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sixguns & innuendo
#mantimer#mancomer#tmwnn#douglas mortimer#manco#dollars trilogy#artner#theyre fully clothed but im adding the mature community label bc the phallic innuendo is . quite overt.#hhhhhh i've been thinking a lot lately about gun fetishism in westerns.#the scenes in fafdm where manco and mortimer handle each other's weapons already contain fair amounts of subtext#but i thought.. why not increase the homoeroticism !#sixguns are already practically treated as extensions of their gunslingers. why not let manco give mortimer's buntline a lil kiss? ;0#this was originally gonna be a two-part set with a companion image of mortimer returning the favor on manco's colt#(bc. u know. ''equal partnership'' and all that)#but i spent so much fucking time doing the rendering for this image that i decided to forgo the sequel. sorry + not sorry.#but !!! wow im so proud of the shading on this one. it took me an insane amount of time. please clap.#i might make a separate post later about western genre theory and cowboy gun eroticism but for now.... yehaw for phallic imagery !#for a few dollars more (1965)#westerns#🤠#🍝#art#pardner posts
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I'm actually so obsessed with him it's not even funny if i'm not listening to a TikTok or music directly related to him I can't focus free me free me
This is @/cherubpuppet's OC for a object show [au? pitch? wip show? How do I categorize this] and I've been destroyed by the fact that ruler art is infinitely superior [and 10x longer] and i don't have a good enough grasp on lip gloss's personality to make fanfiction so I am frozen in "want make fanart but fanart takes effort :["
#also object shows are the new mlp community change my mind /ref#from what ive seen a very large part of the community is centered around death/gore or mature topics? it reminds me of the mlp infection au#that and smile hd and everybody keeps saying object shiws are kids shows - if kids are making this stuff then good for them /gen#every fandom has its toxic/proship/18+ side obviously but from my pov gen alpha needed something they coudl handle age appropriate extremes#with - its just alot harder to make compelling emotional angst/gore with newer ultra sanitized shows or w/ mascot horror#and like thats a whole nother tooic but its obvious to me younger kids have flocked to mascot horror so harshly because average kids tv is#much more afraid of tackling any big topics to the point that the ones that DO [bluey] immediately are pushed into front and center#but i mean i also rewatched a few episodes of the shows i grew up with and ngl i think we need shit like ren and stimpy and invader zim#i hate ren and stimpy and i didnt grow up with zim but i grew up with pbs kids shit and that shit looking back was hella boring i never#cared for any of the tv shows i saw aside from elmos world and even then i was hoping that something gorey would happen. at like 5 yrs old#im rambling anyway im not sure if im actually going to get into the os communitg but i AM horribly attached to tape to the point that its#maybe possibly becoming harmful to my mental health so im gonna stick around for him for like months#just know that if im not posting anything its because im obsessed with this guy#oh also DID/MALE SA REP LETS FUCKIN GOOO#I LOVE PSYCHOLOGY AND IVE HAD LIKE 4 FRIENDS WITH DID/OSDD I NEED MORE POSITIVE REP OF STIGMATIZED/COMPLEX DISORDERS !!!!!#art#tape dispenser#search for smos#talk talks#EDIT NO. NO DONT SAY IM THE ONLY PERSON ON TUMBLR WHO HAS USED THE SMOS TAG NO. OH MY GOD#PLEASE BEING OBSESSED WITH SOMEONE ELSES OC IS SO GARD DONT LEAVE ME ALONE DO I NEED TO BUILD THIS FANDOM FROM THE GROUND UP??? NOO
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When The Moon Hatched is an insane book. It is a fae romantasy but this author went whole hog into building a world that works completely unlike our own, and I can tell she is determined to make it consistent and make sense within her own internal set of rules. I really respect her for trying to do something new, even if the prose is the brightest shade of eggplant I've come across in a while. It's not Good -- the weakness of the prose, especially when she tries a "High Fantasy" tone, holy shit, and the stodgy romantasy beats [even with the twist you can see from a mile away] make this a squarely mediocre read -- but she was definitely ambitious and trying something that puts her work apart from the gazillion other fae romances (there's like, no humans at all in this book, which I respect a lot). She definitely has a Vision, and there's nothing I love more than works produced by self made arteurs with only middling technical skill that are obviously passion projects. Yeah, the story itself is mid and the characters pretty stock when you get down to it, but the world is genuinely interesting and probably the least derivative I've read in any contemporary romantasy. You can tell that she probably read things like Discworld and was like, "I want to do this too! I want to create my own unique planet and then set a sexy faerie romance on it and it'll be my magnum opus."
And you know what??? Good for her. I love that. Friggin large popcorn dammit because reading this feels exactly like watching one of those one-off mid-budget fantasy/sci fi movies from the mid 00s - mid 10s that are firmly mediocre, but still live in your psyche forever. This is truly the Mortal Engines or Chronicles of Riddick -- or, actually JUPITER ASCENDING!!!! -- of the faerie romance genre. I'm only about halfway through, but I'm pretty sure at the rate this is going my opinion isnt going to change much.
Also. People complain that there's tons of made up jargon and they need to consistently refer to the glossary, which I personally don't see because to me it's really quite easy to infer what things mean based on context clues ??????? Like the book never goes out of its way to overly explain what anything is since the POV character has lived in this world for her entire life, so it's all just normal to her, and I very much respect that choice not to exposit more than absolutely necessary. Like idk those 70s pulp sci fi books must have really done a number on my pattern recognition and contextual reading skills, because I'm not having any difficulty at all following and inferring the meanings of the jargon. Like. I really need some of these people who complain about fantasy slang and jargon to try picking up A Clockwork Orange one day. That book is nigh impenetrable with made up slang LOL.
#rene's impromptu book reviews#this is my new tag for these kinds of posts#also i love how fae aging and longevity is implied through the way time is measured in this one#A year is about 1000 in universe days and fae can apparently live for hundreds of years#like theyre i think considered mature at the same number of years as humans but the length of those years are much longer than ours#and we have no clue how long those days are -- theyre at least as long as ours though they could be longer#but thats a moot speculation because there are no humans in this one so everyones on the same playing field#also the way that they use scent as a primary sense differently from us is genuinely handled so subtly im actually a little impressed#like i know its a stock trait in contemporary faerie books for fae to be able to smell things a/b/o style#but i do like that it was included the way it is. not super in your face but still There#readswithrachel blasted a line because the pov character described someone as smelling like a 'freshly split stone' and went on a rant abou#how that doesnt smell like anything and im just like. hm sure but first of all these people arent human and use smell as a primary sense#(which is supported by the fact that someone asked another person what a stranger smelled like in order to get an identifying description)#so like. how do you know if they cant smell what split stone smells like. also it's just an evocative description. it could be literal but#it also could be metaphor. if scents tell you what sort of person a character is then that is an evocative description.#it is a little purple and silly sure. but this is also a fae romance book.#like idk i think a skill you need to have as an effective critic is to be able to engage with a work on its own level -- to analyze it from#both the perspective of your own tastes and from the perspective of its target audience. theres layers to it. like an onion#anyway.
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um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing
#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school.#what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this#when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it#tbf like all that other shit up there aside#this did actually come at the perfect time#i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person#i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was#in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while#kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before#and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters#even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity#and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell#so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone#and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore#im the most ready ive ever been#2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit!#im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement#entirely on my own#like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog#i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then#im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now#anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself#but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years#became a stable genius as it were#whos a lot more clearly defined and present#but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid
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sigh.
#i hate. being at all rational ornpolite sometimes.#cus like#my sister that i hate called to apologize. about things i frankly don't even care about at this point.#and i let her bc while i don't particularly want her to be actively in my life or see or at all very often#i can acknowledge that it is good that she is TRYING to figure her shit out even a little#and while it is FAR from what she SHOULD be apologizing to me about#at least its. a step?#maybe one that will lead to her either figuring it or building up to the actual problem#so i accepted that apology and moved on#but i told my other sister about it and she's just.#'i would've hung up immediately. i would've cussed her out'#ok. 1. thats your own decision but not how i handled it. though ik shell be annoyed if i say anything to imply that#that is a terrible way to respond. and like shes entitled to her anger in not saying she doesnt have a good reason for it#but damn dude. chill.#and 2. what would that even accomplish. like. what would that do.#it would demotivate her to work on her shit and like i get that sister 2 doesnt ever want to see sister 1 again#(again. she has valid reason and im not blaming her for that)#but like. that would only grow the circle of violence. it would end up with more people being hurt than have already been.#and frankly its fucking immature as shit lmao#sorry.#i have to actually go reasons to sister 2 now im just#sometimes i get annoyed when i remember my mom telling me that she genuinely forgets im the youngest#bc it means that she has always treated me like i was older than i was and put more on me than anyone else#but then i have situations like this.#and i go yeah. YEAH. i can see how i am more mature than my siblibgs to the point that the woman who GAVE BIRTH TO US#will sometimes FORGET THE ORDER OF THAT#shh ac
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and yknow what else
telling me like "youre an adult you deal with it" is so insulting actually. of course at the time my stupid feelings go "oh no i didnt think of this specific method of dealing with the problem and hadnt made steps yet i must be being immature :(" when in reality i just havent fucking gotten to the point where i know if and what steps i want to take yet. i was going to monitor how i feel for a bit to check consistency before i make a decision on talking to anyone because i actually felt really really happy last night and decent this morning before This happened which maybe shed have known if she'd asked about anything before she started talking about stuff. and of course shes asleep now so i just have to like sit here with this knowing i have to bring it up if i have any self respect and not knowing when thatll be an option
#ventposting#god#im glad i was feeling good bc#if i wasnt i wouldnt have had the clarity to take a step back and understand any of this#even if im obviously not feeling as good now#im so upset about this#as usual ill have to show how you actually do it. by being reasonable and level headed and listening when you talk to someone#and not getting mad even though id like to. as always it has to be me. being the mature one#bc i dont actually see the anxiety as that much of a problem compared to the other stuff right now. having that dumped on extra sucks#framing it as something i Need to do is like. no actually. you dont get to decide that for me. i am as you put it an Adult#and all this not even three days after im vulnerable and actually talk about some of the stuff with her#fucking parents man#what a poor fucking way to handle it!#i am constantly so fucking disappointed in the people who are in my physical presence!!#its fine#she'll probably understand if i explain it well enough
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ayane you need to get a grip. ayane please. for me
#if her and pin actually for real end up together i'll scream#i dont think its necessarily out of character for her to have a crush on him. shes used to dating older guys and ofc she would fall#for someone encouraging. but if pin reciprocates its so fucking over everyone#not only would it be gross but it also wouldnt. make sense for him#hes repeatedly referred to her as a kid and acted more like a mentor to her. he literally said he doesnt catch feelings for kids#at the beginning. in reference to HER SPECIFICALLY#im holding out hope but also im scared#so far the writing has actually kind of exceeded my expectations in terms of how it handles more complex feelings and relationships#like i also felt that ayane and miura weren't going to work out and the way that falling out was written was well done#and more recently how kurumi has grown up and matured and gotten closer with sawako and apologized is great to see#this is the one thing making me anxious. we need to be normal for just like ten more chapters. for me#kimi ni todoke#mine
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venting dont mind me xp ✌
#if i dont get out of my parents house im going to die#either by my hand or my mothers#i refuse to be forced into the role of woman becuz my mother cant get over herself or accept other peoples suffering#so i either leave or i die#i am never more depressed than when im in this house and it gets worse everytime i return#every second of oeace is a facade careful held up by smiles and jokes while ignoring who i am to please others#and ignorjng the genuinely genocidal beliefs of my parents against myltple peoples#at least one of which includes me#why cant life be easy#when is it .y turn to tbrive#in this hluse i am no older than a middle schooler no more mature or happy#everyday i dream of relapsing sh-ing just for some control of the pain i experiemce something anything#maybe someone will finally listen to me and se ehow ioset i am see how smothered i am and the sting will pull me back down to earth again#but no who would see would understand#my brothers or my parents none of them would kniw why even if i said it to thwir face#i dint event even want to think of what my mother woukd say#shed use it as an excuse to further deny my transness surely#say how horribke and spirtful and manipulative i am against her#that i ddi it to hurt her#i am trapped as a doll in a house only allowed to be agreeable no politics no emotions other tan#contentness and love and adoration for my family#or else i am unloveavle and horrible and sick#i cannot tell my mom she has uoset me becuz it would be unfair i am silent instead#i am to take her anger and rage as a perfect recepticle and no matter how well i handle it#i am thanked with resentment amd scorn amd terfisms#i can neither disagree woth her beliefs nor avoid discussing them to keeo the oeace all she wants is comoliance#i refuse to do that tho ill take hee scorn on that one thing i refuse to xomprimise my beliefs verbally to save my own skin#ill just be quiet#im sure id be a better recepticle for her dead so she can dress me up as a girl one last time#the dead cant argue or disagree with you its everything she wants from me
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A poor man's guide to fucking up
Fucking up is inevitable 👍 yet not many people are aware of how to respond (ideally) in a scenario where they've genuinely made a mistake. Recently my girlfriends (ex girlfriends?) fucked up and hurt me but they get an A for how they're responding so I wanted to go over a list of what they've done right and what they haven't, for your reference and mine
1) they're giving me space to process my feelings- room to be angry and understanding but also physical space. They aren't spam texting me or constantly walking into my room or trying to force me to talk to/spend time with them
2) with that, there's also an acceptance of their responsibility and they're taking the blame with dignity- something that I know from experience hurts like a BITCH and is not something most people I've known are capable of or willing to do. I have mad respect for that
3) they're not trying to force me to do or feel anything I don't want to. They're not trying to manipulate me- not trying to turn me against anyone, force me to forgive them, or ignore what they did. They're not trying to force me to stay in a relationship with them or not be mad at them or hurt by their actions
4) and this is where they lose out on getting an A+ and only get an A -_- they told me the truth (just not at first). Despite being ashamed of it. And at first they did both try to minimize their own blame in the situation but pretty quickly opened up about the reality of it. Now ideally you wouldn't do that at all, you would just tell the whole truth right away but nonetheless, it's impossible to be perfect and I'm not judging them too harshly for this
#obviously im still mad and i cant say ive forgiven them yet but ive accepted their apologies and im trying to let time heal#i wanted to at least share somewhere my appreciation for them reacting this way since ive never experienced such humility and maturity#from people who have hurt me before#even if it 'should' be normal its not yet. so yeah i have a bit of gratitude towards them for doing something not yet common#i can say with certainty it is SO much easier on me to handle this situation and my own emotions because of them doing this#i think my putting effort into recognizing and appreciating this also has to do with how i experience empathy-#im not gonna be one of those 'im an eMpAtH' people but i will just say#other peoples emotions affect me severely and i cannot ignore them or block them out#its like... intrusive empathy if you will#redirecting my empathy to analyzing something helps me process my own feelings without the interference of everyone else's feelings
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nothin prompted this on here but. not to be dramatic but if one more 14 yr old on discord calls me (grown adult man) "kid" ill morph into a lampshade can they just not. it feels so weird when ppl younger than me do that like i get yall do it as endearment but PLEASE im AN ADULT !! /lh who tf r yall gonna call kid in ur life anyway u cant even by energy drinks or go to see the fnaf movie like calm down..
#gen like even if ur my friend plz try not to call me kid or whatever it feels. infantalizing#and i know no one means it that way but#growin up autistic and with “childish” interests and ways of reacting ppl calling me a child or kid or whatever is so. eugrgh#also btw. as a man who has been through some shit online#its NEVER a good idea to present yourself as more mature than the adults around you because you never know who will latch onto you#i was used as a helpline from the ages of 14-16 and it was traumatising all because i was seen as more mature and able to handle it#its. yeah#like not saying everyone is like that but#idk my own two (very biased and traumatised) cents on the matter#be all end all is dont talk down to me at all#also if anyone acts like that on anon and u dont sign off as someone i know i might just block you#i block very freely so if u just annoy me too much ur gone.#if any of my friends go “oh im scared i annoy you too much” ill eat your fucking sofa this isnt about u here close ur eyes gang /lh#and again. NOTHING PROMPTED THIS POST OTHER THAN SOME ANNOYING KIDS ON A DIFFERENT PLATFORM#vent i guess?? more complaining#jack's hawkin the headlines !!
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so we miiiight be adopting another cat
a few days back, my mom encountered this teeny tiny pregnant kitten (probably no older than 9 months) and absolutely fell in love. like, she's unbelievably sweet for a stray and even managed to get into the house TWICE when my mom tried going back inside, so she seems to really want a housecat life.
well, like an hour ago, we found her meowing on our doorstep :( it's raining so we took her in, dried her off, and set her up with a little room in the garage (bed, cat litter, water, some food) and now she's gonna stay there for the night
we'll let her out again during the day since we're trying to fully win her over and we're positive she'll come back later in the day, but next week we're gonna take her to the vet and see how she's doing health-wise so. yeah! woo!
#i don't know how i feel about bringing in another cat#but she needs a home and my mom + sister both seem really set on it#she's definitely pregnant so idk how we'll deal with that#my mom seems to wanna keep the babies but i KNOW she won't be the one caring for them or helping this cat actually. y'know. give birth#this kitten is so small too so it's worrying :( like... she's MAYBE 5lbs. she makes our little cats look like fucking behemoths#especially since she's so young i do worry about what the pregnancy will do to her body. she's not even done maturing so having to use -#- all her energy to have kittens seems like a bad idea#i brought up the possibility of a spay to terminate the pregnancy since idk if her body can handle it but mom seemed pretty against it#she's just... so tiny and young and malnourished#we'll figure it out. im gonna tag along to the vet appointment and ill get the vet's opinion on all this
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Good god though we fucked up huggggeee. On clean up duty and doing good to repair and make amends but honest Data went full Our Dad mode for a minute and partial for like half an hour around our fiance and he was not doing well before so
*deep breath*
We got shit to fix and make up and trust to regain but damn. Simply damn.
Talking about it and doing everything our dad didn't but damn.
Shits a lot worse and more surreal now that I'm actually here talking one on one about it.
We havent really had a moment where abusive behavior came up in like 5+ years so its not great and not good
Anyways TLDR the aftermath and healing of trauma is often ugly and thats the unfortunate aspect of working through it a lot.
#its ok#alter: riku#sigh#this is a mess#wheres Lucille man#i think im here cause Ive reached the emotional intelligence and maturity level high enough to handle this but god#shits tough#especially when i dont have a full memory of it apparently#also no one give us or anything#we arent posting this for sympathy#at most solidarity is ok#but do not excuse our behavior#we dont need excuses#we also wont persecute ourselves for this#but this is not okay behavior and we should not be coddled or codoned for it
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somany thoughts on this wilk storyline that i cant articulate in a meaningful way because im simply not well versed on the subject *werewolf howling image*
#something something wilksview on survival and how it fits into the rest of the story etc etc sofia kiros and wilks different perspectives#being put towards a common goal somethingsomething conflict as a result of different approaches to the problem etc etc wilksaction#s not being demonized seeing as the fuckingmilitary in the series did way worse for their own selfishimperialist reasons#though i cant draw any conclusions since im not close to done and i do think there are flaws with wilkscharacter i am genuinely relieve#d hes handled maturely and not like this guys evil because he kills people as if he has literally any way of making change peacefully witho#tbeing killed himself etc#by flaws i mean writing ones butim not going to get into that dont have the vocabulary or the knowledgefor it#or honestly rather flaws with how one would interpret his character becausei cant even fuckingimagine but
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god i love the game mouthwashing so much.
sucks that its one of those games that i have to guard on the same level as undertale though. since people just Dont Get It
#personal♡#RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA * TEARS APART WALLS *#if i see one more post making curly a baby girl or whatever im going to explode#or make daisuke yellow#or blame anya or make her ''good aus'' where she keeps the baby#i saw a post that was like 'you guys dont actually like media that has dark topics and mouthwashing shows that#mouthwashing shows you the horrors of rape and rape culture but you the fandom audience decide to make it about shipping#you dont want media that handles dark themes in a mature way. you want material to not so secretly hide what you are into'#LIKE YUUUUUPP!!!#like i dont remember the exact wording it was something close to that though#i hate fandom culture to begin with. i just wish i could find nice art thats all like COMEON MAAN
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"he's got the same amount of time left as a grey warden character"
ok but a warden in his 20's that goes on his calling in his 50's is like. 30 years of healthy, in his prime ass life. halfway into his allotted time he will be 40 something years old.
meanwhile emmy is in his decline, halfway into his allotted time he will be approaching 70 years old. do you understand.
#“someone needs to consider my mortality” dont worry babe im way ahead of you#emmyposting#this character really triggers people with a fear of aging and i wonder why. i wonder.#yea assuming you all avoid the end of the world you'll probably get a lot of life out of him yet-- em takes very good care of himself#but like. he lives in an underground dust chamber. he has struggled with fear/stress his entire life. and whatever yall just went through#with the blight and the gods and being blasted with god magic. that would have health consequences in any mature handling of the story#he is very solidly middle aged! and based on what dav forces upon us-- rook is very solidly not!#swagever. no one wants to handle the fear of aging and death with the fear of aging and death character. ok.
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dude it is way too early for this, someone just told me to kill myself over something i literally dont know anything about
#'youre sending people to harass me!' i dont have the power to do anything let alone that + i havent thought about you in a long time#why would i bother#now im just curious who was even harassing them but they blocked me before i could ask#youre so classy telling me to kill myself and then blocking me before i can reply. very mature of you#this wasnt on tumblr btw idek if they have a tumblr and idc#if theyre stalking my social media thats just weird on their part#'i hope you stop burdening your family' well i hope you stop burdening yourself. you sound miserable and you always have. go to therapy.#stop hurting other people just to make yourself feel better even though all it does is give you temporary satisfaction and long term pain#fucking weirdo. we left our friendship on an argument because you NEVER let yourself be wrong even about things you knew nothing about#you wanna see me shit talking you publically? this is that i fucking guess#tell me i dont know anything about relationships because i only ever dated one person as if that person didnt leave me with trauma#that im still unpacking almost a decade later? fuck off.#at least im not marked red on shinigami eyes and have 'too right leaning for twitter to handle' in my twitter bio. thats fucking embarassing#fucking weird asshole. that entire friend group we were part of was ridiculous#the only person from there i EVER shit talked was someone else and they deserve it for being a pedo.#but i dont care to harass anyone because it does nothing for me#it only works to hurt me and im sick of being in pain. im sick of being miserable and lonely and stuck with memories of wrongdoing#i told you im in therapy and went back to school and that means im moving on and you decided that meant i should kms#fuck off. i hope you DONT kill yourself so you can come to the conclusion that you need to change for the better and work towards that goal#instead of being the same 'i can never be wrong!' ex-mean girl weirdo that led to me and everyone else dropping you as a friend#because all you did was make us mad with your behavior#and apparently not changing a single bit in the TWO WHOLE YEARS since i last saw you. grow up. we are both old enough to legally drink.#so grow the fuck up.#my post#ignore me#SERIOUSLY fucking ignore this post#vent#personal
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