#ILL WIN TRUST

[funnyjokespunperson]

you reblogged my post. now we have to fight to the death. /j

challenge accepted come at me /j

[s0fter-sin]

ghost fucking soap so hard and so good he passes out but he utterly panics about it

he thinks he must’ve ignored soap asking to stop; was it pain that made him pass out? how bad could it have been to make him pass out when he’s been shot and kept going? should he bring him to medical? he’ll never touch him again, he’ll never so much as look at him again; he’ll ask for a transfer- fuck that, a dishonourable discharge. there’s no coming back from this

he spirals, guilt chasing hatred chasing despair chasing fear, until soap finally wakes back up

soap's still floating, loose-limbed and buzzing; fucked so thoroughly out of his head that it takes him a while to notice ghost isn't in bed with him anymore. he frowns, lifting a heavy head off the pillow and freezes. ghost's on the other side of the room, curled up tight in the corner as far away from soap as he could get without leaving him alone

(he would've left, would've made sure soap never had to see his face again and be reminded of what he did to him, of the monster he’d let into his bed- but he couldn't just leave him unconscious; what if he didn't wake up, he had to make sure he was safe first even if he'll rightfully hate him forever when he does wake up)

soap's voice when he calls out to him makes him flinch, his head burying deeper in his knees. cold worry chases the bliss from his blood and soap pushes himself up but his shaking arms can't hold his weight

the sound of him collapsing back onto the bed makes ghost rear up, his panic growing and soap's heart breaks at his red rimmed eyes

it takes a long time for soap to coax him back to the bed, countless loops of, "sweetheart, please, come here, what happened? it's okay, everything’s going to be okay.”

(and how ghost’s self-hatred grows hearing soap comforting him; hearing the concern and love in his voice when he doesn’t deserve a drop of it)

it takes even longer for ghost to believe soap when he says that he passed out because he felt so good; that he never asked ghost to stop, never wanted him to stop. that he trusts him more than anything and knows he'd rather die than ever hurt him, especially like that

“you’re not a monster, love,” he promises, soft with conviction and it’s as much a surrender as a relief when he collapses into his lap and lets him hold him close

ghost believes johnny but he still can't bring himself to be intimate with him for a while; that fear still haunting him, but soap doesn't hold it against him, doesn't complain about ghost's perceived "step back" in their relationship

hell, ghost seems to hate it more than he does; he misses being with soap, misses the connection, the closeness they shared, the safety and quiet he found in his embrace, but he's always trusted soap more than he trusts himself

soap doesn't let him be consumed by his fear or worse, sabotage them and turn it into a punishment; doesn't let him even get through the suggestion of switching because he knows how much he hates it and he won’t let him twist something as good and pure as their physical love into something self-harming

instead, he brings them back to the basics, working through the steps to get ghost comfortable with intimacy again, to get him to trust himself again; spends happy months just grinding and exchanging handjobs like when their relationship first started

and it's a happy day for them both when soap finally falls apart on his cock once again, anxiety the farthest thing from ghost's mind when his arms are wrapped so tightly around him, kissing a smile against his lips

[perfectlycleverduck]

can't even count how many times i've said i love bernie collins in the past 3 hours, my dream is that Carlos magically becomes a wdc and then pursues being a team principal i can assure that whatever team he'll manage will flourish, his awareness at 300km/hr is so beautiful to listen to on his onboards, he is so aware to the point that Ferrari go and ask him before being assured that a particular strategy is a good choice or not...and you still expect me to listen to your bs that his a horrible teammate?! without his strategic awareness and him just being there ferrari would have 5 less race win🤷🏾‍♀️

[wewerebornsextuplets]

magic school au bitsydittles.... since theyre both very smart they got into an honors program that puts them in the same classes as the 18!matsus 😙

[splatattackz]

staring at the ceiling thinking about "i'm a fool. but ive got a big heart. so its okay." for the 193893829917th time since it was said.

[k-kaez]

(its 4am and genuinely the stream is so lagging that im just gonna sleep now)

X IS SO CUTE 😭😭😭 LIKE IDK HIS ACCENT MAKES HIM SOUND SO CUTE I LOVE IT (WHEN I WAKE UP, THEY'LL WIN #FORXISUMA)

[mantarobin]

every rr episode I just tap my foot and go "can I make this about seer"

Look at my son how could you hate him

[3x0t1clibra]

the honorary seasonal, everyone

ill fight them if i had the chance

[strawhatghost]

One day I'm gonna win the IDGAF war and talk about my OC x Canon artwork and completed fics, but today is not that day unfortunately

[apollotronica]

being an entp is so embarrassing bro

[carcarrot]

i lied i did watch the oscars

[todayisafridaynight]

mine only having one render ever is still the funniest shit in the universe like that one singular render from 2009 has been carrying this fucker through what little merch he can get AND now multiple games at this point

[iniziare]

Re-tag drop: Yelan

[lotussokka]

the problem with the official vogue met gala livestream is that they interview outrageously famous celebrities instead the minor celebrity i care about

[swordmaid]

my win streak in the weapon banner btw 💁‍♀️