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The Homophobic Vase stimboard with themes of blue, flowers and plants {Self indulgent}
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#goodbye I'm deleting my blog this is the epitome of my talent#I've completed what I was put on this earth to do#I will never create anything as beautiful as this homophobic vase stimboard#homophobic vase#the homophobic vase#If it doesn;t have a tag I'm MAKING ONE#mag 38#mag 38 lost and found#tma#the magnus archives#blue#white#flower#rose#water#drinkj#berry#moth#lunar moth#self indulgent#remember queue#stimboard#stims#stim
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Redirected Aggression
This is the 10th installment of the Not What It Seems Series. 18+. TW: SA implied /DV depicted. AU
Summary: Secrets start to come out in the wash.
Tag List:@callsignwidow @danzer8705
You were waiting in your car when you saw headlights come flying up and Opie bring his bike to a halt. "Jesus Opie. Its a minor car issue" you chuckled as you got out of your car. "Did you know?" growled Opie as he shoved you back into your car. Startled by his aggression you froze with your hands up in a weak attempt to keep him back. The stench of liquor assaulted your nose as he spat the sentence out again. "Did. You. Know?" each word punctured with a hard shove.
"Ouch. Opie I don't know what your talking about" you stated as your body bounced like a pinball between him and your car. Opie stepped back with his fist balled at his side as he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. You stood silently for a moment trembling as you debated your next move. Opening your car door you bent in to grab your phone figuring you would just call someone else.
"What are you doing?" asked Opie as he grabbed your arm and yanked you from the car. "I'm just calling someone to come get us Opie." you replied as his grip on your arm tightened. "I bet you were going to call your dad and tell him to actually kill me this time" laughed Opie as he took your phone and tossed it to the ground. "What? You and I both know my dad is dead" you replied in confusion.
"Do you know who killed Donna?" asked Opie as he grabbed your jaw, digging his fingers in hard that you knew you would have bruises as he pressed his forehead to yours. "What? No." you replied as tears welled in your eyes and you pushed against his chest to get away. "Your hurting me" you whined as his grip tightened. "No, this is hurting you" snapped Opie before punching you in the face causing your head to snap back from the force. Blood streamed down your face as Opie let you drop to the ground. "Lying bitch" he growled before spitting on you and stepping on your hand as you made to grab your phone.
"I'm going to kill you just like your dad killed my wife" murmured Opie as he kicked you in your ribs making you double over on the ground and cry out. "First I'm going to take something that was my right but out of respect for Jax I didn't push" he continued as he undid his belt and pressed one of his boots down onto your stomach to keep you pinned.
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Half-Sack watched as they got ready to load you up into the ambulance before he felt someone grab him his arm. "You will do well to remember what you saw today was a car accident. Are we clear?" growled Clay as he glared at the prospect. "But-" started Half-Sack. "If you don't want to end up missing there is no but" snapped Clay. "Car accident. Got it" replied Half-Sack. "Good. Follow the ambulance and wait there" replied Clay before walking back to where Unser and Gemma were standing.
Frowning Half-Sack walked to his bike but sent a text to Juice. -This wasn't a car accident. I have some photos. Clay is trying to hide this- before he rode off.
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"Gemma.... I don't know that I can lie to Jax" murmured Tara as she sat in her chair trying to process everything she had been told. "You have too. Please I can't lose both my kids over this" bedded Gemma as she cried. "She may survive" started Tara. "I hope she doesn"t. I'm sorry its just better that way" replied Gemma as she shook her head
#sons of anarchy#ravennasmasterlist#juice ortiz#soa fanfiction#soa fanfic#notwhatitseems#opie winston fanfic#opie winston#sons of anarchy imagine#soa
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Since December I've been making tiny (>3 in.) cross stitch pieces for my co-workers as birthday gifts. Luckily we're a small office, there's less than 20 people here, and there's only a few months that have multiple birthdays. I wanted to share the ones I've already done, because I think they're cute and I have always had problems finishing pieces, so I'm proud that I got these done. I'll include links to the patterns below.
These were all the January birthdays, charts from the following shops:
This one was cute but I had to swap out colors and there were so many for such a teeny piece.
Not gonna lie, I'm proud of this one since I had to figure out how to make the A look right.
And the llama for last.
I was scrambling a bit to get these finished (as in, putting the backing on the hoops in my office last minute) but they turned out really cute and everyone loved them.
I'll post more of these soon, February through May have only had about one a piece.
#cross stitch#tiny cross stitch#tiny frog#tiny possum#tiny llama#fiber arts#things I'm proud of#i know they're not big full coverage pieces but oh well#they're mine and i love them#possum#frog#llama#year of tiny cross stitch#lou makes things
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sorry if this comes off as rude or in bad faith but i'm interested in hearing your reasons on why you dislike saiouma? again, not trying to be rude, i'm just interested since it's one of the big popular ships and i think you have interesting danganronpa takes
@crowssoul2 sent another ask with the same idea, so allow me to respond to them both here instead of trying to cut an essay in half.
Nah! You didn't seem rude at all! I am more than happy to overanalyze Danganronpa, since I love Danganronpa to death. I am just as happy to be asked what I thought they failed @ then to be asked what I liked. Hell, I'll even enjoy civil discussion about why you disagree with my takes. (except maybe my take on the great Chihiro discourse, since bystanders always get pissy at that one)
Also, to preface this, this is a ship and let ship blog. I'm glad all you Saiouma shippers are having fun. Also, I love all the ship art you make. If you enjoy what we got, this isn't a personal attack. Honestly, I wish I were one of you since there's so much more content that way.
I feel like I dislike Saiouma because their canon dynamic went against the themes of the work. Kokichi, as a character, represents lies, which is one of the major themes of Drv3. (The same way Makoto represents hope and Junko represents despair) This seems really obvious to say, but is important to my point. A characters relationship with Kokichi should mirror their relationship with lies.
A good example of this done right is Kaito. Listen, his writing irks me, but his relationship with Kokichi is one of my favorite things about him. (Still can't get behind Oumota bc of Kaito's personality, but that doesn't mean I dislike the foils OR the shippers)
Kaito pretends to hate lies, as heroes should. But his heroic personality is in fact, a lie he tells. Not out of malice, but because that's who he wants to be. (Think Kaito:Hero as Gundam:Dark God) He lies to protect people, and hide his illness. As a result, he's willing to work with Kokichi to... protect Maki, conceal his identity, (which includes hiding his illness) and from a certian POV, be a hero! It makes perfect sense.
Another good example of this is Maki. She hates Kokichi, because she hates lies. Her hatred of Kokichi is actually tied to him revealing one of her lies, a lie that was causing her quite a lot of stress. But... she also directly benefits from Kokichi. He saved her life. Unrelated tangent (sarcasm), what was revealed to be a lie in Ch6? Her feelings for Kaito. Let me rephrase that sentence: She hates LIES but she also directly benefits from them (her feelings for Kaito improving her mental health)
I wish that theme carried over into other characters the same way it did for those two. There are some other parallels I can draw (Ryoma liking Kokichi to an extent, Kirumi playing tag with him) but those two are the most obvious and explicit.
So its sad that characters with a complicated relationship with lies don't also have a complicated relationship with Kokichi, the embodiment of lies.
Himiko lives a lie. Lying is needed for her job. But her lies almost got her killed in chapter 2, and Tenko going along with her lie doesn't help. How does this reflect in her interactions with Kokichi? It doesn;t.
Kaede lied to us, the motherfucking audience. Honestly, thats arguably just as impressive as Kokichi ever pulled. What is her relationship with Kokichi? Kokichi acts sort of like a mentor figure to HER in the tunnels, and stands up against her. I like that, but give that plot beat to someone else. (Kaito makes the most sense, but give it to Tenko since I love her.)
Danganronpa itself is a lie, a work of fiction. And Tsumugi is obsessed with it.
In fact, this applies to the v3 casts dynamic with Kokichi as a whole. Almost everyone dislikes and distrusts Kokichi, despite the big reveal of being liars themselves. I'd write it as "everyone pretends to hate Kokichi (lies), but actually don't mind him that much. However, they think everyone else hates Kokichi so they go along with the group." to foreshadow the big reveal that they themselves are lies told by Tsumugi.
And Shuichi suffers from this the most.
Shuichi's Ch1 arc is summed up by "Shuichi learns to face the truth for the first time with that case, and stops averting his eyes." In other words, on the Truth vs Lies scale, Shuichi begins the series aligned with LIES.
The rest of the game shows Shuichi gradually becoming a paragon of Truth to go against Kokichi's lies- ONLY FOR IT TO BE REVEALED IN CH6 THAT HE HIMSELF IS A LIE.
That he is, a fictional character and a pawn in someone elses game. It then becomes a Schrodinger's cat on the alignment scale I mentioned earlier. Was Shuichi's journey to the Truth end of the scale fake or not?
The game settles upon a hesitant no at the end of it, (I disagree, since the games mechanics tell a different story) when Shuichi ventures out into the world with the other survivors to find the truth upon whats out there.
Thats a HECK of a complicated relationship with lies. It should equal a heck of a complicated relationship with Kokichi, right? WRONG.
The canon Saiouma dynamic is basically
"Kokichi likes and teases Saihara, while Shuichi is annoyed by Kokichi until his death, when he gradually begins to come around. Despite this, Kokichi (and the lie mechanic) is surprisingly helpful in trials"
(actually the localization changed this quite a bit, but I'm going off the English version since this is what I actually played. That being said, its a fascinating topic that you should look into if you're as obsessed as I am.)
While the fanon is more akin to:
"Shuichi gradually gets drawn in by Kokichi and learns to accept his quirks."
(maybe shippers will disagree with me about those dynamics, since again, not my cup of tea.)
Meanwhile a Saiouma dynamic I can get behind is:
"Shuichi is drawn in by Kokichi (lies), and feels a sort of magnetism to him. But he knows it isn't a good idea, and he knows it isn't right. Kokichi's feelings are unclear at first due to his nature, but it turns out he has a love-hate relationship with Shuichi (truth). He'll rely on him sometimes, but rebuff him at others with seemingly no logic from his end."
In other words, I'd do a semi-reversal of the canon dynamic.
NOTE: I am not saying I'm a writing genius or anything. Hindsight is 20/20, and I'm sure if Kodaka could magically remake his games he'd stomp my rewrite to the ground.
You asked why I dislike it, and that's my explanation. But please allow me to go a step further and speculate why things are this way.
At about the same time you sent me your ask, my good friend Crow sent me this:
"I don't like Saiouma because well Komahina is exactly what the black romance should be while Saiouma is just feels like another Shuichi ship. Do you get my point?
Shuichi and Hajime is entirely different characters while Komaeda and Kokichi different af too like, they can't hit the Komahina dynamic like they intended to do, this is why Saiouma is just another Shuichi ship while Komahina is THE SHIP.
If you want to do a homoerotic Shuichi ship who would be the next Komahina you shouldn't do that with Kokichi at all, maybe Rantaro? But Rantaro isnt work well too like there is no Komaeda for him to work the Komahina. Saiouma felt poorly executed idea of a black romance, if I need to be honest Oumaede would be more fitting for the Komahina dynamic despite Kaede is just pov character.
So yeah there is no Komahina in drv3 because they tried to play the same tropes with very different characters and very different stories, I even felt more interested in Saihoshi despite Ryoma only been around 2 chapters than Kokichi. That is the problem in here"
I felt like I can't answer one of these asks without referencing what I said in the other ask, so I just both answered them both together. (no hard feelings?)
In case you haven't read Homestuck (wise call, honestly) Black romance is basically non-sexual hatefucking. Usually, there's an undertone of mutual respect, but not always. Felt like that context was important.
Komeada and Kokichi ARE different characters. From a narrative standpoint, Komeada completely turns existing themes like Hope and Talent into complex issues in the Drverse, while in THH they were pretty black and white. Meanwhile, Kokichi's introduction is the introduction to the theme of truth vs lies.
In other words (Makoto is to Nagito (and later to Hajime and Izuru) as Kokichi is to Shuichi) The second takes the theme from the first, and massively expands on it! ...Despite Shuichi and Kokichi being in the same game.
Despite this, the reason people think they are similar is because Kokichi piggybacks too hard on Nagito and Komahina's success.
What does Nagito have in common with Togami, other than being an antagonistic force. Not much, actually! Togami fucked up a corpse while Nagito fucked up his own body, and that distinction is all that needs to be said I think.
Togami would look down upon Nagito if they ever met, and Nagito'd be into that.
What does Kokichi have in common with Nagito?
They want to make an unsolvable murder in which poison was involved and they got someone to kill them.
They both have a one sided crush on their protagonist, that the protagonist doesn't think exists. (Kokichi confessed, but perks of being a chronic liar)
They both are the MVP in almost every trial they are in, with one notable exception for each of them. Thats... kind of a lot, actually! I do think they are noticeably different characters, especially on a thematic level, but I can see why people notice that. I can also see why people would find that bad! Nagito was the star of Dr2, hands down. If you were one of the few people that isn't a total Nagito simp, then a very simmilar character getting screentime might be annoying since you have Nagito fatigue from the last game. and if you are a Nagito simp, then Kokichi will likely never be his own dude with so much in common. You'll see him as a lesser Nagito and want him back. I agree with Crow when he says "Saiouma just feels like another ship. I found it hard to articulate why I feel that paradoxically feels like a rip-off of another ship I liked, but also had no bite to it. And then it hit me. Until Chapter four, Kokichi never did anything that warranted Nagito levels of hatred. (of course, this is entirely subjective. I hate Kaito pretty much for being annoying and fitting into tropes I dislike without commenting on it. If you think this is enough to hate Kokichi, power to you!) By the end of chapter one of Dr2, Nagito:
Attempted to 1st degree murder a fan-favorite character, with a deliberately confusing and unsympathetic (at this point in time) motive to do so.
Goaded another character (that most fans hated, but still) into committing that murder FOR him. The only time we ever saw that level of insanity was Celeste, and Teruteru is no Hifumi in terms of gullibility. (Celeste had plot armor anyway.)
Sat back and monologues while everyone's ass was on the line. If Hajime and the others voted wrong, everyone would have died.
Showed NO remorse over any of it. Seemed to enjoy it.
This one is more meta but: he shows despair eyes, which previously were only seen on the big bad of the first game. Characters have every reason to hate the guy. Soda and Nekomaru were absolutely correct in taking him out, and I'd argue that you should maybe go father by putting him in a public area and gagging his mouth unless it's mealtime. Meanwhile, by chapter three, Kokichi has:
Stood up to Kaede in the tunnels, which most students agree was the right call.
Showed emotions over Rantaro's death, but due to his lying they can't be sure if they were genuine.
Was civil (if a bit wierd) to Kaede right before her execution.
Bullied Kiibo. Yes, bullying is- bad but look me in the eye and tell me its worse than murder. You can't.
Shared the motive videos in the insect meet and greet. This is the major strike against him, but its reasonable to assume he did this with good intentions.
While doing that, tortured them with bugs when it wasn't really needed for the plan to work.
(okay, this one didn't actually happen and I will die on this hill, but the main group thinks it did so I'm counting it) Tricked Gonta into helping with his plans.
Saved our asses in the second trial.
Saved our asses in the post-trial portion of chapter 2
Not joined a cult that was forming in our school. Also did not stop Gonta from joining the cult, which doesn't point to a pattern of controlling behavior from Shuichi's POV.
Was key in getting to Angie's body. Pun intended.
Helped out during the seance.
While arguably not the MVP in trial 3, he still contributed a great deal. Do those lists of crimes seem equal to you? It takes Kokichi 3 chapters to do something that is, at most, Hiyoko level. Maybe Byakuya level, but thats pushing it. Yet, the characters treat Nagito and Kokichi with about equal annoyance and disdain. The v3 cast, of course, doesn't know that Nagito exists. But we, the players, know. Its like we got prologue Nagito for almost four chapters, but prologue Nagito was also kind of a bitch? But also possibly well-meaning and OP as fuck. This concludes my analysis! Do you agree? Disagree? I'd love to hear thoughts.
#ask tag#crowtalks#danganronpa#danganronpa meta#kokichi oma#kokichi ouma#danganronpa analysis#danganronpa essay#shuichi saihara#drv3#nagito komaeda
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I dont wan´t to hear anybody defend Tim or Oliver to me ever again- they are both baiting, they both know what they are doing and I´m sick of pretending that they don´t.
Giving us this break up and then having them end this episode with Buck on Eddies couch is a fucking choice. I don´t care how often they let Eddie call himself straight. They just showed that they will flip on a dime with this break up anyway. Oliver doing nothing to promote Buck/Tommy while merryly posting fanart tagged "I love Eddie Diaz forever" right after a Tommy heavy episode is a fucking choice and everybody who bleated on about how it doesn´t mean anything that he literally ignored that relationship as well as the actor playing the LI: LOOK here, babes! He wanted Buck to be single again, he annoyed Tim about it and he got it.
He and Tim can go back to and pandering to Buddies again and I can forget this show exists. I hope SWAT picks Lou up ASAP
I do admit I am disappointed in them both. Personally I think I'm more disappointed in the writers because they are the ones who wrote 806 like that and wrote 805 how they did to make 806 more devastating.
Personally I don't plan on watching anymore shows made by tim minear that handle queer characters in particular you see with bucktommy and with henren that they aren't good at handling them.
I will also agree that there does feel like there was some form of baiting with this relationship, especially after 805 ending with them being so strong and expecting that to carry through to the rest of the season, I also do think the scene at the end intentional or not was ship baiting for bvddie. However I still don't believe that bvddie will happen, I don't think it fits for Eddie or for Buck but as this episode shows if they could surprise me but I truly don't think they will do it and even if they do it won't be handled well.
I don't know how much was olivers choice or Tim's so I'm not gonna comment too much on that part as personally idk how much it adds to the conversation around what happened. Tim hasn't listened to olivers idea before so I have no clue who's idea it is or what went down.
I do hope this exposure from 911 does lou good. I may not follow his career after this but I hope to see him do good things.
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tagged by @amserpand!! also doing lyrics 4 fun and profit… let's see what horrors will happen
Rules: Put your music on shuffle and list the first ten songs that come up, then tag ten people.
Sorrow in a Pacifist Pillbox - NEUPINK
this DOESN"T have lyrics i wonder how many songs i will get that doesn't have lyrics hahahahaha
2. To the Horizon - Wolfgun
I'm headed to the horizon! I see the stars, they're fallin'! Blood risin' over the mountains! Now I feel like I'd remember If I could make it there…
3. Victimized - Trapped Under Ice
But I don't think I can, you've been fed lies We've been robbed blind Put the past behind, it's time to unite It's we who've been victimized
4. In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3 - Coheed and Cambria
Awake through motion, with curious to curtain your first move Over arms length, they'll break protocol Jealous envy for the youngest one To be the hero is all I'll ask Can I be buried here, among the dead With room to honor me here in the end?
5. Thee Alarm - Coachwhips
Thee alarm rang all night long Nobody told me what to do
6. Everyone I Loved - NNAMDÏ
I try stop my brain when Starts to fade away to new terrain Try to catch myself when I (try to catch myself when I)
7. Cognitive Dissonance - Rikako Watanabe [13 Sentinels Soundtrack]
this is an instrumental too
8. Crossing the Rubicon - Enter Shikari
Fill me out a prescription Can you free me from this curse? I woke up inside your compass And you're navigating us from east to worst
9. 43% Burnt - The Dillinger Escape Plan
Take your medicine like a champ That sting can last a million years Self absorb that utopia So bad, I just feel it
10. The Drop - Viktor Vaughn
Remember me God, clean timbs with emery board? He only came to save the game like a memory card
lol im not going to tag 10 people but let's see... @vivribbon @parsleyrosemarybotch @cannibal-nightmares @shinyolivia @shumercury @sistermurcie
#dissolution of da self#music screaming#this is actually a very normal selection all things considered#i was kinda worried it was going to pull up my silly little harsh noise tapes or something
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SHIPPING INFO — ♥ answer the following for your muses so people know how shipping works on your blog !!
WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER(S)?
i hold a special place in my heart for viper / sage , viper / brim and viper / omen , so ideally , these are the ships i ' m most looking for ! doesn ' t mean i can't be tempted by other characters ❪ or even ocs ! one of my most beloved ships on another blog was with an oc , because it was so much fun to write with the mun . ❫
HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?
anything outside of 5 years starts to catch some side eye from me , though it ' s very much dependent on the point in their life the muses are in . viper is written as mid - thirties , so i could go upwards quite a bit with no issues , but younger muses would definitely be a case - by -case basis , and heavily discussed with the other mun .
HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?
i think a combination of ' the bikini rule ' and intent should be considered . ' the bikini rule ' covers , metaphorically , touches anywhere a bikini covers , so once touches start to be focused in those areas with sexual intent , i ' d start considering that nsfw . touching someone ' s butt as flirtation is nsfw , while jokingly patting someone ' s butt is more friendly , but still suggestive ? goodness knows i ' ve reached over and bopped a friend in the tit as a joke , with no sexual intent behind the move .
ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?
somewhat . i want to ship , but i ' m also here to write a well - rounded , three dimensional person , and romantic interpersonal ships are only one facet of that . i want chemistry between characters , but i also have to vibe with the mun , as well . you don ' t write in a vacuum , after all ...
WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH?
sage , brim , omen , chamber , sova , cypher ... most of the protocol , really . i am open to crossover ships , but decidedly not smart one / dumb one dynamics . viper needs someone to intellectually challenge and stimulate her , cleaning up after an idiot is frankly the quickest way to turn her off , no matter how endearing they might be . ❪ have i been influenced by my dash ? perhaps ... ❫
DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?
yes . hard and fast , yes . you absolutely can flirt with viper , but she is closed - off and cold , and doesn ' t plan to let anyone close , really . we need to discuss that before your character ends up taking a nice swig of neon green ' soda ' because they pushed viper over a line .
ARE YOU SHIP-OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?
to quote myself , " interpersonal ships are only one facet of that , " though i originally spoke in the context of romantic ships , even platonic or other interpersonal ships are still just one facet each of the complex shape that make up a person , and solely focusing on that does the muse a disservice , and hinders you as a writer . i ' m here to write a character in her totality , however that may go .
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?
blog fandom , or otherwise ? still not answering that , does tumblr have a character limit on posts ? i don ' t plan to be the one to find out .
FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?
first , you build a bonfire . throw pleasantly scented , dried herbs in , and follow the ancient chant— all jokes aside , if you think there ' s chemistry , or you want to see if we can spark some , talk to me about it ! i don ' t advertise it , because i'm a little shy , but i do have a discord you can ask for ❪ for more immediate responses ! ❫ or you can reach out over ims . i promise i ' m more afraid of you than you are of me , nor do i bite . ❪ viper might , though ! ❫
tagged by : @knifvd tagging : at this point , who ever hasn ' t done this yet
#✧・゚ ——— ❛ game fanatic; hot tea addict. ❪ file :// 001. | out. ❫#✧・゚ ——— ❛ what’s up; fuckers. ❪ file :// 001. | dash things. ❫
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Pure Boredom
1. What’s your sexual orientation? Asexuell, - Heterosexual with tendency to being Bisexual.
2. What are you obsessed with right now? Santa Claus von Divine Gate, but Anime in generall.
3. Ever done any drugs? Nope. And I never would.
4. What piercings do you want? My five Earpiercings are enouh for me.
5. How many people have you kissed? Two. The Wheiro in my School and my first boyfriend.
6. Describe your dream home. A greek Villa with Pool near the beach.
7. Who are you jealous of? Of Artist´s who can better draw then me. But I don´t blame them, but take it as movitation to get better with my drawing skills.
8. What’s your favorite show to binge? I don't drink. So I have no idea. xD
9. Do you watch porn? I watched three Softporns out of interest.
10. Do you have a secret sideblog? Yes, I do.
11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go? Straight to Japan and Egypt. May Greece, too.
12. What’s one of your fantasies? Becoming a famous Mangaka or Author, so I can support my family..
13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced? Eow. NOO!
14. How would you spend a million dollars? Giving the half to my parents, a little bit to my brother and the rest... I am wishless.
15. Are you in a relationship? Nope.
16. Do you follow porn blogs? A few NFSW pages dedicated to Anime&Manga couples. But other than that, I'm not a big porn fan.
17. Are you angry with anyone right now? Yes. With my mother. I have no idea how you can make so much fuss and one too many hung towels.
18. What tattoos do you want? More butterflys please. Or Angelwings on my shoulder blades.
19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to? Nope. I am satisfied with my name.
20. What is something you’re obsessed with? My PC/Computer maybe.
21. Describe your best friend. I have none. But just very good friends.
22. Tag someone you think is hot. @mikotofubar xDDDD
23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists? Evanescenes Sarah Connor Todrick Hall Citizen Soldier RIELL
24. What are three places you want to travel? - Japan - Egypt - Greece
25. Describe your perfect Friday night. Sitting in front of my PC, drawing and listing good Music.
26. What’s your favorite season? Summer. The hotter the better.
27. What’s your pet peeve? ...idk. Stones in the shoe
28. Who is the funniest person you know? Miss thousend names. One of my good friends and already engaged with her girlfriend.
29. What’s the most overrated movie? The Star Wars films. I´ve never seen a bigger shit than that. My father loved it, but telled me, Neflix´"Wedneyday" is something for kids.
30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message. My old school crush.
31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better? My dear mother gave me once a ebook. But it wasn´t mine. I already have enough devices that I have to think about charging. I don't need another book like that. I also love the feel of paper on my fingers.
32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick? The world of Divine Gate. I would marry Santa
33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like? I think like now. Just stuffed.
34. What’s your coffee order? I really hate coffee. It was to bitter for me. I prefer cocoa.
35. Do you have a crush on anyone? Not now, if an Animecharacters doesn´t counts.
36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes? One ex. And NO.
37. Have any tattoos? Yes. The devilish butterfly from the Gena Showalter books on my collarbone.
38. Do you drink? Just a little on special occasions. But I can't stand too much alcohol either.
39. Are you a virgin? It's really nobody's business.
40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals? No...
41. How many followers do you have? 123 on my main Tumblrblog.
42. Describe the hottest person you know. I like the actor of Gideon de Viliers, Jannis Niewöhner. Brown chinlenght hair, blue exes, tick eyebrows, broad lips and shoulders, ghigh cheekbones...
43. What’s your guilty pleasure? Reading erotic books and Mangas.
44. Do you read erotica? Yes. But I like it when a really nice love story is told around it and there is no mindless banging around.
45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on? I had never date someone.
46. How many people do you follow? 123 people, as I said. Why is that so important?
47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick? No one.
48. Describe your ideal partner. Kind, playful, humorous, loves childs, protective instinct, honest. I like men who are a little bigger, broad-shouldered and maybe (not a must) have slightly longer hair.
49. Who do you text the most? Idk. I would say, my pack.
50. What’s your favorite kind of weather? Sunny days, warm weather.
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Looks like I'm a little behind on recent developments lol
You deleted all your imagines?
(It has been a little bit since I've seen one by you)
Are you getting out of the proship tag similar to when the antis harassed you and you left the selfship tag?
Are the proshippers harassing you too now?
(Sorry, I haven't been on in a couple days; I must've missed something)
Will people ever leave you alone?
At any rate good luck dealing with the broken tagging system; sometimes the archive view helps, but sometimes it doesn't 😕
Also honestly it's really refreshing that you're not an obsessive AO3 supporter like a lot of people seem to be.
Have a good night 😊
Hi anon.🙂
No no, it´s not like that. I mean, they surely love to talk about me & make up all kinds of crazy lies, but that´s not the reason. Or let´s say it´s only part of it. I haven´t created anything for the community in months (I think the last time was back in fall if I remember correctly) and I´m not planning to ever do so again. Especially not for a bunch of hypocrites who always preach that you should "let people enjoy what they want" but as soon as someone likes something they don´t like - like a book series or a certain author for example - they suddenly forget all about their ideals and start to act just like the people they claim to hate (antis).
Plus it is extremely annoying that if you use the proship tag, people will always assume that you ARE a proshipper, doesn´t matter how many times you point out that this isn´t the case. Like I probably told them a thousand times that I only use the tag due to my dislike of antis, yet they never seem to get it and still confuse me for one of them. I dunno... apparently people are not able to understand that some people simply don´t care about some silly discourse and always expect you to take a side (this is a problem on both sides by the way).
This together brought me to the decision to not use any specific tags anymore and because I have no use of the images I wrote, I deleted them. (I kept the ask games though, they are simply tagged with #ask game) and when it comes to my personal selfship stuff, I only use the tag I have for my darling, so that it´s only on my own blog, which if we´re gonna be honest is the only place it belongs anyway, since this stuff is personal and surely nothing other people want to see.
And hell no! I don´t read fanfiction anyways and I never had a high opinion of this site, not with all the bad things I heard about it and I think it´s actually pretty brazen that a site like this is begging for money every year (what do they even do with it? They´re surely not trying to take better care of the site and get rid of the disgusting stuff on there). Plus the fact that some people are so obsessed with it is just ridiculous in my opinion.
Anyway thanks for your message and I wish you a good night too.🙂
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I can say it here because I'm 99% he doesn#t use tumblr, much less knows my blog, so uh, excuse another OOC ramble.
Playing this game together with my friend is a lot less fun as I thought. Like, sure, we laugh and react at some things, but, in the end, I mostly just run along with his choices (might be bc of how I am, so like my fault, but still) and, he gets to do his romance path which is fine to me (we did plan for me to have my romance path too), but then he doesn't want me to see the scenes which is like, why, I could look them up on YT too what's the big deal in sharing them.
I kinda assumed it'd be more of an even choice-taking thing, but there again it's how I am and I don't say 'oh I wanna do this one' much or at all and that leads to almost always him doing the cutscene-choice-making which leads to him getting all the reactions and relationship-boots to characters, and when there's sth I wanna do or don't bc I know it's gonna make the bond to "my" character negative, but if he wants that choice to be the one I pick it after all, and like, ugh. I kinda hated my gaming-session with him today. Idk. I can already see me not ending up getting my romance path scenes in it, just tagging along his thing and then not even getting the "bonus" out of it to see the scenes for another romance I might not try anytime soon for myself, and like. I can still enjoy parts of it but I can feel the frustration coming and I kinda really hate it.
Might pull an allnighter today to get some more time into my (second) solo-run of the game instead. Maybe try to do some writing too since I should then have more than enough hours.
#✫ Out of Characters ✫ | OOC#I feel bad for how long it's been since I posted replies#I plan to work through at least some again within the next days or so
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Your tags to Louis´ latest outfit - you know who's got even worse sunglasses? harry's latest ones, yes i take issue with their current choice of eyewear
Like I´m happy I´m not the only one who hates those sunglasses lol. Obviously he can wear whatever he wants and I will respect it not only because I´m an adult but also because he won´t look ugly in anything because of his pretty face imo but still I very much prefer his G*cci sunglasses he used to wear pretty commonly 2 years ago and earlier.
Actually I haven´t thought I will write it but since H shaved his hair (obviously ´cause I don´t like buzzcuts and never will) I very much prefer Louis´ hairstyle over whatever hairstyle is H keeping on his head these days lol. I´m still confused if we can call it the beginning of a mullet hairstyle like it looks like he keeps the side very short and the back is a longer and as much as I respect his hairstyle decision because as I wrote before his pretty face is saving him but I´m not a fan and the only thing why this hairstyle is good is that he doesn´t have to use hair clips as his lazy decision rather than style his hair himself every day. But overal I´m not a fan just like I´m not a fan of new Niall´s hairstyle (eventho I still love him) and so Louis keeps winning these days for me despite his grey hair lol. And don´t know if you´ve seen it but J.Bailey also cut his hair probably for his new role and ooooh I miss his long-haired d*sney prince hairstyle which made him much softer. Certain men should never be allowed to cut their hair no matter if it´s their personal choice or because of the role because their longer hair makes them look softer and more angelic. P.S.: But thnx H because since yesterday I´m looking for an oversized semi-sheer beige shirt.
Hi, anon!
Like these pics are not taken far apart in time, but the sunglasses on the right are just not it.
I think he loves himself some quirky sunglasses, but the see through one's with a brown tint are a no from me.
I'm not really happy with the haircut either, but i think it's been worse before. Idon't really like the hair too short on him, but yeah, i agree it's more manageable for him now. The mowhawk look and the shorter sides is...no. I don't need the 80's back.
I haven't seen J. Bailey's new haircut! He's got such good hair though. I get it if he's doing it for a role, hopefully it will grow back in no time!
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ok that very much clears it up thank you i was very worried for both herself and the team, bc i wasn't sure if they knew how far it fed into it just by liking/replying to comments etc, so you are very correct about it being best to just move on. it just startled me like i said i haven't seen anything like it, so i will just check back around every so often to make sure they're ok. thank you!! i didn't realize this has also happened to Dom, i'm glad they warned him. the photo of casie is very concerning and i'm just glad dom doesn;t have children to involve. :'(
I'm sure someone on Colson's team has an eye on stuff like that. I'm not sure I caught the pic of her so I may have to do a deeper dive but it truly just seems like someone with some problems. Normally they're harmless.
Yes, it was... Intense and kind of horrifying, this woman said she was an empath and they had a spiritual relationship. She posted about their mental sex life constantly (as in every few minutes sometimes). Don't get me wrong I fully support fantasy even with real people (obviously) but she tagged him, threatened him when he took J somewhere, threatened fans, bullied EVERYONE, and was grooming underage fans. She also happened to live very close to him when he was home and was vocal about knowing where his place was. I don't know what happened with her but it was overwhelming and one of the things that ended up getting me off insta 😅
People can be worrisome but I'm sure they both have someone on their teams who keep an eye out for danger. Hopefully she can get the help she needs if she needs it and doesn't have actual access to any of them. Sometimes fantasy just blurs wrong.
If it will worry you maybe just keep an eye on her occasionally and if it gets dangerous report her. Did you hear about it from someone or stumble onto the page?
Edit: I only ask because if you heard it from someone or other people have noticed you may eventually report her as a group if she starts threatening or anything.
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Started on livejournal, babey.
Never did wattpad.
And boy do I have an Ao3 account.
I'm not saying I have a lot of it, or that it's good, but I have writte smut.
Did several years when all I wrote was roleplay, and recently back into it in this fandom.
I regularly beta read for thisdroid!
My first longfic was written entirely unbetaed.
Oh BOY was my most recent fic self-indulgent.
Most of my comments are me putting emojis below quotes.
I regularly see that "you have already left kuos here" pop up.
Not a huge fan of fluff actually!
Haven't written F/F yet, I should get on that. Exactly half of my non-gen is M/M though.
Saying fanfiction is a genre KINDA works, cause there are specific tropes, but also fanfiction is a lot of different genres? It has mystery and thriller and horror and romance and sf and--
QSMP and DSMP and SMPEarth and Origins and 3rd Life and the works of Martha Wells, as it turns out.
Grrrrrr researching is my enemy. I can never find the fact I want and I'm left reading about fish balls.
Have to outline to know where I'm going!
Look, I have anxiety. Who among us DOESN"T.
I was just in a Big Bang and got art! It's amazing and on my desktop!
The one I'm working on now for AuEx. It's— not going fast.
Sigh. Editing. The feeling that i'm making my fic worse.
Who among us doesn't plot while falling asleep, though.
It wasn't GOOD writing but I did try to ease the deadline anxiety with cheap wine. Do not do this.
I need tea to do ANYTHING buddy.
My fics have gotten an unexpected and wonderful amount of attention! There's none that I'm like "but WHY".
Oh no buddy I'm here on purpose, doing this for fun, on purpose. I did my time trying to go pro. I left writer twitter intentionally.
I'm tagging anyone who wants to do this!
Fanfiction Writer Bingo
I was tagged by @backwardshirt in this post!
Ooooh I got a Bingo! I got TWO bingos! THREE!!!
Couple Clarifications:
oh yeah I had a wattpad phase. No, you won't find anything written by me currently on wattpad.
Good luck finding my smut content; it's a secret ;) (if you're under 18, do not ask me for it at all, please)
I never get anything I write beta-read before posting. I don't have that kind of restraint, I want to post when I want to post and I don't want to wait for someone else to read it over (and I am really my own hardest editor anyway; always have been).
"Fanfiction is an actual genre" - I did not mark this one because it's not true? Fanfiction has many genres within it. It is Actual Writing, most definitely, but it isn't it's own genre. It spans across all genres. (it's like saying "novellas are a genre" or "comics are a genre"; no. They are a Form of Media, and very valid, but not a genre)
Yeah, someday I would love to publish original works and be able to make a living doing what I love. I even have some original stuff in the works to hopefully publish, but sometimes I go back and forth with the idea, unsure if I really wanna go down the money route. Yes I know professional writers should have editors and alpha readers and beta readers. But it's different than fanfic. I don't feel like it's the same, so therefore for me it is not and I can justify it. Like how I don't mind being told what to do at work but I will fight anyone who tries to tell me how to live my personal life. :D
Fandoms I (currently) write for:
Bleach, Blue Exorcist, Twisted Wonderland, JJK, Fire Force, BNHA (sort of)
Tagging: @kimium; @azurexsnake; @filipinoizukuu; @kamikazequail; @moonlarked; @sithmonarch
No pressure to participate, but feel free and have fun! (if I tagged you and you don't write/don't currently write, don't sweat it, seriously there's no pressure 💜💜💜. If you write but don't post/haven't posted yet, that's fine too and you can still participate! All fanfic writing counts!!)
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Hi, i don't request often but i love the way you write Kaz and was thinking of an idea of Kaz x reader where he notices this new face in Ketterdam and is intrigued cause she is very smart and has amazing fighting skills but she is also into astrology and tarot (idk if it doesn t totally make sense, you can leave out the last bit, hehe). Reader is actually a runaway Grisha assassin and becomes Kaz's right hand. She can be rutheless but still is super caring for other crows and sarcastic?!? And maybe we can see bits and pieces where Kaz shows he cares for her ?
A big big thank you if you choose to do this one day and if i was to vague or something, gimme a sign and i can write you again.
Anyways, i adore your writings nevertheless and you literally make my day when i see a new post!^^
THE FREDDY EVENT HAS ENDED! Thank you everyone who requested during it! Freddy's characters preferences and requests for Jason, Tom and Ellis will stay open as I promised, they weren't exclusive to the event.
The Kaz taglist will apply and is free to join for the remainder of content which came during the event, but after that it won't be used anymore and Kaz pieces will have the general Netflix show Shadow and Bone taglist, which contains the rest of the Crows, Alina, Mal, Genya, Darkling etc. You can apply to that if you want to catch the post-event requested Kaz pieces too!
A/N: Aww thank you for your kind words 💕 (tagging the requester @blue-serendipity so they'd see this!)
I trimmed the request quite a bit because it had a lot of things I don't need story-wise, so for example, I didn't include the astrology and tarot thing because I didn't know how to implement them smoothly. I know you said I can take them out if they don't make sense, but I still hope you don't mind! Also sarcasm doesn't show because I didn't come across the need to use sarcasm + I'm really bad in writing sarcasm and don't always understand what's sarcasm, what's cringy sarcasm and what's just rude because of my autism. Her being caring is included, but she's taking care of a young Dreg and not one of the Crows.
And also the "bits and pieces where Kaz shows he cares for her" is more like just one scene at the end because you didn't really provide a long enough plot for more scenes like that and the request kind of sounded like a super short recap of a miniseries tbh.
Warnings: reader takes care of a teenager girl who's ill, vomiting mentioned
Word count: 1.3k
THE FIRST STEP
When Kaz first saw you, you were in an alleyway all alone, fighting off a group of men who had just tried to rob you. You looked like you could perfectly predict any attack that was coming your way, even before they'd thrown their punches.
You fought them for just a few minutes, and then they all were on the ground, groaning with pain and clutching their sides and arms, as you walked away from them graciously, not even short of breath. Kaz had to say, he was impressed and made his way to you, asking if you'd be interested in joining Dregs. You had looked him up and down, quirking an eyebrow.
"You're just a boy," you had said.
"You're just a girl," he had countered back, smirking.
"I'm older than I look," you shot back.
"And I have more reputation and power than most here," he answered, stepping forward. "Come work for me, I can offer you food and shelter in addition to fair pay."
Your eyes searched his face as you tucked your hands under your armpits, suddenly feeling cold from a breeze of air. "Who are you?" you asked suspiciously, trying to keep your voice cool.
"I am Kaz Brekker, the leader of the Dregs," he told you with a tingle of pride in his voice. Your eyes widened as you recognized the name.
"You... I thought you'd be older. You don't look old enough to lead anyone, let alone a gang," you protested. He gave you another smirk.
"I told you, I have more reputation and power than most my age." he said smugly.
"Why should I trust you? I heard you're manipulative and deceitful," you accused.
"You're too valuable asset to pass by." Kaz replied confidently.
You thought for a moment, recounting what you should do. If you trusted Kaz and he would be a man of his word, you would be safe from any people who could come to search for you from The Little Palace. But if you were wrong with trusting him, he could lock you up, sell you out or worse. But somehow, your brains still told you to trust him - it wasn't like you wouldn't be able to get away if things got bad. So you decided to join Dregs. It seemed like a better place than stay on the streets anyway.
You shook hands after a moment more of hesitation, and so you became a Dreg.
***
During these five years, it had became very clear you had taken a right call when you joined the Dregs. It took you only months to become Kaz's right hand, second in command. He told you that once in the past, he was in your place, working for a boss who had been a fool, and he had taken his place after concluding he would be a better leader, and Dregs thought so too. He had more reputation and respect within them than Per Haskell had had.
You could be ruthless too and just as sarcastic as Kaz was, but you also had traits Kaz lacked - compassion and care for other Crows and Dregs. You were known to tend injured members of the gang if they needed it, fighting their fevers away and making them feel as comfortable as possible.
Normally, Kaz would think that such actions were needless, that Ketterdam would devour people if she wanted and would have told you to get back to work. But seeing you caring for a fourteen year old gang member who had fallen ill just days after joining made Kaz feel something.
If there had been someone like you when he and Jordie caught firepox, maybe Jordie would still be alive. Ever since that, he had thought that Ketterdam is supposed to teach harsh lessons to its young residents to make them survive, but kindness that you showed to everyone made him think in another way.
You spoke softly to the child, stroked her hair and helped her throw up by holding a bucket in front of her and held her long hair back before you placed another cold towel on her forehead. When the child finally fell asleep on the bed, you put the blanket around her and left the room to see Kaz standing behind it.
"How is she?" Kaz asked, and you were surprised at the question. Kaz usually didn't care about other gang members that much, at least not to the extent to ask how they are doing or to show any concern for their well being.
But as Kaz looked at the girl sleeping with... something distantly looking like concern in his eyes, you gave a small smile and nodded your head. "She'll be fine." you replied with a sigh.
Kaz glanced away from the bed and towards you, his eyes wandering over your face. "You look tired."
"Well, it's almost midnight and I've been with her since sunrise, so..." you tried to brush it off as you gently closed the door but he raised his gloved hand to stop you from talking.
"You should get some sleep," he told you. "You'll be much more effective if you're rested." You could only stare at him dumbly for a moment, there was something new in Kaz's tone as he said that to you. Something warm that made your stomach flip in a strange feeling. It was like... care? Softness? Love?
You forced the wishful thought out from your head.
"Yeah, I guess it could be good. Thanks, Kaz." you offered him another smile, and Kaz nodded at you as you left for your room, eager to sleep after an exhausting day.
Kaz was left there listening to your footsteps echoing around the Slat, until he heard your door open and close and pressed his lips together. He stood there for another minute, before slowly making his way to the attic. His brains told him to not fall for her, don’t fall for her, she'll just end up hurting you when she dies, you can't keep anyone alive, but at the same time, his heart was saying the opposite.
She could help you.
No she wouldn't, his brains argued back.
And even though Kaz had believed his brains, his cold and calculative ability to protect himself from feelings most of his life, this was different - ever since you had stepped into his life, something inside of him shifted, like a wave crashing onto a beach that would never stop coming in. He felt warm in your presence, like a lovesick teenager. He could hide it more than most were able to, and this evening was his first slip of showing he cared about you, and he noticed you had gotten confused about him telling to go to sleep too, which proved that you noticed something different too.
He made it to his own room, locking the door and standing there for a moment. He took a deep breath through his nose, wondering what his feelings could bring if he continued to show them to you. There was a fear of losing you. You being kidnapped and he'd never see you again or you dying. Or you leaving him once you'd really see what it would be like to be Dirtyhands' girlfriend, if you even felt the same.
But deep inside, he knew you did feel the same. And he also knew you wouldn't give up so easily. You knew the risks, and were more than capable to take care of yourself - your assassin skills were remarkable, and even if you stood in front of a certain death, there wouldn't be anything that stopped you from fighting anyway, and if someone got out from such a situation, it would be you.
And maybe it could be you for him too...
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Tags: @scandalous-chaos @brekkers-desigirl @bb-skyrunner @ellora-brekker @hanabihwa @animalistic0 @story-scribbler @lovemenotplz @writingmysanity @directioner5life @thevipers-world @imaginesfire // send in an ask to be added, and specify which of Freddy's characters do you want to be tagged on! (This taglist is for Freddy event only, I won't take character taglists for anyone else than Freddy's characters. And note: for requests which came in before or after the event will get the full SaB taglist again, this taglist applies only for requests that were requested during the event) ALSO IF YOU WON’T INTERACT BEYOND LIKING, I’LL EVENTUALLY TAKE YOU OFF THE LIST!!
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I can.. request for a specific scenario.. 🥺🥺
Can it be maybe a jschlatt x fem reader where they are roommates, and they somehow had a quarrel which made the reader leave angrily, then schlatt regrets even quarrelling with the reader, and went to go find her, then they made up and maybe starts dating… OR SOMETHING 😳😳
"I need you to stay" ➷ jschlatt
pairing: jschlatt x reader (female)
summary: you can´t take Schlatts cold behavior anymore, he doesn´t seem to care about you or your feelings and you are close to moving out after one heavy argument
tags/warnings: yelling, swearing, mention of a past relationship that didn´t end well, angst but comfort in the end
words: 1,2k
song: RAIN - Ben Platt
a/n: thank you for the request! Enjoy it <3 (i also learned what quarrel means, adding that one to my vocab list rn)
"Oh my fucking god, what's so hard about understanding that I just want to hear a 'sorry'?"
Your throat was screaming for a drop of water, your voice had long been nothing more than a rasp that was getting worse with every word and was slowly starting to hurt.
But you couldn't think about water.
"I did apologize! But you probably didn't listen to me again!" shouted Schlatt at you from the couch he had thrown himself on right after you got home, which made you all the angrier.
If anyone of the two of you deserved to rest, it was you and definitely not him!
"I... I'm not listening to you?", stunned, you raised your finger, digging the tip of your finger against the thin fabric of your top until you felt your nail. Then you stretched it in his direction with a trembling arm. "You don't listen to me, and you haven't for weeks! I have to ask you five times for you to move your ass to do something!" You could have given him endless examples, things you were silently upset about that drove you mad.
But you knew it was no use, you felt that no discussion with Schlatt brought you anything. It was as if you were throwing your worries against a wall, so little compassion and understanding did he show you.
Even now he just huffed, folding his arms behind his head as a pillow, and didn't even look in your direction. "You're overreacting," he spoke into a yawn, and the trembling in your body grew stronger. Schlatt rubbed his eyes shut, "You better be glad I saved you from that idiot."
It wasn't much, but his words were enough to make you go blind with rage. Angrily, you grabbed one of the decorative glasses on the dresser you had been leaning against until just now, clasped the glass in your hands, and hurled it to the floor just in front of the couch.
"You had no right to fucking interfere there! Not after you ignored me all evening!" you yelled as tears slowly formed in your eyes.
At the impact of the glass, Schlatt had jumped up, startled, and was now eyeing you with a mixture of horror and bewilderment.
You raised your trembling hand to wipe the first hot tears from your cheeks, which you could no longer hold back.
Normally you hated crying in front of Schlatt, but he had finally managed to bring down your protective walls.
"You know what Schlatt?" sniffling, you walked over to one of the chairs next to the couch where Schlatt was sitting and grabbed your jacket, which you had carelessly tossed onto the cushion when you had entered the living room. "You can go fuck yourself. I can't stand being around you anymore. I've tried...I've tried everything to respect your decision to think about your feelings, but I can't anymore, I just can't." With a sob, you pulled your jacket on, though feeling none of the expected warmth; you were freezing for entirely different reasons.
"(y/n), where are you going?" you heard Schlatt ask as you walked toward your apartment door.
"(y/n), we can talk about it, right?"
Without another word, you let the loud slam of the door behind you do the talking for you.
Your footsteps echoed in the silent stairwell, each step echoing in your ears, and though you knew Schlatt wouldn't chase after you, you hoped to hear him calling for you until the front door of the house closed and you stood outside in the night.
You took a deep breath of the warm air, pulling your jacket closer to you like a shield. The soft rain that fell down on you didn´t bother you more than the feeling of loneliness, brokenness.
Everything hurt, from your neck to your heart, which you heard shattering like glass.
The silence of the night was deafeningly loud, the harshly spoken words played over and over in your head as you aimlessly walked off down the sidewalk by the untraveled street.
No argument between you and Schlatt had ever been so bad that you could no longer be in the same room, even the same apartment, as him.
In no quarrel had you ever had the feeling of standing before the end of your friendship and the indescribable what was between you, and it frightened you.
The fear had quickly displaced the anger in you, now gnawing at you, putting its cold hand around your heart and clouding your thoughts.
It had never been just friendship between you, since he had become your roommate there had been sparks and it had been okay. You hadn't talked about it, just accepted that there was something that drove you into each other's room, into each other's arms. Something that had made you both happy until he had suddenly pulled away after his friends had called him on it.
Within a few weeks he changed from one day to the next, answering your questions coolly, saying no to evenings together, locking his door at night.
He had needed his time, you told yourself.
He was certainly as insecure as you, you hoped.
You believed all that until tonight when you went out with friends and Schlatt out of the blue nearly punched a guy you had talked to.
It didn´t make any sense.
You hadn´t come far when suddenly footsteps sounded behind you. Fast approaching footsteps.
Before you could think about what was happening, someone had already grabbed your wrist and turned you around.
"Please don't leave me." whispered Schlatt, his cheeks red from his sprint, his chest rising and falling erratically as if his heart was racing as fast as yours was at that moment. "I need you to stay."
There it was again, that indescribable something, those sparks.
"Schlatt, this... I can't stay without knowing what you feel and I can´t waste my love for someone who is playing with me, not again," you whispered back, pulling your hand free from his grip, which had loosened.
His eyes flickered over your face and you felt ashamed of your puffed cheeks, the clear evidence of how much you had been crying.
You could feel the rain slowly soaking your clothes and seeping through your thin jacket.
"I'm sorry."
You looked down at the ground, at the puddle between you in which you blurredly recognized your reflections.
"I'm so fucking sorry about everything," Schlatt repeated louder, the puddle image distorting at the falling raindrops. "I was an asshole, pushing you away when I was overwhelmed with my own feelings and insecurities, and I'm so fucking sorry."
A hand under your chin forced you to look up, into his pleading eyes. "The fear of losing you made me realize how much I would lose, that I couldn't lose you."
"Prove it." you breathed, unconsciously standing on your tiptoes to be closer to him. "Prove to me that I can trust in you."
Schlatt leaned down to you with little inhibition, kissing you with a force that quickly left you breathless.
His lips felt warm on yours, making you finally feel the warmth you'd been craving, fixing the cracks in your heart.
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Clace Fanfic Recommendation of the Week
Title: I'm With You Author: SkySpectacuLar Summary: Jace and Clary have heard about each other for over ten years. When they finally meet, their relationship starts off with a bang. Others: Rated: Fiction M - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Clary F., Jace W. - Chapters: 4 - Words: 31,607 - Status: Complete Link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13678957/1/I-m-With-You Site: Fanfiction.net
Okay, this one it's a short one BUT the chapters are really really long so it makes up with that. And believe me, when you finish the fic you'll want more👀
It doesn´t have a lot of development because it´s a short fic but it´s really well written. It has sexy sexy times, fluff, some funny moments and some angst. You can definitely feel the attraction between Jace and Clary from the first moment.
Honestly it's basically smut (but a really good one I must tell!!!) and I have to warn you, I think this one is the most toned up? (I don´t know what word to use haha sorry) Clace smut that I have ever came across. I recommend to read it only if you are over 18 🔞 (I mean, you can do whatever you want of course but I´ll sleep better at night if at least I know I warned you hahaha)
Also notice that I'm trying to add kind of mood boards for every fic, not the best but I'm loving them, I'll get better at them over time I guess
You can find more of my fanfic recommendations under the tag: Clace Fanfic Recommendation of the Week.
I want to clarify that I'm not going to rate the fics, I just want to share my thoughts and the stories with you, in case you are interested in reading them. And also I want to keep a record of my reaction to some of the fanfics that I read and to promote some of the stories that I came across that I think deserve more recognition.
I also want you to feel free to ask me for recommendations if you have a favorite trope/ theme/ idea regarding Clace fanfiction and/or One shots. I have a lot of Clace fics in my Fanfiction.net list that I have yet to post, so it's very likely that I have read one that would suit your taste 🌻☺️
I also want you to feel free to ask me for recommendations if you have a favorite trope/ theme/ idea regarding Clace fanfiction and/or One shots. I have a lot of Clace fics in my Fanfiction.net list that I have yet to post, so it's very likely that I have read one that would suit your taste 🌻☺️
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