#IM DELULU AND PROUD OKAY

[ismyteadoneyet]

" ɴᴏ ᴏɴᴇ, ᴅᴇᴀᴅ ᴏʀ ᴀʟɪᴠᴇ, ᴄᴀɴ ᴄᴏɴᴛʀᴏʟ ʙʀɪᴀɴᴀ ᴍᴀᴛᴛʜᴇᴡs "

Characters from 'The Legendborn Cycle' by Tracy Deonn as usual 🩷🩷

It is done ??? Finally? This thing spiraled so far out of my current skillset the further I got, but I loved every minute of it and learned a lot I think 😅😅 I love painting textures and ngl even tho it took WAY longer than it needed to, repainting and fiddling with the different textures in this was rly fun (especially the stained-glass windows!!! Aaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!! 😭🩷✨️)

[chaostudee]

smooth operator , carlos sainz.

summary : y/n is a journalist just starting out her career in the motorsport industry, it's not long for her to find an attraction to a certain ferrari driver. warnings : none faceclaim : lissie mackintosh a/n : first carlos fic 🤭 my fav forever and ever.

y/nusername first day on the job 🏁🏎

liked by skysportsf1, nataliepinkham, crofty and 56,910 others.

nataliepinkham so proud of you !!

y/nusername ❤️

user829 eeek my fav

username000 the fit ateeee

skysportsf1 welcome to the family :)

y/nfan insanely proud of you wtfff can't wait for the futureee

f1updates i love her already she seems like the sweetest

user_f1 fr 😩

y/nusername quali day 🤭

》 y/bsfusername the fit ateee

》 user82 i love your interview style smmm

》 username_20 she is so prettyyyy

carlossainz great quali let's push for tomorrow 💪

liked by y/nusername, scuderiaferrari, charlesleclerc and 1,293,100 others.

user290 he's so lana del rey vinyl 😩

f1fan_67 dyingggg

f1username that quali was insaneeee

user92 frrr like wdym charles and carlos on the front row tf?!

y/nfan help not y/n in the liked is carlos the f1 driver she has a crush on????

user200 if it is.....she's so real and i get it plus i love her even more.

naomischiff my girl <3

liked by y/nusername, carlossainz , nataliepinkham and 120,622 others.

y/nusername my fav actually

user120 new duo and i'm here for it 🙌🙌

f1fan my biggest inspirations acc

y/nlover carlos in the likes (i just know that y/n is dying rn)

user10 girl look at her twitter 😭😭 y/nlover help plsss

y/nusername new video incoming

》 user92 UM YES

》 username11 oh im so ready

》 f1fan one more person closer to carlos ☝️

》 y/nusername i like your thinking ;)

y/nusername hot lap with nico hulkenberg, you can watch now on skysportsf1 !!

liked by nicohulkenberg, skysportsf1, naomischiff and 322,671 others.

user89 this ate

danielriccardo NICO HUUULKENBERGGGG

y/nusername DANIEELLLLL RICCARDOOOO

nicohulkenberg had the best time thanks y/n !!

f1fan not y/n just casually interacting with all the f1 drivers (love that for you queen)

f1wagupdates my queen pls i love her smmm

justaninchident i love this duo smm

y/nusername singapore gp !!

liked by carlossainz, skysportsf1, nataliepinkham and 267,233 others.

user SHES SO HOT OMG

f1fan my fav f1 girl likeeee my queen my iconnn my everything

skysportsf1 WE LOVE YOU Y/N

justaninchident help they are just like us 😭

user_67 y/n needs to make a fashion inspo acc at this point because i'm obsessed with everything she wears.

f1lover_90 i love y/n more than myself atp

scuderiaferrari interview of carlos and charles with y/n out now !!

liked by charlesleclerc, carlossainz, y/nusername and 1,897,332 others.

justaninchident WHAT IN THE MULTIVERSE OF MADNESS IS THIS

user literally cause i'm not okay acc

user718 did anyone else see the way carlos looked at y/n because....DAMMMMNN

y/nusername the best time :)

f1fan oh to be y/n

user101 y/n and carlos content eeeeek (real ones have been waiting months for this)

f1lover_67 thank u ferrari we all say in unison.

y/nusername if you can dream it, you can do it

liked by carlossainz, scuderiaferrari, alexandrasaintmleux and 569,000 others.

carlossainz you look good in red ❤️

y/nusername ty !! user20 wtffff omggg username_22 BRO WHAT f1fan UM so this is insane 😃

justaninchident god she's gorgeous

alexandrasaintmleux you are literally my fashion inspo

user "everyone's a ferrari fan"

alexandrasaintmleux

》 y/nusername had the best time meeting you <3

》 user omgggg

》 f1fan ferrari wags??

》 user_89 freaking tf outtttt

y/nusername in my lover girl era 💗

liked by f1, naomischiff, alexandrasaintmleux and 714,910 others.

user omg whatttt

f1fan is that carlos or am i delulu?!?!

justaninchident NO BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT I WAS THINKING

user_67 IM FREAKING OUT

f1fan our girl is officially ofc the market omgg

user190 no wonder she hasn't been active on twitter recently

naomischiff so happy for you my sweet girl <3

alexandrasaintmleux 💗

carlossainz

》 y/nusername ugh you're so hottt

》 user omlll

》 f1fan wow.

》 justaninchident god damnnnn

y/nusername guess the cat is out of the bag ;)

liked by carlossainz, landonorris, alexandrasaintmleux and 980,901 others.

user819 WHAT WHAT WHAT

justaninchident i died

user_67 SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

f1fan girlie literally manifested it SHOW ME YOUR WAYS Y/N PLS

y/nusername crystals

f1wagupdates eeeek

landonorris my man has been stolen from me

y/nusername im sorryyy but we can share landonorris okay fair but remember HE WAS MINE FIRST

carlossainz ilysm beautiful

y/nusername i love you more handsome

carlossainz dinner date with my girl ❤️

liked by y/nusername, charlesleclerc, landonorris and 2,719,469 others.

y/nusername you always take the best pics of me 🤭

carlossainz it's hard to take a bad one when you look beautiful all the time

charlesleclerc el matador el matador

y/nusername CARLOS SAINZ

landonorris cute ig

user718 ugh i acc love them

justaninchident LIKE WDYM I LIVE IN A UNIVERSE WHERE CARLOS AND Y/N ARE TOGETHER

f1fan fav f1 driver fav wag

user10 never getting over them acc

user_67 im so single

taglist ⭑.ᐟ

@lottalove4evelyn

@llando4norris

@hadidsworld

@mxryxmfooty

[love-belle]

take a look at my girlfriend !!!

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which she's everything and he's just her proud boyfriend.

or

for when they're your everything. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

social media au // lando norris x fem!reader

warnings - language

author's note - when i said i was back on my writing grind i MEANT it

≡;- ꒰ °instagram ꒱

liked by carlossainz55, landonorris, lukehemmings and 682,826 others

yourusername his cringe behaviour has me captivated

5,987 comments

username MOTHER?????

username not my wife trying to soft launch man what is this

username THE LAST SLIDE??????? HELLO??????? WHAT THE FUCK

username im.

username the first photo i died y'all

-> username she can break me in half and i'll thank her js saying

francisca.cgomes the first photo, i am looking (respectfully)

-> yourusername it's there only for u bébé

username SHE'S SO ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

username rockstar gf

username i want her sooooooo bad

username babe drop his @ we won't hurt him i swear

-> username damn who's we

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username y/n i thought u were for the girls and the gays ://///

-> yourusername i am dw child

lukehemmings tell your bf to stop spamming us, we CANNOT give him a private concert at 4 in the morning

-> yourusername he just wants to hear she looks so perfect

-> lukehemmings basic bitch

-> landonorris WOAH OKAY

*comment deleted*

username lando in the likes i see u pineapple boy

username we lost her huh

username this has devastated me (im so happy for her)

username never though i'd see y/n soft launch her relationship 😭😭😭

landonorris nah i think he's kinda cool

-> yourusername he's okay

-> landonorris just okay???

-> yourusername no he's more than that

-> landonorris go on 😏

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-> landonorris 😐

-> username WHAT IS GOING ON

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username thinking thots rn

username if i lose my wife to a vroom vroom mutation i will literally get so violent

username babe it's okay ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ u can come home now ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ kids and the cats missed u ❤️❤️❤️❤️

≡;- ꒰ °instagram ꒱

liked by yourusername, pierregasly, carmenmmundt and 796,451 others

landonorris my girl my girl my girl

7,982 comments

username SORRY WHAT

username IM GONNA CRY

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username ngl that looks like y/n

-> username now that ur saying it................

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username THE CAT

-> username not trying to alarm anyone but that looks like y/n's cat

-> username fr like u cannot tell me that it's NOT marshmallow

-> username SO off topic but i love that fact that y/n (🖤🗿🎱🎧📼) named her cat marshmallow (💓🍧🍬💒🧶)

username i simply refuse to accept that im losing both of my parasocial relationships

carlossainz55 trust us, we KNOW

-> landonorris you're gonna continue to do so :D

-> username lando using ":D" WHO GOT HIM LIKE THAT

username just wanna know who's love got him singing we fell in love in october

username if that's y/n then im giving up :)

charles_leclerc i want that cat

-> landonorris it's yours i hate that demon

-> username NAHHH NOT LANDO SHITTING ON MY CHILD

-> username 🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺 stay back 🤺🤺🤺 i will protect marshmallow with my life 🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺

username lando norizz is proving to be kinda wrong here haha

username i just know he's down BAD for her

lilymhe the only reason i follow you is cause of your gf

-> landonorris unfollow me NOW

-> lilymhe no.

username this is y/n idc let me be delulu

-> username no bc i kinda agree with u like

-> username I KNOW LIKE THESE PHOTOS ARE SO Y/N CORE

yourusername need to adopt that cat asap

-> landonorris that's not a cat, that's whatever was let out of pandora's box

-> yourusername boy i will block u

-> username NOT Y/N ACTING LIKE THAT'S NOT HER CAT

-> username honestly give up y'all we KNOW

≡;- ꒰ °instagram stories ꒱

landonorris added to their instagram stories

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liked by lewishamilton, carmenmmundt, landonorris and 778,427 others

yourusername an idiot but i love this idiot

tagged landonorris

6,927 comments

username I FUCKING KNEW OMG

username THEY'RE SO

username i love them sm what the fuck

username honestly my favs

username IM SO HAPPY AHJSJSJSSJJSJS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

username "men r bad men are nasty but this one is ok" she's so real for this

-> username my queen spoke nothing but facts

-> username this is so y/n of y/n

lilymhe an idiot (derogatory)

-> yourusername an idiot (affectionate)

-> landonorris how about you both stop calling me an idiot??? how's that???

username he's so bf omg

username lando norris i am in your walls

-> username im under his bed

-> username im hiding behind his door

-> username im in the closet

-> username we love u ❤️

-> username i meant literally u dumbfuck

-> username oh

-> username stfu i am in his bathroom

-> landonorris i am unsafe

username this is so chaotic and im here for every minute of it

username FUCK YEAH SOFT LAUNCHES ARE OVERRATED ANYWAYS

danielricciardo you should've seen the look of panic on his face, truly a sight to behold

-> yourusername his 2628182837 texts saying "i done fucked up" kinda gave me an idea

username < them 3

username do y'all need a dog??? i can bark

usernames SOMEONE GET ME A BF RN ISTG

carmenmmundt cutest 🤍

*liked by yourusername*

username lando ur catching these hands

username need to pray to whichever god lando prayed to 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

username im LIVING for the lando content we're being fed rn

landonorris me and the bitch i pulled by being mean to her

-> yourusername what did u say

-> landonorris me and my very amazing beautiful ethereal breathtaking hot angelic gorgeous pretty cute adorable gf whom i love and respect very much ☺️❤️

landonorris i loveeeeeee u

-> landonorris please take the demon child, i mean marshmallow, away from me

-> yourusername no ❤️

-> yourusername (i love u)

username im gonna cry what the fuck i need this kinda love

username HSHDJAKSHDHAKKASJJSHSA

-> landonorris same

username love to see lando grovelling ❤️

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liked by yourusername, lilymhe, charles_leclerc and 897,627 others

landonorris take a look at my girlfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!! (❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️)

tagged yourusername

8,926 comments

username PLEASE I WANT HER SO BAD

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username don't be shy lando fuck off go on do it

username came here for lando stayed for y/n 💪💪💪

username love a man who's just pathetic little baby girl and his gf who's EVERYTHING

*liked by yourusername*

-> username THIS.

username THE QUOTE OH MUCHOD

username HOW did u pull her

-> username this is MY generation's bermuda triangle

-> username LMFAOOOOO

username lando norizz but he actually pulled 🙏🙏🙏

-> username this revelation needs to be scientifically studied

username i love how half the comments section is thirsting for y/n and the other half is just straight up bullying lando

charles_leclerc we beg you, stop it we KNOW

-> landonorris no

username nah bc the grid being sick of him being in love is sending me 💀💀💀💀💀

username SHE'S SO ETHEREAL

username i love her sm

username lando just so u know *our girlfriend

username IM GOING FERAL OVER THIS OMGAIHAAJK

username goodnight.

lilymhe MY girlfriend but alright

-> francisca.cgomes real like he's forgetting something

-> carmenmmundt honestly

-> alexandrasaintmleux i know like *our* girlfriend

-> yourusername my loves 😘😘😘

-> landonorris wow..

username they're so ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

username someone find me someone like this i beg

username need to know how they met bc they couldn't be more opposites 💀💀💀💀

lewishamilton so happy for you mate 💜!!

*liked by landonorris*

username on my knees for this woman and for this woman only

username just one chance pls 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

username i see how kind god has been to others

yourusername i better be the only one u got

-> landonorris take a look at my girlfriend she's the only i got

-> yourusername that's better ☺️

yourusername love u loverboy

-> landonorris who

-> yourusername *i love u loverboy

-> landonorris 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️☺️🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

-> danielricciardo oh no he's lagging again

-> yourusername just give him a min

username IM SO NORMAL ABT THEM I SWEAR I AM

username sliding down the wall fr cannot believe he bagged my wife

username wow.

[liyuviq]

Can I be honest rn...? Ehe- I just want you to know that I have a big fat crush teenie-tiny admiration 🤏 for Shin for as long as the first time I saw them, which is honestly not that long ACKAIFJDJ BUT‼️‼️ CAN I BEG FOR YOUR BLESSINGS TO DRAW INTERACTIONS BETWEEN SHIN AND MY SONA PSPSPSPSPS, IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE TO BE MUTUALLY ROMANTIC, I CAN ACCEPT ONE SIDED TROPES 😭😭💔💜 I JUST REALLY WANT TO INTERACT WITH YOUR SHIN CUZ I LOVE THEIR PERSONALITY (I am literally simping so hard rn, please tell me I ain't the only one because I refuse to believe I'm the only one⁉️⁉️) But fr though, you draw saur GOOOOD that it's making me fall harder for your art and your oc🥰💜🫶✨

Have this very rushed drawing while I was in class earlier -

(p.s. is there a Shin admirers club??? Please inform me asap so I can join 🤩🤩)

u r making me blush???? WJAJIWIIWSKW 🫣🫣

is this what a proud mother feels when her child (shin) is becoming popular 😩😭😭😭

TYSM FOR BOTH THE ART N UR WORDS OUDCHFIUEHCD THEY R SO SWEET 😭💕💕💕 the art is so very adorable look at her flushed expression ☺️ n shin is so cute in ur styleeee. look at them being the shoujo manga love interest with those sparkles and flowers 🌸✨✨

n a shin admirer club??? i don’t even know if there will be enough members (in the first place i never expected people to like my child this much 😩) but who knows maybe u can start it as the president 👀👀

AND OF COURSE I CAN DRAW THEM INTERACTING IM CURIOUS MYSELF TOO ABT THEIR DYNAMICS

okay okay let me set the scene *insert classic shoujo anime bgm*

so wht if ariya was admiring shin from afar, but shin turned around n they met eyes! she panicked and ran right into a wall, then shin approached with worry in their eyes.

“Are you okay?”

ISNCFRIEFNIERFMIER (bro even im fangirling myself 😳😳)

canonically this admiration is gonna be one sided since shin doesn’t rlly care abt love and crushes 😭😭🙏🙏🙏 but IDC LETS BE A LITTLE DELULU

shin stop being so smooth u r gonna break her heart 😭😭😭 i can def see shin as the one who has unintentional rizz with women. to them they aren’t flirting but to others 💞💞

[the-fo0l]

Micheal Scofield dating hcs

notes: it's criminal crazy kooky insane how little content there is for this show

warnings: gn reader, s1 lore, super soft fluff!!!! also idc if u think its out of charater let me be delulu

he's so babygirl

a very devoted boyfriend (im pretty sure i say that in all my hcs but its true!!)

just so soft and polite and gentle with you aaaaa

doesn't notice just how hard he's fallen for you until he has to be apart from you a long while

such a gentleman, his intentions towards you are always respectful

before you we're offical he had quite the crush on you

sometimes you could notice that cool, calm, witty demeanor of his becoming more bashful and jittery around you

daydreamed a lot about you and your potential future together. what it'd be like to live with you, to start the day by your side, how you'd show affection, how you'd express diffrent emotions, what you'd talk about, your niche interests and quirks— etc

slightly creepy but he did do a bit of research on you to make sure he hit it off with you as best as he could

always says good night and good morning, over text if not in person

just imagine waking up, still cuddling, but with a little distance so he can properly take in your sleepy morning face

him just gazing at you so lovingly, his gentle smile growing a little bigger seeing you open your eyes, then moving one hand from your waist to caress your cheek and murmur "good morning" with his sultry morning voice

GOOD LORDDD

he developed a new-found love for his job when you two started dating cause thanks to it he can properly provide for you

and provide he does

doesn't think you should have to work a day in your life (unless you wanted to)

he'd hate for you to stay at a job you're miserable at

super proud of you for all your accomplishments

when you have to seperate while walking to avoid something in the street, be immediately reaches back to interwine your fingers again

expresses all love languages in some way but 'acts of service' is his main one

amazing at gift giving and romantic gestures

just when you think he can't possibly out-do last year's anniversary/birthday gift he suprises you with something super elaborate and meaningful

absent-mindedly makes origami flowers for you at work. you'll also find them all over your apartment, some hidden, some in plain sight

at some point he started writing messages on them. some with the most loving praise you've ever heard and some w cheesy pickup lines

p.s. he grins ear to ear when he finds out you've got a special box for them all instead of throwing them away

when you're both still a little tired in the morning, or when either of you comes home after a long day, he peppers delicate kisses all over your face, ending with a deeper kiss to your lips

your touch just makes all the headaches of his day-to-day melt away

also takes both your hands and kisses your knuckles while looking at you with all the love and admiration in the world god lord

okay enough with the kissing!

always opens doors for you

compliments you often, and always uses words like stunning or beautiful instead of "hot

loves making you flustered with praise

he's an amazing listener, and he looooves listening to you talk

also, he's quite intense with the eye-contact

he thinks you're the most gorgeos person in the world what can i say

it might seem like he's not paying attention sometimes cause of how lost-in-your-eyes he seems but i assure you he remembers every little thing you say

nods along and hums a little to let you know he's listening

"i remember you said you liked this, so i got it for you" typa guy

you're happy = he's happy

will often sometimes call you to talk about nothing really important, more just for the sake of hearing your voice

and if you're not much of a talker that's fine too, the silent moments you share are never awkward

he's canonically super observant, so if you changed anything about your apperance or if you were in a bad mood he'd notice right away, even if you tried to hide it

great at comfort too, that silky-smooth voice of his knows exactly what to say

he's a very handsome guy (i mean cmon just look at him) so he tends to get hit-on quite a bit

he'd always brushed it off before but ever since he set his sights on you he's been very adamant on very clearly and quickly rejecting others' attempts

when he was making plans to break linc out of prison, a huge amount of his focus went to making sure you were kept safe during the whole process

having you be there from him after news broke and after linc got the death sentence already meant so much to him

so when he trusted you the broad strokes of his plan, and you supported him??? ohmygod this man fell in love with you all over again

yes, he was worried, but he had to tell you, spending days obsessing over prison schematics and getting full body tattoos is rather hard to hide from the love of your life after all

granted, he could have broken up with you and tried to rekindle after he'd escaped, but be fr he could never bring himself to dump you

you never know what may go wrong, and his love for you wasn't exactly a secret, so he took every precaution he could (as in like if someone wanted to harm you cause of your association with him)

he was still super anxious to let go of you

gave you the most passionate and desperate kiss before he went to prison

gets really really homesick for you

calls you whenever he can

would sometimes get teary-eyed from how hard he misses you before falling asleep in his bunk

would lose his mind if something didn't go according to his carefully constructed plan and put you at risk, cause there's not much he can do to control what happens outside foxriver. if t-bag ever found out about you he'd. freak. out.

he's willing to go to great lengths for the people he cares about (it's like the whole plot of the show), so you'd better not play w his beloved

on the rare occasions he has down-time in prison his thoughts always go to you and what you might be up to

he's surrounded by murderers daily and has the gall to be worried about you

sucre would pester him about his love-life a lot. insisting that he recognized yearning in michael's distant expression and saying that no single man could've helped him woo maricruz with that letter (michael writes love letters for you too)

sucre does eventually pull it out of michael and becomes just the biggest supporter of your relationship

this was kinda messy huh

[nakylvr]

Okay I’m glad the truth is coming out because now I must speak. Dani is a straight woman yall. Idk how yall look at the girl and think hardcore masc. none of the kats radiate that energy im so sorry. Like Megan is the closest but that girls just a tomboy. Anyways ending the discussion with Lara, Manon, and Megan are confirmed fruits; Dani is straight, and Sophia idfk she gives flirty straight that confuses you, but her singing “I like women and men” during Monopoly all proud and with a big ass smile threw me off so hard. Anyways I’m here for all the fanfic but let’s not be delulu, Dani is the token straight girl and that’s okay 😔

right, it's okay 🫶

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

@randomexistingthing

so i still haven't learnt most their names [i have a shitty memory-] but theres 3 that i remember being frens with in 7th grade and 1 i remember from grade school [she's part of the 3], she lowkey forces me to study but it's because she cares methinks and she doesn't want me to fail, so thats okay, she's the only one i call a nickname because yes [yaya], i think she might be autistic [the vibe detector], either that or she grew up too fast, also her sister is autistic so theres a higher chance for her, she's kind of emotionally unavailable but i think it's cause family problems [gotta love that arab upbringing], eitherway then theres another girl, she legit matches my energy and she's super nice, kind of like you, except she is also out of pocket and lowkey a bad influence [yaya is 90% of my impulse control and moral compass], eitherway girl 2 is easily distracted liek me and the vibe check says she got adhd except i feel like i project onto people too much so maybe im delulu except she's even more distractable than **me** so it's canon. anyways the third girl *was* kind of a rival/enemy but we chill now, she likes cars and she's actually really talented in art so woa, i still dont talk much to her but she makes a huge effort to talk to me and be nice so im trying as well, she's really improved so im proud of her People used to ship me and yaya in 7th grade and they thought we were dating [????????????????????], nwo that im back in 9th grade it's coming back :'], the thing that is kind of bad abt her is that she is homophobic but that i feel is internalized homophobia cause she is ace/aro [mb both] but she said she didn't want to put that label cause then she'd be 'part of that community'

then theres a bunch of other people who i think like me but i dont *know* know them yet but apparently they remember me and now they're part of the group

[flipitkickit]

uhm so me and my crush may or may not have confessed to eachother….

basically i was at my dt club (he goes too) and one of my male friends comes up to me and tells me that fish told him his crush and that his crushes name starts with a H 😱😱😱 (who could that be i wonder) so i get all embarrassed and overwhelmed and just hide and my friend rose starts laughing her ass off and saying ‘ooooh’ okay and then i just continue with my project (making a wedding dress for a doll from scratch) and go over to the sewing machine to learn how to use it

i turn around and i see fish literally hunting down my male friend (i forgot his codename yk the one dating my girl bff) and i just smile because now ik it’s true.

fast forward to end of the club and i meet up with some of my other close friends and tell them that ‘my crush likes me back omg’ and they went feral

they ran outside to go find him much to my dismay and say ‘FISHHH FISHH H LIKES YOU TOOOOOOOO’ and so i used my loudest voice (pretty loud) and said ‘GUYS SHUT THE FUCK UPPPP’

they start running and i just give up so when i catch up with them i see fish had turned red and my friends were interrogating him. i was so embarrassed so i just say ‘fuck this shit i’m going home’ so i start walking and then my friends just stayed there for a minute even after fish had crossed the road

so i have to run back to get them and i see fish and i just look away and drag my friends with me

so now i’m walking home and texting fish saying ‘i’m so sorry about my friends hope they didn’t embarrass you much’ and i felt rlly bad

he said it’s alright and we just talked a little bit over text

i stop after a while and my friend S is just teasing the shit out of me saying how proud of me she is and how cute we would be together

and when i get home i’m texting my bffs what happened and decide to ask the big question

i texted fish saying ‘uh you have a crush on me right?’ and he said ‘ummm kinda’

he told me how he felt and i decided to just tell him ‘i actually rlly like you but bc we don’t know eachothwr all that well i wanted to wait a bit but my blabbermouth friends made that pretty clear huh?’

we texted for a bit and he told me he’s liked me ever since we started texting and i said ive like him since friday

we both agreed that for now we should just stay as friends and we should just hang out until the time is right

i was like ‘the urge to hug you is too real’ and then we started planning when we would hug (we are friends btw) because we didn’t want my idiot bffs and his friends interfering with it so next week after my club we agreed we would hug goodbye (we’re both delulu asf btw) but that’s so far away

but i’m so inlove with this man rn like i texted him saying ‘byeee xxx’

AND THIS MAN SAYS ‘cya xxx’ OMFG WERE NOT EVEN DATING AND WE ARE STILL HEALTHIER THAN SOME OF THE COUPLES OMG

also i got on that trip and we both agreed that on the way back we could sit next to eachother on the coach

AGAHAGHDNSKJSBSBANMSKFISBWBSB

HELP I READ THE FIRST SENTENCE AND ALMOST SCREAMED?? OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU I KNEW YOU GUYS WERE MEANT TO BE 😍😍 FISHH (<- yalls ship name. I'm so creative aren't i?) 🔛🔝

[liquorisce]

updates and musings from ris-land (lol)

2024 has begun. it began 30 days ago, but i still find myself referring to the past (2023) as 'earlier this year' and all the grandiose plans for the future as 'next year' (2024). i am generally a grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side kind of person so i always start the new year feeling very excited for all the things that i will supposedly accomplish in the coming year that i never truly manage to do. this may sound defeated and cynical, but im not. i am still stupidly hopeful about all the kilos i will shed, the places i will visit (the only type of promise to self i have managed to decently come through on, over all these years), the friends i will make, the stories i will write and finish, the books i will read, the courses i will do.

now into the still-unravelling 30th year of my life, i have still magically sustained this enthusiasm regardless of the empirical evidence that attempts to prove to me otherwise. delulu is the solulu, etc etc. my greatest achievement so far is in making peace with the fact that i will only accomplish about 10% of what i want to do this year, and that it is okay. i occasionally even feel pride about these things, instead of sinking into the incurable feeling of self-loathing and dissatisfaction that was the trademark of my early twenties.

anyway!! on to my grand plans, i love talking about my plans:

this year a couple of us are producing an eremika erotica zine and i am thrilled to bits about this. i do not know the first thing about zine production, but i am carrying along with the hope that enthusiasm for good stories and art will probably result in a final product that readers will enjoy. i will finally, finally, finally, attempt to put forth all my feelings about priest eren and church girl mikasa in a lengthy oneshot that will find its home in the zine.

i will continue exploring boy next door eremika and learn a new way of expressing character dynamics that i am obsessed with, and hopefully finish a story that manages to make my own heart flutter. every story i write is uniquely designed to satisfy me, but bnd is special in that: in all the 40k words in my draft, every single word in its incomplete, chaotic, honesty make me feel terribly emotional. i am proud of this. i am no literary genius, nor am i a quick study, so i have simply been fooling around with words for so many years, in different patterns, trying to figure out what i like and what i don't. i am so happy that now i have figured this out. kind of. a little bit, lol. it also helps that i have extremely smart and talented friends who consume a lot of literature and teach me things. i feel very grateful for this!

i want to return to my romance-novel roots and finish i dreamed i left you, because i know in my heart of hearts that i am trash. i like trashy romance. i want to write trashy romance. (i want to publish one someday, so what better way to start than by finishing the goddamn fic).

amidst all this, frustratingly, an original idea is calling out to me and nagging me like a whiny baby wanting to be heard. i don't ever want any children of my own, so i will probably learn to take care of my original novel at some point. i have 5k+ words so far, but i am at the stage with it where i am so emotionally confronted by it that i cannot look at it for too long without seeing too much of me reflected right back. i generally don't like to write about myself unless it is in very carefully disguised little pieces hidden away amongst several thousands of words, so this is new for me. perhaps this too (personal confrontation, deep introspection, etc) is a turning-30 thing, and i am not ready for it. maithreyi and veena (the main characters of my book), however, seem ready for their story to be told, so we are currently figuring out this disagreement. maybe my goal for this year will be to "figure it out." we'll see.

unfortunately, however, i cannot afford for writing to be the center of my life, even though sometimes i delude myself into thinking so, so i have other goals that feel less negotiable because of time pressures and expectations from loved ones, or for the basic truth that i still consider them more 'important' / 'tangible' than my writing goals. (i just let out, a huge, disappointed sigh.) these goals include: developing fluency over the national language of the country where i reside, doing some culture and language exams for integration, and seriously contending with the fact that i might give up the nationality of the country that i was born and raised in. again, i have feelings about this that i haven't fully processed, but frustration with the religious and communal politics of my country remind me that sentimentality for belonging may not be worth it. the gap between what the world (the west) considers as a developed nation and a developing nation is too vast and i dont see it being overcome in the prime of my life. if the privilege of belonging (at least on paper) to a developed nation is so closely within my reach, then it seems only smart to grab it with both hands. but feelings are not smart, they are powerful. so we will see how everything plays out. i will hurtle towards these goals because it is what the child-me wanted. it feels simpler to think of it that way.

i'm not sure anyone is really reading this lengthy ass post, but if you are, i wish you a wonderful 2024. <3

[bellysoupset]

i’ve been acting delulu about the whole wen+vin fight that we all knew was coming up, kinda like completely ignoring it was a thing and all your warnings bc im #notemotionallystrong and i liked pretending it wasn’t gonna happen to cope <3333 BUT AHHHHH after this last fic IM LITERALLY FULL ON SOBBING (IN PUBLIC) WHAT THE FUCKKKK SOUP😭😭😭 you’re so mean (lovingly) 😩 FR IM SO SAD I LOVE MY BABIES SO MUCH THIS IS AWFUL BUT ALSO THE FIGHT WAS SO WELL WRITTEN😭 AND LIKE SO UPSETTING AND UNCOMFY BC OF HOW REAL IT FELT idk how to explain it but it’s like hearing my parents (aka my best friends who’ve been together forever LOL) fight LMAO sobbing 😩😩😩 and also OMG I AUDIBLY GASPED AND HAD TO LOOK AWAY WHEN I READ THE PHONE NOTIFICATIONS THING AND REALISED IT WAS LEO’S TEXT like if there was a terrible way to find out it was THIS 😭😭😭😭😭 BABY GIRL THINKING EVERYONE HAS KNOWN FOR MONTHS???? AND THEN VIN SO DESPERATELY TRYING TO EXPLAIN HIMSELF???? AND JUST TALK??? (a lil too late tho buddy but also I GET IT GOSHHHH) AND THEN BOTH SOBBING GODDDD I CANT I CANT this is so devastating amazing job boo‼️

OMG AND ALSO THE OTHER FICS? i hadn’t commented on them bc i was waiting for this one to react to everything but GODDAMN????? LUKE POOR BUB all feverish spilling everything??? and their reactions🥺🥺🥺🥺 (also side note jon so worried about luke was beautiful and i enjoyed it very much🤭) and OMG leo’s guilt about not noticing the depression symptoms 😩 and the whole thing w bella and kit GOSH I WANT TO PUNCH HIM IN THE FACE HES SUCH AN ASSHOLE‼️

BUT ANYWAYS GOING BACK TO MY BABIES RAAAAAHHHHH I NEED WEN AND VIN TO BE OKAY omfg IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH FOR THIS😭😭 you’re so good at writing angst tho like goddamn i’m still crying and will probably continue to cry about this 😩😭 they need to be okay 🕯️🕯️🕯️🕯️ also i know you said you were nervous about luke and wen’s storyline and im SO CURIOUS and excited to read‼️ im sure whatever you choose to do with them is gonna be amazing and you know we all have a beautiful love/hate relationship w angst so i have a feeling we’re gonna eat it up!! (which we will do regardless bc your writing and storytelling is always wonderful!!!)

sending a snotty sobby virtual hug to all my babies and a strong virtual punch to kit <33333

🦦

ANSWERING THIS SO LATE THAT VIN/WENDY ARE BACK TOGETHER I'M SORRYYYY

I'm actually cackling at you acting delulu because I remember I dropped many MANY hints of the Wendy/Vince break up and you were in my inbox completely ignoring them and me thinking "damn, am i being too subtle???"

Its so funny (and terrible) to be answering this late, because I can totally say the things I was nervous about. So ORIGINALLY Vin/Wendy didnt get back together, they actually broke it off for good and Wendy feeling very isolated from her friend group relapsed in her eating disorder.

But then Wendy kinda girl bossed her way into getting back with Vince, which was not planned, AND opened up to Bella, that was also not planned at all. So I scrapped that storyline! I still want to do something with her E.D, I remember I got an ask ages ago that was something like "Wendy refuses to eat because she's feeling queasy, Vince thinks she relapsed and tries to push her, only to have it come back up and he realizes she's actually sick", so I'll probably write that! A more mild version of what I originally had in mind!

And I'm SORRY i'm a terrible person but I'm sooo proud of myself for making you cry in public. I need a blog badge just for that #angster

Love you 🦦!

[sixosix]

girl (/gn) i totally get you esp about being a xiao kisser.. like?? imagine being so down bad for your main but you can barely write him as good as you do for the rest of your faves :')) BUT BRO (/gn) I SERIOUSLY LOOOOVE ALL YOUR FICS!! the moment i found you, binged each n every one >:)) it's okay, xiao will find his time to shine, so much so that you'll feel super proud once it happens.

ANYWHOOOO!! here is the brainrot that i got, i really hope that i sent this at a good time, otherwise feel free to just let this float away~ (also i'm so, so hooked by thawed. lyney had absolutely no right to be so delulu over the reader- I LEGIT GIGGLED WHEN LYNETTE SAID PROPOSED TO THE READER COME AWNNN!!! lyney, honey, i will shake you by the shoulders.)

promise by laufey, right?

i personally think this song has such a very.. hurt, hurt, hurt, comfort and then more hurt, but at last, comfort vibe. it fits both boys - both lyney and aether. they are so magnificent, shining brightly on their own- one on a stage and the other across nations. pulling away from them hurts like a bitch, because their love felt like a warm embrace that burned like a bandage each time you tried to yank away.

being with them was like heaven. being with them brought you the kind of joy that eternal paradise would supply. being with them .. archons, being with them felt like their mere presence could shelter you away from the darkness of the world.

and it hurts to be something.

because being with them meant danger. meant arguments- ones that neither of you can win. it spelled disaster with each wound, and caused misery with each day left alone to one's devices. being with them meant that you were forced to watch your stunning significant other play a perfect part in a life you don't think you fit- oh, you've done the math. there was no solution, and there was no way to force you — a mere extra puzzle piece — to fit their masterpiece.

yet it's worse to be nothing with them.

ok n then that's the end of my brainy brainrot.. the second last verse in the song:

So I broke my promise

I called you last night

I shouldn't have, I wouldn't have

If it weren't for the sight of a boy

Who looked just like you

Standing out on Melrose Avenue

can you imagine just how beautiful it would be to imagine a scene where you taught you mistook the sight of the one closest to your heart, and in an act of desperation and longing, you try to hurry and contact them. shaky hands and shivering figure, your heart practically weeping with overdue worry and grief of your past relationship, only to find them also looking for you- as if it was fate. clinging to each other and pouring your hearts out into the only two souls that could hear you two.

AHHH THAT'S IT THOO,,, hope you didn't mind the brainrot, i totally really just "hm user sixosix would very much enjoy this idea methinks" BUT I DID NOT PLAN THIS OUT VERY WELL. hope you're having a good day, afternoon, evening, night!! ❤️

HI!!! i see ur reblogs a lot so its rlly rlly nice to see u interacting more and more often! :D im soso happy u like thawed. that series is my baby. ALSO its rlly cute u thought id like this idea BC I DO!!! wow. U get me.

your writing is soso pretty :( ITS POETRY!!! i love it and how u captured the feel of the song (which is just pain) and the “you were forced to watch your stunning significant other play a perfect part in a life you don't think you fit” OHHH!!! thats the shit i live for. realizing that you dont fit in w the life he lives in. Pain.

what i think is that this song fits aether the most !!! OUUUGHH you knowing that aether has to leave teyvat eventually but u cant help but long for him THATS THE GOOD SHIT “we’ll never last / why can’t i let go of this?”

“i made a promise to distance myself” BC u know that you have to stop caring so u dont get hurt when he leaves!!!!’

this song is beyond perfect tysm for sharing this w me!! Ough now i may end up writing this and blame it on you bc its so perfect 😭😭😭

[onlyjaeyun]

small print? yeah it was rly small almost invisable LMAOOO :(( its okay i can also live in delulu universe where uhmmmmmm yn is the ONE taking care of hee in a way that makes him dizzy from the love he feels, i would say they are taking a shower (after hee spent all afternoon sleeping,crying and being anxious post panic attack madness ) and he is still so vulnerable, so the moment yn is there soaping him up, sofly washing his hair, touch him delicately, and whispering how well his is doing, how she loves him and how proud she is of him, seung loses it, he is so overwhemled with love his ears ring for a sec and he feels lightheaded, he thanks the heavens yn is here, finally, cuz his heart is at peace efijdsjksldjkz !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh this made me pout so much and am definitely going to keep this in mind for future chapters 🥺 just them laying in bed after their shower, none of them saying a word as seung continues to cry into y/n's neck and holding her as close to himself as physically possible. he doesn't say a word because not only is he unable to but he actually doesn't even know what to say because his brain is so exhausted and his chest so filled with love and peace he simply can't think. all the times he had to deal with the aftermath of his panic attacks by himself he'd wish for her to be there and there she is now, holding him in her arms and reminding her that everything will indeed be okay and him not doubting her for a second im gonna CRY

[jillaxkalangg]

8, 24, 25, 36, 39, 40 :)

(8) Talk about the thing you are most proud of

i answered this already hehe

(24) Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot

i remember the day of nov 2023 cele results were released. my name wasn't on the list and the first person i cried to was my sister. nagsabi ako sa kanya how tired i was and how disappointed i was with myself because of that. and she said that she believes that i am meant for bigger things that's why hindi pa binibigay yung mga bagay na gusto ko. it feels like God is preparing me for greater things, bigger than i asked and prayed for. from that day, i always believe that i meant for something bigger, bigger than what i wanted

(25) Talk about an ex-bestfriend

i can't call her an ex-bestfriend kasi we're still friends naman haha but she was my one of my closest friends during junior high school. let's just say that we outgrew each other. after jhs, i went to other univ for senior high while she stopped kasi they'll migrate to australia the same year. at first, palagi kami naguusap, vcs and chat ganon, we keep on updating each other with one's ganap until she didn't reply anymore and i'm too busy to reach out. yung dating every day messages, nawala na until bati na lang every birthday and holidays na lang. until one time i had a dream and she was there, medyo iffy ako kaya i messaged her and we talked again. i told her i felt guilty kasi i didn't reach out but she understand that we are now completely living in two different country and it happens. we are now okay and i am happy to see her enjoying her life in aus! we also met last 2023 :)

(36) Talk about your guilty pleasures

i enjoy watching tarot card reading tapos maniniwala na para sakin ang reading na yon hahahaha ang delulu lang! plus doomscrolling on tiktok 🙂‍↕️ something i'm not proud of but hey its super entertaining hahahahaha

(39) Talk about you things wish you'd known earlier

i hope i realized sooner that things will turn out just fine and i don't need to rush things!!! i need to chill because good things always happen to those who wait <3

i always rush things kasi feeling ko palagi na naiiwan at nahuhuli ako when i'm not and i'm just on the right track of my life. i keep on hating myself for being left behind hehe and i keep on self sabotaging because of that. i can't enjoy the present because of feeling na lahat sila nasa finish line na pero ako wala pa sa gitna, gets nyo ba haha. so to my 23-year old self, im sorry you have to feel that way and i'm trying to enjoy the present moment

(40) Talk about the end of something in your life

oh.. it's the fun of being a fangirl during pandemic years :( i have always loved being a fangirl! yung giddy feeling whenever your ult group updates or comeback season! kahit yung interactions between mga fans din, talking about the same love we have for our idols 🥹 the excitement kapag may lapag and the kilig kapag may posts sila and of course, the album unboxing and pulling out the photocards??? its a chefs kiss experience!!! i love how i feel so loved by my ult group back then AAAAAH good old days :( but it all died down when Mashiho left Treasure. literal na a part of me died too, as an oa??? hahahahaha but bigla nawala sparks ng fangirling sakin. sure i still listen to them but hindi na ko nag aabang sa mga posts nila or what, parang instantly nawalan ako ng gana (thankfully seventeen saved me from the sadness) and i stopped listening to them for almost a year :) that's how affected i am

but i still support and listen to their songs kasi they are such a great performers! i love them still pero di ko na kaya maging active kasi i still feel sad whenever i think of my og boys haha tho i'm happy for their growth and how they grew so much from being a rookie last 2020. i outgrew them but i still love and adore them, and they will always be part of my youth

hi! sorry very late na to kasi i need energy to yap and compose these chikas hahaha thank u bb!!! happy holidays ✨

[k-kizkhalifa]

episode 9 --

damn shion is a poet. i also think homie is a sad boy. :( does he need help?

LMFAO AT THEM MAKING A CONTRACT. TO HANG OUT. BRO.

shion: this is not how i expected a relationship to go me: you're not wrong. they never go the way we plan darling.

rei showing up. lmfao. shion: i called him trash. rei: whats good boyfriend?

also calling your bf senpi?! ugh please stop.

oh the moment. rei catching him. LOL SHION IS IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY.

DMAN REI STAKING HIS CLAIM. MY BOY. (alright i am losing some anger) d'aw at the waving. smh.

his roommate is kirito. LOL KIRITO RUNNING AWAY FROM THIS DISASTER RELATIONSHIP.

shion: ARE YOU JEALOUS?! (EYES) rei: no.

lol shion dreaming about the "dirty".

oh shion don't start questioning your worth baby. please dont. you're too young to question your worth.

O-OOH DO I GET TO SEE HISASHI?! NOW? They're headed to the second years. PLZ. oh no it's just ichikawa. OH BUT THERE IS MAO. hi bby love. *waves*

oh no kirito getting upset. shion ugh you should have done that differently. ughhh. damn kirito GOING OFFFFFFFFFFFFF. HURTING HIM WHERE IT HURTS! (did that make sense?!)

how did rei find him? how did rei know he was there?! what is happening????? is rei keeping tabs on him!?

uhoh is rei making a move? why does this feel weird??? i just feel like this is weird. okok lemme pause. i need to get my thoughts straight on this.

ohkay. so idk rei asked him out bc "anyone will do" rei "doesn't care" and maybe that is true, who knows. we'll find out. and shion just wanted a "hot" bf and so on.. and after he finds out how rei is he is like, "i'll change him" but then his thoughts show that he's just gonna stay with him until someone hotter comes along.

idk if he told kirito this or not??? i am not sure. i think there is at least some inkling of shion liking rei, or he wouldn't get so upset over rei ignoring him and so on. but also, im not bad at kirito, guys, i think at some point someone had to say it to this delulu kid. maybe he shouldn't have said, "its not like you even like him" but i mean, he's not wrong about the other stuff. shion is deffo in outter space with this shit. alright hot take over.

i think we're about to learn about rei and, i pray, shion pays attention.

ughhhhhhhhhh why are these two having a moment, and rei is being a supportive bf and then shion... oh shion. starts panicking about being alone with him. shion plz darling i am triyng to give you the benefit of the doubt my guy.

lmfao rei --- I BLUSHED FOR SHION WHEN YOU PULLED YOUR SHIRT UP. GOODNESS GRACIOUS YOU BEAUTIFUL MAN. (no i am not giving up on hisashi, i am just appreciating beauty as it is!)

ah SHION MAKING YOUR FRIENDSHIP BETTER. i am proud of you darling.

OKAY DO I GET A HISASHI MOMENT?! please please please (i am in tears with withdrawal.) alskjfa;;;;;kjfalskjdf THERE HE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I SCREAMED. NOT THE MAO MOMENT. OMG HISASHI ON THE BUILDING. THE WIND. BABY YES OWN IT. AH MAO HELPING HIM UP. DAW I NEEDED THIS MOMENT. (and no i didn't listen to a single thing shion said. i just enjoyed my hisashi and mao. im sorry. sue me. i am not rewatching the scene bc it won't matter.)

[weatheredcoffeecup]

Hello, ❤️🧡 anon here! Okay, but did you read my mind or something, I was completely bored and thought "Omg it would be amazing if my ship is answer," and again OMG you have me kicking my feet why is the answer so good and accurate!? First, I was giggling SO hard because Sungchan is my bias in riize, I love him since the 2020 era. He is my pretty boy, and I can help but be so proud of him. You are not the first who told me because of my personality he would be protective towards me, and the little scenario? Childhood friends to lovers? I always wanted to have a childhood friend, but I didn't have luck, so I don't have one, so this melt my heart BAD. Sounds like my perfect delulu scenario.

Let's go with Jaemin, I grew up listening to nct, so at some point, I started to stop being biased, I support all of them, but everytime I try to have a bias, Jaemin came to my mind, I just think our energies will match well, I think he is the kind of men who would enjoy feed his gf with his food, so

your scenario >>>> omg

Lastly, Felix okay I think this will be so funny hahaha idk I think Chan would be so flustered and at the same time reconsidering his life decisions with me dating Felix. I know SKZ since their debut, in the beginning Han was my bias, but then as nct I stopped be biased. I support all of them.

I love all the members in this groups and mostly people didn't believe me I don't have a bias in nct dream and skz, but it's like "I grew up with them and I wish ALL of them well, so whoever is perfect for me." The scenarios were just in point, and actually, Sungchan is the only one in my favorite groups who I define like my bias. So, you choosing him have me blushing.

Your scenarios were super pretty. Thank you so much 🧡❤️

Ya you know im a mind reader actually lol 💅

But shut UP you're literally so sweet 😭😭 I'm glad you liked it so much! And Jaemin just makes so much sense like... I knew imedietly. It's just meant to be ig~

And I agree, watching them all grow and become such talented artists is incredible. I've been a stay since day 1 and the past years of my GOD. I'm so unbelievably proud of them and how far they've come. They deserve the whole universe

Sungchan also just made so much sense. I hope one day you really do find a guy like him ♡♡ it sounds like you deserve it

[hardfeeling505]

All about her

This story is about my experience became friend with someone i accidentally met on random tiktok live and i asking her to be FRIEND MOOTS

her nickname idk, i just call her M, she is the oldest child, from what i see she is a very good big sis to her younger sis(her sister is so lucky to have u M).height 5'4 feet in cm its like 162.56 (she told me how else i know😐)born on September something 2005. I thought i'm going to jail man😐 but i born on 2001 so it okay, thanks God for that✊ (im a little bit cooked tbh i'm on a thin ice right back there😔) she a Filipino Canadian Girl, raised in Alberta , Edmonton , Canada. It take about 24hr 45 min flight from my place. One day i hope for to meeting her in person😤,even though i know its not gonna happen(just me being delulu).

Actually, i want to witness the flower bloom in spring with my own eyes + Also meeting my buddy. She told me her province is known for Grand Prairie’s and stuff, it's like a full green land and have so many lake ,as i recall there also a moutain (6 hours ride from her home) bcs she told me that there is so many wild flower will bloom when it spring season. I bet the view is so beautiful, you know nature and beautiful, a word that can't be separated, and yes always beautiful + watching with her? Bro!! i gotta prepare insulin injection bcs i might got sick from all those sweet moment with her

(🗣️📢🔥🔥🔥this is not a pickup line).

Other thing about her.She is one of the lactose intolerant victim , can't drink or eat anything contain dairy stuff ,only almond milk. She told me she can't eat corndog ,poor her.😭 Bro!! i eat corndog like i cant even count how much i eat.When she say that , i wish i can give her a hug but must keep it halal (yes i'm a muslim). Furthermore, i like like like it when she go suddenly share random fact about her ,one example of it "i hate energy drink" and "im just got choke from reading your comment bro" , she so random Bro that is one of her charm and i loving it (as a buddy ofc)

And one moment, my dumbass go tell her to try drink banana milk, After re-read my chat i go Oof what have i done😐. I genuinely want to kick myself for that I'm so sorry M forgive me please i think i half asleep at that moment not thinking straight. 🙏 (im doom can't think of any better excuses Help😔)

Also the so CUTE impression of her i can't hold myself to tease her😭(im cooked). SO STRONG INFJ VIBE FR. There is one morning we chatting about breakfast , she say she making a toast bread, I ask her "M you eating the bread with what? peanut butter?" and she answer "i eat it with banana and something" , then i say "i like banana too" for real i like banana💯. Then, i saw my opportunity to tease her and i took it😭, i start with asking her "u know what i like too?" ,she reply "what?" , it might seem crazy what gonna say, i with my full consciousness say " i like strawberry jam, strawbewwy jam is so✨✨" , and she reply with "Oooh" then "okay". I feel like a bad guy at that moment but man she so cute i cant resist it I am so sorry M forgive me🙏😔. (i want to do it again frfr)

She going into Nursing then paramedics like ambulance people, praying for her to achieve her dream, Amin .Please God give her All the strength she need bcs im so far away from her🤲.(Proud for her Bro as buddy ofc).She enjoy work out so much (i like it too💯), consider it her hobby for now.She like to say LOL a lot i know everyone does but her LOL is different for me (dont attack me).

One more thing i like about her is her habits to explain to me about something until i truly understand, her effort Bro!!. (she like to express her feeling by put it all in her writing). I swear i will like and always read everything she wrote man like i feel like my eyes and brain (my whole life existance) is created by god to read her essay man, to listen to her. I literally crying right now while writing this. thank god i not writing this on paper man.She so precious to me Bro!!! like very unreal to me and i dont deserve to get to know her, to good to be true.

(Pls read this one paragraph below while listen to Everygreen by Richy Mitch & The Coal Miners trust me)

one moment , i talk to her about snow (we like to talk about random stuff) anyways it go like this i ask " M, is it spring there?" she answer "it still winter season " , after that i told her "i like winter but i like to see flower bloom in spring more" , and she start telling me all of her life experience living in 4 season, after that we caught in deep talk moment it for like forever for me (it feel long for me) It so beautiful man talking to her, its healing me. Then the sentence hit me.I dont want to lose her as a buddy ofc(she already on a somewhat relationship).

- her Twice bias is dahyun meanwhile mine is sana

- her Aespa bias is karina(same as me)

- her Nmixx bias is lily(same twice) Do you see there is a sign here.

Finally we are here thank for staying with me on this journey,The Main Topic is her MBTI😤

A Beautiful yet So Soft INFJ personality ,i have so much interest in this mbti man,you know this type of mbti is so rare. I am shooketh yes my jaw drop ahh so cringe but it is frfr when she told me her mbti i am so shock Lol, i never found this type before all of my friend male/ female is always started with E and end with J or some case started with I and end with P, what i want to say is it so weird to me this type of MBTI INFJ. It so UNIQUE thats the word .Don't want to be so hype talking to her so i tried to cover with "oh idk u were an I" meanwhile me talking to myself ofc she an I you dummy she like nature and stuff also she admire cat ☝️😃 Also it her fav animal. (i bet you 100 dollar she will pat every cat she bypass)

About her song taste is interesting .Quite similar to me or just the same genre?🤔 As expected from her MBTI type. Her fav song is My Love Mine All Mine by Mitski (this song is PERFECT just like her)😤 *i want to cry again bro. She has 39K+ minutes streaming on spotify for this song ALONE (she told me). JUST FOR 39k MINUTES ??? THE SONG IS IN YOUR BLOOD GIRL FRFR . It Mother Mitski song never ever doubted her song✊). One statement from M. "I actually have 209k minutes of listening to music on Spotify😌"

I want to ask her ig so bad Bro!!! or anything that can i use to reach/contact her others from tiktok. i can't use my sticker that the main reason, all my hilarious meme collection relatable go to waste and also i'm a coward.

Something i truly get hurt from is the fact she have anxiety/panic attack(she frequently got stomachache).I really want to know how to pleasant or calming her, tbh i try search and read many article about anxiety, unfortunately ,i don't find any effective ways just some drinking water and stuff like that😔. Even though i suffer from same thing but i too don't know any tips.Maybe try go to therapy session like me once a week?(its not working for me my therapist just want my money i know it not that right Mr Lim? you scammer he is chinese).Article nowadays is unhelpful.

I think i just like her personality or am i? or im just too easy to catching feeling (maybe its true). It just a phase i guess i will get over it😌

Sorry i forgot to put her Newjeans bias(her ultimate Gir Group). Her bias is Kang Kaerin😸 , i agree with her Kang Haerin is so cute but She more cuter to me ahh i wish i could tell her this, what a coward i am. Ofc bcs they share the same Mbti INFJ (she like her so much, i bet her photo album of Kang Haerin is more than 500+ pic). Her bias wrecker is Danielle🐶(my bias), YES if you notice there is pattern here.If you a Bunnies, DaeRin Friendship you will get it what i mean. Also i make a Favorite Collection on my tiktok profile for her, I know i know, it nothing but i should do something for her. The Title "For Her , yep U" . I remember creating it 3 day after meet her, and ofc as buddy nothing personal. My tiktok name is Newjeans Haerin (cactus name)🥕 on her Jean'Zine solo vlog.

Btw I'm an INFP My MBTI ,funny right?

About my MBTI there is story too🤟.

Before the covid, i take the MBTI test between 2018-2019 i'm still in college back then and My first MBTI test result is ENFP. Fyi, i'm quite not shy person. Main reason, 2nd child curse?. i believe this is so true My family always ignore me frfr😭 but i know deep down of their heart they still care or maybe bcs“ i'm annoying "ahh kinda kid back then, I like hugging them, its that wrong?😃 that not a crime and i am still kid. I think clingy is the word😌🤟.Don't blame me, since birth i'm like this (im cooked)

After Covid, between 2023 year i retake the test the reason is i notice that my social skill is gone ,maybe bcs im live alone. Literally, It was like i scare to talk , i'm worry that someone will judge me when i approach them. I hate anxiety bro!! My condition is so bad at some point i can't breath normally , it like my chest is so full, i took various antistress pill(i stop taking them now) this entire pain after years not talking much to someone, only my cat Lol, i love my cat he so cute like frfr😭 his name is kuromi. he a black cat with yellow eye + he like hugging me,he is the only creature that like back when i hug😭 the other half of me. About friend i have friends so many friends but i don't usually contact them by phone or online its just me, i prefer go meet them , stop by for a drink like that , Face to face Obviously before covid what harm can happen to you by doing outdoor activity?get hit by car? actually that is harmful.Super harmful actually, really what the dangerous thing could happen to you? got sick from fever? Back then even social anxiety scare to me😔. Yeah i know what u thinking My friend when don't like the idea i want to hug them too , that not a new things to me i'm just joking 😔(im not).Frfr i have so many friends. It so easy to make friends Bro!! like just go talking to someone new i don't see any problem at all . It just 2 human talking like .

you=>🧍🏻talking🧍🏻<=me

Agree with me Dangerous Virus is just a myth before covid-19 exist, its like a movie title Bro so dumb. Just a small dumb virus ruining my life.

Continue my story about mbti test , i retake it, the result come out, and i got the INFP BRO!!☹️ as expected ,yeah the E is gone. Untill now i still not retake the test but im 💯 sure the E is back bcs starting this year at my workplace i slowly not slowly tbh Lol, easily can approach people now bro like frfr, i think i enjoy talking to people back , i like listen to them. i know what u think the hugging thing i can control it now.Bro i'm a grownass man now😭 (i still like hugging but not other gender keep stay halal). Maybe i should consider retake the test again this year🤔.Overall For who reading this now.Thank You Very Much For spend your time reading my yapping essay about someone who already i lost contact with. My conclusion is, Heals Really Take Time FRFR,you just has to trust the process.

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side note : i type all this while listen to her fav song on loop, I'm not good at writing essay unlike her, sorry for all grammatical error or miss place, word conjunction. Thanks all for the memory M. Hope ur doing Great Now.