#Is this normal???

[voidoffline]

OH FOR THE LOVE OF-

Googling is giving me no fucking answer. Neither is Reddit. So, I come to make a post on tumblr, praying to the tumblr gods that someone can give me an answer.

An answer about what you may ask? Well here’s what I’ve been typing into Google with no success;

Why are my thoughts randomly in a language I don’t understand?

No I am not currently learning a second language, I want to but I haven’t started learning yet. Recently I’ve wanted to learn Spanish (Mexican) as there are YouTubers I watch who speak Spanish, and also because I just simply want to learn the language. I have also written characters speaking Spanish before, though I doubt it’s perfect since I figure there’s only so much translators can do for me there.

But about this time, and this is quite recent, suddenly some simple words and phrases started to turn to Spanish in my mind. I found it funny at first, if not a little bit annoying because I had to actively stop myself from answering simple questions and greeting people in Spanish. But it was kinda funny at first! If not wacky and very weird. I chalked it up to the fact that I was watching Spanish speakers.

But then it got worse. It got to be more words, and now, every now and again, my thoughts will be - for like, a short paragraph worth of words - in Spanish. I don’t actually know if it’s Spanish, though all the words sound like Spanish words

I don’t know if this is just some weird fucking phenomenon that comes with watching someone speak in a language you don’t know, or some neurological thing, or what. I am set to see a neurologist in a month because of multiple issues, and I have been having problems with my eyes and vision (for example, my eyes hurting and occasionally my pupils being different sizes) while my eyes themselves seem to be physically healthy according to the eye doctor.

Maybe it’s possible I bumped my head and got some concussion? I did wake up one day with pain in my head, which when showing my mum she said it appeared like I had a not in the back of my head like I had hit it. Though I don’t remember ever hitting my head and the not went away quickly. But do concussion lead to your brain and thoughts randomly being in Spanish????

Like what the fuck is going on????? I mean sure this’ll probably be useful for when I actually start to learn Mexican Spanish, but come on! I’ve accidentally typed and texted things in Spanish because of this, I occasionally slip and accidentally greet people or answer people in Spanish. I don’t fucking know Spanish!! Why and how are my thoughts in Spanish!!??!!

I also keep forgetting some words in English, and my grammar and shit has gotten worse. Like from school testing I know that my grammar and English has gone from being what it was to lower. Not tooo lower, but lower nonetheless. Idk tho maybe that one isn’t because of this and I’m just slacking unknowingly lmao

So. Because my google searching gave me nothing, and because I want answers on this specific thing, I ask you fellow tumblers.

Why are my thoughts in a language I can’t understand

[lieutenantjirv]

I have two questions burning in my mind.

1. Why is Harry walking around with blood on his hands?

2. Why is that so hot?

[haob1n]

[coffee-and-manslaughter]

as in, a sandwich with hotdogs in the middle. with cheese and ketchup and mustard and pickles etc as filler

[colorful-craze]

Is interacting with people over text and stuff supposed to be really socially draining?? Bc I swear it take so much out of me to reply to people and hold conversations 😭 it’s pretty easy with my moots but it’s genuinely so difficult with texting

[toon-tales]

Do you ever get this feeling when you want to torture your favorite character?

But at the same time you just try to bury these thoughts because you're maybe, slightly, probably, kinda, a tiny bit, going too - a little too - extreme?

And it's just a kids show? And the setting of the movie/series isn't helping as well? So you just try to forget it?

(But maybe if the setting was helping you might rethink the whole 'burying the thoughts' thing?)

[chaotic-lemon-lover]

Is it like, normal to be able to keep your shit together while being in crowded places, but afterwards being so exhausted that you literally can't do anything? Like you fall into bed and are not able to get up for hours??? All you can do is scroll on your phone, bc concentrating on anything or doing anything else is IMPOSSIBLE???

[bagels-aaa]

My father is a strange being. So a couple weeks ago he sent me to keyfood because he wanted to make curry when he got home. I was given a fairly big bag and so i expected to go in and get a bunch of stuff.

He then told me to buy a singular potato.

Just one potato, nothing else

A bag full of potatoes cost like no more than 5 dollars, probably a lot less, so i just went to get like a 10 so i could get this man his one potato

And he gave me a 20 "incase 10 was not enough"

I get inflation is a thing but TWENTY DOLLARS for a SINGULAR POTATO???

I walked up to the cashier looking terrified with a 20 dollar bill to buy one potato, you could see pure confusion on her face.

We also had potatoes at home so this was completely unnecessary.

[hivyn]

Ok genuine question

I gotta know if anyone else can see their reflection in the mirrors/windows too.

[jenovacomplete]

figure-hunting is great because attempting to navigate to an official taobao storefront with zero guide will sometimes lead you to a figure-selling store run by a student in their free time with a dedicated wall of shame for bad users organised with a star rating system

[kareenvorbarra]

bitching about work-related things

okay so. i stayed home sick Monday-Wednesday this week with a cold. i felt really shitty for a few days but nothing unusual, i didn't have a fever, the home covid test was negative. yesterday i text my boss to tell her i'm staying home a third day, and she says that if i'm out sick for three days in a row, i need a doctor's note saying i'm okay to come back in. not a doctor's note as an excuse for being out this long, but after three days i can't return to work unless a doctor says it's okay.

i didn't know this until my boss told me - my previous job (which was in a different part of the same organization) had a similar rule, but it only kicked in if you were out for five days in a row, which i think only happened to me once and it was because i had mono (so i had already been to the doctor to get the diagnosis and it was easy to get her to write me the letter)

so yesterday i called the clinic a couple of times trying to figure out what to do, because i was pretty sure i would feel okay enough to go to work today (Thursday), but nothing really came of it, I couldn't get in touch with my doctor or any of her nurses, the nurses i talked to at the urgent care were very nice but they said they couldn't write me a note without actually seeing me, and i could kind of tell they didn't want me to have to go to the urgent care when it was pretty clear i didn't need to. finally someone told me that the doctor's office would call me the next day and figure out what i needed to do. so i text my boss and tell her i couldn't get a note, i'm going to be out at least one more day, it's fine.

today i didn't mind missing work again because i'm still a little bit sick, though not really sick enough by shitty US calling-in-sick standards (i have gone to work feeling like this, most people i know have gone to work sicker than this, even though people probably shouldn't be doing that). i waited all morning for someone to call me, nobody did. so i went on the website of my health care provider and apparently they're having trouble with their phones and website right now. i can't log into the site that would let me send and receive messages from my doctor, i can't even look up the doctor on the website to find her phone number.

anyway i feel insane and i can't believe i'm here tearing my hair out and making a bunch of phone calls trying to go back to work after having a mildly bad cold. has anyone else ever worked somewhere that doesn't allow you to come back in after being out sick for THREE DAYS without a doctor saying you're okay? maybe if health care was free i wouldn't mind just trying to schedule an appointment at urgent care, but i don't want to have to pay for an appointment i don't need just to be able to go back to work? i truly do not mind missing work, they will be fine without me for another day, and tbh it's my workplace's fault for having this rule, but i'm also a little worried that my boss is going to be annoyed at me for having trouble getting this doctor's note...like i'm not trying hard enough or something (even though this is 100% a problem of my workplace's own creation)

[sweaters-and-vertigo]

trigger warning: medical procedure, gynecology

been thinking about the insertion of my IUD a lot recently. my doctor assured me the procedure lasted no longer than five minutes, but that stretched into nearly 20.

my gynecologist kept telling me that the reason it’s taking such a long time and the reason it’s so painful is that my cervix wasn’t “opening like it’s supposed to”. this Trained Medical Professional and her assistants were all women, and they all started scolding me to open my cervix. idk how to open my cervix. and they offered no help. they were condescending and unsympathetic.

“just open your cervix, ok, honey? then we can place the IUD in your uterus.” “you gotta open up that cervix for us, sweetie! work with us here!”

it was humiliating and painful. at one point, i said “maybe we should just stop” but they told me that they were so, so close (they weren’t) and i agreed to keep going. my mom had to hold me down. and i wasn’t allowed to take any pain medication or stress relievers before the procedure.

these were my doctors. i trusted these women with my body. what was supposed to be quicker than a pap smear turned into a freaking nightmare, in which sharp metal objects were being shoved inside me. they made me bleed and told me it was because i “moved around so much”. they laughed when they were done and made me feel weak for being in pain. i was crying and sweating, and when we got home i passed out for several hours.

EDIT: i reblogged this with my second IUD insertion awhile back. but not everyone sees it. it went much more smoothly because i had pain meds, and a more respectful doctor. it lasted two minutes and i barely felt anything. i just wanted to add this, in case someone was considering an IUD. just make sure they give you some pain meds and you’ll be fine!! i’m getting IUDs until menopause now lol

[bratdotcom]

Why is Leon so Arctic Monkeys coded??? Like...?????

[so-long-and-goodnight-killjoys]

jfc i tried going on tumblr desktop for the first time and it is so horrifically laggy, how have people been putting up with this

[harrygoeswest]

What is with websites for promo 😩