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That's a lot of blood | Arsenal WFC x Reader
5k celebration prompt: "That's a lot of blood."
Woso masterlist | Words: 1k
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The match was intense, the kind where every step, tackle, and shot felt like it could make or break the game. The crowd roared in the background, but you barely heard it, your focus narrowed to the field in front of you.
The opposition broke through your team’s line of defense, the ball sailing over the top. A one-on-one with the keeper was the last thing you wanted in a game like this. You pushed yourself to sprint back, muscles burning, and made the only choice you could: throw your body down for a tackle.
Your timing was perfect. The ball ricocheted off your foot and away from danger. But the striker tripped over you, her cleat catching your thigh as she fell. It all happened so fast that you didn’t process it until the sharp pain hit, like a knife slicing through your leg.
“Jesus.” Katie’s voice broke through your haze as she ran to your side. She dropped to her knees, her hands instantly on your shoulders as you tried to sit up. “Stay down.” Her tone was softer than you were used to from her on the pitch. “Trust me, that is not something you want to see.”
Your brows furrowed in confusion. “What do you mean?” The panic very present in your voice. Before Katie could answer, Manu’s voice piped up from behind you. “That’s a lot of blood.”
Your eyes widened, and your stomach churned. Blood? That wasn’t a good sign. “Nice going, now she’s scared.” Katie snapped, glaring at the goalkeeper. It was well known within the team that you didn’t handle blood well. Let alone your own blood covering your thigh.
“Right, sorry!” Manu kneeled down beside you. “It’s not that bad. Really.” You shot her a look, “You can’t say that right after you say there is a lot of blood. Those two do not work together!”
Katie chuckled at your comment, but quickly gathered herself to be there for you. Everything seemed to move in slow motion, the seconds dragging on as you lay there waiting for the medics to arrive.
The pain in your leg throbbed, and you felt the warm fluid in your leg. Your shorts sticking to your leg even more than before.
Then curiosity got the better of you, and you glanced down. A mistake. “Oh god.” Your face turned pale as you saw how much blood was covering your leg. You couldn’t even see the wound anymore.
A wave of nausea washed over you. Lotte, who had been hovering nearby, quickly knelt by your side. She gently pushed your shoulders back to the ground. “Hey, don’t look at that. You’re going to be okay. It’s not as bad as it seems. Just focus on me, alright?”
Her calm demeanor steadied you slightly, though your breathing was still shallow. The medics finally arrived, gauze and gloves in hand. You flinched as they applied pressure to the wound, the sting making tears spring to your eyes.
“Just breathe,” Lotte said, her voice soothing as she wiped dirt and grass from your face. “In through your nose, out through your mouth. You’ve got this.”
Katie took your hand in hers, squeezing it tightly. “Don’t make me show you how to breathe,” she teased, a playful glint in her eye despite the situation.
Her joke makes you chuckle. “See, you’re doing just fine.”
One of the medics looked up after inspecting your leg. “Good news, it’s not too deep. You’ll just need a few stitches.”
You sighed in relief, though the idea of stitches made your stomach twist. “A few stitches isn’t so bad.” You said out loud, trying to convince yourself.
Katie’s smirk appeared again. “Yeah, and chicks dig scars. You’ll find a girlfriend in no time now.” With a roll of your eyes you tell her that she’s awful. “If I’m awful, then why are you still holding my hand?” You stared at her deadpan. “Annoying too.”
Lotte shook her head at the two of you, a small smile on her lips. “You’re impossible, both of you.”
The medics wrapped your leg and helped you to your feet, with Katie and Lotte supporting you on either side. The trip to the tunnel was a blur, and before you knew it, you were sitting in the medical room with a couple stitches, a fresh bandage and crutches.
When you finally hobbled out to the bench, the game was nearing its end. The team checked on you, their faces a mix of concern and relief. You assured them you were fine, and that they could stop worrying about you.
The final whistle blew, and you looked up just in time to see Leah running your way with a grin on her face. “Scored that goal for you.” The team on the bench had informed you that Leah had scored off a corner just before you had made your way back.
You shook your head with a chuckle. “You so didn’t.”
She wrapped her arm around your shoulder. “Okay, maybe not.” She admitted, “But I am dedicating it to you. End of story.”
It didn’t take you long to get used to the crutches, so you joined the team on your round around the stadium, taking pictures with fans and signing their jersey’s and signs.
You noticed that no matter where you went, one of the girls was keeping an eye on you. While you appreciated their support, you were not looking forward to being babysat for the next few weeks while your leg was healing.
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Would you be willing to write about a gender neutral human reader that views Ratchet as a father figure? :)
—Father Figure
ratchet x gn! human reader
oh my gosh you have no idea how excited i got when i saw a request LMAO. i have never done one of these before so i apologize if this isn’t what you wanted..
ratchet as your father figure on the lost light can either be bothersome or absolutely fun. there is no in between LOL
i see ratchet as a father figure who can be overbearing at times, but only because he has an instinctual feeling to protect you at all cost. with you, ratchet tends to be a nurturer
taking you under his wing means that, of course, you stick around like glue to help him with any procedures that might be underway and overall help facilitate things for him <3
with that comes very crucial lessons about cybertronian anatomy (even if you don’t ask for it) and dealing with medical instruments. ratchet is very adamant about you knowing what you’re doing especially if you’re going to be assisting him— or maybe take this seriously in the future
“y/n! you’re not holding the laser scalpel correctly!” he groans in his servos. your body does a complete 180 full of exasperation.
“then how do you want me to hold it?!”
“were you even paying attention…?” he scoffs.
sometimes, you and ratchet could be bickering and poor first aid has to stand awkwardly in the same room and pretend he can't hear anything
ratchet always makes sure that you’re at 100%. you can expect to hear him ask if you’ve eaten, drunk any water, etc
ratchet knows a lot in the health realm for humans, and as soon as the words “i don’t feel good” or something that indicates you’re not at 100%— oh he’s going FULL dad mode. so be ready for scolding and ratchet being worried to death
in the beginning when activities were being done at swerves bar, you were usually the one who got him to come out of his comfort zone and “not be boring” you tell him, and at least get him to take part in something.
ratchet is definitely always there for you when you need emotional support. whether that's reassurance or you just need a pillar of support to lean on.
ratchet is for sure one of those individuals who is gonna lay it down how it is and won't sugar coat it. soooo if you’re looking for him to take your side in a certain situation and he shouldn’t? he WILL make it known (he lowkey be living for your gossip sessions)
oh and you for sure have to deal with drifts antics at trying to get at ratchet
“hey y/n! Is ratchet here?”
“yeah why?”
“to talk to him...?” squinting, you lean on the frame of the entrance with a knowing grin— practically stretching from ear to ear.
“oh yeah? about what— ”
“for primus' sake. let him in y/n!” with a roll of your eyes, you step aside.
“first aid. let's jump him.” (he never helped you btw💔)
the time that ratchet came back from delphi and you noticed his servos didn’t freeze up and rather, moved more fluidly than before
“hey ratchet. what did you do to your hands?” you asked. closely peering at his servos. “they seem less tense,” he stills at your question.
“you don’t need to know.”
#lost light#transformers mtmte#idw ratchet#x reader#fluff#ratchet#idw transformers#transformers x reader
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TF2 MERCS DRIVING
scout: scout is actually one of the better drivers. undistracted, and he will lecture anyone who attempts to take his eyes off the road. knows stick shift because soldier taught him how to drive stick shift because “men know stick shift”. however, he doesn’t have his license, so he is legally not allowed to drive for Mann Co. for whatever reason, THAT rule is the one they follow.
soldier: he’s…. definitely capable of driving. nobody would willingly ask him to drive anything that handles better than a campbells soup can, the dogshit cars always act so well maintained with him. he eats at mario kart tho. he’s allowed one (1) shitty car that doesn’t even turn over unless he’s the one with the key in hand. if you ask him about how he happens to start the car he says “just jiggle it!”
pyro: will eat up a vespa. wants so badly to drive a fire truck. can’t for obvious reasons. also eats at mario kart.
engineer: a GREAT driver until you get him on the back roads. then it’s “darlin’, i’ve been driving on texas roads longer than you could see above the wheel, i got this” while your drink is splashing onto your shirt and you’re holding onto the the car handles for dear life and it seems like he’s actively going out of his way to hit every single pot hole and whooping like he’s a kid jesus fucking christ—
heavy: also a great driver! does his best driving on snowy roads, and will not drive a car not within legal parameters. he refuses to allow sascha to be taken because of something as silly as the insurance. easily distracted on the roads though, does better with a passenger princess taking care of directions. brakes for critters, brakes harder for road rage. he does love a good fight.
demo: a bad driver with a lead foot. treats the actual roads like mario kart. he’s also not allowed in the drivers seat of the company cars. that’s why he’s the main user of the teleporters. he uses his turn signals though, and frankly he thinks that’s all that should matter. once tailgated heavy so hard that heavy pulled over and as demo got out, fully ready to fight, and made eye contact with heavy he jumped back in his car and sped off. that was a sobering experience. heavy still laughs about it though.
medic: please do not ask this man to drive. he will be making calls, eating, drinking, changing the radio station, yelling at everyone in the backseat who’s “distracting him”, swerving in and out of lanes, using his knees to keep the wheel straight so he can clap to whatever music he decides on, and if you try to call him out on it, this fucker… this fucker scoffs. “don’t be a baby! i’ve been driving longer than i haven’t been driving, i am a wonderful driver!” with road rage to boot. he is not in his lane half the time. the last time he was allowed to drive for the company he also got into it with heavy. he’s the only one who didn’t get back in his car, but he did apologize. he will fight anyone who asks to fight on the roads, he will race anyone who asks to race. it’s lawless country. sighs about the autobahn often.
sniper: a good enough, responsible enough driver, because he’s the only one (aside from soldier…. technically….) with his own van to maintain. he will never let anyone else in the car if he’s in the car; he has no interest in letting people find out if he’s a good driver or not because his van is his sanctuary and that means everyone else get out. spends most of his time in his van anyway. doesn’t like sedans. does have a habit of tailgating people, and if you are allowed the rare opportunity to be in the vehicle with him and say something about it he’ll go “oh! am i? i’ll stop, thanks for letting me know mate” and then you will never be allowed in the car again. only thing he hates more than passengers are backseat drivers. he will tailgate whoever he wants to. fuck off. has also tailgated heavy so hard heavy pulled over to fight him, and he also got immediately back in his car and waved him off with an appeasing smile. heavy laughs about that too.
spy: you ever wanted to feel like you’re the worst driver in the world? get in a car with spy. feels like james bond. drives with no music, and one of the few times he won’t smoke. feels like an uber frfr. please do not speak to him when he’s driving, he would like to forget about the life he’s actively living and you are a part of that. makes a KILLER getaway car driver. prompt, punctual, professional. won’t drive anything without window tints.
#team fortress 2#team fortress two#tf2 scout#tf2 spy#tf2 sniper#tf2 engineer#tf2 medic#tf2 soldier#tf2 heavy#tf2 pyro#tf2 demoman#tf2 demo
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continuing to Nosferatupost because Robert Eggers you madman I love your work and gender commentary <3
I think first and foremost, this film is about the horrors of being a woman who isn't believed by men -- this includes issues like medical misogyny alongside things like how patriarchy can be intertwined with classism (Friedrich Harding, the man of his house, clearly saw Ellen as a burden. That said, Ellen & Anna had such a sweet relationship built on nothing but love and support.) The Witch explored this with a teenage girl, but what happens when that teenage girl grows up and is still seen as strange and misunderstood?
Alongside that, I really think Nic Hoult deserves his flowers as Thomas because it's a thankless role that I think was received really well! Jonathan Harker is a dedicated Wife Guy and that's like 90% of his personality. (The other 10% is pure dedication to killing the fuck out of Dracula.) I've seen folks on here with bigger brains than mine talking about the masculine competition between Thomas and Orlok; where the latter emasculates the former both through feeding on him as he would for his female victims, and through manipulating Ellen, who calls her husband weak. (This is meant to be seen as out-of-character, because she loves him as much as he loves her.) But there's also an anxiety which is present even before Thomas arrives at Orlok's castle, and it's all about financial stability.
There's a scene in The Lighthouse where Willem Dafoe's character Wake asks Robert Pattinson's character Winslow why he took the job as a lighthouse keeper, given that Winslow had been working as a lumberjack up in Canada. It's a huge shift, not everyone can handle the isolation, Winslow clearly isn't knowledgeable about maritime lore and superstitions, etc. Winslow responds that he just wants to be able to make his own way -- and, later on, when Wake threatens to fire him without pay, Winslow insists that "he works as hard as any man."
We also know that in Nosferatu, Thomas feels the (masculine) pressure to Protect and Provide, especially because he and Ellen have rich friends and there's this sense of being behind. This is played straighter than in The Lighthouse, because Winslow is also on the run after having committed a murder, but in both cases, both men are drawn into increasingly horrifying situations because it's Part Of The Job. And, as Part Of The Job, both Thomas Hutter and Ephraim Winslow (or Thomas Howard -- T.H. initials again!) find themselves forced to do things against their will. Orlok insists that Thomas stick around, he insists that Thomas refer to him as "my lord," he makes Thomas sign paperwork in a language Thomas doesn't even know! In The Lighthouse, Winslow feels emasculated by being forced to do housework, but even more concerning is that Wake essentially forces Winslow to drink alcohol on their (supposed) last night working together, despite Winslow doing his best to stay sober until then. In both cases, the boss demands it, and the younger employee must obey. This should be obvious, but bosses are perhaps vampiric.
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I messed up. I thought I knew how diabetes work, and I evidently do not, and I don't know how to save the whump in this fic so you are my last hope.
I wanted the blorbo to have undiagnosed diabetes and pass out/become super tired/weak and barely conscious, and then have his friend inject him with insulin the he found. But now I discovered that insulin doesn't really work like that... It doesn't make you feel BETTER it's just supposed to not make a diabetic feel WORSE, if I understand this correctly?
Is there still a chance to have my blorbo turn weak/pass out (either from diabetes or another illness) and for his friend to inject him with a drug that is not too hard to find that'll make him feel better...?
Let's talk diabetes for a minute.
There are 2 types of diabetes.
Type 1 Diabetes (T1D) occurs (usually in younger people) when the body stops producing a hormone called insulin. Insulin's job, essentially, is granting cells permission to use glucose (a sugar the cells use for food) from the blood. If there's no insulin, the cells starve because they can't use glucose. The glucose also never gets taken out of the blood like it's supposed to, so the person's blood glucose levels increase.
Type 2 Diabetes (T2D) occurs (usually in middle-age) when the body's cells become less sensitive to insulin. That means it takes more insulin to allow cells to use glucose. The pancreas (the organ that makes insulin) at first produces more insulin to make up for the lack of sensitivity. But over time it wears out and can no longer keep up.
You can have both short-term and long-term problems with diabetes.
Before diabetes is treated (or if it is not treated well), short term problems either occur because the cells are starving (diabetic ketoacidosis in T1D) or because the blood sugar is so high the blood itself has become thick (hyperosmolar syndrome in T2D). After diabetes is treated (with insulin (T1D) or certain oral medications (T2D)), you can also have a problem called hypoglycemia, where there is too much insulin and the blood sugar gets too low. All three of these problems are life threatening if not treated quickly.
Now, to treat ketoacidosis or hyperosmolar syndrome, you need a hospital. There are so many other problems that need addressed with either of these that simply injecting them with a single dose of insulin wouldn't work.
To treat hypoglycemia however, you can just give a person sugar (and some fat and protein to help sustain it after) or if they're unconscious, you can inject them with a hormone called glucagon. Glucagon can quickly raise blood sugar.
Now, where you might be getting confused is that there are also long-term consequences to having diabetes. These include poor eyesight, numbness and tinging in the hands and feet, kidney disease, and non-healing wounds. Taking care of diabetes well by sticking to a lower-carbohydrate diet and taking certain medications or insulin helps prevent or delay the long term consequences.
So like, will a single dose of insulin fix a patient having one of the common pre-diagnosis emergencies? No. But having the character take it as prescribed will drastically reduce the potential consequences later in life.
If your patient already knows they have diabetes and they're taking a medication that can lower their blood sugar to unsafe levels and they didn't eat enough that day? You could totally do something with injecting glucagon to reverse hypoglycemia there.
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He gives the kid another sympathetic look as he sinks slightly into his shell.
"Almost bud, almost done. I won't make you sit through the whole medical check up right now, but we do need to cover those gashes so they don't get dirty or bleed everywhere."
He pats his knee gently.
"I'll be super quick and gentle, alright? Just going to put these bandages on you to keep those cuts from getting infected."
He holds up one of the bandages to his own face in show.
"If you want, we can even draw red on them like your markings afterward."
He pulls the back off of the bandage, holding it ready to quickly stick to his head.
* As you enter the room, you can see a turtle in the corner of a cage along with a file detailing the procedures done on the turtle at the bottom, which it said revived from death. There are pictures taken before the turtle was revived, and before the turtle was with the scientist*
He pushes the door open carefully. Noticing the turtle in the cage, he enters the room fully. This is it. He glances around, noticing the file. Curious, he walks over and picks it up. Flipping through it is a rollercoaster of thoughts and feelings. The edges of the file's contents crinkle in his grip.
'How could he do this to a kid?'
He squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, huffing angrily. He sighs, snapping the file shut before opening his eyes again. He stuffs it carefully into his bag.
The file mentioned revival. But Bishop said body. Looks like he's going to have to check if the poor kid is alive or not for himself.
He hums softly, locating the key and opening the cage. Crouching down next to the kid, he reaches down to check his pulse.
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You can easily spot the nurses who used to be mean girls because they stand out immediately-
Like you’re not slick
Changing “tolerance” with “patience” doesn’t make you “nice”
“Soma you have so much PATIENCE with the special kids I would never 😚”
Tf.
#and then second semester they leave into finance or real estate#AND THEN WHEN YOU ASK#- yeaahhhh it just wasn’t my cup of tea 🙄🥺- BITCH#IF YOU WANTED TO DO MEDICAL THEN STICK WITH IT#OML#i’m a hypocrite#but ATLEAST I ENJOY WHAT I DO#except for the homework#and the constant walking#and lack of sleep#and don’t get me started on how they’re just so mean#THE KID ASKED FOR SOCKS#AND YOU LITERALLY SAID -nooo idk it’s only one per-person-#THE DAMN KID IS COLD#HOLY CARP.#I can’t#i cantttttt#soma yap
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It irritates me alot when people say that making medic more compassionate is ''missing the point of his character'' when he is literally shown to be in the comics.... did you miss the part where he showed concern for both sniper and miss pauling's well being in comic 5 and 6.
His actions are a combination of genuine attachment + clinical interest and these things do not cancel out one another. He is always pushing boundaries and going against the grain and i think this is what led to him losing his license in the first place. He felt stifled by the rules imposed on him.
He is shown to be extremely passionate so it makes sense that he would use his endless fascination with medicine as a way to show his affection. He loves his friends so he will find a way to make them borderline indestructible. Malpractice is his love language.
#it makes me really angry how adamant some people are against exploring his sweeter side beyond just ''heehoo evil doctor''#idk how to tell you that giving a character a wider range of complexities and oftentimes contradicting traits#does not equal 'woobification'. him being friendly social and cheerful and fascinated with the world around him (which he canonically is)#is not the same thing as writing him as a helpless softboy. those two things do not correlate#he was visibly worried when sniper wanted to get back in the fight!#it's so abundantly clear that medic just misses social cues and doesn't always react accordingly#plus his quote unquote evilness is a joke it's not. something that is meant to be taken seriously#he's more comparable to a saturday morning cartoon villain except he is a protagonist#the way he approaches medicine to me is very similiar to#a child playing potions if that makes sense. he is throwing shit together to see what sticks#and having fun with it#i might rewrite this later to be more coherent because i have alot of thoughts on him that are jumbled together#and there is so much to say abt him#also i find it so funny how inconsistent he is. he tells them they all hallucinated before brain death#yet he personally went to hell multiple times. why did he do that#tf2#medic#tf2 medic#medic tf2#team fortress 2
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Maybe I’ll finally Wanze post soon
#as in a more official lore post like holt awol and sonderbar got#ALSO IM SO SO SORRY I STILL AM GONNA ANSWER THOSE INBOX ASKS J SWEAR#Wanze is on the mind there is bugs in my brain!!! wow just like holt huh#their relationship is wild to me they go from barely knowing each other (occasional hallway acquaintances)#to Wanze essentially having the equivalent of a bag of bricks dropped onto her head#which needs a little or a lot of patching up and Holt does that for her#actually hmmm I wonder if I should more visibly leave some marks of The Oopsie on her face#apart from the permanently broken biores crystals#gotta think on that…#anyway I was especially Thinkin about how Wanze really does resent Holt for a while#it’s complicated it’s not completely Holt’s fault#like she can’t control what happened she can’t bring back her bioresonance she’s a medical eule not a miracle worker#she’ll never really understand what it felt like to be part of that mind link#and that leads to some insensitivity on Holt’s part bc she’s really trying to keep Wanze from decommission here#and Wanze! why are you moping you gotta act normal!! Come on Wanze!#neither of them really get each other bc they’re both not stopping and listening like they need to#but they eventually do#also fun Wanze fact but post head trauma fixup she still has to/wants to go to the kolibri library#for stabilization yknow (she’s a nerdddd <3)#however it’s weird and she hates it bc her fellow kolibris are there.#she does not sing the same song anymore and sticks out like a sore thumb when they’re together now :(#she goes at really weird hours when no one else is there to make sure she doesn’t have to see them#Holt sometimes is able to get ahold of books for her#consider them cuddling together reading#that is all#blorbo tag#wanze#holt#Kolibug
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aventurine pl. Plea s e . PLLEEEEEEASE
#★ arin rambles#‘here we go again’ you think everytime you see my ramble tag. I dont blame you#AVENTURINE AVENTURINE PLEASE SAVE ME WHITE BOY#OH MY LORD#OH MY GOODNESS GRACIOUS OH MY GOODNESS.#MY JSOE IS RUNNING HES RUINNING MY LIFE I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE IM SO ILL PLEASE I#AVENTURINE. im so serious i can talk about this man all day. and more specifically this video#‘it was just posted 30 minutes ago arin youre scaring the kids’ SILENCE. I NEED SPACE#I NEED A. A MOMENT. EVERYBODY PLEAS GETA WAY FROM ME IM GOING TO GET SO SCARY#Please. Im so sorry. Im begging you . I love this man oh my gish please hes so cute#HES SO CUTE. HES SO CUTE IM SO SICK OF HIM WHY???????? WHY IS HE SO PRETTY HES SO PRETTY HES GOREGOUS HES SO STUNNING. HELLO. HELLO.#Im going to. Slam my head against the wall im overwhelmed with joy and happiness hes everything ive ever wanted ever#any minute not spent talking about him is a moment wasted i promise you MY PRINCESS IM COMING TO SAVE YOU#IM HIS KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOUR EXCEPT ITS NOT SHINY#IM COVERED IN DIRT#IM STILL COMING FOR YOU AVENTURINE RUN#oh goodness me oh my#im so happy hes so prettu im so happy i cant do rhis im sweating geniumnly i feel so sick#Im cant . Do this anymore. I CANT TAKE IT. I HAVE TO… AAUGH… AAAHH… I HAVE TO…. DANCE!#guys…. he my favorriet…#my slinky….. my krimpet… my teacup i think. My doc mc stuffins doctor playset. My dishwasher. My italian coldsteel cinquedea . atp anything#hes my EVERYTHING. MY EVERYTHING…!!!!!!!! *MY TELEKENISIS THROWS EVERYTTHING ACROSS THE ROOM*#yall i dont think ive had a hyperfixation this horribly bad since. Since the. Since. MAN I DONT KNOW#IM COOKED. HE WOMT LEAVE ME ALONE. I LITERALLY DREAMT OF HIM LAST NIGHT LIKE IM SO DOOMED? ACTUALLY?#oh to be medicated and focus on . Things like cooking. Or idk. Getting a job. No i just think about some messed up blonde all day im absolut#ly DOOMED#yes im still yapping i got 30 tags u gon stick through them all. Every single one of them. Dont leave me please i want to talk about him ton#TO SOMEONE. I WANT TO TALK ABOUT HIM TO SOMEONE ALL DAY. ALL MY FRIENDS ARE TESTING. IM LEFT ALONE ALL DAY I JUST WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY WIFE#i womder how crazy i look right now#Sighs lovingly at him..
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i feel a heavy pressure like someone is sitting on my chest making it so i can’t breathe whenever i think about how every single structure in society and social conditioning makes it so that women have no choice but to inevitably end up with a male and it is pushed so hard as the only possible viable option and it feels choking and inescapable (personal rambling vent in tags)
#even if we supposedly have more options now than ever before it still isn’t enough#it’s still a fight and a struggle to avoid#and i look around and almost every woman i know is shacked up with some dude in one form or another just to survive#even if she doesn’t like it or even actively hates it#like my mom#but she brainwashes herself to try to convince herself that she’s ok with it#it’s all so bleak#i know there is hope#and i’m currently biding my time until i can get out on my own and try to practice more female separatism type living styles etc#but it’s difficult and lonely especially when it feels like you’re the only woman you know trying to go for something like that#hell even my childhood best friend who i love dearly and she is very into women and does things with them regularly#even she is shacked up with some dude and it’s just like god that sucks but i don’t want to be a hater#and maybe i’m a hypocrite because i was with some guy for so long but i realized that it SUCKS and i didn’t have to be forced to stay there#and i left#but even that was tough! when it’s been drilled into my head my whole life that that is the only way i can be or do anything or exist!#i want to get out on my own do my own thing do this medical job get this degree go to med school do do my own thing#keep my name never give birth never get married unless it’s to a woman#i promised myself i would never get in a relationship with a man ever again and i am sticking to it 100% even if i have to fight these dudes#i work with to fuck off#it’s all just so tiring#but i’m getting there#i don’t care how nice or perfect supposedly some guy is because at the end of the day he’s still a guy#and i refuse to deal with that shit anymore or ever again#i should have never dealt with it in the first place but at least i know better now and i’ve learned and i know i’ll never go back#i want to read my books more often#and do more creative things#i’ve just felt very depressed and unmotivated because i feel like my life isn’t where it should be right now#but i went to the therapist today and she said i’m actually making a lot of progress and i shouldn’t compare myself to other people#which it’s very difficult not to but yeah#idk i’m still trying to get my shit together but so is everybody else
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Sakura gets a second point for being the first to complete the tree climbing at being better at chakra control, but at the same time it just feels like she was made good at it so no extra training segment time would have to be put into her getting good at it and it can be all about Sauce and Nart. Idk that feels too pessimistic but also could totally be true.
#she takes on a very 'obsever' role. like kashi is the teacher watching over them. but sock is the watching and commenting from the same#perspective of nart and sauce and also the viewer unlike kashi. cuz he provides a lot of exposition and whatnot in his inner monolgues#and its like. of course the girl is just the observer who watches alongside us as the two main boys grow and develop#AND I DONT WANNA FUCKIN BE PESSIMISTIC ABOUT THIS BUT GOD ITS IMPOSSIBLE!!!!#but her whole character so far is 'i hate the class clown. im book smart. i diet and im in love'#and the way i see it is. 12yo girl TRYING to fit into the femininity she sees in the world around her so she forces herself to be like this#but she has inner sock who speaks what she really feels showing that she puts on quite a front and isnt really much like that at all#and you expect her to grow into wanting her to truly define herself. and she does with getting stronger and training under tsunade and#learning medical ninjutsu so she really finds a spot for herself. she does!!! but then she KEEPS hanging onto the love nonsense#and admittedly there are moments that push a very obvious trope of thinking she likes sauce cuz hes cool but finding out that the real 'gem'#is nart so i definitely understand where n@rus@kus are coming from#but then she just STICKS with sauce until its the worst ship possible and its an utter mess of 'ill never give up on him'#EVEB DESPITE HIM TRYING TO KILL HER!!! THEN THAT FUCKING WORKS OUT!?!?!?#AND TOO THIS DAY SAUCE STILL NEVER COMES OFF LIKE HE ACTUALLY LOVES HER#IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE. SARD WE ARE GETTING YOU BETTER PARENTS. ON GOD!!!!!#so she just hangs on to this one little thing that she SHOULD have gotten development for to move on from BUT IT NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS#so its like half her development never fucking happens and thats why it#s such a fuckinf mess!!!!!#i fucking hate this show. i need to go back to watching mike's dino game vod. what am i doing here?????#i did this to myself btw. i didnt need to start yelling about that but thats just how it is with nart#start thinking about something good and then it reminds you of something related thats bad and now its like. yeah this shit sucks#remember when kishi said he regretted not making hina the heroine???? we could have lived in a better timeline.#but if i say that i will get assassinated#anyway.#sock count#personal
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#i've had many people ask me in the DMs what could be done to help me out given the orange menace is coming back into power#the best things for me right now (I can't speak to others) is this: 1. Keep supporting my creative endeavors#no matter how little I might post or interact. Please hype me up. I need community. I need spirit to survive.#2. Help me find resources that will help myself and others. Food banks. Community meets. Passports. Finances. Mental health etc.#these are important and I don't want others feeling like sitting ducks. Even though I'm scared I want to be a solution to the problem.#I am going to be a helper in this mess cause that's who I am and I need ammo in this capacity#3. Donate so I can up my ration storage. I've been collecting food water and nonperishables and I'm trying to stock up on medication#and other basic necessities. I'm collecting as if I'm preparing to be homeless again and if I am over capacity I'm giving rations to others#I've had to make peace with the fact I can't run away. I can't move to another country as I'm broke and poor like the rest of my loved ones#4. If you have friends who are disabled or a minority or lgbtq etc. do what you can to protect them and show them that you love them#and build community#5. Share my work and that of others. Who knows if we're gonna have sites like AO3 in the future or even access to tumblr.#this is all I can think of at the moment and again I can't speak for others this is what comes to mind for myself#And I admit I'm coming from a place of the worst case scenarios#because in my mind if I imagine I'm dead or homeless etc. and work my way backward to the next worst thing before that it unravels my fear#and it gives me back my power in the situation by sitting with those fears and giving them time to speak#because in my mind if I'm already dead if I'm already homeless or at war etc. etc. then its already happened and what else is there to fear#if I've been through everything already in mind?#I'm hoping that the worst case scenarios don't transpire but I can't ignore the fact many of them could and probably will happen#in some capacity but I can control the actions I take through prep and facing these fears one by one#and most importantly sticking to routine by making sure im healthy to help people#anyway this is why ive been quiet for a while besides for spending time with friends and loved ones recently to get over what happened#im going to keep going to my classes keep helping people through my jobs try to be creative when I have spoons and little by little#make sure I have enough of what I need to get through the storm and outlive the bastards in power#I'm not sure what sort of pink variant to assign this to but its along the magenta spectrum#love you guys#we'll get through this
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Rät by Penelope Scott has been a Nezu song in my head for years. Glad to finally be able to put down some of the vibe of why.
#Emile's edits#Nezu#Nedzu#mha nezu#bnha nezu#TW Medical#TW Needles#Ask to tag#Ma and Pop Posts#Anyway#This is one of those moodboards I'd always request other makers do but no one ever got the Vibe I was getting from this song#So fuck it we ball make the content you want to see in the world#Not a self ship moodboard but still goes here because Nezu my beloved <3#Also this kind of vibe is canon to my self ship with him so#God bless Tumblr user torturechen for this transparent btw completely saved this board#The only image of Nezu where he's not (•▽•)#Which is very important#That :D is a facade he is a MESS in there#Does anyone remember the Yamada OC I made like YEARS ago now that was Nezu's father/creator?#That's where this comes from#And I'm just sticking to it now#'the worst part is I loved you I loved you I loved you it's true#and sometimes I feel like I still fucking do#I lived here I loved here I thought it was true#I feel so stupid#And so used'#THE NEZU LINE EVER#TO ME#I couldn't include it specifically but Nezu originally belonged to the Hero Commission like Hawks#And so does my S/I
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It really sucks that military, tactical, and similar stuff is so cool and frequently very useful because not only do their fandoms suck but they're also inherently tied to systems of oppression.
#i am not the only one to have this opinion i know#gosh it is so unfortunate#i got a molle backpack to replace my previous one and got into picking all the little modular pouches and things to stick on it#it's so nice#and it's pretty cleanly utilitarian#but I'm just like...yeah it's cop backpack#and all the tactical stuff out there is like ...ONG CARRY MORE AR MAGS#ok that's nice but you already have 8 ways to do that where are the tactical pouches you use for carrying water or food or medical supplies#or non-gun survival gear or edc stuff or admin shit like notebooks and pens and papers and maps#and it's always like...one pouch for this purpose buried 15 layers deep under more pistol and rifle mag pouches#BRO EVEN IN THE MILITARY YOU DO NOT NEED THIS MANY MAG POUCH VARIANTS#MAKE A FEW GOOD ONES OF A COUPLE SIZES AND JUST BE DONE#your average first responder or military operator do not need their weapon as often as they need 100 other things#watching cops and emts walk around with pockets full of whatever and then have a clipboard or laptop kicking around their vehicle like????#MAKE SOME GODDAMN HARDENED PHABLETS#tacticool#this is me being mad about how their notebook+pen pouches are bad#also i want little pouches for meds or other actual daily carry shit that i know EMTs and firefighters also carry#511 tactical has a ton of pouches for weaponry and not one glove strap#yknow#work and tactical gloves those things most every operator of every type kinda needs#like...impact resistant hand protection is huge
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submitted my first app 😖
#😭 didn’t plan to start this early but they said to do it by tonight and now i am worried abt when other companies want their apps in. i#should have asked them#i don’t think they all want them in now tho bc one of them told me she doesn’t start responding until january which. probably means i can#wait a bit right?? i don’t know 😭#personal#the engineering chronicles#feeling pretty okay abt how today went actually one employer told me i have a very high gpa and that she thought she read it wrong and#another i was talking to abt how even though they’re not a primarily medical company they do do medical stuff and i named and spoke abt the#things they’ve worked on and he seemed impressed by that knowledge. so#really worried tho bc. there are hardly any medical places my school has approved to apply to for this and companies that dont do medical#stuff don’t want biomedical engineering interns even if everything but my electives is the same as an ee’s coursework. bc we’re not going t#stick around for them to hire post grad. like ppl from these companies are straight up telling me not to bother applying or that they don’t#accept apps from ppl in my major etc. which fucking sucks especially since in ADDITION to that the vast vast majority of the companies#that Do have medical stuff going on are mechanical or manufacturing based not electrical. like. what do you expect me to do here#there is one company (the one the guy seemed impressed w me abt) that does electrical and coding stuff and i am really really interested in#them. but as i said the medical stuff is not their main focus and they’re more an all around place. and they also won employer or the year#or whatever a couple years ago. which means Everyone is going to be applying to this company. ugh
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