#If you hadn't said that i would've thought it was the real thing 😭😭

[axtivaqe]

Life is strange Double Exposure is NOT canon

So its been getting around that Chloe isn't gonna be in Lis DE and I have never been more devastated in my life. Deck nine said they were going to respect the 2 decisions that players could've made, yet they practically said "fuck you" and took Chloe out of the picture. I just don't understand why though, like 50% of the fanbase picked sacrifice Arcadia bay and it was mainly because we are huge pricefield shippers (idk about y'all but I am). And their not stupid, they know about the pricefield ship and how much people wanted to see Chloe and Max in another game. They literally said they were going to follow through with the original games and the 2 decisions at the end, but then they completely scrap the idea of Chloe and Max being together, and they didn't even want to tell us. People had been asking about Chloes role in DE since the game first got announced, so why would they leave our questions unanswered for so long? It makes no sense on their behalf and its js overall bad marketing, They made it out that Chloe left Max because she didn't want to do long distance, but thats not Chloe at all. Chloe is the girl who dedicated her WHOLE journal to letters for/to Max in before the storm, Chloe is the girl who wrote "and she probably has all new friends up in fucking Seattle, i still miss her. if she came back tomorrow and said "hey Chloe, want to dress up like pirates and be stupid together?" i would take her back in a heartbeat." after she hadn't seen or spoken to her for 3 years, Chloe is the girl who told max that they would last forever and that she would never leave her. They completely mischaracterised her and made the whole sacrifice Arcadia bay option pointless, they spent 10 years together and Chloe throws it away because she cant do temporary long distance? Thats not like her at all. I see people saying "its realistic though, a relationship built from trauma isn't healthy" and it really annoys me, like yes their right, but thats in the real world, its a game about a girl who can jump between realities which isn't realistic at all. And don't even get me started on the rumour about Chloe flirting with VICTORIA.

But the game still isn't out yet, I mean we only have the first 2 episodes and I'm not sure if all of this is confirmed (if it is how do we know when we only have the 2 episodes?) or if people are just taking the 2 episodes and their story line, and then putting the pieces together. I was having a convo with someone in the comments under a yt video by Cucu on Games about how Chloe will be in DE (the video was made 3 weeks ago before all this info came out) and we both thought that maybe Chloe will come back into max's life in one of the last episodes, maybe she misses Max and hears about what happened with her friend Safi and comes to see her and reconnect with her, because surely Deck nine, a huge game company who know what their fanbase wants, wouldn't use false advertising by making us think Chloe is gonna be in the game only to scrap that idea after saying they wanted to respect and follow the two choices players could have made.

Its a really controversial opinion and I've seen a few people say it makes sense and its part of Max's character development, but Id say most of the fanbase isn't happy about this whole thing. I mean of course I'm happy to be able to see Max in another game, and we're lucky to even be getting another lis game. But to make us think we're going to see Chloe and then let us find out that we aren't is just bad marketing. If they never intended to have Chloe in the game then why wouldn't they answer everyones question, 'Is Chloe going to make a physical appearance?' (they would've 100% seen people asking because their social media pages are flooded with the one question about Chloe) Lmk what you think tho, and if you made it all the way through this then thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this long ass rant 😭

[froggywritesstuff]

abed's rom-com | abed nadir

pairing: Abed Nadir x g/n!reader

fandom: Community

request: @lilfartbox1 (i am so sorry for the wait 😭) : please any abed nadir comfort / fluff pieces like theres a little angst of them miscommunicating their feelings for eachother and then find out theyve both been doing the same thing of trying to make the other jealous etc

content warnings: not proofread, fluff, angst if you squint extremely hard

word count: 910

A/N: yikes this is rushed but i recently started watching community again and this had been in my drafts for too long so i wanted to finish it

Abed knew he wasn't the best at dealing with his emotions, often turning to his favourite sitcoms and movies for help. Especially when it came to romance. He hadn't had as much experience with it as he would've liked, so when he realised he started liking you in a romantic way, he quickly became panicked. You were part of the study group, meaning if he started liking you it could potentially ruin the dynamic of the friendship. But when Annie told him you felt the same way about him, he knew exactly what to do. Except he didn't. It wasn't working the way he had planned. He'd been reenacting an age old trope; person a makes person b so jealous that they eventually confess their feelings for person a. He started off small, making sure you'd see him catching glances at some random student in the cafeteria, and zoning out as if he'd been thinking about someone else. That was half true. To make it realistic, he'd always think about you when he pretended to zone out. When someone - normally Annie, who Abed told all about his plan - would catch him staring at someone and begin to tease him about it, he noticed how quiet you would get, how you wouldn't engage in any other conversations and would even leave because you were 'late for something else'. He didn't like it. The last thing he wanted was to know he made you upset. But no one in the movies ever stopped their plan halfway. As much as he wanted to, he didn't stop his plan.

He suspected that his plan was working when you started doing the same thing he did and made him jealous. It was either that, or his plan had backfired and you thought he didn't like you so you moved on. Either way, he still felt insanely jealous of whoever you began to like- whether they were real or not. He needed you to confess to him soon. Very soon. Being so jealous as well as not being sure if he had any reason to be jealous was driving him insane, he couldn't even focus on studying. Not that much studying was happening though.

"Abed, is everything ok?" he barely even registered the question, and was not able to recognize who's voice that was.

"What?" he mumbled back, his mind still elsewhere as he spoke with the group.

"We asked if you were ok." Annie began speaking, "You seem kind of out of it today."

Troy nodded, "Yeah, you and Y/N." Abed's head perked up at the sound of your name, suddenly giving Troy his full attention, "Neither of you have laughed at anything I've said today." he said, looking quite sad.

Abed looked over to where you were sitting, the two of you meeting eyes. You looked at each other for a moment, before announcing to the group you had to leave, not knowing that Abed was following behind you. You stood in one of the more secluded halls, startled when you saw Abed next to you.

"Shit, you scared me." 

"Sorry," he said, making less eye contact than usual, "I wanted to tell you something."

You nodded, signalling for him to go on.

"I like you, Y/N." he was quick with his confession, after hiding his feelings for long he wanted to get straight to the point, "I know you like someone else, but I need you to know how I felt." as he spoke, the situation became more and more real to him. No matter how cliche the plot between the two of you was, it wasn't a cheesy rom-com movie. It was real life. And in real life, there wasn't a guaranteed requited love story. There was a chance you could reject Abed's feelings, and his friendship with you would be ruined. "I'm sorry if this makes things awkward between us," he said, a frown taking place on his lips, "You're one of my closest friends, but I couldn't keep this from you, that wouldn't be fair to you."

You watched and listened to his confession intently, seeing how genuine his expression and words were. He wasn't playing a character, or just reenacting a scene - no matter how much his confession sounded like it was taken straight out of a rom-com - it was real.

"Abed," you began, "There's no other person. I made that up." you explained, though a part of you figured that he guessed that already, "I only acted like I liked someone else because I thought you liked someone else."

He couldn't help the smile forming on his lips, "I made that up too,"

His smile was contagious, as you quickly felt your lips turning upwards into a smile as you laughed softly, "You should start making romance movies."

"I have no interest in doing that. I could but I don't think I'd find it very enjoyable." he paused, "But I appreciate the sentiment."

"Speaking of movies, would you wanna see a movie with me sometime?"

"I would like that. We can look at session times together when we're finished studying. We should also get back to the library."

You nodded, unable to stop the smile growing on your lips as you asked, "Do you wanna hold hands when we walk back or...?"

He smiled softly and held out his hand for you to hold, "I would like that."

"Cool." you took his hand.

"Cool cool cool."

[newwwwusername]

if u see this, thanks for reading 😭 and if requests are still open, can I request a chansaw fic where they’re college roomates, and then they were roomates

TYSM and if u cant i still wanna wish u happy holidays

Do not repost to other sites. This fic will be ported to Wattpad and AO3 under the same username

As soon as Veronica met her new college roommate, a blonde by the name of Heather Chandler, she could tell that this girl must've been one of the top dogs when she was in high school.

Heather dressed sharply and her makeup was always on point. Her posture was perfect and she carried herself with an importance that Veronica found herself envious of.

Initially, Heather was a bit of a bitch. She clearly viewed herself very high in comparison to those around her and, while Veronica definitely considered her roommate to be a friend of sorts, she didn't really like Heather Chandler all that much.

It wasn't until Veronica came home to find Heather hyperventilating over a homework assignment that she properly considered that this plastic woman had any real interiority.

It was easy to write off Heather as a mean girl who hadn't matured past high school yet. It was harder to grapple with the fact that even mean girls have feelings.

"Heather?" Veronica said softly as she approached the blonde, who was hunched over her desk with her head in her hand, breathing heavily and shaking like a leaf. Heather immediately straightened up to the best of her ability, but it was nothing more than a cheap mockery of her usual stoicism.

"The hell do you want?" she snapped, though her voice came out crackly and Veronica could see now that she'd been crying.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, freak" Heather turned back to her desk. Veronica peaked over to find a book open and a blank sheet of lined paper next to it. "Go away"

"Maybe I can help"

"Why the fuck would you want to do that?"

"I mean, you're kind of a bitch, but I do care about you" Veronica told her earnestly. Heather looked at her again, her expression more vulnerable this time. "What's the trouble?"

"...I can't read this" Heather said, avoiding Veronica's gaze as she handed Veronica the book.

"How come?"

"I'm..." Heather swallowed thickly, stealing a quick glance at the other woman to search for judgment. Heather was many things, but she wasn't weak. She'd lose her shit if this nerdy little brat thought she was weak. However, no such thoughts were evident on Veronica's face. "I'm Dyslexic. The spacing is too close together and I can't read it"

"Oh" Veronica said, a bit taken aback. Heather seemed so perfect, she would've never imagined the girl had a learning disability. Even more, she didn't expect her to admit such a thing to her college roommate who she didn't seem to think very highly of. "That's okay"

"No, it's not" Heather objected firmly. "I have a book report due in two weeks and it's a huge part of my grade. I'm going to fail and then get kicked out and then all this will have been for nothing!"

"Heather, hey" Veronica soothed. "It's gonna be okay. You could get an audiobook"

"This book doesn't have one yet, it's really new"

"Oh" Veronica hummed in consideration for a moment. "I mean... I could read it to you"

"...You'd really want to do that for me?" Heather asked, surprised. "I've... I've not been the kindest to you"

"I want to" Veronica nodded. "And, in return, you can focus on being nicer. Not just to me, but to everyone. You're kind of a bitch"

"...Okay, fine, deal"

[mysticmellowlove]

Teen Yan x teen Fem where he just wants to be with her so so so so bad. He can’t function without her. Every since he met her in a book store a few months ago he couldn’t get enough. He has never been in love but he knows he loves her more than anything this quadrant of the universe could provide. He knew that he found his purpose in this world and it was to serve her. It was such a coincidence that on summer vacation they met at the bookstore but even more so when she said she just moved to his home state and town which was across the country from where they were for summer… it’s almost like it wasn’t real!

Little does he know that she was manifesting and creating a perfect scenario in her head of how she could meet her twinflame and it came to be! Anyway back to the point. They make it back to their hometown at different times but the whole time he was away from her after meeting he could only think of her! He didn’t have many friends or even a friend at all at school.

He was beautiful but his personality kinda put everyone on edge because he was so quiet and intimidating but in reality he was just a shy thing. Only she would know that though. She was homeschooled maybe a couple years younger than him and didn’t have anyone at all that’s why she was manifestation for wishing for her eternal love.

They meet up again to continue their friendship but he just can’t believe that’s she’s real! She’s just so perfect he couldn’t have even imagined it. She’s so beautiful. He’ll do anything for her! It’s almost like he’s a whole other person with her. He still comes off very intimidating to people but when they look at him with her he smiles and laughs and blushes. He just wants her to be with him. Eventually he confesses to her basically begging for her to give him a chance because he knows that if he isn’t with her he will never be with anyone ever. She is the one he has always needed. She will be his ruler. He tells her he’ll serve her forever, be her lover, her best friend. And she accepts because he’s all she’s ever wanted too.

Omg that was so long ik I never write but whew

You can do what you please with that. You don’t have to make it a fix if you don’t want to because the plot is pretty long like multi parts lol. I’m fine with you just reading it 😭☝️❤️

Xoxo 🍪

a/n; just a little something something. anon honestly popped off, this was delightful to read. (also this is unedited, today's been long and i wanted to start working on some of the asks)

One - His

He couldn't believe what he was looking at. Standing in the aisle before him was the most perfect looking girl he had ever seen. Everything about her seemed to draw him in, the way she seemed to block out everyone around her as she read the blurb of the book, the way the sun hit her face just right, the way that she was dressed... it was as if she was his perfect match.

Instantly he felt himself grow lightheaded as he ducked around the shelving. His hand clenched the space above his heart. After all the daydreaming and reading he had done... he found his one and only love. He had found the one he wanted to devote himself to for the rest of his life and she was right in front of him.

His eyes widened, why was he standing here like an idiot! He hadn't seen her around before, this might be his one and only chance to talk to her. If he had been in a better state of mind he would've deflated a little at the thought of her going back to her hometown but he was too wrapped up in the moment to care about the future.

He coughed into his hand and walked out from behind the aisle. However, before he could walk casually over to her he found that she was right before him! He jumped a little, his face heating up as she smiled at him.

"Hey, I saw you looking at the sci-fi section. Do you have any recommendations?" He couldn't help the dopey look that crossed his face. This was going to be the start of something beautiful.

Two - Hers

A grin crossed her face as she looked in the direction of her kitchen. Her parents were out tonight and she had invited him over. All that work she had done before summer break had paid off. She had seen it in a dream, there was a person out there that was made for her. Someone who understood her like no one else would. Someone who knew just how to make her laugh, a real friend... someone who knew what it was like to be on the outside.

She could hear him bustling around in there, putting his cup in the sink. She had seen how he looked at her, that unbridled adoration. That was how she knew it had worked.

"Hey, thanks for inviting me over." Of course it couldn't last forever, he had to go away soon but she had a feeling that they would be seeing each other again.

"No worries, I'm glad you decided to hang out." He grinned at her, sitting down next to her on the couch as the final scene of the movie they were watching played out. He was so close, she could feel the warmth of his thigh on her own. His 'sneaky' glances, his attentiveness, the way he seemed to hold himself around her... as if he wanted to give her the whole entire world. Finally, she felt special.

[megs-msdd24]

hello!!!!!! good to see the sa fandom is making a small comeback 🩷 do you have any headcanons on shane the best character ?

Hi friend!!! In fact, I do have headcanons about shane the best character 🫣 The first part is headcanons along the line (they follow the story line) the next bit is more headcanony? yeah <3

Shane ♔

this bit is like before his mother dies

-As a kid he's a picky eater (that's the first thing off the top of my head sorry 😭) Like the chef is running back and forth cause shane said he didn't want whatever it was they made. Later on he just gives up and has a small list of the limited foods baby Shane will eat

-He loved adventure; playing pirate, pretending to be a dragon, and climbing into high places were some of his favourites. Before they lose a good chunk of the staff, he'd rope some of them into his games and get them to build different props for his imaginary adventures.

-Like any younger brother would, he messes with Drina a lot. And like any younger sibling would, the second that Drina retaliates he's calling for his mother.

-whenever he and Drina fight, their mom would lock them up together inside their playhouse (the green and pink one from The Book of Shane: Venom) until they made up (not rlly but shh 🤫)

-A bit of a sad one, but when their mom first gets sick, Drina starts getting back at Shane because she knows he can't get any help 😔

Moving on-

-By the time Drina is stuck with the bonding sickness, almost all that happiness is gone

-when's she's stuck in bed he comes and tells her all these whimsical stories or he talks to her about all the places they'll visit when she gets better

-he also has to convince himself-he just really wants to get out the castle

-we already know he thought about running away and he knows it's very serious but there's a small part of him that thinks "it's just another adventure right?" "all my adventures have been inside the castle, this is the same thing except it's real." He's trying to help himself out ok? 😭

-but then Zerif shows up and shows him a different hell

-you see, if Zerif hadn't pulled up with his cure all potion maybe he would've run away with Drina. Maybe she could be helped even a little bit. Maybe he would've lived some cottage core aesthetic life idk 🤷🏾‍♀️

-All I know is our friend over here wouldn't have gone on a world wide rampage 🙃

-I said this in a previous post, but Shane is absolutely in shock at all the things he gets to see as a Conqueror.

-so before the Conqueror's officially start rampaging, he goes off and tries all these things and eats different foods

-In the towns that they stayed a really long time in, he visits some specific stalls over and over again, spends all his money there and the owners just instantly know him and what he wants

-later on after the Conquerors ravaged said towns he feels really really bad about it.

-and then he meets Abeke

-once they're better acquainted he brings her on his market adventures too and they have so much fun

-just two friends hanging out

-side note: Abeke shows him all the good market stalls and the best food ones while they're in Nilo

-and he's just so happy he's got his first friend in a long time and everythings going so well for him right?

-well not for long 😏

and that's where I leave you for now :D I'll do a part two to shane's headcanons along the line but here for now have some proper headcanony headcanons

♔

-Shane loves reading (you know how I said he likes adventure? He got it from those fantasy books)

-whenever he had a meal that had any speck, shape or form of a food he didn't like? The meal? gone. Out in the trash. Later on when he sees war ravaged places he instead just picks out the part he doesn't like and gives it to someone

-After Gerathon is finished Shane kinda grows to like Grahv. He talks to him and Grahv will just lie down, eyes shut and huff. In a better life if Grahv was summoned naturally Shane would brush his plates and scales to help him clean up

-You know how he escaped on Halawir? It was a revelation for him

-he loved the rush of air

-and he's so upset after cause he can't get the same feeling anymore

-After living in such a hot country that's basically the equivalent of Australia, he's travelling anywhere cold. His favourite place was Arctica until it blew up 😃

-Ok that's all friend! Hope you like them <3

[redrabbitspod]

YOU GOT ROBBED ?! Can we have a story time ?

Um, no? Andrew fucking stabbed him before he robbed us?

Okay, here's a story time for you since I know you've missed them.

To start, let me just say we have a ridiculous security system. Like, they probably don't have this shit at the most secure locations okay. My uncle procured it and idk from where, we'll leave it at that. Now, because of this, we've had to tinker with it so we don't get an alert every time one of the chickens beaks a worm to death (RIP worm). Because of that it basically just alerts us when something sets off the security lights.

Now, we're in bed. It's like 3AM and we're sleeping soundly AT THE SAME TIME which happens a lot but it also doesn't happen enough that we appreciate it when it does (trauma lol). Both our phones start buzzing and Andrew fucking ninja kicks out of the bed like someone's burst through our bedroom door and not at all like his phone is softly buzzing near his head. I don't move at all because honestly I'm tired and Andrew seems like he has it handled. A few seconds later I hear who the fuck and that's when I also karate somersault out of the bed to find myself holding a weapon and ready to go. Because that meant a PERSON was setting our shit off.

Andrew's all grimly pulling his arm bands on like 'stay here' and after I got done laughing in his face we crept downstairs. We were watching this person go from shadow to shadow like they thought they could avoid the security lights and it would've been funny if it weren't so sad. We watched him sidle up to the back doors and try the handle and then pull something out like he was going to try to pick the lock. The alarm only hadn't gone off at this point because Andrew disabled it on his phone before it could. So we let him try to pick it. Because why not right? It was laughable. It's an electronic automatic lock like, my brother in Christ. It was never going to work.

Meanwhile Andrew pulls out a donut from somewhere istg I have no idea I guess they were just there in the kitchen which is where the back doors are and we're just hanging out listening to this fucker cursing at the door. Eventually Andrew shoves the last of the donut in his mouth, straightens his armbands and throws the door open.

Okay so listen. Andrew doesn't just stab people unless they deserve it, you know? We were just going to scare the shit out of this guy but then he pulls a gun when he sees us and barrels his way into the house like he's a one man swat team or some shit. Andrew wasn't even phased but AS SOON as that guy pointed a gun at me? Whew. WHEW. It's still gray sweatpant season friends and Andrew sleeps shirtless so this idiot is fucking HALF NAKED with his LONG ASS HAIR everywhere with BLACK ARMBANDS and he pulls a knife out so fast and just stabs THE FUCK out of this guy. Portrait of a small hot man titled 'don't touch my things'.

I'm laughing just thinking about this.

Like right in his side. He crumples to the kitchen floor and I look at Andrew and he looks at the guy and I'm like we're never going to get the blood out of the grout 😭 and Andrew's like he could have killed you you fucking idiot and I was like that gun isn't loaded. The guy at this point is trying to like crawl away so I put a foot on his back to hold him in place. Where tf do you think you're going?! Anyway so Andrew checks the gun and yeah. Not loaded. Like I said. I could just tell idk.

So then what do we do? We COULD call the cops but who wants to deal with the cops? Not perfectly law abiding citizens like us. And let's be real idk why this guy is breaking into houses. He sure broke into the wrong one and he was lucky he didn't step on a cat or something bc I'm not sure he'd have lived to tell this tale. But Andrew calls Aaron 1. To make sure they're okay and no one tried anything over there because The Nieces live there and 2. He didn't want to bloody the Maz or the GS so Aaron's shitty Honda would have to do.

We tie the guy up, load him into Aaron's Honda (I drove because I'm a great getaway driver and Aaron threw the keys out of his front door and said I DONT WANNA KNOW before slamming it again) and dumped him in front of a hospital. At this point Andrew had a shirt on but it was fine because he let me be the one to threaten the guy and if there's something I'm great at (besides being a getaway driver) it's making people believe my threats.

Anyway the guy pissed himself in Aaron's trunk and we're just waiting for him to realize it ☺️

THE END -N

[cagedchoices]

Having watched all 4 installments of the M.atrix saga, I think W.estworld's season 4 finale looping everything back to season 1 is really only *half* a story without a 5th season. 😭 I do think that Dolores's game running in the Sublime is her retelling that story exactly as it happened. The events should happen exactly as she remembers them, and as a result, there shouldn't be any deviation in the first iteration of the loop.

But, in a similar way to Akecheta showing Bernard how the other hosts would use the Sublime to trial possible realities, other worlds of their own choosing — I think Dolores would have to do the same thing on subsequent loops, trying to change the outcome to get the story to end differently.

And something about it *must* change eventually, because we somehow end up with a version of William returning to the real world in the far future. One who is testing if there does exist any reality where he doesn't murder Emily, his own daughter.

The one thing I still don't know if I fully understand with that concept is that if the choice has already been made, then it can't really be changed, even within a simulation. It would be written in William's "code" so to speak, so for any copy to have fidelity to the original William, he would have to kill his daughter. Any reality where he might successfully choose not to kill Emily will mean that that copy can't be a completely faithful recreation of William, in the same way that James Delos's copies couldn't be considered successful since the copies ended up being more empathetic about his family than the actual human version proved to be.

I find looking at the M.atrix as an example particularly relevant since in the 2nd movie, there's a scene where N.eo, in discussion with the Oracle, asks her how he can make a real choice if she already knows what he'll do in advance. She tells him that he's not there to make the choice. It has already been made. He's there to understand why he has to make it and given full self-knowledge of what it means, to test if he can willingly make the same choice again.

The 3rd M.atrix movie deals with this again on the Oracle's end while talking to M.orpheus and T.rinity. Mostly it's a way to explain why they had to recast the actress playing the Oracle's role after the original passed away, but it works in-universe because it implies that the choice the Oracle made cost her a life or her vanity or something about her old self that she would've been attached to and unlikely to part with willingly.

And like Bernard once said:

BERNARD: I always thought it was the hosts who were missing something. Who were incomplete. But it's them. They're just algorithms designed to survive at all costs. Sophisticated enough to think they're calling the shots. To think they're in control, when they're really just...

FORD: The passenger.

BERNARD: Then is there really such a thing as free will for any of us? Or is it just a collective delusion? A sick joke?

FORD: Something that is truly free would need to be able to question its fundamental drives. To change them.

BERNARD: The hosts.

FORD: Here you are... the last of your kind. There's only one question left to ask. Is this the end of your story? Or do you want your kind to survive?

Bernard started out as Dolores's exact recreation of Arnold, and she said he was too faithful a copy. He made all the exact same choices Arnold had to the point that he came to the same end, and having fidelity to the original caused problems in that way, so she changed him and made him into a version who could survive where Arnold hadn't been able.

In theory, creating host duplicates of humans that possess the ability to act in ways that the human originals might not, makes those host copies... more alive...? than if they were only ever predestined to make the same choices. But by that same token they then cannot have fidelity to their originals because the choices they make will be different.

Take Caleb — Hale's main reason for creating 278 copies of him was that she was trying to understand how he was able to disobey her command. She thought that it might relate to the problem she was having in her world with hosts killing themselves after they interacted with human outliers. For that, she needed a version of Caleb who would make the same choices and be driven by the same motives the real one was. But most of her attempts seem to be missing something, because she doesn't get the answer she's looking for.

It's 278 who finally survives long enough to get a message to Frankie and tells Hale point blank that her hosts don't want to live in her world. In his view, she's created a world that is as artificially constructed as Westworld and Rehoboam's world both were, to the point that it's not real. (Real in this context refers not to any physical qualities, but a presence of meaning and purpose to life, which Hale's world lacks.)

279 was never intended to escape his prison unless he chose to become one of Hale's transcended hosts, which he refuses because he, also, does not want to live in any world Hale creates. Through Dolores intervening by sending the guards home and unlocking all the doors in the building, he does escape and reunites with Frankie, and then I've talked about this before, I think choosing not to leave the city with Frankie was him doing something the real Caleb probably? wouldn't have done, which means he might be the most alive and free version of Caleb that exists.

[deaconsleatherpants]

I couldn't not write something for Halloween 😭

"It is bullshit," Deacon said, frowning as he hovered around the bottom of the ladder you were standing on, wearing an expression that was - rather contradictingly - equal parts nervous and irritated. You only huffed in response, leaning up to hang another large and fuzzy fake tarantula on a nail protruding from the wall.

In many ways the flat already looked like a haunted house come to life, from the bloody dishes Deacon had once again let pile (to dizzying heights) in the sink, to the naturally-occurring spiderwebs that blanketed entire surfaces and were surely only several years away from getting up and walking away on their own. But it was still Halloween, and you didn't want to let the season pass by without putting up just a bit of festive flair.

From your position halfway up the ladder, you looked down at the floor below, to the jumbled assembly of little pumpkins with malevolent golden grins, and fluorescent ghosts on strings, and you shrugged.

"It's nice. Festive." And you reached up to dangle a plush bat off the balcony. Deacon rolled his eyes, although his lips quirked into a reluctant smile.

"If you wanted to see a bat, you should have just asked," he grumbled, the toe of his boot scratching along the carpet as he fidgeted, clearly somewhat bored yet not willing to leave your side just yet. You couldn't help but laugh.

"You know, I would've thought you'd like Halloween. What with it probably being easier to hunt prey, almost every fifth person you see is dressed up as a vampire." Looking at the floor, you started to climb down from the ladder, and flashed him a smile when he instinctively reached out to steady it.

Deacon looked thoughtful for a second, although he didn't look entirely convinced either.

"Well yes, in some ways it is nice, but... it is like nobody fears a vampire anymore. Like we are just jokes." His face fell, though when you sympathetically took his hand in yours he quickly changed tack.

"And what are these... these things you are hanging?! There are real spiders in Vladislav's torture chamber! Or the stupid pumpkins - in my day it was turnips!"

You smiled again, though it was a little more serious now. With a sigh you stepped closer, giving his hand a little squeeze as you leaned up to kiss his ever-stubbled cheek.

"You're plenty scary when you want to be, Deacon. I certainly don't see you as a joke."

He gave you a grateful smile, stepping closer and peering skeptically down at the pile of decorations you still hadn't hung up yet.

"And if it makes you feel any better, I still haven't shown you my costume." You let your tone hang suggestively, loving the way his face lit up, and he immediately dropped the plastic rat skeleton he'd just picked up.

"Oh, but I thought it was bullshit, now?" You couldn't help but tease, grinning at the way his nose crinkled with slight distaste in reaction.

"Well, yes, it is bullshit, but maybe sexy costumes are okay." Deacon waggled his thick eyebrows at you suggestively, making you laugh. His smirk quickly softened into something altogether sweeter, and he leaned in to wrap his arms around your waist, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of your head. His skin was cold, like it forever would be, but the little gesture made you feel warm inside all the same. Just the way it always did.

"Okay, maybe Halloween is not so bad. Not if it makes you happy."

[johnslittlespoon]

https://www.tumblr.com/hogans-heroes/746685005077544960/the-most-powerful-one-so-far-im-crying

Have you seen this buckbucky edit yet?

BIG OL' MISCELLANEOUS ASK POST!!

1) UNFORTUNATELY (said with love). that edit made me cry like a mf, my soul is too soft for those two to stay dry eyed through stuff like that. but god it was BEAUTIFUL.

2) ohh 100000%. it's in my post–war buckbucky playlist, it fits john's pov so well. it's so angsty, working through mental health issues in the aftermath, learning how to communicate with gale and ask for help when he needs it, just wanting to be by his side 24/7 but feeling undeserving of his love and also being afraid of how much he loves him and how much gale loves him back </3

3) omg no don't be sorry!! i am someone who listens to a little bit of everythinggg don't sweat it. i gave it a listen and YOWCH that hurt wtf?? it does fit bucky in that time so well, our poor sweet boy. :( also i still feel so bad that my only curtbucky fic is an mcd angst one LOL i need to fix that soon <3

4) another one i hadn't heard but nooo it absolutely is. all the angsty pine–y songs fit him so perfectly </3 he just wants to feel someone love him the same way he loves!! but also: 'i know i should be angry, but i can barely feel a fucking thing' is very plane–wing–scene :(

5) NO. NOT FUN. i have such a hard time listening to that song as is but thinking about it with post–war john in mind has literally made it 10x more painful and now this edit 😭 i tried to make an angsty edit to it a few weeks back but i started crying every time LOL phoebe just hurts too damn bad when you pair her with mota stuff. i adore her <3

6) SGDKJG honestly a wild day for us. she cracks me up like no one else <33 but OOO okay so i'm a strange one alright i grew up adoring anything fantasy/sci–fi, ate every novel and movie and show up, but in the past few years i've sort of lost interest in that vibe? which makes me really sad! but i've just been enjoying more slice of life stuff in terms of media i consume.

so i think if dune had come out when i was in like high school, i would've been obsessed, but even if it's not my go to genre, i still thought they were beautiful movies, perfect casts, managed to hold my attention as someone who can barely sit thru movies 99% of the time, the sound design was incredible, 10/10. no complaints.

but listen.... at first i was like "yummy feyd" as a joke. i serious'd very very fast. like i knew i'd be attracted just bc, i mean, c'mon, it's austin lmfaooo, but my brain chemistry was genuinely altered. i haven't like properly fleshed out any au–type of brainrot because i honestly didn't retain enough info about the dune universe (again. i am not a good movie watcher, i do not do well just sitting down and paying attention to one thing for three hours lol) but i do think some sort of crossover where john is in the dune world would be interesting!

let's be real, most of us would probably just wanna see john and feyd fuck nasty so. not sure it needs much elaborating on LMFAO and i'd be surprised if someone doesn't end up writing a fic like that– wouldn't be surprised if there already are some!

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

Hey, so I'm new to your blog, and what I've been reading so far is very interesting. I'm also a joker but a very sane one 🙃😭. Anyways, I came into the fandom late and was immediately attracted to jikook because of all the ships I've seen so far (and I have NEVER shipped anyone because I just didn't see what others did) jikook was the most suspicious I have ever seen. And like i said, I'm a sane joker because a lot of moments that jikookers believe in, I debunk real quickly because I actually have common sense and logical reasoning. Like for me, I'm still so confused about the jm flying in for jk bday for a couple hours and then leaving....I was like, "Huh? 🤔" It didn't make no damn sense. There's some other instances that make me 50/50 (because that's what I am, I have no definite possibility of knowing or not knowing, so I'm just leveled. It's what keeps my sanity, and it helps with seeing through a biased mindset. ) but like you said, the good times outweigh the bad. With the 2nd chapter, it's very hard to see anything because there's no content. Things HAVE changed, sad as it is because I didn't get that jikooker experience in real time.

But I wanted to ask you, you said that in early 2021, you realized then that things changed. Can you say exactly what your breaking point was? A lot of times when people are asked that, they mention a compilation of moments but I want to know what EXACTLY was the moment that made you say "okay, alright...that was it...no more".

(Btw... you can call me Night Anon, since I'll be here regularly 😭😭. I really like when I can have a discussion with sane jokers (well, you're not a joker anymore, but you understand)).

Hello Night Anon, it's been so long. I used to keep in drafts some replies to post them later as to not have so many consecutive posts talking about the same thing, and this is one that I never got around to posting.

There were two specific moments that I remember:

First it was Jungkook not knowing of Jimin's 7 tattoo.

Second one was him saying on vlive that Taehyung's the most handsome person he's ever seen.

A lot of other things happened before, in between, and after but I think those two were the moments that really broke something and damaged beyond repair my opinion of their relationship, especially from Jungkook's side.

I'm aware the tattoo one could be "debunkable". Maybe he acted like he didn't know/remember, but to me it's a extremely weird thing to lie about. Normal, mature, sensible, logical way of going about it was Hoseok. Hoseok got asked on live about Yoongi's tattoo and he said "Yoongi has to be the one to show you". Jungkook listed everyone's tattoos (even Jin's, who hadn't really shown it before) and then was like "no idea about Jimin's". I always took the things they said and did to face value and accepted it. In 6 years I was never one to be dissecting and trying to find a hidden meaning or reason for why they did or said certain things. If it happened, it happened. I was always capable of accepting the things they said even when I would've liked to believe something different. So I accepted that he didn't know or remember about Jimin's tattoo because that was what Jungkook said.

As for the second time; pardon my french but if someone's eating my pussy on the regular, I won't go live in front of millions and say "actually, her best friend is the most beautiful human being I've ever seen". There was no excuse, there's still no excuse. Maybe it's just me and my silly female brain who takes respect and loyalty too seriously like that.

Then, another thing that was "smaller" but it was always at the back of my mind, was Jimin. He used to pretend like he was about to "kiss" JK, right? And it was actually limited to JK only, it wasn't something he did with/to other members. But then he started doing that same thing with Taehyung (memories 2021), and also with Hoseok during his bday live this year. I just never thought Jimin of all people would do stuff like that, even as a joke, if he was in a relationship.

[loufromthestars]

To whom it may concern, here are some thoughts on the documentary:

(this post contains, of course, spoilers)

it was good, overall. it thoroughly portrayed certain really important things that marked louis' journey as a soloist not only from his point of view, which was still the most important one, but from other people's points of view, and that was something i actually enjoyed seeing. hearing how he experienced certain things (like 1d's break and jay's decease) was somewhat shocking because, even though it was something that i knew affected him a lot, getting to hear all of it, his version, hit a lot harder because it felt a lot more real. it reflected perfectly his struggle after all those decisive things he had to go through in order to become the artist, and most importantly, the person he is today. and the way louis' journey progressively became something much brighter was such a beautiful thing to see. it made me so proud and filled me with joy because louis deserves all of this, and even more. i must say it made me connect with louis in a way i think i hadn't before, which i found just lovely.

now, regarding the babygate - everything about it was just reaaaally awkward. i remember seeing the first appearance of the kid and feeling like everything was just so weird. like there was certain tension in the silence that filled the first few seconds and it was almost painful to watch lol. they were, of course, just trying to portray louis as the best father, but the kid's appearance was just too sudden and didn't quite feel like it made a lot of sense. the first appearance was really weird and awkward and unnecessary. but it wasn't something we weren't expecting, anyway.

what was truly funny, though, was the way people talked about him. there was this guy whose name i can't remember that said wonderful things about the kid and such, yet this guy was merely a management member lmao. while they did have louis’ grandma talk about the kid, she didn't even call him by his name (she literally called him ‘the baby’) and said very irrelevant stuff about him, which was fucking hilarious.

(even my bf, who had literally no idea about anything, felt so awkward watching the first interaction lmfao)

then the kid made another appearance at louis' show, and they showed the backstage footage and stuff. that wasn't so awkward anymore. but, again, his appearance was too sudden. i laughed so hard when i saw louis hugging the kid just so they could be heavily photographed 😭 i feel like the kid was so irrelevant that he could have just not been in the doc at all and no one would've noticed, honestly. but then again, it's not a surprise whatsoever.

luckily, it's a very short amount of time and i do believe that the rest of the footage is completely worth it.

conclusion: i quite enjoyed it. i think it was a beautiful portrayal of louis' journey as an artist from one direction to his solo career.

i am beyond proud of louis and look forward to all that's left for him to live and achieve, and i will continue to endlessly support him no matter what.

thank you for reading <3

[tddyhyck]

just read the first scene of the fic. screaming crying no thoughts head empty (teared up for real u don't know how much i loved this and when i'm on computer i'll let u know exactly how much 😭)

THE PART ABOUT HIS FEET IS SOCUTE HOW THE FUCK DO U MANAGE THAT

I'M GONNA GO MAD I WAS WORRIED U'D BE GROSSSED OUT BY THE ASK I SENT U (the thing i said about jeno) BUT U WROTE WHAT U WROTE FOR CHENLE IM SCREAMING

just finished reading it n i'm going to cry for real this is the hottest omo fic i've ever read (so tmi but if i hadn't had this kink beforehand, u would've made me discover it today, i like it that much) and i want to CRY

~ur prospective new anon (kinda forgot what emoji i asked for 🤪)

OMFG i’m so glad you enjoyed 🤭🤭🤭

StOP i was worried to put it in like im not a feet person but when doms use their feet as a power move it’s sO hot it’s very you aren’t even worth my hands have my feet instead ya know ,,,

LMFAooo not weird at all that is very light work 😭 i wasn’t originally gonna have that in the fic but like i needed to do it it had to happen ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

i’m so so glad you liked it!! it was such a speedy write for me,,, welcome to the omo club 🤭🤭

[isadora-greenhall]

Okay just finished s2e32 here's my thoughts lolol

...I woke up two minutes ago, put the episode on, and that opening was better than dumping a bucket of ice water on me for waking me up what the hell asdfghjkl 😂

That Linc teen fact is too freaking cute I lost i laughing ahaha aww

Thank you for the beautiful sound design, Esther! 🥰

The portal already being closed is the funniest fucking thing 😂 when will this fandom learn to never expect anything ahaha

...and rip everyone who keeps expecting normal to snap each episode 😂 (like don't get me wrong I reckon he will too, but him admiring Hermie's school spirit is sooo much better ahaha)

NORMAL WAS GONNA STEAL THE CHAPPERAL COSTUME?! Ahahahahahahaaaaa

Oooh, getting Willy and the Mayor to turn on each other is fascinating 👀

Nevermind lmao

"His adoptive parents...presumably" 👀👀 I heard that Anthony lol

"We're minors so we can't go to gaol" Linc is reverse-Ron for real 😭

Oooh we're back on Willy and the mayor 👀

"After our fees" Taylor is just like Glenn asdfghjkl was just listening to the Roqueporte arc and the way Glenn got money out of those poor people for saving their kids 💀😂

Asdfghjkl use Cassandra's skills please!!!!!!!!!!

Oh Grant and Marco 😭

This fuckibg plan is so convoluted I fuckibg love it 😂😂😂

Oh god now I'm scared Scary's gonna fail to convince Willy and he's gonna do something to her 😭

Nonononononooooooo he's maaaad nooo

I'M SCARED OF FUCKIBG WILLY AGAIN

OH THANK GOD

fucking spider climb 😂😂😂

Oh my god the fuckibg Live Photo thing my heart was POUNDING ahaha why are they making this so nerve wracking I'm so TENSE

AHAHAHA I THIUGHT THE GIRL STUFF WAS THE PEEING TOO AHAHAHAAA

Willy would pass 204X Urology class 💀

Just a thought - why do they have to get money and shit out of the scam? Like Mae Hailes said, scams are extreme pranks where you get something out of it - surely just getting to goofs realm being the think they want is enough? Idk just thinking lol

ASDFGHJKL the message not getting to Nick 💀😂😂😂

Oh god Scary's so scared of Willy

Tears in my eyes over Matt's reference 😂😂😂

Oh lol yeah I forgot we haven't seen what larger San Dimas is experiencing under the yoke of the mayor lol

THEY COULDVE USED THE HUMAN GUN FOR THE PHOTOS AHAHAHAHA 😂 like I know they vanish after a while but they could've got them to lie down still lmaooo and OMG THE SCAM could've been 'if you do this for us we'll let you live our lives' and when they died they would've realised they were scammed and that would've opened the portal to goofs realm asdfghjkl

Oof the doodlerised people are so spooky 😬

AHAHAHAHAHAHA NO WAAAAY that's the best way the portal could've opened ahahahaha

Funny ep 😂

Other thoughts: I like to think Cassandra was trying to phone Taylor the whole time because she realised she hadn't actually asked him where he was late ep lmao

[vrmxlho]

bruh i posted my fucking hcs while i was in middle of writing them 😕 anyway here it is copied and pasted:

omg aiku is so fucking ajfsdkhjbf every time i see him i go feral,,,, ALSO YES MORE PEOPLE NEED TO READ GOKURAKUGAI THE ART IS BEAUTIFUL +++ i'm pretty sure this is gonna be ooc because i'm really just making shit up so i apologise in advance lmaoo +++ also im sorry its so short i have no idea what to write 😭

cw: swearing + not proofread because who wants to relive this nightmare??? + probably really ooc but this is my blog so i will do as i please honestly 😒 + suggestive but nothing sexual

LEONARDO LUNA レオナルド・ルナ

his love language is either physical touch or giving gifts

he absolutely adores holding you and he always physically on you, either an arm over your shoulder or a hand on your knee, sometimes he even makes you put your legs on his simply because he likes it that way

but at the same time he is 100% the most infuriating person alive and he prides himself in being annoying

at least he's funny ig

he's constantly teasing you, flirting with you excessively

if he hadn't already told everyone in his life that you were his s/o people would've still been able to guess as much

he's like an annoying puppy who always follows you around asking you to play

he's also incredibly petty, like if you ignore him by mistake or leave him on read because the conversation had ended he's purposefully going to do the same to you

even if the subject of the conversation is actually quite important

nothing can get in the way of his pettiness

"leo, can you please fucking answer me???" he only looked at you briefly before continuing with his stupid hair. it had only been like this for about five minutes but you honestly felt like it had been a century. he was being so fucking annoying. "leonardo luna i swear to god, if you don't fucking answer me this instant i'm going to bash your head in." "i'd still be really attractive though, so i don't really-" "will you please stay on topic for once in your life?" "annoying isn't it?" "THE CONVERSATION HAD ENDED YOU SAID 'OK' AND THAT WAS THE END WHAT ELSE WAS THERE TO ADD????" "you can always add an 'i love you'." "boy. be fucking for real."

forgot to mention that he's also rlly vain

by that i mean he pretends to be vain

he pretend to care about his looks more than he actually does because he thinks its funny

it is sometimes

i am a firm believer that he was one of those kids that was fascinated by the ocean and just any type of water body

he wanted to pursue geography and maybe be a marine biologist before he became a football pro

that's why is his ideal date is renting a boat and going to sea caves to scuba dive in

he insisted on the two of you taking scuba diving lessons together because he wanted to swim with sharks and sea turtles

i feel like he was a summer baby, specifically a leo

because my irl best friend is a leo leonardo

he's also the type to collect shells and make shell necklaces for you

once tried convincing you to change your name to sally and start a seashell business because he thought it would be really funny???

concerning

he's naturally funny but at times he says the dumbest things unironically

his favourite way to destress is to have long bubble baths with you while you both chatter about your day

not necessarily in a sexual way

he just enjoys being physically close to you while also being surrounded by water

leonardo luna was exhausted. you could tell as soon as he entered the house. his usually bright and blindingly positive aura had dulled. his eyes looked distant and he walked with a sway. fatigue made his limbs heavy and he hummed softly before he collapsed on the sofa. "are you okay? leo?" he had already begun snoring slightly when you finally reached him. you chuckled a bit. you wouldn't mind leaving him like this. he looked so cute. his silky hair falling gently on his nose and his cheeks a bit red from the slight chill in the air. but he smelled. reeked of sweat. he must've been too tired to even shower after practice. you weren't about to let him sleep in his sweat, it was simply gross. so first, you tried pulling him off. but not only was he a massive man who weighed a lot more than the usual groceries you carried. he was also resisting making it even harder for you make him budge. so you kissed his forehead, hoping it would wake him up. nothing. this time you pinched him. which worked, because now he was stirring. he opened his eyes which burned with anger and frowned at you. "come have a shower with me." suddenly his eyes were wide and bright again. he basically jumped off the sofa and carried you to the bathroom. he was tired but he didn't mind the extra exhaustion that would come from carrying another human being, since it was you. as soon as you got to the bathroom he basically ripped your clothes off and you were in the shower giving him a massage. then washing his hair and running your hand over his back soothingly. he didn't look tired anymore, it seemed like your presence had woken him up. or perhaps he just didn't want to miss out on your touch. "how was practise?" "couldn't stop thinking about you."

his kisses are always hot and passionate

loves holding your face when he kisses you

as if its the last time he will

he loves how his hands are big enough to hold your entire cheek

your first kiss wasn't awkward at all except for the fact that it was in front of the paparazzi because he loves PDA

unless you genuinely hate it he's always holding your hand in front of the cameras, kissing you, full on making out and everything

is a failure in the kitchen but is surprisingly good at following instructions

you'll never have to cut an onion when he's around!!

real men cry 👍

OLIVER AIKU 愛空

you've made it

you are now dating the hottest man on earth, the biggest playboy in the world has settled down

cuz you're just as hot

but that's exactly what makes him so possessive and jealous

it's not that he doesn't trust you he's just a little insecure, why else do you think he always broke up with his previous flings?

he's scared that if you got to see him for who he really was (as if you haven't already ☠️)

however, whenever he sees you talking to someone he doesn't particularly like he'll come up beside you and pull you close to him by the waist

and if you look uncomfortable he'll literally take you to another setting so you feel better

his love language is words of affirmation!!

he loves hearing how much you love him and how much you wanna spend time with him and how you'd kill for him

but at the same time he absolutely loves teasing you and making you get all flustered

oliver had been feeling down. he didn't really know why. it was 3am and he had this deep pit of despair in his stomach. you looked so peaceful on the bed, sleeping softly and scrunching the blanket up a bit. "how can someone so perfect want to be with me?" "if you're going to be so depressing i might actually break up with you..." you had turned around to stare at him with your tired barely open eyes. you weren't a light sleeper per se but your deep connection to aiku meant that you could feel something was off even if you couldn't see if with your own eyes. "sorry, did i wake you?" he moved back into bed. pulling the sheets over you a bit. "you know i love you right? and i wouldn't even dream about leaving your or whatever you were worrying about." "but-" "no, shut the fuck up. it's late," you pulled his arms around your body and placed yourself right onto his chest, " and i'm cold, so do your job. warm up the bed."

bought you an emerald promise ring after the first date because he instantly fell in love with you and he's suddenly discovered that he was actually a big romantic

(emerald to represent his left eye, left being the side the body your heart is in)

as a playboy, the first date was all a ploy to impress you but also give the impression that he wasn't available so breaking things off or ghosting you wouldn't be a hassle

he took you to a fancy restaurant

for once he wasn't two timing you

anyway after all this he took you to the beach to go on a walk where he asked you if you wanted to go skinny dipping

it was his first challenge, if yes, it would be fun, if no, then he had a reason to break things off with you

but the look of indifference you gave him made him crave more

he could already feel his cheeks heating up and from that day onwards he couldn't stop thinking about you like at all

after you got into an actual relationship you both avoid going back to that restaurant because of just how dull that night was

now your dates consist of going to the arcade, doing some karaoke and then maybe watching a movie while living off of buttery popcorn

he honestly has such a beautiful singing voice

would definitely be an idol if he weren't a footballer

he's a huge ABBA fan i can feel it in my soul

his ideal date is having a picnic by the beach and then playing beach volley until you both decide it's too hot and go for a swim

honestly any summer activity would be his ideal date

oliver aiku was probably breaking countless laws right now. it was the end of summer, the nights were short but warm with the skies clear, starry and gorgeous. aiku wanted to celebrate by firing his homemade fireworks he had spent about 2 months making. and you were certain that this was illegal. but he didn't care. "oli- i don't think this is safe..." "don't worry about it, i'm here to protect you." you could almost hear the smirk he was wearing. "you're no lawyer, i won't be breaking the law with you." "oh you're no fun." he looked at you with fake disappointment. frankly, if you weren't in a good mood you would've just left him to his frolicsomeness but you were also sort of intrigued. you really wanted to see what two months of firework building could get you. "make sure we don't get caught." "i'm no amateur love."

likes pulling your hair when kissing

and he's not one to give one quick kiss and run, they need to be deep every single time

pecks on the lips are meaningless in his eyes

he's also one to engage in PDA

he absolutely loves kissing in front of people he dislikes

to sort of one-up them

kisses you all the fucking time for absolutely no reason

you'd think the novelty would have worn off after being kissed so much but it really doesn't

somehow he keeps getting better at kissing

is he practicing behind your back????? (no, i'm jking)

[knullanon]

Invincible, mark’s older sister seemingly didn’t get powers, but after mark got his, Nolan is led to believe that she’s hiding her powers. It’s an awkward conversation for a returning college student

hmmmmmm.... good idea blooming.... also this?? was so good for me to write?? it just felt like I actually wrote something good??? thank u for this, I'm tired but I'm actually happy rn thank u :)

Disappointment

words: 2401

summary: getting accepted to a college almost across the country was you plan, but now that your father is suspicious of your timing, you realize it's not going to go to plan.

warnings: arguing,

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markie: did dad tell you about the family dinner tonight...

me: what dinner?

markie: he wanted to host a dinner to show his congratulations on you getting into collage

markie: lol, lucky ass. I'm getting tossed to the curb when I get out of highschool 😭

me: nuh-uh, bitch, I'm bringing your ass w me!! fuck this shit

me: besides can't be that bad. bring up a map and show me mongolia

markie: …bitch are you for real

me: YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE MONGOLIA IS????

markie: …no :')

me: yeah you're getting kicked out lmao

You shut off your phone to stare out the window of the cab, starting to wonder if it was a good idea to even tell your dad about the acceptance. The original plan you had was to get whatever college accepted you first and get a plane ticket, a dorm, the whole thing, and then tell him.

You already knew how angry he would've been, and the only reason you had told him a few days after the letter came was because of a mix of guilt, self doubt, and most of all fear. What would he do if you just told him "hey, leaving in 2 hours, say your goodbyes until maybe Christmas"? It wouldn't be a disaster, it would be the disaster.

The memories of him being so mad, no, enraged at you leaving the house only telling Debbie came back to you within those 3 days. With him being possessive and angry whenever you didn't do something right...

And when your powers never showed up, it almost felt like he was disappointed. You were, supposedly, disappointed as well, but for those first few months, he acted like he only had you for those reasons.

Which is exactly why you wanted to get out. It's why you started saving up, getting better grades, looking for possible places to live, colleges, everything you've done was now for what you wanted, and it was no longer just the "I'm going to be a hero" route.

While, yes it was a struggle to get everything in order and actually do it secretly, it was supposed to be worth it. Now, you were almost regretting deciding to announce it.

The slowness of the car made you focus, and you saw the house you were almost dreading to see. Was dreading the right word? You didn't know.

It almost felt unreal. You hadn't been going to actually live in the place for almost a year. Sure, you visited now and then, but you were more focused on your job, and more importantly, the research to get out of town.

Walking up the steps, you didn't even knock on the door when it almost slammed open. You were about to be knocked on your ass if not for the strong arms embracing you in a tight hug.

"_______! You take forever with everything!" Mark lifted you up into the air, and spun you around, before he set you down again.

"We're almost done with dinner, let's get your stuff back up!"

~~~~~

You thought looking at your room, neatly presented and almost untouched was a slap in the face of how much you missed home. And then you actually started talking to everyone.

"Oh, honey, I'm so glad you got that scholarship! I know you've always wanted that college for a while." Debbie was still the supporting mom you remember, always wanting for you what you wanted. "What major did you pick?"

You ate some food off your plate before you responded. "Well, they haven't said which ones they were available because of last years over-acceptance, but I was thinking of-"

"Where is the college, again?"

Oh no. Here was the conversation you were hoping to avoid. "It's on the West Coast, dad." Nolan was already looking pissed, and while you knew why, it still almost hurt on why he was like that. He set down his hand, and continued talking. "Why not a college nearby? Even a state away would be better than that, right Debbie?"

Debbie simply turned towards her husband before turning back to you. "_____, while I'm happy you got into a college, Nolan does have a point. What made you think of going so far."

Fortunately, overthinking sometimes gives you an advantage in these situations. "Well, I kinda just went for the top colleges since I had good grades. I mean, I'm never going to have a guaranteed job, so I might as well make sure I will."

You almost regretted your words as soon as they came out, but it was too late.

Nolan simply hummed, before he continued his dinner. Debbie realized what you meant, but she just simply lingered back to her food. You didn't turn your head to look at Mark, but you could feel the tension in the room. He probably felt it as well.

Which is probably why he spoke up. "So, dad, uh, I heard you caught a weird bird man?"

Nolan, who visibly jolted, looked up at his son and replied, "Oh yeah, that guy. Huh, I'll tell you that he was weird and creepy at the same time. So, I was flying around town when..."

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2 hours later, and you were sitting up in bed on your phone, looking through your phone, and reading through different news stories. The bird ones were almost comical to read, and the Invincible stories were wholesome or made you proud.

What if you did that?

You cut that thought out as a story popped up, the headline in big bold letters:

KILLER OF GUARDIANS OF THE GLOBE: WHO, WHY, AND HOW?

You clicked on it, remembering attending the funeral a few weeks prior.

While the killer hasn't been found, it has been notified that Omni-Man, the only survivor of the attack, has been found to be healthy and is now continuing his hero work. Meanwhile, the deaths of these heroes has been affecting the whole world and while support and love have been shown from around the globe, it does bring up a new question: who will be the new Guardians of The Globe, and will they meet the expectations of the world?

You sat there staring at the screen for a minute, before you started to actually think about the whole situation. It just made you feel more guilty.

You could be helping! Saving lives! Making your family proud! But instead, you decide to live a life and leave them to help themselves! For what? Will you not be a good hero? Will you do nothing anyway?

Are you afraid of him?

You tossed yourself off your bed, and grabbed your headphones, and put on a jacket and some comfy pants.

Walking outside of your room, you remembered you didn't drive here, so you couldn't drive anywhere, which narrowed down a lot of places. Then, an idea came to your mind. You tiptoed over to your parents room, and saw that they were fast asleep. You did the same thing to Mark's room, and saw the same thing.

You decided that the coast was clear for the night, at least. You flew to the outside and up and into the air. It does feel better to move this fast without feeling like I'm giving up something, you thought to yourself.

And while you flew off to find a mountain. Nolan stared out the window, mouth gaping as he saw you fly away.

~~~~~

The silence helped out a lot. Just being left alone with our thoughts makes you calm down.

Everything had happened so fast. You were ready to go, and relax with your mostly stress free life, when they just... died. You knew you shouldn't be mad at dead people, it wasn't their fault, you saw the devastation it had caused, and yet...

You were pissed. Everything was working. Everything was in motion, why hadn't it worked? Oh, that's why, because someone decided to murder all of these people and then your guilty conscience was fucking you up now?

You didn't want to fill in their shoes, you didn't want to deal with their problems, that was for your brother, your dad, actual heroes. You knew why you didn't want to be a hero: it was obvious.

You weren't meant to be one.

When you got your powers, you were so excited to tell your mom, your dad, Mark: especially Mark: it would've been good to rub it into the face of an annoying 9 year old Mark.

And then you looked at the actual job of a hero.. What they did, what they achieved, everything: it wasn't for you. You didn't have the patience, the attitude, or anything to do it.

So, you hid it all. You only used the powers when you were practicing, like flying around a mountain, or practicing fighting. You were almost caught some times- the news article of a strange blur of a human figure going at Mach 2 near Mount Everest made you think you were done for- but it had all ended up good and great.

And now you were guilty: you were guilty of not helping. Of not being there for others. And now look at what happened.

Taking out your headphones and shutting off your music, you sat and watched the night sky go by. You didn't know where you had flown to, only that you were having a very big moment, and that no one could take it from you.

Except, that's what you believed until you heard him.

"So, UC San Diego, huh?"

You whipped around, flying in the sky for a minute before realizing your mistake and setting yourself on the ground.

"Oh, you think that's gonna convince me?" He said, now setting himself on the ground. "Like I didn't see you fly to this mountain and then fly off the goddamn ground."

"It's not your business anyway." You turned your head to the side, refusing to look him in the eye.

"Oh, so not only can I not have a say in the colleges you go to, but I can't have a say in your powers?" By now he was right in front of you, and you felt the anger and rage coming off of him, almost like an alarm, flashing over and over again, telling you to get out.

"You never had the choice to do anything I did." You ground out back, realizing now that it was fruitless to sit back and wait for him to say something else, so you decided fuck it, you're already waist deep in this shit.

"Oh, really? Like I'm just some random guy who wants to use you?" He almost chuckled

"Well from the looks of it, you are." You turned to face him, now in his face instead of the other way around. "When you realized it wasn't gonna happen, you acted like I was nothing! Like I was just a burden to the family. I wasn't gonna break easy, I knew you only wanted me for my abilities. And you have Mark for that now, don't you? You couldn't have cared about me for a minute after you realized that I was just what you didn't want: a normal human with no abilities."

He didn't say anything, only looked at you with almost a softer look, but still mad.

"Yeah, look at you. You're realizing I'm not an idiot. You liked Mark so much more than me, huh? When you realized he was the perfect son?"

His fists curled up as he sat back, maybe for the first time in a while during your arguments. "I didn't tell you because I don't want you as a dad: I wish you weren't anything related to me. You proved me right on a lot of things, but this one- this one takes the cake.

"You just wanted a kid who was just like you, who you could train to do whatever you wanted."

Nolan didn't know what to say: that he loved you still, even if you never did have powers? That you were still his daughter? That you were his pride and joy, and that no matter what you did he would always be with you?

But then he saw it: he was disappointed in the fact that you didn't have powers. He was so excited for that moment: when you got them. Honestly, he was much more prepared for you to join his side rather than Mark. He saw it in you, he knew it was there.

And then he ruined it. Because of his selfishness and stupidity. He realized that, in the moment, everything, you going to a different college, leaving suddenly, hiding your abilities: it was because he had failed.

He had realized that he was failing at his true mission: but he had failed at the one he wanted to do, as well.

He didn't realize you were walking away until the last minute. "Well, since you know what you did, you might as well go and tell Mark. And Mom."

He reached out, wanting to say something: but what? What could he possibly say to make anything better?

And when you turned around, and seeing you start to choke up and cry, he knew he couldn't do anything in the moment.

"______-"

But you flew away. It was quick too, making dust fly off the floor. The ground shook from the force. It made his heart ache even more, realizing you had been practicing flying on your own-

And there, he saw it. His behavior that had made you like this.

For one of the only times in his life, he felt like he was in the wrong. It came like a slap to the face. Like he had been hit by a planet and tossed around. It was this booming realization, and his guilt started to show itself.

He knew he had to fix this. There was no way he could leave this be: he had to prove to you that he was...

Not a good person. No, he realized that with his mission and failures he would never be that.

But maybe a better father. Maybe someone who you would be willing to talk it out with. He had to convince you of that, before you left.

And who knows, if you don't listen to reason, there's always the option of just holding you with them, until you are convinced of reason.

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nolan you fucking moron

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I'll say for as much grief as I've seen with this season, it's actually the first season where I really thought MC was in danger. Cuz u know, it's mc obvi she's not going to be BUT she should be, she should feel in danger as everyone else sometimes and it DID make me react.

I was like oh shit Mc booted off real? 👀 (I don't think that storyline could've been executed in an interesting way cuz u'd miss lots of bonding time with the ROs)

And like in the latest episode, when it came to choosing a couple , in the end I chose Arlo and Peter just because if that decision came out they'd be the people it would matter least to me. Cuz everyone's secrets (especially MC's) are out all the fucking time and I was like. What a perfect way to create drama than to reveal who you voted for. See, in s2 (or other seasons, they're kinda a blur ) I was secure enough that nobody would betray MC that way or that it wouldn't happen, but the fact I did think it could happen this season is...exciting in a way.

MC isn't immune! And that's interesting but I do wish she wasn't fucking getting gang pilled on every 2 seconds like christ 😵‍💫

Like yes maybe MC's situation has felt precarious in other seasons (never felt that way to me but yk) at least she had FRIENDS. Like can we get s5 MC some fucking friends I'm BEGGING 🤚😭 Dana is well (gesture vaguely at whatever the fuck she got going on) and my opinion of Kat changes a lot. Fluctuates like her opinion of MC ♡ I like Kat, I think she could've made for an awesome best friend to MC. She tells it how it is, and isn't afraid to make herself pass first, like I don't need a friend for MC who's always groveling at her feet. The confidence is nice! And it would've been nice to see Kat genuinely care for MC, and it could've even been a 'slow-burn' friendship. Cuz she clearly was set up as the rival character at the start, but yk when Dana starts flirting with Suresh or sumn she comes see u and you can talk to her. While Dana isn't exactly honest to MC and telling her what she wants to hear (in advices b4 casa amor 💀) Kat could've been this girl who's stick to her guns. Yes you may not have liked what she said but maybe you needed to hear it yk. They could've done that with Arlo too, like I was ready to like her and then she gives me shit for a man that I hadn't flirted much with 🤚😭 Like girl c'mon (it must be worse when you haven't expressed any interest in Suresh at all )

Also another thing while I'm thinking about it, is that you can flirt with Arlo, she shows interest for like a second before shifting to Dana. And with a bi MC it's kinda. Funny I suppose to see Dana get the girls (Arlo&Gabi) at least you can express interest in Gabi 💀

Another point is; everyone always saying people wants MC....uhm. Where? They may want MC but sure as shit ain't showing it 👨‍🦲 You never feel like you're passing first this season, which ig in a narrative where MC is a normal contender is fine but gameplay wise? Sucks. Like someone who's just genuinely into mc is not that hard and some might have found that with Alfie and if you stick with him he switches for Meera cuz of ur baggage but is still into you? Like boy 💆‍♀️. MC shouldn't feel unwanted here 😭 Or even Finn (which depends if he's honest ig - I think he is and for argument sake let's suppose he is), he's telling MC he's into but never has shown that interest proper throughout the time with him. Moments where he pulls us aside it's always for Kat or Arlo stuff and it's like ok? No cheeky banters, nothing?

Suresh is playing his little games and Eddie never appealed to me so, I didn't give him much attention but I don’t think yall had much content either.

Nicolas/Johnny is well. It is what it is. They have their cute moment but it's hard to say that they choose MC cuz they genuinely looe her or cuz of the baggage. Of course, it doesn't bother them cuz they need to exploit it.