#In the grand scheme of the universe
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I've been sitting on a few tabs for about 3 years now lol
Ngl it was such a surreal time. The world was falling apart, everyone was starting hunker down at home. Meanwhile, I had been doing this for 8 years already. I was at my old job 3 years in, absolutely hating life. I mean, I hated plants, animals, humans, most of all I hated the person looking back at me. At this point I had not done any psychedelic since 2011, and I figured I could either trip and see if I found a reason to keep on breathing, or we can park on the railroad tracks and play chicken. SOOO I bought a few strips, and fuckery ensued. As soon as my deposit hit on Friday, and I got off work I would stop by CVS grab some flavored water, snacks, etc head home and eat 4 hits and sat alone in my room for 16 hours. This routine went on for about 3 months or ? Idk I went on a bender, there's even this awkward Instagram live stream of me watching LOTR and crying. I remember bawling thinking about how much Arwen and Aragorn loved each other, and how much I longed for something so beautiful and pure. Then I thought about Frodo and how he would've been doomed without Sam. How beautiful it would be to have a companion who saw behind the mask and still offered to share the burden when they saw the monster behind it. I vividly remember waking everyone up at 3am because I decided to take a break from the Siege of Helms Deep; and watch some Bob Ross. Suddenly, nothing became something. A sky, and breathing clouds just like the ones I would see out side suddenly appeared. Then, after this God created the sky he made the the sea's and a shore line to hold it back. Suddenly I yelled out "BOBBY WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME BABY". In the condensation, and lucidification of these moments (and countless others) It was that I realized just how much I craved to live as that curious child. Marveling at the wonders of love, and creativity. Suddenly, I became an actual hobbit. A admirer of drink, and food with a deep love for all things that grow. As a side effect, if I even look at the storage unit, where the Russian nesting doll of boxes containing the tabs I have left; I feel sick and super nauseous. All this to say, that lately I don't feel like much of a hobbit, and I feel more like a Dwarf that's weary of all the Humans and Elves who lurk in the world outside the mountain.....and maybe I don't feel as sick looking in that direction anymore. Who knows, maybe a little reset is all I need to get back on track. If the rich whites in silicone valley can do it why can I not experience a little ego death, with a dash of psychosis? A little perspective shift from all the bullshit and maybe, just maybe the foresight to see past the mountain of anxiety and stress I'm staring at.
#personal#so many words#all to say#nothing#because in the end#In the grand scheme of the universe#We're all insignificant atoms#who happen to be configured in such a way#that it allowed consciousness to be a thing#Even the fact that there is something#rather than nothing#is absolutely meaninelss#Thins either are#or they're not#and a very nice big chunk of the suffering#we inflict on ourselves and on others#is really because we want to change the nature of reality#to match the nature of our desires#also tl;dr#lets tune in turn on and drop out
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I feel like if Dipper were ever reincarnated as a demon, he wouldn't fit in super well with the others. Yes, he's been raised to vie for power and step on everyone in his way using whatever means is necessary - it's the same toxic bizz as when he was a human, appealing to gender norms. He's tougher, scarier, more powerful (than ordinary humans, that is), but when it comes to asserting control - being Evil - he doesn't have it in him. Given enough time, I think he'd grow pretty vocal about leaving living things alone. NOT torturing organisms for the hell of it, or stealing people's souls, or conquering planets. Sure, he's a demon. That's no excuse to be a MONSTER.
It's a VERY unpopular opinion amongst neighboring demons, and rumor spreads fast about the Goody Two-Shoed Activist imp raining on everyone's blood-splattered parade, so much so that it makes it to Bill, who's immediately intrigued. Call it intuition, but only one soul's capable of overriding goddamn demon nature for some preachy bullshit about "Doing Good." Lucky for him, demons occupy the same plane of existence, so all it really takes to verify the guy is a snap of his fingers, and POOF! He's floating right next to him. Sure enough, Dipper's fashioned himself a new and improved demonic form, and it is lovely!
No one likes Dipper's kumbaya "Can't We All Just Get Along" ideology, but Bill's almost instantly smitten with the guy, whoever he is, so he's gotta be at least somewhat powerful. Demons take notice when the all-powerful Bill Cipher starts lending his time (and magic?) to some low-leveler like Dipper. Is he being blackmailed? Are they working together? No. Not possible. Bill doesn't "work" with anyone, save for whatever human catches his eye every few decades. Doesn't look to be doing him any benefit, either. The opposite, even. Lending power to a saint like Dipper only makes it harder to cause chaos, after all. Why would he actively go against his OWN best interest to cater some imp's? It's almost like he's. He's.
A henchmen.
(Bill's also 30% more affectionate the first month they reunite, because he still can't believe that his adorable little human husband came back as the same SPECIES as him! He'd never complain over having a sweet human to squeeze, but one with teeth and claws and cute pointy ears doesn't hurt).
#answers#I can't help but picture demon dipper starting out all like#I'm Bad 😡 I'm Mean 😡 I'm Evil As Heck!! 😡#And still having a HUGE hatred for things that are Unfair or Unjust. One time he saved a kitten from a tree and got embarrassed about it#Eventually he just has to give into his nature and speak up about all the BULLSHIT he sees going on around him#Sorry Dippin' Dots even the society that 'raised' you can't prevent you from your do-gooder ways#Don't worry Bill loves you for the stupid idiot you are#Everyone is completely BAFFLED by Bill acting like a friggin' henchman though#I bet they don't even peg it as romantic interest at first. Dipper sure doesn't#He's thinking this is some Grand Scheme to convince him back into the evil fold#And to be fair Bill's very tempting in that respect. But not leaning as hard into it as he *could* be#Maybe he thinks Bill's trying to 'mentor' him for something. Seems like the kind of thing Bill would imply and let Dipper fill in the gaps#They're technically not the same SPECIES since Dipper's probably some human-shaped 'demon'#And Bill's originally from a two-dimensional weird universe. Technically speaking he's His Own Thing#Aside from whatever refugees escaped that plane. If any.#Demon covers a LOT of different beings that don't have much or any genetics in common#But you KNOW Bill's thrilled as hell that Dipper's Slightly More Immortal than usual!! This one's gonna last a WHILE#*slams fist on table* Give Dipper A Tail With A Tuft That Bill Can Pull To Be Annoying#Final thought: In this incarnation Bill might have been wondering where the hell Dipper got to since there's no human around#Given a long enough time he might even wonder if he was LOST#So you know that when Dipper reemerges on the scene everyone else was dealing with a VERY unhappy Bill Cipher for QUITE a while
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"i hate that twilight became an alicorn because now all her friends are gonna die and she's gonna be alone forever" ‼️ WRONG ‼️
you can have your thoughts and feelings on twilight becoming immortal or having a much longer lifespan or whatever all you want but objectively she will not be alone. for one, celestia and luna retiring doesn't mean they're dead and gone, they will absolutely still be there for twilight and will still help and guide her. secondly cadence is not much older than twilight and will probably rule just as long as her and will be by her side the whole time, along with flurryheart. dragons are confirmed to live thousands of years so spike will be with her for a very long time too. and in the end even if all that's left is twilight, there will always be discord.
i understand that mlp is a series that primarily focuses on the mane six but we see in the show time and time again that their core friendship is not the only important one and i think twilight as the princess of friendship knows that better than anyone. it would obviously be extremely difficult for her to lose her five closest friends but she would not ever be alone.
personally i really love the idea of her becoming the mentor of all the next generation of element holders and making many weird and wacky and interesting and cool new friends along the way. but maybe that's just me lol
#mlp#mlp fim#twilight sparkle#my little pony friendship is magic#quilly rambles#the more mlp takes i see the more i think a lot of these people didn't actually watch the show lol#like....no...the other mane 6 did not need to become alicorns or princesses 💀#what are you even talking about 😭#ik twilight is the mc but in the grand scheme of equestria she's not the centre of the universe#not everything can cater to her#also just pretend g5 doesn't exist when you read this 👍🏻
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im so scared for my year abroad but if im so honest with myself i do not want to settle in england idk where i want to live when im grown up but its not here. & if i can be brave enough to move to two different countries all on my own within the space of a few months then i'll be brave enough to live anywhere i want for the rest of my life i just have to get it over with and it will be less than a year. but its so scaryyyyy
#partly its my severe social anxiety partly its just money worry.. i dont think im poor in the grand scheme of things but compared to other#people on my course i really feel like i am like i do not know where they all get their money from a lot of them dont even have jobs#university is just all about everyone in ur social circle having richer families than you....
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Thinking about how now, that I decided to rewatch the cartoons that made my childhood I notice a lot of stuff that I've never seen before
Like little me didn't care about why the character did certain decisions only that that decision helped the bad guy
But like, now I get the emotional complexities of certain situations better and can understand the weight a situation actually holds
It really feels weird to watch something for the first time while being younger than the main characters, and now revisiting the same work but being older than them
Like I'm so sorry, you were just a child and none of that was actually fair and I was too young and foolish to notice that
#thinking#nostalgia i guess#rewatching#this is about a lot of things#but be aware that I'm fairly young in the grand scheme of things so those cartoons aren't that old#honorary mention#steven universe#atla#tlok#adventure time#probably other stuff too
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read a fic tagged with. well. actually. I'd rather not say. and the plot was actually really captivating and I got invested and this is just kind of an embarrassing moment for me
#me pressing the subscribe button like 😐😐😐😔😔😔😔😔 THIS IS FOR THE PLOT. THE POLITICAL INTRIGUE#if you ask me what it was I'm not answering but you can guess and if you're correct I may confirm if I'm feeling frisky#(<- offer does not apply to those with access to the discord messages about this)#the tag isn't even. that bad. in the grand scheme of things and the greater design of the universe but to me personally well#also it's 5 in the morning yet again for like the 3rd week in a row. babygirl I need a factory reset
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i've gotta say it's such a massive pet peeve of mine when people refer to the hephaestus as if it's hera. hera runs the hephaestus, she is connected to the hephaestus, but she existed separately from it before and will exist separately from it after. the hephaestus in some ways functions like an extension of her, though many parts of it are out of her control, and with that in mind i think it's interesting to consider it's maybe the closest thing she's had to a body when discussing embodiment and disability, but it is very much not her body and not a physical representation of her. two different things.
#just remember on twitter when gabriel urbina aligned the hephaestus in 'spaceship that hates you' category on a chart#and someone said hera loves them by the end like. not the point. she is not the spaceship. she is running the spaceship.#i think there's a strange way where. it doesn't really matter i guess. in the grand scheme of things. but#people often say things about hera that i think would qualify as in-universe microaggressions and i feel weird about it.#hera wolf 359
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3: there are creatures out there, that view us the way we view bugs.. we are like ants, in this universe..
Brig: Bugs have changed the course of wars..
Brig: Did you know the Americans partially owe their so-called liberty to the mosquito? No amount of gin and tonic can cure British soldiers of Malaria-
#classic doctor who#3rd doctor#brigadier lethbridge stewart#not the same tone or words as the audio (AWOL) - the brig and 3 are having a serious and civil conversation about life and Earth#but i do find it funny each time i listen and Brig is like “Any solider will tell you this bug fact-” - like he makes a good point that#humans can make a change make an impact on the universe (even if they're just 'bugs' in the grand scheme of things) but also no soldier is#telling people this fact Alistair! it's only you#'i have three interests - the military - gardening - and bugs. i can bring up two of them in this conversation'#(another bit of evidence for the autistic brig hc lol)#(please yall - AWOL is a great audio piece!)
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Apparently, it’s not universally known, but if tumblr won’t let you like or reblog a post, then you’re likely blocked by OP. You’re not being shadow banned, censored or mistreated by tumblr, that’s just how blocking works. Same for voting in polls.
#not that this actually matters in the grand scheme of things#I genuinely thought this was a universally known thing on here but I’ve seen a lot of people thinking they’re shadow banned
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I know it’s bc he’s my comfort character, but I’m genuinely pissed off about fred in the new series. if you watch any version of the show, fred is a sweetheart who loves his friends and always wants to help people. even when he’s the mayor’s son and very well off in mystery incorporated, he’s such a dork and a genuinely nice person. yes, he’s a little un-self aware and ofc a himbo at times but he’s never been mean spirited and I’m sick of people writing him to be
#fred jones is a good person god damn it#I know it really doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of the universe but I’m Upset okay#thank u for listening#scooby doo#sd#fred#fred jones#it me
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"M...M... Mom...?"
Ah yes, the greatest foe of every man
✨ Mommy issues✨
Previous >> Next
@starry-eyed-samantha
@thepersonaking56
#bunbunart#gargoyle steven au#steven universe#my art stuff#su au#my artwork#su au art#su au ask blog#cat anon#after some time out due to health issues#i realize that im gonna speedrun this arc and the battle is gonna be cut short#why?#because yes#garga still gonna get his ass beat though#just not in the grand scheme i was planning#rose quartz#rose quarts steven universe
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#please for the love of god#i need people to stop telling me to “just be strong”#in response to me saying I'm not ok with my brother being dead#im not ok with how he died#not ok with never seeing him again#absolutely feel like i am walking around in the worlds slowest nightmare#one of my “aunts” actually tried to tell me that maybe this was a blessing#because maybe this car accident saved him from cancer or something#im sorry what?#you want me to be thankful that my 27 yr old#perfectly healthy and strong baby brother is dead#because maybe someday he could have possibly died of cancer instead?#i know people just want to help and make me feel better#but i don't need to feel better right now#i need to cry and rage and miss my brother#who was unfairly taken from us by an unfair and random universe#it was not part of some grand scheme of gods#it was just a horrible accident#i just want to be sad and grieve in fucking peace
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jack is the one who believes in zodiac signs and astrology. davey is the one who thinks it’s complete bullshit.
but davey is also the one who searches up taurus and cancer zodiac compatibility when he’s first developing his crush on jack, just on the off chance that the stars really do have something to do with his love life. and davey is also the one who is so much of a realist that he thinks jack’s ramblings about star, moon, and sun signs are stupid, but god if he doesn’t love listening. and davey is the one to secretly look through the astrology memes that jack posts to his instagram story, just to learn more insight on how jack sees himself, based on which memes he relates to.
and davey doesn’t believe in astrology. he doesn’t think that the stars can dictate who he loves, how he loves, what he loves- he doesn’t think that his life can be tied to something as lofty as space and birth.
but listening to jack ramble on about it, and realizing that jack believes in this because it helps him make sense out of the world- helps him make sense out of himself- makes davey realize that maybe he can make an exception to the belief.
#jack is lofty and idealistic at his core because if he’s Not then he’s Miserable#jack searches for meaning in EVERYTHING because everything has to have meaning.#fate. dreams. manifestation. he’s desperate for something to hold onto so if he can make something real for himself? he’ll take the chance.#but davey has never been able to dream like that#davey has too much responsibility on his shoulders. he has to be in control of his own life bc thats all he has#if he believes in fate and dreams and random chance then all of his hard work is over#because then it means that he didnt get something because he Worked for it. he got something bc it was Meant To Be#in the grand scheme of the universe or whatever#and davey HATES that bc he wants to be in charge of his own legacy#so to him astrology and zodiac shit just feels like a slap in the face and makes him feel unintentional#like hes just another drop in the bucket ig. but jack. jack clings to those dreams and lofty ideas for comfort#idk i love dreamer!jack and i love him so bad#jack kelly#davey jacobs#david jacobs#newsies#livesies#javid#newsies musical#jac txt.#jac’s headcanons
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Sorry about the theater of emotions going on my face from across the room. I'm trying to resolve an argument that I made up between two fictional characters.
#personal#sorry i didnt tell you that your brother was killed and replaced by a robot#it seemed pretty insignificant to me in the grand scheme of things#more then that id known for so long my mind defaulted to assuming#that it was universal knowledge for everyone#and in that reality that i learned the truth you were unaffected#if it means anything to the both of us i never used that knowledge to grow closer to you#i used that i knew you were a good man to want to know you#where you would be to find you#who you chose to align yourself to be worthy of standing at your side#we shared a bed for rest#and each other for comfort#we could have built a home and were taking all the careful steps to grow closer without scaring the other away#without scaring our own selves away#and were amazed by the ease in which we fell into each other#you look me in the face and say you understand how i could make this mistake#and we both understand why this can no longer be#but this world is indifferent and in you and in i and in each other we have found someone kind#is it selfish of yourself to yourself if you choose to not only allow us to continue but want it to?#what i have done by not doing may remain unforgivable#i will never ask of you any different#but it does not make us impossible#even if every law of societal standard should say otherwise#society is not you it is not i#it shapes us and frame out lives#but our willingness to act for or against it is our own decision#however unconscious
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hector castlevania 🤝 wyll baldursgate
being treated absolutely horribly by the narrative because somehow the writers didnt see anything wrong with depicting a dark skinned man being treated like an enslaved pet as long as it's by a dommy mommy
#admittedly while hector has it worse in universe wyll has it worse narratively#because at least in the grand scheme of castlevania adaptations they kinda realized they fucked up and we have anette in nocturne etc#but with wyll its like. hes already in dnd. dnd is racist as hell. and then its like Oh but hes a warlock he Chose to be in that pact
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The title of volume 26 is ‘heading south’. I don’t think our king is coming back anymore guys🫤
The title and the fact the cover looks like a memorial w the flowers and stuff.....they really wanted us to suffer 😭😭
It's common for the title to be the last chapter or a significant chapter of the volume so maybe it's just that (copium)
#u know in the grand scheme of things we are but a tiny speck in the ever expanding universe#so what is and isnt canon really doesnt mean anything at the end of the day#what im saying is reject canon and make up ur own#anyways satoru is alive and well idk what this gege guy is saying
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