#Incel!Shinsou
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deleteddewewted · 1 year ago
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Hi! I really love your writings and I've been pretty much reading through all the stuff available in your masterlist...so I've been curious, is your Incel Shinsou series cancelled? (If you don't want to answer this, it's fine! I'm simply curious, don't want you to rush or something regarding that!)
Hi there lovely anon.
The incel Shinso series isnt canceled but its under revision. I am going back and creating an official chapter 1 since the first "chapter"/"part" was more of a drabble. All the chapters are also being rewritten or edited just to take out some of the more beginner mistakes I made in them.
I have some plans for it like adding some of my own fanart for the chapters since it would help set the tone for them, adding some more OC's, and expanding the world such as explaining how Shinso ended up the way he did.
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lilithandroses · 3 years ago
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!!bnha students!!
☁︎ - drabble
✪︎ - headcanon
☽︎ - fic
♤ - traumatic trigger(s)
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bakugou katsuki
☽︎ - boss bakugou + after hours (smut, mini fic, dub-con, coercion, afab reader)
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midoriya izuku
(nothing yet~)
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todoroki shoto
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kirishima eijiro
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kaminari denki
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sero hanta
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shinsou hitoshi
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shindo yo
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shinsouxmineta · 3 years ago
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1: Yeah, I can actually see how the purple pair would work. Shinsou is everything Mineta wants to be; cool, popular, has an awesome quirk, etc. Meanwhile, I think Shinsou could benefit from someone who admires him but is willing to bluntly call him out when he steps over a line with his quirk. Shinsou could also control Mineta better with his quirk, and the idea he will kick his ass if needed.
2: Both understand the struggles of others having a perception that holds you back--though in Mineta’s case, it’s deserved. There are the hardships of becoming the hero you want to be when something you can't control holds you back. In Shinsou's case, it's the nature of his quirk, and with Mineta, it's his appearance.
3: They’re both intelligent, blunt, egotistical at times, and determined. All in all, if done right this pair could be quite entertaining.If there's no dadzawa/Shinsou in your story, I'll check it out when you're done.
Yesss I love hearing other people's thoughts about them!! I don't really have much to add, but thank you for sending this! Their flaws are similar, but very different a the same time, and I love the potential that brings to their interactions! They are both egotistical, like you said, but in very different ways. Shinsou can be very bitter and unfriendly, where Mineta openly wants to be admired. They both want validation though (but, really, doesn't everyone?). And Mineta already thinks Shinsou is cool <3
I'm not super interested in Dadzawa (platonic) and I definitely don't ship them in a slash way. I think teacher/student ships only work when the story is about how that's a horrifying and traumatizing misuse of power. The power difference dynamic really grosses me out.
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cait-sithlord · 6 years ago
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bye bye, pervert. hello, perfect boy. an improvement if I say so myself. this is the pettiest thing I’ve ever done and I don’t regret it at all.
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jadequeen88 · 4 years ago
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MasterList
UPDATED: 7/4/21
BNHA, Haikyuu!, AoT, and JJK fics coming!
All characters are aged up to at least 18. 
ALL OF MY WORK IS NSWF UNLESS STATED OTHERWISE.
If you want to read my fic recs, they can be found under #jade’s bookshelf
Latest Fics: young and beautiful (Coach Ukai x Reader) & The Favor of a God Pt. 1 (WolfHybrid/ForestGuardian!Kirishima x FemmWitch!Reader)
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My Wips:
GameStop!Shigaraki x Fem!coworker → outline in the works
Crimson Canopy pt2 → outline in the works
Obsession pt2 → outline complete
Dabi x ChildhoodFriend!Reader → outline complete → 1k words
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Full Fics:
#jade writes smut
TOMURA SHIGARAKI:
MANNERS: Shigaraki x SoftMommyDom!Reader
INCEL TOMURA: Incel!Tomura x egirl!reader
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HAWKS/KEIGO TAKAMI:
CRIMSON CANOPY: Harpy!Hawks x F!Reader
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DABI/TOUYA TODOROKI:
THE HUNT: An arranged marriage AU where you find yourself being prey to your new husband
OBSESSION: Dabi x CatGirl!Reader
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SHINSOU HITOSHI:
MIND BLOWING MEET UP: ProHero!Shinsou x F!Reader
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DABI/HAWKS/READER:
A WAITRESSES’ WORST NIGHTMARE: Quirkless AU where Touya and Keigo are the worst co-workers ever
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TAMAKI AMAJIKI:
SMART GIRLS MAKE FAST LEARNERS: Yandere!Tamaki x CamGirl!Reader college AU (dark content!)
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KIRISHIMA:
ACCIDENTIAL VALENTINE: RetiredProHero!Kirishima x YoungerFem!Reader
RED AND THE WOLF: (FEAT. BAKUGOU) Half Giant!Kirishima x Wolf!Bakugo x fem!reader
THE FAVOR OF A GOD: Part 1 WolfHybrid/ForestGuardian!Kirishima x FemmWitch!Reader
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Drabbles:
#jade drabbles
DILF!Shindo x Babysitter!Reader
DILF!Kirishima takes you on a milkshake run
Dilf!Kirishima introcuces you to his friends
Forced to marry Keigo TW:dark content
DILF!Deku thots
Dacryphilia and Dumbification with Bakugo and Dabi
Breeding kink with Keigo
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poison--ivory · 3 years ago
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What They Would Stream on Twitch Hc’s
Characters: Shinsou, Bakugou, Midoriya, Shoto, Kirishima, Kaminari, Sero, Iida, Shoji, Keigo, Touya and Shigaraki
Warnings: Incel behavior, sexual themes
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Shinsou
True Crime Mysteries
He goes into depth with each crime investigation, dude spends hours reading and talking over a crime
Gets Kaminari in on some of his streams just to scare him
Bakugou
Action- Adventure Game
Screams at his Pc, scares all the new comers on his channel
Throwing his controller at Kirishima (he was not mad)
Midoriya
Indie Horror Games and Interactive Fiction Games
Collab’s with Uraraka and Shoto
Has a blanket wrapped around him and a thermos of tea
Shoto
Detective Games
Makes outlandish claims about the most random shit
Everyone in chat loves his facial expressions when the twists comes to light
Kirishima
VR Chat Rooms
Does the full body VR experience to make people laugh ends up injured in the process
Gets Bakugou in along on his pranks
Kaminari
90 Day Fianc�� Episodes
Makes Shinsou and Sero watch a full marathon with him
Wonders how all these people can find love but him
Sero
Watching Rip Off Movies or Low Budget Ones on YouTube
Cringing 24/7 on how someone can look over this movie and still sent it out
After a giving his review he does a binge of cute animals
Iida
Reviewing Car Parts 
Does experiments with the Dekusquad
Ends the stream with Midoriya getting magically hurt
Shoji
Among Us
He plays the imposter and crewmate great
Gets away with being imposter every time because no one suspects the guy with the calming voice
Keigo
Watching YouTube Horror Short Films
The type to flinch and jump when ever something scary happens
Talks to the characters on screen
Touya
Playing Random Games w/Tomura. . . while under the influence
Talks a lot about sex, all the girls he hooked up with on campus and how many times he fucked them
Makes fun of Tomura on live for not fucking anyone in his life
Shigaraki
Competitive Gaming
Doesn’t allow girls to play on his streams but silently complains about it when he plays lobbies or team parties
Curses to himself when Touya screws with him, gets high with him anyway off stream 
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ftmfandomfics · 4 years ago
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What I think the male characters of mha smell like
Izuku: Greenery and that smell just before it starts raining. Like when you’re walking through the woods and you get a deep breathe of fresh air.
Bakugou: Nitroglycerin smells like burnt sugar (not caramel), and I think he would wear way too much expensive cologne in an attempt to cover it. It doesn’t work now he just smells like if a candy store and Aeropostale joined forces.
Kirishima: I think he smells like sweat and axe. It’s not that he doesn’t shower after working out, he just smells like sweat. You can decide if that’s a good or a bad thing.
Todoroki: I think hes worn the same expensive cologne since middle school. Probably something called ice lake or glacier. He also smells like ✨daddy issues✨
Kaminari: He smells like a Spencer’s. I can’t pin down what smell it is but specifically the body jewelry area. All of them smell the same. There must be like an air freshener they all use or something idk.
Tenya: Beef stew. I fully head cannon that he’s autistic and that beef stew is his safe food. This bitch smells like beef stew and control issues.
Shoji: Shoji is a minimalist so I don’t think he would use cologne or anything, but I think he would have an essential oil diffuser in his room so he smells like a mixture of herbs and citrus fruits.
Oijiro: I’ve seen other people say he smells like vanilla and I agree, but I also think he would have an earthy smell too. Like pine and vanilla, very unique but it smells amazing.
Tokoyami: Black pepper and papyrus, you can’t tell if he naturally smells that way or if it’s from the old books he reads. When dark shadow comes out the papyrus smell dissipates and is replaced by the smell of damp earth.
Sero: Dragons blood incense, Apollo axe body spray, and just a wiff of marijuana
Aoyama: He smells like setting powder, body glitter, and a VERY sweet perfume. Is almost hurts your nose.
Koda: He smells like his bunny, and bunnies smell similar to cats. I don’t mean their poop or anything, their fur. When he’s in his room he’s always holding or playing with his rabbit so he ends up smelling like it.
Sato: He smells like pastries which isn’t really surprising. But somehow he always smells like fresh baked bread and cherry pie. He even seems to radiate the warmth too.
Mineta: piss, desperation, and grape cough syrup.
Shinsou: Coffee and lavender, he also has an earthy musk that smells almost spicy.
Tetsutetsu: I know he uses old spice wolf thorn. Or like KrackenGaurrd or whatever. Something with a name that makes him feel manly 😭🥺
Inasa: He smells like old leather, parchment, and paprika. When he uses his quirk the paprika smells gets stronger. A very mild but spicy smell.
Mirio: He smells citrusy and warm, like fresh baked lemon bars. He also wears the bourbon body spray from bath and body works.
Tamaki: Tamaki doesn’t like drawing attention to himself so I don’t think he would purposely have a distinct smell, and you can’t really place his natural one. He smells like how it feels to take a deep breathe of cold air, it’s almost addictive.
All might: Clean linen and oak wood. I just think he would smell very fresh and warm. Like when you wake up before your alarm so you get to roll back over and go back to sleep.
Endeavor 🤢: Expensive cologne and ass. I don’t believe that this man wipes his ass, that’s gay. Also you can’t convince me that he showers purely because I don’t think he would fit. He thinks no one notices, they’re just too afraid to say anything.
Gang Orca: Orcas have really sensitive skin so I don’t think he could use any scented products, including cologne. But I feel like he might have a very faint smell of saltwater.
Aizawa: He wears a cologne that’s very spicy and musky but he won’t tell anyone what it is. He naturally has a very earthy smell that the cologne enhances.
Present Mic: Stay with me on this, I think he would wear a very sweet sugary perfume. I feel like Hizashi naturally smells very tangy and spicy, so adding that sugary smell makes him ever more irresistible.
Hound dog: I think he smells like a clean dog. He’s a person, just with a dog quirk, so he’s fully aware that dogs smell. He’s pretty self conscious honestly, he doesn’t smell he’s just really really worried he will.
Rock Lock: I think he smells like a cave. If you’ve ever been in one you know what I mean. That damp earthy smell with just a tiny hint of metallic or salt in the air. I’m not picking this just because of his name idk he gives me really strong but calm vibes.
Tiger: I can’t decide if he would wear cologne or not. If he did I think it’d be fruity or cinnamon. Maybe like spiced apple cider.
Keigo: Fried chicken. Not because of his quirk he just eats a lot of fried chicken. Also the type of guy to wear old spice with a really “epic” name.
Fatgum: He smells like the food court part of a carnival, and I don’t mean that as a bad thing. He smells really good, like a mixture of sweets, spices, and fried foods.
Tensei: I think he smells clean with a tiny bit of musk cologne as well. Doesn’t seem like the type of guy to wear really strong cologne.
Natsuo: He would also wear a cologne with a name like glacier because something like that would piss Enji off.
Overhaul: He smells like a doctors office. It’s not pleasant. Does he spray himself with disinfectant or does he just use so much that he smells like it?
Kendo: He smells like sweat but not body odor. He works for overhaul so I don’t think Kai would let him get away with smelling bad.
Tomura: The shiggy stans are gonna come for me, but he smells like a rotting fucking corpse. When’s the last time he showered? Also not to mention he’s an incel so he probably also smells like piss and cum. You know it’s the truth.
Touya: He also smells like rotting flesh but it’s not as bad. Fire kills bacteria. He can’t wear cologne because so much of his body is skin graphs, but maybe if he took care of them properly he at least wouldn’t smell like a morgue.
Twice: Ciggarettes and borderline pedophelia gin.
Spinner: Honestly I think he’s the only member of the league (other than Magne)that would actually have some type of self care. He doesn’t smell like anything, which in comparison to his partners is amazing.
I think I got everyone that people would want. I’ll do the girls later and I’m thinking of doing the atla and lok characters too. If I forgot someone you want just tell me and I’ll add them :).
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bakusoftie · 5 years ago
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hnghhhh yandere shinso failing no nut november bc of reader hcs? aye sorry if this is a weird request. but im deadass serious. please. (jk jk...unless?)
i can’t tell if this is kuni or not and im too afraid to ask lmao
yan!hitoshi failing nnn because he is a weak-minded incel h/cs
nsfw ofc
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shinsou was going into no nut november so confident in himself that he would not fail but,,,
he is weak.
it took one look of you taking off your gym jacket, revealing your bust and shoulders to him and he was done for
you had no idea what you were doing to him and that made him even more turned on
he thought he could just take a cold shower and forget about your sweaty, wet body
he wishes he could’ve licked off the perspiration off of your forehead before you wiped it off but he did manage to swipe your sweat rag while you weren’t looking
he took a big sniff of your scent as he tried to record it to memory.
the way you looked so worn out after training made his mind venture to darker places
he wondered if you would look that fucked out when he was done using you as his personal cocksleeve. he planned on locking you up real nice and tight and breed you until you couldn’t take anymore.
shinsou could feel his aching member spurt with pre-cum just thinking about you and how your pretty lips would feel wrapped around his-
oh
oh fuck
shinsou felt the wetness surrounding the front of his pant before he really understands that he just came untouched from the mere thought of you
he uses your sweat rag to clean himself off and embraces the smell of both of your bodily fluids mixing together
later, he’ll realize that he lost no nut november and that he owes denki $20 bucks smh 🤦‍♂️
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deleteddewewted · 3 years ago
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Incel! Shigaraki Headcanons
“Aw shit, here we go again!”
If you don't hold the context for the Incel! Shinsou stuff don't worry about, you dont need it. Just know that everything for Shiggy on this list are things that I've seen someone do before the person was kicked out of our school.
MINORS DNI
TW: Threats of Sexual Assault, Self Harm, Pressuring, Coercion, Violence, Strong Language
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Utterly disgusting human being with no consideration of others.
Has a victim complex. If something doesn’t go his way then "you’re hurting him". It’s always someone else’s fault even when he’s the only one doing something.
Women are objects to him but not in the same way you'd think. He believes they should be tied to the home and should serve their husbands but Shiggy also loves “uplifting them”.
Plays nice with them and "supports" them but he's actually manipulating them, grooming them for himself.
Has a major breeding kink (you'll see how this is relevant)
Ends with him being in short term relationships were he wants to jump right into sex.
His girlfriends weren't humans to him but a toy for the men to play with.
You'd think that everyone would stay away from him and that he himself would stay clear of people, but thats not the case here. He plays his cards right to get people on his side and when he gets into a scandal these people jump in to defend him.
Do to who his dad is, he can get away with paying off people to keep quiet.
We're talking rich boy that throws a tantrum and his dad just gives him money to fix whatever problems he has.
Showers...sometimes but he neglects his hair so it ends up greasy and really musky.
Think wet dog smell and add shit into the mix.
Really bad self harm habit. He does it so he can later on show people and have them pity him. He scratches his neck raw and cuts his wrists. Will post pictures of his cuts 4chan or instagram.
He isn't above actually hurting someone physically.
Shinsou and him are different on this because while Shinsou would hurt someone emotionally first and only harm physically when actually tempted, Shiggy would hurt someone just because he's bored.
He's already been in trouble for stabbing a classmate because they were "being annoying".
Very short fuze, he cant and won't be patient for no one. He expects everyone to wait up on him.
When he gets rejected by any girl he immediately threatens to rape them or hurt them in someway.
Met Shinsou online but doest know who he really is. Shinsou never showed his face so Shiggy was only familiar with the girl Shinsou would post about online.
Is the type of guy who would get mad if you don't respond the moment he sends a message. I'm talking full on "Wow, you think your so special don't you. Your an actual fucking slut, no wonder you get so much attention. Your stupid cunt is probably loose after being used so much. Whore!"
Has manic episodes which end in him hurting himself or someone else.
The last episode he had resulted in him cutting his on mouth with a knife and sending pictures of the injury to random people online.
His room gets cleaned for him but when no one does it, he starts throwing a temper tantrum about how "Fucking useless servants! Your a stupid fucking retarded cunt! GET BACK HERE AND CLEAN THIS MESS!"
He goes threw maids and butlers with no issues. His dad has started to grow exhausted with him.
You know this fucker drinks red bull (sorry red bull drinkers)
A fucking twig, he purposefully starves himself. Again, wants people to pity him so he takes things way to far.
His dad neglects him a lot and shows no care for him. In order to replace that void in his life Shiggy makes it a habit to project his issues on to his girlfriends or female staff members.
When it comes to male staff he gets really close to them and sometimes he becomes so attached that when they show support for other students Shiggy gets incredibly jealous. He would start to act out and eventually dump the class.
So i mentioned that breeding kink at the beginning, lets elaborate on it.
It isn't so much that he wants to be a father its more to boost his own ego.
He wants to have so many kids so he can then make the woman take care of them and remind them of there place.
Doesn't wear a condom when having sex and if he does he takes it off somewhere during the act so he can cum inside of the girl he's fucking.
Never managed to knock anyone up. He doesn't know why but he gets mad when they don't end up pregnant. (Do i even have to say he's pro-life? He wants to force these girls to give him children while they just wanted a relationship.)
He loved commenting on whatever Shinsou posted about you.
Always went on about when Shinsou planned on fucking you.
Every time he asked Shinsou, Shinsou would just reply that he wanted to wait it out and have you come to him. Shinsou honestly never really thought about having sex with you so he found it weird that some stranger was more eager about it.
Salivated over you when he saw you for the first time.
Something carnal in him wants to wreck you and make you submit to him.
When Shinsou's accounts disappeared he grew frustrated because he couldn't find you anywhere and he lost a form of amusement.
Oh well, he could always get off to the pictures he downloaded of you.
We found out how much of shitty person the person was and it was honestly terrifying to think that i was once friends with them. I was only made aware of this behavior after i distanced myself from them because they became aggressive towards me and i was told my some of my friends that they were manipulative. People around me started showing me the messages and images they would send them and we all decided to show it to the school faculty. Once that was done the person was kicked from the school and the police were called.
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ichor-and-symbiosis · 5 years ago
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Personally I never had much problem with Mineta. I can see why people dislike him, and perverted humor isn't my cup of tea, but I'm fine with him. I actually like that he's a bit questionable, because it helps keep the class from feeling too squeaky clean. Makes it feel realistic that there would be some kids who want in solely for the fame and attention. I guess I'm just fine with him too cause he's super restrained compared to other anime perverts lol.
yeah i’m not foaming at the mouth with hatred for him, he’s just a dumb horny kid who i have absolutely no interest in as a character and believe he deserves to be replaced with shinsou. i obviously dont like how he makes the girls feel uncomfortable. he’s just an incel and that’s already grounds for me to have selective blindness when he’s in a chapter lmao i dont perceive him and that’s what keeps me happy and sane.
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mx-bright-sky · 6 years ago
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Hey does anyone remember Sonic 06 Real-Time Fandub? Anyway,
Green Lightning, but as moments/quotes from the Sonic 06 Real-Time Fandub
*spoiler warning for Green Lightning of course
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Akari, before quitting the LOV: Please freeze. Am I doing this right? It's my first day on the job. Please freeze
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Izuku, as Green Lightning: Don't worry, Eggman's an egghead. And by Eggman I mean Shigaraki
Shigaraki: What did you call me?!
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Orenji, watching what's going down at the USJ: Oh, I should... uh... I-I guess he's got it handled. I'll just, I mean, it'd be really awkward if I walked in now, so...
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Dabi, stealing the marble from Todoroki: Yes, Todoroki Shouto, I got'cha bitch! Got 'em in the palm of my hands!
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Sora: Hey. Wristband. Tell me my future
Wristband: Your future is: Undetermined
Sora: Well, that's pretty lame, I spent like 20 hours making you
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Izuku, after getting teleported by AFO: Well, that was weird. Dematerialzing, rematerializing.
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Sora: Well, fortunately we made it here to the computer room. Hey- hey Midoriya. Hey Midoriya, hey Midoriya.
Izuku: Yeah
Sora: We found- we- we found the computer room.
Izuku: Oh fuck, the c o m p u t e r r o o m.
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Kurogiri, teleporting to Shigaraki at the USJ after Iida escaped: The instant ramen's been released! We need to go, NOW
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Izuku at Mirio: Going through the floor. Who do you think you are, Danny Phantom or something?
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Shigaraki: *violent coughing*
Green Lightning (Izuku): Oh d- dude, you alright?
Shigaraki: *more violent coughing*
Green Lightning: You good? Good? You need a lozenge?
Eraserhead: Oh my god, who the fuck is that?
Green Lightning: Just let him have- just give him a second to clear his throat.
Shigaraki: *violent coughing switches to evil laughter* ...Welcome to Tilted Towers
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Spinner: My name is Memphis, Tennessee, and I'm part lizard.
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Akari: What happened to my quirk?
All for One: Oh, Shadow the Hedgehog, you don't know? There's a new trend going around online called "kinning."
*calling Akari "Shadow" fits bc. If you've seen Akari's design. Yeah that's fair.*
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All for One: And there's NOTHING you can do to STOP me! *villainous laugh*
Izuku, unphased: I can, um, kick your ass. Right now.
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Dabi: Look at this orb. Inside, you'll see the future. In your future it looks like you'll kiss seven girls. How lucky for you
Todoroki: Jokes on you! If you truly knew me, you'd know I'm gay
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Mr. Compress: Here, come to my house. C'mon, let's just go.
Izuku: Wha- *gets shrunk*
Mr. Compress: To my house.
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Shinsou: I'm tired all the time
Sora: Oh I fuckin' feel you there buddy. Insomnia, am I right?
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Shigaraki: Hey, gamers. Were you talking about Fortnite? No, I'm not even gonna pretend you were talking about Fortnite. I just really love bringing up my favorite game whenever I can
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Akari: I, too, have insomnia, but unlike you mine is not caused by depression. Mine is because I play so much Fortnite. I stay up late and go to Tilted Towers.
Akari: I dont actually play Fortnite- I don't know any other places
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Shigaraki: Well, you see, it's a gamer pad. Not many girls come in here cuz I get friendzoned so frequently. But that's okay.
Toga: I'd like to be in the friendzone! I'd like friends!
Shigaraki: It's not as pleasant as you'd think. They don't treat you like a friend. They treat you like an item. Sometimes I wish I could be more than just an accessory to these women, but unfortunately, as a gamer, I don't get respect
Orenji: Well, I'm not a gamer, so maybe they'll respect me!
Shigaraki: That just makes you a beta cuck. That's the difference between you and I; I'm an alpha gamer.
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Hatsume: That doesn't matter. Check out this cool gem I got in eBay for $7.
Natsuki: It's so cool. Can I add it to my rock collection?
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Mr. Compress, talking about shrinking Green Lightning: You see, I had to trap Green Lightning in the hell dimension 'cause he disrespected gamers.
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Akari, sitting in the League of Villain's basement: Maybe if I- if I keep thinking really hard, my hands will get clean. I really would like to eat.
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Shigaraki: We'll have an ARMY of GAMERS to take on the world with
Kurogiri: Y'know you say that like it's a threatening thing, but have you ever seen a gamer in real life before?
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Shinsou: I hope you're happy with yourself
Hatsume: I am happy with myself! I have a positive mental attitude!
Shinsou:... God, I wish that were me
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Akari, trying to move their hand after Shigaraki disintegrated it: Oh this? It's my arm.
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Akari: I've also been eating rocks. That's- that's my go-to when I've been captured.
Kirishima, nervously: Rocks?
Akari: Yeah! Yeah yeah yeah, they're pretty good.
Kirishima: NUH-UH-UH! THAT'S NOT FOOD!
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Izuku: Why don't you tell me your incredibly complicated backstory in an interesting, long winded, monologue?
Toga and or Orenji: Oh, okay. Yes. So, once upon a time...
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Orenji: Why are you so rude?
Shigaraki: Why are you so goddamn pale? Now, get the fuck away from me!
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All for One: *long winded monologue*
Izuku: so I'm just gonna let you keep talking and I'm just gonna meditate over here
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Izuku, trying to escape the LOV: I need to sneak outside the-
Akari, running into him: Oh!
Izuku: Shit!
Akari: Yeah- right back at ya, friend!
Izuku: What are you doing here?
*alarms start going off*
Akari: Uh...
Izuku: Aw, shit, what did you do?!
Akari: I JUST SNEAKED!
Both of them, running: GODDAMMIT!
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Akari: I'm so glad we're outside. It's been like- a week? I've lost track of time- I'm not sure if I'm a person
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Green Lightning running into Akari for the first time: Hey. Oh, I haven't met you, twink.
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Shinsou: What did we just do. Did we do that together? Was that like a gay thing?
Izuku: It's always a gay thing
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Akari: Hungry. Hungry is a good mood. I've eaten nothing but rocks, as I've said, for a while. Some plants would be a nice change to rocks. ... I think I'm starting to hallucinate, it's been a while- I just keep getting kidnapped
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Shinsou, looking at the latest news story about what Green Lightning is up to: I've been told. To think about the ocean. When I'm stressed. And I'm looking at that, and I'm real stressed
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All for One: How many times are you gonna run. I've captured you 17 different times!
Izuku: ...I feel like it's gonna be at least 18.
All for One: ...the audacity of this bitch
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Hatsume: The beach. ...Count how many sand is here Garby. That's your first mission
Garby's visor: 1... 2... 3... 4...
Natsuki: Why the fuck would you make him do that?
Hatsume: It passes the time
Garby's visor: 5... 6... 7...
Natsuki: It's gonna take so long! Hatsume!
Garby's visor: 8... 9... 10... 11...
Natsuki: It's gonna be so annoying!
Garby's visor: 12... 13...
Hatsume: I'm curious what he thinks the number is
Garby's visor: 14... 15...16...17...
Natsuki: No! He's just gonna be counting forever!
Garby's visor: 18... 19...
Hatsume: Perhaps.
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Akari: You silly feeble-minded little gay
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Akari: Oh no. I'm having a flashback
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Akari: This is. Awkward. I dont know any of you guys, and you're all acting like, "Oh man, it's so sad!" and like, I want to feel sad too, but I don't know you. So like...
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Izuku: First I have to take care of this... alpha... gamer... incel guy, I guess
Akari: Yep, that's the plot
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Essentially the Incel!Shinsou and Reader's relationship right now. We love pain!
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Incel! Shinsou x F!Reader Part 3 (1/2):
This time we’re focusing on a small scene before the Sports Festival and majority on the actual Festivals events (Mainly the fight between Midoriya and Shinsou). So strap in and buckle up cause this one’s going to be loooong. Due to the limit of images being 10, I've decided to separate Part 3 in 2 sections.
Please feel free to send in ideas for future parts and also expand the prompt to how ever you see fit. I love seeing what others can do and I also don’t care if you take this series and change things because it’s open to interpretation. So again, feel free to send in any thoughts/ideas you have! We also now have a collaborative playlist that you can add any songs that remind you of Incel!Shinsou, so please feel free to add songs!
"You're falling hard, I push away, I'm feeling hot to the touch. You say you miss me the most, I say I miss you so much. But something keeps me really quiet, I'm alive I'm a lush. Your love, your love, your love." - (West Coast by Missio)
Part 2: Incel! Shinsou x F!Reader
Part 3: Incel!Shinsou x F!Reader (2/2)
Incel!Shinsou Headcanons
Incel!Shinsou Oneshot: "Why are you acting like that?”
Virgin! Shinsou
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The Sports Festival is finally here and Shinsou has his eyes set on one person. You’ve been avoiding him all day, from the moment you got on campus you’ve made sure to avoid crossing paths with him by getting to campus early and taking different routes to get to class. Everyone was putting away their backpacks and other things that they weren’t allowed to bring out to the “Colosseum”. Why a school with a focus on STEM and Art has a Colosseum is up for questioning but that isn’t his main concern. You are.
He had your number but he didn’t call or text to it. It didn’t feel right to apologize to you through that manner so the Sports Festival was the better option for a few reasons. 1) The ability to actually interact with you in person (He is incredibly starved for your attention), 2) He needs to ACTUALLY apologize. The things he did and said about you were so damaging and disgusting he’s honestly surprised you didn’t tell anyone or had him kicked out already. Lastly, he wanted to use the Sports Festival to physically and mentally show maturity. Words only go so far, he knows this when it comes to performing he can’t just rely on his voice to carry the scene. He needed action and emotion. He needed to show you that he genuinely has changed for the better and that he is slowly getting to a better place.
“Hey Shinsou, want to walk out together?” Togeike and Agoyamato walked up to him.
"Uhh, can you two give me a moment....I need to check up on something."
"She'll show up when we enter, she doesn't want to be around you right now." Togeike's expression hardened. Even though she didn't hold a strong relationship with either one of you, she still spoke to you on a semi regular bases, more frequently then she speaks to Shinsou at least.
"Oh..." Shinsou knows this already but he cant stop the feeling that spreads itself inside his chest. You didn't want to be around him. He destroyed the one thing that was positive about his life.
The entire first year General Studies Course started walking in the direction of the Colosseum, they noticed a group of people standing outside of class 1-A Homeroom Art Course doors.
"What do you think is happening?" Agoyamato asks.
"Don't know, don't really care." Shinsou doesn't really give the Art Course homeroom any attention, mainly out of the still burning jealousy within him. Yet, when he glanced over too were the others where staring at, he saw something that made his heart both thump and drop.
You. You were there and smiling....but not with him. You were smiling with the Art Course homeroom students, specifically at something that Bakugo, the blonde Pomeranian with anger issues, had said. Covering your mouth with a hand to not show your smile that had formed. Shinsou wasn't having it. He didn't like it. That you were laughing because of something someone else had done, someone that wasn't him. Before his mind could catch up, he was already walking towards the crowd. "This cant happen, i need to-"
"I came to see what the famous Class A was like, but you seem pretty arrogant. Are all the students in the Art Course like this?" Shinsou couldn't stop the flow of words that came out, he needs to get your attention someway and somehow. This was the prefect way to start off on, making himself the villain just like every single one the characters he's played.
Bakugo never thought he'd meet someone so stupid that would talk back to him, but especially not the same guy who disrespected you to a group of strangers. (Bakugo knew what happened because he found you crying on his walk home. After his experiences in High School, Bakugo learned that no matter how talented of an actor he was, he was never going to go anywhere if he didn't consider other peoples emotions and experiences. He sat down with you and asked you what was wrong. You only told him that someone that you were close to used you and took advantage of you.) From that point Bakugo figured out on his own who it was, so if Shinsou wanted to act a fool Bakugo was going to give him exactly what he wanted.
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"Seeing something like this makes me disillusioned. There are quite a few people who enrolled in general studies or other courses because they didn’t make it into the Art Course. Did you know that?" Shinsou doesn't care at this point. He's looking at a rival not a future classmate. Bakugo attempts to speak but Shinsou cuts him off.
"The school has left those of us a chance. Depending on the results of the Sports Festival, they’ll consider our transfer to the Art Course....and it seems they may also transfer people out." He's ignoring Bakugo, his eyes are focused on you. You didn't look at his direction but at Bakugo, still, you were paying attention to what he was saying and that was enough for him.
"Everyone else is here just scouting out the enemy. I, at least, came to say that even if you’re in the Art Course, if you get too carried away, I’ll sweep your feet out from under you. I came with a declaration of war." That got your attention. You looked away from the blond and stared at Shinsou, eyes filled with shock and mild anger. Good, that was good enough for him. He was used to people looking at him like the bad guy, like the ones he's played. He was fine with you seeing him like that after he betrayed your trust, he was fine as long as you acknowledged him. It didn't matter in what way.
Bakugo completely ignored him. He wasn't about to give the time of day to some asshole who hurt his friend (yes, he did grow a heart and considered you a friend.) That didn't mean he wasn't about to have the last laugh. He walked closer to Shinsou and glanced past him with a cruel smirk.
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"I know what you're doing and i also know what you did." Bakugo turns his head slightly to face Shinsou, "You're fucking stupid if you think that i'm going to let you get close to y/n...so don't you fucking try, extra. Or else." Bakugo wasn't going to let some fuck come into your life again just to hurt you. From the screenshots and comments you showed him, he can see clearly what type of person Shinsou is. He was dangerous back in High School, a great actor with an amazing future, but now he was a threat in a more significant way. It wasn't his place to tell, but he was defiantly going to try to make the others get on board with keeping you two away from each other.
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Shinsou wasn't by any means peek physicality but he did do stretches and went on a run every other day to keep his waist line in place. Even so he was ready to do what he was told to do in order to get your attention. The entire first year General Studies Course was announced and walked out into the middle of the Colosseum. He couldn't see you anywhere, he was all the way in the front in of placement which was dependent on grades, but he couldn't see you. You had high scores on all of your classes, so where were you? The General Course was already out of the tunnel so there was no point in searching for you, Shinsou had to make appearances for the rest of world. He was a promising actor after all.
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"What do you think they'll make us do?" You asked one of your classmates. Your voice alone was breathtaking to the point that Shinsou's heart did a small leap. He turns to look at you trying to catch your eyes again. Youre looking forward but you dont catch his eyes, you know he's watching you yet you dont try to engage. It was better this way, at least thats what your mind told you. Dejected, Shinsou turns around again and continuous.
"I'll get you to look at me at least once."
Let the Games Begin!
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This was going fucking horribly. Shinsou managed to get to the last game of the day and the entire time you've managed to avoid his ass. He even helped you during the first course were you had to cross a large ass lake (Why the fuck UA had an entire forest is also up to anyones guess.) He pushed someone into the lake to get them out of your way and you just ran past him on the rope bridge. How the fuck did you run on a rope bridge? It took him using someone else for balance to even get across it. You ungrateful fucking bi- no, no, he want going to-. He was frustrated, it wasn't fair to insult you when you were doing what felt best for you, he's still figuring out what rational anger was and wasn't.
The last game was coming up, this was it. He was put up against Midoriya, the green haired kid who was too pure for his own good. During High School, Midoriya started off as shy but determined guy, as the years moved forward he grew more confident and it reflected on his acting. Be it that they weren't in the same class anymore, Midoriya was in the same theater company as him. Actually, a lot of the students in 1-A were in the same theater company as Shinsou. Which means that they knew his weakness, especially were his strength physically was at.
"So Midoriya, i guess we're fighting against each other. Youre in 1-A, right?" Before Midoriya responded Ojiro grabbed Midoriya and put his hand over his mouth.
"Not so fast!" Shinsou grinned and walked away from the pair. He was trying to play mind games, trying to get information out of Midoriya to see what he can use against him in their "fight". It wasn't really a fight but they had to try to push each other out of the boundaries of the space they where given. Didn't matter what they did, just as long as they could get one of them out of bounds it was fine. He couldn't wait.
He was the first round "fighter", so he took the break as a way to prepare. Everything else he did today wasn't enough to get your attention, so this defiantly would. Every student had to sit and watch the fights that took place, since you were disqualified during the cavalry round you had to watch him. He was buzzing with excitement....and nerves. This was for you! Yeah, it could help him get the attention of the principal and the Art Courses department head, but that was just the excuse he used in front of everyone. In reality this was all for your attention so he had to make the most out of this final game.
Shinsou was ready, Midoriya was across from him and he had to figure out what his plan of attack would be. Although, Midoriya no longer held his usual good nature aura to him. His eyes where determine, that was dangerous, especially when it comes to Midoriya.
"So you could just give up, huh? In a way, this is a test of how strong your spirit is. If you know what you want your future to hold, you can't worry about what other people think." Shinsou taunted. "That fucker was going on about his pride earlier. But I just think he's an idiot for throwing away his chance like that. It's honestly pathetic that the little bitch walked away." Midoriya doesn't move but he does show his anger and frustration. Shinsou was amazing at using words to convey the character he's playing but to see him use them to mock another classmate left bile in Midoriya's mouth.
"Don't you dare Shin-!"
"You're lucky to have been so blessed, Izuku Midoriya. To have parents that care for you and give you all that you want. I have my own dreams of becoming a great actor. Someone worthwhile in this world." Shinsou smirks, he's won. Midoriya won't do anything. He's guilt tripping him into giving up....and its working. Midoriya hasn't move since he started speaking, but he's lowered his head as if bowing in shame.
Shinsou then turns to look at where General studies is seated at and when he see's you. He realized he fucked up even more. You weren't impressed, you weren't cheering him on, smiling, or anything that may show that you're in lined with him. You were horrified. He didn't impress you, he made you realize that he may have manipulated you during your friendship. There is no going back now though. He can't take back any of this.
He's fucking pissed. He's angry. He's done. He's lost.
"So, lose for me." Midoriya slumps forward even more for a moment. No answer and no movement. Shinsou has won.
So now we're getting serious. I can't wait to see how reader reacts to Shinsou's full fight plus what will come after it.
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Incel! Shinsou x F!Reader Part 3 (2/2):
Section 2 of Part 3 is here! I had a few ideas as to how this could have gone but I've decided to leave it this way mostly because my mind tends to wonder. Horny thoughts have plagued me for a few days so again, keeping it wholesome because i want any smut/sex scenes in the future to mean something between the reader and Shinsou's relationship. (Yes, we do plan to have nsfw content within the series in the future!)
For now please, enjoy the last part of the Sport Festival where our dear Shinsou is about to get the rare chance of seeing a different side of Midoriya.
"I don't ever wanna go, but my feet keep on moving and pushing me closer to you. I will never let you know. When I'm mulling it over and taking my time overdue." - (Belgium to Bordeaux by Canteen)
Part 3: Incel!Shinsou x F!Reader (1/2)
Part 4: Incel!Shinsou x F! Reader
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He was winning, he just needed to push more. Shinsou just needed to grab Midoriya and it would all be over.
"You have so much Midoriya, yet you're greedy and keep it to yourself." Shinsou starts closing in on him, like any predator with it's incapacitated prey. Toying with it and making sure that it knows that in the moment, right now, they aren't going to make it out alive. Thats his plan, destroy Midoriya's will to fight and use his emotional hypersensitivity to make him give into whatever Shinsou wants from him. He grabs Midoriya and starts pushing him out of the ring. "This is it! I'll win and she'll see th-that...that i'm still..a-"
"I know, Shinsou." Midoriya lifts his head up, his eyes filled with something Shinsou has only seen in him when performing. Hate. Shinsou's used to it, but not from Midoriya. He didn't think the green haired boy was capable of genuine hatred.
"You hurt y/n for what? For a laugh? What did she do to you?" "A lot of things. They were all great, healthy."
"Shut up, you don't know anything!" Shinsou growls. An actual animalistic sound coming out of his throat and Midoriya's calm demeanor only made his blood boil with greater might.
"I do, and you're a real piece of work for doing that to her." Midoriya doesn't stop Shinsou's form from pushing him to the outskirts of the ring. It was his turn to play now.
"I'm kind of jealous of you, you know? Thanks to the shitty way life works, the shit cards I've been dealt, I've always been at a big disadvantage. But someone as blessed as you wouldn't understand that!"
"I get it. Even though you're right, I have been blessed. But thats not a reason to treat others like their disposable!" Midoriya was finally biting back, but it wasn't helping Shinsou in anyway. All this time he let himself be played by Midoriya. The bubbly happy guy in front of him wasn't a pushover like he thought, he was a planner, a risk taker. He was a great pretender, a great actor. Something Shinsou was never going to be out of his own doing because he lacked what Midoriya had. Confidence.
"You're lucky enough to have people who love and support you! It'll be so easy for you to reach your goal!" He's desperate, desperate for some validation that he isn't worthless. Some affection thats reassuring. Words that remind him that he is worth something and not a burden like his mother viewed him as. You gave him that and he fucked up! Goddammit why!
"Im not letting you win Shinsou, i'm not y/n. Im not someone you can push around. I don't know what's going on in your life but for what its worth stop being so damn selfish!" Midoriya wasn't going to lose to help save Shinsou's feelings. Whatever's going on with him, he had to figure it out on his own.
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"You've gotta be kidding me!" He was going to lose because he's allowed Midoriya to see his emotions. He's going to lose because he was still a mess of anger and bitterness. He was losing mentally while physically Midoriya pushed him towards his own physical loss outside the perimeter of the ring.
He couldn't take it anymore, he was angry and needed to hurt. Needed a reminder of why he even bothers with all of this.
He punched Midoriya square in the face and the world goes silent. Everything was fair game during the Sport Festival, especially this game. Still, ground rules had been established, no face hits and no low blows. But he still didn't care, he needed more.
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"Get out of this ring, you lucky brat!" Pure unadulterated anger and violence was surging through Shinsou's veins. Midoriya's bloody nose wasn't enough for him. He wanted to see the green haired boy cry! Wanted to make the other as miserable as he himself felt every.single.day.of.his.life!
But Midoriya won't allow him this one sick pleasure. He grabs Shinsou and throws him over his own body. Shinsou no longer felt the ground with his feet.
"You play villains? That's so cool!" Middle school was cruel, but the kids were crueler. He doesn't remember a time were he didn't want to leave this shitty school.
"I'm so jealous, Shinso. Imagine all the cool stuff you could do controlling people by pretending to be someone else." They wouldn't stop talking, he didn't care about what they had to say-
"Yeah, you can do any bad thing you want. And no one would ever know it was you. Just promise you won't manipulate us, okay?" "Shut up! Stop!" It was to much, he couldn't deal with this right now. Not again, please not again. Not after he spoke with-
"Heh... Everyone always says that. I'm used to people looking at me like I'm the bad guy, hah. But you know what?" He couldn't deal with this today. He found half truths not that long ago and he couldn't swallow them. He couldn't breathe.
"Im not."
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He couldn't move. Back flat on the concrete floor as he heard the loud roars of the cheering crowd around him. Shinsou felt as useless as his former classmates would tell him he was. He couldn't yell or scream, he already embarrassed himself enough today that adding on to it would only make it worse.
"Do you need help getting up?" Midoriya wasn't taunting or furious anymore, genuine concern making itself perfectly clear to Shinsou even though he couldn't see him from his position on the floor. He didn't want his help but he did take in his kindness letting it wash over him and calm him down. Slowly, Shinsou gets up and straightens his clothes. Embarrassment wasn't a great feeling, nor was guilt. He pushed it again.
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Midoriya and him exchange words and he slowly left to join his classmates at the stands. He didn't want to see the pity looks they'll him so he keeps moving forward towards the tunnels without giving his class a glanc-
"You were awesome out there, Shinso!" The first cheer.
"We're proud a' you!" The next.
"You didn't tell us you were that good!" And then the next one.
"Yeah, you're the star of our program!"
"I can't believe you put up such a great fight against the dude who was in first place earlier!"
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Complements. Praise. Everything he always wanted was being given to him the moment he failed. He always thought that he needed to do something extreme, either good or bad, to gain praise. Yet here he was, feeling like shit and getting support. "Whats wrong with them? They saw I lost so why are they so happy for me?"
"Congratulations Shinsou!" Two words. Two words that people would glance at and move on from, yet he couldn't do that. Why? It was your voice. Sweet and full. A happiness to the voice he so longed for in the past few weeks. You were speaking to him, and yet hiding within the crowd of your guy's classmates. Shinsou turned slightly, now throwing his voice to Midoriya who was standing behind him holding his bloody nose.
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"Even if it didn't work out this time, I'm not giving up. I'll get onto the Art Course, get recognized by a company, and then, I'll become a better artists than any of you!" Shinsou screamed back at Midoriya, "So be careful. You better not lose and make me look bad." And with that, Shinsou entered the tunnel, losing Midoriya but most importantly losing your voice. The further he got the colder the space became. He stopped once he could only hear the crowd faintly in the distance and held himself in his own arms.
He had it bad. He needed this today. He slowly lowered himself on to the concrete floor and cried for the first time in years. Holding himself and rocking himself slowly as he let out hiccuped breaths and small whimpers.
He lost today, but won the greater prize... your recognition.
If none of you are aware, this entire series/prompt started because of a personal experience with a person who i thought was a friend and in reality turned out to be a horrible person. I wanted to vent about it at first but i also saw no use for it since that wouldn't change anything. You can't redeem everyone and sometimes its impossible to forgive, so the Incel!Shinsou series mostly serves to show a more "realistic" redemption arc of a person trying to do better to save a relationship that held value and meaning to them and ended up ruining through bad actions. By having the reader not immediately forgive Shinsou and Shinsou learning from his mistakes, this adds value as to why he should be given a second chance by the reader.
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Incel! Shinsou x F! Reader Part 4
I still wanted to have a bit of the Sports Festival just to clear up a few things. The next half of this will be surrounding the after math of sports Festival, meaning normal day to day life, or as normal as it can get when you go to a prestigious school like UA.
"You've been inside my mind. And I can't seem to shut my eyes. She haunts me in the colour red. And I can't get you out of my head" - (Can't Get You Out Of My Head by Johnny Goth)
Part 3: Incel!Shinsou x F!Reader (2/2)
Part 5: Incel!Shinsou x F! Reader
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The cold was never a problem for Shinsou, it was more comforting than the heat. To have warmth suggests that you’re safe and right now that’s far from what he feels. He's never felt safe, even when his dad would hold him in his arms and tell him bedtime stories as a child, even when his Aunt Kayama and Uncle Yamada would buy him stuff animals, specifically cats, to keep the nightmares away when his dad was at the hospital working overtime. He felt warmth in the necessity sense but never in the form of a want. His dad always said that he needed to learn to distinguish what a "want" and a "need" was, to his little 6 year old head, these things were one and the same. Wasn't he wrong.
He didn’t see you but he heard you. This was the only interaction he had pulled from you since his fuck up and he isn’t sure if you did it out of pity. Oh well, it’s not like he’ll speak to you since you’re so adamant in avoiding him. He’s not going to look for you today at least, he’s still to embarrassed to want to deal with anyone. Shinsou was so distracted with his own thoughts he didn't hear footsteps coming towards him.
“Hey, can we talk for a bit Shinsou?” Midoriya walked slowly toward Shinsou's form on the ground. He lowers himself to then throw his whole weight to the side in order to sit down. The trail of blood coming out of his nose still fresh and actively dripping with a red river following it.
“What do you want, Midoriya?” Shinsou isn’t up for an argument or trash talk right now. Why couldn't he just leave him alone?
"I wanted to say...that its not my place to speak about what happened between you and y/n. But you're both my friends and want what's best for the both you. You're clearly not fine, so if you ever need to speak to anyone, you can count on me." It was impossible to hate Midoriya, especially when he was considerate of others. Here he was, still bleeding from his nose and yet comforting and willing to listen to him. What a jerk.
"How did you even know that something happened between us?" Shinsou honestly expects him to say that you told him, he kind of deserves to be misplaced again by his own friends after everything.
"Oh, she didn't say anything to me, i promise. It was actually Kacchan who told me." That didn't land well with him. It makes it sound like you trusted the blonde fu- no, no, stop. It made it sound like you trusted the blonde...guy with the situation between you and him. Shinsou isn't angry but he does feel weird. Why would you trust Bakugo, especially Bakugo?
"And how did he find out?"
"Not sure, but he's been vocal about how he doesn't really like you since then. I think its best if you two stay away from each other." Shinsou agrees, staying away from Bakugo would keep him safe but also let him figure out what to do when it comes to fixing his non existing friendship with you.
"Yeah, i'll stay away from h-"
"Im not talking about Bakugo." Midoriya's face and welcoming presence shifted suddenly. He's said it before and he'll say it again, Midoriya is blessed. Blessed with the ability to shift tones so quickly and smoothly. To think the sweet little (not so little anymore) Midoriya was the same person standing in front of him looking like he'll challenge you into a fight and would win. God he was scary, Shinsou couldn't help but shudder a bit.
"Then who-"
"Y/n, i'm talking about y/n. Don't try to "fix" anything with her. You might have noticed already but she doesn't really show up to classes anymore and its going to affect her grades eventually. Please leave her alone."
"I understand but i-"
"Then if you understand you'll leave her alone and let her move on at her own pace. Don't push your presence on to her. She'll deal with you when she can." With that Midoriya doesn't let Shinsou talk and gets up from his place on the ground.
"Welp, i have to go to the Wellness Center, see yeah later Shinsou!" He dusted himself off and walks away with a endearing smile on his face. Yeah, Midoriya was scary.
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Shinsou didn't necessarily know what he was going to do. He didn't have to stick around to watch the the final rounds of the last game, so he decided to walk back to his locker, get his wallet and walk around the food stands surrounding the Colosseum. He just needed a distraction from having cried to himself after his match and get rid of the lingering embarrassment that clung to him.
As he walked around, people would turn and stare at him as he went about his business. Some people would complement him, others would make rude comments, he understands fully. He doesn't blame anyone for the comments they make. Constructive criticism is great, criticism isn't really but it's still a comment that he can keep in mind incase it holds some value. Overall, he was enjoying his time, he saw Midoriya's fight with Todoroki and all he can say was "Shit, he recked my ass by throwing me over his shoulder and i thought that was bad. Todoroki's at a whole other level of terrifying with those combat skills he has.", and he also got to get his hands on some mochi that was being sold at one of the stands. It had multiple different flavors but also came in animal designs, naturally he bought as many cat designed ones for himself and his dad.
Walking back to the Colosseum was pleasant, the weather was nice, the people were great, everything was right for once. Shinsou turned his head to face the big screens on top of the massive arched doorway. He saw the faces of the winners and as the camera panned over the cheering crowd. He smiled at just how happy everyone looked, then the camera panned over the classes. You where standing up cheering and yelling out in support for the winners. You looked so happy. Why where you happy? Why couldn't he be the same? He's bitter again, he's misplacing his anger. He needs to leave before he fucks up even more, before he has another outburst.
Once off campus, Shinsou walked to the convenient store that was on his way home. He's greeted by the cashier and goes to the back of the store to grab a large sub for his dad plus a box of canned cold coffees for the both of them. He knows the feeling in his chest is shame, he will admit that, but that doesn't mean he doesn't want to get rid of it. He heads to the counter and lets he cashier scan his items.
"It's nice to see you after the festival, how was it? Did you meet any company reps?" The cashier was a friendly guy a year above him from a school in the area. Always smiling, always kind. Everything Shinsou wasn't and still isn't.
"It was pretty good, ah, i did get to see some reps but they're not going to focus on anyone that isn't in the Art course or STEM."
"Aww man, that sucks. Well, you definitely left an impression, at least on the public! The entire time i was on the edge of my seat! I couldn't believe that was you, the guy thats always brooding while that girl friend of yours is all cheers and support."
"Don't- It-Stop! Its not like that!" Shinosu's cheeks don't flush but the top of his ears do, a beautiful and shy pink that slowly starts to burn hot.
"Sorry, man. No need to get tense. I meant your girl-friend. You know, girl who is a friend. Maybe more woman since she's an adult and im calling you man, but i also call her man even though she's not, well i don't know if she identifies as a man, or maybe she's fluid gender wise. No, wait! I asked her the first time because i didn't know and she said she goes by she. So yeah, i'm right. But it would totally be ok if that wasn't the case because as long as the person is cool and nice it doesn't matter-" This guy goes on and on, tripping over his own words of support and indetification. Shinsou thinks it's cute but also heavily grateful that the cashier is now focused on something other than his relationship with you. Even when he's not in school he still lives with your presence. He leaves the money on the counter, takes his stuff, and leaves for home.
Once there, he puts everything in the fridge, including the cat mochi he bought, and heads up to his room. He showers, takes a moment to put on deodorant, and goes to sit at his desk.
"I don't understand why you invest so much time online but can't bother to have a normal interaction with me that isn't you insulting my person. I'm here to work on the project you ass. I exist you know?" You looked annoyed at the purple headed man. He's been doing something on his computer for the majority of the time you've been here, not even bothering to ask if you wanted a glass of water. Not that you would take it if he offered, you're always on high alert when around him and you dob't have plans to change that any time soon.
"I don't have to tell you shit, if you want to leave you can."
"Wow, ok bitch, guess i'll leave and take my notes too." You're not about to deal with a man child, you're already stressing over you're own part of the project and its unfair that he thinks he can waste your time like this while he plays around on his computer. You get up and pack your things by throwing them into your bag, with that you head to his door.
Shinsou hears you moving around but doesn't do anything about it. You're probably just moving stuff around or something. Theres no way you're going to leave- shit, you're leaving! He shoots up from his desk and trips on his way towards you. He grabs your arm as a way to get you to stop but if anything it makes you tense up and turn quickly to look at him.
"Don't touch me!" He doesn't understand why the sound of your voice being so panicked makes him feel panic, and stressed (maybe a bit concerned?). He lets go immediately once he makes eye contact with you, the fear that oozes from your eyes and slips to run down your cheek makes his breathing stunt. He doesn't say anything, moron, instead letting you go to give you your space. You take this as a way to escape, quickly running out of his house and walking quickly once you're outside. Shinsou doesn't sleep that night, not like he does most nights, but this time its more because of you. The fear you showed as well as the vulnerability, it has his head spinning. He didn't enjoy it, the look, the feeling. You two had managed to make progress in your relationship, this feels like a step back and a really negative step back. Will you come back? Will you drop him as a project partner? He doesn't know. If he wasn't so proud,( more stubborn then anything) he would have apologized the next day in class. Instead, he sits down at his desk and watches you periodically through the day. He doesn't ask and he doesn't speak. You two don't go back to his house but to the library during lunch.
Shinsou's desk is no longer cluttered with empty cans and dirty plates. It's clean, just like the rest of his room. Tomorrow will be a new day, maybe he'll see you in class. Probably not, but it's still good to think positively.
The day after, he walks onto campus with anxiety creeping on his shoulders. He lashed out on Midoriya on live television in front of hundreds of people. In front of his classmates who he deals with on a day to day bases. He quickly makes his way inside and briskly walks towards his homeroom class. The moment he opens the door everyones eyes are on him, no one moves or even says anything, they just stare. He gets inside and sits down at his desk putting his head down, he doesn't want anyone interacting with him.
"Hey man, you were great yesterday!"
"Yeah, you looked so cool out there especially with your fight with Midoriya. You really showed them that even General studies can be packed with talent!" Slowly his classmates came up to him to congratulate him on his performance at the Sports Festival. Amongst those people you stood in the back watching as Shinsou rubbed the back of his neck in embarrassment. You slowly make your way through the small crowd and finally making it to the front.
"Congrats, Shinsou. You did pretty good out there. Hopefully it'll be enough for a transfer." You two lock eyes and you give him a little smile that you use for strangers. Thats what you two are now, strangers. You've doubted everything in the friendship you two had, maybe it was never a friendship to begin with and you were to stupid to figure that out, who knows. With that you walk away from him and allow your other classmates to swarm him with complements.
Shinsou held his breath as you spoke. Your sweet voice graced him for the second time in almost weeks of not hearing it and your gaze, your eyes, finally connect with his. His heart flutters a bit, his heartbeat skipping as you pay attention to him. This is what he wanted, what he craved.
Yet he was slow, he didn't get enough time to reply to your comment. And so you left. But this time he was left with your nice words. No venom and no emptiness. You gave him sincere praise and oh boy was he basking in it. He was going to fix things, he promises.
Still surrounded the Sports Festival but we got out and now are working towards a new arc. Next time we have a new opportunity for you both to interact and truly see what Shinsou's art is like.
(Some of the theater stuff won't be fully correct so please forgive me. I'm mostly going off of what my classmates and friends have told me theater is like and mostly the shows I've watched and have been part of. My stuff mostly focuses on animation and drawings so again i'm sorry if i'm not fully correct on some things.)
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Incel! Shinsou x F! Reader Part 7
Shinsou and you sitting on a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G! First comes love, then comes, marriage, then comes Shinsou with a baby carriage!
Hello everyone, im back with a new part! Today i'll be introducing you all to a new character which is actually one i made up. Her name is Maya and you can find more about her in the Fatgum Doesn't Know How to Flirt oneshot. Maya's appearance can also be found here! Maya will playa supporting role in this series, so dont worry. This is all about you and Shinsou getting back together.
TW: Insinuated Assault, minor suicide themes
"Every time I hear your voice I wonder. Every mother, every sister, every brother, every mister. Every son who left a blister on a daughter when he kissed her. For the chicks with a dick and the boys with the void. Everybody havin' trouble tryna make a choice, yeah. Give me him, give me her. Give me both, I don't care. Give me all, stuck on her, make it work"- (Girls and Boys by Jesse)
Part 6: Incel! Shinsou x F!Reader
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The call came in during his lunch period and it had Shinsou nearly dropping his phone on the floor. He was excited but also nervous. Did he get rejected? He swallowed as much as he could of his food and answered the call.
"Hello?" He hadn’t finished swallowing his food down. This was embarrassing on his part.
"Hello, this is Shinsou Hitoshi correct?"
"Y-"
"Awesome! You've been selected for the role of Captain Flagg, congratulations!"
"Tha-" The woman on the other end hung up on him without letting him speak a word. He's sure it's the same pink-haired girl from the audition but whatever he got the role. He got the-
"I GOT IT!" He shot up from his chair and everyone turned to stare at him immediately. He quickly sat down and covered his face with his hoodie. He was excited, can anyone truly blame him for it? He wanted to cry, yell, and do all of the things he used to do back then but this time with a positive twist. He was excited, he wanted to tell someone about it.
Shinsou bolted off-campus and ran towards the nearest train station. He wanted to celebrate and what better way than to celebrate than with his dad. The cramped train didn't bother him at all nor did the sun's heat, the crowds, or the walk to the clinic his dad worked at. He got the part, this was it!
"Oh, hello Shinsou. Is there anything I can help you with?" The receptionist asked.
"Yeah, do you know if I can talk with my dad for a moment? I just need to tell him something quickly."
"Sure, let me give him a call. He might be in a session." The receptionist moved to her right to pick up a phone and dialed a number. She waited in the line for a bit till someone answered.
"Hello, I’m calling to see if nurse Aizawa is available to come to the main lobby for a moment?....No, it's his son.....I'm aware, yes...Well if you don't mind could you at least pass on that his son here? Thank you." The woman looks at Shinsou and smiles at him. "Give it  a few minutes, he's with a patient at the moment." Shinsou just waited for his dad, if he didn't come now he would probably come to the lobby on his lunch break.
Aizawa's assistant came over to him and told him quickly that his son was in the lobby. Aizawa told his assistant to inform the receptionist that he'll be heading to the lobby after his session with Eri.
"Nurse Aizawa?" Aizawa turned to look down at the little girl who held onto him.
"Yes, Eri?"
"You have a son?" Aizawa normally avoids talking about his family life during work hours, but children are the exception to his strict set of rules.
"Yes, Eri. Actually, he’s older than you." The little girl's lips quivered for a moment and immediately fell back to a neutral expression. No matter how much Aizawa tried, he couldn't get the girl to smile or play with the other kids.
"Is he a mean older kid?"
"No, Eri. He used to be but he's a better person now." Eri nodded and went back to facing forward. Aizawa took this as his cue to help her on her walking.
Eri was just 5 years old when she came into the clinic for the first time. She needed proper help after losing her ability to walk in a car accident which also left her orphaned. She came in with a wheelchair and just did as she was told. CPS was consistently breathing down Aizawa's neck to make sure Eri was safe and sound at the clinic, meaning that she couldn't really interact with the other kids in the main lobby or staying at the hospital.
“Can i...speak to Maya?” Aizawa gave Eri a soft smile and picked her up and started walking towards her wheelchair..
“I'm sorry Eri but you won't be able to right now. You can call her later, ok?” Eri’s eyes became glossy. The little girl’s mind racing a million miles an hour with an array of different emotions and thoughts. She reminded him of his own son. The way she held onto her hospital gown brought back memories of little Shinsou crying in the corridor of their home. Shinsou avoided him in order to hide that he had a nightmare and wanted comfort from him. Shinsou who wouldn't come into his dad's bedroom, but instead have his dad come sleep on a chair next to his bed to watch over him. This little girl in front of him was in need of someone who would protect her. He wasn't that person.
“It’s ok Eri. I'm sure Maya will be excited to hear from you after her classes. If you want, we can figure out if Maya can come visit you. Does that sound good?”
“Y-yes please.” Aizawa gave her a head pat and placed her in her wheelchair.
“Don't worry Eri. I'm sure Maya will love to come visit you.” Aizawa gave the girl another soft smile and directed his assistant to take her back to her room.
Once he was done cleaning up the equipment and organizing everything, he went directly to the main lobby a few floors below. Shinsou never came to the clinic, he always waited for him to get home to tell him anything. Aizawa found his son sitting down on one of the lobby chairs scrolling through his phone.
“Hitoshi, what's up? Is something wrong?” A worried expression graces Aizawa's face while Shinsou tried to calm his own excitement down.
“Something did happen- it's a good thing, so don't worry.” Aizawa took a seat next to his son, still concerned as to why he's at the clinic.
“I got the role.”
“Oh.” The smile that Shinsou had on his face started to dwindle. He was fucking up again, his son wanted him to be proud of him, and instead he’s making it seem like didn’t care about his personal joys.
“That sounds exciting. Congrats!” He gave his son a full smile. Shinsou didn't really remember when he last saw his dad smile like this, but he sure as hell raved on the fact his dad looked happy for him.
“I got the call today during lunch and I wanted to come to tell you. I- uh also have something else to tell you, but that’s going to take more time so I'll tell you at home.” Aizawa nodded and said his goodbyes to his son.
“Hitoshi, hold up.” Shinsou turned around to face his dad again.
“Could you do me a favor and tell Maya to call the hospital?”
“Sure.” With that, Shinsou finally left and went home.
Maya was the second year in the art course, specifically the theater department. During his freshman summer, he got the chance of shadowing the same company Maya was doing her studies with. She was versatile with the characters she could play and she never settled for one type of character either. She pushed him to try out for different roles and was his main supporter when it came to his acting.
“Why stick with the villain role? You clearly don't want to only do that.” After their shadowing with one of Maya's mentors, she took the time to ask him about his plans for the future. He wanted to objectify her, put her in her place, but it was difficult when the person you're talking to reacts disinterested. The woman didn't care about his commentary because according to her, he had no power. She wasn't wrong. Maya practically exuded power, from her strong posture to her unwavering attitude. She was everything he wanted to be.
“It feels right. It's also not like anyone would pick me to play the "knight in shining armor" like they would with Monoma.” He looked down at the ground and continued to walk with her. Maya wasn't having any of it.
“If you want something you need to push for it. Bleed for it. How do you think I got into the art course, Lavender?”
“Don't call me that!”
“Whatever you say Lavanda.” Maya smirked at him and just continued walking.
“You and I aren't so different. We both got casted for the same type of character, the same type of plays, the same crew. We're never given a chance to expand our skills.” She put an arm around his shoulder, bringing him into her side. Shinsou's face became warm and the tips of his ears became a shy red. He's never been this close with a woman before, even when he was a child, girls tended to avoid him like the plague.
“I'm sensing a ‘but’ coming up.”
“But I didn't conform to that.” Maya let go of Shinsou and instead stood in front of him blocking his path.
“You're giving up on something you love because everyone is telling you that you'll never be enough and will never be more. You love acting, I see the way your eyes light up when you're on the stage, I’m not stupid.” He felt warm again. Not the type of warm he felt when he would jerk off in the shower, but an innocent type of warm. Did he like Maya?
“You need to bleed Toshi. You need to bleed more than you've already done.” Her arm extended and she held onto him. She was so close to him it felt like she was inside of his head, like she was reading all of his emotions. Like she knew what his mother did to him and his dad. Like his entire life was in front of her and she was reading it like a disinterested teen with a magazine. No, more like a parent who was disappointed. No, not that either. What was she embodying with him?
“Hitoshi, you're allowed to be frustrated with people. But that doesn't mean you get to be a shitty person. You want more and yet you give so little. I want to see you succeed. So please, push yourself.” Maya was hugging him.
An actual woman was hugging him, and yet, the only thing he wanted to do was hug back. No sexual innuendos, no sexist comment, no bile coming from his mouth. Just tears running down his face. He didn't understand, couldn't actually. How did she manage to break him with reprimanding yet caring words? How did a woman managed to break a man like him down? Why was she trying to help...him?
“Thank you Maya.”
Maya was the only woman in his life, other than you, that he could call a friend. Even when he was a shit person, he was able to recognize her as someone to be respected. You were his first actual love interest, Maya was just someone he could admire and care for. When he finally got the chance to thank her properly for motivating him, she laughed and told him that she couldn't wait to see what he’ll do.
“Also, I see how you look at her. You better not hurt her or you're fucked.” He didn't have the guts to talk to Maya since he destroyed his friendship with you. He didn't say anything, nor did you but that doesn't mean that Bakugou wouldn't. Or didn't tell her already. Be it that Bakugou was a hard ass, he still learned to hold respect for those clearly superior to him. He wasn't close to Maya at all but he did know that when it came to putting someone in there place, Maya was the person you went to for that.
Maya was the same age as him and everyone else in your guys friend group, she was just a grade above everyone because of her talent and academics granted her early acceptance into UA. Everyone knew her and looked to her for advice, but in this case, he couldn’t look for her. He would be receiving reassurance because she would most likely kill him instead. The thought sent shivers up his spine, if he came into contact with her she was going to do the job all on her own and then have someone else hide his corpse. He still needed to face the music, even if he’s afraid that he’ll die in the end. At this point, he’s contemplating that death might be the best option out of the mess he-
Stop, breathe. The only logical solution is facing the one person that would hurt him physically.
Once at home he jogged in place, pumped himself up to call Maya. This was stressful work, he looked up to her back then which means that she was the real deal. He remembers what she did to the little creep who kept harassing the girls in the 1-A homeroom. Let's just say that the guy came back to campus with a few a cast on his arms and a nice black eye to match.
“Ok, you can do it. Yeah, you can do it.” He shooked off his nerves and clicked Maya's contact. Maybe she would answer, maybe she wouldn't, it's honestly a bargain when it came to her.
“Shi-” She picked up.
He couldn't do it. She answered the call and he couldn't do it. The fear of getting stomped to death by his upperclassmen that he practically saw as his hero was terrifying. His phone began to ring again and he sucked in a huge gulp of air and answered.
“Hi, Ma-”
“You hijo de puta! What's wrong with you?”
“A lot-”
“Let me talk, putón!” Maya was pissed, there was no way he was going to survive.
Maya spent 30 minutes ripping him a new one. It ranged from him not visiting the company to the problem that he was facing now.
“I know I fucked up, Maya. I'm trying to...fix things. Y/n gave me a chance and I’m going to take advantage of that, but I also don't want to push my luck.” Maya let out an exasperated sigh.
“Hitoshi, you can’t rush things. I don’t know how badly you fucked up, but a fuck up is a fuck up and you need to fix it. I’m sure this was already drilled into your head.” Shinsou laid down on his bed and rubbed his face.
“It has, yeah. Anything else you want to advise me on?”
“Yeah, you sarcastic bitch. Come to my company again, we would love to have you intern.”
“Than-”
“And invite Y/n under my recommendation as a reviewer.” Shinsou’s eyes widened. On one hand, it was a great idea, it would mean being around you more but that's only if you said yes.
“But what if-”
“I’ll call you back later. Wait for my call, or else.” Maya hung up on him and left him in the silence of his bedroom. He didn’t disagree with her, but it felt wrong to have her essentially help him fix his mistakes with you. His phone started to ring again.
“Hello?”
“Good job Lavender, you've learned to be more responsive. Anyways, Y/n said yes to my offer. You can thank me later. I’ll be sending out the forms you need to fill out and I’ll also be speaking with my mentors if we have any open roles for upcoming performances.”
“Maya! I- I need to tell you something.”
“Alright?”
“My dad said to call-”
“Sure! Just let me hang up on you so I can call the hospital. Alright, bye!” With that Maya hung up on him... again.
Holy shit, Maya was not only giving him a chance of improving himself career wise but also to spend more time with you. Score! He sat up and walked to his desk where his computer was at. He opened his emails and saw Maya already sent him the forms. Page after page of information that he didn’t care about and signatures he needed to place. He was given a second chance again, from a someone who could have destroyed his nonexistent career. From someone, he used to disrespect and view them as below him. He’d make a mental note to hug and thank Maya when he saw her in person.
When the next day arrived, he ran to his kitchen and made breakfast for both his dad and himself. He knew that his dad would have a long shift tonight, so he won’t be home till the day after.
“Morning dad. Here's your breakfast. I also made you your lunch.” Aizawa came down the stairs into the open kitchen and just stared at him for a moment.
“You’re...happy.” Shinsou turned towards him and raised his brow.
“I'm... sorry?”
“N-no that’s.” Aizawa sighed. “Thank you.” They both went about the house and continued to pack their things before heading their separate ways. They said their goodbyes but before Aizawa could leave Shinsou decided to break their routine.
“Thank you for everything dad.” Shinsou hugged his dad briefly before walking off. Aizawa didn't remember the last time saw his son look that happy, nor remember when his son hugged him last, but he wasn't about to complain. It seemed that today was going to be a pretty positive one. He made a mental note to not think of all of the pessimistic ways the day could go bad.
Shinsou bolted towards the train station with a backpack full of notebooks and his lunch. He was practically bouncing with excitement today. The train was packed, people stacked like sardines as they tried to get to their daily commitments. Nothing was able to dampen his mood and it only got better once he got to campus. The moment he laid eyes on his upperclassmen that was right in front of him, he bolted towards her.
“MAYA!”
“Huh? Aaugh!-” Shinsou crashed into the woman giving her a hug.
“Que mierda! Lavanda!” Maya was on the floor with Shinsou laying on top of her.
“Shit! Sorry, Ma-”
“Hi, Maya!...hi Shinsou.” You decided that right now was the best time to make an entrance. From the position you were standing at, it looked like Shinsou was trying to grope Maya. He was on top of her, his hands at the sides of her body. Maya could see you looking at the two of them and gave you an annoyed look. She quickly placed her hands on the sides of her head and bent backwards. Her feet pulled up to her chest and she used her arms to propel herself up in order to kick Shinsou in the stomach with her knees.
“Get off of me, Lavanda. Your girlfriend is watching.” She hissed at him, making sure she was quiet with the second part so you wouldn't hear. Maya got up and dusted herself off while Shinsou held his stomach and tried to catch his breath. She simply stomped her foot next to his face, scaring the shit out of the breathless and gasping man.
“Sup Y/n. I wanted to talk to you for a moment. You don’t mind if I take you away for a bit, right? Hitoshi, do you mind if i take your classmate? No? Awesome.” Maya came up to you and placed her arm around your shoulders, essentially given you an affectionate headlock in the process. She smiled at you, her tired eyes holding a small glint to them.
“Sure, what do you need to tell me?” The two of you walked away leaving Shinsou to catch his breath on the concrete floor. He wanted to thank Maya for helping him out but he guessed he could do that later since the woman was gone.
Maya and you continued to stroll into campus grounds and decided to ahem your conversation in the empty music hall to talk in detail about whatever Maya wanted.
“Heres the paperwork i mentioned yesterday. You should fill it out now.”
“Oh uh, I don’t-”
“Great, here's a pen. Fill it out so you don't forget to do it later.” Maya gave you a small stack of papers to fill out and just sat on the desk nearby. She watched you as you filled in the forms and would at moments make eyecontact with you when you looked up to look at her. You wont lie, she's really intimidating, like a predator analysing her prey. Once you finished the forms you handed them back but she wouldn't take them.
“Uuuh, i done?” Maya just looked at you giving no response to what you were saying.
“I can just-”
“It sucks doesnt it?”
“Excuse me?” Maya got up from her place on the desk and stood infront of you. She was tall. You noticed that she was taller than some of the guys on campus but never found it odd, the one thing that caught your attention was that she was a “role model.” Not in the traditional way though.
“Having someone you trust use you and then throw you away isn’t the nicest feeling in the world. I get it.” Maya didn’t touch you but she did come a bit closer. This time, her face was right next to your own.
“Sometimes you need to move on to improve and in others, you need that person back into your life to help you make that choice obvious.” Maya wasn't one to be sugar coated in the things she said. She was sharp with her words, she wouldn't leave you place to add anything new unless she deemed int right fro you to talk.
“But what if that person did something incredibly horrible.” You didn’t want to cry in front of upperclassmen. This entire situation was a bit bizarre but it felt nice to have someone address it instead of you having to.
“I know what he did Y/n. I saw the messages and the pictures. I know what websites and what profiles all of that shit was on. I know everything about this shitfest.” Maya held out her hand to you, asking for permission to comfort you. You accept her silent offer and allow her to pull you into a hug.
“I’ve been there, how do you think I know all of this? Y/n, I know the person Hitoshi was and I can also see the person that he is now.” She brushed your head, giving you a gentle squeeze as if to tell you you’re safe.
“This isn’t me telling you to forgive Shinsou, if anything I honestly would tell you to kick his shit in for being an asshole.” You started to cry into Maya’s chest.
“I know your still worried for him, so am i.” Why did she have to be so-
“But if you need to kick him out of your life, you need to do so.” Maya pulled back and wiped away your tears with her thumb.
“You know why im saying this, you know what happend to me. If you need, i’ll be there for you.”
“B-...but what if...i dont want to cut him out?” You looked up nervously at your upperclassmen.
You walked around for the past few weeks trying to look for answers. You made the first advance to interact with Shinsou at the sports festival because you wanted to show support for your classmate. It was compulsive and you didn't think about what you were doing. But you kept going. You continued to be the first to interact with him every time. You wanted to be close with him again but didnt know if it was the right decision. It still hurt, everything that he did to you was still affecting you now. You had to private your socials and had to report accounts that would send you rape threats. Your online life was never safe, with the way you dress you always got rude comments, but those were manageble. This was different. These people would continuously pursue you, they would make an account and then another and then another to harras you. You couldn't exist there anymore but Bakugou and all of his friend reassurede you that they would protect you both in person and online.
“Then thats the choice you want to make. I wont stop you. But keep this in mind,” Maya stabilized you so would fully look at her, “no one, and i mean no one.” Maya squeezed your shoulders and shooked you a little.
“No one is worth your emotional health.” This is what everyone meant. Maya was wise for her age, she was young and successful because of her wisdom. If only people knew that the wisdom that she seemed to be blessed with came from nearly dying and being hurt badly. Mentally, emotionally, physically. Maya was what many called “used goods”. She wasn’t the girl with large sparkles on her eyes. She was the person everyone looked to for help. So yes, she was the "role model" in the modern sense of the word. She was a surviver. Everyone listened to a survivor. If they only listened to the victim in the same way.
You knew that already, yet you kept questioning yourself, what else could you do? You knew that when playing with fire you shouldn’t add gas. Everything was going well so you poured everything in hoping to see the flame become it’s own. Instead it consumed you and left you to rot in its wake.
“I know, i know Maya! But i still care about him, i still want to see him get better.” Maya pulled you back into a hug. She knew what you felt. She also wanted to see Shinsou succeed and become the person he wanted to be. She had to admit, you brought so much change when it came to Shinsou and his person. The poor guy when she first met him was an actual wreck. He continuesly got angry with her and at the same time seeked her out for aprovel on his performances. He came in smelling wrank as fuck and she practically had to threaten him to take a shower or he would lose his chance at shadowing her. She learned to play his games and to make sure he remembered his place all at the same time.
She knew what it meant to want to keep someone who hurt you and try to redeem them. But unlike you or Shinsou, she didn’t get to keep that person in her life. She had to say goodbye and move on like nothing had happened. In her eyes, Shinsou was redeemable. She would gladly beat the shit out of him if you asked her to, she’s sure that your little friend Bakugou would also like to join in. But it would be selfish of her to say that to you. You were the one suffering, not her.
She kept her mouth closed and allowed you to continue to cry to your hearts content. You couldn’t let go of her, she just brushed your hair out of your face. Once you calmed down, Maya gave you her water bottle to drink from. She allowed you to stay in the music hall till the next transition period and told you that she’ll speak with your professor about why you were absent.
You saw glimpses of Shinsou throughout your day, most of them were him and Maya talking or what you could assume was talking since the upperclassmen would wag her finger at him. In one instance, you saw Maya grab him by the ear and forced him to sit down to read out loud from a book. You guessed that Maya was just the tough love sort and continued on with your day. The more time passed the more you reaslized how much of your life was defined by helping Shinsou out with basic shit. Helping him say “hello” and “thank you” to the people that would help him, consistently pushing him to wear something different everyday, pushing him to shower. It wasnt like you got a thrill from having him be dependent of you. It was more about wanting to see someone who was in a shit place in life improve themselves and be able to become independent again. You wanted him in your life again and you knew that he also wanted you in his. You didn’t need to pretend that everything was normal, just like Maya said, if something made you feel uncomfortable or endangered your wellbeing you could leave and cut ties. Maya would gladly beat the shit out of Shinsou if he did anything to you.
Maybe it was time to try again.
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