#In which I am emo
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Let's see if I can actually focus on my wip tonight. I have Beetlejuice brain rot all over again. Especially Beetlebabes, obviously.
I just have many things I want to say about them. Right now what's dominating my mind is how they truly seem to be each other's missing piece and it makes me sad because if you think about it, though this is a comedy, the story here, the romance is kind of tragic? Because he's dead, after all, and she's still alive. They are literally in two different worlds, while still being connected to each other. He's only at the distance of her voice calling his name, but even when he's there with her, can she truly ever be his? If they get married he can be with her always... Whether that happens or not, and whether she ever loves him the same or not, he will always wait for her 🥺.
Anyway my friends, I am not only in brain rot mode tonight, I am also emo about them. 😭🖤
#beetlebabes#Beetlejuice x Lydia#In which I am emo#help#No now I am thinking about how he chose McArthur Park as their wedding dance song#because he was saying goodbye??#Nope.#Because he knows they're two worlds apart#please Lydia marry him 😭#I just want the two of them happy at the end#Period.
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i have so much band!au content in the pipeline my brain is Rotting but enjoy these two for now
jjk band!au
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#yuuji#ryoumen sukuna#sukuna#fanart#jjk fanart#jjk band!au#every time i dress sukuna i stray further from gods light. what is that. what did i do why did i do that.#the pants...the mullet mohawk..the tanktop that might as well be Off...am i cooking or committing a cardinal sin who can say#i realized that i probably couldnt give him rings bc the priss wouldnt want to scuff his guitar#which goes directly against my religion that says that any modern au sukuna has to b iced up#that being said the bracelets r probably pushing it but he needed /something/ so he can deal.#but oh my god the guitars like dont get me wrong im thrilled w how they turned out but god i wished for death#looks around accusingly whose idea was this >:c (me it was mine)#anyway i am feeding myself on this au this will not be the last u see of it :)#HARD pivot from emo yoi content oops
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I don’t know how they did it but they gave a troll tguy swag,,,, godbless
+ closeup of just the human version bc I like how he came out a lot <3
#trolls#trolls band together#trolls floyd#this design has me frothing at the mouth I am so in love with him#simply just a little guy#thinking about what he was doing during his solo career is fun#HIM BEING EMO MEANS SO MUCH TO ME YOU DONT UNDERSTAND#also. saw someone on twt point out how his ears are downturned#and the only other troll with downturned ears is branch#which only happened when he went gray#which means that Floyd could’ve potentially gone grey at some point#and that thought has me going crazy insane currently
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😭😭
#got tired of wishing someone would gif princess patt (aka the woman whose face card never declines)#so I decided to contribute with my own#shitty screencap posts (TM)#because this bit!!!!!#I know we're all here for anin and pin but this relationship is also v v important to me your honour#I love a good 'dna doesn't make a family love does' situation#(I know princess patt actually IS pin's aunt but you know what I mean)#and I love how you can tell how much she genuinely loves pin and that she really took it upon herself to raise her as her own#which shows in the fact that pin has become an amazing young woman (who has my dream job! you go girl!!!)#and idk man I'm emo :((((#also I was really hoping this scene would end in a hug because they don't seem to ever do it#so it just made me so happy all around#I would die in a battlefield for them#(but seriously CAN WE TALK about how beautiful princess patt is I want to claw my face off#ma'am... I am a weak lesbian please have some mercy)#the loyal pin
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I think one of the reasons the astronaut continues to be so nostalgic and sentimental to me is because its release marked the close of my bts era— not in a sad sudden way, but like a gentle taper out to an end.
I never biased jin, yet his vocals were the start, middle, and end to everything I associate with bts and my time with them as a group. epiphany was the first bts song I ever heard in 2018, even though I wouldn’t stan them for 3 more years. moon is my favourite bts song to this day. the astronaut ending my era with them as my ults is a picture perfect close.
I think jin is under-appreciated as an artist and a vocalist. because of his personality, we mostly love him for his jokes, or because of his visuals, he’s known for his face. yet when he sings songs like abyss, epiphany, the astronaut, moon, or awake, his voice holds a million emotions and feelings in the melody. there is something so timelessly beautiful about his voice, and for the first time since I stopped following bts closely, I’m really so excited for his solo album. I hope he can continue to shine as an artist and a vocalist into his late 30’s and 40’s. his voice is one that will never get old and I certainly will never get tired of hearing him sing.
deep in my bts era, I always used to debate whether my favourite bts vocalist was jin or jungkook. and it was always funny to me why jin made it to such a high ranking when jungkook was my bias. jin didn’t even wreck me like other members, and at the time, I enjoyed his solos, but they weren’t in the ranking to become my favourite timeless songs like they are now that I’ve stepped away.
although I’m not active in the fandom anymore and have disconnected from content and the members, the music still stays, their voices still stay, always reminding me how bts changed my life in such a dramatic way. I couldn’t even begin to imagine how different I would be if I hadn’t found them. it’s not just about kpop, fanfic or being a stan— finding them was the first time I ever found something by myself, for myself and enjoyed it independently without the influence of anyone else. and the start of that was with jin and his voice and I’ll never forget how much he changed my life.
#zanna thinks ❀˖°#in conclusion#jin’s solos are so special to me#and his vocals deserve more credit#and if any of you know me you know I’m a nostalgic and sentimental MESS of a person#so this whole essay (which I deleted a lot of cause it was getting too bts emo) shouldn’t come as a surprise#possible that me writing this at 3 am also doesn’t help at all with my nostalgic feelings#but bts music in general has the power to make me cry whenever#cause it transports me back to some of the best and worst years of my life#certainly some of the most changing and turbulent years#and they were like my rock throughout all that which I think is a beautiful thing :’)#okay anyway goodnight besties
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there's a fantasy series (scholomance) I read where you cast spells with magical energy you gather by doing "otherwise pointless" work, like crocheting things you immediately undo, or push-ups
to improve mood & combat the upcoming nerfing of pregnancy, I signed up for a strength training session with CJ's trainer (and subsequently will refer to him as CJ's trainer even if he becomes my trainer, to microdose the frisson of implied infidelity). I had my first session lifting weights today, and came back wanting to write an effortpost on substack for the first time in months
I cast SUMMON LONGFORM THOUGHT
#rambl#emo repletion#guy talks too much though. I think he's trying to signal competence by infodumping about the muscle groups (which I don't care about)#and also Personability#but I do not want a personable trainer... i do not care about the muscles... i am impervious to being educated or befriended#but sadly. there is no way to say 'i am impervious‚ yet payful. please heed my preferences'
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no one talk to me about how the word virgil uses to describe aeneas killing turnus means "to bury [his sword]" but also means "to found [a city]". christ
#like... killing turnus is what's required for rome to be founded... ohh im emo#i AM a proud turnus fanboy the likes of which virgil was not prepared for when he wrote the aeneid#also aeneas speech to turnus about pallas is literally heartbreaking you can feel his grief through the text#i dont think any english translation ive ever read or done has done it justice compared to the original latin#the verb is condo btw which also happens to be the verb of all time#the aeneid
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"Each unjust act, even committed for the sake of a just cause, carries its curse within." The Accursed Kings, 1956
#tdp#the dragon prince#the dragon prince art#tdp fanart#the dragon prince fanart#tdp viren#viren#tdp lord viren#in his emo phase#which is permanent#It's supposed to be a suit#dont ask him when he slept for the last time#eye bags#eye bags are sexy#how I am supposed to function mom I have an emo fourty year old man to think about#I thought putting him his eye contract seal with Aaravos but I thought it would reduce the whole character to his rs with Aary#while actually viren's blood over his hands is the one he spilt both from the innocent and from himself#im also heavily guilty of romanticizing depression#hmmmm look at his face I just want to caress his cheekbones and to get struck by the grey storm of his eyes#i will never stop drawing him like a sick victorian boy
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Guess what came early!!!!!!!! :3
#i wasn't expecting it yet lol i even had it shipped to my new name which won't become my legal one til beginning of next month but it worked#i ordered it in 3xl just in case and it's a bit oversized which ofc works great with the emo theme lol#the purple print is slightly glittery too which is so so magnificent. i love this sweater so much holy shit#mine#dan and phil#phan#dandandphilshop#dnp merch#face partially covered for privacy but i still wanted to show how happy i am lol. i didn't even plan to be wearing the tit hat i just wear#it all the time cuz i love it lol (and i always need to wear some kind of hat cuz my antidepressants make me more susceptible to sunstroke)
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Important question!!
Do you think Sanji would listen to Cigarettes after Sex?
OH HELL YEA sanji is so sentimental and sensitive, the type of person to appreciate the lyrics and soothing melodies of cigarettes after sex. His heart is so big and so full of love and genuine warmth and emotions, he would daydream with some cas in the background. Look at him he's so lovely
Also he's a pisces and they tend to be huge art enthusiasts esp music. They often use music as a form of escapism and lord knows how much sanji needs that LMAO
Also I heavily associate sanji with cigarettes after sex because he himself is so calm dreamy and sensual. cas songs give u that feeling like you're in a dream, soft hazy and sweet, melancholic, ethereal intimate, very sensual but never vulgar. Sanji is on that level of beautiful sweet elegant and lovely like a dream, a hopeless romantic but he also has so much melancholy in his heart he IS the entire cas discography for me.
Just imagine sweet playing in the background while sanji is doing the dishes or tidying up his kitchen in lazy afternoons I WILL END IT ALL
#you're absolutely right this is the most important question ive received in all years of this acc#i love cigarettes after sex#am i a huge fan of them? and been a fan before normies went and swarmed the fandom? yes.#was ur girl 14 emo asf but listening to greg Gonzalez? yes.#i spend a lot of time thinking about which medias go with sanji#ask#GOATED ask equally GOATED anon
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let me help
prompt: asking for help
whumpee: illya kuryakin
fandom: the man from uncle
hi happy halloween and welcome to my last fic of the month!! it's pre-ship and that's all there is to it. (title from the city on the edge of forever which is a star trek tos episode that i've been obsessed with for years. yeah.)
“Can you help me?”
Napoleon stops dead in his tracks. He can count on…well, no hands the amount of times he’s ever heard such a request from his partner. Admittedly they’ve only been working together a couple months, but still. Gaby’s asked. Napoleon himself has asked.
Illya, though? Never.
“What with?” Napoleon asks, all casual. He doesn’t want Illya to back off, to rescind his trust.
“I cannot—this report. I do not understand what I am supposed to write.”
Napoleon moves over beside Illya and looks down at the paper atop his desk. It’s a standard mission report, and Illya has filled out the basics, but a lot of it is just blank space.
Napoleon gets it—there are a lot of technical words involved in the report, and even he as a native speaker of English sometimes struggles to parse his experiences into the kind of terms the bureaucracy is looking for.
“Yeah, so in this part,” Napoleon starts, gesturing to a box, “you need to write down the equipment you used.”
“Only me?”
“Yes. Gaby and I’ve filled out the same form, so they know what we’ve used collectively. This is individual data.”
“Okay,” Illya says, and Napoleon watches him very slowly write down the name of his gun, his knife, the personal radio.
This feels weird. Not because of the task itself, which is actually quite nice, getting to explain things he understands and help his partner, but because Illya’s already filled out three mission reports before this. Why hadn’t he asked before?
Illya sniffs, huffs out a breath, and says, “I don’t want to write this.”
“I know the feeling, but we have to.”
Another sniff and another sigh. “Tomorrow I will do it.”
This is really weird. Illya is never one to put off work for tomorrow which could be done today. It’s just not how he is.
“Are you sure? I can help you some more.”
Illya shakes his head. Napoleon feels still more strongly that something isn’t quite right.
“Are you feeling okay?”
Illya looks at him very intently, and very deliberately says, “I am fine.”
Something in his expression emboldens Napoleon, tells him he’s right. And so he pushes. “No, you’re not. Something’s the matter, and you might as well tell me.”
Illya scowls. “You don’t know this.”
“You asked me for help with a mission report, and I know you’ve done these before without any help. So something’s up.”
“It’s nothing.”
“Try again.”
“It’s stupid.”
“Better.”
Illya looks at his desk for a very long time. His ears have turned pink. When he looks up at Napoleon, his cheeks are pink as well, and there’s a sort of shame and dismay in his eyes that Napoleon has never seen before.
“I didn’t ask. Before, when I was writing these reports. I thought…I was worried that you will think I’m stupid. Because I don’t know these technical words.”
“I’d never think you were stupid. Not for something like that. Maybe for your propensity to put yourself into extreme danger, but never for this. Even I struggle with what these mission reports want from me, and I’m writing them in my first language.”
Illya nods very slightly. He still looks faintly miserable, and Napoleon is determined to get to the bottom of everything and fix it.
“You can always come to me for help with these reports. Or anything else, actually. If I can help you with anything, ever, just…just let me know.” This is perhaps a bit more than he’d intended to say, a bit too revealing when, all things considered, they haven’t known each other for that long, but it’s true, and he means it.
Only now it seems like he’s done something wrong, because Illya’s eyes have gotten all glassy and he really hadn’t meant to make things worse but of course he somehow has.
“Sorry. If that was…too much. I did mean it, though.”
Illya looks rather surprised by this apology. “Why are you sorry? It’s very kind.”
“I just thought…well, you looked upset. You still do, actually. I was worried I’d said something wrong.”
Illya’s cheeks turn pinker, and he looks away. “It’s nothing.”
“You have to quit saying that.”
“Really, though. It is fine.”
Napoleon crosses his arms and waits.
“Maybe I am sick.” Illya says this very quietly and hesitantly, like he’s not sure of it.
The entire thing suddenly makes sense. The asking for help, the general look of suffering, the lowered emotional barriers. He feels like a fool for not having put the pieces together sooner.
Hindsight is 20/20, he reflects, reaching out a hand and laying it against Illya’s forehead. His partner doesn’t so much as flinch.
The skin beneath his hand is warm to the touch, though not to a dangerous degree. He doesn’t miss the way Illya leans into his palm, just a bit, the way he sinks back into himself when Napoleon pulls his hand away.
Napoleon wants to prolong this contact that Illya seems to be drawn towards. He wants to sit beside him and wrap an arm around him, let Illya’s forehead come to rest against his shoulder, a little too warm, wants so badly to be that little bit of help, of comfort, that makes the illness more bearable.
He checks his watch. “Only an hour left of the day. Let’s get out of here. I’ll drive you home.”
He hasn’t been to Illya’s apartment yet. Doesn’t know if he’s allowed. But he wants to help and is willing to fight for it.
Not that there’s any need. Illya, rather surprisingly, just nods. “Okay.”
Napoleon extends a hand, and it feels like a little victory when his partner takes it and allows himself to be helped to his feet.
Once standing, he sways for a second, braces a hand against the desk, then inhales deeply.
“Alright?”
A small nod.
“Let’s go, then.”
They traipse out of the building without running into anyone else. There’s a nonzero chance Waverly will be mildly peeved tomorrow, but Napoleon will take the fall gladly.
Just before they reach Napoleon’s car, Illya stops. For a second Napoleon thinks, this is it, he’s going to refuse, but then Illya simply says, “thank you.”
He sounds so sincere that it makes Napoleon’s chest ache, just a little. He wonders when was the last time that Illya was driven home by someone. When he was last really cared for when unwell, and not brushed aside or treated brusquely.
“Of course,” Napoleon replies. It’s all he can think to say.
They climb into the car, and Napoleon drives them to Illya’s apartment—he knows where it is, although he’s never been there. What kind of spy would he be, otherwise?
When they get there, he’s again afraid that this is the moment where Illya will have had enough. Where the training and culture of the KGB is going to kick in, and Illya is going to kick him out.
It never happens. Illya does not say a word when Napoleon comes up with him, when he bustles around the kitchen looking for ingredients for soup, when he brings Illya water and medicine and blankets.
In fact, the only thing he really says, when Napoleon is standing by the stove and contemplating what the hell kind of soup he can make with the sad array of ingredients he’s found in the cabinets, is exactly the opposite of Napoleon’s worries.
“Stay?”
“I’m not going anywhere,” he promises, and he thinks that he wants this to mean forever.
thanks for reading! with this i am now a whumptober completionist for six years running isn't that insane?? i am so happy i managed to do all this while doing all my other shit too!!!! i had such a good time writing this month and i hope you enjoyed reading, whether you've read all my fics or just this one. i love you guys!!!!
#whumptober2024#no.31#asking for help#fic#the man from uncle#illya kuryakin#sick#emotional whump#cared for#comfort#my writing#i say things#i am so into this like. emotional vulnerability from a place of illness. i love it. i hope it worked alright!#also i turn 22 tomorrow which i think should be illegal#when the hell did i get so old#also just thinking like damn. i started this at 16 and now i'm here. the Change bro.#yeabh. don't mind me gettin emo about it lmao#anyways i am off to do a chill hangout w my friends i love halloween sm!!! wine and candy and movie here i come <3
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I have a long af post in my drafts, a rambling essay I haven't finished writing about Beetlebabes and purity culture now vs the 80s, 90s, and 2000s.
I also have another post where I'm putting together all the romance beats in Beetlejuice Beetlejuice (following the Romancing the Beat romance structure beat sheet).
And finally I also have two more Beetlejuice posts I haven't finished, one about Betelgeuse's role in the first film vs the second, and one is just a response to another post I never finished typing because I started it days ago in the morning and I had to leave so I couldn't finish it, and then I lost my thread of thoughts, so maybe I won't finish that one. Maybe lol. It was an interesting post about Lydia I wanted to add my thoughts to.
#the posts in my drafts rn#I have a feeling that once I finish these pots my obsession will wane and I won't be posting as much as I'm posting now#I hope it lasts longer... I really love Beetlejuice#and I am really loving this fandom#Most people I've met are so nice and I just feel surrounded by love#most of the time#(except those moments my brain makes me go like “wait everyone hates me secretly” which is so not true lol)#But yeah social anxiety and what not#Anyway I just really love this fandom#In this fandom I feel this warm feeling of community that's rare these days in so many fandoms#The only fandom that has been perpetual in my life has been Destiel for some reason#maybe because I've been here since 2012 and watched Supernatural since 2009#I want my love for Beetlebabes to be as powerful and permanent as my love for Destiel has been#Just ignore me#it's emo hours here apparently 😂#Anyway if anyone is reading this and you're Beetlebabes and/or Destiel fandom just know I appreciate you so much 🥺#I have so much love invested in these two ships#Ok like I have SO many ships#But there's something really special about these two specifically
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Triage: Initial Thoughts
Hello! Venus back at it again with the 4-5 AM theory time! This time we’re looking at Shidou’s second MV, Triage!
I’m going to be going through my various thoughts on everything as usual, going point by point to analyze each thing. I’ll be referencing Triage, his first MV Throwdown, and the always-fast audio drama translation by @onigiriico!
Alright, let’s do this!
Shidou’s kids died immediately, but his wife had a chance to live.
I’m basically just going to give a quick play by play of what I think happened in the video.
Surprise, Shidou has kids! And a wife, but we figured that already. They’re all very cute and all until they fade out like ghosts pretty early on. Before that happens, though, I think that, chronologically, the opening sequence of Shidou walking with some groceries happens first.
He’s just going about his day, walking around, having a great time. He’s intending to take stuff back to his family and cook dinner or whatever he usually does that we see in the cute scenes.
Then, though, he gets a phone call. He answers it (this is the untranslated “Kirisaki desu” part; please let us know if you find a full translation of what he says on the call there!) and we move on to the next scene. However, later, at 1:57, we hear the line die. I think that this is probably Shidou getting a phone call from the hospital. He sounds casual in his initial response because he probably assumes it’s work related, but once he hears what happened, he drops the line and immediately heads over.
I think Shidou’s kids must have died immediately because of Throwdown. Throwdown has absolutely no references to his kids (though he does mention liking children and stuff like that in his first audio drama, which now kinda stings) and, were he also trying to save them, I’m sure there would’ve been at least some references.
I think it’s far more likely that, whatever happened, both his kids died immediately, but his wife was in a condition where he could still try to save her. That’s when Throwdown occurs. Shidou probably focused intensely on trying to save his wife as a way to cope with the death of his children. Then, after his wife officially died, it really hit him that he had nothing left, and he was forced to process it. That’s when he started feeling all the guilt and wishing for death.
This isn’t really relevant, but my best bet is a car crash. It seems like a likely and viable way that his kids could’ve died instantly while the wife could’ve kept living. As a minor note on that, he’s also walking back with groceries, which could indicate that someone else (the rest of his family) might’ve had a car. I don’t remember if Shidou mentions anything about driving or anything like that at any time, but if I had to call a method of death right now, that’s what I’d go for.
NOTE: I do want to disclaim this by saying it’s also possible that one of his kids was the flower person in Throwdown. He gives a receipt to one of his kids, so that could make some sense. I need to go back and compare the flower person in Throwdown with the people in Shidou’s family now that they have appearances. I also need to reread his first audio drama; he says something about it being fitting that Es is judging him, which could check out if his crime relates to trying to save his kid instead. If I am wrong and it was one of his kids that he was trying to save, then everything about what I’m saying still checks out; just swap everything I say about his wife with one of the kids.
Shidou purposefully showed us the least forgivable parts of his crime in Throwdown.
Looking back on it, Shidou painted himself in an awful light in Throwdown, and I’m sure it was intentional. After all, he was trying to get us to give him a guilty verdict. If you say that a prisoner like Muu might have been altering what part of her story we received in order to get her desired verdict in the first round (innocent), Shidou could absolutely do the same thing with a guilty verdict.
He doesn’t show us any of the context of his loved ones and how much he loved them; that was all stuff we had to read between the lines of. We see him butchering plant after plant only to end in horrific failure without ever seeing him succeed at anything surgical. (He still should’ve hypothetically been saving lives while doing all of this; it’s not like he was ONLY killing people.)
He even shows us the horrified reactions of the loved ones of patients he killed. I can only imagine that he would do that if he was trying to spark a negative reaction in us.
In contrast, this MV is very straightforwardly showing how the day he lost his family went for Shidou and directly examines what verdict Shidou wants (more on this later). I think, therefore, that this is probably a much more honest view of the situation than Throwdown, at least in terms of how Shidou perceives the truth.
Shidou is constantly plagued by the guilt of what happened.
The simplest way to explain this is with this image:
When showing Shidou’s family turning to ghosts, he views the man that he used to be as dying with them. Shidou, as he was, is dead. Still, what happened clearly still impacts him. That’s pretty obvious, but I’m talking down to the details. He mentions kids and liking them in both of his audio dramas. Further, take this lovely image:
Pancakes. Shidou made pancakes for his kids. In BOTH Minigrams 3 (Pancake) and 24 (Pancake: a Second Trial) Shidou is directly shown talking about pancakes and their relation to children. He really wants Amane, the young child, to try some. It seems like he used to make pancakes for his kids before they died. He’s very clearly not recovered in any sense. That’s not surprising, but it’s still something to point out.
Triage takes place almost entirely before and after Throwdown.
That sounds a little confusing, but all I mean is that Throwdown is completely isolated from this MV. Some parts of this MV happen before the events of Throwdown; those are the ones featuring Shidou’s wife and kids, as well as the ones where he simply looks younger. The other parts are clearly looking back at the same time frame, but are from Shidou’s present perspective, here in Milgram. Those are the ones where he reflects on his verdict or directly addresses what verdict he wants.
Most directly, I think the part at 2:14 indicates this. Shidou, looking back on the death he caused (knives in the pomegranates and other food, dead flowers, receipts from the surgeries that we also saw in Throwdown), says “I want to be INNOCENT / I want to live.” That’s him, in the Milgram prison, right now, coming to terms with the fact that he actually, genuinely wants to live right now.
In the audio drama, he’s clearly conflicted. He still says that he wants to die, that he wants to atone for his sins and that dying is the only way he can make it up to the people he killed. He also, though, says that, at least for right now, he wants to live. Futa and especially Mahiru are on death’s door, and there’s no telling what other injury might occur. He believes he’s essential to saving lives within the Milgram prison (and I think he’s 100% right).
He even directly references this in the song lyrics, talking about “extracting the fang.” The fang is clearly Kotoko, given that Milgram has referred to the damage Kotoko does with fang imagery before and given that that’s what he’s currently healing. He has to be the one to save them because he’s the only one who can; as a result, to save lives, he has to care about his life right now. While he’s still unsure of what final verdict he wants, he knows that he needs to stay alive, at least going into trial 3.
VOTE: INNOCENT
Personally, this one’s a no-brainer. Es theorizes in the audio drama that Shidou only harvested organs from braindead patients, and though he never outright confirms it, based on his responses, it seems to me like that’s true. That means his crime isn’t as severe as we initially thought it was.
Additionally, he’s right; he is indispensable to us right now. He outright says in the audio drama that if he stops giving Mahiru care, she’ll die, whether or not anything else happens to her. That basically tells us that voting Shidou guilty means Mahiru dies. That’s not good, and I’d rather avoid prisoner death when we think it’s possible.
I also just don’t think it’s smart to change verdicts on him here. If we decide that, after all is said and done, we can’t forgive Shidou, we should do that with the third verdict. Here, we want to leave both options open. Right now, Shidou is torn between wanting to live and wanting to die. If we switch to guilty, we’ll ruin any chance he has at recovering a will to live and a will to atone through any means other than death. If we want to preserve the option of forgiving him in the end, I think we have to forgive him here. We can debate whether his actions were forgivable or not in the last round.
#admin venus#milgram#ミルグラム#kirisaki shidou#shidou kirisaki#milgram theory#i'd like to apologize if this is incoherent#i moved around a bunch of paragraphs and i don't wanna proofread rn#i have to pack and go home for spring break tomorrow and it's already 5 am#the lights only just came back on recently#it's been a power out for a while over here which is why the other admins were talking about battery so much#also the mv didn't have english subs right at the drop so we watched in french for a hot minute#that was fun#also apologies if i'm too much of a shidou apologist but legit i feel like his crime is at least extremely understandable#and he does genuinely seem to want to help#the audio drama made me emo though ngl#like... oh... THAT'S why you were commenting on Es being a kid and all that so much...#i lost my train of thought. anyways have your initial thoughts#i'm gonna try to get the futa/mu/shidou full theories up over the next week or so cause break
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i'm on season 2 of my teen wolf rewatch and i somehow forgot how hard scissac goes. i've had to pause battlefield multiple times to giggle and kick my feet about them tbh
#shut up meaghan#“i'm asking for your advice.” “from me? why?” “because i trust you.” bitch wtf!!! i am mere seconds from crying!!!!!!#scott being one of the first people- if not the first- to show genuine care towards isaac (“i don't want you to get hurt.”) has me emo#and isaac is among the first to voice such strong belief in scott post-bite which has me even more emo#i just think that they should kiss a little
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Red Earth & Pouring Rain - Bear’s Den
#in which i am emo about claude yet again#Claude Giroux#Philadelphia Flyers#Ottawa Senators#resting tragedy face strikes again#g#loml
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I'm pretty depressed and am aware that the process of exiting this step needs to be split in some way across myself and others, but The Horrors present themselves to me as one atomic entity; whenever I attempt to explain The Horrors it feels like I simply make a copy of the atom, pass it to a friend, and then it vanishes out of their hands
#i am also on my fifth day of covid quarantine in my room which outside view seems like it should be making things worse#but inside view seems to improve things#rambl#emo depletion#ah well. good old 'we have been where you are but we cannot lead you out'
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