#IM STILL HALF ASLEEP

[madmutts]

Augh..... nother weird dream

[dog-bat3]

had a dream about Molly last night

Had a dream about Molly last night

She's angel dust's sister

My brain was almost aware it was a dream?

But anyway

Angel was trying to talk to her

And apologize and stuff

She was very forgiving

I might draw this

[mistyycowoa]

Omg people need to stop assuming I'm capable. I'm dense and slow!!! On everything!!! What even gave anyone the impression that I can just casually do anything fast?? I take an hour to panic over going out, I take two hours to wake up, I take longer than others to eat, I think slow!! Give me some time!!

[vidhi-ka-vidhaan]

hocus pocus i need coffee to focus

[lexiholic826]

And hey, if you're reading this, I love you. You're worth it and good and deserve happiness despite whatever bad things you did. Even if you THINK something you did was bad, maybe it wasn't. Point is, you deserve love no matter what

if you’ve done something genuinely awful and you’re panicking bc everybody’s mad:

you can’t (and shouldn’t try to) control how people feel about you. all you can control is your own actions - acknowledging what you did and figuring out how to be better. their feelings are out of your hands. focus on what you can do.

trying to pressure, guilt, or argue people into forgiving you/letting it go is A Bad Idea. it will only make things worse. even if it seems to work in the moment, real forgiveness and reconciliation doesn’t come from debate or coercion. give people time to process and decide for themselves.

if you apologize, all that does is let them know you understand it was wrong (and WHY it was wrong) and you’re going to try to do better.

you’re giving them info for THEM to choose what they do with. it doesn’t automatically change their feelings one way or the other. don’t expect it to; this is not what an apology is for. this is for them. it’s not for you.

people can be angry and hurt and need space from you, without giving up on you completely. they might still care about you or want you around once they have had some time to process and heal. they may need time to make sure there’s real evidence that you are genuine in your desire to change. you might need some space to process too! don’t rush yourself or them.

if you DO permanently lose friends/an SO/etc over something terrible you did, I know that feels awful but they get to choose who they’re comfortable being close with. even if you’re sorry, even if you didn’t mean it like they took it, even if you’ve learned better – only they can and should decide about their personal boundaries.

even if you did something truly awful, it’s important to remember that you are capable of better! doing a terrible thing is a choice, not a built-in part of you. you have it in you to make better choices!

you might need help to figure out HOW to make better choices. you might need help to sort out how to resist certain impulses, or how to get your needs met without hurting others, or how to see things from another person’s perspective, or whatever else.

it’s okay to need help, as long as you put in the work to seek it out - try therapy (or therapy workbooks) or talking to someone you trust to be a decent person, who willingly agrees to talk it through with you.

be wary of people who make excuses for what you did and talk like you didn’t have a choice. it’s good to understand why you chose to do certain things, but always remember you make your own choices.

also, understand no other person can actually fix this for you, or change your impulses for you. only you can do that. getting help means things like, getting someone to brainstorm with you about things YOU can do differently, or help you see things a different way.

you make your own choices, including the choice to work hard on doing better.

you will always be the person who did that awful thing. but you can ALSO be a person who learned and grew afterward and became someone worthy of the trust people place in you. you might lose friends over what happened, but you can also choose to seek out new relationships which you approach in healthier ways.

maybe you did a bad thing. maybe you did a really, really bad thing. but you don’t have to stay the kind of person who does that kind of thing. you aren’t fixed in stone. you are capable of being better. and you owe it to yourself as well as whoever you hurt to put in the work to do that.

[napping-sapphic]

take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours

[lowkey-loki245]

What do you call it when someone forces their beliefs about sandwiches on you?

A ham-fisted philosophy

[hacksawing]

haha that’s my (discord) username

party rock is in the house tonight

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i just wanna be protected and cared for like i'm a tiny kitty with abandonment issues

[k-ru-h]

i know i said earlier that my interpretation of curly as a victim of jimmy's manipulation as well wasnt necessarily implied in canon but im gonna double down and say it is. ESPECIALLY with the how fish is made dlc.

curly doesn't only enable jimmys behavior towards anya - he enables jimmys behavior tomwards himself. we know jimmy doesn't fulfill his duties to standard, we know curly was putting up with his shit since day one on the tulpar. curly was the only one implied to also be trained as a pilot, meaning that he took on significantly more work rather than confronting jimmy. he let every awful comment jimmy made towards him slide - he let jimmy put him down and villainise his desire to be happier in life. like, its fucking crazy to get mad at your friend for wanting to change his career to be happier? especially on his birthday?

this isnt to say any of that is as bad as literally being raped like anya was, but what little we know of jimmys and curlys dynamic is that jimmy was bitter and spiteful and would take it out on curly, blaming curly for wanting better for himself. curly never pushes back, implying he's accepted this dynamic - he's accepted jimmys tendency to do awful things and then take no blame (no responsibility) as a quirk, as something entirely acceptable.

if you've ever deeply cared for your abuser, chances are you know that desire to view them as innocent. everything harmful they do to you is fine, and thus everything harmful they do to ofhers has to be fine, because you just cannot reconcile these two ideas in your head. they cant be innocent if theyre harming others, and if theyre harming others, what are they doing to you? curly doesn't behave like an enabler, he behaves like a victim. the men who support rapists everybody labels curly as would push back at their friends actions towards themselves. curly never does this.

as curly is effectively unable to communicate after his injury, we dont get his point of view after being directly violated and forced to acknowledge jimmys abuse within the game itself. the game paints very clear parallels between anya and curly - both pregnancy (especially as a result of rape) and disability (especially as a result of violence) result in a loss of autonomy, unwanted and uncontrollable changes to ones body and in this case- the perpetrator getting away with it. like, the way jimmy twists the tale to make curly out as the bad guy is purposefully reminiscent of men who blame women for "asking for it" when accused of rape. curly caused the accident - jimmy is just an innocent victim of his.

in the last one and then another, curly regrets ever joining the pony express. his thought process sounds a lot like that of an abuse victim (because he and everybody working under pony express is a victim of their abuse, of course): "We're defined by our past, but not slaves to it. We said tomorrow will be different. Today would be the last day. The last one. The last one and then another. And another, and another, and another... " its the cycle of forgiving your abuser because you believe they can change, because you believe you can change and break the pattern, and pushing through day by day, never giving up on them. even if curly wasnt abused by jimmy and jimmy was "just" toxic towards him, its clear he has this pattern of thought deeply engraved in him. we don't know everything jimmy did to him, we barely know of what he did aboard the tulpar, but at the VERY LEAST he exploited curlys trauma for his own benefit. it could be argued curly shouldnt have passed the psych eval, but neither should have jimmy.

lastly, anya and curly clearly serve as parallels in the game. anya is an incredibly capable doctor, she wasnt unable to give him medicine because of disgust - she bandaged him herself, thats far more dirty work. she related to him too much. she saw herself in him - somebody who lost their body and their voice. even without knowing the same man did this to both of them. theyre both victims of abuse, of violation, of a man who could never take responsibility, of a sistem that allowed all of this in the first place. curly shouldnt have enabled jimmy, but curly shouldnt have had anything to enable in the first place. jimmy shouldn't have raped anya, he shouldnt have crashed the ship. pony express shouldnt have abused its workers. whichever regime holds power over it shouldnt have allowed it to happen in the first place. you can acknowledge somebody made a mistake, and yet understand they were abused too. jimmy was exploited by the capitalist society he lived in. if he had access to mental health services, he couldve gotten better. everybody in this game is a victim of circumstance, but jimmy hurt people nonetheless. curly hurt anya nonetheless.

anyways im going to set everybody who says curly "deserved it" on fire to prove their point.

[lmadsadness]

just woke up, half awake and started to draw wavewave (ship artist goals ig >_<)

Shockwave and his daughter, Ravage (based on my shockwave as a cat lover/dad rambling post)

[ev-fav]

WHAT IS AN EVIL BOOP????

Moots i just woke up, it is 2pm in england, and i am trying to figure out boops like my life depends on it WHAT IS GOING ON?

[madame-mongoose]

im going back to bed

[rose-lizzzy]

Gem wakes up in empires after a successful day of murder on Hermitcraft

She immediately heads out, because what empire was gonna build itself?

It was only when she finished gathering the materials for her next project for the people of Dawn that she noticed something was wrong.

She'd seen the villagers eyeing her weirdly but to be fair, that's normal for villagers

But seeing her reflection in Dawn's fountain she realized that she'd never shifted into the right look, as she was still an elf in her cute Hermitcraft clothes

No one could see her like this, it's too risky. But also too risky to just change right there, in broad daylight, where anyone could see her. So she hurries to the closest building, the church, and shuts the door tight

She could immediately tell something was off when her reflection in the churches stained glass windows stayed the same

She could tell something was off by the fact that her clothes refused to change

She could tell something was off because for the moment she seemed to be stuck as an elf, and if the other emperors saw her like this, she could be in trouble.

Not my half asleep ass always coming up with ideas as I try to sleep

But an au I'd wanna try to write (because writers block has been a bitch and I haven't written in like a year)

What if Gem got stuck as an elf on empires?

She tries to hide from the other emperors and cover herself in a cloak or something she keeps around

Trying to hide her lack of butterfly wings, or the fact that she's just slightly different looking

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[ur-ghostgirl]

i just think itd b cool to wake up to someone shushing me n telling me to go back to sleep while they fuck me ://