#I. Cannot stress enough how tired I am

[makingshortstorieslong]

be careful not to get addicted to they/them'ing yourself in your inner monologue, you'll begin to resent being she/her'd when people speak to you in the third person

[lunapwrites]

An example of house-cleaning with ADHD.

My partner has been on my ass for at least the last 3 years to clear out the upstairs nook. As for why he is not assisting with this endeavor instead: it's 100% my stuff and 100% my space. I don't touch the basement. He doesn't touch the nook. Them's the rules.

But, well, you know, executive dysfunction and all that.

So fast forward to this year, with all the stuff happening and particularly Bean. And there's been a lot of "yes, I know I need to get it cleaned out" because we need the space and we also need to replace the windows and we can't get to them but me being me I have dragged my feet on it, because I didn't need to do it today.

Recently, though, I've been getting a little anxious about time - kinda hard to be as blind to it when you've got very visible proof that time is not only passing, but running out. So last week I finally dug through all my art supplies and figured out what I was and wasn't going to use, and gave away all the stuff I knew wasn't in my wheelhouse.

And just like that, there was an item checked off my list - one less barrier to entry.

Today, I woke up with a drive to clean, and if there's one thing you need to know about executive functioning disorders, it's that when the siren song of productivity finally calls us, we MUST drop everything immediately and dance to that demented little tune. So here I am, 12 hours later, exhausted and still only 80% done.

But god damn what an 80% that was. Bookshelves rearranged. Art supplies organized. Tables removed. Tea collection tamed.

Anyway, I still need to put all the books away that are going in storage but the important thing - the most important thing - is that the windows in both the computer room and the nook are now accessible, and able to be replaced so that the top floor of the house can be habitable in the summer months lol. Kind of important, considering Bean's room is up here. And also a lot of the stuff that was taking up space in Bean's room is being moved out, which means we can start properly setting it up. Nice little cascade effect.

I'm definitely gonna sleep like a rock tonight though, lol.

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i feel like i’m wasting my time on schoolwork that i ultimately don’t care about when i could be taking pictures of bugs and drawing yaoi and discussing what kind of lingerie light yagami would like based on his sense of fashion and personality

[basuralindo]

*invents spam filter that sets people's phones on fire the second they send me an unsolicited nutrition article*

[magicaldreamfox1]

good day everyone i'm back from pride and i'm dead tired

[eviltigerboy]

idk how many body positive/neutral thoughts i have left in me before i jump into the eating disordered thoughts i've suffered with since i was a young child head first.

[thornsent]

my favorite part of beinmg alive is the part where I am begging and screaming for help and telling people explicitly that this is not okay and that I am miserable in an extremely fixable way & then they're like oh damn that's really hard for you. but its okay, I'm not going to do anything to fix it though<3

anyway today's Event is seeing a cockroach scurry around my desk which is extra funny bc I don't. have anything on here that should attract them remotely. & like great lol is all of my shit going to get infested and I'll have to throw it out again?

I literally shouldn't have to live like this & this place shouldn't have passed inspection (it failed the first time!!!! I wonder why!!!!!!!!!!!) but I feel like such a massive fucking bitch when I complain so I try not to bc I'm afraid of gaining a bad reputation with my landlord and having him take it out on me because lol it sure has happened before

what am I supposed to fucking do!!!! if I could afford to pack up and move I would.

[funky-lil-ghost]

u ever open up twitter to check something and end up seeing the stream of constant discourse and going. hey. hey man. i just put big googly eyes above a window so it looks like a silly face. you can pick up a rock and roll it between your hands for free. peace and love on planet earth dont forget

[mochapanda]

i think if i dont get a new job soon i am going to kill myself

[sundaeserenade]

the pain of managing a discord server. "open it up again" i think i'd rather swallow a bucket of lava, tbh

[olde-scratch]

really is nothing quite like learning the possums in your area are brave enough to try to turn and hiss at your dog instead of playing dead at the sight of them

[pi4stri]

ed accounts need to be banned from using censored tags like i dont actually care if you keep getting banned and shit, you cannot keep using increasingly bs tags like #4n0rexic or #ed but not sheeran like you've gotta tag that with the proper tags because there are people who don't want to see that. i continually block tags that i see, but there's always some new shit that comes up. like if you want your community, thats fine, cool, i hope you one day get the help you clearly need, but for the love of god can you please just tag normally so that you don't trigger people

[mithomite]

curtains

[slutdge]

then this link should be very helpful to you

i love sex and kinks and being gay and i hate christianity <3

[imwritesometimes]

this next cup of herbal tea will finally make me warm for realsies this time ☕️

[thebibliosphere]

am I misreading (sorry very tired) or did the chiropractor cause the injury? oh no I have my first chiropractor appointment in a week for my chronic neck pain/hypermobile neck D: is this a sign to cancel it?

Hypermobile neck.

D: Nonononononononono!!! No don’t let them touch you!

Back in 2018 before we knew I had Ehlers Danlos, a chiropractor gently (I cannot stress this enough. He was so, so gentle with me and I still suffered a major, life threatening injury) adjusted my neck, tore all the surrounding soft tissue and I had to get an emergency MRI because I was at risk of a brain bleed.

Fortunately none of the arteries in my neck were impacted but the surrounding soft tissue and nerves were so badly damaged I’m still in rehab. It’s never going to fully heal, but I’m very lucky to be alive.

Honestly, no one should let chiropractors near their neck but especially not people with hypermobility. I cannot stress this enough, do not do it. Please.

I know it might be hard to get (I know my insurance only covered chiropractic care at the time and that’s how I ended up worse off🫠) but you’d be much better off pursuing long term relief through physical therapy intended to help stabilize and strengthen the area. Chiropractic care will not do this. It actively destabilizes the neck and doesn’t offer long term stability.

Please take care and be careful with your neck. It’s been 6 years and I still sometimes can’t hold my head up without getting shooting pain and vertigo.