#ITS SO FUCKIG GOOD MAN.

[stunfiskz]

i am always thinking about solo from octet god i could gush about that song forever

[29121996]

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[megatraven]

this might genuinely be one of the saddest movies ever made

[gaykneecaps]

im so tired of people only acknowledging romance as a form of connection and completely dismissing all other forms- it must be miserable for them, im not going to lie. imagine living your life pushing away your friends and chosen family for the sake of a relationship (which will doubtless lead to dependency issues/toxicity issues if youre still focused on the relationship bit). clearly they have never been over the moon when someone asked to be friends, never seen someone in public and had the deepest ache of longing to be their best friend, of giggling at 3am messaging your best friend. like, i dont know man, romantic is not the only important form of connection and even if you arent aspec or arospec i feel like it would just make life so much happier if people were able to love their friends without shame. to say 'i love you' over and over to their friends just to let them know how much you appreciate them, to hug your friends with a smile on your face and message them your inane sleep deprived ramblings, just to be able to acknowledge, enjoy and form deep interpersonal relationships that arent romantic!! its healthy and fun and most of all makes life SO MUCH HAPPIER to have good friends that you know arent just going to drop you the minute they get a partner!! i havent slept in like 15 hours so this probably doesnt make much sense but i just wanted all my friends to know how much i fuckig love them youre all so cool <3

[puffyducks]

DCRC Week #24 (Part 1)

Today we're reading PKNA #20: Mekkano AKA Gorthan reads a single line of Shakespeare and has a full Steven Universe moment. Peace and love on the planet Earth and all that.

GUYS LOOK IT'S GORTHAN!!! Remember? From Trauma? I told you guys to remember so if you didn't this one's on you.

Anyways he's about to crash and die a fiery death.

Bro is fighting for his life NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO BE QUOTING THE LITTLE PRINCE!!!!

Oh ok nvm he's self aware

Once again we bear witness to the fact that Donald is so fucking teeny tiny. All it takes is one big fuckig fist to grip his entire head. Manlet.

Idk why this part made me laugh so hard but literally all it took was for him to bitch slap the gun out of PK's hands and it's like Oh. Well shit.

Scolds Uno and Gorthan for saying hi to each other then IMMEDIATELY makes a corny joke that's infinitely more disrespectful than anything they were doing

I found this random technological doohickey that fell from the sky and idk what it does but now I can use it to power my giant scary machine, THIS IS A GREAT IDEA!!!!!

Ooooooh somebody's jealous of the indomitable human spirit oooooh 🫵

BRO HAD MEASLES????

Makes a robot that absorbs things into its body and then gets mad when it. starts absorbing things.

"I hate you as much as you hate me" y'know I'm getting distinct flashbacks to a certain OTHER villain who claims to "hate" PK but still regularly works alongside him and exchanges casual banter... a certain somebody who likes to raid things........

Damn that's deep.... idk how fast the Evronians end wars though you guys are doing a pretty shit job at invading Earth

Oh NOW you think it's bad??? You just watched it rampage through like half the city 😭

YOU GUYS CAN DROP THE "MY ENEMY" THING YOU CLEARLY LIKE EACH OTHER

Wait LOVE??? Ok jumped pretty quick there let me just revise my last sentence - YOU GUYS CAN DROP THE "MY ENEMY" THING YOU CLEARLY LOVE EACH OTHER

It's right behind me isn't it

Ok now that Gorthan got fucking owned and absorbed into a giant metal horror creature IT'S TIME FOR BURTON LA VALLE ohh yeah baby

Uuuuh there's not a lot to say here it's just Burton La Valle beefing with a dog. If this DOG doesn't stop ruining my shots I'm sending his ass to the GLUE FACTORY!!!

Anyways, with the bonus comic out of the way let me just say: I love this story. Insanely lukewarm take, I know, but the conflict between PK and Gorthan here is just SOOOO interesting man. The constant back and forth between whether or not they're enemies, because sure, they SHOULD loathe each other given the circumstances. They constantly reiterate through dialogue that they HATE each other, and yet, through the story we see that both parties hesitate to take any definitive action against the other. PK does a pretty good job of reiterating it himself here:

There's something so interesting about the way in which Gorthan falls in love with humanity through our literature. Every part of his instinctual self tells him to hate us, and yet he just can't. Perhaps it's self-important of us as humans to assume that anything we do could be so moving, but idk. I think it's beautiful to fall in love with humanity through our ability and drive to create. The Evronians don't have the luxury of feeling and creating, they're pretty automatic beings that just kinda exist to follow orders and conquer stuff. It's a pretty fuckin dismal existence, thankfully most of them aren't really conscious enough to think about it critically. I mean Gorthan was but he got immediately kicked out so...

Anyways idk what I'm really trying to say here other than good story, Gorthan is a good character, I WISH we got to see more of him after this but we don't really. Go read The Little Prince.

[dr-ground-zero]

Temperature Rising

((so this is a shitty lil baku snzfic, a bit of bakudeku is ya squint. Its just based on an idea I've had running around in my brain, so here ya go))

This had to be the worst time to get sick! It's summer in Japan and it's the hottest time of year too. The temperature seemed to be rising just as much as the emergencies they had to attend to. The heroes were working over time with not only usual casualties but heat related emergencies some were doing better than others.

“HET’kgnkh! Fuck!” “Bless you, you sure you’re alright Kaachan?” “Yeah yeah I’mb fide deku.” “You’re not fine Kaachan, you’re sick, and I know its not easy for you to be out here in this heat” “HAh?! The hell did you get that from? I’mb not fuckig sick!” The blond loudly protested, Izuku countered his claims.

“You’ve been sneezing and coughing all day, and I know you, you’re not allergic to much besides you’ve been like that since we woke up. Not to mention its hot as hell out here, you shouldn’t be out here! You already have a record for passing out.” “I do dnot have a record” “Yes you do, you pass out when you overheat from quirk use. With it being so hot out here you could get heat stroke!” “I’m dnot godda..hhah goddaahh hah HAT’CHIEW! snrrffs Get heat stroke, d’nerd” Izuku sighed and handed him a water bottle he kept in the cooler bag he was carrying.

“At least drink this, sick or not ya still need water”

The day went on and on and the sun rose higher and higher, high noon was the worst. Not a cloud in the sky and the pavement felt like it could melt your shoes right off your feet with the sun beating down on them! Katsuki wasn’t going to admit to it but he was feeling worse than usual. This really was the worst time to be sick but he couldn’t call off, it was an all hands on deck shift for now! That didn’t mean his constant sniffling, snorting, coughing, and sneezing didn’t go unnoticed.

His group had just finished with a person who was trapped underneath a 4 car pile up. When his vision began to fade in and out, his body felt weak and the heat was starting to get to him. His congested panting didn’t stop as his chest felt tighter.

“Can’t wait to get out of this heat!” “Yeah, getting back to the agency's AC is gonna be heaven!” “Fuck i might stop at the ice cream store anyone wanna come with?” “Hell yeah I do, hey blasty you wanna come with?” Asked Eijirou, he looked behind himself to see that the blond was much farther behind them. Dragging his feet and rubbing at his runny nose he was just barely trudging along. This made a wave of worry wash over them.

“Kaachan? You okay?” Deku went back to him and the closer he got the louder the alarm bells in his head rang! Face a tacky pasty pinkish red, his breathing was labored and ragged.

When Katsuki was just in arms reach the only words he could get out were.

“I don’t feel so good” Before he collapsed heading straight for the ground! Izuku made haste to catch him and felt his face cursing.

“Holy shit he’s burning up!” Adjusting his hold on the blond he practically sprinted to the rescue truck while telling the others to hurry up. Eijirou was right behind him with the keys, when they all got to the truck Eijirou went speeding off to the agency. They all knew taking Katsuki too a hospital wouldn’t go well all of them were most likely busy anyways. Izuku had them crank on the AC as he disrobed the blond of his hero costume. He at least let him in his pants for the time being.

When they got to the agency Izuku carried the blond inside and sighed, feeling the coolness of the building hit him. He lugged the blond’s body into the large bathroom and stripped him completely while he filled up the bathtub. He knew that the blond was gonna hate him for this but it had to be done, he lowered the man into the cold water of the bath and made sure he was sat up against the walls. He set down his own hero gear medical bags near the edge and sat with his feet in the water. If this felt good to him then he knew this would surely bring Katsuki’s temperature down.

It had taken all but 4 minutes for Katsuki to stir. The flushness in his face had gone down significantly which was an indication of his temperature lowering.

“Hmmb?” Eyes fluttering as he regained consciousness, Katsuki looked around and lazily asked what happened.

“You passed out from heat exhaustion bordering on stroke from most likely a fever and being out for too long.” Katsuki grumbled slightly before noticing how cold he suddenly was. A shudder ran up his spine right before his breath started hitching. Pulling his hands out of the water he grabbed at his nose to stifle.

Hat-Kngnk! Ht’chiew! Kngxt! At’kngk! Ugh shit its fr-freezig!” “Don’t stifle them, Kaachan you’re just gonna make it worse, and good, I’m trying to get your temperature down.” The green haired hero scolded lightly, Katsuki whined and rubbed harshly at his nose with was turning an angry red color.

“Ugh cad I get out dnow?” Izuku reached for the thermometer and held it to the blonds lips.

“Let's get a number on your temperature and we’ll see.” Begrudgingly Katuki kept the tool under his tongue while continuing to rub and scratch at his nose. Izuku knew there wasn’t a point in making him stop, not like his body wouldn't seek revenge.

When the thermometer beeped, Izuku slid the tool out of Katsuki’s mouth and smiled.

“37C(100F) yup you can get out, the rest will go down as long as you rest.” Izuku quickly grabbed a towel as Katsuki got out of the water.

“G-good that sh-shit is cuuhh huh HAASSTTIIIEW!” Splaaaassh! Before Katsuki could even gain stable footing, it was one sneeze and he fell right back into the water. It took everything in Izuku to not double over with laughter. Sputtering and coughing while hurling profanities, Katsuki made his way back out of the bath with Izuku’s help this time.

“Bless you Kaachan, lets get you dried off and dressed, you can go lie down on the couch alright.” Wrapping himself up in a towel to dry off, Katsuki nodded and took the spare clothes.

Now here he was curled up on the lounge couch sneezing into said towel.

“HAASTIIIEW! Hhah! HAH’SSHIIEW!”

“Damn bless you dude, you feeling any better? Ya gave us a heart attack ya know!” Asked Kirishima, Katsuki rolled his eyes and grumpily blew his nose into the towel.

“I’mb fucking fine, judge over heateehh hehh HETCHIEW! Heated guh” Then Izuku came over with a popsicle and to ruin his pride.

“Kaachan you caught a cold and over gave yourself heat exhaustion.” The blond gave a low growl at him but was quickly interrupted by his sore throat.

“Don’t growl at me. Take the popsicle. You need something to keep your temperature down, as well as fluids and sugar, this is the best combination.” Izuku nagged as he handed the popsicle to the blond then playfully ruffled his damp hair. Katsuki took the frozen treat and sighed, it did help his throat but damn was it cold and sure maybe it was the fever giving him chills but it was making him shiver.

“Fucking hell its cold!” He whined, Izuku chuckled softly and grabbed one of the throw blankets.

“Here, I don’t want you over heating. You’ve most likely got bad chills. Try to get some rest alright.” He says as he stands up from his spot on the arm of the couch.

“Where are you goig?” “To get ice cream of course, its hella hot out!” Eijirou grinned as Izuku jingled the keys in front of him.

“We’ll be back kaachan don’t worry~”

[pokemon-ash-aus]

Does magical girl ash get into awkward situations if clemont called him by his real name in mid battle

Not really

Ckemont: ASH!

Ameka: Your Boyfriend!?

Clemont: YOU BOTH START WITH A'S IM SO SORRY

Ameka: YOU'RE MY TECH GUY MAN, I HAVE AT LEAST 3 SYLLABLES IN MY NAME, YOUR BOYFRIEND HAS FUCKING ONE

Clemont: STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS, ILL RECOVER, YOU DIDNT NEED TO SPOT IT OUT

Ameka: CALL OUT POST FOR ONE DUMB ASS MOTHER FUCKER.

CLEMONT: IM TAKING THE POKEMON IN THE DIVORCE

Ameka: YOU COULDNT AFFORD TO TAKE ME TO COURT.

Ameka is really good at bouncing back in the midst of a panic but also, Takes things VERY far XD

Its why he's considered the funniest of the Ameka line. Just has no fuckig filter some days XD

[emmetverse]

🖤👻, for everyone

What would you say is the darkest thought you've ever experienced? What do you think caused you to have that thought? Have you ever planned on or fantasized about acting on it?

Is there someone or something that you feel is missing from your life? Do you know if there's any way to find it/them?

𐰬 Oh jeez, these are tough ones... For the first one, I guess it was the wedding? It's the angriest I've ever been at someone. For a little bit, I really considered going for the Queen specifically. I'm glad I didn't, and I feel so awful for even thinking it.

And I think you know the answer to the second one already. I don't know if there's a way home, or if home even still exists. But if it does then you know I'm gonna find a way there!

✲ I miss my friends, but it's ok! I have everything I need here! And I really like my new friends, too.

≜ I get violent thoughts a lot. I think, of the thoughts that are mine, it'd probably be killing Dad. Thank Lucy for him still being around. I don't know if that's a good thing, but it is what it is. There's not much I miss, to be honest. I guess I miss the Cops from my world, but I'm not too upset about not seeing them anymore. I didn't have a life there to go back to, and now I have this one.

𐳱 uhhhhh. not answering thatoone<3

i miss food a lot. but pretty muhch all the people i miss are here. and honestly, i don't know if i'd want to be home. lucy probbly has a partner so. its fine yknow anyway i have my super cool 8ft goth gf shesso cool and then theres señor fl;uffykins who's just the best guy ever you should meet her she's bald but shes soft still i want to kiss her little head and and i think youd all like her a lot she's a freak

n man i KNOW there's a way out of here i dont give a shit what it takes i will fuckig do it . i dont know how i dont know when or where but we're gonna find it and we're gionna get out. and it's gonna begood. and we're gonna have so many waffles and maybe waffles and ice cream and syrup and omg pancakes and bacon and syrup...i dont care i'm getting there im having my bacon pancakles

[flowersbytheroad]

ok im posting here cuz i feel like this is where the least ppl will see it but i am SO UNBELIEVABLY BITTER ABOUT MY TSL GAME FALLING APART. i want to fucking kms i put so much FUCKIG hard work into this. including finding time and getting myself back into dming at all to run this thing n now its probably dead in the water cuz one of my players had to quit like.

FUCK. AAAAAJAKSJDKDDNSODNSLN. I AM SO SO SO BITTER.

i feel like i finally understand why people quit this hobby now. the sheer amount of work thats gone into this thats going down the drain now. the creativity n care n love that jsut. will never see the light of day the way i wanted it to. fuck me man, i am so unspeakably disappointed and hurt and betrayed and helpless.

i cant even do anything about it. Maybe some of it can be salvaged by my remaining 2 players but i am just so done with all this. i put so. much. work. into. this. more than ive put in any game in recent memory.

this could have been so good. this could have been so good.

[goldiipond]

SKYE TRIVIA HOUR YAY ummmmm let's see.... 1) Favorite movie??? 2) favorite superhero??? (Just like in general) 3) favorite animal????

OH YAY TRIVIA HOUR NOW LETS GO ouuhhhughgh this is always a hard quastion for me because i really dont watch movies all that often and my memory is Bad <3 but honestly i'd probably currently say puss in boots the last wish bc man the animation style is sooo fuckin charming and fun to look at and its just. a reaally good movie <3 ive rewatched it quite a few times its verygood thumbsup <3

this is a much shorter answer in that i!! simply dont have one </3 ive never actually gotten into superhero stuff and the ones i know the names of i dont. know much abt beyond that i do not go here </3

and CATS. cats cats cats cats i love cats soo fuckig much you have no idea i have been supremely autistic abt cats for quite literally my whole life. i spent countless hours in elementary school reading books about cats theres an entire section of my brain dedicated to cat facts. i spent several years teaching myself how to mimic cat noises through sheer autistic willpower and can do a pretty flawless cat impression now. i have used this to fuck with people in public before <3 i had a jacket with cats on it that i refused to take off for the entire 3 years i spent in middle school. there was a 2 yr-period in elementary school where i didnt own a single shirt that didnt have a cat on it. i had this ridiculous looking purple cat hat in 5th grade that i wore every day and we actually werent allowed to wear hats inside at my school but the teachers just sort of. let me wear it anyway. i like to think i had some sort of mentally ill spark in my eye that they picked up on so they just didnt stop me

[mlynar-nearl]

heyup its anon back from that hell we call life and im just here to ask one very important question i have been stuck on for a while now: what is a good valentines day gift that isnt flowers (horrifyingly expensive) or chocolate (i just dont like them) ? answer however the hell you like man i ran out of people to ask

and yeaaaaah your reply to my prev ask totally reminded me why i dont care too much about the ak community actually its cos i dont wanna be in drama (unlike in genshin)

oh and get this, i was rushing lantern rite the other day (did it in 3 hours hehe) and using my nonexistent primos i won my 50/50 and got the big booba man like hell yeah now all i have left is kaveh (my beloved) and yes. maybe i will go back to genshin. if you play in asia i can drop my uid but im pretty sure ur a north america kinda person so like probs not

anyways didnt answer ur prev prev reply to one of my asks but like yeah they shlda made more people darker skinned in sumeru :/ kinda iffy that they aint ykyk like i live in southeast asia and my skins still darker than everyone in the cast lmao (okay maybe not everyone id say im on par w xinyan?) and it suuuuuuuucks but oh well mhy is just (insert thumbs down) anyways hope ur doing well lol u can throw in updates abt ur ocs too i havent had time to be on tumblr much lately thankiessssss

do NOT apologize lmao i love talking

imo, the best valentine's gift is one that's not too extravagant but a little personal. gift card to a store/place they like or somethin'. maybe i'm broke but i don't really do v-day even tho i'm in a relationship LMAO

i don't mind the ak community very much in terms of seeing cool gameplay and a lot of the few people who interpret lore and the few other fanfic authors in english floating out there that i've seen have been really cool and i do try to encourage other creators in the space. there are some exceptions as some things/tropes/opinions piss me off but i try to keep it posi.

i do play in NA on genshin and english global on ak :( but grats on the autism man, the superhero we needed AND wanted. my partner played genshin for a bit before i did and they sent me a picture of xinyan and went ash this looks like you. they aint fuckig wrong. colorism won today

as for ocs! i've been thinking about audie a normal amount* lately. i scribbled some stuff with him and encio and gnosis but lost it when my computer crashed :( there's some stuff i posted in my tag for him tho (which is "oc: audie") about them and their games of chess.

shealtiel DOES do this but he doesnt know why. me instigating a fight because the andoain is hot and i want him on me. also, i think that when he converses with andoain on the trail- because andoain knows he's being followed and just lets shealtiel do it and sometimes tries to chat with him, persuade him to stop being so furious- if andoain starts annoying him he turns off his hearing aids and leaves. turning off my hearing aids i don't want to hear you anymore. andoain has to live with knowing that shealtiel can put him on mute. shealtiel hopes it makes him fucking writhe.

[jellyaibo]

PLEASE WATCH LEVEL UP OMFG!!!!!PLEASE

[luciphe-r]

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[andoqin]

Shows I've watched in 2021 pt 2

These are the shows that I watched and finished.... but man do I fucking regret doing that now for a lot of them. Often the show shat the bed or i just watched it and wasted my time and I should have just dropped it. There are some in here that I feel mostly blah about, that I finished mostly because i was heavily skipping through :(

The Veil - Nam Goong Min got *really* buff and roughed up for this one. And I like action-y shows and they made the smart decision not to make it 16 eps, but man, the mystery and writing was so blah, the plot points so forseeable and while I appreciate Nam Goong Min really transforming himself he also just got stuck in "Badass Mofo" mode and it kinda felt like I was seeing him struggle to act like that. I gave it a 6.5 bc he does try very hard and with 12 episodes and some skipping it's not a total chore.

The Silent Sea - Gong Yoo and Bae Doona doing a short Scifi show? Sign me tf up, AND Lee Joon is also there. The cast was fuckig stellar, but uh there were supposed to be smart people on the station and it *really* really didnt feel like there were. For plot convenience everyone got to be an idiot at least for some time and I honestly think that it would have been better off as a movie because some plot threads felt very "red headed stepchild". Plus as a movie I possibly wouldn't have started wondering how the presentation of the premise and the premise as a whole even work... 7/10 because the acting is good, the cgi is also pretty good and I wanna support scifi stuff and I'm maybe giving it a bump for Gong Yoo and Bae Doona that it doesn't quite deserve.

The Tasty Florida and You Make Me Dance - two outings from Koreas recent push into BL content that are blessedly short but also don't really offer anything new and the acting and writing is suspect at best sometimes. Thankfully both are blessedly short, so it's not like I wasted a lot of time. They both get 6.5 stars but I think YMMD does have better acting than TTF.

Hellbound - For a 6 episode show it sure knew how to tank after only 3 eps, I mean damn. Yoo Ah In sells his role pretty well, as is expected of him, but the shoddy CGI monsters just feel hilarious and weird and not scary. While I do think that the opening is very well done the tension just starts to bleed out and Kim Hyun Joo's character get's to be a badass... but also how? I mean I'm glad she got to kick ass but I just felt like the latter half expected me to just go with it in a way that made me go "uhhh nah". 7/10 but honestly only bc I did enjoy the first half the latter half is like a 4.5

LUCA: The Beginning - OH MY GOD where to fucking start with this show. 8 eps of all I wanted and then it just lobotomises Lee Da Hee's character and then the ending is just the fucking cherry on the shit sundae. I was honestly *really* vibing with the way this show was using its athmosphere to sell its story, and even the (completely nonsense lyric) OST song was a fucking banger and Kim Rae Won was great in the role, but my god the writing. The writing is the block of cement around the shoes of this drama, dragging it to its death. This plus the next entry really made me wary of livewatching anything in 2021 because christ. It gets 6.5 stars only because the first 8 eps were pretty much 9-10/10 for me and so strong but the last 4 eps are like a 2/10 at most.

Mr. Queen - Fuck this show and the homophobic horse it rode in on. 19 eps where Shin Hye Sun gets to deliver the role of a lifetime, just nailing every single beat and doing the silly (and very funny) humor with a gusto that is rarely seen, plus a slow developing romance between a king and his queen who changed so radically but finally also sees him for who he is, plus the show even had the king let go of his first love in a way that felt organic and believable. The bad guys were a bit eh, but the show was being hard carried by SHS acting her heart out as the modern cook Bong Hwan now caught in the body of a woman in the past. The slow emotional connection that Bong Hwan built up with the king was a highlight of the show for me and I really felt like they had captured the essence of the cdrama original, but well then ep 20 happened, well specifically the latter half and the show thrust me and its general audience the middle finger and expected me to believe the genuine connection between the king and Bong Hwan (who was influenced by the previous' souls feelings which I will believe) was... pretty much all the previous soul who was just hanging around in the body and when it came to ~skinship she came back out and it went pretty much uncommented in the latter half of the show.... Yeah no, I could write a wholeass rant why the show did not earn the ending it gave me. 3/10 only because I really liked the show previous to the ending.

The Uncanny Counter - This show is not as bad as the previous 2 entries, but the plot really wasn’t made for 16 episodes. The main character really began to grate on me and I felt like the villain(s) only got by for so long because the script demanded that our protagonists turn into idiots. I didn’t mind the found family stuff, in fact that was ace but I was also not really into the way the show struggled to make it work, because the main character had a life outside the found family. Once again the writing wasnt really strong enough to support it during its entire run and while it didnt shit the bed as badly as the previous entries this drama should have been 12 episodes at most. 7/10 but a very low 7 I’d say.

Dali and the cocky prince - Another show I felt struggled to support its 16 episode run, plus the ~mystery and plot was paper thin. I also found Dali as a character to be wholly frustrating (not to mention her hair) and Moo Hak really was making me cringe in second hand embarassment a lot. I did like their shenanigans and their romance was cute and the characters do feel like they belong with each other but theirs just wasnt a story that didnt vibe with mine. I felt myself nodding along with the “traitor” in the gallery more often than not because Dali really seemed like she had her head in the clouds to a lot of things and I guess rich airheads just don’t do it for me. 6.5/10

Squid Game - The drama that took the world by storm... for some reason. I’m a big fan of death game type stories and netflix put out Alice in Borderland last year which I loved (for the most part) but SG is just fucking stupid and everyone in it is an idiot. The hype about it didnt help, but I watched it before it became a Global Phenomenon so it’s not like that influenced my opinions. The fact that *none* of the hundreds of participants (other than I guess the best friend antagonist) thought about how to game the system seems mind-boggling to me. Coupled with the fact that there are only 3 very simple rules for each game and they’re always the same and they are literally shut in place with nothing to think about the rules and the games I would have liked some more ingenuity. Plus the games were kinda eh and then the last episode was terrible and turned Gi Hoon into a fucking asshole and still expected me to like him and I was like no thank you. I will not be watching the sequel since I doubt the writer has the chops to course correct if this is what SG looks like after he’s been thinking about it for 10 years. 5/10

Move to Heaven - This one wanted to be a big tearjerker and I have a big soft spot for Lee Je Hoon, but other than one episode (the first one iirc) none of the plots moved me even as I felt the writing desperately trying to tug at my heartstrings. Maybe it’s because I have the stellar Tatortreiniger a German half hour comedy as a comparison, where the poignancy is only ever hinted at and the script just full of gags that only creep up on you because in the end, cleaning up after a dead person is just a job. It can be moving, it can be touching but often it’s a bit mundane and the comedy is about that. Idk I guess I just like that view of it a lot more (Go watch Tatortreiniger if you can!) 6/10

Law School - I watched this on the strength of a few gifsets that crossed my dash and while I don’t regret it and I think the acting is fine it also didn’t really blow me away and I didn’t really retain anything from my watch. 6.5/10

Mad for Each Other - Well Netflix says I finished this. I don’t remember doing that. I do remember that I liked the way it treated trauma (in the beginning) and the way that two very damaged people could heal each other but then it began feeling rote and boring and that’s where I lost interest I guess. 5/10 because I can’t really rate sth I don’t remember all that well.

13 shows I finished, where I really hated 2 of them another 2 I had some big issues with/forgot halfway through that I watched them and the rest are watchable I guess but with big caveats. *sigh* 

[everyhowlmarksthedead]

EARLY BIRD

Angel Reyes x Reader

Anon asked: could you write an imagine with angel Reyes in which you think he’s gonna break up with you because he’s been distant with you.

Word Count: 1.9k

Thanks to my lovely beta reader @starrynite7114 ​ ✨

Author comments: I'm sorry it took me so long! I just needed some time away from my phone, 'cause I was feeling somewhat sick, but I'm back! I hope you all enjoy. Gif isn't mine, credits to the author.

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Another morning, waking up in an empty bed and the next side to yours totally cold. You snort turning your body above it, pulling your hair away from your forehead with a hand. There's any noise outside of the bedroom, the one you were supposed to share with Angel because, probably, he left the house stealthily some hours ago. You don't know what's going on. You don't know what's happening between you. And at any time you have tried to talk with him about it, he only says that everything is okay and you're just a little paranoid. You want to believe him. You really try with all your efforts, but there's a bunch of insecurities getting stuck inside your chest oppressing it, that doesn't let air through.

✉: “hey, early bird”

You haven't thought about it, grabbing your phone to know if he is still alive, leaving it on the pillow where your head is resting. Some minutes laters, when you're almost falling asleep again, the advice dings turning on the screen.

✉: “eh”

That's all. And he keeps saying that nothing has changed. For sure.

✉: “you free 2nig?”

✉: “i think so”

      “y?”

✉: “we could have a night in”

     “dinner and movie”

     “hang out for beers”

✉: “am into first”

✉: “k! 7? 8?”

✉: “8 good”

✉: “k! ily”.

✉: “back”

You know he's not going to come, but at least you try it.

When the night is about to fall down plunging Santo Padre into the darkness of the desert, you begin to set up ready in case a miracle happens. Putting the steaks you bought at pops, in the pan with some oil and salt over low heat, you leave the kitchen to change your clothes. Wearing nothing but his favorite shirt, you spread on your neck and collarbone that fruity and fresh perfume he loves the most. And picking up your hair in a ponytail, you walk barefoot back to the kitchen. It's flooded by the delicious smell of the meat cooking slowly, turning them to the other side when it's getting golden. Leaving the food in the background, you go next to the freezer checking that the cold beers are ready to be drinked. You have popcorn, candies and chocolate for later. Everything is on point, even if you don't have much faith that he's going to come.

You weren't wrong.

At half past nine you're sitting on the couch, eating the cold steak you cooked and drinking the third beer. Angel didn't answer any of your messages, nor your calls. So, after trying to contact him for almost one hour, you decided to have dinner alone.

Another night.

The desire to cry floods you with leaps and bounds, grabbing the last piece from the fork in a bad mood before leaving the dish on the table and drinking your beer till it's empty. You fall asleep on the sofa some minutes after with your eyes filled with tears.

Although the door closes silently, you open your eyes getting up, stretching once you sit up. Angel looks like shit, tired and upset with his hair made a mess. Noticing sideways that the sun is almost shining, you don't say anything when he's about to apologize. Leaving him alone with the word in his mouth. You don't even pick up dinner stuff, going back to bed and throwing away the shirt you're on to wear yours. Covering your head with the blankets, you can hear Angel's heavy steps following to the bathroom to get locked in. The water running down the shower.

A fist hitting the marble.

And finally, a weary snort when the mattress sinks a little next to you.

“I was arrested.”

No words from you. He knows you're awake. Once your eyes are opened, it's impossible for you to fall asleep again.

“I really wanted to spend last night with you, mi amor.”

Nothing.

You don't even move.

“I'm so sorry.”

You try to get up, pulling away the blankets tired of hearing bullshit. Not understanding why he just doesn't tell you it's all over, assuming he doesn't because he hates loneliness and no matter how much he despises you, that you're going to come back once and again like a beaten dog faithful to its master. He never was like that, he just changed from nothing. From being the loveliest man to a ghost in your life. Angel grabs your wrist, stopping you from leaving him alone, but you can't look at his face.

You can't fall again.

“Stay, please.”

“I needed you to stay a lot of times, and you weren't even here.”

“I'm sorry.”

“Yeah, you already said that.”

With a heavy snort being spitted by your lips, you sit on the edge of the bed rubbing your face with both hands. Getting up and holding your phone in a hand, you guide your feet to the door looking for some coffee in the kitchen, to serve it inside a big mug.

“Emily is back and I am just trying to save EZ's ass. I didn't see I was abandoning you.”

Sounds like an explanation, but you don't really care. This hole between you two isn't going to get closed with some apologies and some kisses. He's going to have to make it up to you.

Hard.

“And when I’m saying I’m sorry, it's because I'm really sorry (Y/N).” He takes three steps closer towards you, with his hands keeping down inside the pockets of his short sweatpants. “I fucking love you. Nothing and nobody could change that. I swear on my mom.”

You have a sip of your coffee, closing your eyes when he names his mother for the first time in that way.

“Listen, I got to be back at the scrapyard in four hours. But this afternoon we're gonna go to a place.”

“Which place?”

“You'll see. And I know you're gonna like it.”

“But?”

There's always a ‘but’.

“But first I have to pick up a buddy, I promise him that he could stay with us”.

“What the fuck, Angel?!”

You're drowning in coughs, leaving the cup to hit your chest with a palm.

“(Y/N), trust me, okay? You will love him.”

“You're a fucking jerk.”

“Mi amor, listen.” He grabs your forearm, stopping you. “Trust me”.

“I can't fucking trust you. Not today. Not after telling me you were fucking arrested, and now telling me you're gonna bring a ‘buddy’ to our fucking house without asking me.”

“You're gonna regret those words this afternoon.”

“Yeah, but for that, you have to be here and you're not gonna come.”

Letting go yourself, you walk away from him. You can't believe this is truly happening, getting worse as the minutes go by.

Driving through the desert, you don't know where the hell you're going, hoping he's not bringing you to Vicki's place because one of the girls needs to hide. Even if he talked to you about a guy. Angel is giving you the directions you have to take, making your blood boil whenever you ask him about it and he just smirks at you with that kind of smile you would like to punch out.

And yes, it's a surprise when you reach Grace's kennel. Frowning at him as you stop your car, you try to keep calm.

“Are you fucking kidding me? Am I a fucking joke to you, Angel?”

“What?”

“I'm not gonna fucking bring a junkie to my house!”

“We're n— We're not he—”. He can't even talk, breaking into laughs stirring on his seat. “Step out of the car, mi amor.”

“No! You know what? We're fucking done! I can't! I can't handle it!”

You're getting so nervous you don't know what you are saying. Collapsing. Exploding. But seems like the oldest Reyes doesn't give a fuck if you are on the verge of an anxiety attack, when he takes off your seat belt before grabbing the keys of your car. Angel doesn't say anything, getting out of it and walking to your side. After opening your door, he holds your hand pushing you into him. And you just let him do what he wants with you.

“You ok?” Grace asks you somewhat confused and worried, looking at your pale face. Pursing your lips, you shrug your shoulders.

Seems like you're in shock, not understanding anything that is going on around you while your boyfriend guides your steps to the backyard of the kennel. You find a big black dog lying on the ground with a plastic cone covering his head from his neck and some bandages on his paws and his tail. Tail that he begins to move full of happiness walking with some difficulties close to Angel.

“See, buddy?! I told ya I was coming back for ya'!” Your boyfriend squats towards the dog to hug him, whilst the animal is crying a little, stirring and trying to lick his face.

“What? What's that?” You point at the dog with a finger.

“I was driving on my way back home, and I saw a fuckig shithead dragging him by the paws with a bike. I was arrested because he ended up unconscious”.

Pursing your lips, you can't help but cry slightly bending over the floor and stretching a hand on air, just wanting that he can smell you to see you don't want to hurt him. The dog brings his snout closer, sniffing your fingers for some seconds taking two steps next to you. His tail starts to move again, imagine that he's also smelling Angel's scent on your clothes.

“Hey, buddy. Nice to meet you”. Using a soft and low tone, the dog shortens the distance licking your face without expecting. That makes you laugh loudly.

“I know you feel alone when I’m riding and he doesn't have a home.” Angel says, waiting for you to finish spinning the matter by yourself. “See? I knew you were gonna regret your words.”

“Ugh, shut up.” You growl, drawing a smile to your new friend with his head rested on your chest, as you caress one of his sides.

“Is he okay?” Your boyfriend asks Grace, getting up as he does, being followed by the dog.

The women nods.

“He's strong. But I'll give you some pills for pain, in case he complains. And you should change the bandages every day. Bring him back next week and I'll check him.”

“Done. How much do I own you, sweetheart?”

“Nothing. Just take him to his new home.”

“Thank you, Grace.” You say before hugging her tightly.

“Call me if you need anything, okay?” She said then, nodding at her.

“So, what's his name?” You ask Angel, walking back to the car with the dog practically glued to your legs.

“Caco”. He answers holding your hand, leaving a kiss on the back of it.

“So, I'm assuming the place where we’re going next is a pet shop, to buy him a lot of things.”

“Shit, mi amor, I got fucking horny every time you show me how smart you are.”

[tylerwritez]

TUESDAY JULY 13 10:42 A.M.

JUDE IS BACK FROM HIS HIATUS!!!!

One thing I think I will no longer be doing is writing down negative feelings and thoughts and... leaving them there. No. Next time I vent, I delete it right after.

If you want something to be sad over, you'll find something. But if you GENUINELY ATTEMPT to be happy, you will be.

So try harder.

Also, my new phone background is a collage thing of me and my friends at Rebecca's house.

I originally did it as this cool way to remember my besties XD but now it also kinda helps my #SelfEsteem because whenever I think my face is ugly, I look at my phone background and I'm like "that's what you look like, no filter, nothing" and it makes me happier because in that background image I just see a boy being stupid with his friends and I sorta smile like "yeah, that IS what I look like, no filter"

I like it cos, those pictures were taken without me doing anyhting to try and look better, so I KNOW that's like. How I REALLY look. And tbh? Not that bad.

I don't even really mind my smile lines anymore. Cos they're from SMILING!!! means I'm a happy guy.

ALSO I THINK I PASS IN MY BACKGROUND? because I'm that kinda of ugly that says "male" yk, especially next to my friends who are girls/nonbinary I just seem so Boy idk its gender... the photo set is very Gender for my face XDDD THIS IS REALLY STUPID

oh well. Positivity only now, babes.

Also! You may have noticed my HIATUs from posting!!! Yeah, I'll still post, and I'll update y'all on my life... but NOT DAILY... I don't really have the time for that.

I'll do it maybe whenever I feel like, but I'll try and stick to weekly, biweekly, idk, whenever I feel like I should talk about my life, whenever things happen.

Right now I'm actually on a roadtrip!!!

We just spent a day on all the amusement park rides at the Calgary Stampede!! It was AWESOME.

Also we have spent time in #nature and I'm COLLECTING! ROCKS! >:) THEY ARE WAY COOLER OUTSIDE MY HOMETOWN JUST SAYING...

Maybe I'll find a hagstone.

So far no, I've only found cool stripey ones but no hagstones.

Maybe I'm not meant to find a hagstone. Maybe whatever gives me my good luck is protection enough.

ACTUALLY, ON THAT NOTE, I HAVEN'T STOLEN ANYTHING FOR THIS WHOLE TRIP... SO LIKE 1 OR 2 WEEKS. WHICH IS CRAZY!!! PROUD OF MYSELF :)

ALSO I HAVEN'T CUT MYSELF FOR LIKE A MONTH MAYBE(?) WHICH IS SO WOW.

see? I can totally do this! You'll see.

Lately I haven't been stressing AT ALL. like. So much happiness and fun, out on my roadtripppp!

I have had a few stressors.... but like. I've done my best to push them aside, because I know it'll be better not to think about them.

Like, I'm starting to think all my unhappiness cOMES FROM THINKING ABOUT MY STRESSORS TOO MUCH... OVERTHINKING.

However, if I tell myself "don't worry, you'll find a way, you always do" and then try n forget, I'm so much happier.

Here are my current #stressors... since everyone loves some drama (I'm listing em)

1. I MIGHT LOSE MY VIRGINITY UHHHH AND IM NERVOUS AND IDK IF I SHOULD OR WHAT ITLL  FEEL LIKE OR IF I SHOULD WAIT.... AAAAAAAA IDK ITS KINDA SCARY COS WHAT IF IT HURTS A LOT... WHAT IF IT FUCKS ME UP. IDK. I KNOW NOTHING.

2. MY STEALING + CUTTING ISSUES... LIKE. I'M ADDICTED???? AND OFC IM HAPPY I MANAGE TO GET BY WITHOUT IT BUT SOMETIMES ITS VERY HARD. TO RESIST. YOUR URGES.

man if that god guy is real I bet hes happy with me (or I guess god can be a girl, or nonbinary, or maybe is not male but still uses he/him, or maybe DOESNT use he him pronouns and we are fuckig it up???? Idk I will just say "he")

(I doubt god has a gender tho lol. He made man and woman in his image yeah? So then.... uh.... he would be intersex(?)

Personally I think god has No genitals at all and No gender either. But then again, I dont even believe in a god...)

ALL IM SAYING IS. IF GOD WAS REAL. THEY WOULD PROBABLY BE PLEASED THAT I AM. RESISTING SIN? SO WELL.

... cos cutting yourself IS a sin....

That used to upset me so much dude. I read this bible passage... and it would be CONSTANTLY referenced. Your body is a temple. Its sinful to harm your body. Its sinful to use drugs, is what they said at school, but like. What about other types of intentional harm? Sin. Sinful.

I used to be so invested in that Catholicism shit, man. And afterward, after I. Did the cutting. I'd be covered in half dried sticky blood. I'd smell the metallic smell so strongly.... because I bled out A LOT... its incredible to me honeslty, how such minor styros and occasional light fat cuts can gush out so MUCH blood. It's a lot. It's more than you'd expect from a little cut. The cuts pool up with blood and then overflow.

It trickles down your legs.

But I'd be patching myself up afterward (basically tryna clean the blood, stop the bleeding, make sure I didnt bleed out onto my sheets and dirty them in my sleep... make sure I didnt leave evidence) and I'd think to myself "this is a sin, I am a sinner..."

Ofc my stupid ass was constantly begging for forgiveness, praying, reading the bible, blah blah, please I just wanna serve you, please help me, please...

What a pathetic state to be in most of my junior high years HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA XD XDDDDD LMAOOOO LMFAOOOOOO ROFLLLLL

like. I had a corner of the school I used SPECIFICALLY to cry.

How sad...

BUT NOW IM IN HIGH SCHOOL!!!! AND I AM PLEASED TO INFORM YOU THAT I HAVE

0 CRYING SPOTS

MANY MAKING OUT SPOTS

like woah its almost like. I dont have to suffer at all.

I'm winning now.

W. What was I talking about before I started rambling. Idk. I forget. Oh well.

POSITIVITY ONLY BABES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ILL KEEP YALL UPDATED I SWEAR

SIGNING OFF,

JUDE SHEPARD