#Idola || Writing

[pathomannia]

Hallen coming to her home so urgently she nearly kicked down the door was quite a shock. Not because Astryn had never seen Hallen quite so full of energy, but because Hallen was supposed to have died almost three years ago. After making sure she was settled, or at least as much as a teenager in near-hysterics could be, and in the company of Astryn’s family, she went to check on the tower. 

From what she had gotten from Hallen, it had already been a day since she had woken up. The walk from Silas’ tower to her house was rather long, let alone Hallen was probably disoriented. Even with Astryn was sprinting almost the entire way there, it wouldn’t be fast enough. He didn’t. He didn’t. He wouldn’t dare-

Out of breath, she slammed the door to the tower open. “Hey- Silas? Bianka?!” It was eerily quiet. It was usually so warm and comfortable here, but the air just felt cold and heavy now. Astryn took in a shaky breath. 

She knew exactly what happened. She didn’t want to believe it. He wouldn’t be so foolhardy. There’s no way he would do this to his daughters. To Bianka. Stepping lightly through the home, she finally found herself in the hallway to Hallen’s room. The door hanging open. She didn’t want to see. But she had to. She had to make sure Silas and Bianka were okay. Maybe this was just a fluke. Maybe the gods had taken pity on Hallen and allowed her a new chance at life. That he didn’t. The denial racing through her head as she slowly stepped towards the room

He didn’t. He didn’t. He didn’t. He-

Pushing the door open, she was greeted by a heartbreaking scene. Silas looked almost like he could be asleep, but laid out on the floor made it hard to convince herself of that. Bianka slumped over his chest, almost unmoving is what scared her more. She was frozen for a long moment, waiting for her breathing and heart to settle as she soaked in the scene. 

“B…” She moved closer, leaning down to brush hair out of the child’s face. It was obvious she had been crying. The poor thing must have cried herself to the point of exhaustion. “Bianka.” Astryn called out softly again, running her hand gently over her head, disturbing her ears, which caused the child to stir and sit up. 

“...Astryn?” She mumbled, looking up blearily at the woman, before reality hit her. Her eyes shot back to the body of her father. “Dad-.. He-... H-Hallen-” She barely choked own before breaking down in sobs again.

“I know. I know…” Astryn wrapped her arms around the trembling girl, who clung to her and wailed. How could he? She held tightly to Bianka trying to calm her own rage over this. If Silas opened his eyes at this very moment, Astryn could’ve beaten him bloody. She was too angry to even cry right now. What selfish idiot just abandons his own child in such a horrible manner? 

She rested her head on top of Bianka’s. Was it selfish? He gave his life up for the sake of his other daughter. Was he only trying to correct an accident that he blamed himself for? Or was his damned hubris so great he thought he could survive this? There was no way to ask now. He had forsaken himself for Hallen to live. There wasn’t even an afterlife for him now. 

“B?” She quietly called out to the girl now sniveling against her chest. She sounded so tired, even now. Gently stroking her hair, she spoke. “How about you go rest for now. I’ll take care of things.” No reply. 

Astryn let go over her, pushing her far enough away so she could look her in the eyes. Bianka’s face was puffy from crying so much, not to add, she looked utterly exhausted. Her ears drooping, and it almost seemed she couldn’t keep her head up. She wiped away the child’s tears, and tried to fix her hair so it wouldn’t stick to her damp face. “I won’t do anything important without you, alright? You need to rest.” 

Bianka opened her mouth to protest, but Astryn shook her head. “You’ve had a hard day, and sleeping.. Here won’t do you any good.” To allow her to sleep in a room with her fathers corpse, let alone her once-late sister’s room, felt too cruel. 

Astryn stood up, while Bianka stayed sitting, staring at Silas for a long moment. Like she was trying to memorize his face. She held out a hand to the girl. Bianka shakily grabbed her hand, using it as leverage to try and get up. But then she collapsed on the floor with her face twisting in agony. Astryn dropped down, worry clear in her face, trying to figure out what was wrong. One of Bianka’s hands was gripping her leg, clearly in pain. Astryn frowns. 

That fool. When Bianka was much younger, she almost never walked because it was painful. It wasn’t until Silas’ intervention that she could walk with minimal pain. What had he been thinking? Bianka’s nature was already so unstable, to practically abandon her… Was he expecting Hallen to help? Astryn herself? It made her blood boil. 

Astryn wrapped an arm around Bianka’s shoulders, reaching down to hook her arm around her legs. Bianka, understanding what Astryn was looking to do, reached to put her arms around her neck. Picking her up was practically effortless, other than the slight hiss Bianka made at being moved like this. 

Walking Bianka to her room like this only helped breaking her heart. She felt so small. With her head settled against Astryn’s shoulder, the reality of all of this weighed heavy. He really was gone. He’d never see Bianka grow up. She was only twelve now, it felt so unfair.  Helping settle her in bed, the woman brushed a hand over her head. “I’ll bring you something to help.” She murmured as she tucked the girl in. 

Astryn had promised that, but she found herself wandering back to Silas. While the house was filled with remnants of his magic, it was especially prevalent in Hallen’s room. Why hadn’t it occurred to her? The door was locked and heavily magicked to stay shut by him. He preserved Hallen here in her room. She hadn’t been present for his eldest child’s burial, did he ever bury her at all? What did Bianka see? 

She scanned the floor, covered in books and the near unhinged notes made by Silas. How had he kept this secret? She picked up a stack of papers to shuffle through them and couldn’t help but scoff. He really was stubborn, wasn’t he? When Hallen had died during an unexpected scuffle, he had been overcome with grief. At the time she thought the comment of bringing her back was just an offhanded one, even if she near beat the stuffing out of him for even thinking of it. Obviously it didn’t help knock the sense into him, only taught him to keep secrets. 

She dropped the notes on the floor rather uncaringly. She didn’t want to read her best friend’s descent into madness. 

He always thought he knew better than everyone else, didn’t he? He didn’t learn from his mistakes when he got kicked from the Spagkos. If anything it only strengthened his resolve and his arrogance only seemed to grow.  

She took a deep breath, kneeling beside his body. It was all so surreal, looking at him now. She placed a hand over his cold hand and pursed her lips. It was real. He was gone. She couldn’t keep quietly convincing herself he was only passed out. 

“You damn fool.” The woman whispers. If she talked any louder, she would break. She couldn’t. Not now. She could hear Bianka’s sobbing faintly. Astryn brushed some hair away, leaning over to place a soft kiss on his forehead. Then, stood up. 

 She had to keep herself together. For Bianka and Hallen.

[katyahina]

Bloodborne timeline

I decided to finally organize my variant of Bloodborne timeline, since I kept having ideas, but they'd at times contradict each other. I tried to use as many justifications as I could, basing it on whatever clues I COULD find, including some cut content too for the good measure!

Of course my word is not final in any way! Bloodborne offers a lot of room for interpretation, and this is just how I've pieced things together! If someone finds anything in this timeline variant helpful, just know that it is 1000% allowed to use my findings! In fact, I'd even be happy if my thoughts could help someone else to resolve THEIR timeline questions!

I just need to warn though, some bits are rather elaborate. Characters Rom and Izzy, who don't have personality or much lore in the source material, are given very important roles and thus kinda hefty characterization. I also payed a lot of attention to the segment of Pthumerian's rise and fall, because a lot of it will tie in Yharnam's events. Time is a flat circle and all that. :')

Hope you enjoy the reading! At least, I've enjoyed the writing.

Earliest known history (Pthumerians)

★ The Great One Flora acts as the Moon Presence (status), while Fauna, the Great One Beast, is a GO that was supposed to be another side of the same coin. Flora back then displayed no signs of beasthood unlike when we meet her. Fauna is based off the name mentioned in cut content about "living livers" ( x ), as well as the cut content boss Great One beast ( x )!

★ Flora and Fauna fought over mortals and how to govern them. Flora represended the guiding light (moonlight and arcane), but Fauna suggested granting them the light allowing autonomy and studying the world and evolution how they seen fit (fire and electricity). During this time of disagreement, Loran was amongst the first Pthumerian civilizations to rise to prominence, and a man from it, called Fort, sided with Fauna and helped to overpower Flora and consume her guts, which by effect meant consuming her unborn Oedon. (Fort is a name I took from cut fight of Loran Cleric ( x ))

★ Fort and Fauna became allies, and the Loran Clerics are the result of the ministration Fort started. Beasthood began spreading not only as a result of that Pthumerian blood ministration but also because of Oedon, living and growing up as a formless voice within mortals’ blood, reveling in bloodshed, wrath and the hunt as the only instinctive way to reconnect with their mother.

Rise of Pthumeru Ihyll and Isz

★ Civilisation of Isz has been the one revering the Moon earlier than anyone else, in hopes of safety and recovering the connection with Great Ones that once was. Amongst them, a man has been visited by the blessing of Moon Presence, forging the Holy Moonlight Sword.

★ Meanwhile, the place that would later be Pthumeru Ihyll has been simply building their walls. Idola, a crow-like Great One from Blazing Hell (that becomes Nightmare Frontier) gathers sympathy for them and sacrifices her blood to grant this civilisation pyromancy to be much safer from Beasthood. Pthumerians then would help her to adapt to living like a mortal, wearing their accessories and fighting with their swords, as well as Keepers of the Old Lords would later burn their bodies and souls in reverence. Idola's name would get lost in history later, but- yes, she is the Mergo's Wet Nurse. The name Idola is taken from the voice line from Huntsmen mob, "Idola will be the judge!" ( x ) ( x )

★ The first hero of the Moon and Queen Yharnam become allies to finally murder Fauna, whereas Fort is taken to would-be Pthumeru Ihyll and forced into unholy marriage ritual to conceive Mergo, the first Child of Blood. Their 'birth' would go wrong and they'd instead fuse into being physically a part of Queen Yharnam, essentially becoming that comedic "genius infant" trope xd Hence Mergo's Attendants existing to begin with and being able to follow them everywhere.

★ Loran was gone almost entirely, especially with the curse of Flora that would cause those afflicted by beasthood to have stillborn infants (Bastard of Loran). It is as simple as carrying a "sin" with blood transfusion, since what started it WAS Fauna eating her, and then exchanging with Fort. After many years of practicing beasthood very efficiently, even branching between 'electric' type and 'fire' type like they were "schools", they had to stop under risk of their civilization going completely extinct, brace themselves and pray that enough of them survives and can have children. The ones that could still think, move and had the least beasthood signs fleed very far away, having mingled with the humans and now living in a land called New Loran. (running ahead a bit - Henryk's family are descendants of 'electric' Loranites, and Laurence's family are descendants of 'fire' Loranites!)

★ As for the 'crow from Hell' symbolism, and the fact that Nightmare was domain of Flora by effect of being production of nightmares of people cursed with the "sin", that time effectively Heaven and Hell, or Dream and Nightmare, united against a shared enemy, you know? So the legends (completely palatable) and the sentiment still lives on even at the time of the game events:

(Proof that this is Beltran, not Norbert/Herbert by word of Lance McDonalds ( x ), this guy is a legend of datamining, especially cut + hidden content, that can be trusted!)

★ Isz and Pthumeru Ihyll picked a little different ways to go about Great Ones; whereas Isz was studying Eldrich Truth as is and relying on the blessing and will of the 'Moon', Pthumeru Ihyll, of course, were attempting to deal with Earth and Cosmos on their own terms. So, similarly to Queen Yharnam having Mergo, the chief in Isz had Ebrietas, the very first known Celestial Child! Celestial Children are blessing of the Moon Presence (Flora or Oedon), whereas Children of Blood are conceived artificially when the chosen Queen of Blood gathers enough "power" by consuming Blood Dregs (effectively, souls of the deceased), to eventually have unholy marriage with Ring of Betrothal with the chosen spouse as one last "sacrifice". Since Queen Yharnam was no longer able to have another child, permanently "pregnant", her brother Cain would continue the bloodline that'd mix with humans frequiently to suppress the "gene" of becoming a living dead or a bat-like monster, and eventually becomes Cainhurst royals:

(Internal filenames here on Wiki page: ( x ))

★ Gosum (eng: Kosm), priest back in Isz has been a tier between mortals and the cosmos no less than Ebrietas herself, and effectively used to be what Rom is now - a guardian of the barrier between two worlds. Lake and Sea runes both mention large body of a water serving as a barrier between worlds! However, she was lured by the Deep Sea and parasites living within it that eternally fuel starvation for more knowledge, choosing her own path as opposed to doing the Moon's bidding. The details of her ascension are a blur for me, but two things matter:

★ She would extinguish the Blazing Hell, which I headcanon so because Nightmare Frontier has columnar basalt formation that are known to form around volcanic activity, and Nightmare Realm in general has many formations that look like melted together human faces - easily previously eternally burning souls, now freed. Some Sea runes are also found in Nightmare Frontier. Moreover, I think Kos Parasites look QUITE similar not only to Brainsucker faces, but also to Crawlers that reside in poisonous swamps in the Frontier!

★ It seems that Chalice Dungeons have been flooded, and I feel like Kos/Kosm, as Great One could've also done that as one effort to bury the beasthood for good. Besides, Chalice Dungeons have a whale-like corpse that is also found in Fishing Hamlet!

Tying to the newer era and Byrgenwerth

★ Pthumerians became a rarer type of mortals due to various forms of decay carrying from their ancient, unholy practices. They were starting to mingle with the humans more, cultures mixing a lot. A lot of ancient legends and religion carried on, some Pthumerians were still around, beasthood remained more-or-less surviving (especially in Loranites, such as Suspicious Beggar), minimal contact with the Great Ones endured (mostly Amygdalas and Oedon).

★ Basically, Pthumerians and humans have been coexisting in the world since forever, but there became much less Pthumerians because of what they did with beasthood, blood and ascension. They inflicted all types of curses on their kind, and most of them have been making families with humans with initial purpose to 'clean' their genes and blood, since humans were not bearing curses. ...yet, lol. There are many people in Yharnam with Pthumerian+human genes. There were other queens later on that would be named Yharnam +number, and Yharnam used to be a monarchy for a long while. My friend @val-of-the-north posted our headcanons and observations on the topic here in more detail ( x ), but the shortest explanation - Hemwick to Cainhurst is what Hintertombs was to Pthumeru Ihyll! Although, eventually Cainhurst became closer to oligarchy than morarchy.

+ I also need to add that Yahar'gul was a more secluded district of almost exclusively Pthumerians that went their separate way from Pthumeru Ihyll and Loran after their "conflict", and lived in secrecy for many years. Their main interest was in connecting with Amygdalas again, which is what kept them connected with Byrgenwerth and later, with Healing Church.

★ Aside of older Yharnamites (mostly Cainhurst) and new Loranites, there was another very distinct group of Pthumerians+humans people - nomads from Isz civilization! They mostly travelled on the ships, unable to find a permanent place to live, but apparently adoped [insert default language of the setting] as their basic one, almost forgetting Pthumerian language, save for few words/spells. One time a particularly strong storm completely wrecked their ships. The ones who survived could've sworn that they saw a blue 'syren', that would create a belief that the long lost Great One that became almost just a legend in their people was real, and favouring them. They've finally settled on the shore for permanent home, being a simple humble Fishing Hamlet. This one is harder to define how many centuries ago happened, but they believed Kos was there, and some fishmen even reported having actually seen her!

★ This one is a long time skip, but when Fishing Hamlet was under serious threat of destruction over natural disasters, diseases and even external enemies that wanted to destroy their humble hamlet, they attempted to summon Kos in their despair (which I believe happened since Fish people speak as though they've failed to protect her from the hunters after having beckoned her…). Kos was there for them, though, and they'd form a symbiosis; they were desperate for protection, and she was desperate for community and the mortal(ish?) things she once defied. They'd mutate into fish people as a side effect, similarly to how Amygdalas' devotees could become spider people (Nightmare Apostles). The word about a village full of strange fish people would spread somewhat as rumours not many believed at the time... Besides, Kos had a habit to crash the ships of people that would bring harm to the hamlet. She could tell who was an enemy!

★ Byrgenwerth was formed as institution of archeology and history when Willem was still young, and used to be rather close and friendly with Cainhurst - both as their main sponsors and as the closest thing to the weird rituals and culture of the past.

★ Before scholars such as Micolash, Laurence, Rom etc rolled in, but when Karel (eng: Caryll) was already helping, they've heard a beast howling. It was one of the surviving ones in the dungeons that was supposed to remain sealed by dungeon rituals after the flooding... The reason it managed to break free was that in this same time, Kos became pregnant, that made her unable to dwell in the waters anymore! So she was beached. That broke HER concealment, letting some previously unseen horrors loose and seen. Caryll was able to decipher his first rune, whereas Willem took Dores and Gatekeeper with him and managed to do quite a huge breakthrough!

★ Gehrman was hired to help with the exploration of the dungeons! At that same time, Cainhurst has been struggling to retract their lost legacy and relics from their cursed undead ancestors, as you could see Cainhurst-esque armour scattered all over the dungeons! It was not helping that ever since concealment dropped, Cainhurst's problems with people becoming Bloodlickers ended up dialed up to 11. They are basically Vileblood equivalent of the beasts- not to mention that when humans with such ancestry turn, they develop Hatefull Maggots (those annoying parasites crawling in the pit at Cainhurst, in the secret cave in the Woods, as well as occupying some Silverbeasts in Nightmare Realm and the headles Blood-letting Beast). Basically, they were in trouble both in the dungeons and within their own castle! Gehrman was able to help Cainhurst warriors fight better against the agile beasts, as heavy armours and shields were not effective. As a result, armours of the Guardians got slightly lighter, some new weapons got commissioned, and new type of a noble warrior, Cainhurst Knights, was developed. Maria was the first to adapt to his tactics, and the first to adapt the new drip! Instead of that heavy armour one.

★ One of the results of delving deeper into dungeons and Pthumerian secrets and seeking 'eyes' led to the og Byrgenwerth idiots creating a ritual of summoning Amygdalas. All that it really did was causing a mini meteorite rain that did not touch Yharnam too much (unlike the city where Simon came from after having survived). But, it did make some meteorites grow within Forbidden Woods. A larger one, though, was used by Gehrman to make his Burial Blade.

★ By the time the scholars we all love (and hate) enrolled in Byrgenwerth, Willem already had a hunch about how important Third Umbilical Cords were. And rumours about Fishing Hamlet and a pregnant Great One in there started spreading, since the place became visible for the travellers. That would include people from "faraway land" that Cainhurst was tight-knit with, too. In the end, Willem sends Byrgenwerth warriors (Gehrman and his idiots) over to search the eyes, and especially the infant Great One. ("Mother killed, her baby stolen"). Almost everyone were content, having murdered "monsters that were no longer people anyway"... Maria, of course, was not. But thus, plenty of "internal eyes" and one (1) cord was obtained for Byrgenwerth's research.

★ Byrgenwerth, in fact, has had a compromise between importance of Holy Blood and Eyes Inside. Isz people having transcended the human plane was a knowledge right there, and Eye, a rune that is a voice of Ebrietas, became the symbol of Willem's research! However Sedative, a blood-based medicine made specifically to deal with Eldrich truth causing Frenzy, was made AT Byrgenwerth, too! Not to mention what Alfred says. Basically, blood HAVING been relevant in Byrgenwerth too is important for the next part!

Early Healing Church

★ I have already talked about why I am not using "Laurence founded Healing Church after he abandoned Byrgenwerth" and instead think Byrgenwerth and Healing Church used to be one at first in this ( x ) post! So I won't dwell too much on this, but yeah. Willem was the Pope (the first and the last) of the Healing Church, but mostly remained within Byrgenwerth. He was both a headmaster of the Byrgenwerth and the leader of (new) religion! Just like that, the "healing" had to do with both the Blood and the Eyes, as both were ties to the Great Ones. Holy Blood DID originate from the Great One, at least from what Willem and Caryll learned, together with some help from best minds of Hemwick and Cainhurst.

★ The ways to deal with the Eye Cord though, remained a mystery. Sure-way to ascend would be to eat three of them, so what would they do? Summon a Great One, so the resulting Bloodmoon would make women spawn divine infants that they would murder and eat them? It was.. drastically inefficient AT LEAST. At some point, Micolash and his younger sister Rom deviced a plan to steal the Eye Cord from Willem, swim on the boat at the big lake on the full moon night and attempt summoning Kos, hoping for a favour in return of OoK's cord; so, return of her child's restless spirit. Kos blessed the siblings with the knowledge of obtaining internal eyes with the water and brain flud, whereas Micolash became her "emissary", with the magic and the skill to spread this upon others. Rom was still as human as she could be, it was not true Kos' belssing yet, but rather a direction to the next step for humanitu. A guidance, if you will. After that event, their brown eyes also became pale blue. Thus, Rom would become Patient Zero, and samples from her altered body would be further used for Research Hall experiments.

★ That being said, Grand Cathedral and the Research Lab in the Clocktower were built at the same time! Laurence became the Vicar of Willem. Not "actually should not be be a Bishop?", not "founder/head of the Church". Specifically the guy that REPLACES the actual head of the Church while they are absent! However, he's been way more busy with the blood ministration on the main floor than the experiments. And Willem was very busy at Byrgenwerth. Research Hall as a result was not supervised by the two leaders enough, overseen almost entirely by Maria. And that white church lady we meet in the Hunter's Nightmare praying at the altar. Yet, that still left loopholes for some doctors to do questionable experiments... Micolash, for example. We will get to it soon!

★ Ludwig became the first Church Hunter, having had weird business with Laurence "and his nameless Moon Presence". I have explained slight convolutions with his clothes and sword in this ( x ) post, so to be short: Ludwig was wearing what is now Executioner Set since all Church's clothes (including Tomb Prospector's garb) were BASED on Executioner's set, and Laurence used his own knowdledge of rituals, blood, eyes and Great Ones to blindfold Ludwig and plan his "enlightenment". Ludwig was able to envision the Holy Moonlight Sword and Guidance, becoming very useful. (Laurence would've done that himself, but just in case things would've gone wrong, why not try with someone else first......?)

+ So, Ludwig would start the production of silver blades (Ludwig's Holy Blade) in the image of the legendary sword he's envisioned and could recreate in exact detail! We will get to the actual HMS soon!

+ @bimbomcgee Had a headcanon recently that Healing Church needed their own hunters because Old Hunters started to seriously get out of control (except for maybe Gehrman and Maria, ol' reliable) and Church needed ones easier to control, and I honestly believe it! During this time, more and more Gehrman's hunters would become "heretical" - Oto Workshop doing their own thing (and do not forget the person that drops their badge is Bestial Hunter!), Izzy and Archibald turning to literally using beasthood for their ADVANTAGE, some like Henryk simply being too independent (and too nosy about what was not their business), Old Hunters in general being way more vulnerable to beasthood with their aggressive, ruthless ways lacking "chilvarly"... Both being able to carry on ways of 'holiness' and being more easy to control became needed.

+ Gehrman lost his right leg around this time too, having thus created a superstition amongst Old Hunters to wear double-wrapped belt around this leg, or even wear special metals. Healing Church hunters never started doing that, though, believing that whatever caused "beasthood to creep up from the right leg" did not threaten them as they were "too holy" for that!

★ Pressure on "holiness" would eventually lead the hermit Rogeriusz (eng: Logarius) to the Healing Church - a Pthumerian especially resentful of having accursed ancestry and especially antsy about the "baaaaad" and "eeeevil" bloody magic. Cainhurst + Vilebloods seem to have special attitude towards 'Moon', and characters like Fauxsefka and Maria are the more apparent indications of Vilebloods + relatives that resent their "ancestry sins" and instead want to turn for "salvation" (Stars and Moon). ( x ) In any case, a secret Executioners workshop formed!

★ Around this time, Laurence would either do that himself or allow someone else do that, but Cainhurst would get on track with the ancient "child of blood" heir antics, as Annalise would now be sending Guards to seek Blood Dregs for her. Something that would be later blamed on "a traitor from Byrgenwerth brought the blood in Cainhurst and created unholy covenant".

★ The rumours of what was going in Cainhurst only further made Maria feel disconnected from her vampire-ish family... But at the same time, she could no longer feel her place amongst hunters. At the very least, Research Hall promised some eventual evolution past bloodthirst (literal and figural).

★ Blood Saints would aid the Hunters under rule of one blood vial per person. "Grooming" was a mistake on localization part and original speaks about "being treated / (physically) altered", so I assume they would undergo a surgery altering bone marrow, thus giving them a unique blood type. Meanwhile, most people would come for blood ministration in Grand Cathedral, as we can see the beds in its Nightmare version. Rarer - to Blood Ministers (type of Old Hunters, same as one at the intro cutscene). But the demand would grow too big as Yharnam itself was not doing very well... It was a Victorian era! A lot of illnesses would strike. For example, from Eileen's mask we learn she arrived from a plague-ridden place herself. So, Laurence would've had a (bad) idea of mass-healing people at Old Yharnam, using a blood of a beast. It was a poisoned Blood-Starved Beast of all things, too, and it'd spread the illness of Ashen Blood that once undone Loran's population. ( x )

★ Meanwhile in Research Hall, more and more patients would start to get too scared of the horrors of the Deep Sea no matter how much Micolash yelled at them and seek the 'Stars' for salvation instead. It was starting to look more and more (for Healing Church) that the 'Sea' was a dead end, and they needed to go back to Isz' roots. So, Tomb Prospectors would slowly get redirected to explore Isz dungeons instead, with the Loch Shields previously used in rituals conducted in Research Hall now distributed to them.

★ Healing Church was also starting to get more and more enemies, often because of the "precautionary" Black Church Doctors murdering anyone who'd as much as be SUSPECTED of developing beasthood. And their family too, just in case. Since Yharnamites learned that if they see a Black Doctor - they should fucking RUN, Harrowed Hunters like Simon were employed, to look like unassuming beggars nobody would pay attention to, to assasinate "suspected to be sick with beasthood" in more secretive fashion. Yet Research Hall was running low on amount of patients - simply volunteers and imprisoned "enemies of the Church" were no longer enough, so at some point Simon and others were instructed to instead bring people suspected to be afflicted in Research Hall! "You help us with experiments and we help you by potentially curing your beasthood!" (second floor of Research Hall has patients running on their four like beasts, as well as Blood Ministers and a Beast Blood Pellet). That was the start of Simon's suspicions.

★ Some people started to illegally (?) transport the "miraculous holy blood" abroad to sell it. Valtr's group was sent to investigate one of such bands, only to find the last one of them turning into a beast before their eyes, having downed all the supply himself! His group would chase the beast, with his three buddies being killed and Valtr murdering and eating the beast. While he was still shocked and exhausted, he was taken into Research Hall. To be "helped", because who knows what EATING a beast did... There, he got the weird inhuman noise he started hearing after eating a beast deciphered into a Rune (a big mistake) and helped to run by one of the patients. Valtr would find his place amongst Old Hunters, and especially Djura, whose hatred towards beasts was unfathomable back then after his mentor from (now gone) Oto Workshop became a beast too.

★ Exchange with the foreign cities was more active than ever, especially a country where Brador and our playable hunter are from. Like 80% of the staff in Healing Church would be foreigners, which I believe is suggested by clothes design choices! Especially those who were trying to leave bad past behind, or whose job/institution/home place crumbled. Gascoigne arrived and joined in too.

★ One of the foreigners happened to come from the country that honoured Sky Burial traditions, and thus covenant of Hunters of Hunters started!

Hunter's Dream creation

★ Adeline died in the end in Maria's arms, after which Maria gave Laurence an Eye Pendant that was Adeline's eye (Eye Pendants ARE patients' eyes, I think!), saying it is what Adeline would have wanted since she believed thanks to Laurence she was able to "mean" something and it was like... the last thing she talked about. Maria did add that she did not agree with it, of course.

★ Somewhere around Research Hall's last days, Maria was able to figure something was very wrong about what Micolash has been doing and convinced Brador to get the word out for her seeing that he tormented patients either in vain or for evil purposes. Healing Church / Laurence would not listen to her, but would to one of two closest people. (She was right on the money with that one; Micolash has been deliberately turning patients towards the Sea and tormenting them, as their horror and pain would be the needed catalyst for Hunter's Nightmare to exist. Only rage and blood-hunger of the hunters would not be enough... because they were not hurt, nor they were sorry. But, he has been crafting their future Hell, following will of Kos' wrath all along. (Besides, he just really wanted to see her again).)

★ Maria killed herself shortly, still choosing to be buried near Old Workshop and not in Cainhurst. She left that in her dying will, specifying it was not because of fond feelings for her times as a Hunter, but because "Old Hunters workshop was where she truly died" (implying her ruined innocence and stepping on the path of a killer). As heart-wrecking as it was for Gehrman, he respected that, but became very aloof and absorbed in his grief, creating the Doll.

★ With Gehrman completely losing the spirit and quitting the hunt himself, becoming just a grandpa in a wheelchair offering advice, Djura became an Old Hunter around which other ones of that type flocked. Henryk, Valtr.... most of them.

★ Maria's words were not lost in vain though! Micolash got discovered and demoted. Well, they never learned that he has been devicing a Nightmare, but they did learn that his experiments were pointless and malicious in some way, it was enough. Micolash took his frustration out on Rom and "disowning" her as his sister. Rom, being very innocent, emotional and naive person, that also has been growing as an orphan separated from Micolash since birth before, felt the most intense pain of "no longer having family" and downed a bit too much 'water' a bit too much brain fluid to attempt ending her own life... Yet, that triggered the vision of Kos "adopting" her, and became a TRUE blessing with eyes for her. This is important! After what Kos did with Rom, she would become the most effective translator between Ebrietas and humans, in a way so light that Runes would not even do that. And so, Micolash won his position back in Healing Church's staff. Moreover, what happened to Rom made it a staple to use children, especially orphans, for communication with Great Ones! The scientists concluded that clearly Great Ones will gravitate towards a child yearning for a family more likely... So, this is why orphans specifically. It is unique combination of emotions that Rom was very close to.

★ Tomb Prospectors of Isz did a breakthrough by returning Isz Chalice back on the surface. Soon, real Holy Moonlight Sword was found and Ludwig could finally have it, though it aided both him and Laurence as sort of a 'phone' with Moon Presence! (lol) And eventually, they were able to meet Ebrietas. Only... they still had no idea how to even communicate with her.

★ HERE Rom became an important person, and Conductor of the Choir, with Willem becoming STRONGLY more leaning towards the 'Eyes' side of the Healing Church. Had he not been busy with Byrgenwerth, he'd lead the Choir himself now, especially as one who managed to memorize Eye rune the first. But more or less, Choir was their side. Healing Church started to seriously split into 'Eyes' and 'Blood' sides, with Laurence being more busy with 'Blood'.

★ Remember Annalise's Child of Blood? After Maria's death, it became especially convenient time to finally let all the resentment against "unholy" clan break and strike Cainhurst! They did so to both remove the next strongest political power... and to abort Annalise's newborn, and take its Third Umbilical Cord! The bit about the cord in Workshop being aborted by Executioners was patched out ( x ), there is still a visual evidence with bloody trial reaching under Annalise's skirt, as well as her hair having lost color. We can see Annalise is a redhead from the portrait of her and from concept art, yet we meet her with colorless hair! Similarly, Arianna's hair loses color after she gives her birth!

★ Cainhurst got exterminated and Logarius inherited curse of the King after slaying him, along with the crown. He kind of ended up facing his worst nightmare, but considered it worth "protecting" the rest of the humanity from. Laurence took the cord.

+ Arianna's mother ran away from the massacre while still being pregnant, hence why her noble dress is burgundy and not grey (wrote this theory here: ( x )). Bloody Crow did not want to run, but Annalise ordered him to.

★ It is said that Yharnam was burnt "on that moonlit night", whereas Powder Kegs were the ones burning it. From that I concluded that Laurence did the bait-and-switch to give Flora Gehrman instead of a GO baby on the night when Old Yharnam was being burnt! Additionally, Djura was the first Dreaming Hunter immortal for a whole night, but also the only one that hunted alongside the Dream for more than one night.

★ That Bloodmoon was not concealed as Rom was not doing that yet. As a result, a lot of mess happened, but the most important one was Amygdalas appearing. The smallest one was murdered by the hunters, yet events around Amygdalas allowed detection of hidden Yahar'gul and gave Micolash some ideas.

★ Djura eventually quit the hunt, with Djura's Apprentice leaving Old Yharnam but closing the door on his way out and slapping that note on it x) He went on his own way. Other hunters that used to flock around Djura (Valtr, Henryk, that one-eyed patient that once helped Valtr to run and afterwards ran herself, etc) also left him. Some were more bitter about it than the others.

★ Valtr finally revealed his vision of human dregs to Henryk and Madaras twins, banking on the fact that they would have simpler time accepting what "should be done" than others. And he did need to keep remaining friends close. He already made some enemies over it before, but Henryk had his own gripes with human dregs as his family was afflicted, and the twins were very... simple? being raised by an ancient snake? Younger twin killed the older twin and his snake, as they were FULL of Vermin, but the three became closer than ever.

★ In order to leave all possible accusations towards the Healing Church out of the way, Laurence shifts the public blame to Byrgenwerth. Blood ministration was Healing Church's thing, so how came Cainhurst started doing that too, albeit in a "wrong" way? Right, it was a "traitor from Byrgenwerth"! This is when he prohibits going to Byrgenwerth, and Willem accepts that too. He did kind of want to "gatekeep from the plebs" by then anyways, seeing what both blood and Eldrich Truth did to people who were not ready. However, the secret passageway through the cave has been used to still secretly communicate with Byrgenwerth. Laurence himself maybe didn't, but some high ranking Church members would.

★ Sustaining the hunt through the Dream would make researching on how TO undo beasthood easier, so, Healing Church started focusing on researching much more than on healing. Like... Not just weird experiments in the Clocktower, but they would commit to it. All that hassle to treat as many people as they could was gone, Grand Cathedral became just a place of meeting (no more beds for the patients etc). Choir needed to work faster, and Laurence was doing what he could with what he was able to find - Choir's findings, Tomb Prospectors' lore drops and relics, weird creatures he could cut open on his own, all that. He used to pass letters to Gehrman through Dreaming Hunters if he met one, too.

★ Laurence and Ludwig came to an agreement to start training commoners to hunt and defend themselves (Yharnam Hunter set). Laurence because he really wanted Church hunters to instead explore the dungeons and pursue all sorts of "heretics", enemies of the Church, and the numbers were only so big... Ludwig because he is an actually decent person and cared for people's safety if hunters could not help everyone. But yeah, you could see why it is complicated and Laurence needed all resources he could have on research...

School of Mensis and other "heretics"

★ Micolash and Rom start scheming behind everyone's backs yet again. (okay, this sentence should have been the title of this section xD) They both could tell that something was 'wrong' behind Stars and Moon, that the Choir has been walking towards the dead end without any real hope for humanity. They needed to look beyond the veil, even if that was "blasphemious" and risky. Byrgenwerth had barely the link with Amygdalas; Gardens of Eyes were rare Research Hall patients that would accept the help from Amygdalas to not "drown", becoming their Kin, but not much could be gained from them. Byrgenwerth simply took them in, since unlike Living Failures, these lived. But by now the siblings had enough clues that this 'branch' of Kin was the key.

★ Micolash would depart with a dozen of men, including Damian, as well as (real) Iosefka and a single celestial larvae. He figured to feed it human blood and flesh to the point it'd become "fallen" and turn into a baby Amygdala instead, as he was able to discover Amygdalas and Celestial Children had shared origins. Since it got attached to him as its dad, it would not harm him, but would become a bridge between mortals and other, 'hostile' Amygdalas. That allowed communication between the Choir detractors, Amygdalas and Yahar'gul. Denizens of Yahar'gul agreed to take Micolash and his idiots in upon a very great favour of returning their long lost "evil gods" to them, and cooperation with Amygdalas for more knowledge in exchange for human sacrifices was formed.

★ Micolash also ended up gathering whatever "heretics" he could to build his new place. Archibald, Izzy, Caryll... He was basically 'picking what Healing Church had dropped', being able to get along with anyone who had open mind. After what Micolash did with Yahar'gul, Patches also "wanted to know his location" xd He was cranky about the church boy having helped so much, as he also used to be a Byrgenwerth scholar but disappeared as soon as they decided to start a religion institution. But he certainly was on the same page as Micolash and Rom, and could see the corrupt institutions being a thing not only within mortals, but even within aliens. Everyone who was shunned for their different beliefs found help in Yahar'gul, being allowed to research anything without restrictions, in exchange for THEIR help.

★ Rom was one of the first people to connect her soul with Amygdalas, becoming a Nightmare Apostle (this is what 'Spider' is). She became affiliated not only with the Sea, but also with the Nightmare, being able to see even more things than before. In a way, Micolash used her similarly to how Laurence once used Ludwig - the "trial run" to peer into something. Rom was sharing with Micolash in secrecy, choosing to still stay within the Choir to help them. She knew they'd destroy her if they knew what she did, and what Micolash's crimes she was aware of and covered, but she believed that maybe she could gradually "help" them to stand on a more efficient way than Stars and Moon. The sneaky way. As far as Choir was concerned, she was their Conductor.

★ Laurence likewise knew of School of Mensis and even helps them with kidnapping, as well as now giving the prisoners to them. He would not restrict the research of Arcane as "ends justify the means", but as far as the public was concerned, Healing Church had no involvement. If Micolash got caught by the public, he would not sacrifice anything to defend him, not even the purity of his public image.

★ Edgar joins the Choir. He used to be a teacher in one of the schools under Healing Church, but became nosy seeing that Choir members kept taking his pupils that'd lose parents after nights of the hunt. Being very smart, capable and open-minded (in the worst sense of the concept), he was able to negotiate joining them instead of being sent to prison for learning too much.

+ Henryk was another person suspicious of the Choir taking orphans to "protect" them only for them to never be seen again. He started to adopt those of them he could find after the nights, so they could not be taken since he'd be their father, and Viola was one of such kids.

★ Valtr took the helmet from the one-eyed patient that kept trying to treat "impurity" instead of destroying it and became a monster. It only further proven him that he was right, and he founded a proper 'League' to exterminate it. Izzy, friend of Djura ever since he started to protect the beasts, has been observing him closely and pretended to want to join the League so he could share the vision of Vermin with her. It was a big mistake, as Izzy has been secretly using found Vermin to research 'nature of humanity' further. Which in her case meant "How to normalize beasthood as new way of living and severe the ties of mortals with the corrupt Moon Presence?"

★ Archibald kept failing at placing Darkbeast's scattered bones together, as they'd electrocute if too many of them got combined. But Micolash could tell that Izzy was the key, seeing that what she discovered in Loran dungeons was a bond with Fauna similar to what he had with Kos. He was able to invoke Izzy's wrath and unleash that power by pretending to have murdered Archibald, in which she pulled the Darkbeast together. It was named Paarl, and Archibald got more resources for research than ever. Yahar'gul had plenty of weapons against Choir's Kin.

★ These events led to Izzy eventually becoming emissary of Fauna and turning into a large electric flying beast (not birdlike!). She flew into Yamamura's "faraway country" in frantic search of a distant place to spread beasthood to, so it could never disappear, but spent so much power by cursing his entire village that all she could really do anymore is to run away from him. About a month or two later, the circle would lock where Izzy returned in Yharnam. Yamamura kept trying to murder her with his sword with no success, stabbing and stabbing her in near-madness, until Valtr approached him and offered his Whirligig Saw instead. As Izzy was dead, Valtr picked a damaged hat that was attached to her horn and placed it on Yamamura's head like a trophy. Afterwards, Yamamura would fix this hat a bit and accept it, as well as invitation to the League.

★ At this point, many old hunters start leaving to never be seen again, mostly those who'd want to find the same epiphany as Izzy once did (NPCs literally labelled "Izzy's Successor"). Vitus also left.

Deaths of Laurence and Ludwig

★ Yamamura has been restless, wanting to find where the monster that cursed his village came from, but his only clue were 'sparks'. All while League's "mission" kept proving being too much for him. Valtr sent him off to mingle within Healing Church hunters under guise of wanting him to spy on them, but he hoped that Yamamura would not want to come back to the League (seen what happens with people that are not qualified for the "mission" from previous helmet owner). Yamamura got his Chikage from a pile of things Executioners retracted from Cainhurst, loving it as it reminded him of home. He loved being by Ludwig's side, trusting that whatever shady things Healing Church has been doing was none of his fault. He also became friends with Simon that had suspicions of the Healing Church too, as well as with Gratia that failed to fit within Church hunters after Old Hunters disbanded. In fact, they all were outcasts within the Holy Blades, but funny enough Ludwig was the only one nice to them xd Best boss ever.

★ Yamamura's curiousity, following the 'bolts', eventually would lead him to get kidnapped by Yahar'gul. He managed to escape thanks to Antal and another Yahar'gul Hunter, that guy we find in Church's cell, though! When he and this hunter reunited with Gratia and Simon, they were on the way to seek Ludwig's help. They wanted to tell him what Healing Church was secretly guilty of! Unfortunately, whereas Ludwig feigned concern and fear, he did rat them out to Laurence and they were dealt with shortly, only Simon escaping. They never learned Ludwig betrayed them, though, but also Ludwig's guilt made him even more paranoid and dependent on his 'Guidance' than he's already been. His willpower gave a true crack after that situation, and becoming a beast himself was just a matter of time.

★ Seeing what has been happening with Ludwig, Laurence started to lose faith in cosmos and evolution through that way. It occured to him that Insight addicts could be no better than beasts, after all. He succumbed to holy blood completely, thinking it'd be the only way to evolve while still remaining human enough, eventually abandoning his goals, his research and Gehrman. When he became a beast, Brador mercy-killed him.

★ Explaining how came the most holy person in the city became a beast was a tricky situation, but Ashton, who'd become the next Vicar (Amelia was just a child in that time) had a great idea. He instantly blamed foreigners for the bad influence, especially Brador who both was a foreigner and always way too close to Laurence, and somehow... it worked? People actually bought that the holy blood itself was fine, but the illness and beasthood was something brought by foreigners. It was when the stigma against foreigners truly began, to the point of Healing Church repressing even their own staff. Many very-obviously-not-white Church hunters got shunned and instead picked by School of Mensis, having nowhere else to go to and work. Brador was very thankful for this, though! He locked himself in the underground cell, taking the bell that'd resonate with the curses (anyone who got a curse of tormented Fish peopel spirits, in his case, so, anyone who'd know of Fishing Hamlet). Ashton is also not a made-up name; this character was mentioned in cut content, as Laurence's underling ( x )! I talked about him and Herbert (Eng: Norbert) in this ( x ) post a bit more!

★ Ludwig freaked out even stronger after Laurence's death, panicking over beasthood even more than before. It was not long after he'd just kill uncontrollably, hoping to see his guidance once more because before it did appear during the hunt.. And he NEEDED it, as the only way to be safe from the same fate as Laurence... That didn't end well, obviously. Valtr was the one to murder Ludwig during searching for where'd Yamamura go.

★ Eileen happened to arrive in Yharnam around this time from plague-devoured city in which she used to be a plague doctor. It was very poorly timed, indeed, but she caught rumours about miraculous healing blood and wanted to seek it to heal her people. As a foreigner, she had to be secretive. Somewhere here, Djura's Apprentice / Simon's twin brother lost his mind completely, attacking just any human for as much as (reasonably) questioning his actions or being (reasonably) scared of the beasts around him. Eileen was the one he wanted to attack, but Brandon, a Hunter of Hunters, murdered him before he could. I took this name from cut content, since in early version Crowfeather set was called "Brandon's Set" ( x ). That's how Eileen got introduced to the concept of blood-drunkness, as well as the practice to murder such people before they become beasts.

★ Ashton appointed new Hunter Chief as Ludwig was gone too. Brandon was very suspicious of what was going to happen within the Healing Church from that point on, so he passed the mantle to Eileen, but warned her that she would not last without holy blood to herself.

★ Simon discovered traces of Byrgenwerth's crimes and Fishing Hamlet, following the detective work he used to have with his gone friends. Brador was able to murder him thanks to his bell, but because of Hunter's Nightmare including not just blood-drunk hunters and the guilty, but people who seen too much too (patients), Simon got trapped here as well.

★ Rom almost entirely lost control over Choir when during all these events, her secrets started to slip through. Realizing she knew a whole bunch about School of Mensis and said nothing they felt betrayed and considered themselves no longer needing her, except for Julie (Eng: Yurie). Not to mention her affiliation with the forces and knowledge "heretical" to the Stars and Moon... They simply let her stay there, but from that point on were using all they've learned to do their own thing, different from even Willem's teachings. Rom's point still stayed - if people are dumped all the harsh truth on without being 'prepared', it won't be comprehended.

Mensis Ritual and further decay

★ The last rune Caryll discovered was Moon. Witnessing it himself was a trigger for Micolash to think that "the time" has came and understand he had to do what Laurence did, only without switch-and-bait.

★ Vision of the Moon made Caryll lose his mind. He travelled to the Clocktower / Choir's base, in order to carve the vicious cycle on the Clocktower dial ( x ). He would make it spin in an attempt to destroy the boundary between Nightmare and reality to end everything, but was killed by Yurie just in time. However, something did happen; past this point, there were two Yharnams - the "real" one and the one halfway submerged in a dream. Think of parallel realities! This is why our Paleblood Hunter arrives in one Yharnam, but wakes up in a different one, yet they are both 'real'. After this point, nobody would be able to normally encounter this, "parallel" Yharnam. If our Hunter did not get snatched by Messengers, they'd be in a different Yharnam - without Iosefka and any of the cast, where Blood Minister is, etc. Eileen was the last one to arrive normally, before this rift. The vicious cycle, however, is now seen in Hunter's Nightmare too.

★ Since Choir's base is around Clocktower and Orphanage is in the former Research Hall (more specifically the balcony with the Lumenflowers), that event shoke it especially. Their base was half-ruined. Orphans became Celestial Emissaries, together with their overseer Laura.

★ Seeing what happened, Rom formed a bond with Ebrietas similar to what Hunter's Dream is, but it instead was creation of infinite arcane 'lake inside of lake' and concealment. It felt especially crucial after what Caryll has done. Her real body fully mutated into a Spider, and then got instantly petrified. Thus, Rom became a perfect life form, combining all three cosmic affiliations (marine, celestial and nightmare/cursed). Her barrier remained penetrable only for those who are "ready" (remember that we can still hear Mergo cry even through her concealment if we have enough Insight!). From this point on, most mortals were 'safe': Rom protected them from cosmic horrors whereas Gehrman's immortal Paleblood Hunters were protecting people from beasts every fullmoon night.

★ Micolash designed hexagonal cages that would allow Mensis scholars (or anyone wearing one, really) to see through Rom's concealment without their brain exploding into slugs, and Archibald built them.

★ Remember how if flesh of murdered Annalise is offered on Altar of Grief, she gets resurrected? This property of Rom is the result of combining marine and cursed Arcane knowledge; Sea offers death and rebirth, whereas Nightmare Apostles can't die (no, seriously, Patches is back even after you kill him, he just doesn't interact now). Micolash knew of this property. As long as someone's soul is still alive, Rom can make them raise again! With the help of Queen Killer, a rare veteran that survived Cainhurst massacre, School of Mensis went to search retract the remains of ancient Queen Yharnam.

★ Brandon's true intentions were discovered and he got executed. All in all, Ashton adapted to new position very quickly, being a bit more oppressive than Laurence if that was even possible. The idea was that Laurence's successors would continue studying properties of the holy blood and find how to keep humans safe and healthy but avoid beasthood, yet the bastard gave into corruption just like *snaps fingers* that. He also normalized cannibalism within the Church's walls, now eating imprisoned enemies of the Church more often than giving them away for research (mostly Mensis'). Or feeding them to others. In a way, though, Ashton was correct - the best way to not lose oneself to beasthood was being a beast "a little bit, as a treat". By eating people sometimes. :/ Depending on the timeline, Micolash deeply resented Ashton for either tarnishing Laurence's intentions and quest (if he loved Laurence) or for complicating his research (if they were not really close). In either case, kidnappings of innocent people became new main resource for Mensis, since prisoners were no longer an option.

★ Archibald went to murder Ashton at some point, but sacrificed his own life for that. Norbert became the new Vicar, since his daughter Laura became an alien.

★ Gehrman's sanity in the Dream started to slip, and he could no longer trust himself to be genuine with the hunters. The temptation of provoking a fight and get killed by one so he could be free became too strong. As much as he hated himself for that, but he performed a ritual to animate the Doll, so he and her could take turns. For example, during game's events, it was Doll's turn to channel Blood Echoes.

★ After School of Mensis had blood/flesh/whatever of Yharnam, Micolash sent a kidnapped Choir member that he's been torturing for a while over to Choir, so they'd lay the sample on the altair. That person was completely under his control by then, so there was no problem; they are found in the cell that was locked from the inside, and were not even tied to the chair, for an indication!

(compare it with the corpse in Hemwick having very obvious ropes modelled around their arms)

So yeah, somewhere deep down in the dungeons, Queen Yharnam was resurrected, and her Mergo too. Remember that they are part of her body physically! School of Mensis "aborted" Mergo, which only required removing the cord, so they had the tool for their own ritual. (Naturally, Micolash left Queen Killer to die after his use was expired).

★ Mensis Ritual happened, summoning Wet Nurse and letting Mergo "live" yet again! But Micolash and others were taken into Nightmare themselves, since crows in lore deliver people into other planes. Because of Rom's concealment, nobody knew what happened except for Damian and Iosefka that ran away, but both were too terrified of Micolash even after his "death" to do anything, or tell anyone.

★ Choir developed the 'why do you weep fair maiden' schtick since Ebrietas became depressed upon Rom's fate. At least, everyone got cool Rosmarinus now. With the orphans completing their transformation abruptly, Choir was able to make a progress in research way faster than they anticipated, mostly much to Fauxsefka's delight.

★ Orphanage became redundant, though. At the same time, it meant that Choir would no longer take orphans in, so instead, Norbert started to adopt every other orphaned child/teen within the Church's walls. Adella, Emilia (Eng: Amelia), Henriett, (future) Cleric Beast of the Bridge and Alfred were such people. So, 'blood' faction of the Healing Church had abundance of members, whereas Choir kept losing the scientists without any new ones coming and Mensis has been strangely quiet..

★ Eileen suddenly gotten sick, as the only person in the 'new', 'parallel' Yharnam that never had blood ministration. This Yharnam started to reject her until she figured to take the holy blood. It happened on the night of the hunt, which automatically made her part of the dream that time.

More things coming to knowledge

★ Oedon Chapel becomes very unpopular at this point, rumoured to be a place full of lunatics, as a way to bury Old Hunters and let the former glory of Holy Blades to rest. Not to mention Healing Church not wanting for curious people to snoop at abandoned Choir's base for now. Gascoigne ditches Healing Church, frustrated with how little they care about the hunt anymore. It was a very 'idle' period for the Healing Church as they almost completely abandoned Yharnam and did not even bother to find a new Hunter Chief yet. Yharnamites were basically left to fend for themselves more and more so, only with the help of rare Old Hunters that still cared. It was where Henryk finally opened up to Gascoigne about the League, and also introduced him to Viola.

★ Viola and Gascoigne got married, and they had their first daughter. The second daughter would be born six years later.

★ This time period is also where Cleric Beast of the Bridge, Henriett, Amelia, Alfred and Adella grew up already. Henriett was never willing to be a Blood Saint, instead wanting to be a hunter and to actually help. Alfred was very eager too. Again, a rare sight in a sorry state of things. Alfred and Henriett became good friends, being very interested in the hunters of old times - Alfred in Executioners and Holy Blades, and Henriett in Gehrman's Old Hunters.

★ Choir members and White Doctors (scientists, basically) became less and less, more of them would dive into Chalice Dungeons for an outlet and never return (like Forgotten Madman), Ebrietas was too absent to he of help, celestial larvae kept petrifying upon some point of growing up. (notice how the statues in Upper Cathedral actually look like very eldrich creatures leaning on walk sticks and covered by a fabric in grieving manner?)

★ Edgar, Yurie and Fauxsefka, with maybe some White Doctors decided to depart into Byrgenwerth. For Yurie and Fauxsefka it was returning to their past, as they're way older than they look in my headcanons, but Edgar was a new one. (can change) They kept travelling through that secret cave. League could and would make life harder for them, though (there is a white doctor corpse in the woods). In any case, Upper Cathedral was no longer a great base for research, and they hoped to base in Byrgenwerth, or to at least get some of the remaining scholars by their side.

★ For a while, Norbert's corruption type has been eating people and taking their orphaned children with him, not letting them discover why their parents died. At last, he turned into a Cleric Beast himself, but only Amelia could put him down. He was unusually feral, unusually strong, the most vendigo-like, but he could not hurt his most beloved adopted daughter that replaced Laura to him even in that state. Amelia became a new Vicar, with the future Cleric Beast of the Bridge becoming hew Hunter Chief.

★ Alfred and Henriett have a falling out, instead becoming enemies, since Henriett finds a whole bunch about Healing Church's old crimes, as well as growing disillusioned about how "helpful" they could be. She instead fashions herself after Old Hunters, hence why this set is so similar to them, and some more younger hunters follow.

★ Brador dies somewhere around this time. Remember that his body in the cell is much older than his phantom!

★ Bloody Crow relapses after a very long time of trying to adapt to the new life and returns to killing the hunters, but consuming Blood Dregs found within them himself since he could not give any to Annalise. Compare it with becoming a drug addict sort of, as it was his only remaining way to 'connect' to what he had lost. Eileen spots him at some point, yet unaware of the real motivation with which he murders the blood-drunk hunters himself, but he is able to play along with her assumption that they wished the same thing - mercy-killing. She knew that she was becoming too old, so he becomes her apprentice, to become a successor later.

★ Speaking of successors, Amelia deliberately left none for herself! Like Henriett, she was disillusioned, only she felt too caught up in her status and too conflicted to really do anything revolutionary. She accepted her inevitable fate, hoping that the corrupt history of the Healing Church will end on her. Yharnam became basically an anarchy with her refusing to be any real authority. She did murder and eat her elders, though, so nobody could take any decisive measures. (and also because she was still mad for getting roped into Healing Church's trap since childhood) From this point on, she was just waiting for her demise and the end of everything, performing her role simply on autopilot.

★ Oho boy... Another theory link, about how the Choir discovered Nightmare of Mensis existed, and how Edgar was sent to be a spy after Micolash and then betrayed them! ( x ) To be short, I think the three discovered that something was wrong thanks to the connection of Byrgenwerth's Lecture Hall to the Nightmare Realm. Mensis Ritual was discovered, but so were true intentions of Edgar and the Choir as he betrayed the girls in the end. Micolash used his powers to permanently lock Lecture Hall away from the rest of the Byrgenwerth, leaving scholars trapped. He also sent four Shadows of Yharnam to guard the area. Dores attempts to fight them, but dies after only managing to kill one (based on the cut content where initially there were four shadows, not three).

★ Later, the tension between Fauxsefka and Yurie finally breaks. Yurie agrees with keeping Mensis Ritual concealed but ongoing, so the impact "influences" people even if they do not realize it - the weak will become beasts and die, the strong will gain Insight sooner or later. Fauxsefka curses both Yurie and Willem for being idle fence-sitters and runs away, able to pass through Shadows of Yharnam thanks to her Cainhurst roots. For Yurie though, they prove to be a bit too strong, nor she was motivated enough to chase that woman. It is not an instant transition to game's events, though! Fauxsefka still goes back and forth sometimes, mostly stopping at Iosefka's clinic, battling with Valtr whenever they meet, and experimenting on some Forbidden Woods people. Including this obscure NPC:

^ This is a door NPC in the Forbidden Woods, and her dialogue was lost in translation! In Japanese original, what she is saying makes it sound more like she hears Mergo's cries through the concealment, and I think this is pretty cool if true!

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Alright, I think this is all I needed to piece together! It was a little hard because I kept forgetting some details and characters, whereas some other things needed an extra loop of explanation. Some parts demanded so much context as though I've been writing a fanfic.. :/ Again, thanks anyone who managed to read to this point!

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i am cana. 14. she/he/doll. aro ace !!!!!

- no dni; i will literally js block

- i have autism and adhd !!!! use tone tags w me please!!!!!

- my dms or whatever are open and i love meeting new people so reach out!!

more abt me!! :3

vampkin/dollkin/fictkin!!

i have a Weird perception of gender. wuh

i like old french art and stuff

im english and ¼ polish but i dont speak Any polish

i speak english, im learning japanese, and i have a little spanish and french too! i adore linguistics!!

things i like!!!! >_<

enstars, dolls, drawing, writing, singing, languages, japanese music, fine art, VALKYRIE FROM ENSTARS!!!!!!, ALKALOID FROM ENSTARS!!!!, malice mizer, fashion, designing, croissants, kucharek seasoning, and makeup!

ive been on tumblr for a while now but etiquette n social cues are still completely alien to me !!! so ignore if i mess up anything important ^_^

[twigsagi101]

Oc art!! This is my Oc Idola, you'll be hearing about my ocs alot here, wanna actually write for them more! Anyways they are a singer who's identity is unkown. Likes getting into mischief and doing pranks.

[haveyoureadthisfanfic]

Bird of Paradise, oh Bird of Paradise my beloved <3 I have never been more emotionally attached to a fic in my life it brings be so much joy

The way Idola writes the characters just makes so so happy, like they get it! they would totally say/do that :D

Titus reading murder mystery books during an actual murder is iconic honestly

Ja’far is the most normal guy ever and has never done anything suspicious in his life <3 the best way to characterise him

Morgiana trying her hardest to look after her friends, they all care so much about each other, it’s so nice :]

There’s a cat!! :D his name is mouser and nothing bad happens to him, which is good

The whole mystery aspect is so gripping too, the author has such a way with words. There’s so much to say about it but I don’t want to make this too long .~.

(I’m so sorry if this is annoying, but I think about this fic on a regular basis and really want to express how well written the whole thing is, seeing it brought up on here makes me so happy :})

It's so much fun to see people so passionate about the fics they like <3

[xivu-arath]

music sharing meme

tagged by @mrveils, list five songs I'm listening to atm!

'idola' the strange fruits - phantasy star online episode 3 ost

rediscovered this while being nostalgic about some writing I did with a friend, where we'd update our segments with music. this is one he picked and it's always stayed with me

dirty summer - mother falcon

I just love the layers of stuff going on here. so passionate and wistful at the same time

challenge - cellar darling

hurdy-gurdy!! also a good character song

fight song - eve

necessary for replaying the mv in my head on a daily basis

the grand experiment - doomtree

there's just so many good lines in this... I'm torn between the first verse and the third being my favourite

I don't have the brains to tag specifically but there's surely ten people looking at my blog so consider yourselves tagged if you want to do this!

[getawaycamel]

DREAMS ARE CALLING ME

(ITALIAN BELOW)

Welcome to Getaway Camel!

A blog that puts together my two greatest passions: writing and traveling, vital needs for me as much as breathing.

Here you can read descriptions of landscapes carved into my memory that I’ve been trying to draw with words throughout my life —whether gazing out of a car window or at the boundless sky.

Maybe I’ll tell less practical information than classic travel blogs do, but I hope equally persuasive to convince you to visit those places.

This is my shelter where I recount my journeys, explore and unveil my purest feelings, express my view on social themes, share my hobbies (fashion, art, cinema, history, etc.). I hope it will be a safe space for you too!

I’ve kept this project in the drawer for so many years, covered in dust by now. Now that it has finally seen the light, I can’t hide my excitement while writing the very first post!

Getaway Camel is a playful combination of “getaway car” and “camel”. Getaway Car is a song from Reputation, my favorite album by Taylor Swift, my idol for 10 years; camel alludes to my love for Arab culture, as I’ve studied Arabic and hope to visit more Arab or generally Eastern countries in the future (my dream trip would be to Thailand, don’t ask me why).

In addition, a “getaway camel” embodies the desire to escape reality which I often experience.

What better way to launch the blog than by sharing photos from my visit to the Museum of Dreamers (Prati district, Rome) in early March —obviously theme dressed.

You’ll dive into a world halfway between Wonderland and Barbie’s house, and you’ll step into each room with an increasingly enchanted gaze. More than a museum, it’s the house of dreamers: a perfect place to feel like Alice for one day… and also for all adults who want to become shamelessly children again :)

As a quote on a museum wall says, dreams are calling you: my dreams have been calling me for a long time, and now I’m finally ready to answer their call!

About me: My name is Sabrina, I’m 23 and I’m studying international relations at university, but you can also call me by my nickname ‘sagitta’ :) Besides being the symbol of my beloved zodiac sign, it means ‘arrow’ in Latin and that’s what I wish to be for someone with my words, an arrow that leaves a deep mark.

ITALIANO

Benvenuti su Getaway Camel!

Un blog che unisce le mie due più grandi passioni: scrivere e viaggiare, esigenze vitali per me al pari di respirare.

Qui potete leggere le descrizioni dei paesaggi rimasti scolpiti nella mia memoria che da tutta la vita cerco di disegnare con le parole, davanti al finestrino della macchina o al cielo sconfinato.

Forse vi darò informazioni meno utili rispetto ai classici blog di viaggi, ma spero altrettanto suggestive da convincervi a visitare quei luoghi.

Questo è il mio rifugio in cui racconto i miei viaggi, ma esploro anche le mie emozioni e le metto a nudo, esprimo la mia opinione su temi attuali, condivido i miei interessi (moda, arte, cinema, storia ecc.). Spero che sia un posto sicuro anche per voi!

Tenevo questo progetto nel cassetto da tanti anni, ormai era ricoperto di polvere e ora che ha visto finalmente la luce, non nascondo la mia emozione nello scrivere questo primo post!

Getaway Camel nasce dalla combinazione di “getaway car” e “camel”. Getaway Car è una canzone di Reputation, il mio album preferito di Taylor Swift, la mia idola da 10 anni; camel è un riferimento al mio amore per la cultura araba, dato che ho studiato arabo e spero di visitare più Paesi arabi in futuro o in generale orientali (il mio viaggio ideale sarebbe in Thailandia, non chiedetemi perché).

E poi, un “cammello per la fuga” rappresenta perfettamente il desiderio di evadere dalla realtà che sperimento spesso.

Quale modo migliore per inaugurare il blog se non condividendo le foto di quando ho visitato a inizio Marzo – vestita a tema ovviamente – il Museum of Dreamers (in zona Prati a Roma).

Venite catapultati in un mondo a metà tra il Paese della Meraviglie e la casa di Barbie, vi addentrate con uno sguardo incantato in una stanza dopo l’altra. Più che un museo è la casa dei sognatori, il posto perfetto per sentirvi Alice per un giorno… e anche per tutti gli adulti che vogliono tornare bambini senza vergogna :)

Come dice una scritta all’interno del museo, dreams are calling you: i miei sogni mi stanno chiamando da tempo, ma sono finalmente pronta a rispondere alla chiamata!

Qualcosa su di me. Mi chiamo Sabrina, ho 23 anni e sto studiando relazioni internazionali all’università, ma potete chiamarmi anche col mio nickname ‘sagitta’ :) Oltre a essere il simbolo del mio segno zodiacale, significa ‘freccia’ in latino ed è quello che spero di essere per qualcuno con le mie parole, una freccia che lascia un segno profondo.

[idola-project]

“As a member of the royal family it is an honor, to attend this ball. It certainly will be- What? My brother? This idiot ...” 

[mighty-man-blog1]

Characters: Giles, Idolas 

CW: body horrorish, stalking mention 

Summary: After an unsettling time period of feeling like he's being followed, Giles encounters a looming Idolas in an alleyway. The interaction goes about as well as it always goes with Idolas: frustrating and bad.  Idolas claims to recognize Giles somehow after having seen him in the papers, but Giles has no idea who he is until Idolas removes his hood. Giles does recognize him, and there's a lot more recognition in there than Idolas had really hoped. This reveal spurrs Idolas into leaving in an angry rush, only to show up at Giles' apartment a week later, looking for answers he'd been asking since he'd escaped Vantage. Where did he come from? Had he been a person, before all of this? Who was he? 

[RP LOG] 

[pathomannia]

[ilhoonftw]

johnny entertaiment monopoly is still there However they lost power after 1. the nonce founder went to hell aka kicked the bucket 2. late 2010s new wave of young actors started taking roles in dramas and get popular thus pushing out johnnys that used to get big roles just bc of company name or 'senior in lead role, rookie supportive character' model, many of them CAN'T act 3. since mid 2000s jont relied on pushing idola via variety and dramas, they became less competitive music-wise (sometimes they hired cool people to write them songs, i'll give them that) and since nonce is dead the non-johnny groups like jo1 started debuting and chipping away the market share

and they stick to traditional ways of running the company aka it stays in the family. smąp disbanded bc they had manager that was an outsider that tried to have more control, landed them gigs outside jent connections. so even tho tąckey might've done well sooner or later he would hit a roadblock aka the only people with decision power are directly connected to julie aka that nonce's niece. she's shady af like don't get me started. the rumours of her throwing drinking parties to bribe well-connected women where she had the idols "serve drinks" 🤢🤢🤢

[burlveneer-music]

Shinichi Omata - Boku・Neko・Platanus - expanded reissue (digital & 2LP vinyl) of 1984 techno-pop album

A Japanese synth curio? A lost techno-pop classic? So might run the standard view of the electronic album 'Boku・Neko・Platanus', recorded in 1984 by Shinichi Omata. The facts point that way. The futuristic 'Platonische Liebe' and Omata’s technodelic take on the traditional Greek folk track 'Omorfoula' (here titled 'Egyptische Knabe') are timeless electro tracks with a radically simple pop concept and robotic flavour that closely echo Japan’s most recognisable exports from the era - sounds and styles which rose to international prominence immediately following the economic boom that was taking shape in contemporary Japanese culture. But, focusing only on such fragments misses the greater charms of the album – an argument made more convincing by the inclusion in this expanded edition of an archive of unreleased material from the original recording period. The music spans an unusually broad and contrasting range of influences, exploring the possibilities of mood music, imaginary soundtracks and pop dissonance, while also borrowing widely from films and contemporary arts. How Omata transformed this vast range of influences into synth-pop is the real magic here. In Japan, Omata is largely known only to electronic music enthusiasts and connoisseurs as a member of the cult synth-pop outfit DEA, whose 'Metaphysical Pop' was released in 1985 on LLE, a sub-label of Marquee Moon Records, itself an offshoot of the notable experimental music magazine of the same name. Yet he is the mastermind behind a daring techno-pop sound that has remained almost entirely hidden for nearly 40 years. What we can hear across the expanded edition of 'Boku・Neko・Platanus' is not only a highly skilful instrumentalist at the peak of his powers, but also a daring experimentalist, who employed emerging computer and synth technology in innovative ways, and revitalised old school music by adapting it into contemporary settings. Here, Omata’s excitement at playing with cutting-edge toys is palpable and what better use for the sparkling tech of the future than to cover 'Omorfoula', a 19th century folkloric song emanating from Florina, a small town in the West Macedonian district of Greece, written for dancing and typically performed in separate circles by men and women every Sunday after church? 'Idola Fora' is space-age pancultural pop that exudes charm, chutzpah and chops, while 'Natsu No Koibitotachi E' is a glittering fantasia on synths and rhythm machine. Whistle-along pop classic 'Modern Ballet II' is also here, but much of 'Boku・Neko・Platanus' is a beguiling experiment. “This was the kind of music I had always wanted to try”, he recalls in our sleevenote interview. Omata’s angle was that he was writing modern music, informed by contemporary developments elsewhere but without the stiffness of the formal academic scene. It’s all pop as far as he’s concerned. Available for the first time on vinyl, including over fifty minutes of unreleased music not featured on the original cassette release and produced in cooperation with Shinichi Omata for chOOn!!, a label specialising in obscure, archival and forgotten releases. Design by Luke Bird Liner notes by Shinichi Omata Digital edition contains two exclusive bonus tracks

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Di kelas menulis ini, saya akan berbagi pengalaman selama 17 tahun berkarya dan menerbitkan 25 buku. Bagaimana cara saya selama ini membangun etos kerja menulis? Apa formula yang saya pakai untuk menulis? Dari mana saya menemukan ide-ide? Bagaimana menemukan perspektif dan sudut pandang yang tak diantisipasi pembaca atau penulis lain? Terpenting, bagaimana karya kita menginspirasi dan berdampak buat orang lain?

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Kelas Inspirasi: RUMAH TANGGA, SEHIDUP SESURGA

Di tengah masa pandemi ini, tema rumah tangga dan keluarga menjadi menarik untuk kita diskusikan lagi secara mendalam. Dengan ‘di rumah saja’, terasa banyak hal yang selama ini luput dari perhatian kita. Bagaimana supaya bisa terus merawat cinta? Apa yang harus dikerjakan agar sebuah hubungan selalu masuk akal untuk dipertahankan, dilanjutkan, bahkan dijaga? Bahagia seperti apa yang sebenarnya kita dambakan?

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Kelas Kreatif: MUDA, BERDAYA, KARYA RAYA

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Rabu, 13 Mei 2020

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Kelas Menulis: THE ART OF MINDBLOWING STORYTELLING

Saya percaya bahwa segala sesuatu adalah cerita. Ketika menulis, sebenarnya kita sedang bercerita. Apapun bentuk tulisan itu, cerpen, novel, esai, atau lainnya. Siapapun pembacanya. Dulu idola saya adalah Kuntowijoyo dan Jostein Gaarder. Mereka adalah akademisi yang karya intelektualnya penting, tapi juga bisa menulis novel, cerpen, bahkan puisi dengan baik. Di kelas ini, saya akan bercerita tentang bagaimana saya menemukan sebuah formula bahwa segalanya adalah cerita.

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Kelas Inspirasi: CERITA SEBELUM BERCERAI

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Senin, 18 Mei 2020

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Kelas Kreatif: HOW TO WIN THE NEW NORMAL?

Pandemi COVID-19 ini membawa dampak dan perubahan yang begitu besar pada dunia serta kehidupan kita. Setelah ini, segalanya tak mungkin sama lagi. Dunia akan berubah. Akan muncul kelaziman-kelaziman baru. Bisakah kita bersaing di tengah dunia yang baru itu? Bagaimana memenangkan pertarungan yang sama sekali baru ini? Ketika semuanya seolah ‘mulai dari nol’ lagi.

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Rabu, 20 Mei 2020

Pukul: 14.00 - 16.00

Kelas Menulis: PUBLISH YOUR IDEAS

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Jumat, 22 Mei 2020

Pukul: 14.00 - 16.00

Kelas Inspirasi: JODOH, PERJALANAN RASA

Di kelas ini saya akan bercerita tentang betapa pemahaman kita selama ini tentang jodoh itu keliru. Jodoh bukanlah belahan jiwa, tetapi sesuatu yang lainnya. Jodoh adalah sebuah perjalanan rasa. Maka mari kita mulai mendiskusikannya. Apa dampaknya selama ini kita salah memahami jodoh itu apa? Inilah perjalanan rasa. Nikmatilah semuanya.

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Rabu, 27 Mei 2020

Pukul: 14.00 - 16.00

Kelas Kreatif: CHANGE OR DIE

Ketika menulis dan menerbitkan buku ‘Hijrah Bang Tato’, saya sampai pada kesimpulan bahwa melakukan suatu perubahan dalam hidup itu sebuah keniscayaan. Semua orang perlu melakukan hijrah dan menemukan ‘futuh makkah’-nya masing-masing. Tapi, bagaimana caranya? Bagaimana agar kita bisa jadi pribadi yang lebih baik setelah pandemi ini?

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Pukul: 14.00 - 16.00

Kelas Inspirasi: HIDUP BERAWAL DARI MIMPI, SEBUAH DONGEN KEHIDUPAN

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[amelsportfolio]

Record of youth, KDrama ter-"UWU" 2020? Worth to watch ngga sih? Here are my thoughts.

Annyeong chingudeul, it's my first time to write a short review (hope it'll be short). Bare with me if the writing kinda awkward 😂.

Jadi.. udah lama banget sebenernya gw pengin review KDrama ala², cuma belum ada kesempatan aja karena satu dan lain hal.

Terus kenapa tiba-tiba pengin review Record of Youth? Karena gw fan berat Park Bo-Gum? Nope.. 🙅🏻‍♀️

Gw tergugah mau review ini drama ya karena semata-mata gw pengin memberikan pandangan lain ke beberapa netizen yang beropini bahwa drama ini membosankan dan not worth to watch. ☹️

[Buat yang belum baca sinopsis Record of Youth, bisa deh klik link di bawah.. Tapi jangan lupa, setelah baca sinopsis, balik lagi ke sini 😄]

Walaupun di awal-awal penayangan drama ini terkesan alurnya cepat dan yaa bisa dibilang too good to be true karena seorang fan bisa berteman dengan idola, tapi sebenernya make sense aja semua itu terjadi karena perlu kalian tahu bahwa penulis skenario drama ini bikin alurnya mundur.

Dan gimana buat relationship antara idol-fan? Itu bisa aja terjadi, kalau... kamu berada di circle yang sama 😉. Sa Hye-Jun (Park Bo-Gum) seorang model dan An Jeong-Ha (Park So-Dam) adalah seorang makeup artist, jelas dong kemungkinan mereka bertemu itu sangat tinggi.

Terus alasan kenapa drama ini worth to watch apa nih?

Oke, let me tell you.

First of all, kalo kalian lagi kecarian drama korea yang ngga pake mikir, adem ayem pokoknya, tentu Record of Youth adalah pilihan yang tepat. Drama ini super ringan, dan kadang bikin ngakak karena beberapa karakter di drama tersebut lawak banget. Hint: Presdir Jjampong 😂😆

Secondly, values yang bisa kamu dapet saat nonton drama Record of Youth itu banyak banget. Karena selain masalah percintaan, ada juga permasalahan keluarga, pekerjaan, dan pertemanan yang mungkin bisa jadi relate banget sama kalian.

Kalo boleh jujur, gw sedikit banyak bisa relate ke permasalahan keluarga Sa Hye-Jun sih.. Dan tiap ada adegan yang bikin inget kehidupan nyata, gw bisa nangis bombay.. Karena yaa sesakit itu ada di posisi Sa Hye-Jun. Dari persona Sa Hye-Jun gw bisa belajar banyak. Belajar tentang apa itu ikhlas dan sabar, tapi di sisi lain berani buat menyuarakan hak berpendapatnya.

Last but not least, alasan kenapa kamu sayang banget kalau sampai skip drama ini? Beneran deh... Bakal nyesel kalo ngga nonton ini drama. Walaupun plot tidak se"wow" drama² milik tetangga, tapi percayalah, drama ini bakal berkesan banget kalo kalian bener² meresapi dramanya dan ambil pesan yang ingin disampaikan oleh sutradara dan penulis skenarionya. Ini drama cocok banget buat nge-trigger kalian biar pada semangat dan termotivasi buat buktiin ke orang-orang terdekat kalo kalian bisa break your own limits tanpa menyakiti orang lain.

Sekian opini gw tentang drama Record of Youth. Semoga membantu ya.. Kalau pada akhirnya kalian tetap menganggap Record of Youth drama yang membosankan, that's okay too. Ini lebih ke masalah preferensi perdrakoran aja.

Satu lagi, pesan yang pas dan relate dengan drama ini.

Majulah, tanpa menyingkirkan orang lain. Naiklah, tanpa menjatuhkan orang lain. Berbahagialah, tanpa menyakiti orang lain.

Annyeong 🙋🏻‍♀️

[iicewitch]

☕ real boy

a playlist for @stevenrcgers​ link to playlist: here tracklist and favorite lyrics below

1. blood, sweat and tears - bts   Peaches and cream, sweeter than sweet Chocolate cheeks and chocolate wings But your wings are wings of the devil In front of your sweet is bitter bitter 2. brainchild - everything everything A good thing Now you think about it, don't you make it real? The bad thing, maybe it's a feeling I don't want to feel But love is all you need to know But love is all you need to know

3. dumb dumb - red velvet

Like a mannequin Everything is so awkward I should just act like I do normally But whenever I see you, I act so stupid Like my little brother’s robot Everything is so awkward What do I do? I think I’m broken I forgot even how to breathe 4. the zombie song - stephanie mabey And I'd try not to bite and infect you because I'd respect you too much And that's why I'd wait until we got married Oh, and our happiest days would be spent Picking off all your friends and they'd see A love this deep won't stay buried

5. real boy -  lola blanc Every time we touch your hands are colder, colder There's no beating coming from your wooden chest Frozen grin, a mannequin When I get closer I can see the strings there underneath your vest 6. who do you want to be ? - oingo boingo Who do you want to be today? Who do you want to be? I think I'll be a teddy boy, I think I'll be a hunk I think I'll be a tough guy and I think I'll be a punk I might just be a fashion star all dressed in frilly rags Or perhaps, I'll cross the other side and walk around in drag! 7. under my skin - jukebox the ghost I can fit two people under my skin Yeah, I can fit two people under my skin And I will prove it if you will listen You crawled up in there, you joined me within I can feel your heart beating under my skin And the beating of your heart is making me bleed from within 8. mr. capgras encounters a secondhand vanity: tulpamancer's prosopagnosia - will wood and the tapeworms Damn, I thought you’re not your imposter. You’re so sure you’re not gonna get caught! Dead in your own skin, but you didn’t choose what you were born in! And another man in your repertoire, ready in your head and fed upon your memoirs Still the same rules apply from the birthday to the mourning What you feel and what you do; are those things really you? And if not, then what is?  9. breaking out - the protomen If you can hear my voice outside these walls (If you can hear me) If you can hear me sending out this message tonight Then break the silence, send a signal back (If you can hear me) I'm coming, all I need is a little guiding light...

10. roaring 20s - panic at the disco Maybe I'm overjoyed, maybe I'm paranoid Designer me up in straight jackets My tell-tale heart's a hammer in my chest Cut me a silk-tied tourniquet This is my roaring, roaring 20's 11. evelyn evelyn - evelyn evelyn We grew up closer than most Closer than anything, closer than anything Shared our bed and wore the same clothes Talked about everything, spoke about so many things 12. looking glass - the birthday massacre A boyish notion of false emotion These words are spoken despite my love A fool's devotion was set in motion My eyes are open now

13. play dead - the birthday massacre Thinking hurts and thoughts don't rhyme To those of us who've never tried To find a face behind our lipstick smiles And as our pretty faces die Our broken hearts will wonder why The makeup just won't hide the scars of time 14. lets fall in love - mother mother There's a game in the world A little bit of cat and mouse With the boys and the girls And if I had to ante up I'd bet on the birds 'Cause they don't have to walk around With the boys and the girls 15. o my heart - mother mother And I pour my heart a new foundation But it don't set hard it just stays shaking And I scratch my name I scratch my name in But it don't set hard it gets mixed back in Oh my heart, it's a fish out of water  16. body - mother mother Take my teeth, tear through my cheeks And take the nose go and dispose Oh would you go dispose, just go dispose 'Cause I've grown tired of this body A cumbersome and heavy body 

17. touch up - mother mother I am a makeover queen A swan out of duckling Ugly duckling you're drowning In makeup (in makeup) My makeup (my makeup) Has washed off 18. roman holiday - nicki minaj Take your medication, Roman Take a short vacation, Roman, you'll be okay You need to know your station, Roman Some alterations on your clothes and your brain

19. replicant - they might be giants You've got his eyes Same exact smile All that he has All this will be yours  20. happy days - GHOST Oh, it’s painful My heart is quite a mouthful I’ll tear it out for you I’ll be the sacrifice for you Y’know, things could go exactly how you want it I’d be exactly how you want me Use what’s left of my soiled personality I’m all yours, I’ll do anything 21. girls on film - duran duran 'Cause the crowd all love pulling dolly by the hair By the hair And she wonders how she ever got here As she goes under again Girls on film (two minutes later) Girls on film Girls on film (got your picture) Girls on film  22. nobody - mitski And I know no one will save me I'm just asking for a kiss Give me one good movie kiss And I'll be alright Nobody, nobody, nobody 

23. TT - twice I feel like crying, I don’t feel like myself This isn’t like me at all I love you so much Think I’m all grown up now I’m free to make my own choices, but why Why can’t I have it my way The more I try to push you away The more I’m drawn and attracted to you baby 24. in every dream home a heartache - roxy music Your skin is like vinyl The perfect companion You float my new pool De luxe and delightful Inflatable doll My role is to serve you Disposable darling Can't throw you away now 25. the moss - cosmo sheldrake But have you heard the story of the rabbit in the moon? Or the cow that hopped the planets while straddling a spoon Or she, who leapt up mountains, while whistling up a tune And swapped her songs with swallows while riding on a broom 26. green - todrick hall Green! Is a way of life And the millions would kill to see their name up in the lights For the green is okay tonight But be careful what you wish Because you might get what you like 27. guy.exe - superfruit Oh I, wish I could synthesize a picture perfect guy Oh I, oh I Six feet tall and super strong, we'd always get along Alright, alright Oh, he'd pick me up at eight and not a minute late Cause I don't like to wait, no Kind and ain't afraid to cry or treat his momma right 28. the dismemberment song - blue da kid  Well once upon a time that's where the clock begins And right after the end Well, that's right where the plot thins And I've got no angel to keep me in line! So I'm taking your narrative and I'm making it mine! 29. me!me!me! - teddyloid I’ve worked hard for myself - What have you done for yourself? When you notice the scattered pieces of the mirror You’ll realize I wanted you to notice Is this still going on? Is this still happening? Even though I’d been waiting for you Even though I loved you 30. alone together - fall out boy My heart is like a stallion, they love it more when it's broken Do you wanna feel beautiful, do you wanna, yeah I'm outside the door, invite me in So we can go back and play pretend 31. get busy living or get busy dying - fall out boy This has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters But we never stood a chance And I'm not sure if it matters If you are the shores, I am the waves begging for big moons I'm mailing letters to addresses in a ghost town  32. hi it’s me - ashnikko When I'm with you I have amnesia, I'm weaker than before My stupid brain thinks that I need you, I'm eager to hurt more My best friend thinks that I'm a dumbass My dumbass should be a little more cautious I slip up, I text you, I forget That you were so so disrespectful 33. i’m poppy - poppy Welcome to the new world, I'm your internet girl Open up and you'll see, everyone is happy I like your technology, can you put it on me? The future is so pretty, we're living in harmony 34. idola no circus - neru Come, let’s dance all night in our naked bodies We know, we know your true nature Again putting on a fake face, You’re just like a pierrot ! It’s time to put a mask, a mask On your unsociable faced 35. shine - casey lee williams But baby, it's time to make up your mind I think that tonight is when our stars align Honey, it's time to leave the doubt behind Take my hand 'cause you and I are gonna shine 36. one thing - casey lee williams I was nowhere, I had no one, I felt nothing Lost without a voice and on my own Then a candle's flame brought a brand new name But now you've stolen everything And I'm all alone 37. sweetest cure - hugo What the hell am I s'posed to be Choose a world over me Sitting pretty in my mess On the phone I can't confess Word's out somehow You're the sweetest cure I never got to tell you 38. bang bang bang bang - sohodolls Teacher says that I've been naughty I must learn to concentrate But the girls they pull my hair And with the boys I can't relate Daddy says I'm good for nothing Mama says that it's from him Manic sister thinks I'm cracking Brother says it's in my genes 39. helpless - phillipa soo One week later I'm writin' a letter nightly Now my life gets better Every letter that you write me I'm helpless! He's mine, that boy is mine! Look into your eyes And the sky's the limit, I'm Helpless! Helpless! Down for the count, and I'm drownin' in 'em 40. lifeboat - laurence o’ keefe Everyone's pushing Everyone's fighting Storms are approaching There's nowhere to hide If I say the wrong thing Or I wear the wrong outfit They'll throw me right over the side 41. chase the morning - sarah brightman In you is a world of promise We have both been kept in bondage But you can learn from all my failures Let your life be your dream Integrity, honesty, its too late for me Don't look back till your free to chase the morning 42. no reason - leslie kritzer Everything, everything happens for a reason Be a beacon of light in the world Put a little "alright" in the world There are spiritual guides above Look up and see 'em Perception is reality Just listen to the melody the universe sings 'Cause everything, everything happens for a reason 43. i love play rehearsal - stephanie hsu I love play rehearsal 'Cause you are equiped with directions and text Life is easy in rehearsal You follow a script so you know what comes next Anywho, the point that I'm getting to Is sometimes life can't work out in the way It works out in the play 44. your song - elton john And you can tell everybody this is your song It may be quite simple but now that it's done I hope you don't mind I hope you don't mind That I put down in words How wonderful life is while you're in the world 45. the party goes with you - lindsay mendez And when we're dancing nose to nose Darling do you suppose, darling do you suppose This party could be just us two, and I your wife? Oh, oh, the gayest party, sad but true It's true The party goes with you The party goes with you 46. half jack - dresden dolls It's half biology and half corrective surgery gone wrong You'll notice something funny if you hang around here for too Long ago in some black hole before they had these pills to take it back I'm half Jill and half Jack 47. the secret - pierces Got a secret Can you keep it? Swear, this one you'll save Better lock it in your pocket Takin' this one to the grave If I show you, then I know you Won't tell what I said 'Cause two can keep a secret If one of them is dead 48.  connect - claris My heart awakes in order to depict the future Even if I come to a halt on a tough road The beautiful blue sky always waits for me Therefore I'm not afraid I won't be disheartened anymore no matter what happens 49. simple and clean - hikaru utada Hold me, whatever lies beyond this morning Is a little later on Regardless of warnings, the future doesn't scare me at all Nothing's like before 50. mountains - message to bears  And we could run away Before the light of day You know we always could The mountains say, the mountains say And we could run away Before the light of day You know we always could The mountains say, the mountains say

[babygirlofwakanda]

Not Gon Cry | Chapter 3

PREVIOUS CHAPTERS — Chapter One Chapter Two

CHARACTERS — Black! Reader X M’Baku X T’Challa

CONTENT — Trials Of Black Love, Adultery, Broken Vows and Marriage, Humiliation and Manipulation

PLOT — Based off of the song, “Not Gon Cry” by Mary J. Blige on her Share My World album. This is strictly based off of the lyrics, but a little twist. In addition, I STRONGLY suggest listening to this song on REPLAY while reading to get further feels, but hey..

NARRATIVE — A week has passed since you left Gorilla City and word has quickly spread around the country about the rumored separation with you and the Great Gorilla. From local news reporters, gossip blogs and social media they have been covering the story as they desperately tried to dig for information.

However, aside from the nosy journalists you were focused on protecting the innocence of your children as everyday they’d seem to have detailed questions about your split and continued to tell you about the rumors they heard circulating from tribe to tribe.

Who wants to talk to their kids and hear them ask, “—Umama, why did you and utata split?”

Or tell you, “—I heard a council member say that utata was caught in bed with a hooker. What’s a hooker, umama?”

Whenever you saw them you prepared yourself to sugar coat the answers to any of their questions.

Meanwhile, after you left the Jabari kingdom and travelled into the city you found yourself staying at a luxurious villa courtesy of King T’Challa after making one call. Besides, him being the understanding King of Wakanda that he is, didn’t want to hear about you struggling to find a place of for you and your kids.

Furthermore, the villa he gifted you had everything you needed and more as it was as a two-story home with threee bedrooms and two bathrooms. Coming fully furnished with a pool attached and vibranium infused technology wired throughout the villa courtesy of Shuri.

After showing you the villa he insisted that you stay close to the palace that way if you needed anything or if an emergency occurred he would be close by.

Finding the double meaning behind his words you shook off the warm feeling inside before he departed leaving you with a soft peck on the cheek and a firm hug. Not having energy to question his motives you left it at that and started to unpack your belongings.

With your favorite record playing you sung the lyrics to Mary J Blige as you danced throughout the home.

Wanting your children to be as comfortable as possible seeing as though their parents were going through a nasty separation you wanted to introduce them to a new environment with a warmer climate.

As two days passed since you moved into your house and it was now time for you to go back to Gorilla City to discuss the details of your separation with M’Baku in the presence of lawyers, advisors and tribe elders.

Traveling back up to the snowy mountains as cold temperatures engulfed you, you began to feel uneasy as you had to dress up in the thick furs and headgear to survive the freezing climate.

Reaching the kingdom, you were greeted by the guards before you walked to the throne room where the meeting was scheduled. Walking deeper into the room you spotted your advisor and lawyers and gave them a pleasant smile before your eyes landed onto the large frame of the Great Gorilla who sat on his encrusted throne with a deeply disturbed face.

Judging by his looks it seemed as if these couple of days have been hell for him as he had apparent bags underneath his eyes, dried auburn curls that shouted for moisturizer and weak bone structure that stated that he hadn’t been eating much either. Overall, the man looked like a mess; a cheating mess at that.

When you walked in his head innately went up as he scanned over your figure shamelessly. Shaking off his lustful eyes you sauntered over towards your team of defenders before taking a seat beside them.

“Good morning, Chieftess Y/N.” His advisor, greeted. Giving him a tight lip smile you greeted him back.

“Alright, let’s get this started then.” An elder said, as she took her seat next to the male elder. “So, Y/N tell us what you want to see happen today.” The male elder said, before clasping his hands together.

“—Well, now that we are working out the details of our separation I want alimony, child support, joint custody and therapy for our children.” You stated, which caused the council to dramatically gasp at your list of extensive demands.

Clearing his throat the elderly man said, “Could you explain to us why you are demanding so much?” He questioned. Raising your eyebrow in aggravation you said, “If you must know the alimony is giving spousal support to me since I had to give up my career as an international publicist for America to come live here after I got married to M’Baku.” You detailed.

“—and the child support is to help me maintain and continue the lifestyle our children have been attained and accustomed to since their birth.”

“In addition, I want joint custody because they are at a critical age where they need their mother while also being in the their father’s presence. Lastly, I want our children to go to therapy because they come and tell me about everything they hear on news station and ask me questions about things that children should know nothing about.” You clarified, as your tone of voice rised and vocal cords thick with annoyance.

Silence once again fell throughout the room as his team shared concerning looks, “Well how much are you looking to get paid for on a monthly basis for both spousal and child support?” They asked.

“Twenty thousand for the spousal support and thirty thousand for child support making it fifty thousand idolas each month.” You calculated, with a smirk.

“M’Baku do you have any comments?” The elderly woman asked, as the Great Gorilla grew silent as he watched the discussion unfold before him. “Y/N is a grown woman and she essentially knows what’s best for our children, so I’ll give her the child support, joint custody and the children’s therapy.” He shrugged.

“—However, I do not agree with the spousal support, I see no point in providing Y/N with any support after our separation.” He emphasized, with a sudden flare in his nostrils and crease in his wrinkled forehead.

Abruptly feeling your blood pressure rise with every condescending word he spoke you’ve began to feel your frame starting to shake with great infuriation.

“M’Baku you know I need that money and as I recall you said that half the kingdom was mine just as well as yours when we got married and if your a man of your word like to claim then run me money!”

Spotting the elderly council members fixate their mouths the object M’Baku threw up his hand halting their outburst. “You can keep the kingdom and all of that, but I just need you to pay me all of the idolas I could have been making had I kept my job!”

“So, imma need you to quit showing your ass infront of all these people and agree to what I’m requesting in order to speed up this process.” You spat, as you could literally feel venom spewing with each word.

Shaking your head with great disgust you watched as the Great Gorilla tense up; something M’Baku would always do whenever y’all two got in a dispute. “Stop. You’ve had enough time to talk about your demands and expand on your reasonings now it’s time I do the same.” He stated, quickly commanding attention.

Standing up out of this throne he spoke, “Y/N, you come back to Gorilla City and into my kingdom with your list of demands and expect me to not have any disagreement, sithandwa sa?” He questioned, as he pace mocking the movements of preying gorilla.

“Well, you are sadly mistaken. Yes, I suggested for you to quit your job because you would be swamped with your tribal duties as my chieftess. However, I did noy force you to quit your job. Therefore, I shouldn’t have to pay you for your lost wages.” He explained, as he continued to pace back and forth.

Suddenly standing up you quickly approached him making him halt his movements. “Why are so damn arrogant? Do you not understand why I need this?” You asked, once your anger was started to peak.

“You know what, I don’t why I’m even wasting my time trying to explain this to someone who doesn’t even have the capacity to listen.” You spat, causing M’Baku to blatantly roll his eyes in irritation.

Shaking your head, “I’m taking the kids with me, while they’re gone you need to try and comprehend what I just said.” You stated, before making your way out of the throne room and towards your kids rooms.

However, on the walk to your children’s room, a mischievous idea popped into your head causing you to make an abrupt u-turn in the hallway. Opening the door to your old bedroom you once shared with your M’Baku, you walked in. Heading straight towards his closet you grabbed a handful of his precious furs and wool clothing before carrying them to the bedroom tossing them on the large bed.

After throwing his clothes on the bed you stormed into the master bathroom before roughly opening up a drawer grabbing a pair of scissors. Stomping back into the bedroom you damn near leaped over to the bed as you started fiercely cutting at his clothes.

Five minutes have passed since you started cutting at his clothes, taking a break as you scanned over the sheered pile of clothes, but you weren’t satisfied.

Hopping off of the bed you reached into your bra pulling out your burgundy colored lipstick. Feeling a smirk dance across your lips you quickly popped the top off before you started viciously writing.

With your adrenaline increasing by the second, you started to lose control of your rapid emotions as you ran into the bathroom and began to write hateful messages on the mirror.

Your messages included everything from, “—You deserve everything that is coming to you.” to “—Your never gonna touch this pussy again.” and, “I hope you enjoy watching me give this pussy up baby.”

Pulling away from the mirror you stepped back and admired the word wall you just created.

Smirking at your work, you placed the cap back on your lipstick before you approached the mirror again and placed a kiss on the mirror, claiming the artwork.

Leaving out of the bedroom after making sure that the coast was clear from guards roaming the hall you dodgedout of the room. Reaching your kids room you quickly packed them up before meeting your driver outside the Jabari kingdon and within a couple of minutes you’ve arrived at your home.

“Umama, where are we?” Zuko questioned, as he peeked his head up looking outside of the vehicle.

“We are at umama’s new place, usana.” You smiled, before you got out of the car to open their doors.

Words couldn’t describe the overwhelming joy you felt bringing your children to your home. Wishing you could’ve capture their grins when you opened up the door to your house you’d showed them around from the giant pool, vibranium powered technology to the separate bedrooms and bathrooms.

Furthermore, after settling them into the house and cooking them their favorite dishes you’ve set up the movie, Lion King as their bedtime arrived.

Now in the kitchen, you stood infront of the empty sink drying up the last of the dishes before you heard the doorbell echo throughout the house.

Flicking your head up at the noise you walked to the door unlocking it before opening it as you instantly spotted the moonlight radiating over the mocha colored man with the big heart standing at your doorstep with a wide smile.

“T’Challa, what are you doing here?” You asked, as you quickly pushed your dark curls behind your ear.

Waiting for an answer you spotted his eyes darting back and forth from the wooden tiles on the floor to your inviting eyes. “Well, I’ve just received word that you have arrived back in town from Gorilla City with your children in your possession.”

“—So, I was in the village and thought I’d just drop by and see how well your kids were liking the villa and adjusting to the climate change.” He stammered, before awkwardly clearing his throat.

Leaning against your door frame you said, “Hold up. You came all the way to my house at eight o’clock at night just to check up on my children.” You asked, with a slight wittiness behind your voice.

“Of course, as King of Wakanda it is my greatest duty to ensure the comfortability and security of everyone who lays their head down in this great country.” He informed, before a giggle escaped between your plump lips.

“What?” He teased, before he playfully nudged your arm trying to get an answer from you. “Nothing.” You answered, before shaking your head with a grin still present on your face.

“So, are you gonna let me in, or are we just gonna stand out here looking at each other? Because if so I’m perfectly fine standing.” He joked, as he propped his body up against the door.

Rolling your eyes, “Come on in before I change my mind.” You threatened, as you opened the door wider before walking deeper into your home.

“—I see you’ve made it your own.” He stated, as he strolled over into the living room picking up a frame that had a picture of you and Cebisa. Nodding your head he continued, “She’s gonna to look just like her umama when she grows up.” He complimented, as he traced his finger over your face.

Walking into the kitchen after watching T’Challa place your picture frame down you poured yourself a glass of fresh mango juice. T’Challa soon joined you in the kitchen, “Want some juice?” You offered, as you gripped the handle to the pitcher ready to place it back into the refrigerator.

Nodding his head T’Challa spoke up, “It’s very quiet, where are your kids?” He asked, as he took a seat on a stool across the island. “In my bedroom watching a movie, hopefully sleeping by now.” You replied, while handing him his glass before putting the juice away and walking towards your cabinet.

Pulling at the handle you grabbed a bottle of tequila before shutting the cabinet door with a light thud as you walked back over the island. Unscrewing the top you poured yourself a generous amount. Lifting your head, “You want some?” You offered, with a hand outstretched towards T’Challa.

Politely declining you put the top back on the liquor before putting it back up. Walking back you leaned against your counter with your drink now in your grasp before taking a sip of the concatenation.

Instinctively closing your eyelids you took in a large intake of oxygen allowing it to expand your lungs as you felt the burning trail of liquor travel down your pharynx and esophagus. Snapping your eyes open after detecting another pair of eyes on your figure you saw T’Challa inspecting your bizarre behavior.

“What is the matter?” He questioned, as he viewed your stressed position. Not receiving an answer he took that as an opportunity to move closer as he rounded the corner and stood infront of you.

“You can tell me anything, you know that right?” He assured, as he took ahold of free your hand.

Shutting your eyes once more as you felt a wave of despair controlling your emotions resulting in a lone tear slipping from your eye. Immediately catching onto your shattered mental state T’Challa quickly swiped it away with his thumb before he gently holding onto your face.

Inhaling you slowly nodded before opening your eyes revealing your immense brown eyes.

Instantly you found his own staring into yours making a dose of butterflies erupt deep within your soul. Forcefully clearing your throat you flicked your eyes anywhere but his as you started to mimic the behavior of a bashful teenage girl.

“Let’s sit you down.” He declared, as he took ahold of your forearm. “—and lemme get this glass.” He said, as he abruptly snatched the drink out of your hand before placing it on the countertop.

Pulling you towards the kitchen table he sat you down in a chair before taking a seat for himself next to you. “You can’t conceal your emotions around me Y/N, so tell me what’s been troubling you.” He stated, before tenderly squeezing your hand.

Licking your lips as you frantically tried to get your emotions underway you opened your mouth to tell him everything that occurred with M’Baku but was suddenly cut off by a small voice.

“—Umama, the movie went off can you please change it?” Cebisa asked, as she sluggishly rubbed her eyes with one balled up fist while the other clutched onto a stuffed Black Panther doll.

Swiftly turning around you saw a gentle grin across T’Challa’s face as he looked at her sleepy figure and stuffed doll. Dropping her fist by her side after she cleared her vision her mouth instantly dropped as her eyes widen at the man before her.

“Hey, it’s King T’Challa!” Cebisa exclaimed, as she released her doll and ran up and hugged the King of Wakanda. Feeling your heart flutter at the unfolding of the scene before you a small smile appeared on your face as they made small talk.

Clearing your throat, “I hate to break up this reunion, but someone is up past her bedtime.” You playfully scolded, with one raised eyebrow.

“I don’t wanna go to sleep umama, I wanna hang out with King T’Challa.” Cebisa whined, as she clenched her arms tighter around his neck. “C’mon usana, we have things to do bright and early in the morning and we can’t do it if we have to wake up a grumpy child.”

Hearing the whole ordeal T’Challa spoke, “I can put her to bed if you want, Y/N.” He offered, causing the somber child to perk up at his words.

Feeling the pleading stares of your child and the man holding the most powerful title in the country you sighed before giving a faint nod making your daughter erupt into cheers.

“Don’t think you’re getting slick young lady, there will not be another movie, but instead a book.” You said.

“Okay, can I show him my room, umama?” Cebisa asked, causing you to nod as giggles left your lips.

Laughing at your daughter’s antics, T’Challa picked up your daughter as he rose to his feet and walked in the direction she was pointing out. “Here is it!” You heard her yell, before hearing the door creak open.

Shaking away your thoughts, you stood up out of your seat walking back towards your drink resting on the counter. Taking it in your grasp, you looked down at the liquidity saffron yellow in your cup and sighed.

Tempted to throw caution to the wind and blatantly ignore T’Challa’s wise words you instead took heed of his guidance and walked over to the sink before watching pour down and run down the drain.

Eventually, the act of pouring the drink into your sink led you to start popping off every top to every drink sitting in your cabinet down the drain. Seven empty bottles later empty with only droplets of liquor left, you threw them all into your trashcan.

Inhaling and exhaling your stress away, you quietly tiptoed upstairs and towards your daughter’s room.

Pausing at the door you peaked through the cracked slit and spotted your daughter leaned up against the warm embrace of T’Challa as she was enthralled by the words of the King as he read her favorite book, The Princess and The Frog.

“—In order to keep her dream alive Princess Tiana started waiting tables as she saved every penny.”

Finding yourself beaming at the sight you felt your heart flutter as T’Challa and your baby girl was completely absorbed into the fairytale.

Softly knocking on the door you pushed opened the door briefly catching their attention. “Can I join the book club?” You teased, as you came closer to the bed gripping onto the side of the bed railing.

“Of course.” Cebisa answered, before patting her comforter indicating the empty spot next to her.

Grinning at her response you climbed into the bed settling right beside her as T’Challa continue reading the story again. With his animated voice never stopping even within your presence.

TRANSLATIONS—

“Nobusi.” means honey “Mnandi.” means sweetheart “Usana.” means baby “Sithandwa sa.” means my love “Umama.” means mother “Utata.” means father “Idola.” means dollars “Mandla.” means to have power “Cebisa.” means to give advise “Zuko.” means to give glory

AUTHOR’S NOTE— Yall don’t understand how tempted I was to make homegirl pop that pussy, lmao. Y’all up for Chapter 4 or nah? Anyways, ask to be apart of the taglist! 💕

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