#ITS A BIT LAGGY THOUGH

[bearyyayay]

FINISHED WITH THE POWERPOINT 🗣️🗣️🗣️

[random3-doom]

lobe this game

[angelfoodscake]

WERE GOING TO THE ANCIENT CITY TONIGHT FELLAS 💯🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🎉🎉🎉🔥🔥🔥🎉💯💯💯💯💯🔥

[dexaroth]

i cant believe the day but i finally got a full tower pc. bought it already built and at a considerable discount of some 320 dollars off. its fucking huge and theres so many things going on inside... i was initially planning on choosing the parts myself but finding the graphics card was so hard and everyone else convinced me to just buy it built and honestly? good. id probably have fucked this up so badly by myself

i cant use it yet bc i took too long to buy the monitor that was also on sale and now its regular price -_- tho i managed to find a discount used one for now. well see how that goes since ill get it tomorrow. i tested it on out living room tv and it had some kaspersky thingy open and like thats so cute. i hope they left some treats in the browsing history for me to search through before i wipe it clean

[lostiolite]

Saw you liked dangerous fellows and are accepting requests, I was wondering if you could write headcannons for all the characters? Maybe include how they act the first time you meet in comparison to how they are after getting close with them. What they're like with physical affection, holding hands, kissing cuddling etc. Whatever you can think of about a headcannon basically. You don't have to but I'd also love if you could include other characters like Judy, Sue, Jae and Scarlett! (If you think she's redeemable 💀) Thank you so much! <3

so i didnt due jay or hailely but anyways yeah! sorry for taking FOREVR

and its not proof read because i am not proof reading 3.0k words on a laggy laptop

LAWRENCE  

He's interesting, a knight in shinnng armor with some… things going on. I don't think he’d change much over the course of your relationship. He is down for anything because it's you. 

He's kind, calm, and very attentive. He notices things about you that you don't even realize. He always seems to pop in at the most convenient moments. This has to do with the fact that he's extremely over protective and territorial of you. He doesn’t let  it show early on though. 

After you get close and kind of stuck with him is when he shows his much more overbearing side. Hes like a sick guard dog that scares anyone away. Anyone who steals your attention, female or male, platonic. especially romantic he doesn’t like. He gets jealous, like crazy jealous. Hes insane, he holds your worth over his own family (cannon), but that doesn’t mean he isnt above hurting you. Thank god it wont ever come to that though. Both in cannon, because its too dangerous and the lack of profesionall medical tools could mean the msallest injury could be fatal. And in a no zombie au because, well the law. Korea is the land of cctv afterall, his ass would get caught. 

Overall, hes very helpful. Hes always down to listen to you. To him, your voice and love is a cure to even his darkest thoughts. Hes very genuine in his love with you too. He wont hesitate to compliment you or give you a little kiss here or there or everywhere. He loves holding hands, kissing and cuddling. He wants to be with you, be you and be your savior. He loves you genuinely with all his heart. He could be stuck an eternity with you and you alone and he would be happy for said eternity. To him, you made all the wrong in life right, and the once dull colors vibrant. He actually enjoys waking up now. He’s a very complex man. I dont think he cares about pda, or public appearances much when you’re inloved. He couldn’t give less of a fuck what everyone else thinks, (he does actually).  I dont think he has much self worth. Its hard to explain. Hes smart, pretty and (probrably) athletic, or physically capible. He knows he the guy girls and even guys swoon over, but he doesn’t really have a personality. His only sense of self worth comes from his academics and what others think of him. Hes begun to find life dull, even so he doesn’t know what else to do. Everyone is snakes so when he meets someone (you) whos genuine he latches on with every bit of his being. You gave him the ability to find his self worth as a human and outside of academics, which also means you hold alot of power against him, even if you dont know yourself. I think he really just needs to learn that you love him for him no matter what. Then his extreme tendencies will lessen abit. As for love language i think he exceeds in all of them, though he may lack in quality time for his busy schedule. Study with him, he would really enjoy it. Even if you aren’t talking, just cuddling or embracing as you do your studies is something really intimate that makes every part of him warm. He could genuielnty get lost in thought looking at you. Will do your hair, doesn’t matter what kind of hair you’ve got. He will research and learn how to take care of it. Again, to him intimate moments like freshly showering and in pj’s is something that makes him so happy he could die. He’s also fine with matching outfits. But I think he likes matching stationary and studying tools more. It makes him smile. Back on the topic of studying, he LOVEs when you ask him questions, it could be a simple “9x9 is 81 RIGHT???” and he’ll smile as he nods. I think once he learns some genuelen self love and respect, he will be awesome. Tbh, i dont think he’d raise his voice in arguments, I think he’d be somewhat condescending. “Oh dont you get it?” “this is for the better”. Lowkey i feel like he’d deflate imeediatley after out of fear that you’d leave. When you move in together i think the highlight of his day will be waking up next to you. Wakes up an extra hour early jsut to cuddle you.

As for children, i could see 2 paths. Genuine love after he learns self respect. Or the Aishi route where he only loves them for being the actual embondiment of the love between you and him. But i like the first idea more so- he does everything his parents couldn't. Tries his best to promote their studies while also giving them love. 

EUGENE

Standoffish, and tsundere. Hes very cautious of people. He has firm boundaries of who he considers friend or foe. That being said he becomes much more attentive and protective (different than Lawrence) to you. He wont let anyone defame you and acts like a worried mother, telling you to dress up for the cold and chastises you for forgetting sick. Kind of like a worried mother. Hes very blunt and sometimes comes off as rude but he genuinely doesn't mean to. 

As for physical affection i feel like hes playfully aggressive. Big fan of hand holding in public. I think he likes to hold your head close to him. Hes a big fan of arcade dates, especially the rhythm game ones. He loves playing crane games even if they are rugged. Will do the cliche thing of winning a gift for you at a carnival / fair but its the cutest thing ever. Forehead kisser 100%. Composes music for you, its a huge way of showing his love for you. Makes playlists and burns cd’s for you and to listen to together. Would love it of you were to return the act. If you play an instrument or sing he would 100% wanna duet. Omg imagine starting a band with him. You don't even have to make the music, you could literally be the artist or music video maker. WOuldn't that be so cute (i cant help but think of niigo) 

Much more understanding of fandom culture and things of the like, so yapping about your fav artists or even characters would be nice because he actually understands most of the internet lingo. Likes all your social media posts and makes stupid silly comments. All your moots/oomfies know who he is because wherever you are, he is aswell.

When hes comforting you, he will usually bash the other party for being the cause of your sadness. He usually insults them and their viewpoints while rubbing your hair. Hes really stubborn, so please be patient with him. Hes trying to get better, because he doesnt want to hurt the person he loves.

ETHAN

Unioricnly, a nice bonding time would be sleeping lolololo. Hes extremely standoffish at the beginning, like usual. But once you get his socials, he becomes much more understandable since hes able to communicate better online through sms. Even though hes a rather dry texter, you slowly learn to understand him more. I dont think he would go out of his way to participate in cheesy coupley stuff. BUt, if you asked him to then he would. I dont think his personality toward you would change much and most people woudnt be able to tell that you are dating but thats honestly for the better because hes generally a more private person. However, just because its not visible doesnt mean that he doesnt love you. WIll put his life on the line for you in a heart beat. And considering his physical strength he will not hesitate to put someone in their place if they tried something on you. 

Despite his muscular figure, hes very cuddly and cozy. I feel like hes a crazy sleeper who sleeps in the wackiest positions. But, he always manages to wrap his arms around you. I feel like he would kiss you on the nose or lips.  Please help him study for all the classes hes slept thoruhg. In return he will do something like “this is for you ___” while hes playing baseball or something. Wether or not he misses it still enamores the people viewing because its so weirdw watching ethan, the usually cool and quiet one proclaim his love for you. On that note his teammates find his subtle change in behaboir cute. Like the way he starts constantly checking his phone during practice to see if he got a text from you. Or the small smile that tugs on his lips informing them that he got a text from you.

I just know he would be horrible at comforting you. Probably just stands there confused. He puts his hand on your shoulder then hugs you because thats all he can do. He will text you later, when his thoughts are much more composed. These messages are  heartfelt because you can tell he put effort into it.

ZION

He teases you with malice at first, like he does with everybody. But once he gets a soft spot the teasing become more endearing and he becomes much more protective of you. If you don't like the teasing he will (try) to stop. Only he can tease you and will get one anyone for teasing you (if it makes you uncomfortable). I dont think hes the biggest fan of PDA, more just things like hand holding and thats it. The nail in the coffin for your relationship is when he becomes vulnurbale and opens up about his past. Hes a big and small spoon tbh. As much as he portrays himself as rash, he is ultimately a big teddy bear. He definitely gives big bear hugs. Definetly just a straight up mouth kisser. Oh yeah he would square up with anyone who tries anything on you. Not to mention hes really rich so he would blacklist them from the neverland parks. Spoils you rotten, makes a while fiasco out of any achievement and throws a big fat fucking party, or if your not a party person just buys something really expensive and makes a big deal out of it. Takes you shopping for clothes and anything you like (like… figurines). I don't think he would be opposed to the idea of ordering custom plushies/figures of the two of you. As for his rich family, they obviously wouldn't be fond of him dating a commoner but he can always marry someone for political gain and just spend his time with his actual partner.

HARRY

Self-depricating and too kind for his good. Hes extremely nice to you as he is everyone at the start so you dont really feel special. Hes the type to be straightforward and as you out. Hes very old fashioned, or tries to be considering his lack of money. Im going to be honest i dont think hes in the best mental state. He would jump off the roof if you asked him too. He feels like a burden to his mother just for existing and will take along time to open up to you. Hes also very manipulatable, due to his lack of selfworth. Hes much more willing to indulge in pda. Afterall why woulnt he showcase his love for you? Doesnt have mch money so his dates usually consist of cheap convenience store runs or hanging out at his work. As self-loathing as he is, would probrabbly be the best partner. He will very much communicate his feelings. Hes very patient with you despite all your flaws. He loves you from the earth and back and would do anything to make you happy. Please get him a violin (im pretty sure he sold it in cannon to pay for bills?). Will play you dozens of love songs and your favoirtes. Shows up with flowers and chocolates on valentines because thats how he is. The very supportive golden retriever boyfriend who will cheer you on no matter what. Hes your best friend and number one fan.

JUDY

Happy trooper! Shes super jolly and just like Harry overly nice to everyone so its hard to tell how much you mean to her specifically. I think she would also be straight forward about confessing but much more nervous and blushing. She starts jumping with joy when you accept. Huge pda fan, will give the biggest fattest fucking smooch to you whereever whenever. Loves cuddling, doesnt care about big or small spoon. Just holding you close is enough for her. Super smily and her demeanor can lift you up in a ,matter of seconds. After getting into a relationship, not much changes other than the blatant kissing. sHe is more real with you and will voice her doubts about things that scare her. shes really good at keeping herself grounded and helping others. Posts you for national bf/gf day and says endearing cheesy things. I cant help but feel like shes silly with text but also unirronicly uses smily faces like an old grandma. 

SUE

Shes similar to lawrence, but like not batshit crazy. She also isnt as playful, espcially when you first meet her. Her treatment towards you will be either one, you dont really care about your studies and act stupid and she kind of just shoves you aside or you are her study buddy or someone she deems respectable. Shes also kind of like a nagging mother but not too a harsh degree. She always takes note of your state and brings you snacks/gifts because they reminded her of you even if she doesnt realize it. She kind of quiet and introverted but i dont really think she minds pda. She doesnt see why she should chare about what others think about her relationship afterall. Though, i dont think she goes out of her way to kiss you in public, she saves it for more intimate or important times. 

If i can recall correctly she was part of student council so trust she will be using that to her advantage if anyone tries to bother you. I think spending time with her is fun especially because she probably helps with school events so you two always have something fun to do. Afterall whats better than helping out at a fair and also getting to go on a date at the same time. Dating Sue has a ton of perks because (especailly if you were already a goodie-two shoes thats liked by teachers) teachers will be way more lenient of you. Practically letting you guys do things that the other kids cant do. Shes definitely big spoon and is surprising really cozy. I think fur coats would look nice on her so hugging her in the winter is definitely a plus. 

SCARLETT

Shes a hard one to get along with. Her abrasive attitude doesnt really change much and its really hard for you to tell when she starts to like you because again, her attitude doesnt change. Its smaller things like her worrying about you under the gaze of simply being curious. If your oblivious or just dont catch on to her, it will just eventually get to a point where she aporaches you, asks you out and demands an answer. Definitely a big pda person, and flaunts you around like “heh! Yea this is MY partner. Goes or drags you on shopping dates. Not only does she dress up but she dresses you up and she has a really great eye for fashion. Its very clear that shes the “bratty princess” characatchure.

Anyways i think she would have a fun time setting up a home date for the two of you, like doing your nails as you two listen to a tv drama channel or just gossip. Very iconic couple and gf 10/10. I think she would switch between big and little spoon, she doesnt have a solid preference, its more of a spur of the moment feeling for her. Kisses you with lipstick and takes photos.

[bonefall]

Hi Bones!! Thank you for you hard work on this project and for sharing it with us!

I've seen your posts about weird representation of society (regarding the "natural order of things") in xenofiction, especially in lion king, so I wanted to ask:

could you recommend any xenofiction media that has all (or most of the) animal species sapient? Or is the only solution to make just one or two species sapient while the others (especially prey) are plain animals?

Really sorry if you've seen this ask from me before - my account had a weird laggy period when I couldn't send or receive messages and asks, so I don't know if you got the previous one! I just know that now it's fixed so I double all the asks sent haha

Honestly I'm not totally sure! If any 3rd person has some good recommendations for "every being is alive" xenofiction types, feel free to weigh in.

If you want to jump in with me though, I am following the webcomic Africa. It updates every Wednesday. Africa is about a mother Leopard on the verge of a great ecological disaster, the relationship between her children and the animals around her, and the strength of both instinct and choice as the characters face an uncertain future.

Since it's ongoing, I still don't know how it's going to end and can't judge it as a full work! But it's absolutely fascinating and I think the author is doing a fantastic job so far. Bonus points for the way it portrays humans, btw.

No more spoilers though, if you're interested, it's on Webtoons.

(I'm also planning to read Oren's Forge soon. Ask me about it again in a few months over on Bonebabbles and I'll give you my thoughts)

As an aside though, funny you mention it because like... ever since I was a kid I've had a story I want to tell with the premise. It's a scintilla I've kept close to me for well over a decade but haven't done anything official with. So this is actually a theme I've thought about a lot.

It's rare to see it done well though because like... its very premise butts heads with reality. The "natural order" that an animal follows is not something it moralizes. A tiger doesn't have the capacity to think about how fucked up it is to kill to stay alive, the deer doesn't know that if its population isn't controlled it will destroy the forest.

They're animals. They don't HAVE that agency. Your dog does not care about being sterilized. A snake doesn't differentiate between a pinky and an adult mouse except in terms of if it will fit in its mouth. But the minute you put human morality in there... they have the ability to reason, create and agree on the rules of a society, make choices about MORALITY.

If nothing is going to change about their world, you just end up putting human arguments about "natural order" in their mouths and, well... start telling a parable justifying this "natural order."

(Genuine) Does what I'm saying make sense? Animals DON'T rationalize or negotiate. HUMANS do.

So the minute you're approaching a world with that logic, like it or not, you are invoking those "arguments from nature." And you're putting them in a being that is not fully an animal or a human, but an anthropomorphic mix which CAN rationalize but WON'T make an effort to change their world.

(Which is why tbh the best examples i know of are works with a theme of "change.")

OH WAIT I also remember another that's interesting!! Leafy: Hen into the Wild actually has a fascinating take on it. It's not interested in "moralizing" or really being about an animal society. It's a very emotional sort of movie, and it's about joys in adversity, the freedom that choice gives you, how bad things are going to happen and you can never completely prevent them.

INTENSE movie emotionally, the ending will wreck you (especially in the English translation which leaves out a really important theme making it feel abrupt x_x) but it's really good. Check that one out.

OH and also You Are Umasou. That one has more pitfalls imo (it does try to moralize a bit) but it's super unique as a movie. And is about dinosaurs.

[coolguyontheblock]

Whiteboard stuff!! Thank you to Lari for making it!!

I'm still drawing on it occasionally but its a bit laggy haha, really goes to show how many people are having fun drawing together though

[scootatwoni]

Ok I've played quite a bit of the mysims cozy bundle and here are my thoughts:

- overall? Very good! If you played mysims or kingdom back in the day I totally recommend grabbing this!

- Mysims *is* also available on PC and the controls are much better but the cozy bundle price is a pretty good bargain

- the load times for Mysims have been improved 🙌 takes less than a second to load into a new area (load times were also fixed in the PC version)

Issues I've noticed so far:

- controls (particularly for kingdom) are a bit wonky. They did the best they could considering they translated motion controls to the switch. It'll take some getting used to.

- prospecting in mysims is laggy for some reason? And noise and visual cues do not keep up with your movement. Works smoothly in kingdom though!

- fishing controls in mysims is also very odd lol. They're perfectly fine in kingdom

- actually. Normal Mysims jank in general. Kingdom runs a lot smoother but Mysims retained some of the rough edges from its initial release on the Wii. It's annoying but easy to work around.

- certain parts of the opening cutscenes have a notable lack of quality. They look super crunchy for some reason. Everything else in the game looks fine.

Other:

- I've heard there's new customization content in the bundle. Not sure how much though! Still in the early game but I've noted one new hairstyle and one or two new outfits.

- not sure about new essences or sims. I know they added some to the mysims PC port so I'm crossing my fingers they're in the bundle as well!

- I hope they release another bundle with agents 🤞

- can the sims players leave the mysims tag to mysims players now

[fictionfixations]

playing this game for the first time

IM GOING TO THROW IT CRASHED ON ME WHILE I WAS MAKING A PROFILE i KNEW I SHOULDVE SAVED 😭(I STARED AT THE SAVE BUTTON LIKE 'should i save just in case? nahh i dont need to save until im done' and then it kicked me out)

i dont think of myself as a person good at designing stuff

but i was really liking what i made it looked so pretty hjfiouweshjdWQIUAsk

it doesnt even mean that much to me im just gonna feel really depressed for awhile cause like wtf man 😭

this is the farthest i got last time i kind of hate it. the quality of stuff i do always degrades the more i repeat it so hhhhhhhhhhh it feels really nitpicky but something about the images behind the classroom just dont look right

it keeps saying connection error when trying to save

im pointing a fan directly at it cause my phone is a fucking heater hoping it fixes 😭

im gonna close and reopen the game this sucks (not the game im just getting tired of all the live2d games i play being laggy as fuck or having connection issues, its not just this game that hates me 💀) idk if the twitter button works i havent pressed it cause i tend to lag so much more the moment i click out of a game and then re-enter without closing it and re-opening

tbh i dont know anything about this. i think theres a good story (kinda depressing(???)) but i havent heard much about it

one of the first things i saw about this game tbh was the customizing a profile and i got my mind blown cause it looked so pretty i kept getting pjsk in my recommended and idk something about tatsu...???? forgor rest of name. blonde guy. where apparently in the movie he switched to a pirate outfit???? im. so confused

i feel like im being sabotaged cause im trying to play a song and then it lags and i miss and im dfaiuhdwushdajw

WHY do you do this to me 😭

i need a fan because when it overheats its literally unplayable (its not even that its hot its that it starts lagging like hell) so im just having cold air blasted into my eyes which is kinda distracting :'D

its fun though i like like the interface?? its really smooth its a little confusing with note placement but im. getting used to it

im sad i have to actually play with a fan because i really like rhythm games i wanna get into it but it keeps lagging

why do all the good games (that i wanna play) have to be on mobile and prone to crashing/lagging 😭

tbh im getting into it now that im used to it crashing its like. tears of themis. which also crashes often and lags me. which sucks cause i really enjoy the story. but then id be going through this important bit and almost finish it and then it crashes and then keeps crashing while im speeding through it trying to complete it 💀 (cough cough the trial bits suck because i keep having to re-present evidence and im just like do i look like i remember what the answer is LET ME THROUGH)

its kinda because of that that i cant play it in super long bursts though so im just gonna be here procrastinating from it for months because i dont feel like continuing to crash trying to do shit. play again. crash. stop playing.

sigh. sometimes i hate that i get more invested in stories in games by actually playing the game. because sometimes my devices dont want me to play and makes me lag like hell sadge

anyway my favorites rn are nightcord at 25:00(?) w/ the miku from that ver theres another like band rhythm game i play except the 3d models make me lag so much more. this game is much more manageable. ..like osmetimes it lags so much i literally lose all my life but like. at least i can play ?????

anyway uh ill try to play more. like. i play a lot of games but ive been neglecting the story so ive been trying to speed through them (while actually reading but like bingeing through as much story as i can before it stops me or i give up)

okay i think i can play songs now without lagging except teh moment i think about how its not lagging it starts lagging 💀 (another time is when i started singing along it started lagging. i just have bad timing man.)

i can.. kind of play expert songs. (except when i cant) except its.really overwhelming and i stop being able to read the map to where i just default to see note = tap so its ilke im kinda spamming in a sense??? and praying it works out also my brain sometimes stutters so i fuck up. this prob isnt like anything revolutionary but with flick notes if therse one flick note and at the same time a note thats not a flick note and i get confused i just act as if both are flick notes cause its not like you get penalized for flicking a non-flick note

the 3d music videos are cute

i only got a new outfit for.. person me no remember name of purple haired girl

i think you can set it to have characters who are actually singing the song but i like staring at the characters i have cause i put my favorites on the team + like my only 4 star rn?? also like kaito is there i think (im bad at names but hes one of the vocaloids is he not) because i wanted to go with like the dark sorta empty vibe

but so its so weird when a model is singing but its so clearly not the right voice lmfao

i feel like itd be fun to learn the choreography especially for like cosplay stuff??

id like the music videos more if i could play the songs while watching them without lagging really badly 😭

NOO PLEASEE DONT LAG DURING THE VIRTUAL SHOW 🙏

i crashed 😭

song: plays few notes immediately crashes

hhh i know the song but i cant remember the name

tfw your glowsticks feel like a windscreen wiper

also i just realized your view moves if you move your phone. thats cool but i cant do that because my battery drains stupidly fast if its not being charged all the time i am not joking

i dont really have an attachment to these characters yet so i cant understand how it might feel to someone really invested but this is cool 👍

oh it ended

i missed the first song unfortunately :(

i think theres another one happening in like. ..30 minutes? an hour?? shrug. idk if its the same one or something else

i know this post kinda makes it seem like im having a bad time but im having a fun time its just that when something bad happens i have more to say

anyway i like this a lot more than the other band rhythm game i play. like i mean i had a lot over there and there are some songs i really like that arent on here but i.. also wasnt reading the story for that game either i was literally just playing it because rhythm game thats it 😭 i only went through the story to skip through it cause it gave me like the stuff to pull for the gacha so um

im gonna try to pay attention this time 👍👍👍

also auto is a blessing i will never not praise auto in a game (except when it plays bad but tbh if it works then it doesnt matter. not a shade towards this game but towards hsr cause sometimes it ults on a single enemy with low health that could be killed with just basic atk. and then next wave and that ult wouldve been so useful 😭)

off topic but idk why but 3d music videos dont lag when its playing the song on auto. except when i take a screenshot wtf

or maybe its just that it lags when the phone starts heating up. which tracks. wish i could play this on pc. wonder how itd work if it did cause buttons you press are what??? (honestly i can only play 4 note songs on pc anything else my mind blanks) but it still wouldve been cool and deffo less laggy

[unluckyxse7en]

So I've been sitting on this thought for a bit but. I want to make an informal propaganda post for Gaiaonline! It's a site that's got its pros and its cons, but I feel like it'd really appeal to some of the tumblr crowd, and also I just like to gush about things I like and Gaia is one of those things

So: What is Gaiaonline?

Gaiaonline is essentially a social/avi dressup site, with a lot of love poured into the site's setting! The big draw of course is having an avatar to personalize and plenty of items to dress them up in, but there's other features as well:

Such as numerous minigames (more on one of those later), and even manga featuring backstory and escapades of the site's npcs (don't let the cool panel crops fool you though - a lot of it is silly gag bits lol)

There's also a few options for socializing, as well - you can of course dm people, but there's also forums, profile comments, and statuses. The forum even has semi-recently gained the option for night mode! The site also has their own selection of emojis, some standard and some... not so much xD

Speaking of profile - you can have a decently customizable profile! Gaia provides options in-site, but if none of those are your cup of tea then you can use an external url (or photobucket, but they both watermark nowadays and also are switching to pay-only accounts so I don't recommend that option) - you can add images on the profile, and a background, and have multiple text boxes that can be customized for various uses! Gaia also has aquariums that can display on your profile, but I don't use those anymore so I can't say much on them.

So your avi isn't the only thing you can stylize! Speaking of which... How about those avis?

You can get a wide array of items, and with the right inventory the world is your oyster! There's even a slew of franchise/fandom-inspired items, either from old promotions or just designs made as homages!

(Example Adventure Time-inspired item on the marketplace - Many users sell their items there, so it's wise to check in from time to time!)

Gaia also historically turns to its userbase for item inspiration, and sells the winning designs from the contests it hosts in the shops, so you could show off your own design tastes if you feel like they're lacking your dream item.

^ Example store - complete with a storefront where you can see other user's avatars out front if they're shopping there! The screencap of Moira the NPC is from the middle of the Halloween event they host yearly, hence her dialogue box and Harley Quinn Cosplay.

Don't have money? Not to worry! Gaia offers "Daily Chance" items and money, sometimes including random chance mini-events that can give you some sweet loot AND a fun time.

Still, maybe you want something more... Interactive? Not to worry!!

Allow me to introduce.... zOMG! A flash game - yes you heard that right, FLASH game - where you can run around and kill things, take on quests from npcs, and earn more gold, make friends and more! As stated, it's a flash game, so they had to come up with some workarounds - but they offer suggestions on-site that work with some success in my experience! The drawback is it can be a bit laggy, but sometimes it's just fun having an excuse to see your avatar run around and shoot things. Or slash things. or fling flaming meteors at things. You know how it is.

All in all, it's a very silly site, but one that I find holds a lot of charm and a place in my heart even now. I can't recommend it enough, and hope this appeals to someone reading. :)

P.S. : CONS OF GAIA

This post is already too long so I put cons (and some general disclaimers) under the cut, feel free to read at your discretion:

So as much as I like to gush, there are some notable cons to Gaia, which feel noteworthy to share. I only spend my time in the areas of the site covered above, so apologies if there's anything I fail to mention:

The economy. Good Lord, the Economy. It got so bad Gaia literally had to change from Gaia gold to Gaia platinum because the inflation got so bad - and then they never properly addressed the setup that led to this in the first place. If you buy from the Gcash stores or from the regular storefronts, it's nbd - but the marketplace with its auctions and its user-established prices can get downright brutal. Gaia has also taken recently to flooding the daily chance items with high-quality items from days past - which may not be the worst (especially not for new users) but I do strongly suspect it isn't helping the economy front much.

GCash - Personally I find this a drawback, but a lot of Gaia's push, especially of late, is GCash. This makes sense - there aren't a lot of users left atm, so no point in hosting events, but it does get a little old removing announcements for items only available for real money sometimes. This is something I hope would see a change though, if enough people decide to join.

Filters - there are unfortunately some curses and the like banned to keep the site 'friendly' to younger ages which. Sometimes backfires on their own announcements or npc dialogue. You can type and send the word, iirc, but it will get automatically filtered accordingly. That said, avatar items can get exceedingly raunchy, or have curse words in their displays even, so the bar is.... Nebulous, here.

Flash Player - Gaia has been around for a long time, since 2003. A lot of functions are defunct or buggy, or in the case of zOMG! as mentioned above, require an outside party tool to help it run smoothly. They do what they can do address it but it has impacted things and probably will continue to do so.

Social media - I would say this site doesn't quite qualify as such, as the ability to share media is middling at best. You can post writing, or art, using the forums or the journal function, but it's far from ideal. Other aspects, like profile comments, can be clunky for communication purposes, so while Gaia has some decent options, it's not up to speed with the big giants in social sites nowadays.

Mobile app? - there IS an app for phones. But at the moment, it's only for dressing up your avatar - none of the other functions are available. If you use this site for avi dressup, this is no big deal, but it could be better.

There's other cons, but these feel like the big ones to mention.

Lastly, unrelated but disclaimer: Most of these pictures are my own screenshots, avis, etc, with some minor exceptions - I tried to stick to my own content and accounts (yes I have Several accounts) for showcasing here, when not using official resources. If anyone recognizes themselves or a friend in here and wants it removed/changed/blacked out/etc just give me a shout.

Also, shoutout to @shyyren who features in a few of the screenshots, edited the economy meme, and is my current gaia buddy who encouraged me to make this post lmao

[unexpectedbrickattack]

You know, a bonus to designing the oc is that other people will drawn them in the scenarios you share! I know your lore really made me excited to see your little fella ^^) it's so nice to encounter someone eho likes SDV in the wild and your world building makes me want to boot up my computer and deal with the lag to see everyone again. I do have to wonder though, what's your take on how the valley feels about JojaMart? It seems like it replaces extensions on the Vally's magic if you fund it.

TRUE…U ARE SO RIGHT!!! Luckily I have a small little ref sheet for him already made heehee. But ill post it on my sdv blog (when i make it). I can put it here too but ill do that under a readmore 😌

Also. U are so sweet 😭 I am so sorry ur game is too laggy to play but i am touched that my little bit of lore is enough for u to want to brave through that mess anyway LMAO

FIRST OF ALL….here is my boy….

His name is June and ive since tweaked some stuff about him. You dont need to know much about him, just that hes a bit of a cryptid among the town for almost two years before townspeople start interacting w him on their own volition. His best friends are Marnie, Kent, and Caroline, and he is really cool w Willy, Linus, and Marlon (old men gang rise up). Also romances Shane which is funny to Me bc whenever shane gets a male farmer to romance i am constantly rotating this image of vincent getting upset and saying ‘gee jas how come YOU get two cool godfathers’

To answer ur question about Jojamart; i feel like it truly wouldnt mess with the balance of magic in the valley. Magic is powerful BUT. It is adaptive. The Junimos harness the magic of the valley to fix things in the broken down community center, but if someone else came along and fixed it for them, well thats one less thing the magic of the valley is used for. Theres plenty of talented people in the valley that dont need magic to get things done 😉 (Robin my beloved)

But i do think jojamart is a big indicator that something is amiss with the town. I think it is a common idea to believe that jojamart is like. Evil. And like. Its totally a soulless corporation, but i think its filling a very specific Need of this town. Pelican town has some very skilled laborers that sell their work and services to help provide not just for themselves, but FOR pelican town; if that still leaves people unable to pay rent/mortgage or groceries, then people will absolutely swoop in and offer ‘solutions’.

I have more Thots but basically……magic is powerful, but it cant do anything on its own. Its utilized by magical beings to make tangible change in the world. But humans are capable of making real and tangible change without the use of magic. Jojamart says ‘here, give me money and time and ill fix this stuff 😉’ and that is not anymore different than Robin, Clint, the junimos, etc saying ‘give me some money and time and i can do this thing for u 😉’. Jojamart is like. Bad. But bad in the same way Pierre owning the only grocery store in town wo employing anyone is bad, and how Lewis is okay with all of this Mess. Its indicative of a bigger problem in the valley that magic cant really fix

[allw3doisadvert1se]

Do You Hear the Rapture?

Everest, Amanda, Swatch, and Spamton walked in silence down a street of the SIMULACRUM so warped by glitches and errors that practically nothing looked in place there. Rolling fields intersected by skyscrapers that gave way to dying flowers the size of city blocks decorated the horizon, where a hateful red sun slowly rose, bathing the group in harsh light. As they made their way around jutting slabs of concrete that rose tens of feet into the air, Everest couldn’t help but think they were heading in the right and yet somehow wrong direction simultaneously. Were these fractals made of the architecture a sign that they were getting close to the center of this cancerous blight, or did it signify that they had roamed far beyond its borders? Perhaps such questions would be a waste of thought right now. She needed time, time to think clearly, to consider what will happen when this all ends, to reflect on her time trapped here, and perhaps most pressing of all … what to do with Swatch.

Though the tall butler was being carried in the mostly trustworthy arms of Spamton in his NEO suit, his condition had worsened significantly, the collapsing wound on his side now causing his whole body to shift and pulsate every few seconds. Everest hadn’t known Swatch all too well before she had been brought here, but after the many, many cycles she had spent down here, she had grown to see why Queen had trusted him so dearly when he was alive. It didn’t seem fair to her that after so much preparation on his part to take back the city he cared for from the hands of The Founder he might not get the chance to even see it freed …

No. She couldn’t be thinking like that. Swatch was gonna make it. He had to. They just needed to find the Nail, and this whole nightmare would be over … at least until the inevitable next one if their track record was to be accounted for. But Everest didn’t even know what she was looking for. Xanrir hadn’t specified to Hazel what this thing actually was, and thus her instructions were equally vague. All she and the rest of the group were really hoping for was the possibility of …

stumbling into it …

As if on cue with her thoughts, the group rounded a corner and suddenly standing before them was a massive obelisk constructed of black stone that, unlike the rough and jagged features of the rest of the SIMULACRUM, was unnaturally smooth. Near the peak, Everest could spot a suspended balcony that seemed to spiral up along the outside to the summit. She turned to Spamton.

“Could you fly while carrying one of us?”

“OF [[h o r s e]] 1 CAAN. yOU HEARD H3R, [[Free-Range Poultry]], WE’R E GOING UP!!1!!”

Swatch shifted uncomfortably in the puppet’s arms. “Just don’t you dare drop me …”

“HMMmMMM[[M&M]]MM … I’LL [[Consider the following …]]!”

Without another word, Spamton spread his massive wings and in a very janky fashion lifted Swatch up, up, and up towards the balcony far above. At a certain point, Everest couldn’t make out the details, only seeing the neon metal plates of the NEO suit against the blood red sky. Amanda nervously patted Rodney in her arms, the tiny Tasque letting out a slightly laggy purr in response, before looking to Everest.

“Do you think that was his attempt at a joke?”

“Perhaps. He’s been trying a lot of things recently. Getting on my laptop and posting something, for one.”

Amanda giggled. “Hehe. By the blade, you were so mad at him.”

“Can you blame me? I’m surprised the damn thing didn’t get malware installed just from him touching it.”

“Random question, but are you gonna let him keep the NEO suit when we get back to our world?”

“Hhhhh … Probably not. In here it helps to have a bit of a powerhouse. But … back in the city? I don’t know, that feels more like it behooves us.”

“But has he not earned it? How many times has he saved our lives just from having that thing on?”

Everest bit the inside of her cheek in contemplation before sighing. “… Amanda, do we really need to talk about this right now?”

“I mean … not really. W-We should stay focused, I’m sorry.”

There was awkward silence between the two until Spamton returned, having dropped Swatch off on the balcony. Amanda got flown up next, much to the dismay of Rodney, who Everest could hear yowling from the ground level. Finally, it was her turn. Getting carried up that high into the air with such inconsistent movements was rather terrifying, but the puppet’s confident look towards the skies helped keep her morale high enough. When her feet impacted the ground of the balcony, she let out a sigh of relief. Spamton landed soon afterward, scooping Swatch off the ground from the wall he had leaned him up against. Swatch let out an uncomfortable squawk as he pulsed with the beat of the collapsing wound more, more unstable this time.

Everest looked onward to the stairs leading up and around, and after just a bit more walking, they finally reached the epicenter from which this virulent realm spread. In the center of the roof was a raised dias which held a small effigy formed of flesh and metal alike. Its surface shifted with the same screaming faces that could be seen on A.B.Y.S.S’s body, implying a connection between the two. Everest knew now without a shadow of a doubt that this is what they had been looking for. This was the Nail …

Without another moment’s hesitation, she sprinted for the dias, her footsteps tapping along the surface of the roof in echoes as the group followed a second afterward. She was so close, within 50 feet of it, she could get out of here at last and live the life she was supposed to, before A.B.Y.S.S, before The Founder, before the Queen ever even died … she could finally live for herself.

But of course, it couldn’t be quite so easy. With the sound of static feedback, the profane god of the SIMULACRUM appeared right in front of Everest, its clawed hand outstretched. She couldn’t stop her momentum fast enough before A.B.Y.S.S wrapped its hand around her throat and threw her backwards, causing her to yell in pain as she hit the ground. Amanda ran up to her, placing Rodney on the ground before gently helping Everest to her feet. Spamton had his arm cannon raised and pointed at A.B.Y.S.S, arcane energy glowing at the barrel, and Swatch … Swatch was quietly murmuring something, inaudible to even the puppet that held him.

The bleeding machine’s twisted smile grew wider, the flesh merged to its head tearing just a bit more as he did so. With a moment of pause, it began to speak. “Well done, participants! It seems that your little search has gotten you right where you aimed to be. You’ve reached the catalyst of my control over your precious little world.” A.B.Y.S.S chuckled darkly, the leathery wings on his back folding close to himself. “I would say you’ve sacrificed much to get here, but we both know that isn’t true.”

Everest spoke out in a voice that shook with simultaneously anger and fear. “We left Marcus to die! Is that not enough for you!? Must you take any more?!?”

“Come now. I’m not a fool. I am this world’s eyes and ears after all, I heard your little conversation with Amanda that leaving him to be deleted was for the better.” One of the extra arms that curled over its shoulder pointed at Amanda, causing her to have to gulp down her fear. “He is not of concern for you, and thus his unwilling sacrifice is not enough. But … I will offer you a plead bargain.”

A.B.Y.S.S snapped its fingers as it lifted Swatch and Amanda up with some form of telekinesis. Amanda yelped in panic as the entity pulled her close before stabbing one of its claws into her shoulder, immediately infecting her with a collapsing wound, now just as bad as Swatch’s. As Amanda fell silent, Everest let out a furious shout of rage. “NO! DON’T YOU TOUCH HER!! GIVE THEM BACK!”

A.B.Y.S.S turned to her and laughed raising both in the air higher. “Everest K. Addison … it is time for you to make a choice. Who lives … and who dies? This is the price you must pay for meddling behind my back, turning my own sibling against me, and sending me back to square one.”

Spamton fired a beam of energy at A.B.Y.S.S, which the entity took to the face to little effect. The puppet shouted, “HE-H-HEY!! [[Hands off the merchandise!]]! GIVe SW4<TCH [[Backspace]]!!!”

“It is not your choice to make, puppet. And unless you want to be going home two friends short, I suggest you do not attempt to harm me again.” A.B.Y.S.S was clearly reveling in the choice paralysis he had inflicted upon Everest, especially now with Spamton staring at her, trying to persuade her to save Swatch.

Everest opened her mouth to say something, when she noticed something … very subtle. Swatch’s eyes, though he was hanging mostly limp in the air, were flashing with light. Blinking on and off. On and off. She had a brief recall to when she had written a message in Morse code all that time ago, and suddenly the blinking made sense to her. Swatch was transmitting a short message, two words long:

SAVE

HER

Everest looked down, sorrow welling up in her chest as she took a deep, shaky breath. “I choose … Amanda … to be saved.” As soon as the words left her mouth, she fell to her knees, tears forming in her eyes. Spamton stood still for several moments, glitching, his glasses crackling with static. His emotions were not very clear, but whatever A.B.Y.S.S sensed in there … it was enough.

The entity cackled, lowering Amanda to the ground slowly before centering Swatch above itself. “As you wish. Swatch will never see his world free again.” A beam of piercing red light struck down over A.B.Y.S.S and Swatch, causing the collapsing wound on Swatch to instantly flare up. The corvid butler let out a pained scream as the wound ruptured.

Layer by layer, Swatch was slowly dissolved into nothing, a pile of scrap and organic material no longer recognizable as himself. It started with his feathers, and almost plastic skin, revealing a deep layer of lead-lined metallic plating, supposedly a measure he used to avoid detection by the CIFT throughout the years he was in hiding. Below that lay a complex layout of pipes, gears and wiring that flailed as the connections between them were snapped over and over. When it hit the last few organs Swatch still had that were organic, it left little but a sickly puddle of blood and bile.

Throughout the whole process, Everest could not bear to look at Swatch through his screams and death rattles. Spamton, however just stared onwards, absorbing every detail. But … finally, after wretchedly too long, it was over, and A.B.Y.S.S gave a mocking little bow before fading from sight.

Everest crawled over to Amanda, lifting her up and supporting her. The entity had kept its promise, to her luck, as the newly opened wound began to shrivel back into healthy flesh on the Lightner’s body. Amanda let out a few shaky breaths, seemingly not having been fully conscious for Swatch’s execution. Everest breathed quietly, “We’re getting out of here. Now.”

She let go of Amanda, seeing as she could steady herself now, and sprinted the remaining distance to the dias that held the Nail, this twisted little effigy. Everest grabbed it off the pedestal before throwing it onto the ground and stomping it as hard as she possible could. With a twist of her foot, the effigy let out a satisfying crunch and was destroyed.

Over the course of the next few moments, a blinding white light would flash in the far distance, slowly spreading to where the tower the group was standing on was. Before the light could consume them, Everest, Amanda and Rodney, and Spamton all disappeared. They awoke to find themselves trapped in three different pods of flesh, the pestilent black tumors A.B.Y.S.S had used to integrate them in the first place, now shriveling up. They ripped the weakened flesh away from themselves and crawled out, Amanda and Everest coughing as they crawled away. Spamton simply rose from his pod, gazed around for a moment, and then immediately flew off to somewhere in the city.

The dark fountain that gave life to the CIFT home world was no longer shining red, its corruption purged at last. Perhaps … things could start to recover now, if given the right care.

… But there was one who now was stuck wandering in the dark.

Marcus Baal trudged through the endless shadows of the Greater Void, his binary code for a body flickering unstably. It seemed that with the deletion of the SIMULACRUM, Marcus too got deleted with it. It was clear to the entities that surrounded him on all sides that he would not make it to the Market in time to be saved. But … what he would become interested all of them deeply.

[[System Reboot Successful]]

[[Running Diagnostic Scan for Reparation Protocols]]

[[Thank You, and Have a Regular Day!]]

[bytedykes]

20 and 26 for the ask game (also big fan of the malachite theme idk if it's new but it's really nice)

tyy it is new!! i did it um 2 nights ago i think? maybe last night? not sure djaksdk

20. What is the easiest thing for you to draw?

ough idk i think maybe faces?? theyre usually what i go to when i want to mindlessly doodle... if we're talking about like, detailed or completed art though then 100% paper... i've been painting paper stuff a LOT this semester (for art class lol - hoping to post some of it soon when ive built up my portfolio a bit more) and its definitely gotten a lot more intuitive! i like the geometry of it

26. For digital artists: what program(s) do you use?

KRITAAA <3 i do also own rebelle5 but i dont really use it as much because its a bit laggy and i find the interface harder to navigate. krita has been my longtime fav, ive been using it since i first started digital art!!

[magicalgirlagency]

Your profile is so pretty! A shame you no longer can access Twitter, though...

Thanks, Anon! Though this is just a placeholder until I get my hair braided, so it'll certainly change later.

As for Twitter, I don't think I'll miss it at all; I mean, I only went there to catch up with the world's news and follow cool artists, but it was slowly spiralling down into a cesspool of toxicity and bigotry that only got worse after the brazilian Supreme Court banned it (there are now nazi bots running rampant on it, from what I've heard!)

Bluesky is a wee bit laggy and buggy, but that's just because it's a small social network, but it's still made in the likeliness of Twitter (its CEO previously worked on it, too), and has lots of room to grow and flourish.

[snickerdoodlesart]

hello funny artisaint person

wanted to remind you of your funny artisaint comic

which you haven't updated in. a while.

(/j)

But seriously, it's ok to take breaks now and again if you don't feel like updating the comic or just want to abandon it completely, at least for me. (Trust me, I've seen so many fanfiction fall off because it was updating too frequently and/or it was too big of an undertaking to pull off.)

(/srs)

P.S. If you're wondering why I put the tone indicators, I kinda feel like people sometimes misinterpret my thoughts on matters when I rarely speak online so it's nice to have for both my sake and anyone else's.

P.P.S Still make Artisaint though. Goddamn I love that ship so much it's my ride or die (no pun intended!).

I finished the next page but for some reason Tumblr is hellbent on not letting it show up. Is it the tags? Is it the page itself? No idea. But the fact that it wouldn't show up killed my steam.

If it makes you feel better, I sketched out a small animatic for the AU (it contains spoilers so probably won't be posting it here yet) so I haven't dropped it. Its still something I want to do.

I am considering switching the style because making digital paintings for each page is a chore and makes the program a bit laggy and prone to crashing. I'll make a poll suggesting different styles to go for in the future, but the change might not happen until the introduction is finished, unless you guys want quicker updates immediately. Let me know.

[turvuren]

Rutile x Yellow || Titan shifter AU

Need

2.9k words

Aot AU, to be exact

gendered (i like girltile... not sorry)

F/M

borderline smut but not really

i copy pasted the story bit from docs so idk if it fucked it up because its laggy as fuck. can you tell i like gallirei? enjoooy.

"I hate you, Yellow."

"I know."

Rutile grit her teeth. That was it, that was all he would say?

"... you let my husband die."

"...I know."

"How could you? Padparadscha was your best friend. And you -"

"I KNOW!"

Rutile flinched at the sudden outburst.

There was a heavy silence following his words, and it was only when she opened her mouth to speak again, only to be interrupted by a cough racked her body, that he spoke again.

"I know, Rutile. I know that I let him die. And I know that it's my fault."

"And now... and now you're the Armored Titan. Talk about..." cough "...someone who couldn't take the mantle."

"I never wanted this, Rutile. Ever." He spoke firmly, though his voice faltered ever so slightly, the words catching in his throat.

Rutile adjusted the armband that was slowly slipping off her, then cleared her throat. She was the current holder of the Jaw Titan. The kids seemed to look up to her, and adore her, though not so much as Euclase or not so much as the disappointment Yellow. If they knew the cowardice of him - they wouldn't have loved him.

"And you, you have the Jaw Titan? How ironic." He said half-jokingly, scoffing under his breath.

But he knew why they picked her. Strong, reliable, and good with kids, unlike him. She had everything he didn't.

Yellow sat down, his back against the cold brick wall behind him. He winced softly at the sharp pain shooting across his back, but he was too tired to care.

He looked up at Rutile, and his gaze softened slightly, despite his annoyance. Despite it all... she was still his friend, his closest friend.

And he let her boyfriend die. Padparadscha wasn't going to be her husband no matter how many times she lied to herself, to him about it. Eldians would only be allowed to marry if they were ever out of duty; and for Warriors like them, that time would never come. Rutile was just living out a fantasy where everything was okay and he wasn't sure if she knew it.

Yellow watched her in silence. He was torn, a mix of emotions bubbling in his chest - anger, regret, guilt, and even a hint of jealousy. He was jealous that she held onto the fantasy, that she could forget even momentarily that their lives were anything but okay.

He looked away, unable to sustain the stare any longer, his gaze shifting to the dusty ground beneath them. "Rutile..." He said quietly.

"Why do you do this to yourself?" He asked suddenly, his voice filled with a mixture of frustration and concern. "You keep living in this fantasy, pretending everything is fine and happy. But it's not... we're Warriors, Rutile. We're tools for war."

He looked up at her again, his eyes locked on her face. "You're... you're holding onto something that can never happen. We can't have normal lives. We can't marry, we can't have kids, we're not even supposed to form attachments. It's just ... it's not fair to you."

"...shut up."

"I won't. Someone has to snap you out of it, Rutile," he retorted back, his voice edged with a hint of annoyance. "You're living in a make-believe world when you should be focusing on reality."

"Padparadscha is gone. You have to accept that. Holding onto the thought of marrying him will do nothing but hurt you in the long run." He paused, studying her expression, watching as her grip on her armband tightened, her knuckles turning white.

He saw the pain in her eyes, the way her lower lip trembled slightly as he spoke. But he knew he had to keep going, even if it was hard. "Being a Warrior isn't about romance or settling down. It's about war and survival. You're only hurting yourself by clinging onto that dream."

Rutile moved to punch him, but she stopped before her first could connect with his face.

Yellow saw the anger in her eyes, and he was prepared for the punch. But when she suddenly stopped, her fist trembling in the air, he was taken aback.

He stared at her in surprise, not expecting her to back down so easily.

"What, you're not going to hit me?" He asked, a hint of sarcasm in his voice.

He could see the anger and pain etched on her face, her fist still clenched, as if she was struggling to keep her emotions in check.

"Why? Why did you stop?" He asked, his tone more curious now than sarcastic. "You're clearly angry. So why didn't you punch me?"

Rutile didn't respond at first, her fist slowly unclenching as she tried to control her emotions. She took a deep breath, trying to steady herself.

"Because... because it wouldn't change anything." She said finally, her voice barely above a whisper. "Hitting you wouldn't bring him back. It wouldn't change the fact that we're Warriors, and that we can't have the lives we want."

Yellow nodded, his expression softening slightly. "That's right. It wouldn't change anything."

He paused for a moment, looking at her with a mixture of empathy and concern. "But you have to stop torturing yourself with these fantasies, with the thought of marrying Padparadscha. It's not healthy, Rutile. You have to accept that he's gone."

"..."

Rutile backed down for the first time in her life.

Yellow watched as her shoulders slumped, the anger in her eyes replaced with resignation.

"You know I'm right, don't you?" he said quietly, his voice softer now. "You know that you can't keep living in this dream world."

There was a long moment of silence between them. The only sound was the faint hum of the air conditioning and the distant sound of footsteps coming from the hallway.

Finally, Rutile spoke again, her voice barely above a whisper. "I just... I can't help it. Every time I close my eyes, I see him. I see him smiling at me, telling me it'll all be okay. And I... I want to believe it."

Yellow's expression softened even further at her words. "I know it's hard," he said quietly. "I know how much you loved him. But you have to let him go. You have to focus on the present, on what's real. You can't keep living in the past, Rutile."

Another moment of silence, broken only by Rutile's shaky breathing.

"I just... I don't know how," she admitted, her voice breaking slightly. "How do I just... forget everything we had? How do I move on when every time I close my eyes, I see his face?"

Yellow moved closer to her, gently placing a hand on her shoulder. "You don't have to forget, Rutile. You can still remember the good memories, the times you had together. But you can't let those memories consume you, to the point where it affects your life, your job as a Warrior."

Rutile let him hug her.

Yellow wrapped his arms around her, holding her tightly. He could feel her trembling, her body shaking as she fought back tears.

"It's okay," he whispered, his voice gentle. "Let it out. Just let it out."

Rutile buried her face in his chest, the dam breaking as tears began to stream down her cheeks. She clutched onto his shirt, letting out years of pent-up grief and sorrow.

"Shhh.. it's okay," Yellow continued to murmur as he held her, one hand rubbing comforting circles on her back. "I'm here for you, okay? I'm here."

"I-I just miss him so much," Rutile managed to choke out in between sobs. "I miss his smile, I miss the way he used to look at me... I just miss him. And I can't shake the feeling that it's my fault. That I could have saved him..."

Yellow's grip tightened, his heart painfully clenching at her words.

"It's not your fault, Rutile. You have to stop blaming yourself," he said firmly. "You did everything you could. There was nothing more you could have done to save him."

"..."

There was a long, drawn out moment of silence, until Rutile looked up at Yellow. He wasn't that much taller than her -

"Fuck me."

"...huh?"

Yellow's eyes widened in surprise at her words, and he drew back slightly from their embrace.

"Excuse me?" He asked, a hint of bewilderment in his voice.

"Just... just hear me out," she said, her voice shaky with emotion. "It's been a while, and I... I just need something, anything to distract me from all of this. I just... I need you."

Yellow stared at her, his expression conflicted. Part of him understood where she was coming from, and a small part of him wanted to say yes. But the rational part of his mind was screaming at him that this was a terrible idea.

"Rutile, you're not thinking clearly," he protested, his voice steady despite the conflicting thoughts swirling in his head. "You're upset, and you're tired. You don't really want this."

"But I do," she retorted, her voice filled with desperation. "I need you, Yellow. I need you to make me feel something, anything other than this pain. Please, just this once."

Yellow felt a pang in his heart at her words. He knew he should say no, that this would only make things worse in the long run. But her voice and her eyes were so pleading, and he could feel his resolve weakening.

His pants fell to his ankles.

Rutile's eyes widened slightly as she watched him. She had expected a little more resistance, a little more protest before he relented. But here she was, standing in front of him, as he stood before her without a hint of hesitation in his eyes.

"You really want this," she said, her voice barely above a whisper.

Yellow nodded, his gaze unwavering. "I do."

His response was firm and resolute. There was no sign of hesitation or doubt in his voice, and it sent a shiver down her spine.

Without another word, she closed the distance between them, pressing her body against his. She could feel the heat radiating off his skin, the solidity of his chest beneath her palms.

He gently pushed her against the wall, his hands roaming over her body with a newfound urgency. His fingers traced the curves of her hips, his lips trailing kisses down her neck.

She arched her back, letting out a soft gasp at the sensation of his mouth on her skin. Her fingers tangled in his hair, pulling him closer, wanting to feel more of his touch.

His lips found hers in a fierce kiss, his tongue delving into her mouth. His hands roamed under her shirt, tracing the smooth skin of her stomach and up her sides.

She trembled under his touch, her body responding to his every move. She felt a familiar heat pooling between her legs, a needy ache spreading through her body.

He broke the kiss, his breath hot against her skin as he moved his lips down to her ear. "Tell me," he whispered, his voice filled with desire, "Tell me what you want me to do to you."

Her breath hitched at his words, his voice sending heat coursing through her veins. "I...I want you," she managed to gasp out, her hands clutching at his shirt. "I want all of you, Yellow. Please, just... don't hold back."

A low growl escaped his throat, his eyes darkening with lust at her words. All of you she said, those words ringing in his head. He wanted to give her everything, to erase the pain and the sorrow and the memories that haunted her. He wanted to make her feel something, anything other than this despair that had consumed her.

He pushed her against the wall, pinning her wrists above her head with one hand. The other hand moved down her body, tracing the contour of her hip and down her thigh, his touch almost bruising in its intensity.

She gasped, her eyes widening at the force of his grip on her wrists. There was an edge of pain to his touch, a desperation that fueled his every movement. And yet, she found herself craving more, wanting him to break her, to give her the release she so desperately sought.

He moved his lips back to her neck, nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin. His hand moved to the button of her pants, slipping under the waistband. She let out a soft moan, her hips arching towards his touch.

He trailed kisses down her neck, nibbling at her collarbone before moving to her ear. "You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this," he whispered, his voice thick with desire. "You have no idea how much I've dreamed about you like this, under me, begging for more."

She felt a thrill at his words, her body responding to his voice and his touch. She was at his mercy, pinned against the wall, her arms above her head, completely submitting to his control.

He continued to kiss and nibble at her neck, his fingers moving slowly, torturously, over her body. He wanted to savor every moment, every touch, every sound escaping from her lips. He wanted to make her forget everything except for him, and what he was doing to her now.

Her breathing grew heavier as his touch sent sparks of pleasure through her veins. She tried to move her wrists, to free herself from his grip, but he held her firmly in place. She was at his mercy, helpless against the onslaught of sensations coursing through her body.

He slowly moved his hand further down her body, his fingers drifting over the smooth skin of her stomach. He could feel her trembling beneath his touch, her body responding to every movement, every caress. He continued kissing her neck, his lips and tongue tracing a path down her collarbone.

Her breathing came in short gasps, her body arching and straining against his. She wanted to touch him, to feel his skin against hers, but he kept her arms pinned against the wall, his grip firm and unyielding. "Please," she whispered, her voice trembling with need. "Please, Yellow. Please..."

He chuckled darkly, his lips moving to her ear. "Please, what?" he whispered, his voice low and seductive. "What is it that you want, Rutile? Tell me. I want to hear you say it."

She whimpered, her body trembling at his words. "I want you," she gasped out, her voice thick with need. "I want you, Yellow. I want you to touch me, to make me feel something other than this pain. Please, just... make me forget."

He growled, his lips returning to her neck, his teeth nipping at the sensitive skin. His hand continued to move over her body, his touch growing more and more possessive. He could feel her body responding to him, her breathing ragged and unsteady, her hips arching towards his touch.

"You're mine," he whispered, his voice thick with possessiveness. "You hear me? You're mine, and I'm going to make you feel things you've never felt before. I'm going to make you forget everything except for me, and what I'm doing to you."

She let out a low moan, her body surrendering completely to his touch. She couldn't think, couldn't focus on anything except for the sensations coursing through her body, the way his hands were touching her, claiming her.

He continued to nibble and kiss her neck, his fingers trailing over every inch of her skin. He could feel her body reacting, her muscles tensing and contracting under his touch. He wanted to taste her, to consume her, to make her forget every thought and memory that didn't involve him.

Her breathing was ragged now, her chest heaving with each exhale. Her body was on fire, every nerve ending alive with sensation. She felt like she was drowning, like she was losing herself in the pleasure he was giving her.

He slowly released her wrists, his hand drifting down to her hip. He pulled her body flush against his, his lips moving to her ear. "Give yourself to me," he whispered, his voice filled with need. "Let me take care of you. Let me make you feel good."

She shuddered at his words, her body trembling in his arms. She felt vulnerable, exposed, but she trusted him. She trusted him to take care of her, to make her feel things she had never felt before.

"Yes," she whispered, her voice barely above a whisper. "Please. I'm yours. I'm yours." He growled in response, his lips returning to her neck. His touch grew more urgent, more insistent, his hands roaming over her body with a possessiveness that sent a thrill through her. He wanted to mark her, to claim her as his own, to make sure she never forgot who she belonged to.

She let out a gasp as his teeth nipped at her skin, leaving behind a trail of small, red marks. She could feel his body pressed against hers, the heat and hardness of his frame sending a wave of desire through her.

He slowly moved his hands down her body, reaching the waistband of her pants. He paused, his fingers hovering over the button, his eyes meeting hers. "Do you trust me?" he asked, his voice low and husky.

She shuddered at his question, her breath catching in her throat. She could feel the intensity of his gaze, the power that emanated from him. Without hesitation, she nodded.

"Yes. I trust you."

He smiled, a dark and satisfied smile. "Good," he whispered, his hand slowly undoing the button of her pants. "Because I'm going to make you feel things you've never even dreamed of."