#ITS NOT FAAAAAAIR

[shokuarts]

🎶ITS NOT FAAAAAAAIR🎸

🎶TIMELAPSE🎶

[snorlacroix]

when men wear short shirts and just a sliver of tummy is exposed. thats the post

[eldenphil]

can they invent a painkiller that works

[ceruleanharley]

but its not faaaaaair we won the most televotes goddamn juries ffs

[ratsonas]

its not faaaaaair that i can only fall in love after ive formed a deep bond with someone ive known for at least several months when im absolute dogshit at making new friends......

[locallysourcedstardust]

Nickname: oh I have many- Star, starfish, Jo, Jojo, Star Jo…

Sign: Capricorn/Aquarius cusp

Last google search: synonyms for “having sex”- it was for a joke. I then misspelled it as “fortification” because, dyslexic

Song stuck in head: FAAAAAAIR WELL WANDERLUST, you’ve been oh so kind- (Fairwell Wanderlust, the Amazing Devil)

(I’m the Cupid of things / that you just didn’t get / that you struggle to say /I’m the saint of the paint / that was left in the pot / I’m your Angel ellipsis , your devil of dots / every time that you fumble, I’m the laugh from the back / when you think about him , my wings stop to flap /when you make a mistake, my feet lift from the floor / wand when you like there awake every night love I soar / i promise you I’ll be better, I promise you I’ll try/ but like rubbing wine stains into rugs, it’s my curse / to try and make it better, but by trying make it worse/ I’m the heartbreak that aches far too much to be shunned/ all those letters unsent and that garden ungrown/ I’m the captain of courage, you’ve eternally lacked / im the Jesus of wishing to Christ he’ll come back/ because Farewell Wanderlust you’ve been, oh so kind/ you brought me to this party but you’ve left me here behind / so long to the person you begged me to be / she’s gone, she’s dead)

- seriously, great song

Dream job: full time, permanent archaeologist for some park or estate

Wearing: plaid pj pants and a black tank top

Favorite song: farewell wanderlust, again

THIS HERE IS NOT SINGING ITS JUST SCREAMING IN TUNE

Favorite instrument: violin?

Aesthetic: rustic academic ? Is that a thing? Think old farmhouse with a touch witchy

Favorite authors: *pulls up ao3* uh, currently on @inexplicifics BEAST of a wonderful glorious series so shout out, bestie ✌️

And of course the usual suspects. @jemariel @cadenceimperfect @youkeepthose @nickelkeep and many more

Favorite animal sounds: cat purrs and bird songs

Last song: take a fucking guess fam

Last series: the Witcher

Random: guys I get my stitches out tomorrow 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[gayseyjones]

ITS NOT FAAAAAAIR 😭😭😭😭😭😭 1610 CLOAK AND DAGGER 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[beachnet]

MAN.

[tipsywench]

I'm gonna go on an angry Sherman march to the bmv.

They finally got back to me and I have to return to the bmv (which means waking at 6am on Saturday to join the line waiting for it to open) all because they fucked up printing my damn card.

[tuff-and-fluff-archives]

Every time I think about my f/os all being stupidly tall I get upset /lh, but I think I am safe because they are not real in this universe

And then I stand next to my actual bf and I'm like

[jimmys-zeppelin]

i've already saved an audio archive but I'M TOO IMPATIENT TO SIFT THROUGH ALL THAT (fucking adhd and the inner need to schedule this to jan 9th even though it probably wouldn't happen)

i need a voicepost. now. emergency in dreamcrush station over here. preferably not posted before but it's urgent

(also peep the new pfp, even though it may not be its final version)

HI OKAY SO IF YOU GO ON MY PAGE AND GO ON THE #AUDIO TAG YOU’LL FIND WAY MORE BUT HERE ARE A FEW

it's gonna be ✨sparkling✨

humming

80s "mark it's not faaaaaair"

not black dog jimmy

chien noir

golden nuggets?

pagey giggles

jimmy page fails at giving out a radio message

[onlyhereforangst]

WWR

I’m baaaaack bitches 😘 let’s be honest the last two episodes were shit & you wouldn’t have wanted that wwr anyways. SO let’s get into the ✨angst✨ that was Nick’s episode under the cut…

Oh but before I start, why yes, yes I called this theory too. Me and this writer share a goddamn brain or something because I’ve literally always guessed big plot points of his episodes correctly 😅

Ok Nick’s dad leaving like that, with poor bby Nick all sweet asking if he promises to bring him back his favorite pastry and him hesitating before he’s going to promise- NO. 

*picture Michael Scott gif here*

It’s not faaaaaair, little Nick deserved so much better- so MUCH better. And it’s only going to get worse as the episode goes on, so strap in for the walk down emo lane. 

Quick pit stop for cute banter because duh. Nick giving the real estate agent Ellie’s number cracks me up because bro you want this house with her don’t you 👀 you still keep her business cards on you when you could have just as easily gotten your own (or McGee’s) by this point 👀 you just want to maaaaarry her and move iiiiiiin with her I knooooooow it 👀 Ellie’s reaction the split second we see also has me dying because she’s like ha ha this is funny you had to talk to real estate agent you drew the short straw hey wait what the fu— you did not! Before McGee interrupts any protest she can hurl back Nick’s way and that’s just gold right there. Pure middle school flirting as per usual for them and I love it.

Oooooooh Kasie’s lab scene. The growth in this one. Nick worried his family and by extension him, is going to get implicated for murder (or is guilty) even though it sounds outrageous to him, he’s got PTSD from Mona Lisa (and who wouldn’t tbh). But Ellie immediately, like IMMEDIATELY goes and defends him. Is like uh-uh don’t even GO there, it’s not a possibility its just person of interest I don’t care if it’s literal hair at the scene of a man stabbed brutally seven times, he’s not a murderer. The grooooooowth Ellie, I’m so proud of you 🥺 we went from using that logical head to realizing it’s ok to listen to your heart and wade into situations with empathy (especially for the boy you ~*looOOoOoOve*~) And then Nick talking about his dad being dead and a deadbeat and walking out when he was 5, he looks at Ellie almost the entire time, only barely glancing over at McGee like he needs to have that connection with her, she grounds him when this is suddenly very jarring having a relative by semi-involved in a murder. And Ellie isn’t the slightest bit shocked when Nick dumps this news so clearly she’s heard it and by her look, not only has she heard this, but she does not like the man for what he did to Nick. She looks pissed his father hurt Nick like that because how dare any one hurt her man 😤

And oh here it is, we back on emo lane. Nick recognizing and seeing his dad for the first time in 30 years. It’s gonna hit like a 🎵freeeeeight traaaain🎵 at first he can’t even believe its him, he blinks like a thousand times because *surely* his eyes are deceiving him and then his dad goes and uses his nickname, his nickname people the CRUELTY. YOU DON’T GET TO JUST SHOW UP THIRTY YEARS LATER AND CALL HIM BY HIS CUTE LITTLE NICKNAME YOU GAVE HIM AS A CHILD. YOU DON’T MIGUEL. NOT IN THIS GD HOUSE. Ok and now nick is in pure shock because he just got confirmation that his dad is not only *not* dead, but he’s here in front of him, in DC no less, possibly a murderer no less. AND he’s finding this out by chasing him down *not* by Miguel reaching out to him while in DC. The shock and confusion and hurt my poor baby.

And when that shock wears off and it’s just barely contained rage, my heart 🥺 so of course Ellie goes in there with him and nows she needs to immediately be the support she knows he needs but he won’t admit to needing. Nick tries to deflect with a joke at first but oh honey it’s no use. But quick comedic relief for us on emo lane “sit down, no I don’t like sitting” AHAHAHA like father like son I’m cackling because the look Ellie and nick share and nick’s eyes warn her like don’t you dare fucking say it and she’s like yep yep nope I wasn’t gonna say a damn thing I’ll just look down and try to contain my laughter because now is NOT the time. But see I’m on my couch and I can laugh all I damn well please at this scenario that was gold from the writers thank you. On a more serious level this probably hurt nick even more seeing that he’s even got the smallest something similar to his dad. He’s probably desperate to be the exact opposite, he doesn’t want to even consider being capable of what his father was capable so this - while seemingly insignificant - thing like not wanting to sit in a chair will hit deep for him without him realizing it. If something so trivial is the exact same, wouldn’t something much much heavier like commitment to relationships and family be the exact same? Wouldn’t it?? And good god poor nick for going through that mental anguish, on emo rollercoaster lane. Because it just gets better when Miguel’s excuse for being in DC is “visiting family” like call your BULLSHIT Miguel you certainly ain’t visiting family and Nick now knows oh he lies too, great, another win for the Torres blood, fan-fucking-tastic. 

Quick peek at viewing room and we don’t believe in personal space, Ellie wants to be as close as possible to her hurting bby 🥺

But back to the emo stuff - Miguel just lying off his ass and Nick fed up with his father’s games because it’s truly just twisting that knife in his back that’s been stuck there for 30 years deeper and deeper. AND THEN Miguel has the audacity to yell out for “Nico” like bitch you do NOT get to call him that either. You walked out on him and never came back gtfo. And Ellie is trying so hard to keep it together but man she wants to do one of two things if not both at the same time - wrap Nick up in her arms and shield him from this deadbeat and/or punch this man through the glass to cause just a fraction of the hurt he caused Nick. But instead she just has to keep her cool to be the supportive girlfriend she is and ask nick what he thinks and then. Then. “He’s lying…because his lips are moving”

Well FUCK. Murder me right now. The anguuuuuuuish. Poor five year old Nick in a 35 year old Nick’s body. That little boy who was promised a big hojaldre in the morning from the next town over is right there. Right there to witness the father he thought he had, hasn’t changed. One of the only memories Nick probably has of his father is him leaving. Him lying and leaving. And what does he do when he finally shows up again? 

HE LIES AND LEAVES. HE FUCKING LIES AND LEAVES. (I know I’m getting ahead and technically at this point we don’t know he’ll leave again but whatever sue me because this shit is too much.)

Side note: Ellie talking about a “conflict of interest” that Nick didn’t interrogate his father is laughable considering she should have never interrogated Xavier but ok. 

Ooooo lets see some pissed off Nick. Let it loose baby, you deserve this. And I know I wrote about this in the tags somewhere but can we take a second to appreciate McGee’s growth??? Like bro went from straight up denial to acceptance and giving Ellie the look of “go talk to your boyfriend ok we need to make sure he’s alright and we both know your support is going to go a lot further than my support” and Ellie wordlessly kNOWS EXACTLY WHAT HE’S SAYING. She’s like yeah, of course I’ll go help my man why wouldn’t I. 

I don’t know why but Ellie asking Nick if he’s talked to his “mom and sister” is just so 🥰 I can’t explain this one to you but I love this dialogue ok. Actually I love this whole ensuing conversation. Nick still is bitter (he has every gd right to be), Ellie playing the supportive girlfriend but *tiiiiiniest* bit of devil’s advocate with saying he might be innocent. Once again, so much growth because honestly she knows what it’ll do to Nick if his dad actually *is* a murderer. Like can we for a second imagine if his dad actually was guilty, right? Nick already saw he was like his dad in trivial things like not wanting to sit in chairs. Nick has already had serious, serious doubts to what he’s capable of aka worried he could, if the right buttons were pushed, be a murderer on multiple occasions. Ellie has been there with him for all of that, she knows how low his confidence is when it comes to his perceived “goodness” and she knows just how much it would break him if he learned his direct bloodline IS capable of murder. She knows how he’d spiral if that was true and so she’s gripping to any small possibility his dad is innocent. But nick, oh poor Nick my heart- he’s done. He opens up to Ellie without literally any prodding. He’s baring his long buried soul to her, that troubled, broken childhood that he surely keeps locked away in fear of letting anyone see a weakness. He bares it without question because he feels so safe in her presence he can let her in to see his deepest shame and by extension his deepest worry 🥺🥺🥺 and poor Ellie, she’s a little lost at how to go about helping him because she does have a good relationship with her dad, so yes all she has here for him is saying his father was guilty of a crap dad but it’s because she’s still trying to convince them both he has to be good. He has to be good for Nick’s sake. Buuuuuuut it doesn’t really work does it, because oh shit pissed the fuck off Nick is a site to behold isn’t it 🥵 kicking down doors once again and his smart “still think he’s innocent” oooooooo damn. Ellie’s face says it all- she’s trying so hard to hold out hope for Miguel, so hard. She needs him to be innocent she’s willing to speak it into existence a thousand times but her face is like fuck this is going to kill him and I can’t do a damn thing about it other than just watch. 

More pissed off Nick 🥵 but when you think about it is so so painful, all I can picture is that little 5 year old boy who woke up the next morning waiting, waiting, and waiting. Staring out the window at each car that slows down but ultimately passes. Tugging on his Mami’s shirt asking for the hundredth time when papi is coming back from the bakery with his hojaldre, oblivious to the tears that are slowly sliding down her cheek because she still can’t find the words to tell him what she knows deep down. That little boy who when the sun starts to set the confusion sets in with it. Why hasn’t my papi come back yet? Where is he? He promised. The sadness and sense of rejection that starts to fill his little heart when his mami tucks him and his sister into bed and he asks one final time where papi is and will he say goodnight to them and his Mami has to say she’s not sure when he’s coming home and quietly to the side, “if he’s coming home.” The little boy who weeks later has finally abandoned watching out the window every, single morning. The little boy who had his heart ripped out and thrown to the side of the road when he realized his papi didn’t go to the bakery and instead he was thrown out by his father like a day-old hojaldre. So yeah pissed Nick is fine af but good god the angst underneath is suffocating. Because Nick in this moment doesn’t know the *true* reason Miguel left. He knows what he lived and what he lived is a piece of shit. Nick’s response to “is that what you think of me” is amicable because OOF he could’ve gone the fuck off right there and told him what he really thought of him but he stuck with only a slight dig. TO WHICH MIGUEL. FUCK YOU MIGUEL. IT HASN’T HURT YOU MUCH. FUCK YOU MIGUEL. FUCK YOU. SOUNDS LIKE YOU WERE A SHIT DAD SO YEAH PROBABLY A GOOD THING YOU LEFT. THANK HIM NICK WITH YOUR FISTS BECAUSE HE’S A LITTLE SHIT. FUCK YOU MIGUEL. TOUGHENED HIM UP SO MUCH HE SHUTS EVERYONE OUT. YEAH FUCK YOU. 

And then man here is the point where it all just muddies in Nick’s mind. The poor dude. He knows this line of work, hell he was undercover for almost a decade. He understands how that leaves almost no room for a family. He gets it, so deep deep deep down a tiny part of him realizes why Miguel likely *thought* it was ok to ditch his family. But for thirty years he’s felt abandoned- no reasoning can change that. 

“It’s good to know he was making a nice living while my family was starving” fucking GET HIM NICK. Damn I wish Miguel had been in the room for that. He deserved to hear that one. Ruthless. 

I do not know how I missed this the first time around but holy shit Nick asked to be removed from the case. Nicholas Torres- a man who does not back down. A man who bullied his way into finishing his first ever case with this team that he was arguably way too close to that one too. This is how much pain Miguel brings him. A man who does not quit, not in his vocabulary - was so pissed at getting sent home back when Reeves died, he asks to get sidelined. He actually asks to get sidelined. Holy shit Miguel did a number on Nick and I mean we knew this but 🥺😭😭 poor bby. No wonder you don’t trust yourself in a serious relationship. It’s not the girl you’re worried about it’s you. You don’t think you’re capable of staying, you’re terrified you’ll be just like your dad and leave. once again, you’ve seen the similarities with trivial things and so this just cements your fear of failing at commitment. And this is Nick in just so much pain he asks to step back. oof. I do love Leon stepping into a slight fatherly role for Nick right there though, he shows his support, his pride in Nick and in that moment I think Nick realizes while his father by blood is shit, he’s got several other strong role models in his life that care and that’s why he agrees to work with him. 

Nick’s smarts comment about leaving the note behind 🤣 oh classic Torres move. Also do yourself a favor and pause it on Ellie’s reaction to him. GOLD hahaha she’s like ooo-kay did you really feel the need to say that, let’s not. Honestly I think I’ve given this look to my husband almost daily. They married y’all. 

So married that she overhears Miguel trying to talk to Nick and her hackles raise!!! She’s like hold the fuck up do not traumatize my baby even more, Nick do you need me??? Because I will get you out of this, I will be here for you, I will fight this man, just say the damn word!!!! And Nick ugh, his look. They can communicate with just a simple look, he knows all that she would do for him in that moment and still nods her off, but that tiny bit of gratitude is present. Then we find out that yes Grace is really good at guessing theories “in order to keep his young family safe, it means he has to leave. Of course he can’t *tell* them why he has to leave so that they continue to stay innocent and safe. So he plays it like he’s a deadbeat dude who was “too young” to be a father and is just now realizing it and leaves his wife, little daughter & son behind. Flash forward thirty years and the NCIS case leads them to him. A piece of evidence pops up with his alias, they go knocking down doors to interrogate a potential suspect (Nick’s father) before our lovely CIA agent interfere and claims he’s innocent because he’s a CI…” like DAMN, I’m good. Hahaha any ways the reason I bring this up is because I feel like I predicted/analyzed Nick’s feelings really well back then in this theory and after seeing his expressions, they hold true. Nick is just absolutely warring with himself during this explanation, searching for anything to confirm his dad truly is a deadbeat (and yes he is still absolutely a piece of shit for what he did, but there’s a “good” reason for his leaving and that’s what makes it so- hard.) and as I said when I first broke this down, Nick understands undercover work and his dad (being the POS he is) brings that up to Nick. Like he should “get” it because wouldn’t he do the same thing since he’s in that life? But here’s where (and Nick doesn’t totally realize it yet) Nick and Miguel are different. Because Nick came back, Nick stayed. He stayed y’all and he says it here but he does not realize the implications of his words quite yet. He is NOT the same as Miguel. Yeah he doesn’t like to sit in chairs but he has stayed. He has stayed through some tough shit too but he’s stayed nonetheless. More than Miguel could ever fucking say, that’s for sure. So yes, when Nick has the come to Jesus and realizes that he is not the same as his dad and he can and will stay? Damn I can’t wait for that moment. Also I wanted to slap Miguel when he called Nick “mijo” because BITCH YOU DO NOT GET TO CALL HIM THAT. YOU DO NOT GET TO CALL HIM YOUR SON. NO. “I’m not perfect but I did the best I could” well fuck you too Miguel because look at this broken five year old boy inside a thirty five year old man’s body. Does that look like the product of a “best you could”?? Does he look “ok” to you??? Fuck you. 

But yes here’s my take on where Nick is at: how do you forgive someone you’ve despised for thirty years once you know they “didn’t have a choice” (even though it will always feel like they had a choice or they could’ve explained it to you even if you were only five) and left in reality token you safe and give you a better chance at life? How do you reconcile the real dad and the one you lived with in your head for so long?? How???

And then you’re stuck still reeling from the night before and the bomb that was dropped and the reconciliation you’re attempting to your dad bringing in the ONE THING. The ONE THING he promised to bring home in the morning thirty years prior. How the actual fuck does one come back from that. Can I give another big FUCK YOU to Miguel Torres? Because seriously??? Why do you ever think that’s ok??? Hey I promised my kid I’d bring him hojaldres in the morning for breakfast thirty years ago so may as well make good on that promise right, only thirty years late that’s totally fine right? He won’t tell the difference right?

Fuck you, Miguel. 

And they’re still clearly Nick’s favorite because he’s brought Jimmy to a restaurant specifically for them and that just makes my heart break for the man he had to become without a father. He still held onto that love for them even though they were probably always associated with a horrible, horrible memory of being abandoned 🥺🥺 god damn Nick you’re so broken I’m so sorry. 

Ellie is still as supportive as ever and good god we clearly have lost all pretense of personal space at this point, what is her we don’t know her isn’t this normal for coworkers? But this conversation implies he called her after his talk with his dad and ugh yesssss 😩❤️ I still think he called her immediately after leaving the building, talked the entire car ride home and while getting ready for bed, needing the comfort of her voice on the other end of the line as he worked through his whirlwind of emotions and tried to come down off the cliff he felt himself on. All pretenses of a bad boy with a mysterious flare forever gone, his heart is open for her to see and he doesn’t give two shits about it anymore. But Ellie does a damn good job of girlfriend duties here and not only supports him but also gently prods him to see if he can maybe one day have a relationship with his father. The parallels she brings up makes him think (and also makes him look at her lips twice 👀 he’s just so close to her how could he not I mean right 😅) and I love that she’s still being v supportive but also trying to help him grow. 

And then Ellie giving Nick the option to go with his dad or go to the other location because she’s not going to push anything on him he doesn’t want and then when he chooses the embassy to avoid his dad her reaction had me laughing 🤣 but she respects it. And yet shortly after Miguel tries to team up with Nick and Ellie hears it from the other side of the bullpen, immediately all ears to step in if he wants to avoid him again despite giving him flack for it earlier. Nick can sense her worry and support and this is the moment he takes her advice in just a tiny step and accepts teaming up with his dad. But OMG KILL ME WHEN NICK THINKS HIS DAD IS DEAD BEFORE HE GETS TO TRY AT A RELATIONSHIP AGAIN. HIS WHISPERED “papa’s” I CAAAAAN’T. 

Ugh and then his last conversation with his dad while Ellie is checking on him constantly. It’s just too much, that little boy is back, desperately hoping for his dad to stick around. And Ellie is just so happy she can’t contain it for him and it’s perfect. He walks right to her, her hand on his back because they just need to touch each other after such a heavy couple of days and Nick echoes her advice back at her because he’s showing he listens and he values her insight and I just love it. 

AND THEN MIGUEL HAS COME TO RIP MY HEART OUT BECAUSE HE’S A PIECE OF SHIT REMEMBER. 

My poor bby Nick’s face when he realized his dad LIES AND LEAVES. REMEMBER. HE LIES AND LEAVES. God Wilmer killed it because Nick is literally on the verge of tears and my heart breaks and then yes he goes to Gibbs to see his pseudo-father who he then realizes is more of a father figure than Miguel will ever be and hell that’s okay but STILL. 

I will end this WWR with a I love supportive girlfriend Ellie and another big Fuck You to Miguel Torres.

Goodnight.

[foxstens]

i wanna weep

[paperficwriter]

Sweeter Than Candy

So even though Inatodo was the winner of the poll, there might still be some treats tomorrow during the day for our other ships <3

This Valentine's Day, Inasa is not going to let his perfect boyfriend outshine him! He's going to make him so happy, he won't know what hit him! (Shouto has no idea this love rivalry is going on. He's too busy thinking Inasa is the perfect one)

Shouto outdid Inasa in every way.

Not even just on Valentine’s Day, but every day of the week! He took them to fancy dinners, city events, galas...all while footing the bill. And anytime Inasa tried to pay, Shouto pouted until he handed over the check.

‘It’s not faaaaaair!’ Inasa lamented to Eijirou over text. ‘I didn’t realize how loaded he is!!’

‘You say that like it would have made any difference.’

He sent a frowny face and looked up at the ceiling of the apartment they shared. It was a penthouse suite that Shouto bought after Inasa told him he always dreamed of being a hero and getting a place with a view. “I hope this will suffice,” Shouto said, as though he had some doubt that a 360-degree view of the city, mountains and sea beyond wouldn’t be good enough!

‘And he’s not even disappointed! But I am!!’

‘Well, what can you give him that is bigger than money?’

‘...Eijirou, we’ve been doing that for months.’

‘INASA.’

But the question stuck. Inasa thought about it over and over, from the beginning of February up until the thirteenth. He came close to reconciling that it would be another holiday with Shouto buying them a picture-perfect meal, chocolates imported from Ecuador, so-top-shelf-that-they-don’t-even-keep-it-on-the-shelf wine and then a mindblowing night to follow...but then, the idea found its place in his brain.

“Shouto,” he asked, urgently, as soon as his boyfriend got into the king-size, adjustable bed. “Ya haven’t made the reservations yet, have ya?”

He shook his head. “I keep tables on retainer at all our favorite spots, so no. I haven’t made reservations in a long time. Why?”

He’s so cool!! “I want to handle things after work tomorrow, okay? Jus’...lemme come get ya, and ya leave the rest to me, okay?”

Why he thought Shouto would disagree, he wasn’t sure. Instead, he gave Inasa a soft smile and leaned forward, kissing him sweetly. “Okay, Inasa.”

He was so excited, he could barely sleep.

The next day, Shouto came out of the agency office with his light jacket on, turtleneck and slacks. Inasa was wearing the sweater that Shouto bought for him and a pair of corduroy pants, and he held up a large takeout bag. “I brought dinner!”

“Oh?”

“It’s cold soba for you, and ramen for me!”

Inasa studied Shouto’s face for any sign of displeasure, ready to completely abort and abandon ship over this whole thing. But no. He walked forward and hugged Inasa’s middle, looking at the writing on the bag. “I love this spot. We haven’t gone in a long time. Did you get some of the dumplings too?”

“‘Course! And now, don’t worry ‘bout your car, ‘cause I brought this one!”

He opened one of his arms and turned dramatically, revealing an...admittedly beaten-up rental he was able to get at the last minute. “Are you sure you don’t mind driving?” Shouto had a driver, so he had gotten used to being chauffeured around the city.

Inasa shook his head enthusiastically. “Not at all!”

Admittedly, by the time Inasa drove them to the neighborhood he planned on taking him too, his ramen wasn’t as piping hot as he would have liked...but Shouto helped by feeding him dumplings at the stoplights. He quickly ate while they listened to an old classic rock station, and Shouto leaned his head on his bicep, waiting until he was done eating to get out of the car. “So...where are we going?”

“I made us a special appointment!”

Shouto tipped his head but followed Inasa as he walked into a building’s lobby, dark and empty. He stood in the way so Shouto couldn’t read any of the signage as he picked up a phone on the wall and spoke into it, until a young woman came and unlocked the sliding doors to let them in. “Hello, Yoarashi-san. We’re so happy you were able to make it! We don’t usually do this, but, when we heard what you had planned...it seemed so sweet.”

Inasa was all smiles. “Thanks for accomodatin’ us!”

Shouto followed as they walked down a hallway - the ‘back way,’ the woman said - and then brought them to a small room full of tiny compartments in two rows. Inasa watched as he got closer to the glass windows, looking into individual bundles of blankets and…

When the first kitten emerged, Inasa actually thought Shouto was about to cry. He fell to his knees and held out his hand as a paw reached out of the round hole cut into the glass so people could interact with the cats, and he suddenly turned his gaze up to both Inasa and the volunteer.

“I can...I can take one?” His voice trembled, and Inasa’s eyes watered.

“Of course! Some actually come in bonded pairs, so…”

“A pair…” Shouto got up and started walking around, clutching his hands in front of his chest. Inasa followed, now and then sniffing because Shouto seemed so happy…

Before long, a room was set up for them, and cat after cat was brought in to see if they would be a good fit. Every time, they came up to Shouto’s warm side, purring up a storm. The volunteer gave Inasa a whole variety of toys and treats he could give them, since his affection proved to be the biggest hardship they endured.

Luckily there were plenty of bandaids for when Inasa got too eager...

At the end of the night, after hours of playing with the cats, Shouto’s nice outfit and Inasa’s short hair covered in fur, they finally settled on a calico with an orange mark across one side of its face. It loved Shouto - how could anything not? - but even more importantly, it slid into Inasa’s coat and refused to leave.

“Pretty sure this one picked us,” he laughed, and Shouto agreed.

All the way home, despite rather vocal complaints from the carrier they had been given, Shouto kept one hand in Inasa’s, and the other hugging the boxed kitten close to his body. Inasa insisted on dropping him off before he parked the rental, and for a moment, Shouto sat and gazed at him through the dark of the car’s cab.

“I know it wasn’t a...fancy dinner,” Inasa said softly, looking down between them at Shouto’s hand, “but I hope it was--”

He didn’t get to finish the statement. Shouto leaned over and kissed him soundly, shaking his head as his nose rubbed his soft cheek. “It was everything,” he whispered. “I love you, Inasa.”

“I...I love you too...so much, Shouto.”

Finally, Shouto climbed out of the car, and as soon as Inasa parked it, he practically ran back inside so he could spend the night with his favorite person in the whole world, and their new favorite kitten.  

[citialiin]

Post   3  -  5   songs  that remind you of your muse. RULES: repost, don’t reblog.       tagged by: @pcrticlvcid​ [ !!! sob ]      tagging: @cardinalrot​ @fngyin​ @blossomingbeelzebug​​ @czhng​ @hailiing​ @dadadaemons​ [ for any muse ! ] and you, specifically, reading this, but you have to tag me so i can see

i’m deeply embarrassed of my hideous music taste so im hiding these under a readmore.

so this is weird cuz ... he is from a song. album i should say. but is it cheating to just say what about this whole ass album? maybe.

1. EVENING WEAR -- mindless self indulgence           “ just call me ‘ mr modest ’ i got it and i flaunt it you can applaud if you wanna [ weird noises that i cant decipher ] cock blockin’ non-stoppin’ WHEN THIS ASS IS A ROCKIN’ do not come a knockin’ [ garbled gibberish ] I GOT MYSELF A FUCKIN’ LIFE dressed up in evening weaaaaar I DRESS MYSELF IN FUCKIN’ LIES (guess wat) I DONT CAAAARE MAKE UP WON’T HELP ME OBLIGE TOO MUCH it’s not faaaaaair to be compared to YO-O-O-OU [ descent into incomprehension ] ” like u get it?? i dont know.  dressed in lies....alien pretending to be a human......uses make up to cover his alien forehead mark thingie ... whatever

2. JIMMY -- of montreal            “ tiiiime and time and time and time again you keep pushin’ that button but i dunno what you’re sayin. hit me on aim tryna flip me on some game. are you coming, are you going, are you leaving, are you staying?  you tell me that ur busy ... and ur loving makes me crazy ... i know that you hear me so start actin’ like you want meeeeee ” oh .... sad ......... bcuz i am so picky with ships but every ship i put zig into is an unrequited sort of thing ... the agony of that kardashian lifestyle

3. SWEET HEAD -- d*vid b*wie           “ i'm tough as glass and clean as night well if looks can love we can love all right IM UR RUBBER PEACOCK ANGELIC WHOREeeeeee so bob your sweet head brother ziggy gonna play i'm just about the best you can hear gunna rock it in your head SHAZAM AND KAPOW ... dramatiques thick and fast your faith in me can last ... i'm the kind of man she warned me of cuz TILL THERE WAS ROCK U ONLY HAD GOD ” deleted song from the album (along with velvet goldmine) a song abt oral sex + god complex + ziggy tlaking about shoes (?) and it was removed because it was too tasteless for even ziggy stardust. cheers lads.  i put it on here becuase you probably wouldnt know it unless you were Real Esoteric Bowie Stan. as a bonus, you can hear him talking in the beginning of the recording, and its ... Disgusting. briddish accent.

4.  TNGAI NEAS KYOM YAM SRA  -- ros sereysothea  [ this is a very vague translation ]          “ toooOOOooOOoooday i learned to drink wine because of SOMEONE, because of a love, a love that broke my heart. my heart still aches and i’m not even drunk at all ... the wine has no effect, im simply drunk on loveeeeeeeeee ” it just sounds perfect for him cuz upbeat tune + sad lyrics ... the idea of him suffering from substance abuse problems because hes just feeling detached from everyone ... f in the chat

5. CARTOONS & VODKA -- jinkx monsoon           “ baby I've been stompin' around in these heels for all the goddamn daaaaay i got aches and annoyance from living to earn my pay ... you know LIFE IS TWICE AS HARD when youre livin’ HALF ON THE STAAAAGE, and I barely have the energy to sing you this song so let's get some cartoons and vodka and do em ALLL NIGHT LOOOONG OOOWHHWHWHAAAOOHHHHH ” this song was from an album called “the ginger snapped.” like think about it ... is he not a ginger involved in the tedium of the showbiz lifestyle about to lose his fucking mind and snap ... plus this is a song from a nonbinary drag queen artist !! zigbert as Hell

[tinylavenderlesbian]

im gonna be 21 in less than a month and im still the height of a small 12 year old its not faaaaaair