music and twirling Elide around. Then, she got serious and pulled up short, “Oh my gods, you fucked Lorcan!” 

Blood rushed to her cheeks and she avoided looking at Lorcan, “Ae, inside voice, hon. And yes, I did.” 

“Well, you know, I’m not really mad about it,” Aelin whispered theatrically. “You two are cute together!” She raised her voice for the next part, “But if he hurts you, I will castrate him!” Rowan and Lorcan both groaned instinctively, subconsciously covering their groins. “Come come, let’s liquor you up.” 

She dragged Elide back to the bar, dropping her hand to slide back into Rowan’s lap. Elide smiled at Lorcan, knowing Kohana was with Malakai and Emrys for the night. It was a Monday, which really wasn’t ideal, but with Rowan’s schedule as a paramedic, they needed to be flexible. 

“Hi,” she said, slotting herself between his spread legs. He smiled, his hand ghosting up her side to squeeze her waist and pull her closer. His other hand reached up to tap the temple of her glasses. 

“Cute glasses.” 

“You’ve said that already.” 

Leaning down, Lorcan said, “Kids, close your eyes.” Elide was smiling as he pressed his lips to hers, kissing her slowly, thoroughly. She wound her arms around his neck, humming when his left hand slid around her back and down to her ass, fitting into the right pocket of her high-waisted skinny jeans. 

Aelin groaned in disgust and gagged until they broke apart, laughing as Elide turned to the side and leaned into him. “Come on, have a heart,” she joked, “don’t you care about youngins in love?” 

The other couple regarded them with unimpressed expressions as they laughed again and Vaughan rolled his eyes, “Alright, what do you want to drink, El?” 

“Mmmmm,” she drummed her fingers over Lorcan’s denim-clad thigh, “I will take… a…” Sighing, she turned to Lorcan. “Choose for me, I don’t care as long as it’s booze.” Elide leaned further against him. “Work sucked.” 

The kids had been extra wild today and she’d been at her wits end by the time the bell rang. Lorcan removed his hand from her pocket and rubbed her back soothingly, kissing the side of her head. “I’m sorry, E.” She sighed, gladly accepting the tequila soda Vaughan slid her way. 

“‘t’s ok. I’d rather just forget about it all,” she said, smiling when Lorcan’s hand slid back to her pocket. They collectively moved on, listening and laughing about a call Rowan had gotten earlier that day. 

Some minutes later, Fenrys and Nehemia ran in, apologizing for being late. 

“Sorry, there was traffic and I got home late and- Lorcan has his hand on Elide’s ass.” 

Everyone looked back at Lorcan and Elide, nodding and shrugging. “Oh, it seems that he does. Interesting,” Vaughan said, “now, come on, Ro, what happened next?” 

“Oh, yeah, so,” Rowan sipped from his beer, nodding, “we get to the place right and we’re getting ready to-” 

“LORCAN’S HAND IS ON ELIDE’S ASS, WHY AREN’T WE TALKING ABOUT THAT?!” Fenrys shouted, throwing his hands up. 

“Fen, babe,” Nehemia began, trying to calm him. “Breathe.” 

“But his hand- her ass- Lorcan- Elide.” Someone put a drink in his hand and he chugged it. “So what is this?” 

Lorcan and Elide looked at each other, both shrugging. She spoke for them as Lorcan picked at the hem of her oversized Pussy Riot t-shirt, “We don’t know. And if we did, we wouldn’t tell you, Marama. Go find something else to occupy yourself with.” 

Everyone except for Fenrys laughed and teased him, their night continuing on. 

+*+*+*+*+*+*

It wasn’t late yet, but Elide and Lorcan were heading out. She had to be at work early and not hungover, so he offered to give her a ride home. 

Elide was sitting in the passenger seat, holding Lorcan’s hand in her lap as she asked, “So… what are we?” She looked up at him when she asked, biting her cheek. “I don’t want to pressure you or anything, but I kinda… just want to know?” 

He smiled and lifted their joined hands to his lips, kissing her knuckles, “Me too. I like you, a lot, and you feel the same way.” She nodded in confirmation, a small smile on her lips. “It’s new, yeah? We don’t have to… label it,” Lorcan made a face as he said it and wrinkled his nose, “I really hate that I just said that.” 

“I hate it too. But I agree,” she said, leaning over the centre console to press her lips to his. For the rest of the ride, they sat in a comfortable silence. 

He walked her to her door, smiling as she tugged him down by his collar to kiss him. They were sharing identical grins as she pulled away and turned to her lobby door. 

Lorcan waited as she unlocked her door and stepped in, pausing when he didn’t move. “You don’t have to go home tonight, right?” 

“Nope. I’m a free man.” 

“Then what are you waiting for? Hurry up, love.”

+*+*+*+*+*+*

*Sala kakulhe: Good-bye in Xhosa (language i use for eyllwe) 

an: wow so sweet and soft 🥰 i mean.....how much could change in six chapters, really? like honestly, *how* much could change? 

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08.11.20

lmaoooooooo i really love the ice cold way siya operates in. truly a raisinghania sib!

“siya chal sakti hai!!!” behen, iss ghar mein tumhare dimaag ki alaava sab kuch chalta hai.

dadi trying to cheer raja band baja hua beta up with his favt. chole bhature. he doesn't seem like the kind who'd eat that kinda food, but ok.

CHOLE BHATURE ARE NOT CHEERING HIM UP. MATLAB MAAMLA SERIOUS HAIIIIII.

lmao he's literally twisting and turning in place like kids do when they have a tantrum. i mean, i like it. it shows a more human side to the character, ki just how much anguish and helplessness he's feeling.

dadi like babe, you can't control everything in life, stop being such a bloody control freak ki things not going your way turn you like this.

blah blah anguished rant on how he lost something so important to him.

dadi giving cliche ~~~if it's meant to be yours, it'll come back to you~~~ advice. which is kinda working on him. huh. all kindsa out of sorts behaviour.

“jab tuney kisi ke saath galat nahi kiya hai, toh tere saath galat kyun hoga?” uh okkkkkkkkkkk, that's not how life works. bad shit happens to good ppl all the time. also, he's done lotsa galat shit ok. what did riddhima do for this fucker to paralyse her huh?????? YEH SAB USSI KA NATEEJA HAI. BHUGAT AB.

carbs therapy. BEST HAI. ALWAYS WORKS. IT'S SCIENCE, BITCHES.

dadi saying why don't you talk to riddhima about your issues, and lol he's whining about she dgaf about him coz she left him alone last night when he asked her not to.

dadi left praying ki hey bhagwaan these two fucks’ relationship is in your hands now, this is beyond human interference.

kabir being informed of new developments and accusation of kidnapping ragini is being heaped on siya. BASED ON WHAT EVIDENCE YOU STUPID TWIT??????? THAT SHE CAN WALK??????? SO CAN EVERYONE ELSE YOU KNOW!!!!!!!!!!

“mujhe usse vansh ke aage expose karna hoga.” LMAO BITCH EXPOSE YOURSELF FIRSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

“tum kya mujhe expose karogi? expose toh main tumhe karungi!” YES SIYAAAAAAAAA FUCK  HER UPPPPPPPPPP

NOICE. WE LOVE A FIERCEASS SISTER WHO’S READY TO KILL FOR HER SIBLINGS. ESP. WHEN IT’S THE SCARY BIG BROTHER WHO’S EVERYONE’S PROTECTOR.

siya saying she just miraculously got cured a few days ago, and was waiting to surprise everyone. sounds sus, but whatever.

but also what kinda terrribleasssssss physiotherapist is riddhima that she didn’t even identify her patient’s progress?????

LMAO SIYA POL KHOLING OF VANSH BHAIYYA SAYING HE MADE HER DO ALL THE SHADY MASK SHIT. “TO KEEP RIDDHIMA SAFE”. haaaan behen, khooooob safe rakha tumne, baar baar behosh karke. pehle se hi iska dimaag nahi chalta, now you’ve managed to give her some kinda degenerative brain disease.

i love how vansh didn’t bother to ask siya how she stopped riddhima’s plans and knocked her out multiple times if she’s in a wheelchair. there’s literally only one person in a wheelchair in this house?!?!?!!!!!! wouldn’t riddhima KNOW who the person in the mask is???? god vansh. you’re such a dumbass.

lellllllllllllllllllllllllll i am livingggggggggg for siya reading riddhima to filth with a knife in her hand THIS IS THE BEST SCENE OF THIS SHOW YET. esp in her small, child-like voice, it’s fucking amazing.

riddhima admitted to being a spy, AND SIYA RECORDED IT ALSO. OMFG SHE’S MY NEW FAVE CHARACTER I LOVE HER THE MOST.

i wish vansh was the person he is to siya, instead of the fucker he actually is. she literally thinks the worldddddddddddd of him. ugh, i am so soft for this relationshippppppp.

but i also wanna know what the ishani/siya relationship is like? we hardlyyyyyy see them interact. like, we even see aryan push her wheelchair around sometimes, but ishani neverrrrrrr interacts with siya. why????

ugh riddhima managed to convince her that she really cares for vansh and is trying to do the right thing. she’s literally asking her to kill her rn if she doesn’t trust her. baby sis you’re farrrrrrrrr too trusting.

“mera dimaag tumpe trust karne se rok raha hai, riddhima, par jiss dil ne tumhe bhaabi bola haina, woh tumhe ek mauka dena chahta hai. ek aakhri mauka. iss baar mera bharosa mat todna. 24 ghante hai tumhare paas. apni taqdeer badal sako toh badal lo warna yeh audio main vansh bhaiyya ko suna doongi.” SERIOUSLY, WHERE WERE THEY HIDING THIS MOST SAYAANI CHARACTER OF THE SHOW TILLLLLL NOW????????!

riddhima has a condition for siya too. i think i know what it is.

omg vansh IS COLLAR PAKADKE YELLING AT ANGRE IN THE WORST WAYYYYYYY POSSIBLE. god vansh, you’re honestly the fucking worstttttttttttttttttttt. angre you need to take up work with someone else, istg, you don’t deserve this shit. kabir treats his sidekick so much better. yet another point in the kitty for kabir >>>>>> vansh.

seriously, why would you wanna blindfold this dude when he’s in THIS mood????? save it for the bedroom, sis.

empty wheelchair dekh ke he’s yelling at everrrrrrrryone ki how could they leave siya alone somewhere. god. i can’t imagine having to live with such a toxic personality.

everyone in the house is soooooo happy for siya. like, aryan’s not beaming as much as the others, but he does look kinda pleased. BECAUSE SIYA IS BEST CHARACTERRRRRRR OF THIS SHOW EVERYONE LOVESSSS HERRRRR.

oh my heart, i am so softttttttt for sibling shit like this. he’s hugging her with suchhhhhhhhhhhh fierceeee affection, i’m crying happy tearsssssss.

heart eyes for riddhima who supposedly cured her. pls. she did nothing. jo bhi karna tha, siya ne khud kiya hai. iss ridhimma manhoos ko jasoosi se kab fursat mili to do PT with siya and cure her???

siya being gracious and giving credit though. ugh, honestly, this show and this family don’t deserve siya.

lmao she’s saying vansh brought riddhima in though, so actually allll the credit goes to bhaiyya for intimidating this poor woman into treating his sister against her will.

THE AFFECTION. THE SHEER MAGNITUDE OF HIS LOVE FOR HERRRR. I CRIEEE. THIS IS THE ONLY RELATIONSHIP THAT MATTERS TO ME IN THIS GODFORSAKEN SHOW.

anupriya giving some fakeass congrats. i hope siya tells vansh that she was the one who pushed her down the stairs a while back. aur kuch nahi toh just for that vansh is gonna kill her dead.

riddhima and vansh still all tense and sad about the ragini thing. OUFF JUST LIVE IN THE MOMENT YOU FUCKS.

I LOVE HER. I FUCKING LOVE HER. BEST RAISINGHANIA HAI YEH.

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09.11.20

riddhima back at kabir’s to try and find ragini. ughhhhhhhhh i’m just so done with this nonsense. we already KNOW that kabir and anupriya still have her based on the precap from like 2, 3 days ago.

lol kabir is so pissed at riddhima and her dimaag chalaana. a mood we ALL share.

kabir trying to turn riddhima against siya and riddhima’s like NOOOO SHE COULD NEVER, “USKI AANKHEIN USKI AWAAAZ SAAF SAAF KEH RAHI THI KI WOH SACH BOL RAHI HAI!” uh huh, yeah, like kabir’s are rn????? and vansh’s were before he paralysed you? just a suggestion i’m throwing out there: is it possible that perhaps, just maybe, you’re just very fucking stupid, riddhima, and tend to trust people too easily????

OUFF I’M SO BORED WITH THIS SCENE. we already know from the precap that ragini will knock down a vase but riddhima will never find out what caused it and kabir will make some lame excuse she’ll believe. FWDING TO NEXT.

JESUS CHRISTTTTTTTT, SIYA IS JUST WALKING AROUND THE HOUSE RANDOMLY LISTENING TO THAT AUDIO CLIP OF RIDDHIMA’S CONFESSION. AND SHE WALKS RIGHT INTO VANSH, WHO’S LIKE HUH, WHAT’S THAT RIDDHIMA IS SAYING?????

siya brushes it off saying its exercise stuff for her PT. sure. uh huh.

OH MY HEART HE GOT HER HEEEEEEELS, WHICH SHE’S ALWAYSSSSSSS WANTED. THIS BHAIYYA-BABY RELATIONSHIP IS GONNA TAKE ME DOWN GODDAMNITTTT. ITNE DIN BAAAAAAAAAAAD ITNI ACHCHI SIBLING FEELS MILI HAI ITV SEEEEEEE.

bhaiyya knows baby enough ki she’s hiding something from himmm. oh noeeeeeeeeeee.

damn, siya a real one. didn’t give out riddhima’s secret coz she wants to give her a fair chance. again, this show does not deserve this character. she’s too good for it.

she says she just believes in him and knows he’ll find whoever murdered mom. 

SOFT. SO SOFT. MY HEART IS SO FULL WHENEVER THESE TWO SHOW LOVE TO EACH OTHERRRRR.

idhar ragini ki marammat shuru. y’all are just exhausting me with this bs. isse maarna hai toh maaro already. ainvayi mein time waste.

oh dangggggggg, ragini batting for riddhima. saying i know she’ll fuck y’all up. dang, we love the sisterhood feels of this episode!

“aap ke liye SPECIAL INTEZAAM kiya hai maine.” said with the most polite customer service obsequiousness. I LOVE THIS PSYCHOPATH THE MOSTTTTTTTTTT.

ragini warning them that once vansh finds out everything, they’re as good as dead. wow, spunky!!!! dude i like her as a female lead better than stupid fucking riddhima. 

“hmmmmmm, you’re right. lekin usse batayega kaun???” honestly, why do i love his deranged ass so much????

anyway mishra has been delegated the task of stashing her somewhere else i guess. so it’s settled that mishra knows he’s not working for the CBI or whatever and is just a hired goon.

dadi is organizing YET ANOTHER POOJA. lordddddd.

this riddhima and her dumbass mandir jaana excuse that she uses constantly.

“bhagwaan tum jaisi bahu sab ko de!” OMFG DADI PLS, GOD FORBID. ISSE ACHCHA AAPKE BETE KUNWAARE MARR JAAYE!

ugh dadi your bloody pota needs a fucking therapist, it isn’t in riddhima’s hands to fix his 1001 mental issues.

great, mangalsutra almost broke. foreshadowing.

ughhhhh mummy managed to steal the memory card from aryan. FUCKING IDIOT I THOUGHT YOU HAD PUT IT IN THE BLOODY BANK ALREADY, BUT NO. HE WAS STILL HOLDING ON TO IT AND TALKING ABOUT IT LOUDDDDDDDDLY ON THE PHONE. jesusssss, why he so fuckinggggg stupid????

oh now vansh is exclaiming GREATTTTTTT JOB ANGREEEE as if he didn’t tell him to GTFO, THE VERY SIGHT OF YOU DISGUSTS ME yesterday. fuck, i really hate vansh as anything but a brother to siya.

aaaaaaand riddhima was standing behind him and he turned around and in a veryyyyyyy contrived move got his watch caught in her mangalsutra and broke it.

sis freaking about THE APSHAGUN!!!!!!!!!!!

he’s like arre nahi achcha shagun hai, angre got the cctv footage now i’ll know who kidnapped ragini! and sis is like OH GOD NO THE BAD LUCK IS STARTING ALREADY I’M SO DEADDDDDDD

“toh main tumhe kho dungi.”

lmao his face. literally the white guy blinking meme.

god she’s having a freakout about how their shaadi and rishta is in khatra. BITCH THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE MS AND INSTEAD THE MOUNTAIN OF LIES YOU ARE SITTING ON AND YOUR EK DARJAN KE INCOMPATIBILITY ISSUES AS INDIVIDUALS.

”tum jaanti ho riddhima, tumahra ek ek aansoon mere liye kitna keemti hain? aisa lagta hai jaise mere dil ke ek tukde ko tod ke alag kar diya ho.”

OH YEAH????? DIDN’T FEEL ANYTHINGGGGG WHEN YOU PARALYSED HER HUH????????? IT’S GONNA BE A LONGASSSSS TIME BEFORE I GET OVER THAT, BITCH BOY.

yeah yeah ok this is a nice moment and all. WHY COULDN’T YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THIS DUDE, HUH?????? WHY’D YOU HAVE TO RUIN ALLLLLLLLLL THE GOOD WILL YOU BUILT UP BY KARWA CHAUTH IN ONEEEEEEE MOMENTTTTTTT?????? fuck, i hate you tellywood men and the shit they put my stupid heart through.

only bappa ki aarti shall fix things now. based on the promo and BTS i’ve seen, things about to get reallllllly realllllllly bad but............ lol let’s wait and watch.

ragini managed to sneak mishra’s phone outta his pocket. SEE????? SO ENTERPRISING!!!!!! I LIKE HER SO MUCH MORE THAN RIDDHIMA. GOD VANSH, THIS IS THE GIRL YOU SHOULD HAVE MARRIED. SHE’S REALLY THE ONE WHO GOT AWAY.

she’s callllllllllling vanshhhh. BUT AARTI KI WAJAAH SE HE CAN’T HEAR THE PHONEEEEEE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

here, have some dhaarmik #couple goals to take the edge off the anxiety till the next episode.

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precap: omfg ragini got through to riddhima and she almost told her that kabir is behind kidnapping her, but kabir got to her and attacked her from the back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DOUBLE OMFG SIYA OVERHEARD MUMMY ON THE PHONE BRAGGING ABOUT KILLING THEIR MOM AND CALLS VANSH TO TELL HIM ABOUT IT!!!!! LIKE SHE TOLD HIM THE NAME ALL CLEARLY AND THAT SHE HEARD IT FIRSTHAND!!!!!!!! VANSH SEEMS TO BE GIVING NO REACTION THO????????????

TELL ME THAT BOTH THESE PHONE CALLS WERE NOT MADE ON SOME FUCKING GHATIYA NETWORK LIKE IDEA AND THE REQUIRED PPL HEAR EVERYTHING THEY NEED TO!!!!!!!! (high hopes, i know. 😔😔😔)

[leanni]

Walking Sim - Asset Development 

Here’s some of the stuff I went through... SPOILER WARNING: HUGE WALL OF TEXT COMING UP

My group agreed that we’d do low poly stuff and vertex paint as it’ll take a huge load off on the amount of things we had to make.  When I had all of my assets made, I vertex painted some for a good hour or two and I imported them into unity since I was curious on how it’d look like... PLOT TWIST: UNITY HATES VERTEX PAINT, IT DOESNT SHOW UP AT ALL. I took maybe an hour of scrambling to figure out a solution aaaand came up with:  1) import a plugin for unity but the plugin I found was very outdated so I didn't trust that.  2) assign materials to each asset, this was the route I went with because Unity doesn't hate materials. It was just a longer approach to vertex painting but it got the job done .__. I relayed this info to the team so that they wouldn’t need to go through such heartbreak as the one I went through 

Broken Crate: I already had crates made so I duplicated them and experimented how I’d make them look broken. I went with using the Detaching tool but it made the crate look like it came out like a puzzle??? The cuts were too perfect Then I used the Boolean difference tool and it actually wasn’t too bad but.... there’s ngons and I really didn't want to hunt and fix those for the whole day, no ty :/

Telescope: I made a simple telescope and of course it looked too simple so I changed the shapes up a little.

Rum Bottles: I tried out a transparent material since... bottles aren’t that opaque. But then it looked... weird?? It looks like the bottle is in half or something?? I couldn’t even adjust the transparency properly... 0 and 0.001 apparently is a huuuuge difference in Maya’s eyes. Back to opaque it is! The good part apart this is that I could add a nice shine on the bottle.

Barrel: I took the low poly barrel I made and played around in substance painter. I WAS CURIOUS ON HOW IT WOULD LOOK WITH REALISTIC TEXTURES. I also took the barrel into Zbrush…. ONCE AGAIN, I WAS CURIOUS ON HOW IT WOULD LOOK LIKE. I had wood brushes so I wanted to put them to good use .__.  anyways one thing I can take away from this is how cool it looks if it was in the scene because the zbrush barrel looks battered and rotten which would’ve made sense as some assets are gonna be submerged in water :( #whatcouldhavebeen

Palm Tree: I was figuring out how I would want a segment of the trunk to look like while using as little polys as I could since I wanted to duplicate them to build the entire trunk. Once I got the shape down, I built it up but noticed that it was veryyyy boring, it literally goes straight up. so I just rearranged the trunk into a curve - messed around with some of the segments, made some long/short and rotated them.  The leaf was simple to make but I needed to be optimal with the polysss :/ This shows my first trial run where I made it without thinking much - took a Plane and used Multicut to get the shape I wanted, Smoothed it then Reduced it since there was no point in spending lots of polys on a single leaf... But when I tried to use Soft Select to bend it... there wasn’t enough polys for a good lookin’ curve. The irony istg. Of course I remade the leaf again lol

Coral Reef: Different colours! I went for analogous colours for some sort of weird but natural coral reefy look?? I didn't want any complimentary colours like green and red since the xmas look isn't what I was going for lol 

Carpet: Again.. just curious to play with substance painter but uh yea that doesn’t look good, it’s too realistic.  I got a carpet texture from Google but it looked realistic as well :/ then... Minecraft saved my life xD Inspired by how Minecraft does Wool in their game, I took the carpet texture into photoshop, used the Mosaic filter and then darkened the texture because it was too light for my liking. So now the carpet texture doesn’t look detailed which was a win in my book :D When I made the carpet, I used the Sculpting tool to lift it up a bit just to give some sort of... weight?? to it?? And I made sure the edges weren’t completely straight. It’s not really noticeable but it’s better than having a classic rectangle .__.

Open Book: At first the book had nothing on its pages so I decided to put a plane with texture on top of it buuuut it didn't look like it was actually part of the book... so I just extended the plane so that it would touch the spine/middle part of the book. I added some cuts so that it would follow the curve of the pages as well. A snug fit.

[softhaos]

NEIGHBOUR!AU SEUNGKWAN

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you’re so grateful for having seungkwan as your neighbour

,,,,, most of the time that is,,,,,,

there are times where he just can’t mind his business and highkey wants to know everything about your day and all that jazz

and sometimes you end up being very very very bothered and annoyed by him,,,,,, ofc you know he only means well but s t i l l

though whenever you have a bad day and don’t need to spell it out, he’ll try his best to cheer you up

you sorta consider him a close friend but at the same time you’re trying to keep a distance to him bc the only reason why you came into contact with him is that you’re neighbours

doesn’t matter fact is he’s the one you trust the most in the entire apartment complex

up to the point where he has your spare key in case you lock yourself out

and vice versa you have his spare key

luckily seungkwan has never abused the power of having your spare key and never barged into your place and you also did the same

he tends to throw some things on your balcony tho for some reason

you have your daily routine and so does he

and you coincidentally leave your place at the same time so you always chat a little until you part ways at the subway

seungkwan has two moods in the morning and is always the one who initiates the conversation,,,, it’s either

“good morning y/n i hope you have a nice day pls do nOT die or get involved in an accident!!!”

or

“y/n i feel the need to die or get involved in an accident”

and you’d either reply with

“seungkwan i won’t don’t worry”

or

“DO NOT GET RUN OVER BY A BULLDOZER AND DIE BOO SEUNGKWAN ISTG”

you’re so close to each other that he invites you over every other day or you invite him and watch some movies together and do stuff friends do

tbh the longest time ýou haven’t seen each other is three days

whenever you don’t see each other for a longer period of time one of you will text the other and ask for life updates,,, because yes you care THAT much

this also applies whenever one of you is on holiday,,,,,,, life updates are vital ok

your workload is getting bigger and bigger and you decide to work from home for the rest of the week

meaning that you won’t leave your place for the next seven days

dw you went on a huge grocery shopping spree the week before because you know you’ll need all the proteins and carbonates you can get

ofc seungkwan notices,,,,, and he’s getting restless

whenever he knocks on your door you’re either asleep

or busy

or done with life

therefore you don’t open the door

and whatever text messages he sends to you

well,,,, you blocked him just for the short duration bc he’s gonna squeeze out all of the information and you just cannot be bothered

seungkwan being seungkwan he expects the worst

like you’ve been kidnapped or something

and is so close to calling the police

but he doesn’t

bc you left him a note saying that you’re alright and that he must NOT CALL THE POLICE

and so he doesn’t turn to them but is still restless

on friday he can’t contain it anymore tho

and so he barges into your place by using your spare key and not breaking the door

“Y/N WHERE ARE YOU,,,, oh”

and he sees you in front of your laptop and you look like a zombie

you don’t deny that tho because you pulled an all-nighter

“WTF Y/N WHO GAVE YOU THE AUDACITY TO BLOCK M E?”

“i told you i’m fine”

“you’re fine my A S S when was the last time you took a shower??”

you know you look like a mess,,,,,,,, but did he have to exaggerate?

“seungkwan i’m busy as you can see pls”

but he’s not satisfied with your answer

instead he closes your laptop and tugs you into your living room

and you’re confused,,,,,, like what is going on??

“,,,,, what are you planning to do ???”

but he leaves you on the couch and moments later he comes back with lots of ice cream and chocolate chip cookies

“you’re taking a break from work,,,,, you do know you can die from a heart attack because of overwork right DO NOT DIE”

“i’m not??”

“well obviously bc i’m preventing you from death”

and he puts in your favorite movie and at first you want to rebel

but he then opens the ice cream, spoons out a huge scoop and shoves it into your mouth

but not violently ok he’s not choking you alright

“i can feed myself thank you very much”

and his breath hitches for a moment before he hands you the ice cream and goes for the chocolate chip cookie

you realize he hasn’t taken any bite of the ice cream yet

and so you scoop some of it and hold the spoon in front of it

and he’s giving you a weird look at first

“eat it fast or else it’ll melt and your shirt is ruined”

and he hesitantly accepts it before he settles back and stuffs cookies into his mouth

and you notice his ears turned red,,,, ohohohohoho

is it just you or are you witnessing the boo seungkwan being flustered??

throughout the movie you feel the tiredness washing over you and your eyes start to droop

and before you know it you’re asleep and tilt your head to the side and suddenly seungkwan’s shoulder is your pillow

he tenses up at the contact and is about to jump away but when he sees you fast asleep he loosens up and takes the rest of the ice cream from you

knowing that he’ll wake you up if he moves away or tries to replace himself with a pillow, he resumes watching the movie whilst finishing up the ice cream

and somehow he wraps an arm around you so that you’re nuzzled up against his chest and it’s a much more comfortable position he figures

and once the ending credits roll you wake up

first of all you are utterly confused and surprise bc HOW TF DID YOU MANAGE TO WAKE UP IN SEUNGKWAN’S ARMS

you’re about to break free from his grasp but he instinctively tightens his grip aon you

and so you look up

what do you have there a sleeping seungkwan

bc you don’t want to wake him up from his peaceful sleep you stay still in your arms and wow he smells nice

and bc he’s so adorable

you can’t help but fish out your phone and take pics of him 

partly for blackmail purposes but mainly because the sight of him warms your heart

“y/n delete those pictures right now” he mumbles oh shit

you better not mess with him and delete the pics,,,,, well most of them

finally you cuddle up to him again and find comfort in his warmth

[hencethebravery]

The CS Writer’s Hub has spoken. Killian Jones vs. the very surprising text message. If I say anything else it’ll give away the surprise. I don’t wanna give away the surprise. Also, I've had a really fucked up couple weeks and these ladies kind of saved my butt so, thx for being nice to me even tho I am kind of an asshole. xo @mahstatins @winterbythesea @seastarved @dassala @katie-dub @the-reason-to-sail-home @killiancygnus @justanotherwannabeclassic @sambethe

+ The problem with not planning things from the get-go is that inevitably, everything following that initial act of ill-advised spontaneity will also go horribly wrong.

“Not off to a great start, seems like.”

“Yeah, no, not really, Lily. Thanks for the help.”

Rekindling her friendship with Lily had not been an easy thing, and she’d been dissuaded from trying to do so by nearly every person in her life. Her parents were a bit biased by way of their own guilt, so she didn’t really pay attention to them or their concerns on the matter. And even Regina, who should by all accounts be the Queen of Second Chances, couldn’t seem to resist making snide little comments about “that girl’s attitude.”

“Seems to me as if she’s lived a harsh life,” Killian had observed when she’d asked for his opinion. “I’m not one to judge, aye?”

He had this way of doling out advice or perspective as if he wasn’t really allowed to have either because he’d done so many fucking things wrong in his life. It was both sad and charming all at once—all that wealth of experience gained by living longer than most of them, only he can’t seem to stop punishing himself long enough to appreciate it.

“I think that too,” she answered, smiling and planting a gentle kiss against his cheek. “Thanks.”

“Not sure what I did, love.”

“Yeah,” rushing to grab her jacket off the back of the couch, one foot already out the door. “That’s the point. Be back later—love you!”

Anyway, she’s kind of regretting the whole “friendship” thing at the moment, and she could smack Killian silly for giving her such terrible advice.

“Listen, what’s done is done. I don’t know what I could say to make you feel even the slightest bit better about this.”

“I am such an idiot.”

“Yeah,” Lily said stiffly, a long string of noodles hanging rather indelicately out of her mouth, “understatement.”

“The smell in here is making me nauseous.”

Which she’d definitely have to get used to. With Henry, most smells had made her nauseous. Granted, she’d been in prison at the time and it didn’t really smell great most of the time, but still. Seemed to be two-for-two currently. Maybe she’s just one of those people—everything makes her want to vomit. Lucky her.

The point is, if she hadn’t rekindled her friendship with Lily, she wouldn’t have added her number to her phone and Lily’s name wouldn’t have shown up right under Killian’s name in her Contacts. It’s a rookie fucking mistake, and her younger self would have been disappointed in her carelessness.

“Maybe—” Emma starts, licking her lips, trying to avoid breathing through her nose, “maybe he won’t even know what it means.”

“You’re the one who goes on and on and on about how quick the guy is.”

“Yeah, well. First time for everything.”

As it happens, Emma Swan’s luck is actually as bad as she thinks it is, because he just happens to be spending the day with her father when it happens. Idiot.

“Dave?” Killian asks, pausing in his slow, careful brushes alongside the horse’s flank.

“Yeah?”

“Emma’s sent me a message, and I’m not quite sure what it’s supposed to mean.”

David chuckles to himself and grins. It’s always a bit satisfying when he has to explain something to his son-in-law. His son-in-law who is a ridiculous number of years older; who is inexplicably adored by his son, and his daughter, and sometimes even his wife, and at least he can take pleasure in explaining texting lingo that most twelve year olds understand.

“Let’s see it,” he says playfully, taking full advantage of Killian’s bruised ego as he drops it into his hand. He looks down, expecting to see an “istg,” or a “lmfao,” or an Emoji or whatever else Emma’s sent, only it’s a picture and it seems to have been sent by accident and—

“Oh.”

“‘Oh?’ ‘Oh,’ what, mate?”

“Uh, I think,” he pauses and grunts, quickly shoving the phone back into Killian’s waiting hand. “I think you should talk to Emma.”

“Dave, do I need to be worried?”

“No, no,” David says quickly, laughing uncomfortably.  “Just... go home, okay? Talk to your wife.”

Emma’s been staring at her cold, congealing bowl of noodles for about 25 minutes when Lily’s had enough, tapping her chopsticks along the rim of Emma’s dish.

“Hey there. Swan. You with me?”

How could she fumble such an unbelievably important moment? Nothing in either of their lives has ever been simple and easy. She had hoped that if or when this were to ever happen, it would’ve at least happened in a somewhat normal way. Could have broken it to the guy gently, with candles and flowers and maybe they both would’ve had a good cry afterwards.

Emma groans and drops her head to the table, caring not a wit that some of her hair’s fallen into her cold soup.

“I know what you’re thinking.”

“Do you?” she asks, her voice muffled thanks to the proximity of the table to her face. “How could you possibly know what I’m thinking right now?”

Lily sighs. “You’re thinking about how you’ve never had a chance to do anything the ‘right way,’” her voice droning on as if she’s said all this before, “how you’ve finally made it to the perfect life and even now, you’ve fucked it up.”

Emma sniffles and lifts her head, tries to ignore the pressure behind her eyes.

“Your life’s never gonna be perfect, Em.”

“I know that.”

“And don’t tell him I said this, but I think you’ve got a really good guy. And he’s not gonna care how he knows, only that he does.”

They sit quietly for a few moments; Emma vaguely hears Lily ask for the check while she tries to keep herself from weeping in public where any nosy Storybrooke resident can see and then run off and tell her mom. Her phone buzzes and it’s David, a very brief, “Hook’s on his way home.”

“I need to go,” she says, standing. “Thanks... for lunch. And everything.”

“Calm down, don’t get hysterical,” Lily says with a smirk on her face, her own eyes suspiciously shiny. “And congratulations.”

He’s wearing a hole in the floor when she gets home, his face adorably scrunched up as he stares down at his phone. She hadn’t responded to the question mark, feels a bit bad for making him wait longer than he had to.

“Hey,” she says on a sigh and a smile, her stomach settling with the comfort of being home. It’s quiet this weekend, especially with Henry at Regina’s (thank goodness for small miracles). There’s a large grandfather clock ticking down the hall, and the floors creak under both of their feet. She’s never been so grateful to be able to come home.

He sounds relieved when he breathes out a, “Swan,” rushing to her side and looking her up and down as if expecting to see a gaping wound somewhere.

“Are you alright, love? Seems you’ve inherited your father’s infuriating vagueness.”

“Everything’s fine,” she grabs his hook and pulls him towards the couch, “come sit.”

She’d thought about it on the way over, how she might go about explaining that their small family is about to get a little bit bigger. About how they’ll both have to confront their various childhood traumas if they don’t want to fuck up their kid. How they’ll finally have to paint that room upstairs. How she can’t split a bottle of rum with him for a few months. He’s not gonna like that. There’s so much she could say, but now, in the moment, all she really wants is for him to be in the know with her.

“The text was a pregnancy test.”

“I’m sorry?”

“The picture I sent you? It was a picture of a positive pregnancy test.”

For a moment the sound of the grandfather clock ticking at the back of the house sounds unbelievably loud. Her fingers tighten around the metal of his hook, as if there’s still a part of her worried about having to keep him there. With her.

“I sent it to Lily by mistake,” she explains, starting to ramble. “Her freaking name is right beneath yours and I got... nervous, I guess? And I needed to talk to somebody and I sent it to you by accident.”

“Emma—“

“I never wanted you to find out like that,” continuing as if he hadn’t spoken, “I’m so sorry, Killian. I love you so much, I’m just... scared, and I didn’t mean—“

“Emma,” he says again, interrupting with a hand against her cheek. “I don’t bloody care about that.” His eyes start to shine and crinkle with the shape and warmth of his grin, “You’re...” he nods towards her flat middle, a hint of hysteria in his voice.

“Yes,” she nods, relieved at the sigh of his smile. “Yeah, some poor, unfortunate baby is gonna have to deal with the both of us.”

He lets out a loud, booming note of laughter, as if all the tension he’d been carrying since she walked in had been released into the air. “I love you,” he whispers, resting his forehead against her own, both their cheeks wet with tears, “so very much.”

“Yeah,” she answers with a soft giggle, “me too.”